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Table of Contents
1. Prologue
2. Chapter 1
3. Chapter 2
4. Chapter 3
5. Chapter 4
6. Chapter 5
7. Chapter 6
8. Chapter 7
9. Chapter 8
10. Chapter 9
11. Chapter 10
12. Chapter 11
13. Chapter 12
14. Chapter 13
15. Chapter 14
16. Chapter 15
17. Chapter 16
18. Chapter 17
19. Chapter 18
20. Chapter 19
21. Chapter 20
22. Chapter 21
23. Chapter 22
24. Chapter 23
25. Chapter 24
26. Chapter 25
27. Chapter 26
28. Chapter 27
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29. Chapter 28
30. Chapter 29
31. Chapter 30
32. Chapter 31
33. Chapter 32
34. Chapter 33
35. Chapter 34
36. Chapter 35
37. Chapter 36
38. Chapter 37
39. Chapter 38
40. Chapter 39
41. Chapter 40
42. Chapter 41
43. Chapter 42
44. Chapter 43
45. Chapter 44
46. Chapter 45
47. Chapter 46
48. Chapter 47
49. Chapter 48
50. Chapter 49
51. Chapter 50
52. Chapter 51
53. Chapter 52
54. Chapter 53
55. Chapter 54
56. Chapter 55
57. Chapter 56
58. Chapter 57
59. Chapter 58
60. Chapter 59
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61. Chapter 60
62. Chapter 61
63. Chapter 62
64. Chapter 63
65. Chapter 64
66. Chapter 65
67. Chapter 66
68. Chapter 67
69. Chapter 68
70. Chapter 69
71. Chapter 70
72. Chapter 71
73. Chapter 72
74. Chapter 73
75. Chapter 74
76. Chapter 75
77. Chapter 76
78. Chapter 77
79. Chapter 78
80. Chapter 79
81. Chapter 80
82. Chapter 81
83. Chapter 82
84. Chapter 83
85. Chapter 84
86. Chapter 85
87. Chapter 86
88. Chapter 87
89. Chapter 88
90. Chapter 89
91. Chapter 90
92. Chapter 91
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93. Chapter 92
94. Chapter 93
95. Chapter 94
96. Chapter 95
97. Chapter 96
98. Chapter 97
99. Chapter 98
100. Chapter 99
101. Chapter 100
102. Chapter 101
103. Chapter 102
104. Chapter 103
105. Chapter 104
106. Chapter 105
107. Chapter 106
108. Chapter 107
109. Chapter 108
110. Chapter 109
111. Chapter 110
112. Chapter 111
113. Chapter 112
114. Chapter 113
115. Chapter 114
116. Chapter 115
117. Chapter 116
118. Chapter 117
119. Chapter 118
120. Chapter 119
121. Chapter 120
122. Chapter 121
123. Chapter 122
124. Chapter 123
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125. Chapter 124
126. Chapter 125
127. Chapter 126
128. Chapter 127
129. Chapter 128
130. Chapter 129
131. Chapter 130
132. Chapter 131
133. Chapter 132
134. Chapter 133
135. Chapter 134
136. Chapter 135
137. Chapter 136
138. Chapter 137
139. Chapter 138
140. Chapter 139
141. Chapter 140
142. Chapter 141
143. Chapter 142
144. Chapter 143
145. Chapter 144
146. Chapter 145
147. Chapter 146
148. Chapter 147
149. Chapter 148
150. Chapter 149
151. Chapter 150
152. Chapter 151
153. Chapter 152
154. Chapter 153
155. Chapter 154
156. Chapter 155
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157. Chapter 156
158. Chapter 157
159. Chapter 158
160. Chapter 159
161. Chapter 160
162. Chapter 161
163. Chapter 162
164. Chapter 163
165. Chapter 164
166. Chapter 165
167. Chapter 166
168. Chapter 167
169. Chapter 168
170. Chapter 169
171. Chapter 170
172. Chapter 171
173. Chapter 172
174. Chapter 173
175. Chapter 174
176. Chapter 175
177. Chapter 176
178. Chapter 177
179. Chapter 178
180. Chapter 179
181. Chapter 180
182. Chapter 181
183. Chapter 182
184. Chapter 183
185. Chapter 184
186. Chapter 185
187. Chapter 186
188. Chapter 187
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189. Chapter 188
190. Chapter 189
191. Chapter 190
192. Chapter 191
193. Chapter 192
194. Chapter 193
195. Chapter 194
196. Chapter 195
197. Chapter 196
198. Chapter 197
199. Chapter 198
200. Chapter 199
201. Chapter 200
202. Chapter 201
203. Chapter 202
204. Chapter 203
205. Chapter 204
206. Chapter 205
207. Chapter 206
208. Chapter 207
209. Chapter 208
210. Chapter 209
211. Chapter 210
212. Chapter 211
213. Chapter 212
214. Chapter 213
215. Chapter 214
216. Chapter 215
217. Chapter 216
218. Chapter 217
219. Chapter 218
220. Chapter 219
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221. Chapter 220
222. Chapter 221
223. Chapter 222
224. Chapter 223
225. Chapter 224
226. Chapter 225
227. Chapter 226
228. Chapter 227
229. Chapter 228
230. Chapter 229
231. Chapter 230
232. Chapter 231
233. Chapter 232
234. Chapter 233
235. Chapter 234
236. Chapter 235
237. Chapter 236
238. Chapter 237
239. Chapter 238
240. Chapter 239
241. Chapter 240
242. Chapter 241
243. Chapter 242
244. Chapter 243
245. Chapter 244
246. Chapter 245
247. Chapter 246
248. Chapter 247
249. Chapter 248
250. Chapter 249
251. Chapter 250
252. Chapter 251
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253. Chapter 252
254. Chapter 253
255. AN Laptop Troubles & Updating
256. Chapter 254
257. Chapter 255
258. Chapter 256
259. Chapter 257
260. Chapter 258
261. Chapter 259
262. Chapter 260
263. Chapter 261
264. Chapter 262
265. Chapter 263
266. Chapter 264
267. Chapter 265
268. Chapter 266
269. Chapter 267
270. Chapter 268
271. Chapter 269
272. Chapter 270
273. Chapter 271
274. Chapter 272
275. Chapter 273
276. Chapter 274
277. Chapter 275
278. Chapter 276
279. Chapter 277
280. Chapter 278
281. Chapter 279
282. Chapter 280
283. Chapter 281
284. Chapter 282
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285. Chapter 283
286. Chapter 284
287. Chapter 285
288. Chapter 286
289. Chapter 287
290. Chapter 288
291. Chapter 289
292. Chapter 290
293. Chapter 291
294. Chapter 292
295. Chapter 293
296. Chapter 294
297. Chapter 295
298. Chapter 296
299. Chapter 297
300. Chapter 298
301. Chapter 299
302. Chapter 300
303. Chapter 301
304. Chapter 302
305. Chapter 303
306. Chapter 304
307. Chapter 305
308. Chapter 306
309. Chapter 307
310. Chapter 308
311. Chapter 309
312. Chapter 310
313. Chapter 311
314. Chapter 312
315. Chapter 313
316. Chapter 314
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317. Chapter 315
318. Chapter 316
319. Chapter 317
320. Chapter 318
321. Chapter 319
322. Chapter 320
323. Chapter 321
324. Chapter 322
325. Chapter 323
326. Chapter 324
327. Chapter 325
328. Chapter 326
329. Chapter 327
330. Chapter 328
331. Chapter 329
332. Chapter 330
333. Chapter 331
334. Chapter 332
335. Chapter 333
336. Chapter 334
337. Chapter 335
338. Chapter 336
339. Chapter 337
340. Chapter 338
341. Chapter 339
342. Chapter 340
343. Chapter 341
344. Chapter 342
345. Chapter 343
346. Chapter 344
347. Chapter 345
348. Chapter 346
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349. Chapter 347
350. Chapter 348
351. Chapter 349
352. Chapter 350
353. Chapter 351
354. Chapter 352
355. Chapter 353
356. Chapter 354
357. Chapter 355
358. Chapter 356
359. Chapter 357
360. Chapter 358
361. Chapter 359
362. Chapter 360
363. Chapter 361
364. Chapter 362
365. Chapter 363
366. Chapter 364
367. Chapter 365
368. Chapter 366
369. Chapter 367
370. Chapter 368
371. Chapter 369
372. Chapter 370
373. Chapter 371
374. Chapter 372
375. Chapter 373
376. Chapter 374
377. Chapter 375
378. Chapter 376
379. Chapter 377
380. Chapter 378
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381. Chapter 379
382. Chapter 380
383. Chapter 381
384. Chapter 382
385. Chapter 383
386. Chapter 384
387. Chapter 385
388. Chapter 386
389. Chapter 387
390. Chapter 388
391. Chapter 389
392. Chapter 390
393. Epilogue One
394. Epilogue Two
395. Special AN
396. Big News: Nomination!
397. Chapter 395: Even BIGGER news!
398. New Memories: Valentine's Day Futuretake
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Summary
Step one you say we need to talk, he walks you say sit down, it's just a talk. He
smiles politely back at you. You stare politely right on through. Meeting on a bus,
Edward and Bella are immediately attracted to each other but their gloomy,
abuse-ridden pasts make them both hesitant to trust anyone. Follow them as Bella
learns not only how to save a life, but hers is saved as well.
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Prologue
Hello Everyone!
So, I've been working on this for a while and I decided to start tonight. It's
gonna be a drabble fic. Each chapter will have 100-150 words in each. I'm
not sure how many chapters will be uploaded per day, but obviously around
maybe 4-5? Oh well, we'll get to that later.
It's called How to Save a Life, but I guess you already knew that. And yes,
it's named after the song How to Save a Life by The Fray. The song may or
may not feature in this, but there is music played.
Please read, review and enjoy. I might just upload another before I go to
bed and then tomorrow we'll really start. :D
Thanks!
I'm not gonna sugar-coat it with fairy floss and pinkness.
The bottom line is that I. Hate. My. Life.
Friends are great. Work is shit. Music is soothing and manipulative.
They are the three things that I live for.
But then, one day I am late for work.
And it's just that one single day… and the many that follow… that showed me.
It showed me How to Save a Life.
Not only that, but it showed someone else how to save mine.
I promise that it will get better and happier. Pinky swear.
Now, you know what to do!
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REVIEW!
bexie25
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Chapter 1
Righteo
Here's chapter 1. I've decided that if I get five reviews, I will post the next
chapter. If I don't, you wait till tomorrow.
Please review. :D
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"Fuck," I whisper-shout, throwing back the sheets and doona. "Dammit, dammit,
dammit!"
I'm late – holy shit, am I late.
"Bella, what's all the ruckus about?" My best friend and roommate, Alice Brandon,
asks.
"I'm late," I hiss.
"Oh fuck," she says back, snickering.
"Shut the fuck up!" I shout, wrenching open the door to my bedroom. "You're not
helping."
She giggles, placing her fingers over her mouth. "I'm sorry," she says and I watch
as she waddles back to the room that she shares with her fiancé, Jasper.
She is pregnant, the lucky bitch. She is six months pregnant with the daughter or
son of the love of her life.
When she'd found out, she'd been so happy. She and Jasper both – the only
problem was that they'd had to put off the wedding. Alice didn't wanna look like a
'fat whale' on her wedding day.
Yeah, I am so fucking lucky.
Sarcasm.
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What do you think? Pregnant Alice engaged to Jasper living with brooding
Bella?
bexie25
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Chapter 2
Morning Ladies!
(Sorry if there are guys reading this. Drop me a review and let me know!)
So... I don't actually know how many I'll give you but prewritten there are
about 25 chapters and it's nowhere near finished. I'd like to ask you how
many YOU want today, but I'm sure you'll say something like 'the whole
bloody thing!'
Well, here's more Broodella! (hey, I kinda like that!)
"See ya, Bella," Jasper says as I pass by him. Jasper was from Texas, so yes, he has
quite the accent.
"Bye," I say grumpily.
"Lighten up," he calls after me and I give him the bird as I keep walking.
He laughs.
"Fuck it," I say, opening the door. "Since when was it raining?"
Alice pops up next to me, holding a bowl of cereal with ice cream – disgusting – as
she wraps the baby-pink dressing gown over her grey-pyjama covered belly. "Since
this morning," she says and I look at her.
"No shit," I comment, looking out. "You got an umbrella?"
She hums out a no and I sigh.
"Alright, I guess I better run for it then."
"Perhaps that's a good idea, yeah," she says and I run out into the rain.
I don't think for this story that I will have anything down here from now
except:
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Please review.
bexie25.
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Chapter 3
Yep. So, one review for the last chapter.
Maybe the next one after this should come tomorrow.
But, on good news, thanks for the fav's and alerts. Only 5 reviews so far,
unfortunately. Can we maybe work on that?
I like the rain. I really, really do.
But not when I'm late for work and I'm in my work clothes.
I sigh as I think back to school days in Forks, being able to stand in the rain for
hours, not caring if I got sick.
I don't have time for that now.
I sigh as I wait for the next bus.
At least there's one good thing about being late, I think glumly. No rush hour – it's
quiet.
I hum silently as I pop my earplugs and press play on my iPod.
I smile as the hypnotic notes of Bring Me to Life by Evanescence start.
I close my eyes and listen.
Ah. Peace.
I dare you to review.
bexie25
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Chapter 4
Here's the next one guys. Thanks for reviewing!
And then the song is over and I open my eyes, looking around as I put the iPod
away.
There's no one here still and I relax into the seat.
I stare at the rain falling without really seeing it. Thinking.
Drip. Drop. Drip. Drop.
The sounds remind me of blood being spilt a long time ago.
My breath hitches.
"Isabella!" Dad calls and I stiffen. His voice slurs and I hear the lazy thumping of
his steps.
He's drunk.
Again.
I flinch as I grip my scarred arm, remembering the last time.
"Isaaaaabellllllllaa!" He slurs and then he's there, in front of me.
"H-Hi dad," I say, stuttering nervously. "Something wrong?"
"Where's my beer?" He glares at me.
I pale.
"Don't you think you've had enough," I whisper, wincing at my mistake.
He hears me anyway.
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Ooh! Now we're getting somewhere.
bexie25
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Chapter 5
Wow... so, now we've got kitkat681 reading this. I am flattered, kitkat,
thanks for sticking with it.
She's dared me to post this chapter, so I am.
:D
The bus arrives and I get up, feeling slightly sick.
I don't like thinking of it, of my childhood.
Of my father. Of my mother.
I avoid thinking of it and hurry to get on the bus.
And as soon as I sit down, I get my iPod out and press play, going back into my
safe sanctuary.
No one interrupts me; no one ever does.
They know that I don't like to be talked to, interrupted – it bugs me.
I need peace, I need quiet.
It's the only happiness I have besides those I consider family. Those being Alice,
Jasper and Rose.
Rose.
She has a boyfriend named Emmett.
He is nice, genuine.
Sweet.
A Prince Charming from a Fairy tale.
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But fairy tales don't exist.
Poor Bella.
How sad, do you think it's sad?
I do.
bexie25
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Chapter 6
So, I'm minding my beautiful little neice who is currently playing with my
phone... suffice to say, I've got my hands occupied for a while. But, when
she's asleep, I'll go crazy with updating.
Because seriously, we're 6 chapters in not including prologue and I've got
31 written already.
Oh and hello Edward!
gyuityibgh
The bus jolts after a few minutes and I look up.
Taking off out my earplugs, I hear a guy yelling out.
Then I see said guy.
I frown, confused.
He's soaking wet as he climbs into the bus and shows his pass.
He's wearing a jumper with a hoody and a pair of black dress pants. His shoes are
work shoes and his black satchel definitely fits in with the rest of his ensemble. He's
wearing the hoody making it impossible for anyone to see his face.
I exhale slowly and look out the window.
"Excuse me?" A quiet voice says and I look up slowly.
My breathing stops.
Hoody is standing there, smiling hesitantly. "Hi."
"Hi," I say, flustered.
"Can I sit here?" He asks, pointing to where my bag is.
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I look at him again and something compels me to answer.
"Yes."
Yep, you can sit next to me ANNNNYYY time you want.
Welcome to Broodella and Hoodyward.
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Chapter 7
A bit of a short one... oh well, it's over a hundred words.
You shall get more soon... promise.
He smiles and sits down.
His satchel is placed on his lap and I look out the window again as he puts his own
black earplugs in.
I don't see his face.
The bus starts up again.
After a few minutes, I put the earplugs back in and play a new song. One that I
don't usually play.
Going Down by Evanescence.
Gloomy and angry, I smile as I lay my head back against the seat.
The bus ride is pleasant and peaceful for me; the motion of the wheels soothing.
I listen to the Evanescence playlist, letting the lyrics wash over me.
Well then... thoughts?
Yeah, please review.
bexie25
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Chapter 8
Sad, sad chapter.
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It is strange.
I keep stopping myself from glancing at him.
I can feel the wet that drips off his jacket and onto my bare arm.
Seattle weather, always unpredictable somehow.
I don't feel the cold; I never have.
With everything that I've been through, I hardly feel cold from hot and hot from
scalding.
Not after that one time.
That one time that my father was really, really angry.
"Isabella!" My father shouts and I look toward my door.
From what I can hear, I don't think I have enough time to lock him out.
When I see him – finally – he is holding a light bulb.
I look at him, then at it.
Why is he holding that?
I hear it as it burns his fingers and I edge closer to the wall.
He comes forward and grabs my arm.
I scream as the burn causes welts.
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Chapter 9
A few more for now.
:D
Work is boring.
I am stuck between dumb and dumber.
Otherwise known as Lauren and Jessica.
The bitches constantly flaunt their nice clothes, their boyfriends.
I feel like punching them.
"Hey Bella," they say and I look at them broodingly.
Fuck off, I think at them.
I sigh at the look on their faces.
"Yeah?" I say unenthusiastically and I continue my work on the computer.
"What are you working on?" They ask, coming around to look at my screen.
I huff. "Why is that your business?"
"Huh," they say bitchily. "So Mike was right."
I roll my eyes. "And what did he say?"
"That you're an ice-queen."
Huh. That hurts.
How many more kitkat?
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bexie25
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Chapter 10
Well, let's see.
We've got 40 chapters written so far... 2 a bit far ahead of the rest.
I don't know how many you'll get today, but at the rate I'm going... quite a
few.
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The bus ride home is uneventful.
Hoody isn't on the bus.
Yes, I have opted to call him Hoody.
He was wearing a hood and I didn't see his face.
But still, anonymity is best.
I was strangely eager for tomorrow's bus ride.
I decide to take the late bus again tomorrow.
I wasn't that late this morning.
I was on time – right on time.
I smile as I walk up the stairs and to the door of our little townhouse.
I open it and walk through, putting the keys down in the little bowl.
"Bella?" Alice calls.
"It's me," I call back and I walk into the kitchen.
Review please.
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Chapter 11
Oh kitkat!
You crack me up! Just you wait until we get to the lemony ones.
"How was your day?" Jasper asks, setting down the plate of spaghetti bolognaise
in front of his fiancée.
She smiles and digs in, not hesitating.
I smile slightly as I watch her.
"Alright," I say and they look at me. "What?"
"Why are you so gloomy nowadays?" Jasper asks and Alice looks back at him.
She knows what my father did. What my mother did.
She knows what horrors sometimes keep me up tonight.
I look down as I grip my arm again.
It's the worst scar on my body.
"What did you guys do?" I ask, ignoring the nagging feeling in my mind.
They smile effortlessly.
And I sigh internally with envy.
I want that.
Anyone sad? I'm sad.
bexie25
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Chapter 12
I'm sending a few out in a block... I may or may not post again while I'm
waiting for my neice to wake up
The next day comes and I let myself sleep in until the time that I had yesterday.
When I wake up, I am feeling… lighter.
Not happier, but… relaxed somehow; a marginal difference from yesterday in the
grand scheme of things.
"Bella!" Alice hollers and I open the door to my bedroom.
"Yes Alice?" I ask and she looks at me.
"You're not swearing," she says and I can tell she's confused. "You're not
swearing, or running around like a headless chicken."
I chuckle. "No. No I am not."
She frowns. "Why?"
"There's no need to – I want to take that bus," I say, trying to play it down and of
course she notices.
"Something happened yesterday," she muses, a finger to her chin. She taps it
lightly, trying to figure out the mystery.
I chuckle again. "Nothing happened yesterday."
Nothing much, at least.
No, not much.
You just met the man of your fucking dreams.
Hahaha... fucking-dreams.
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That works.
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Chapter 13
Bit about Jasper and his interactions with the girls.
"Morning Bella," Jasper says pleasantly and I smile at him. He looks at me,
shocked. "Why are you smiling? You were brooding yesterday."
I shrug. "Bad day yesterday."
And that was true; yesterday was a bad day. It's not normal for me to be like that.
Why do I feel like there's another reason for my happiness?
I snort at myself and Jasper looks at me for a second before going into the kitchen.
He's the cook in this house.
They know I can cook, but Jasper seems to like cooking for his pregnant fiancée
and best friend.
I like it too.
I head out to find that it is cloudy, but not raining.
I smile to myself.
Keep that smiling going, Bella!
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Chapter 14
More Hoody
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It's nearly the same as yesterday.
He comes in.
He flashes his pass.
He sits next to me.
We don't talk.
I am the only one on the bus not talking, and there are heaps of other seats.
So why doesn't he just take one of them?
Or perhaps the more appropriate question is: why do I not mind that he wants to
sit here?
I always have a problem with men; I can't trust them. It took me a while to get
used to Jasper let alone live comfortably with him.
Same goes with Emmett.
So I think to myself as I listen to the same songs as yesterday…
What's different about Hoody?
Please review.
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Chapter 15
Well well well. Right on 150!
Work is the same; boring.
No one talks to me today, which makes it easy for me to just get on with work.
I sit at lunch and eat alone at my desk.
My job is boring as shit.
I am a finance manager at the Masen Foundation.
It was supposed to be temporary, but it isn't.
I wanted to be a writer, and I'm stuck here.
Lauren is sick today and Jessica is busy, so there is no antagonizing there.
Today is going well… for a change.
"Bella," someone says and I look up.
Fuck it.
"Hello Mike," I say, thinking about how much I did not need to be talking to him
right now.
Neither of us says anything and it starts feeling awkward.
Finally, he speaks. "Um, I wanna apologize for what Jessica and Lauren said
yesterday."
"Don't worry about it," I say.
And he walks away.
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Dipshit.
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Chapter 16
I sigh happily as I finish writing up the minutes from the last meeting. As a
manager – one of many from other corners of the business – I write up the minutes
and send them out to all the workers under my command.
It's not common, but it's how the Masen Foundation goes.
Sometimes, I wonder whether it's worth working in a place that funds the study of
a died out disease.
I mean, I am sure that the study of the Spanish Influenza is important…
somewhat.
But aren't there more important causes?
Like… abused children?
Just the thought makes me sick.
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Chapter 17
Finally, I'm ready to leave.
I quickly grab my bag, taking the opportunity of Jessica not being around to get
the fuck outta here.
I smile as I run for the bus that I missed yesterday. I was gonna get it today.
I flash my pass and quickly sit down.
I bring out my iPod and deftly put it in, starting the playlist.
The bus sits idle for a few minutes and then there's a tap on my shoulder.
I flinch and look up, tensing.
But then I relax.
"Hi," Hoody says.
"Hi." I say, moving my things aside for him to sit.
He smiles and sits down.
I smile to myself as I look out the window.
Hoody's still wearing that black hoody.
Ooh! I want some of that hoody!
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Chapter 18
Time for a little revelation.
I study him carefully from the corner of my eye as the bus begins to move.
His hoody is still covering his head, but I swear I see a flash of bronze.
I sit there, confused.
Who has bronze hair?
Is it dyed?
"Hello," he says again and I look at him.
I gasp. For the first time, I can see his eyes. They look like sharp, powerful
emeralds.
"Hi," I say back, barely a whisper.
"I'm Edward," he says and I swear I shiver from the sound of his voice.
Wait, what? I shivered because of the way his voice sounds?
I shake my head, clearing it. "I'm Bella."
He smiles at me and I swallow, my throat dry.
What the fuck is going on here?
Reviews get you more Hoodyward and Broodella.
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Chapter 19
I sit there, thinking.
I'm no idiot – I know that I find him attractive.
But my reactions toward him confuse me, nearly as much as his actions.
What does he want from me? I wonder, perplexed.
"Bella," he says, trying to get my attention.
I look at him, not saying anything.
He smiles and for some strange reason, I smile back.
Huh? I think. What is he doing to me?
"Bella, are you alright?" He asks, and I can hear the amusement in his voice.
I pout slightly. "I'm fine."
I hope.
"You're a very interesting person," he says and I snort, looking at him.
"How so?" I ask and then his eyes do the weirdest thing.
They smoulder.
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Chapter 20
I look at him brainlessly, unable to look away from his ridiculously deep eyes.
They were really kinda… pretty, not that that was the kind of word that you would
generally use to describe a guy. Actually, come to think of it, his whole face is hot.
High cheekbones, pale and slightly pink from the cold weather.
His lips, a dark reddish colour that just wanna be licked.
His nose, crooked, but adding to his perfection.
When I eventually do break away from them, I blink rapidly then peek at him.
He smiles at me and I frown.
"You just… fascinate me," he says and then the bus stops and he gets up.
He leaves…
… And I just sit there, thoroughly confused.
Hello Ladies
So, there will only be a couple of more... spread out... for today.
Please review.
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Chapter 21
Envying Alice and Jasper's relationship right here.
Dang it, I want a back rub.
*sighs*
"What are we doing tonight?" Alice asks and I shrug.
"Wanna watch a movie?"
She smiles and nods. "Sure."
Jasper chooses that moment to walk in. "Hey," he says, plopping himself down on
the couch.
"Hey," Alice and I say together.
"So," he says, turning on the T.V. "A movie, huh?"
"Yep," Alice and I say, again in unison.
He frowns. "What's wrong with you guys?"
"I'm tired," I say.
"My back hurts," Alice whines.
Jasper turns to Alice and smiles sweetly. So sweetly, I have to look away.
"You want a back rub, baby?" He asks and she beams at him.
"Yeah, but can I have some grapes and strawberry yoghurt first?" She asks and I
giggle as Jasper tries to not look disgusted.
"Sure honey," he says and he gets right back up to get it.
I sigh internally.
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Aren't you envious? Bella is!
Review.
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Chapter 22
Hello
So, I'm thinking a chapter every hour and a half to two hours. What you
think?
HGJGBHGKJ
The next morning, I wake up early and I do something that I've never done before.
I go for a run… in the rain.
It had been fun – I'd felt like I was a little child again.
I haven't done that in years, and I am glad that I did.
It feels good to be immature again.
It feels good to be an innocent again.
It feels good to be an ignorant being again.
It feels good to be a child again.
I smile as I run up the stairs and into the house, the rain torrentially falling by
now. I laugh as I hastily open it then slam it, only to lean against it.
It feels good to laugh.
Please review :D
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Chapter 23
Hello
Ready for some more Hoody? Well, he's not really in the chapter per se.
:D
GHJBGHBKNBG
I groan as I realize that at the rate I am going, I am gonna have to run for it to
catch the bus.
But then I smile, knowing that for some reason, it feels right to do that.
Surely, that doesn't have anything to do with Attractive Hoody, does it?
I know that since I now knew his name, I should use it.
But there is just something about calling him Hoody.
It's fun and stupid and morbid and immature.
But… it's a guilty pleasure of sorts.
I sigh a rushed goodbye to Alice and Jasper, internally thanking whoever was
supposedly in the sky that I don't like wearing high heels to work.
I don't bother with an umbrella.
I run for the bus and just as Hoody had done the first time I caught this bus, I
scream for it to stop.
Which it does, by some miracle.
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Chapter 24
"Hello Bella," Hoody says, sitting down next to me without hesitation.
"Hi Hoody," I blurt out accidently, my face instantly reddening in embarrassment.
His eyebrow quirks, arching.
I smile shyly. "You always wear a hoody," I say, wanting to look away.
But his eyes hold mine and that's when I realize it.
I'm starting to have feelings for him… for Hoody.
I try to look away, with success this time and he leaves us in silence.
When it's time to get off, he stands and turns to me.
He pauses for a moment, hesitant and I look at him, wondering what he wants.
Then, he smiles. "Can I have your number?"
I am so shocked that all I can do is nod.
He smiles too, somewhat shocked that I said yes. "Ok great. I'll get it off you this
afternoon."
And then he walks off the bus, leaving me there.
So, it seems that fanfiction is being cheeky and not showing the first
sentence of some of the chapters. That is why some of them don't make
sense. Sorry about that. I have tried to rectify that, but I will check again.
The pattern seemed to be that it didn't like the A/N being at the top... so
except A/N's down the bottom only right now.
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Chapter 25
For the rest of the day, I am completely and utterly unable to concentrate.
My thoughts about Edward, or Hoody as I like to call him, are making me lose my
mind.
There are millions of questions in my head, dying to come out.
But I am scared.
We've only seen each other for a few days in the morning and late afternoon.
We've never touched, hardly talked and are about to give our numbers to each
other.
This is crazy. Absolutely ridiculous.
This isn't like me.
But… some part of me loves it. Because it's new and excited, forbidden and
strange, unheard of even.
Everything that is normal just isn't normal anymore.
My boundaries are slipping away.
It's ok... we want those boundaries to slip away. And stay away.
What do you guys think?
Oh and do you wanna know what part I'm writing now?
The smutty part.
Yep.
That part. *giggles mischievously*
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Chapter 26
By the end of the day, I am officially crazy.
I swear I should be locked up in a crazy pen.
The amount of insecurities and possibilities that have run through my head is
paramount.
I breathe deeply as I wait for the bus.
Closing my eyes, I breathe again.
And again.
And again.
I sigh as I finally relax.
I open my eyes.
And there he is.
My forehead creases and I look at him, confused.
"Hoody?" I ask and he smiles, walking toward me.
"Hi Bella," he says and I smile at him shyly. "How was your day?"
I breathe in. "Hectic."
For all kinds of reasons.
"Hm," he smiles and I look up at him. He looks down at me. "So was mine."
Anyone else find that strangely cute?
Review and tell me... :D
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Oh and I'm still writing the smut... and my god, it's the most heated work
I've ever written.
bexie25
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Chapter 27
On the way home, we talk.
It's uplifting and new; I like it.
I learn things about him.
He's an only child.
His father's name is Carlisle. His mother's a bit of a bitch and just last year his
father remarried to a much nicer woman. He calls her mum, but her name's Esme.
He seems cagey when he talks about his mum.
And I understand 'cause I've been there. I tell him that he can tell me when he's
ready and he smiles relieved, before going on to talk about music.
I smile indulgently.
He notices and smiles at me.
I am pleasantly surprised when I hear that his favourite music is Evanescence.
Then he laughs when he hears that Alice used to chase me around the house to
get me to turn the very same music down.
His laugh is enchanting.
I want to hear it again.
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Chapter 28
And at the end of the bus trip, he turns to me and smiles.
"I like talking to you," he says and I blush. His fingers twitch and I suppress a sigh
of want.
Wait what?
But I can't think about that for too long.
Because then, he picks up my hand.
Hesitantly, he brings it to his mouth.
Then ever so softly, he kisses it.
Are my panties wet yet?
They should be.
I breathe deeply, trying to calm myself.
"Do you have a pen?" He asks and I frown, confused. He laughs, "so I can write my
number on your hand."
I quickly get the pen out and he scribbles his number down on the piece of napkin
he's got.
He hands it to me then leaves.
Yeah, yeah yeah. I know... how can I possibly leave you right here?
I'm sorry... or maybe I'm not.
But I need to sleep.
Oh and sorry it was a bit late. I was watching Packed to the Rafters and
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there was a possibility that the bubby (baby) would die... sad.
But she didn't! *smiles ecstatically*
My mum looked it up and was positive that she would... because she saw a
fanfic about the death of Ruby. So funny telling her that it was actually
written in 2010... ahahah!
until tomorrow...
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Chapter 29
I stare at it – at his number on the little square of napkin – for so long that I nearly
miss my stop.
But I get it just in time, and it's raining outside.
I'm so happy right now that I couldn't care less if I get soaked.
And so I walk slowly through the rain, smiling the whole way and lifting my head
up to the sky.
I reminisce when I used to do this because I just could. I remember how it felt to
just let go of everything, all the pain, the hurt.
I smile and I realize something.
I must be a real fucking sight, I think, giggling.
But then I'm really laughing, like really laughing.
And I like it.
Yeah.
Hello Ladies.
Um... there's around 57 chapters written... at least 10 of them are smut
and they haven't even done IT yet.
Uh... more chapters soon... :D
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Chapter 30
When I finally make it home, Alice is at the door.
She looks at me and laughs, but I can see the worry.
"You ok there?"
I nod then go to my room.
I look at the note again, bringing it out of my jacket.
I smile, looking at it.
Thinking... contemplating… wondering.
All the possibilities rush through my mind again and I just sit there, letting them.
Because after talking to him, I know somehow that he is sincere.
That makes it easier for me to decide.
After an hour, I can't take it any longer.
I text him with a simple: 'Hi'.
My phone chimes and I look down at it excitedly.
I thought you'd never text me.
Naww... Edward is so cute. I like Edward.
Do u like Edward?
Tell me... how much?
drop me a review for the next chapter. :D
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Chapter 31
And so, for the next few weeks, when we aren't on the bus together, we're
dropping texts.
It's fun and mysterious and I must say that I am happier than I ever have been.
Alice and Jasper are wondering what the fuck is going on and I don't blame them.
I don't even fucking recognize myself anymore.
I pick up my phone as I walk into my bedroom, closing the door.
Hello Bella.
Whatcha want Hoody?
I swear I can hear his laugh from here.
Talk to me, beautiful
I frown.
Don't call me that.
My phone beeps and I sigh as I look at the message.
Why?
'Cause I'm not beautiful.
I'm plain.
Chocolate brown eyes, hair of the same colour, full lips, pale skin.
That's not beautiful.
And besides, I've never been wanted.
I swallow as my mind goes to a painful – for a whole other reason – memory.
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Don't worry... next time, you get the memory.
Though I'm sure u don't want it.
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Chapter 32
"I can't do this anymore, Charlie!" My mother screams whilst packing up a few of
her things. "I didn't want this – I didn't want to be stuck here and with a child at
twenty-six!"
I flinch. To hear that your mother doesn't want you… your own mother…
Yeah, it stings.
She takes no notice of me, even as I scream for her. She just looks at me, hate in
her eyes.
I cry.
Why can't my mum want me?
Why can't we be a normal family?
Why does she want to leave me?
And then she's gone. Dad slumps against the door.
But then something seems to click within him.
He looks up, the devil in his eyes.
"It's you!" He shouts and I whimper. I don't edge away from him when he comes
closer. "This is your fault! You never should have been born."
And then… he breaks.
Yeah, turns out both her parents are mean...
BUT LIFE WILL TURN AROUND FOR OUR BELLA!
oh and I'm a bit worried about you, kitkat... are u there?
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review please. We're a bit slow today.
P.S. Those who review get a sentence from the smut chapter(s).
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Chapter 33
I don't reply.
I can't.
Instead, I breathe and I cry.
Alice seems to hear me, because then she's there, hugging me.
I cry in her arms.
She tries to reassure me, but it doesn't work.
I know the truth. I'm the only one who knows the truth.
If your own parents don't want you, then why would anyone else?
They wouldn't.
They don't.
"Oh Bella," Alice says, nearly crying herself. "It's ok, hun… please don't cry…
please don't cry…"
But I do, I do and I feel like screaming.
Why is life so unfair?
Why did God punish me like this?
But then I remember something.
There is no God. And fairy tales don't exist.
Fairy tales don't exist…
Do they?
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Oh Bella, Bella, Bella.
Hope is not lost.
Or is it?
Nah, I'm fucking with you.
but seriously... please review for some previews of the smutty chaps.
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Chapter 34
The next day, Hoody's not on the bus.
I don't know exactly how that makes me feel, but I'm apparently back to being a
bitch.
I text him, he doesn't reply.
I start to get worried.
Just before I arrive at work, I text him one last time.
Hey Hoody. Everything ok?
I sigh as I walk into my building.
Escalators down, meaning I have to walk up the tremendous amount of stairs.
Great.
I'm huffing and puffing by the time I get up those stairs.
Nine flights of stairs will do that to you.
I get out my phone once more, and there's nothing.
So I send just one more:
If you wanna talk or something, text or call. I don't mind.
I put my phone away and get to work.
Oh oh... What's going on here?
Where's Hoody?
*searches around for Hoody*
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He not here.
oh well, we'll find him soon.
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Chapter 35
Alice and Jasper notice my worry and glumness, but don't ask.
I internally thank them for that, not knowing how I'd respond if they did ask.
We eat homemade – Jaspermade – pizza for dinner. Jasper and I tease Alice
halfheartedly about drinking alcohol.
She throws grapes at us.
We all laugh, but there's someone's laugh that I wanna hear more of.
I check my phone again and again throughout the night.
Nothing. Zilch, nadda.
I worry some more.
And when I finally lay down in my bed, underneath the sheets… my phone dings.
I smile as I read the message.
Hey beautiful. I'm ok. I'll see you tomorrow on the bus, yeah?
I quickly text him back.
Yeah.
Ah, the relief of knowing that he's ok. Bella is feeling it.
Are you?
Oh and just thought I'd let you know, in Chapter... 27, there was a bit of a
glitch. It said that Edward's mother married a much nicer woman, Esme. I
meant that his FATHER had married Esme, so ignore that little glitch.
review it.
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Chapter 36
I sigh when I see Hoody get on the bus. He flashes his pass, avoiding eye contact
with anyone and everyone until he reaches me.
I gasp when I see his face.
"What the fuck happened?" I whisper, horrified.
His face had cuts and bruises on his right eyebrow and cheek, and jaw.
"Disagreement," he says back and then he smiles, trying to reassure me.
It doesn't reassure me. It horrifies me.
"Edward Cullen," I whisper-shout and people look at me.
I pay them no mind.
"I'll tell you," he says back desperately. "But not now… later."
"Just tell me one thing," I say back, trying to swallow vomit. He nods. "Tell me that
you didn't know who did that to you. That it was just a bar fight or something."
He sighs and I know the truth.
"Your step-father and mother?"
He nods and I feel sick.
Oh dear... it seems Bella's parents aren't the only ones who are abusive.
do not fear.
We will know more later... :D
please review... kitkat, where the feck are ya?
bexie25
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Chapter 37
All throughout the day, I can't concentrate.
He's got my problem.
He can't trust those who are supposed to hold him dear.
But… I want to hold him dear. Can he trust me?
I know he can, but does he know that?
There are so many questions going through my mind that I am beginning to get a
headache.
This is ridiculous.
I can't do this.
I need to admit my feelings.
But what are they? I ask myself, rubbing my temples and I breathe in and out
deeply.
And then it clicks and I gasp.
He makes me happy…
I miss him all the time when I'm not with him…
My phone is literally a life line when we're texting…
I always feel lighter and I smile when I see him…
I'm in love with Hoody.
I'm… in love… with Hoody.
And I smile.
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Yeah, I'm in love with Hoody.
NAWWWW!
She's in love with him...
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Chapter 38
In the afternoon, I'm nervous.
Looking around as I tap my foot rapidly and bite my lip.
Nervousness shows and people are looking at me.
I stick my iPod in and listen to the Evanescence playlist.
That always calms me down, so it should now right?
It works a bit but I'm still waiting for it.
For him.
Fuck, I think as I yank my hair behind my ear. Breathe Bella. Fucking breathe and
calm down.
And I do… because there he is, smiling at me.
I smile to, beam really and he walks towards me.
Then he does the first thing to shock me.
He hugs me, holds me tight to him and to my extreme surprise…
… I relax into his arms and lay my head on his shoulder.
Aww... their first really real touch that isn't his lips was a hug...
Yay!
Next chapter soon!
review...
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Chapter 39
He pulls back after a few minutes and when I look up at him… he's calculating.
"What?" I ask, looking at and trying to figure out what's on his mind.
"Can we talk?" He asks and I stiffen.
He looks down, worried.
"Um, what about?" I ask hesitantly.
"Well, it would be best if we did this somewhere private…?" He trails off
questioningly and I think for a few seconds.
"Ok," I say finally, nodding to myself. "So come back to mine this afternoon."
He raises an eyebrow. "Seriously?"
I bite my lip and nod, smiling.
"Yeah, seriously," I say and he nods at me, also smiling.
You know, you're not the only one who needs to talk, I think and then I decide.
I will be talking to him about it… about everything tonight.
If he wants to know me, he can.
If he freaks and leaves, he can.
Oh Bella... have some faith. :D
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Chapter 40
The bus arrives and we get on together.
I smile and when I look up, I see that he's smiling too.
We flash our passes and make our way to the seat that we usually sit on.
The regulars stare, only one old woman smiling.
I smile shyly and blush, Hoody chuckling at the sight.
Eyes follow us, our every move monitored.
When we sit down, I feel like I am going to die.
"So," Hoody says when the bus leaves the stop.
"So," I say back and he laughs almost silently.
"Where do you get off?" He asks.
"The stop after yours," I say and he nods. "Um Hoody?"
"Yes," he asks, looking down at me curiously.
"My housemate Alice is pregnant and engaged." I say and he looks at me: "is that
all".
I sigh.
"They don't know… prepare to be swarmed."
His green eyes twinkle in amusement.
Hahah... oh they are cute!
I am loving Broodella and Hoodyward..
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Oh and this won't be my only drabble... I've got some others circling
around in my head!
bexie25
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Chapter 41
"My, my Bella," Alice says, waddled forward quickly, having opened to door.
"Who's this gentleman?"
I snort. "Fuck off Alice. This is Hood-Edward," I say, blushing as Alice looks at me,
confused and intrigued.
She hums then steps aside. "So this is who you've been hiding," she says as we
walk inside and past her. "And texting."
"Yes, it is," I say nonchalantly.
She giggles. "Jasper!"
I sigh loudly and Edward just looks between Alice and me.
"Ever heard of baby brain?" I ask him.
"Yeah," he says, smirking.
I nodded toward Alice. "Alice here's got that."
"Hey!" Alice whines, just as Jasper comes up behind her.
"What's going on here?" He asks, looking at me and Hoody.
"Jasper this is Hoody, I mean Edward," I say, blushing and Hoody laughs.
"So that's who you've been texting." Jasper says, crossing his arms over his broad
chest.
"Yes, Jasper, it is."
Hahahaahaha... oh god, it's funny isn't it? A snoopy, pregnant Alice and
Jasper being all... Jasperly...
Tell me what you think and then one more before bed... ;)
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Chapter 42
We walk quickly into my room and I lock the door, not wanting a pregnant, snoopy
Alice in here.
Hoody looks around for somewhere to sit and I sit down on my bed, patting it.
He smiles and comes to sit next to me.
We sit there, saying nothing for a few seconds.
"I know you're hiding your past from me," he whispers, turning his body toward
me, facing me. I sigh and turn to face him too. "I told you mine, tell me yours…
please?"
I bite my lip and think for a second. Then I nod.
"Ok," I say and he settles, watching me.
I grip my arm.
He notices and pulls my arm away. I tense as his fingers carefully brush the
jumper that I'm wearing back.
He gasps when he sees the burn and I wince.
Because surely he thinks I'm disgusting.
Ooh... he's seen her scar...
What are u thinking?
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Chapter 43
"My uh… my dad was abusive," I say and he inhales sharply.
I don't look up, needing to get this part out. It was possibly the hardest part.
Admitting it.
The rest just flows out from within me.
"Not sexually," I say quickly, gripping my arm as I always do. I look down at it and
close my eyes as I continue. "Never sexually – he said that he wouldn't allow me to
corrupt him completely."
I swear Hoody growls and I look up to see if he's ok.
I gasp.
His jaw is locked, his eyes closed, his forehead creased. I look down at his hands…
… They're fists.
Ah, protective Hoody.
Me likes protective Hoody. He's sexy.
Anyways... um, I am amazed by the amount of reviews that I have received.
Thanks to all of you.
But, kitkat, you did rec it. You're amazing.
Are you thinking of sticking around for my other stories/drabbles?
Thanks kitkat and your readers for reading this... This is now my second
most reviewed fic and it's far from over. In fact, I've written 66 chapters and
I've got way more planned for this story... like, WAY more.
Nowhere near finished and it will fly by 100 chapters, me thinks. I hope
you're prepared for the ride!
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I am officially off to bed now.
bexie25
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Chapter 44
Eventually Hoody is calm enough to unclench his fists and he nods for me to
continue.
"My mum left us when I was eight," I say and I see from the corner of my eye that
he nods. "I remember her saying that she hadn't wanted this and that she didn't
want me. She said some other stuff and then she was gone."
I take a deep breath.
"Dad blamed me, told me it was all my fault." I nod, silently agreeing with my
father.
"It wasn't your fault, Bella," Hoody says and I can hear the storm brewing behind
the calm. "None of it was your fault. I was told that everything that happened to me
was… but it wasn't. It isn't."
He wipes away the tears that I hadn't even realized I was releasing.
"How can it not be?" I whisper, sniffling.
Oh dear, Bella.
Hmm.. Hoody will reassure her.
I would actually like you ALL TO READ THIS PLEASE.
Um, please don't feel like you must read this story. If you don't like it then
you don't have to read it. No one is making you here. If you are however,
reading this story just so you can post somewhat hurtful reviews like "she
knows nothing" and other condescending ones, please do not bother. Read
this story because you want to, not because you feel that you are forced to. I
won't name who has been posting things like that, and if u wanna find out
that's your business. Just please know that I put effort into my stories and I
don't appreciate reviews that put that effort and time taken to provide
readers of twilight fanfiction with stories like these.
I'm sorry if I have embarrassed that person, as you surely know who you
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are.
Other than that, goodnight and thanks for the hellish amount of reviews!
keep it up!
bexie25
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Chapter 45
"It isn't," he says and I look up at him.
He can see that I don't agree and he sighs. "Do you wanna know how I know it
isn't your fault?"
I nod, still crying and I look away, ashamed.
"Hey," he says softly and I look at him. "Let me ask you something," he says and I
nod, unable to speak at the moment.
"Did you want your mum to leave?" He asks.
My breath hitches.
I understand now; I get it.
I didn't want all those things to happen. I didn't make mum leave; she did that on
her own.
"No," I shake my head, sighing with relief.
It wasn't my fault.
Smiles.
It wasn't her fault.
Um, I made a bit of a mistake back at that memory of Renee walking out...
(Chapter 32) she's twenty-six at that time, making them 18 when they had
her.
Yeah, um you can't REALLY have a child at 12...
please review :D
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Chapter 46
He smiles. "See?"
I nod. "I see."
And then I'm crying, because it took me twenty years – since my mother left us –
to figure that out. And he is the reason for that.
Hoody is the reason that I can be happy and try to accept myself. He's the reason
that… that everything is finally good and fucking right in the world.
He's the reason for my feeling of righteousness.
Dear God, I love him so much.
What is he doing to me?
"Listen, there's something I have to tell you and I don't know how you're going to
react to it, but-"
"I love you."
And there it is.
I'm thinking it isn't that hard to guess who said it first. :D
Um... thanks for the reviews. Wow. Overnight, the story went from
SECOND most reviewed to... well, to FIRST most reviewed. THANKS FOR
THAT!
review it please. tell me what you think.
(Oh, and lemons are coming soon).
bexie25
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Chapter 47
Silence.
It used to be nice, to be relaxing.
Now, it scares me.
My breath hitches and I look up at him.
"What?" I whisper and it feels as if ice has been broken.
He looks at me, smiling and I break down.
I just…
… He loves me?
"You love me?" I whisper, the tears that had welled spilling over as he nods.
He… Hoody… Edward loves me.
I can feel the smile that stretches across my face.
I can't see straight as I reach for him.
And when he takes me up in his arms…
… I feel like I'm home.
Kerrioncullen and Hollbeth guessed right... it was Edward.
What did you think of this?
Oh and we're coming up to the lemony stuff!
bexie25
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Chapter 48
"Bella shhh," he whispers, caressing my hair as I cry in his arms. "I'm sorry, oh
God, I'm so sorry… I never should've told you."
I freeze, confused.
What did he-
I gasp, horrified as I realize what he must have thought I meant.
"Oh God Edward, no!" I wail, pushing myself closer to him. "No, no, no! That's not
what I meant, that's not why I'm crying."
He freezes too then and looks down at me. He watches me, and I look at him
desperately, trying to convey what I'm feeling.
He shudders and I am sure that he realizes.
"What?" He whispers, obviously needing confirmation.
I smile at him. "I love you too, Hoody."
Aw... sweet!
Now, the only thing that will make this better would be if CaraNo was
reading this. That way, I'd be able to hound her for a few more chapters of
Simply Edward!
Speaking of which, are you reading that story? You should be reading that
story. I hope you're reading that story.
Alas, if you are not, please search it up and read it. It's brilliant and
Edward is so cute in it!
Leave me your thoughts,
bexie25
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Chapter 49
His lips are on mine then and I can't control myself.
The emotions that flood through me are amazing, all controlling and I just… I lose
it.
I grip his hair, opening my mouth just as his tongue swipes at my bottom lip. I
smile at the moan that he releases when his tongue collides with mine.
I hum, turning my head to the side.
He does the same and I moan when his tongue reaches further into my mouth.
At the same time, his hands are everywhere, gripping and massaging. One on my
breast, causing me to moan as his thumb brushes against my nipple. The other is on
my hip, massaging hard.
This is the best kiss I've ever experienced.
If I had a kiss like that, then I'm sure it would be mine too!
Well, things are getting heated.
Next chapter is even better...
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Chapter 50
I break away, gasping for air, but his lips don't leave my skin. His kisses become
suckling ones as they move down my neck and I arch my back as the hand on my
breast squeezes.
I hum as the other hand slips down to grip my ass hard.
"Edward," I sigh and he makes this sound from the back of his throat.
It only makes me wetter.
"Say that again," he says hoarsely and my head shoots up to look at him.
I lick my lips at the sight; his eyes are slightly darker, his pupils dilated.
He exudes sex.
"Edward," I say, smirking as my confidence grows with my arousal.
He growls, throwing me back against the bed, his body following soon after.
Well, well, well...
So, I got my momentary Simply Edward fix... so, I'm good for now. :D
Next chapter soon. Review please.
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Chapter 51
"Shit," he gasps as I suck on that sweet spot behind his ear. He grounds himself
against me and I let out a huff.
"Uh," I sigh, the pleasure making my head spin.
Suddenly, he flips us and grips my hips, holding me above him.
"Fuck, fuck, fuck," he groans, lifting his body up so we're face to face as he rubs
him cock into me.
"Jesus," I pant, the sound keening and unattractive.
When he lets go of my hips, I decide to play cheeky.
Quickly wrenching myself off and away from him, I smile wickedly.
He looks at me, thoroughly confused.
"Baby?" He asks.
I smirk. "Catch me if you can," I say and I quickly pull of my jacket, throwing it at
him.
I hear his chuckle as I break into a jog.
I don't think I have anything to say, funnily enough.
But... seductiveness next chapter.
Our Bella's getting brave!
Please review.
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Chapter 52
It was time to have some fun.
I wait for him to find me in front of the bathroom.
When he does, he stands there, panting.
I smile cheekily.
Slowly and seductively, I slip the dress that I was wearing under the jacket over
my head.
No bra, baby. No bra.
But, there are these little lacy panties.
I hear the moan that slips from his lips.
And I feel myself as I begin to drip, needing him.
And then I bend down to pick the dress.
He whispers two little words:
"Cock tease."
Oh baby, am I teasing you?
I smile and hum. I whisper, "I'll tease your cock baby."
Hoody moans and I decide, just for the hell of it, to have a shower.
Well, not completely for the hell of it.
He groans as I turn on the water.
And no, I won't be closing that door.
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Shower... something coming up next. Not sex, but close. :D
review it if you want more today
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Chapter 53
I take off my panties quietly, knowing that if they are softer but he can still hear
them… he'll come to me.
And he does. I hear his panting, but pretend to be ignorant.
It is only when I hear his pants hit the floor that I turn around.
I gasp and lick my lips, my knees going weak.
His chest… perfection.
His legs… oh fuck, they look strong.
His cock… fucking hell, is it big. Nine inches. Nine fucking inches. Of perfection.
I think I moan.
He looks pleased.
His face tells me what I really want to know.
He wants me just as badly… and he's enjoying the little games.
If he's liking them, then who am I to stop?
I turn around, arching my back as I wash the remaining conditioner from my hair.
He groans and I look over my shoulder.
Come hither, baby.
cheeky, cheeky Bella.
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Chapter 54
He behaves like an animal as he practically charges for me.
I turn just in time to be caught in his arms, our lips a centimetre apart.
Sexual tension is at its highest.
Our breaths are shared and mewl when he seductively slowly turns his head,
inching closer.
I sigh contently as our lips meet, our tongues tangling instantly.
I grab at his hair at the back of his head, his fingers weaving through my tendrils,
pulling.
I hum and he thrusts against me, brushing against my clit as he flashes his hips
against mine.
"Fucking hell, Bella," he grunts, his teeth biting at the flesh of my collarbone.
I lick my lips and his hands wrap around my waist.
I take that as a cue to wraps my legs around his hips.
He grounds against me and I cry out, pulling at his hair.
He growls.
Like it rough?
HELL TO THE FUCK YES HE DOES... :D
Sorry, that was a little strange.
Um, is this what you feel like kitkat? Awed, freaked and amazed? Reviews
went up by about 80 (or so) today
It feels good to get this many reviews. And I'm kinda amazed, cos if it's
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that many at only 54 (including prologue) chapters and I have WAY more
planned... just how many reviews will this story get?
*FREAKS OUT AT POSSIBILITIES*
I'm a Girl with Perks has 192 or something, and that was over 9 months. :0
please review. :D
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Chapter 55
He pushes gently against my hips and I frown, pouting as I untangle my legs from
around his waist.
His hands brush up to my breasts, and they fondle them, twisting and tugging on
my nipples as he falls to his knees before me.
I gasp and moan, knowing exactly what he's playing at.
"Oh God," I whimper as I feel his hot breath against my heated flesh.
"That's right, baby," he croons hoarsely and sexily, a low tenor. "I'm gonna eat you
out now… hmm, fuck you with my tongue. You want that, baby?"
I hum, my legs shaking from the extent of my need as his hands slip down my
body to my ass. He cups it, grabbing hold and tugging my core toward him.
I inhale sharply when his tongue swipes against my outer lips.
Oh Edward.
What lips?
That is the question.
hahahaha... I crack myself up, which is most certainly NOT good.
Oh well. We're at 300 reviews now.
please review and thanks for the tremendous amount of reviews!
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Chapter 56
"You want my cock, baby?" He whispers against me, his mouth right… there.
I hum and moan, mewling like a cat in heat.
Fuck yes, I want your cock.
But I'm too blown away for words to express how fucking much.
"You teased me, baby…" he whispers, his breath doing things to me and I groan,
needing more. "You made my cock harder than it ever has been before…"
I whine and he pulls away to look me in the eyes. I stubbornly refuse and he
continues to speak.
"So why should I give you my cock?" He asks and I look down just in time to watch
his tongue swipe at my juices, lapping hard. He does that until I'm quivering in
need…
… Then he pulls away again.
"Why baby?"
He digs in then and I can't answer as he bites down on my clit. Hard.
I'm gone.
Dirtyward is fucking hot. :D
Oh and I thought I might tell you about another one of my stories. It's
called A Choice. Here's the summary: Choosing her mate sparks a bond
between human Bella and vamp Edward that is unprecedented in mated
vampire couples. Both fiercely possessive of each other, their bond grows as
they count the days until she can be changed. Lemons; Possessiveward
Tanwhoreya
Anyways... check it out if you want. :D
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Chapter 57
"Edward, please," I beg him minutes later as he turns off the water with one hand,
his other holding me tightly against him once again.
By this stage, my arms are wrapped around his neck.
My orgasm had been so intense that I had screamed his name. He'd liked that and
started to lap at me.
It made me go again.
But that's just Edward… I swear if he tried, he could make me come just by
looking at me.
"Please what, honey?" He asks, lifting me into his arms, knowing that I could quite
walk properly yet.
"I want you," I whisper in his ear. "I need you."
He growls and runs us into the bedroom.
This is probably the last one... My brother is coming from overseas
tomorrow in the early, early morning and I have to clean up. :D
There may be one more... but it would be just one.
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Chapter 58
"Bella, I need you to-" he cuts off, aggravated and I tried to find it within me to
comfort him. A hand on his hair, stroking whilst the other plays with the t-shirt that
he's put on.
I, on the other hand, am naked.
He can see everything – all the scars; like the one that my Dad gave me on my
birthday simply because my birthday signified that I had lived another year.
He's not disgusted; he's not put-out…
… He's not anything, really.
And it's so, so strange.
"Baby, what's wrong?" I ask him and he looks up at me, having closed his eyes,
frowning.
"You have to understand…" he said, his hand twitching, moving closer to his wrist.
And that's when I understand. And I do…
… He's got scars of his own.
Yep. I'm sorry that I had to mar his fucking gorgeous body. But it seriously
isn't that bad. :D
please review.
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P.S. Tomorrow's updates may begin a little later. My brothers arriving and
things will be crazy. :D
But, I will get a few out to you. Promise.
I enjoy reading and hearing your thoughts. :D
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Chapter 59
"Show me," I whisper to him, trying to move his hand closer to mine.
He's stiff; embarrassed by the look of things and somewhat… nervous?
I understand; I felt that around others too… before I met him.
"Baby, I understand," I whisper and his mask begins to crack. "I do… you saw my
worst scar… let me see yours."
He sits there, looking straight into my eyes as if trying to decipher what I'm
thinking.
I sit there, open; letting him in.
And then he sighs and relaxes his arms.
I bring it closer to me, always watching his face.
He needs reassurance. I look at him.
"Baby, I love you no matter what," I say and he smiles softly, disbelievingly. I
shook my head, stubborn as ever. "No, Edward Cullen. You fucking listen to me. I.
Love. You."
There are tears in his eyes as he looks at me.
Um... I don't know what to say.
But what I will say, is this: THANKS SO MUCH FOR ALL OF YOUR
REVIEWS! 415 IS JUST SOOOO AMAZING. :D :D :D
please review this. You don't have to though.
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Chapter 60
"I love you," I whisper one more time and then I turn his wrist around, so I can see
the palm of his hand.
He'd always worn gloves. And now I saw why.
He had a white sheet-coloured scar that ran from the centre of his palm to just
after his wrist.
I traced it softly, tenderly, listening to Hoody's breathing.
It was calm, except for the little nervous tremors here and there.
I look up at him and he frowns at what he sees.
I let him see the love that I feel, shining through my eyes. He sees it all.
And then, I look back down at his wrist.
I bring it closer to my mouth.
And I kiss down his scar.
When I look back up, his smile is watery.
I'm sure mine is too.
Naww... they love each other sooo much.
Um, I'm running out of chapters... I'll try writing more but I'm gonna have
to limit the amount of chapters that I post. :D
please review
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Chapter 61
"This doesn't change anything," I say, sniffling and he smiles, swallowing. "You're
beautiful and I love you. You're my Hoody."
I can see the relief in his eyes… but there's doubt there too.
I reach up to cup his face. "Don't," I whisper, the pad of my thumb slowly
caressing his cheek.
He closes his eyes and leans into my touch.
"I'll try," he whispers and then he opens his eyes. "Now, I don't believe I've seen
many more of your scars, baby. I wasn't really paying them much attention in the
shower, was I?"
I laugh, strangely. For once, I'm laughing… about my scars.
And the laugh isn't bitter.
"Is there something wrong with me?" I ask, snorting.
Edward chuckles at the sound. "Wrong with you? Why do you ask?"
"Because you've got me laughing about my scars through that insinuation; surely
people don't do that."
"I don't know."
On the contrary, kitkat, I think I'm quite good with the drawing out
updating. :D I haven't blown all the chapters I have in one day. ;D
Anyways... I'm liking this. What are you thinking?
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Chapter 62
He's exploring my body now.
He's touching me, in places that… that I'm usually nervous about.
My stomach… my elbow… he kisses the scar on my neck, having growled at it
after hearing the story.
And he's telling me and showing me his, too.
We look at each other, both giddy at the freeness of this… whatever this is.
Because… because… it's easier to love someone who's broken like you. Who's
been thorough what you've been through.
It's so much easier to confide, to share and to… to just be with them.
Because they understand.
Because they care.
Because my Hoody cares and understands every one of the incidents and I
understand about his.
I never thought I would feel this… this free.
Happiness shall come. And sexy times. Well, happiness within those sexy
times. Promise.
please review. Oh and sorry for the lack of updating today. I've been out
and about without my laptop all day. :D
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Chapter 63
Now he's just being cheeky.
He grips and massages my hips, my ass, anywhere that seems to have the amount
of flesh that makes it possible and pleasurable.
I'm loving it… who am I kidding?
Not Hoody, from the looks of things.
"Come on, baby," he coos, leaning down to kiss me again.
Before our lips even meet, we're body against body… frantically removing his
clothes.
That's right; he wouldn't let me put mine on even though he had his on.
He doesn't play fair… he plays cockily.
I must have whispered that to myself or something because then he looks at me.
He licks his lips and my mind is just screaming at me to do that for him.
I lick my own in retaliation and he says just seven words:
"I'll let you play with my cock."
And I just… lose control.
I think you would too if a hot guy like Edward said that to you. ;)
Sorry for the lack of update today. I had to have a blood test and clean up.
:D
I'll update a few times today, but I'm still running low-ish on chapters. :D
please review and I'll give you more.
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Chapter 64
Clothes gone. Pretence gone.
This is all about need and fire and passion.
And love, of course.
Frantic touches, kisses, sucks on skin.
Moans and groans and hisses of delight and need.
"Fucking shit-Edward," I whimper as I feel his lips right… there.
I look down and the sight just about makes me come.
But it's his words that enchant me.
And his expressions. I know him now, know what makes him think in some way,
act in some way… look at me in some way.
"Good, so good," I gasp and he moans against me.
The vibrations are enough, even if his actions were not.
I scream; he moans.
Well, yeah...
I don't think I have anything to describe. :D
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Chapter 65
Minutes later, I'm the one giving the pleasure.
He's the one writhing.
I smile indulgently, watching Hoody. Even half out of his mind in pleasure – or so
it seems – he's seductive and sexy.
His abs flex as I lick them.
He grunts as I trail my nose along the V.
And he sigh's a moan when I lick at the pre-cum.
He groans as I take him in my mouth, my tongue swirling around and around.
He tastes… oh God, there are no words.
It's nice and sweet – not musky and icky.
I smile as he tugs on my hair, coming up to breathe.
"Yeah?" I ask innocently.
"Fucking minx," he groans, looking straight at me.
I look down at his cock.
"Want help with that?"
*Smiles innocently*
I know... I'm evil. But at least that's not the last chapter for today.
That would be worst.
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Chapter 66
"Yeah, but not like that," he says and I frown.
Don't all guys like it when their girl sucks them?
He chuckles. "Baby that can come later, but I swear to fucking… fuck that if I
don't get inside you within ten seconds flat, I am going to lose my mind."
I blush and he groans. "That's not helping matters, baby."
I smile. "What's all the talking? I don't want my Hoody losing his mind…"
I trail off as he lifts my hips hastily and then looks up to me as if for finally
confirmation.
I nod, smiling eagerly and he smiles back before looking back down at us.
And then he's pulling me down, and he's filling me.
I feel like crying when he slides the rest of the way in.
Who knew heaven felt this good?
*smiles*
Yeah, I know. Cockblock!
please review... and I'll give you that chapter. Well, in all truth the sex
scene is 3 chapters... this one included, me thinks.
*smiles innocently*. Tehehe.
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Chapter 67
We look at each other, the love we have for each other shining in our eyes.
He leans down and captures my lips in a long, passionate kiss that makes me curl
my toes.
When he leans back, he bites his lip, pulling out of me till just the tip of him
remains inside me.
He thrusts again and I bite my lip, moaning and arching my back from the sheer
ecstasy.
I've never felt anything like this before; it was so amazing and I whimpered as his
lips caressed my skin, swiping over my collarbone and immediately going to my
breasts.
Once he establishes a good, steady pace, he sucks a nipple in his mouth. My hands
immediately go to his hair, holding him there.
I need more.
She ain't the only one who needs more!
Ok, so maybe I don't... but I was the one who wrote it.
Surely you guys need more. :D
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Chapter 68
"Edward," I gasp when his hand reaches down and plays with my clit. His fingers
flick, stroke and draw circles on it. My hands wonder down to his ass, gripping it
and coaxing him for harder and faster thrusts.
Soon enough, I begin to meet his every thrust, craving even more.
He growls a low, sexy and seductive sound and I moan as he picks up the pace of
his thrusts.
Soon they become erratic and we're nearly shouting from the plethora of emotions
and pleasure that rush through us.
The only sounds in the room are our words, groans, moans, occasional growls and
the slapping of our skin as our hips meet.
A bit short, I suppose... I think I'll give you just one more tonight. :D
um... yeah. please review.
Oh and I usually write better lemons than these... seriously, I'm not so
used to writing Drabble fic lemons. ;D
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Chapter 69
"Come with me," he begs and I look up at him. My hands leave his ass and
immediately cup his face and as our lips meet, his tongue plunges into my mouth.
Finally, his two fingers that are playing with my clit press hard on it.
I arch my back, calling his name and he follows, grunting mine.
His thrusts slow and he eventually slumps against me, falling on top of me.
My arms wind around his waist as we pant in each other's ears.
We turn our heads toward each other, smiling.
"I love you," I whisper-pant and he smiles sweetly, dropping a kiss to my shoulder
and neck.
"I love you too," he gasps and he turns over on his back, pulling me with him.
I sigh happily and bury my head in his neck.
I'm home.
Naww... she's home, he's home. They're together and they just made love.
Prettyful. :D
So... I don't know how many chapters will be left. Anyone wanna guess?
Leave the guess... and your thoughts... in a pretty review.
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Chapter 70
The rest of the night is spent in bed.
Of course, we become quieter when Alice and Jasper return.
But their reappearance doesn't stop us from making love and eventually, in the
early hours of the morning, he fall asleep, utterly and completely sated and
exhausted.
In the morning, I am woken by kisses.
The wet, sexy, open-mouth kisses of Edward make me hum and moan and
eventually, we make love… again.
When we venture out of the room, Alice and Jasper are in the kitchen, making
breakfast.
They smile knowingly at us, Alice motioning that she wants to know everything
and will get her answers later.
I sigh and nod, knowing that I won't be able to stop her.
But then I look at Hoody and smile.
He's mine now.
Yeah. Hers.
Oh and I think I am going to re-write a few of the following chapters... so
it'll be a while before I update today again.
please review.
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Chapter 71
The weeks that follow are all about adjusting.
We open up to each other, and eventually Edward confirms that the scar on his
wrist is in fact self-inflicted.
I cry at that, unable to imagine how I would be if I had never met him.
He assures me that he feels the same and that he would never do it now that he
has me.
I calm down and apologize, to which he says that he should be sorry.
We argue… which ends up in more sex.
It's passionate and raw, nothing sweet and careful about it.
In fact, we make love several times.
Ok, now this one isn't rewritten, but the next ones will be. And I like what
I am doing with them instead... it's good.
Um, realistically, there's WAY more than ten chapters left. Sorry, but it's
the truth. They need to face their demons and a few of their unknown
fears...
please review.
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Chapter 72
Our happy bubble is busted just a few short weeks after that night.
I leave home early on Friday night, texting Edward quickly to tell him so.
He replies with a short: ok, meeting parents. See you at yours xx
I am abruptly nervous. He's meeting his parents… does that mean all four of
them? I mean, two out of four are in fact his abusers.
But I don't say anything and I go home.
I stay up all night, waiting for him. I am getting more and more anxious as the
clock tolls each hour until finally, the front door opens. I set down my drink and turn
in my seat to greet Edward.
I gasp.
Oh oh.
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Oh and this is where it gets more serious... :( (that is supposed to be a
frown)
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Chapter 73
"Edward," I whimper and I run to him.
His face, his gorgeous face, is battered and bruised, bleeding.
"Fuck, what the fuck did they do to you?" I cry, grabbing his hand and pulling him
into the kitchen.
I get out a few alcohol wipes and wipe at his face, cleaning all the blood off. His
right eye is black, his jaw fucking purple and his temple is bleeding a little.
"Dammit," I growl out angrily as I finish up. "I have a right mind to kill the
bastards."
Edward grabs me by the tops of my arms. "Baby, I'm fine. Ok? I'm fine. I've had
worse."
I frown and grudgingly say: "I know that – but I don't like seeing it. Who did this?
Obviously you didn't meet the four of them, as I thought you had."
He smiles then winces and I huff angrily.
"Edward Senior and my mother."
Jesus. Oh and just so you remember, his real parents are Carlisle and
Elizabeth. They separated and so now we've got a bit of a good parents, bad
parents kinda thing going on. :D
Carlisle is now with Esme. And Edward Senior is with Elizabeth.
Um... more is revealed about who exactly Edward Senior is next chapter. :P
please review!
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Chapter 74
"What's Edward Senior's last name?" I ask bitingly.
I dab at his face quickly with the alcohol, knowing how much it stings. He hisses
and winces, but doesn't complain otherwise.
"Masen," he says and I stop in my tracks.
"W-what?" I whisper.
"Masen; his name is Edward Masen," Edward grimaces. "He's some CEO of a
company."
I come out of my state and look up at him, tears in my eyes.
He frowns down at me, obviously confused by my reaction to his stepfather's
name.
"Edward Masen?" I ask, barely a whisper, one last time for confirmation. "As in,
Edward Masen from Masen Foundation?"
He frowns for a second. "Yeah, but how did you-"
"Edward, he's my boss," I say and he freezes in my arms.
I, on the other hand, am angry. I work for the guy who beats my fucking
boyfriend.
Well, we'll see about that.
MamabearBella is coming out now. BEWARE!
but seriously. She ain't gonna take shit from the ass.
And the reason he is called Edward Senior is because he insists upon it.
And his mother has power over him. That will be explained.
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Chapter 75
The next day, I argue with Edward.
I want him to stay home and get some rest; he wants me to stay home and for him
to fucking work.
Eventually, he breaks down – making me do the same – and he admits that he
can't have me near the man that beats him. He can't have his girlfriend – the woman
he loves – around a guy like him.
He worries for my safety.
I smile and take him in my arms, rocking him as he cries.
"Honey, I have to go to work," I say and I feel him freeze, the terrified
goose-bumps break out on his skin. "I have to go… so I can quit."
"Quitting takes too much time," he says, sniffling.
"Oh baby," I say lovingly, stroking his hair. "Not the way I'm gonna do it."
He looks up at me and smiles at what he sees.
Poor, poor Edward.
What I tell ya?
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Chapter 76
Before I leave for work, I tell Edward that we have to discuss just one more thing
when I get home.
He's curious, of course, but right now in his state, I don't think he'd want to hear
it.
I leave for work after kissing him and promising that I would text him throughout
the day.
At work, I keep a low profile until lunch.
As everyone leaves one by one for lunch, I wait anxiously.
Finally, I take a look around and hardly anyone is there.
I pack up my desk quickly, getting everything that I need before anyone can see
me.
And then, with a smirk on my face, I walk into Edward Masen's office for the last
fucking time.
Yeah... Bella means business... :D
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Oh and sorry for the lack of chapters - I had a party to go to!
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Chapter 77
"So if the product of the investigation is unsuccessful or unplanned for, the media
department will have to take care of the implementations," that is when he notices
me standing here. "Miss Swan, do you mind? Is there something you need?"
"Excuse me, sir?" I say, trying to be polite. But I am sure that the disgust I feel for
him is radiating off of me in waves. "But I would rather like to have a word with
you."
He sighs. "Can't it wait?"
"No sir," I say quickly, lithely. "It can't."
He sighs loudly and nods at me. I smirk. "Wait outside for me – I will be right out."
I nod at him and open the door, quickly walking through it and closing it behind
me.
A few short minutes later, it opens and I turn around.
"I quit," I say and he looks at me.
"What?"
SHE SAYS SHE QUITS, ASS!
Jokes, but seriously... we're gonna see his real character soon.
please review. :D
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Chapter 78
"I. Quit," I say distinctively, crossing my arms over my chest.
He frowns and crosses his own. "Miss Swan, might we discuss this later?"
"No," I say and I step forward. "I know who you are, and I know what you do in
your spare time. Remember Edward Cullen? Do you even remember what you did to
him last night? Because judging from the fact that only one side of your face is
properly shaven and the general rugged look about you… I'd say you are an
alcoholic."
He smirks at me, his evil sneer and personality finally coming to show. "So you're
the girlfriend, eh? Ah well, if I had only known he'd discovered such a hot piece of
ass."
He wraps his arms around me tightly, leaving no room for me to escape.
"Get the fuck off me," I growl and he laughs.
"Feisty. I love feisty women."
Don't worry; justice and help will come.
Our Bella will get it back someday... soon.
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Chapter 79
The way Mr Masen touches me in vile; sexual and just so wrong.
I can already feel the tears prickle behind my eyes as I fight against him in vain.
His fingers grab and pull on my flesh, nails digging into skin and I scratch him to
shit. He grunts and growls and hisses in both pain and pleasure, the latter making
me feel sick.
I fight the urge to beg, not wanting to give him that opportunity. I look around,
anywhere but his face and when I see someone in the office, I feel hope.
And so I scream.
Loud.
Don't worry - she will go back into her shell.. kind of... but the new day
shall bring fiercer emotions.
She'll get her revenge - Edward and Bella both will.
Promise.
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Chapter 80
I watch as the man looks up, spluttering and swallowing.
When his eyes meet mine, his gaze hardens and he yells out.
"Hey!" He shouts, jumping up and running toward me.
When he reaches us, he punches the disgusting parasite that is Edward Masen,
knocking him out cold.
I am crying as he pulls me away from him and I look down at my ex-boss,
thoroughly disgusted.
I turn to the man that saved me, "thank you…?"
"Jacob," he says, reaching out to shake my hand. I look at it, unsure and do not
make a move to shake it. He sticks it in his back pocket awkwardly and smiles.
"Jacob Black. What's yours?"
"Bella," I say hoarsely before I clear my throat. "Um, I have to go."
And I turn around, grab my things and walk away.
Yeah. Jacob Black.
So, um, I have chapters up until 92... so, I'll be busy writing the next ones.
I will update more today but hopefully I will resist the urge to do so often.
*smiles*
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P.S. Oh and someone asked how old Hoodyward is: he's the same as
Bella... she's something like 28? Yeah, she's 28.
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Chapter 81
I feel disgusting, like I need a shower.
I look around for a store that may sell sunglasses and finally I find one. I quickly
buy the first pair I can and stick them on.
I wait for my bus to come, grabbing out my iPod with me.
I listen to Evanescence's Going Under and slowly, the words help me calm down.
My feelings turn into just one… anger.
I would not let this get the best of me… and Edward could never know.
I can't report it, but I'll encourage Hoody to report all that Edward Senior has
done.
I settle back into the seat and a few minutes later, the bus arrives.
I get up and walk on, show my pass and sit down.
I get out my phone and text Edward.
On the way home, baby. See you soon. Love you, xx
I let anger swallow me.
That's right, Bella. Let's get angry.
*smiles evilly*
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Chapter 82
"I'm home, baby," I call out as I walk through the door.
I quickly make my way to my bedroom and when I open the door, I smile.
Hoody's there, in our bed, nestled into a pillow… asleep.
He doesn't snore, of course and I walk forward carefully, setting aside the box of
things that had been on my desk.
I sit on the bed, my fingers reaching out to touch him, needing his assurance, even
if he was asleep.
But as soon as my fingers touch him, he jolts awake and looks at me.
"Hey," he whispers, smiling.
I smile back, "hey. How was your day?"
"Ok," he says, looking around the room. "How did the quitting go?"
I nod, even though I feel the tears prickle.
He frowns.
"Baby, what happened? And you better not tell me 'nothing'."
Oh-oh.
Edward knows something is wrong.
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Chapter 83
I look down, away from him, unable to look at him as I tell him everything.
I don't know what happened to me when I walked in the room, but I just… I can't
say 'no' to him. I can't hide anything.
What's strange is that it doesn't frustrate me.
He's angry by the time I finish and I look down, ashamed.
He reaches for me and at first I recoil. But as his arms circle around me, I relax.
The tension from everything – the new relationship, the abusive boss and all that
had happened today – leaves me and I cry in his arms.
I'm not even ashamed of that – of crying.
He holds me, comforting me and when I'm finished, he carries me to the bathroom
and makes me a bath.
I ask him to join me, he does.
I sigh, relaxing into him.
He's my rock.
I know you wanted him to go postal and throw things... but I think it
suited this couple for him to be more understanding and tender.
Of course, he is still angry and... well, I can't really say anything more.
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Chapter 84
Eventually, he pulls me out of the bath and carries me – stark naked because Alice
and Jasper are in bed already – into the bedroom.
He lays me down then climbs in after me, also naked.
"I love you," he whispers in my ear and I breathe deeply, trying to keep my
emotions at bay. It doesn't work, however, when I hear what he says next. "It doesn't
matter, baby. He's a monster and it isn't your fault… you have to know that. God, I
love you so much. I was so worried today, baby. And when I opened my eyes and you
were here… I can't tell you how I was feeling… I was… serene; peaceful. Calm
because you were here, home with me."
"I love you," I whisper and I turn into his embrace. "God, I love you so much."
I cry more and he rocks me, calming me.
Sweetward. Oh dear, I may die.
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Chapter 85
The next day, our roles are reversed.
I stay at home, while Edward goes to work.
What he doesn't know, is that I spend the day planning.
The smell of revenge is in the air – this morning I woke up angry. There would be
no pity for my situation – hell no.
I had done enough of that in my life and now, right now, I had everything I wanted
and needed. I wouldn't let myself let it go for… well, for nothing.
Because I had only quit yesterday, I still had some access into the server.
I pick up my phone and call the one person who can break into any server in the
world…
… Rose.
Naughty Bella... Naughty, naughty, naughty Bella!
Oh well... ;)
Now, I asked for those reviews and you gave them to me. I wanna thank
everyone who reviewed, favourited and etc.
Oh and this was put on a community! That's been happening to my stories
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Chapter 86
"Bella?" Rose asks over the phone and I hear some ruffling in the background.
"Bella, what's going on? You need something?"
"You could say that," I say quietly.
"What is it?" I hear a twinge of concern in her voice. "Are you ok?"
I nod, though I know she can't see it. "Yeah; I'm fine. Can you just help me with
something?"
"Sure," she says quickly. "How soon do you want me over?"
"As soon as possible and is convenient for you," I say, hoping that sounds
acceptable.
I hear her smile. "Alright; I'll be over in thirty minutes."
"See you then," I say and then the line cuts dead.
Right, so. 97 chapters written (so far, including prologue) and 87
(including this one and prologue) are up.
I need to get writing.
Not many more for today, unfortunately.
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Chapter 87
Rose is over for the whole day and I let her in on the plan. I don't tell her the
reasons behind the actions but I can tell that she is curious.
We catch up and talk a lot in the midst of all that and it's really fun.
I smile a lot, but then again, Rose and Emmett have always been able to do that
with me.
At around three, I get a text from Edward saying that he's coming home early and
taking me to dinner at some small, pretty place.
I quickly hush Rose out, hoping that I am not too rude and spend the next
forty-five minutes getting ready.
I am just touching up my mascara when I hear the doorbell.
I smile.
Yeah. :D
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Chapter 88
Edward and I leave – in his car, a very nice silver Volvo – quickly after that.
Edward – whose eyes have been fixed on me since he saw me at the door – tells
me about the restaurant and assures me that it is a nice, quiet and quaint place.
We joke and laugh and talk about inconsequential things, hoping that this period
of our relationship never ends.
It's nice to have fun and just… let go. To rid myself of all the pain and sorrow that
has become what my life is.
But as I look at Edward, I see a gleam in his eye, a glimmer of hope.
And I know…
… I know that he is the one.
"I'm the one... love me, love me, love me, love me... I'm the one...!"
Kylie Minogue, I know. Shut up, it's a good song.
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Chapter 89
When we arrive, we are immediately greeted by an air-head blonde.
I have to bite my tongue so I don't say anything rude when she looks at Edward,
clear want in her eyes. When she looks at me, there's the ugly shine of jealousy
there and I smile.
Yeah. Uh-huh. Mine, bitch.
She blinks and turns around, beckoning us to follow her and we do.
Hoody and I look at each other and roll our eyes, amused by the annoying tramp.
In my heart, that little interaction gives me security. It flows through my veins and
enlightens me, marking me.
I smile as we sit down, our hands never leaving the others.
I know, I know. This is the second last one for tonight.
Thanks for the marvelous reviews today - you all helped me crack the 600
review mark, making it as of now 630! I never dreamed I would get that
many for a story, only hoped.
(Thanks especially kitkat for recommending it and falling in love with it.
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Chapter 90
"So," Edward says casually as he picks up his cutlery. I do the same and begin my
meal as I look at him curiously. "What have you planned so far?"
I blink. How the fuck did he know?
He smiles. "I know, baby, I know… and I've made some plans of my own."
There's a wicked kind of look in his eyes as he looks into mine and I shiver in…
desire?
I lick my lips, watching him as he wraps his lips around the fork and eats the
pasta.
I may or may not moan as he does that; I personally have no idea either way.
"Well?" He asks. "Tell me what you plan on doing and I'll tell you what I plan on
doing to the bastard."
Why is it that his calling is abusive step-father a bastard and that wicked look in
his eye is undeniably hot?
Hot-swearing-Edward... can't get better than that.
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Chapter 91
I clear my throat. "I haven't the faintest idea of what you're talking about."
Edward smirks at me and shakes his head. "I call bullshit; you're obviously doing
something, baby. I know you."
Yeah, you do, don't you? I think, kinda annoyed.
"Ok," I say, sighing. "Ok; so I may or may not have called my friend Rose over and
gotten her to infiltrate the system so I could see what he's doing to his other
employees and what he's sending them… Basically speaking, I'm gonna destroy
him."
"Smart," Edward whispers, tracing patterns on the hand he's holding. He puts
down his fork and looks at me for a moment. "I like it. But that can't be all you're
thinking of doing, surely."
I shake my head with a devious smile. "No; no it's not."
Evilella... I don't know if I like that name... hmm, but Evilward sounds
kinda sexy.
Me likes it.
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Chapter 92
"Care to share?" He asks, pursing his lips. He cocks his head to the side, his eyes
narrowing as he tries to decipher my body language.
I look at him in what I hope is an alluring way, cupping my cheek and leaning on
my right hand. "Maybe. But first, I want to know what you were planning. It's only
fair."
He looks away from me, smiling. "My idea is perhaps a little more… physical."
He emphasizes the word and before I can interrupt him, he continues. "He had no
right to touch you, Bella. You're my girlfriend and he was your boss. He's done more
than enough damage to me and I will not stand him touching you or trying to
damage you. I refuse to let that happen."
"Calm, honey… calm down," I say softly, trying to soothe him. He's losing it; slowly
being swallowed by his anger.
*evil laugh*
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Chapter 93
When he's calm, we don't broach the subject again.
Instead, we talk about other things… like his father and what he does. He asks me
about Emmett and Rose and I tell him all about them. He laughs and groans at the
funny stories, but doesn't shy away from me.
He never has.
When we're done with dinner and desert, we go home, leaving a bill on the table –
including the tip.
And when we get home, Edward leads us directly into our room.
We pull and tug at each other's clothes, needing them off and needing skin on skin
instead.
Whimpers and moans, groans and growling sounds erupt from us, unstoppable as
we seek pleasure.
"Edward," I meow like a cat when he enters me.
A softness, a tenderness that we are used to surrounds us as we make love with
each other…
… and when we climax… fucking amazing.
So, I have been kinda slack with the whole updating thingy for two
reasons:
1. We've been kinda slow with the reviews today... :(
2. I am fast running out of chapters.
In fact, there's only one more... meaning, that the next chapter is probably
gonna be the last one for today.
:( Sorry.
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Chapter 94
"I think we should speak to Carlisle," he whispers in my ear as we begin to fall to
sleep. "I know he didn't get far, but I want him to check over a few of the bruises."
He looks down at me. "Would you be ok with that?"
I nod and close my eyes, feeling the tears well. They are caught by my eyelashes
and when I look up at Edward, he smiles.
He cares… he really cares about me.
"God, I love you," I whisper, sniffling as I lift myself up to lie down over him, on his
chest and stomach.
Every part of our bodies is touching, aligned perfectly.
He enters me and I moan, arching my lower back.
His thrusts are methodical and soon enough, my eyes are begging… pleading…
More.
He gives it to me; he loves me so completely that tears well and spill over.
Cute, eh?
Oh and we're meeting Carlisle soon... ;)
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Chapter 95
The next day, a Friday, Edward goes off to work with the promise that I would not
do anything involving his step-father today.
Instead, I sit around and have a lazy day.
Watching movies.
I eat food, listen to music and generally have a boring ass day.
Edward calls me in his half-hour lunch break – his job as a tech supervisor only
gives him so much time – to tell me that he has spoken with his father and they
made an appointed for tomorrow morning.
He notices my lack of enthusiasm and picks up on it immediately.
"Baby, are you ok?" He asks anxiously.
"Edward, I'm just feeling a little off," I say carefully. "It's been a boring day and I
haven't started looking for a job."
"You're worried," he whispers into the phone and I close my eyes.
"Yes," I say. "Yes I am."
Bella is worried. Are you worried?
This may be a good time to promise a HEA.
Ok, I promise. :D
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Chapter 96
"What is it, love?" Edward asks me through the phone.
I play with the little ratty tails, looking down. "I don't… god, I don't know. I just-" I
cut off, breathing in sharply, trying to sort out my thoughts. "Will this work? I know
you're father knows these things, but Edward…"
He sighs; I can't really name the emotion that can be found within the many layers
of covers over it. "Bella, it'll be fine. You and I both know that we need help. If we're
gonna do something about Edward Senior, then we have to do it now; before he gets
to us."
"I know," I sigh, anxious and angry at the same time. "It's just- fuck, why do I feel
like I'm planning a murder or something here?"
I swear I can hear Edward's smile through his words. "Because in a way, we kind
of are."
I panic.
Don't worry; he's not evil. He shall explain himself. And Bella and Edward
will be fine... it was a slip of words on Edward's part... :D
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Chapter 97
"Why do you say it like that?" I ask, sitting up. I stop fiddling, stop moving, stop
fucking everything as I wait for his response.
He sighs dejectedly. "Baby, look; if he is sent to jail for this, no one is gonna fund
his foundation. No one is going to want to be known or seen with him. It's a business
murder, if you will. By sending him to jail, we are ensuring that he has no chance of
getting anywhere further in his business."
"Why?" I whisper. "Why is it like that?"
His sad smile can be heard in the next words. "It's just the way it is. We can't
change it. But Bella, we're doing this for a good reason."
"Yeah."
"Which is why we are seeing my father tomorrow," he adds, perking up again. "To
sort all of this fuckery out."
There, see? Edward didn't mean it when he said it like he did last chapter.
Promise.
Oh and I'm sorry that there haven't been a lot of chapters - I haven't had
time to write as I've had to do assessments and hand them in etc., etc., etc.
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Chapter 98
The next day, we wake up early.
Take a shower – together, as always.
We are silent, completely and utterly in our minds thinking about… everything.
What we're gonna say to Carlisle… what we want to tell him… how we think he's
gonna react.
And, I'm nervous. This'll be the first time I meet Edward's father… and since it's
under these circumstances, I am doubly… troubled.
Edward tries calming me, and I must admit that it works; somewhat.
He is good at those massages.
But, while he helps me before we have to leave, I sit there and think about us.
He's been staying in our townhouse virtually every night since our relationship
began.
Would he be that opposed to moving in with me?
Well, what do you think? Do you think he would?
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Chapter 99
"Mr Cullen," I say, holding out my hand for him to shake it.
Mr Cullen has blonde hair, pale skin and pale blue eyes; ultimately, a very
attractive man.
He looks at Edward and then at me, smiling pleasantly. "Hello, Isabella. Edward
has told me quite a bit about you. How are you doing?"
I smile a tight-lipped, nervous smile. "Alright."
He smiles encouragingly at me and I feel myself relax as Edward draws soothing
patterns on my arm.
"Right, well," he says and he steps aside for Edward and I to walk through the
threshold. "I must apologize; my wife, Esme is out. She'll be along later, though."
I nod, looking around nervously.
"Shall we get this over with?" Carlisle asks and I look at Edward.
"Sure," he says.
Awkwardness.
*deer caught in headlights kind of moment*
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Chapter 100
I hiss and groan in pain as he checks me over.
I hadn't realized just how hard Edward Masen had grabbed me. It hurt like a
fucking bitch.
"I really am sorry," Carlisle says as he inspects the bruises.
When he comes around to look at me again, having finished his inspection, I watch
him.
Edward is sitting down, nervous and watching me in the corner.
I smile at him reassuringly and he shrugs his shoulders, mouthing that he can't
help it.
"I must ask, Miss Swan," Carlisle says and I look at him once again. He's
regarding me carefully. "How did you get the other marks on your body?"
I swallow and stiffen. "That was a long time ago."
He sees how uptight I am and relaxes his face into a careful smile. "It's alright; no
pressure. You don't have to tell me."
I nod my head in appreciation.
lack of updating reason: I've been busy and no one's really reviewed.
Kitkat, one of the reviewers asked if you're being bullied? She's said that
she'd like to do something about that if that is actually happening. I second
that notion.
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Chapter 101
A while later, we're sitting down in the Cullen lounge room.
I look around to avoid looking at Carlisle until – finally – he clears his throat.
My head whips around to look at him and he's smile; again, the smile is
reassuring.
"I understand that there was something else that you wanted to discuss," he says,
looking pointedly at Edward.
Edward swallows and nods. "Father, there is something I need to tell you."
Carlisle frowns from the way Edward's voice sounds and I let out a shaky breath. I
hear that Edward does the same and my eyes flash to his.
He holds our gaze out of panic, looking at me with tears welling.
I smile, my own eyes filling with tears and he presses on as I smile what I hope is
a comforting and supporting smile.
"Father," Edward says, shuddering a little. "Elizabeth's husband is abusing me."
And there it is... next chapter and the ones that follow, heavy fucking shit.
Um, we'll be learning the story behind Edward's abuse and then we meet
Esme... fun.
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Chapter 102
Carlisle's eyes close, utter, excruciating pain coming across his face.
We sit in silence; a silence that is filled with… suffering.
It's the only way to describe what is being felt.
"Wha-" Carlisle whispers brokenly, looking between Edward and I. "How long?
When did it start?"
I could tell that he was feeling… well, what I imagine any normal parent would
feel.
Terror.
Pain.
Like a failure… well, he looks as if he was feeling that.
Then there was that one little glimmer; the one that I had felt and the one the one
that was so very dominant on his features.
His expression gave the phrase "if looks could kill" a whole different meaning…
An acceptable reaction.
Oh and the next couple of chapters will come... fairly quickly. Perhaps one
every 30 mins. :D
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Chapter 103
"I'm sorry," Edward whimpers, burying his face into the nape of my neck.
I wrap my arms around him, closing my eyes as the tears fall.
I hate this; I hate that he feels like he has to apologize for what has been done to
him.
He didn't wish for this; he didn't ask for this. The fucker that is Edward Masen did
it to him.
Carlisle walks over to us and puts his hand on Edward's shoulder.
We wince as he flinches from him.
I drop little comforting kisses on his face as he cries in the midst of explaining…
everything.
Edward's story is next chapter… and the one after that as well.
It's gonna be ultra emotion. I'm sorry about that, but it's needed. The
next... maybe 5-10 are as well. :D
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Chapter 104
He tells us everything:
How when he'd first met the ass, he seemed ok; a little strange for certain
aspects, but other than that… normal.
How he'd soon found out that he was anything but. How he'd made swipes at him
from across the table, watching him with predator eyes.
How he'd been so scared when he'd touched him. First gently, then growing to be
more… forceful, as time wore on.
How at first his mother knew nothing of it because Edward Masen had thought
that she'd be disgusted, but once she'd walked in on him beating her son…
… She was aroused by it.
She would sit there, trying to get herself off as she watched the supposed 'love of
her life' hit and beat and bruise her son.
Yeah. That's right.
I'm sorry if that disgusts you, but please, if you don't like that then don't
review. It's out there now.
And part two is coming shortly.
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Chapter 105
He then tells us how he tried to get away from them, from everything, slowly
seeping into a depression.
How when he'd gone to their house that one night – many years ago – to tell them
that he'd had enough, that he wouldn't let them do it anymore…
… They'd shown him the videos.
Films, with just a few clicks on a computer, could be released to his whole
company; that he'd be humiliated and out of a job faster than the click of a finger.
And when my Hoody is done telling us, he sits there and cries.
Shakes, flinches and wails whenever we try to just… touch him.
I cry too, as does Carlisle.
It's not fair that he was abused like this.
It's not fair that that rat bastard thinks he'll get away with it.
Carlisle and I look at each other…
… Revenge glinting in our eyes.
Yeah. So there's his story; disgusting and despicable. But it's ok - Daddy
Carlisle will help!
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Chapter 106
"Edward?" A woman calls from the doorway.
Edward flinches at the sound, still a shaking mess.
I clear my throat and breathe deeply, walking over to the woman who must be
Esme.
"Hello Esme," I say carefully, my voice hoarse and croaking from crying. "I'm
Bella; Edward's girlfriend. Um, I'm sure you'd like to know what's wrong."
She nods, looking over my shoulder, clearly concerned.
"Yes," she says anxiously. "I'd quite like that…" She looks at her husband, who is
watching his son helplessly. "Carlisle, darling? Come with me," she walks over to
him and he breaks down in her arms. She hushes him, soothes him as she drags him
from the room.
I sit down carefully next to Hoody and try, just once more, to reach out to him.
Poor Hoody. *soothes him comfortingly*
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Chapter 107
"Edward, baby?" I whisper softly, my fingers touching his shoulders. He tenses for
a mere second before relaxing… just slightly.
His cries lessen over a few minutes and eventually, he has enough courage to look
me in the eyes.
My heart breaks at what I see; he's scared, haunted… white as a sheet, as a ghost.
"Bella?" He asks hoarsely, looking at me just as I look at him. And then he smiles
through tears. "Oh God, Bella; you're here…"
I smile at him too, careful to not show any teeth. "Yeah… of course I'm here."
He swallows, then twists around and wraps his arms around my waist. I lay my
head on his shoulder and we simply… hold each other as he slowly but surely comes
back to me.
Bella's good with Edward. I like these guys. :D
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Chapter 108
"Edward," Esme cries as we walk into the lounge room. "Oh Edward, my poor
child."
He swallows as she flings herself at him and he breathes shallow breaths as she
cries; he rubs her back, unable to do anything else as tears fall from his eyes.
I know those tears. They are ones filled with guilt; the same ones that I cried when
he first called me beautiful and I cried in Alice's arms, unable to reply.
I swallow back my emotions, determined to be strong.
I look away from them and at Carlisle. He nods at me, smiling; his face blotchy
from tears.
I smile back, sure that I look just as bad.
I walk towards him and we stand, side by side, as we watch Edward and the first
real mother he's ever had… cry.
Sweet, loving Esme.
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Chapter 109
"Surely, someone of your status in the world can do something, darling," Esme
says to Carlisle, who's watching his son intently, anger in his eyes.
I am sure that I feel the same way.
"It would certainly help," I say carefully, looking at Edward. "Edward and I want
to destroy him – we want him in financial and social status ruin. We want it so bad
that his wife will leave him. We want him to have no power over Edward; it just
weighs him down too much."
Carlisle sighs; it's a harsh, angry sound.
Edward whimpers, only slightly but it still hurts Carlisle; still hurts us all.
"I'm sorry," my Hoody whispers, looking down at his hands. They're shaking. "I'm
sorry."
I know you are wondering why Edward didn't just go to his father and that,
even if he was humiliated, he wouldn't have been fired... but you must think
of what you would do in his shoes. The videos would have included his
mother in the background, getting herself off to her husband beating him.
He's supposed to look professional for his job.
Please just try to see it from his perspective.
With that said, please review.
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Chapter 110
"Stop," Carlisle whispers; it's a broken sound. The pain radiates through his whole
body; it's in his expression, his voice, his face and the way he holds himself. It's
consuming him. "Please son, stop saying that you're sorry. You didn't ask for this;
you didn't make this happen. He did it to you. But he won't anymore; that last time
was the last that he will ever lay a hand on you. I swear it," he says and his words
pierce through Edward's very soul, like a ball of fire.
Edward smiles a small, sad smile. "You can't stop him.
Carlisle's expression changes to one of determination. "Yes, I can and I will."
Yeah.
Short, but effective.
You know, I did the stupidest thing with this chapter. I wrote it then didn't
save it so i had to rewrite it. At least I have a good memory and could get it
down word for word again. :D
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Chapter 111
Edward breathes deeply, his bottom lip trembling as he looks at his father and his
mother for all intents and purposes.
Tears of relief trail down in streams as he just looks at his loving parents.
He can't tell what he's feeling for once and I just simply smile as he swallows and
tries to collect himself.
"Thank you," he whispers, relief and ease colouring tone. I feel like crying and
screaming from the happiness that floods through me. "Thank you so very much."
And then, without speaking, he gets up and hugs them.
I watch, smiling as he relaxes completely, finally.
When they turn to me and hug me, one after another, I can't help but thank them
as well.
This is the last one that I have prewritten right now. I have to write some
more before I update. :D
I will be updating more today though. Promise.
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Chapter 112
That night, when we arrive home, instead of being in their room, Jasper and Alice
are in the lounge room.
They smile at us as we walk in and sit down.
"Hey," Alice says, eating her trademark cereal and ice-cream. Some days, it's the
only thing she will eat without putting up a fight. Jasper usually just caves.
"Hey," Edward and I say in unison to Alice, nodding to Jasper. He smiles and turns
down the T.V.
"What did you guys do today?"
"Met Edward's parents," I say and they nod, smiling at us.
Alice looks at me and I instantly know that she knows something is wrong. But
that's just Alice. She always knows everything.
Perhaps she knows the answer to all our misfortunes as well…
… One can only hope.
Yeah. One can. :D
Sorry for the lack of updating... I'm still writing those chapters. I've got
around 7 after this now... slow, I know but A Choice needs a new chapter as
well and I've been kinda stuck.
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Chapter 113
Jasper knows something is wrong as well, but unlike Alice, he keeps it to himself
and does not even try to get involved.
Secretly, I'm relieved. I don't need the added stress of not only pregnant, snoopy
Alice but her fiancé as well.
Fiancé, I think jealously. God I want that.
I do have that though; with Edward, I have the chance of a happy, normal-ish life.
That's all I want. Happiness and normalness – to the best that we can have.
But… with everything that has happened to the both of us… can we really have
that?
Can we really grow old together and when we die, will we look back on our lives
and be happy?
Or will we always be… not happy?
Jeez... you and your reviews. Some nearly made me cry...
Seriously, they did. *sniffles*
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Chapter 114
Over the rest of the long weekend, Edward and I are always together… always
touching, unable to be apart.
We don't need to be… this… this is perfect. Just the two of us with Alice and
Jasper in the little townhouse… it's all I could ever ask for.
That's when I realize that the time is now.
"Edward?" I whisper as we watch the end of the sad, sad movie.
He's stroking my hair and dropping kisses on my head, anywhere he can reach.
"Yeah baby?"
I close my eyes for a minute and breathe in deeply. When I exhale, I push away
from his chest and look at him.
He looks back, worried and yet also curious.
"Move in with me."
Shall he say yes... or shall he say no?
Oh and may I ask, what is the true definition of a drabble? Because you
see, my friend (who is also reading this) and I were debating about it. She
says that it's short chapters that have a non-linear pattern and therefore my
story was not one. I said that mine was in fact a drabble.
And so I am asking you, my dear readers... :D
please review
bexie25
(P.S. Those of you who are readers of A Choice, I will be updating very
soon. I have rewritten the next chapter at least five times and only now is it
working out. It will still have a certain Unwelcome Visitor, but it will have
a... funnier underlining rather than a... not so funny underlining.)
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Chapter 115
He looks at me, shocked and, to my relief, happy.
"Really?" He asks, his forehead puckering as he tilts his head to the side. "Are you
sure? We've known each other-"
"Hush," I say, putting a finger to his lips as I come closer. I straddle him and take
his face in my hands. "In the midst of everything we're going through, we've had the
most relaxing weekend that I think I've ever had. And I realized, just a few minutes
ago now, that it's because of you. Everything, all of it… is because of you."
He looks at me and smiles. "Ok then; let's do this."
I smile. "Let's do this.
Yeah, let's do this.
Now, it's not gonna be so peachy for too much longer... but I probably
shouldn't have said that... :0
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Chapter 116
Over the following week, we gradually move him in.
We tell Alice and Jasper first of course, and Alice – confused and messed up by all
her emotions – cries with joy. It's adorable and oh so cute, and the rest of us are
laughing as she plans some 'housemate celebration' as she calls it.
We watch as she practically runs around the house, thinking of things and talking
to herself as she plans.
"Well," Edward says as he closes the door to our bedroom. "I'm glad they're
happy."
I remove all clothes except my underwear and when I look down, his sweats are
tented.
I smile cockily, seductively. "They aren't the only ones."
He chuckles huskily and strips down.
We try to be quiet.
Hehehe. They try, they fail. :)
Oh and also, thanks for the amount of reviews that I got overnight. I went
to bed with 762 (or something) and woke up with 823... I ain't good at maths
but that has to be around 61...? I know that it was mostly from
irishnlove2shop and kitkat681 because they had some catching up to do, but
I just wanna thank all of you. Waking up in the morning with 92 emails used
to mean that a lot of people had been busy updating overnight. Now, it
means that a lot have been busy reading MY fanfiction. It means a lot to me
that you all take the time to review... especially some of you with a chapterly
(WORD) review.
A Choice readers, I am currently editing... It's gonna be ok, I promise. It's
just as I said it would be: sweet, emotional and funny... :D
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Chapter 117
Finally, a week and a half after I asked him, he's officially moved in.
We haven't heard from his father yet, who seems hell-bent on setting it all out and
helping us.
We ask regularly if he needs help but all he says is: "thank you very much, but not
yet."
That 'not yet' has Edward and me wondering just what Carlisle has in store for
Edward Masen.
But we sit back and let him do his thing as he so desires.
Edward is anxious a lot of the time at work. He texts me to tell me so and I usually
calm him down… usually.
He still has his bad days where no one and nothing will soothe him, but talking to
me apparently always helps.
According to him, I'd be an amazing mother.
And I can't help but think: oh but you'll be a fantastic father.
Naww, they're thinking about babies!
Yeah, well, now isn't the time but... yeah.
So, drama is up ahead.
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Chapter 118
Edward as advised does not go over to his mothers and step-father's house
anymore. He's usually angsty and moody every second Sunday, since that's the day
he's supposed to go.
He looks the front door and is always hesitant to go near it, just in case they are
there if he opens the door.
I don't look for a job, instead, I start writing once again.
Creative writing has its perks and I am very happy that Emmett is an editor.
Whenever I have time and it's ready, I send him a chapter or two and he always
brings it back with good, considerate adjustments.
He knows that if something that isn't exactly grammatical or punctual needs to be
changed, I'd rather do it myself and send it back to him.
It's been a good few weeks, but then… we receive a phone call.
So, I have a bit of an announcement. It seems that one of my very amazing
readers has sent in a form for this story to the Lemonade Stand. She's
requested that it be a possible fic of the week/month she wasn't sure how
they do it there.
The name of this person (or rather, the penname) is irishnlove2shop. I
would like to thank her so very much. I have always fantasized of getting
nominated, but never thought it would actually happen - I didn't think my
stories are good enough. But, I checked my reviews and there it was, sitting
there. I read it during school and I became giddy; I then showed some of my
friends and they got giddy. I'm happily giddy now and to be able to
concentrate in class I had to read some thing about death for another
subject.
Either way, I would like to thank you, irishnlove2shop, for what you did. I
thought when you first said that you were doing something for me that you
meant a banner or something, and yet you surprise me with something of
this magnitude.
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I will if you guys want post some of what she said about me to me on here
when she told me that was watch she did... review if you want it, but also
review just for the sake of telling me what you think of the chapter.
Thanks!
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Chapter 119
"Hello?" I say into the house phone, somewhat breathless.
"Miss Swan," the sneering, slimy voice of Edward Masen chimes through my
phone and into my eardrum. Knowing what I know now, my fist clenches and I feel
like screaming at him.
But I keep myself calm… somehow. "Mr Masen, what a not-so-pleasant surprise.
May I ask what you need?"
He chuckles and the very sound of it makes my skin crawl. "I think you know what
I want… and it's obvious that you know more than you should about my…
relationship with my step-son."
I swallow back the bile, just as Edward comes in the door.
"Bella, baby I-" He pauses when he sees my face.
"Ah, Edward's here," Mr Masen says and I swallow, closing my eyes and blinking
away the tears. "Everyone's in attendance now… how fun."
Let me know what you think... :D
Thanks for the reviews! I love hearing them - keep it up.
Oh and also, may I ask how exactly you hear about whether or not your fic
is up for voting? I don't really know about all that... It'd be great if someone
could explain that... :D
bexie25
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Chapter 120
Edward's jaw locks as he hears the voice of his stepfather and he closes his eyes,
pinching the bridge of his nose with his thumb and forefinger.
His muscles contract and relax as he fights with his anger. I watch him, ignoring
the phone until finally, finally… Edward comes and takes the phone off me.
"Hello Edward Senior," he says and I can see his face twist with disgust and
anger.
I watch him worriedly, hoping he can calm himself down as I step away from him
and take out my mobile.
Carlisle had given us his number and said to call him if anything happened…
I send him a text.
Help… he's calling.
I put it away and hope that he gets it in time as I look back at Edward who's too
far gone to say anything.
Please, I think desperately. Please.
Sorry about not updating today. I was run off my feet. I had the doctors in
the morning, then something else on and then some lunch thing that went
on for hours. After that, my niece was sick and we had to take her to the
doctors.
ltleefan88 actually PMed me asked if I was being bullied; don't worry, I
wasn't I was just so very busy!
My next day that I can update is Monday. No updates tomorrow, I think.
My sister's wedding is tomorrow and I have to get ready etc. etc. etc.
*Huffs*
Sorry about that and thanks for all the reviews. Oh and I'm working on an
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outtake as I type this so that will be up by Tuesday AT THE LATEST - most
likely however, it will be up sometime on Monday. :D
Please review this one, measly chapter.
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Chapter 121
Edward is angry.
He is so very angry that I swear he looks red; his face changes colours, his anger
changing in degrees as he listens to whatever the fuckwit has to say.
This continues for god knows how long, and I frown, about to come forward and
snatch that fucking phone out of his hand and put Edward Masen in his place.
Finally… finally… his head snaps up and he looks at me. His eyes darken
somewhat with the anger that's flowing through him, racking his very frame.
I smile and he breathes in deeply, slowly becoming his natural colour again ever
so slowly. He ignores the comments Edward Masen is making.
And then, he does something that makes me swell with pride.
He stands up for himself.
GO EDWARD!
Anyways, um chapters are coming slowly to me. Bella doesn't seem to be
talking to me. She gave me a few chapters, but I don't want to give them all
to you... I need to update slower anyways.
My friends are hounding me for chapters... :P
Oh and also, I still don't understand the Lemonade Stand nomination. I
haven't received an email or anything... does that mean it isn't up for an
award?
So confused...
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Chapter 122
"Fuck you," he grounds out and I watch him, a smile forming on my lips. "You no
longer have a hold over me; I've had enough. You can go and rot in hell – you will be
soon enough."
And then he slams the phone down and braces himself on the counter, his hands
holding him up as he calms down.
I walk slowly over to him, my head cocking to the side as I bite my lip.
My hand comes to rest on his shoulder as I stand behind him and he shudders
under my touch before turning around.
I wrap my arms around his waist, as he does so with me.
"I called Carlisle," I say and he nods.
"Ok," he says and we wait for Carlisle's arrival.
I know, I know, I'm sorry it's been so slow... :D
I'll try to carefully tell Bella to move it along.
In the meantime, I'm working on my other projects. Some may be happy to
know that I am once again going for Nine Years. :D Yep, that'll be starting
up again soon.
Oh and I desperately need some suggestions for outtakes of A Choice.
What do you want to hear? I've got a few up my sleeve, but I'm thinking I'll
ask you guys - my readers - and see what you want to hear from Edward.
please review and tell me.
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Chapter 123
Carlisle arrives shortly after, Esme not with him.
He looks between us worriedly, anxious to know and understand just what
conspired and what was said to either of us.
I tell him first and he nods, trying to rein in his anger.
Edward is unable to do the same.
His arms tighten around me, his eyes close and his jaw locks and unlocks, his fists
doing the same as he wills himself to calm down and not say anything.
However worried I may be, secretly, I am pleased with his reaction.
It just shows how much he cares for me, how protective he is…
It just makes me fall more in love with him than I already am.
Yeah. I'm not too sure I'm happy with the contents of the last... two
chapters. They just... I don't know.
Anyways, I'll try to get more up but if not... until tomorrow, people.
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Chapter 124
"This has gone on long enough," Carlisle says carefully, eyeing Edward and I.
I'm sitting on Edward's lap, the only way to get him to see reason and calm down.
His anger management issues are rather hot, but I don't think it's a good idea for me
to get all hot and bothered over Edward when his father is right here, in the same
room.
Edward notices and sends me a look. You know… the kind of look that just makes
you wanna scream at clocks to get time to move along faster.
Carlisle interrupts my thinking then, "we need to finalize our plans."
Hello
Yep, another short one. Sorry about that.
Oh and I'd like to just tell you that I'm writing the first couple of chapters
for I'M A GIRL WITH POWER . It's the sequel to I'M A GIRL WITH PERKS. If
you haven't read the first of the series, please do. I admit, it's my first fanfic
so it's obviously not written as well as my other ones but please do check it
out. I hope, if you do read it, that you're up for the sequel - it's gonna be a
fun ride!
kitkat have you ever written a sequel to something? How soon is too soon
to start the sequel?
Apart from that... I don't think there is anything to say.
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Chapter 125
There's a certain silence in the room when Carlisle says that.
I'm looking at my hands, resting on my thighs. Edward's looking elsewhere too,
whilst out of the corner of my eye I can see Carlisle looking at us.
"I agree," I whisper, breaking the tension-filled silence.
Edward sighs out a breath and I look at him. I take his hand in mine and he smiles
down at me.
But it's his eyes that tell me what he's really feeling… what he's thinking…
He's troubled and I wanna know how the fuck I can help him.
Esme clears her throat and my head snaps up to look at her.
She smiles sweetly at us. "We need to know… everything. We need to know what
you want to do."
To our surprise, it's Edward who speaks first.
Yeah... I'm back! *waves* Remember me?
I hope so.
I'm so sorry that I haven't updating in... what is it, a week or something
terrible like that? Oh well, I'm back now. Schools nearly finishing up for the
term, so I'm all good. Gotten through some of my writers block - at least for
this story - but, another story has latched itself onto my mind. Not fair.
It's an all vampire one. Sexy/Fiercella and Troubledward. It's gonna be
called Femme Fatale - 'Deadly woman' in french. :D
More is coming, prepare your inboxes.
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Chapter 126
"We want to destroy the bastard," Edward says, a grimace – angry in its own right
– appearing on his face. "We want it to be known that he can't be trusted. We want
him in jail and we want him to know that when he comes out, his life will never be
the same. We want him stopped."
"Fair enough," Carlisle says, but his voice is gruff. He doesn't like the talk of
'destroying' someone. He's a compassionate man… a kind-hearted man…
"Can you do this, Carlisle?" I ask and he looks at me.
"What do you mean?" He's curious and worrisome.
"Can you knowingly put a man to business death?" Edward asks and his jaw is
locked, tense.
Carlisle sighs, leaning forward, his elbows on his thighs as he rubs his face with
his hands. "Yes. Yes, I can for my son."
I smile. "Good."
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Chapter 127
We plan. We think. We talk.
It takes over most of our night as we refine our plans to something easy, yet
something that'll pack one hell of a fucking punch.
There's just one problem…
"No, absolutely not!" Edward shouts and I cringe, biting my lip. "You want me to
take Bella over there for a dinner? I can't!"
"Well, I'm not letting you go alone," I say, trying to keep calm. But I can't; he
makes me worry so much when he gets like this. When he thinks of protecting me
without a thought of what may happen to him. "Edward, I'm not letting you go
alone! He'll kill you."
"So be it then," he whispers and it's then that Carlisle loses it.
"Enough!" He shouts, jumping up at the same time that Esme does. She's a mess;
blubbering and shaking, sobbing and crying.
By the way, forgot to mention.
I'm sure you all are, but are you reading kitkat's new drabble Good vs. Evil
? It's fan-fucking-tastic, isn't it?
bexie25
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Chapter 128
"Please," I whisper, begging Edward. He's eyeing his mother, the only true mother
he's ever had. "Baby, please. I can't-I won't let you do this on your own."
"I can't let anything happen to you," he whispers, wrenching his eyes away from
the sight of his parents. He looks at me and I nearly cry out at what I see; tears and
pain, he's broken. "I love you and I'm supposed to protect you from this kind of
thing. You're not supposed to be with someone like me…"
He falls back onto the couch, holding his head in his hands and I kneel down in
between his parted legs.
I pry his hands away from his head and angle his face so that he is looking at me.
"I love you and I belong with you… why can't you see that?"
Please review... are you surprised that I haven't said that for the other
chapters? Tehehe... I am.
Hope you like where this is going. I know I'm dragging this out, but...
Yeah. Can't stop that right now.
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Chapter 129
He looks at me in the eyes, his own shifting frantically. "Because I'm broken and I
can't ever be truly fixed."
"You're wrong," I say lovingly and he pulls me up off the ground and onto my lap,
hugging me to his shaking form. "I need you as much as you need me, baby… and
don't you forget it."
He looks at me and smiles, just a small little crooked smile. "You're extraordinary,
you know that."
I smile back, tracing his lips. "Well, I don't know about that-"
He shakes his head, "you are."
I lean up and whisper in his ear. "And you're gonna show me later, aren't you?"
When I pull back to look at him he's smirking and licking his lips. "You bet, baby."
We break away from each other, coming out of our bubble.
"We'll do it," I say and Carlisle releases a breath, relieved.
So... so, I'm thinking 5 more today or something and then tomorrow...
however many there is. Yes, I'll be prewriting them now... it's much easier
that way. ;D
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Chapter 130
"But," I say carefully, knowing I'm treading on water. "We wanna know why we
need to do this?"
Carlisle smiles. "We need to know their family life."
Edward snorts, "you're not gonna find it unless they don't know you're there. They
are perfect in front of people… it's when they are alone or they are with me that
they come out from their shells."
He wraps an arm around my waist and I look up to see his face. He's thinking hard
about something, but I know he won't tell me if I ask whilst his parents are here.
"Well then," Carlisle says, continuing on with our conversation as if Edward isn't
glaring in his direction right now. "We need to break through that facade."
"And how do you suggest we do that?" Edward scoffs; his hard tone sardonic and
mocking.
I don't like this side of him.
I'm not sure that I do, either. :S
Oh well... we're getting to the end of this discussion. I'm relieved, to be
honest... it's a bitch to write. I don't like it when my characters are angry.
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Chapter 131
Carlisle frowns. "Don't use that tone with me, please. And besides, you will
confront him on what you know. I know you are angry at him for what he did to both
you and Bella… well, talk to him about it."
I bite my lip. This doesn't sit well with me.
Apparently, it doesn't sit well with Edward either.
"It won't work," he says, edging towards a type of hysteria. "We do that, we bring
it all back on him and-God, Elizabeth doesn't even know what he did to Bella."
Carlisle's eyebrow rises. "And you know that how?"
"Because I know him," Edward says irately.
Doesn't he?
Three more to go for today... we're on a roll!
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Chapter 132
"Carlisle," I say, jumping in before the tension could escalate any higher.
The men look at me.
"Might I propose that we do this later?" I ask and Carlisle opens his mouth but I
shake my head, a hand up to stop him from speaking. "Please allow me to finish.
Edward and I have things to think about and honestly, well I think ultimately it
should be our decision if we go through with it or not."
"I agree," Esme says, having gotten a hold of herself. She walks up to Carlisle and
put a hand on his chest. He relaxes into her palm as she says "let's go and leave
them be, my darling. We can talk about this later."
He nods and we say our goodbyes.
And then Edward and I are the only ones awake in the house.
Lemons coming up... :D
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Chapter 133
Our bodies crash against each other as we both charge, needy and desperate.
Clinging onto him, he pulls me up in his arms and I wrap my arms and legs around
him as he carries us into our room.
Once in there, he closes the door with his foot and walks us over to the bed.
Clothes are stripped off, lips and fingers caressing.
He's everywhere. I'm everywhere.
He lies down on top of me and it's with a sigh that he enters me.
Our thrusts are loving, surging yet soft.
My hands cup his face, his own moving to my ass.
Our lips meet and we sigh and moan into the kiss, our passion building as the
feeling in our belly's does.
"I love you," I whisper, our pelvises crashing against each other.
"I love you," he whispers. His mouth moves to my breast, his finger to my clit.
I know, I know. But this was right on 150. I tried to keep it in a chapter,
but I couldn't. One more chapter.
At least your getting it now... :D
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Chapter 134
Our passion grows to new depths and we cry out, clinging to one another as we
climax.
Edward falls onto me and I wrap my legs around his waist. He doesn't pull out of
me, and I don't want him to. I need the closeness, I need to feel his love for me and
how much he wants and needs me. I need the security that having him in me brings.
"We'll get through this together," he whispers in my ear, his panting breath hot
against me.
"Yes, we will," I whisper back and we settle against each other.
We fall asleep in each other's arms.
Farewell till tomorrow, lovies.
I'm off to write more. :D
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Chapter 135
It's in the early hours – and I mean, the early hours – of the morning that we are
woken up.
"Bella!" Jasper bangs on the door. I sit up straight immediately, looking at the
door. More banging on the door ensues. "Edward! Wake the fuck up; Alice is in
labour."
"Shit," I whisper, throwing back the sheets. "We're coming, Jazz. You go – we'll
meet you at the hospital."
"Alright," he says, but his voice is tight; strangled.
I'm immediately worried.
"Jasper," I call and I hear his movements stop.
"Yeah?" He asks and I can hear him practically jumping with the need to get out of
here.
"Is Alice ok?" I ask and when he replies… his voice cracks.
"I don't know," he whispers brokenly and my breath hitches.
Yes. I know.
I had meant to leave it till tomorrow, but damn you Kitkat... you're reviews
have me posting more!
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Chapter 136
"Edward," I say, shaking his shoulder. He moans but otherwise doesn't respond. I
try harder, my voice louder, sharper. "Edward."
"What?" He groans, throwing an arm over his face.
"Get up," I say, running around the room now that he's awake. Clothes are thrown
around as I rip out my jeans and a random t-shirt, throwing them both on.
"Why?" He asks, sitting up and I just know that he's rubbing his eyes.
My own eyes fill with tears and when I sniffle, quite audibly, I hear the creak of
the bed as Edward gets out and comes up to me.
"Baby, what's wrong?" He asks.
"Alice," I say, looking up at him and wrapping my arms around him. "She's gone
into early labour. You should have heard Jazz, Edward… he was so scared. I don't
know everything but something tells me that there's something really wrong."
Oh dear. They can't even sleep through the night before something bad
happens... *sigh*
I feel like I could leave one of those ever phony "will the baby survive?"
things from T.V. adverts... :P
Oh and ma'am yes ma'am, Kitkat. Jeez.
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Chapter 137
He holds me as I cry but a few minutes later, I gather myself.
"Get dressed," I say and I leave the room before he can say anything else.
I get three coffees ready and put them in those plastic cup things. Edward comes
out, fully dressed in a pair of tracksuit pants and a jumper. I hand him his coffee and
he takes the other as we walk out quickly to his car.
We don't speak as he drives us to the hospital and when we get out of the car, we
run into the emergency, looking around for Jasper.
We spot him and run forward.
*smiles innocently* Oh kitkat... would I ever leave you hanging? *cracks
up*
Yeah, I must say that I would... :D
I shall wait for my chapter and then perhaps give you another before going
off to bed... :D
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Chapter 138
"What's going on?" I ask, demanding really. "Is she ok? And what about the baby?"
"They don't know," he says but he's expressionless.
"Jazz, talk to me," I say and he sighs as he sits down. I sit down next to him and
take the coffee that I made for him from Edward. I shove it in his hand and he sighs,
murmuring a thanks.
He takes a gulp, swallows it and then finally, he speak. "She was so scared… she
was in so much pain. She was crying; I hate seeing her like that. In so much pain…"
He is distraught, repeating himself as he tries to get us to understand.
"She told me that she was having contractions, but…" he pauses, his face
crumbling as he squeezes his eyes closed.
"But what, Jazz?" I whisper.
He shakes his head.
"Mr Whitlock?" A voice says and we look up.
I know, I know. It was harsh of me. I'm sorry.
More tomorrow however... or rather... in around 7 hours. Good enough?
Thanks for the chapter Kitkat, but of course with your stories, I want
more.
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Chapter 139
At the sight of the friendly doctor, Jasper jumps up and launches off with
questions.
"Is she ok? What's happening? Can I see her?" He asks but the doctor hushes him.
"Calm down, everything's fine," she says and she smiles at each of us. "You'd be
Bella and Edward, I presume?" We look at her, confused and she laughs. "Miss
Brandon has quite the mouth; she doesn't seem to be able to stop talking."
We laugh but it's awkward.
"Doctor, please," Edward says seriously, coming in closer. "Is she ok?"
The doctor smiles warmly, but it doesn't really affect us as much as her words do.
"It was a false alarm. What Alice was experiencing was Braxton Hicks contractions;
she can go home tomorrow morning at noon. We want to keep her overnight for now
and you can see her now if you would like."
"Thank god," Jasper sighs, relieved.
Yes. Thank God. Now, I apologize for what I did... leaving you for seven
hours when I stayed up for two hours I think after I gave you the last
chapter was just cruel.
There's only one more pre-written, meaning I'll give you that in... maybe
15 minutes, I dunno and then there will be a gap. :D
More to come, though.
Promise
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Chapter 140
Alice is smiling at us when we come in, her hands resting on the baby bump. At
seven months, she's gotten quite big.
"I'm sorry," she whines, a grimace crossing her face. "You'd think I'd be able to
tell the difference between Braxton Hicks and real contractions."
We smile at her, but it's Jasper that reassures her. He grips her hand and kisses
her temple. "It's ok, darlin'. But you gave us quite the scare."
He swallows and she sniffles, tears falling as he rests his head on her bump. His
hand caresses it and Edward and I look at each other before slowly leaving the
room.
Well you see, Kitkat, that's where bargaining for chapters comes in...
*smirks evilly*
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Chapter 141
The next morning, Edward and I got up and went to the hospital to drop the car
off. Unfortunately, we didn't have time to go in because Edward was already going
to work.
"Baby, are you sure you don't want me to drive you?" I ask, prolonging our
moment together. I wrap an arm around his waist and he chuckles, burying his face
in my hair.
He places a kiss there and I sigh, wrapping my other arm around his waist and
linking my arms.
That way, he can't escape.
Though he assures me that he would never even try…
And I believe him… somehow.
Sweetness.
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Chapter 142
I do nothing but sleep after Edward goes to work. I miss him, of course, but he's
all protective and wants to provide for me.
He doesn't want me to work… and with everything that's going on… I must say
that I don't want me to work either.
But surely I have to, right?
It's with a resigned sigh that I open my emails, wondering if I had perhaps gotten
an email about my book or something.
I gasp and quickly scramble to open the first email I see…
… And then I smile.
I've now found myself a prospective publisher.
I grab my phone.
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Chapter 143
"God Bella, I'm so proud of you," Edward says, appraisal clear as day in his voice. I
smile giddily, unable to stop the giggle that slips through my lips. "Congratulations
baby."
"Thanks," I say, swallowing.
Yes, I am emotional… my dream of being a writer… a praised writer… it's gonna
happen for me.
For me.
"Ah, this is so exciting. Edward, I'm excited." I say and he chuckles over the
phone.
"Well, I wish I could congratulate you properly…" he says, his voice now husky.
Ugh.
"Well then, come home," I pant into the phone.
"Don't; don't do that, don't tease me, baby. You know how much I wanna be
there… god, just the possibilities of what you could be wearing…"
"Edward," I moan into the phone, "I'm wearing your shirt and a pair of boxers…
I'm naked underneath."
"Damn it," he groans and I hear his head hit the desk.
No, I would not, but hey, you were the one who killed off Edward and Bella
in the Key Party drabble!
Oh and last chapter's protective Edward reminded me of your Edward from
From my Window
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Chapter 144
We hung up shortly after that, with Edward in a state of need.
I have to admit that I gave myself just a little self-love as well.
Edward always has that effect on me, though.
He has more of an effect that night though.
It's a fucking frenzy as we remove clothes from each other's body, caressing and
worshipping.
Edward pushes me down on the bed and when I raise an eyebrow, he smiles and
shrugs.
"This is about you, baby," he whispers and his lips trail down the skin of my
stomach… then down to my abdomen; he licks and nips, kisses wetly. It's heaven. "I
told you I wanted to congratulate you properly… the time is now, baby."
I smile.
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Chapter 145
"Holy shit," I gasp as he hits that sweet spot deep within me.
I moan and grip at his flesh, wrapping my legs around him.
He's relentless as he fucks me… thoroughly.
With each thrust he hits my g-spot; his finger is on my clit rubbing away at it…
furiously.
"Edward, please," I keen, clawing at his way.
He moans at the sensation and dips down for a kiss.
Soon, we're coming and it's ethereal; powerful… a wholly other thing.
I sigh as he collapses next to me, immediately pulling me to him.
"I love you," he murmurs and I sigh, closing my eyes with a smile on my face.
I hope it'll always be like this…
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Thanks to everyone... I'm sorry if I get all sappy when we do eventually hit
that mark. It was a dream of mine... and I must say that whichever chapter
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made that possible.
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Chapter 146
Tension soon takes its high and mighty place before happiness by the time we
reach the following Sunday.
Because tonight is the night; Edward and I will be going over to the Masen house
for dinner.
To say that I'm nervous would awfully understate my feelings. I am, in fact,
hysterical… scared… worried, pretty much all that I have been since the issue
originally came up. Since that day that Edward didn't come on the bus… didn't reply
to my texts… only to return the next day, with a busted up face.
"Baby," Edward calls softly through the door outside the bathroom.
I can't open my mouth; I'm afraid of what will come out if I do.
"Mm-hm?" I hum, unable to do anything else. Even that sounds shaky and
uncertain to my ears.
"It's nearly time." He says and I listen to his footsteps as he walks away.
Panic.
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Chapter 147
"You gonna be ok?" Alice asks, waddling up to me. She's been ordered to bed rest,
strictly, but she seems to be making an exception.
Good thing Jasper is working late or she'd be in a world of fucking trouble from
that one. Madly in love, he is.
I quirk an eyebrow as she wraps her arms around me, "I think I'll be ok. You, on
the other hand…"
"I know, I know," she says petulantly. "I'm going."
I smile. "You better… don't make me call Jasper."
"And if Bella doesn't call him, then I will," Edward says from behind us, slowly and
caringly and Alice smiles.
"He's a keeper," she says, and I'm thinking…
Yeah… I know.
I'm seriously tossing up in regards to giving you the next chapter... it's
gonna be pretty angsty for a while if I do and I'm gonna need to stop sooner
rather than later. :D
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Chapter 148
Before we know it, we're standing outside their door.
Shallow breaths, panicky and hitching… Soothing hands, rough against skin yet so
smooth.
"I love you," Edward says and the emotion in his voice astounds me.
"I love you more," I say back, my heart hammering and my skin paling as I hear
the sharp snap of heels against tiles.
"Impossible," he whispers so quickly I nearly don't hear it.
I glance at him, swallowing just as the doors open.
And I'm face to face with Elizabeth Masen.
Huh… funny… and I thought she'd be beautiful or something.
She smiles, but it's bitter. "Please… come in."
SPOILER ALERT: kitkat is leaving a mean, mean cliffy... meaning, I shall
do the same in retaliation.
I think I may just stop here... *cackles*
Yes, yes I do cackle. :D :D
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Chapter 149
I smile, it's awfully hard to do, but I do it.
Her eyes flash with anger as we walk passed, probably because I'm looking at her.
Now that we're here, in front of each other, I am unafraid.
No, right now the only few things that I am feeling is anger, a need for revenge
and… pity; harsh, harsh pity.
Oh and also disgust, but that is not new to me. Not when it concerns these two…
so called parents.
"Miss Swan," Edward Masen says, cracking an ill-fated smile when he sees me.
Ill-fated because it is easy to see that he thinks he'll get to us, break us down
tonight.
But no… tonight, the roles of aggressor and aggressed will be reversed.
Wow. 1, 014 reviews for this story.
I'm... well, I think we can settle for speechless.
So, that means that this chapter was/is dedicated to kitkat, for
convincing... most... of you to come along for the crazy ride. Ever since I
started reading kitkat's stuff - not to mention CaraNo - I kinda had a dream
of getting noticed as they do... and now, 1, 014 reviews... Jesus. I can't even
fathom multiplying that by 3 or whatever. :D Sometimes, I would wake up
during this crazy journey and there would be three pages of emails... mostly
of reviews.
Jeez.
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Chapter 150
Dinner is… interesting.
Silent glances, questioning and heated, are passed around the table.
Mostly, they're between The Masen's and Edward… only some include me.
Edward, oh my Edward, his hand grips my thigh as he tries to calm himself to the
point where he can eat.
The poor man hasn't eaten a think today… he's been fucking beside himself.
It's when dinner finishes that things really heat up.
"Edward son," Edward Masen says and I gape at him.
Son…? Did he just call my Edward son?
My inner mummy-bear is coming out, and that's a bad thing. I'm ugly when
mummy-bear comes out to play.
Edward swallows and looks up at his stepfather, dead in the eyes. "Yes?"
His voice is hoarse, and I want to cry at what I know that means.
He's scared.
"A word," the rising eyebrow inclines that he can't get out of it.
"No."
Who said it? It may or may not surprise you.
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P.S. Kitkat, I still haven't forgiven you for that dreadful cliff hanger.
*glares pouting*
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Chapter 151
"What?"
It's Edward's mother, this time.
I level a glare at her and she bristles. "You heard me. I said no; I'm not letting him
anywhere near you."
"Nor will I leave her anywhere near either of you," Edward says and I smile to
myself, just a small smile of satisfaction… of pride.
I squeeze his thigh, and he retaliates, squeezing my hand.
God, I love you…
Edward Masen smiles at the both of us and sits down. He takes a swig of the red
wine that's in his glass, eyeing us.
Eyes shift back and forth, glares shared… leveled.
"What do you want?" He finally asks.
Edward and I smile, or hands linking.
Unfortunately, you won't be getting one for at least two hours. I have an
assessment/exam (WORD - irishnlove2shop).
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Chapter 152
I take a sip of my white wine; I'm gonna need it.
"What do we want?" I ask and I look at Edward, just a quick glance. He's watching
me; awe plastered on his face… an indulgent smile there too.
He loves it when I get protective and all angry.
I turn back to the Masens. "We want revenge. We want to put you away – both of
you, far, far away; so far that you'll never come back… I personally want you out of
Edward's life and out of mine as does Edward."
I glare at them; Edward Masen is amused, his wife petrified.
"We want you gone and we want you to pay."
*business face on* I did well in my French assessment (word) ugh.
I'm glad that everyone is liking what's going on... and I shall talk to kitkat,
yvonne72. Promise.
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Chapter 153
We watch Edward Masen for his reaction; fuck his wife – Edward's mother – she is
not important.
He's overconfident; his right eyebrow quirks, his lips twitch into a twisted smile.
There's a gleam in his eye that shows his true character…
… He's sadistic and he's so very… not impressing in his anger.
Alas, I can see how Edward may be frightened. Hell, I've grown up with this, with
much worse.
But then Mr Masen speaks… "And how are you going to achieve that?"
Edward trembles at the menacing undertone and I flush… angrily.
I lean up and drop a kiss on Edward's cheek and he swallows, looking down at me.
Breathe, I mentally chant at him. Please, baby… breathe.
He does… and I'm so proud of him.
*Smiles*
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Chapter 154
This time, I direct my smile at Edward's mother. Elizabeth.
"I believe you know Mr Carlisle Cullen quite well?" I ask sweetly and she
blanches.
Colour leaves her face and if this were anyone else, I'd be laughing.
As it is, I'm disgusted.
"Y-yes," she says, her voice quivering, shaking in her uncertainty. When she
speaks again, it's stronger… full of malice. Her eyes glinting, "yes, I do. What about
him?"
"He's got quite the reputation," I say, my voice just as malicious. "In fact…"
I trail off, teasing the both of them.
Even Mr Masen is losing confidence.
And that's when I get it.
Mr Carlisle Cullen is the key to breaking them down.
What shall happen now?
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Chapter 155
My lips curve upwards, a smile branding itself onto my face at the realization.
Edward looks at me strangely, and I look back, my eyes glancing towards his
biological mother.
He blinks, dazed, trying to figure it out. My smile fades slowly and I communicate
that I will tell him later.
He nods, swallows and looks down.
I don't like that, so I bringing my finger under his chin and bring his face up till its
level with mine.
I swallow and smile, the finger under his chin caressing its way to his cheek.
"Well?" Mr Masen snaps and my Hoody flinches in my arms.
God, Hoody… I miss calling him that.
"It's ok, Hoody," I whisper and his head snaps up… he looks at me and… oh, fuck.
He needs me to call him that more too. He needs it.
It's a safety mechanism…
Did you hear, kitkat? You're making my fans suffer... and I don't like
making my fans suffer... unless I'm doing it because I just want to.
Here's another chapter, lovelies.
More soon.
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Chapter 156
"Hoody?" Masen guffaws and I glare at him. It's a cold, dead hard stare.
Because I know what he's doing… my own fucking father did it to me.
He's mentally and emotionally breaking him down, ridiculing him…
My Hoody… he's hurting him.
"Stop," I say and if Hoody wasn't gripping my hand so hard, I'd have the fucker
against a wall.
Mr Masen looks at me, curious and imploring. Imploring for what, I can only
fucking guess.
Fucker… shithead… measly, deprived man.
Then I look at his wife who is semi-cowering in the corner.
Coward… damned ugly-faced cow.
A lazy smile crosses Edward Senior's face, his eyes on me and… and he licks his
goddamn, fucked up lips…
Hoody loses it.
Ooh! I'm excited... are you excited? I'm excited.
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Chapter 157
He rushes to him, pins him against the wall.
Consumed by fury, he's someone entirely else.
Someone that… for some reason… I'm not scared of.
"Don't look at her," he says, breathing harshly. "Don't you fucking dare look at
her. She's not gonna be one of your victims. Only over my dead body will that ever
happen…"
His stepfather stares at him, for a moment bewildered.
I, on the other hand, am fucking well turned on.
Possessive, protective Edward is fucking sexy.
Yep, he's getting some tonight… I think, smiling as I lick my lips.
Edward Senior turns his head to look at me again, angering Edward even more…
… Edward punches him.
Oh dear. Oh, deary dear.
*bites lip*
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Chapter 158
Not five minutes later, there's an interesting sight.
Edward is flexing his fingers, smirking while Elizabeth tends to her husband's
broken jaw.
When Edward's eyes connect with mine, his smirk grows and I bit my lip.
He mouths a quick "I love you" to which I blush. But I can't resist making my way
to him.
He pulls me to him and looks down.
"We should go," I whisper, leaning in to him, our lips touching. Hot breaths are
shared and I just… God, I want him so badly!
I'm quite sure I groan at that thought.
Edward got back off from leaning against the dining table and turns around,
keeping me safely in his arms.
"We're leaving."
Um, yeah... so, I think it's well established that if kitkat leaves cliff
hangers, then so do I... so please... go bug her for another chapter! FOR ALL
OUR SAKES!
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Chapter 159
"The hell you are," Mr Masen says, nearly throwing his wife into a wall as he
pushes her off him and strides quickly to face us.
He's inches away, towering over me, yet just taller than Edward.
"You're not leaving," he says menacingly. My jaw locks and Edward's hand
tightens around mine. "You are going to stay here and we will… talk."
"No," I say; walking just a single step closer. Edward's hand tries to pull me back,
but I stand tall and proud against the son of a bitch. "We won't, so stop telling us
what to do."
"And if I refuse?" He says, his head cocked to the side.
I smile. "Well, then… I suppose you should be expecting an express seat in jail."
His eyes narrow.
So… reserved seats in hell and panties that are soaked… glad to know that
my cliff hangers do that to people. :D
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Oh and this may, or may not, be my last update for tonight... I got a little
function tomorrow... all day... meaning most likely no updates. :( Sorry.
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Chapter 160
We don't waste any time in getting the fuck out of there.
We exude confidence as we straighten up, nod at the both of them then turn on
our heels and walk calmly out of the house.
We slam the door on the way, smirking.
Edward's hand slithers down to the small of my back and I smile, nestling into his
side as we walk slowly to our car.
Ever the gentleman, he opens the door for me and I kiss his cheek as I slide
against him to get it.
"Minx," he mumbles and I giggle as he closes the door.
And that's when I think of a little something that I wanna do to him when we get
home.
I lick my lips… it's been a while since I've tasted my Hoody.
I was at a rehearsal for a school function that's happening tonight. I'm at
school now, in the bus that will take me to the bus station. I catch the bus,
then meet my dad and go for quick dinner then it's the school function. :D
Annoying, I know. Sorry
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Chapter 161
"Dammit Bella," Edward says, bracing himself back against the bathroom tiles as I
take him in my mouth.
I hum at the taste of the pre-cum on my tongue, taking him further. My hand grips
and squeezes the base of him… he's so long that I can't fit all of him in.
I breathe in through my nose, scraping my teeth as I pull back. I release him and
then run my tongue against his slit. He groans and I see his hands clench as he
fights the need to guide me.
I lean back and grasp his hands. I put them on my head and he watches me
carefully as I take him in my mouth once again.
Once he's comfortable in guiding me gently, I lose myself in his taste and the
feeling on him in my mouth.
And when he comes… he's very nearly shouting.
Yeah... sexy times.
So, um... sorry for the lack of updating today. But the school function was
awesome. It went really well. It was a Music Festival and we have eight
colour houses at our school and the house I am in - Ward, a dark blue colour
- is the most musical. So yeah, we won 2 out of the 4 awards.
Good times.
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Chapter 162
"My turn," Edward says as he pulls me up so I'm standing in front of him.
He turns us around and I lean against the cool tiles, moaning as his hands run
down my body to cup my core.
I bite my lip and breathe in sharply as he drops to his knees, carefully hitching one
of my legs over his shoulder.
I grab his hair, gasping at the feeling of his tongue… there… just right fucking
there. "Uh… fuck it, Edward."
He moans against me and when his tongue flicks my clit before entering me
sharply…
… I am overcome by sensation.
More sexy times...
So I have an important question about the next chapter and I want more
than one review to tell me what to do, so I'll post the next chapter tomorrow.
That'll give you around... hmmm... 8-10 hours depending on when I wake
up?
Um, so here's the question: Do you want a full lemon chapter (s.e.x.) or do
you want to get straight down to business?
*smiles* Let me know, guys...
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Chapter 163
"Fuck Edward," I gasp as he enters me roughly.
We're still in the shower, having not even gotten to the washing part before we
got lost in our need for one another.
He smiles against my lips and I lick them, needing his tongue.
He complies and I grip his face in my hands, loving the feel of his five o'clock
shadow. I could just remember how it felt as it brushed against my thigh and nether
regions.
I moan as his pace fastens, his thrusts taking on a bigger, better, harder meaning
as he forcefully fucks me.
His hands leave my ass, one sliding upward to my chest as the other slid between
my legs, to my clit.
I nearly bang my head against the tiles at the feeling of his finger flicking it and
my hand reaches down to cup his balls.
He groans.
Seconds later, we're coming.
Right on 150! Whataya know!
So, Kitkat was nice tonight (for a change) and didn't leave any kind of
cliffy. So I thought I'd be nice and leave it there...
Yeah, the next chapter has a cliffy... so I'll leave it for tomorrow.
Shock horror, I know... only three chapters today.
Oh well!
Till tomorrow,
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Chapter 164
"Excuse me?" Carlisle splutters, staring back and forth between Edward and me.
Edward is shocked too, because I kinda… forgot… to tell him last night.
We're sitting in the Cullen's living room with both Esme and Carlisle.
They had wanted to know what happened during dinner, so here we are, the day
after the incident.
I smile. "You are the key. They were absolutely terrified; they were losing
confidence in their façade as soon as I mentioned your name."
Carlisle frowns and his wife - the beautiful caramel-haired Esme - smiles… just
slightly. "But why?"
I take another sip of the water that they gave Edward. Edward chuckles to
himself, so softly that his parents probably couldn't hear it.
"You're reputation…" I say and he blinks, confused. I chuckle, "oh god, Carlisle;
you have to know that just the mention of what they did by you could bring them
down."
Hello
So, I woke up at a reasonable time (for me, at least).
I am so glad that people are so glad that I am back.
Does that make sense? *scratches chin*
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Chapter 165
"Which means… what?" Carlisle asks, settling back into the couch.
"Which means," I say, taking yet another swig of Edward's water. What? I mean…
seriously, he isn't drinking it! "That we need to change our game," I see Edward
smiling in my peripheral vision.
"How so?" Esme asks, and there's fire in her eyes. I smile at that fire, knowing
that it's in my eyes every single time I talk about this shit.
"I personally think that you should confront them… publically," I say and there's a
beat of silence before I continue. "I mean, you don't have to shout at him or
anything… just walk up to him, glare at him a bit in simple conversation and then
say something like 'I need to talk to both of you'"
Everyone looks at me for a moment…
"That should work," Carlisle says and he gulps down his water.
Yeah... :D
So, I'm not sure how I am feeling about these chapters. Is this frustrating
you? Is it going to slow or is it alright?
I dunno... I just wanna make sure. :D
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Chapter 166
"Where would it go from there?" Edward asks me as we walk into the dining room
for lunch. "I mean, it would have to be at a charity event, right?"
I nod and look at Carlisle. "Carlisle, when's your next benefit at the hospital?"
He frowns for a minute before answering. "Next Sunday, I believe."
I smile. "Good… would Mr and Mrs Masen be going to that?"
He shook his head, "Elizabeth never goes to functions that I will be attending."
I bite my lip and smile through it when I hear Edward's faint groan. "Well then,
you're gonna need to give them a reason to come."
Yeah. :D
Oh and how do I fit a lemon into one chapter? Freaking out that it won't fit
and knowing that I have the chapter after that already written helps... then
there's writing it until it's around five-ten words over and cutting down and
making all the 'it is' 'it's' instead. :D
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Chapter 167
"How are you feeling about this, baby?" I ask, sighing and smiling as Edward
massages my scalp. We're sitting on our bed, supposedly watching some movie… I
don't even know what it's called.
"About this whole thing with the Masen's?" He asks and I nod, angling my head to
the side. He kneads my scalp and hair there and I moan at the feeling. "I feel good
about it," he says and he kisses my ear. "I feel like… like there's this saving grace in
all this. I feel happy because finally, I don't have to worry about the things that I
have had to worry about since meeting Edward Senior for the first time."
I smile, "that's good… I remember feeling like that when I moved away from home
and down here. Because I knew I wouldn't be seeing Dad again… not if I could help
it."
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Chapter 168
That night, when Edward's asleep, I get out of bed.
It's a hot night; the fan is on over us and Edward's tangled in just the sheets. He's
sweating too and though he's good with it, I can't fucking handle the heat.
Deep inside me, I know that that's not the only reason. But… it's easy enough to
just pretend that the problem is not there at night. It's easy enough when I have
Edward sleeping peacefully and soundly next to me.
But right now, I'm high strung and I can't seem to settle the fuck down.
When I grab my phone, which I left in the lounge room, I check for emails and
texts and shit.
And there it is.
No, I will not stop for a while there... but you may have to wait like, 10
minutes. :D
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Chapter 169
The answer, the solution to the ongoing problem with the Masen's is in my hand.
It's… a relief. The emotions that tell me that this is all real, that I'm not
dreaming… they mean everything.
For a second, I actually consider waking Edward but I decide against it. My Hoody
needs his sleep and if I told him this extraordinary news, he would never get back to
sleep.
In fact, he'd wanna celebrate.
I groan at the thought, hanging my head and rubbing the back of my neck.
Just the thought of him… and me… doing that gets me all fucking hot and
bothered.
I read the text from Carlisle over once more, before sighing and turning off the
light.
Sleep comes easy then, and I smile as I settle into Edward's arms.
No, I will not telling you what the text said. Yes, you will find out soon
enough.
Kitkat, I know you probably don't like me at the moment. But, if you're
going to sleep... I can't stop you. *Smiles innocently*
You love me.
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Chapter 170
The next week flies by, and Edward and I are inundated with work and books to
be published.
It's crazy yet there's something about it that's just… awesome. This week is one of
the best, because we are so fucking busy that we have no time to reflect on what's to
come. On what has happened…
Edward reacted very well to the text, and just as predicted… he'd reacted in
wanting to celebrate… fully.
I sigh at just the thought of that day. Let's just say that we could really let go
because Jasper had been at work and Alice, well Alice was as usual asleep.
Before we know it, it's the night of the benefit and Edward and I are getting
ready.
Hiya
So yeah. Um, here's the links to the outfits for Esme, Bella and Elizabeth. I
thought I'd put them in here... it's on my photobucket. :D
s1108 . photobucket . com / albums / h411 / bexie25 /
How%20to%20Save%20a%20Life /
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Chapter 171
Yeah, Edward had told me that we were going too.
At first I was… well, really fucking nervous. Public eye and shit like that. It would
surely be in the papers… who knows, my mother could see it.
But then… well, Edward had never seen me dressed up besides that date and
certainly not to the level of… formalness that this benefit would need.
That made me excited.
"Baby, we're here," he says and he parks the car, quickly getting out of it and
closing the door. He walks around to my side and grabs the door to pull it open just
as I open it. I smile as he takes my hand and helps me out. "You're beautiful, baby."
I smile, "thanks. You're not too bad yourself… very handsome." He's wearing a
black, thin tie suit with a white shirt. The tie is the colour of my dress; eye-catching.
Sorry for the delay. I had Microsoft Word problems. First, I wrote the
chapter and I was going to save it when it closed itself... so then, I tried
opening it again and I did but Microsoft Word froze and I had to close the
program. (It was a restart). It opened with no recoveries... so I looked
everywhere in my files. Not there. I was on the verge of tears...
When around an hour later, it froze again so I repeated the process and it
opened with all the documents I'd been working on. And we're talking
Femme Fatale, A Choice, I'm a Girl with Power,How to Save a Life... and
more. :D :D
And then, it froze up again so I opened a new document and copied this
chapter word for word. It nearly froze when I changed the language from
English American to English Australian and then again when I saved it...
Now, I have to wait before I can work on any chapters for other stories...
that includes this one.
Sorry for the lengthy explanation. :D
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Chapter 172
"Bella, Edward," Esme calls and she quickly walks toward us, smiling. Carlisle is
behind her, walking at a more acceptable pace.
"Hey Esme," I say and we kiss each other's cheeks as is the French greeting. She
moves on to hug Edward as Carlisle comes up and kisses just my left cheek.
"Carlisle," I nod.
He nods back at me then greets Edward.
"Well don't you look lovely," Esme gushes at the both of us. She's wearing a
lavender dress with a cute little jacket the same colour. Carlisle's tie was the same
colour too.
"So, how is it going?" I ask quickly and Carlisle nods.
"As you know, they could never refuse the possibility of promoting their fund." He
says and Esme raises an eyebrow.
"Not that they need it," she murmurs and she scowls as she spots something over
my shoulder. "Ah well… speak of the devils."
Um, I won't pretend to know how a benefit works. I haven't a clue.
I imagine that they go inside the hall/hospital function place and there's
dinners and speeches, so that's what's gonna happen. The dresses aren't
explained and described a whole lot because you got the links. :D
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Chapter 173
Edward grips my hand as we turn around to face the oncoming menaces.
They are, as expected, cordial enough in the public eye.
Elizabeth is wearing a dark red dress, the colour of blood and with the way she
has her hair and make-up… there's something just generally evil yet elegant about
the whole ensemble. Edward Masen's wearing what Edward and Carlisle are
wearing and once again, the tie is the colour of Elizabeth's dress.
Something about the image is just so incredibly fake and I don't fail to notice that
Elizabeth's make-up looks utterly caked on.
But that's always the way with her.
Well, I'm betaing karencullen2007's Edward and Me and Edward's
Perspective right now... go take a look! New chapters posted tomorrow!
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Chapter 174
They greet us, walking right past us and I – and I'm sure Edward, Carlisle and
Esme too – breathe a great sigh of relief. I really don't need the fake shit.
"Well, that wasn't so bad," I say as the four of us make our way inside the hall.
It's as was expected; tables of around eight, fancy if not overly fancy with dinner
set tables. Looking to the head of the room – the far side – there's a stage and a
dance floor, so it's only fair to say that dancing, dinner and speeches are expected.
"No, it's not," Carlisle says whilst looking at the room's seating plan at the door.
"Ah, we're on the same table as the Masen's."
His tone implies that he's not happy and I must say that none of us look that
excited about it.
"Oh joy," I say sardonically.
"Hm," Edward replies curtly.
Great.
Yeah. Ok. So, it's past 11 pm over here and I have to go to bed. (Good
thing it's school holidays)
That means, this chapter and one more. ;D
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Chapter 175
Around half an hour later everyone's seated and Carlisle's onstage about to begin
the speech of the century… or something.
Edward and I are all smiles, leaning in to each other's touch as we have fun
ignoring the fucker's adjacent to us. Esme's sitting there beside us, an empty seat
for Carlisle there, but she's all smiles too.
Apparently, she loves watching Edward and me.
I don't mind… I guess.
I'm just glad that all will be… well, I suppose revealed soon.
Because you see, we decided that not only would the whole 'we need to talk to you
work' but this may just be the best place to end the Masen's.
Of course, it won't be about what they've done to Edward or me yet.
Now, this is business tonight. Business homicide.
I can't fucking wait.
Yeah. Um. Ok, that's the last one for tonight. Sorry. :D
See you in like... maximum 8 hours! The only reason you got two more was
because of kitkat's cute little "More?"
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Chapter 176
"Good evening ladies and gentlemen," Carlisle says, smiling pleasantly and you
can just see his confidence. He loves his job and fucking hell is he good at it.
Carlisle's speech is interesting, to say the least. There's not a mention of anything
strange yet, just talk of how great it is to save people's lives for a living and how he
was proud to be a Doctor at this hospital.
I smile as I realize what his game plan is.
He's gonna make the Masen's comfortable… make them content and even
humbled by the sweet things he says…
And then, he's gonna crush 'em.
Yay for crushing the Masens!
Anyways, so there was quite a storm left in my inbox this morning. Don't
worry, I got most of it under control in 15 mins.
But, I still have to read and review kitkat's Fatty chapter. So the next
chapter of this is after I read the next chapter of that. :D
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Chapter 177
Carlisle ends his first speech with a joke and soon, dinner is served.
It's a lovely, sophisticated dinner, topped by the music and light banter that's
passed around the table. The tension between the Masen's the Cullen's and Edward
and me is practically invisible to the others on the table.
Everyone's relaxed to the point that they don't care what they say.
I look to Carlisle as dessert comes out. He smiles and shakes his head, nodding
inconspicuously to the Masen's.
I glance over and am only semi-shocked to see that Edward Senior is getting
fucking plastered.
But that's where I understand.
There's a reason why they call alcohol 'truth syrup'.
Ooh. I'm liking this plan. :D
Kitkat, you are the only one that can make chapters: funny, sexy, weird,
happy and sad. :D All in fucking one!
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Chapter 178
A wicked smile graces my features and I look up at Edward, grabbing his hand
and squeezing it.
He looks at me questioningly and I repeat Carlisle's earlier actions.
Edward understands and a smile just as wicked forms.
But that's when Mr Masen's… rather drunk voice chimes in.
"Cause you see," he says, playing with the words in his drunken stupor.
"Eddie-boy doesn't give a ssshiit about how haaardd it is… no-no… no. It'ss the
posssibity of being embarrass-zed."
There's a type of silence on the table that can only be catagorized as
uncomfortable.
Elizabeth, Carlisle, Esme and Edward and I are frozen as we watch the idiot get
up from the table and come around to our side.
But his eyes are only on Edward…
Precisely kitkat. And seriously, if anyone doesn't understand what the fuck
he's talking about... Eddie Senior can give them a little preview or
somethin'.
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Chapter 179
Of course, he can't really find his footing and he stumbles along the way.
But his eyes… fuck; they are dead-set on my Hoody.
So I stand up and walk in front of Hoody; I stand there, waiting to see what
exactly Mr Edward Masen is going to do.
Because if he is gonna try and hit my Hoody, he's gonna have to talk to me. He's
gonna have to get through me.
I glare at him as he comes closer. Hoody takes my hand, and I can feel his fingers
shaking in my steady grip.
I have to be strong. For him.
"Get out-the fuckinggg wayy," Edward Masen says in a low, low voice. It's
supposed to be hard and firm and dangerous.
But it just makes him look ridiculous.
I stand firm and wait for what he's gonna do.
His hand comes back, fisting…
… Then flies forward…
I know, I know, I'm sorry!
But I had to do it...
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Chapter 180
I feel more than hear the force of his fist as it hits my cheek.
I'm kinda thrown backwards and into Edward's arms.
I look at him – at my Hoody – and he's angry. I swear he would be seeing red if it
weren't for the fact that I was in his arms.
He's frowning as his left hand comes up and touches the cheek that his step-father
hit.
I wince at the light pressure and his eyes… flash with anger.
Suddenly, I'm sitting up against his chair and he's standing in front of his
step-father.
It's chaos as he punches him for the second time in a week.
Good on ya, Hoody!
Anyways, um just because this part of the story is wrapping up doesn't
mean that the story as a whole is. I have a lot of other shit planned!
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Chapter 181
There's shouting… it's giving me one fucking bitch of a headache.
I groan as I look up and around.
Edward's standing there, heaving in his anger, watching the bastard that is his
step-father as he cowers into the ground.
But he's not like you, asshole. He's a decent man and he loves me. He was
protecting me and now, he has done that.
I get up from my seat, not enjoying the feeling of my head pounding.
"Hoody," I groan in a whisper.
He turns around immediately. Then I'm in his arms and he's looking at me,
examining me. "Are you alright?"
I shake my head, groaning as it makes the spinning worse.
"Head hurts and… dizzy," I say and his eyes flash with anger, so I grip and caress
the sides of his face. "No, don't. Just… take me home."
"Carlisle needs examine you… your face."
"Tomorrow," I say.
So, I have to watch this movie and I keep pausing every couple of minutes
to write another chapter, but I forget to post it. :D
So here.
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Chapter 182
When we get home, somehow, Jasper and Alice know.
"Jesus, the bastard hit you?" Alice cries, waddling up to me. I frown at the noise,
the headache not getting any better.
"Are you alright?" Jasper asks quietly and I smile in thanks at him.
"No but yes," I say and they blink… confused. I sigh, "Listen, I need to sleep this
fuckery off. We'll tell you what happened… tomorrow."
With that, Edward drags me into the bedroom and I flop down onto the bed.
He undresses me, not letting me do any of the work and tucks me in, butt fucking
naked.
A few… seconds… later he's in with me too and I cuddle up against him, falling
asleep.
I'm gonna quickly flush out all I have for you (2 more chapters after this)
because I'm not going to have internet for this laptop until later tonight (it's
12pm right now for me)
Alright, laters!
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Chapter 183
The next day, I'm feeling… well, better. I guess.
Let's just say that when the fucker hits, the fucker hits heavy.
Not as well as my father, but… well, we can't all be Police Chief's, can we?
"How're you feeling?" Edward asks, coming back to lie down next to me.
I moan. "Ugh. Fine, I guess. The bastard can hit, can't he?"
He smiles softly, but there's still anger there. "I could kill him," he says, just as
softly.
I smile. "Don't bother… he isn't worth it; besides… I want him gone out of our
lives, not you."
He smiles and kisses my nose, making me giggle.
"Time for talk later, missy," he says and I sigh as he lays over me.
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Chapter 184
"How's the head?" Carlisle says, smiling as we walk through the door a few hours
later.
I scowl. "I wish everyone would stop asking; I've had worse."
Edward takes my hand and squeezes it gently and I look up at him.
He caresses my right cheek, the other currently… well… bloody bruised. "I love
you."
I smile, ignoring the bruise as it protests. I take off my sunglasses, also ignoring
the fact that I have a black eye. "I love you too."
"Oh darling," Esme says as she walks in the room. "The rat bastard, how dare he
hurt my baby?"
I smile softly at that, marvelling at how easy she is to love. "Esme, I'm fine."
"Not quite," Carlisle says, smiling. "But you will be. Come with me to my office
please."
Sweetness.
Ok, so although I won't have anymore for you because of internet, I will
have my laptop and I will be writing (for this story and others) so yeah. See
you tonight!
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Chapter 185
"Well, he didn't fracture anything," Carlisle says, smiling as he turns away from
the x-ray board and back to me.
"Huh," I huff as Edward relaxes from behind me. "It sure feels like he has."
Carlisle smiles sympathetically. "The face is very fragile so I would imagine that
he nearly did fracture at least one bone."
"It's fine. As I said, I've had worse."
Carlisle frowns, "yes, yes I saw that. Would you by any chance tell me how?"
I shrug and smile wryly. "My father was abusive and he knew his tricks."
Edward makes some sort of an angry sound at the word "tricks" and I smile
apologetically. He kisses my nose.
"Well that explains a lot," Carlisle says, breaking through our sweet moment. He's
looking pointedly between Edward and me.
"How so?"
"Well, you're dealing well with all of this."
I smile, "that's because I've been through it."
There's another one... I decided to give you another... since I'm writing
them and I have my USB and there's another laptop with good internet.
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Chapter 186
"So," I say. We're now sitting down stairs in the living room; facing each other,
Carlisle and Esme are on the couch opposite me and Edward. "What's going on with
Edward Masen?"
Esme smiles rather proudly and looks up at her husband. "Carlisle called the
police after you left. Of course, Elizabeth was not pleased but… well her husband is
in a holding cell. Why would she be?"
"And naturally, she's rather embarrassed and quick to suggest her innocence,"
Carlisle says, smiling wryly. He huffs a laugh, "though of course the drunken
Edward Masen negated that, didn't he?"
It's a rhetorical question, but it sparks both my interest and Edward's.
"How'd he do that?" I ask, sipping a bit of Edward's coffee.
Edward smiles to himself but it falls when Carlisle answers my question.
"He admitted that his wife loved watching her husband beat her son to near
death."
Yeah. That's all for right now... I'm sorry! But I'm writing future chapters
and one chapter was over by 25 fucking words! I've it down by 21, so it's
154... but I'm standing firm.
Kitkat, all the words are abbreviated... shit!
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Chapter 187
"He admitted what?" Edward whispers, looking between Carlisle and Esme.
They're smiling worriedly.
Esme speaks. "His exact words were "oh but she gets a kick out of watching it.""
I feel abruptly sick so I breathe deeply, trying to fight off the bile that had
immediately risen. How a mother could watch her husband beat up the son she has
with another man…
I swallow again, a hand flying to my mouth.
"Baby, you ok?" Edward asks, frowning down at me.
I nod. "Yeah, fine… keep going." I look at Esme and she's frowning, but after a
moment she nods.
Right on 100! Now there's a first!
I think.
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Chapter 188
"Well, there's really nothing else to tell," she says but then she frowns. "Mr Masen
made a few more drunken comments before he more or less passed out-"
"Which made it much easier for the police when they eventually arrived," Carlisle
interjects, somewhat sarcastically as he sips his tea.
I smirk, god, he really is so bloody English.
I giggle to myself before slapping a hand over my mouth. I look down, blushing
even more when I feel Edward trace his finger over my flaming cheek. I look up,
biting my lip and he chuckles before leaning in for a quick but sweet, loving kiss.
Whoever invented fucking chaste kisses forgot to implant that on Edward's lips, I
thought, resisting the urge to rub my thighs together.
When he kisses, he does it fucking thoroughly.
Cuteness.
I'm posting through 190 tonight. I've written to about... 203(?)
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Chapter 189
The next few weeks that pass, are perhaps the best they've ever been.
It's nearing my birthday – September 13th – and I have a feeling that Edward is
planning something.
But everything halts when – at two am on September 4th – Jasper cries out in
panic.
Seconds later, Edward and I are out the bedroom door, still half asleep.
"What the fuck?" Edward mutters, rubbing at his face.
"Jasper, what's going…" I trail off as we come round the corner.
It's quite a sight, you know, looking at your best friend standing over a… a puddle
of clear… whatever that is.
Edward's slack jawed, scratching his chin and cheek.
"It's time," Alice says, watching her crazy and slightly erratic husband.
We stare after him, blinking as he flies past us and into their shared bedroom.
"Uh…" I say, frowning in confusion.
"Time for what?" Edward asks.
"This baby wants out," Alice snaps.
Ah... Gotta love Alice and Jasper. *giggles*
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Chapter 190
"Jesus-fucking-Christ!" I hear Alice shout and I flinch into Edward's arms.
At the rate she's going, she'll wake up half the fucking hospital. She's already got
everyone – baby and adult – in the fucking ward up.
"You are never touching me again, Whitlock!" She shouts again and I whimper.
Edward looks down at me. "Baby?"
"That's gonna be me." I say, panicking as I look up at him. "Fuck, I didn't know it
was that painful… holy shit."
"Baby, you're atheist," Edward says before yawning cutely. "You can't say shit like
'holy'. It holds no meaning."
"Shut up Edward," I whimper.
"So it's already starting, eh?" He asks and I glare at him at the precise moment
that we hear a whack, quickly followed by Jasper's pained screech.
"That'll be you Edward," I growl out. "So help me God."
He opens him mouth then closes it.
You're a smart one, Edward.
This chapter was a ball to write... :D
Oh and I'm pausing here to... let you breathe and review. Next one... I
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Chapter 191
A few hours later, Jasper enters the waiting room with a big, shit-eating grin on
his face.
Edward and I immediately clamber up to him, narrowly missing bumping into a
Grandma.
"Well?" I ask at the same moment that Edward asks "what is it?"
He smiles at both of us. "Alice is doing great, but she's very tired. Thanks for
asking."
We immediately jump into trying to apologize and explaining ourselves, but he
chuckles. "Don't worry about it… she had a little baby girl."
He's so emotional that I get all emotional too and I grab him up in a fierce hug.
"Really? Oh that's so cute… wait, what are you calling her?"
"Congratulations," Edward says and they have some sort of a man-hug thing.
Jasper smiles. "Thanks and uh, well we're gonna call her Leah."
I smile and gush, sniffling. "Perfect."
"Yeah, she is."
Naww. Oh and thanks kitkat for telling me that I had 1200 reviews... I
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Chapter 192
"She's beautiful," I say, squeezing closer to peak at the bundle in Alice's arms.
Said cute bundle is wrapped vigorously in a plethora of sheets and rugs and knitted
nice feeling things.
The darling little baby has blue eyes – which I suspect will mostly stay that way
after they start to change colour; both Jasper's and Alice's are an icy blue. Her lips
are adorable and so very red. You can almost immediately tell that she'll have Alice's
pixie nose. Her eyes are the shape of Jasper's and you can see the beginnings of
Alice's silky black hair, most likely curly like Jasper's.
Alice sniffles. "It's so hard to believe that she's finally here." She then looks at
Jasper. "I love you, Jazzy."
"Love you, Alice darlin'," he says and he kisses her forehead.
shout out to kitkat - not that I don't mention you like all the time - but you
are like this stories mother... you review every chapter, PM me and chat
about ideas and help me if I'm stuck and make everything feel like it's going
ok. You tell me to GO TO BED and you are just generally awesome... so
thank you. I hope you become the mother of many other drabbles of mine.
Yes, I have a few planned. :D
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Chapter 193
"Edward," I giggle as he sneaks under the covers between my legs. He's fucking
cheeky. "Baby, what're you doing?"
Groaning, I feel his mouth… there… I'm naked and he's using that advantage.
"Let me take you away for your birthday," he says persistently.
"That's what this is about?" I ask, moaning at the feeling of him… sucking me.
"Ugh. Edward, get up here so we can talk about this."
His mouth ceases its actions and he crawls up from between my legs. He lays over
me and I can feel his hard, weeping erection against my stomach. I lick my lips.
"I thought you wanted to talk."
"I do," I say and he smiles.
"Let me take you away," he whispers, a sucking kiss to my nipple.
"Coercion," I whimper and he glances up at me… pleading. "Fine."
He smiles. "Thank you."
Then he continues his attack on my body.
This chapter was mean. This is the chapter I was talking about earlier. It
was 175.. and I had to literally pull teeth out of it (if you can do that with a
chapter) to get it to work!
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P.S. Oh and I made a deal with kitkat, really she's winning but anyway. I
told her that we needed another chapter of Good vs. Evil if she wanted the
surprise in 200. But to be fair, I think I'll just do a kitkat and 'blow my load'.
That's easy... 11 more chapters and you get 2 surprises. Happy ones,
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Chapter 194
He won't tell me where we're going.
It's frustrating and annoying and cute and sweet and… I feel like screaming.
Something about it is just… not fair.
He laughs at my petulant behaviour in the car and I just glare at him. That always
seems to shut him up… I smile to myself.
"Edward," I whine and he chuckles.
"We're nearly there, baby, calm down." I look up at him and he's… he's so happy.
It's breathtaking.
I swallow and look back at the road.
I'm ridiculously giddy because… well, because of a little revelation that I had a
few days ago.
Ok, fine... I'll blow my load. Hehe... *gigglesnort*
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Chapter 195
I gasp as we exit the car. We're surrounded by trees, but right ahead there's a
cute little wooden cabin. It's well protected though, so it's fine against storms and
shit.
At least, that's what Edward says. I'm not sure if I'm convinced as of yet.
"It's beautiful," I say, looking around with a smile on my face.
Edward's arms wrap themselves around me. He buries his nose in my hair,
breathing in. "I'm glad you feel that way… now, let's go. I have a certain need that
only you can fulfil right now."
I giggle, knowing exactly what he's talking about. "Oh baby… I feel the same way."
That's when he grabs me up and throws me over his shoulder.
He walks through the door and directly to the bedroom.
Nice!
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Oh and kitkat? We're getting closer. :D
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Chapter 196
"I've got a present for you," Edward mumbles against my neck and I smile.
"I've got one for you too," I say and his head shoots up.
He's confused and it's so fucking adorable. "Baby, you-it's you're birthday… that
generally means that people give you presents… not the other way around."
I shrug. "Well then think of it as something for the both of us," I say and he smiles
cheekily.
"Yeah?" He asks, his lips teasing my breast and I moan.
"Yeah," I squeak, which turns into a squeal-moan he suddenly sucks my breast
into his mouth.
"Later," he says and he pulls me under the covers, making me giggle.
I'm not giggling for much longer, though.
Um, I'm watching this thing on sharks - against my will, which explains
why I'm on my laptop - and as someone who has a phobia of the ocean and a
generally large bodies of water and the beach... it's not going so well.
Gah!
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Chapter 197
It's the next morning – the morning of my birthday – before we are ready to get
out of bed.
I smirk, knowing exactly why I'm so horny at the moment.
Edward looks down at me, but before he can tickle the truth out of me, I race
away from him and into the kitchen.
"Baby!" He calls out, whining. "Baby, come on! I've got a present for you."
I laugh out loud. "Yeah baby… and I think I know exactly what you're talking
about…"
"It's not my cock, baby," he whispers sexily in my ear, licking the shell and I jump
as his arms wrap around my waist.
His lips are on my neck and I arch to give him access, giggling.
Cute, sexy chapter, methinks.
Oh and here's the link to what Jasper and Alice look like in this story.
Strange to put it here, I know but I was searching for a possible photo for
their baby and this came up... I thought it was what I had envisioned them
as. :D
Link:s1108 . photobucket . com / albums / h411 / bexie25 /
How%20to%20Save%20a%20Life / ?action=view¤t=AliceandJasper .
jpg
Oh and we're really close now. *toothy grin*
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Chapter 198
We eat the pancakes that I have been needing, light banter and laughs making it
perhaps the best breakfast I've had in years.
But then Edward starts being all cryptic, talking about going for drives where he
can 'pop' out some presents… Pop always being… emphasized.
It's confusing.
"Edward, please… where the fuck are we going?" I say for the millionth time.
He just smiles… and shakes his head… and I harrumph.
Mature, I know.
But then we turn off onto a small road. There's water ahead which means-
"We're going to a beach!" I say excitedly, clapping my hands like Alice does when
she's excited. Edward chuckles, nodding… but there's a sparkle in his eye.
Yes, I am dropping little hints of BOTH surprises.
Oh and also, just thought I'd mention that we're not near the end of the
whole story yet and there's still a little to go on about the Masen's before
they are gone too. :D
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P.S. Oh and I'm glad SOME people think I'm being generous. Kitkat,
where are you?
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Chapter 199
"Edward, I love it here," I say blissfully, closing my eyes. The sun on my skin and
the fact that there's no one here just makes all of this even more special. I don't
have to be self-conscious about someone seeing my scars and commenting on
them... and I can do whatever-the-fuck I want with Edward… or to him.
He drops a kiss to my temple, trailing down to my lips and I turn my head so our
lips meet at just the right moment.
"Your present," Edward insists after a few minutes of… well, unashamed making
out.
I open my eyes and look at him.
I'm frowning instantly because… he's nervous.
What could this present possibly be to make him so… so nervous?
But then his lips are at my ear.
"Close your eyes," he whispers, pulling me up to stand.
I'm reading over the next few chapters after this one and they are just so
cute. I'm crying... seriously.
Oh so exciting. :D
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Chapter 200
With my eyes closed, losing the sense of sight, all of my other senses pick up on
things.
The sounds of the waves crashing, Edward's luscious smell…
There's a few fumbling noises and I swear I hear Edward mumbling to himself
before finally, he speaks again… nearly silently.
"Open your eyes, Bella."
And I do and the… he… my breath hitches.
Edward's on one knee in front of me, a velvet black box in his hand. He's nervous,
hardly breathing as he takes my hand in the free one of his and looks up at me.
"I love you, baby," he whispers. He's struggling for words, but finally… finally, he
gets there. "I love you so much and… you fix me… you complete me. You make all
the bad things in my life just… go away. I need you, Bella. I want you in my life.
Marry me, baby."
Breathe.
I originally had the idea of the 200th chapter being the pop the question
chapter when we were back at... oh, 170 something I think. I stuff with it
and wrote chapter 196 to know what to write next to get it that way. :D
Link to the ring: s1108 . photobucket . com / albums / h411 / bexie25 /
How%20to%20Save%20a%20Life / ?action=view¤t=BellaringHTSAL . jpg
Oh and the next couple of chapters are the cute ones!
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Chapter 201
I'm shaking as I fall to my knees, the fall broken by the sand.
He's shaking too and I'm so overcome by emotion that all I can do is… kiss the shit
out of him.
And I do… ring forgotten, proposal forgotten… every single fucking thing about us
and where we are forgotten. We are rolling around, moaning and whimpering and
groaning… the sounds of love and comfort and want and need floating from our
mouths and into the other's.
It's almost as if we are trying to literally consume each other in our love.
But then Edward stills and he cups my face, breaking away from the kiss. I'm lying
on top of him, panting, when he whispers in my ear… "Is that a yes?"
My head shoots up and I smile. "Yeah, it is."
His smile is blinding.
Ok, so second surprise 'THE' chapter is next, but I need your thoughts on
the magic 200 before we go any further. :D
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Chapter 202
He kisses wetly, hotly down my body and I'm sensitive, overcome by emotion and
feeling… and need. Moans, whimpers, he ignores them all in his quest down my
body.
"I love you," he says as he sheds the wet – from the beach water – panties from my
body.
And then he's there… fingers, mouth, teeth… he brings me to an orgasm and
literally turns me into a screamer… as if I wasn't already when it came to him.
"I love you, I love you, I love you," he sighs as he kisses all the way back up my
body. I'm ridiculously unable to speak, overcome by sensation.
But then his cock is there, ready to fill me and something just…
"Wait," I say against his lips and he stills. "Baby, I wanna tell you something."
He frowns. "Yeah?"
I bite my lip.
Out with it, my mind shouts bitingly.
"I'm pregnant."
Well then... yeah.
2 more then bed for me. Oh and also, we have officially overthrown the
biggest hit story of mine. 70, 200 and something compared to the big 69,
200something. :D
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Chapter 203
He attacks me… he actually throws himself at me and fucking kisses the shit out
of me… much as I had after he'd asked me to marry him.
I squeak in surprise against his lips, soon relaxing and moaning when his fingers
touch my wet lips.
"Really?" He asks, pulling back and sitting up.
I sniffle, having not noticed that tears were falling in the first place and I nod.
His eyes fill with tears of his own, his answering smile watery.
His hand ghosts down my chest to my stomach then to my abdomen… my womb.
And then his lips are there. Kissing, caressing… as if it's the most precious part of
me.
Which I guess it is, since there's a baby… our baby… in there.
"Hello baby," he coos and I just about choke on my tears. "I'm your daddy."
Awe… happiness… love…
… all for this man.
This chapter is truly tears worthy... *sniffle, sob*
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Oh and just generally... who actually looks at the links that writers send
out for various things? I do!
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Chapter 204
A little while later, we're in bed, cuddling and generally being all cute and
snuggly… making love is in there too. He's still in me, our legs tangled
complicatedly.
It's bliss.
I stare at my ring, a lazy smile on my face as I study it.
It's perfect for me, which makes me think that he got Alice to help him. But, I've
been at home all day and so has she…
My breath hitches. "How long were you planning this?"
He smiles at me, "since before you quit your job."
"But that was-" I say, struggling to understand the how and the why…
"At least two months ago… yeah, I know." The gaze he sends me is so very loving
and I am putty in his capable hands.
I groan as he starts to suck on my neck, slipping further into me as he does so.
Yeah. Very capable.
That's the last for tonight. Thanks for the reviews etc. Oh and I was think
of giving you a little preview of Femme Fatale (Deadly Woman) it's not
gonna be a drabble, but it's a VAMPELLA/HUMANWARD FIC. Bella's the
sister of the Volturi brothers and so on... :D
If you like this little part, I'll give you more tomorrow... a little convo with
our favourite psychic:
"He has been turned," she said and my body grew cold; a chilling feeling tickled
down my spine and I closed my eyes, my head bowing as I rested my elbows on my
thighs, leaning into my hands.
"When?" I whispered brokenly.
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"Three months ago," she said and my head snapped up.
"And you didn't inform me?" I growled out, jumping up. I immediately started
pacing, aggressively and quickly, trying to get rid of my anger so I didn't lash out.
"I did not," she said, sighing sadly and I stopped to look at her. She looked up at
me, sadness etched on her face. "I am so sorry. I only did it because I didn't want
you to freak out and demand to see him at once. His creator would not have taken
that lightly."
I growled protectively and possessively, not liking the insinuation. "His creator
would not have liked it? Well pray tell, who is this… majestic creator who so took it
upon himself to change my mate?"
I was angry; so very angry and when I was seething to this degree, I had a mind to
be… sarcastic. Forgive the pun, but I would usually be bitingly so.
"He could not have known that the human was your mate," she said as she turned
her body as I walked around to the back of the seat she was sitting on.
"The human?" I seethed, vaguely thinking of ripping the fabric from the couches
behind me. "Do not call him merely a human, especially if he has been changed. His
name is Edward Masen and he shall be called as such."
Until tomorrow,
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Chapter 205
When it comes to leaving the special little cabin a few days later, I don't want to.
It holds so many memories already… all of them significant to the both of us.
"Baby, it's ok," Edward says as I sob ridiculously in the car. Why am I crying?
Fucking hormones.
"I know, it's the hormones," I whine and Edward's lips turn up in a smile. "Don't
you fucking dare laugh at me, Cullen! Laugh and you don't touch me again for a
fucking month!"
Edward's mouth snaps shut, his eyes locking on the road.
I nod to myself, smiling… good; the annoying talker is not talking anymore.
Life is good.
Alright. So, I'm guessing you liked the little preview of Femme Fatale. At
least, kitkat did... so, here's more.
I'll be giving you little snippets a lot actually. :D
"The creator was Carlisle Cullen from America," there was a wry smile on her lips
and I watched her curiously. "A vegetarian, as it is."
I laughed, the sound startling even to me. "Ah, of course… the Elusive Doctor
Carlisle Cullen of America. The lone vampire who runs around, turning every
unfortunate, dying human he comes across and teaches them the ways of the yellow
eyes."
Alice barked out a laugh, a higher, harmonious chorus to my own. "The very
same," she said, toning her laughing down.
It was then that it occurred to me. "Alice," I said harshly and she immediately
calmed herself, composing herself before looking at me.
"Yes?" She asked, biting her lip in a nervous gesture.
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"If Carlisle Cullen changes every dying human… then just how did he come across
my mate?" I asked as I felt the panic and worry bubble behind my words, to the tip
of my tongue. I tried, in vain, to swallow them back but I could not.
More?
*bats eyelashes and smiles innocently*
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Chapter 206
A baby crying… it's not a nice way to wake up.
So try doing it when you're fucking pregnant, run off your feet from writing a book
and you're so tired that you can't even do fun, sexy things with your… fiancé.
That's perhaps the only thing that makes me smile as I get up, out of bed.
I sigh as I look back, envying Edward for his ability to just… stay asleep.
I scratch my head, yawning.
But of course, with my clumsiness, I walk right into something, falling flat on my…
front.
"Ouch," I hiss in pain, clutching my ankle.
Trying to get up, I whimper from the pain and instantly recognize the type of pain.
It's sprained. Great.
"Edward?" I call out sharply.
He groans.
"Oh good, you're awake… I uh, I need help."
Yeah... well, I for one find it funny... doesn't anyone else?
*Huffs.* Whatever. Oh and no more previews. kitkat got me to put it up
so... go check it out and maybe leave a review if you likey it...?
*Smiles*
Anyways... please review. You're being quiet today...
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Chapter 207
"Baby, you need to be more careful," Edward admonishes me as he carries me out
into the lounge room. From the hall we can hear the T.V. "The bab-"
"Shh!" I hush him, to which he looks at me; confused.
"You're not gonna tell them?" He asks and I swear I can hear hurt.
I shake my head. "It's not like that honey, and you know it. I'm just…" I fight for
good enough words to explain my caution. Biting my lip for a second before I
continue, saying, "I mean… I'm clumsy… you know that. What if I… I dunno, it's
just-Ugh, I just don't wanna take any chances. Not until I'm at least twelve weeks.
For now, can we just keep it between us?"
I give him the puppy eyes and he sighs before nodding.
"Fine… just… be careful; for me and the baby."
I smile. "Promise."
*Smiles* Cuteness!
Oh and kitkat, was the first chappie of Femme Fatale really ok? I just... I'm
nervous. I always am when it comes to new stories. They somehow bring out
the me that doubts my writing ability...
Anyways!
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Chapter 208
"Bells!" Emmett's voice chimes over the phone, making me laugh at his
boisterousness. "How-the-fuck are ya?"
Pregnant, I think amusedly, shaking my head.
"Busy," I opt for instead. "I'm writing the next chapter… it's nearly ready for you."
"I'm glad," he says, making me all shy and school-girlie. "It's coming along really
well, Bells. I'm glad that you can trust me with this. It's one heck of a fucking good
story."
I laugh, "Still got a sailor's mouth, I see."
"Too fucking right," Emmett replies eagerly.
I smile. "How's it going with Rose? I haven't seen her for ages… we need to have
dinner."
Emmett laughs. "We should. You wanna come over?"
I bite my lip. "Maybe… I'll talk to Edward."
"Ah," Emmett says. "Edward… do I need to talk to him about treating you right?"
Emmett's like my father in that respect… well, what a father should be.
Classic Emmett. I'm looking forward to meeting him.
Oh and Merry Easter while we're at it!
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Chapter 209
"No way," I say to Edward and he groans, gripping his hair.
I pout; I wanna do that!
"Why not, baby?" He asks, pleading with me. I frown and look away, knowing that
I'd say yes to anything if he looked at me like that. "You need to check out that
ankle; you haven't walked on it for days."
I huff, knowing he's right. "You need to go to work."
"Actually," he says, coming around to sit with me on the bed. "I don't."
My head whips up and I frown as I regard him. "What?"
He winces. "I called in sick to make sure you went. Good thing I did, too."
I bite my lip and watch him carefully. "Fine… fine… but we're seeing your father."
He smiles. "That I can agree with."
Yay... uh, yeah. I have stuff to do, but I've got some pre writtens.
In other news, I am floored by the response to Femme Fatale. I mean,
there's only 2 reviews but the alerts and favs are... yeah. Cool. Thanks!
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Chapter 210
"What does Carlisle do?" I ask as Edward wheels me through the doors to the
hospital. "What field?"
Edward smiles. "OB, but sometimes they need him for the ER as well; he's a
surgeon."
"Huh," I say, thinking. I turn to look at Edward from the wheelchair. "Do you think
he could be our doctor? For the baby?"
Edward smiles, "yeah; I'm sure he could. And besides… we need to find out how
far along you are."
I shrug. "Yeah… I guess, I mean, I think I have some kind of idea."
He looks at me askance and I giggle. "Well?" He asks after I don't say anything.
"It's just a hunch," I say, barely able to hide my smile. "But I'd say I'm about six
weeks. I missed my last period which was due… three weeks ago but had the one
before that, which was around seven weeks ago."
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Chapter 211
"Edward, Bella," Carlisle says, obviously shocked as he leads us through to his
office. "What a surprise." He looks down at me and chuckles to himself. "And what
have you done to yourself now, Bella?"
I huff, "Leah was crying and I got out of bed and tripped over… I think I sprained
my ankle, but it still hurts now a couple days after and Edward – being the panicked
fiancé that he is – wanted to bring me to you to check it out."
"Actually, it was Bella's idea to see you," Edward says and I scowl up at him. "I
just wanted her checked out."
Carlisle looks between the two of us, chuckles and then crouches down.
"Oh and I'm pregnant," I say, realizing that if Edward's father was going to be the
baby's doctor, he'd need to know that. "And we want you to be the baby's doctor."
Sorry for the slow chapters.
I've been writing for other stories... studying for tests after the holidays...
eating chocolate... watching Charmed... eating more chocolate...
I think you get the picture. :D
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Chapter 212
Carlisle just about fell back in shock. "Excuse me?"
I sigh and look up at Edward. "See?" I look back down at Carlisle. "I'm pregnant;
probably around six weeks and I told Edward when he proposed. When we came
here today, we decided that we wanted you to be the baby's doctor."
Carlisle blinks for a second and looks between the two of us. Then, ever so slowly,
a smile spreads across his face. "Really? Oh dear, that's great. Congratulations." He
gets up out of his crouch and man-hug's Edward.
Of course, me turning into the sap that is apparently me when pregnant, I start
crying.
When they hear me sniffling, then turn around and while Carlisle chuckles,
Edward panics.
Carlisle pats Edward on the back, "hormones of a pregnant woman, son; best stay
on their good side."
Which of the reactions you listed turned out to be the real one,
annaharding? Oh and may I ask, anyone watch Charmed? If you do-did, then
I'm watching it now and I have such a soft spot for Leo and Piper... oh my
god. Or should I say... oh my whitelighter... :D
Anyways,
back soon
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Chapter 213
"Esme is going to be thrilled," Carlisle says and Edward and I look at each other.
To my relief, it's Edward who speaks. "Um, Carlisle… we were actually rather
hoping to keep it between ourselves… just until Bella reaches her second trimester.
Anything can happen and we don't want to get people's hope if…"
"If something happens," Carlisle finishes for him and we look up at him to see he's
smiling. "It's fine; most couple's do that. I won't breathe a word until you give me
the 'ok.'"
I smile, "thanks."
He shrugs. "Now, do want an ultrasound? We can check how far along you are
then have one if you'd like."
I look at Edward, giggle at how excited he is – though I'm sure I'm just as excited –
and then nod.
That's up next.
So, I'm sitting here... in my room... on my laptop... with my school
tracksuit pants... and my Team Edward Twilight Saga New Moon t-shirt on...
watching Charmed. Yep. I've gotta be weird, right?
Gah!
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Chapter 214
"Excellent," Carlisle says, smiling happily. He turns to Edward, "now, would you
please get Bella up on here?"
Edward lifts me out of the wheelchair and carries me over to the little bed thing,
lying me down flat on it. I make a move to sit up, but Carlisle stops me, resting a
hand on my stomach.
I giggle and he raises his eyebrow at me.
"Bella's ticklish on her stomach," Edward says and his burning-with-desire eyes
make me blush.
"Shut up, Edward," I mumble, looking at the wall and away from everyone else.
He chuckles but that's when Carlisle's cold hands prod at my abdomen.
"Hey," I whine, looking up at him quickly. "What are you doing?"
He smiles patiently, but I can see the amusement. "Checking how far along you
are, Miss Swan."
I pout, hearing Edward's faint groan.
"You're hands a cold," I mutter and Carlisle's laughs.
That's our Bella for you. Always one to create the laughs.
Anyways, this is the last one tonight. I finished the next chapter for
Femme Fatale - which will actually be the Bella's POV instead of Edward's as
he isn't speaking to me right now. Now all I have to do is edit it. It's eight
pages, the last chapter was six and I notoriously add things in when I edit,
so that could easily grow a couple of pages longer.
Either way, it'll probably be up tomorrow... or something. :D
I have to write some pre writtens for this baby because I've only got one
left so it'll be slow again tomorrow as well.
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Now all I have to do is watch the rest of the episode that I've been on/off
watching of Charmed and then go to bed. It's like... 1.35 am over here and
though I'm not tired, I will be tomorrow.
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P.S. Speaking of Femme Fatale, here's the summary: Isabella has waited
nearly a millenia for her mate. Changed by Dr Carlisle Cullen, Edward
Masen was taught to be good to human nature... only to fail. In his quest for
death, he gets more than he ever dreamed of having. He finds his very own
Femme Fatale.
SIDE NOTE: Femme Fatale means Deadly Woman; a seductress.
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Chapter 215
Some prodding later Carlisle stops and smiles at Edward and I. "Bella was right;
she is six weeks along."
I look down at my stomach, which was just a little bigger… not much at all… then
back at Carlisle. "How can you tell?"
He chuckles, "I'm a doctor… I know what to look for."
I purse my lips, about to say something quick-witted, but it slips from my mind. I
sigh and shake my head, sitting up.
"Ultrasound?" Edward asks and I can hear the excitement as it swallows him
whole.
I smile to myself; he's so happy. I love seeing him like this.
Sorry for the lack of updates recently. I'm on school holidays so I've pretty
much been getting up between 11-12 every day. Anyways, um... Femme
Fatale will be updated today but I'm going to my dad's so that makes it
complicated and I still need to edit it.
It shall be up today though... I promise!
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Chapter 216
"Oh my god," I whisper, sniffling as I look at the screen. Swallowing, I then try to
breathe deeply but my breath is hitching in all these funny places.
At six weeks, the baby didn't really look like a baby at all but… there was just
something about it…
"Oh Edward," I whimper and then everything is blurry. I blink frantically, almost
as if I think the sight of my little baby with Edward is going to go away at any
moment.
"It's amazing," Edward rasps, finally able to speak and I look at him. "That's our
little baby, Bella."
Our smiles are watery but happy… and I can see Edward getting better and
better, happier and happier within himself.
It's awesome.
You think this one's cute and fluffy... the next chapter's even better!
In my opinion, anyways...
So, Femme Fatale has been updated with another BPOV chapter...
Edward's not talking to me.
Um, also... for all those who have been pregnant before or just know
anyways, what's the thing they put against the stomach called when they do
ultrasounds? They put on the gel then put that thing on and that's when you
see... whatever they are looking at.
Anyways! Next chapter coming... A Choice will be updated tomorrow, I
believe.
Yeah... no good internet - or rather, no USB to get these chapters on the
internet - so I've been rather busy!
bexie25
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Chapter 217
"What's that?" I ask, my finger touching the screen. It was strange, I could see
something… blinking.
Carlisle smiles and looks between us. "That's the heartbeat," he says and my
breathing stops.
I whimper, cooing at the image as tears fill my eyes again. "Oh god…"
"Beautiful," Edward whispers in my ear. I look up to see him crying as well. "It's…
wow. We made that, Bella."
I smile. "Yeah," I bite my lip as we stare at the baby's heartbeat. "God that's so…"
"Cool?" Edward asks and I giggling, sniffling.
"I was gonna say strange, but cool works just as well."
He looks at me then kisses my forehead. "I love you."
I close my eyes as his lips linger there. "I love you too."
Told you this one was sweeter.
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Chapter 218
"I take it you want pictures?" Carlisle says, smiling brightly.
I swallow and look at Edward who shrugs, nodding. "Yeah thanks," I say, sniffling
again as the ultrasound machine turns off and he takes the thing… the transducer…
out of my hooha. Yeah, it was a bit strange having it… in there… but once we saw
our little baby, I forgot all about it. Well, mostly.
Carlisle left the room, leaving just Edward and me.
"Wow," I say and he smiles, nodding.
"Yeah. Wow," he says and then his face takes on a different look…
"What?" I ask, caressing his cheek as I watch him intently.
He smiles, "thank you."
I frown. "For what?"
He looks down at my stomach, his hand reaching up to touch the baby in there.
"For giving me this… happiness… I never thought I'd really feel it. But I do know…
because of you."
On a more serious and unhappy note, here's a little something I have to
say…
Flamers…
So, if you read anything of twilight mum69's, like Island, then you would
have just seen that she is gonna pull it because of people who criticized her
work. It isn't right and I hope none of you guys ever do it. It is seriously sad
that she has felt so bad about her writing ability and about that story that
she is actually going to delete it.
I just wanted to comment on it because it happens too regularly… too
often. It's not nice and it hurts a writer's feelings.
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I hope you all know that and I'm sorry for my rant. The next chapter will
be up when I can get it up. *Gigglesnort* dirty thoughts, dirty thoughts.
Jokes… I'm a girl.
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Chapter 219
The next couple of weeks are busy.
Not only are Edward and I trying to adjust to the fact that I'm pregnant, but
there's also my book, Edward's work… and last but not least, the Masens.
Edward Masen was released from custody the day after our first ultrasound. To
say that I was angry was an understatement. But to my profound fucking relief,
neither Elizabeth nor Edward has come around to see us… so far.
We're starting to worry by the time that it reaches the second Sunday of the
month. That's the next night that Edward would have met them and had dinner with
them.
And we have reason to worry… because they come to see us.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry!
I've been kinda MIA for the past couple of days... truth is, I've been
focusing on writing other chapters for other stories for mine. I've dropped a
few stories that I was betaing for someone and was hoping to find someone
else to beta for...
No such luck, as of yet.
Oh well... um, thanks to yvonne72. She PMed me and told me asked me if I
was ok and everything. She told me she missed reading HTSAL.
Thank you! You somehow got my creative juices - for this story - working
and now I've got five chapters (and more) coming... but we'll start with the
five.
Oh and a little sneak peak of Edward's chapter of Femme Fatale. The
chapter is currently 5 pages and not even halfway near finishing... here you
go! Oh wait, there are a few memories in the chapter (in italics) and this is
one of them...
I wasn't drunk, but I had been drinking. At any cost, I was fucking tired. Port
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Angeles was fucking annoying when it came to driving home… always so fucking
dark.
I turned on the radio, turning up the rap music as I tried to stay awake.
But even with the window open, my mind was on other things.
For a second there, I swear I saw a flash of something… someone in the woods. I
glanced over, looking. I peered in through the trees, cocking my head to the side.
That was when I saw it again.
What the fuck was that? I thought to myself, confused. It kept weaving in and out
of the trees, giving me flashes and flashes as I glanced back and forth between the
trees and the road.
When I glanced back at the road once again, it was right at the moment that
something from the left ran out in front of the car.
"Shit," I gasped, trying to swerve around it but I lost control of the car. Between
the soaked concrete and the speed of the car, I could never possibly gain it back.
I thought for those last few seconds as my body thrashed in the seat, the car
obviously rolling, of my family… my mum, my dad… my friends.
But then, there was a sudden pain in my side, around where my ribs were and
then I was falling, fading.
Gone.
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Chapter 220
The doorbell rings.
"Edward baby," I call from the lounge room. Edward's in the kitchen, making me
dinner. I had no idea that he could cook, but then again he told me that he hardly
ever did it and since Jasper was still at work…
"Yeah?" He says as he comes through the door.
I frown. "Are we expecting anyone tonight?"
As if on cue, the doorbell rings again. Edward looks toward it down the hall and
frowns. "No, I wasn't and Alice hasn't said anything about it."
"Hm," I say, thinking as I bite my lip. "Maybe it's Jasper? He might have forgotten
his keys… either that or he's drunk. He was going out with friends tonight."
That's when there's a furious pounding on the door and Edward and I look at each
other.
That isn't Jasper… so who is it?
Yeah. :D
Thanks for the reviews and I must tell you, I will never give up on this
story. If I don't update for a few days or a week or something, it'll only ever
be because I'm focusing on other stories - which have way longer chapters -
or I'm reading or something to do with school work. Promise.
Anyways... I'll give you maybe 2 more chapters today... probably more
though.
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Chapter 221
Alice comes out then, angry as shit.
She marches into the lounge room, bitch-brow cocked. "Well? Are you gonna
answer the door?"
I sigh. "We don't know who it is, Alice. For all we know, it's the Masens."
Alice frowns. "I'll answer it. They have a hide if they think they can come in here
after punching you up."
And then before we can even protest, she's down the fucking hall, opening the
door.
"Oh for fuck's sake," she says angrily. Edward and I look at each other; there are
only a few people that she'll answer to like that. "How dare you come here to this
house! What the fuck do you want?"
"We want to see Isabella and Edward," Mr Masen's voice sounds and Hoody's face
clouds with anger.
"Hoody?" I ask, climbing up on my knees on the couch.
He looks at me… anger in his eyes.
Yeah. So, we've got a little bit of a pattern going on here. Everytime
something bad or troubling happens, Bella calls Edward Hoody... I'm liking
this.
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Chapter 222
"Hoody, baby," I say worriedly, clambering off the couch and racing after him as
he strides angrily toward the door.
When he reaches the door, he stops and it's only when I reach him, my arms
immediately wrapping around his waist that I see the extent of his anger. He's
practically shaking with it and I look over his shoulder.
My eyes narrow immediately.
"What do you want?" Edward asks slowly, and the anger and disgust makes him
sound dangerous.
Elizabeth swallows nervously and then smiles. "We wanted to come and see you,
darling."
I snort, my mama-bear coming out. "Don't call him that; he's not affiliated with
you. He never will be again." I look at my fiancé and he's simply staring at them as
he tries to control his anger. When I speak, it's only to him. "Hoody, baby, close the
door… and let's go to bed."
Yeah.
So, I've had a tricky day. It turns out my cat might be pregnant.
I'm excited... mum isn't.
Oh well!
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Chapter 223
When the door is closed, Hoody turns back to me and swallows as he regards me.
He's so angry that… that it looks like he's really trying to hide his pain; that… that
he's trying to stay strong for the baby and me.
I cup his cheek, swallowing back the tears. I hate seeing him like this and I hate
the Masens even more for doing this to him.
"Come on," I say, smiling softly and I take his hand, dragging him into the
bathroom.
"Your dinner," he says and I smile.
"Go finish cooking it and we'll eat after a shower… I have a feeling that we should
be alone for a little while."
He'd already told me I was his rock, and at times like these… he needed me to be
in control.
So, while he's finishing the dinner… I let myself cry; just a little.
Bella can't be awesomely strong all the time. :D
On a happier note - I guess? - here's another morose excerpt of Femme
Fatale's Edward Chapter. :D
I wanted to end my… well I guess you'd call it an existence. Technically, I wasn't
fucking living anymore. I was dead, a dead being and a murderer.
Why else would a vampire come to Volterra, Italy where the Volturi lived?
The lady and her brothers, the names of which I did not know and to be honest,
did not want to know were what Carlisle had called the "rulers of our kind…" the
rulers of vampires. They decided life or death.
They were law.
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My creator had transformed me into this… monster. He'd tried to reassure me
that I did not have to be a monster… that there was actually a possibility for
vampires to be good.
Yeah, well I call fucking bullshit on that one.
Then after teaching me his ways, he left me for myself.
The only problem? I could not follow his ways without his help; I had faulted.
I had done what I had learned was wrong, what my creator had told me was
"disgusting" and "unnatural".
I had killed for my own gain; I had killed for the blood of an innocent fucking
person.
But, then again… the taste had been… fucking exquisite; so very tempting. It had
taunted and haunted me, compelled me with need. A need to kill and to drink…
… And I had done so, shamelessly and wholeheartedly, only to realize what I had
done a few moments later.
Bye... for now.
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Chapter 224
I wipe away the tears not five minutes later and get up to look in the mirror.
Unfortunately, it's apparent that I've been crying, so I work on my breathing, closing
my eyes to try and calm myself.
When there's a knock on the door, I open my eyes and look myself over for a
second. It's no longer apparent that I've been crying and I open the door for
Edward. He smiles when he sees me, but… I still see a sadness there that makes my
heart crack; that makes my heart split open in half.
"I love you," I say and he smiles down at me.
"I love you, too," and then his hand comes down to rest on my belly. "And our little
one too."
Nawwww.
I like that.
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Chapter 225
We wash each other under the warm water, reconnecting and revelling in the
silence of the room. There are no sounds but the water running and the few words
that we speak.
Together, with the water, we wash away all the hurt that we've received and all
the struggling emotions that have flown through us because of this ordeal. We try, in
vain, to become normal, stable people in that moment.
But we know we are broken. We know that there is just something about us that
will never be completely one hundred per cent right.
We just don't know how to… how to fix ourselves.
Hiya
Sorry for the delay... I was painting my nails. :D
Um, kitkat, I'll give you two more because that's all I got and then can I
have that chapter so I can go to bed... y'know, huh... peacefully?
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Chapter 226
Somewhere along the way, something changes and suddenly, there's this… sexual
charge between us.
The looks, the touches, the caresses and the feelings turn lustful.
"Please Hoody," I whimper, leaning into him. My nipples graze against his chest
and I groan as they pebble.
I can feel Edward hardening against me and I smile to myself as I rub against him.
It's just a small movement, just a little twisting of the hips, but it makes my Edward
crazy.
I lick my lips, hoisting myself up taller and he wraps my legs around his waist,
holding me up by his ass.
I can feel him there, right there at my entrance. I need him, I need him so much.
"Please," I whisper against his lips, my tongue slipping through my lips to lick at
his lips.
His mouth opens and latches onto mine, our tongues meeting as he enters me.
Yeah. :D
Comfort sexy times. Yay!
One more.
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Chapter 227
We're silent. This is need, this is love, but we are all too aware of the sleeping
baby and cranky Alice in the house.
We work together, the pleasure nearly out of this world. His hips pull back and my
legs tighten around his waist, pulling him back as he pushes into me again.
It's heaven; it's so good that for a moment, just a mere, small moment… we forget
all the troubles that lie ahead. We forget our past, our problems because they are
just not important in this moment.
This is us. This is love. This is fire and need all in one big, loving ball.
And we wouldn't change a thing.
The last part of the lemon... tomorrow.
I know, I know... I'm sorry! But I need that chapter Kitkat, and then I need
to sleep!
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Chapter 228
"Edward," I gasp, my head flying back as two over his fingers slither down to my
clit. He rubs furiously, in time with his thrusts. My legs start to quiver and the
whimpers and moans pick up as the coil in my abdomen tightens and tightens. The
pleasure is crazy and from the look on Edward's face, we're on the same
wavelength.
"Bella, I need…" he pants, unable to finish but I soon get the idea. His mouth
descends upon my left breast, and he takes the nipple in his mouth. He toys with it
relentlessly and it's only seconds later that I'm moaning his name.
He rides out the waves of our releases and sags against me, his head on my
shoulder. He kisses the shoulder, making a path up to my lips.
We kiss, sagging against each other.
"I love you," he whispers against my lips.
I smile.
Good... *checks clock on computer* ... afternoon!
How are we all? Ready for a few updates? I hope so!
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Chapter 229
"Edward," I say warningly and he smiles sheepishly. "I'll be fine by myself, ok?
Alice is going to her parents' house to show off Leah. Go to work."
He sighs and sits down on the bed. He grabs his shoes and begins to put them on.
I have to force myself to look away. He just looks so delectable in his work clothes;
black slacks, dark grey shirt…
Maybe it's just me being horny… I mean, pregnant women get like that, right?
I sigh and let myself fall back on the bed. My eyes close and I feel sleep coming
over me.
I feel the bed dip closer to me and I tilt my head to the right, opening my eyes.
Edward's right there, inches away. He smiles.
"I guess I've gotta go," he whispers and then he bends down to kiss me. "Love
you."
And then he's gone.
Sweetward and Hornyella. Tehehe.
I love this chapter. It's one of my favourites and I don't even know why...
:D
What do you think?
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Chapter 230
A few hours later, I'm up out of bed and sitting in front of my laptop. I don't get
dressed, the advantage of being at home where no one cares what you look like.
I sit there and type.
As I do so, I relax; writing has always done that for me. I've always been able to
immerse myself into the story, forgetting all else.
I write, I eat and I watch shit on T.V.
When I'm done with the final chapter, I read it over. I edit a few bits, adding more
descriptions etc. before finally sending it off to Emmett.
I sigh, smiling.
I love my new job.
Just a cute little thing about her work. I don't know where half of these
chapters come from, really.
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Chapter 231
I hear the baby before I hear or see Alice.
I immediately sigh, but get up anyway. My quiet day is officially over.
"Hey Bella," Alice says, smiling like the cute little elf girl she is.
"Hey," I say and I take the baby bag from her. It's a fucking big thing but Alice
assures me that Leah needs every little bit of what is in there. "How'd it go?"
She shrugs, smiling. "Alright; they're thrilled about Leah, not so thrilled about
Jasper."
That's what really bugs me. Alice's parents hate Jasper; since the first time they
met him, they have told Alice to get rid of him.
She doesn't listen and I don't think she should. Jasper's great and it's ridiculous
that her parents can't see that.
Stupid parents. Jasper's awesome.
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Chapter 232
It's getting late; later than Edward is usually out. After eating dinner with Alice
and Jasper, I refine myself to our room.
I get out my phone and check it, but there's nothing there, so I decide to send him
a text.
Hey baby where r u? It's getting late xx
I set the phone down after hitting send and wait. While I'm waiting, I get out my
laptop and check my emails.
Again, there's nothing there so I flop down on the bed, irritated, tired and missing
Edward.
When my phone blips, a few minutes later, I sit up eagerly.
I smile when Edward's name pops up and I quickly open the text.
Sorry baby. I'm on my way. There was some kinda accident on the road and the
bus was stranded. Love you xx
I smile and reply, just get home soon. I miss u. Bella xx
irishnlove2shop just alerted me that I'd never said what Edward did for a
living. I did some thinking, but I can't think of anything for this Edward...
considering the hours he works and his personality, what do all of you
think?
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Chapter 233
Unable to take the heat and really wanting to see Edward, I get up and pull on a
jacket. I do it up, go outside with my phone and sit on the steps.
While I wait, I think.
I think about what Edward and I will do once our baby is born. My hand
unintentionally comes to rest on my womb and I try to imagine what it would be like
to be all huge with Edward's child.
I could picture Edward, happy as ever and I could picture myself, also happy.
But… we need plans. I wanna plan our wedding and unlike Alice, I don't give a shit
about looking like a whale. As long as I'm happy and Edward's happy, it'll all be fine.
I look out into the rain – surprisingly, it's hot while it's raining – and smile,
knowing the conversation that I wanna have with Edward tonight.
Sorry I worried some of you guys! But he's fine, don't worry!
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P.S. A thought just occurred to me. Kitkat, don't you DARE drag those 5
chapters out over 5 days. It may result to writermail (writer blackmail)
through chapters... :D
Love you.
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Chapter 234
The sight of my Edward, all sexy and wet in the same clothes that he'd looked so
delectable in this morning, break through my reverie.
"Hey," he says, smiling as he takes the steps two at a time. When he reaches me,
he picks me up and I don't care that he's dripping wet.
"Hey," I sigh, nestling into his arms. Despite being wet, his embrace is strangely
warm and I'm reminded of the feeling of being home.
The thought makes me smile.
"Sorry I'm late," he says and leaning back, he grasps my face in both hands,
leaning down a little to look in my eyes. "What're you doing out here?"
I shrug, "Thinking. It's hot inside."
His eyebrow rose, but he says nothing as he leads me inside and into our
bedroom.
:D See, I told you he was ok!
Oh and also, bit of an announcement.
Now that I've invested in the writing of a drabble, I'm starting to like it
and a lot of ideas are coming to me. One though, has stuck with me - as
always - and I thought I'd share the summary with you.
It's Edward and Bella - naturally - and a Romantic Comedy. I never
thought I'd write something like that because as I said on my profile, people
laugh when I say shit, but that could mean something entirely different. Oh
well... here's the summary:
Bella doesn't believe that a man can say sorry… it just does not exist, surely.
Luckily for her, Edward's the kind of man who likes to say I'm sorry. DRABBLE FIC,
RATED M. AH AND AU
I don't think it's normal practice, but I might give you a taste of the first
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Chapter 235
We're curled up in the bed, in our underwear. Edward had a quick shower after
getting home because he was so wet and I just… yeah, I joined him.
"Hey Edward?" I ask, trailing a finger up and down on his chest.
He smiles down at me. "Hey Bella," he says, catching my hand and bringing it up
to his mouth. He kisses each finger, then my ringer, then my hand and my wrist…
then up the rest of my arm to my neck.
There is something about him. He just… when he looks at you, he looks at you.
When he kisses you… anywhere… he fucking well kisses you.
I sigh happily and shake my head. "Doesn't matter."
Sorry about the little delay... I've been writing the first ten chapters of I'm
Sorry.
I'm still not sure about how funny it is... but oh well.
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Chapter 236
After a few more rounds, because I'm just that horny, we stop and I get to
speaking.
I talk about what I was thinking outside and we determine a lot of things.
It's good… it feels good. It feels like we're just that much closer to sorting things
out.
Edward's job as a manager of certain charities is good. It pays pretty well and
even if it didn't, his parents help out. He assures me that once the baby is born, we'd
still be able to work. His parents – Carlisle and Esme – would naturally help out
whenever they could.
Then we talk about the wedding… which makes me giddy and there's this little
twinkle in Edward's eyes… a happy twinkle.
I smile and we launch into a conversation about wedding plans, Edward playing
with my ring the whole time.
Cuteness.
Alright... I need an honest opinion. Do you think this story is dragging
out? There's just so many things that I want to happen I don't know where to
place them.
Let me assure you though, that there will be something big happening
soon.
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Chapter 237
The next… three weeks… are stress free.
We launch ourselves into wedding details, and Alice is happy to help as is Esme. I
was a little nervous when they first met because… well, it was my best friend and
my mother-in-law to be.
But they got on really well and I think Alice saw her as a second mother… like the
mother she didn't have.
Esme was like that though; she was just such a good person that you couldn't help
butlove her.
Edward and Jasper were working together as well and they'd gone out a few times
to talk about it.
I was happy... even happier when Edward told me that he'd asked Jasper to be his
best man and Jasper had said yes.
*Smiles*
Oh kitkat, PM me. I need help!
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Chapter 238
"Baby, you ready?" Edward asks as he comes back into the room. He's smiling and
I'm smiling because… well, we're going to meet the wedding planner today. It's the
first time, just the beginning but… oh god, I'm giddy.
"Just about," I say and he embraces me.
His hand is on my belly and he leans down quickly to kiss me sweetly, wetly on the
lips.
"I love you," he says as he nips at my lips. I moan, gripping his jacket. "I can't
believe you're in your second trimester now… three months baby. You're glowing."
I giggle and kiss his lips once more before walking away to grab my phone and
wallet, stuffing them in my bag.
"Come on," I say, slinging the bag over my shoulder. I reach out for his hand and
smile as he takes it.
I just have to say that kitkat looked over this chapter and the next six
chapters. I was having a little trouble and I had zero confidence in them and
she assured me that they were good and what was needed at this point.
Thank you, glorious kitkat, for your awesome help! My mentor when it
comes to drabbles!
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Chapter 239
The bus ride is peaceful… nice.
It feels… surreal, being on the bus again with Edward after all these months. It's
good and it just reminds me of how far we've come.
Edward notices my giddy smile and asks, "What?"
I smile, "it's just strange being on the bus with you again." I say and his eyebrow
quirks. I sigh happily. "We're… different to how we were all those months before.
We're closer, happier… getting married. We're here on the bus – the same bus route
that we met on – because we're going to meet our wedding planner. I dunno, it just
kinda hit me, I guess."
He looks down at me and swallows before dipping down. He kisses my lips
sweetly, lingering to whisper, "I love you."
I smile against his lips. "Love you."
Alright... I like these chapters.
Um... are we all reading CaraNo's Second Page? We should be - it's
awesome. I was reading the updates - it's a drabble for the April drabble
wars - and they made me cry! Oh well...
It's good. If you haven't been reading it... read it.
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Chapter 240
The woman is nice. Her name is Irina. She's sweet, ironically irish. She has blonde
hair, blue eyes… she's pretty.
She's also very good at her job. She's informative and passionate and friendly,
good with clients.
She isn't afraid to give her honest opinion on something, which is definitely good
because… well, we want the best wedding we can have.
And fucking hell, she's efficient. With her help we got an idea on venues, dates…
all that other wedding stuff.
She gave some good pointers on shops and wear to buy dresses for pregnant
women. Since we were thinking around three months till getting married, I was
obviously going to be… big.
She gave me the names and addresses of a few shops that specialize in maternity
wedding dresses before moving on to Edward and suits.
Wedding plans! Don't worry... there shall we wedding dress shopping and
all that!
I'm excited, anyone else excited?
Thanks again to kitkat for pre-reading this chapter to see if it was any
good!
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Chapter 241
"Thank you for everything," I say as we head toward the door that lead into the
main foyer.
Irina smiles at the both of us. "That's what I'm here for. I'm glad to work with you
and I can promise that this will be a great, great day."
We say our goodbyes, shaking hands and then head out the door.
It's a short walk to the bus stop. It's pretty busy. The rain and cold doesn't hold
back anyone. Edward and I are kind of… off in our own world. We're happy and
just… us, I guess.
We stand as we wait for the bus, Edward's arms wrapped around my waist from
behind.
A few minutes later, the bus arrives.
Oh oh! It's coming...!
And kitkat, your reviews! Always hilarious! And no, for the record...
maternity dresses don't look like "white trash bags"... (Not that I would
know, but I do know the word research)
*Shakes head*
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Chapter 242
Edward and I walk on the bus, hand in hand. We quick flash our passes, moving
slowly forward into the packed bus.
We sit down as fast as we can and settle back into our own worlds.
Soon enough, the bus starts up and I lean my head on Hoody's shoulder, closing
my eyes and smiling.
His hand is on my tiny belly, but it just makes me happier.
We listen to Edward's iPod, smiling. We're perfectly content together, happy and
all smiles.
The bus stops at the next stop and people start to get on.
They shuffle past our seat, all with dazed looks of frustration on their faces.
It's cold. It's wet. Most people don't like that and of course that makes it messier
when on public transport.
But there's one face that stops me cold; my breathing and my smiling stops and I
freeze up.
Getting away from the scary topic, I have a question for you all.
annaharding was telling me about her wedding and how she didn't have a
wedding planner. I just thought of a wedding planner because... well, my
sister recently got married and she had one. I can't remember if my other
sister and my only brother had one though...
So... when you got married, did you or did you not have a wedding
planner?
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Chapter 243
"I can't do this anymore, Charlie!"
I flinch, then begin to search her face, hoping and praying that it isn't her.
And then my breath hitches, having gasped in shock.
It is her.
"I didn't want this – I didn't want to be stuck here and with a child at twenty-six!"
I whimper and Edward takes that as the last straw.
He leans down to whisper in my ear. "Baby, what's wrong? Who is that?"
How can he not know? I ask myself desperately. We look so similar… we are so
similar.
Oh God.
I shake my head, unable to say anything as I look at her.
She's smiling with some guy. He's buff but I have no idea who he is.
"Beautiful, please," Hoody whispers desperately.
I take advantage of the fact that I'm on the aisle.
I do the only thing I can.
I run.
You know, it's funny really. All of those who thought it was Charlie, don't
worry... kitkat thought the same thing. But you must remember that she had
problems with her mother as well... her father was just... worse, I guess.
Some major drama up ahead!
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Chapter 244
I don't look back.
I can't.
I run out of the bus and stand there, feeling as if I'm losing my fucking mind.
I look up as the bus starts to drive.
My breath hitches and I begin to cry.
Edward's standing there in the bus, just looking at me, so confused and so hurt.
His eyes follow me as far as they can and then he is gone.
I sit down on the bench, waiting for the ground to swallow me.
After a while, I get out my phone and text Edward, knowing it's the right thing to
do.
I'm sorry. I'll explain when I get home. Are you there?
He replies instantly and I can hear the relief through his words.
It's ok, beautiful. Just get home to me as soon as you can. I'm worried about you. I
need to know who that was, baby.
Oh and I just wanna say that the reason there was such a gap in updates
was because I had to go out... like I have to now...
Bye (till later on tonight)!
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Chapter 245
When I get home, Edward's angry.
Like… yelling and pacing angry.
"What were you thinking?" He asks desperately, panting from the anxiety that is
written on his face. "It's wet and cold, Bella. Anything could have happened to you
out there… Christ, you could've slipped or something! What about the baby, huh?
What about the baby's safety? Jesus, you're only twelve weeks along, Bella and you
just run out without a fucking word!"
He huffs angrily and shakes his head. "Dammit Bella, you should have talked to
me! I need to know what's wrong so I can protect you! Whoever that was, you
obviously knew them and knew them fucking well. Why can't you trust me? Why
can't you fucking talk to me? It's my job, as you fiancé, to protect you and to help
you."
He's growling, snapping and huffing and I just stare at him, unable to speak.
Who was expecting him to be angry? (Except kitkat, she already knew... it
was kinda her idea... which actually made a lot of sense).
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Chapter 246
When I don't say anything he huffs and looks up at me for the first time since I
walked through the door.
He takes in my facial expression and stops in his tracks. His forehead creases and
he rushes forward. His finger traces my bottom lip and I start to feel the fear
overtake me.
It's not fear of Edward… it's… it's fear of my mother. Seeing her after all those
years, living and happy without me, without a care in the world…
… it hurt and it sure as fuck scared me.
That's when a thought came to me and it sent chills down my spine…
Had she seenme?
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Chapter 247
I'm shaking and sobbing by the time that Edward picks me up. He carries me into
our room and sits me down on the bed, climbing on after him.
He pulls me onto his lap and holds me as I cry, rocking us softly.
"Talk to me, honey," he says as I try to breathe out of my sobs, calming down.
"Tell me who that was… help me understand."
I look down, playing with the button on his shirt as I calm myself.
Then, when I can finally speak I look up at him. He's no longer angry, which is
good because that was hard and I felt so bad.
"It was my mother, Renée."
Yeah. And I'm sorry... but I need sleep.
So, I'll give you this one... and one more... and then you'll have to wait for
like... oh, I dunno... 8-10 hrs? Not that bad!
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Chapter 248
His arms around me tighten as he offers comfort and I rest my head on his chest.
The sound of his heart is comforting and I close my eyes as I continue.
"When I looked at her, it just… it hurt. Everything came back from the day she
left, everything she said…" I grip his shirt and he hushes me, pressing kisses to my
forehead. "It hurt to see her so happy without me… all these years, somewhere
inside me I'd hoped that she missed me or something… but, to see her happy… it
hurt."
And then I'm finished and I just sit there, waiting for him to say… something.
Alright... last one for tonight.
I'll see you in... around 10 hrs. To be fair.
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Chapter 249
After a few seconds, Edward lays me down on the bed and looks at me. His eyes
are soft, loving and I take comfort in them because they tell me that whatever he's
gonna say next… I'll be able to deal with.
I smile as he lies down next to me.
"I love you," he says softly and I close my eyes, willing back the tears.
"I'm sorry," I whisper, my voice breaking. I feel terrible, knowing that he was
worrying so much about me.
"I know," he whispers against my lips and then he kisses me. Eventually, he
releases my lips, breaking off the kiss only to press a string of kisses down my neck
and to my chest. He looks up sweetly and rolls up my top, baring my pregnant
stomach to him.
Then his mouth is there, and he's pressing soft, sweet, hot and wet kisses there.
So yeah... a few mixed point of views, but I think Edward was right to be
worried. She's pregnant and it's a busy, cold and wet Seattle. They were in a
busy part and wet means bad accidents. Plus, she'd just run away - normal
reaction - but hadn't told him what was wrong...
Hoody is protective. I like my Edward's protective, so it's no surprise that
Hoody is. So yeah.
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Chapter 250
My breath hitches. It's like he's worshipping me… like I'm some goddess or
something.
And while he presses those sweet kisses to my womb, he whispers that he
understands… that he loves me.
"Baby, I need you to tell me in the future," he says, rubbing his nose against my
stomach before pressing more kisses. His tongue dips into my belly button and I can
feel him smiling against my skin.
He looks up at me and stares into my eyes. His lips press against the skin of my
stomach in strange but good pattern across my stomach. "Promise me that you won't
do that again… you scared the fuck out of me. I was so worried that something was
going to happen. It's so cold and so wet, so busy… I felt like I'd failed to protect
you."
The last one rips a sob from my chest.
"I promise."
Yeah... Cuteness.
Oh and I keep forgetting to tell you... the night before last night we hit
over 100 000 hits. I've never had that and never even been close, so it's
really exciting! Thanks everyone for reading, review, favouriting, alerting
and all that you do! It's great to have such involved readers!
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Chapter 251
The fear that my mother had seen me on the bus became more pronounced the
next day.
There are a lot of things that she could do if she had that information… and hell,
she knows where the fuck I live.
She just doesn't know about Edward. But, from my memory, I'd rather she didn't
know about him. She was a right slut back then, who knew how much that may have
grown over the years.
Whenever she called – and yes, it was always her who called out of the two of us –
a major topic of conversation was her conquests and the men – as in plural – she was
seeing.
I just wish she wasn't like this… maybe then we'd get along.
Maybe then I could introduce her to my fiancé without being guarded and
worrying that she'll make a pass at him.
I have around... 14 chapters prewritten and I'm writing more as well.
Just thought I'd let you know.
You've all been quite quiet today... :(
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Chapter 252
Edward calls me… a lot.
He calls when he gets to work, he calls at lunch, he calls in the afternoon and he
calls when he's leaving for home.
I'm actually glad. The support that's in his voice makes a significant difference.
And when he gets home… he spends the entire night endeavouring to make me
laugh.
He makes me laugh so much that I nearly pee in my pants. I never knew that the
man could be so hilariously funny.
He draws a bath for me and carries me to the bath. It's as if he's apologizing for
his reaction yesterday but… I get it. I understand why he was like that and I don't
care. It doesn't matter because… I made a mistake not telling him that.
But my fiancé seems to love to worship me... and I'd be lying if I said I didn't love
every second.
Cute overprotective man that is Edward.
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Chapter 253
"I love you, Edward," I ramble as he pulls off my clothes. "You're fucking amazing,
baby."
It's the middle of the night and I've woken up in a terrible fucking sweat. It's like a
heatwave has washed through Seattle… and only I can feel it.
Seriously, I am fucking lying here, sweating like a pig and Edward's completely
fine.
He chuckles, bringing me out of my thoughts. He dips down and kisses my flaming
shoulder then my cheeks and finally my lips. "I know, honey. I love you too. Besides,
you're pregnant… Dad says it happens… something about hormones."
I make a sound of acknowledgement, but I can't even move my fucking head.
Edward then pulls the doona back, leaving just the thin sheet which he pulls over
us after he gets up on the bed. I immediately roll over into him, my naked chest
against his.
Best. Fiancé. Ever.
Awesomesauce.
Oh and also, just a little errant thought: how does will not become won't...
I just don't understand. Will not... won't.
Gah! Just a little something that forced me to update!
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AN Laptop Troubles & Updating
Hi Guys
So, I've had a little laptop hard drive trouble. Some of you know this
already but my hard drive crashed and burned/died about a week ago. I'm a
student so my school has it and is trying to get the information from it. I
was given my laptop back today but it doesn't have anything on it as they are
still doing tests to get my work from it.
That means that I won't be able to update How to Save a Life because I am
waiting to see if they can save the chapters I have pre-written. It also means
that I don't have the pre-written chapters of I'm a Girl with Power.
In the meantime, I'll be working on A Choice Outtakes – a new one – and a
new drabble and a oneshot on ANZAC day.
Anyways, sorry for the delay in updating… and if I have not been able to
recover anything from my hard drive then I will just have to write new
chapters for I'm a Girl with Power and How to Save a Life and then update
them. It will be – should be – within the next week.
Sorry guys, but don't give up on my stories!
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Chapter 254
The next day is spent in bed.
I hadn't slept a lot the night before and Edward tells me that I'm to spend the day
in bed. He also tells me that Alice is home today, so if I'm not in bed, she'll tell him.
I call Alice a traitor, and she sticks her tongue out.
I sleep a bit; here and there, but never really get into a good, deep sleep; the type
of sleep that I need right now.
By the time Edward comes home, I'm still awake but really tired.
Edward helps me get to sleep – by making love to me – and I begin to fall asleep,
soundly, on his chest.
Tomorrow, we're going to Carlisle and Esme's house.
An idea pops into my head just as I'm dosing off.
I'm back!
Turns out I lost everything, so after figuring out what I had written before,
I rewrote the chapters.
I'm a Girl with Power - along with Femme Fatale - is a little tougher
because I loved the chapter and they were fairly long.
I'll get to them when I can. Promise. But I also lost school work, so I have
to get it from people in my classes. Be mindful of that, please.
Tell me what you think, because I have no idea.
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Chapter 255
"Edward," I call out, sitting on the couch.
I hear his footsteps before I see him. "Yeah, baby?"
I sigh. "It's time. We have to tell your parents."
He frowns. "You sure?"
I shrug, nodding. "Yeah; we're going over there tonight, so… why not just tell
them? I'm fine with it… we're past twelve weeks and no hiccups so far. Let's do
this."
He's holding back a smile and for some reason, I don't like that.
"What?" I ask, eyeing him with narrowed eyes.
His smile shines through. "I'm really excited."
I smile. "I'm really nervous; do you really think Carlisle was right? Will Esme be
happy?"
"Baby, you're giving her a grandchild," Edward says, walking toward me. He drops
a kiss to my forehead, making me smile. "She'll be fucking thrilled."
"Good," I say. "I'm gonna go call Carlisle… hmm, let him know."
Yeah. It's coming, that big reveal.
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Chapter 256
Its seven pm.
Edward and I are standing here, outside Carlisle and Esme's house.
My heart is pounding; with each beat, it throbs in my ears. My palms are
sweating.
Edward squeezes my hand. "It'll be fine."
I breathe… and nod. "Come on, we have to go now. If we don't, I'll never tell
them."
Edward smiles but says nothing and we walk toward their front door.
He knocks and I hear Esme happily alerting Carlisle that we're here.
Then she's opening the door, all bubbly and happy.
"Hello," she says, practically pulling us through the door. "It's great to see you.
Come on, dinner's on the table."
"Oh," I say, this detail adding to the nerves. I mean seriously, turning up late to
the dinner at which you're going to tell you to-be-in-laws that you're pregnant?
That's gotta be bad. "Sorry if we're late."
She shakes her head, "Nonsense."
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Chapter 257
Dinner is a quiet affair.
But that doesn't necessarily mean that it wasn't loaded.
With knowing glances from Esme between Edward and me, and Carlisle's radiant
smile, I'd say something's going on.
It is almost as if she knows.
But how could she?
Wine is offered, and of course, I would normally have a drink but I obviously stick
to the water.
Esme notices this with a little smile and Carlisle just looks at his wife, smirking.
Something is definitely going on.
I barely touch dinner, too nervous to contemplate eating. Edward eventually has
to beg me – with his eyes – to get me to have a little.
And then dinner is done and Carlisle clears the table, leaving Edward and me with
Esme.
"So," she says, taking a sip of her wine. "Carlisle told me you had something to
announce."
I glance at Edward, and he nods.
Breathe.
Here's another... may be the last for the night.
I'm glad that your all glad that I'm back! Don't worry about Bella's
worrying, it's nothing... just the nerves, I'd imagine.
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Chapter 258
In an instant, I am in Esme's arms.
I smile as she releases me but grabs my cheeks, saying, "Oh, you're giving me a
grandchild… a grandchild!"
I laugh at her exuberance, feeling myself relax at the knowledge that she's happy.
She hugs Edward and then Carlisle then sits back down.
That's when the questioning starts.
"How far along?" She asks excitedly.
I smile. "Twelve weeks."
"Twelve weeks," she gushes, looking at Carlisle. "I knew it. I knew that was why
you were so happy that day you came home. Let me see, you're their doctor."
He nods. "Yes, I am."
She kisses him sweetly but quickly before turning back to me.
She asks me the one question that I really can't handle.
"Have you told your parents yet?"
Oh oh.
Wrong question to ask.
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Chapter 259
My stomach drops just as my mouth goes dry.
I can't shield myself from the onslaught of both imagination and memories.
The thought of telling both of my parents is warring against the memories that
proved that they would react badly.
My hand immediately flew to my mouth and – sparing a quick glance at Edward – I
ran to the bathroom, hunching over the toilet, emptying the contents of my stomach.
Edward's there a few seconds later, holding my hair from my face, rubbing my
back.
I can hear Esme and Carlisle outside the door, but I look over and it's shut.
And when there's nothing left to sick up, I collapse into Edward's arms.
I'm more confident with these chapters coming than I was with the ones
before them.
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Chapter 260
Edward holds me, rocks me in his arms.
He does not try to hush me, just places soothing, supportive and understanding
kisses to my forehead. He knows exactly how to calm me, and he works to do so.
I can see in his eyes that he's hurting; he doesn't like to see me like this.
A few minutes later, I get up – keeping Edward with me, needing him and his
support more than anything at the moment – and walk over to the sink.
I wash out my mouth and use the mouth wash – Edward assures me that that's
fine – to rid the awful vomit taste.
"I hate this," I whisper, looking at Edward, biting my lip. My hand goes to my
stomach, and when he notices, his own hand follows.
He smiles down at me, sadly but understandingly.
That's what I need from him; what helps me face his parents.
Yeah... 'course she's gonna tell them... you'll just get a summary.
And I'm sorry about that, but I think I need to move thinks along a bit.
More important things need to happen. :D
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Chapter 261
We walk through the halls silently.
I'm nervous, but Edward's helping me.
He tells me things.
He tells me that they'll be fine with it.
He tells me that I was there for him, and he'll always be there for me.
He tells me that he loves me, and our baby.
He tells me that I'm not in it alone.
That one makes my breath hitch, but I compose myself quickly and kiss him
soundly, telling him how much that means me.
He leans his forehead against mine. "I love you, y'know."
I smile and rub my nose against his. "I know. I love you too."
One more pre written... I have some work to do.
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Chapter 262
Entering the dining room, where Carlisle and Esme are waiting – both looking
worried – is a bit daunting.
I look at them and smile – I think; it could have come out as a grimace – and they
smile back.
Because I know what I'm going to do, having to tell them about my past, I'm kind
of determined but scared of their reaction at the same time.
I know that they could react a million different ways, and I don't know what I'd do
if they react badly.
Edward kisses my hair and pulls me along to our seats.
We sit down in front of them and, with a deep, anxious breath I start explaining
my reaction.
Summary time next chapter
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Chapter 263
Explaining it to them is easier than I thought it would be.
They accept it, as they had accepted their son's dilemma.
When I'm finished, Carlisle looks murderous – as does Edward – but it's Esme that
makes my heart clench.
She's crying… for me; she's crying because of what my parents – my father mostly
– did to me.
I take her in my arms, closing my eyes as my vision gets blurry with tears and
simply try to comfort her.
There's silence in the room except for her sobs and my sniffles for a few moments
before Carlisle takes his wife in his arms, cradling her protectively, Edward doing
the same with me.
I nestle into him, wanting to forget it all… but there's just something about talking
about it. It's like I'm there again, only this time instead of being the abused… I'm
watching.
Its then that fear plagues me.
Sorry for the total lack of updating yesterday. I woke up and had to go to
the doctors, then went to the city then took the train back home to get a few
things that were vital for entertainment because I was going to my
father's/grandma's and they don't have internet.
I'll be updating today, but it comes when it comes. I'm sorry for all this,
I'm trying to write ahead and I really want to finish this within the next two
weeks because I'm writing another E/B drabble. Vamp/human this time. I'll
probably give you the summary next chapter or something.
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Chapter 264
I freeze, my eyes wide as the realization comes to me.
With everything I've been through… all that has been done to me… how could I
possibly be a good mother?
For all I know, I could this to our baby.
I look up at Edward, and he immediately sees the naked fear in my eyes. His hold
on me tightens and he leans down to kiss my cheek, my nose.
Tears start to prickle and before long, I'm sobbing like Esme.
But it's not for pain… it's for the possibility that I could do what has been done to
me to the child that I'm having with Edward.
And the fact that I have that fear in the first place sickens me.
Sad, isn't it?
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Chapter 265
I barely hear Edward's words as he bids them goodbye, something about
"emotional" and "needs rest".
A few minutes later, I'm in my jacket again and Edward's in his at the front door.
Edward's arm is around my waist protectively, comfortingly as he leads us out
through the cold and to the car.
When we get in, I sit there silently, the sobbing having died done into sniffles.
Edward's hands are on the handle, almost white in his effort to control his anger.
For a moment, that scares me and I hate it, because I know that he's not angry at
me, but at the situation… at what I've been through.
I reach out for his hand, both wanting to comfort and desperate for his comfort.
He lets me hold his hand for the drive home.
Next up, we've got talking about fears!
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Chapter 266
When we get home, Edward leads us directly to our room, closing the door.
We lie down, curled around each other in silence, taking comfort from each other.
A part of me needs to dispel my fears, but another is worried of his reaction.
Despite that, I tell him.
I tell him that I'm worried that I could hurt our child.
I tell him that I'm scared that I could completely destroy what we have and our
child because of my past.
And then he speaks, and not only is he understanding… but… but he's been
holding out on some of his own fears.
He tells me that he feels the same way.
He tells me that sometimes he feels that he doesn't deserve me or our child –
deserve happiness – because he knows that he could fuck it all up.
I listen, desperately wanting to dispel them as he did.
How is everyone feeling about HTSAL? Is it getting boring now, because
don't worry if it is - it won't be for long.
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Chapter 267
When we've both talked it through, we are calm again.
It's almost therapeutic really… to know that we can tell each other anything and
just know that the other understands. Because Edward's been through the same
thing; he's been abused just as I have.
We both know how hard it is to pass off as happy when we're not.
We both know how scary it is to have no choice but to face our abuser.
It's scary to have that hold, that power held over you and to be treated as a
puppet… especially when you can't tell anyone.
But we can now; we have that with each other.
And so we fall asleep in each other's arms, contentedly.
Guys! It's Kitkat's birthday! I already sent her a happy birthday through
review... you all should do that too!
Oh and here's that summary I promised. The new drabble I'm gonna post
is called Love Knows No Boundaries... it's E/B, rated M - swearing and
lemons - and it's vamp/human. Canon, of course... well, except for the fact
that Charlie and Renee are together. :D
SUMMARY: A vampire who spent the last eighty years looking for his mate
alongside his family and a human girl who has no one in the world but her parents.
A highly unlikely pairing… but, love knows no bounds… if only life was like that.
100 word chapters... I was thinking maybe two a day... or maybe no
schedule.
Let me know what you think.
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Chapter 268
In the morning, my outlook – and I can tell Edward's too – is lighter.
There had been no dreams the night before, for a change but it makes me feel
hope.
Hope that… that maybe I won't always be so damaged.
That maybe, one day, I can say without a doubt that I am happy and content
within myself… that I have no fears and that my parents don't have any hold over
me.
That I have control over my life… not others; that thought makes me smile.
Edward leaves for work and I take the opportunity to go out with Alice and Esme
for some wedding dress shopping.
I'm excited about the next few chapters... I just have to find her dress now!
I've got a good site and there's a few possibilities. :D
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Chapter 269
"What about this one?" I ask, looking in the mirror over my shoulder.
"Hmm," Alice hums flatly. "I don't know. It's nice, but…" she looks to Esme for an
opinion. "What do you think?"
Esme frowns, pursing her lips. "I don't think it suits you very well, dear."
I nod, personally thinking the same thing. "Only two more dresses."
I lift the dress – it's too long, anyway – and shuffle back into the dressing room. I
remove it carefully with the help of the woman from the store. She helps me step
into the next dress and as soon as I look at it, I grimace.
"I don't think so," I say, thinking about how much of a Cinderella I am in this
dress.
Alas, I show Esme and Alice, who both agree that it's too poofy and not my style.
I sigh thankfully, walking back into the dressing room.
I won't bother giving you the links for those dresses... but I must ask:
Do you want the link to the wedding dress when they find it or when they
actual have the wedding?
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Chapter 270
Unlike before, I instantly like this dress. It's an empire halter neck, sleeveless. It
also has a court train – whatever the fuck that is.
When I release it so it falls to full length, I am relieved to see that it only pools
slightly. I'll probably need four-inch heels, but I don't mind that – I at least have
practice in that area.
I walk out, holding it up so it doesn't get dirty from the seemingly immaculate
ground.
As soon as Alice and Esme see me, they gasp. Or rather, Alice squeals a little
breathlessly and bounces in her seat, Esme gasping politely.
"Oh, darling, you look beautiful," Esme says, getting up from her seat, walking up
to me.
I smile, my cheeks heating up. "Thanks… you don't think it's too much?"
She shakes her head, kisses my temple and steps back just as Alice hits me like a
cannonball.
Yeah... I've decided to give you the link when it comes to the wedding...
which should be fairly soon, methinks.
Oh and Kitkat's new one Down Kitkat Lane is bloody hilarious... well, the
first chapter is. Go check it out!
And what's with the sudden appearance of the "Account Security and
Privacy Best Practices" that comes up when you log into FF now? Strange,
no?
Anyways... I'm off to write some more.
There should be a few more tonight. :D
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Chapter 271
I change out of the dress and we move on to jewellery, accessories and shoes.
Alice and Esme launch into wedding planner mode and get all bossy – Alice more
than Esme.
I sigh, but put up with it, secretly a little giddy in how fun and easy this all seems
to be compared to what Edward and I have had to do in the past few months.
I must have been zoning out, because suddenly Alice is shouting at me. "Oh Bella,
I found the perfect shoes!"
I smile and turn to her. "Show me," I say, holding my hands out for them.
She squeals, giggling and does this weird dance as she places them in my hands.
I look down at them and smile radiantly. "Nice."
No description because I have five pairs of shoes to choose from... and I
can't choose!
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Chapter 272
Soon enough, we find the perfect earrings, but in order for them to look any good,
my hairs gonna have to be practically plastered to my head.
Not that I mind, I guess, as long as they don't use that much product to keep it
there.
We don't go on to look for accessories, for a reason that I don't know… something
about me not needing them.
With the outfit shopping done – for me, at least – we start to talk about my hair
and Alice's dress as my bridesmaid of honour.
She's thrilled to be my right hand woman, and I must admit that it's nice to let her
have her moment… she really did like organizing things.
They decide that while Edward and I are meeting with Irina tomorrow, she and
Esme will be sorting out their outfits – as well as Carlisle and Jasper's.
I feel sorry for them.
Sorry again for the lack of updating. I've been seriously busy lately and
I've been trying to balance it out... :D
I'll be doing some writing in a few hours. Sorry again.
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Chapter 273
Two weeks down the track, it's even busier.
With one week till the wedding – and my belly having practically boomed
overnight – things are crazy.
I've been fitted into the dress twice more and I'm going again the day before the
wedding; flowers, colour schemes, all that has been picked out.
Everything's set, but more importantly, I'm ready.
I feel it in my bones. I feel the want and love that I have for my man; for my
Hoody.
There are just two things that I have to take care of.
The first is the ring; since Edward proposed, I have wanted to engrave his ring on
the inside. I talked to Alice about it and her beam made me think that Edward's
doing the same thing… I really hope he is.
But the other one is a little more… personal.
Today, I'm asking Carlisle to walk me down the aisle.
Alright... here we go. We're getting somewhere now. The next couple of
chapters are going to be stressful.
There's many things that I want to happen before I finish this up. I've been
stuck in a rut for a few days, getting out anything I can... that's why the
updates are so... spontaneous. I went through a mini-phase thinking "my
writing is shit, I'm going to die", I guess and so I talked to Kitkat because I
wasn't sure about a few things...
And here we are. I've made some of the events that I wanted to happen
shorter than I wanted them to be, but this is something I'm happy with.
Updates should come more easily now... I'm working on writing a lot of
them tonight - hopefully up to the wedding, at least.
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Please stick with me... you have no idea how awesome it is to have readers
who stay with you even if you don't update as you used to.
Oh and Femme Fatale and I'm a Girl with Power readers, things are going
good... updates will recommence soon... as soon as I can get Edward talking
to me and Bella talking to me.
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Chapter 274
Edward knows my decision, as do Esme and Alice… basically, everyone knows
except Carlisle.
That alone makes me nervous, especially since I've decided to ask him face to
face… alone.
"Baby, you ready?" Edward calls as he walks out to my side at the lounge room
window from the kitchen.
I bite my lip. "I want this," I nod to myself before turning to Edward. "Do you think
he'll mind?"
Edward chuckles softly, so I slap his chest. He stops and says softly, "Baby, he'll
be thrilled. He pulled me aside when we first told him you were pregnant and told
me that he was happy that I had found happiness… but he also said he probably
wouldn't have approved of anyone but you."
I smile softly. "Ok," I say, racing around, grabbing my bag, wallet and umbrella – it
just happens to be raining.
"Bye," I kiss his cheek.
"Bye."
Gee... sorry for the long AN last chapter... that shouldn't be happening
again until towards the end.
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Chapter 275
The bus ride over to the hospital is a quiet and lonely affair, my iPod being my
only company.
I text Edward to let him know that I've arrived safely before turning my phone off
and heading into the hospital.
I don't bother going to reception, instead walking right up to Carlisle's office.
When I turn into the hall that his office is in, I'm unexpectedly nervous. I feel my
palms start to sweat as my heart begins to pound a little in my ears, first faint but
surely growing to more.
I swallow as I reach his door and raise my hand to knock on the door, just as a
voice calls out my name.
"Bella?"
I just realized something.
I update this fic based on three things:
1. On demand.
2. Reviews, because I know people are reading at the moment.
3. Because I have something to say... as I just have.
Just another random AN for you all...
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Chapter 276
It's a male's voice, and the mere sound and tone of it makes me freeze in
recognition.
I don't turn around or say anything in greeting back.
I just stand there, closing my eyes – instantly regretting that – willing the person
that is somewhere behind me to just… fade away.
They've haunted my memories enough; surely, I think to myself desperately,
internally cursing a God that I had been sure mustn't have existed.
I jump when my father's voice speaks again, right next to my ear, his hot,
disgusting breath on my neck. "Now, now, Isabella; that's no way to be with your
father, now is it?"
His voice, oh god, it's exactly as it was all those years ago… malicious and scary,
yet sickeningly sweet…
It sends chills up my spine.
Ok, ok, before you go off at me and say "why are you doing that! It's her
wedding coming up!" As I said, this needs to happen. There won't be any
massive fall out that'll take chapters and chapters... this is just something
that needed to happen... something I was working towards since the
beginning of this story. :D
It's kind of like character strength building, really...
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Chapter 277
I squeeze my eyes shut, my hand slipping slowly down to the baby in my womb, as
if to protect it from the vile being behind me.
"How did you find me?" I ask, hating how scared I sound.
His finger is on my neck, and I can tell that he's thinking of the bruise that he put
there years ago.
"I have my ways," he says and I whimper as his hand wraps around my triceps,
pulling it as if to dislocate the muscles.
I feel sick as the pain starts, strong, inescapable.
I nearly scream, tears welling and falling until I hear Carlisle's voice.
"Excuse me, but may I ask what you are doing?" His voice is angry, barely
controlled as he comes forward and into my view. His jaw clenches when he sees my
fright. "I advise that you remove your hand," he says glaring toward Charlie.
It seems that I really shouldn't have told you the reasons why I updated...
*sigh*.
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Chapter 278
As soon as Charlie loosens his hold on me, I run to Carlisle's side.
I gasp as I look at my father.
Once well groomed, he's definitely grown older… and I can tell that he's an
alcoholic. Deep circles under his eyes, his complexion sallow, his clothes daggy and
unkempt.
He looks like shit; where my father was once all about image, he isn't anymore…
he's nothing like the man who beat me at night, repeatedly, and told me to never tell
a soul because he had to keep his reputation up…
Besides, in a close-knit down like Forks, no one would believe me anyway. I was
just the "attention grabbing and challenged, hurt and confused child of a mother
who ran away".
I was nothing, I was told repeatedly.
It became all that I knew… but now, I know differently.
If I'm giving you all these updates, then I need you guys to tell me if you
know of any gardens in Seattle that allow weddings.
Sorry for spoiling part of it, but I can't find anything...
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Chapter 279
I don't speak as the silence goes on, instead watching my father.
Charlie is in a state of disbelief, looking between Carlisle and me. I can tell that
he's trying to guess what I'm doing here…
But that's when he looks down at my belly, and sees the bump.
He grins like a sadistic version of the Cheshire cat, plans forming in his head as he
stares at the most vulnerable part of my body.
I cover it with my hand, trying to protect the child in my womb from him and his
prying eyes.
It's only when he looks up at me, smirks and scoffs before turning away and
leaving that I relax.
"Come on," Carlisle says as soon as my father's figure is gone from sight. He says
this gently, his voice calm, though his face and posture is anything but. "Let's go
into my office and talk."
Um, just thought I'd say that none of this is personal experience. A reader
asked that, though I don't know why, so yeah... just clearing that up.
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Chapter 280
"That man…" Carlisle says ten minutes later. I've just finished explaining
everything, and Carlisle is obviously trying to understand the situation. "He's your
father… he's the one that did all those things to you."
I nod, unable to say anything. I look down at my womb, my baby, my hands resting
over it.
I just want Edward… he's my safe harbour. I need him here to keep me safe… to
comfort me in the way that only he could.
Carlisle clears his throat and I jump slightly from the sound. "Right, well, I'll leave
you to tell Edward about that. Now, what is it that you wanted to see me about?"
I smile a little and look up at him. "I was wondering if you would walk me down
the aisle this Saturday."
Cuteness! One more in around 10 minutes, then I'm off to bed.
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Chapter 281
His mouth opens and closes a few times, but nothing comes out.
He becomes quite flustered, to the point where I giggle and he cracks a smile.
"Bella, I'm honoured," he says, quite surprised. "Thank you very much for asking
me. You're like a daughter to me, the daughter I never had. I'd be delighted to walk
you down the aisle."
I smile and get up, hugging the shit out of him – fucking hormones – before
saying, "And you're the father I never had. You've helped me and Edward more than
you will ever know. So really, this is partly my way to thank you."
His eyes twinkle like Edward's do from time and time and I can say no more.
I'm guessing we've all read or are going to read kitkat's latest chapter of
DandD. I must say... she left a bitch of a cliffy.
Dammit kitkat, what are you doing!
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Chapter 282
"Baby, I'm home," I call as I walk through the door. I toss the keys into the little
bowl before putting my bag down in our room.
I can hear Edward as he speaks to someone on the phone, but I can't truly make
out the words.
He promptly hangs up and smiles – tightly – as he comes and greets me.
"You know," I say simply and he blinks.
"Yes, I do," he says softly, hugging me to him. "Carlisle called and explained… but
I'm trying not to concentrate on that."
I smile seductively. "Well, if you get a bath ready… I can help you with that."
He kisses me deeply, passionately, before nearly running into the bathroom.
I huff a laugh.
Yeah... uh, no shower sex next chapter. Sorry guys. :D
Oh and another random AN: I don't like to use '!' that much. Not even
when people are shouting because if you over use an exclamation mark, I
think it looks cheesy.
That rule has an exception, of course... Alice.
She's just so happy and bouncy all the time... I can't not write something
she said excitedly without an exclamation mark.
Anyways...
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Chapter 283
After a very… relaxing… bath, we move to the bedroom, both tired after a hectic
day. We're home alone, and so we use the time to lie on the bed and just… talk.
It's kind of like therapy, in a way. It's… comforting to be able to just relax and not
dwell on things anymore.
Alice and Jasper get home, both having been busy on something or rather wedding
related – Alice is very manipulative and had coerced Jasper to help… I shudder to
think just what she said she'd give in return for his help.
We ignore them, only coming out from our small, little shell for dinner and some
T.V., by that stage, Alice and Jasper are in the bedroom with little baby Leah.
My mind wanders away from me, imagining Edward and me holding our child.
I escape to those imaginings for a while, forgetting all else.
Yeah. :D
Nothing chapters are awesome.
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Chapter 284
The next few days leading to the wedding, things are still hectic.
Edward and I barely see each other – between work and last minute arrangements
and well… generally, life, we've been busy to the point where it's ridiculous. The
only time we see each other, is when we fall asleep… together and in each other's
arms.
Despite that, I'm getting more and more excited as the days and hours countdown
to our wedding day. I look like Alice does every day… bouncing annoyingly.
Not only that, though, I've had a few… minor breakdowns.
First, there was some sort of problem with the celebrant. Since we're having a
small, intimate wedding with not many guests – only nine not including Edward and
me – we had decided to not have a wedding in a church, but in the Rose Garden near
the Four Seasons hotel – which we're staying at for our wedding night.
Alright... this is the last one for tonight.
I'll see you through reviews tomorrow.
Please review. We're getting close to their day. Only about four days left
till the big day (within the next ten chapters it'll start).
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Chapter 285
I'm relatively not busy until around midday – it's at that time that the ring shop
calls to tell me that the ring is done.
Alice and I have had this discussion millions of times. She said that I should just
let her take care of it, but I adamantly refused; this is my gift to my
very-soon-to-be-husband, so it would stay in my possession until I slid it onto his
finger.
Alice still tried to guilt trip me into doing things her way, but I refused and
ignored her. This is my thing, and I would deal with it.
And so, I simply tell her that I'm going to get the ring, before I leave for the
shop… again, travelling on a bus.
The man is kind as he shows me the ring and the engraved words. I about cry; it's
perfect… exactly what I had wanted.
I go home.
I laughed at myself when I wrote the last like. "I go home". Hehe.
Good morning all, by the way.
I think we may get up to the wedding today.
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Chapter 286
As soon as I arrive home, I hide the ring within my things, making sure Edward
can't find it.
When I'm satisfied with the hiding place, I exit our room to find Alice doing the
last 'dress check' as she liked to call it on Esme's outfit. Having already seen here
took away some of the surprise, but still, Esme is gorgeous in her outfit.
Suddenly craving some ice cream and cold sausages, I grab the leftover cold
sausages from last night's dinner out and then the tub of vanilla ice cream. I dipped
the sausage in the ice cream and just about fucking moaned at the taste.
So. Good.
I eat all of the sausages that way, before eating some of the ice cream along. I
then down a glass of diet coke caffeine free.
By the time the day's done, I'm worn out, falling asleep on the couch.
I'll leave the descriptions of the dresses and outfits for the wedding
chapters. It's easier that way... fresher in your mind.
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Chapter 287
The next two days are all about final, definite touches.
Alice sits Edward and me down, telling us a few of the finer details. Since there're
only nine guests, there's no reason for an official practice.
Angela and Ben – friends from Forks High… the only friends I had in that town –
fly in on the second of the two days. They're picked up by Alice while Edward and I
meet with Irina one last time.
That night, Alice is on our backs about the last two nights being spent alone.
Because of that, we make love for the last time before our wedding night; a
passionate, emotional affair; full of love.
Edward then leaves, having opted to stay with Carlisle and Esme till our wedding.
For some reason, that gives Alice, Angela and Rose – who came over from her
apartment – the illusion that I want to have a hen's night.
We're moving a bit quickly, but I am hoping to get this bit done so we can
move on to the actual wedding and stuff that comes after that.
Haha. No, I'm not telling.
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Chapter 288
"You're forgetting one key fact," I say to them as they argue about going to the
pub for shots. They shut up immediately and look at me. I point down to my womb.
"Four months pregnant guys. I doubt Edward would be happy – or his father, our OB
– to hear that I was drinking alcohol whilst pregnant." I shrug, an idea occurring to
me. "And besides, I'd rather stay home and watch movies… do girlie things…"
I trail off, looking… thinking…
"Well then," Angela says, smiling as she looks at the others. Since her arrival
earlier today, she's fit right in with Rose and Alice. They love her as their own sister.
"Let's give her what she wants… and unfortunately, she's right. Edward would have
our head."
"Hmm," Rose says.
"True," Alice concedes, before jumping up and squealing/bouncing. "I'll go get nail
polish and movies."
We sigh… but it's half-hearted.
Can't stop an excited Alice!
Agh, there we go with the exclamation marks again.
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Chapter 289
The night is, as a whole, very nice.
We paint our nails and gossip about hot celebrities whilst watching classics like
The Princess Bride. It's a fun night, full of hilarity and Alice's squeals… and Rose's
snarks… and Angela's sweetness.
I must say that I have missed this; this kind of freedom. But I know that I'll have
this still… it doesn't really change anything in that respect, well… not much, at least.
Besides… there's always email.
By the end of the night, the girls are drunk on alcohol and if at all possible, I'd say
I'm drunk of apple and orange juice. I collapse onto Edward and my bed, grabbing
my phone and texting something or rather to hopefully the number that is Edward's
before tucking myself in and falling asleep.
Sorry for the lack of updating the past... what? 6 hours maybe? Oh well,
either way I was working on an assessment... and going nowhere.
One more tonight, methinks.
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Chapter 290
The next day is perhaps the most nerve-wracking of them all.
The day before the big day.
I now knew, or at least, kind of knew why people referred to it as a 'big day'. It is
certainly a big day; it's a fucking huge day… but it's more about what it means…
what the point and value of the day actually is.
It's the day that, religious or not, you bind yourself to the person you love for the
rest of your life.
It's the day that you gain whole other family, sometimes one that is more dynamic
and happy than your own.
It's the day that you truly begin your life.
I sigh blissfully as I turn around in bed. The first thing I check is my phone.
Edward must have been drunk because the thing that he wrote has me moaning
and laughing at the same time.
I decided to leave it with that last chapter last night because if I'd given
you this one, I wouldn't have one first thing in the morning.
So… cue the morning update!
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Chapter 291
Soon, my aloneness is broken.
Alice's hand is banging on my door. "Bella, we're doing your last 'dress check'!
Come on; get the fuck up and out of there!"
I hop up and race to the door, unable to stop my excitement from controlling my
body.
I am getting married tomorrow, I think and it echoes within me, making me feel
like goo.
Ten minutes later, Alice is all set and I'm standing in my wedding dress. The fabric
feelings amazing against my skin but as I look in the mirror, all I want is to see
Edward's reaction to the dress.
My stomach growls and Alice laughs. "Just a few minutes more, Bella. Then you
can eat all the fridge's contents. Promise."
And I do just that… pretty much.
Ok, so here's my dilemma.
You see, I'm going on a school camp from Tuesday morning to Friday
night. This excursion is no laptop but phones and iPods are accepted and
there's hardly that much internet access.
If I have enough chapters pre-written, I would be able to put them up on
my FF site and then upload them… maybe two on Tuesday, two on
Wednesday one or two or the next two days.
Here's my question. I could do that, but that would mean less chapters for
the next two days. So, which is it? Get all the chapters that I can out on the
weekend and Monday then none until Friday, or the explained possibility
above.
Please let me know what you want.
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Chapter 292
"Bella, come on," Alice calls, coming down the hall from the kitchen.
I'm standing here, in front of the mirror, looking at myself.
This is it; I'm getting married today. Well, I'm actually getting married now.
"Bella!" Alice calls again, outside my door now.
"Coming," I say back loudly before clearing my throat.
When I look at myself again for the final time, I smile. I'm ready and, I love
beautiful if I must say so myself; I'm glowing with happiness and the baby bump
looks nice in this dress… pleasantly.
"For the love of fuck, Bella," Alice says, sighing dramatically and I giggle, quickly
slapping my hand over my mouth.
But Alice hears that.
"Oh, don't you laugh at me, missy." She growls out, banging on the door. "The cars
are here."
Breathe in. Breathe out.
And then I turn around and walk out the door.
Ok. So I'm not so sure about this chapter... I think it's missing something
but I knew I had to get SOMETHING out... and what better way than to leave
you with a cliffhanger over night?
Oh and thanks to all those who said not to worry about updating whilst I'm
on camp, but I think I'll go with Kitkat – I find that funny for some reason –
and say that I'd updated once or twice during camp. You see, it's a history
and geography camp. I'm going to want to update for the geography part…
well, because I don't like Geography.
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Don't worry though; that doesn't mean I won't be paying attention. I will…
I'll just want your reviews a little more to make me smile and sometimes
laugh. :D
Also, I'm in the process of writing the next two chapters for Femme Fatale.
I have not given up. Promise.
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Chapter 293
When I exit my room, Alice is there.
I can see that she's excited, because after my day, she's next. I'll be around seven
months for her wedding.
Knowing Alice's mood swings about being a whale at that stage – even though she
was fabulous when pregnant – I was not really looking forward to that stage.
Esme has tears in her eyes as she hugs me and I felt her shaking with sobs.
I, on the other hand, am practically vibrating with excitement.
I look up from Esme's shoulder at Alice, who's smiling. When she notices that I'm
looking at her, she mouths, "You look beautiful."
I roll my eyes, but mouth, "Thank you," back.
Rose is meeting us at the church, so it's only the three of us.
I can't wait and that only increases as we walk out the door and get in the cab of
the car.
Sorry for not updating. I was going to, but it's mother's day weekend
(mother's day is tomorrow) and our family went on a drive thing...
So yeah... I'm working on the next update, but I think you'll only get
around 2 more at the max.
LINKS to photobucket all things HTSAL album: s1108 . photobucket .
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Chapter 294
As soon as the door closes and everyone is in the cab of the car, nerves start to
kick in.
Alice and Esme are talking bouquets and last minute arrangements.
I don't see why they're going into so much detail, though; there are only nine
guests or something and it's not in a church.
I've got the something new, something blue and something borrowed; The dress is
new, the flowers are blue and white and Alice is lending me her garter.
I'm not too stuffed on the tradition, but they're adamant.
I am pretty sure they've forgotten about the something old… that is, until we
arrive at the venue, The Rose Garden.
We get out of the car and I start walking to Carlisle, who's waiting at the door but
Esme pulls me back.
"Now, dear," she says, smiling. "Your hair is missing something."
I look down and gasp.
Sorry I didn't give you those two chapters last night. I got distracted and
busy... so yeah.
Next one in around an hour or something.
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Chapter 295
"Esme," I gasp, smiling and sniffling. "Oh, you don't have to-"
"Hush," she cuts me off, smiling gently. "You're a daughter to me; you will
officially be soon enough."
I smile, swallowing, my throat tight with emotion. "Thank you," I whisper and she
nods.
I bend my head down so she can see what she's doing.
Soon enough, she's clipped the diamond-encrusted hair pin into the bun and I lean
back.
"You look beautiful," she says and then she takes my hand, leading me to Carlisle.
Alice is already standing next to her.
I let go of Esme and take Carlisle's arm.
"Come on," I say, smiling at them. "I don't wanna keep my husband waiting any
longer."
"You've got to be married first," Alice says and I stick my tongue out.
"He will be soon enough. Now let's go," I say, smiling.
*2 hours later...*
I should probably post again now...
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Chapter 296
We meet up with Carlisle after a few seconds, just inside the door.
He looks me over and smiles, nodding his head.
"You look gorgeous," he says sweetly, kissing my forehead. "My son is most
definitely lucky to be marrying you today."
I smile back and sniffle, my emotions and hormones running high. "Thanks; how is
he?"
Carlisle laughs a hearty laugh, "Agitated, impatient, nervous and excited."
I laugh as well, tears welling; Hoody was just as emotional as me, then. "Well
then, we wouldn't want him to keep him any longer would we?"
Carlisle smiles, "That would not be for the best, no."
I relax my shoulders and look towards the door that leads to the Rose Garden.
"Well then, let's get me out there to my husband."
Alright... ah, I'm giddy.
Now, be mindful that this is my first wedding - ever - so I'm a little
nervous about the reaction it gets. I'm liking where this is going and what's
going on, and I just hope that you do too.
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Chapter 297
Carlisle takes my arm, smiling so widely his face could have cracked in half at any
moment.
I grip his arm and swallow, waiting as Alice sorts herself out to be standing in
front of me.
Esme has already gone out to where Edward and the rest of them were and a little
envy washed through me. I want to be out there.
I'm jumping slightly on the spot, excitement and nerves mixing together into a ball
of… well, of something big.
Carlisle's speaking soothingly, like the doctor he is, trying to calm me but it's no
use.
I'm so impatient that I might even snark at Alice about why we have to wait in the
first place.
And then, just a few minutes later, right on time, the music starts and Alice walks
out and down the white material aisle.
Ok. Here's where I am going to be a bitch and stop. I've written around
three more chapters and I need to do some things before I keep going.
Don't get angry... you'll get perhaps one more tonight. Bitch to me then.
*Giggles*
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Chapter 298
The music is just how Edward and I had wanted it to be; strings instead of a piano
or whatever.
The sound is similar to that of the wedding march, but less boring.
I breathe in and out deeply, trying to quell my impatience. It's a hard task, not
easily done but Carlisle rubs my arm rhythmically and that seems to help a lot.
I bit the inside of my cheek gently, tapping my toes inside my shoes. I just want to
be out there already.
And finally, it's our cue.
We walk forward slowly, Carlisle guiding us to pace with the music.
I'm too far gone to do any of that, but when we come around the bend, two things
happen.
I see Edward… and Carlisle's hold on my arm becomes restraining.
Ok, so I logged in to FF and this caught my eye. It's under notable
changes, May 11 2012:
Story page received a slight facelit to put more focus on the review link.
That means, we were right, kitkat! It WAS to emphasize the review button
so we'd get more reviews...
YES!
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P.S. You may bitch at me... this is the last for the night. Sorry!
I'm off to bed.
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Chapter 299
I want to run to him.
I want to fucking kiss the shit out of him.
I want to marry him.
I want to say our 'I do's' right now.
But Carlisle is now holding me back, gently and I can't do any of it.
I swallow and sniffle as emotions overwhelm me again for a moment. I hear
Edward doing the same and I smile at him, my breath hitching and catching in my
throat as I try to steadily walk towards him.
He looks delectable.
His suit is light grey, with a white shirt and the tie is dark blue and light blue;
striped.
But it's his smile, relieved and ecstatic and loving, that blinds me.
And when we reach him, he simply looks at me before taking my hand.
"You're beautiful."
Fuck yeah, kitkat. It's a good idea.
Oh and here's the link to my photobucket. On it's the suit that Edward and
Carlisle and Jasper are wearing (it's the same): s1108 . photobucket .
com/albums/h411/bexie25/How%20to%20Save%20a%20Life/?action=view¤t=
CarlisleandEdwardsuit . jpg
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Chapter 300
I smile and whisper back, "you're not too bad yourself."
He chuckles, his eyes dancing with light and happiness, making my heart swell.
The celebrant clears his throat, causing a chuckle to ripple through our small
amount of guests.
My cheeks flame and Edward chuckles lowly, glancing over at me as we make our
way forward a few steps to the celebrant.
"Are we ready?" He asks, smiling at us.
I glance at Edward at the same time that he glances at me.
My throat tightens and I have to clear my throat to be able to speak.
"Yeah. We are."
I could be bitchy and make it all dramatic, but I want the wedding and
honeymoon to be relatively non-dramatic. :D
Sorry I haven't updated till this morning. I had maths and couldn't do
anything on my laptop and then I was busy for the next half an hour. But
period 3, I had an English essay to write on I Have a Dream and To Kill a
Mockingbird.
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Chapter 301
"We are gathered here today…" the celebrant says, but I can't hear anything past
those few words.
I'm so happy and excited it's ridiculous; I feel like I'm soaring.
I swallow and glance from the corner of my eyes at Edward. My lips twitch when I
realize that Edward is doing the exact same thing.
It's just so plain simple; we're in this together… we always have been.
The only distance now is that we'd be able to call each other "husband" and
"wife".
I want to scream it out to the world; I'm in love and I'm happy.
Fucking finally.
Edward tugs gently on my hands and I look up at him to see his eyes dancing with
amusement.
I turn towards him then, cocking my head to the side a little and he swallows, his
eyes swimming with emotions.
I sniffle and smile; a dam breaks.
Next up... wedding vows.
Who do you think will go first?
And you know what, I think I'll upload the ones I have tonight and then
start back up on Friday night when I get back. :D
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Chapter 302
The traditional ceremony passes right before our eyes.
But when it comes to the exchanging of rings and the vows, time slows.
Edward goes first, seeing that I'm too emotional to even speak.
"Bella," he begins, and I can tell that he's struggling immediately. He swallows
and I smile in encouragement; he returns a crooked half-smile in return. "Baby,
you've been there for me from the beginning; from that first time we met on the bus.
You taught me what real love is. You've helped me overcome my demons, one by
one, but it's the things that you've given me that count." He slides the ring onto my
finger and I sigh silently smiling up at him as a whimper slips from between my lips.
"I love you; and for everything you've given me, I'll try to repay you the best I can.
You're my world, my happiness… my everything."
Sorry, kitkat. You were wrong.
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Chapter 303
Then, it's my turn.
"You've given me so many things; you've opened up a whole new avenue that
alone I could never have dreamt of. You've been there every step of the way, even
when I felt like I was drowning. You've given me all that I am now. You captured my
attention that first time I saw you, and it hasn't slipped from you since… I don't
think it ever will."
I take a breath, but it catches in my throat.
"But more than anything, you've given me love and happiness and you've helped
me completely and absolutely. You never complain when I wake up in a sweat in the
middle of the night but I'm too tired to do anything to stop it. No, you do it for me."
Edward chuckles and I hear others resound in the small garden.
I slide the ring onto his finger, smiling.
Who liked them? I liked them. :D
Anyways... um, some reviews and then the last chapter until Friday.
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Chapter 304
I sob a quiet little sob, only audible to Edward and me at the sight of our rings as
we hold each other's hands.
"I know," Edward whispers, just loud enough for me to catch it.
I look up at him and he's smiling softly but there's emotion – raw and powerful –
flooding within them too. "I know."
I smile and swallow, but the celebrant's voice catches me before I fall into them.
"I now pronounce you husband and wife," he says and there's a silence as I look at
Edward.
"Husband," I say to myself in awe, only for Edward to echo it.
"Wife."
We edge toward each other slowly, and I can tell that this kiss, whilst soft, will be
the greatest we've had in meaning.
"Well, come on," the celebrant says and we look at him. He smiles, shaking his
head. "We haven't got all day. Kiss her."
Haha! I like that nameless celebrant who will remain nameless.
Now, I'll see you next on Friday night... please leave your lovely reviews
and all those who need to catch up, do so.
Bye now,
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Chapter 305
He leans in, his mouth half open.
I can taste his breath on my lips.
I lick them and he swallows, his mouth closing in…
… When our lips touch, it's soft.
With all the love between us, I thought it would be stronger.
But it's not… and that alone makes it so much better.
It's soft, sweet… the confirmation of a promise to cherish, love as long we will live.
It reduces me down to my soul and in that moment, I truly feel like Edward's part
of me.
His hands reach up to cup my cheeks in his stronger, stable hands; the touch
alone in electrifying.
It's like a pulse and I realize…
… My heart is pounding.
Flesh, bone and muscle are stripped away… my soul and heart bear for him to
take.
And I know, more than anything that he will take care of them.
Hello!
Did you miss me? I sure missed you. I got back and I was like, right. I need
to do some reading and some writing. I've been reading all the time on the
camp because of my phone, but there were stories on my laptop that I
needed to finish reading.
I finished one, which was particularly good and then got to betaing a
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chapter of TwilightLoverGirl1's Caught.
I then wrote the rest of the I'm a Girl with Power chapter. I uploaded that,
did more reading and decided to finally copy this chapter from the book I'd
brought with me in case any of my Bella's and Edward's talked to me.
So here I am. And I'm glad to be back... also glad to say that I have one
more pre-written chapter for tonight.
Oh and no updates tomorrow morning; doctor's appointment.
*Smacks head against wall then rubs it.*
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Chapter 306
We pull back, coming back down to earth…
And back to the sounds of our family as they cheer and woot…
Well, that's mostly Emmett.
"Well," the celebrant says and we look at him. He smiles, "when I told you to kiss
her, I didn't mean maul her in front of the family."
He laughs at his own joke and I blush as Edward smiles, chuckling along with him.
We wrap our arms around each other then, holding each other as a plethora of
emotions flood through us.
Happiness…
Love…
Excitement…
Giddiness…
Edward kisses my nose wetly, making me giggle.
"I love you," he says with a blinding smile.
"And I love you," I say back, looking up into his eyes.
The love there makes me nearly cry and I bury my face in his chest, smiling.
Home.
Yeah. So that's it for tonight.
I've got another chapter written, but I didn't want to give you a cliffy first
night back. :D I'm being nice, see?
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Oh and I just realised that I could finish this off there, but I wouldn't.
We need a few things to happen first.
Please review. And kitkat, hurry up on that chapter, eh?
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Chapter 307
Eventually, we realise that we are going to have to go out to the family.
Edward's hand is on my lower back as he guides me forward, to our family.
Hugs, squeals, tears, kisses and congratulations are thrown toward us and I try to
concentrate. I really do.
But my thoughts are only on my husband; my Hoody.
I can't help but sneak little glances at him, needing little glimpses of his blissed
out face.
I find myself unable to look away as I watch him laugh with his father.
He seems to feel my eyes on him, because he looks at me and smiles that smile
that makes me weak at the knees.
I swallow and excuse myself from Rose and Alice's presence, making my way to
him.
And when I reach him, he embraces me, his chin on my head.
We stand there, until suddenly, I feel something.
This one is a reward for kitkat, because she gave us the second chapter. :D
But it also leaves you with a cliffy and it will stay that way till tomorrow
because I don't have it in me to write another.
6-7 am starts to 10-11 ends do that to you.
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Chapter 308
I gasp and look down.
Edward notices and looks down with me. "Baby, what's wrong?"
I look up at him, frowning slightly. "You didn't feel that? You didn't feel something
against you just then?"
His eyebrow quirks, "No, honey, I didn't. What is it?"
I smile, knowing that he'll be ecstatic. I grab his hand and held it against my
stomach, just where the baby kicked.
Nothing happens and he looks at me.
I sigh and bite my lip for a moment. I sigh again and decide to just tell him. "The
baby kicked."
His smile is slow, but beautiful; the most amazing thing in the world.
My heart swells.
He swallows, tears welling in his eyes. He encases my cheeks with his palms. "Let
me feel again."
And then his hand is there, against our child.
The sight is perfect.
Aww... see? Ye of little faith - I would never have something bad happen on
their wedding day! And that goes for most of my other stories!
Where's kitkat? She seems MIA except for new, luscious chapters. :D
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Chapter 309
There's a frown of concentration of Edward's face as he looks down at my belly.
His hand is firmly against my stomach, both of us practically not breathing as we
anticipate our child's movement.
I know we're attracting the attention of the guests – not that we didn't before – but
we're so far gone that there's no point in denying it.
And then, there's a soft little kick. It's soft but quick against my already hard belly.
It makes my breath hitch and I swallow hard, trying to hold back my emotions.
Edward's too far gone, however, and breath leaves him in a huff. He strokes my
womb and the smile I shoot at him is watery.
But so is his.
I know. I'm sorry.
Do you wanna know what took so long? That's ok if you don't... I'll tell you
anyway.
1. I couldn't get anything. Bella wasn't talking to me.
2. I was concentrating on my other story, A Choice, because the current
chapter is 16 pages so far and I'm having trouble with it. But, it needs to be
there.
3. School work. Enough said.
4. Just... generally focusing on other stories. :D
Please review and tell me that I haven't lost more readers than I have
already.
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Chapter 310
After a kiss and some clapping, there's music and food.
The appetisers were just as we had tried the few weeks before today; nice, rich
food that just made my mouth water.
There's light conversation until, unexpectedly, Emmett's up there on stage, a
microphone in hand.
"Shit," I mumble, looking down.
"What?" Edward whispers and I glance at him.
"Emmett plus microphone equals Bella's embarrassment," I say and his lips
twitch.
"Edward Cullen, if you want a wedding night you will shut up." I say, glaring at
him.
That sobers him up enough for him to respond, "Baby, I didn't say anything."
"Oh," I begin furiously, but that's when Emmett's voice booms.
"Oi, cut it the fuck out you too! We've got more important shit than a wedding
night display going on."
Oh Emmett. I should kill you in your sleep.
I'll be honest here. I don't know shit about weddings. Sure, I've been to
around… four… three being all of my siblings, but I can't remember all that
went down.
So, I'm going for vagueness.
My history teacher would kill me.
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Chapter 311
"Alright," Emmett says, satisfied that he has everyone's attention.
I, on the other hand, am mortified.
"So, I was thinking about coming up here and saying something; more
importantly, I was thinking about what I would say." Emmett's grin is evil as he
winks at me. "I knew that Big Belly wouldn't like it if I did… so I did it anyway."
I glare at him. Did he just call me fat? Pigheaded shit is grinning like there's no
fucking tomorrow.
And there wouldn't be once I was done with him.
He continues. "When I first met our Belly, she was uptight. Rose had warned me
that she would cut off my dick if I did anything to brash."
"Yeah," I call out. "And for once in your life you listened."
"I always listen to my Rosie," Emmett pouts. I nearly choke on giggles.
Fucker never listened to his wife.
No joke; I called my sister Big Belly when she was pregnant.
*Gigglesnort*.
In turn, she called me Little Belly.
Sorry I didn't update today. I had an annoying thing on at school. :P
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Chapter 312
Emmett's speech isn't all that bad. Despite the odd embarrassing comment and his
personal opinion on my sex life, it's a cute and endearing speech.
He ends the mother of all speeches with this, "to my sister in all the ways that
count and her lucky-ass hubby." He raises the glass and winks at me, again making
me blush. "Bella and Edward."
Edward kisses my flaming cheek, making me giggle and flap at his chest. He
chuckles, grabbing a hold of my hand as he looks at me.
His eyes are glimmering with happiness; there's a light there that I've only seen
on a rare occasion. His lips – plump, red, full and ever so sexy – are pulled up into a
sexy smile.
It's in that moment that I don't care about all the guests; I just want to be with
Edward.
Alone.
And… preferably… naked.
Yep. I went there.
And I'll go there again... soon.
In the meantime, I'm reading The Space Between by KTCM. Olderward.
Hot. Oh and I'm also trying my hand at Humour/Romance. Drabble, of
course and E/B.
If you want the summary, review. :D
I went there too.
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Chapter 313
After more speeches – all of the more… delicate nature – dinner is served. It's
either pork with pineapple or veal tortellini and some really nice sauce.
Edward has the former and I have the latter.
By the time of our first dance, I've consumed enough apple juice to make me giddy
while Edward's relatively sober.
Flightless Bird, American Mouth comes on and I cling to Edward as we move
subtly. My arms are wrapped around his neck and he's leaning down a little to kiss
me… my cheeks, my lips, my nose; even my eyelids.
Have I found you?
Edward smiles. "We'll, you've most certainly found me… have I found you?"
I hum, closing my eyes as he leans his forehead against mine.
I never want this moment to end.
Cute... sappy, but cute.
Hey, I just want some happiness before we get to some serious issues that
need wrapping up.
I'll say no more.
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Oh and that summary is still up for grabs. ;0
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Chapter 314
"Bella," Edward whispers, his breath fanning against my skin hotly.
"Yeah?" I whisper back, smiling secretively as I open my eyes.
"I love you," he says and I melt.
"I love you."
"Alright, sappy-heads," Jasper says and our heads snap toward him. "I want a
dance with a bride, please Edward."
Edward smiles, let's go of me and raises an eyebrow. Jasper nods and then we're
dancing.
"So," Jasper says. His southern drawl and smile drunk.
"Yes Jasper," I say, giggling. He's so wasted and when I look out for Alice, I see
that she's not exactly entertained with that fact.
"You did good," he says and I look at him, shocked.
Then I smile, my eyes searching for my husband. My smile grows at the word.
Husband.
I don't think I'll ever get tired of that.
I glance at Jasper, smiling, "Yeah. I kinda did, didn't I?"
Hello
Surprise! Were you expecting an update this early in the day? No? That's
ok.
Oh well. I thought this chapter was good. We haven't had a lot of Jasper
and Alice, so I thought it was important for Jasper to say something at their
wedding.
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Chapter 315
"Edward, please," I say as he continues his lavish attack on my neck. I close my
eyes, breathing in shakily as my hand clenches in his hair. "Let's go."
He smiles against my neck, "I thought you'd never say so."
He detaches himself from me, and if it weren't for the fact that we were in the
presence of others… I'd jump him.
His eyes are so light, cocky, happy and filled with desire it takes my breath away.
"You're beautiful, you know that?" He says and I smile, blushing as I look down.
His finger is under my chin and he drags it up so I'm looking at him. He raises an
eyebrow, "Don't look down, baby. I only speak the truth."
I wrap my arms around his neck and kiss him. "I know… thank you."
"No problem," he says and then his smile grows cheeky. "Now let's go."
Ooh yeah. I'm back. Sorry for the lack of updating the past few hours. I
was busy getting a fringe cut and my hair slightly layered.
Oh and here's the summary for the new drabble. It's AH, M (for obvious
reasons) and E/B:
Edward just wants to propose to his girl; preferably, without a hitch. I have reason
to worry, because Bella's fucking perceptive and her Dad's a cop. Don't even get me
started on her mother... or the fact that we're only seniors. M, Lemon, Drabble.
Should be interesting...
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Chapter 316
After goodbyes and the traditional "run under the people-arch thing", we're in the
car. There's a driver, so we can just focus on each other.
Safe to say, I'm sitting on Edward's lap – not straddling, rather to the side. There's
nothing brash; there's just his hand on my belly, our breaths in sync and our
foreheads against each other. We're looking into each other's eyes and I smile as his
other hand comes up to cup my cheek.
"I know I've said it a lot," he says, smiling goofily. "But I love you and you are…"
he looks down at me; at my stomach, at the dress, at my breasts, "Stunning; every
fucking inch of you."
I moan, before biting my lip. "You're awfully sweet, y'know."
The car stops then, though, before he can respond.
At the same time, my heart accelerates.
We're here.
Hate to be a bitch, but if I give you the next chapter, it'll have to be the
last for a total of 24 hours. And I'm sure that shit won't fly well, so we'll end
it here... for now.
Until tomorrow night,
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P.S. Should I start posting that other drabble, Love Knows No Boundaries
(the vamp/human ExB one)?
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Chapter 317
"What room is that, sir?" The receptionist asks, looking at his screen.
Edward's arm is wrapped around my waist, my head on his shoulder and I feel the
vibrations as he speaks, "The Governor's suite."
There's more chatter about which governor's suite but I zone it all out. I'm
incredibly eager for us to be alone; just the two of us.
The baby moves again and I see, from the corner of my eyes, Edward's smile as he
feels it against his hand.
I'm smiling too.
I never thought we'd be able to have this; in the midst of everything that's going
on outside the wedding with the Masen's… I never thought we could have this sense
of normality.
But we do… and I wouldn't change anything for the world.
Hello.
Yeah, I know. 24 hours turned into around 8 days. Sorry bout that.
I'm here with another chapter, and uh, more are on the way. :D I've just
been busy with school and other fanfics. That and this whole thing with
people deleting and reporting fanfics has me a little on edge. I spent three
hours backing up - copying and pasting - every chapter of all of my fanfics
into word docs.
But enough about that.
Talking about other fanfics (of mine)... I'd like to take this moment to tell
you all about the fic of mine - NINE YEARS - that hasn't been updated for a
few months. Explanation is in the AN for the chapter, but I'm promoting the
fic now.
Summary: 1980 in Berlin, Edward and Bella are on Holiday with family. When
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crossing the border of the Berlin Wall, Edward is stopped. The Communist guards
believe he's part of a conspiracy and keep him in custody. For nine years, they are
separated by just a wall.
So please, check it out and review... :D
Review this chapter also. ;)
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Chapter 318
Around twenty minutes later, Edward and I are alone, at the door of the
governor's suite.
I don't know who got it for us, or if Edward did it… but I couldn't be more
thankful.
It's beautiful; it really is.
But it's not really the room that I'm focusing on now.
It's my husband.
He's standing at the far end, over by the stereo. His back is turned towards me, so
I can't tell what he's doing until, suddenly, there's soft music playing.
I recognize the song immediately. The cheesy man's put on Please Forgive Me by
Bryan Adams.
He turns around and there's a blissed out smile on his face as he approaches me.
He pulls me towards him, so our bodies are touching as much as they can with my
protruding belly.
Then he leans down… and he kisses me.
Ok. I know, I'm sorry for the slow updating but I've got assessments that I
need to focus on. Tonight there will be a few chapters, but only after I am
comfortable with my geo assessment.
Go and check out my other story - if you haven't already - called Femme
Fatale. I put up some previews a few months ago.
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Chapter 319
No words can describe the feeling.
With one hand weaved through my hair, the other cupping the back of my neck
and my arms around his neck, it feels like nothing else.
It's in this moment that I realize that this is going to be different.
Sure, we've made love – soft and hard – but this will be something different;
something more.
This – right here, right now, tonight – will be our first time as husband and wife.
It'll be the first of lots of nights.
Goosebumps break out as Edward's hand slips from the back of my head, down to
my breast.
He stops kissing me, instead laying his forehead against mine.
With our eyes closed, it feels like we're the only two people in the world.
Alright. This is the last one for around... hmm, 3 hours? I've got a heavy
amount of work to do, so... :D
Oh and just so you know, I know that I've been really bad with updating
this story lately but please know that I will never not complete a story. You
guys make me upload stories in the first place and your reviews encourage
me to keep going. So if I don't update for a week or whatever, then don't
stop reading because you think I'm not going to continue and I've just given
up.
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Chapter 320
Edward is going slowly this time; I can feel it. There's no urgency, no certain
amount of time… just us.
I hum into his consuming kiss, revelling in how he's holding me, touching me,
feeling me.
My love for him – and his love for me – hits me with the force of a wrecking ball
and I whimper in his arms.
With my body moulded to his, he walks me backwards, not stopping until we reach
the couch.
Then he pulls back and looks at me; my face, my belly… everywhere.
I feel horribly exposed with him doing that, and so I do the same.
What I see, it floors me.
Ok... that's the first for today.
More later. :D
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Chapter 321
My hands are on his chest then, and there's no stopping me as I quickly undo the
buttons of his white dress shirt. We'd quickly changed before leaving the reception –
Alice's insistence.
"Bella," Edward whispers against my lips, his voice hoarse with emotion; love,
need, fire… the list could go on and on but I couldn't think of that.
Because in that moment, Edward's hands are on my womb, against the little being
that we've created.
My breathing hitches and I can't speak. I draw in a shuddering breath and when I
release it, Edward is looking at me, tears in his eyes and a smile on his face.
It's perfection.
Everything in this moment, this point in our life together… is perfection.
Sorry for the non-cliffy cliffy. I had problems with my computer - it and it's
mouse were generally misbehaving - so I had to wait until today.
More coming later... so please review.
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Chapter 322
It's when I hear him speak to our baby, though, that the waterworks really start.
"Your mummy and I love you very much," he whispers down to it, his hands
caressing sweet patterns. I shiver in love and desire for this perfect man in front of
me. "We can't wait to see you… so don't keep us waiting any more than you have to,
baby girl."
I quirk an eyebrow at him, clearing my throat to get his attention. "A girl, huh?"
Edward shrugs, his lopsided grin coming out. "I just have a feeling..." he trails off
though, when our eyes connect and I can see that he knows how much I need him,
how much I want him and love him.
"Jesus, baby," he moans and then his lips crash against mine… somehow, softly
and demanding at the same time.
Yep... cuteness turned into sexiness. :D
We've started mid-term break until Tuesday, but with that said I have a lot
of studying to do at this time. Safe to say, there won't be any updates for my
major stories, probably just this one actually and not many while we're at it.
I mean, we're talking about studying/completing assessments for drama...
french... integrated (subject that only our school does, sucks)... religion...
pdhpe... science... I think that's it... or rather, I hope it's it.
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Chapter 323
Breath leaves me in a huff and soon, Edward's lifting me up, carrying me over to
the room with a bed.
In the back of my mind, I wonder just how fucking big this hotel suite is.
But that's all pushed aside when Edward lays me down on his bed, his eyes
glimmering with emotion and unshed tears as he settles over me.
My throat gets tight as he looks at me and then he leans down to kiss my nipples.
I moan, licking my lips as my fingers weave through his hair and pull. Hard.
He groans, and starts to suck.
I arch off the bed, blinded by pleasure as I whimper his name.
I just wanted to take this opportunity to thank you all for the response this
story has gotten. When I first contacted kitkat681 for advice, I never fucking
dreamed that she'd answer.
Then she did and she told all of you to come over and we've continued to
grow in thousands of hits everyday and then there's the alerts and fav's...
and reviews.
Just thank you... especially to my regular readers, but of course to kitkat
and all of you newcomers. I hope you find other stories of mine - especially
upcoming drabbles - to be what you wanna read because I love reading what
you think about this story.
Of course, I'll let you know when the other drabbles are up, but it's easier
to put me on author alert. :D
Thanks again and please review,
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Chapter 324
After he pays avid attention to both breasts – leaving me panting, of course, just
as he always does – he kisses down my body. He pauses at my belly, pressing soft
kisses against my bump and I have to close my eyes and breathe slowly and deeply
to keep my emotions in check.
But damn, this man in front of me… I may have thought it way to many times
tonight, but he really is just… god, he's just so fucking perfect.
When he moves down to my core, he looks up at me for a moment and I smile at
him. He smiles back, and then spreads my legs.
Nothing can prepare me for what he does next.
Getting down to the sexy times *giggles*
Oh god. Getting down... *giggle snort*
Anyways, I'ma go study more. :D
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Chapter 325
It doesn't matter how many times Edward has… done that. It still makes me shiver
and whimper – amongst other things – every time. Every time, it gets better and
better.
But this time… this time he's soft, slow; almost careful as he licks and sucks on my
clit and lips.
My hands are in his hair as I watch him. He's like a man dying from thirst as he
licks, laps, sucks, nips, fucking bites.
"God, baby, you taste so fucking good," he moans and I bite my lip. "No! I want to
hear you. Don't bite that fucking lip, Bella. I'm gonna do that."
And then he quickly thrusts two fingers into me…
And I explode; my back arching off the bed as I cry out his name.
Ok... now, I would give you all the chapters I have... which is only four
more because, well you know, I gotta study.
But then you'd get a cliffy. And not a good one.
I'm hoping we crack 1700 tonight... I wanna wake up with some pretty
number of reviews in my inbox.
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Chapter 326
"Hmm, I love you," Edward says and I watch as he licks the last of me off his lips.
He's crawling up my body, eyeing me – my breasts in particular as they fall and rise
quickly with each breast. He seems to be quite taken with them, something that's
only increased since we found out about my pregnancy.
Or maybe he just loves the fact that, not only are they larger, but they're quite
sensitive as well.
I swallow back a moan, smiling seductively. "Love you, too. Now come on… make
love to your pregnant wife."
He smiles his crooked grin at me, winking, "Yes, ma'am."
"Nuh-uh," I say seriously, frowning jokingly and his eyes twinkled with happiness.
"That's Mrs Cullen to you."
He smiles, "and that's sounds too fucking good."
I wrap my arms around his neck, pulling him toward me. "Yes, it does, doesn't it?"
Cute banter before we get to the sexing. :D
Now, I'ma go do some more studying... see you in a few hours.
Oh and we didn't get any reviews over night. Not one. I'm a bit sad about
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Chapter 327
Edward nestles in between my legs as I brush the hair back from his forehead. He
looks so beautiful when he's in control, about to take what he wants.
And then, he enters me. It's soft, sweet, slow and I sigh, my head falling forward
to rest on his shoulder as my hands move down to wrap around his waist. They curl
up to his shoulder blades and it feels so good, so sexy and so fucking erotic to feel
his muscles tense as he thrusts softly, slowly but rhythmically into me.
I gasp his name, my head flying back into the pillows when he angles his hips just
right.
Then again, when he thrusts against it and rubs circles on my clit. I choke on a
moan, needing his lips on mine.
He kisses me, his tongue entering my mouth, claiming.
Moments later, we shatter in each other's arms.
*Gasp* I finished a lemon scene – well, the actually part of the lemon – in
one chapter! How 'bout that!
It's right on 150 words, though. ;)
Plus, I think it's my favourite lemon in this story. Again, how 'bout that!
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Chapter 328
We're up until the early hours of the morning, when we are finally completely
sated.
We fall asleep, and I know that we're gonna be sleeping for a while.
In the morning, when I finally wake up, the covers are down to just the top of my
breasts.
For a moment, I'm lying there, thinking it's just any old day. Then suddenly, the
memories of our wedding – and more importantly, our wedding night – come back
and I smile when I realize…
I'm Edward's wife. I'm Mrs Cullen now.
With my eyes still close but a wide smile on my face, my hand sweeps out to my
left… only to come into contact with, well, sheets.
I open my eyes and sit up, holding the sheet up to my chest.
"Edward, baby?"
Moments later, Edward walks in with a contented, blissful smile on his face.
Ok. So... I've put up two today and gotten no reviews. Next chapter is when
we crack 1700 reviews. Come on, that's only like... 6 reviews? 5 reviews?
S'nothing!
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Chapter 329
My mouth falls open at the sight of him.
Just a small smattering of chest hair, abs – delectable, lick-able ones – muscled
and toned arms and legs…
And… and fuck me. He's wearing boxers. Just boxers.
And he's suddenly quite hard.
I smile seductively, crooking my finger in one of those come hither ways. He
groans and runs for me, jumping onto the bed and I laugh as he tackles me back,
kissing the shit out of me.
Safe to say, we spend most of the day in bed.
Well, actually we spend most of our mini-honeymoon in bed in this very hotel.
Granted, it's only a few days long… five days.
But it's heaven. I mean, there are no phone calls from friends, or family. No crying
babies… just us. There's just Edward and me and our newlywed-ness.
And it's fantastic.
Until we get a call from Carlisle, that is.
I'm sorry! But we need to get this going. If you want outtakes at the end of
their honeymoon then that's fine, I'll post 'em. But they couldn't have such a
perfect bubble for long. We need to take care of a few things.
Also, I was uploading through the boycott because silly me, I forgot but
then I stopped updating on saturday and today is tuesday. So please... review
now. :D
Now, tell me your theories. What could Carlisle be calling about?
*smirks* I know the answer.
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Chapter 330
I wake up on the last day that we have in this hotel.
Every day, I've woken up to my husband, right there next to me. And if he isn't
there, then he soon is.
So, I may be pouting when I feel around for him and he isn't there.
I sit up, licking my lips, my throat a little dry and when I peel back my eyes to look
around, Edward's sitting there, watching me anxiously.
I frown, "Edward?"
He doesn't answer, only looks down and sighs.
That doesn't sit well with me. When I say his name again, it's with more
conviction, louder.
"Edward, what's wrong?"
He sighs again, but makes eye contact.
"I got a call from Carlisle, baby," he says carefully. "It's, uh… it's your father. He's
in hospital."
He takes a steady breath and when he looks at me again, it's pained.
"He's dying, love."
Oh dear. What's gonna happen now?
Well, the next... two... chapters are going to be a little iffy on how realistic
they are - maybe but keep in mind that Bella is very confused. She doesn't
know how to feel because the man she loved when so much younger caused
her so much pain after her mother left. Now, that man is dying.
I've had assessments today. It was horrible. I had a french assessment -
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reading comprehension is my forte, not as much writing - then I had
Integrated... ah, I hate this week. It's the week from hell, I'm sure.
Then to top it all off, I have Science - not a good subject for me - and a PE
assignment to hand in tomorrow.
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Chapter 331
I breathe in and out slowly, perhaps not really understanding what Edward is
saying.
"Wait, wait, wait," I say, hopping up out of the bed. I'm feeling slightly sick as I
look at his head. My mind is all over the place; I can't focus on anything. Edward's
words combined with incidents with my father are flying at me and I let them as
they whirl around in my mind.
"He's dying, love."
"You disgusting little bitch, it's your fault."
"He's dying, love."
"Wish you'd never been born."
"He's dying, love."
"Isabeeelllaaaaa!"
And then, after what feels like an eternity, I'm falling.
I don't even know if I hit the ground as everything fades into black.
Two reasons for posting this.
I'm feeling generous and it's a present to all of you, thanking for the
support. We are nearing 200,000 hits - and 2000 reviews - which just
astounds me because it grows day by day and we still have things that need
to happen before this can finish.
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Chapter 332
When I wake up, I'm laying down on something comfy, and there are voices.
Yes, that's right. Voices. As in… more than one.
Which means that someone is here that wasn't here before.
I hum groggily, frowning slightly as I open my eyes. The images are blurry at first,
just coloured blobs but as a few seconds pass, it comes clearer.
And then, I can see Edward's thoroughly relieved face.
"Oh Jesus, baby," Edward breathes and then he swoops down to kiss me lightly. I
clear my throat as he continues to speak. "You scared me. You've been out for about
half an hour."
I look around to my right, and that's when I identify the other person.
It's Carlisle.
Yeah... but don't worry, we tap into Bella's feelings in a minute. Promise.
:D
Well, not literally a minute, but the next chapter coming up I think which
will be tonight.
Oh god... studying is tedious... but unfortunately, we need science in our
world.
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Chapter 333
"What's wrong with him?" I ask, frowning as I look between my husband and
father-in-law.
"Bella, he's got liver cancer," Carlisle says and I look at him.
"Well," I say, feeling slightly sick. "That's probably from all the drinking. Maybe
it'll teach him something."
They both crack a small smile, but there is concern in their eyes.
I hate it.
I sigh, giving up. "Tell me."
"Bella," Carlisle says and I start to hate the fucking sound of my name. "It's
serious; your father is dying."
I try to see if he's joking, but all I can see is seriousness.
I look at Edward then, and he, too, looks serious and concerned.
My mouth shapes all the questions my brain and mind need to hear answers to,
but nothing comes out.
I realize then that fate is playing some sick game on me, because…
I'm feeling… something for him.
Ok... *smiles* I'm writing ahead because I can't take studying anymore
and I must say, it looks good. :D
Really, it does.
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Chapter 334
"Wait, what?" I say, looking back at Carlisle. For the past fifteen minutes, Carlisle
has been trying to convince me to go see him and it's fucking pissing me off." I don't
want to, I don't need to – there's nothing I will gain from the experience except more
fucking pain!"
Edward frowns but doesn't say anything and I sigh, frustrated.
Carlisle sighs, rubbing at his face as he covers it with his hands. "You need closure
Bella. And you need to be able to move on-"
I cut him off furiously, thundering with all my might, "I have fucking moved on!" I
sigh hard and sharply, fire surely sparking in my eyes. I point a finger at him and
there's no stopping my rant now.
And this is where it gets a little angsty again. :D
Now, there will be perhaps one more, but that cliffy is worse than this one.
Want it or wanna keep it for tomorrow? Because I have tomorrow's updates
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Chapter 335
"You weren't there, Carlisle! You didn't have to hear it, feel it!" Tears well up, but
that doesn't stop me; nor does Edward when he reaches out for me. I feel like I need
to get this out… and so, I do.
"You didn't have to fucking do all the work around the house. You didn't have to
make sure that you were Miss Goody-fucking-two shoes just to make sure your
father didn't beat you!"
My chest is heaving with the force of my anger, but I'm not finished. Not yet. "I
needed him. When my mother left, I fucking needed him. And instead of being the
loving father that he always was, he turned around and beat me." I finger the
crescent shaped scar on my wrist.
"You wanna know how I got this?" I ask, holding it up for him to see. My words are
biting.
He nods.
Ok. Next chapters will come soon. Promise.
Told you you wouldn't want it last night.
In other news, I did my science assessment. It's my last BIG assessment,
so I'm pretty much free now. No studying tonight, methinks!
Yay!
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Chapter 336
I slump down and look at the scar.
"I was… seventeen," I say, swallowing to quell my anger. "It was assessment week
at school and I was run off my fucking feet. Dad's demands weren't lessening, but
my work at school wasn't either; they were sky-rocketing. I was already seen as a
freak by many, questioned for the various things that they'd heard happened at
home."
My eyes flash to Edward's and he's there, looking concerned.
Because I already feel… well, I don't know, I laugh bitterly. "None were true, but
school was getting to the 'now or never' stage." I took a deep breath. "Because of all
the work that I was doing – for school, for work, for Charlie - I was barely getting
any sleep; an hour – if that – a day."
I held up my wrist. "I got this because I got a detention for sleeping in class."
Sadness.
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Chapter 337
I look up again at Carlisle, "So no. I don't want to see him and I don't need to. I
wasted enough time and I've felt enough pain because of that man. I don't need to
feel any more."
Carlisle looks at me, then at Edward. Edward's frowning and he shakes his head,
as if knowing what his father will say now. And then his frown deepens with
disapproval when Carlisle raises an eyebrow and opens his mouth.
"That's what I'm saying, Bella." He says and I raise my eyebrow at him. "You need
closure so that you can truly move on. Let me tell you, Bella, life and death
situations will clear up a man and his conscience is all he has left."
I snort. "There's just one problem with that theory."
"Yes?"
"Charlie Swan doesn't have a conscience."
Yep, that's right. He doesn't!
Now, I've pre-written to 344 for now and it's looking pretty emotional, I
must say. :D
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Chapter 338
"I can't believe this," I say, crossing my arms stubbornly as I get in the car.
Edward was the one to get me; he convinced me in his own way to go to the
hospital and now… I am with Carlisle and my husband and I'm going to go see the
son of a bitch who is unfortunately also my father.
Edward sighs and takes my hand, "Dad, are you sure about this? I won't have
Bella's health or the baby's implemented or risked because of the stress this will
undoubtedly cause her."
"She needs this, Edward," Carlisle says clinically, in his special 'no room for
negotiation' voice. "It may do her good, you know."
Edward just sighs again, frustrated.
"She is right here in the car," I mutter, wondering if maybe, just maybe, they'll
change their mind.
They don't and twenty minutes later, I'm in my father's hospital room.
Ok... so she's going in... to see him.
Sorry I lost track of time... watching T.V. and generally relaxing... ah, this
is the life.
Now, I have six pre-written for tomorrow... today was only something like
4?
Can't remember.
Oh well, please review - we're getting close to 1800 reviews! Gah, never
thought that would happen!
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Chapter 339
It's like a war in my mind.
Part of me wants to scream and kick and cry in pain that this is happening, that
my father is dying.
But the biggest part of me is the one that hates him; that man, that man who
abused me, tormented me and nearly killed me many a time but still thinks he has
the right to call me his daughter.
Anger flares up and I feel like punching something… or perhaps being sick.
This is not how I want to spend my new life as Edward's wife, pregnant with his
child.
My throat closes up and I look at Edward.
I feel like screaming, the mere thought of what I could say to Charlie makes my
throat feel raw.
Even as I cry, I feel like laughing in his face just as he did so many times before.
Whose vulnerable now, father?
Yeah... who is?
The next chapters open a side of Bella that may shock most of you... it's a
bitter, broken, hurt and angry one. Fiercella!
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Chapter 340
It's evident that out of both of us, he is.
With tubes all around him and the heart monitor beating out the rhythm; it looks
as if just a gush of wind could push him over the edge and into death.
He's grey, sallow, his face looking like death. I knew though, that he'd fight; it's in
his blood, his nature.
Just like how it's in mine.
I smile faintly as I come forward, and I feel Edward's arm wrap around my waist
when I reach out for him.
"How do you feel?" He asks after a few minutes silence as I look at my father.
I sigh heavily, glaring at my father's form. "I feel like… I don't know. I feel like
giving him everything he gave me. And if he dies, I think I will want to dance on his
ashes."
It's dark, yes, but Edward's doesn't judge.
Told you she was dark at the moment. She's going through a lot and stuff,
so...
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Chapter 341
Regardless of my want to leave straight after I've seen him, we stay for the rest of
the day. We get updates from Carlisle, one an hour; even though I told him I wanted
to know nothing… that I didn't care.
He doesn't give up though and eventually, I've had enough.
"Carlisle," I say as he comes up to us. I hold up a hand, "Don't. Don't do this to me.
I told you I don't want to know."
He sighs, "Bella-"
"No!" I shout, probably causing people to look at me. I ignore them, too angry.
"God, I'm sick of the sound of my fucking name. I told you I don't care. For fuck
sakes, if I had my way, he'd be dead by now!"
I know that it's wrong to feel that way… but what's worse is that…
I can't bring myself to take it back.
I agree with her. What do you think?
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Chapter 342
Carlisle merely swallows, and I can't tell if he's disgusted with me or not.
But my stubborn character comes to show, and I refuse to take it back.
So I simply look at him as he looks back at me, as if trying to see if I am going to
take it back.
When he realizes that I won't, he sighs and rubs at his face.
Again, I just blink slowly, watching him.
He looks at me and sighs, it's harsher this time. "Fine, fine; I just thought that you
might want to see him before he died. He's going to die tonight." He's careful to not
say my name but I raise an eyebrow, waiting for him to continue. "We're sure of it."
I sigh, frowning. "Fine," I give up, looking at him. I can tell that he wants me
happy though it won't, I'll give him this.
"Fine."
Please understand. Though it'll be explained in the next chapter, Bella
thinks she owes a lot to Carlisle. She wants to do this for him not for herself
or for Carlisle.
Also, my friend are-you-not-entertained made me a cover thing for this
story. Look up and admire it! *Looks up and admires it*
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Chapter 343
Edward's holding me, an arm around my waist as we walk to my father's room; the
steps are slow, reluctant steps.
"Why are you doing this?" Edward asks as we near the door. "I can tell that you
don't want to, and if I'm being honest with myself, I don't want you to either."
I sigh and pause at the door, not looking to the right. "Carlisle wants me to. He
thinks it'll be good for me, and you saw what he was like when I started yelling at
him. I just… I feel like I owe it to him. He's been so good to me."
Edward can't think of a response but to caress my cheek, and then we turn around
and walk into the room.
So yeah.
Oh and I think it's only one more chapter tonight. I'm trying to be good
and not give you everything I've written so far!
Oh and I have actually gotten that cover-thing to work! Look up above!
*looks up above*
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Chapter 344
"Why couldn't you love me, daddy?" I ask, wiping at the tears as I sobbed, looking
down at him. "Why couldn't you be the father I needed? Why are you making this so
hard for me? I don't know how to feel. God, why do I fucking care so much after all
you've done to me?"
But then, the desperate anger comes up again and I thump my fists at his chest. "I
hate you! I hate you, dammit, I have to hate you! Why did you do this to me?"
Edward's arms wrap around me, prying my fists off my father. I fight him in vain.
He hushes me, turning me around. I'm thumping on Edward's chest, crying, though
not nearly as hard as I had to my father.
Then, when it all becomes too much, the sobbing, the pain, the anger; I collapse.
And then I collapse.
Yes well... I was hoping to stay up to read some more of your reviews and
thoughts on these past few chapters, but it doesn't seem that that'll be
happening.
Goodnight now, :)
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Chapter 345
When I wake up, Edward wants to talk it through. He takes me to Carlisle's office,
and we talk.
"It's not fair," I say weakly, looking up at Edward as tears well in my eyes. "It's not
fair."
"I know," he whispers, sliding across the seat, closer to me as he wraps an arm
around my shoulders.
"Every time I walk away from him," I say, sniffling. "Every single fucking time, I
think I won't have to see him again… and then I do, and I hate it. Everything comes
back, Edward," I cry, and Edward frowns, wiping the tears away. "I hate it. I don't
know what to do… I feel like I'm a teen again, with no one there and it scares me."
Edward smiles, understanding light on his features. "That's where you're wrong,
baby." He leans in, resting his forehead against mine. "You'll always have me."
Good afternoon.
I woke up and mum wanted to go to this art fair, so we went. It was
alright. Now I'm back and I've been doing some more writing. :D
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Chapter 346
"Will I?" I ask and Edward frowns again. "How can we know, Edward? Anything
could happen." My mind rebels against me, showing me just what could happen.
Edward could leave, one of us could die… anything could happen.
And that scares me; sure, I have Hoody, I'm his wife, the mother of his child…
But for how long?
"Bella," he says, taking my hands in his. He looks down at our rings, takes a deep
breath, then moves to remove mine."
"What are you doing?" I whisper, scared that I may have ruined my chances with
him now. "Edward?"
He smiles at me, "I wanna show you something."
Oh my, I completely forgot to include this earlier...
Hopefully, you'll remember it. :D
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Chapter 347
I frown in confusion.
"Um," I say, my brain obviously unable to function for the moment. I briefly
wonder if this is what they mean about baby brain. "What?"
Edward chuckles softly and the crooked smile leaves me… well, breathless
amongst other things.
"I said," he says, "I wanna show you something." He looks up at me, "relax baby. I
need your ring to show you."
I bite my lip, but open my hand out, letting him take it off.
He holds it with such a reverence that this something is special. And then, he
turns it on an angle for me to be able to see the inside.
"Bella," he says. "Look."
I do and I gasp, tears welling.
Because his ring… my ring… is engraved.
I'll always be your Hoody.
And suddenly, I'm taking off his ring, too.
Hands up... figuratively... how many of you actually remembered her
talking about getting his ring engraved and Alice smiled making her think
Edward was doing the same thing?
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Chapter 348
"Bella?" Edward asks and I quickly get the ring off his finger, turning it just as he
did for me.
He peers, his eyes squinting and suddenly, his eyes change and I know that he's
looking at what I wrote.
"You…" he says, air coming from him in a huff. "Oh god, Bella." He takes his ring
from me and looks closer, turning it as he reads the engraving. "Together… always…
forever… my Hoody, your Bella."
Suddenly, I'm not the only one with tears in their eyes.
"Always," I say, smiling through my tears.
"Always," Edward whispers back, awe colouring his words and he takes my face in
his hands, his lips descending upon mine.
Heaven.
Sweetness. Who remembered?
Alright, it's part midnight. I gotta go to bed!
Night and please review!
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Chapter 349
I don't see my father again.
I don't see him, and just one week from when I last did, Charlie Swan dies.
They ask me if I want to arrange a funeral, and I just about scream in their faces
something with a lot of profanity that would most likely be offensive.
Short version, I decline.
I don't attend, and no one asks me of pressures me in to it. I just… decline and
that's the end of it.
I'm a little angry when I receive an invitation to the fucker's funeral, but after a
little ranting and screaming – all unfortunately heard by Edward – I'm fine.
It's then that I apologize and when he asks what for, I explode.
I tell him that I'm sorry for how I'm acting… thinking… feeling… speaking…
anything that I can apologize for. Edward listens before he politely and calmly tells
me to shut up.
Alright. So, on the same night, we made it over 1800 reviews and over 200,
000 hits. So thank you everyone! The 1800th reviewer was Mom23xx... I'm
still trying to figure out what to give you as the surprise! PM or review me -
anyone - what you think a suitable one would be.
On other news...
I'm sorry if you think this is moving fast, but we need to keep things
going. :D
Now… time jump will be in around 4-5 chapters. Just a small one, couple
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Chapter 350
Everything is fine for about a month. At five months, nearly at my third trimester
mark, I feel somehow better than ever. Healthy.
But, that all goes to hell when a woman shows up on our doorstep.
"Bella, baby, can you get that?" Edward calls from the kitchen.
I get up from the couch, rubbing my lower back as I waddle forward. The bell
rings and I yell, "Alright, alright, I'm coming," before I murmur to myself, "Jesus, a
pregnant woman can only walk so fucking fast."
When I reach the door, I open it and frown at the sight before me.
"Hello," the woman says, looking terribly nervous.
"Hi," I say back, confused. I look at her, trying to decipher who it is exactly. When
I'm unable to think of anything, I say, "I'm sorry, but who are you?"
She swallows nervously, "I'm Sue, Sue Swan, your father's wife."
We're you all expecting that? It was always the plan to get a wife in there -
Sue, of course - at some point but this seemed to be the easiest and well...
fastest way. She won't be lingering in their lives, I promise. :D
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Chapter 351
Suddenly, I'm completely and absolutely furious.
"What?" I say loudly, and a few seconds later I hear Edward coming down the hall.
I relax slightly when he wraps his arms around me just under my breast, before
kissing my neck.
"Baby, who's this?" He murmurs as I arch my neck to the right, my eyes on the
woman in front of me.
"Apparently," I say bitingly, "this is my father's wife… Sue Swan."
He pauses, straightens up and extends his hand. She eyes it before shaking it and
I watch Edward as he says, "Listen, this is a really difficult time at the moment." The
woman's eyes alight in fire at his words, as if she thinks he's got a nerve to say such
a thing. He sighs, "Would you like to come inside so we can talk?"
Her eyes narrow for a minute, but she nods curtly.
Alright. Here we go. The next two chapters will be interesting and then...
time jump of two months! Also... we'll casually find out the sex of the baby...
so have your say! What do you think, boy or girl? (Yes, there's only one, lol)
Oh and answers to two questions:
1. annaharding: Ed Senior will be making an appearance because we need
to sort that shit out.
2. lovedwardalways: Sue was at the hospital, but remember, Bella didn't
want to see or know anything about Charlie. Granted, Carlisle told her but
she was only in his room about 2-3 times. It was by chance that she didn't
meet her, really.
Hope that clears things up! :)
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Chapter 352
She sits on the couch, looking around and I can tell that she's judging us. "Is it just
the two of you?"
I huff, "no, it isn't. Listen, I don't mean to be rude, but can we please cut the small
talk and get to the more pressing issue." She looks at me, blankly. "Oh my god," I
hiss under my breath before I look back up at her. "Why are you here?"
She sighs, slumping her shoulders forward. She's silent for several minutes
before, finally, she speaks. "He asked for you, you know. In his last week of life, he
asked for you."
I huff a bitter laugh, "Good for him. Pity it was too fucking late."
She looks at me, horrified. "Bella-"
"No," I hold up my hand. "Only close friends and family call me that. My name's
Isabella."
She sighs, "Isabella, then. He's your own father!"
Oh dear. Sue really shouldn't have said that.
It seems that I'm just now starting to control my updating urges. And it's
right down to the last 50-75 chapters! Yes, you heard correct, we're down to
that now. Things will be moving along, hopefully not too quickly. If you ever
feel that it's going to fast, just let me know, ok? That way, I can slow it down
for you guys... after all, I want my readers happy and it's not like the story is
pre-written *snorts*. Hell no, it ain't!
God, I'm rambling!
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Chapter 353
"Yes," I argue back, my voice rising to match hers. "And he abused that right just
as he abused me. Fucking hell, do you know what he did to me?"
She nods firmly, "he's told me little bits."
I huff a laugh again, shaking my head, incredulous. "Oh my god, you just don't get
it, do you? My father was a horrible, conceited piece of shit. He did anything he
could to make my life hell!"
"Did he?" She fought back, "did he really?"
Before I can bite her head off, Edward stands angrily, glaring at this Sue woman.
"I think you should leave. My wife has been through a lot and she doesn't need
stress – she's five months pregnant, for fuck's sake."
Sue looks at him, "Please, I just wanted-"
"I don't care what you wanted," he says slowly, trying to control his anger. "Leave,
please."
She does.
Ok. Enough of Sue. I know we didn't really delve into this, but Sue was
quite angry and I didn't want to dwell on that... not when we have a wedding
coming up and then the Masens then... finally... our little baby is coming.
Speaking of, girl or boy? What do you think?
Oh and also, I'm preparing for Alice and Jasper's wedding now. It's coming
up soon. It won't be in as much detail as Edward and Bella's - the lead up
won't be as big either. :D What colour should Bella's bridesmaid dress be?
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Chapter 354
Edward walks her out while I sit there on the couch. So many emotions run
through me, hate, sadness, a feeling of unworthiness… especially this one sole
feeling.
I feel as if I have – or rather, had as my father is dead now – been replaced
somehow. I didn't know if Sue had children or not, and if they were with my father
or not – if they were, I would feel sorry for them – but I still felt as if… I'm not good
enough. Sure, I knew I never was for my father, but the thought of him having a
whole second family cut me. Deeply. More so than any knife that had even touched
my skin.
"Baby?" Edward asks as he comes and sits on the couch. He unfolds my feet from
their position near my bum and drapes them across his lap. "You ok?"
"I don't know."
Ok, I hate to leave it there, but that's the last for the night. I need to write
a few more and I'm working on multiple other stories at the moment. On top
of that, though, I need to sleep. Big day ahead!
I will never get tired of listening - or rather, reading - your reviews. They
excite and thrill me - not to mention amaze me - to see how completely
passionate you are about my little story here. Honestly, it means so much
and I hope you all stick around for the other drabbles that will be coming!
Now, good night!
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Chapter 355
When Edward begins to massage the soles of my feet, I moan and drop my head
back against the soft armrest of the couch. I hum as he uses just his thumbs to rub
hard circles to the middle of the sole. I smile in thanks and he smiles back lovingly.
"Tell me, baby," he says and I do. I tell him everything that I'm feeling and by the
end, I'm crying for some reason. Blame the hormones, blame anything but it still felt
irrationally troubling.
What Edward tells me, though, calms me. "I love you, baby. What your feeling is
completely natural. It's ok to feel all that. You have to know that, and besides… I'm
proud of you. You've been through a lot since we got married, and you've held your
own."
I snorted, "A sobbing mess in your arms daily is brave or whatever?"
He smiles, nodding.
Cute, understanding Hoody. Gotta love him!
Now, I'm sorry that this is the first update. Half the day we had a talk, and
then I had a Drama assessment then other stuff... grr, in general.
Here's this chapter, more coming soon! :)
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Chapter 356
The next two months fly by, and before I know it, it's a week from Alice and
Jasper's wedding.
"Baby, I'm as fat as a fucking whale," I whine, pouting as Edward comes to me. He
climbs onto our bed and crawls up to me. I fall back with a sigh, my hair spreading
above my head amongst the pillows.
"Bella," Edward whispers slowly. "Do you know how fucking beautiful you look
round with my daughter? Do you?"
I whimper, sniffling. Fuck these fucking emotions. And fucking fuck Edward.
My inner vixen purrs, oh yes please.
I huff, "No, because to me I'm a fat whale. How can I look good, Edward? How can
I go to my best friend's wedding looking this? Seriously, I'm gonna embarrass
myself; seven months pregnant and ridiculously… big. All the fuck over."
Edward growls and I know now that I'm about to be served.
Hmm... yes. But in what way? *smiles wickedly* Sexy, deteminedward
coming up... naked.
I believe it's been around 30 chapters and they've been busy. Oh and she's
pregnant with a girl, as you can see! I'm excited. Names will be... well, from
the book. :D
Juicy Edward coming up soon...
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Chapter 357
For a second there, I think he's going to shout, or scream or… something.
I don't know. All I know is that I'm not afraid because… well, I know how Edward
feels about me.
I sigh. "I'm sorry. I'm just… hormonal and I don't like the way I look right now… I
just feel like I'm…" I dread saying that last word, so I trail off, looking away and
biting my lip.
Edward sighs too and then, suddenly, one warm hand is cupping my face. "Baby?"
I lock my jaw and close my eyes. As irrational as it is, I feel as if I'm about to cry.
Fucking hormones.
"Bella… you're beautiful." Edward says and then I can't feel him anymore. I don't
move for several minutes, even as I feel him move off the bed.
In fact, I don't move until I hear something clunk, hitting the ground.
Some of your reviews have honestly made me laugh out loud.
I'm not calling the baby girl Renesmee… rather a nickname of that… and
not the Lockness Monster one either, though it is close. Think a move…
normal one, I suppose. Don't worry, that name is reserved for supernatural
fics only!
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Chapter 358
When I do open my eyes, and see Edward standing there, completely naked, all I
can do is groan.
I had been horny beforehand so the sight of my husband naked, eager and ready…
it did things to me, for sure.
"Edward," I whimper, reaching out for him. I couldn't help myself; either I have
him now, or I die… or something as equally dramatic.
He smiles lovingly at me as he kicks of the rest of his pants and then he climbs on
the bed. He crawls between my legs, quickly nestling into the space between my
legs. He leans down so his face is inches away from my core.
I gasp when his warm, wet tongue begins its torture on me.
Sorry for the no updates the past six days. I was really sick – missed the
last three days of school. I simply couldn't write and I didn't touch my laptop
for around two or three days.
But then I realized that I'd majorly cock-blocked you… and that I must
rectify that immediately.
And rectify that I shall. ;D
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Chapter 359
Edward worships me with his lips, tongue and body.
He shows me through his action how much he loves me and the way he does so
makes me feel just what he feels I am… beautiful.
I can see now that I was stupid… that I should have realized that though I may
have been feeling this way because of hormones… I was really a treasure to Edward.
Because within me is our child, the child we made out of love.
And that… that makes me feel special. It makes me feel as if I'm needed in a
different way than I had ever been needed in before.
At that realization, I double my efforts to show him my love, to let him know that I
knew what he felt for me and that I was so fucking sorry.
Hours later when Edward's fallen asleep, I lay there, watching him.
Not exactly graphic - at all, actually - but I don't think this one needed to
be. More will come soon, promise so don't worry.
Next up... Alice and Jasper's wedding. :D
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Chapter 360
The next week leading up to Alice and Jasper's wedding is hectic. Alice is so
stressed that I swear she is an energetic ball of bridezilla.
Last minute fittings and changes are made to both our dresses – and other things
– as we try to make this the most beautiful wedding it can be.
Alice's wedding hen's night is fun-filled. Alice, Rose, Esme and I are all taken out
to dinner with Alice's mother.
She's not all that nice. I can see why Alice has problems with her regularly. She's
a self-obsessed, stupid and nosy person… just the type of person that anyone
wouldn't want as a mother. Too opinionated for her own good, I'm honestly
surprised that Alice still speaks to her.
And then I remember how miserable it was without my mother around – give or
take on the fact that my father was abusive – and I'm happy for Alice.
That one was right on 150. I knew I couldn't just jump to Alice's wedding
so this was kind of a 'leading up to/filler' chapter... for a drabble... hah!
Anyways... I'm feeling generous so minimum 2 more updates tonight.
Already written.
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Chapter 361
Finally, the madness is almost over and it's the day of the wedding.
Alice is nervous and I smile when I remember how, not long ago, I had been
feeling that way. It helps to be able to tell her that everything is going to be perfect
because there's a surety in my voice. Whenever Alice had been trying to help me
with any kind of nerves – whether they'd been on the day of my wedding or not –
there had always been a point where I knew that Alice's reassurances were empty
ones.
So now, to be able to see the apparent calm in her eyes and face… and knowing
what was ahead for her.
God, it made me understand why Esme was so emotional and giddy on my
wedding day.
Here's the link to Bella's dress: s1108 . photobucket
albums/h411/bexie25/How%20to%20Save%20a%20Life/?action=view¤t=bella
sbridesmaiddress . jpg
Links to Alice's dress in two chapters… her chapter as she walks down the
aisle. :D
Let me know if you want Jasper's outfit as well.
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Chapter 362
Being the bridesmaid is something that I swear I will always treasure.
The look on people's faces when they watch you walk down the aisle just before
the bride… the anticipation to see her… I must say that I like it.
But I don't see them for long before I focus on the sight of my husband next to
Alice's awaiting, anxious fiancé. Jasper looks like he's about to go shit some bricks
and it's a seriously funny sight. But there's a love there that's so sweet and I can't
wait for Alice to see it.
I make it to Edward's side and turn around. Glancing at Jasper, I say, "She's
gorgeous."
And just as I knew he would, he says, "She always is."
Aw! Cute Jasper moment!
Now, do we want to hear vows?
I think I'll leave it there for the night. :D
Maybe.
Coercion may work though.
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Chapter 363
It's a simple dress. Lace everywhere, spaghetti strapped, down to the knees and
A-lined with a sweetheart neckline. So simple… but it's so Alice. That with the small
heels and the red posy of roses and she's got to be the most beautiful bride I've ever
seen.
I smile as I hear Jasper's intake of breath. I glance up at him and bite my lip at the
look on his face. It's joy, it's love and it's everything Alice needs to see in this
moment. It's the kind of look that every man would have in their eyes if they were
marrying the most important person in the world to them.
Edward's hand slips through mine and I sniffle as I look at him.
"I love you," he mouths as he brushes away my tears.
I smile and nod, relaying the words back to him.
And then, Alice reaches Jasper.
Morning!
God, it's good to be back. Really. I updated three stories yesterday -
including this one - and I'm thinking another three - again including this
one - today as well.
Femme Fatale readers, the next chapter is half finished already... just need
to fix things up and add bits. :D
Here's the link - as promised - to Alice's dress (though I think that was a
pretty good description) - there are two links, one for the front view of the
dress, one for the back:
Front view – s1108 . photobucket
albums/h411/bexie25/How%20to%20Save%20a%20Life/?action=view¤t=aliceswedd
ingdress . jpg
Back view - s1108 . photobucket
albums/h411/bexie25/How%20to%20Save%20a%20Life/?action=view¤t=alicesdress
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fromtheback . jpg
More chapters coming soon... I need to do some more writing. :)
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Chapter 364
The ceremony is so sweet and beautiful.
We're in a church this time, Alice and Jasper having many more guests than we
had – what with all the family and friends they have, distant or otherwise – plus
Alice's parents kind of insisted on it.
They also insisted that they meet Edward, as he was going to be Jasper's best man
for the wedding.
That was a memorable occasion, to say the least.
Let's just say that the fact that we didn't marry in a church enforced a three way
screaming match between Alice's parents, Alice and Jasper. That was humorous to
say the least.
Looking at the happy couple now, I can't believe that Alice's parents are so
fucking blind. Really, if they had any sense, they'd be able to see that Alice and
Jasper are perfect for each other.
It's when Jasper speaks his vows, however, that they hear proof.
I wonder what you're gonna think about this... I like it. I'm writing pretty
far ahead. Up to tomorrow's updates - probably the day after that, actually.
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Chapter 365
"Alice, darlin'," he says, his southern drawl having an effect on Alice as she starts
to cry with joy. I smile at the image, wondering if I looked that happy on our
wedding day. "You have always guided me. You've been there, helped me, and given
me so much. Our little daughter Leah is proof of that."
She smiles through her tears and watches him, love in her eyes, as he continues.
"I know that your parents will probably never embrace me fully, so I just wanna
let them know somethin'," he says and I can see a look of determination in his eyes.
"Mr and Mrs Brandon, I love Alice with everythin' I have and I will always protect
her and give her everythin' she wants and needs. You may not like me now… but I
hope that what I've said has helped you begin to."
Isn't that nice? The Brandon's don't deserve it... that's cute, methinks.
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P.S. Please check out my other story called "Nine Years"
Summary: 1980 in Berlin, Edward and Bella are on Holiday with family. When
crossing the border of the Berlin Wall, Edward is stopped. The Communist guards
believe he's part of a conspiracy and keep him in custody. For nine years, they are
separated by just a wall.
Link: fanfiction s / 7610784 / 1 / Nine_Years
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Chapter 366
Looking at the Brandon's, you can see there's a change in how they regard Jasper
now. I don't know exactly why they never liked him, but I'm sure it has something to
do with his accent and the way he acts, what his job is… so what if he's an ex-Army
officer. That doesn't mean he's gonna kill his wife.
Especially Alice.
Edward's arms around my waist, touching and rubbing the place that our baby is
sleeping makes me hope that I'm never that much of a bitch or… obsessed with the
family reputation that I will sacrifice my relationship with my children because of
their choices in love.
And I can see now, that while the Brandon's might have once thought they were
doing the right thing, looking out for their child… they're seeing the light now.
Just the idea that Jasper will finally be accepted makes me smile.
Makes me smile too.
How are we feeling about what's happening, guys?
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Chapter 367
Alice's vows are beautiful and heartfelt – so much so that she starts crying.
Before we all know it, the wedding ceremony is over and the reception is close.
The reception is also a nice affair. The Brandon's have obviously spoken to Jasper,
because they're being a lot… nicer to him.
"How are you, baby?" Edward asks and I look up at him, smiling.
"I'm fantastic," I say, leaning my head on his shoulder. We're standing outside of
the reception place because I felt like getting some air. Edward's been following me
around the whole time, but I don't mind. I like it, actually.
"28 weeks, love," Edward says, looking down at the hand he has on the baby
bump. "You're fucking radiant."
I giggle. "Oh shut up, you."
Edward's lips are at my ear then, and he delivers yet kisses. "Never," he whispers
into my ear and I shiver.
Enjoy the happiness... 'cause the serious shit is coming up.
No babies born... yet.
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Chapter 368
By the end of the night, Alice is plastered and leaning on Jasper for support to
walk. That's ok, though. He doesn't mind. I don't think there's anything that can
bring him down from the high now.
They finally say goodbye, which is an interesting sight… especially when Alice's
shoe gets stuck between the floorboards. I'm giggling into Edward's shoulder at that
point.
After they leave, everyone else stays for about half an hour before they start
heading off. Edward insists on taking me home, so we leave too.
I'm so tired that Edward has to carry me to the car.
I fall asleep on the way home, barely remembering Edward getting me out of the
car and carrying me inside. He undresses me, I think, before tucking me in before
joining me.
We have reason to smile, too… because we have this house to ourselves for two
fucking weeks.
I honestly was going to post another chapter last night... but then I got
tired and I forgot. :(
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P.S. Serious stuff starting next chapter.
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Chapter 369
The next two weeks fly by.
Edward's taken off the two weeks from work - completely disregarding my
protestation – and we spend a lot of the time just lounging around, or playing in bed.
Our good mood keeps for about a week and a half until Edward answers the door.
I'd been hoping to never see the Masens' again, but even I should have known that
it simply wasn't that simple.
The only way to end things now is to either talk it out, or call the police.
I'm not sure the second one is possible, however, given the fact that they've sent a
beefy looking guy with an envelope.
"What's this?" Edward asks, glaring at Beefy before he snatches away the
envelope. He opens it, his body tense. When he opens it, a little triangular piece of
paper slips out.
With a laugh, Edward and I realize it's an invitation.
Invitation to what? We find out... oh, around ten chapters later, I'd say. :)
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Chapter 370
Edward snorts and shoves the invitation back into the envelope.
"You know what," he says to Beefy. "Tell them 'no'. Tell them to bring their asses
over here."
Then he shuts the door in the man's face, dragging me quickly away from the
door.
He sits me down on the couch and I watch him as he paces, tugging on his hair.
"Edward," I say softly, frowning as my eyes follow him. I sigh when he doesn't
hear me. "Edward!"
He stops and looks at me, panic in his eyes. "What?"
I get up off the couch and walk to him slowly. When I reach him, one hand cups
his cheek and jaw and the other strokes his hair. His eyes close and he shakes as he
tries to calm down with deep breaths.
"You need to calm down and tell me what you're thinking," I say calmly as
possible.
Yay! Go Bella... always knowing what to say with Edward.
Oh and Edward's gonna fucking EXPLODE next chapter. Be prepared for
aggravated shouting that is not directed to Bella (well, the anger isn't).
Next update at around... 7.30? That's 1 hour and 40 mins away. :D
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Chapter 371
He explodes.
"I'm just… I'm sick of it!" He shouts and I step back to give him some space. He
obviously needs it. "I just wish they'd fuck off! I mean… we haven't seen or heard
from them for months so why the fuck now? I don't want them anywhere near you…
not when you're pregnant."
"Ok," I say, nodding. "So tell me why you invited them over here? I'm not
judging… I just want to know what you're thinking so I can help you, baby."
"To give us some fucking leverage!" He yells, but I know he's not angry at me, just
the situation. I know Edward and I know that for him, he needs to calm down by
letting off steam. A lot of the time, he does that through shouting. "We need to have
an advantage… they've never really been here before... that should give us
something!"
Told you Hoody was angry. :(
Sorry for being... oh, just around 35 minutes late. :)
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- 450 -
Chapter 372
"Ok," I nod, breathing deeply. Edward does the same and a few minutes later, his
shoulders relax and he sighs. He walks toward me and I open my arms with a sad
smile on my face. We hold each other for a few minutes and I rest my head on the
place where his heart beats, smiling as the sound of his heart calms me. It always
has.
I pull away from him and put my hands on his biceps, levelling my gaze with his.
"Let's do this. All we have to do is control the conversation. Lead it exactly where we
need it to go. This ends tonight… yeah?"
His eyes are like fire as he nods with determination and I marvel at how far we've
come.
No longer a scared faceless boy, my Edward's a confident man who's in control.
I smile with pride, kissing him.
Ok. That's the last for tonight.
Goodnight and I will see you - through this story - in the morning. :D
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Chapter 373
We clean up around the house just a little – because there's stuff everywhere from
our week and a half alone. I shiver and my stomach quivers and flutters just thinking
about what we did…
"Bella?" Edward says then and I look up at him, shaking my head to stop the
thoughts.
"Yeah, baby?" looking at his face, he looks decidedly determined but there's a hint
of nervousness there too. "What's wrong?"
He comes toward me slowly, and just like that I feel as if we're in a whole other
time – one that doesn't involve his mother and her fuckwit hubby coming to our
house. He cups my face and leans in to tenderly – and, if I'm being honest, fucking
sexily – kiss my lips. Fully; licking… sucking… nibbling.
Oh, sigh…
We stay there for a moment more before his words bring me – and him – back to
reality.
"They're here."
And what's with the new new review… well it's definitely fucking not a
"button" this time, is it? What are your thoughts on it… I don't really like it
even if it will help with getting more reviews or whatever. OBSERVE
BELOW!
Ugh.
Ok... so from now on (or not next chapter, the one after), the chapters are
going to be REALLY close to the lyrics of the song that started this
monstrosity "How to Save a Life" by The Fray. Because of that, in the AN I
will post the verse that the chapter is relating to. Ok?
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- 452 -
Chapter 374
A minute later, the bell rings and Edward and I look at each other.
I know the determination in Edward's eyes is mirrored in my own. I know that we
are ready for this. This ends tonight. No more of this fuckery with the Masens after
this – it gets settled tonight.
I nod at Edward and he sighs, straightening his clothes. Then, with his head held
high, he walks to the door and opens it.
I come up behind him, a hand wrapping around his waist and he does the same.
"Mr Masen," I say politely. "Mrs Masen."
In all truth, they seem surprised. They obviously weren't expecting us to be so…
civil or something.
We lead them through and ignore the glances around the house as they size it up
against theirs. My only concern is my husband and looking over at him… I can see
there's no need.
I must say that I'm hating this new format; it's stupid. In emails, the
reviews come up as 'comments'. I think fanfic is copying wordpress on that
front, personally... :( (that's a frown)
Oh and round of a fucking applause for our Hoody. All brave and confident
- all grown up! It only gets better. Next chapter, the verse-chapters (that's
what I'm calling them, anyway) start. The verse that the chapter is focused
on will be in the AN (like, here!) and yeah... hopefully you won't find it
cheesy.
Please note that whilst not all of it will be used with a metaphoric twist,
some of them will be and I will tell you if they are. :D They'll be interpreted
in a different way. :)
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- 453 -
Chapter 375
Dinner comes and goes and before we know it, it's time.
I look up at Edward as he looks down at me and we nod at each other; just once.
Step one commences.
He looks at his stepfather and mother and says strongly, confidently, "We need to
talk."
The Masens stop and there's dead silence for a moment before Mr Masen gets up,
snorting. It's obvious that he thinks he'll be able to walk all over him. Just as Edward
Senior reaches the hall, he looks back and snorts again.
Edward doesn't take the mockery lightly. "Sit down, it's just a talk." I smile at his
tone. Edward's mocking him, now and that's shocking to the Masens.
Edward Masen eyes us and sits back down before smiling politely at us. Edward
and I don't back down as we look back at them, staring – politely – right through
them.
Alright. It's started. :D
This chapter is half of the first verse… It won't be like that generally,
promise.
Lyrics:
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Can you see what I mean about it being like the song? I hope you don't
find it cheesy or anything.
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Chapter 376
Edward had said he'd wanted to start off by himself.
So, whilst being supportive, with my hand in his, I look out the strange-looking
window. Part of me is trying to act oblivious to the problem here, but as Edward
Masen gets up again, I realize that that's impossible.
Mr Masen makes a bee-line for me, angrily speaking lowly back at Edward. He
walks to the left, trying to anger my Edward, but my husband holds his place
confidently, only moving to his right so he's standing in front of me and my womb –
our child – protectively.
When I look around them both, all I can see are the imaginary lines being drawn.
Fear in Edward Senior's eyes as he sees Edward's blaming gaze.
And I can see that… part of this, at least, is pointless.
The looks on their faces tell me… they're beginning to wonder why they came.
Lyrics from second half of first verse (used in this chapter):
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came.
JUST A NOTE: Talking will come… soon. Promise. But for now… is it
cheesy?
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Chapter 377
"Where did I go wrong?" Edward asks, minutes later. He's looking straight at his
mother and the sick son of a bitch that's next to her. "I lost a friend in you that day,
mother," he says harshly and Elizabeth flinches at the tone of Edward's voice and
the look on his face.
When he receives no answer, he keeps talking. "I used to think that it was my
fault, you know," he says and my heart nearly breaks except for the fact that he used
the word 'used'. That makes me smile. "I used to think that somewhere down the
line of all this bitterness and shit that's been going on, if I'd stayed up with you
when you cried and drank yourself away because of your divorce with Dad, that I
could have fucking saved you."
He swallowed. "I would've done that if I knew that'd save you."
Ok, this chapter's lyrics (the chorus, actually, which is fitting as what
Edward says here is basically the downfall for what happened… not the
reason for all the shit, but the reason behind everything that happened – the
everything being the bitter, broken person he became. Does that make
sense?) ANYWAYS: The chapter's lyrics were kind of twisted to fit the story.
Here they are:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life.
Just another note: The "how to save a life" part, as in the fact that he'd
'save' her was saving her from becoming the fucked up bitch – quite frankly
– that she is today.
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Chapter 378
I listen carefully then, as Edward tells his stepfather that he knows what's best for
his mother. Because after all… he does.
"And you," he says angrily, swallowing back the emotion. It's still clear in his
voice. "I'm the one who knows best for my mother… I'm her fucking son, you
shithead! You're just a low-life drinker."
My husband listens as Edward Senior tries to defend himself, but it falls on deaf
ears. Edward slips past the defence, but does not grant innocence. Edward Masen
doesn't deserve it.
When Mr Masen is finished, Edward tells him all of what's been done to him –
even though they know – but he also tells them, listing the reasons as he goes, why
it's all so. Fucking. Wrong.
But he's told them this stuff all along.
Yet, Edward's beseeching them, praying that they hear him… praying to a god
that he doesn't believe in.
The lyrics used this time are straight forward… no twisting of meanings or
anything.
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God, he hears you
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And pray to God, he hears you
This may come as a shock to you... but I've only got a chapter to go with
this story and that's the epilogue. That's right. I've finished it, really. And
now... because this story means so much to me... I don't want it to end. I've
enjoyed reading all of your reviews and I guess a part of me is scared that
once this story is finished you all will stop reading all my other stories that
you've picked up.
So, because of that, I'm dragging the end of this out... the updating that
is... because I have to write the 1000+ word epilogue and I'm not doing that
tonight.
Also... I have to get ready to post my next drabble which is half pre-written
with 55 chapters already. It's a vamp/human one.
Tell me... who's sticking around?
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Chapter 379
Things are heating up.
Edward Masen starts shouting out of nowhere, and I can see that he's just
spewing bullshit to get a rise out of my Edward, my Hoody.
It doesn't work.
Edward speaks in a low, calm voice; granting Mr Masen one last choice. "Keep
going this way and lose everything. Or, you can stop now and turn yourself in whilst
you've got nothing to really lose. If you don't, you'll lose everything." His eyes flash
to his mother's face. "And I'm not just talking about your fucking 'foundation'."
Edward Masen is nervous; he's looking for a way out here. But he can't do both…
he can only do one of the options. He'll admit defeat and admit to all the wrongs he's
done… or he'll deny that it was him.
And just like that, I'm beginning to wonder why we're doing this.
Lyrics:
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you begin to wonder why you came
NOTE: Because the chorus has already been done, I'm not writing
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chapters on it again.
In this chapter, "drive until you lose the road, or break with the ones you
follow" has been incorporated to mean "you can continue this way, or break
free now while you're still ahead and you've got nothing to lose."
NOTE 2: For a while, that will be the end of the verse chapters because
there's two more choruses to the end of the song… except, well there's
something very important at the end of the story – which will be at around
400 chapters – that will use the two repeated lines "how to save a life".
IMPORTANT PLEASE READ:
Ok, I'm sorry... some of you think that I meant that I only had one more
chapter to go until the end of the story... which is the epilogue.. truth is, I'm
fucking tired and I meant to type that I only had to WRITE one more chapter
and that was the epilogue. That's wrong. There's about 10-12 chapters more
then, after pmming it over with kitkat I worked out that there will be 2
epilogues of about 1000+ words.
Sorry for all the confusion! MY BAD!
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Chapter 380
"Fine," Mr Masen says and my eyes nearly bug out of my head in shock as he sighs
and falls into the chair. "Fine," he looks at Edward then, his piercing glare received
with a retaliating one of Edward's. He grins like the evil Cheshire cat and I frown in
disgust at this man's audacity. "It was fun while it lasted, but I will not let two…" he
eyes us both and I start to feel filthy under his gaze. "Kids outsmart me."
I snort, shaking my head. "Whatever. But we want someone reliable there to see
you walk into that fucking police station." I smirk and look over at Edward, whose
expression mirrors my own. "Someone like… oh, I don't know… Carlisle."
Elizabeth gasps, her hand flying to her mouth as her despicable husband growls.
Edward and I merely grin. I bring out my phone and dial the number.
Ok... we're nearly - like, oh so close - done with the Masens. But why not
give Elizabeth her time to shine? *Grins then snorts*
Also... that's one for today... I have to go to a funeral... so my next update
is after I come back... which could be anytime.
After all... operation 'drag out' has commenced!
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Chapter 381
We're still grinning when Carlisle comes to the door and walks inside to take
Edward Masen away. There's shouting, crying – yes, Elizabeth is actually crying –
but he seems unfazed by it all as he takes Mr Masen up roughly by the arm.
Carlisle leans in, his expression fierce; so fierce that Edward Masen actually
shrinks back. "If I didn't know that you weren't worth it, I would rip you to shreds
for what you did to my son," he growls, looking at Edward Senior, glaring at him.
His voice is low and dangerous, bringing chills even up my spine.
He drags him away, still by his arm, winking and smile at Edward and I as he
walks passed.
We watch as they leave, ignoring the sound of Elizabeth's pathetic weeping and
whimpering in the kitchen.
And when they leave, we hear Elizabeth's angry breathing and fierce footsteps.
Ok... so I forgot that it was actually the one after this that let's Elizabeth
have her shining moment... *clucks tongue*
I've worked it all out, and it seems that there will be around... well, let's
count this. 1 Prologue, 390 chapters and 2 epilogues then an AN that'll have
the fully thank you's and the info about my new drabble ;)
It seems that this whole operation 'drag out' is working quite well.
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PS - Do we want to know what's in the epilogues?
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Chapter 382
"Oh, fucking hell," I mutter under my breath as she approaches us. She steps right
up to us and slaps me across the face. I grab my cheek, rubbing it as it flames before
I snap my head back around to look at her. "What the fuck?"
"That," she practically growls, "is for taking my husband away from me."
I snort, "yeah, because your so much better with that sleazy, fucked up drunk
around."
I giggle when she growls again and watch as she turns back and gets her shit
together. She stomps passed us, growling and muttering under her breath about god
knows what.
And when Edward and I are finally alone, I sigh, leaning back into Edward's arms
as we watch the rain falling outside in the lit-up street.
There. They didn't exactly giver her a serving, but she also didn't get to
them. That's a big thing, methinks.
No word so far from fanfic about this whole new reviewing *clears throat*
sorry, 'comment'ing button. Maybe it was a mistake and they'll take it away
soon?
*Sigh*
I can only hope.
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Chapter 383
"Hmm," I moan, reaching up to grab onto Edward's hair. He smiles against the
skin on my breast, flicking his tongue against my fully erect nipple. I squeak as the
sensation that comes with that makes me wetter than ever before.
Edward growls, feeling this as he slams two fingers into me and I, in turn, slam
my lips against his. He groans, gripping my face with one hand.
Here, in the shower, with nothing to fear and all our problems gone, we're able
and ready to just be.
After an orgasm from me, Edward replaces his fingers with his cock and my head
falls back at the feeling of being filled.
I keep on having things to say, dammit! And that doesn't exactly go hand
in hand with the operation 'drag out' now, does it?
No fair!
But apparently the button has been changed back to review. Either they've
come to their senses because of numerous complaints, or it was just some
weird glitch. But, looking at it, it seems that just the name has changed.
POO!
FYI - This is the last sex scene in the story – FOR THE NORMAL chapters.
There's a sex scene in the beginning of the second epilogue… the last
chapter. And that one is a longer one… just because I can. In fact, in
general, that chapter is a lot longer than the first epilogue which is 1100
words. :D
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Chapter 384
"What you said tonight," I whisper and Edward hums as I scratch his scalp. His
head is resting on my breasts, every inch of his body against mine, filling every dip
and curve with more of his glorious skin. His lips turn up and I giggle at the weird
feeling that leaves on my skin. "About how you used to think that if you'd stayed up
you could have saved her… that you…" I breathe deeply, "Would have done that if it
would've saved her… you meant it?"
Edward hums, turning his head to softly and lovingly kiss my nipple. Yes, it was a
pleasant feeling but I didn't want to go again just yet.
We talk about little nothings for a while, just breathing and moving as one before
we fall asleep.
And that sleep… it's the most peaceful, effortless one I've ever had.
I've come quite attached to you all. I feel that I must say goodnight.
Goodnight until tomorrow. :D Hope you like the chapters so far.
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PS - Do we want to know what's in the epilogues?
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Chapter 385
The next six weeks are easy.
Alice and Jasper come home late, having extended their honeymoon, and pretty
soon the house is packed again.
Leah, Alice and Jasper and Edward and me – plus the little one in my womb – all in
the one house… to say that it's loud is a fucking understatement.
Apart from the raging hormones and the loud, crying child, it's a nice time. Alice
and Jasper have really slipped into the whole 'married life' fiasco well… they're
happy, which is the main thing.
And Edward and I… well, with nothing to worry about, nothing hanging over us…
we're having the fucking time of our lives.
And then… I go into child labour just a few weeks early.
Ok. I'm mentally adding this up in my mind. 7 months (28 weeks) plus two
weeks plus six weeks is… fuck… 36 weeks?
Ok. Let's do this shit.
Oh and some sad news - it looks like we're gonna be finishing with the
normal chapters either today or tomorrow. I'd rather tomorrow, but I can't
stop or get away from the freakish force of nature that is myself... in
updating mode. :D
Now... what's in the epilogues and how are we doing that?
Epilogue 1:
In this one, it's set three years after the last chapter. Bella gives us a run
down - there's a sweet surprise in there as well - and then at the end... she
meets a certain person but realizes that she doesn't care anymore. That
there's no fear there. :D This one is called "Stronger" - you'll see why.
Epilogue 2:
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In this one, it's set five years after the last normal chapter, and two years
after the first epilogue. In that one, Bella and Edward do the dirty dance -
lemons! - and then they go on a bus ride... with two other people. Who are
they? Basically, it's a sort of coming full circle - which is why it's called "Full
circle"
How are we doing this?
Well, because they are 1000 words each, I'll finish the final chapters then
one epilogue the day after, the last one the next day after that. :D
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PS – Hope you're ready for some funny times.
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Chapter 386
"Breathe, baby," Edward says and I glare at the side of his head. Edward's driving
us to the fucking hospital. It's two am, I'm tired and pissed and in fucking labour and
Edward here is trying to tell me what to do.
Yeah. Not happening, buddy.
But he continues… unable to see me glaring at the side of his fucking head.
"Do that Lamaze breathing thing," he says and then he imitates it.
I try. I really do. But this hurts and I'm not in the mood to be nice to the fucker
who put me in this position.
Ok, so maybe he's not a total asshole. After all… I love him… right?
Well, right now, I'm having difficulties with saying that I do.
I love the coming chapters... so funny! And, on other news, it looks like
we're gonna be finishing up with the regular chapters today! Last one is 390
then two epilogues and after that, an AN from me with thank you's and info
on up and coming projects - like my new drabble!
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Chapter 387
Sometime later, I'm on a bed with Edward at my side. His father – the magnificent
drug-bringing Doctor Carlisle – is, unfortunately, down there looking at my girly
bits.
I guess it's ok since he's helping us get this baby out of me… but still, it's weird.
Why couldn't I have thought of that before I asked him to be my doctor?
Thinking about the little girl that Edward and I created is making me a little less
angry. But, as another contraction hits only a few minutes after the last one, that's
all blown away again.
I grip Edward's hand so tight as I grunt and try to push the baby out that I may or
may not have broken a few of his fingers. I can hear his low groan but when I look
over at him, he's smiling… kind of.
And then… about an hour later… it's really time.
Well, kitkat… I changed the bit up the top and included Carlisle's name…
amongst other things… what do you think?
Apparently for a moment there she thought I meant Ed Masen. Hahaha
*stops laughing suddenly and looks pointedly* ew!
Anyways... three more chapters after this little lovely one... so sad.
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Chapter 388
"You are never touching me again, Mister," I grunt, glaring up at Edward. All he
does is smile and nod before chanting some more supposedly supportive words.
The young, blonde nurse comes in then and says some shit about it being more
painful as another contraction hits.
All I can do is yell obscenities at her and tell her how fucking stupid she is if she
doesn't think I know that.
But then… hours later… I hear it.
Panting and leaning back against the pillows of the bed, with Edward kissing my
forehead and telling me how well I did… I hear our little girl cry. Looking up at my
husband, who's as big of an emotion mess right now as I am, I cup his cheek.
He grins down at me and mouths, "I love you."
And that… that makes me cry… tears of joy.
So sweet! *Sniffles*
Oh and just to let you know, if any of you went back to my old(ish) - and
complete - stories, you would have come across the only Alice and Jasper
story called Reason to be Sane. The companion piece - as promised - is up
and due to my updating schedule, it will be updated once a week.
Here's the summary: There was no trace of the man that I used to be anywhere
in me. He was gone. In his place was this... this thing... this vampire... a monster of
the night. But to my surprise, it seemed that God did love someone no matter what...
because in leaving Peter and Charlotte... and coming to Pennsylvania, I found my
saviour in a little pixie-haired vampire. Companion to Reason to be Sane. Lemons.
There we go... oh and only two more chapters... so I'll see you in... hmm...
three hours?
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Chapter 389
A few minutes later, that crying is moving steadily closer to me and then
something warm and wet and slippery is being passed through my hands. I look
down at the light baby girl in my arms then up at my husband.
"She's beautiful," I cry, hiccupping and Edward kisses my forehead, reaching his
little pinky out for the baby to touch.
"Yeah," he says, kissing my wet and sweaty hair again. "She is."
"What should we name her?" I ask, looking down at her again and making ga-ga
noises. I'm so overcome with emotion that I'm fucking shaking.
Edward hums for a moment before saying, "I think we should call her Nessie.
Ness for short, but."
I bite my lip. "How bout we call her Vanessa and Nessie or Ness for short?"
Edward smiles a goofy smile, "perfect."
I'm nearly crying. One more chapter, guys. That's all. And then the
epilogues and my AN.
Next chapter in... hmm... more than just a few hours.
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Chapter 390
That's when I feel it.
Looking down at the little girl in my arms, and with my husband by my side… I
feel it.
A year and a bit ago, I was a girl with nothing to live for. I had a job that I hated, a
life that I hated, a body that I hated, and a mind that I didn't know.
Now… because of Edward… I have everything I've ever needed.
And looking up at Edward, I see that just as Edward has saved me, and given me
something to live for… changing my life in the process… so have I done the same for
Edward.
And that makes all of the shit that happened, whilst unsavoury and undesired…
… Worth it.
And that's the end of the real drabble-chapters.
I'm crying… really I am.
But I think it was a great challenge and it brought a lot to me. I've got a
lot more, new, nice readers now that follow not only this story but others of
mine as well.
I couldn't have done it without Kitkat, but that official thank you will be in
the last AN chapter after the second epilogue. :D
Um... what else did I want to say?
Alright. here's one little thing that you all could do for me. I've posted the
first chapter of my Alice/Jasper story called My Saviour. It's the companion
piece to Reason to be Sane and it's all in Jasper's POV. Would you mind
going over and checking it out and maybe reviewing just a little bit?
*Dazzling smile*
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Tomorrow, epilogue one goes up. Now, I told you they'd be pretty short
and this one is just over 1000 words long. It's a cute little thing, but the
'meeting' is not the MAIN sequence of the chapter. It happens towards the
end. Basically, there's a few surprises and I suppose... updates, really on
how life is for them.
Another thing, I found myself trying to think of a way to keep the story
going - subconsciously of course - thinking of possibilities for sequels. But
then I realized that this story has run it's course. It's sad though... for three
months + this story has been an everyday part of my life and it's brought me
to so many new, passionate readers. And I thank you for coming along for
the ride - please don't go away if you really liked this story. I'll be writing
other stories, of course, and other drabbles... but I'll go into detail about
that on the last AN chapter.
For now... I'll see you tomorrow for the epilogue... which I hope you review
the shit out of ;D
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Epilogue One
Hello!
Yes, I know, shockhorror, there's an AN up here. :D
Now... here's the first epilogue. I was a bit hesitant to putting this up here
because after this, we have one chapter (epilogue) and then the AN left.
Please read the AN... you never know if you're gonna be included in it...
and I must say, you all probably will be. Really.
Ok... I guess I should stop trying to keep you away from the chapter... so
here it goes.
Please read it, review it... hope you love it. Oh and read the AN below
please.
Two years later…
Epilogue 1
Stronger
"Edward baby, that's great!" I say, jumping up out of my chair. As soon as I make
it to him, I'm ensnared in his arms and I smiled as his head lies on my pregnant
belly.
Yes, that's right. I'm pregnant… again. Smiling, I kiss the top of Edward's hair –
which is a struggle, to say the least – before I start to rake my fingers through it. It's
a relief, really… Edward's been so busy the past week.
But, apparently, that's all finished now… because he's just gotten a promotion and
now, he's on at regular hours - nine to five every fucking day from Monday to Friday.
"I know," he says, leaning back to kiss my belly. He settles his chin on it and looks
up at me, the smile on his face telling me just how happy he really is. "If it means I
get more time with you, Nessie and the little guy in here, then I'm fucking ecstatic."
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I giggle, "Well, I'm just glad that you won't be run off your feet. You've been so
tired the past couple of weeks."
After a little more talking, Edward and I part and I get back on the bus. It's rare
that I'm alone on here. Edward and I usually catch it together, but with him working
and me on maternity leave, I'm alone again.
It's actually quite peaceful, as far as all things are considered. Nessie's with Esme
and Carlisle – who just love her to death… it's a mutual thing – so I have a few hours
to myself.
Putting my earphones in, I look out the window for a while. The rain, I've always
loved; it's so peaceful, both to look at and listen to. Feeling it is also quite enjoyable,
but only usually with my husband.
Nowadays, a lot of things have changed.
For one, Edward and I live in the town house next to the old one that we shared
with Alice and Jasper. They still live in the same place, and –having started before us
– they now have two children and a third on the way. We're still quite close to each
other, hanging out often and I must say – though Jasper and Edward both hate it and
would never admit it – Nessie seems to have a little crush on their Joey… and it
looks like it's mutual.
For another thing, Edward Masen has gone to jail… for good. The court case
lasted up until Nessie was just about eight months old and it had been a stressful
time for everyone. Edward was up all night a lot of the time, and because of that he
was too tired during the day… which also made him fucking irritable. Esme and
Carlisle were worried when they noticed this – which they did pretty quickly
because we started having dinner with them every Saturday.
Elizabeth Masen is another matter. With her second husband in jail, she'd most
likely – and seemingly – lost the plot… even tried apologizing to my Hoody for
everything she did when she turned up at our house. Edward would have none of it
and – amongst other things – told her to get out. Since then, we've barely heard a
whisper.
Career wise, Edward and I have changed career paths. Edward found that his job
was boring him too much, so he quit after a while and started a full time course in
psychology. Carlisle and Esme helped us a little if we needed financial help, but for
the most part we were fine. He's still studying, of course, but he's now managing his
time and doing it online whilst working at a nicer, friendlier and much more
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interesting job.
I, on the other hand, am now a writer – my book was a bestseller and I've gone to
a few book signings – and a book editor. It's hectic, sometimes, because most days
I'm working from nine to six and all the book editing is done at home. So, in the
meantime in the office, I'm meeting with authors and accepting calls, emails not to
mention all the other meetings with cover artists etc. It's full-time and hard at times,
but so fucking amazing.
When the bus finally stops at our stop – which hasn't changed, even now – I get up
and walk out. Looking to my right, then to my left, I quickly – well, as quickly as I
can at eight months pregnant – cross the road and walk toward our house.
I'm holding a manuscript that I've been carrying around since before going on
maternity leave. The way I see it, just because I'm not working at the moment and I
should be resting, doesn't mean I necessarily have to stop doing the manuscript
editing. It is, of course, an activity that just involves me, a cup of coffee, pens and
markers etc. and the manuscript.
I can go at it for hours and hours on end, provided I have enough coffee.
Suddenly, I'm hit hard in the shoulder and the manuscript falls out of my hand.
Sighing and cursing, I bend down to get it, finding it a little difficult to get down
there so far because of the eight month pregnant belly in my way.
If I'd been paying attention, I would have noticed that I knew the hands, legs and
style of clothing. I knew it well.
"Sorry about that," the person says and I freeze.
I know that voice. It's the same voice that haunted me for years after the last time
I'd heard it. The one that had said all those horrible things, things that had impacted
me the rest of my life up until I met Edward – this is the voice of my mother.
"Um," I say, clearing my throat. I don't look up, not sure if I even want to see her
face. Will she even recognize me? Because she either does recognize me but she's
ignoring me – which would mean that she's just a total, absolute bitch – or she
doesn't recognize me at all.
I realize a moment later that I'm waiting for. Frowning and searching my mind, I
realize that what I'm waiting for is the self-doubt, self-hating feelings that used to
come when I thought of my mother.
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And when I realize that I don't feel that anymore… I lift my head, feeling only
strength as I look her in the eye. Looking at her with the exact same eyes that she
has, the same pale skin, I say to her, "That's ok, Mum."
And then I get up and walk away, ignoring the shouts that sound from my
mother's mouth as I walk away from the hurt of my former life and walk back toward
my current and future life.
And this time… I'm smiling.
Alright. There's the first one... how was that?
I must tell you, I actually have a personal connection with the book editing
and book writing part because that is my dream job. Someday, I hope to
become one. :D
Alright, I'm gonna tell you now that for every review for this chapter, I will
return a PM to the reviewer with a preview of the last epilogue. Then I'll
thank everyone who reviews for the last epilogue.
Yep. That's right - so go on! Type it in and press go... below!
(that was so bad)
See you tomorrow for the final ACTUAL chapter. :(
bexie25
PS - My Saviour - which I've talked about before - actually got no reviews
last night and 2 alerts, 1 fav. So I know I said it before, but... could you take
a look at it?
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Epilogue Two
Hello Everyone!
Welcome to the last epilogue – and chapter – ever of HtSaL!
Sorry I didn't update yesterday. I thought this baby was going to be like…
1000 words – like the first epi – but it's turned into… well, something a lot
longer. That may or may not be because of the lemon below.
Speaking of lemons, I kind of figured out while writing the lemon below –
see? I told you there was one! – that I had never written a full-length all
human lemon… well, I don't think I have. *mulls over it* Ok. So many I have
– but that was a oneshot – it doesn't count!
So, this was odd for me. I've written lemons – obviously – but they're
usually for all vamp or human/vamp… so this was an interesting experience
for me. Please do not judge to harshly.
Oh… and we see a little more of someone very special in this story…
special because they helped Bella chapters and chapters ago… and I do
mean chapters ago! *firm nod*
Onward! (Haha… I just thought of that being an Edward… you know.
On-ward… like… I don't know, something dirty)
Sigh.
And three years after the last one…
Epilogue 2
Full Circle
"Edward," I moan, throwing my head back.
Even after five years, Edward can make my toes curl.
"Fuck… Bella," he groans, driving into me harder and I cry out, arching into him.
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My hands tug on his hair and he moans before smashing his lips to mine.
I whimper at the feeling of his tongue against mine, in sync with his cock rubbing
against my g-spot. Pulling back quickly, he then thrust in, hitting it and I shout out,
clawing at his back and making him hiss. Whether it's a hiss of delight or pain, I
don't know, but suddenly his hand is on my clit and he's more determined than ever.
Breaking from the kiss and panting, I push on his chest. He gets the idea and –
with a wicked, sexy grin – he flips over and grabs hold of my hips, helping me as I
ride him steadily but hard.
Meanwhile, my hands are on his chest. Caressing, playing, tracing fingers
everywhere as I look into his eyes and fuck… I'm lost. After all these years – even
after all these years – I'm still crazy in love with him. Nothing with my feelings has
changed… except they've grown stronger.
I know now that I could never live without him; if he were gone… I'd lose it. I'd… I
would never survive it.
I sniffle and lean over him, planting my hands on either side of his head. Crying
out as he hits that spot in me again, we fall over the edge and I fall onto him, both of
us panting and shivering from the euphoria that we just felt.
My legs are straddling him and when I can, I sit back up again. Looking down at
him, I'm shaking with emotion as I look into Edward's eyes, tears welling. Edward
looks at me, concerned and honestly, fucking perplexed as he tries to figure out
what's wrong.
"Baby?" He whispers, sitting up and I wrap my arms around his neck, squeezing
my legs around his waist as he wraps his arms around my waist. I rest my head on
his shoulder and sniffle as the tears fall. Edward holds me and rocks me, comforting
me and I thank god – someone I used to think didn't exist – that he isn't freaking out.
After a while, I lift my head and plant my forehead against his, looking into his
eyes as I breathe deeply, finally calming down.
He smiles at me sweetly, still a little concerned as he looks into my eyes. "Wanna
tell me what's going on in that beautiful head of yours?" He asks, moving back and
pressing a kiss to my temple, skimming his lips down my face to my neck. I arch it to
give him more access and he hums in appreciation.
I swallow and shake my head slightly. When I speak, it sounds hoarse. "It's
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nothing – just my thoughts getting away at me again, I promise."
Even after these years, I still have some times where I just need to be with
Edward – in his arms, with him wrapped around me and comforting me – while I cry.
It's usually because I've over-reacted over something, or I've had a bad day or
memories have haunted me of something but Edward's always good and patient as I
let it all out.
"Ok, baby," he says sweetly into my ear. "You don't have to tell me…"
I smile and sniffle, leaning back to look in his eyes. "I love you."
His eyes sparkle with emotion as he whispers back, "I love you, too."
And just like that… we're gone for the rest of the night.
"Come on Nessie," I say as Edward simultaneously wakes EJ up. At five years old,
Nessie's a little easier to wake up than EJ. He's already crying, unfortunately.
"Why?" She whines, wiping at her eyes and I coo just a little at how cute that is.
"We going somewhere, mama?"
I smile, "yeah, baby. We're going on a bus ride today! Remember?"
She smiles really big and my smile grows as she gets out of bed and runs into EJ's
room – a room she's in almost as much as he is. They have such a good relationship,
so happy with each other to just be and play.
I follow her through, walking casually. It is kinda early, after all but Edward and I
want to go on the bus with them at the time that we used to and on the same bus
route we used to go on. It's something Nessie's been asking about for a while now
and we're all too happy to do it now that she's old enough to hopefully sustain some
memories of the trip.
But Nessie… she's an inquisitive little thing. She fucking loves asking questions –
she'll ask them all the time until she's satisfied with the answers she's gotten, the
new knowledge she's acquired.
Just like her father.
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EJ is, apparently – well, according to Edward… and Carlisle and Esme – a lot more
like me. He's got my curls and hair colour, but Edward's eyes. Nessie has Edward's
hair in colour and style but my eyes. That's not all there is though because as far as
personalities go, they're both a fairly even divide.
There's a story behind EJ's name. It's actually Edward Jacob, after Edward – his
father – and Jacob, the man who helped me when Edward Masen was trying to get
his wicked way with me when I'd tried to quit.
Even to this day, that memory makes me shiver.
"Miss Swan, do you mind? Is there something you need?"
"Excuse me, sir?" I say, trying to be polite. But I am sure that the disgust I feel for
him is radiating off of me in waves. "But I would rather like to have a word with
you."
He sighs. "Can't it wait?"
"No sir," I say quickly, lithely. "It can't."
He sighs loudly and nods at me. I smirk. "Wait outside for me – I will be right out."
I nod at him and open the door, quickly walking through it and closing it behind
me.
A few short minutes later, it opens and I turn around.
"I quit," I say and he looks at me.
"What?"
"I. Quit," I say distinctively, crossing my arms over my chest.
He frowns and crosses his own. "Miss Swan, might we discuss this later?"
"No," I say and I step forward. "I know who you are, and I know what you do in
your spare time. Remember Edward Cullen? Do you even remember what you did to
him last night? Because judging from the fact that only one side of your face is
properly shaven and the general rugged look about you… I'd say you are an
alcoholic."
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He smirks at me, his evil sneer and personality finally coming to show. "So you're
the girlfriend, eh? Ah well, if I had only known he'd discovered such a hot piece of
ass."
He wraps his arms around me tightly, leaving no room for me to escape.
"Get the fuck off me," I growl and he laughs.
"Feisty. I love feisty women."
The way Mr Masen touches me in vile; sexual and just so wrong.
I can already feel the tears prickle behind my eyes as I fight against him in vain.
His fingers grab and pull on my flesh, nails digging into skin and I scratch him to
shit. He grunts and growls and hisses in both pain and pleasure, the latter making
me feel sick.
I fight the urge to beg, not wanting to give him that opportunity. I look around,
anywhere but his face and when I see someone in the office, I feel hope.
And so I scream.
Loud.
I watch as the man looks up, spluttering and swallowing.
When his eyes meet mine, his gaze hardens and he yells out.
"Hey!" He shouts, jumping up and running toward me.
When he reaches us, he punches the disgusting parasite that is Edward Masen,
knocking him out cold.
I am crying as he pulls me away from him and I look down at my ex-boss,
thoroughly disgusted.
I turn to the man that saved me, "thank you…?"
"Jacob," he says, reaching out to shake my hand. I look at it, unsure and do not
make a move to shake it. He sticks it in his back pocket awkwardly and smiles.
"Jacob Black. What's yours?"
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"Bella," I say hoarsely before I clear my throat. "Um, I have to go."
Really the reason that I called him EJ – and Edward agreed to it – was because of
what Jacob did. Although, I probably wouldn't have if I hadn't meant Jacob at a book
signing when I was just six months pregnant – and of course I was showing…
Smiling, I fall into memories.
I sign the woman's copy of the book and smile up at her as I hand it back. "Thanks
very much and I hope you like it."
She smiles down at me and gushes before looking behind her and quickly moving
along. As she moves out of the way, the next man comes up but I immediately freeze
on his face.
Squinting my eyes for a minute, I smile up at him when I'm positive it's him.
"Jacob? Jacob Black?"
He frowns, studying me before a broad smile comes across his face. "Holy shit,
Bella? As in… Bella from the Masen Foundation? I totally didn't realize it was you!"
I smile and laugh, "Yeah, well… I've changed quite a bit." I gesture down to my
belly, "Put on a few kilos, I suppose you could say."
He's smiles and chuckles, shaking his head. "Wow. Who's the lucky guy?"
I snort at his words. "My husband, actually – Edward Cullen… you probably
haven't heard of him?"
"No shit," Jacob says, looking at me for a minute as if checking that I'm serious.
"You mean, Mr Masen's son?"
I grimace, "his step-son, actually."
Jacob hums, nodding his head. "Knew it was something like that. He's in jail now,
you know."
I smile. "Yeah, I do know."
Jacob grins and rubs the back of his neck. "Yeah… I guess you would."
After a few minutes of mindless chatter, he gives me the book and after a little
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thinking and staring at the page, I begin to write:
"Jacob,
I hope you have success and happiness in your future. Thank you for what you did
all those years ago – I will never forget what you did. You've made a difference and
helped me so much. I hope you have a nice life… and of course, you enjoy this book!"
Signing it with my name and a smiley face, I grin and close the book, handing it up
to him.
"Thank you, Jacob," I say, smiling with warmth up at him.
He nods and says, "That's fine, Bella. Have a nice life."
I laugh, "yeah, you too."
He laughs, too, before he turns and walks away.
I smile and shake my head as I round the corner and walk into EJ's room. At two,
he probably should be sleeping in with Nessie still, but Edward and I decided that it
would be best for her to have her our room since she's a girl and he's… well,
obviously a boy. Plus, we have the space for it in this townhouse.
"Mama!" EJ exclaims, clambering out of Edward's arms as he runs to me. He's so
cute that I can't help but laugh as I grab him up in my arms and smother him with
kisses. His giggles make me smile as I continue.
You see, Nessie may be a Daddy's girl… but EJ's my baby boy. He's a mama's boy
through and fucking through.
"Hey baby," I say, nuzzling my nose against his. I almost 'aw' when he does it
back. "You sleep ok?"
He nods firmly, very seriously and I have to stop myself from laughing.
"Oh good," I say, smiling as I kiss his forehead and then hold him on my hip. He
sits there pretty well, watching me as I come over to Edward and stand as I speak to
him.
"Hey," Edward says, smiling up at me softly and I smile back, biting my lip.
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"Hi," I say. I look around the room for a minute.
"Everything ok?" Edward asks, and I know he's still just a little concerned about
my reaction… last night. Or was it this morning?
I nod, humming an 'mmhmm' and he nods, muttering something but letting it go.
"Mama?" EJ asks, and I look up at him. I'm holding Nessie's hand and EJ's on his
daddy's shoulders.
"Yeah baby?" I ask.
"We nearwee there yet?" He asks, his nose scrunching up adorably.
I laugh, "Not yet, baby. But soon we will be, promise."
I watch as he nods then look back to where I'm going. It's a nice day outside, not
too hot or too cold with clear blue skies.
When we get to the bus stop, we actually have to wait. I look at Edward and he
shrugs. He turns his head to the left, trying to eye his watch as he twists his wrist.
I snort and look at my own, "It's alright, honey. We're early."
He looks back at me and smiles as his eyebrows rise, "Really? With kids and
everything in tow? Hell… why couldn't we do that before?"
I laugh, shaking my head. "I don't know, baby."
We stand there for a few more minutes before the bus turns up.
I pick up EJ and settle him on my hip. Smiling and looking at the other bus takers,
we wait for a few of the older passengers to get on before queuing. All the while, EJ
is asking me excited questions about the bus, pointing to numerous things that I
know he hasn't seen before and asking.
When he does that for an old, dark-haired woman whose hair is in dreadlocks, I
grab hold of his hand in my bigger one and kiss his forehead, telling him in a
whisper that I'll tell him about it later.
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The driver – familiar, his name tag telling me his name is Laurent – smiles at us as
we come in and we smile back. He's been the new driver for this bus for a few years
now, the older, bitchier one – whose name I forget, but I think it started with a 'J' or
something – now retired. Laurent is much nicer and he fucking loves EJ and Nessie,
often asking about them as he'd started the job when I was pregnant with EJ.
"Ah," he croaks. Laurent is in his sixties with greying hair that's tied back in a
ponytail. He sounds distantly French, as if he lived there as a young boy but moved
while he was still quite impressionable. "Here they are," he smiles at Edward and I
before looking at our children. Edward's holding Nessie's hand and EJ's still situated
on my hip. He's a shy one, though, curling into me and hiding his face.
"EJ," I say, jumping him a little, making him bounce and pull his head away to look
at me. I point with my other hand at Laurent and softly say, "There's a man here that
wants to meet you."
"Me?" EJ asks very quietly, looking up at me. I can see that he's getting a little
tired; after getting them all dressed, we let them watch a cartoon as we got ready.
We'd woken up pretty early, after all – too early for the bus, at any rate.
I smile and nod, "Mhmm. His name is Laurent," I say and EJ looks over, blushing
shyly, his green eyes looking at Laurent, glinting with excitement and curiosity.
"Hello," EJ says, rubbing at one of his eyes.
"Hello EJ," Laurent says, smiling and showing teeth as he holds out a hand. EJ
looks down at it, blinks, before he huddles back into me again. I chuckle as he
burrows his head under my chin and I smile at Laurent.
"Sorry, he's getting a little tired," I say. "I don't think he had such a good sleep
last night – he gave us a bit of trouble."
Laurent chuckles raspingly, "that's alright, Bella. I can understand. I wish I was
asleep at the moment."
We laugh and move on, going over to sit where Edward and I sat when we caught
the bus together in the early days. We still sit there, but as our careers change etc.
we've not always caught the bus together.
Sitting down, we held our two babies on our laps and helped them look out the
windows as we waited for the bus to leave the stop.
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When it does, EJ laughs and looks up at me, clapping his hand as he looks out the
window. He's excited and it's so adorable that Edward and I look at each other and
laugh. Nessie shakes her head and tells her brother, "EJ, sit down! You get hurt if
you do that!"
Edward looks down at her, kissing her forehead. "No, it's alright baby. Mummy's
holding him so he won't fall down, see?" She looks over and after making sure her
brother is indeed safe, she smiles and settles back into her father.
I lean my head down on Edward's shoulder and for a few minutes at least, there's
a peaceful silence.
In those moments, I'm eyeing the front of the bus and remembering that day that
Edward was running late, running up for the bus as it stopped sharply. Smiling, I
look up at Edward, love shining in my eyes as I look into his green orbs, full of
depth.
"I love you," I whisper, leaning up. My hands tighten on EJ to make sure that I'm
still holding him as Edward leans down.
"I love you," he whispers, and then he kisses me. It's an earth-shattering, amazing
kiss that's cut short by the sound of our children.
"EW!" Nessie cries. "EJ, look! Mummy and Daddy are doing kissy-faces again!"
That's when we hear the giggling and we break apart, smiling.
"Alright, you two," I say, shaking my head at our two laughing children. "Enough's
enough."
"Story!" Nessie says and EJ gasps.
"Yes, story!" He says, clapping his hands again.
Edward and I look at each other. "Ok, then," Edward says and I bite my lip. "Once
upon a time, there was a beautiful girl and her name was Bella."
"That's mama's name!" EJ says, pointing at me.
"Yes, it is," Edward says, looking down at his son lovingly. "This story is about
Mummy and Daddy."
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Nessie 'ooh's' like a girl and claps her hands, settling into her Daddy's lap as EJ
does the same into my lap.
And so, Edward tells them. He tells them how the beautiful Bella and handsome
Edward – I have to agree with that – met and fell in love on a magical bus. When he's
finished, our son asks him if they lived happily ever after and this is what Edward
says:
"Of course they did. They lived happily ever after with two beautiful children who
they loved very much. They lived happily forever and ever and ever."
And that story… it became a reality.
There now, I think that's a nice ending, don't you?
I cried when I wrote the ending – even more when I read it back to
proofread it.
JUST A NOTE: I had to put in those previous chapters for the memory
about Jacob, just to give you that little jolt to remember what happened
exactly. :D Hope you got that it was some previous chapters, btw. ;)
Now, since I was supposed to update yesterday – which didn't happen as I
was quite busy and this bloody chapter is longer than I was planning for it to
be – the AN chapter (which is REALLY IMPORTANT) will be going up
tonight.
Till then,
Cheerio and please review the last real chapter of How to Save a Life!
bexie25
PS - I'm not pressing the complete button until I put up the AN - please
read it, it's VERY important!
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Special AN
Hello
Alright, I'm going to do something that I don't usually do. Because of how
well this fic has gone and how much support you all have given me… this is a
thank you and news (etc.) AN.
HtSaL Statistics:
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Reviews (as of yet): 1974
Hits (as of yet): 228 168
The Thank you's
First off, I have to thank kitkat681. Kitkat, you've just been… well… amazing.
You've helped me when I was unsure of whether things were good enough or if it
made sense or if the reactions etc. were realistic and would please the readers. I
remember when I PMmed you and I never dreamed that you'd respond. I asked you
for advice and not only did you give me that, but you started reading the fic as
well… that just fucking blew me away. You read it, reviewed every chapter and let
me ask you fucking anything! And then, you made me a fucking banner! The only
thing I can really tell you is thank you and I hope you stick around for more of my
fics. :D
Thank you and a special shout out to ANONYMOUS (and readers such as this).
I'm not sure if there's more than one of you calling yourself that, but please, PM me
or something if you have an account. I'm hoping to give you a few suggestions based
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on what you might like so you can read some of my stories that you are going to be
interested in. I want to thank you for caring enough to review as you reviewed both
the last two chapters and a few of the other ones before. I'm sorry I couldn't
respond, but you can't respond to anonymous reviews, so I just thought I'd say
something here. :D
Lastly for the individual shoutouts, irishnlove2shop. You've read I think every
one of my stories and reviewed all of them. I know you're behind on this one – and
honestly, I don't blame you – but I just wanted to quickly thank you. Although it
didn't happen you nominated me for Fic of the Week/month. It was my first ever
nomination and although it didn't get through, I just wanted to thank you so much
for that. I told all my friends and family, squealing. I think I actually squealed when I
first saw that you did that… so THANK YOU!
Um… hmm…
This will take too long – and I mean, really too long – if I thank everyone
individually so I'll just list you all in the paragraph below. What I want to say is
thank you to all these people. You reviewed and gave me your opinion actively and
really fucking cared. It doesn't matter how late you came in the story… you were
there and you gave your opinion and that's all that matters. That goes out to the
following (Kitkat you're not mentioned… sorry, but I mentioned you before):
Lovedwardalways, annaharding, Edward's spouse, EllieJ, Soni's Angel,
mommymac0508, yvonne72, k8ln713, Mom23xx, DoubleFate, ltleefan88,
May, are-you-not-entertained, lantus123, I LOVE GERRAN CULLEN,
nobody2, lnowak1, lwb, TwilightMoon11, Danielleteambellaforever, Siobhan
Whitlock, aprothe, pac1025, stav Jacobi 1986, WendyTigger, rockymickey,
EAMCSquared, angleface12, MAJOR-twihard-1997, alc1002, stav,
GabbeGabbie, Nina, Nat, Treya, Ellachanted, 8thweasleykid, LMBB,
Rita01tx, raidershell, wendy5542, sibaruneko, Daculaura, sasmack, Lizzie
Sparkling, lovestwilight2010, Mireads, csuter, Mrs. Nina Cullen, Hollbeth,
R, shecan1102, bundycal, Teresa R, shorty1773, hurtruth, Hope Edwards,
Lilibet68, rubell, Kerricullen, cmandal, 2old4fanfic, rubyblue9696,
indyjones88, kimjhill, djw2104, MariaLorenzen, DyinginWonderland,
Supersaiyan909, ERCommandoTwilight, Carlaisabel.
Thank you to all those people and everyone else who read but didn't review! I
thank you all and hope to see you all in my new stories or stories that are already
up!
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News – Next Drabble
Alright. Here's what we really want (I think) to know.
Yes, there will be more drabbles. The one that I'm looking at now (well, thinking of
posting right now, anyways) is called Love Knows No Bounds.
Here's the summary (which has changed, so yes, please read it): A vampire
who spent the last eighty years looking for his mate alongside his family and a
human girl who has no one in the world but her parents. A highly unlikely pairing
but, love knows no bounds. After they meet, the family that she takes for granted
falls apart from lies and deceit. This is the story of two lonely souls finally finding
their place in the world. AU, M. Drabble, Lemons.
I think that's a pretty good summary… long, but good. Now, in this story there's
Edward and Bella. Edward's a vamp and Bella's a human. The chapters will
alternate in POV's in this style:
First ten chapter: Bella.
11-20: Edward.
21-30: Bella.
And then they just keep swapping from Bella to Edward every ten chapters.
Because of this, I'm going to update 5 chapters a day – only more if I'm begged or
bribed or something, I dunno .
Just a warning, some of the content of the chapters – in fact, a lot – overlaps
between both POV's. I've done this to give you an idea of what they are both
thinking of the situation in terms of each other, etc. Either way, it's really important,
I think. ;D
It's only partially written, so don't make me blow all of it (kitkat!)
Updating of this story will commence on the9th of July 2012
News – Updating Schedule
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This is important, so PLEASE READ:
I've completely completed (haha) the updating schedule. Here it is (also can be
found on my profile):
Drabbles – obviously, updated daily (hopefully fully pre-written or partially
pre-written).
Stories of chapters 2000 words or less – updated oncea week.
Stories with 2000-5000 words – updated every two weeks.
Stories with 5000 words - updated every three weeks.
Outtakes - do not have a schedule.
Companion pieces/sequels - same day the previous story initially had.
That means that for CURRENT stories this is the schedule:
UPCOMING (VERY SHORTLY: probably this week) Love Knows No Bounds
- daily updates.
I'm a Girl with Power, Obsessions and Confessions and My Saviour
(companion to Reason to be Sane) – once a week. I'm a Girl with Power's day
is THURSDAY. O&C's day is FRIDAY. My Saviour's day is SATURDAY.
Femme Fatale, Nine Years – every two weeks. Days - TBC. Femme Fatale's
day is WEDNESDAY, Nine Years day is SUNDAY.
A Choice – every three weeks. Day - TUESDAY.
A Choice Outtakes – because they're outtakes, does not have a schedule.
Last Notes – Farewell!
Lastly, for those of you who aren't going to stick around for other stories (though I
really hope you do!)… farewell! Thanks for reading the story and I sincerely hope
that you enjoyed reading it as much as I liked writing it. It was a treat to have you
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on board.
Now, I'm gonna go read my story… I wanna see what all the fuss is about!
Thank you everyone,
bexie25
PS – I'm officially going over to click the complete button! *cries*
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Big News: Nomination!
Hello Everyone.
I wasn't expecting to ever put anything up on this story again, but hell…
this story has been nominated in the Top Ten Completed Fics for July 2012!
Please vote for this story, if you loved it. There's so many amazing writers
up there, so I don't think we'll win but whoever nominated, please drop me a
PM or something so I can personally thank you.
You've got until September 1 to vote, so I'm sure you'll hear from me
again.
Here's the direct link to vote (I don't think you can vote for multiple
people and I don't know how many times you can vote (maybe just keep with
1): twifanfictionrecs category / top-ten-fics / top-ten-favourite-fics-jul-2012 /
Thank you so much to all of you for reading and reviewing – I'm sure this
wouldn't have been possible without you!
Please vote,
bexie25
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Chapter 395: Even BIGGER news!
Hello Everyone
What do you know – I didn't say anything up on here throughout the whole
competition.
Well, now it's over and I'd like to say thank you and let you know what
happened.
First off, thanks to whoever the fuck nominated this little first born
drabble of mine. I'm honestly shocked, because I had no idea that you all
loved it so much as to nominate it for something and then vote! Fucking
hell, guys – just… just thank you!
Alrighty, and now for the results. Drum roll please *drum roll ensues
(pretty much just rhythmic thumping of hands against desks)*
We got 2ND PLACE!
Thank you to everyone who voted and all that – it means a lot and I'm
honestly shocked that we went so well… so thank you!
I'm so humbled that everyone loved this story so much and I have to tell
you that since completion, it's reached up to 2, 020 reviews. We actually
fucking cracked the 2000 review mark! Again… thank you!
Hoodyward and Broodella thank you very much and love you all.
Hoodyward gives you kisses. Bella just smiles.
Goodbye everyone.
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New Memories: Valentine's Day Futuretake
Hello everyone!
Surprise! One very special outtake. This was for the Countdown to
Valentine's Day, hosted by the amazing Breath-of-Twilight. Thank you to
those who read it on there, recognised it (it was anonymous) and reviewed
it. I'm glad you all liked it.
For those who haven't read it... I hope you like it. ;)
Details I had originally added (and some were needed) to the oneshot. The
prompt was, as you can see, Roses.
Name: New Memories: A Special Valentine's Day Outtake
Temperature in this fic was told in Fahrenheit. 50 degrees Fahrenheit is
10 degrees Celsius.
Disclaimer: The twilight saga is not mine, though I really wish it was. This
little number, however, is.
Prompt: Roses
"I don't wanna go sleep, mama," Nessie whines. She's using every trick in the
book tonight, but I'm having none of it. "I not tired."
And I smirk, because, just as she says that, she lets out a yawn and rubs her eyes.
I shake my head and look at her pointedly. She pouts at me again, using those damn
puppy dog eyes. All I can say is thank god I'm not Edward, because he cannot say no
to them.
"Vanessa Cullen, if you get up and come outside one more time, I will not be
happy," I warn her, careful not to raise my voice above a whisper because our
younger son, EJ, is a light sleeper. She's about to protest and whine again, but when
I cock my eyebrow she huffs and falls silent. She knows not to cross me when I give
her this look; a small mercy.
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"Yes, mama," she mumbles, looking down.
I smile softly, then lean in and kiss her forehead. She wraps her arms around my
neck and I tilt my head for her to kiss my cheek. She does it every night regardless
of whether she's angry at me or not.
"I love you, Nessie," I say softly. "See you tomorrow. Go to sleep, baby."
"Love you, mama," she mumbles and I smile; she's already half-asleep.
I get up off the bed, careful not to jostle my daughter, and walk over to EJ. He's
thankfully still asleep, so I kiss his cheek quickly and then walk out of the room,
shutting the door behind me. When he turned three just a few months ago, Hoody
and I decided it would probably be better if they shared a room. They're siblings,
after all, and it's easier to grow up learning how to share than to have to learn it at
an older age.
I walk down the hall to our bedroom. Edward looks up from his place on the bed
when I enter the room, and he smiles softly, reaching for me.
"Hi," he says quietly. "They asleep?"
I nod. "Nessie was a little harder to put down, but she eventually got there. She
totally got that from you, by the way; the cheekiness."
My husband chuckles and smiles that crooked grin of his. "She's five years old,
baby. I think she's allowed to be like that."
I shake my head and smile. "Hoody, you are the softest person around when it
comes to her. She's got you wrapped around her little finger."
Edward's head falls back and he laughs. "True. Touché, Love."
We're silent for a moment after our laughter dies down. Edward looks me in the
eyes, his gaze so piercing that it reminds me of the day he came back home with me
from work.
Edward and I met on the bus when I was still living with Alice and Jasper. We
were immediately attracted to each other, despite our abuse-ridden pasts. At the
time, Alice was heavily pregnant and I envied her relationship with Jasper, finding it
hard to live with them and be happy.
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It was only when I met Edward, opening up to him and falling in love with him,
that I began to heal. My father had been a very abusive man, blaming me for my
mother's leaving when I was just six. As I grew up, he became very violent, and left
many a scar on my body; the one on my forearm, from a light bulb, being one of the
worst.
But when Edward had come over, he'd managed to make me feel beautiful. He'd
accepted me for my scars, even kissing them and telling me that I wasn't ugly and
that he didn't find me disgusting. And I quickly did the same for him when he
showed me his scars and let me in.
Our relationship had progressed quickly, but even through all the problems we'd
had with Edward's sick step-father, Mr Masen – who was my boss at the time – and
his mother, Elizabeth, there was never a moment of doubt. We got each other
through the hardest of times, and it only made us stronger and much more
connected.
"Hey," Edward mumbles against my skin. I hadn't even noticed his lips on my skin,
but, as I feel them now, I shiver and lick my now-dry lips. "Where'd your mind go
to?" Edward asks, dropping a kiss to my collarbone. He sucks softly, scraping his
teeth against the spot, and I moan, my nipples instantly hardening.
"Just thinking," I breathe, looking into Edward's eyes as they flash up to my face.
His brow quirks questioningly and I chuckle breathlessly. I lift my hands up to his
hair and thread my fingers through the messy mop, tugging softly. "Just the way
you've been looking at me tonight… it reminded me of the way you looked at me
when you came over the first time and we… well, you know."
He chuckles and drops another sucking kiss to my neck. "Hmm… I remember that.
All of it."
And with that, talking stops, replaced with whispers of love and whimpers for
more, harder and faster. Edward makes me feel worshiped as he makes love to me
over and over, until, finally, we fall asleep in each other's arms.
"Bella, it's nearly Valentine's Day. Let's do something. I wanna take you out to
dinner. We could go stay at a hotel or something; have the night to ourselves,"
Edward tries to reason with me as he gets dressed for work.
I sigh. "What about the kids?"
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He shoots me a smirk. "Already thought of that; Alice and Jasper don't mind them
staying over."
Well, there's a way to get out of this, I think, my eyebrow raising. "And you're
letting our children stay with them when you know Nessie's crush on Joey is mutual?
They're inseparable, Edward, a fact that you can't seem to stop nagging me about."
He grumbles. "You're right," he says and I'm just about to sigh in relief because
he's decided against this whole Valentine's Day thing when he continues. "Maybe
they should stay with Dad and Esme instead," he mutters to himself.
I sigh, none-to-silently.
Edward hears it and looks at me, pleading. I groan and close my eyes as he
speaks. "Bella, please; it's one night. Just one lousy little day in the year where I
have an excuse to make you feel special. Where I can show you just how much I love
you. I want to worship you thoroughly, and I can't do that with the kids in the
house."
I bite my lip. "You really want to do something on Valentine's Day? Can't we just
do it… the day after or something?" I ask quietly, also pleading with him.
He frowns. "Yes, I do. And if we do it on another day, it won't be the same."
Edward replies, looking at me through narrowed, curious eyes. "Bella, why don't you
want to? What aren't you telling me?"
I sigh again, looking away, toward the window. "My father, Hoody," I admit, not
really wanting to explain any further.
Of course, Edward won't let me just stop there. "What about him?" Edward asks,
and his voice is closer now. I swallow, breathing in deeply as my throat tightens.
Edward notices, pulling me into his arms and onto his lap. "Baby, tell me. What did
he do?"
I take another deep breath and look up at Edward, tears in my eyes. "It's the day
of love, Hoody, and Charlie blamed me for my mother's leaving. You do the math."
He sighs, and kisses my lips, knowing I won't explain anymore, at least not today.
"All the more reason to make new memories," he mumbles.
I look into his emerald eyes, which are pleading with me to let him do this. And
just like that, my resolve crumbles and I nod.
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"Ok."
He smiles and gets up, kissing me once more. "Thank you," he whispers, looking
into my eyes for a second before he grabs his suit jacket. "I love you. See you
tonight."
I smile. "See you tonight."
And as he leaves, I reckon that maybe doing this won't be so bad. Maybe Edward's
right; maybe all we need to do is make new memories.
Better ones.
For the next week, Edward is very secretive. He doesn't mention Valentine's Day
once. I try asking him on many occasions what we're doing, but he just shakes his
head, smiles, and then changes the subject.
When we meet up with Esme and Carlisle, Edward's father and step-mother, for
lunch that Sunday – a tradition we've gradually started – the topic is broached again
when Edward asks them to look after the kids.
"We were wondering if you could take the kids this Thursday," Edward asks after
dinner when we're all sitting in the lounge room. The kids are playing on the floor,
but they hardly even notice the conversation going on around them as they
animatedly discuss their toys and why they think their own are better.
"Oh?" Esme asks with a serene smile on her face. I smile to myself; she loves Ness
and EJ just as much as we do. She can't resist. "Of course. That would be fine,
wouldn't it, dear?" she asks Carlisle.
He nods. "Yes, of course."
"Are you sure?" I ask, frowning a little. "You weren't planning on doing anything?"
"No." Esme chuckles, shaking her head with a smile on her face. "We'll leave that
to the two of you. Besides, you know we can never resist a chance to see our two
adorable grandchildren."
I smile. "I'm well aware, Esme. And thank you very much. If you do feel like doing
something, just tell us. We won't mind."
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Esme smiles and shakes her head. "No, no. We're fine, dear. What are the two of
you doing?" she asks curiously.
I chuckle. "That's what I want to know. Your son is being very secretive about it.
He won't tell me a thing." I look over at Edward. He laughs and presses a loving kiss
to my jaw; I can feel the smile in it.
"It's a surprise," he whispers.
I shiver.
"Besides, I told you when I said that I wanted to take you to dinner," he tells me
with a raised eyebrow.
"Yes, but nothing more," I reply, mirroring his expression.
"As I said, it's a surprise," he shrugs, smirking.
I sigh, making my husband and in-laws laugh.
And I resist pouting, because, at thirty-four, I probably shouldn't be doing that.
The next few days pass by quickly. Edward is late home on Wednesday night, the
day before Valentine's Day, but, when I ask, he simply tells me he was caught up at
work.
I shrug it off, knowing he's probably just keeping it from me because it's
Valentine's Day plan-related. Maybe.
Now that I come to think of it, I'm actually looking forward to whatever he's
planning. There's no longer dread or reminders of my father. Instead, there's
overwhelming relief that Edward loves me enough to want to make me feel special
in a way that only he ever really has.
I smile to myself as I make dinner for us. The kids ate earlier and are already in
bed and asleep, but Edward's first stop after greeting me was into their bedroom. I
know he always feels bad when he can't be there at dinner, bath time or bed time for
them.
But at least they know their father loves them, I think.
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I look up when Edward enters the room. His job, one that he keeps out of
necessity while he finishes his psychology course, is not as tiring as it used to be.
When he got that promotion whilst I was still pregnant with EJ, we were over the
moon knowing he wouldn't be as tired as he was. It gives him stable hours and good
time off if needed. A fact that, since I'm now a professional author, is something I
can be thankful for when I'm off on book tours. He can mind the children when I'm
gone, which is for no longer than two weeks at a time, and if he has to work, he's not
the last one to pick them up from day care. Or, if they're with Esme and Carlisle,
they're not asleep when he takes them home.
I feel Edward's arms wrap around me then, sighing as I lay my head back against
his chest. He kisses my shoulder, his lips lingering for a moment before he rests his
forehead there.
"What are you thinking?" he whispers and I smile.
"I'm thinking about you," I say back quietly, looking over my shoulder as I feel
Edward lift his head to look at me, his arms constricting around me just slightly.
"How lucky I am to have such an amazing man who loves me and our children so
much. Who makes our children feel his love, and is so selfless it's crazy."
"I feel the exact same way every time I look at you, Bella," he says quietly. "I love
you so much, baby. You've… at the risk of sounding corny, you've shown me the
light. You've helped me so much. I can't believe it's been six years."
I smile. "I know. I can't believe our little girl is already five."
"Seems like just yesterday…" Edward trails off thoughtfully, growing silent and I
nod, pressing a kiss to his cheek. He holds me for a minute before I push him off; he
looks at me with a raised eyebrow.
"Go, shoo!" I say playfully. "Go change! I'm making dinner for us and I can't do it if
I'm distracted by my incredibly good looking husband!"
Edward chuckles and he sucks on my earlobe, making me whimper, before pulling
back. He whispers, "Somehow, baby, I don't think you'd mind."
I growl and am about to turn around, but Edward laughs and backs away. "Ok, ok,
I'll be good," he chortles, his hands up in the air, palms forward in surrender.
I raise an eyebrow. "You better be."
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"I will," he says with a cocky smile. "For now," he adds cheekily.
And just as I'm about to smack him with the kitchen towel on my shoulder, he
walks speedily out the door and presumably – hopefully – to our bedroom to change
out of his work clothes. It's a sort of rule in our house, actually.
I sigh and shake my head. Hoody will be Hoody.
Edward emerges just a few minutes later and I smile when I see what he's
wearing – light grey sweats and the same hoody he wore when I first saw him on the
bus. I snicker to myself as I remember how I reacted the time I saw a strand of his
hair, thinking who the fuck has bronze hair? Is it dyed or something?
Edward notices, and smiles, narrowing his eyes playfully. "What are you laughing
at?"
"Nothing," I giggle, shaking my head, "just memories."
My husband seems to understand that I won't share, so he helps me serve dinner
for the two of us silently. He does all the right things, making me forget he's
supposed to be kinda in trouble for being late; he compliments my spaghetti, and my
cooking skills, and then he takes me to bed afterwards and shows me exactly how
much he appreciates it.
I don't know what I'd been expecting to wake up to Valentine's morning, but it
isn't Edward's lips pressing sweet, suckling and nibbling kisses down my spine. It
also isn't the red rose that immediately catches my eye when I look to my right.
I sigh and smile, reaching for the rose. Edward continues to kiss down to the small
of my back, his hands on my sides as he pushes the sheet down my body even
further, uncovering even more skin.
And then he sits up. I look over my shoulder, propping myself up on my elbows but
not turning around. I raise an eyebrow and he smiles, leaning down.
"Morning, baby," he breathes, kissing me sweetly. He climbs off the bed and I
watch as he nakedly walks to the door and opens it.
"Edward, what are you doing?" I ask, slightly worried… and suspicious. "The
kids–"
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"Are with Esme and Carlisle," Edward says with a cheeky smile. "I have you all to
myself for the whole day."
I giggle and roll over. Edward watches me, licking his lips as his eyes land on my
breasts. "Bella," he moans. I giggle as I look down and eye his semi meaningfully. I
could feel my arousal on my outer lips and just the tips of my thighs already. "I'm
supposed to be getting you breakfast," he says huskily, taking a single step forward.
I crook a finger at him to come to me, smirking. "Later," I say with a raised
eyebrow, daring him to argue.
"What the wife wants, the wife gets," he says, licking his lips. "And what a fucking
beautiful, sexy wife I have," he breathes, climbing onto the bed and settling above
me. I moan, knowing what he's about to do when he spreads my legs and slides
down the bed, his hands gliding over my abdomen.
And then I feel him. My eyes are already closed, my fingers threaded through his
hair, but that just makes it better as he starts to suck, nibble and kiss just below my
belly button, which is like a nerve-wire it's so sensitive. I whimper when he moves
even further down, his tongue sliding out from between his lips, gliding lightly over
my skin to the top of my mound. I take a deep breath as he nudges my legs just a
little further open so he can reach my throbbing, soaking core.
When I feel him breathe against me, I bring my head back up, needing to see him.
My eyes land on him and I whimper because the sight does not disappoint. He looks
up at me, a smirk on his face. He's gorgeous with just a few strands of hair dangling
in his eyes, and his emerald eyes even darker with want and love. He winks at me,
and I watch as his tongue pokes out and licks my arousal from my outer lips.
I moan.
And then… he quite literally dives in.
He brings me to the edge quickly, alternating between titillating long strokes over
his tongue from my slit to my clit, greedy shallow laps, and wrapping his lips around
my clit, sucking hard as his two fingers thrust into me, curling every so often to hit
that magical spot inside me that makes my back arch.
When I come, it's with a scream. My hands are out of his hair so I don't rip chunks
out, clutching the bed sheets as my back flies off the bed. My eyes are clenched
closed in pleasure, and the pleasure is so good I'm nearly sobbing.
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Only Edward, I think afterwards, panting as the man in question kisses and sucks
up my trembling body. He kisses me, moaning as I thrust my tongue into his mouth,
fire lighting within me as I taste myself on his tongue. For some reason, with
Edward, that is just so damn hot.
"So what are we doing today?" I ask Edward after a while. I look at him, resting
my chin on his chest.
"That I have not planned," Edward says with a smirk. My eyebrows rise in shock
and he chuckles. "I knew you wouldn't want to do anything extravagant and I
already have plans for tonight, so I thought you could decide. We are making new
memories after all."
I giggle. "Out with the old and in with the new, eh, Hoody?"
"Precisely," he says with a silly grin on his face. "So?" he prompts with a raised
eyebrow of his own.
I bite my lip, ignoring Edward's groan as I think of something I'd really like to do.
I sigh. "I don't know."
"Yes, you do," Edward replies. "Really, Bella, anything you want. I don't care; I've
got what I want tonight."
"A picnic," I say, looking up at Edward with a big smile. He smiles as soon as the
idea is out of my mouth and I know this is something Edward and I will both enjoy.
That and we'll get a bus ride out of it. Not that we don't have a car, because we do,
but we still loved having the excuse of taking the bus for obvious sentimental
reasons and with the kids at Esme and Carlisle's, it's even easier.
To my surprise, Edward raises his eyebrow. "Baby, have you seen outside yet
today?"
I raise an eyebrow of my own. "No, I haven't. And I think you know why, am I
right?"
He chuckles, a smirk on his face.
"Proud, aren't we, Mr Cullen?" I ask him with a smirk of my own.
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"Of course, love," he says cockily.
I shake my head, hiding my smile as I sigh. "Your point is?"
"Right," he nods. "My point is that whilst it is possible, I'm pretty sure you
wouldn't want to be out for long. It's really cold, love."
"Well, what else is new for Seattle," I grumble with a pout and Edward roars with
laughter. I sigh. "There goes Seattle, ruining our plans again."
"Well, I wouldn't say there's no hope, baby," Edward says softly. I look up
questioningly and he shrugs, smiling. "I had a few ideas…"
My brow crinkles and I smile. "Really? Why didn't you tell me?"
He smiles sheepishly, which is a rare sight for my husband. "I wanted you to
choose. I know you don't like Valentine's Day for reasons you want kept private for
now. I just thought, if you chose, you might feel a little better about it, considering
I've already planned tonight."
My smile widens and all I can think is how sweet my husband is and that I am the
luckiest woman on earth. "I love you," I whisper up at him, and though we're still
both pretty darn naked, I reach up and rest my hand on his chest as I kiss him. He
cups my jaw with both hands and kisses me back with just as much passion.
"And I love you, too," he murmurs against my lips when I break away to breathe. I
smile and cup his face with my left hand.
"Your ideas?" I breathe.
"Ah, right. Well, I was just thinking maybe we could go to the Rose Garden," he
says and my head shoots up.
I smile at him, already loving the idea because of its sentimental value. We were
married at the Rose Garden…
"Is it not too cold?" I ask with a frown.
Hoody shakes his head. "I don't think so. Picnics take longer and you have to sit
down on the ground. Plus, it rained overnight. And if we go to the Rose Garden and
you wear gloves like I certainly will be, we won't have to take them off to eat. We
could go to a hotel for lunch or something and then… go from there. Go home or
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stick around; it's up to you, love."
I smile and, with my hands braced on his chest, I peck him on the lips once, twice,
and a third time before pulling back. "Thank you."
I then pull back the covers once again, but this time I get out of bed and walk over
to the closet. I laugh at Edward's groan. So I wiggle my ass, hearing the sound
morph into a moan. I giggle.
"Vixen," my gorgeous husband mutters and my head falls back as I laugh.
"Do you want to go?" he asks when I've settled down.
I look over at him and nod before turning back to our closet, picking out a blue
shirt and my favourite comfy jeans. I smile to myself, grabbing them and walking to
the bed as I say, "Yeah, I really do. What is the time? And the temp outside?"
He laughs and grabs his black iPhone 4S. What can I say? My husband has grown
to really love technology. "It's eleven o'clock, so the Rose Garden is already open,"
he looks at me and I nod, pulling the shirt over my head. He looks back down at his
phone. "And today it's… 50 degrees. Not too bad, but not exactly pleasant, either,
love. Not that you mind, though. In fact, if anything, I know you'd love it if it rained,
silly girl," he says with a short laugh and a shake of his head.
I merely shrug as I button my shirt. Yeah, maybe I would, I think.
"Well, baby, you're getting your wish. Sort of, anyway," he chuckles and I raise an
eyebrow, pausing. He rolls his eyes. "It's gonna be cloudy and a little drizzly. Not
heavy, but enough to make the roses look really nice… the way they did at our
wedding."
I beam at him. Today is going to be amazing, a fact I can already predict. "They
were beautiful," I say, my voice thick with emotion as I remember that day. My
dress, Esme's overbearing happiness, Carlisle walking me down the aisle, Edward
waiting for me at the end of it all…
I sigh, a small smile playing on my lips.
And then I hear Edward speak.
"Yeah, you were."
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My breath hitches and I smile as tears well in my eyes. Edward feels deeply; he is
by no means an insensitive ogre, even by the most sensitive men out there. The
things he says are always heartfelt and truthful.
I know this because I know my husband. I know my Hoody.
I take a deep, shuddering breath and smile down at him. "Come on. Out of bed
and get dressed."
He smiles. "Alright, alright, I'm coming."
I giggle. "That's what you said not fifteen minutes ago."
I watch my husband as he gets out of the bed. He's gorgeous clothed, but hands
down the best thing I've ever seen naked. Even at thirty-three, he's a beautiful
specimen. My eyes glaze over as I watch the muscles in his thighs and ass when he
walks over to the wardrobe to pick out his clothes for the day. I can't contain my
reaction as I lick my lips, biting my lip as I tilt my head and lean to the side to watch
his ass some more.
"Stop checking me out, wife," Edward chuckles, not even turning around.
"Can't help it," I say stubbornly, leaving no room to argue. "I have a sexy husband.
There's no way in hell I'm looking anywhere but at what's in front of me now."
So that's exactly what I do, and fifteen minutes later, Edward and I are all set to
go. We grab our umbrellas, just in case – an everyday occurrence for the inhabitants
of Seattle. Edward, true to my nickname for him, puts on one of his many hoodies
while I put on a slightly thicker sweater.
Hand in hand, we walk out the door, heading straight for the bus stop – our bus
stop. The wait isn't long at all, and when we see Laurent – one of our resident bus
drivers nowadays – he cracks a smile and winks at Edward in one of those ways that
just screams insinuation. I smile bashfully and turn my head away as Edward smirks,
clapping Laurent on the shoulder.
We sit in our usual spot, and I plug in the headphones to my iPod, sharing a smile
with Edward as I hand it to him. He slips it in his ear, and I do the same, turning on
Evanescence's What You Want, one of the band's newer songs. I shake the thing to
turn our playlist on shuffle. I lock the iPod, holding it loosely in my hand. I close my
eyes and rest my head on Edward's shoulder. He kisses my forehead, letting his lips
linger and then a moment later, his head rests against mine.
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I know when we arrive, not paying attention to the time, because Hoody's head
lifts off my shoulder and I feel the tug on my earphone as he takes his out. His
words, a second later, confirms this. "We're here, baby."
I nod and mutter under my breath to myself. I pack my things up, pocketing my
iPod and earphones, which are wrapped around the former tightly.
Edward wraps his arm around my waist as we get up and walk out the door. I
shout a "thank you" at Laurent, not even bothering to look for his response. I know
it's probably that cheesy grin of his, the one he'd given Edward when he saw us.
The walk to the garden is not long. We're there in just a few minutes and I smile
as we walk through the gates. I could hardly describe the surroundings on my
wedding day, and I really only remember the emotions behind the day than real
specific details of the events – especially when I reached Edward at the end of that
damned long aisle.
We walk along the trail, Edward's arm still wrapped around my waist. We're both
silent as we look around slowly, looking through trees and various plants to see the
beautiful rose bushes of vibrant colours. Reds, yellows and pinks are spread across
the garden, settled in deep green, perfect bushes. I wonder idly how much work it
must take to tend the garden and make it look like this all the time, but then shrug it
off.
We walk around the edge of the small expanse of free ground, looking at the
bushes, smiling, kissing and smelling the roses. There're so many roses of different
colours and sizes, and I look at them, trying to decide which ones are truly my
favourite.
Edward is just as into this as I am, a fact I'm definitely happy about. Edward
actually seems to be quite knowledgeable about roses, though I have a feeling he's
researched them or at least looked them up to a decent degree, and he sprouts off
the information casually.
"Did you know that this place was actually what inspired the Seattle Rose
Society?" he mentions and I stop, spinning around on my heel.
I look at him, and the sight of his amused expression – a cocked eyebrow and that
damned sexy crooked smirk of his – makes my eyes bug out and I giggle. "Wait…
there's such a thing as a rose society?"
He laughs. "Yes, there is. Don't ask me about it because there was no way in hell I
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was looking that up at work, but still… yeah, there is."
My mouth had fallen open when he'd begun this new stream of conversation, and
my eyes were still large as I just look at him. I shake my head slowly, my eyes shut
as I look at him, incredulous. He smiles at me, his shoulders shaking slightly and I
know he's laughing at me. I turn around and continue walking around the little
semi-circle, looking at all the gorgeous roses with water droplets on them.
Edward smiles at me and then walks around to the back of the bush. I stand still
and watch him. I can't really see what he's doing, but I have an idea… which is
confirmed when he emerges a few seconds later, a freshly picked rose in his hand
and a broad smile on his face.
Of course, the girl in me is sighing at the gesture, but the more responsible –
annoying, on occasion – is horrified. "Edward!" I whisper-shout, looking around to
make sure no one saw anything.
"What?" he asks innocently, his eyes wide. I can see just a hint of a smirk at the
corners of his lips and I narrow my eyes.
"You can't do that!"
"Yes, I can, Bella," he says with a sweet smile. "It's a public garden. I'm not
breaking any rules. And hey, at least it's from the back of the bush. I doubt anyone's
going to notice anything and even if they did, what could they possibly do? It's
already off the bush, love. You can't stick it back on." He smirks and I know he's
trying to imagine me doing that.
I smack his arm. He smirks, and I sigh. I look down at the beautiful rose in my
hands then up at him. "Thank you."
His smile gets larger and he leans down to wordlessly kiss me. I cock my head to
the side as our lips touch, closing my eyes.
Bliss.
God, I'm so happy.
The kiss is interrupted, however, when a few drops of water fall on our cheeks. We
break apart, and look up at the darkening sky with a sigh. It's getting on in the day,
probably around three or four in the afternoon by now.
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We laugh as we look up. It's raining, of course; a typical damn day in Seattle.
"Come on, baby," Edward mutters, turning around and taking my hand in his.
"Let's get outta here."
I smile and grip his hand. We look around one last time, smile our own little smile,
and then bolt for the gate.
"I know where we can go for a late lunch," he says loudly.
I nod, not even looking at him.
There're a few people that we have to edge around, and as wet and slippery as it
is running over soft grass then down a small hill to the pavement, I don't fall. That
may have something to do with the way Edward grips my hand as I start to skid a
little down the hill, but I'm still quite surprised.
Eventually, we find the right gate – the one Edward says we must go out of – and
we slow down a little. Edward looks around, using his height as an advantage for
once, and I dig through my bag for a few seconds, smiling as my hand clutches the
umbrella. I bring it out and hand it to Edward, who smiles that sexy crooked smile
before leaning down to kiss me. I sigh to myself; Edward and rain – or really,
Edward and anything – tastes fucking amazing.
Edward undoes the little material clasp then opens the umbrella, holding it over
us. He takes my hand in his right, the left holding the umbrella, and we walk down
the street leisurely for about a block and a half before stopping alongside a cute
little café.
I smile at Edward, who then lets the umbrella down. For one of the first times
today, he doesn't take my hand or wrap his arm around my waist. Instead, he opens
the door for me. He grins crookedly at me, and I just want to jump him. I sigh to
myself, thinking about how inconvenient it is to be out in a public area, as I walk
through the door.
As soon as we're inside, Edward leads me to the far corner at the back. He holds
the chair out for me, and I smile at him, my bag on my lap as I sit down. He pushes
the chair in then sits down opposite me.
"This looks really nice," I say quietly. "There are not many people in here."
Edward nods. "There never really is. It's a good place, just doesn't get a lot of
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recognition. You won't be getting food poisoning." He winks and I snort, shooting
him a smile.
"Good to know," I snipe.
He chuckles. "I'm not letting you spend Valentine's night in the bathroom
vomiting, baby. I have plans."
My eyes narrow playfully. "Oh? And what may those be?"
His chuckle is low, throaty, husky. I swallow just at the sound of it. It's only made
worse by his words. "Well, how about I give you a clue?"
I lean forward. "Ok," I breathe.
He leans in, too. His hand reaches up, and he cups my face, bringing me closer
still. Our lips touch just barely, and then part. He leans forward just a little more
and presses his lips to mine, wasting no time as his tongue enters my mouth.
I can't help the low moan. Or my eyes as they close in bliss. Or my hands as they
flash up to his hair and grip it, tugging to make him groan.
And then, in the middle of one of the best fucking kisses of my life, my husband
stops.
Bad husband!
My eyes flutter open and I raise an eyebrow. He smirks and shrugs. "That's your
clue."
But, oh god, his voice! All low and throaty and sexy and husky.
I blink when the sound of some poor waitress suddenly pipes up.
She's young, from what I can tell by the sound of her voice. And her name is
Amber or something.
"Hi, I'm Amber. I'll be your server for today. What can I get you for drink orders?"
"Can we get two cokes, please," Edward asks, looking straight at me.
"Sure," Amber says. "And what would you like to eat?"
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Edward looks at her for a second. "Uh… what do you suggest?"
And that's all it takes. Apparently, this Amber girl is quite talkative. "Well, the
salad is really good, but way too healthy. The chicken parma is also really nice, but I
wouldn't suggest that for a late lunch. It's kinda more of a dinner meal anyway…
although, with the weather today, it might be nice… I also suggest–"
"Thank you," Edward intercepts and the girl stops, looking down at him. He
smiles. "The parma for me will be just fine." He hands her his menu and I try to hide
my smile and giggle, succeeding just barely.
"And the same for me, thanks," I say before she can ask me. She nods, writes it
down on her pad, and takes the menus from us.
"Wow," I say, watching after the girl.
"Yeah," Edward replies, looking down at the table as he settles back into the chair.
We talk about little nothings until the meal arrives. I smile at him as I chew my
first bite; the food really is quite good, just as Edward had said it was.
"So," Edward begins. I put my fork and knife down, already finished, and wait for
him to continue. "What do you want to do when we get home? There's really not
much we can do, but it's up to you. I don't mind."
I think for a second, and Edward waits patiently. I have a few ideas, but I don't
think mine will correspond with Edward's wishes to go out for dinner.
I tell him that, and Edward asks what these ideas are.
I sigh. "Well, could we just stay at home?" I continue before he can flat-out reject
the idea. "It's just… today has already been perfect and the only way it could get
better is if we had a quiet dinner together at home. You can cook. We could watch a
movie together or something or even just go straight to bed for a little… hmm…
alone time."
I raise an eyebrow, and Edward chokes on his water. He swallows the mouthful,
glaring at me playfully as I giggle.
Edward pauses for a few moments, studying me. Then, he smiles, and nods. "Ok.
Let's do that."
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In shock, I blurt out, "But I thought you wanted to go out for dinner?"
Edward shrugs with a loving smile. "I honestly don't mind, Bella. We can do that
next year. As I said, this year is just about making new memories so when you think
about Valentine's Day, you don't think about your father."
I smile, tears welling in my eyes, and I grasp Edward's hand. "Thank you. I was so
worried you would be disappointed that we couldn't go out like you wanted to."
At that, Edward got this little cheeky smile on his face. "I had a feeling you'd say
this, so I kind of had help from someone to… prepare the house for when we get
back."
I raise an eyebrow wordlessly, but my husband simply shakes his head.
So I try another tactic.
"Hoody…"
"Baby…"
I huff. My husband is impossible.
"So," he says, perking right up with an air of smugness and victory around him.
"Would you like to go home now?"
I look at him for a second before smiling. "Ok."
Hoody smiles and we get up, grab our things, leave the right amount of money on
the table, and walk out the door.
"So, what restaurant were you gonna take me to?" I ask, as we walk home at a
leisurely pace. My arm is hooked through Edward's, my head leaning against his
bicep whilst his arm is wrapped around my waist, holding me against his side.
I sigh to myself quietly. This day really couldn't have been any better, and if I
know my dear Hoody, then I know that he's gonna do something to make it even
better.
Something.
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I hang on that word, itching and burning with curiosity. Edward also knows fully
well that I hate surprises; he just doesn't listen.
That's because he's as obstinate as you are, Alice and Esme always say. You're
perfectly matched in every damned way.
Edward's voice breaks through my musing and I remember that I had asked him a
question.
"Bella?"
I look up, my head leaving his arm. "Hmm?"
"Did you hear me?"
I debate for a moment then shake my head. "No, not really. Sorry, baby."
He shrugs. "I was just saying that I wanted to take you to that place we went to
for our first date."
I laugh. "You mean that place with the roses? Oh, baby…" I shake my head. "What
is it with you and roses?"
"Well…" he trails off. "Isn't giving roses to the woman you love some big romantic
gesture?"
My laugh quietens but every few seconds, a short giggle slips through my lips. "I
suppose it is, yes, but, Edward, we are hardly a normal, conventional couple!"
Edward purses his lips then shrugs again. "Guess that's true. But you like roses,
and I just wanted to make you feel special. Hence the whole thing about roses
today… not that I've been doing well in keeping up with that theme."
I step in front of Edward, and he stops walking to look down at me. "Edward,
today has been amazing, ok? It might not have been the traditional romantic outing
that most go on, but you know what? I didn't want that. Traditions are boring. Today
was not. Today was about us; it was unique, and it fitted our past and our life
together. Today opened my eyes up and I realised that you were right. Again, I've
been so caught up in the past that I haven't been able to take control of my life and
move forward, even in the tiny little aspect of a damned holiday! I realised that you
were right, that making new memories was the best way to move forward and, I
have to tell you, it was nice to go out and do something that was special for us. I
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wouldn't have had nearly as good a time today if we'd done something boring and
predictable. Today was amazing because it was us, Hoody, just you and me. Do you
get me?"
He looks me in the eye a second longer, and I him, before he cracks a smile. "So
you really did like today?"
"Yes!" I say loudly, wrapping my arms around his neck enthusiastically. I kiss him
soundly on the lips, and his hands automatically fly down to my ass as he holds me
against him, kissing me back with just as much passion. He lets out a low, throaty
moan and I whimper as he pulls me against him even harsher, rubbing his awakened
lower-self against me.
"Take my home, Hoody," I groan against his lips. He kisses me once, twice more,
slowly and the desire we both feel is simmering.
Then he takes my hand and starts a fast pace, running down the street. It's only a
few more houses down by now, and no one is out because we'd spent more time
than I think either of us had anticipated. It's now nearly completely dark and
probably just getting around to six.
Our running slows as we near the house, and I open the gate as Edward gets out
his keys. We walk quickly up the stairs and run up onto the porch.
We stop in front of the door, and Edward fiddles with his keys, swearing under his
breath as he tries to find the right key. I giggle, and decide to put him out of his
misery. I take the key from him, immediately feeling out the right key. I jab the key
repeatedly at the door, trying to find the slit the key had to slide through.
This time, Edward's the one snickering, but I smirk up at him with a raised
eyebrow when I open the door and push it open. I walk through the door backwards,
my eyes still on him. I can't deny that I feel smug and Edward lets out this cute, sexy
little growl-thing before he walks in long strides to stand in front of me.
In a flash, my legs are around his waist, my arms around his neck, his lips are on
mine and we're walking to what seems like our bedroom.
I giggle.
Edward stops kissing me to speak, his lips still pressed to mine. "There's a trail of
roses all over the floor and in the kitchen, there's some mood lighting or something.
I'd let you look, but I really don't want to stop kissing you. Besides, the best is in the
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bedroom and as for the kitchen, well, we'll probably need to grab a bite in a little
while because I plan on making love to you 'til dawn."
"Perfectly fine with me," I gasp, my eyes rolling back into my head as he drags his
lips down my neck. He starts to suck there, hard, and I groan, my fingers digging
into the flesh of his shoulders.
So quickly that I can't keep track of our movements, or who made them in the first
place, Edward's shirt is off, along with my own and my jeans. Edward's button is
undone, and the fly unzipped, his jeans hanging low on his hips. Though I can't see
it, I can feel it as he carries me down the hall and I can't help but moan into the
never-ending kiss.
"I want to take my time with you," Edward whispers, stopping in the middle of the
bedroom. He lowers my feet to the ground slowly, and, once I'm steady, he unwinds
his arms to cup my face in his hands. I breathe in and out deeply, taking the
opportunity to regain my breath after all that kissing. It's true that my husband can
kiss like none other, and he certainly knows how to leave me breathless.
Always has.
"I love you," I whisper into the darkness. My hands come up to Edward's face and
I snort as I pat his face, trying to find his jaw. I quickly do, but it's too late. Edward's
shaking with silent laughter. "Hush, you."
"Sorry, baby," he mutters under his breath. "And for the record… I love you, too."
I lean up, standing on my tippy toes. I wrap my arms around his neck and use this
position to pull myself closer to him, right where I wanna be. "Happy Valentine's
Day, Hoody."
"Happy Valentine's Day," he replies.
"Now," I whisper, trailing a finger down his bare chest. "Why don't you continue
what you were doing in the café?"
Edward chuckles under his breath, and, god, the sound is so sexy. "It would be my
pleasure."
And oh my lordy, he does. His lips descend on mine with so much passion that I
feel like I'm on fire. His hands explore my body, quickly separating and moving in
different directions. They locate his two favourite spots on me, my breasts and my
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ass, and he squeezes both simultaneously. I moan into his mouth, sucking in a deep
breath before thrusting my tongue in his mouth. My hands wander as well,
slithering down his chest and his delicious abs all the way down to his jeans. He
gasps in my mouth as my fingers brush against his blazing erection and I giggle, my
hands skirting around the hem of his jeans to his ass. I push my hands into his jeans,
cupping his ass and squeezing just to make my man moan.
And moan he does.
I smirk to myself, loving the effect I have on him. I push his jeans off his hips and
he steps out of them when they hit the floor. I quickly take care of his boxers, and,
as soon as they're off, he lifts me up in his arms.
"God, I love you, Bella. I can never say it enough," he says a little louder. He puts
me down on the bed and I lay down flat on my back. He looks down at me, his chest
heaving as his eyes fly over my body.
I take the few seconds I have before he speaks to eye his impressive erection. I
swallow and lick my lips, nearly whimpering as I throb with need.
"Take your bra off," he murmurs, breaking the brief silence. I lift my hands,
arching my back just for him as I do so. I unclasp my bra and slowly take it off
before throwing it at him. He catches it, groans something about "fucking silk," and
having a "vixen for a wife" before he lets it fall to the ground. His eyes are glued to
my tits.
"Do you want me to take my panties off, too?" I ask, cocking my head to the side
and smirking coyly.
He shakes his head, not looking away from my breasts. "That's my job," he states,
licking his lips quickly before he sits down on the bed. "Get over here," he says,
holding his arms open.
I debate for a split second before getting on my hands and knees. He groans, his
eyes riveted to me as if I'm a sight to behold, as I crawl to him.
As soon as I'm in front of him, he grabs me and sits me down on his lap. I straddle
his hips, opening myself up to him, moaning at the feel of his cock against me right
where I need it. He groans and shallowly thrusts his hips up. I throb as the tip of him
hits my clit.
His hands skim down my sides before resting on my hips. Quickly, and seemingly
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easily, he flips us, laying me down in the centre of the bed, following after me to
settle above me. He quickly removes my panties, throwing them away to the side
somewhere, and his cock grazes against my lower lips. I whimper at the feeling. He
separates my thighs and settles in between them, wrapping my legs around his waist
again.
"I love you," he says again.
I smile. "I love you, too."
He smiles down at me, something I can only see from the glimmer of light in the
room. I can feel the petals on my back now, and I know the bed – and hell, probably
the damned floor, too – is covered with rose petals. I also wonder idly who set this
up and if it was, in fact, Edward's idea. I wouldn't put it past him, but I want to know
who helped him.
And then Edward's cock slips into me ever so slowly, and there's no more
thinking; in fact, every thought, fleeting or not, flies out the window… just as they
do every time we come together like this.
Edward sets a sweet, slow pace, his lips never leaving my skin. All I can really do
is lay back as he worships my body with every part of him. My fingers thread
through his hair as he takes my left nipple into his mouth, lathering it with his
tongue and toying with it slowly, teasingly… just the way my Hoody knows I like it
best.
When he's tortured that one enough, he moves onto the next. I can feel myself
slowly but surely climbing toward my climax. Soon, his name is my mantra, and he
whispers my name against my skin. He tells me how me loves me, how he hopes our
new memories are enough to cover up the bad.
I tell him in return that I know how much he loves me, that I feel it every day…
and that I love him with everything in me. I thank him for the gift of today, and vow
to let him plan every Valentine's Day we share together for the rest of our lives.
Edward's thrusts quicken slightly, and he angles my hips just slightly to go
deeper. My head digs into the mattress and I whimper his name over and over
again. Edward moans my name once again, searching for my lips as his fingers
dance down my skin and to my apex, just above where we're connected. His pointer
finger rubs tight, harsh circles on my clit and, within seconds, I'm suddenly there at
the edge, the feeling in my abdomen making my muscles tense.
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I cry out Edward's name once more, my back arching as I climax. Edward grunts
my name, thrusting hard once, twice, and three more times before he buries himself
in me to the hilt. I feel it as he climaxes and he collapses onto me, barely managing
to hold some of his weight off me as he presses light kisses to my skin, both of us
panting as we hold each other.
When we're ready to go again, we do. We're insatiable; we make love for hours on
end, taking our time with each other. Edward makes it his mission to see to it that I
have near-double the amount of orgasms he does, playing my body like it's his
favourite, finely-tuned instrument.
We stop only to eat and to cuddle, waiting until we had our energy up before we
go at it again. We have a small nap, but I'm woken up by Edward's lips wrapped
around my clit.
At dawn, we stop, just as Edward had said we would. He smiles triumphantly, and
we pant in sync, my head lying against his chest, my arm and leg thrown across his
body. His arm is around my waist, our legs tangled in the sheets and each other.
We're silent for the most part, but I decide to break it, knowing that what I'm
about to tell him will make this day of new memories even better.
"You know how we decided to make new memories today?" I ask silently, my
fingers playing with the small smattering of hair on his chest.
Edward hums, pressing a kiss to my forehead.
"Well, I have something to add," I say, sitting up a little. There's a goofy smile on
my face as I look him in the eyes.
"Ok," he whispers.
I smile, tears welling in my eyes. "I'm pregnant, Hoody."
Please review. I had a lot of fun exploring these two after so much time.
You never know, it might happen again ;)
Bye now!
bexie25
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