BabysittingLove
ASingleDadsRomance#1
J.L.Beck
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ChapterOne
Whitney
FULL-TIMENANNYNEEDED
Mustbegoodwithkids,havereliabletransportation,andbeabletoworkallhoursofthedayand
night.Cannothaveanytypeofcriminalrecord.Payisbaseduponexperience.Pleaserespondbyemailto
setupaninterview.Myeyesskimmedoverthejobpostingagain,makingsureIhadthecorrectemail
addressjotteddown.IwasfreshoutofcollegewithaBachelor’sdegreeinChildhooddevelopmentand
hadeveryintentionofsettlingdownandstartingafamily,butbeforeIcoulddoanyofthatIhadtofinda
job.
Isighedintomycoffeecup,gettingupfrommydeskandmakingmywayoutintothekitchenfor
anotherglassofpickmeup.Ihadjuststartedpouringthecoffeewhensomethingcaughtmyeye.
LiftingmyattentiontothelargebaywindowthatlookedoutontothestreetInoticedthedevilishly
handsomeLiamFossjoggingwhilepushinghisbabystroller.MyheartpoundedinmychestandIlicked
mylipsasifoutofreflex.
AslongasIhadbeentheman’sneighborIhadyettoseehimactuallymoveawomaninwhichifI
wasbeinghonestmadehimmoreappealingbecauseamanlikethatwasadamngoodDadtohisdaughter.
Okay,backtowork.Itriedtoremindmyselfbutstillstoodtherestaringatthemanlikeafool,my
eyesgluedtohisshirtlessform.Howthehelldidamanthathadtobeovertenyearsolderthanme
managetolooklikehewalkedoffthecoverofGQMagazine?
God,pleaseletmefindamanlikeLiamtohavekidswith.Iforcedmyselftowalkawayfromhis
pictureperfectbodyandbackintomyofficetolookforanyotherjobsIcouldapplyfor.
AfterspendingnearlyallafternoonscouringtheinterwebsuntilmyeyesstartedtodryoutI
decideditwastimetojustapplyforthejobpostingIseenearlierintheday.Whoknewmaybetheycould
setupaninterviewtoday?
Itypedtheemailaddressoutandstartedontheactualjobpostingfirststatingmynameandmy
credentials.Ihadn’teverbeenaliveinNannybeforebutIlovedkids,andIhadaverygood
understandingofthem.
IaddedsomepersonalinformationinregardstohobbiesIhadandthingsIenjoyeddoing.ThenI
typedoutaverynicehopetohearfromyousoonattheendandhitsend.SecondsseemedtopassandI
wonderedifIhadforgottenanythingintheemail.
Don’tsecond,guessyourself.Ispokeoutloudtomyself.Confidencewasnevermystrongpoint,
andIstruggledwithitsinceIcouldremember.Iwasn’tskinny,orsupermodelgorgeous.
Ihadcurves,andthighs,andIreallyenjoyedeatingaCulver’sButterburgerwheneverIgotthe
chance.Myhairwasadullbrownwitharedtinttoit,andmyeyeswereasimplegreenthatremindedme
ofmyfathers.TheyseemedtobetheonlythingIgotfromhim.ThenagainIwouldn’tknowbecausehe
passedawayalltoosoon.
Ding.Mycomputerchimedtolife,signalinganincomingemail.Iblinked,dashingforthe
mousetoopenthedamnthing.Iclickedontheemailanditpoppedopentakingupthewholescreen.
HelloWhitney,
Yourcredentialsareexcellentanditseemstomethatyouhavealotofwonderfulthingsgoing
oninyourlifesobeforeIsetanythingupwithyouIwouldliketoknowsomeofyourfuturegoals.I
wouldalsoliketoknowifyouhavechildrenofyourown,andifyoudonotifyouplanto?Youdidn’t
explainifyou’remarriedeither,soifyouwouldliketodivulgeonthosethingsthatwouldbegreat.
Ilookforwardtohearingfromyou.
Mr.Foss
Isuckedinabreath,andthenanothermyhandsshakingasIstaredatthecomputerscreen.There
wasonlyonemanthatIknewofthatwentbythelastnameFossandhelivedrightacrossthestreet.
“Ohfuck…”IwasonthevergeofhyperventilatingthemanhimselfwaslikeaGreekGodinmy
eyes.HowthehellcouldIrespondtothisemailknowingexactlywhohewas?Ontopofitthequestions
heasked,theyweresopersonal,soexposingnotthathedidn’thavearighttoknowifthepersonthat
wouldbecaringforhisdaughterhadchildrenofherown.
Itappedmyfingersidlyagainstmywoodendesk.ThewayIsawitIcouldrespondbacktohis
emailansweringhisquestionsasthoroughlyaspossibleandsetupaninterviewwithhimorIcouldforget
theemailandgobacktosearchingforanotherjob,onethatwouldn’thavemelustingafterthepersonwho
cutmeapaycheckeveryweek.
Ibitmybottomlip,butIwantedtoworkforLiam.Hisdaughterwasadorable,andthetalkof
theentireblockwhichwasobviouslyenoughconvincingformebecauseIwasrespondingtotheemail
beforeIcouldeventhinkaboutit.
-Mr.Foss,
Thankyouforyourfastandkindreply.Iamcurrentlysingle,withnochildrenbuthavemy
futuremappedoutandhopetohavechildrenoneday.I’marealistsoIonlysetgoalsthatIfeelIcanmeet
inatimelymanner.Asofrightnow,I’mlookingforajob,thenhusband,andeventuallyIwouldlovekids,
sothereyouhaveitmyfuture.
Ilovechildrenandwouldbehonoredtoworkforyou.
Love,
Whitney
Ihitsendandbackedawayfromthecomputerslowly.Ishouldbepouringmyselfaglassof
wineorevencallingmymotherandtellingherhowmy-sexed-up-single-dadacrossthestreetis
consideringhiringmeforajobbutinstead,Igrabmypurseandslipmyfeetintoapairofsandals.Ineed
togetoutofherebeforeIdosomethingcrazylikewalkoverthereandtellhimthewomanhe’sreally
emailingismeandthatIwouldlovetodonothingmorethanwatchoverhisprideandjoyallday,while
myovariesexplodedontheside.
Islippedoutthefrontdoorandjoggedtomycar,feelingeyesonmethesecondthatIwas
outside.Ididn’tevenbothertoglanceatLiam’shousebecauseoneIdidn’twanttodrawattentionto
myself,andtwo.Iwastryingmyhardesttonotbenosey.Still,myeyesgotthebestofme,andrightbefore
IopenedmycardoorIshotaglanceovermyshoulder.
Myheartthuddedagainstmyribcagepainfully,andmylungsdeflated.Thereinhisfrontyard
withhissweetbabygirlonablanket,heplantedflowers,shirtless,withsmearsofblackEarthonhis
chest.Itdidn’tgethotterthanthat,ormaybeitdidandIjustdidn’tgetoutenough.
Stopstaring.Getinthecar.Drive.
AllthosethingsfilteredthroughmyheadbutIdidn’tmove.Iwasn’tevensureIblinked.Wasit
possibletobefrozenintimefromasimplelookatsomeone?Forcingmyselftomove,andstopstaringI
gotinmycarandslammedthedoorshutthespellhehadovermesnappinglikeanelasticband.Theway
hemademefeelwasinsane.Ididn’tneedaman,notatall,butifIcouldchooseone,itwouldbesingle
dadLiamFoss.
AndI’msureanyothersinglewomanintheworldwouldagreewithme.Iadjustedmymirror,
placedthekeyintheignition,startedthecarandpulledoutofthedriveway.Spacewouldhelpthisright?
Ithadtoobecauseifhedidhappentoemailmeback,lettingmeknowhewantedtodoan
interviewIwasn’tsurehowIwouldmakeitthroughitespeciallyaftermyreactiontoseeinghimdosome
simpleyardwork.
ChapterTwo
Liam
Iwasn’tdumbinfactIwasfarfromit.Someonelikemyselfdidn’tgettothetopofa
multibillion-dollarcompanybybeingstupid.IknewwhoWhitneywas,andexactlywhatshecoulddofor
littleEmeryandI.Yeah,IneededanannybutmorethananythingIwantedamommyformysweetlittle
girlandWhitney,whileshewasperfect.
“Areyoureadytomeetyournewmommy?”IcooedatEmery,whogavemeatoothygrinas
drooldrippeddownherchin.IhadwaitedforthisdaysinceIadoptedEmery,nowallIhadtodowas
convinceWhitneythatweweretheperfectmatchesforeachother.
Thedoorbellringingvibratedoffthewalls,gettingmine,andEmery’sattention.Ipluckedher
upoffthetoy,coveredfloor,andwejoggedtothefrontdoortowelcomeournewestguest.
GrabbingthedoorknobandtwistingittoopenIrealizedhownervousIwas.Nowomanhad
evergottenundermyskinlikemynext-doorneighborWhitneyandafterwatchingherforafewmonthsI
knewshewouldbetheperfectwomantocompletemyfamily.
Ilickedmylips,openingthedoor,andtakinginhercurvyform.Shewaswearingayellow
sundress,thatbrightenedupwhateverspacesheoccupied.Itaccentedhergreeneyesandbroughtoutthe
redhighlightsinherdarkbrownhair.
Perfect.
“Hi.ThisisEmery.”Iintroducedmylittlegirlfirstandforemostbecauseifthingsdidn’tclick
withherthenallofthiswasfornothing.EmerylookedatWhitneywithcuriouseyes,andassoonas
WhitneyreachedouttoholdherhandEmery’seyeslitup,andabiggrinappearedonherface.
“Hi,Emery.I’mWhitney.”ThewayWhitneyspoketohersosoft,andcaring,yeahIcouldn’tlie
andsaythedesiretokissherwasn’tthere,justscratchingthesurfaceofdesire.
“Welcome.Thisiswhereyouwillbestayingwhileyouworkhere.Emeryisonaprettyregular
schedulewithahiccuponlyhereandthere.”Icouldn’twipethesmilefrommyface,andmyhappiness
seemedtoeasesomeofthetensionintheroom.Whitneywalkedoverthethreshold,andintotheliving
roomtakingintheplaceshewouldcallhome,hopefullyfortherestofherlife.
Iclosedthedoorandfollowedbehindher,watchingherwithamazement.Itwaswaydifferent
watchingsomeonefromafarandthenseeingtheminperson.
“Yourhouse….”Shepaused.“It’sbeautiful.”Icouldtellshewasnervousbecausehervoice
wobbledasshespoke.Iwantedtonipallthebusinessshitinthebuttandgetdowntotherealstuff.
“Thankyou.IboughtitbeforeIdecidedtoadoptEmerysoalotofbabyproofinghadtotake
placebutIthinkitlooksgreatnow.”IplacedEmerybackonthefloorlettingherplacewhileIdiscussed
thingswithWhitney.
“You’reagooddad,Liam,”Whitneysaid,hervoicemeek.Iguidedusovertotheleather
sectionalsothatwould,couldgettoknoweachotherbetter.
“Itrytobe.I’mnotperfect,though,asyouknowwithyourbackground,anddegree,having
childrenisatrialanderrorkindofthing.Youneverreallyknowwhat’sgoingtoworkandwhatisn’t.”
Shenodded,trulyunderstandingallthatIwassaying.Emerywasmyprideandjoy,myblueeyed,blonde
hairedbeautyandifshefellinlovewithWhitneythenIknewIwould.
“I’mmorethancertifiedforthisjob.Infact,IwouldsayI’mtheperfectfitforit.Ilovechildren
andhonestly,IliveandbreathewhateverworkIdo.”Ilovedherenthusiasmbuthonestly,thatwasone
thingthatIalreadyknew.Iknewalotabouther,farmorethanItrulywantedtosay.
“Ifyouweren’tyouwouldn’tbehere.Ionlygivemydaughterthebest,andIknowyou’rethe
bestWhitney.”Herpalecheeksblushedasoftred.Shedidn’tlikebeingthecenterofattention,andthat
mademewanthermore.
“Thankyou,Mr.Foss,thatmean’salottome.”Shewasshyaroundmeandthatneededto
change.
“CallmeLiamasyoudidjustmomentsago.Yes,youworkforme,butyouaren’toneofmy
businessmen.You’relikethemothertomychildnowandI’llgiveyouthesamerespectthatyougiveme.”
HereyesslippedfrommineandwentstraighttoEmery.
Iwatchedcuriouslywaitingtoseewhatwouldhappennextandwascompletelysurprisedwhen
Whitneygotonthefloorandstartedtalking,andplayingwithEmery.
Downboy.MycockwasrockhardandonlyseemedtogetharderasIwatchedherinteracting
withmyworld.Nothingturnedamanonmorethanwatchingawomanthathadthepotentialbeagood
motherinteractwithhischildren.
“Isthatyourbabydoll?”WhitneyaskedEmery,andherblueeyeslitupwithexcitement.She
crawledacrosstheflooratlightningspeedandpulledherselfupontoWhitney’slap.Emeryhadjustmet
WhitneyyetIcouldseetheloveshehadforhershininginhereyes.
Thethoughtofneedingawomannevercrossedmymind,notuntilmymothermentionedthatshe
wantedmoregrandkidsanditoccurredtomethatthoughIlovedEmeryasmyownblooditwouldbenice
tohaveason.
“What’sherschedulelike?”Whitneyasked,pullingmefrommefrommydreamland.
“Breakfast.Playtime.Nap.Thenlunch.Playtimeorinteractiveactivities.Snack.Thenwedo
stories,orcuddles,evenamoviesomedays.Thendinner.Bathtime.Itvariessomedays.Ijustliketo
keepheronsometypeofschedule.”Ismiledmyeyesflickinguptotheclockonthewall.Itwastimefor
Emery’smorningnap,whichwasperfectbecauseIwantedalittletimetogettoknowWhitney.
“Thatsoundsgreat.Keepingheronascheduleisawonderfulthing.You’redoingamazingat
thisLiam.I’mnotsurewhyyouevenneedme.”Whitneyspokesoftly,lettingEmerysnuggleintoher
chest.
“Ineedyouforthesamereasonsyouneed,me,”Isaid,tryingtosparksomecuriosityinher.I
wantedhertocomeoutwiththefactthatshewantedababyandwantedmetobethemantodoitforher.
“Idon’treallyknowwhatyoumean.Idon’tneedthisjob,IcouldworkanywhereelsesoI
don’tgethowIneedyou.”Thebiteinherwordsmademybloodsing.Shewasfeistyandbeautiful,and
everythingthatIcould’veeveraskedfor.
“LetmeputEmerytobedandI’llexplainjustwhatImean,”Ismirked,pluckingEmeryupoff
thefloor.Sheprotestedalittlebitbutthenmeltedintome.Itookherdownthehalltoherbedroomand
placedherinhercrib,coveringherwithherfavoriteblanketandgivingher,herpacifier.ThenIshutthe
lightsoffandclosedthedoorsmakingmywaybackoutintothelivingroom.
Whitneywasstillsittingonthefloorhergazingswingingtomeassoonassheheardmy
footstepsagainstthewoodfloor.
“IcouldhaveanyoneWhitney.”Iprowledtowardsher,theneedtobeclosetoheralmost
consumingme.“ButIwantyou.NotonlybecauseIthinkyouwouldmakeanexcellentNanny,butalso
becauseIcouldseemyselfbeingwithyou.”
Ididn’twanttoscareherawaybutIneededtotellherexactlywhatitwasthatIwasfeelingfor
her.Ihadwatchedherandknewforafactthatshetoowaswatchingme.Ifshesaidshewasn’tinterested
inmyofferthanIknewshewaslying.
“Beingwithme?”Shockresonatedfromherwords.
“Yes,withyou,physicallyandemotionally.I’vebeenwatchingyouandIknewwhenIputthe
adoutthatyouwouldbetheperfectmatchforEmeryandI.Ihopedlikehellthatyouwouldapplyand
whenyoudidIknewitwasamatchmadeinheaven.”Icrossedthespacetheseparatedus,takingher
handandpullingherupoffthefloor.OncestandingshepressedherchestagainstmineandIinhaled.The
smellofjasmineandlily’sfilledmynostrils,andmybodyshookasIrubbedahandupanddownherarm.
“I….”Shestuttered.Icouldtellfromthelookinhereyes,andthewayshewasreactingtomy
touchthatshewantedthis;shejustneedsawaytobelievethatitwastrue.KnowingthatIwastakinga
chanceIleanedintoherface,cuppinghersoftcheek,andplacedasoftkissonherfulllips.Thewarmth
ofherlipsagainstminesparkedsomethinginsideofme.AbattlethatIwouldn’tgiveupuntilIhadherin
mybed,withababyinherbelly,andaringonherfinger.
“OhGod.”Shemumbledgrippingontomyshirtwitheagerhands.Icouldn’thelpbutsmile,
knowingwewerebothinthesameboatofhelplessness.
“Iknowyouwantthis…Iknowyou’vebeenwatchingmeandIknowyouwantababy,anda
familyandIcangiveyouallofthat.”Ileanedmyforeheadagainsthersstaringintoheremeraldgreen
eyes.Iwasn’tlettinggo,notever,andespeciallynotafterhavingjusttastedherlips.
“Idowantababy,andafamily.”Shesuckedinabreathasifshewastryingtocalmhernerves.
Icouldfeelthebeatingofherheartbeatagainstmyownandwonderedwhatitwouldfeelliketoplacemy
handagainstherbareskinandfeelthelifepumpingthroughoutherveins.
“Icangiveyouthatthen.Icanplaceababydeepinsideyou.Icanprovide,andtakecareof
you.AllIaskisthatyoubethemotherEmerydeservesandneeds.”Iknewwithoutadoubtthatasking
Whitneytobethebestmothercouldbewasn’tevenneededshewasalreadythebest,andwouldalways
strivetotakecareofourchildren.Shewasaperfectwomanandwouldbeanevenbettermother.
“Areyousure?Imeanwedon’tevenknoweachother.Notlikeothersdobeforetheyget
marriedandstartafamily.”IhatedhowapprehensiveshewasandknewIneededtodowhateverIcould
tokeepherherewithme.
“I’mmorethansureWhitney.I’vewantedyousincethedayyoumovedin.I’vewatchedand
waitedandnowIwantyouandI’mnotgoingtotakenoforananswernotwhenIknowyouwantthis
too.”Ipulledawayandswoopedinplacingfeatherlightkissesagainstherthroat.Shecoulddenywith
wordsallshewantedthatshewasworriedthatweweremovingtoofastbutherbodywouldbetrayher
everysingletime.
“Ahhh.Yourlipsfeelsogoodonmyskin.”Shemoaned,meltingfurtherintomytouch.Our
bodiesweresnugtogetherasIbroughtusdownontotheleathercouchpullingherintomylap.Whitneylet
meexploreherface,neck,andupperchestwithmylipsallwhilemyhandstriedtomapoutthroughher
dressthesweetbodyshewashidingunderneaththesoftfabricofherdress.
“SayyesWhitney.It’scrazyIknowbutI’llneverletyougo.I’llneverletyoudown.Never.”I
promisedwitheachsugarysweetkissIplacedonherskin.Shetippedherheadbackexposingherneck
moreformeandIgobbledherup,mytonguetrailingoverherskingently.Iwantedtonip,bite,andsuck.I
wantedtodevourherandIwouldassoonasshegavemetheword.
“Yes,Liam.Iwantthosethingswithyou,andifyoucanpromisemethatyouwon’tletgo,not
everthenI’llgiveyoumyall,myheart,mybody,mymind,andmysoul.”Igrippedhertightertomychest,
cradlingher,andneverwantingtoletgo.Thiswouldwork,therewasnothing,andnoonethatwould
standinthewayofWhitneyandIhavingourveryownhappilyeverafter.
ChapterThree
Whitney
OneWeekLater
ItwassafetosayIwascrazy.No,Iwasmorethancrazy.Ihadlostmyever-lovingmind.Stillin
mydefensewhenamanlikeLiamFosscameintoyourlifeandmadeyouanofferyoucouldn’trefuse
whileyoutookitandran.
Icouldn’tgetoverthegiddyfeelinghemademefeel.EverytimeIwasaroundhimitwaslike
ridingarollercoasterandmyemotionsshowedit.Iwaselatedandexcited,butatthesametimeIwas
nervousandfilledwithanxiety.Inallhonesty,Iwasahotmess.
ItoldLiamIwantedtogohomeandthinkaboutwhathehadofferedmewhentruthfullyIknew
forsurewhatmyanswerwouldbe.LookingathisdaughterandknowingsheneededamotherandthatI
wantedkidsandafamilymyselfIcouldn’tsaynotohim.Thatandhewasgorgeous,hadagoodpaying
jobandnocriminalrecord.
“Onascaleofinsane,toinsanehowcrazywouldyouassumemetobeifIgotpregnantwithmy
newbossesbaby?”IaskedmysisterasIfacetimedher.Thelookonherfacesaidshewasgoingtocome
tomyhouseandbeatsomesenseintome.
“Well,firstIhavetoaskyouhowmuchwineyou’vedrunktodaysincethat’sahysterical
questionandIwouldassumeyouwouldbewastedtoevenaskmethat?”Shefrowned.“ThenIwouldask
youwhatthehelliswrongwithyou,andareyouseriouslyconsideringthis?”
LaylawasmybigsisterandmyrocksoitwasnosurprisetomethatsheassumedIhadlostmy
mindwhenItoldherwhatIwasdoing.
“He’saCEOLayla,nottomentionasingledad.He’ssweet,sensitive,andhemakesmyheart
beatoutofmychest.WhenI’mwithhimIfeellikethereissomuchmoretothislifeI’mliving.”Iwasn’t
lying.Liamreallymademefeelallthosethingsandthefacthehadadaughterandwasanamazingfather
wasallthatmatteredtome.Peopledidn’thavetoknoweachotheralifetimetoknowiftheyweremeant
tobe.Theyjusthadtobecompatible.
Laylashookherhead,“Allthosethingsmakehimtheperfectfittobethefatherofyour
children?”Isuckedinabreath.
“Yes.He’smorethancertifiedandIthinkthatifIopenmyselfuptoit,Icanseeanentirefuture
withhim.He’smorethanjustmyemployerandI’mmorethanjustanannytohim.”Ididn’tknowwhyI
wastryingtojustifyLiamandIbeingtogethertomysister,letalonemyfamily.IfIwantedababythenI
wouldhaveababy.IfIwantedtogetmarriedIwouldgetmarried.Loveinmyeyeshasnoboundaries.
“I’msorryWhitbutIwanttomakesuremylittlesisterisbeingtakencareof.Idon’twantyou
makingachoiceyoumayregret.”Shepoutedgivingmetheeyefluttershealwaysdidgrowingup.The
onethatsaidsorry,butI’mgoingtoratyououttoMomandDad.
“I’vegottogothoughokay?I’lltextyou.”Iendedthecall,notwantingwhatmysisterhadsaid
toaffectmeinanegativewaybeforeIhadtogoheadovertoLiam’shouse.
Smoothingmyhandsoverthefrontofmyplaidbuttondownt-shirtIblewoutahotbreathofair.
ThenIgrabbedmyphoneslippingitintothebackpocketofmyskinnyjeansandgrabbedmyhousekeys
asIheadedoutthedoor.Ihadcrossedthestreetandwasheadedupthedrivewayandjustabouttothe
frontdoorwhenLiamopeneditgreetingmewithhissensationalpanty-meltingsmile.
EmerygiggledandsmiledatmeasIsteppedoverthethresholdandintothehouse,closingthe
doorbehindme.IwasencompassedinwarmththefeelingsLiammademefeelwereexplosive.Every
beatofmyheartwasforhim.
“Didyouthinkovereverythingwediscussed?”Liamquestioned,placingEmeryintoher
highchairwhereherbreakfastwasbeingserved.
Ilickedmylips,everysuddenlyfeelinghotter.Liam’sgazewanderedallovermybody,before
comingbackuptomyface.
“Idid.”Mybreathswerecomingoutinpants.Themanhadn’teventouchedmeyetandIwason
fire.
“Whatdidyoudecide?”Hispresencesuckedalltheairoutoftheroom.Howcouldsomeone
sogorgeousbesingle,andagooddad?
“Iwantit.Iwantitall.Withyou.”Ididn’tknowifIhadsealedourfatesthenornotbutLiam
feltthesamesparkIdiddeepdowninmybelly.Hecrossedthespacebetweenusintwostridestakingmy
facebetweenhishandsashebroughtourlipstogether.Thekisswaspowerfulandsoulsearing.Theheat
ofhisbodyagainstmineshotachesofpleasurestraighttomycore.
“ThankfuckyousaidthatbecauseIwasalmostcertainwhenyouwalkedoutmyfrontdoor
yesterdaythatyouweren’tgoingtocomeback.”Hisconfessionmademykneesweak.Washeafraidof
losingme?
“Wehardlyknoweachother,yetforsomereason,mybodyfeelslikeit’sknownyouanentire
lifetime.”Ileanedmyforeheadagainsthislettinghisscentwashoverme.Hewassomanly,andsexy,and
Icouldn’thelptheneedIhadtodissecthimandfigureoutwhatmadehimthemanhewastoday.
“We’reperfecttogether.”Icouldfeelthehardnessofhiscockagainstmybellyandalmost
moanedasheslowlygroundhisgroinagainstme.Wasitsomuchtoaskthemantopickmeup,andpin
meagainstthewalltakingfrommewhateverhewanted?
“Dadddddddaaaa….”Emerysquealedforcingusbothtopullawayfromeither.Iwasbreathing
heavyaswasLiamwhenwefinallyseparated.AllIcouldthinkaboutwashowhotthatwas,andhowit
wasonlygoingtogethotterwhentheclothesweworefelltothefloorandourbodiescametogether.
“SweetEmery.AreyouexcitedtohaveWhitneyjoinourfamily?”Liam’svoicewasfilledwith
excitementashespoketoEmery.NeverinmywildestdreamsdidIeverthinkthatIwouldbejumping
intosomethinglikethis.
Emeryreactedbysmackingherhandsagainstthehighchairtray,causingpiecesofeggandtoast
togoineverydirection.Icouldn’thelpbutlaugheveniftherewasahugemessbecauseshewasjustso
adorable.
“It’sanhonortobeapartofallofthis.”MyeyecollidedwithLiam’sandtheheatinhisstare
could’vestartedtheentirehouseonfire.Theyearningandneedhefeltformegushedfromdeepinside
himandIhadafeelingthatthethingshegavemeaglimpseofwerenothingbutascratchonthesurfaceof
whathewasreallygoingtodotome.
“IhaveworkthatIneedtogetdone,soI’llbeinmyofficemostoftheday.Ifyouneedanything
that’swhereyoucanfindme.”Hisvoicewasgruffanddeep.WasitstrangethatIwantedtofallintoit
andnevercomebackout?
“Okay,whileEmeryandIwillbeouthere.”Coldnessseepedintomybonesashegrabbedhis
coffeecupandlefttheroominarush.Everystephetookawayfrommemademybodyacheforhim
more.Ididn’tunderstandhisneedtorunaway,butIknewthatwhateverwashappeningbetweenuswas
somuchmorethanevenheexpected.
WhenIheardthedoortohisofficeclosedIgrabbedacupfromthecupboardwhichonlytook
metwotimestolocateandthenpouredmyselfacupofsteamygoodnessknowingthatIwouldneedall
thecoffeeIcouldget.Ithadbeenmonthssincemylastnannyjob,andtosayIwasoutofshapewhenit
cametochasingminionsaroundalldaywasanunderstatement.
“IthinkIlikeyourdaddyalot,”IwhisperedtoEmerysippingatmypipinghotblackcoffee.
Shesmiledshovingapieceoftoastintohermouthwhiledrooldrippeddownherchin.Icouldn’twipethe
smilefrommyfaceandasIstaredatEmerysomethingcaughtoutofthecornerofmyeyeonthebreakfast
barcounterInoticedalistthatLiamhadhandwrittenonalargepost-itnote.
IreadthroughitrealizingitwasalistofthingsthathewantedmetodotodaywithEmery.
Maybehehadforgottentosaysomethingaboutitbecausehewasallflusteredbymypresence.
“Daddyhasloadsoffunstuffforustotoday,”IspokeoutloudtoEmeryeventhoughIknewshe
wouldn’trespond.Thereweretonsofoptions,movietime,naptime,books,blocks,recitinglettersorat
leasttryingtooamongafewthings.Ileanedagainstthecounterforafewminute’sdrinkingtherestofmy
coffeeandlettingEmeryfinishherbreakfastwhilemyminddriftedtothethingsIwantedtodotoMr.
Foss.
OnceEmerystartedtofussIknewshewasreadytomoveontosomethingnewsoIcleanedher
andthehighchairupbeforemovingintotheplayroom,whichwasrightoffthelivingroom.Ilaughedat
Liam’spunylittlegate,knowingalltoosoonwewouldneedtopurchasesomethingsturdiertoholdback
MissEmery.
Weplayedwiththeblocksfirstbutsoonmovedontothebooks.Ihadjuststartedanewbook
whenEmeryclimbedupintomylapwithablanket,herbigblueeyesshiningupatme.Herblondehair
wasallcurly,andasshesettledherheadagainstmychesthersweetbabyscentfilledmynostrils.
IsqueezedhergentlyasIstartedreadingthebookmybackleaningagainstthewallbehindme.
Bothofusmust’vebeentiredbecausenotevenapageintothebookEmerywassleeping,andIwas
dozingoff,theimageofLiamandIwithbigsisterEmeryaswerevealedtoourfriendsandfamilythatwe
werehavingababy.
MyeyesflutteredclosedasIrelaxedintoeverythinggoodthatwashappeninginmylife.
“Kissme,Whitney,”Liamsmirkedatme,hisshirtlesschestagainstmyown.Tearspricked
frommyeyes,buttheyweren’ttearsofsadnessinsteadtheyweretearsofhappinessbecauseIhadfinally
foundmeforever.
IhadfinallyfoundthemantogivemeeverythingIcouldeverwantinlife.Ahome.Afamily.A
husband.Alifethatwasmore,thanworthjustliving.
“Iloveyou,”Imumbled,reachinguptopressmylipsagainsthisfirmoneslettingthewarmthof
histouchwashoverme.
ChapterFour
Liam
Mybodywasmorethanpentup.Itwasonthevergeofexploding.Iwanted,noscratchthatneeded
Whitney’stouch.Ihadgottenvirtuallynoworkdone,asidefromansweringafewemailsmymind
continuallydriftingtoWhitneyandEmery,asIwonderedwhattheyweredoing.
Iagonizedoversteppingoutofmyofficetocheckuponthem.Itwasn’tthatIdidn’ttrust
WhitneybecauseIdid.ItwasjustIhadthisstrangeneedtobeclosetoher.Iwantedherinthemost
intimate,andbeautifulways.Havingonlyknownherashorttime,somehowshehadmanagedtoget
underneathmyskin.
HersmileandbrightgreeneyeswereallIsaweverynightwhenIclosedmyeyestogoto
sleep.Theknowledgeshehadaboutchildren,andloveshefeltformydaughterwhowasn’tevenher
childpiercedmyheartmakingmewanthermorethanIhadbeforeifthatwasevenpossible.
Unabletorestrainmyselfanothersecond,andknowingitwasclosetoEmery’snaptimeI
escapedtheconfinesofmyofficeandwalkeddownthehallintothekitchenandlivingroom.Thehouse
wasquiet,tooquiet.IwalkedquicklytotheplayroomwheremyentirelockedupassoonasIcaughta
glimpseofWhitneyholdingEmeryinherarms.
Theywerebothfastasleep,andasmuchasIhatedtowakethemIneededtoputEmeryinher
crib.StaringatthemforafewmoremomentsImovedswiftlytakingEmeryupinmyarms.Hertinylittle
facesnuggledintomychestandImeltedlikehotbutter.
Whitneyshotforwardalookofpaniconherfaceashersleepyeyesscannedtheroomfor
whomIassumedtobeEmery.
“I’llberightback,”IwhisperedasItookEmerytoherroom,andtuckedherin.Shewas
alreadysnoringquietlittlesnoreswhenIshutthedoorandwalkedbackoutintothelivingroom.
“I’msorryLiam.Ididn’tmeantofallasleepwithherinmylap.Isweartoyou.”Icouldtell
WhitneywasworriedandIwantedtowipethatworryawaybecauseIknewmorethananyonethatshe
wouldneverdoanythingtoharmourdaughter.WithouteventhinkingaboutitIwasathersideina
second,mybodyagainsthers.
“Shhh.I’mtheonethat’ssorry.Youdidnothingwrong.”Ismoothedmythumbacrossaworry
linethatwascreasingagainstherforehead,marringherperfectalabasterwhiteskin.
“ButIdidLiam.Idid.”Thefearinsideofherwasmounting,herbrightgreeneyesgrowing
widerwitheachpassingsecond.IknewthenthatIneededtodowhateverIcouldtomakeherfeelokay
again.CuppingherbythecheeksIpressedmylipsagainsthersharshlyhopinglikehellIcouldbringher
backdowntoEarthandrelieffloodedmethemomentshestartedtomeltintomytouch,atinymoanof
pleasureescapingbetweenourlips.
ExceptnowthatIhadkissedherIhadreallycausedaproblem,moreformyselfthanher.My
cockgrewharder,thelongerwekissed,myhandsslippingfromherfaceanddownherarms,andslowly
droppingdowntothehemofhershirt.God,shelookedabsolutelydeliciousinskinnyjeans.
“Fuck.”Ihissedpullingawayfromher,grippingherhipsintightholdingprayingthatthe
distanceofaboutafootthatIputbetweenuswouldbeenoughformetostopmyselffromdevouringher.
“Me.”Asexysmilepulledatherlips,astwowhiteteethsankintothebottomofherpetalpink
lip.
“Youdon’tknowwhatyou’reaskingforyet.Iwantthis.Iwantyou.Whatyoudon’tunderstand
thoughisthatoncethishappensbetweenusIwon’tletgo.Never.It’sonlybeenadayWhitneyandIdon’t
wanttoscareyouoff,sodon’ttellmeyouwantthisifyoudon’t.”Hersmiledroppedandinitsplace,a
frownformed.
“Don’ttellmewhatIwantMr.Foss.Iwouldn’tbehereifIdidn’tknowwhatIwanted.You
needamothertosweetlittleEmery,andIwantafamily.Ababyofmineown,ofourown.”Itwasinthose
wordsthatshespokethatsomethingovercameme.Ipushedawaytheapprehensionandworrythatthings
werespiralingoutofcontroltoosoonandinsteadletwhatwashappeningnowflourishintowhateverit
wassupposedtobe.
Ipounced,myhandsgrippingherbythehipsasIpulledherintomylapandlifteduscarrying
hertomybedroom,ourbedroom.
“PutababyinsideofmeLiam.”Shewhisperedintomyearasherteethgrazedagainstthe
sensitivelobe.Shehadnofuckin’cluewhatitwasthatshewasaskingfor,butIwouldbedamnedifI
wasn’tgoingtogiveher,us,thatbaby.
Placingheragainstthethousand-countEgyptiancottonsheetsIknewherskinwas100times
softerthanIpeeledthosesexy,skintight,jeansoffofher.HermesmerizingeyesneverleavingmineasI
madequickworkofthem.
Myheartraced,beatingfuriouslyagainstmyribcageasifitwastryingtobreakfree.Shewas
theone.Shewasit.ThewomanIwasgoingtomakeafamilywiththewomanIhadwaitedanentireyear
for.Ihadwatchedher.Ihadwaited.Ihadsetupthejob,andIknewshewanted,andthisanditwas
finallyhappening.
“Liam.”Shemoanedoutreachingformeassheundidthebuttonsonhershirt.Whatthefuck?I
wasstilldressed.Ineededtofixthatrightnow.
FranticallyIpeeledmyshirtoffrevealingmysculptedbodyjustforher.ThenIflickedthebutton
onmyjeansandwassurprisedwhenherhandsnakedoutinfrontofmestoppingmefrommovingany
further.
“Letme.”Shepurredlikeakitten.Icouldn’thelpmyself.LiftingbothhandsintotheairIlether
pullmyjeansdown,andshedidsoasslowashumanlyfuckingpossible.Itwasn’tuntilmycocksprung
free,andmyjeanshitmyanklesthatshestoppedtoadmirewhatshehadrevealed.
“It’sallyours.”Igrippedallseveninchesofhardsteelcockinmyhand,slowlyrubbingmy
fingersagainstthehead.Hermouthpoppedopen,andthenhereyesdarteduptomine.Iwinkedather
becauseIwasveryreadytoputthatbabyinsideofher.
“Fuck,you’rewaybiggerthanI’veeverhad.”Shelickedherlipsandremovedhershirt.I
continuedtosmirklikeanassholebecauseIwasdamnproudofmybody,andcock.Ihadsavedthislittle
partofmyselfforaperfectwoman.
“AndI’llbethelastyoueverhave.”Ishuckedthejeansfromaroundmyanklesanddroppeddown
tomykneesattheedgeofthebed,myhandsgrippingontoWhitney’sankles.Shewatchedmehesitantlyas
ifshewasn’tsurewhatwasgoingtohappenbefore.
“Haveyoueverbeenlickedonyourpussysweetheart?”Ihadtoask,thequestionwasburninga
wholethroughmyhead.
Sheshookherheadno,hercheeksgrowingredinembarrassment.God,shewassofuckingperfect
andIwouldbethefirsttotasteherthere.
“Openupformesweetheart.I’mgoingtomakeyoubeg,plead,andcryformore,andjustwhen
youdon’tyoucantakeanotherlickorflickofmytongueyou’llapart.”Mywordsseemedtoeaseher
anxietyassheeasedbackagainstthesheetsoncemore,spreadingherlegstome,exposingafreshly
shavenpussyunderneathascrapoffabricthatwassupposedtobeathong.
“OhGod.”Shesighed,andallIhaddonewasmakeagentlecirclealongtheinsideofherthigh.I
couldn’timaginewhatshewasgoingtosaywhenIrippedthethongtoshredsandthroughitovermy
shoulder.
“Ohyes,Whitneythereismore.”Ilickedherinnerthigh,andfeltashudderofpleasureworkit’s
waythroughherbody,everymusclewastighteningandIchoosethentoripthethongaway.
WebothexpelledabreathasIthrewthescrapovermyshoulderandleanedintoherpussy,getting
anupcloseandpersonallook.IfeltandheardnothingbutWhitney.Mybodymovingallofitsown
accords.TakingtwofingersIopenedherlips,exposingherpinkclittotheworld.
“Prepareyourselfforthebestorgasmyou’veeverhad,”Imumbledagainstherpussybefore
suckingherclitintomymouth.
“Fuck.Fuck.Fuck.”Shecursedherhandsgoingstraighttomyheadwhereshetuggedatmylong
strands.Icouldn’thelpbutsmiledasIflickedmytonguemercilesslyagainstthelittlebud,alternating
betweensucking,andflickingwiththeoccasionalbiteortwo.
“I’m…”ShestartedbutIalreadyknewwhatshewasgoingtosay.Itwasherfirsttimebeingeaten
outsoIexpectedhertofallapartrightaway.That,however,didn’tmeanthatIwouldbestopping.I
growledagainstherfolds,claimingwhatwasrightfullymine,allwhileenjoyingeveryfuckingsecondof
it.
AssoonasIfelthermusclestightenandherbodyarchoffthebed,Islippedtwofingersdeepinto
hercunt,spreadinghertightpussytoprepareformyentrance.
“Holy…”Awaveofpleasurehither,ashermouthhungopenforasecond.“Liam.”Sheexpelled
anotherbreathasIcontinuedtopumpinandoutofhermycockgrowingharderandharderwitheach
pump.Itenviedmyfingers,wantingtobeburiedtohiltdeepinsideofher.
“Cumagain.Fallapart,sweetheart.Ineedyoudrenchedformycock.”Iplacedagentlekiss
againstherlowerbellywatchingherfaceashereyessqueezedshutandherwombtriedtopushmeout.
ThegripherpussyhadonmyfingerswasunforgivingandalmostsopowerfulIcouldn’tmovethem,butI
pushedoncontinuingtomoveinandoutofherwhileherbodyfellintoamillionpiecesagain.
“Oh,God.OhGod.”Herbodyshookandshearchedoffthemattress,asherjuicescoatedmy
fingers.IsmiledfarmorethansatisfiedasIpulledthemoutofhertightwombandlookedattheglistening
releasethatwassmearedonthem.
Thiswasmine.Herpussy.Herbody.Shewasmine.Iwasgoingtogiveherexactlywhatshe
askedfor.TakingmyfingersandrubbingthemagainsttheheadofmycockIgrippedherbyanklesand
flippedheroverontoherbelly.
Shelookedatmeoverhershoulder,flicksofredglimmeringinthesunlightthatcastinthroughthe
bedroomwindow.God,shewasbeautifulandmine.
Allfuckingmine.
ChapterFive
Whitney
Butterfliesfilledmybellyandflutteredaroundbumpingintoeachother.Ihadneverfeltsofree,
andlovedallatthesametime.IgazedatLiamfromonmybelly,waitingforhimtofuckmeforthefirst
time.
“I’mgoingtogiveyouababynowWhitney.You’resurethisiswhatyouwant.”Heaskedagain
forextrameasurethoughthelookinhiseyessaidhecouldn’tstophimselfevenifhewantedtoo.Inodded
myheadyes,andbracedmyselfforhiscockknowingIwouldfeelnothingbutimmensepleasure.Iwas
windedfromthethreepreviousorgasmsbacktobackbutIwantedthismomentwithLiamtolasta
lifetime.
“Giveittome,Liam.”Ipleaded,feelingtheheadofhiscockatmyswollenentrance.Iwas
soakingwetforhim.Imoaned,archingmybackashesunkintomeasslowashumanlypossible.Icould
feeleveryridgedveinonhiscockasheslidintohomeplate.
“SweetBabyJesusyoufeellikeI’vediedandgonetoheaven.”Henippedatmyearlobe,anda
shiverrandownmyspine.Ihadneverfeltsuchimmensepleasurebeingbroughtonbyamanbefore.
“Icanfeelyou.Everylonginch.”Ipanted,wantinghimtomovesobadlybutknowingthatifhe
didthatwouldpushusonestepclosertotheendofwhatwastakingplacebetweenus.
“Idon’twanttomovebutIneedtoo.Ineedtoplantmyseeddeepinsideofyouandlettheroots
grow.Ineedtogiveyouthisbaby,andbringmorejoytous.”Hishotbreathfannedagainstmyearashe
seatedhimselffullyinsideofme,makingmefeelfullerthanIeverhadbeen.Pushingbackagainsthis
cock,Ismiledasthegrowlheemittedwasdirectedatme.
“Giveittome.”Ibeggedknowingheneededmetogivehimthatfinalpushovertheedge.Theone
thingthatwouldmakehimlosecontrol.Hishandsslammedagainstthemattressbesidemyheadashe
pulledoutofmeandslammedbackintowithsomuchforceIwassureIwasgoingtomoveupthebed.
AllIcouldfeelwasLiamashiscocksplitmeintwo,pleasureandpainfuelingusbothasIurged
himtotakemeharder,hiskissesagainstmyspine,neck,andshouldersweretender,buthiscockit
piercedmestraightthroughtheheartowningeverysinglefiberofmybody.
“Yourbodywasmadeforme.Thewayyoutakemycock.You’reperfectWhitney.Absolutely-
fucking-perfect.”IsmiledbecausewitheveryrockofhishipsagainstmyassIcouldfeeljusthowperfect
hewas.
Heworshippedme,brandinghimselfdeepbeneathmyskin.Sweattrickleddownmyforeheadand
ontothebedsheetsaswebothtriedourbeststoholdontothepleasure.
Ifailedfirst,mypussyclenchingaroundLiam’scocktightlyasIfellapartwithanear-piercing
scream.Mybodyshutteredagainstthemattressandlightsflashedbeforemyeyes.Aeuphoricfeelinglike
Ihadneverfeltbeforeslammedintomeowningme,anddemandingeverysinglepieceofmyheart.
SecondslaterLiamcame,hishotsemenfillingmycunttothebrimwithwhatwouldhopefullybe
ourfuture.IknewthenasLiamfellapartinsideofmethatthatwashisroaroflove.Thatwashismarkon
mysoul.
Westayedlikethatforalongtime,hishandssearchingeverysingleinchofmybodywhilemine
didthesame.Imappedouteverypieceofhispleasure,fromhissexyashelltattoostotheonesingle
dimplethatsometimesappearedwhenhesmiled.Ihadn’tknownhimlong,lessthanayearbutIfeltlikeI
hadknownhimanentirelifetime.
“Thankyou.”Hebrokethesilencefirst;hisvoicewasgruff,andstillfullofemotionfromwhat
hadtakenplaceashorttimeago.
“For?”Iquestioned,brushingafewstrandsofhisdarkbrownhairoutofhiseyes.Heneededa
haircut.
“Forgivingmethis.Allofit.You.Afamily.AmotherforEmery.Thankyou.”Hepepperedmy
facewithkissesandIgiggledlikealittlegirlmyheartswellingwitheverypressofhislipsagainstmy
flesh.
“It’snothingthatImyselfhaveneverwantedLiam.I’vewantedthiswithyouforaslongasyou’ve
livedacrossthestreet.”IblushedknowingIwasgoingtoembarrassmyself.
“Haveyounow…?”Hesnickered.
“Yes.FromtheveryfirstmomentIsawyoupushingthatstrolleraroundwithlittleEmeryinit,I
knewyouwouldbeafantasticDad.Ihadhopedandprayedthatwheneverthetimecameformetohave
kidsthatIwouldgettohaveafatherformychildrenjustlikeyou.”Ifelttheneedtohurlrightthenand
there.
“WhileyourprayershadbeenansweredsweetheartbecauseIwaswatchingyou.Waitingforthe
rightmove.Ididn’tknowifthingswouldlineuprightforus,hellIdidn’tevenknowifyouwould
respondtotheadallIknewwasthatIwantedyoumorethanIhadanyotherwomanever.”
“Webothgotluckythen.”Imumbledtracingoneofhistattoosthatranallthewayacrosshischest.
Hisabswereondisplay,aswashiscock,whichalsohappenedtobehardagain.
“Iseethatlooksweetheartsounlessyouplanonlettingmefuckyouagain.Isuggestyoutakethose
fuckmeeyessomewhereelse.”Hiseyesflickeredwithmischievousbuthisvoiceheldawarning.Itsaid
ifyouplaywithfirebaby,youwillgetburned.
Ipouted.“IwantyouagainbutIknowifwedoitagainsosoonI’llregretit.I’mnotusedtoyour
sizejustyetandIalreadyfeelsore.”Ihuffedoutpoutingevenmore.AllLiamdidwaslaugh,hisdeep
robustlaughtercausingasmiletopullatmylips,andflipmyfrownupsidedown.
“I’llrunyouabathbaby,andthenmaybelaterafterwegetEmerylaiddownforbedwecantake
turnsbringingeachothertoourknees.”IjumpedfromtheKingsizebedandjoggedtothebathroom,a
secondlaterthesoundofthefaucetforthebathtubturnedon.
Thishadtobeadream.NowaydidIjusthavethemostamazingsexofmylifewithamanwho
want’stohavebabieswithmewhoisnowdrawingmeabubblebath.Ishookmyhead,andknewthat
LiamsawtheastonishmentonmyfacebeforeIcouldremoveit.
“Idon’tcarewhoyouhadinthepast.Noneofthatmattersnow.Allthatmattersisyou,me,
Emery,andourfamilythatI’mgoingtoplantinsideofyou.Okay?I’lldowhateverIcanmakesureyour
needsaremet,andI’llneverletyoudownWhitney.Never.”Hespokefromtheheart,andIcouldseein
hiseyesthathemeanteverywordthathesaid.
ItmovedmesomuchthattearsprickedfrommyeyesandthosetearsonlybecameworseasLiam
sweptmeupinhisarms,cradlingmeagainsthischestashewalkedusbothintothebathroom.Isobbed
notbecauseIwasunhappybutbecauseforthefirsttimeinmylifeIfeltlikeIbelongedsomewhere.Ifelt
loved,andcherishedandnonethelessbyamanthathadknownmeforfarlessofatimethanmostothersI
hadknownnearlymyentirelife.
“Ican’tsayIloveyouyetbecauseIwantthemomentthatIdosayittobeperfectbutIwilltell
youthatthosefeelingsarethere,deep,pulsing,andpoundinginmychestWhitney.”Hekissedmeso
gentlyIfelttheentireworldspin,andthenheplacedmeintothesoakertub,myentirebodybecoming
encompassedinwarmthinlessthanasecond.
Ileanedbackagainstthetub,mybodymeltingintothewaterasIwatchedLiamwalkaway.Ihad
waitedanentirelifetimeforsomeonelikehimtowalkintomylifeandherehewasintheflesh,being
sweetassugarandtakingcareofmelikenoonehadeverofferedbefore.
ImovedmylegsmythighsrubbingtogetherasIallowedthewarmwatertomeltawaythestiffness
betweenthem.Iwassore,butthatdidn’tmeanIdidn’twantLiamagain.Iwantedhim,overandover
again.Iwantedtorelivethatmomentbetweenusforever.
Hemaynothavebeenmyfirstbuthewasmostdefinitelythefirstmanthatclaimedmesodeeply
thatitshatteredmefromtheinsideout.
Irestedmyheadagainstthebackofthetubandletmyeyesflutterclosed.Itwasamiraclethat
Emeryhadn’twokenupbecauseofus.ThenagainshewasdeadtotheworldtiredaswasIbeforeLiam
wokeusup.InitiallyIfeltlikeshitforfallingasleepwithourpreciouslittlegirl,butLiammorethan
remindedmethatIhaddonenothingwrong.
ThatIwasnowaparenttohertoo,andthatifIwantedtosnugglewithheronthefloorinthe
playroomthenIcoulddothat.Iexpelledabreathandsuckedinanotheroneforcingmyselftorelax.
IwasjustabouttodozeoffwhenLiamwalkedinwithaverysleepy,butsoadorableEmeryinhis
arms.Icouldfeelmypussyclench.DearLorddidLiamlookgorgeouswithnoshirtonholdingablonde
hair,blue-eyedlittlegirl.HisinkpeekedatmefromwhereheheldEmery.
“LookwhoisawakeMommy.”WhenLiamreferredtomeasamommyIalmostfellapartright
thereinthetub.Iblinkedawaythetearsthatwantedtoescapemyeyesandinsteadstaredupatthetwo
mostimportantpeopleinmylife.Ihadbeenblessedinmylife,butwithnothingquiteasgreatasthese
two.
“Myheartissofull.”Igasped,littleEmerygivingmeatoothygrinasshebabbled.Iknewshe
wasn’tmorethanalittleoverayearold.
LiamdroppeddowntohiskneesinfrontofthetubandEmerydippedherfingersinthewater
splashingbothofus.WelaughedbecausethehappinessthatpouredfromEmeryfromthesimpletouchof
waterwasamazing.
“Youcompleteusandnoamountoftimewilleverchangethat.Whenyouknowsomeoneisthe
oneforyouwhywait?Thebestkindofloveisthekindyouleastexpect.Thekindyoudon’twaita
millionyearsfor…Thekindthatisrightinfrontofyou.”Liamkissedmeagainandthistimewhenhis
lipspressedagainstmineafirestirredinmybelly.
Thismanwasanexcellentfather,abusinessman,andthesoontobeafathertooneofourchildren.
Hewasright,thebestkindoflovewastheonethatcameoutofnowhereknockingyouoffyourfeet.
“Iknowyousaidyouwouldn’ttellmeyoulovedmeuntilthemomentwasrightforyou,butIhave
totellyourightnowbecausethemomentisrightforme.Iloveyou,LiamFoss.IloveourdaughterandI
lovethefactthatyou’vewelcomedmeandofferedtogivemesomethingthatnoothermanhasbefore.”
Iwasablubberingmess,andasEmerywrappedhersmallhandaroundoneofmyfingersIknewI
wouldneverforgetthismomentorthefeelingsthatwerepulsingthroughmyveins.
“It’sanhonor,Whitney.It’sanevenbiggerhonortohaveyouasthemothertoEmery.”Hisvoice
wasfullofemotionandIrealizedthenthatwewerebothsotakenbackbyourfeelings.Neitherofus
expectedtofallsohard,andmaybethatwashalftheproblem.Wewerebothalreadyheadoverheels,and
havingsexonlyintensifiedthoseemotions.
“I’mgoingtofinishinthebathandthenI’mgoingtomakeusthebestLasagnaeitherofyouhas
everhad.”Iraisedaneyebrowdaringhimtosecond-guessme.
Hesmiledsmugly,“I’llbethejudgeofthatsweetheart.”Emerysplashedafewmoretimesand
thentheybothleft,butnotbeforeLiamgavemeonelastlook.Deepinthosecrystalblueeyeslaida
dormantman.Onethatwantedtoownme,andpushmetothelimitsandI’llbedamnedifthatdidn’tmake
mewanthimmore.
Iwasmorethaninlove.
Iwasobsessed.
ChapterSix
Liam
Aweeklater
Icouldn’tlie.WhitneydidmakeoneofhellofLasagna.Thefactthatshecouldtakecareof
Emery,cook,andhadapussymadeofGoldonlyaddedtothefeelingsthatIhadforher.
“You’recomingoutwithustonight.It’sbeenalmostayearsinceyou’vegoneouttothebarwith
ustocelebrateclosingacontract.”Jaymybestfriendandbusinesspartnerdemandedintothephone.It
hadbeenalongastimesinceI’dleftthehousewithoutEmerybutinmydefense,Ilovedthelittlegirltoo
muchtojustleaveherwithasitterwheneverIwantedtodosomething.Ifshecouldn’tgothenIjustdidn’t
go.
“I’maDadJay.Ihaveresponsibilitiesandalife,andshitthatneedstobedonearoundthe
house.EmeryandIhavealotgoingon.”Ididn’tmentionWhitneyyetanditwasn’tbecauseIwashiding
her,itwasbecauseIwantedhertoremainmineandonlymineforaslongaspossible.Ididn’tcarewho
knewaboutus.IjustwantedtoenjoywhatIhadwithher,justwithherfornow.
“BeingaDaddoesn’tgiveyouareasontojuststayheldupinyourhouse.Emeryisadorable
andsofuckincutebutthatdoesn’tmeanyouspendeverywakingminutewithher.Takesometimefor
yourselftonight.MeetmeatClubX.I’llbuydrinks.”IknewmorethananyonethatJaywouldn’ttakeno
forananswer.Ifanythinghewouldshowupherewithababysitterinhandandforcemetogoout.
Iscrubbedahanddownmyface,“Jay…”Igrowledoutfrustratedthathewasgivingmesoout.
“It’sforthegoodofyoursanity.It’snotbadtosocializeeitherandImisshangingoutwithyou
dude.”BeforeIcouldanswerWhitneywalkedintomyoffice,herhairwascurled,andshewaswearinga
pairofjeanshortsthatshouldbeillegal.
“Fine,butI’mwarningyounowI’mbringingsomeonewithmetonight,andshe’smine,”Ispoke
forcefullyintothephonebeforehittingtheendkeybutnotbeforehearinghisbustoutinlaughter.
“Whowasthat?”Whitneyaskedbattinghereyesseductivelyatme.Fuckme.Itwasgetting
reallyfuckinghardtofocusonworkwhenmycockkepttryingtoescapemyjeans.
“MybestfriendJay.Wejustclosedanotherdealwithaclientandhewantstogooutand
celebratetonight.”Iranahandthroughmyhair.Whitneycouldseethefrustrationrollingoffofmein
wavesandshewassoverybadforcominginherewhensheknewIhadbeenwaitingtillshesaidshe
wasreadytohavesexagain.
“Youlookalittlestressedandbabygirlisnapping….”Sheteasedlickingherlips.Iknewthe
lookinhereyesbecauseitmirroredmyown.Fuck,shewasplayingwithfire,andIhopedshewas
preparedtoswallowed,alivebyit.
“Areyouaskingmetofuckyouagainsweetheartbecauseifyou’rethat’llbethebestGoddamn
thingI’veheardallday,”Ismirked,unabletoevenbefrustratedanouncewithherinmypresence.
“No….”Oneofherfingerspokedmeinthechest.“I’mgoingtofuckyouthistime.”Thegrinon
herfacemademegiddyandhadmyhandsitchingtotouchherskin.HowhadIgottensolucky?
“Ohreally…?”Iraisedaneyebrow,spreadingmylegsandallowingmystiffcocktositmore
comfortably.Iwastotallychallengingher,andIwantedtoknowifshewouldfollowthroughandmakeme
thesubmissiveone?
“Doyoulikepeanutbutter,Liam?”Shetwirledaroundme,shovingmyofficechairenoughso
thatshecouldwalkafullcirclearoundme.
Mytongueflickedoutovermylips.“Ilikeanythingthatcomeswithyou.Anything.”Iwas
pantingwithneedandifshedidn’tdosomethingrealfastshewouldbeatthemercyofmycock.
“Holdtightthen.I’vegotsomethingspecialforyouthen.”Hervoicewasbarelyabovea
whisperoratleastitseemedlikethatinmymind.BeforeIcouldstopherandpinherdownonmydesk
shewasoutoftheroomrunningofftogetwhateveritwasshewanted.
Secondstickedbyandshecamebackstruttinginnothingbutherpantiesintomyoffice.Peanut
butterinthickslabsacrossherlargetits,andnipples,neck,andthroat.Iswallowed,hard.Inhalingher
scentmixedwiththesweetchocolatepeanutbutter.
“You’retemptingmypatiencesweetheart.I’vebeenholdingmyselfbackeverynightaswelay
inbedtogether.Forcingmyselftogiveyouspaceallwhileremindingmyselfthatyouwantababy.”Iwas
secondsawayfrompouncingonher.
Shedidn’tcare,though,herlonghair,andcurlsbouncingwitheverystepasshewalkedacross
theroombarefooted.Myeyescouldn’tleaveherbody,andIroamedeverysingleinch,wonderingifshe
leftanypeanutbutterbetweenthosesmooththighsofhers.
“Removeyourpant’s,Mr.Foss.”Sheorderedwithasmileonherface.Igrittedmyteeth
wantingtoplayhergamesobadly.
“Okay.I’llremovemyjeansbutyouneedtoletmesuckononeofthosetitsofyours.”Itriedto
barterwithherbutgotnowherebecausesheplacedafingertomylipsshushingmewhileshakingher
headno.
“You’llgettolickmewhenyoudoasyou’retold.”I’llbedamned.Iflickedthebuttononmy
jeansandshimmiedoutofthemitshould’vebeenadamnrecordintherecordbookshowfastIwent.
ShesmiledknowingIwasgoingtodowhatevershetoldmetowhileshetangledherbodyover
me.
Withmyjeansrippedfrommybodyshejumpedupintothechairtheflimsythongshewas
wearingdidnothingtostopmycockfromenteringher.
“Fuck…”Ihissedout,mylipsgoingstraighttooneofhertits.ThesecondIsuckedthenipple
intomymouthshemelted,herchestarchingintomyfaceasshebeggedmeformore.
“Yes,lickmytitties,Liam.”Shemoanedinpleasure,herheadfallingback.Myhandswrapped
aroundhermiddleholdingherinplacewhileIsuckedthenippleharderintomymouth,thesweet
chocolatepeanutbutter,whichInowknewwasNutellaexplodedagainstmytongueandIfuckingthought
shewassweettastingbefore.Ilickedeverysingledropofthegoodnessofherrighttitwhiletweakingher
leftnipplebetweenmytwofingersthepeanutbuttermakingeverythingslippery.
“Ahhh…”HerpussystartedtogrindagainstmycockandIpulledherintomyfacereleasingmy
holdonhertits,andinsteadoftakingthetimetokissher.Iplacedmylipsagainstherharshly,searingus
together.Herhandsroamedallovermybody,grippingontomyshoulderslikealifeline.
“Behave,”Iwarnedbitingherbottomliphardenoughtodrawblood.Shesmiledagainstmy
teeth,grindingherselfharderagainstmycock.IdroppedmylipstoherneckwhereIsuckedandlickedat
thepathofchocolatygoodnesssheleftme.Unabletotakeanothersecondoftorture,Irippedthethong
fromherassandslammedupwardsintoherpussyallinonefluidmotion.
“Mmm….”ShemoanedoutinpleasuremyteethgrazingagainstherearlobeasIshovedherhair
offhershoulderexposingherlongcreamysmoothneck.
“Sogoodbaby,sogood.”Iencouragedherasshebouncedupanddownonmycockhertits
slappingagainstmychestasthechairbeneathuscreaked.AllIcouldfeelwasthewarmthofherpussy,
squeezingmetighterwitheverythrust.
“Fuckme.”Shegrowled,sinkinghernailsintomyneck,herlipsfindingmineasshekissedme
withsomanyemotions.Icouldn’tseemyselfevergoingwithoutthisgirl.Icouldn’tpicturealifewithout
her.
“Yourwishismycommandsweetheart,”Imumbledintoherhairholdingheragainstmychest,
asIthrustupwardintoher,mycockhittingthebackofherpussy,sendingwavesofpleasurethroughthe
headofmycock.
“Yes.Yes.Yes.”Shegroundagainstme,meetingeverythrustwithherownthrustpushingus
bothtoareleasethatwassopowerfulmyentirebodyshook.Herpussyclenched,andherentirebody
wentrigidwhilemytoescurledintomysocksandmyseedshotdeepinsideherwomb.
Igrippedherhipshardenoughtobruiseherperfectskin,wantingthemomentthatwewere
feelingrightthissecondtolastforever.WhitneycollapsedagainstmyshoulderandIcradledheragainst
mychest,pressingakissagainsthersweatyforehead.
Wewerebothoutofbreathandconsumedwithlove.AfterthesexwejusthadIknewtherewas
nowayIcouldremainfrustratedaboutgoingouttonightespeciallywithWhitney.
“Jaywant’sustogoouttonightwithhimataclubthatoneofourclientsjustclosedon,”I
announcedsmoothingahandoverherhair.Shesmeltlikesexandsweetchocolate.
“Mmmm…”Sheansweredsnugglingdeeperintomychest.Mybellyshookaslaughterripped
frommythroat.Themovementjarredhercausinghertositupinmylap.
“Whyareyoulaughingatme?”Shepouted,butIcouldtellshewasfarfromsad.Maybetired,
butnowaysad.
“Becauseyou’resoadorablewhenwefuck.YoutakeeverysinglethrustIgiveyou,andmeetit
withyourown.”Istaredatherwithsomuchwonderandamazement.
EverydaythatsheleftthehouseandwentacrossthestreetIworriedthatshewouldn’tcome
back.Thatworryconsumedme,makingtimeslikethisallthemoreamazing.
“That’sbecauseIgiveitbacktoyoujustasmuchasyougiveittome.Nowpullyourpantsup
andgetbacktoworkbaby.I’mgoingtogonap.”Shehoppedoffmylap,herlegswobblingalittlebefore
sheheadedtowardthedoor.
“I…”Istarted,andshestoppeddeadinhertracksswivelingaroundonherheelstolookatme.
“No.Don’tsayityet.Ialreadyknow.”ThelookinheremeraldeyessaidshedidandIstopped.
WhateverwordsIwantedtosayrefusedtocome.Iwasleftspeechlesswithmypantsdownforthevery
firsttimeinmylife,wellthewomanIlovedwalkedawayafterjusthavingfuckedmeinthebestway
possible.
Ileanedbackinmyofficechair,mytonguedartingoutofmylipswherethetasteofNutella
lingered.Shewaseverything,wrappedupinaperfectbowandIhadtodowhateverIcouldtokeepher
here.
ChapterSeven
Whitney
IfeltinsecureasIeyedmyselfintheallblacklacedresswithkillerredheels.Ilooked
smokinghot.Iknewthat,butIalsoknewthatpeoplethathadtheirowntasteandwhereIthoughtIlooked
greatother’smaythinkIlookedlikeafatcow.
“Youknowdamnwellthatyoulookabsolutely-fucking-gorgeoussodon’teventhinkabout
takingthatdressoff,unlessit’stogetbackonmycocklikeyoudidthisafternoon.”Iblinked,notrealizing
thatLiamhadenteredtheroom,hiseyesmeetingmineinthemirror.
“Whythankyou,Mr.Foss.ShallIdroptomykneesnow.”Iwinkedteasinghimalittlebitjust
forfun.
“Iwouldsayyesbutwedon’thavetimeforthatrightnow…thatisunlessyouwanttoskipthe
entireeveningoutandwecanstayinwithajarofNutella,andtakeout?”Irolledmyeyes,athislame
attemptatseducingmeintostayinghome.Hewastheonethatdidn’twanttogo,notme.
“We'regoing,”Isaidsternlygrabbingmyclutchoffthebed.IhadjustturnedtofaceLiamand
hewasrightinfrontofmehiswarmhand’sskimmingovermyskin,andontothenapeofmyneckholding
meinplaceandforcingmetolookhimstraightintheeyes.
“You’rebeautifulandifanyonethinksdifferentlytheycananswertome,understand?”His
fingersliftedmychinup,andIgreetedhimwithasmile.Hemademefeelallwarmandfuzzyinside,kind
ofthewayyoufeltwhenyoutookthatfirstsipofbubblywine.
“OfcourseyouwouldsaythatLiam,you’rebangingme.”Ijokedwhilekindof.TruthfullyI
knewLiamlovedmybody,mycurves,andmywell,everything.Theproblemwasn’thim,though,but
moresothepeopleIwouldmeettonightalongsidehim.IwantedtobeaperfectpersonIcouldbe
becauseGodknowshealreadyis.
“I’mseriousWhitney.You’regorgeous,andyouhavenoonetoimpress.Theonlymanthat
mattersisstandingrightinfrontofyou.Idon’tcarewhatmyfriendsthink,ormyclients.Myprivatelife
ismyown,andwhoIchoosetobewithismychoice.You’remineandiftheydon’tlikeitthenfuck
them.”Hewassostrong,andhandsome,andalphalikethatmypantiessuddenlybecamesoaked.
Ourforeheadstouchedforasecondandthenweseparatedbothofusheadingforthedooratthe
sametime.Ourbodiesbumpedintoeachother,andIlovedthedesiresthatseemedtofillhiseyesashe
lookedatme,reallylookedatme.
“Let’sgetoutofherebeforeIripthatdressoffofyouandsayfuckittothisentirenightout.”He
growled,andImadeabeelineforthefrontdoor.IwouldbylyingifIsaidthatdidn’tstarttosoundlikea
muchbetteridearightaboutnow.
***
Liam’shandsoftlyrestedagainstmythightheentirewaytotheclub.Itwasaboutatwenty-
minutedriveandtoafarmorefancierpartoftownthanIwasusedtoo.Ilookedaroundwithwonderment
atalltheclubsthatseemedtobeburstingwithlife.
“Weownthreebusinessesjustonthisblockalone.Club’sseemtobeaprimerealestate
nowadays.”Liamtalkedunderhisbreath,pullinghisTahoedownanalleyway.
“Haveyoualwaysownedbusinesses?”Iasked.IknewLiamdealtinrealestateandaccount
managementandshitlikethatbutIdidn’tknowifthiswassomethinghehadalwaysdoneorwantedtodo,
tobeginwith.
“No.Ididn’treallygetintorealestateuntilJayaskedmetobuyinwithhimonabusiness.I
wasleeryatfirstandthenwestartedtoseeaprofitandIeasedupabit.Iguessyoucouldsaytherestis
history.”Hegavemeapanty-meltingsmirk,parkingtheSUVinaspotthatsaidRESERVEDFOR
MANAGEMENT.
“Interesting…”Ibitmybottomlip,feelingthewarmthofmyarousalbetweenmylegs.Wewere
simplyhavingacasualconversationyet,everymomentIhadalonewiththemanIwantedtoberidinghis
cock.
“Itis,butI’msureit’snotasinterestingasyou.Ididmyresearchonyousweetheart…that
doesn’tmeanthatIknoweverypersonalaspect,though.”Heturnedthecaroffandpocketedthekeys.He
wasstaringatmelikehewantedtogettoknowmebetter,whileIwasstaringathimlikehewasjuicy
steakIwantedtotakeabiteoutof.
“I’vealwayslovedkids.Mysiblingshavekids,andbeingtheyoungestofallofthemkindof
mademefeelleftout.Myparentsarestrictaboutrelationshipsandmylifehasalwaysseemedsofixed.
Takingthischancewithyouwassomethingtheywouldbecompletelyagainst,whichiswhyIprobably
didit…Whilethatandyou’reanawesomeDad,andplainallaroundgoodguy.”Irubbedmylipstogether
makingsuremylipstickwasstillinplace.
“I’mgladyoudecidedtotakeachanceonme,onus.”Hiswordsslicedthroughmeandintomy
heart.Iknewhethoughtthathewastheluckyonefindingmebutinreality,Iwastheluckyonehaving
foundhim.HadhenotpostedthatjobadImaynotbehererightthissecond.
“Itwasn’tjustme,itwasyoutoo.Wehaveeachothertothankforallofthis.Nowlet’sget
insidebeforeyourfriendsgethere.Ineedsomeliquidcourage.”Iadmittedlettingthenervousnessof
meetingallofLiam’sco-workersandfriendssinkin.
“RememberwhatIsaid.Iftheydon’tlikeyoufuckem’.Idon’tneedanyoneinmylifethatcan’t
handlethewomanI’mmadlyinlovewith.”Iblinked,becausenotonlyhadhejustsaidlovetome,buthe
alsoexitedthecarleavingmealoneinsideforasecondgivingmenochancetorespondtohiscomment.
GrippingthedoorhandleIexitedtheTahoeaswellandwalkedrightuptohimmyheels
clackingloudlyagainsttheconcrete.
“DidyoujustsaywhatIthinkyoudid?”Iwaskindofsurprisedhonestly.
“Idid.Ishouldn’thavetowaitfortheperfecttime,Whitney.Notwheneverydamnsecondwith
youisperfect.”Woulditbetooclichétosaymyheartsoaredoutofmychestandintothestreetbehind
me?
InsteadofsayingsomethingbackthatwouldruinthemomentaltogetherIplacedmyhandinhis
andsaid,“Let’sgostudmuffin.”Heintertwinedourfingersandpulledmecloserintohissideopeningthe
doorinfrontofus.
AssoonaswesteppedinsideandthroughthesecondpairofdoubleglassdoorsIfeltlikeIhad
beentransportedtoanotherplace.
“Wow…”Imumbledundermybreathsurprisedbythebeautyofdarknessandperfection.The
placewasbeautifulwithhighceilings,andchandeliersthathungpreciselywherealightwasneeded.
Liamdidn’tgivememuchtimetodigesttheplacebecauseinamatterofsecondshewas
leadingusuptotheMahoganyhandcraftedwoodbar.
“Whatwillyahave?”Thebartenderimmediatelycameovertousdirectinghisquestionatme
first.
“Martiniplease,”Iwasn’tsureifIshouldbedrinkingduetothefactthatweweretryingtoget
pregnantbutIwouldhavetopushthatthoughtawayforasecondwhileIdownedtheMartinithatthe
bartenderplacedinfrontofme.
“Foryousir?”ThebartenderaskedLiam.
“Nothankyou.Iwilljusttakeawaterplease,”Liamsmiledbutitdidn’tmeethiseyes.I
understoodhowhefelt,though.Thiswasn’thisscene.Hewouldmuchratherbeathomewithhisbaby
girlthatoutgallivantingthecity.NothingwithLiamwasaboutimage,oraboutwhatyouhad.Itwasabout
thethingsthatreallymattered,yourfamily,andyourfriends.Thethingsyoucouldn’tputapricetagon.
“Youdon’tdrink?”Iwhisperedintohisear,allbutgulpingdownmydrink.
“Nope.Idon’tseeareasontodosonow,andneverhave.”Hiseyesmetmine,andIwantedto
reachupandplacemylipsagainsthissobadlyrightinthatsecondthatIalmostdidhaditnotbeenforthe
large,butslightlyhandsomemanthattappedonhisshoulderbehindhim.
“I’mgladyoucouldmakeitouttonight,forthefirsttimeinforever,andIseeyoubroughta
guest.”LiamturnedustofacewhoIassumedwasJay.Hewasabigguy,tall,andbeefy.Amanthat
lookedmorelikeabouncerthanabusinesspartner.
“Idid.JaythisisWhitney,mygirlfriend.WhitneythisisJaymybestfriendandbusiness
partner.”Liam’sholdonmedidn’tslackifanythingitseemedtotighten.Igavehimalittlewavewithmy
handtakingtheoliveoutofmyglassandchewingit.
“It’sapleasuretomeetyou,Whitney,youmustbethereasonLiamhasbeenhidingaway.”Jay
snickeredpokingfunatLiam.Ilaughedbrushingoffthecomment.
“Nope.Emeryisdefinitelytheappleofhiseye.I’mjustsecondbest.”Inudgedhimintheside
andwatchedashisbody,lituplikeaChristmastree.
“Verytruesweetheart,thoughwebothknowyou’reequalinmyeyes.”Liamgavemeatight
squeezeasJaygesturedforustomoveawayfromthebarandupthegrandstaircasewhereprivateVIP
boothswerelocated.
Togetherweallmadeitupthestairsandtothebooth,mybodybeggingmeforanotherdrink
already.
“We’regoingtobemeetingwithsomepotentialbusinessclientstonightsoIhopethatisokay?”
JayspokedirectlytoLiamasifIwasn’tthere.
“WhitneyismygirlJay.Ifanyonehasaproblemwithherbeingheretheycanleave.”Okay,I
reallyneededadrink.SlidingintotheboothoverthesuppleleatherIwaitedforawaitresstocometoour
boothandwhenshedidIorderedtwobeers.
“Justdoublecheckingbudthatisall.”Jayshrugged.IcouldtellLiamwasannoyedtheentire
situationsoIslippedmyhandbetweenhislegshopingIcouldeasesomeofthetensionoutofhim.
Hisbodystiffenedandhishardcockpressedagainstmypalm.Mmm,somebodyisreadyto
comeoutandplay.
“Tina…Welcome.”Jaygreetedthewomanwhowasn’tmucholderthanme.Herlongblonde
hairwascurledperfectly,whileherdressaccentedeverysingleinchofhersicklyperfectlookingbody.
“Whatthefuck!”LiambarkedatJayragelikeIhadneverseenbeforeexplodingfromwithin
him.
Jayraisedbothofhishandsasiftosaycalmdownbutthatonlyseemedtomakemattersworse.
“What’samatter,Liam?Afraidtoworkwithanex?”ThewomanknownasTinatauntedand
suddenlyIneededanotherroundofbeers.Mystomachchurnedandtheideaofblowingchunksallover
thisplayboybunniesdressstartedtosoundreallygood.
“NoTina.Idon’tworkwithex’s,thereforeyoucantakewhateverbusinessventureyouhave
andfindsomeoneelse.Godknowsyou’regoodatcheating,lying,andmanipulatingpeople.”Ohfuck,
somethingtoldmethatTinadidsomethingtomysweetmanandthatdidn’tsettlewithme.
“Hi,Tina.I’mWhitneyLiam’sgirlfriend.”Iannouncedsmilingather.Shedidn’tsmileback,
though,shemerelysneered.
“Iseeyou’repickingupyournewestgirlfriendsatthestripclub?Pleasetellmeyoudon’tbring
heraroundthatsweetlittlepumpkinofyours?”Achuckleoflaughterlefthermouth,amouththatIwas
seriouslyconsideringpunchingafterthatcomment.
Liamshookhishead.“JustlikeItoldJayifsomeonedidn’tlikeWhitneythatwasn’ther
problembutthere’sandsinceIco-ownthisplaceIshouldhaveyourasskickedrightoutsideforthat
comment.WhateverIdowithmydaughterandpersonallifeismine.We'refuckingleaving.”IknewLiam
hadhittheendofhisropewhenthefirestartedtoforminhiseyes.
“Really?Runningaway,ordoesshehaveacurfew?”Anotherjabatme,andanotherstepcloser
toknockingherlightsout.
“Tina…”Ismiled.“It’sobviousthatwhateveryouhadwithLiamisgone.Verygone,beginthat
Iwasridinghisdickjustthisafternoonandthathe’sobviouslyjusttoogoodforyou.Thatandbeingmean
doesn’tmakeyouprettyontheinsidesweetie,notasmuchasyouthinkitdoesI’msure.”Ishovedfrom
theboothneedingtogetairbeforeIsockedtheBarbieinherperfectnose.Ihadneverbeenaviolent
personbutIhatedthethingsthatshesaidtohim,andthewayshetalkedaboutEmery.
GoingbackoutthesamewaywecameinIgulpeddownthefreshoxygenthesecondIgot
outside.Therewasalightbreezethatseemedtohelpcoolmyhotasfiretemper.
“Whatabitch!”Liam’sdeepvoicescaredmestraightoutofmyskincausingmetojumpwhat
seemedtobetwofeetintheair.Herushedovertome,hishandsgrippingmebythearms.“I’msorryyou
hadtoseethat,orevenmeether.Ididn’texpecthertobehere,andknewJayhadtobeuptosomething
withtheinsistentwayhepesteredmeaboutcomingouttonight.”
“Ican’tbelieveyouwerewithaBarbielookalike.”Isnorted.“She’sarealwinner,Liam.”I
triedtohidemyanger,whichwasn’tdirectedathimbutIwasstillseethingfromthethingsthedamn
womanhadsaid.
“Notmygreatestpickno,andIregrettellingherabouttheadoption.Iwantedkidsatthetime
weweredatingandshedidn’t.It’sagoodthingIdidn’tendupwithherbecauseGodlooksathernow.”
LiamreleasedhisholdonmeasifherealizedthenthatIwasn’tgoingtorunawayormagicallydisappear
throughtheconcrete.
“WeallhaveapastLiam.I’mjustgladyoumadeagoodchoiceanddecidedtogiveEmerya
mothershereallydeserves.”Iboastedaboutmyself,andLiam,ofcourse,beinghimselfcaughtonright
away.
“You’reaperfectmotherWhitneyandwhenthetimecomesforustohaveourownbabyIknow
thatyouwilldoevenbetter.”IlovedthewayhespokesosoftandcarefulaboutmelikeIwasafragile
pieceofglass.
“Iloveyou.Now,getmeoutofherebeforeIgorearrangereallifeBarbieface.”Iordered.
LiamunlockedtheSUVinthenextsecondandwebothpilledin,hopefullyheadingtogettakeoutbecause
nothingmademehungrythangettingintoanalmostbrawl.
ChapterEight
Liam
Twoweekslater
WhitneyandEmeryhadbeenactingstrangethelastweekandIwasn’tsurewhy.Afterthelittle
stuntJaypulledwithWhitneyandme,Iwassureshewasgoingtoberunningbacktoherhouseandour
entirefuturewouldbeatriskbecauseofsomestupidbitchlikeTina.
Whitneyprovedmewrong,though.Shedidn’trunorshyawayfromme.Shesimplyheldherown
provingshehadthestrengthtoholdonevenwhensomeonetriedtoknockherdown.
HerstrengthandloveformepouredfromhermoreandmoreeverysingledayandIhopedlike
hellallthefuckingweweredoingwasgivingherababythatshemorethandeserved.
“SoIjustgotoffthephonewithmymother.”Whitneydidn’tsoundtoothrilled,actually,she
soundedpissed.
“What’sgoingonsweetheart?”Iaskedconcernedthattheyhadsaidsomethingtohertoupsether.
FromthetalksWhitneyandIhadaboutherfamilyitseemedtheyweren’tverysupportiveofherchoiceto
bewithmeandofcoursethatpissedmeoff.
Sheslammeddownontheleathercouchbeside.Emerywasonthefloorplayingwithhertoysand
Iwastryingtocatchuponthefootballhighlights.
“MyparentswantustocometotheirhousefordinnerandbringEmerywith.Iwouldn’thavea
problemwiththisifIdidn’tassumeitwasjustalittlestunttotryandruinwhatwehave.”The
protectivenessinhervoicemademesmile.
“Nothingcanruinwhatwehave.Noonecantelluswhatweredoingiswrong.Theonlypeople
thathavetosupportourchoicesisus.”Iassuredherrunningathandthroughherhairasshelaidherhead
downonmylap.Shelookedexhaustedandconcernfornothingbutherstartedtogrowdeepinmybelly.
“Iknow.IknowbutIdon’twanttodealwithit.MysistertriedconvincingmewhenItalkedtoher
weeksagothatevenbeinganannytoyouwasabadidea.”Shesighedangrily.Iunderstoodher
frustration.Noonelikedfeelingasiftheyhadnooneintheircornerrootingthemon.
“Obviouslyyoursisterwaswrongthen.Iassureyouthewagesarefair,andtheovertimeis
exceptional.”Iteased,smilingdownather,tryingtogetheroutofhergrumpymood.
“Dadddddaaaa…”Emerybabbled,crawlingacrossthefloorathyperspeedtowardsus.Whitney
satuprightaway,pluckingherrightupoffthefloorandintoherarms.
“Say,mommy.”Whitneyurged.Emerymerelysmiled,herbrightblueeyestwinklingwithendless
happiness.
“Nocandosweetheart.She’sbeenadaddy’sgirlsincethedayIbroughtherhomeandshewillbe
fortherestofherlife.”Ibeamed.WhitneyshotmeadirtylookandthenlookedbackdownatEmery.
“Telldaddyyouwon’talwaysbeenhislittlegirlbecausesomedayyourownprinceisgoingto
comeintoyourlifeandsweepyouoffyourfeetjustlikeyourdaddydidtome.”Howwasitpossiblethat
Ihadsomeonesoperfect,sobeautiful,andloving.
“Whenisdinnerwithyourfamily?”Iquestioned,changingthesubjectbecauseIwasn’treadyto
thinkaboutmylittlegirlgrowingupandfindingsomeonetoreplaceme.
“Tonightatseven.Idon’twanttogobutIthinkit’stherightthingtodo.Iwantthemtomeetyou
andEmeryandseejustforthemselveshowamazingyouguysare.”Whitney’seyesbledintomine.She
believedinme,andussomuch.Enoughthatshetoldherfamilywheretogoandhowfasttogetthere.
“Thenwewillgo.Ifyou’reokaywithitthenwewillgo.IwantyoutobehappyandI’mwilling
tomeetyourfamilyifit'ssomethingthatyouwant.”Ilickedmylipstheneedtokissherandassureher
everythingwasgoingtobeokaywasastounding.
“There’ssomethingelse….”Shebitherbottomlipinworry.Fuck,mycockwasalreadyhard.
“What?”Iclearedmythroattryingtocoverupmyarousal.EmerywasstillupafterallandItried
nottoengageinsexualactivitiesinfrontofherevenifWhitneytemptedthebeastbeneaththesurfaceat
everyturn.
ShelookedawayanddownatEmerybeforelookingbackupatmelikeshewascontemplating
something.
“LastweekwhenwewenttothestoreIpickedupapregnancytest.”Iperkedrightup,mybody
goingridged.Ihadwaitedforthisdayforever.IlovedEmeryasmyownandthatwouldneverchangebut
therewasnothinglikehavingyourownchildandwatchingthewomanyoulovedtocarryittobirth.
“Don’tteasemelikethatsweetheart.TellmeifI’vedonethejob.TellmeIhaven’tletyoudown.”
Somethinginmesnapped,andthemaninmeroaredtothesurface.Itwasmyjobtoprovide,protect,and
givemygirlswhatevertheyneeded.Whitneywantedababy,andIhadfuckedhersomanydifferenttimes
andwaysthatitshould’vebeendonebynow.
“Idon’tknowyet.”Sheshookherheadasmallsmilepullingatherlips.Clearly,shethoughtthis
wasfunny.
“Youdon’tknowyet?Didyoutakethetestorno?”Iquestionedabitmoreaggressivethan
needed.Icouldn’thelpmyself,though.Iwantedababyinsideofherjustasbadlyasshewantedone.
“I’mwaitingforEmerytonapsothatwecantakethetesttogether.Ididn’twanttodoitalone.”
Shefrowned.DidshethinkIwouldhaveherdoallofthisalone?
“We'reinthistogether.I’mnotgoingtomakeyoudoanythingbyyourself.Notever.”Ibroughther
lipstominecoaxinghertoopenuptome.Iwantedhertastetocoatmytongueandherbodybeneathmine.
WekissedforalongmomentbeforeEmerytookherhandsandpushedourfacesapartbreakingthe
kissbeforeitevengotgood.Isuckedinadeepbreathcalmingthefirethatburnedthroughmyveins.
“Youjustcockblockedyourdaddy.”Whitneylaughed,puttingEmerybackonthefloorsothatshe
couldplaywithhertoys.Ididn’tfindanythingaboutittobefunnyinfactitwaswaymoreuncomfortable
thanfunny.
“LaughitupdarlingbutwhenI’mdeepinthatpussylatertonightyouwon’tbelaughingso
hard….”Iwarned.IwasgoingtopunishthatslickvaginatonightjustlikeIdideverysinglenightbutfirst
IwasgoingtofindoutifIhadsucceededingivingusbothababy.
Emerystartedtowhine,herbackarchingasthetantrumfromhellstartedtocomeoutofher.Ihad
toadmitthateversinceWhitneystartedstayingwithusEmerywasnothingbutanangel.Shehardlycried,
orfussedandthatwassomethingshealmostalwaysdidbeforeWhitneycamealong.
“Naptimeprincess,”Whitneyannouncedinasing-songvoicegettingEmery’sattentionbeforeshe
couldstartravagingthehousewithherrage.Webothwenttoherbedroomandlaidherdown,andthen
cameouttogether.
“Shallwe?”IaskedeagerlywantingtoknowsobadlyifIhaddonewhatIsetouttodo.
“I’mnervous.”Shewhisperedunderherbreathwalkingdirectlyintothebathroom.Alittle
packagethatsaidEPTonitwassittingonthecounter.
“Nervous?Don’tbe.Why?Thereisnorushbaby.Noneatall.”Iassuredher,wantingtowrapher
upinmyarmsanddonothingbutmakelovetoheralldaylong.Sheownedme.
“IwanttogiveyouthisbabyandI’mgoingtobedisappointedinmyselfifitsaysnegative.”I
hatedthatshewasfeelingsolowaboutherself.
“Nope.Idon’twanttohearanyofthatbullshit.Itwillhappenwhenitdoes.Inthemeantime,
wecanjustcontinuetopractice.”Ididn’tknowifIhadconvincedhertoletgoofthepressureornotbut
shegrabbedthepackageandrippeditopenrevealingawhitelittlestick.Movingpastmeshemadeher
waytothetoiletwhereshedidherbusinesswhiletakingthestickandplacingitbetweenherlegsbefore
puttingitbackonthecounter.
I,ofcourse,grabbedthepackageexaminingittofigureoutwhenwecouldlookatthesmall
littlestick.
“Threewholeminutes.”Patiencewasn’tmystrongsuit.Whitneywashedherhandsandlooked
atmewithmoreanxietythanneeded.Icouldn’thelpseeingherinsuchawaysoIpulledherintomychest
andhopedlikehellthatmybodycouldmeltawaytheanxietyshewasfeeling.
Thesecondsseemedtotickbysoslowlyeachonefeelinglikeanentireyear.Bythetimethree
minuteswasupIwassureIwasgoingtohavegrayhairsproutingfrommyhead.
“Areyouready?”Iaskedjustaboveawhisper.Thiswasthemomentwehadbeenwaitingfor.
Sheheldupherendofthebargainprovidingmewithamotherformydaughter.Itwasmyturntogiveher,
giveusababy.
Withhereyessqueezedshutshemumbledyes,andwebrokeawayfromeachothertolookat
thetest.Mybodyshookandmyhandsfeltclammy.Thereonthelittlestickinthetinywindowlaidtheone
wordthatmadeallofthisworththewhile.
PREGNANT
“OhmyGodLiam.We’rehavingababy.Ababy.”Whitneysoundedlikeshecouldn’tbelieveit,
andhadInotseenthetestrightinfrontofmeIwouldn’thavebelievediteither.
“Yes,we’resweetheart.We’rehavingababy.I’vedonewhatIsetouttodo.”Iannounced
relieffloodingme.Ididn’twanttoletherdown,nottoday,tomorroworeverforthatmatter.
“Yes!”TinytearsslippedfromherbeautifulgreeneyesandIwipedthemawaywithmythumb.
“Thisiswhatwebothwanted.Whatwe’vewaitedforsodon’tcry,baby.Don’tbeupset.”I
didn’tknowhowtohandlealltheseemotionsIwasfeeling.Iwasthrilled,excitedandnervous.Whitney
andIhadwantedthisfromthestart,andthoughwedidn’texpectittohappensofastIdidn’tthinkeither
ofuswasupsetaboutit.
“No.You’reright.”Sheplacedherhandsonmyshoulders.“Iwantthis.Thesearen’tsadtears
buthappyones,becauseforthefirsttimeeverI’vebeengivenagiftthatwillbemineforever,ours
foreversothankyou.”HergratitudetowardsmeandthankfulnesswassomethingIcouldn’tevenputinto
words.TherewasnothingIcouldsaytoherthatIhadn’talready.
Shemadeourfamilywhole,andnowIwasgoingtodomypartbymakingherwholeagain.
ChapterNine
Whitney
Anxietyprickedatmyskinlikeabadrash.LiamandIwerepregnant,andwewerealsogoing
torevealthenewstonighttomyfamily.Nauseaclungtomyinsides.Iwasamess,andmyfamilywould
knowthatthemomentIwalkedthroughthefrontdoor.Still,Iwasn’tgoingtonotshowupandproveto
themthatIwasn’treadyforthemtomeetLiamorEmery.
“Ready?”Iaskedblowingoutabreath.IhaddressedcasuallywhileEmerywasinabright
yellowdressandLiamlookedlikehewastryingtoimpresssomeone.Whathedidn’tknowwasthere
wasn’tanyimpressingmyfamily.
“Wheneveryou’resweetheart.”Wehadjustparkedalongsidethestreetrightoutsidethehouse
Ihadgrownupinmyentirelife.EverylightwasoninsideandIcouldseefromthestreetthateveryone
waspackedinthesmalldiningroomobviouslywaitingfortoshowup.
“WhateverhappensLiam,justknow,thatIloveyouandthatnothingtheysaywillchangethat.”
Ibarelygotthewordsoutandthefrontdoorwasbeingflungopenmymotherstandingbeforeuswitha
witchylookinhereyes.
Shedidn’thavetosayitbutIknewshedisapprovedoftheentirethings,whichprobablyonly
mademewanttodoitallthemore.
“Mrs.Skyit’ssonicetomeetyou.”Liamhustledtothedoortogreetmymotherwhooffered
himastrainedsmile.
“It’ssoverynicetomeetyouaswell.I’msohappyyouandWhitneycouldmakeit.”Icouldn’t
evenstopmyeyesfromrollingifItried.IknewfakewhenIsawitandmymotherwasplayingtherole
verywelltoday.
Usheringusthroughthefrontdoormyanxietyonlyseemedtomountasmyentirefamilystared
atmewithjudgmentintheireyes.IfoundLaylaacrosstheroomhereyesonthefloor.
Shehadtotallytoldthemeverything,evenwithoutmebeingabletostickupformyself.IknewI
shouldbemad,lividevenbutIwasn’twhenitcametoher.NotwhenIknewmyparentswouldjustforce
hertotellthem.
“Hello,I’mJack,Whitney’sfather.”Mydad’sdeepvoicerumbledthroughme,bringingme
backtothepresent.HewaseyeingupLiamwithvengeanceinhiseyesasifhehaddonesomethingwrong
already.
“I’mLiamWhitney’sboyfriend,andthisismydaughterEmery.”Liamsmiled,brushingoffthe
factthatmyentirefamilyseemedtobethrowingdaggersatus.Emerycooed,andIswearIsawtheheatin
myfather’sgazemeltaway.
“Whilenowthatwehaveintroductionsdownlet’sgoeat.We’vebeenwaitingforaboutten
minutesforyoutoshowup.”Mymothermadenoattempttohideherangertowardsmeandinsteadwrung
herhandsthroughherapronbeforescurryingoffintothekitchen.
Istaredattheentrancetothediningroomwheremysister,herhusband,andmybrother,andhis
wifewiththeirthreekidsallstood.
“LiamthisismysisterLaylaandherhusbandLink.”Mysisterlookedatmewithamazement
andherhusbandlookedattheground,clearlyboredbytheentirething.
“AndthisisPetemybrother,andhiswifeMollyandtheirthreekids,Heather,Matt,andGreg.”
PeteglaredatLiamandMollygaveatight-lippedsmile.Neithermysister,orbrothersaidhello,orit’s
nicetomeetyouwhichonlymademeangrier.LiamandEmeryinmyeyeswereasmuchfamilyasthey
were.
“Everyonepleasehaveaseat.”Mymotherannouncedbringingatraywithtwolargeroasted
chickensonit.Ilookedaroundtheroom,andatthepeoplethatIcalledmyfamily.Ilookedatmymother,
andfatherwhodidn’tseemtocareorhaveamomenttosparetobehappyfortheirdaughter.
IlookedatLaylawhocouldn’tevenmeetmyeyesbecauseshewassoguiltyofwhatshehad
donethatshedidn’twanttolookatmeandthentherewasmybrotherwhohadn’treallysaidmorethana
handfulofwordssincehegraduatedfromHighSchoolandleftthehousetome.
Irealizedthenthatthiswasn’tmyfamily.Ididn’thavetohidebehindsomethingthatwasn’treal
withLiambecauseitwasall,real.Everykiss,caress,andword.Itwasreal.
“Actually…”MyeyesdartedtoLiam’sandthentobabyEmery’s.DidIwantthiskindoflife
forher?Orourunbornbaby?“LiamandIjustcametotellyouallthatwereexpectingababy….Iknow
thatnoneofyouwillapproveandthat’sfinebecauseit’snotyourlife.It’smine.”Ikeptmyvoicestrong
refusingtoshoweventheslightestcrackthatmymomcouldbustthrough.
“Youjustcametotellusthatyou’rehavingababywithamanthatyouhardlyknow.Amanthat
obviouslycouldn’tkeepthatlittlegirl’smotheraroundlongenoughtogiveherastablelife….”Iclenched
myfistsatmysidesatmymother’ssnidecomment.
“Mrs.SkywillallrespecttoyourfamilyIwouldappreciateitifyouwouldn’tmakefalse
claimsup.Thislittlegirlisadoptedmeaningbothherparentsdecidedtoletthesystemhaveherandme
beingastand-upguyadoptedher,withouttheneedofawoman.”Liam’svoiceroseashecontinuedto
speak,thestrengthinhiswordsgivingmemyownstrength.
“Comingherewasabadideaanyway.YouknewnothingaboutLiamandwerealreadyjudging
himthesecondhewalkedinthedoor.Hell,youhadallyourownassumptionsbeforeweevengothere.”I
fumed.MaybeitwasmyhormonesormaybeIwasjustdonewithallthebullshit.Ideservedbetter,and
evenifmyfamilydidn’tsupportmychoiceofhappinessthatdidn’tmeanIhadtostandaroundandlisten
tothem.
“IfyouleaveWhitneywewillneverallowyoutocomeback…”Myfatherwarned.Theman
thathadtaughtmehowtoridemyfirstbike,themanthatwastogivemeawayonthedayofmywedding
wasthreateningme.
IclenchedmyfistsuntilIcouldfeeltheindentationofmynailsintomypalm.“Idon’tneedthis
familyandIdon’tneedyourhateorjudgmentwhichiswhywereleaving.Iwon’thavetowakeupevery
dayandknowthatIshovedmydaughteroutofmylife.That’llbeonyou.”Ipointedatmyparent’sbefore
turningonmyheelsandheadingforthedoor.Everythingaboutthishousewassuffocatingme,andIjust
neededout.IcouldhearLiamspeakingsoftlytomyparent’sasIsteppedoutthefrontdoor,lettingthe
coolbreezecalmme.
WhatwasIthinking?HadIwantedLiamtomeetmyfamilysobadlythatIpushedthefactthatit
wouldbethiswayfrommymind?Hedidn’tdeservethis.
“Eveniftheydon’tsupportyou,youknowthatIdo.Icareaboutyou.Iloveyou.Icherishyou.”
Liamwhisperedinmyear,oneofhisarmswrappingaroundme,tuggingmeintohisside.Emerywasstill
chillingonhisarm,herbigbrightblueeyesfilledwithwonderment.
“Iknowthatandthat’sthereasonIcametothisconclusionasIstoodtherestaringataroomfull
ofstrangers.Theyweresupposedtobemyfamilybutnothingotherthanthebloodthatranthroughour
veinsshowedit.DNAdidn’tmakeyoufamily,andthebloodyoushareddidn’tmakepeopleloveyou.”I
sobbed,lettingthepainfultearsIhadbeenholdingbackfinallyslipdownmycheeks.
“Wellyou’refamilynowsweetheartandnothinganyonesayswilleverchangethat.Iknew
whenwecameheretonightitwasn’tforme,butforyou.IcamebecauseIwantedyoutoknowthatIcared
enoughaboutyoutowanttomeetyourfamilyevenifIknewtheywouldjudgeusrightoffthebat.”His
confessiononlymademesobharderandthatinturnmademeabiggermess.
“I’msorryLiam,”IwhisperedagainsthischestasIhadhimguideusbacktoourcar.Ihad
wastedbothofourtimebycominghere.
“Don’tbesorryforthethingsthatyoucannotcontrol.I’mgratefulforeverythingyouhavedone
forEmeryandme.”Ifeltbutterfliesflutterarounddeepinsidemychestandwithverystepawayfromthe
house,theairinmylungsseemedtoreleaseeasier.Thetensionleftmybones,andbythetimewewere
allinthecarandleavingtheonehouseIgrewupinbutwouldneverseeagainIunderstoodwhatIwas
feeling.
Iwasfreeandfearless.Ididn’thavetoworryaboutmyparentsjudgingmeorwonderingabout
thebabyormylife.
AllIhadtoworryaboutwasLiamandthelittlegirlinthebackseatthatIneededtobean
examplefor.FromthatdayonIvouchedthatIwouldbenothinglessthanastellarmom,promisingnever
toabandonorjudgeher.
“Iloveyou,”IsaidclaspingontoLiam’shand.Hesqueezedmyfingerstightly,asheinterlaced
thembeforesaying.
“Iloveyoutoo.”Andhedidloveme.Helovedmewithoutacaretowhatthefuturemayhold.
Helovedmeforme,thenannyheneeded,themotherheneededforEmeryandthewomanthatIwas
today,andinreturn,Igotababyandafamilythatwaswhole.
Afamilythatboiledoverthetopwithhappiness,andlove.Afamilythatwantedmeforme.
ChapterTen
Liam
SixMonthsLater
IsmileddownatWhitneyherswollenbellyfilledwithmytwolittleboys.Shewasnearly
sevenmonthspregnantandIknewbasedoffwhatthedoctorssaidthatwithtwinsthebabiescouldbe
bornanyday.
PlacingthebreakfasttrayonthebednexttohersleepingformIwatchedhersuckintinylittle
breathsandexpelthem.ShewassofuckinbeautifulwhenpregnantIwasprettysureIwouldkeepherthis
wayforaslongasIcould.
“Didanyoneevertellyouthatit’screepytowatchsomeonesleep?”Whitney’ssleepyvoice
metmyearscausingmetojump.Myeyescollidedwithheropenonesasshegavemeasoftsmile.
“It’snotcreepytowatchsomeoneyoulovesleep?Iwasadmiringyourbeautyandthefactthat
you’remine.”Igrinnedgrabbingthetrayandmaneuveringitsothatshecouldseethecontentsonit.Ihad
madeherbreakfastinbedbutIalsoplacedsomethingelseonthetray.
“ThisissosweetofyouLiam.”Shegushedsittingupgentlyherswollenbellymakingithardto
bringthetrayuptoher.OnceshewascomfortableImoveditclosertoherandtookaseatontheother
sideofthebed.Secondstickedbywherenothingbutourbreathingcouldbeheard.
“Whatisthis?”Sheturnedtome,tearsinhereyesassheclaspedtheblackringboxinherhand.
IknewIwantedtoaskWhitneytomarrymethedayImetherIjustknewitwastoosoonandwaytoo
muchforherbutnowthatwewereafamilytherewasnowayIcouldholdoffondoingit.Ineededto
makehermine.
“It’smyloveforyou,andmypromisetoalwaysbehereforyou.It’saringthatIhopeyouwear
onyourfingertosignifyingourrelationship.”Shepoppedtheboxopenwithherthumb,herhandsshaking
assheexaminedthetwo-caratdiamondringthatwasmygreatgrandma’sweddingband.
“OhmyGod.”HervoicewasfaintbutthelookinhereyessaidsheloveditandIknewshe
fuckingwould.
“WillyoudomethehonorWhitneySky?Willyoubemywifeandthemothertomychildren?
Mypartner?”Iaskedcuppingherbythecheek,forcinghereyestostayonmine.Ineededthismoment
withherlikeIneededmynextbreath.Whenshenoddedherhead,yes,andthetearsfinallystartedtoslip
downhercheeksItooktheringoutoftheboxandplaceditonherfingeradmiringhowperfectlyitfit.
“Ican’tbelieveyouwanttomarryme…”Shesniffled.
“OfcourseIwanttomarryyou,Whitney.Iloveyou.”Istrokedhercheeksoftlywithmythumb.
“Imeanlookatme.”Shemotionedtoherbelly.“I’masbigasahouseandI’mcrankyandsome
day’sI’mawreck…”Ihadtostopherbeforesheranherselfoffacliffwithallthethingsshewassaying.
“Shhhh.”Iplacedafingeragainstherfullpinklips.“That’sthebeautyoflovesweetheart.It's
notabouthowapersonlooksontheoutsideit'saboutwhattheylooklikeontheinside.It’sabouttheir
heartandIknowdamnwellhowbigofaheartyouhave.Plusifitweren’tformeyouwouldn’tbe
pregnantsoI’mhalftoblameforyourswollenbelly.”Icouldn’tstopmyselfIleanedinstrokingmylips
againstherslettinghersweettastelingeragainstmylips.
Thiswithherwouldnevergetold.TheloveIhadforherwouldneverexpire.Wehaditall
evenifweonlyhadeachother.
“Thenyes,Iwillbeyourwife.”Shewhisperedagainstmylipsmakingmethehappiestmanonthe
Earth.
ChapterOne
Nash
-TwoYearsEarlier
SalivafilledmymouthasIwatchedCarly,mybestfriend’shardlylegaldaughter,strutherstuff
pastmeoutbythepool.Ihadshownuptotheirpoolpartythinkingthelittlebratwouldn’tbehere.Man,
hadIthoughtwrong.
Grippingontothearmrestsofmychair,Itriedtoreasonwiththemanthatshetemptedat
everyturn.
Youcan’thaveher.
Isuckedinadeepbreathoffreshoxygenbeforeclosingmyeyestoregainsomeofmy
sanity.Thegirlhadbeenteasingmeformonths.Wearinglittletonoclothingaroundme,andgoingasfar
astorubherselfagainstmeinplacesI’msureshehadn’tevenexploredyet.
Shehadvirginwrittenalloverher,andI’llbedamnedifthatalonedidn’tmakemewanther
more.Theneedtotrulyfindoutifshewasasnaïveassheappearedtobeseemedtoconsumemy
thoughts.
Fuck!Ishouldn’tbethinkingaboutthis,abouther.I’dknownCarlysincethedayshewas
bornandnowaycouldIlieandsayIhadn’tbeensuckedintothosebigbrowncoloredeyesofhers.
Still,lookingathernow,thattinylittlegirlhadallbutdisappeared.Shehadcurves,andtits,
andfulllipsthatneededtobewrappedaroundmycock.
“Doyouwantadrink,Nash?”Kyleasked,pullingmefrommyverybadthoughtsofhis
daughterbeforeitcouldgoanywhere.
“I’lltakeabeer…”Irasped,myeyesbeingdrawnbacktoCarlyacrossthepool.Shewas
sittingwithafriend,listeningtoherfriendgushaboutsomemundanebullshit.Probablycollegeorhigh
schoolshit.
“Hereyougo,bud.”KylehandedmethebottleofBudLight,twistingthecapoffforme.As
ifIwasapussyorsomeshit.ItwasgettingharderandhardertobearoundKylewhenhisdaughterwas
justwithinarmsreach.
“How’sthingswithSarahgoing?”Iasked,beforetippingthebottlebackandlettingthebeer
coatmythroat.
Heshrugged,andthenflippedtheburgershewascookingonthegrill.Ifeltbadfortheman,
andnotjustbecausehewasmyfriend.Itwasnevereasytolearnthatyourhighschoolsweetheartwas
cheatingonyouwithyourownboss.WhichiswhyIalwaysfucked,andneverstayed.
Itwaseasierthatway.Lessmess.Lessheartache.
“She’snotgoingtotherapyanymore,andsheisn’tevenmakinganefforttoseethekids.I
thinkit’sstartingtoeffectCarly.”Igroundmyteethtogether.Fuck.ThebeautifulbrunettewasallIcould
thinkaboutasitwas,nowherfatherwantedtotalkabouther,withmenoless.
Ishookmyheadlightly,takinganotherswigfromthebottle.Iwasgoingtoneedtwenty
moreoftheseifIplannedontalkingaboutCarlyanymoretonight.
“I’vebeenyourfriendalongasstimeKylesoI’mgoingtosaythisasnicelyasIcan.She
mightbethemotherofyourchildrenbutshe’saragingbitchforteachingherkidsit’sokaytocheat.”I
blinked,havingnotrealizedwhatactuallycameoutofmymouth.
Kylejusthuffedoutalaugh,adjustinghisglasses.Ilovedthemanlikeabrother,whichonly
madethefacthisdaughtergavemearagingbonerthatmuchharder.IfheeverdiscoveredhowIfeltabout
her,hellifsheeverdiscoveredit,wewouldbothwescrewed.
“AtleastIstillgotyou!”Heslappedahandonthebackofmyshoulder.Wavesofguilt
crashedintome.Iexcusedmyselftogotothebathroom.Ineededaminuteortwoawayfromeveryoneto
clearmyhead.
Islippedthroughtheslidingglassdoorsandintothelavishcondo.Theplacelookedlikeit
belongedinafuckingmagazine.Itwasallbrightandcleanandwaytoofuckingfancyforme.
MybootsslammedloudlyagainstthetilefloorasIwalkeddownthehallinthedirectionof
thebathroom.Ihadjustgrabbedthedoorknobtotherestroom,whenIheardthequietpitter-patteroffeet
behindme.Feelinglikeasickfuckerdeepdowninside,IturnedonmyheelseventhoughIshouldn’t.
“Youaren’tleavingyet,areyou?”Shetwirledastrandofhercaramelbrowncoloredhair
aroundherfingerwhileshestaredatmewithfuckmeeyes.Mycockstiffened,andmyhandsachedto
touchher.
“No,Carly.I’mheadingtotherestroomandunlessyou’dliketoholdmycockforme,or
suckit,thenyou’renotneededhere.”Iforcedasmileandturnedbackaround,feelingconfidentIhad
scaredheraway.Ididn’twanttobeadicktoher,butIneededtoprotectbothofusandbeingadickwas
theeasiestwaytodoit.
Thefuckinggirlneededsomesenseknockedintoher.Iwashellonwheels,andthekindof
guythatbrokeheartslikehersstraightdownthemiddle.Ididn’tdocommitmentsoranythingalongthose
lines.NottomentionthefactthatIwasnearlytwentyyearsolderthanher,andherfatherwasmybest
friend.
Fuckme.Thiscouldn’thappen.ButIwanteditto.
“MaybeIwanttosuckyourcock,Nash.”Herhandlandedagainstmyarm,haltingany
furthermovementfromme.Iwasfacetofacewithhernow,andIsqueezedmyeyesshut,prayinglikehell
thatwhenIopenedthemthatIcouldresisthersweettouch.
“Sorrysweetheart,butamanlikemeknowswhenawomanlikeyourselfisavirginto
everythingincludingsuckingdick,sounlessyougotsomethingelsetotellme,runalong.”Ipoppedmy
eyesopen,hopingshewouldtakethehintandwalkaway.Insteadshemovedincloser,herchestrubbing
againstmine.Icouldfeelherhardnipplespebbleagainstthefabricofherbathingsuittopandthe
sensationshotstraightthroughme.
“Iwantyouthough,andIknowforcertainyouwantme.”Shenibbledonherbottomlip,
temptingmeandmysteelhardcock.Iinhaledthroughmynostrils,herscentnearlyknockingmeover.
Lavender.
Thesweetfloralscentfilledmyairwaysandtookovermybody.Shesmeltlikeafucking
freshlypickedflower.
“No,Carly.I’mwaytobadforagoodgirllikeyou.Nowstoplustingaftermeandhell,
betteryet,stopteasingme.”Ihissedout,lettingalittlebitofmycontrolslip.Herhandwasstillresting
againstmyforearmandIcouldn’tlieandsayIdidn’tlikethefeelingofherbodyagainstmine.NotwhenI
likedita-fucking-lot.
“Carly,haveyouseen…”Kyle’svoicestungmyears,asIshruggedoffCarly’shand.She
twirledaroundtofaceherDadandItookthatmomenttoslipintothebathroom.IheardCarlysighand
walkawayfromthebathroom,tellingherdadsomethingtoholdhimoverforthetimebeing.
Igrippedtheendsofmylongishjet-blackhairinfrustration.Iwasagrownassmanlusting
afterayoungwomanthatIhadnobusinesslustingafter.
Thefactthatshehadallbutbeggedmetofuckherdidn’thelp.Ihadbarelyresistedherjust
now.Whatwouldhappennexttime?
Ishouldjustleave.Thiswasallwrong.Mewantingher.Herwantingme.Iwaslikean
uncletoher.Ishouldn’tbethemanpoppinghercherry.
Idrainedthetankandwashedmyhands,staringatthemanupthatreflectedbackatmeinthe
mirror.Ihadatinybitofstubblethatmarredmycheeksandchin.Mydarkeyeswerevacantofanyreal
emotion,andIlooktiredasfuck.
IletoutaraggedbreathandhopedlikehellthatCarlyhadfinallytakenthewarningand
walkedaway.RelieffloodedmeassoonasIopenedthedooranddidn’tseeher.Thankfuckherfather
hadshownup,thenagainIcouldn’timaginewhatthehellhethoughtweweredoinginthehallwayso
closetoeachother.
“Ican’tthankyouenough,Nash.Forbeingmyfriendandhelpingwiththekids.”Kyle’s
voicestartledme,freezingmeinplace.Ididn’ttakeanotherstep.Ijuststoodtheirshell-shocked.What
couldIsaytohim?
Ishrugged,playingitcool,becausehonestlyIdidn’tknowwhattosay.
“You’repracticallyfamily,man.Noneedtothankme.”Iwasn’tlying,hewaspracticallyfamily.
Myfamilywasn’tverysupportiveofmylife,andwhenIsignedaten-yearcontractwiththeArmy,
whateversupporttherehadbeenhadevaporatedintothinair.
“Nope,thankyou’saredefinitelyinorder.Carlytoldmewhatyouguysweretalkingaboutbefore
youwentintothebathroom.LetmejustsaythatI’mgladtohavesomeonelikeyouprotectingmydaughter
fromanythingbadinthisworld.”Hecameoutfromaroundthemarbleislandandgavemeahug.
Thatbad,badgirl.Asmirkpulledatmylipsasmyeyesglancedouttheslidingglassdoorsand
outtothepoolwhereshewasstandinglookinginatherfatherandI.
Shemighthavehadhimfooled,andmaybeevenmeforashorttime,butnotanymore.Iknew
exactlywhatitwasthatshewanted,andexactlywhatIwouldhavetodotoendthisbetweenus.
“I’llalwaysbehere.Nomatterwhat.”Iconfessed,andletthewordslingerasweseparatedso
thatwecouldgobackoutintotheheat.AllIcouldseewasCarlyandallIcouldfeelwashersmallhand
againstmyskin.
Ineededtoleave.Ineededtoendthis.
Thehourstickedby,thesunfinallystartedtoset.Itwasbeautiful,anarrayofreds,blues,and
orangespaintingtheskyline.
“Don’tdenyme.”Carlyslippedintotheseatnexttome,hervoicesoft,sosoftthatIalmostmissed
whatshesaid.
“Thiscan’thappen,Carly.Notnow.Notever.”Itoldher,watchingthelightfleefromhereyes.I
hatedbreakingherheart,butthiswasforthebest.IhadnootheroptionbuttoleavebecauseifIstayedI
wouldgrantherthatonefuckingwishshehad:tobewithme.
“Iwon’ttell.”Shebitherbottomlip,whiteteethsinkingintothefleshthatImyselfdesperately
wantedtobite.Iclenchedmyfisttogether,mycockgrowinghardonceagainbecauseofthissweetgirl
whodidn’tknowwhatshewasaskingfor.
“Iwill,though.YourdadthinkstheworldofmeandIwon’ttarnishthatview.Iwon’tfuckwith
yourlife,babygirl.”Iraspedwantingnothingbuttotakeherbacktoherroom,stripherbare,andfuckher
likeacrazedman.
Hereyesflickedtoherfatherwhowasstandingbyherbrotherattheedgeofthepool.Heloved
hisfuckingkids.Theywerehisworld,andIcouldn’tdoanythingthatwouldfuckthatup.
“Iwantyouthough,andIdon’tcareifwecan’tbetogether.Itonlyhastobeonce.”Shewas
desperate,anddeservedmorethansomeonelikemetakingfromherwhateverIwanted.Iwouldn’tbethat
fuckerevenifIwantedtobesofuckingbadly.
“No.It’snothappening.Iwilltellyouthis,though.You’rebeautifulandhaveanentireworld
beforeyou.Don’tgiveyourvirginitytosomeoneyouthinkshouldhaveit.Beinlove.Okay?”Iwhispered
undermybreath,gettingupfromthechairbeforeIdidsomethingrecklesslikekissheruntilneitherofus
couldbreathe.
“It’sstillgoingtobeyou.Tomorrow.Nextweek.Intwoyears.I’llwait.”Ishookmyhead,forcing
thewordsshehadspokenfrommymind.Icouldn’tthinkaboutanyofthatshitasIwalkedoutofherlife
forthefirsttime.Ineededthedistance.It’stheonlythingthatwouldkeephervirginityintactandmyface
frombeingbustedup.
“I’mheadingout,Kyle.”Isaidgruffly,clearingmythroat.Emotionsswarmedme.Kylewavedat
meashepushedhissonTannerintothepool.Iopenedtheslidingglassdoorandtookinonelastlookof
thebrown-eyedbeautybeforeclosingthedoor.
It’sforthebest.
Shewouldsurvive,andfindlovesomewhereelse.
ChapterTwo
Carly
-PresentDay
MybodylituplikeaChristmastreewhenmyfathertoldmeNashwouldbecomingtomy
graduationparty.IthadbeentwoyearssinceIhadlastseenhim,andmybodyreactedthesamewayit
alwaysdidwhenIheardhisname.MyheartwaspoundinginmyearsasIracedupourlongass
driveway,thesunjustcomingupoverthehorizon.
IhadmadeupmymindasIranthetwo-miletrailsaroundthehouse.Iwasboundanddetermined
tokeephiminmylifethistime.TherewasnowayinhellthatIwasgoingtolethimleavemebehind
again.
Iopenedtheslidingglassdooroffthesideofthehouse,ashriekeruptingfrommythroatwithin
secondsofcrossingthethreshold.
There,onthecouchinthehousemyfatherhadboughtme,sattheonemanthatIlovedmorethan
life.Istaredathimforalongmoment,drinkinginhimlikeacoldglassofwater.
“DoyouknowwhatI’vedoneinthelasttwoyears?”Herasped,hisvoiceallgravely.Hisback
wasstilltome,andIwantedtoseehisface.God,Ineededtoseehisface,justtomakesureitwasreally
him..
“Howdidyoufindthisplace?”ThequestionleftmylipsbeforeIcouldstopit.Iwantedtoknow
hecamebecauseheneededtoseeme,becauseheneededmeasmuchasIneededhim.
Agrufflaughlefthislips,andIwalkedfurtherintotheroom,untilIwasdirectlyinfrontofhim.I
couldfeeldropsofsweatslidingdownmychestandontomybreast.MypussyclenchedwithdesiresI
didn’tquiteunderstandyet.Ihadheldontomyvirginityforhim.
“ItoldyourfatherIhadagiftforyou…”Heliftedhishead,hisdarkeyesmeetingmygaze.I
couldseeastormofemotionsbrewinginhim.IknewtemptinghimasbadlyasIhadtwoyearsago
pushedhimovertheedge.Itforcedhimtoleave,butnowhewasbackandIcouldn’tthinkaboutthepast
withhimrightinfrontofme.Heshovedfromthecouchfasterthanexpected,forcingmetotakeastep
back.
ButbeforeIcouldmoveevenaninchhehadmeagainsthischest,hisstrongarmswrappedaround
me.
“Youcameback…”Ididn’tknowwhatelsetosayinthatmoment.Hisscentsurroundedme,
warmingeverysinglecellinmybody.Hesmeltliketheoutdoorsmixedwithahintofsmoke,sultryand
intoxicating.
Ijustwantedtoreachuponmytiptoesandpressmylipstohis.Ididn’tcareifhewastwenty
yearsolderthanme.Orthathewasmydad’sbestfriend.IjustknewIwantedhim.
“Itriedtostopmyself,Carly.Itriedtomoveonandfindsomeoneelsetobewith,butIjust
couldn’tdoit.Icouldn’tforgetyou…”Hiseyesmetmine,ashishandsnakedupmyarm,stoppingatmy
cheek,wherehecradlediteversosoftly.Histouchwasgentleandwarm,andGoddidImissit.
“Idon’tcareifmyfatherfindsoutaboutus.Idon’tcarethatyou’reolder.Iwantyoujustasmuch
nowasIdidthen,ifnotmore.”Iconfessed.Timehadn’tchangedadamnthingbetweenus.Hestill
lookedthesame,andmyfeelingsforhimwerestillthesame.
“I’vedeniedmyselfforsolong…”Heleanedintomyface,hisforeheadagainstmine,ashiswarm
breathfannedagainstmycheek.Mytonguedartedoutovermybottomlip,wettingitinanticipation.With
littleeffort,Itippedmylipsupwardsandplacedthemgentlyagainsthis.Assoonasourlipstouched,
somethingsnappedinsideofhim.
Oneminutewewerestanding,andthenextIwaswrappingmylegsaroundhiswaist,allowing
himtowhiskmeupandtakemewhereveritwashewanted.
TheworldcouldshatterintoamillionpiecesaroundusandIwouldn’tletgoofhim.Nothingwas
goingtostopthiskiss,nothing.
Hedevouredmylips,mybackslammingintoanearbywall.Icouldfeelthepainofthehitradiate
upmyspinebutNash’skissessootheditallaway.Histeethnibbledonmybottomlip,beggingformeto
lethiminside,andwhenIdidpassionconsumedme.Mylegswobbledwitheverysinglestrokeofhis
tongueagainstmine.
Itwaslikehewastellingmeastorywithnothingbuthislipsandtongue.Weavingasecretthat
onlyheandIwouldknow.Iwrappedbothmyarmsaroundhisneckandheldonfordearlife,refusingto
letgoofthemanIlovedandhedidthesame.Icouldfeeleverymovementofhishandsasiftheywere
mappingoutmyentireface,andIwonderedifhewasdoingitsothathecouldremembermejustasIwas
rightnowlateron.
“Pleasedon’tleaveagain.”Iwhisperedbetweenkisses,begginghimtostay.Mybreathswere
comingoutinpants.Ihadkissedamanbefore,butneverlikethis.NeverlikeNashwaskissingme.With
somuchexperienceandneed.Firefilledmybelly.
“Never.”Hegrowled,kissingmeharder.Icouldfeelhislipsimprintingonmysoulandknewhe
wasn’tlying.Theemotionsinhiseyesspiraledoutofcontrol,andjustwhenthingswerestartingtoget
good,hepulledaway.
Bothofuswereleftshakingandbreathless,hishandsrubbedupanddownmyarmsashewaited
formetocomebackdowntoEarth.
“Iwanttofuckyou,Carly.Takefromyouwhatyou’vetakenfrommealltheseyears.Makeyou
beg…”Hislipspressedagainstmythrobbingpulse.“Makeyoupleadformore.”Isighed,literally
sighed,againsthischestfeelinghisentirebodyshakewithlaughter.
Noneofthiswasfunny,andespeciallynotthewayhewasmakingmefeelrightnow.Iwantedhim
toripmyclothesoffmybody,andtakemyvirginityrightnow,notlaughatme.
“It’snotfunny.”Iwhined.Helaughedharder,movinghislipsfurtherdownmythroatandontomy
chest.AflimsysportsbrawastheonlythingcoveringmychestandIwanteditgone.
AwarmthlikeIneverfeltbeforepooledbetweenmylegsashegentlypushedoneofthestrapsof
mysportsbradown,exposingoneofmylargebreasts.Imoaneddeeplyassoonashishetookmynipple
intohismouth.
“Yes.Yes.”Ipanted,histongueflickingagainstmynipple.Mypussyclenchedandmyentirebody
shookwithpentupneed.Hecontinuedtoflickhistongueagainstthesensitivenippleuntilmylegswere
wobblingandmyentirebodywasonfire.
Thenhereleasedmytitwithaloudpop,hiseyesrakingupanddownmybodybeforecoming
backuptomyface.TherewasaquestionlingeringinhiseyesandIknewhewasseekingapprovalfor
whateveritwashewantedtodo.
“I’mgoingtomakeyoucum,babygirl.Okay?”Hestated,droppingtohiskneesbeforeme.Fear
ofwhatwasgoingtotakeplacecoursedthroughmyveinsforafractionofasecond.However,the
momentNash’sfingersgrippedthewaistbandofmyyogapantsallfearevaporatedintothinair.
Thiswashim.MyPrinceCharming.Myexperiencedhero.Ihadnothingtobeafraidofwhenhe
washere.
Hepeeledthetightfabricoffmylegspainfullyslowly,agrinthesizeofTexaspullingathislips
ashewatchedmesquirmabovehim.Withthefabricwrappedaroundmyanklesandhimbetweenmy
legs,Iwasathismercy.
Nashgavemeonelastfleetinggrinbeforedisappearingbetweenmylegs.Heheldmeupagainst
thewallwithhisshoulders,andthefactthathecoulddosojustturnedmeonmore.
“Nash…”Isighedhisnameandwasrewardedwithakisstotheinsideofmythigh.Myhands
wentintohisjet-blackhair,asIgrippedthestrandsgently.
“Areyouasuntouchednowasyouweretwoyearsago?”Thequestionvibratedagainstmypussy.
HewassocloseIcouldfeeleachbreathheexpelled.
“I’vesavedeverysingleexperienceforyouNash.Iwantyoutobethefirsttotasteme.Thefirst
tofingerme.Thefirsttofuckme.”Myvoicewaswobbly,andnervous.Whatifhedidn’tbelieveme?
“Good,becauseI’mgoingtoowneverysinglepieceofyourbodyincludingyourtightlittleass.”
Asscaryasallthiswas,IknewitwasonlybecauseitwassomethingIhadneverdonebefore.
GrippingtheblackthongIwaswearing,hepulledthefabrichardandasnappingsoundmetmy
ears.
Didhejustripmythongoff?
Icouldn’tevencomprehendwhatwastakingplace,becauseassoonasIfoundthewordsIwanted
tosay,hewasonme,histonguesinkingintomypussyasheatemeout.
“Oh.Dear.Lord.”Imoaned,asherubbedsmallcirclesaroundmyclit.Ihadtouchedmyselfafew
timesbeforebutnever,notevenonce,diditfeelasitdidrightnowwithNash.
“Fuckmyface,baby.I’lltakecareofyou,Ifuckingpromiseyouthat.”Hiswordsrumbled
againstmyentranceandbeforeIcouldmusterupevenonewordhewaslickingmetoptobottom,oneof
hisfingersenteringmypussyeversoslowly,stretchingmeinadeliciousway.
“Nash.Nash.I’veneverfeltthiswaybefore.”Iscreamedout,feelingthingsdeepinsidemy
bellythatIneverhadbefore.Mytoescurledasheflickedhistongueagainstmyclitrelentlessly.He
ownedme,worshippingmypussyasifitwasthequeenofeverythinginhislife.
“Fallapart,babygirl.Givemeyourrelease.Letmetastethosesweetjuicesofyours.”His
dirtywords,mixedwiththefrictionofhisfingerenteringmeandtheflickofhistongueagainstmyclit
pushedmeovertheedge.MyorgasmslammedintomeharderthanIexpected,knockingthewindrightout
ofme.
“Fuckyou’resotightandjustperfect.”Helappedupeverysingledropofcum,histongue
scrapingagainstmyclitharder.
Mylegsshook,andmyhandspulledNash’shairasIgroundmypussyintohisface,taking
everysinglepleasurableclenchandwavefromhim.
“Nash.Fuck.”Islammedmyheadbackagainstthewallagain,painradiatingthroughmy
scalp.Hekeptuphispaceuntilhenolongerfeltmeclenchingaroundhisfingerandwhenhefinallydid
pulloutofme,coldnessfilledthespacewherehehadjustbeen.
“I’vethoughtaboutdoingthatsincethedayIleftyouhere.Whatyouwouldfeellike,how
yourpussywouldtaste.”Heplacedmyfeetontheground,movingfrombetweenmylegsandintoa
standingposition.Myentirebodywasshaking,wavesofpleasurablewarmthstillfillingmybelly.
“Wasitasgoodasyouthoughtitwouldbe?”Iasked,outofcuriosity.Ihadsavedthis
momentforhim.
Helickedhislipsandthensuckedthefingerthathadbeendeepinsideofmejustmoments
ago.Theeroticlookinhiseyeshadmewantingmore.
“Itwasmorethangood,Carly.ItwasthebestfuckingpussyI’veevereatenandthebest
fuckingmealI’vehadinalongtime.”Joyfilledmyveinsandburnedthroughoutmybody.Myheart
poundedinmychest,andIsmiled.Ismiledfromeartoear,becauseafterallIhadheldontooverthelast
twoyears,itallfeltworthwhile.
“Good,becausethereiswaymorewherethatcamefrom.”Iboasted,watchingashiseyes
grewwidewithexcitement.
Nothingcouldtakehimawayfromme.NotnowthatIhadfinallysunkmyteethintohim.He
shuckedhisleatherjacketasIadjustedmysportsbra,puttingmyboobbackinside,andpulledmyyoga
pantsbackup.
MyeyesrakedoverhisbodyasIlookedforanychanges.Hewasstillthesamebuffguyhe
hadbeenbefore,maybewithalittlebitmoremusclemassnow.Hedefinitelydidn’tlooklikehewas
overfortythough.
Darkinkpeekedoutfromunderthesleeveofhist-shirt.Thatmostdefinitelywasn’tthere
before…ItooknotemakingsureIexploredthatareaofhisbodynext.Yeah,hewasstillthesame
devilishlyhandsomemanhehadbeenwhenheleft.Theonlydifferencenowwasthathewashardened
moreandIwaspositivethathadeverythingtodowithme.
“I’mnotleavingthistime,Carly,andifIdoI’mtakingyoursweetasswithme.Irefusedto
giveintothefeelingsIhadforyoutwoyearsago.Irefusedtogiveyoutheonethingwebothwanted,all
becauseofwhoyourfatherwas,andbecauseofyourage.Butnowyou’renineteen,andnolongerunder
yourdaddy’sthumb.”Thankfullythewallwasbehindme,becauseIwasn’tsureIwouldstillbestanding
ifitwasn’t.
“That’sallI’veeverwanted,Nash,forustobeabletobetogether.Yeah,I’moldenough
now,but…”Ididn’twanttotellhimthattherewasapartofmethatwasscaredofmyfatherknowing
now.MyfeelingsforNashhadneverchanged,notevenonce.Butifmyfatherfoundoutaboutusnow,asI
wasabouttoleaveforcollege,Iworriedhemightpullallthemoneyhehadgivenmeforcollegefrommy
checkingaccount.Leavingmetofootthebillforschool.
“Hecan’tdoanything,Carly.Hecan’tstopusfrombeingtogethernow.I’veheldoffaslong
asIcould,sweetie.I’veforcedmyselftostayawayfromyou,togiveyouthechancetofindsomeone
else.Youdidn’t…andthatwastheonlychanceyouweregetting.”HebeckonedmetocometohimandI
did.Icouldn’tdenythemanthatIlustedafterforyearsandnowloved.
Iwouldsavethatlittletidbitforlater,whenthemomentarose.Fornow,Iwasgoingto
enjoythetimeIhadwithNash,andthewarmthofhistouchonmyskin.
“Imissedyou.”Iwhisperedintohischestashewrappedmeupinhisarms,cradlingmeto
hischest.Alltheshithehadsaidtometwoyearsagowasalie,Iknewitfromthestart.Iwasjust
thankfulhehadfinallycometohissenses.
“NotasmuchasImissedyou.It’sbeenalongtwoyears,butnowthatI’mhereagain,I’m
staying,darlin’.”Mybodymeltedintoapuddleassoonashislipsrestedagainstmyforehead.Nash
consumedmeandevenifIwasworriedaboutmyfatherandwhathewouldsay,Iwasmoreworried
aboutlosingNash.Iwouldgiveupanythingtobewiththisman.Evencollege.
ChapterThree
Nash
Iwasbad,sofuckingbad…IhadclaimedtheonewomanIknewIcouldn’teverhave.NowIjust
neededawaytobreakthenewstoherfather,mybestfriend,becausehonestly,Icouldn’tcarrytheburden
ofeatinghisdaughter’spussyoutforlong.Iwasanhonestman,andonewhotookwhathewantedwhen
hewantedit.IknewKylewouldbepissed,hell,Iwouldbepissedtoo,butloveislove.
Ilovedhertwoyearsagowhenshewasateenagerwhowasjustfillingout,andIlovedhernow
asthenineteenyearoldwithtitsandanassthatmademewanttospillmyseedinsidemyjeans.
“Yeah,okaySarah.Youdowhatyouneedtodo.It’salwaysbeenaboutyouandneveraboutyour
damnkids.”KyleyelledintohiscelljustasIwalkedintohisoffice.Irappedagainstthewooddoorframe
lettinghimknowIwashere.IhadeveryintentionoftellinghimwhatwasgoingonbetweenCarlyandI,
rightnow.
“Selfish.That’swhatyouare.I’vedoneeverythingIcantotakecareofCarly.I’vehelpedherget
intothecollegeofherchoice.I’vedoneitallandwhathaveyoudone?”Icouldhearthevenominhis
wordsandignoredtheangryragethatcontortedhisfeatures.
ThelongerIlistenedtothisconversation,themoreguiltIfeltfordoingwhatIdidwithCarlythe
otherday.IhadonlybeenbackintownafewhourswhenIdecidedtopounceonher.
“Whatthefuckever!”Kylegroundout,hittingtheendkeyonhiscell.Partsofmeunderstood
wherehewascomingfrom.Hisexwifewasaragingbitch.Thatalonewouldmakeithardformetowant
anythingtodowithher,letalonesharecustodywithher.
“Iwouldsayhow’sitgoing,butafterlisteningtothatlittlebitofconversationrightthereIcantell
thatitain’tgoingallthatswell.”Ismiledlikeajackass,onlybecauseIknewitwouldbringasmiletohis
facetoo.
Herolledhiseyes,smiled,andblewoutabreath.“She’snotgoingtomakeittoCarly’s
graduationorherparty.It’slike,howthefuckcanyounotmakeittosomethingsoimportant?”Firefilled
mybelly.Honestly,thatenragedme.
“Whythefucknot?”Thequestioncameoutabitmoreangrilythenexpected.Kyledidn’tseemto
noticethough,ashewasclearlyfarmoreenragedthanIwas.
“She’sgotplanswithherboyfriendthatnight.Sheclaimsshewillmakeituptoher,butyoucan’t
makeupwatchingyourdaughtergraduatefromHighSchool.”Kylewasright.Youcouldn’t.Sarahneeded
awakeupcall.
“WhatareyougoingtotellCarly?”Iwasworriedaboutmygirlrightaway.Thiswouldbreakher
heart,andIdidn’tlikethat.Nottheleastfuckingbit.
Kylesaggedintohisseat,hisshouldershunchedandhisheadhunglow.Iknewhefeltlikea
failureandlikeashitdad,allbecauseofsomeoneelse’sactions.Allofthisweighedheavilyonmy
shoulders,stoppingmefromtellinghimwhatIhadcomeintohisofficetosay.
WitheverythinggoingonwithSarahandthedefeatthatKylewasfeeling,addingthiswasn’tgoing
toearnmeanybrowniepoints.Itwasjustgoingtomakehimfeellikemoreshit.
“Youdidn’tcomeheretoaskmeaboutmyrelationshipwithmyex-wife,didyou?Becauseifso,
I’mgoingtohavetotellyoutogetthefuckout.”Icoughedupalaugh,completelytakenbackbythe
humoroussmirkonisface.
“Fuckthatshit.IjustcametoaskyouwhatIshouldgetCarlyforhergraduationpresent.”I
changedthesubject,eventhoughitbroughttheattentionbacktoCarly.KyleknewIlovedher,hejust
didn’tknowitwasmorethanjustasmybestfriend’skid.
TheloveIfeltforherwasmorealongthelinesof-letmefuckyouuntilwe’rebothweakand
passedoutfromexhaustion.DaddyDearestdidn’tknowthatyet,though.
Kyle’sstrikingblueeyeslitup,sparklingwithexcitement.Carlywashisprideandjoy,theone
thingthatheldhimtogether.Knowingthatonlymadethissituationharder.Iwouldbeforcedtotellhim
whatwasgoingononewayoranother,butthatcouldwaitforanotherday,maybeonewherethere
weren’tasmanyproblems.
“Likeanywoman,shelovesjewelryandshehasanewfoundloveforbooks,andallthingsHarry
Potter.”IknewexactlywhatitwasthatIwasgoingtogether.Ijustneededafewdaystimetoorderit.
“Alright.Well,that’sallthatIcameinherefor,youknowme.I’mnotgoodwiththeladies,
sotryingtofindsomethingthatshelikeswouldbelikebangingmyheadagainstthewallforanhour
straight.”Isnickered,butitwasforced.IwouldbelyingifIsaidIwasn’tuncomfortableatthispoint.All
Iwantedtodowasescapetheroomandtakeinsomefreshair.
Ileanedagainstthedoorjam,myeyesgoingtoapicturethathehadofCarly,hangingonthe
wallbehindhim.Itwasblackandwhite,andaccentedhersoftfemininefeaturesverywell.Itwasa
simplephoto,justofherface,andshewassmilingbigandwide,liketheworldhadn’tbeenfallingapart
aroundherforthelasttwoyears.
“I’mafraid,Nash.Scaredoutofmymind.Carlyismylittlegirlandshe’sgoingoffto
college.She’sgotboysinterestedinher,andshe’snolongermybaby.She’sawomannow.”Icouldhear
hisheartbreakingashespokeandallIcouldthinkwas,I’mtotallynotthepersonforthis.
Still,myearscaughtonthewordboys,anditmademewonderexactlywhatitwasthatshe
hadbeendoinginthelasttwoyears.Icouldn’texpecthertonotmoveonwithherlife.Imean,thatwas
theentirereasonIlefttobeginwith,butIneededtomakeitknown,nowmorethanever,thatIwasn’t
fuckingaround.
NoothermanwouldworshipherbodylikeIwould,andiftheytriedIwouldbreaktheir
dickoffandshoveitdowntheirthroat.
“You’reakickassdad,Nash.Don’tdoubtyourself.Yourlittlegirlisanadultnowandwith
thatcomeschange.It’sahardadjustmentbutonethathastobemade.It’llgeteasier.I’msure.”Iskirted
aroundthesubject,becauseinreality,IhadnofuckingcluewhatIwastalkingabout.Kylewasagood
dadbuteverythingelseIjustwinged.
“Waittillyouhavekids,Nash.You’lltotallybefreakingout,rockinginthecorner,andI’ll
betheonegivingyoulittlespeeches.”Irolledmyeyesandflippedhimthebirdbeforesteppingoutofhis
office.Hehadnoideawhathewassaying.
TheonlywomanIwouldeverbeplantingmyseedinwasCarly,andifshewantedme,and
wantedtohavekids,thenthatwouldmakeKyletheirgrandpa,sotechnicallythejokewasonhim.
“I’llseeyoulater,asshole.I’mgoingtogopickupsomeChineseandchilloutfortherestof
thenight.”Ididn’taddthefactthatIwouldbedoingsoathisdaughter’shouse,butsomethingswere
betterleftunsaid.
WhenIdidn’thearamumbledgoodbye,Itookthatasmysignaltogetthefuckoutofthere,
beforehestartedlayingontheguilt.IneverexpectedtofallforCarly.Hell,Iwasn’tevenattractedtoher
tillshestartedthrowingherselfatmeandIwasforcedtonoticethatshegrownup.
ShewastheperfectkindofforbiddenandIwasrulebreaker.Wewerethemeanttobe.I
joggedouttomymotorcycleandhoppedon,revvingtheengineforafewsecondsbeforeshootingofflike
arocketdowntheroad.
IwasgoingtosurpriseCarlytonightandmaybe,forthefirsttimeinmylife,sleepnexttoa
womaninbed.MythoughtsshiftedtoallthethingsIhaddonetotryandstayawayfromher.Ihadtried
dating,anditalwaysendedinfailure.Icouldn’tforcemyselftohavesexwithanotherwomanwhenmy
heartbelongedtoCarly.
IgottheChinesefoodinaflash,wrappedupinaplasticbagwithaboutapoundofsoy
sauce,andIwashurtlingtowardsCarly’scondo.
AngerfloodedmeasIpulleduptothehouse,parkingmybikeattheendofthedriveway.
Therewasanothercarhere,onethatmostdefinitelywasn’tCarly’s,sinceherswasalreadyparkedonthe
othersideofit.
Ididn’twanttobe“thatguy”;theonethatbecameconsumedbytheirlover,butwhatwas
minewasmineandifanyoneelsethoughttheyhadachanceoffuckingwithwhatwasminethentheyhada
rudeawakeningcomingtheirway.
Isteppedoffthebike,mybootedfeetslammingagainstthehardconcrete.Thetakeoutbag
hungfromonehandwhiletheotherwasclenchedinatightfist.IwasgoingtofucksomeoneupIcould
feelit.
“Thankyousomuch,Jeremy.”Carly’ssoftvoicemetmyears,meltingawayallmyanger.I
shovedthroughthefrontdoor,uncaringifIknockedornot.Ididn’tneedtoknock,notwhenshewasmine.
ThehousegrewsoquietIcouldhearapindrop,thelittlefuckertooknoticeofmeright
away.Hiseyesgrowingwidewithfear,probablythinkingIwasherdadorsomething.Wrong,punk,I’m
herfuckingboyfriend.
“Nash.”Isweareverytimemynamefellfromthosepinkfulllipsmycockhardened.Iloved
thescaredlookinJeremy’seyes.
“Hi,sir.Iwasjustdroppingoffthepaperthatshowedourfinalgradeontheprojectwe
workedontogether.”Hisvoicewobbled.Whatafuckingpussy,andtothinkIleftsothatshecould
exploresomethinglikethat,withsomeinexperiencedfucklikehim.
“Getout.”IorderedsmirkingasIwatchedhimscurryfromthecondolikesomeonehadlita
fireunderneathhisass.CarlygavemeasternI’m-angry-at-you-lookandIsighed,placingthetakeoutbags
onthekitchencounter.Thislittlegirlhadnoideahowcrazyshemademe,butshewasabouttofindout.
“Youdidn’thavetodothat.Heprobablythoughtyouweremydadorsomething.”She
reachedforthetakeoutbox,butIstoppedherhand,wrappingherupinmyarmsinstead.Icouldfeelthe
poundingofherheartagainstmineandwonderedifitwouldbelikethisforever.
“Idid.Youdon’tunderstandhowdeepmyfeelingsforyourun.I’mconsumedbyyou.Ieat,
breathe,andsleepyounow.Iwanttofuckyou,andkissyou,anddevoureverysinglepartofyou.Idon’t
giveafuckaboutthatassholeandifthatmakesyoumadthenfine,butyou’remineandIrefusetohide
thosefeelingsfromanyone.”
Iwasjustabouttoreleaseherwhenthewordsfellfromherlips.“Exceptmydad?”Iground
myteethtogether.HowdidsheknowIhadn’ttoldhimyet?
“Iwenttotellhimtoday,butcouldn’t.Notwitheverythingelsealreadygoingon.Iwantto
tellhimongoodterms,Carly.Iwanttobethemanhewantsyoutohave,evenifIamhisbestfriendand
probablythelastpersonyoushouldbewith.”Ikissedherlongandhard,mylipstellinghereverythingmy
wordscouldn’t.Ididn’twanthertothinkIwashidingusorthatIwasafraidofherfather,becauseI
wasn’t.
IwasmoreafraidofhurtingKylethanIwasofafraidofhimbecauseIknewthemomenthe
foundoutaboutCarlyandI,hisentirelifewouldcrumbleintoamillionpieces.
Carlywasn’tdaddy’slittlegirlanymore,shewasmine.
ChapterFour
Carly
“Iwanttohearyousayit,babygirl.”Nashnippedatmyearlobe,thepainofhisteeth
grazingagainstmyskinaddingtothewavesofpleasurethatwereknockingintome.Ihadneverfeltso
exposed,andatthemercyofamanbefore.
“Fuck!”Icursed,grindingagainsthishandharder.Hewasfingerfuckingmeonthecouchin
mylivingroom,hishandsundermydressasIsatonhislap.Twodigitspumpedinandoutofme
furiouslyasImeteachofhisthrusts.
“Youwantmetosuckonyourtits?”Hesmirked,nippingatmyalreadypebblednipple
throughmydress.Icouldfeelthebiteofhisteethashenippedatthelittlebud.
“Please.”Ibegged,findingmyvoicefareasierthistime.ThatwasthethingaboutNash.He
wasvocalandhewantedmetobevocaltoo,soifIwantedtocumIwasgoingtoneedtotellhimexactly
whereIwanteditandhowbadlyIneededit.
“Pleasewhat,babygirl…”IcouldslaphimsillyforaskingbutIdidn’twanthimtostop,
notwhenIwasthisclosetocummingalloverhishand.
“Fingerfuckmeharder!”Iordered,andassoonasthewordscameoutofmymouth,hewas
owningmypussy,andbrandingmewithamarkthatonlyhecouldsee.Iwassoclosetofallingapartthat
whenhesnuckhispinkyintomyasshole,Ididn’tevennotice.
Thefeelingofbeingcompletelyfullcoursedthroughme,givingmethefinalpush.My
muscleslockedupandmypussyclencheduncontrollably,squeezingthefuckoutofhisfingers.Thesmall
intrusioninmyassdidn’tbotherme,notwhenIwasn’tpayingattention.
“Godyourpussyissofuckingtight,almostastightasyourasshole.”Hegrowled,stilltrying
tomovebothhisfingersdeepinsideme.Ilovedhishardstrokes,asmuchasIlovedhissoftstrokes.
Nashplayedmelikeamusicalinstrument,tuningmetotheperfectcord.
“Ican’twaittofeelyouinsideofme.”MycheekswarmedasIdishedbackalittledirty
talk.EvenifIwaslettinghimfingerbangme,Istillhadashysideaboutsomeofthesethings.
“It’sgoingtohappenawholelotsoonerthanyouthink.I’mgoingtoclaimbothyourpussy
andasswithmycock.”Iwhimperedwhenhepulledhisfingersoutofmemybodymissingtheintrusion
assoonasitwasgone.
“Iwantyourcocknow.”Ipouted.Ihadalreadywaitedtwoyears,andIwasn’tsurethatI
couldwaitanylonger.Nashgrippedmebythechin,forcingmyeyestomeethis.Hisgraspwasfirmbut
gentle.
“Ihaven’tbeenwithawomansinceIleftyou,thethoughtoftryingtofucksomeoneelse
whenmyheartbelongedtoyoumademefuckingsick,soIknowhowitfeelstowant.Iknowhowitfeels
toneedsomethingsobadlyitliterallykillsyou.”Iwaswrappedupinhiswords,hisscentswirling
aroundme.
Iwastrappedinhissnareandneverwantedtoescape.Iknewmydadwouldbeupsetonce
hefoundoutaboutNashandI,andevenmorepissedthatIhadsavedmyselfforhim,butIwashappyand
that’sallthatshouldmatter,right?
“I’msorry.Ijustwantyou.”Ipurred,myfingernailsscrapingagainstthefabricofhiswhite
t-shirt.Myhormonesweregoingcrazy,andallIcouldthinkaboutwasundressingthisdeliciousmanand
exploringhisbodyuntiltheendoftime.
“Don’tbesorry,darlin’…”Hegrabbedmyhand,bringingitdowntosteelhardcockthat
wastryingtobreakfreeofhisjeans.“Youfeelthat…howhardIamforyou?HowreadyIamtotake
yourvirginity.Iwantyou.”IneededthismomentwithhimandIwouldtakeit.
Iwouldneverdoubthisfeelingsforme.Movingoffofhimandontothecouchcushionnext
tohim,Iflickedthebuttononhisjeansmyeyesdartinguptohis.
“Iwanttotasteyou.”Ilickedmylipsandhisdarkeyeslitupwithexcitement.Ismirkedas
soonasIpulledthezipperdownandheliftedhishipsmovinghisjeansdownoverhiscock,stopping
oncehewasfullyexposed.
“Holyshitwhatisthat?”Iwasn’tnearlyassurprisedbyhimwearingnounderwear,asI
wasthefactthathehadapiercingattheendofhiscock.
“That,sweetheart,isthethingthatwillbringthatsweetpussyofyourstothebrinkof
destruction.”IwouldbylyingifIsaidIwasn’talittlebitintimidatedbythepiercing.Ontheundersideof
hiscockwasaballattachedtoabarbellthatpiercedthroughtheheadofhiscock.Icringedthinkingabout
thepainhemust’vefeltwhenhegotitdone.
“Didithurt?”Iasked,notwantingtoruinthemomentbutneedingtoknowoutofpure
curiosity.HewatchedmewithlustfuleyesforasecondasIexaminedthepiercingbeforeansweringme.
“Ithurtlikeamotherfucker,butthat’sjustit.Ithappenedandthenitwasdone.IgotitwhenI
wasyounger,thinkingitwascool.Istillkindofthinkit’scool,butmorethanthat,Iuseittopleasureany
womanthatgetsluckyenoughtoseemygoods.”Heflashedmeaboyishgrinthatmadehimlookyounger
thanhereallywas.Idecidedthentoflipthetables.
Iwasn’tsurehowtogiveablowjob,butIwasgoingtotrymyhardest.Cuppinghimgently
bytheballs,Iflickedmytongueagainstthecoldmetal.IcouldhearNash’sbreathingspeedup,andmy
heartstartedtorace.Hewasatmymercy.MytouchwasbringinghimtohiskneesandIwasgoingto
enjoyeverysecondofthis.
Flickingmytongueoverthesensitiveheadagain,IlookedupathimtomakesureIwas
doingitright.Afterall,Ididwanthimtoexperiencesometypeofpleasure.Heliftedhishandandslidit
underneathmydress,movingacrossmyass,andstoppingattheapexofmythighs.
“I’matyourmercy,sweetgirl,somakebestofthetimeyouhave.Ifyoudon’t,Imightjust
flipyourightoverthiscouchandtakeyoufrombehind.”HewassobrashandIfuckinglovedit.
Wrappingmyentiremoutharoundhishead,Isuckedasmallamountofhimintomymouth.Mytongue
wiggledaroundthepiercingforafewminutes.NashwasagoodeightinchesinlengthandIwascertainI
wasn’tgoingtobeabletofitthatmuchinmymouthallatonce.
Imoanedoutinpleasureashedughisfingersintomythigh,histouchalmostbruisingashe
urgedmeon.Breathingthroughmynose,Iswirledmytongueupanddownhiscock,andoverthehead
andpiercingafewmoretimes,beforeencouragingmyselftotakeanothertwoinchesofhim.Myeyes
watered,andfearfilledmybellybecauseIdidn’tknowifIwasdoingitright,thatisuntilNashstartedto
thrusteversolightlyintomymouth.
Awickeddirtyglintshowedinhiseyes.“GodIwanttofuckthatsweetmouthofyoursso
bad.Iwanttocarryabrightredrimaroundmycockeverydayfromyourlipstick-coveredlips.It’llbeour
littlesecret,soeverytimeItakealeakI’llknowyouwererightthere.”Hiswordsonlymademewant
himmore.Mypussywasthrobbingwithneed,asIgaggedonhiscock.Nashfistedhishandinmyhair
encouragingmetotakemoreandIdidbecausepleasinghimandgivinghimhisreleasewasallthat
matteredtome.
“Ohfuck…”HewhisperedintomyhairasIgentlyslidmyteethalongthesidesofhisshaft.
Withintwominuteshewaspullingoutmymouth,andhisreleaseofwarmsemensputteredacrossmytits.
Ishould’vefeltdegraded,ormaybeevenalittlehurt,butIdidn’t,notintheleast.Thefact
hecameonmytitsmademefeelalive.Itwasaneroticgesture,andIwantedmoreofit.
Havingnevertastedcum,Islidmyfingeroverasmallamountandplaceditinmymouth.
Nash’seyeslitupashewatchedmesuchmyfingerintomymouth.
“You’resuchafuckingnaughtygirl,andyouclaimtobeavirgin.IfIhadn’tfingerfucked
yourpussymomentsagoandfelthowfuckingtightyouwere,Iwouldn’tbelieveit.”Heshookhishead,
placingakissagainstmyforehead.Thesaltytasteofhisreleaseexplodedagainstmytongue.Itwas
unlikeanythingIhadevertastedbefore.
“DidIdogood?”Iaskedshyly,myeyesdartingtothefloor.Iknewhecamebutthatdidn’t
meanitwasgood,orasgoodasIwantedittobeforhim.Iwantedittobeperfectforhim,asperfectas
hemademyreleaseforme.
“Carly…”Thewayhesaidmynamewasalmostpainful.“You’reperfect.Inexperienceisn’t
badatall.Youwereawesome,fuckIcame,+thatshouldshowyouhowgooditwasforme.”
“Ijustwantedyourreleasetobeasperfectminewas.”Igavehimaweaksmilewondering
forthefirsttimeeverifIwasreallygoodenoughtotameNash.Hehadanentirelifetimeofexperience
andromanceandIhadnothing.
“Don’tsecondguessyourselfbabygirl.”HepurredlettingalltheanxietyIwasfeelingmelt
away.Hewalkedtothebathroomandgotsometissuesohecouldwipeupthemesswehadmade,and
thenhewrappedmeupinhisarmsandtookmedownthehalltomybedroom.
Iwasexhaustedandsobeyondreadytosnuggleintohiswarmarms.Iunzippedmydress
andletitfalltothefloor,standingbeforehiminnothingbutmybraandpanties.
“Fuck!”Nashgroundout,shuckinghisjeans,andpullingoffhist-shirtforthefirsttime.My
eyeswentstraighttohisperfectlysculptedchestandabs.HehadthickblacklinesofinkthatIwaspretty
sureweretribal.Thetattoowentfromhisshoulderdownonesideofhischest,andthendownhisarmina
fullsleeve.
“Ditto.Younevertoldmeyouhadtattoos,orabs,ortattoos.”IwasbasicallydroolingandI
wasn’tevensorryaboutit.
“Oh,getinbed.YouhavealongdaytomorrowandIcan’thavemybabygirltired.You
needtobewellrested.”Ilistened,eventhoughItotallywantedtotraceallthetattoolinesonhisbody.
“SomedayI’mgoingtogetatattoo.”Iannounced,pullingthecomforteruptomyhead,
movingoversohecouldslideintothebednexttome.AllIhadwasaqueen,andgivenhowlargeNash
was,IknewIwasgoingtoneedtogetakingsoon.
Irolledoverinhisarmsasheadjustedmeagainsthischest,spooningme.Nothingcould
touchmewhenIwasinNash’sarms.
“I’mprettysureI’mfallingforyou,babygirl,andIhaven’tevenclaimedyouyet.”His
remarkmademesmile,andassoonasthelightsinthebedroomwereshutoffandtheonlythingthatcould
beheardwasourshallowbreathing,Iresponded.
“I’vealwaysbelongedtoyou,Nash.Always.”Iwiggledmyassintohisgroinandmysmile
grewbiggerasIheardhimgroanintomyear.
“Fuck,Carly.You’regoingtokillmewithallthisteasing.”Heplacedahardkissinmyhair
andwrappedanarmaroundme.Iwouldneverbedoneteasinghim,never.
“BettergetusedtoitbecauseI’mgoingtomakeyoupayforleavingmeforthelasttwo
years.”Ithreatened.
“Ilookforwardtoit,babygirl.Nowshhh.”AndwiththatIslowlyslippedintoadeep
sleep,feelingasclosetoNashasIcouldpossiblyget.
ChapterFive
Nash
“IloveyouNash,andIwanttohaveababywithyou.”Carly’ssweetvoicemesmerized
me.Shewantedababy,withme?Icouldn’tbelieveit.Ineversawmyselfasparentmaterialoraman
thatshewouldwanttohaveafamilywith,butIlovedher,andIwouldgiveherwhatevershewanted.
“Comeherethen.Letmemakelovetoyou.”Sheclimbedintomylap,andIpeppered
kissesalloverherthroatandchest.Iwastheluckiestmanintheentireworld,becauseIhadCarly.
“Nash.”Carly’ssleepyvoiceenteredmyears.Icouldhearthepanicinhervoiceandshot
straightupinthebed,myeyesmeetingherbrownones.Shelookedworried,reallyworried.
“What’swrong,baby?”Iasked,reachingforher.Sheshookherheadno,andplacedafinger
toherlips.Whatthefuckwasgoingon?
“Mydadishere.”Shewhispered,andeverythingstartedtomakesense.Igrippedthe
comforterthatsmeltjustlikeCarly.
“Wheredoyouwantmetogo?”Iwastickedoff.IhadplannedonmakingCarlybreakfastin
bed,andtheneatingmyownbreakfast,theoneshekeptwarmbetweenherlegs.
“I’llgooutanddistracthim.Youcangointhebathroomandpretendlikeyouwerejust
usingtherestroom.Ifheaskswhyyou’reherewewilljusttellhimyoustoppedbylastnight,anditwas
lateandItoldyouthatyoucouldn’tdriveyourmotorcyclehomethatlate.”Shesmiledatme,andItook
themomenttocapturehermouthwithmyown.Carlyhadnoreasontolietoherfather,noneatall.
Ishould’vebeenmanenoughtoalreadyhave,toldherdaddyaboutus.ExceptIdidn’twant
tobreakhisheart.
“You’resofuckingperfect,baby.”Inippedherlipsoftlywithmyteethandshemeltedinto
me,herchestpressingagainstmine.Shewaswearingalongsleepshirtandapairofshortsthatwereso
shorttheycould’vebeenjustunderwear.
“Wehavetotellhimthough,andwehavetodoitsoon.”Carlyurged,pushingaway,butjust
barely.
“Whereisdaddy’slittlegirl?”Kyle’svoicefilteredintomyears,whichmeanthewasclose
by.
“Justaminute,Dad.”Carlyyelledback,hereyesmeetingmine.Icouldtellshehated
keepingthisasecretbutIjustneededuntiltonight.ThenIwoulddowhatIneededtodoandtellhimand
nomatterwhathesaidIwouldremainwithCarly.
“It’stoobadDaddy’shere,Iwasgoingtodevourthatsweetpussyofyoursthismorning…”
Ismirked,throwingthecoversoffmybody,revealingmymorningwood.Carly’seyeslookedmeupand
downstoppingatmycockformorethanjustaglimpse.
“Likewhatyousee,Daddy’slittlegirl?”Imockedherfather,standingfromthebedand
invadingherspace.Carlybitherbottomlip,andIwasclose,sofuckingclose,tothrowingherdownon
thisbedandmakinggoodonmypromisetopossessherbodyineverysinglewaypossible.
“Nash.”ShemoanedmynamesosoftlyIalmostmissedit.Weavingmyhandintoherhair,I
ownedhermouthonceagain..Iwantedhertorememberwhoitwasthathadjustkissedherwhenshe
wentouttotalktoherdaddy.
“Iownyou,babygirl,andIownthis.”Islippedmyotherhandunderneathhersleepshirt
andcuppedherpussythroughhershortshorts.Shearchedintomytouchandspreadherlegswider.I,of
course,smirkedknowingexactlywhatthesweetvirginneeded.
“Later,darlin’,later.Nowgetouttherebeforehecomesinhereanddecidestoinvestigate
what’stakingsolong.”Iwhisperedinherear,bitingthesensitivefleshofherearlobe.Shemewedlikea
catinheat,andIreleasedher,eventhoughIdidn’twantto.
Shescurriedfromthebedroomwithpinkcheeks,andasoakingwetpussy,I’msure.We
weretheperfectmatchofchaosandbeauty.Iwasabadboyinlovewithhisbestfriend’sdaughter.Carly
wasayoung,naïvevirgin,inlovewithamanthathadthepowertoruinher.
“Fuckusboth.”Ihuffedundermybreath,slippingmyjeansandt-shirton.Iwasbeating
myselfupaboutallofthisfornoreason.Carlywasnineteenandmorethancapableofmakingherown
choiceswhenitcametoherlovelife.Igaveherthechancetomoveon,andleftfornearlytwoyears.
Comingbackwasn’tsomethingIplannedondoing,butIhadtoknowifshehadmovedon.If
theteasingshehaddoneallthoseyearsagowasjustasmallinsignificantcrush.SoIshowedup,andasit
turnedoutIwasright.Shehadalwayswantedmeandshewasmorethanwilling,shewaswaiting.
Iheldmyheadinmyhandsforasecond,remindingmyselfthatthiswasallworthit.Carly
wasspecialandIwasn’tgoingtojustgiveherup.Iwouldhavetotellherdadaboutustonight,becauseI
plannedontakinghervirginityandIwouldn’tcrossthatlinewithouthimknowingthatweweretogether.
Hearingtheirmuffledwordsdownthehall,Ipulledopenthebedroomdoorjustenoughso
thatIcouldlistentotheconversationtheywerehavingandmakesurethatKylewasnowherenearher
bedroom.
“Ihavetotellyousomething,sweetheart.Yourmomwon’tbeatyourgraduationtonight.
Shehassomepersonalthingsgoingon.”IrolledmyeyesatKyle’sexcuse.Hewastheirfather,andI’m
notsayingheshouldslamSarah,butheshoulddefinitelylettheirkidsknowtheirmomwasaselfish
bitch.
Icreptfromthebedroomandintothebathroomquietly,notevenlettingthedoorcreakasI
shutit.
DaddyDearesthadfuckedupmyentiremorning,nottomentionruinedmyepicdreamabout
Carlywantingmetofuckababyintoher.
DidIwantkids?Previously,no.AnythingbeforeCarlythathadsomethingtodowithkidsit
wasano.Isimplywantedtofuck,butshewasdifferent.Iwouldgivehereverything.Thering.Thebaby.
Thehouse.Iwouldgiveherallofit,andIwouldtakegoodfuckingcareofher,too.
IexhaledabreathlookingatthetinylittleclockthatCarlyhadsittingonthelargevanity.It
showedtenminutespastnine.WhythehellwasKyleheresoearly?Scrubbingahanddownmyface,I
knewIwasgoingtohavetoleavethisbathroomsoon,andwiththatwouldcomeamillionandone
questions.
“Nash,wherethefuckareya,buddy?”Kyle’sloudfootstepsbouncedoffthewallsofthe
hallandIdecidedthenthatnowwastheperfecttimetopopout.Atleasthesoundedcheerful.
“Hey,dude.”Ipulledopenthebathroomdoorandpoppedmyheadoutintothehall.Kyle
wasstandingrightoutsidewhatmust’vebeentheguestbedroom.
“Carlytoldmewhatyoudid.You’resuchagoodfriend.”Kylepulledmeintoatighthug
andIfroze.Toldhimwhat?WhatdidIdo?Whenthehugended,webothheadedoutintothekitchen
whereCarlywasmakingbreakfast.Thescentsofeggs,bacon,andfreshlybrewedcoffeefilledtheair.
Ismirkedatherandwhenoureyescollidedthewarmthinhercheeksseemedtogrow.
That’srightbaby,thinkaboutallthewickedthingsI’mgoingtodotoyourbody.
“We’vegotasuperlongdayaheadofus,andIwanttomakesurethateverythinggoes
accordingtoplan.Graduationistonight.Dinnerisat4.You’remorethanwelcometostaythenightagain
Nash?”Shedidn’tevenlookatmeasshespokeandIknewithadeverythingtodowiththelookIwas
givingher.
Iwantedtodevourher.Instead,Igrabbedacoffeecupandpouredmyselfsomejoe.WhenI
movedacrossthekitchen,Ibrushedupagainsther,lettingherknowIhadthegutstoshowherdaddyjust
howcloseherandIwere.
“Ican’tbelieveI’mgoingtohaveanadultchildwhograduatedfromhighschool.”Kyle
spoke,clearlynotpayingattentiontothewayhisdaughterwasreactingtomypresence.
“I’malreadyanadultdad.I’mnineteen.Icanbuycigarettes,andgamble.”Carly’seyes
clashedwithmineassheslidmeaplatewithallthefixingsonit.Igazeddownatitandthenbackupat
her.
“Thankyou,Carly.Iwasgoingtohavesomethingsweeterforbreakfastbutthisshould
work…”Itaunted,knowingshehadtobethrobbingformebynow.Iwoulddefinitelybebringingherto
herkneesoverandoveragainlatertonightandIwouldn’tstop.Notuntilherbodywasshaking,andmy
cockwasbruised.Ihadwaitedwhatseemedlikeafuckinglifetimetobewithher.
“Idon’tthinksweetsareaverygoodthingtohavethisearlyinthemorning,Nash.Maybe
youshouldlayoffthesugar?”Sheteasedback.Kylewasstaringatsomethingonhisphone,probablya
workemailorsomeshit.
“Layoff?I’veonlystartedeatingsugarforbreakfastandafterhavingtasteditonce…”I
leanedinabit,myeyesdartingtoKylebeforeIfinishedspeaking.“I’mprettysureIwillbehavingit
everysinglemorningfromhereonout.”
“Really,Nash?”Kyle’seyesmetmineandinthemIcouldseesometypeofconcern.“Sugar
isreallybadforyouinthemorning.We’realwaystryingtotellJasethatbutheneverlistens.Thekid
cracksaMountainDewopenthesecondhewakesup.”Ishookmyhead,takingabiteoutofthecrispy
bacon,lettingthesaltyfatoverwhelmmytastebuds.Howlonghaditbeensinceawomanmademe
breakfast?
“Jasehasalifetimetodrinkcoffeeandhaveproteinshakesandweirdshitlikethat.Lethim
drinkaDewinthemorningifhewants.”IsmirkedatKyle.IfeltliketherewasthisinvisiblelinethatI
wasonthevergeofcrossing,andI’llbedamnedifIdidn’twanttostomprightonitandcrushitto
smithereens.
“It’sagoodthingyoudon’thavekids.Iwouldbeafraidofyourparenting.”Kylelaughed,
andImerelysmiled,myjawclenchingbecause,honestly,whathesaidpissedmeoffabit.Iwantedkids,
butonlywithCarlyandwhenthathappenedIwouldbethebestfuckingdadintheworld.
“Anyway,whatdidyoustopbyfor,Dad?”CarlycouldtellIwasgettingpissedandevenif
Kyledidn’tnoticeit,hehadtoknowhiswordsstungmealittlebit.Wewerebestfriends,afterall.
“This.”Hepulledoutablackboxfromhispocket,handingittoCarly,whowassittingon
theothersideofhim.Ihadtoleanovertoseewhatitwas.
Carly’sfacelitupwithjoyasshetooktheboxfromherdad.Iwashappybutonlybecause
shewas,notbecauseKylehadboughthersomething.
Sheflickedopenthebox,andcoveredhermouthwithonehand.Icouldn’tseethepieceof
jewelryatfirst,butknewitwassomethingthatsheloved,simplyfromthelookonherface.Sheplucked
whatlookedlikeanecklacefromtheboxandheldituptoherchest,showingherfatherandIwhatitwas.
Insterlingsliver,itwasspeltoutloudandclear,withonelittlegemstoneoneachside
accentingthewords.
Daddy’sGirl
Fucker!IchewedthebaconinmymouthlikeitwasthetougheststeakIhadevereaten.He
justhadtogoanddosomethinglikethat.
“Thankyou,Daddy!Iloveit.”Carlygushed,andKylehelpedherputiton.MaybeIwould
ripitoffofherwhenshewasridingmycock?Ididn’thateherdad,notintheleast,butCarlywasmine.
Nash’sgirl,andaftertonightIwouldmakecertainthateverysinglepersonknewit.
“Look,Nash!”ShemovedfromherseatcomingoverbymesothatIcouldseethenecklace
thatsatperfectlyagainstherchest.
“It’sbeautiful.”Imusteredupthewords.Kylesmiledlikehehadjustsolvedalltheworld’s
problems.Iclenchedmyfist,controllingtheburnthatcoursedthroughmyveins.
“Iknow.Thankyouagain,Dad.”Carlymovedawayfrommeandgaveherdadagiantkiss
andhug.AllIcouldthinkwhileshedidso,washowthatsweetlittlevirginmouththatshewaskissingher
daddywithrightnowwaswrappedaroundmycocklastnight,thatlittletongueofhersflickingagainstmy
PrinceAlbert.
Hisdaughterlovedme.Shealsolovedmycock.
ChapterSix
Carly
IknewNashhatedthenecklacethesecondhesawit,soIpretendedtolikeitforbothofus.
Itwasamiraclemyfatherhadn’tcaughtontoourshenanigans,andanevenbiggermiraclethatIhadn’t
draggedNashintothebathroomtogivememyrelease.Themanwassexonastick,andheknewexactly
howtomakemeweakintheknees.
“You’retellingmeyoucan’tgotoapartywithmetonighttocelebrateourgraduation
becauseyouhaveadatewithanolderman?”Avery,oneofmybestfriends,mockedme.Iknewshewas
jealousofthefactthatIwasgoingtobesleepingwithanolderman,andhonestlyIdidn’tseetheappeal.I
lovedNashbecauseIhadwantedhimsinceIwasachild.Mycrushchangedovertheyears,butIhad
alwayswantedtobewithhim.
“Yes.Ihaveplans.I’llbeatyourhouseforthepartynextweek,butIhaveplanstonight.”
Welinedupforgraduationlikeitwasasimpletaskandnottheendofatwelve-yearcareeroflearning,
growing,andadjustingtonewthingsinlife.Iwasexcited,eventhrilled,tohaveeveryoneminusmymom
withmeheretonight.Ihadmetupwithmydadfordinneralready,andwassadtodiscoverNashwasn’t
there.
“Holyfuck,Carly.Whoisthattallglassofhandsomestandingnexttoyourdad?”Averywas
almostdrooling,andallIcouldthinkwas,that’sthemanI’mgoingtobewithtonightinsteadofgoing
toyourparty.
“HisnameisNashandhe’smydad’sbestfriend.”Iwantedtoaddmyboyfriendinthere,
butweweren’texactlyofficialyet.
“Wellhellohunkofhandsome,I’mAvery.”Shepurred,andthenmeowed,makingclaws
withherhands.Thefactthatshethoughthewashandsomeonlythrilledmemore.I’mgladshedidn’tsee
himlikeshesawmydad.
“He’sgorgeous,Iknow,butcompletelyofflimits,I’veheard.”Iwhisperedtoheraswe
madeourentranceintotheauditorium.IcouldfeelNash’seyesboringintomine,theheatofhisstare
doingcrazyassthingstomybody.IwantedhimandIhadallday.Mypussywasdrenchedandthrobbing.
Ihadalreadychangedmypantiesoncetoday,andIevensenthimatextmessagetellinghimthat,butI
hadn’theardanythingbacksoIassumedhedidn’tlookatityet.
“Offlimits?Excuseme,butwhy?”Averysmiled,aswestoppedforphotosandassoonas
wemadeitupthestepsandontothestagetogether,Idecidedtotellher.
“Becausehe’sshackingupwithme.”Thewordsslippedoutjustintime,becauseshewas
goingonewayandIwasgoingtheother.Iwatchedoutofthecornerofmyeyeasragesurfacedonher
face.Icouldn’teventellyouhowhilariousitwas.Iofcoursewouldpayforitlaterbutnoneofthat
mattered,itwasfunnyforthetimebeing.
“Thankyoueveryone,andgoodevening.Itisanhonortohaveallofyouherewithus
celebratingthegraduatingclassof2016.”PrincipleEcklebrughannounced,allchipperlike.
Therewerehootsandhollersfromthecrowd,butmyeyesweregluedononepersonand
onepersononly:Nash.Hewatchedme,drinkingmein,savoringeverylookhecouldget.Ididn’tcare
aboutthesepeoplesittingnexttomenearlyasmuchasIcaredabouthim.
Icouldn’twaittogetmyhandsonhimtonight.IhopedlikehellwasreadyformebecauseI
wasreadyforhim,andhadbeenforyears.Theceremonycarriedonforawhatseemedlikeforever,
membersofmyclassgoinguptothepodiumandspeakingabouttheirfavoritetimestogether,while
teacherssnuckinacommentorstoryaboutsomethingoneofusstudentshaddoneintheirclass.
IfIwasbeinghonest,allthebullshitcouldstopnow.Thankfully,theprincipalannouncedin
thenextsecondthathewouldbedoingthedeliveranceofdiplomas.Thefirstrowstood,andEcklebrugh
startedsayingnames;everypersoncrossingthestage,shakinghishand,andtakingtheirdiploma.The
secondandthirdrowsdidthename,andthenitwasmyrow’sturn.Butterfliesfilledmybelly.Thiswas
it,thelastthingthatseparatedNashandI.
NowthatIhadgraduatedmydadcouldn’tsayanythingaboutusbeingtogether.Istood,and
asthelinemoved,thenumbersofpeoplethatstillneededtogoacrossthestagedwindleddown.
“CarlyMarieMiller.”Ecklebrughcalledmyname,andIclimbedthestairstakinghishand
inmine.Theoldmanwasnearretirementoratleasthehadtobe.HesmileddownatmeandImovedon
toshaketherestoftheschoolboardmembers’hands.Therewereabunchofwhistlesandhootsfromthe
crowdasImademywayoffthestageandbacktomyseat.
Asmilewasplasteredonmyface.Ihaddoneit.Iwasfree.Westoodtogetherasonein
celebrationasballoonsfellfromtheceilingandsillystringwassprayedfromplasticbottlesthroughout
theclass.
Ipulledawayfromthegroup,slippingthroughthesidedoorofftomyright.Itwouldtake
mebackstage,andoutbytherestrooms.IknewNashplannedontellingmyfatheraboutusrealsoon,Ijust
hopedthathehadn’tyet.
AssoonasIsteppedthroughthestagedoor,Iwasgrabbedfrombehindandpulledinto
anotherroom,probablyastoragecloset.
“I’msurprisedIrestrainedmyselfthislong…”Nash’shuskyvoicefilteredintomyearsand
mybodyrelaxedagainsthischest.
“Iwasjustcomingtofindyou.IwassoupsetwhenIfoundoutyouweren’tcomingto
dinner,andthenItextedyouandyoudidn’tanswer…”Isoundedlikeoneofthoseclingygirlfriends.“I
thoughtyouweremadatme.”Ifinished,feelingdefeated.
“Shhh,babygirl.”Hisroughtongueslidagainstthesideofmythroat,andmykneesbuckled.
Ohfuck,howeroticwasitforhimtotastemyskin?
“Ahhh.”Imoaned.“Nash…”Butmywordswerelostinthepassionofitall.Heslipped
pulledupmygraduationgownandmadehiswayunderneathmydress.Werewereallydoingthisright
here,rightnow?
“YouknowwhatIwasdreamingaboutthismorningbeforeyouwokemeup?”Ishookmy
headno,hisfingerstracingtheseamofmypanties,thefeatherlighttouchofhishandwasdoingcrazy
thingstomybody.
“Idreamtthatyouaskedmeforababy,youwantedmetobeadaddy.”Hesoundedsoproud
andthatpridewasthereinhistouch,whichgrewmoreeager.Ineededthis,aftereverythinghehadputme
through,Ineededsometypeofrelease.
Pushingmypantiestotheside,heenteredmewithtwofingers,stretchingmeinthemost
deliciousway.
“Ohfuck,Nash.”Islammedmyheadbackagainsthischest,andfelthiswarmbreath
caressingmyskin.Hewasturnedon,waymorethanIexpectedandIknewthat,notonlyfromhisquick
movements,butalsofromthesteelrodpokingmeintheback.
“Yes,Carly.That’swhatweregoingtodo.Fuck.I’mgoingtoplantmyseedinyourbelly
andwatchitgrow.I’mgoingtogiveyouwhatyouwant…Youwantthat,don’tyou?”Hecoaxedthe
wordsfrommylips.
“Yes,Nash.Yes!”Iwasbreathlesswitheachslipofhisfingersintomytighthole.Mybody
wasonfire,andeverybreaththatfilledmylungsburned,butIheldon,lettinghimgivetomewhathe
wanted.
“I’mcumming…”Iscreamedintohisshirt,andamuffledlaughslippedfromhislipswhile
mypussyclenchedaroundhisfingers.Ihadneverdonesomethingsobad,sonaughtyintheschoolwith
allmyclassmatesbutafewfeetaway.
“Squeezemyfingerstight,justlikeyouwillmycocktonight.”Nashdirtytalked,asanother
waveofpleasurecrashedintomeandpulledmeunder.OrgasmswithNashwereinsane,andtothinkI
hadmissedoutonthisfeelingforyears.Thefreefallingfeeling,aseverysinglehaironyourbodystood
onendforafewseconds.
“Ahhh…It’ssogood.”IwhisperyelledafraidthatwemaygetcaughtifIdidn’t.Nashkept
uphispace,pumpinginandoutofme,helpingtobuildanotherorgasm.Itwasn’tuntilheturnedhis
fingersrealsharpandrubbedinacircularmotionupwardsthatIwasshaking,myentirebodygoingweak,
asmykneesgaveout.Nashclutchedmetohischesttightlyholdingmyweightastheorgasmfromheaven
seepedintomybones.
“Holyshit.”Imumbled,barelyabletogetawordout.Iwasprettysurehehadmadeupfor
alltheteasinghehaddonethismorning.
“It’scalledag-spotbabygirl,youbettergetusedtothatfeeling,becauseit’sgoingto
happena-fucking-lotoncewestartfucking.”Nashpromised.HistouchconsumedmeandIneverwanted
toletgoofit.StillashegentlypulledoutofmeIfeltlesscoldinsidethanIdidbefore,becauseatleast
tonightIknewwewouldbecomeone.
IwatchedthroughtheshadowylightthatpeekedintotheroomasNashshovedbothfingers
intohismouth,suckingoffthesaltytasteofmyrelease.Helappedathisfingers,dragginghisteethover
hisskin.
“Yourtasteissofuckin’sweet.Likeanagedwine,youtastebetterandbetterwithtime.”It
wasmyturntolaughatthesentiment.Hewasadorable,andthefactthathelikedtotastemefromthe
insideoutwastotallysomethingIwasonboardwith,especiallyifhelookedatmelikehewasrightnow
allthetime.
“Laughitup,sweetheart,butwebothknowit’llbemebringingyou,sweetCarly,toyour
kneesoverandoveragaintonight.”Hethreatened,pressingakisstomyhead.Ismirked,knowingthatI
maybebroughttomykneestonightbutwhathedidn’tknowwasthathewasgoingtobecomingright
downwithme.
ChapterSeven
Nash
BeforeIcouldgiveCarlyherpresentandtakehervirginityIneededtotalktoDaddy
Dearest,alsoknownasKyle,mybestfriend.Ialwaystoldhimeverything,exceptthis.
Idialedhisnumberandletthephoneringandringandwhenhedidn’tanswerIhungup.
Beforeleavingtheschool,Igavemygirlalittlesomethingtoholdheroverandthenslidouttheback
doorlettingherknowIwouldbeoverataroundninetonightwithtakeout.
Ididn’tseeKylethenbutIcouldonlyassumethathewouldbeattheoneplaceIwasgoing
tobegoingtolater,andeventhoughIdidn’twanttoannounceCarlyandIbeingtogetherthereinher
homeinfrontofwhoevertheyhadinvited,Ineededtonipthisshitinthebud.
Iwasamanofmyword,andthatmeantIwouldstandtoetotoewithmyfuckin’girl’sdad.
Startingmymotorcycleup,IsmiledatthethoughtofbuildingahomewithCarlyandwatchingasmyseed
grewinsideher.IrevvedtheengineandthenshotofflikeabulletinthedirectionofCarly’shouse.
Thedrivewasshort,andanxietytickedawayinsideofmelikeaclocktickingdownona
bomb.Whatwouldhesay?Wouldhebecoolwithit?Ihopedso,becauseIwasn’tgoinganywhere.Carly
wasmine,andIhadalreadyshowneveryonebuthimthat.Ipulledintothedriveway,parkingmybike
neartheroad.
Justfuckin’tell’himyouloveher.Myconsciencesputteredout.Istompedupthedriveway
andtothefrontdoor.Ididn’tneedtoknock,butitfeltliketherightthing.Isqueezedmyeyesshut,and
scratchedatthebackofmyheadinfrustration.IwasnoPrinceCharmingandthiswasn’tafuckin’
fairytale,butIwasmorethanreadytogiveCarlyherhappilyeverafter.
Grippingthedoorhandleinmysweatypalm,Iturnedit,openingthedoor.Allthevoices
insideseemedtocometoanabrupthalt.IsmiledasIsteppedthroughthedoor,mybodylightingupasI
noticedCarlyfirst.Shewassittingonthesectionalinthelivingroominapairofyogapantsandt-shirt
thatsaidsomethingaboutabookboyfriend.
“Howdy.”IwavedahandatthegirlsittingnexttoherandJase,whowassittingontheother
endofthesectional.
“Nash.”Carlypracticallysighedmyname.
“Where’syourpops?”Iquestioned.ShehadtoknowthatIwasgoingtobetellinghimnow.
“Ineedtotalktohim.Ihavesomethingimportanttotellhim.”Iaddedjustincaseshehadn’tcaughton.
Carly’seyesgrewwide,assheshookherheadbackandforthasiftosayno,notnow.What
shedidn’tknowwasthatIwasdonehidingwhatwewere.Iwasreadytotakeustothenextlevelandthat
meantlettingeveryoneknowaboutus.
CatchingaglimpseofKyleashewalkedpasttheslidingglassdoors,IknewwhatIhadto
do.ItookmaybefivestepsinthedirectionofthedoorandCarlywasinfrontofme,oneofherhands
reachinguptostopme.
“Mymom’shere,Nash.”Shewhispered,lookingovermyshoulderatherfriendandbrother.
Iblinked.IgotwhatshewassayingbutthisneededtobedoneandanyproblemshimandSarahwere
havinghadnothingtodowithCarlyandI.
“Idon’tcare.Thisisaboutus,baby.Aboutyouandme.I’mdonehidingthis.Idon’tcareif
I’molder,oryourdad’sbestfriend.AllIcareaboutisyou.”Ituckedastrandofhercaramelbrownhair
behindherear,andsilentlypleadedwithhertoletmedothis.
“HowdidIgetsolucky?”Sheasked,reachingupontohertoestopressakisstomylips.I
smirkedather,andshemovedoutoftheway,lettingmegooutside.Igrippedthehandleontheglassdoor,
watchingtheclusterfuckknownasSarahandKyleoutside.Theywerearguingbackandforth.Kyle
lookingbeyondpissed,andSarahlookingfrustratedashell.
“Selfishisallyou’veeverbeen.”Kylegrated,justasIslippedoutthedoor.Ihadnofucks
togivetoeitherofthem,Kylelethersleepwithothermenforyears.IwouldneverdothattoCarlyor
allowhertodothattome.Shewasfuckin’mineandifIcouldn’tpleaseher,thenIdidn’tdeserveher,but
thatdidn’tmeanshegottodowhoevershewanted.
“Hi!”Islippedmyhandsintothefrontofjeans.
“Whatthefuck,Nash.”Sarahwasthefirsttocommentonmebeinghere.
“Nicetoseeyou,too.”Imumbled,directingmyattentiontoKyle.HewasthemanIneeded
totalkto.
Kyleshookhishead,confusionetchingintohisfeatures.“Whatthehell,Nash.Issomething
goingon?”Hetuggedathistie,looseningitmoreasifhefeltlikehewassuffocating.
“Ineededtotalktoyou,preferablyalone,butsinceSarahishereIdoubtthatwillbe
happening.”Iremainedcalm,becauseifIdidn’tshitwouldhitthefan,thatandIdidn’twanttoruintoday
forCarly.
“Fuckoff,Nash,youneverlikedmeanyway.”Shegrowled,andIcastaglareinher
direction.Noshit,Ihadneverlikedher.Howcouldsheevenlikeherselfafterallthatshehaddonetoher
family?
“Whilewhatthehellisgoingon?Imean,isitsomethingthatcanwaittilllater,because
honestlyIalreadyhavemyhandsfull.”Kylesighed,andIknewIwasgoingtomakeanassoutofmyself
hereinasecond.
“Itcan’twait.Idon’tcareaboutwhateverproblemsyoutwoarehaving.Ijustwantedyou
toknowthatCarlyandIaredatingnow.Ididn’twanttogoanyfurtherinourrelationshipwithouttalking
toyoufirst.”ItwassoquietIcouldhearthecricketschirpingacrosstheyard.Kylelookedatmelikehe
sawaghost,andSarah’sfacewasvoidofanyemotion.
“Tellmeyoudidn’tjustfuckingsaywhatIthinkyoudid?”Kyleslammedhisfistdownon
thepatiotable.Iexhaledabreathbeforespeakingagain.
“Ilethergotwoyearsago.Idon’tcarewhatyouthink,orsayaboutit.Ijustdidn’twantto
hideitfromyouany…”TherestofwhatIwastryingtosaygotlostintheimpactofKyle’sfistsramming
intothesideofmynose.
Mytongueslidacrossthefrontofmyteethasthemetallictasteofbloodfilledmymouth.
Okay,Ideservedthatone.Iwouldgivehimthat,butnomore.CarlysawthewholethingandIwatchedas
shewrenchedopenthedoorandscurriedtomyside,hersmallarmwrappingaroundme.
“Daddy,no.”Shecriedout,andKyledidn’tcare,Icouldseethevacantstareinhiseyes.
“I’llgiveyouthathit,man,becauseIknowallofthisisalottotakein,butifyouhitme
againI’mtakingyoutotheground.CarlyandIloveeachotherandIplanonmarryingheroneday.”I
confessed,feelingCarly’sarmsqueezemetighterasIspoke.Kyleheldhishandtohischest,defeat
showinginhisfeatures.
“You’reovertwentyyearsolderthanher,Nash.You’reafuckingadult,andshe…She’sjust
achild,barelylegalage,andyou’resupposedtobemybestfriend….”Hewasspiralingoutofcontrol.
“Ageisjustafuckin’number,Kyle.Don’tplaythatcard.LoveisloveandIloveCarlyso
fuckin’much.IlefttwoyearsagotoletherfindsomeoneelseandwhenIreturnedandsawshewasalone,
andhadn’tmovedonfromwhatIthoughtwasacrush,Ipounced.She’sminenow,andthereain’tshityou
candoaboutit.”Idaredhimtotry.Ilovedtheman,butCarlycamebeforeanythingthathimandIhad
now.
“Tellmethisain’ttrue,sweetie…”KylebeggedCarly,takingastepawayfromallofusas
ifhecouldn’tstandtobethisclosetous.
“IloveNash.I’velovedhimsinceIwasthirteen.Don’tblamehimforthis.Icameontohim
foryearsandhedeniedme.Ifanything,thisismyfault.I’lltaketheblameforbringingustogether,butI’m
notbreakingupwithhimandIdon’tregretdecidingtobewithhim,either.”
Myegoandpridewerestillverymuchintactbecauseofthisbeautifulgirl.Shehelpedme,
andheldmetogetherwhenIwasworriedIcouldn’tfollowthroughwiththis.ThelastthingIwantedtodo
wasendmyfriendshipwithKylebutthiswassomethingthatneededtobedoneandneitherCarlyorI
couldhideourfeelingsanymore.
“SeeKyle,thisisthekindofshitthathappenswhenyouhavecustodyofourkids.Youlet
ourdaughtersleepwithapervert.”Sarahyelled,throwingherhandsintheair.Iwasseethingbecauseof
hercomment,soIdirectedmyangerather.
“Shutthefuckup,Sarah.Todayisyourdaughter’shighschoolgraduationbutinsteadof
beingthereforit,youwereridingsomerichguysdick.Soshutthefuckupandgobacktowhateverhole
youcrawledoutof.”VenomdrippedfrommywordsandevenifIdidn’tmeantocomeoffasacomplete
asshole,IknewnoneofthiscouldgoassmoothlyasIplayeditoutinmyhead.
Kylescrubbedahanddownhisface.“Thiscan’tbereal.Myex-wifeisawhoreandmy
daughterishookingupwithmybestfriend,whoistwentyyearsolderthanher.”Heshookhishead,more
thanlikelygoingintoshock.
“Kyle,wecanstillbefriends.”IhateddoingwhatIwasdoingtohim.Iknewhehadenough
goingon,butCarlyandIdeservedourveryownhappilyeverafterandifwedidn’ttellhim,wewould
nevergetit.
“No.”Helaughedlikeacrazyperson.“Wecan’t.Iwon’tbefriendswithamanthatis
fuckingmydaughter.”Iguessputtingitthatwayseemedabitdegrading.Ishrugged.Hewouldcome
aroundtoallofthis.
“Well,thisishowit’sgoingtobefromhereonout,Kyle.I’mgoingtomarryher,andhavea
familywithher.Ifyouwanttobeapartofanyofthat,thenyou’llhavetogetoverthis.”Iannounced,
wrappingCarlyupinmyarms,hersweetfloweryscentwashingoverme,makingiteasiertofocusonthe
goodinsteadofthebadthatthisconversationbroughtout.
“No.Iwon’tfuckingbeapartofanyofthis.”Hepointedafingeratallofus,signifyingjust
howdonehewas.Withoutevengivingusanotherbackwardsglance,hestompedintothehouseandthen
outthefrontdoor,theroaringsoundofhisMercedestoldmehewasleaving.
“Thisisgoingtokillyourfather,Carly.Ihopeyouunderstandthat.”Sarahadded,stomping
towardsthedoor,clearlyjustasmadasKyle.
“No,youalreadydidmom.Youkilleddadwhenyoudecidedyouneededmorethanjust
yourkidsandahusband.Youmadeaselfishchoiceanddestroyedthisfamily,soleave,walkawayit’s
literallytheonlythingI’veseenyoudointhethreeyears.”IwantedtohighfiveCarlysobadly,hermom
stoppeddeadinhertracksandtwistedonherheels,anevilsneeronherface.
“IdidwhatIneededtodo,Carly,andIhopeyouneverhavetogothroughanythinglike
that.”SarahtriedtothreatenCarlyandscareher,butthatwasn’tokaywithme.
“Sheneverwill,becauseshehasmeandI’llnevergiveuponlovingher.”Igrowled,
holdingCarlytomychest.Sarahturnedaroundandwalkedintothehouse,flippingmethebird.Shedidn’t
giveafuckaboutCarly.
ThiswholetimeIwasworriedaboutrippingafamilyapartandhurtingpeople,whenthose
thingshadalreadybeendone.Ifanything,Imadeatleastoneperson’slifebetter,andthatwasallthat
mattered.
“I’msorry,babygirl…”Iturnedherinmyarmsandpressedmylipstoherforehead.Iwas
sorry.Sorryshehadashittymom,andsorrythatherdaddidn’tunderstandourlove.
“Don’tbesorry.Itwasallgoingtohelllongbeforewedecidedtobetogether,Nash.”She
assuredme,lacingourfingerstogether.NowthatthetruthwasoutCarlyandIdidn’thavetohide
anymore.Wecouldbetogether.Wecouldbehappy.Wecouldgetmarriedandhavekids.
“Iloveyou.”Iwrappedmyarmsaroundherandtookadeepbreathofherscent,lettingthe
smellcalmmyfurioustemper.Noonewasgoingtohurtmybabygirlanymore.
“Iloveyou,too.”Shewhispered,lettingmeliftherupintomyarms.Iwentintothehouse,
hopinglikehellthateveryonehadscattered,becauseIplannedonowningthiswomanineveryway,right
now.
ChapterEight
Carly
AfterNashmetAvery,heallbuttoldherandmybrotherthattheyneededtoleavebecauseheand
Ihadunfinishedbusiness.Iwasgiddywithemotiontheentiretimehewasonthephone,orderingtakeout.
IhadnowhereIneededtobe,whichmeantneitherofuswouldbeleavingthishouse,ormybed,anytime
soon.
IhadsavedmyvirginityforhimandIplannedonlettinghimunwrapmelikeIwasapresenton
Christmasmorning.
“I’vewaitedforthisdayforover660days,Carly.Itried.Ifuckin’triedsohardtostayawayfrom
you,andletyougo.”Iwantedhimalready,andhehadn’teventouchedmeyet.
WeweresnugglinginmybedwiththeTVon,butneitherofusplannedonwatchingit.Igazedup
athimwatchinghiseyesdarkenasIreachedforthebuttononhisjeans.Hewasabadboywrappedupin
atightbowandIhadeverysingleintentionofgettingthedirtymantomakeanappearancewithme
tonight.
“You’replayingwithfire,Carly.I’verestrainedmyselfforaverylongtime,butmypatienceis
verythinrightnow.”Icouldtellfromhisclippedvoicethathewasn’tlying.Whathedidn’tunderstand
wasthatIdidn’twantthepatientNash.IwantedtheroughandwildNash,themanthatwouldbreakme,
andpiecemebacktogetheragain.
“MaybeIwanttoplaywithfire.MaybeIwanttogetburned.”Itaunted,thebuttononhisjeans
comingundone.MymouthwaswateringasIpulledthefrontofhisjeansdown,exposingtheverytopof
hisgroin.
“Oh,really?”Hegrowled,andinasecondIwasonmyback,withNash,thebigbadbeast,
hoveringaboveme.Heshuckedhispantsinlessthanthirtyseconds.Withthedramawithmydadoutof
theway,Ifeltmorethanreadytogivemyselfovertohim.Nashwasmine,andnowwecouldbetogether
withouthidingit.
“Whatareyougoingtodotome?”Iasked,mynailsrakingoverhischiseledchest.Icouldfeelthe
tighteningofhismusclesbeneathmyhands.Heleanedintomyface,takingmybottomlipbetweenhis
teeth.
Imoanedintohismouth,thebiteofpainmakingmybellyflip-flop.Hekissedthepainawaywith
aroughslamofhislipsagainstmine.Nashmademefeelwhole,evenashepeeledmyclothesfrommy
bodyexposingmefromtheinsideout,forthefirsttimeever.
Slowly,myyogapantswereremovedandtossedtothefloor,followedbymyt-shirt.Ilaid
beneathhiminnothingbutmybraandpanties.Mypussytightenedashepulledhisshirtoff,givingmea
goodlookathisbodyagain.
“I’mgoingtoexposeyouandpeelbackallthelayersofwhoyouare.Nothingisevergoing
toseparateusagain.”Heannounced,rollingmeovertounclaspmybra.AsIlayonmyback,hisfingers
trailedalongmyspine,hisfeatherlighttouchcausingmybodytoshiver.
“I’mreadyforyou,Nash.Iwantyou.”Ipawedatthebedsheets,myassarchingintohis
touch.Mybodyknewexactlywhattodoandhowtoreacttohistouch.Icouldfeelthewarmthofhisbody
heatonmybackandIdesperatelywantedtorolloverandtouchhim.
“Letmetakecareofyou,babygirl,becausewhenitcomestimesformetofuckyou,Iwant
ittobeperfect.Iwantyourpussytobeslickanddrippingforme.”Icouldn’tevencomprehendthe
emotionsIwasfeeling.
OnesecondNashwasaboveme,andthenexthewasunderme,liftingmyhipsandplacing
mypussydirectlyonhisface.
“Nash…”Iquestioned,apprehensivetothefactthatIwassittingdirectlyonhisface.What
ifIsuffocatedhim?
“Ridemyface,baby.”Hisvoicewasmuffled,asheflickedhistongueagainstmyclit.I
rearedup,pullingmyselfupoffhisface.Itwasn’tthefirsttimehehadeatenmeout,butitwasthefirst
timeheaskedmetositonhisface.Hishandscameup,wrappingaroundmylegs,holdingmeinplaceas
hebroughtmebackdownontohistongue.
ThistimewhenIcamedownhewasrelentless,histonguelickingmeupanddownuntilI
startedtomoveallonmyownagainsthistongue.
“SweetBabyJesus!”Icriedout,myhandsgoingstraighttohishair.Icouldfeelhimsmile
againstmypussyandwantedtoslaphim.Hewasteasingme.
OnceheknewIwasn’tgoinganywhere,headjustedme,usingoneofhishandstofingerfuck
me.Histhickdigitslidingthroughmyfoldsandintomypussywithease.Iwassaturated,drippingfucking
wet.
“Icouldspendhoursbetweenyourlegs;teasing…sucking,sipping,andtastingyou.”Ifell
apartrightthereonhisface,mymusclesquiveringashecontinuedhisdeliciousassaultagainstmypussy.
Eachpleasurablewavehitmedirectlyinthechest,makingithardtobreathe.Igripped
Nash’shairtightlybetweenmyfingers,willinghimtostop,butbegginghimtokeepgoing.
Thebuildingofanotherorgasmcoursedthroughmyveins.Iwasfloating,myentirebodyas
lightasafeather.AllIcouldfeelwasNash’stongueandfingersowningmybody.
“Cum.Now,Carly.Iwanttotastethosesweetpussyjuicesonmytongue.”Ihadnevercum
oncommand,butNash’sdeepdemandingvoicepushedmeovertheedge.Igrippedontohisshoulders,my
nailssinkingintohisfleshasIheldonfordearlifewhilehesuckedmyclitsohardIwassurehewas
goingtoswallowit.
“Fuck.Fuck.Fuck!”IcouldonlymusteruptheoneswearwordasIgroundmyentirebody
weightagainsthismouth.Mylegsquiveredandeverymuscleinmybodyclampedup.Myheartthudded
loudlyinmyearsandIwonderedhowonEarthitcouldgetbetterthanthis.
“Mmm…I’llnevergettiredoffeastingonyou,babygirl.”Hemuttered,slitheringoutfrom
underneathme,leavingmeclutchingontothesheets.Iwasontheedgeofpleasure,andsensitiveashell.
Nashrolledmeover,adarkbutextremelygentlelookinhiseyes.
Helookedasifhewantedtodestroyme,butsavormeatthesametime.Iunderstoodhis
need,becausethatsamefeelingpumpedthroughmyveins.
“I’mready,Nash.Takeme.Ownme.Destroyme.”Imoaned,andhedid.Herolledoneof
mynipplesbetweentwoofhisfingersandIarchedintohistouch.Mybodywasonfire,andtheburnthat
consumedmerefusedtobeextinguished.
“It’sgoingtohurtlikeabitch,baby,butIsweartoyouI’lldobetternexttime.Everysingle
timeafterthiswillbeamazing.”Nash’svoicewascoolandcalmandInoddedmyheadinunderstanding
ashecenteredtheheadofhiscockatmyentrance.Icouldfeelthecoldmetalofhispiercing,and
wonderedifitwouldhurtwhenitwentinside.
“Ohfuck…”Ipurred,ashesuckedoneofmynipplesintohismouthwhilehemessagedthe
otherone.Iwasoncloud9whenhefinallystartedtoslipbetweenmyfolds.Hewasbig,andIwastight,
soitwouldbeapainfulfit.
MybreathscameoutinpantsasIwatchedNashpushtheheadintomytighthole.His
musclestightenedasherestrainedhimself,movingintomeasslowlyashumanlypossible.
“OhGod!”Thepaindevelopedinmybellyandradiateddownthroughmypussy.Iwas
morethanready,Iwasdripping,butthefactthatmypussyhadneverbeenspreadsowidebeforecaused
mostofthepain.
“I’msorry,baby.I’msosorry.”Hemoaned,hiseyessqueezingshutashisforeheadpressed
againstmine,hiswarmbreathfanningagainstmycheeks.Tearsprickedmyeyesasheslammedintome
hard,atightpinchingandsearingheatfloodedme.
Mylipsquiveredaspaintookoveranyremainingpleasure.Ifeltnothingbutasearingheat
inmybelly.Nashwasimprintinghimselfdeepinsideofme,hiscockowningeveryounceofwhoIwas.
“Nash.”IwasbreathlessasIlookedhimstraightintheeyesandurgedhimtokeepmoving.
Iwantedthistobedonenowthatithadstarted.Afterafewsecondsofnomovement,hestartedmoving
again,hismovementsslowandjerkyasmypussyclenchedhiscocktightly.
“You’resofuckingtight,Carly.Yourpussyismilkingmycockofeverythingithas.”His
dirtywordshelpedrelievesomeofthepainandasitrecededhespedup,hispacequickeningasIstarted
tomatchhimthrustforthrust.
“Yes!Yes!Yes.”Nashgrippedmeundertheassasheslidintomeoverandoveragain.The
hardmetalofhiscock-piercingrubbedagainstmyg-spot.Iunderstoodwhyhesaiditwouldbemy
damnationnow.ItwasthemostintensepleasureIhadeverfelt.
“Fuckme.I’mcumming,baby.Yourpussyissotight.”Nashgrowled,histeethsinkinginto
myshoulderashebitmehard,thepainfromhisbiteandthethrustofhishipsintominewasdelicious,but
notenoughtomakemecum.
IcouldfeelNash’scockpulsingdeepinsideme,hishotcumfillingmytighthole.Ihad
neverfeltsowholebefore,myentirebodywashumming,myheartbeatinglikeajackhammeroutofmy
chest.
Nashcradledmeagainsthischest,pepperingsoftkissesagainstmyface,shoulders,and
throat,untilhisdickwentlimpinsideofme.
Longmomentsofsilencewherenowordswereneededformedbetweenus.Anythingthat
wecouldsaytoeachotherwealreadyhadwithourbodies.
“ItwaseverythingIexpectedittobe.”Iwhispered,feelingacrampingbetweenmylegsasI
moved.Therewasasmearofbloodagainstthebedsheetsbutitdidn’tscaremetoseeit.Iknewwhatto
expect.
“Ifuckin’careforyoulikeIneverhaveanyoneinmylife,Carly.Iloveyou,andI’mso
blessedthatyousavedthispartofyourselfforme.Doyouunderstandme?I’mhonoredtobeyourfirst,
babygirl,andIpromisetobringyoupleasureeverysingletimewefuck,ormakelove,fromthisday
forward.”Hespokeintomyhair,spooningmefrombehind,hissteelhardcockpokingmedirectlyinthe
ass.
Igroundmypussyagainsthiscockagain,wantingtoseeifitwouldfeelbetterthesecond
timearound.
WhatIdidn’texpectwasforNashtogripmyhiptightlyandhaltanyfurthermovements.I
lookedathimovermyshoulderinquestion.
“You’resoreandIknowit,babygirl.Don’thideit.Therewillbetonsoftimeforustofuck
andmakelovebutdon’tpushit.I’mrestrainingmyselffromtakingyouagainrightnow,andyougrinding
yourpussyonmeismakingitalotharderthanitneedstobe.”Nashgroundout.Hewasn’tannoyedwith
me;infactitwasquiettheopposite.Hewantedme,anditwaskillinghimnottohavemeagain.Knowing
IhadteasedhimenoughovertheyearsIlistenedtohim,settlingintohisarmsandlettinghimholdme
tight.
Myfamilydramamightbethroughtheroof,butattheendofthedayIhadsomeonehereto
takecareofmeandmakesurethatIwasokay.
“Thankyouforbeingsosweet,andthemostperfectmanever.”Hesnickered;thesmellof
ourscentsclashingtogethermixedwithsexintheairrelaxedmefurther.
“It’snotmethat’sperfect,baby,it’syouandthat’sthereasonIamthewayIam.”Nash
wasn’tperfect,hewasflawedjustlikeanyoneelseinthisworldbutinmyeyes,hewouldalwaysbethe
mostperfectlyflawedperson.
ChapterNine
Nash
ClaimingCarlywasthemostintensethingIhadeverdone.Shewasundermyskinandin
everysinglethoughtIhad.IthadonlybeenaweeksinceweslepttogetherbutItriedmyhardesttokeep
mydistancefromher,becausebeingsoclosetoherbutnotbeingcloseenoughwasdrivingmecrazy.
TodayIhadplansofdoingsomethinggreaterthanfuckingCarly,though.Ineededtomake
amendswithKyleandthatmeantgoingtohim.Ihadsealedourfates,butthatdidn’tmeanIwantedthings
togobadwithKyle.Givinghimsometimetodigestourrelationshipwastherightthing,andthebetter
thingwasgoingtohimagainandtryingtomakethingsright.
Idrovemybikeuptohishouse,knowingIwaseithergoingtogetthrownoutbythepolice
orwelcomedinside.Iparkedontheroad,andthenwalkedthesidewalkuptothefrontdoor.
Istopped,thinkingforasecondaboutthethingsthatwehadbeenthrough.Thefights.The
parties.Thegirls.Kylehadeveryreasonintheworldtobescaredofmebeingwithhisdaughter,after
all,heknewmebetterthananyoneelsedid.
Whathedidn’tknowthough,wasthatmyloveforCarlyrandeeperthananythingelse.I
wouldworshipthegroundshewalkedon.Iwouldprovideandprotectherunderanycircumstances.
Sheownedme;mind,body,andsoul.
Iraisedmyfist,knockingloudlyonthedoor.Secondspassedandthenthedoorwasflung
open,anangryKylestandingbeforeme.
“Whatthefuckdoyouwant?”Hedemanded.Thescowlonhisfaceandthesleeplesslook
inhiseyesshowedhowmuchhehadbeensuffering.
“CanIcomein?”Iasked,notwantingtohavethisargumentoutinthestreet.
“Sure.Comein.Takeovertheplace.Idon’tcare.”Hereallywasdefeated.Isteppedinside
thecondo,takingnoticeofthedisastrousstatethattheplacewasin.Clearly,Ihadn’tthoughtthroughthe
damagethatmyadmissionwouldcause.
“Inevermeanttohurtyou,Kyle.I’mnotheretoreplaceyou.I’mstillyourfriend.Ijustlove
yourdaughter.”Iremainedcalm,knowingthatangerandragewouldn’tgetmeanywhere.
“Younevermeanttohurtme?”Heturnedonhisheels,fireflickeringinhiseyes.Istood
verystill,remainingcalmandremindingmyselfthatthisneededtobefixed.ThatKyleandIcouldn’thate
eachotherifwebothwantedtohaveapartinCarly’sfuture.
“No.Lovingyourdaughterwasneverpartoftheplan.Ididn’texpecttofallforher,Kyle.”
Anguishhitmeinthegut.IneverexpectedtowantCarlylikeIdo.Tofallinlovewithherwasevenmore
foreign,butshewantedmeandIwantedherandIwasn’tgoingtotellhernojustbecauseDaddydidn’t
approve.
“Iknowyou,Nash.Iknowhowmanywomenyou’vebeenwith.Yourtrackrecord.”Hewas
pissednow,ashecrossedtheroomgettingrightinmyface.
“Itrustyou,butIdon’ttrustyouenoughnottobreakmydaughter’sheart.”Hisvoicewas
lowandsinister,andithitmethen.Hewasn’tmadatmeforbeingwithCarly,hewasmadbecausehe
thoughtIwasgoingtodestroyherandIwasn’t.
“Iloveher.Ifuckin’loveher.Iwouldlaydownmylifeforyourdaughter.I’vefuckedupin
thepastanddonesomereallybadshit,butthat’sdonewith.I’mwithCarlynow.Iwanttomarryherand
havekids.Iwantwhateverthehellshewantsoutoflife.”Ipushedback,lettingmywordssinkdeepinto
histhickheadedskull.
“Youdon’tloveher.”Kyletookastepbackawayfrommeandinthedirectionofhisbar,
whereemptybottlesofbourbonlinedthewoodcounter.
“Idofuckin’loveherandevenifyoudon’tacceptusbeingtogether,werestillgoingtobe.I
justwantedtotryandmakeamendswithyoubecauseIknowCarlycaresaboutyou.Ididtherightthing,
Kyle.Ididn’tsleepwithher.Ididn’tfuckherlikeIwould’vehadshebeenanyoneelse.Irespectedyou.I
didrightbyyou,andIwilldorightbyCarlytillthedaythatIdie.”Iwasdone.Ifhedidn’tbelieveme
thenthatwasonhim,butthewayIfeltabouthisdaughterwasn’tgoingtochange.
Carlywasmygirl,notDaddy’sanymoreandifhecouldn’tswallowthatpill,thenhedidn’t
needtobearoundeitherofus.
Iswiveledaroundheadingforthefrontdoor,myhandclaspingontothemetaldoorhandle
justasKylespokeagain.
“She’smylittlegirl,Nash.Treatherright.”Ipausedwaitingtoseeifhewouldsayanything
else.“I’mnotinaplaceinmyliferightnowtohandlethis,butIpromiseyouonedayI’llcomearound.
Justdorightbyher…Promiseme?”Kylewasheartbroken,soIdidasheaskedofmebeforewalkingout
thedoor.
“I’lldorightbyherforever.She’smygirl.”Withthatsaid,Ileft,lettingKylefigureouthis
lifeonhisown.
Carlywouldbefinewithmebyherside.Ifanyonewouldensurethatshehadagoodlife,it
wasme.
Iwouldgiveherkids.Marryherandprovideherwitheverysinglewantandneedshecould
possiblyhave.Iwouldspoilandnurtureher.
Iwouldloveher.
Epilogue
1yearlater
Carly
Iwasliterallythesizeofahouse;myfeetwereswollenandmybellywasswollenandyet
NashstillthoughtIwasgoodenoughtoeatdayinanddayout.
“Idon’twanttogotodinner.Can’tIjustsitathomeinmyyogapantsandeatdoughnutsfor
dinner?”Ipouted,steppingintoasummerdressthatjustseemedtomakemyalreadyhugebellybigger.
“Carly,Iwillpaddleyourbehindifyoudonotgetyourassouthereinadressinfive
seconds.”Ismiled,adjustingmyhairknowingthathemeantandwouldcomeinhereandpaddlemy
behind,whichwouldthenleadtosex,andusbeinglate.
“Carly.”Hesaidmynamewithawarning,andIdecideditwouldbeagoodideatojustgo.
Waddlingoutintothelivingroom,myeyescaughtonablackboxthatsatinhishand.Whatwasthat?
“What’sthat?”Iquestionedeagerly,walkingfasterovertothecouch.Hesmirkedlikean
asshole,pullingtheboxjustoutofmyreach.
“Yourpresent.”
“Wellifit’sminethengiveittome.”Iraisedaneyebrow,challenginghim.Ilovedthis
gamethatweplayed,pushingeachothereveryday.
“Sitdown,Ms.Impatient,orI’llgiveyousomething,alright.”Igiggled,takingtheseatnext
tohim.
“Sitting.”Icommented,withanopenhand.Heshotmeayoumustwantspankedlook.
“Igotthismadeforyoulastyearbutnevergaveittoyou.NotbecauseIdidn’twantto,but
becauseIwantedtosaveitforouroneyearanniversary.”Iswooned.Iseriouslyhadthebestboyfriendin
theentireworld.
HeplacedtheblackboxinmyhandandwatchedmewithexcitementasIpoppedthebox
open.Myeyeslandedonasterlingsilverbraceletwithlittlelettersattachedtoit.Ipluckedthebracelet
fromtheboxandeyedit,readingeachletteruntilIcouldmakeitallout.
“Nash’sGirl.”Istaredatit.MydadhadgivenmeanecklacethatsaidDaddy’sgirlonit
lastyeararoundthistime,aswell.
“Nowyouhaveapieceofusbothwithyou.”HeunderstoodthatIlovedmydadandthatmy
relationshipwithhimwasimportant,butthattheloveIhadforhim,andhimalone,wasadifferentkindof
love.
Tearsprickedatmyeyes,thingswithmydadwerestilltensebuttheywerebetterthanthey
were.NashandImovedintoabiggerhousesoourfamilycouldgrowandIwasworkingonmydegreeat
thecollegeacrosstown.
“Nash.Ifuckin’loveyou.”Icried,lettinghimplacethebraceletonmywrist.Hewasright,
nowIhadsomethingfrombothofthem.
“AsdoI.Iloveyou.Ourunbornson.Thishome.Ourrelationship.Yourpussy.”Hewinked.
“Butmostlythefactthatyougaveyourselftomewhenyoucould’vegivenyourselftoanyoneelse.”
Whenhislipstouchedmine,myentirebodylitup.AirfilledmylungsandCohenstarted
kickingagainstmybelly,knowingMommywasgettingallhotandbotheredbyDaddy.
“Cohensayshelovesyoutoo.”Iwhisperedagainsthislips,andNashpulledawayfromme
forasecondtotouchmybellyandfeelhiskicks.
“Ican’twaittomeetyou,littleguy.”Hespokedirectlytomybelly,hislipsskimmingover
thefabricofmydress.Iwasluckyandinlove.Agewasnothingbutanumberwhenyoulovedsomeone.
TheEnd
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