TIED TOGETHER

THE DARK ANGELS

Z. ALLORA

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As part of the rock sensation, The Dark Angels, Josh and Robin Strider have the fans calling
them “The Twins”. Although they’re not blood brothers, growing up together has given them a
special bond that was challenged when they were thrown out of their home. Surviving and being
saved from life on the streets makes Robin cling to brotherly ties that don’t exist.

One night with friends opens the doors to what Josh has always wanted – Robin’s body and heart.
If Josh learns to master Robin’s inner submissive, he’ll be able to give Robin the security he
craves. But can rumors from Josh’s father unravel the ties between Robin and Josh or will a
collar and love be enough to tie them together?

This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are products of the
author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events or locales or
persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

Copyright 2012 by Z. Allora

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DEDICATION

To all the people who are tied to us without the bonds of blood but whom we cannot imagine
what our life would be without them in it.

To Deb: My bff. Your love, support, wisdom and kindness always amazes me. Without your
wicked counseling skills I would be lost. Go Sage!

To Jack: Who has made it his job to see that I was happy and safe for the past five years in China.
I will be forever grateful my ‘brother’.

To Yali: My mei mei by choice. Thank you for all your help with everything including my
asthma. And yes there are gay men in China.

To Mrs. Hill: (okay Anne) My 5th & 6th grade teacher who is still teaching me something new
with every email. You are an incredible mentor and I am very lucky to have you in my life.
Though my editor probably wishes I paid more attention to the rules of grammar you tried to
teach me…

To Twin: You get all the credit for introducing me to Yaoi! (Though you need to admit Fei Long
is better than Asami…) Scorpios rule!

To Harmony C: I cannot wait to read your first book. I know your words are going to be amazing.

To Gong gong & Popo: My biggest fans who should never read the books I write. Thank you for
giving me the greatest gift ever...your amazing son.

To my Editor Goddess, Ralph & JP (my patient line editors) and my fabulous cover artist: You
bring my boys to life and I am truly indebted to all of you!

To the love of my life: Whether you use pretty colored rope, your beautiful eyes, your soft words,
or your enchanting mind I want to always be tied to you…now and always.

CHAPTER 1

Josh sat on stage with Robin wondering why he had let Megan, The Dark Angels’ manager, talk
them into doing this damned interview. Any interview with Wendy “Troublemaker” Myers
usually ended in disaster. It was in front of a live studio audience, to boot.

This was certainly not part of the rock-n-roll dream he cultivated. Hell no! Give him an
instrument, Robin’s lyrics, and he could give you a song. But this…this was the bullshit one
endured. The price that one paid to have everything you ever wanted. Looking over at the
beautiful shy man sitting next to him, he corrected himself, almost everything.

Robin was so painfully shy; it hurt Josh physically to watch it. So Josh knew this freak circus was
hell for him. He had his usual case of nerves and then some. Josh found he tried to compensate by
doing most of the talking.

He was thankful their time under the magnifying glass was almost up. It was stressful, trying to
convey what the fans wanted to see, yet still being true to themselves while presenting a positive
vibe for The Dark Angels.

The leggy blonde leaned forward to ask yet another dumb question coming off the live Internet
feed. “Pauline from Albany New York asks, are you two really brothers?”

Robin and Josh both answered at the same time. Robin answered with a definitive “Yes” and Josh
said “No” with a clarity that seemed to echo off the walls.

Wendy clapped her hands. “Well, boys which is it? Yes or no?”

Robin’s wide eyes looked at Josh’s then fell to the floor in front of him. Josh tried to touch a
sneaker to his Robin’s boot but he couldn’t reach. Since Robin had clammed up, Josh decided to
try to do some damage control.

“Wendy, we share the same last name and were raised together but we are not related by blood.”
Josh tried to smile but he was sure it was much more of a grimace.

She waved her finger between them before she asked, “Oh, so there isn’t any twincest?” Clearly,
that was a major disappointment for her. She looked back and forth at them when neither
responded then leaned forward to ask, “So Josh and Robin Strider? How do you have the same
last name?”

Josh gave the answer he must have repeated a thousand times, “Robin’s mother married my
father when Robin was three years old.”

“So you are brothers?” she asked excitedly.

“No,” Josh fairly growled at her. He didn’t look at Robin knowing he was dying at the denial.
“His name was changed to reflect his mom’s married name but she suddenly passed before any
adoption could happen.”

Clearly not ready to let go of the titillating subject, she asked with a perfectly arched brow, “But,
oh wait, don’t you share the same birthday?”

He looked at Robin for a second before answering. “Yup. One year apart.” Smiling at Wendy,
“Which is why our fans jokingly refer to us as twins.”

Sighing with irritation at having not broken big news on her show, Wendy went on to the next
question with a smirk that was creepy nonetheless. “Carra from Virginia Beach asks if you boys
were stuck on a desert island what are the three things you would want with you?” Wendy
giggled. “Good one, Carra.” She acted impressed as if only a genius could come up with that
drunk-at-the-bar question.

Josh looked at Robin who bit his lower lip, which was one of the only outward manifestations of
his discomfort. He knew Robby was barely tolerating sitting through this interview. Josh wished
he could make it better for Robin, but he tried to take comfort in the fact they were almost done.

Like a shark smelling blood, Wendy circled a bit. “Well, Robin? What three things?” Wendy
pushed in her sugary voice that seemed ready to twist their words into a noose at any given
moment.

Robin gave a true smile for the first time during the interview, without thinking he said, “Josh.”
Then he paused as if he realized what he said and how it could be warped into being
misinterpreted.

“Anything else?” Wendy smiled her big toothy grin, before she took her bite. “Or is just your
brother all you need?” She fairly purred like a cat given a bowl of delicious cream.

Robin’s eyes darted to Josh looking for help. He opened his mouth to say something, but Josh
chimed in. “Our laptops and our instruments.” Stupid answers without solar power charging
devices, but Wendy wasn’t clever enough to catch that.

Batting her long false caterpillar-like eyelashes, she asked, “What about girls, Josh?” Wendy
continually tried to flirt with them then eventually just with Josh. It was mildly disturbing.
Granted she had been a popular model but that was before either of them had even been born.

Realizing she was getting nowhere with Josh, Wendy turned towards her audience for support.
“We know all about you! Don’t we audience?” The crowd clapped and laughed. “Your brother
can’t be enough for you,” she stated coyly. The audience laughed loudly on cue. Her shrill voice
rang out, “Josh, honey, we heard all the rumors about you. I thought your response would be a
blonde, brunette, and a red head.”

In the last few months, the tabloids had cast Josh in the role of the band playboy. He didn’t even
know half the girls he was supposedly having affairs with, and the other half were simply girls he
met at a party for five minutes who’d snapped a picture of them together. But since their lead

singer had happily hooked up with their guitar player, Angel Luv was no longer providing
entertaining fodder to excite the masses. Josh was thrust into that role.

Josh gave Robin a quick look of apology and sighed. What could he say? “Oh, yeah right. Can’t
be on an island without the ladies in bikinis.” He tried to laugh but it came out a bit choked. He
sounded like a freaking pervert! But the audience laughed. Now Robin in a thong? Yes. But some
random chick? Not so much!

Giggling as if she wasn’t a forty-eight year old, Wendy said, “Well, folks you heard it here first.
Robin needs his brother and his brother needs the ladies.” She clapped her hands like a demented
four-year-old. “I volunteer for the blonde position.”

Josh frowned as he saw Robin’s blue-painted fingernails dig into the arm of the chair; he seemed
to be holding on for dear life. His face remained frozen in his public look. Josh knew Robin had
perfected that look while they lived with their crazy, abusive alcoholic parental unit.

Wendy tittered as the theme music cued her that the show was at its conclusion. “Well, boys,
that’s all the time we have. Thanks so much for joining us.”

Robin was up and heading to the parking lot before he even said good-bye. They had driven
separately since they were coming from different locations, but Josh wanted to make sure he was
okay. That last question had upset him more than usual. He bid the staff and crew of the show
good-bye then took off after Robin.

“Hey. Hey! Robby.” Josh called out as he caught up with the fast-paced man at his new blue
Corvette. His own shiny black ‘vette was parked on the other side of the lot.

When they were little, Robin and Josh had always dreamed about getting matching Corvettes.
With their first really big royalty check they had bought each other their dream car. Josh was in
charge of their financial planning so he put the rest of the money into a good long-term
investment. They didn’t want to be one of those has-been rock stars on the reality TV shows just
for the cash.

Josh tried one more time, “Hey!”

Robin turned his head quickly to look at Josh. “What?” he snapped, which was very unlike him.
He was more upset than Josh anticipated.

Josh reached out to place his hand on his arm. “You okay?” Josh hurried along with his words. “I
mean, that Wendy, boy, she loves to try to turn things around.”

“No, I think it is crystal clear. You would definitely need more than your fake brother on a desert
island. I believe it was a blonde, red head, and brunette,” Robin’s own peacock colored hair
floated around his face like a lion’s mane.

“Robby...” Josh didn’t know what to say. They weren’t related and Josh was eternally grateful
because the things he wanted from Robin were far from brotherly! However, Robin always
fixated on their brotherly bond as if that was what held them together. The idea of not having that

tie freaked Robin out.

Josh understood the origin of Robin’s feelings, even though he didn’t like it. When Robin lost his
mom, his whole world imploded. Robin craved a family connection because he worried that
without that bond, Josh would desert him. Abandon him the same way his real father had and the
way his stepfather had cast them out. Robin’s fear of abandonment created a need for Josh to be
tied to him by a familial bond, fearing that anything else was transitory and unstable.

Robin refused to acknowledge the very real part of their relationship. The one that erupted into
passionate episodes of explosive sex followed by a quiet re-establishment of the roles Robin
wanted them in. They would go back to ‘normal’ until their chemistry would build up again to
the point of combustion.

It was hard for Josh not to resent the distance that came in the aftermath of one of their out of
control moments. It hurt. He wanted so much more but he couldn’t make Robin acknowledge
what they could have together. So he settled, knowing at some point a dramatic change would
have to take place. The end result could be devastating, or liberating.

Robin was in his pretty blue Corvette pulling out of the parking lot before Josh could stop him.
He just stood there watching him slip away. Standing there he started to feel like devastation was
more likely.

* * *

Two hours later...

Josh was going a little crazy. He tried to write some music but he couldn’t settle and relax enough
to concentrate. Robin hadn’t come home yet. Hearing the door buzzer caused him to jump.
Maybe Robby had forgotten his keys. Josh buzzed him in without talking through the intercom.

Didn’t matter as long as Robin was back. He would make them dinner and they would watch
their shows. Maybe he would get lucky and Robin would fall asleep curled up on his lap. But it
was Dusty who opened the door.

Teasingly, Josh asked, “To what do I owe this honor?” Seeing the look on Dustin’s face did
nothing to ease the worry Josh felt creeping over him. The Dark Angel’s drummer was always
cracking jokes and making fun of everything and everyone. So seeing Dusty’s somber face, Josh
knew something was off. Really off. “What is it?”

Dusty opened his mouth but closed it only to shake his head. “Your Uncle Leo called. Robin was
in an accident. He’s alive but it’s pretty bad.”

Josh just stood there frozen in place. He couldn’t think. He couldn’t function. His Robby. Hurt?
No!

“Don’t have the details yet, but come on. I’ll drive you to the hospital. Angel and Dare will meet
us there.”

The next three hours went by in a blur. The doctors told him Robin’s injuries were very serious,
that he had lost a lot of blood and he needed surgery. He was unconscious and in critical
condition. They didn’t sugar coat the fact that he could lose his Robin.

Darius, Dusty, and Angel were there trying to be supportive but he was barely there. He had
retreated into his own private hell. Knowing he could lose the very reason he existed twisted him
up with pain from every angle.

Robin was his other half. Brother or not, Robin was more than just family to him. He was
everything. Without him...Fuck can’t even go there! There was no him without Robby!
Co-dependent and demented as that would sound out loud, that was the freaking reality.

Josh realized he must have been crying when Dusty handed him some tissues. He heard quiet
words spoken to calm him but he couldn’t make them out. Maybe that was Dare? Then a strong
hand squeezed his shoulder, probably Angel. Josh didn’t know and honestly didn’t care.

A doctor came in. Josh jumped up and stood in front of him.

“Mr. Strider? You are his brother?” The doctor asked.

“Yeah. How is he?” Josh’s voice sounded very far away to him.

The doctor frowned. “He’s stable but still unconscious.”

“Can I see him?” Tears continued to fall down Josh’s cheeks, which he roughly dashed away.

“Yes, but not for long. Now that he’s stable he needs to go into surgery.”

“Surgery?”

“He has internal bleeding due to the broken ribs.” The doctor reached out to steady Josh. “We are
doing everything we can.”

“Where is he?”

“Follow me.”

As Josh entered the room, he was struck by how small Robin looked lying in the hospital bed.
Even though they were basically the same height and build, Josh always thought of Robin as

more delicate and fragile than him.

Josh had always felt a need to take care of ‘his’ Robby, to protect him and make him happy.
Robin’s mom, their mother, had always emphasized that brothers protect each other. In truth, he
never felt the obligation to care for Robin out of brotherly duty. It was a need deeply ingrained
but he knew it had nothing to do with family ties.

He grasped Robin’s hand. It was a connection that he used to tether Robin’s life force to him.
Josh’s voice broke as he spoke to him.

“Robby. Please come back to me. You have to get back to me. Just like our new song, ‘Even with
wings, I am flightless without you’. I can’t be here without you. Please, Rob… Robin.” He drank
in the sight of the man that meant everything to him. Josh stopped himself from rocking back and
forth. “You are my everything. You are the only thing I have ever needed. Please. I love you.
Don’t leave me.”

A nurse bustled in. “Sweetie, I have to take him into surgery now.” She moved the IV bag to a
pole attached to his bed and fussed with the wires and tubes connected to Robin.

Josh gently kissed Robin. A soft sweet kiss on his lips as he whispered his final plea. “Please love
me enough to come back to me, Robby.” He brushed one last kiss across his lips then as Robin
was wheeled away, he collapsed back into a corner chair.

He prayed to all that was holy that this would not be their last kiss. The first time he had ever
kissed Robin flashed through his mind. It was his very first kiss. He remembered vividly the
entire experience, and what happened after it as if it were yesterday.

CHAPTER 2

Three Years Ago…

“It’s not a question, Robby. I’m going to do it tomorrow,” Josh told Robin straight up. He took a
deep breath of the wet ocean air and looked out onto the Santa Cruz horizon. He saw the seaside
amusement park to his left, a hotel on the right and a fishing pier over their heads providing cool
shade.

Tears welled up in Robin’s green blue eyes. The eighteen-year-old’s voice was so sad as he
spoke. “You are going to have sex? For money? Tomorrow?” He turned around to face the ocean.
Josh watched as the breeze blew through Robin’s long dark hair picking up pieces and
rearranging it into a messy style. “How can you do that?” Robin’s voice was choked with the
tears he was trying to hide.

How could he not? Josh didn’t want to upset his Robby but reality wouldn’t allow him to
continue to hide the truth from him. They had been living across street from the pier in Santa
Cruz in the skateboard park for the last month or so. And they were almost out of cash.

Life was pretty much a rollercoaster. Josh remembered the huge fight before his mother left. He
tried not to remember his father’s verbal abuse.

When he was five, his father married Robin’s mother and he thought it would all be okay.
Robin’s mom stopped his father from hitting him and even yelling at him. She was the sweetest
woman and she treated him as though she adored him like her own. Plus he got Robby, so life
was great. When she died a few years later their life became a living hell.

Josh’s father seemed to consider his sons little more than punching bags. It was almost a relief
when they were kicked out. The drunken rages were getting dangerous.

The fact that they were mere months away from graduation and that Robin wouldn’t be legal for
another month had made no difference to the bastard.

Josh had always been grateful that Robin’s mother had allowed him to start school a year later.
He had begged her to let him so they could stay together. But now it seemed to bite him in the
ass. If he had graduated last year he could have gotten a job and apartment so they could have left
on their own terms. Would of, should of, could of, the fact was he didn’t and they were fucked.

It had all come to a head six weeks ago, his father or ‘the abusive sperm donator’, as Josh liked to
think of him as, had found the novel Robin was reading. It was a very graphic, very erotic, and
very gay novel, which was clearly well read. The cover alone was enough to infuriate the bastard
to violence. But when he opened it to read a couple sentences he threw Robin out of the house.

When Josh tried to stop his father, he was thrown out too.

Correction, he chased them into their room. Before the hateful man, who was supposed to be a
father to them, could break down their bedroom door, Robin had gathered some of their clothing
while Josh had nabbed all their special personal items they couldn’t live without. They tossed
everything in their backpacks and slipped out the window just as the asshole came crashing into
their room. Halfway down the street, Josh could hear the screaming threats his father bellowed
after them.

Their ‘father’ tossed them out like yesterday’s trash. The guy had always hated them and saw this
as the perfect excuse to get rid of them. He was a real piece of work.

After Robin’s mother had passed away, the jackass used to beat them for things like not pushing
in a dining room chair or for laughing too loudly. It was scary when the asshole had found
Robin’s fingerless gloves. It wasn’t so much the color that triggered the asshole’s rage as much as
the little twinkling diamonettes along the knuckles. Luckily the bastard was drunk so his wild
swinging of that the leather strap only hit Josh in the arm missing Robin completely before the
drunken bastard passed out cold. Thankfully, he had forgotten the incident when he woke up.

Sometimes, Josh wondered if the verbal abuse might have been even more damaging then the
physical. The cuts and bruises healed but he still heard those hateful words echoing in his mind.
He wasn’t a psychologist or anything, but with someone telling you ‘you’re a worthless piece of
shit’ every day of your life, you really do start to believe it. He almost agreed with his father on
how terrible he was, but Josh despised that Robin was forced to take such a low opinion of
himself.

The only reason they survived in that house was they both tried to follow the inconsistent rules of
the crazy person. Staying quiet and out of the way seemed to be key. They walked on eggshells
but of course occasionally things happened.

Josh always tried to take the brunt of it but the asshole seemed to know if he wanted to punish
one of the boys he just needed to hurt the other. The fucker was a real sadistic bastard. Josh
couldn’t wait until they were old enough to get the hell out of that house because it was getting
harder and harder to protect Robin from the asshole’s abuse.

In the final incident, Josh tried to claim the book was his but Robin kept saying over and over
that the book was his not Josh’s. But even if the drunken fuck had listened, he knew there was no
way Robin was leaving without him. They were two halves of the same whole. Josh had no
intention of being without his Robby.

Josh had thought life on the streets together would be better than life in the home that had
become their hell. However, the reality of street life was a big kick in the teeth. Their money,
grabbed from their secret stash consisting of last year’s birthday money and odd jobs, was almost
gone. They had been staying at the skateboard park to save the money for food. They had been
using the bathroom at the end of the pier to keep clean. The fishermen didn’t seem to mind if they
used the sinks to bathe and to wash their clothing.

The park had a couple of huge skating ramps that kept the rain and some of the wind off them as

they took turns sleeping. It was safer than under the pier after dark. People gathered under there
looking for trouble or drugs. Plus, the police routinely patrolled down there. So the skateboard
park had been their best choice.

But now Robin had decided he wasn’t hungry so they could make their dollars last longer. Josh
couldn’t reason with him at all. He wouldn’t eat and he was losing weight he couldn’t afford to
lose. His clothes were hanging off of him.

They needed to make money but no one would hire them without a high school diploma. Even
though now they were of age, without their high school diplomas they were screwed. The fact
that they were clearly living on the streets didn’t help their employment prospects.

The other throwaways living on the streets of Santa Cruz had informed them early on that the
way to the next decent meal or two was a quick cock suck away. They were new, young, and
cute. The usuals would pay. Sick as it was, they were told getting a safe place to sleep for a night
would be as easy as bending over for a stranger.

As much as Josh didn’t want to do that, they were down to their last dollars. He would do
anything for Robin, even sell his body, without batting an eyelash. Though it made him crazy to
think of Robin having to do it too. He was too sweet and sensitive to be used for a stranger’s
perverse satisfaction. It would destroy him. He was too fragile for such a life, which is why Josh
was trying to convince him that only one of them needed to turn tricks. But Robin wasn’t
listening. Josh looked over at him. He was beautiful with his long dark hair blowing in the breeze
as he stared out at the ocean.

Robin turned to him with sad eyes. “I don’t want your first time to be with a stranger. Seriously,
you’ll always remember your first time. I want your first time to be with someone who loves
you.” His voice got very soft and was almost lost on the crashing waves when he said, “I love
you.”

What did that mean? Was he offering…Josh bit his lower lip to stop the wounded animal sound
that wanted to escape as he tried not to think about what he wanted most in the entire world.
“Robby, I know.” He reached out to brush a tear that slipped down his sweet but very sad face. “I
love you, too.”

“This is all my fault!” Robin’s face screwed up in anger as he shouted. He turned to stalk closer
to the crashing waves. “It was my stupid book!”

Josh carefully scooped up their backpacks, which carried all their earthly processions to go after
him.

Josh stood close behind him and tucked Robin’s hair behind his ear then playfully poked him.
“Hey, I read it too. It was a pretty good story.” He chuckled at Robin’s surprised expression. He
didn’t advertise he was reading it but he wanted to know what interested Robby so much.

Josh continued with a smile. “I wish we were shape shifters, you know? Then we could go find
that werewolf pack of outcasts and just live with them.” Josh paused before smugly adding, “Of
course, it would be discovered that I was really their Alpha so I would run things.” Robin tried

not to giggle but he couldn’t help it. “Hey, not to worry. I’m sure if we were werewolves, you
would have special powers or something in the second book.”

“You are such a butthead.” Robin laughed in spite of their dire situation. Josh prided himself on
being able to always make Robin laugh.

The sound of Robin’s musical laughter warmed Josh from the inside. No wonder it was a skill
he’d perfected. “We’re going to make this work. I’ll only do this for as long as I have to then
we’ll forget it ever happened.”

The frown of despair returned on Robin’s lovely face. “I don’t want some strange man making
you do things or doing things to you.” Robin voice shook with emotion. “You always remember
your first time.”

“How would you know?” Josh tried to make it sound like a joke but the thought of Robin with
someone made his heart burn with jealousy. He didn’t think Robin had been with anyone, but a
small piece of him worried.

Robin rolled his eyes. “Every book I have ever read.” His voice dropped lower. “Bad enough we
have to do this to eat, our first time shouldn’t be with someone we don’t love.” Circling back
around to exactly what Josh didn’t want to think about, let alone suggest.

Avoiding where Robin was trying to go with the conversation, Josh reminded him, “Robby, I told
you only I would do...what needs to be done. I don’t want you to...You don’t have to...do that
too!”

Robin’s eyes widen in horror, “I won’t let you do this alone. Whatever we do, we do together.
Beginning and end of story.” Robin moved closer to him and touched his hand. Their fingers
automatically entwined.

He couldn’t believe Robin was actually going to suggest what neither of them should ever even
consider. But Josh couldn’t help it. It was funny, but Josh didn’t even know if he was gay. Josh
just knew he had no feelings directed at anyone else. His wants and desires all centered on Robin.
His Robby.

Hell, as early as kindergarten he’d wanted Robby. It had been a rude awakening when the teacher
gently explained he couldn’t marry his brother. Still a bitter concept! But they weren’t brothers…

Robin cleared his throat while he was trying to find the courage to speak the words. He knew
Robin wouldn’t let him sell his body alone. They had run out of options. “We could…you
know…” Robin’s voice trailed off knowing Josh knew where he was going.

Josh sighed, and breathed the words out, “I know you want to be with someone you love the first
time...” Josh’s voice trailed off. He couldn’t even finish the sentence as he stared deep into those
beautiful blue green eyes.

“I do, Josh. I really do. I want that for you too, more than anything,” Robin wiped away some
stray tears. “Do we have enough money for a room at that place?” That place Robin was

referring to would be the ‘no-tell motel’ a few streets over.

Josh was trying to find revulsion in Robin’s words but found none. So he followed this to its
conclusion. “It would be the end of the cash, but…” He turned his head, unable to look at Robby
anymore as his voice trailed off into silence.

Josh was so ashamed of himself for allowing Robin to suggest such a thing. He felt like he was
using their deplorable circumstances to get what he had always wanted. The silence between
them seemed very loud. Even the waves crashing on the shore were quiet in comparison.

Robin tightened his hand in Josh’s hand, squeezing it. His words came out of a choked throat;
“You would do that for me?” He made it sound like Josh was offering him the most wonderful
gift in the world.

Josh grabbed the man he had always loved and pulled him into a hug. “Oh Robby, I would do
anything for you. Anything at all.” His words were broken but true. “I love you.”

Robin brushed back a stray piece of hair from Josh’s face. “I love you.”

“You’re my best friend.” Josh tried to stop his babbling but it was too late. Luckily, Robby didn’t
seem to mind, and he just hugged tighter.

In front of the crashing waves their lips met for the very first time. Josh’s body was singing at the
raw joy of feeling the lips he dreamed of on him. Robin’s long hair was whipping them both in
the face.

On a soft sigh, Robin’s lips parted and Josh took the invitation. Their tongues mated awkwardly
but soon they found what felt best and went at it wildly, their long lean arms wrapped tighter
around each other. Their lower bodies were plastered against each other as they rocked their
hardness into each other.

Need, pleasure, and desire all surfaced at the same time propelling the two of them into an
exquisite space and one they had no desire to leave. As love and lust twisted, physical need was
drowning all reason.

On a tortured moan, Josh tried to push away from Robin. “Robby. I am so close. We should
stop.” Worry combined with the lack of privacy made it feel like it had been forever since he had
jerked off. He looked around and saw no one near.

“Mmmmm.” Josh moaned with newly found pleasure as Robin shifted restlessly against him.
“Should stop.” He said between kisses.

“Don’t want to. Need you.” In a bold move, Robin’s hands cupped Josh’s ass to bring him in
even tighter. Robin’s hands on his ass were directing their cocks to rub just right and it was
overwhelming. Their aroused erections surged against one another and the sensation
overwhelmed him.

“Oh God! Robby! I am gonna…” Josh felt himself gush pleasure into his jeans in long wet

shivering pulses. Again and again sweet waves of relief washed over him. Robin squeezed his ass
making the pleasure even more intense.

Robin froze for a moment and then on a strangled gasp came in a frenzied manner rubbing
against Josh like his cock had caught on fire and he was trying to rub out the flames. His head
thrown back and his mouth open gasping, “Josh!” Robin groaned as if he were being tormented.

Josh thought Robin looked even more beautiful, his face twisted in orgasm. Time stood still. He
held Robin as he came apart in his arms. Something powerful was happening between them and
Josh had no desire to stop it.

They gently kissed once more before touching foreheads staring into each other’s eyes. Robin
was the first to break the silence. “Always. Together. Forever.”

Josh repeated the oath back to the best part of himself. “Always. Together. Forever.”

CHAPTER 3

Josh couldn’t believe the turn of events. Robin was lying in the clean but dingy little ‘no-tell
motel’ waiting for him to finish his shower. His heart raced as he realized he was going finally to
be with his soul mate in a way that had always seemed impossible. Some people didn’t believe in
soul mates but Josh knew they existed because of Robin.

As Josh came out of the bathroom Robin brushed past him and sparks at the touch nearly made
him groan. He didn’t care that they were both guys. He didn’t care that he had no freaking clue
what to do. All that mattered was they would have each other.

Josh ignored the dire straits that led to this dumpy little motel and what tomorrow would bring.
He shut out all the scary voices calling out about what he would do and what he would become
for them to survive. Josh would have Robby today, tonight and part of tomorrow morning. It was
theirs, and Josh would take it greedily.

He wanted to remember every moment in detail to take out and savor for the rest of his life. Josh
knew Robin had only agreed to this because of what they would face tomorrow. But tomorrow
was a long time away.

Robin was simply everything good in the world. Josh knew he was in no way worthy of Robin,
but even though he wasn’t good enough for Robin, he knew no one could love him more than he
did.

Robin took his shower quickly. When he emerged Josh decided he didn’t care about right or
wrong. Not now. This one moment in time was theirs. He was determined to make the most of it.

Robin was all pink and clean from the shower. He looked shy and more than a little nervous as he
lay down next to Josh on the bed. The thin cheap towel wrapped around his hips did nothing to
hide his raging hard on. If the outline of the towel was accurate, the boy was hung.

Josh lay there in the clean pair of boxers he had put on after his shower. He didn’t look down
because he knew his erection was trying to break free through the split fly.

The only sound in the room was their breathing. Their eyes locked onto one other. Silence
seemed to boom between them.

Suddenly Robin started to giggle. Robin always giggled when he was nervous. It was adorable.
Josh couldn’t help resist his squeal of happy. Robin bounced a little on the bed. Laughter bubbled
up from deep inside and he followed suit. The laughter was rolling through them and off the
walls. As they laughed their bodies rolled together in a soft crash.

Very soon they weren’t laughing anymore. Eager hands were uncovering anxious flesh more than
ready for attention. Boxers and the sad towel found their way to the floor. Lips met lips.

After several minutes of heated play, Josh pulled back. “What should we...how should we...um,
do this?”

Robin blushed before burying his face in Josh’s shoulder. “You are asking me? Seriously?” Then
he giggled. “Right, like I am the expert.” Josh laughed too and nudged him.

Even though he was nineteen and Robin was eighteen, they didn’t have any practical experience.
An abusive household is not conducive to dating let alone sexual experimentation. Certainly not
trying things out with same sex. Josh could only imagine what would have happened if his father
had caught Robin with another guy. Hell, a freaking book got them tossed out.

Robin nudged him back. “I only know what happens in books.”

Josh shrugged and decided it was time to lick Robin’s throat. “But you have read more than me.”
Josh was completely unconcerned with both of their total inexperience. The boy had a gorgeous
throat. It was so long and elegant. Josh swiped his wet tongue down that throat and then sucked
up some flesh at the base of Robin’s neck.

Robin jerked like he was hit with an electrical current. “Oh, God,” Robin moaned low and husky.
“I want you.” He stopped to groan with hot need. Eighteen and never been touched.

Robin groaned between long wet kisses, “More. Oh, I need.” His hips thrust up sharply as if
desperately seeking something.

Encouraged by the positive reception, Josh continued lavishing attention on Robin to see which
places made him moan and which places made him gasp with need. He decided to do what he
dreamed of Robby doing to him. He was hoping that would work. Josh skimmed down Robin’s
beautifully smooth, lightly muscled body to reach a very erect cock that was weeping with desire.

Robin was braced up on his elbows to watch what Josh did. It was Robin’s eyes on Josh that set
him on fire. Knowing every one of his actions was watched made Josh burn up. He very, very
slowly placed a long wet lick from the base of Robin’s cock to the glossy tip. Josh made sure it
was worth watching.

Robin’s fists grabbed at the thin sheets covering the bed as his hips jutted forward to help his
cock get some more of his attention. Josh’s fist wrapped around Robin as his mouth sucked the
top of the cock like it was an ice cream cone. Josh hoped the feeling felt incredible to Robin.

“Too good,” Robin moaned and tried to shift away.

Josh wouldn’t let him. He knew Robin was on the edge. The moment seemed to freeze
indefinitely. Then within a span of a breath everything happened. Josh’s hand moved up and
down as his mouth sucked hard and fast.

On a strangled yell, the beautiful longhaired boy helplessly shot out pulses of come into the moist
heat of Josh’s mouth. Again and again. His body shook with the intensity of the physical
sensation Josh was making him feel.

Robin moaned as he pushed his cock deeper into Josh’s mouth. “So good, Josh. Oh. So. Good.”
His lips were whispering the words as if the feelings were just too good to do more.

After Robin was spent, he collapsed back onto the bed. He lay there trying to catch his breath. A
shy look of satisfaction made him look deliciously innocent and completely debauched all at the
same time.

The fact that Josh had put that look on his face was more than he could handle. He’d just made
Robin come and he was aroused beyond words. “Robby,” Josh groaned. He was in intense pain
with the need to come.

Robin’s head popped off the pillow to see Josh. His sexy smile almost made Josh shoot off before
he even touched him and that would have been a complete waste of an orgasm. Robin whispered
in the sexiest voice he had ever heard, “Come here, Josh.”

He moved up Robin’s lean body quickly. Robin pulled Josh so he was straddling his smooth
chest. Innocent and sexy, Robin opened his mouth so Josh could slide right in. Josh was so needy
that as soon as those amazing plush lips closed around him, liquid elation rushed out to fill that
wonderful mouth. Robin’s cheeks indented with the strong sucking while his fist wrapped around
Josh’s exploding dick. His cock was tugged as he was sucked to completion.

Josh was mesmerized by the sight of Robin swallowing his offering. Each time more of his
creamy come spurted into that lovely mouth, Robin shuddered with delight. It was sexy as hell
that Robin shivered with pleasure swallowing Josh’s essence. It made Josh want to keep filling
his mouth. But Josh only had so much to give.

Robin’s pretty eyes looked a bit shell shocked so Josh moved to lie next to him. He just pulled
him into his arms and held him tight. Robin seemed to melt into the embrace causing Josh’s heart
to sing. He placed small kisses on Robin’s head and face.

This was everything he had dreamed of and never believed he could have. Robin, in his arms
accepting the love he so desperately wanted to give him. Nothing more was needed as Robin’s
hands returned Josh’s caresses and soothed his overheated flesh.

After snuggling for a few minutes, Robin’s long prick started to harden. He wasn’t sure what to
do next. Josh didn’t know if Robin wanted to be inside him or the other way around so he just lay
there in suspended motion. Waiting. He was terrified of leaving this heavenly space they found
themselves in, to forge them into uncharted territory.

But holding Robin in his arms must have given him confidence because he discovered he was
fearless. He nudged Robin as he eyed that long thin cock. “You want some more?” Josh asked
with a knowing smile.

Josh’s heart was bursting with powerful emotions but his body knew what it wanted. However,
Robin looked like the nervous virgin he was. Granted, this was going beyond heavy petting or
was it third base? Whatever. This was a big deal. Maybe if I wasn’t an idiot I would be afraid
too. “More, Robby?”

Groaning with need, Robin rolled over on top of Josh. “Yeah, but...” His words deserted him.
Robin looked scared, worried and much younger than eighteen.

But Josh wasn’t. He wanted to give Robin anything he wanted. It didn’t matter what that was.
“But what?” Josh asked. “Up my butt, that’s what.” He chuckled at his own stupid joke.

Robin rolled his eyes but didn’t laugh. His fingers pushed back Josh’s shoulder length wayward
hair to look deeply into his eyes. “Don’t want to hurt you.” Robin’s voice was barely above a
whisper.

Josh frowned at the sweetness. Shit, didn’t think of that. “Well, yeah. I don’t want that either.”
They held each other for a while staring deeply into each other’s hearts. Josh’s mind melted and
he realized he didn’t care if it hurt. He wanted Robin inside him.

After a few moments of exchanging hot wet kisses filled with longing and need, Josh’s cock rose
to the occasion. Josh knew Robin was feeling the absolute raw need to move to the next level.
Josh tested his theory by moving his hips against him. Both caught their breath as their cocks slid
against the other.

“Mmmmm,” Josh smiled at Robin. “I saw some lotion in the bathroom.”

Robin’s look of confusion was adorable. “Lotion?” Immediately after saying it he realized what
Josh meant. A blush colored Robin’s cheeks a pretty pink.

Josh hesitated a moment to search those blue green eyes. Finding only eagerness and want, he got
up to retrieve the makeshift lubrication.

Even though he had never done so, Josh knew Robin had read enough stories with erotic scenes
to know how to prepare a male for penetration. Tossing the lotion at Robin, Josh told him, “Prep
me.” When Robin didn’t move, Josh added, “Like in your books.”

So without a word that’s what Robin did. Within minutes, Robin was sliding two fingers in and
out of Josh, who was in a decided state of bliss. Robin asked shyly, “Are you sure you want
this?”

Josh opened his eyes and grinned at Robin. “Very. I can’t wait to do this to you.”

Robin groaned, but then focused on opening up Josh. “You really did read my books, huh?”

“Mmmmm, you have very long fingers.” Josh said with appreciation. It was starting to feel really
good. After Robin slid another digit in, Josh answered, “I read most of the books you have.” He
grinned as he shared, “Especially the ones you read over and over.”

Robin didn’t say anything but his cheeks stained a dark pink looking away from him.

Josh choked out a laugh that turned into a groan. “Did you know if you hold a book in the palm
of your hand and let it open on its own you can figure out where the person left off or which parts
they read over and over and over again?” Josh moved his hips to press down on Robin’s fingers.

“I think I’m ready.”

Stopping for a moment, Robin looked at Josh. “Condoms?”

Josh laughed. “Non-drug using virgins, right?”

“Um, yeah. Are you sure?” The look that Josh gave him seemed to reassure him. “Okay. So I
will…just without anything…” Pulling his fingers free of Josh. Robin nodded as he coated his
prick with some moisturizing cream. He moved up on his knees.

“It would be easier on all fours,” Robin spoke softly as he blushed.

The guy was so adorable in his worry. “I wanna see,” Josh told him. No way was he missing a
second!

He watched the pretty face of the boy he had always loved as Josh felt a hard prick touch the rim
of his entrance. Josh wanted to be connected in every way he could so he held up his hands to
Robin. Smiling, Robin joined their hands and soon they were interlocked holding tight.

Knowing Robin was afraid of hurting him, Josh pulled Robin unexpectedly forward so the long
cock slid into him. Damn! “There, see.” He tried to smile. It did hurt. A bit. A lot! A little! The
sensations were all mixed up but Robin was almost all in. On a heated hiss, Josh said, “Go ahead,
Robby. A little more.”

Robin did as he requested. Those big blue green eyes slammed shut as he moaned with the
pleasure. Robin asked full of worry, “Does it hurt?” He opened his eyes a crack to peek at him.

Josh certainly felt the long cock in his tight virgin channel. He could feel his body spasming a bit
around the intruder. He wasn’t going to lie, but he did downplay the uncomfortable fullness at
being stuffed full of cock. “Um, it burns a bit.” Instantly Robin was trying to back out but he
stopped him. “Wait. Stay. Just give me a sec.”

After a minute, of just looking up into Robin’s eyes, it was like a switch was turned.
‘Uncomfortable’ flipped to ‘I want more now’! Josh grinned and pushed his hips to envelop more
of the invading cock. His head fell back and his eyes rolled back with pleasure. “Oh, yeah.
Robin! Move! God! Move!”

Robin was unsure which way he should move, so Josh solved his dilemma by letting go of
Robin’s hands and grabbed onto his ass. He pulled him down to rock him further deeper inside.
Arching his back pushed him into a delicious position.

“Josh,” Robin’s voice choked.

“Robin,” Josh moaned out. His Robby was inside of him. He was no longer a virgin. Robby
would always be his first and he would always be Robin’s first. Josh ignored his screaming heart
that was already mourning the fact that he wouldn’t be Robin’s last. Life wouldn’t be that kind,
but his body forced his mind to forget thought, and just feel.

The intensity of emotion coupled with the absolute mind-bending pleasure he was experiencing
made him tremble with need. He never imagined it would feel this good. It was wicked intense.

Josh wanted to make it clear he was enjoying the invasion of cock inside him. He moaned louder
as his fist wrapped around his dick and gave it a nice slow tug as his eyes shut.

He was full of Robin and his cock was begging for another climax. His eyes shot open to look
into Robin’s beautiful blue green eyes. Licking his dry lips to exhale before he groaned, “Close.”
Josh’s jerked his prick at a speed he knew confirmed his statement as fact.

Robin’s hand tenderly ran down Josh’s side and then back up to cup his face. He looked lost in
the pleasure of being inside of Josh. Without thinking about it, Josh wrapped his legs around the
slim body that was writhing over him. Pushing his orgasm off, he released his cock and pulled
Robin close. Josh’s hands grabbed a cheek of that perfect ass that was humping over the top of
him so he could pull Robin down harder. Wanting to take Robin in deeper. This caused their
bellies to rub across Josh’s dick giving it the intense friction he craved.

Robin held Josh tight as his hips canted forward at an ever-increasing speed until he froze. Josh
recognized that Robin was finding his release. That knowledge triggered the feeling that started
in Josh’s balls and seemed to race up his cock.

He could actually feel Robin’s dick spasm as he poured himself into his body. Robin’s hips thrust
up and down as he emptied himself with gushing pulses of pleasure. Josh felt each and every
spurt deep inside.

Robin cried out as if he were in pain, “Ohhhh! Coming!”

That was all it took. Josh could wait no longer, “Oh, God! I love you, Robby!” Robin’s concave
belly was rubbing against Josh’s cock giving it the friction he needed. Warm wet heat filled the
space between them as Josh found his climax. “Fuck! Love you!” Josh’s hands squeezed and
kneaded Robin’s round bottom as he came all over them. When he was finally done, he kissed
Robin on his soft lips.

Minutes passed as they lay there connected, wrapped around each other with love. After all the
abuse they had suffered, Josh felt he was finally at peace with life for the moment. The only
sounds that could be heard were their sighs of relief.

Thoughts of reality tried to break in but they still had hours left and Josh was going to make sure
they used every second of their ‘time out’ from life. Tomorrow was soon enough to think about
the reality of selling their bodies for food.

They must have fallen asleep because when Josh woke he was cleaned up and Robin was looking
down at him. He smiled up at the guy who owned his heart. And always would.

“Hey,” he whispered up at Robin who didn’t acknowledge he was awake. “What are you doing?”
He continued to whisper for fear of breaking the spell that seemed to be cast between them.

Robin’s lip quirked up in a small smile. “Just looking at you.” Robin ran a hand through Josh’s

hair, which was probably every which way.

“Yeah?” Josh grinned up at the pretty man. Robin hated when someone called him ‘pretty’ but he
was. He had been a beautiful child and had grown into a gorgeous man. It made him feel happy to
know Robin was watching him sleep. Josh felt soft and warm and loved. He moved a hand up to
tuck a piece of long unruly hair behind Robin’s ear.

“How do you feel? Are you okay?” Robin’s worry bled into his voice and concern was written on
his face.

“Fine.”

Robin nodded in relief then a shy grin crossed his lips. “So, um, do you want to...try?” His
shyness made him look more like a boy than the man who just got laid. Tossing his long hair
behind him, Robin blushed sweetly but his lower parts seemed not to be embarrassed in the least.
His long prick was leaking at the idea.

Josh felt all the blood leave his brain. He acted on need. Within a hot second, the sexy thing was
pinned on his back beneath him.

Robin looked surprised at first then just gave almost a purring sound of approval. An unusual
rush occurred when he realized Robin liked him taking the lead. Not just liked it but if the look of
pure ecstasy on his face was any indication he loved it. Taking it as an invitation for him to start
kissing his throat.

He held Robin down securely, hands linked above their heads, which made him arch upwards
moaning as he searched for more.

“ Josh,” Robin gasped and moaned with need.

That moan excited him deeply. Josh was trembling to maintain control so he didn’t just shove
himself deep into him. Deep inside where he longed to be. He took the tiny bottle of cream and
did exactly what Robin had done to prepare him. “Guess we know what these stupid little bottles
of hand lotion are really for now, huh?”

Robin tried to grin but groaned as Josh’s fingers entered him. All thoughts of witty retorts fled, as
Robin’s main focus seemed to be on the digits slowly reaching deep inside. Josh was hoping he
was hitting the spot that had made him see double.

Not sure where the thought came from, Josh grabbed both of Robin’s hands and dragged them
above his head. Robin groaned deeply and writhed even more as he was seeking some friction on
his long cock. Josh loved seeing how much Robin loved his hands held captive above his head.
Something seemed so right about seeing Robin at his mercy. Having him under his complete
control so he could give him exactly what he needed. Robin was unable to do anything but accept
Josh’s love.

Robin let him know that he needed more with a simple choked word, “Ready.”

Sitting up with his eyes drinking him in. He moved forward to enter the tight passage in front of
him. It seemed to welcome Josh into its tight grasp as he slowly sank in, balls deep. He didn’t
pause but he moved slowly until he reached bottom, literally, his cock twitching. Robin echoed
his groan of pure bliss. Josh felt like he would go cross eyed with the pleasure of being inside of
Robin.

“Keep them there.” Josh squeezed his hands so Robin would understand what he meant.

Robin moaned his agreement and clutched onto the crappy headboard. He slowly let go of
Robin’s hands, kissing him gently on the lips as a consolation before planting his hands on either
side of his head.

Their eyes remained locked. Josh tried to convey an eternity of emotion, which he knew would
be rebottled after tonight. But they had tonight. He refused to think about tomorrow and the
crushing implications it would have for them. Instead he focused on the beautiful boy he grew up
with, and making this experience better than any of Robin’s erotic romance novels.

He drew back and Robin hissed at the loss then moaned as Josh reintroduced his cock in a long
heated slide. The tight channel gripped him as it tried to milk him of his seed long before he was
ready. He stayed on the razor’s edge of pleasure pushing them both ever closer.

Josh gripped Robin’s long stiff cock in a tight fist, matching the strokes of his hand to the thrusts
of his dick. He wanted to massage Robin inside and out.

Robin’s head rolled back and forth on the cheap hotel pillow but his hands remained locked
above his head. He looked like an angel held captive with his hair spilling around his face. His
mouth circled in an ‘O’ as he exhaled.

He tried to form words to tell Robin how beautiful he looked, how amazing it felt to be deep
inside of him, and how much he loved Robin. But the words didn’t come and would have been
inadequate to express the painful love that kept sweeping through his body.

Nonsense sounds filled with pleasure were falling from Robin’s lips. That slender body was
pushing up into him making the strokes even deeper. They were both just a few strokes away.
Josh wanted to hold out just a little longer so he could make Robin come with him.

Patiently, Josh moved in and out and up and down Robin’s virgin passage, then finally Robin
opened his mouth in a silent scream. The headboard rocked with their thrusts. That tight opening
gripped Josh as Robby froze and it pulsed around him as he pumped out his orgasm into Josh’s
fist. Josh was so taken by Robin in the chaos of such bliss, he was almost surprised as his body
gave into its overwhelming need, his cock milked by Robin’s powerful muscles.

The delicious sensation shot up his spine and out his cock. It was so good and so complete. His
whole body seemed to be racked with shudders as he exploded. Finally, when both were spent,
Josh collapsed onto him.

Smiling when he saw Robin was still holding the headboard Josh whispered, “You can let go.”

Biting his lip in embarrassment, as he turned bright red, Robin’s fingers slowly released their
death grip on the ugly wood. His arms wrapped Josh in a loving embrace. Robin adjusted his
position to hold Josh in as long as physically possible.

When breathing was almost back to normal, Josh kissed Robin on the mouth. He had to try to
convey his feelings, so he cleared his throat and gave it a try. “You are absolutely incredible.
That was...amazing.” Robin opened his eyes and smiled at him. “Thank you for letting me love
you.”

Robin’s heart was in his eyes as he said, “Thank you for loving me. It was beyond everything I
ever hoped for...thank you for making it even better than in my books.”

Josh found the blush that rushed up to re-stain Robin’s cheeks adorable. “No one and nothing can
take this away from us. This is always ours.” His lips caressed Robin’s, kissing away the future
sorrows and trying desperately to hold on to this moment.

Their hands met palms together as their fingers entwined to repeat their oath. “Always. Together.
Forever.”

CHAPTER 4

“Hey, you!” A male in his early forties, driving an SUV and sporting a shiny gold wedding ring
called out to them.

Josh sighed as he ambled over to the car. “Hi,” he said not knowing what else to say. He hated
the way the guy was leering over at Robin.

“How much?”

Josh was told to be careful. Vice was out in full force since it was the beginning of the tourist
season. Playing dumb he cocked his head to the side, “How much does what cost, sir?”

The way the guy practically melted in his seat, Josh knew he wasn’t a cop. Fucking sick perv!
Damn, he felt his skin crawling already. How was he supposed to actually do something with this
guy? Touch him, or worse, let Robin touch him. Maybe if they touched him together it wouldn’t
be as bad.

“Josh!” Robin was calling out to him. Probably trying to stop him from what he was about to do.
It wasn’t like there was any other choice!

Josh ignored him until he noticed the pervy guy’s attention was looking past him to Robin.
Turning his head, he was just in time to see Robin racing across the street in the opposite
direction. Josh didn’t think twice and just ran after him. As his sprint came to an end and he got
close enough so he could see why Robin had been calling him.

An elderly man was on the ground and it looked like he was being beaten up by two young guys,
maybe a little older than they were. He might have seen them around the skateboard park after
dark. Their grubby jackets looked familiar.

Robin wasn’t a tough guy but he jumped in the fray without even thinking about his own well-
being. Well, there was no way Josh was letting him get hurt so he joined in. He was better with
his fists anyway. Within a minute, after throwing several punches in their faces both guys ran off.

Robin was on the ground helping the old guy up. “Are you okay, mister?” Robin was very
concerned for the stranger.

“Oh. Ah. Thank you, son.” The old guy finally made his way vertical.

Robin continued to fuss. “Are you hurt? Can we take you to the hospital, mister?”

The old guy touched Robin’s cheek, and grinned. “No, my dear boy. I dropped down like a rock
as soon as they came at me.” He laughed quite pleased with his trickery. The man turned to
survey the two of them. “You two didn’t get hurt, did you?”

“Nah, we’re fine.”

Robin picked up his dropped bag and handed it to him.

“Kind of late for you two to be out isn’t it?” The old guy asked as he looked around the streets of
Santa Cruz. During the day it was a sweet little town with boutiques and cute restaurants but after
dark it could get a bit shady in certain parts.

Josh hated to be treated like a damned kid. He told the old guy, “I’m nineteen. And he’s
eighteen.”

The old guy nodded his head and readjusted his hat. “How about you two walk me home and I
can get you some ice for your shiner? Then you can have some dinner with me.”

His hand went up to touch his face. “Ow.” Josh hadn’t even realized he got smacked in the eye
with a fist.

Moving next to him, Robin looked at him with concern. “Oh, Joshy. You got hurt. Are you
okay?”

Trying not to soak up the attention like a sponge, he waved Robin off. “It’s fine. Fine.”

The old guy put a withered hand on his shoulder, and spoke, “I know you’re fine. But how about
ice and some dinner?”

Robin’s eyes went big looking at Josh as his stomach growled at the mention of food. He bit his
lip as he blushed.

The old man laughed. “I will take that as a ‘yes’. Come on. I got some hamburger meat.” He
started walking towards his home as he explained, “I was going to try to make tacos. I saw it on
the cooking show I watch.” He looked at the two of them who had not started following him yet
before asking, “Do you like tacos?”

Robin’s stomach growled again. Josh nodded once and looked at Robin. Robin shrugged his
shoulders. It went against everything you are taught as a child to go with a stranger but compared
to what they were planning on doing with strangers this didn’t seem all that bad. Josh took the
guy’s grocery bag and started walking with him.

The old man smiled and said, “You can call me Uncle Leo. What are your names?”

Josh told him, “Josh and Robin Strider.” The guy nodded with a smile.

The old guy cleaned his glasses and then looked at them both in the bright light. “Twins?”

Josh almost laughed. “No.”

“Brothers?” Uncle Leo asked.

Robin immediately said, “Yes.” Josh bit back his “No.”

The guy shrugged. “It’s dark out. I have bad eyes but you both sort of look alike.”

They walked the old guy home to a small house off the main drag a couple of blocks. It was quiet
and nice. So far away from where they had spent the last few weeks. It seemed normal and
peaceful.

Uncle Leo dug in his pocket for the keys. His key chain had a light so he could see the lock. Once
the door was opened, he waved them in. He flicked on lights as he walked into the kitchen to get
some ice for Josh’s eye.

Robin came over to him and tipped his face up. “Let me see.”

Josh tried to pull away. “Come on. I’m fine.”

“Shhh, let your brother see.” Uncle Leo smiled. He rested a hand on his shoulder. “Sometimes,
you will find it is easier not to fight the ones that love us. Just give them what they want because
we will give it to them eventually anyway.” He chuckled as he shuffled off to the refrigerator.
“So why delay?”

Robin giggled. “See. Listen to the wise advice given to you by Uncle Leo.”

Growling in defeat. “Whatever.” But he kept one eye on Uncle Leo. The guy must want
something from them.

Robin got a look and Uncle Leo took a gander when Robin seemed overly worried. “Nah, it will
be okay, Robin. He needs some ice though.” The old guy winked at Josh letting him know he had
helped relax his ‘brother’ so Josh didn’t have to.

Josh stared at him for a moment before mouthing a quick ‘thank you’.

“Now, let’s get dinner together shall we?” Uncle Leo clapped his hands with cheer.

The three men worked together as a team. The younger ones took their direction from the older
man who just seemed thrilled with the company.

Josh held the ice bag wrapped in a towel to his face and set the table with his other hand. He
watched Robin who was clearly thrilled with how their night was turning out. Robin was so
trusting. Josh would remain on high alert waiting for the other shoe to drop ’cause it was bound
to happen. If something’s too good to be true it usually is…

Robin had made the rice while the man cooked the ground beef with taco mix and seasonings.

“Oh, you use salsa instead of water with the taco mix. That’s are really good idea.” Robin was
clearly impressed as if he were going to cook it like that at their next dinner party.

The old guy beamed at the compliment. “That’s how that girl on that show did it. Though she
didn’t use a packaged mix.” He gave it a taste. “Mmmm, Robin. It tastes pretty good.” He held
out a new tasting spoon.

Robin put it in his mouth. “Yum! That’s awesome, Uncle Leo.” He licked it clean before putting
in the sink.

The old radio was on playing a mix of classic rock and new rock. Neither of them commented on
the surprising taste of the man’s music. Josh tried not to focus on how Robin’s body swayed to
the melody of the song. Robin was just so sexy and totally clueless about the effect it had on
Josh.

During dinner the conversation stayed in the realm of small talk. They tried to be vague on their
living arrangements but it didn’t take a rocket scientist to know they were without an address.
Uncle Leo became quiet and thoughtful for a bit while they finished their meal. He didn’t seem to
mind when they agreed to second and even third helpings; he was actually quite pleased there
were no leftovers.

After dinner was cleaned up, they stood up to thank the nice old guy. It was time for them to head
back out. Since they had eaten maybe they didn’t need to find someone tonight. They could just
go back to the skateboard park.

He cleared his throat to speak. “I have a proposal for the two of you.”

Josh jumped in. “Hey, we set the prices. Just cause you gave us dinner doesn’t mean...”

Uncle Leo frowned looking confused then became slightly mortified when he figured out what
prices Josh was referring. He quickly cut Josh off by holding up his palm and then he waved for
them to follow him.

Robin looked over his shoulder at Josh to shrug like what could it hurt. He followed after Uncle
Leo, who was turning on the lights as they went. Uncle Leo was standing in the hallway that led
to the bedrooms.

Robin looked closely at the pictures on the walls then pointed to an old photo on the wall.

“Is that you?” Robin asked.

“Yup. 1958.” Uncle Leo pointed to a picture of a lovely woman in a pretty hat. “That there’s my
sweet Betsy.” The old guy was immediately choked by unshed tears. “My high school sweetheart
and my beautiful bride.”

Robin put a hand on his shoulder to comfort him. “How long ago, Uncle Leo?”

Josh was trying to catch up but finally got it. She’s dead. Robin was so filled with empathy he
knew where people were emotionally in a heartbeat.

“Been almost a year.” Uncle Leo dabbed at the tears that fell from his eyes with the white hanky
he pulled from his pants pocket. “We were married over fifty-one years.”

Robin stepped in to hug the old man gently about the shoulders. “I am so sorry, Uncle Leo. She
looked like a wonderful woman.”

“Oh Robin, she was the best. She was my best friend, a wonderful wife and a terrific mother.” He
shrugged and patted him on the back as he moved back from Robin. “Sometimes, I don’t know
how…” Uncle Leo stopped himself and blew his nose.

He got a hold of himself as he walked down the hallway. Sniffing, he pointed out another picture
of a man in a graduation cap. “That’s my boy. He’s a doctor.” He said it with great pride. “My
son is away with Doctors Without Borders. So it’s just me here.”

Moving done the hallway, Uncle Leo swung open the door and showed them a prim looking
room with lace curtains, a sewing machine in the corner, bolts of fabric, thread and half finished
projects. “Betsy would be put out with me if I didn’t offer you boys her sewing room.” Stepping
inside, Uncle Leo waved his hands around. “We could fit two twin beds in here and a couple of
dressers. You boys would have to use my office for homework or the kitchen table like Sean did
when he was your age.”

Robin looked shell shocked but still managed to ask a question. “Sean is your son. The doctor?”

Uncle Leo beamed at the question. “Yes.”

“Why would you do this? You don’t even know us.” Josh needed to figure this guy out. None of
this was making sense. There was no reason for this guy to be so nice.

He smiled at Josh’s reluctance. “Look, I’ve seen you boys around. You aren’t like the others.
You are good boys.” It was clear he knew how they planned to make their living.

Josh wanted to know. “How do you know? I mean, how can you be sure?”

Uncle Leo petted Josh on the head for a moment just looking at him as if he were much younger
than nineteen. “Because I know people. I have been around for a long time. I watch people every
day and I can tell the good from the bad.”

Josh twisted his lips as he looked over at Robin who seemed bemused by Uncle Leo’s generous
offer. Turning back to Uncle Leo. “What’s the catch?”

“Josh!” Robin gasped at his rudeness.

Uncle Leo smirked and nodded with appreciation. “No, Robin. Josh is right to be worried. There
are conditions.”

Josh crossed his arms. He knew it. Nothing could come this easy to them. The last few weeks
proved how people were out for themselves and were downright cruel most of the time. “And
they would be what?”

“Well, you need to finish school or get your GED. Can’t be without a high school diploma in this
day and age.” Uncle Leo smiled. “You two would have to keep the sewing...your room clean. We
would share chores around the house, you know sweeping, dusting, vacuuming, grocery
shopping, cooking.” He smiled at them and admitted, “I do hate grocery shopping so I hope one
of you don’t mind doing that one. Betsy always went. I never know what to buy...” Uncle Leo’s

voice trailed off in sadness.

“Oh, I love shopping. Could I do that?” Robin jumped in all excited at the prospect of shopping,
even if it was for food. It seemed like Robin was ready to just move in. “I used to go all the time
with Mom...” His stopped the flow of his words only by closing his mouth.

Uncle Leo put a hand on his shoulder full of sympathy giving him a comforting squeeze and
understanding the loss Robin experienced every single time he realized his mom wasn’t there
anymore. It had been years but it was always close to the surface.

The old guy smiled at Josh before continuing with his conditions. “You would have a curfew of
nine thirty on weeknights and eleven on weekends. I know it’s seems early and you are both over
eighteen but you know this area isn’t the best after dark.” He shrugged. “I wouldn’t be able to
sleep not knowing you were both home safe. And I also would want to know where you are.”
Looking at them both to let them know that wasn’t negotiable. “I worry.” He smiled. “Oh, yeah.
If you wanted to earn some pocket money, you could work some hours in my shop.”

“Your shop?” Josh couldn’t help but ask. His top priority was to get some money saved up so
they would never find themselves in this position again. Okay, it would take a lot of it but he had
to start somewhere so a job held a great deal of appeal.

His father never let them work. Looking back it was another form of control he had exerted over
them. “No son of mine needs to work. I provide.” Yeah, he had also provided him with a crack in
the face after making that grand statement.

Josh and Robin could only take odd jobs that could be hidden and done without their father’s
knowledge. There was also a part of Josh that never wanted to work before because he was afraid
of leaving Robin alone in the house with his father. He didn’t trust what his father would do if he
truly lost his temper, so Josh felt like he needed to be there to protect him.

“I own a music shop. I sell instruments, sheet music, fix and tune instruments, and give lessons.”
Uncle Leo was gauging their response. “I could teach you to play an instrument if you wanted.”

“Really?” Josh was hooked now too. His father pulled them out of the music lessons Robin’s
mother had set up one Christmas, insisting on a refund. Josh still remembered how good that
guitar had felt in his hands.

Uncle Leo smiled. “Yes, of course. Now why don’t we figure out where you two are going to
sleep tonight? We can get you beds tomorrow.” He shuffled out of the room talking to himself. “I
know Betsy kept extra linens in one of these closets. Which one? Where did you store our extra
sheets my sweet Betsy?”

Robin was biting his lip. He grabbed Josh up into a big hug burying his face crying with joy and
relief.

Overhearing Uncle Leo’s discussion with himself tripped Robin’s fear of abandonment in a major
way. Tears ran down his face as he said, “Thank God, I have you for a brother. I don’t know what
I would do without you!” Robin spoke so fiercely. “You are everything to me.”

Somehow ‘everything’ didn’t feel complete. Josh felt the lines were redrawn and boundaries
were back in place. It was as if yesterday never happened. Robin had pulled them back from
being anything more than ‘brothers’ and it hurt. Maybe yesterday wasn’t nearly as important to
Robin as it was to him.

Josh held him for a few seconds until Uncle Leo called them out to them. “I found them but I
can’t reach them. One of you boys is going to have to help an old man out.” He chuckled as
Robin went into the hallway to help reach the items Uncle Leo wanted for their bed.

“You think you guys could make due on the sofa bed until we get beds tomorrow?” Uncle Leo
was frowning and rubbing his chin clearly not pleased.

Robin stepped over to Uncle Leo, who obliviously wasn’t happy with letting them sleep on the
lumpy pull out. “Of course, it will be like camping out.” Robin blushed a little probably realizing
that they have been ‘camping’ out for over a month and it was rather unpleasant. This was like a
palace from where they had been and Heaven from the Hell that they almost put themselves
through earlier tonight.

“Oh, you are a tall one.” Uncle Leo praised Robin’s height as he handed the sheets easily to him.

But now they were safe. This was Heaven. They had food, a hot shower, a job, school, and a bed
tomorrow. Even if this all fell apart, they were much better off than they would have been
without Uncle Leo in their lives.

CHAPTER 5

Their life picked up significantly. The next day they had new beds, chores, and part time jobs.
Within a week, Uncle Leo had purchased them the books they needed for their GEDs. They
hadn’t wanted to risk going back to school on the off chance the asshole was looking for them.

Taking his cue from Robin, their relationship drifted right back to where it was prior to their
night of passion. There had been no follow-up discussion about their night of romance to give it
any sense of reality or closure.

Josh wasn’t surprised. After all, the only reason Robin had allowed them to go beyond their
‘brotherly’ relationship was because of their dire circumstances. Josh hadn’t expected it to
continue but he couldn’t ignore the sting of pain the loss caused him. Not to mention that it made
his desire for Robin more intense.

As much as it hurt he could never risk losing Robin completely, so he would take what he could
get. Josh knew it was more than he probably deserved. Besides, he knew Robin shouldn’t settle
for someone like him. Robin deserved someone who could take care of him and thus far Josh
hadn’t done the greatest job of that.

But having the knowledge and accepting it, were two very different things. Night after night, he
lay in the dark, Robin’s soft breathing the only thing that could be heard. Deep, slow inhales and
exhales would tell him when Robin was asleep. Once his eyes adjusted he would look across the
small space between their beds and just stare.

He resisted the strong draw he felt to cross the small space between their beds. He didn’t wrap
himself around the younger man, or place kisses, gentle and sweet, all over that angelic face. The
denial of these cravings caused an almost physical hurt.

Josh knew he would probably never have what he truly wanted ever again but he tried to thank all
that was holy for Uncle Leo’s kind generosity for without it… But he didn’t want to think about
what they had been getting ready to do.

Uncle Leo lavished his attention on both of them without playing favorites. After a couple of
months, Josh had stopped waiting for the other shoe to drop. The old guy really did just want to
help them and Josh felt admiration for the man. Uncle Leo didn’t make Josh feel like he and
Robin were a charity case. He just seemed to want to give them a chance to be part of his life.

True to his word, Uncle Leo helped them get their GEDs. He helped them study and quizzed
them. He had even offered to pay for a course if they felt they needed it. But with his tutorage
and their hard work, they were granted their diploma within weeks of when they would normally
have graduated.

Josh loved being in the shop with Uncle Leo. Robin and he both loved being around instruments.

The older man saw that love and desire and taught Josh how to play every instrument in the store.
Uncle Leo was impressed at how easily he picked it up and was able to apply the concepts to
each new instrument with the necessary variations. The strings and keys made sense to him in a
way nothing in school ever had.

The old guy saw Robin had an affinity to music composition and lyrics, which he taught him
using a keyboard and piano as the main teaching tools. Robin appeared to be quite gifted with
any keyed instrument. He loved practicing and Uncle Leo was very happy with his progress.

Uncle Leo also taught both of them how to run the store by teaching them basic business
concepts. They actually worked their way through a Business 101 book that Uncle Leo borrowed
from one of his students who had already graduated. He was patient as he explained accounting,
inventory, and supply chain. His good sense and business ethnics were a breath of fresh air to
them after dealing with drunken rages for so many years.

Between getting his GED, saving money from a job he loved, and finally playing instruments,
Josh was almost happy. He had just about everything he was afraid to want. He had everything
except the most important thing—Robin.

One sunny afternoon, they were sitting in the quiet shop. It was just the two of them. Josh was
playing one of the bass guitars that had just arrived and Robin was writing lyrics into the
composition book he had almost filled. Uncle Leo and he would go over each song. Occasionally,
Uncle Leo and Robin would ask Josh to develop music for the words, which he relished. He
adored putting music to Robin’s poetic words.

Uncle Leo came back from an appointment with the doctor. Robin instantly stood to ask, “How
did the appointment go?”

Smiling, Uncle Leo patted down Robin’s long dark hair. “Fine. Doctor says I am in good health.”

“Really? Your blood pressure is back to normal?” Robin asked with his hands on his hips.

Josh hadn’t known there was an issue. Uncle Leo chuckled. “You’re tougher than my Betsy.” He
smiled wistfully before telling Robin, “The doctor said the lower salt diet has helped.”

Robin breathed a sigh of relief, before he asked, “Good. So no pills?”

“Nope.” Uncle Leo smiled at both of them. “He said you are both good medicine for me.” The
old man walked over to him and placed a hand on his shoulder, and said, “Thank you, Josh. I
know all of this wasn’t easy on you at first but…well, thank you.”

Josh swallowed past the lump in his throat. He wasn’t used to someone caring about him.
Nodding because the words wouldn’t come. He wanted to tell him how much he appreciated
everything the guy had done for him and Robin, but his damned eyes started to leak.

Uncle Leo grabbed him up into a big bear hug. “It’s okay, son.” He patted down Josh’s short hair
the way he usually did with Robin. It felt like the man was pouring strength into him. Uncle Leo
clapped him on his back before moving off without a word.

Robin was looking at him with tears in his eyes and smiling at both of them then walked over to
give Uncle Leo a hug. He looked so happy and that was all Josh ever really wanted. Robin, safe
and happy.

Uncle Leo went over to where Robin had set his things and moved his composition book to take a
look. Another book underneath fell to the ground.

Robin squeaked and rushed over to pick it up. But Uncle Leo could move if he needed to. He
quickly grabbed up the well-read novel that got them kicked out of their home. Even if the
suggestive title was ignored, there was no possible way to miss the two pretty looking males
embracing on the front cover.

“I, um…I…” Robin tried to come up with an explanation but failed miserably. He looked over at
Josh for help.

Josh shrugged. He didn’t think Uncle Leo was a jackass like his biological father but who knew?
Now at least they would know.

Before Uncle Leo could say anything, Robin darted out of the store.

“Robby!” Josh moved to follow him.

Uncle Leo called after him, “Bring your brother home. I think it’s time we had a talk. I’ll close up
early and meet you there.”

“Okay.” Josh ran out of the store. It didn’t sound like he would throw them out but even if he did,
they were now better prepared and could deal with it more easily. At least they had some money
saved, and having GEDs would make a difference.

Josh found Robin predictably sitting on the pier looking out at the endless ocean. He didn’t say
anything. He just sat down next to him.

Robin leaned his head onto Josh’s shoulder. “I’m so sorry. I keep getting you into trouble.” He
wiped away the tears that were streaming down his face.

His arm wrapped around the small shoulders and tucked him close. “Shhhh, who says we’re in
trouble?”

“The book…” Robin choked out in misery. Shaking his head, he dashed away the tears. “He saw
it…”

Taking a brief moment to absorb his closeness before speaking, “Uncle Leo just told me to bring
you home.”

Robin pulled away to look at Josh. “What? What did he say?”

Josh grinned a bit. “His exact words were ‘Bring your brother home. We need to talk. I’ll close
up early.’ Didn’t sound like he was pissed.”

“God, I am so sorry. Really. I can’t believe I’m so dumb!”

“You aren’t dumb. Don’t say that ever.” He could almost hear his father’s voice berating Robin
for some supposedly stupidity when it was really the drunken jackass who was stupid! He hated
that Robin believed even for one moment that he was dumb.

“You think he might let us stay?” Robin asked wary of the answer.

“Don’t see why not. It’s just a book…”

“Yeah, that got me…us kicked out from our home once already.” Robin shook his head, which
made long dark strands tickle along Josh’s neck. “I should have thrown it out!”

Josh grabbed Robin up into a tight hug. It felt so good to have him in his arms. He wanted so
badly to kiss him but he didn’t have the balls. Instead he just said, “Come on, let’s go home.”

Robin frowned with quite a pout. “Don’t wanna.”

Josh smiled remembering how that was Robby’s favorite phrase when he moved in with him and
his dad. He learned back then not to listen to the words. Robin was just scared, possibly with
good reason.

“Hey, up.” He grabbed Robin’s slender hands and tugged. “Come on. Up you go.”

Seeing his sweet mouth still twisted in a pout took everything in Josh not to kiss those lush lips
into a moan. But he didn’t. He couldn’t. He put a brotherly arm around the slimmer man and
walked him home ignoring the skipping of his heartbeat just because he had his arms around
Robin.

As soon as the front door was shut, Uncle Leo called them into the living room. A box was sitting
at his feet.

Shit! He is kicking us out. Josh couldn’t believe it. He thought he knew Uncle Leo. He thought
the old guy really cared about them. Josh was surprised it hurt more than when his own father had
done the same thing.

“Sit down, boys.”

“No, we can be out in fifteen minutes.” Josh was moving towards their shared room. He wasn’t
going to be forced to sit through a lecture. If he was being kicked out so be it but he wasn’t going
to listen to any bullshit about him, or Robin, or any book.

Chuckling, Uncle Leo shouted to Josh who was already down the hallway. “Josh, please. Come
back. Sit. We need to talk.”

Robin hadn’t moved from the doorway. He just stared down at the floor.

“What’s to say? You started to pack us up. We don’t need a picture drawn for us. We get it.” He
pointed to the box all taped up.

“No, you don’t. Now please come sit.” Uncle Leo looked down at the box resting near his feet
and shook his head. “Robin, would you open the box?” Josh still just stood there glaring at the
man he had allowed himself to become fond of. He should have known never to give a damn
about anyone other than Robin. A piece of him wanted to stop Robin from doing what Uncle Leo
had asked in hopes of preventing more pain and rejection, but he said nothing.

Robin slowly moved forward as he swallowed back tears. “Okay.” His voice was soft and shy.
Clearly, wanting to be anywhere else. He moved to the box like it had rats that were going to
jump out and bite his face off. He did as requested and a big smile lit up his face as he dug in the
box.

Josh leaned over and peered into the depths of the mysterious box. It was filled to the top with
books. On closer inspection, the covers had buff men looking into the distance or holding and
kissing each other.

Looking over at Uncle Leo, Josh gave him a confused smile. Uncle Leo pulled down his thick
glasses lower on his nose to give him a big wink.

Robin plopped down next to the box then looked up at Uncle Leo as if he didn’t quite believe
what he was seeing. His hand reached in to pull out a book with two half dressed men locked in a
tender embrace.

Opening his mouth then closing it before anything came out, Robin shook his head a little and
looked over at Uncle Leo again. His cheeks were getting a bit pink as his eyes darted from them,
to the book in his hand, to the box of books, and back again.

“My son is gay, Robin. Betsy and I belonged to PFLAG. She was a true romantic and bought
Sean romance books.” He chuckled and shook his head at a memory. “Let’s just say my son was
not a real romantic at the time. A bad break-up along with some bad experiences… anyway, my
Betsy. who was an avid reader, didn’t want the books to go to waste. As you can see she enjoyed
them.” He laughed with pleasure, not sadness, at remembering his wife.

“So, you think…” Robin was trying to say something as he turned a brighter shade of pink.

“Robin, I don’t care if you are gay, straight, or bisexual. Maybe you just like those types of
stories. It doesn’t matter to me.” Uncle Leo said it in a way that not even Josh could question his
sincerity.

But Josh wanted to clarify so there were no mistakes. “So you aren’t going to throw us out for the
book Robin was reading?”

Uncle Leo looked surprised. “Of course not.” Hearing Robin’s little sniff and seeing his downcast
head with shaking shoulders, their past situation must have become clear to Uncle Leo. “Is that
what happened?”

“Yeah,” he said quietly. Josh move to stand closer to Robin as if to protect the younger man from
the truth.

“Fucking son of a bitch!” Uncle Leo exclaimed with all the anger Josh had felt.

Both of them looked at Uncle Leo who never said a cross word to anyone let alone a string of
curses. Then Robin looked up at him with a tad of concern. Josh looked over at the older man
who was outraged for them and started laughing bitterly. “Agreed.” He shrugged, as if to make it
appear it didn’t break his heart to have such a father. Needing to change the subject, he reached
into the box and pulled out a shifter book by the author Robin adored.

“Look, Robby, a shifter one.”

Robin squealed and reached for the treasure. “Ohhhhh, let me see!” He flipped the book over to
read the back cover and grinned as a blush stole up his cheeks. He dropped the book and knee
walked to Uncle Leo to throw his arms around him.

Uncle Leo gave him a big hug and started to pet Robin’s long shiny hair. Robin was undone by
the tender gesture and started to cry like his heart was broken. “It’s okay, son. Nothing wrong
with being who God made you.” After a couple minutes, he waved Josh over to join for a big
group hug.

“I want you two to know, you are both good boys and you will always be a part of my family.”
He sniffed. “My Betsy would have doted on you both.” He petted both of them on the heads like
they were children. “But I will do the best I can.” Slowly he moved back to his original seat to
watch Robin go through the books.

Josh sat over on the couch next to Uncle Leo and just rested his hand on the old man’s, squeezing
it as he watched Robin’s excitement over the stash of books. “Thank you” seemed inadequate but
Uncle Leo understood.

Robin looked like a five year old on Christmas morning. Though the book covers were anything
but innocent. Some were close to pornographic and those Robin put in a pile face down on the
opposite side of the box away from Uncle Lou’s smiling eyes. After he went through them all, he
grinned over at them.

Josh’s heart squeezed a little as it filled with emotion. “Want me to help you carry them into our
room?”

Robin started restacking them in the box. “Yeah, I think it is a bit heavy.”

He went over to heft up the load of books. Robin tried to assist but Josh said, “I got it.” He
walked down the hall to their bedroom very much happier and relieved.

CHAPTER 6

“So do you even know this guy?” Josh asked the question in what he considered a calm fashion.
Although his tone might have made him sound like a jealous shrew he couldn’t be sure. But
watching Robin dress and fuss with his hair for a date was really too much to ask of him.

“Not much. Uncle Leo asked me to meet him. Brad is just visiting his grandmother.” Robin
sounded like he thought it was nothing. Like him going on a Saturday night date was nothing.

Catching his frowning grimace in the mirror that hung on the back of their door, Josh tried to
erase it. Sighing, he knew he needed to stop. It was no big deal.

“So it’s not a date…” Did that come across as desperate to Robin as it did to his own ears?

Robin shrugged. He stood in front of the mirror and frowned, clearly not happy with his
appearance. Dressed in his new black jeans, a blue-green shirt made by some famous designer
that Robin couldn’t believe he found in the thrift store on Main Street, and a pair of black goth
lace-up boots. He looked gorgeous even if the shirt didn’t match his eyes perfectly. His hair was
shiny and hanging around his face. Robin slipped on the black leather jacket then took it right
back off. He continued to make faces at his reflection as if something was terribly wrong.

Frowning, Robin turned to Josh for an opinion. “Do I look okay?”

Josh wanted him to stay home with him and watch movies like they always did on Saturday
night. Robin would usually fall asleep and cuddle up to him. He loved Saturday nights! He didn’t
want Robin dressing up to impress some other guy.

But he couldn’t stop himself from reassuring Robin. “You look great, Rob Rob.” Walking over to
him, Josh smoothed down the shirt collar even though it was already perfect. He held out the
super light leather coat to help Robin put it back on. Josh’s hands ran over Robin’s leather
covered shoulders. Stepping back before he pulled him into his arms and kissed the smile back on
his face.

“Really?” Robin asked insecurely.

Josh sighed. “Really.” He couldn’t let Robin think he was anything but stunning even if it gave
him confidence to go out on a date with someone else. What the fuck was wrong with him?

Josh heard the dreaded doorbell, Uncle Leo’s slow shuffle to the door then his greeting, “Hello,
Brad. Let me tell him you are here. Your date is here, Robin.”

Biting his lower lip, he looked at Josh. He looked nervous. Maybe Josh was projecting but it
didn’t seem like Robin wanted to go. Robin swallowed hard and turned towards the door.

“Robby,” he said as he tried not to look at those mouth wateringly tight jeans that cupped Robin’s
ass in the most delicious way.

“Yeah?” Robin asked over his shoulder.

Josh inhaled deeply. He realized even if he didn’t really mean the words he needed to say them.
“Have a good time.”

Robin’s face fell a bit as if he were looking for him to say something more but then he pulled a
smile up onto his face. He nodded and left.

* * *

Josh looked at his watch for the hundredth times in fifteen minutes. It was after ten. Where were
they? There was no reason for coffee to be taking this long. He should be home by now.

“Your brother will be fine,” Uncle Leo patted his knee as he handed him a dish of vanilla bean
ice cream. “Millie was Betsy’s best friend. Her grandson is a very nice boy.”

“He’s not my brother.” Josh jumped up to pace with the dish of frozen goodness. He knew he
shouldn’t have snapped. “Sorry.”

Uncle Leo froze and stared at him. “Oh. Is that how it is?”

Looking away, Josh damned his mouth for over sharing! “No.” He said it quietly not wanting to
voice it loud enough for it to be true.

Cataracts did not stop Uncle Leo from seeing how things were. “But you would like it to be that
way?”

Turning his head to face the man he had come to love as family, Josh nodded. “Yeah, but he
doesn’t.”

Uncle Leo shook his head. “I usually hold my tongue Josh. You know, I rarely give advice.” It
was true Uncle Leo never lectured or pushed his opinion on them. “But let me say if you want
something, give it time. And if you really want it, make it happen. Sometimes people need to be
shown what they need.”

Josh turned and gave Uncle Leo his full attention. “How?”

Just then footsteps could be heard walking up the front porch stairs. He was up and at the window
trying not to peer out like a mad stalker.

Voices could be heard through the screens covering the window without any effort on his part. So
it wasn’t Josh’s fault that he heard. “Well, I had a very nice time Robin.”

“Um, yeah. I really didn’t know that much about the stuff we, um talked about.”

Since he could hear was there really any issue if he just took a look? He watched as Brad stepped
forward and Robin stepped back. Stupid Brad with his handsome face was putting the moves on
Robby who seemed defenseless against the wolf.

“I had a nice time,” Robin said back-pedaling away from Brad’s forward advance. His butt hit the
door stopping any further retreat.

“I would really like to do this again.” Did Brad’s voice drop an octave as he moved closer to the
Robin?

Josh moved from the window to stand in at the partially opened front door so he could watch the
scene unfold. He didn’t really give a shit that Brad saw him. The fucker just grinned at him
before moving in for a kiss. A kiss! He was going in for Robby’s lips.

Not knowing what else to do, he flicked on the light. This made Robin turn his head at just the
right moment, so Brad’s lips landed on his cheek. He would have preferred for Brad’s mouth to
be on his fist but at least he didn’t mac on Robin.

Robin was embarrassed at having been caught in such a position, he muttered a quick, “Thank
you, Brad,” and left Brad and Josh glaring at each other.

Grinning at having shut Brad down, Josh closed the door on his frowning face without a word.
He followed Robin in to listen to Uncle Leo ask him about his night. The guy took Robin for
coffee and they browsed the stores since it was the town’s ‘late night’ where shops stayed opened
until eleven. Then he took him for ice cream.

“How romantic.” The sarcasm and accusation dripped from his words. Shit! Robin looked hurt.
Uncle Leo shot him a warning look, which he apparently was going to ignore. “You seeing that
jackass again?” Way to play it cool!

“Josh!” Uncle Leo said sharply trying to pull him back from acting like a dumb ass but it was
probably too late for that. “Robin, I am glad you had a nice time.” Looking at Josh yet again with
a mix of sympathy and warning, he tried to convey more than his words. “I suggest everyone get
a good night’s sleep.” Turning towards the stairs he moved slowly up them. When he reached the
top he called down, “Night, my boys.”

“Night, Uncle Leo,” both called up to him.

Robin asked, “Why are you smelling me?”

He was? He was. He was sniffing at him like a curious dog. Robin usually smelled of amber and
lavender. It was a mix of his products and the essence oil blend he had made for Robin’s
birthday. Josh, psycho that he was, kept a vial of the stuff in his drawer and would sniff at it on
occasion remembering what they’d shared that night that now seemed so long ago. So yeah, he
was smelling Robin and his boy smelled off. “Take a damned shower, would you? You stink of
him.”

“What?” Confusion and hurt warred as Robin sputtered. “How do I stink of him?”

“Well, you were rubbing all over him. Rather slutty for a first date don’t you think?” Shaking his
head in clear disgust. Stop, he was not! Shut your jealous mouth!

Robin opened his mouth to say something but he just turned and walked down the hall to the
bathroom they shared and shut the door. The lock clicking loudly in the quiet of the night sent a
clear message to Josh. Stay out. Stay away. Not welcome.

Josh stood there looking at the closed-door feeling like a fool. Once he heard Robin step into the
shower, he reached up to the top of the door jam and got the flat key that would pop open the
lock. Got to love that Uncle Leo was always prepared for all scenarios.

Standing in the steamy bathroom, he waited taking deep calming breathes. He was terribly upset
seeing Robin with Brad. Robin going on a date was a reminder that he could do so anytime he
chose. And those dates weren’t going to be with him.

What made everything worse was that the Brad guy was good looking. Hell, he was exactly
Robin’s type. Josh just knew it! Brad looked like one of the alpha males from one of Robin’s
novels. He had dominant male written all over him. The fucker must be smart; after all, he was in
graduate school. Uncle Leo said he was even going to travel to Cambodia the summer after next.
Josh couldn’t compete with that.

The frilly shower curtain that Uncle Leo’s wife had picked out a very long time ago was sliding
open dragging Josh back to the present. Robin didn’t jump because he knew was there. Robin
always seemed to know when he was around. Averting his eyes, he handed Robin a big fluffy
blue bath towel. Robin wrapped it around his slim hips and accepted a smaller towel to dry his
hair.

Robin must have been nervous because he was biting his lower lip. He was trying not to look at
Josh. It was like he was just waiting for him to verbally attack him again. Damn! I am a complete
prick! Josh tried to not watch the beads of water slowly roll down Robin’s body, down his lightly
muscled chest, down his toned arms, down his flat stomach into that towel. Josh’s eyes were
hungry to look their fill but he forced himself to look into Robin’s face.

For a long while, they just stood there. Robin wouldn’t look him in the eye. Finally, Robin lifted
his gaze. Josh wanted to get lost in those big blue-green eyes forever. This particular shade of
blue-green, though impossible to replicate, had become Josh’s favorite color.

Robin went still. Josh moved slowly to stand in front of him. Josh took the smaller towel out of
his hands so he could dry those long dark tresses gently. He put hunks of hair between the folded
towel to pat them dry. Again and again the procedure repeated itself.

Closing his eyes, Robin seemed to relax, accepting Josh’s unspoken apology. They stayed in the
bathroom for a long time because Robin’s hair was almost dry when Josh took a wide toothcomb
to slowly drag through his locks.

“Mmmm,” Robin moaned softly after Josh exchanged the comb for the brush. He slowly scraped

the bristles against his scalp and dragged through the long strands.

Growing up, Robin loved having his hair brushed, combed, and played with. Their mother used
to spend lots of time grooming their hair as she talked to them about their day, their friends, what
they were going to do at school, and what they had done at school.

When their mom died, Josh took over and brushed Robin’s hair for hours. Especially right after
she died. It seemed to be the only time Robin wasn’t crying. It was one of the ways he was
allowed to connect with him.

As was his habit, Robin leaned back into Josh’s body just a little, melting as his hair was brushed.
Josh kept up the slow steady pace, pulling the brush through Robin’s long hair. His hand was
following the brush, smoothing the hair as he went.

“It wasn’t a nice thing to say.” That was as close to a reprimand as Robin could come up with…
the guy was just too sweet.

“I know. I am an idiot. I was wrong and out of line.” Robin turned his head to look at him. “I’m
sorry.”

“Why?” It was a simple question with a very difficult answer.

Josh shrugged and wanted to play dumb but knew that wasn’t enough. “I guess I was jealous.” He
pulled at his tank top that was beginning to stick to him.

Robin’s big innocent eyes looked up at him in surprise. “Really, why?”

“Why?” Josh’s laugh barked out at the silliness of the question. If Robin didn’t know then telling
him wasn’t going to help much. Running his fingers through the long dark hair he had just
brushed, he looked down. How could he ask that? He knows. “You know.” Josh’s voice was
hushed in the warm moist bathroom. The space seemed to become more intimate with his
admission.

A strangled sound escaped Robin as he moved to the door wanting to escape. His towel slipped
but he caught it at the last second. Robin went into their room and quickly opened his dresser
drawer. He pulled out a pair of blue cotton briefs, the ones that Josh knew cupped his ass just so.

Keeping his towel on he tried to pull on the underwear. The fabric wasn’t cooperating and it
twisted around his ankles as the terry blue towel fell to the floor. Robin and Josh both gasped. His
delicate body was now on full display.

It had been months since they had their night of heated abandon in that run down dive of a ‘no
tell motel’ and Josh needed more. The way Robin’s cock snapped up and hit his belly, Josh knew
he wasn’t the only one hungry and desperate. Seeing that long prick in profile caused something
to break loose in Josh.

The next thing he knew Robin was laid out on the bed with his knees parted and him between
them making a feast of that beautiful cock. That delicious cock was spearing his lips as Josh’s

head was bobbing to give it entrance into his mouth and then a nice slow exit.

Robin was making halfhearted attempts to stop Josh’s progress but lightly pushing at his shoulder
and saying, “No, we can’t,” didn’t really stop him.

The groans of need that escaped Robin as Josh’s tongue danced a path up and down the solid
ridge of flesh caused him to push his own shorts to his knees. Josh’s fist wrapped around his own
cock as he mouthed Robin’s.

“We shouldn’t,” Robin choked out as Josh’s tongue was circling his crown. Trying to pull back,
Robin breathed out, “We can’t.”

Another groan of denial was heard as Josh tried to give him the best blow job ever. His mouth
caressed the velvety shaft, as Robin’s words said, “No. We can’t.” But the fingers wrapped in
Josh’s hair pulling him closer joined with his body’s thrusting to beg, “Yes! Please!”

Josh was listening to Robin’s body.

Sighing in defeat, desperate to stop his body’s reaction as his hips moved to get more cock into
Josh’s mouth, “Can’t lose you too. Can’t. Please, Josh, don’t.”

Josh pulled off for a moment to reassure him. “You won’t lose me, Robby,” he said before he
enveloped the cock in front of him right down to the root.

Guilt spilled out with his words between moans of enjoyment. “We’re brothers. We grew up
together.”

“But we aren’t related.” Josh would say it again and again. Maybe at some point Robin would get
that. They weren’t brothers and nothing he wanted to do to Robin was brotherly. His feelings had
always been well past that.

Robin’s dark head of almost dried hair came off the bed to stare at him. “Brothers don’t leave.
We can’t.” Inhaling hard and trying to prevent the inevitable, he seemed determined to make Josh
agree to it.

“You are everything to me. I’m not leaving. Come for me,” he said before loving that cock right
back into his mouth.

“No, can’t leave me.” Robin seemed to be holding on to his control by a thread. He was exhaling
hard.

He slid back up Robin’s shaft to lick around the crown before answering. “Not leaving. Promise.”
Josh gave the cock in front of him a nice long lick. “Now come.” His mouth engulfed Robin’s
length and sucked.

Robin nodded slightly and his head dropped back to the bed. Within a minute, his body bowed
off the bed and he was shooting streamers of cream straight down Josh’s throat. Feeling the
cream hit the back of his throat made Josh grind down on the bed. Relishing the feel of his

erection getting the friction it was so desperate for, he was caught him by surprise when he came.

The next morning played out like all the other mornings that would follow the momentary lapses
in Robin’s boundaries. Sometimes months would pass, other times it was mere days between
these explosive, physically satisfying bouts of uncontrolled passion. The conclusion was always
the same. Robin would create distance and re-establish that they were brothers. Josh would be cut
to shreds by the rejection but, as always, he would accommodate Robin’s needs.

Days, weeks, and months were accounted for in Josh’s head by determining how much time had
passed since they were last together. It was rather pathetic so Josh tried not to think about it.
Time seemed to blend together while he waited for the next time Robin would allow him in.

That was until a man named Angel Luv walked into Uncle Leo’s shop. Angel Luv blew into town
to do some singing with a band that was playing the local bars. He had made quite a name for
himself even if the band was shit. Josh had heard his name mentioned by some of Uncle Leo’s
students but never bothered to go hear him. Robin didn’t do the whole club scene so what was the
point?

When Angel Luv walked, strutted really, into the shop and introduced himself to Uncle Leo, Josh
wasn’t paying much attention to him since he and Robin were in another dimension working
through a new song. So he was completely unaware that their music had caught the guy’s
attention.

Josh didn’t realize how their lives were about to change.

The guy returned with a woman a couple hours later. Robin was softly singing the lyrics
completely unaware that anyone was in the shop, totally focused on hearing how the words he
had just rewritten matched Josh’s music.

When they finished playing the song called ‘Anthem For The Broken Hearted,’ they heard
clapping. Angel Luv, who had come back into their shop, said, “See, Megan, didn’t I tell you?”
The dark haired man certainly had a presence.

“You did.” She said it with a smile. “Hi, I’m Megan.” Stepping over to them she held out her
hand to shake both of theirs. “So, are you boys musicians?”

Robin’s mouth dropped open in surprise and Josh just chuckled at the very suggestion.

Uncle Leo stepped around the counter and said, “Yes they are.”

Angel grinned at them before turning his attention to Uncle Leo to say, “Well, good because I
have a proposition for them…”

CHAPTER 7

Hospital, present time....

Dusty was crouched down in front of him, talking, rambling really. Josh didn’t have a clue what
he was actually saying. He was watching the guy’s lips move but all he could think about was
Robin.

Losing his Robin. Bad enough he couldn’t even really have him. It was sick to be in love with
someone who wanted you only as a ‘brother’. Besides, at some point in time, Robin will find a
great guy who will give him what he needs and take him away from me. Funny, that thought used
to shred him but now that pain would be welcome. I want Robby to find a nice man to be good to
him and give him everything I couldn’t. As long as he is alive I could deal with it. I could fucking
deal with anything just as long as Robby lived. He had to pull through this. There is no way I am
going it alone. No way. No fucking way.

Dusty was still talking to him. Sighing deeply, Josh tried to focus. If he paid attention maybe
Dusty would just shut the hell up. So he put some effort into it so he could figure out what the
hell the drummer was rambling about “...and Robin will be fine.”

“Robin? What about Robin?” Josh went from the mumbled thoughts from the hell he produced in
his head to high alert and ramrod straight in the uncomfortable chair.

“The doctor said Robin will be fine.” Dusty grabbed him up in a tight hug.

Josh pulled back. “He’s okay?”

“Yeah, that what I have been saying for the last five minutes. Wow, that sedative they needed to
give you really affected you, dude.”

The horrible thoughts that were messing with him dried up. Robin was going to be okay. Wait,
what the fuck was Dusty talking about now? “What sedative?” Josh asked realizing that he was
processing everything at a distance.

Angel put a hand on his shoulder. “You lost it a bit. The doc thought it best.”

Dusty snorted. “Yeah, for everyone else.”

He was feeling really impatient. He didn’t really care what the hell Dusty and Angel were talking
about. The main thing was Robin was okay. “I want to see him.” Josh’s heart was pounding at the
thought.

Darius stepped up. “He’s not awake yet but he’ll be fine. They’ll take good care of him.” Dare
handed him a tissue. Josh hadn’t even realized he needed one. “But first you have to take care of
yourself. Go get yourself together and then the nurse will take you to see him for a moment.”

Josh opened his mouth to argue but Angel spoke up. “Don’t let him see you like this, man.”
Looking at his lead singer, he knew the man spoke the truth. He must look like shit.

With a curt nod of his head, Josh went in search of a restroom. He felt pretty groggy. Sedative?
Did they dose me? Fuckers!

Looking in the mirror he saw what the guys didn’t want Robin to see. Fuck, I look like shit
dragged behind a truck, he thought, splashing water on his face and pushing it through his hair.

He’s okay. He’s fine. He’s fine. He’s okay. Robby is okay. Letting that sink in he, started bawling
like a baby. The ‘What ifs’ that had been kicking his ass hard vanished. Robin was okay. He
could take him home and make him better. Sobs of relief racked his body for several minutes
before he pulled himself together so he could go see Robin.

Walking back to the private waiting room he had flashes of memory. Hmmm, well if he acted
half as out of control as the memories he was having it was clear why they tranq’d his ass. He
supposed apologies were in order.

“Hey, guys. Sorry.” He looked over at Dusty and noticed the swollen eye for the first time. Josh
winced; he really had decked the guy. “So sorry, dude.” He held out his hand in apology.

Dustin laughed grabbed his hand and pulled him for a half man hug. “It’s okay. I am just glad
you punch like a girl.” But his black eye told a different tale.

Darius came over and guided him to a chair. “It’s okay, Josh. The doctor figured you were just
having a rock star fit.” He rubbed Josh’s back like he was a pet cat. Dare had gotten much more
touchy since he had hooked up with Angel. “You were just beside yourself. I mean I know how I
would if, God forbid, something happened to Angel.”

Everyone stopped when they realized the comparison Darius had made. Josh and Robin had
never showed their fucked up relationship to the guys. After all, Josh knew that Robin just
considered it a series of mistakes that he tried to forget afterwards.

Josh was saved from answering by the nurse who came in to take him to see Robin.

Robin was still unconscious, but the nurse said he should be waking up at any time. Josh dragged
a chair quietly over to the bed and sat down. He found Robin’s hand under the mass of wires.
Damn needles had already started to bruise his delicate hands. Resisting the urge to pull them out,
he just held Robby’s hand gently.

Finally, movement drew Josh’s gaze up to Robin’s face just in time to see his beautiful eyes
open. He stood so he would be the first thing Robin would see.

“Hey, Robby.”

“Hey,” Robin tried to say but nothing came out of his dehydrated throat. Turning his head and
trying to move, Robin was trying to figure out where he was.

“Shhhh, it’s okay.” Josh spoke softly. “You’re fine. Just came out of surgery. You were in a car
crash. No one was hurt but you. You’re going to take some time to heal, but no permanent
damage.”

A nurse came over. “Here’s some ice chips. We will be moving him upstairs very soon. You can
wait in the waiting room.”

Instantly, Robin became agitated in protest. His hand tightened around Josh’s indicating that he
needed to play his part.

“Ma’am, I need to stay with my brother. Otherwise…” Robin started moving as if he would pull
out his IVs and the other attachments. “Robby, shhhh. The nice pretty nurse is going to let me
stay with you.”

The nurse simpered and then giggled. She whispered, “Well, it is against the rules, but no one
else is here. Plus he should be up in his room very soon. Just don’t make any noise.”

“Thank you, nurse.” Josh winked at her. Robin settled down and grinned as soon as the nurse was
out of the earshot. Yeah, he would play the brother card when it suited him, which wasn’t very
often.

“Oh Robby, everyone thinks you are so innocent.” He chuckled. “No one knows you are the evil
master mind.” Josh smirked at him. They’d perfected that act all the way through school to stay
in the same classes when any suggestion was made of separating them.

Robin sniffed. He did look innocent. “Ice, please?”

“Your wish.” Josh smiled at him. He ignored the spoon and pulled an ice chip out with his finger.
Holding it up to Robin’s mouth Josh painted his dry lips with moisture then popped it in his
mouth. As soon as it was melted, Robin opened up like a baby bird wanting more. Josh smiled
and fed him ice chips one after the other.

“Thanks, Josh.” Robin’s voice was still soft and hoarse but it was better.

Josh kissed the hand he was still holding. “I am so happy you are okay, Robby. I don’t know
what I would have done...” He couldn’t even complete the thought that had been tormenting him
for the last six hours. “Please, don’t ever do that again.”

Robin looked like he was going to say something but changed it to a simple, “Sorry.”

Josh kissed his hand and tried not to cry again. He looked back up to his Robin’s beautiful
blue-green eyes. “What happened?”

“I was driving and swerved to avoid a dog that ran into the road. I wasn’t going that fast but I
skidded on something and hit a tree.”

Closing his eyes, Josh tried to block out the mental images his words had given him. “Next time
Robby, hit the fucking dog.” Robin gasped at the very thought. “I am serious. Please.”

Robin didn’t say anything but looked into Josh’s eyes for a very long time before he simply
nodded.

Robin grabbed Josh’s hand. “You know they say people can hear when they are unconscious.”
Squeezing his hand, Robin tells Josh. “I heard you before I went into surgery. I knew you were
with me.”

Josh looked away from him. “Always.” Just remembering how close he had come to losing Robin
tore him up inside. He didn’t like the train of his thoughts and how willingly he would join Robin
if he lost him.

“I need you to promise me you would never...” Robin couldn’t even finish the sentence.

Josh shook his head. “Promise me you will never leave me.” A sharp sob was cut off. “I couldn’t
go on without you.” Tears slipped down his face and he hid his head next to Robin’s. “Please
don’t make me,” Josh begged.

“Josh...” Robin’s voice broke.

“Shhhh, Robby.” Josh moved his head and kissed his cheek as his tears fell on Robin’s face. He
dashed the wetness off his face and fussed with the blankets for something to do with his hands.
Josh smiled but it didn’t reach his eyes. “Like it or not, you are my reason to exist. You are my
everything. Without you I don’t want to—”

“Josh, shhhh.” Robin seemed desperate to stop his talk. “Know this, I don’t want to either. I just
couldn’t. You mean everything to me. Without you, well, there isn’t a me without you.”

So many thoughts raced through Josh’s mind. None of which made sense. He chalked it up to still
being out of it. He didn’t know what to say.

Robin squeezed Josh’s hand and said, “So let’s make a pact, next time the dog gets it.”

Josh looked at his adorably serious face before cracking up. The two of them laughed and
laughed until it caused Robin pain.

The nurse came over to them shaking her head telling them to be quiet. Within two more minutes,
Robin was taken to a private room upstairs.

Over the course of the next few days, Robin healed. Josh rarely left his side. Being a rock star
had its advantages. Some of the younger nurses found an extra cot and allowed Josh to sleep
there at night.

Once the wires were out, Robin even begged Josh to crawl into bed with him. Not that it took
much begging. They were caught twice cuddling but the nurses weren’t too harsh. They thought
it was so sweet Josh was petting Robin’s face as he slept.

Josh did go home to bring Robin some comforts. He brought his computer, his smallest keyboard,
some movies, and a new cell since his was lost in the accident. They just hung out as if they were
home.

Uncle Leo had come and stayed for a few days. They loved seeing him. Even though they used
the latest video conferencing, nothing was better than face to face. But they convinced him to go
back to his shop. They reminded him of his students and the new kid, Jack, Uncle Leo had pulled
off the street to help.

Jack really did need Uncle Leo’s full attention. That kid knew how to find trouble so Uncle Leo
went back. Partly for Jack and because he knew his boys, as he still referred to them as, only
really needed each other.

CHAPTER 8

“We’ve already canceled two shows. I’m fine,” Robin tried to convince anyone who would listen.

Josh sat on the couch next to him and tucked a blanket up around his neck. Robin snuggled into it
until he realized it looked like he was sick. Stopping himself he then tried glaring at Josh to show
his displeasure but could only come up with a twisted grin.

Megan paced back and forth in their living room. “What do the rest of you think?”

Dusty walked around tapping things with his sticks. “You really okay, Robin?” After Robin gave
a firm nod, Dusty gave a shrug. He twirled his sticks around his fingers before doing a short drum
roll on the wall ending by pointing his stick. “Josh?”

“No! Absolutely not! He is not okay.” Josh fairly shouted his answer making Dusty pause in his
drumming of the woodwork above the front door.

Darius leaned towards Robin from his perch on Angel’s lap. “So Josh is undecided…” He looked
closely at Robin as if examining him. “You do look a bit pale.”

“I have fair skin,” Robin instantly justified his complexion..

“He’s pale, because he isn’t healed yet.” Josh was quick to reply.

“I’m a winter.” Stating it like everyone would know what he was talking about. Then when he
looked around he realized everyone was in the dark except Megan and Josh. “It’s just my
complexion. I am a winter. Fair skinned.” Sighing in frustration, “I am telling you I am fine. I
want to do the shows. I’m ready.”

Angel looked over at Robin. “What did the doctor say?”

Shrugging, Robin said, “He released me.”

“And said you needed to rest,” Josh added as he handed Robin a bottle of water.

Sighing, Robin drank as if that would appease Josh. “We already canceled two shows. It isn’t fair
to our fans.”

Megan chimed it. “We will make up those shows at the end of the tour. So making up two shows
in this area or three really doesn’t matter.”

Everyone knew it mattered. But unlike most managers, she really seemed to put their well being
first.

Robin reached out to Josh’s hand. “I really want to do this. I know I am not a hundred percent but
I want to do this.” His plea was heard.

Groaning Josh knew he had lost. “Let’s do a run through of the show song list. One time
tomorrow, and see how you do.”

A big smile lit up Robin’s face. “Yes!” he shouted in excitement and gave Josh a big wet kiss on
his cheek.

Sighing, in frustration, Josh knew he lost. He really would do anything to make Robin happy. He
just couldn’t help himself.

* * *

The practice went well. Robin was a bit tired after but seemed to be lit up on the inside with the
music. The boy might have had stage fright, but he loved the music and playing with the guys.
There was no justification Josh could find to make them cancel another show.

The crowd had started chanting as they stood ready to take the stage. Angel moved over towards
Josh. He put a hand on his shoulder causing both Robin and Josh to look up at him. “I know he,”
Angel indicated with his head that he was talking about Robin, “won’t tell me if I should slow it
down. So I’ll be watching for a signal from you if you think wonder boy needs a break.”

Josh was grateful. “Yeah, thanks.”

Robin shook his head. “Wonder boy?” Sighing, “I am an adult you know.” Even in the dim lights
everyone could see Robin’s pretty blush come through his stage makeup.

Dusty tapped everyone on the shoulder wishing them luck before taking the stage.

Josh leaned into Robin. “You’re adorable when you blush!” And planted a hot wet kiss right on
his mouth.

Robin’s inhale could almost be heard above the crowd’s excitement. His eyes went wide but then
closed as Josh pulled him closer. Robin’s mouth parted inviting Josh in for deeper lip smack.
Their tongues did a familiar dance before Josh pulled off. “I love you Robby. Make sure you take
care of you.”

He stalked off onto the darkened stage before Robin could say anything else. Quicker than usual
Robin took his place on stage next to him and kept staring at him as if he had grown a dick out of
his forehead.

Once Dare took his place they played music as Angel walked on stage. The lead singer opened
with a high note that sounded like he was castrated, and it went from there. The songs and music
mixed into a slower than usual rhythm. Angel allowed more time between songs so Robin

wouldn’t tire as quickly.

Josh watched Robin glow. He seemed to have a renewed energy with the music. He always
played his heart out but tonight he seemed to allow the music to swallow him whole. He was on
fire with the notes coming off his keyboard.

Finally, Angel slowed everything down to introduce the band. “Okay, my lovelies. Let’s meet the
sexy boys of The Dark Angels!” The roar of the crowd was deafening.

Angel stalked over to Darius and stood there looking at him for a moment. Looking over his
shoulder at the crowd he smirked before turning back to Dare. He reached out to wrap his fingers
through the longish part of Dare’s asymmetric cut and pulled his head back. Through the monitor
screens, everyone watched his long tongue lick out to moisten his lover’s lips. Once they were
wet Angel claimed them in a breath-stealing kiss that seemed to leave Dare a bit wobbly.

“This is all mine. He’s an AMAZE-ing guitar player but you know what he is even better at?” His
words were filled with lust but Josh could hear the love tinting them a pretty color. The crowd
hooted and hollered out various sex acts. “Oh, you dirty, dirty boys and girls. Singing. My man
has a great voice…” He walked to the front of the stage and leaned over as if he were sharing a
secret with the crowd of thousands. “I think it’s his talented throat muscles! Talk about talented!”
His groan was full of hot wet sex making the crowd go crazy.

Dare laughed at Angel. His fingers took off playing a little demonstration of his skill on the six
strings. Angel meandered to take a drink of water while Darius went off on a musical trip that the
crowd loved. When Angel strutted back over to him Dare reached out to pull Angel down into a
hot passionate kiss. They seemed to melt into each other as if no one else was around.

When Angel finally pulled him away, “He likes my voice too. I think it’s my mouth!” Dare gave
a little musical riff that notes spoke agreement causing the crowd to laugh.

Angel crossed the stage reaching down to touch hands with the first row. “Hey, handsome.” He
moved on to the next person. It drove the roadies/security guys nuts because someone could
easily pull him down. But it didn’t stop him from trying to shake hands or touch the first row.
“Beautiful, good of you to come.” Angel stood up. “We all like to come don’t we?”

The crowd went wild in agreement. “Oh, lovelies! Lovelies, your minds are simply in the gutter
this fine evening. I meant attend a concert…” He smirked down at rowdy fans.

Josh was really grateful at how Angel was allowing for a longer mid-show break. He took a
moment to check on Robin who was giggling at Angel’s antics. He walked around the keyboards
to yell over the noise, “Drink.” He handed Robin a bottle of water with two packages of vitamin
C in it.

Robin didn’t argue he just took a slug of the orangey mixture and then another just to make him
happy. Josh didn’t care if he was only placating him, just as long as Robin took care of himself.
“You doing okay?”

Leaning into Josh’s body, Robin pushed the bass out of his way to give him a quick hug. “Yeah!

Great show tonight!” Angel and the spotlight drenched them and caught them in the shine.

“Well, well well. Good evening, boys.” The audience hollered seeing them hugging. Usually they
were careful not to be seen touching. Robin hated giving them anything that encouraged talk.
They broke apart awkwardly.

“How you feeling Robin?” A well-practiced group screamed out.

Angel looked out at the crowd and then back to Robin and Josh. “I bet if we ask Josh he would
say Robin was feeling…pretty damned good.”

The crowd screamed. Robin backed away further from Josh as if he were poison. Josh reached
out. No! Damn it! He frowned at Angel who realized his blunder immediately.

“Lovelies. Lovelies! Come back from the disgusting side of your mind.”

“We love you Josh!” Another synchronized group yelled. “Robin, we love you!” “Twincest!”
One unruly but very loud fan screamed and the arena broke into a chant.

Angel frowned as he looked back at them. He knew he was responsible for the outbreak of
insanity and it was his job to lead it. “Lovelies!” The crowd quieted. “These pretty boys aren’t
twins. You all know that!”

“How is Robin feeling?” The original group bought the crowd back to the first question.

“Robin, how are you feeling?” Angel held out the mic.

Shaking his head slightly, Josh knew there was no way Robin was going near a microphone,
unless it was pointed at his keyboards. He simply answered by holding a thumb up and then blew
kisses of thanks. The kisses made several people attempt a stage rush. Josh moved in front of
Robin, just in case, but their security detail conquered the invaders easily.

“So he is doing well. Give us a little something.” Angel asked and Robin played a bit of a
beautiful piece they were working on. It was soft and pretty. The lyrics Robin was struggling
with were heart wrenching. Josh was still trying to convince Robin to end the song on a happier
note.

“Very nice. And this is Josh. Josh, play us a little something.” Josh decided to show off. He had
Robin’s attention and he knew it turned him on. Making the most of the opportunity, he smiled
over his shoulder at Robin and winked. Josh, for a moment, allowed himself to get lost in the mix
of the music and the crowd. He even shook his ass a bit getting into the low vibrations the bass
was singing.

When Josh was done the crowd went crazy with their appreciation but all he cared about was the
appreciation Robin was giving him. After a minute to allow Josh to receive the love from the
audience, Angel danced over to Dusty. “Hello, Dust!”

“Hey, Ang. Good show?”

“I don’t know. Is it a good show, lovelies?” Angel held his mic in the direction of the crowd,
shaking his head to show his agreement of their assessment. “Yes, I agree. So yeah, Dust, good
show.”

Dusty laughed and wailed on the drums giving his solo. Angel let him go on and on. Dusty could
have played all night, but they had the rest of the show to finish. Angel looked over at Josh and
Robin, who both gave him a nod, indicating that Robin was ready for the rest of the show. Angel
let Dusty know he could draw it to a close. Dusty being Dusty took his sweet time in doing so.
He ended by kissing his stick and throwing the love to the audience. Again, mayhem broke out
and Angel eventually was able to calm the demon audience members who were lunging for the
stage.

The remaining songs were upbeat. The crowd still seemed to love The Anthem of Heartbreak but
they also needed Darius’s song to Angel With Wings. Most of the crowd danced to Dare’s song,
grabbing on to the person next to them. The arena seemed to fill with love and happiness.

Josh smiled over at Robin who was beaming back at him. The after show buzz had Josh on cloud
nine. Apparently, Robin was right there with him.

CHAPTER 9

It had been a long day. The band came back to the practice space after the East Coast shows.
Angel called everyone in for a last minute practice of some changes he wanted to incorporate in
the show. The change ups weren’t as easy to do as Angel originally thought, so they had been
going all day. They were headed back out on the road tomorrow.

Josh collapsed in front of the bay windows. The room outside their soundproof practice space
was setup to act as a living room. It was a good place to relax and kick back. The area was done
in primary colors, which might have been too much, but the modern art that graced the walls tied
it all together perfectly. The art and color seemed to energize the space instead of overwhelming
it.

After they had gotten their first chunk of change, Angel decided to buy this large warehouse and
convert most of it into a practice space so they didn’t bug their neighbors at their own apartments.
Down the road, they were hoping to turn it into their very own recording studio. Angel
soundproofed the hell of out it and he had added a couple of bedrooms for anyone who needed to
sleep. Though in the past few months, Angel was dragging Dare off to one during every break
and he was pretty sure it wasn’t to sleep.

Josh stared out the window at the darkening sky. The stars were just starting to twinkle through
the dusk. He sighed, tired down to his very soul.

The endless pretending that everything was just fine with him was beginning to wear on him. No
one would understand. What could possibly be wrong? Robin was fine. He was a member of a
rock sensation. He was raking in the dough. Guys wanted to be him. Girls were throwing
themselves at him. What could possibly be wrong?

When he heard Angel and Dare sit on the bright blue couch, Josh knew he should have let it be
known he was in the big red beanbag chair that he’d swiveled to face the bay windows. But he
didn’t have the energy. Josh just wanted to hide from life for a little while.

They had just finished practicing for the day and he wanted to be alone. If he let them know he
was there, they would talk to him and he did not feel like talking. The red chair was the perfect
hiding spot. From anywhere in the room it was not obvious that someone was swallowed up in
the oversized puffy chair until you were right on top of it. He wasn’t up for company so he
continued to silently stare out the window.

He sighed quietly; maybe if he remained silent the two that entered the room would just go away.

Angel had given Dare a drink from the jumbo refrigerator Megan had the cleaning staff keep
stocked for relaxing after practices.

Josh was trying not to pay attention, but Angel was talking about his birthday. He couldn’t help

but overhear.

“It’s when I figured out what I was really missing in my life.” Angel spoke softly as he talked
about last year this time. This year, Angel made Dare take him to the Yaoi-Con for his birthday.
Josh hadn’t gotten all the details but it sounded interesting to say the least.

Through the reflection in the bay window, Josh’s angle let him see Angel and Dare clearly.
Angel’s hand grazed Dare’s cheeks as he looked at him with complete and total adoration.

Josh wondered how much of Angel’s last birthday celebration Dare knew about. It was right
before Darius had joined the band, so Angel was still single and quite available. He and Robin
had ‘allowed’ Angel to talk them into a little sexual recreation under the guise of celebrating
Angel’s birthday.

Josh knew his own participation had nothing to do with the celebration of Angel’s birthday. He
did it to have time with Robin. When Angel jokingly suggested it he’d jumped on board and
helped to convince Robin.

“What do you mean?” Dare asked in his semi-sleepy comfortable state curled into Angel’s lap as
he sipped his cool drink. He had cuddled up with Angel on the leather couch for a moment to
relax. Dusty and Robin could be heard milling around in the practice area though the open door,
probably still toying with their instruments.

Angel cleared his throat and just started confessing. “This was before I met you. Actually, only a
few weeks before I met you...” Angel stopped again, he was clearly not comfortable. “Last year,
the boys and I...” Angel let the sentence dangle but the implication was clear. “You know, for my
birthday,” he finished, apparently wanting to be sure Dare was crystal clear on what occurred.

Shit. Dare really didn’t know and Angel was telling him. Josh remained silent waiting to see how
far Angel would go with the truth. He hoped like hell Dare didn’t get mad at him and Robin.

Dare sat straight up and almost yelled, “What?”

“Shhh, baby. Not public knowledge.”

Dare whispered angrily.”Right! Like you didn’t tell Dusty?” He made it sound like that was quite
an unbelievable possibility. Angel told Dusty everything.

Rolling his eyes, Angel said, “Well, yeah. I mean, of course I did.” As if that weren’t even a
question.

“Then it obviously is public knowledge.” Darius sounded like he was starting to get mad.

“Okay. You are right. I should have told you.” Ignoring the snort of irritation that came out of the
little blond that had been curled on his lap, he clarified. “We just don’t talk about it.”

“Everyone knew but me.” Dare sounded a bit put out and more than a little pissed. To Josh, it
seemed like Dare’s issue wasn’t jealousy, but that he was out of the loop.

“I didn’t know how to tell you. I am sorry. I wasn’t keeping it from you on purpose.” Angel
sounded worried. Josh smiled a little, seeing how the lead singer was firmly twined around
Dare’s finger. Dare’s face softened almost immediately as he melted into his lover. Angel
continued to pet his Dare’s face as he continued. “My original point was that’s when I realized
what was missing in my life.”

“What do you mean?” Dare asked as he put his soda on the table to join Angel’s beverage.

Josh heard Robin leave the practice room to use the restroom, but then he returned to the practice
room. Dusty was still engrossed in a heated debate with one of the roadies about proper storage
of his drumsticks. Josh rolled his eyes as he saw Dusty come close to losing it because his
protocol had been breached.

After Dusty’s silly outburst, Angel finally answered Darius. “’Cause it was supposed to be a
threesome for my birthday but it turned into a twosome almost immediately.”

Josh saw Dare trying to shut his open mouth, and knew damned well Dare couldn’t help but
picture the scene of the threesome. “Which one did you pair up with?” Josh heard the jealousy
even though it happened before he was even in the band.

Angel smirked a bit, obviously pleased with Dare’s show of possession. His smirk turned into a
grin as he shook his dark head. “I wasn’t part of the pair.”

“What?” A quick intake of shocked breath almost choked Dare. “The two…of them…together? I
mean I know there’s something but…”

Shit! Why does everyone make it sound like that? Taking it down to its base form. Draining all
the love and emotion out of it, seeing it only in a disgustingly arousing way. Shit! I hope Robby’s
not overhearing this!

“And it wasn’t their first time together.”

“Oh, that’s hot!” Darius groaned.

“Shhhh! What are you a damned fan girl?” Angel laughed as he tackled him so he could quiet
him down. Josh saw him stroke down Dare’s face to lessen his reprimand. He kissed him on the
mouth before he pulled the smaller man back into his lap sitting upright. “I think Yaoi-Con bent
you even further from straight than I did.”

Josh knew swirling images of a hot passionate threesome were taking place in Dare’s head. The
guitar player whispered fiercely, “Robin and Josh! Together.” Darius tried to justify his lust to
Angel, “No, it’s just...” The poor guy couldn’t stop the groan that slipped past his lips. “I think
you’re right. Yaoi-Con did twist me because the images I’m getting are like some of those DVDs
they showed in the side rooms.” He licked his lips and moaned a little. “So hot.”

Angel chuckled. “I think I’ve created an addict.”

“No.” Dare seemed to think about it, then he shrugged and admitted it. “Yeah, okay you did.
Look I have to say even though I am straight… some of those pictures…”

“Still sticking to the straight thing, huh?” Angel nuzzled his neck before claiming his mouth for
an open mouthed kiss.

Trying not to grin at how ridiculous he sounded, “Well, I am.” Dare frowned as he leaned into
Angel for another taste of his mouth. “Except for you.”

Angel laughed. “I don’t know.” Josh saw Angel’s hand drop to Dare’s cock and give it a squeeze.
“Pretty hard for a straight boy.”

“Mmmm, okay. Bisexual?” Dare pushed up into his lover’s very friendly hand as he closed his
eyes.

“Sure,” Angel teased, biting Darius’s neck as he rubbed the front of his pants firmly. “But now
you are fantasizing about Josh and Robin together. Aren’t you?” Angel’s sexy voice even
affected Josh a little while it was clearly driving Dare crazy.

“No,” Darius said half embarrassed and very turned on. “I never think of our twins that way.” He
used air quotes like the fans in the know did.

Angel chuckled. “Oh, you think of other sets of twins that way? You know real ones?”

“Oh shut up,” Dare playfully growled. Shaking his head, he continued, almost to himself. “I
mean, I guess they are gorgeous. Robin is just adorable, but thinking of them with you...” Dare’s
voice trailed off onto what was obliviously a hot fantasy if the blush that stained his cheeks was
telling tales on him.

“But you aren’t gay, hmmm?” Angel teased. He readjusted their position. Darius reached out to
twirl a lock of the other man’s dark hair that was just over Angel’s ear. “But you think the boys
are gorgeous, did you say?”

Darius pouted. “Oh, when you say it like that!” He playfully whacked Angel in the arm. He
moaned and thrust his dick up for more direct attention. “And wait, didn’t I just agree to being
bisexual?”

Angel chuckled and tapped Dare on the nose then kissed it. “And I thought Dusty was the King
of Narnia. I think you may be wearing your own crown.” Darius pouted just a little and Angel
was quick to hug him tight. “The label doesn’t matter baby. Gay, straight, bi or slightly bent you
are mine.” Angel started nibbling on Darius’s neck and the man was fairly purring.

Josh stared out the window wondering how the hell he was going to leave the chair without them
knowing he had overheard the conversation. Angel’s palm was rubbing against Dare’s erection
again. Josh relaxed a bit deciding to just wait them out because it looked like they were going to
be using a bedroom pretty soon.

Josh was a bit worried that Dare knew. Josh was pretty sure the guy would be discreet with their

little secret party with Angel, but he hoped he didn’t say anything to Robin. Josh wanted nothing
to impede Robby coming to him when he got overheated.

Josh was drawn back into to eavesdropping when he saw Angel smirk in the glass reflection and
heard his next tease. “Hey, maybe you are straight.” Angel’s hand rubbed the erection that was
now tenting Dare’s jeans. “Hmmm, you are definitely upright and straining to be straight here.
Maybe we could see how bent you are, if you would like.”

“What?” Dare panted.

“Your birthday is coming up? Isn’t it?” Angel allowed his threat to dangle.

“Yeah?” Dare was growing impatient and started wiggling on Angel’s lap.

“Well, I bet there are two members of this band who would like to join our after party
celebration.”

“You wouldn’t dare!” Josh heard Dare moan and through the reflection in the window saw Angel
squeeze Dare’s dick.

“Wouldn’t I?” Angel was just irreverent enough to pull the threat off.

Josh bit his hand to stop a groan from escaping. Fuck me! It would give me another chance with
Robby! Bad! Very bad! But I can drop some hints to Angel to let him know I would be into it.

Dare frowned and begged Angel. “Stop. Geez, this isn’t some hot fan fiction!” He was seemingly
unable to stop the visuals that were running through his mind, Darius sighed deeply.

“Speaking of hot, did you read the fan fiction about The Dark Angels having an orgy?” Angel
whispered in Darius’s ear, but loudly enough for Josh to hear.

Dare thrust up into Angel’s palm. “Yeah, something about naked twister.” Josh hadn’t read that
one and he wondered if he and Robin got together in it. He’d have to go to the boards to check it
out.

“Ahhh, so you think it’s hot?” Angel’s fingers were toying with the top button of Dare’s jeans.
“Everyone in the band trying to reach for those little game circles. Together we are all straining
to touch to right color, but touching each other instead. Kissing, sucking, and fucking.” Angel
laughed as Darius thrust his hips, fucking the air. “Liking those images, huh? Lucky I’m not the
jealous type.” He pulled Darius’s mouth to his to eat at it.

Breaking the kiss, Darius said, “Angel. You should stop.” He half-heartedly tried to push Angel’s
hand away. It reminded Josh of how Robin said no when he really meant yes. Dare asked, “But
seriously, they were into each other?”

When Angel gave a short confirmation nod, Dare exclaimed, “They must have been beautiful
together…so hot!”

Josh bit back a smile. Dare was right, it was hot! Better than all the fan fiction out there on the

twins. There was a ton of fan fiction putting Robin and him together. Sites devoted to Jobin and
another one called Rosh, where he and Robin starred in various stories. Some were tawdry, some
were sweet, and others were downright obscene. There were a number of random fanfics that
were just disturbing. Those stories centered around one or both of the twins having a deadly
illness, died, or was dying, having alien interaction or were aliens, and a few where Robin had his
baby.

Josh stayed away from the depressing ones because, after Robin’s accident, they seemed a little
too close to what the reality might have been. Josh would always deny having ever read any of
these stories, but he enjoyed the romantic and erotic ones very much. He kept quite a few hidden
in a locked file on his hard drive. It gave him a tiny outlet where he could see a happy ever after
for him and Robin.

Angel’s voice pulled him back to the conversation he was listening in on, “Yeah, but it was a
blow to my fragile ego.” Josh almost snorted out a laugh. Angel waited for Dare’s giggle to die
down, before he continued, “But what struck me was the pure love that surrounded them and
flowed between them. I watched for a while, and not just because it was hot.” Angel paused and
Dare nudged him.

Angel bit back a laugh. “Okay it was hot, but what drew me in was the intensity of emotion. I
knew I wanted a love like that. I wanted someone to touch me like that.” Angel pulled Dare into
his arms for a deep kiss. Tongues merged until Dare pulled back.

“Still in practice space, dear.”

Angel’s lower lip pouted out just to make Dare giggle. Angel smiled down at Darius, “Thank
you, love.”

“For what?”

“Just for being you. For loving me. For touching me the way only you do. For sharing our life.
For giving me my birthday wish.”

The list would have continued but Dare pulled him into a kiss. They kissed until Dusty cleared
his throat, but then wandered back into the practice space. Josh could hear him talk to Robin.

“Speaking of birthdays…” Angel smirked. His hand had worked its way under Dare’s shirt and
Josh thought he might be rubbing his nipples.

“Mmmmm. Stop teasing,” Dare, said almost prudishly. He tried to pull down his T-shirt and get
Angel’s hands out from under it.

“Not teasing, baby.” Angel turned his face to look at Darius. Angel whispered the next bit too
softly for Josh to hear. The look of sheer anticipation crossed Darius’s face before he frowned.

“Wouldn’t that be cheating?” Dare’s voice dropped low so Josh had to strain to hear all the
words.

Angel held up their entwined hands and kissed each of them. “I don’t see it that way. We would
be experiencing it together. Make no mistakes, you’re mine. And trust me when I say Robin
belongs to Josh.” Angel rose his voice a little. “Isn’t that right Josh?”

Inhaling with surprise Darius looked around until their eyes connected in the reflection. Angel’s
head tilted waiting for an answer or maybe an apology for spying. “I wish,” Josh said quietly. His
cover was blown so he spun the chair around to face them.

Angel’s hand lay over Darius zipper as he cuddled closer. He was completely unconcerned by
their audience. As Angel continued to fondle his lover’s arousal, he said, “I think it might be time
to make your move.”

The practice room door opened. Dusty and Robin walked into the sitting area.

Taking in the situation of Darius sprawled over Angel and the busy hand was back in his lap,
Dusty protested. “Hey, come on!” Angel’s hand seemed to speed up over Dare’s denim clad
erection.

Angel nibbled at Dare’s ear, “I think he will.” Looking down he added, “Quite soon.”

“Oh.” Robin’s mouth dropped open, as he stood frozen. He couldn’t seem to drag his eyes away
from the scene in front of him. Josh had to agree with him. Oh, indeed. It was a very pretty view.

Dare’s tried to protest but Angel continued. Soon he was too lost in the sensations of his
oncoming climax to complain. Angel was whispering things in the man’s ear that seemed to light
him on fire. Then he simply said, “Now.”

As if on command, Darius came right there in front of the entire band. His blond hair was tossed
around as his mouth opened in a cry of surrender. Angel had skillfully massaged the orgasm right
out of his helpless guitar player.

Josh looked over at Robin and saw the desire written all over every part of him. From his quick
intakes of breath, to the erection straining for the same kind of attention, to how Robin’s little
pink tongue licked his full lips. Josh knew Robin wanted that. He needed that. And more than
anything Josh wanted to give him that. If only he knew how.

CHAPTER 10

Weeks had passed since that night. But Josh remembered how as soon as their apartment door
was locked, Robin had slammed him up against it. There wasn’t time for intercourse; Robin just
took their cocks out and stroked them to a steamy finish. Then, as if nothing had occurred, he
went and made dinner.

According to the gossip mags, Josh was running around sticking it into everything with an open
hole, while Robin was portrayed as quiet and reserved, waiting to be swept off his feet. In fact,
the tabloid pointed out no one could remember ever seeing Robin on a date; which was
interesting because they never saw Josh on a date either. They implied Robin was gay, but were
never able to offer any evidence.

Josh tried to act as he normally did but he knew Dare caught him looking at Robin. Hell, if Dare
understood what the fuck was happening between them, maybe he could explain it to Josh.

The shows were going great. They had a break around the holidays. Angel called everyone in for
a couple of practice sessions so no one went cold. No one minded. They were all in town and
everyone loved to play their music. Even if they didn’t play music they would probably hang out
together over the break, so not even Dusty bitched.

After a special practice session, Dare opened two bottles of wine, put out some cheese, crackers,
and a veggie platter with dip. Usually whenever they were back home, they would celebrate the
week being over with pizza and beer. This was a definite step up.

Angel smiled. “What’s this?” He seemed pleased with the elegant surprise.

Stopping dead in the doorway, Dusty exclaimed, “What the fuck is this?” He pointed to the table
spread with cheeses, fruits, vegetables, dips, crackers, and bread as if it were a table full of rotting
corpses.

Dare laughed as Robin and Josh came in. He handed everyone a glass very full of wine. “I picked
up a case on our last leg through California. I thought we enjoy it to celebrate the holidays with
friends.” He smiled at everyone. Raising his glass, Darius toasted, “To friends.”

Everyone muttered the toast.

Angel added cheerfully, “And lovers.”

Dare and Josh were the only ones to echo Angel’s addition. Robin just looked like someone
killed his puppy and Dusty put on an exaggerated grimace.

Dusty whined. “And now you want me to eat this shit?”

Angel cuffed Dustin in the back of the head. “Like anything could stop you.”

Everyone sat down and ate. Josh swallowed a mouthful of wine before proclaiming, “This is way
better than our usual Friday night pizza. Thanks Dare.” The guy really was thoughtful.

Dusty grumbled. “There is nothing wrong with Friday night pizza.” He ate another piece of
cheese with a cracker and sipped his wine.

Robin nodded and smiled at Dare. “True, Dusty. But this was wonderful and really very nice.”
He delicately dipped another carrot stick into the dip and nibbled it. Josh restrained himself from
getting a plate for Robin and piling it with crackers and cheese. Robin was still too thin.

“Yeah, well, I figured we deserve an upgrade from Pizza Night every once in a while.” Dare sat
down next to Angel.

“Ha! Speak for yourself.” Dusty grinned over at him as he popped a stack of cheese and crackers
into his mouth.

Angel snorted. “Well, that’s true. You certainly don’t deserve an upgrade Dust.”

Robin looked at Josh with wide eyes and got ready for the show. Angel was truly in a mood to
bug the shit out of Dusty.

“Hey man, be careful, I know your secrets,” Dusty reminded him.

Angel rolled his eyes. “Okay, smart ass Truth or Dare?” Angel was never one to back down from
his best friend, even when he should have known better.

“Dare. As in not truth, not your boyfriend!” He cracked up at his own joke and everyone just
looked at him. It was too much of a stretch to actually be funny, but Dusty didn’t care as long as
he amused himself.

Angel grinned. “I dare you to prank call Megan and tell her you quit the band,” Angel said his
brown eyes sparkling. “Make it convincing.”

Without another word, Dusty picked up his cell and called Megan. He put her on speakerphone.
“Megan, do you have a second? I have something to tell you.”

Megan’s sweet clear voice came over the phone. “Sure what is it, honey?”

Dusty took a big gulp of wine. “I can’t take it any more. Ang is a complete and total jackass.” His
eyes twinkled in glee at taking the opportunity to hurl an insult Angel’s way. “I’m sorry but I just
can’t do this anymore. I need to quit the band.” His face broke into a huge grin but he managed
not to laugh.

“What?” Megan sputtered for a moment. “Oh fuck you, Dustin! Are you playing Truth or Dare,
you idiot?” Peals of laughter erupted through the group. “Nice. You have me on speaker and the
whole band is there, huh? Hey, fuck heads!” She paused, trying her best to sound annoyed but
failed miserably, and they could almost hear her grinning. “Ah, Pizza Night. Well, I have a date.

So go back to your circle jerk!”

“We love you, Megan.” The band said in unison as they always did every time they acted like
naughty children.

Sighing deeply with mock pain, she stated, “You’d better.” Her affection for them could be heard
over the cell. “Have fun boys. And even though you torment me, I love you all too much for
words. Now excuse me, I am off to get laid.”

Everyone blew kisses. Dusty snapped his old style RAZR phone shut and tossed his long blond
hair over his shoulder. He turned towards Darius with a gleam in his eye. “Truth or Dare?”

“Hey! Hey, go easy, man.” Angel tried to defend Dare before it was even necessary.

Darius grabbed Angel’s hand and squeezed. “It’s okay, baby. I got this.” Turning back to Dusty,
he smiled innocently. “Truth.”

“Wuss! Okay, fine, pretty boy. I want to know when did you figure out you wanted the idiot?”

“He’s not an idiot,” Dare instantly, if unnecessarily, defended Angel against Dusty. Angel
cuddled into him for a moment with a silent ‘thank you’ as he basked in Dare’s love. He played it
up a bit it to irritate Dusty. Robin giggled with bright eyes he turned to smile at Josh.

Dusty was not to be dissuaded. “Oh trust me he can be! Though I think you are helping him avoid
taking the train to Idiotville most of the time now that you two are together.” Dusty was hoping
for a rise out of his best friend. But Angel just sat there looking serene ignoring Dusty’s insults as
he played with Darius’s asymmetric blond hair.

Dare smiled and then blushed a bit. Josh had to admit he was adorable. Not as cute as Robin of
course, but noteworthy. Dare looked over at Angel who was watching him, closely. “I guess, I
mean I don’t really know. It just sort of happened.”

“Not an answer. Answer it or take a dare.” Dusty was the group’s rule enforcer.

Looking down, Dare turned red. “I guess from the first time I saw him on stage, okay?” Angel
gathered him into his arms and the blond snuggled in.

“So you always knew you were gay?” Josh blurted out.

Dare sat up straight but still within Angel’s arms to say, “No. I am not gay.”

The entire group made noises of disbelief until he put his hand out to talk. “Okay, fine.” Angel
cleared his throat indicating that Dare needed to come clean.

He laughed. “Bisexual. Okay? Bisexual.”

“Step in the right direction.” Dusty snorted.

“Okay. Fine. I do find some guys attractive now but not unless it’s pointed out. I may have

always been this way but I didn’t know it. It is still an adjustment in my head. You know?”

Robin nodded in sympathetic understanding. “It takes time.” He grinned a little devilishly “But I
saw the pictures of Yaoi-Con.”

Dare groaned and dropped his head into his hands.

“You guys looked very pretty.” Robin tried to reassure Darius.

“It was Angel’s idea to go in costume.” Dare tried to deny accountability. Angel chuckled and
just shook his head.

Dusty laughed. “I think you mean drag.”

“Hey, at least we didn’t cause a riot.” Dare justified further. It was true it had allowed them to
have a relativity normal time. Hiding in plain sight and their fans were none the wiser.

Robin grinned. “You both look good in school uniforms.” He said it like he was commenting on
the weather.

Angel smirked over at Dusty. “Still aren’t seeing those pictures, Dust.”

“Fuck you, Ang. I don’t want to see you as a girl anyway.”

“Oh, but you would like to see someone else dressed up like a chick.” Angel tried pushing
buttons.

Dusty ignored him and went for Dare. “So bisexual and cross dressing. Well, you have come a
long way.” He popped a bunch of crackers and cheese in his mouth.

Darius took a sip of wine and grinned. “Yup. And Dust, I have to say I never saw more hot
erotica in one place before.”

Dusty looked like he was going to choke or laugh but instead he blew cracker crumbs out of his
mouth.

“Yaoi strikes again?” Josh asked as he chuckled.

Angel and Darius both laughed. “You don’t know the half of it.” Dare was grinning as if he truly
enjoyed their long weekend. “I’ll send you the pictures.” Dare turned to Angel to give him a big
wet kiss on the mouth. “Just don’t show them to Dusty.”

Dusty couldn’t keep quiet. “Ahhh, isn’t that fucking beautiful.” Dusty mocked though he looked
slightly envious as Angel embraced Dare to kiss him soundly. They kept the kiss short but it was
very sweet. “Okay, bisexual Angel-centric lover, you’re up. Can’t you two stay on track?”

Angel’s hand dropped into Dare’s lap and said, “He’s almost up. Give me another minute.”

Pulling back from Angel with a small smile, Dare said, “But I like this track.” He kissed Angel

again just to piss off Dusty. “Okay, hmmm, let me think.” He looked at Robin and Josh. Robin
tried to disappear and Josh smiled at Darius taking the heat off of Robin. “Josh, Truth or Dare?”

Robin breathed a deep sigh of relief. Josh looked over at him and smiled. “Truth.”

Dare asked, “When was the first time you jerked off?”

“Oh, yeah. That’s a straight man’s question.” Dusty chuckled and shook his head.

“What? I’m curious? And bisexuality was established.” Dare defended his question but looked a
bit uncomfortable as he thought about it. “Try to keep up Dust. I know it’s hard for you.”

Josh couldn’t seem to stop himself from looking at Robin before answering. “I was thirteen and a
half.” He caught Robin’s eye before Robin decided his hands were completely fascinating.

Instantly, Josh was flashing back to that moment in time. Robin came rushing in from the
bathroom with a big grin on his face. “You know how we are always hurting...down there?” Josh
remembered nodding. “Well, if you take it in your hand and move it back and forth. It feels really
good.” He knew that already but Robin went on. “Then if you keep doing that, all this white stuff
comes out and it feels really good!” Going into the bathroom, he followed the informative advice
and within a minute it felt really good and within two he was sighing with the sweet relief of his
first orgasm.

“Truth or Dare,” Josh asked Robin. This way he could protect him from uncomfortable questions
and unreasonable dares.

The keyboard played looked surprised that Josh was directing the question at him. Josh wondered
if Robin had been lost on the same trip down memory lane he had taken.

Robin smiled and blushed. “What? Oh, um, Truth.” Robin quickly took a big drink from his wine
glass. Dare refilled it ignoring Robin’s refusal of more vino.

Dusty rolled his eyes. “Truth! This band is filled with pussies.” Dusty was complaining to no one
in particular but to everyone at once.

Josh slugged Dusty in the arm before giving Robin a question. “When was the last time you had
sex?” He hoped he didn’t sound jealous but he really wanted to confirm it had been with him.

Robin’s eyes got big and he looked like he was terrified that everyone could see all his secrets.
“A bit after the accident.” He didn’t make eye contact with anyone. He picked up his wine glass
and finished it in one long swallow.

Thrills raced through Josh. Robin’s last time had been with him. Smiling, Josh breathed an
audible sigh of relief, which caught Dusty’s attention.

Dusty’s eyebrow arched and then he held out his hand to Robin. Robin shook Dusty’s hand but
was clearly confused. Dusty bowed his head a bit. “Nice to know I’m not the only non-slut in the
group.”

Dare laughed and Angel grumbled something about Dusty becoming a monk. Josh opened his
mouth to say he hadn’t had sex since then either but he decided best to keep his mouth shut.
Dusty had enough bullets, he didn’t need to hand more over willingly.

“Robin, your turn, honey.” Angel spoke low and quiet as if he didn’t want to interrupt the
thoughts that were chasing around Robin’s head. Josh started to notice, Angel always handled
Robin with kid gloves but was very direct with him.

Robin snapped out of his own mind. He smiled at Angel. “Truth or Dare?”

“Oh come on, why bother asking? He’s a candy-assed punk, he’ll pick Truth,” Dustin griped.

“I believe that was cherry-assed but Darius took care of that in Bali, didn’t you baby?” Dare had
just taken a sip of his wine and it sprayed out of his mouth a bit. Angel picked up a napkin and
patted him dry. He smirked at Dusty’s eye rolling and said, “As Dusty says Robin, Truth.” Angel
grinned at Dusty then back at Robin. The lead singer was smiling in a way that served only to
irritate his best friend more. “Dust knows me so well.”

Robin looked from Darius, who was still wiping up the droplets of wine, to Dusty who was
shaking his head back to Angel who was patiently waiting, “Um, okay. What song of ours is your
favorite?” Robin giggled as Dusty fell over quite dramatically.

Dusty complained bitterly. “You know a game of Truth or Dare with eight graders would be
more interesting! You guys suck!” He shut his green eyes in disgust.

“I know we all suck, but how do you know? Care to share with the group?” Angel chuckled.
“Experimentation we don’t know about?”

Robin blushed. Josh and Dare just laughed at Dusty’s irritated mutterings. “You know what I
mean, jackass. Always picking on me.”

Turning back to Robin, Angel said, “Tough question. I love them all. But I guess it would have to
be ‘With Wings.” Angel hugged Dare closer. “You guys helped Dare write it for me. How could
that not be my favorite? But your Anthem of Heartbreak is also a favorite, does me in every
time.” Angel wrapped his arms around Dare.

Josh looked over at Robin. He knew exactly how the words of Heartbreak were written. Every
time he heard them he felt Robin’s heartbreak as well as his own. The pain in the words seemed
to be a tangible thing.

“Okay, since Dusty’s got an issue with how we play ‘Truth or Dare’, how about Seven Minutes
in Heaven. Ow!” Angel responded to Dare’s well-placed elbow in his side. Angel looked at
Darius, then back at Dusty with an evil smirk. “Or ‘Spin the Bottle.’ Argh! Baby! That hurts.”
Laughing and nuzzling into Dare, Angel said, “You don’t want to damage the goods, you’ll want
them later.”

“Will I?” Dare teased. But Angel’s face was priceless. It was a mask of worry. As if Dare could
ever say no to Angel and mean it.

Josh howled with laughter and looked over to see Robin giggling quietly. Their eyes met to share
the laughter. Robin leaned into Josh for a moment before sitting up straighter.

CHAPTER 11

Finally! It had seemed like years instead of a few of weeks since he had overheard the discussion
of an encore birthday celebration. Today was the day and it dragged so slowly and the damned
party was probably great but he just wanted it over and done!

Josh’s stomach was in knots as he stood next to Robin. They were watching Darius smile and say
‘good-bye’ to the last of his friends and family. Angel had managed to get them back to the East
Coast for Dare’s birthday and then rented out the trendiest club in New York City for his birthday
bash. Everyone seemed to have had a fabulous time.

Dare sauntered over to Angel and planted a hot wet kiss on his mouth. Josh was close enough to
overhear, Darius say, “Thank you baby for the party! I loved it!”

“It doesn’t have to be over yet. I booked us a suite at the hotel across the street.”

“Oh fancy fancy.” Dare laughed. Angel didn’t often spend money frivolously but, when he did,
he made up for it. “Thank you, but you didn’t have to do that.” The big smile on his face let it be
known he was happy Angel did. Darius pinched Angel’s rump playfully. “So, more hot birthday
sex? Hope I can get it up.” He laughed. “It’s only been a little while since we visited the men’s
room.”

Robin must have overheard him as well because he blushed, biting his lip as he looked away.
Standing next to his sweet Robby, Josh just shook his head and chuckled at the lovebirds. He
would give his right nut to have that with Robin.

Angel caught their eyes and smiled, sharing the secret with them. Their lead singer had gotten
their approval to join in a private birthday celebration. Darius was still unaware that the party was
about to get much more interesting. He still thought the idea of a foursome was just Angel’s idea
of dirty talk.

Angel hadn’t needed to convince Josh at all because he would jump at any opportunity to be with
Robin. There was no way he was letting this opportunity slip through his fingers. It had been far
too long since he had been with Robin in a physical way. He needed this more than his next
breath. They say intermittent reinforcement was the most powerful motivator, and Josh was
living proof of that.

Josh was determined to make this happen, even if it was part of a foursome. It didn’t even bother
him that there would be two other males with them. Hell, invite a football team. As long as he
was paired with his Robby, he didn’t give a shit. Maybe that was pathetic of him, but he was
desperate to have Robin. Need allowed one to overlook a whole hell of a lot.

Besides, it wasn’t a group of strangers. It was Angel and Darius. They were completely
committed to each other so he didn’t feel threatened in the least. If anything, they both knew how

he felt and would probably assist him as much as they could.

What surprised him was that Robin needed no convincing. When Angel asked, he blushed a
pretty pink and simply said yes. And it was a quick yes at that. No thought was needed. Trying
not to read too much into it, Josh just thanked his lucky stars.

Angel cupped the lump in the front of Dare’s pants and rubbed it for a bit. Angel smirked. “Baby,
I don’t think you getting it up will be a problem.”

He and Robin knew this was their cue. Robin spoke first, as he grabbed Darius’s hand. “Hope
you had a wonderful birthday, Dare.”

Darius’s eyes were sparkling with happiness and the bit of wine he indulged in. He squeezed
Robin’s hand tight. Dare reached for Josh’s and did the same. “I did. Thank you both for
celebrating with me. You guys are awesome.” He dropped their hands and hugged them both
with obvious affection. Inhibitions may have been lowered a little by the wine, but just a bit.

Angel whispered in Josh’s ear. “If you two are still into it we can head across the street.”

Josh leaned into Robin brushing back his long blue-green dyed hair to speak soft words into his
ear. “Are you ready for this?”

Robin stared at Josh with his gorgeous blue-green eyes. His eyes seemed to sparkle briefly before
a small secret smile crawled over his lips followed by a tiny nod. Robin said, “As long as you
are.”

Both looked at Angel and gave him a nod. Then all attention turned to the birthday boy.

“What are you three whispering about?” Dare demanded before finishing the rest of his wine with
a shy smile.

“I invited them to join us across the street,” Angel stated as if he were discussing a change in a
song or ordering dinner.

“What?” Darius was more than a little surprised. “You mean...but...” Dare looked at them.

It couldn’t have been scripted any better, Robin and Josh tilted their heads towards each other so
the tops touched. They just smiled innocently at him. Robin leaned toward Dare and gave him a
sweet kiss on the cheek. He was answering Dare’s unasked question.

“Oh...” Was the only thing telling the other three men that Darius understood his birthday party
was far from over.

Seeing the nervous concern wash over Darius, Josh moved over to him to drop an arm around the
shorter man’s shoulder. “We won’t do anything you aren’t comfortable with…just checking to
see how bent you are. So, you think you’re bisexual now? Is it like fifty-fifty or forty-sixty?”
Josh’s teasing laugh had a little evil touch to it. “I think after Robin and me, we might help Angel
tip the scale.”

Darius half laughed and half choked at being reminded that Josh overheard how excited he found
the idea of being with Josh and Robin was to him. Angel shook his head and chuckled.

Robin leaned into him as he whispered heatedly in Darius’s ear. “Angel will be in charge and we
will just follow his instructions on the celebrations.” Josh smiled on hearing the catch in Robin’s
breath at the idea of someone else being in charge.

Josh held his breath hoping he would push the right button. He needed this night to take place.
“Imagine it…” He paused before finishing his thought, “You, Angel, and us.”

Darius groaned, deep and low. Robin moved to stand closer to Josh. This allowed Josh to feel
Robin’s excitement throbbing against his leg.

Placing a small kiss on the birthday boy’s cheek, Josh moved even closer to Robin so he was
invading his space. Josh turned his head to looked over at Darius as if he were daring him to join
them. He slid his hands down Robin’s ass to cup that gorgeous rounded bottom. Josh pulled him
closer to his body so Robin could rub against him.

It was as if Robin’s body was magnetically drawn to him. Josh wanted him so badly but he didn’t
do anything further. He let Robin move on his thigh like a kitty in heat. The two of them being so
close seemed to change the air around them until it fairly crackled.

Dare tore his eyes from the erotic visuals that could be played out in front of him to ask Angel,
“Are you sure?”

Angel smiled down at the man he clearly adored. “Very.” He confidently led the group across the
street and up to the penthouse suite of the swanky hotel.

CHAPTER 12

Once they shut the door, Josh was happily surprised when the quietist of the group started things
off. Robin slipped off his boots and socks and took off his leather jacket and white silk shirt. He
stood there barefoot before the other three men in just his leather pants and leather collar.

Josh loved seeing Robin wearing his leather. On their shared birthday, the year before they were
kicked out of their house, they went to a street fair since there would be no cake or celebrations at
their house. Robin had eyed the black leather collar at one of the vendors. Neither had much
money, but Josh bought him the piece he was eyeing. Robin bought Josh a matching black leather
bracelet. The leather pieces had the exact same design detailing them.

Josh rarely saw Robin without it. Josh felt the collar and bracelet tied them to each other. He only
took his bracelet off to shower.

Josh shrugged out of his long leather duster, as the other men got comfortable too. Robin
surprised Josh yet again by coming over to him, fingers trembling with excitement as he
unbuttoned Josh’s shirt. Robin’s soft, warm hands brushed across his skin and soon Josh’s red
silk shirt had floated to the floor.

Robin’s hands gently traced Josh’s muscular chest. Josh’s workout included more weightlifting
then Robin’s so Josh was more corded muscle which Robin’s fingers seemed to enjoy. Those
long talented fingers being dragged over his body was like a balm for his soul. It had seemed so
long since their last encounter that they were both starved for the contact.

Before he had his fill of Robin’s wonderful fingers, he took Josh’s hand and led him over to
Dare, who stood watching them with avid interest. Angel was right next to Darius, rubbing his
lover’s shoulders. Both stared as the younger men approached.

“Twins, why don’t you both give the birthday boy here a kiss.” Angel’s voice was husky as he
used the nickname the fans favored.

Josh wrapped an arm around Robin. They exchanged a quick look, which spoke volumes
between them. Leaning in they both placed a wet little kiss on each of Dare’s cheeks, then looked
at him with mischief.

Angel smirked at their teasing. “Very nice boys. Now, give Dare a nice open mouthed soft kiss.”

Josh teased as he whispered loudly, “Thought you weren’t gay, Dare.”

Angel chuckled and said, “Shhhh, Josh.”

Darius tried to get a handle on the conversation. “Not.” Dare seemed to be grinding his ass back
into Angel’s front as he tried to talk. “But this is you guys…” As if that explained everything. He

shrugged. “Maybe bent…bisexual.”

Angel ignored Dare’s rambling and repeated his request. “Sweet open mouthed kisses, boys.”

Following instructions, Josh leaned in first to give the kiss and as it was ending, he looked at
Robin. Their eyes locked as Josh pulled back slightly from Dare’s mouth and Robin’s mouth
descended to give the birthday boy the gift of his kiss.

Josh felt a rush of emotion that bordered on jealousy but decidedly fell on the side of lust. Robin
looked so beautiful kissing Dare. Josh leaned in towards the men so his lips could join them. He
gently brushed his tongue over Robin’s perfectly pouty lips as they transitioned onto Darius’s
mouth. His lips hesitated on Robin’s to enjoy the hungry glide of their lips as they swept across
the others.

Josh let all of his want and desire for Robin flow into the kiss. Instead of moving back so Josh
could kiss Dare, Robin turned his mouth to follow Josh’s towards the birthday boy’s lips. They
melted into a hot three-way kiss.

Dare kissed back while leaning back into Angel’s arms. Both sets of their lips were tracing over
Dare’s in deliciously sexy patterns. Someone’s tongue licked out and everyone’s tongue joined
in.

Josh found himself turning towards his heart’s desire. Robin’s mouth was quick to not only cover
his lips but devour them. At a distance, he could hear Angel say, “Kiss his neck.”

Josh didn’t normally take orders from anyone, but he happily complied. He placed his long wet
tongue at the base of Robin’s throat licking up the side of his jaw. Then his lips trailed back down
to lick and gently suck the flesh. He loved kissing Robin’s neck and couldn’t stop himself from
giving him a small hickey at the base.

Robin arched into him groaning with all of his repressed need as he was marked. Josh’s fingers
wound into his wonderfully soft and colorful hair to tilt his head to the other side. Continuing to
feast on the creamy flesh offered to him, he was ready to simply die a happy man.

They broke away from each other as if they remembered why they were making out. Robin
blushed and gave him a quick kiss on the lips in consolation for the attention he was losing. He
sang softly in his lovely soft voice, “Happy Birthday to you.” Josh came out of his fog to
harmonize with him for the rest of the song.

It was exactly what they did for Angel’s birthday last year. They sang a sexy breathy version of
Happy Birthday ala Marilyn Monroe-style as they touched and caressed the birthday boy, ending
the song with another long wet three-way kiss.

As the kiss ended with Darius, Angel cleared his throat. “Very nice, boys.” Angel grinned. “Now
be good little helpers and take off Darius’s pants.” Dare turned to look at Angel with worry.
“Shhh, baby it’s okay. The boys here are going to do exactly what they did for my birthday.
Aren’t you, boys?”

Josh certainly hoped Robin was okay with that because he was more than happy to soon focus all
of his attention on him. Josh wanted to wrap himself around the man to remind him of all they
could have together. He was going to pour all of his love into this…and maybe Robin would…he
couldn’t bring himself to finish that hope.

Angel tugged Dare’s shirt off and threw it to the floor as Robin and Josh nodded their agreement
with his decree.

Josh looked at Robin who was watching him with hungry eyes as he unsnapped Dare’s dark
purple leather pants. Josh placed a soft kiss on Robin’s shoulder before he unzipped the leather of
Darius’s pants just to hear him groan. Then they worked as a team to peel them off the birthday
boy’s lithe body. Boots and socks slid off with the pants. Darius was naked while Robin was
shirtless. Josh and Angel were still fully clothed.

Looking at Darius in his birthday suit, Josh had to admit Angel had very good taste in men. Dare
was gorgeous. But as pretty as the man was Josh was more interested in helping Robin off with
his pants.

It had been far too long since their last encounter. It happened when they had been watching a
movie on TV. An erotic scene implying BDSM came on and it seemed to flick a switch. They
were all over each other. Josh still couldn’t say if he made the first move or if Robin did. As he’d
sank balls deep in the man, who refused to see him as a lover, he realized it didn’t matter as long
as one of the two of them broke down to make it happen.

Feeling Robin shift closer to him brought him back to the present. They were waiting for Angel
to instruct them. Without conscious thought his hand traced across Robin’s lower back giving
him a chill before he reached the man’s awesome ass to caress it. He figured out early on that
Robin adored having his ass touched so he gave it a nice firm squeeze and was rewarded with a
soft moan of need.

Angel finally gave an instruction. “Come here, Dare.” Dare’s eyes seem to flare with heat at the
demand. Angel arranged Darius so he was sitting between his open legs on the oversized designer
sofa. Wrapping his arms around Dare, Angel held him so he lay back against his front. “Boys, do
you see anything you might want to suck on...or lick?”

After a long loving look at each other, their hands entwined, they moved slowly over to Dare.
When they reached his feet they knelt and smiled up at him in unison. It couldn’t have been
sexier if they had practiced it.

Darius gasped and his head dropped back onto Angel’s shoulder but watched them with a gleam
of lust and want in his eyes. Dare tipped back so Angel kissed him deeply as they moved to be
closer together between his knees.

Robin squeezed Josh’s hand and he returned the tight grip letting him know they were in this
together; doing this together. Josh had to admit his lead singer and guitarist looked hot together.
There was no denying that.

Angel ended their hot kiss and whispered loudly, “You might want to watch the boys,

Dare…they put on such a pretty show.” His lips and tongue traced patterns on his lover’s neck.
Between licks Angel teased. “Aren’t they pretty, Dare?”

Dare squirmed against his lover in desperate arousal. “Very.” Dare’s desire could be heard in his
voice and seen in his body. It was coiled up taunt as it waited to spring loose. His cock was erect
and begging for attention. Precum was seeping from the tip. It seemed to be beading and waiting
for a tongue to swipe it clean.

Josh smiled at Robin and their heads descended slowly. Josh loved everything about this
moment. Being with Robin in a very sexual situation just seemed right. Together. They were
together and that’s really all that mattered.

Robin and he became mirror images of each other. Their extended tongues were placed on
opposite sides, at the very root of Dare’s straining cock. As they slowly licked their way up his
cock, the birthday boy groaned loudly in approval.

Josh looked up to see Angel circling and pinching his lover’s pink nipples as he continued to suck
his neck. Josh could see Angel’s approving smile in his eyes as he watched them with Dare. No
jealousy, only satisfaction at being able to give his lover a new experience.

Once they reached the tip of Dare’s shaft, Josh watched Robin’s wickedly active tongue lick at
the beads of sweetness. He couldn’t stop his tongue from licking at Robin’s. Contact with that
tongue shot through him like an electric volt being directed at his heart. He was powerless to
resist the kiss that followed.

Josh pulled back from the kiss with regret as he turned them back to the cock at hand...or in
mouths as the case was. Lowering his mouth to wet Dare’s balls. He could feel Robin’s heated
breath over Dare’s cock before engulfing it in his mouth. Feeling Darius’s eyes on him, Josh
winked before licking his entire ball sac. Once it was painted with his spit, he blew on it causing
a moan to be ripped from Dare.

Robin slowly moved up along the cock in his mouth until it popped out. He licked his way down
to replace Josh’s efforts as he rose up over Dare’s dick. Josh’s mouth moved at a painstakingly
slow speed as he slid all the way down to the base of Dare’s cock. Every last inch was in his
mouth and had entered his throat. Dare was going crazy as if he couldn’t get enough.

Dare arched back against Angel looking for more loving stimulation. Angel was quick to provide
for his needy lover. His mouth went to work as his hands crept low on Darius’s flat stomach.
Within moments, Angel’s hand wound into Robin’s hair. He gently but firmly guided his head up
to replace Josh’s mouth. Angel then controlled Robin’s head setting the motion to the rhythm his
lover liked best.

Josh’s insides clenched at the sexy move. Robin loved his head being controlled if his moans of
bliss were any indication. Josh moved closer to Robin’s body and began to lave Dare’s balls with
his wet tongue again. Robin’s head was being drawn up and down over Dare who was writhing
against Angel in pleasure. Hands found Josh’s hair to pull him up to join Robin in his endeavor to
pleasure Darius’s cock.

“Mmmmm.” Josh moaned as he felt his head being tugged up into service. He didn’t mind, not
really especially when his mouth began to share the prick with Robby. As Robin pulled off to lick
down to the base, Josh licked the crown before taking the large mushroom-shaped head into his
mouth. He could deep throat as well as Robin.

Josh moaned at the memory of them practicing on each other in that ratty dive hotel so long ago
and a number of times since. As he pulled off Dare’s cock, Robin’s mouth took Dare in deep.
They were quite a team. Angel released both their heads and Josh claimed Robin’s lips.

When the kiss ended, Josh’s fingers wound in his soft blue-green strands. He gripped Robin’s
head and directed it to move up and down as if Dare’s cock were his own. Josh changed his grip.
He grabbed a hand full of hair just right and tugged on it firmly. The dominant move ripped a
moan of sheer desire from Robin.

Ignoring Angel’s smirk, Josh loved that Robin allowed him to move his head so he could direct
how he serviced Dare. He knew Robin loved to give pleasure but he seemed to enjoy it even
more when someone else was directing him. Josh always knew Robin was a little submissive, so
his response to this little show of dominance set Josh’s heart racing.

“Kiss.” The word was choked out by an over stimulated Dare. It didn’t need to be spelled out that
Darius wanted the younger guys to kiss. Josh certainly wasn’t going to argue against something
he craved every waking second. He wanted it more than anything. But did Robin?

Josh asserted his control as he forced Robin’s head down once more on that hot cock before
pulling him up and into a hot passionate kiss. Robin’s response to the direction was boiling hot.
As the kiss deepened, it turned Josh inside out. Their hands were in each other’s hair as their
mouths mated. Tongues licked and danced together until they were breathless.

Josh was barely aware that their bodies were shifted a bit so Angel could take their place at his
lover’s feet. Josh figured Angel was going to finish Dare off which was good because he really
didn’t want to stop kissing Robin.

On and on their heated kiss went. Their lips were hot and passionate, then soft and sensual, but
always full of devotion and love. Josh knew this is what his lips were made for...loving his
Robby.

Josh’s hands skimmed down Robin’s back until they reached his rounded ass again. Josh cupped
and squeezed the perfectly formed bottom.

Robin had always been a little ashamed of his ass because it was so round it looked like a girl’s.
So Josh tried to convey how much he enjoyed it as he kneaded and dug his fingers into Robin’s
fleshy backside. Josh pulled Robin into his crotch to feel a hard cock echoing his own raging hard
on. He twisted his hips to drag his leather-encased bulge against Robin’s.

“Robby...” Josh groaned as if in pain. He pushed and swiveled his hip against Robin’s lower half.

Angel lifted his mouth from Dare’s cock to look over his shoulder then with a grin he gave them
another instruction. “Take off each other’s leather and love each other. Our birthday boy would

enjoy seeing the pretty show.” Turning back to his lover, he made his lover groan.

Josh felt dizzy at the direction. Robin liked someone else taking charge and Josh decided he was
going to give him what he needed. He took quick action. Robin’s pants were shucked and his
leather was now sliding off his legs. He lay out on his back as Robin moved over him.

At a distance, Josh could hear Dare muttering in delight as Angel took care of his arousal.
“Sixty-nine.” Josh croaked out his command to Robin.

“Ohhhh.” Robin just about purred with anticipation. In the span of a heartbeat, Josh helped him to
straddle his head. Hungrily Josh opened his mouth to receive Robin’s prick as Robin lowered his
head to feed on Josh’s needy cock. Josh turned them to give Dare a nice sideway view but that
was the last thing he did for anyone other than Robin.

“God, Robby,” he moaned around Robin’s cock. Josh’s need was amazingly high. He wanted to
come in the worse way.

He knew Robin’s body extremely well even though they had only been together a handful of
times. He had made a study of it, so Josh knew how to stoke his fire and how to bank the heat
until it was painfully delicious. Love, lust and need bled into one other. All Josh could do was
give him everything he had.

Their heads bobbed, taking each other deep. As his cock was massaged deep in Robin’s throat,
Josh was losing the ability to think. Desperate sounds of pleasured need escaped them. Angel and
Dare faded into the background as if they didn’t exist. It was just the two of them. They were
together, loving each other. It felt right and good.

Josh’s hands were on Robin’s ass making sure he pushed in as far as he could go. When Robin
started humping his ass up and down faster. Josh groaned knowing their climaxes were coming.
He began to thrust up into the heated moist mouth that haunted his dreams.

Sounds of elation rang through the air from Dare. The loud heated sounds of climax triggered
their orgasms. Josh and Robin both froze as if to hold in the pleasure, but their regret at failure
was quickly replaced by a shattering relief. Again and again, they thrust as they sucked and
swallowed the desire of the other.

Josh drank the sweet seed as quickly as he could but he knew some overflowed. He knew Robin
was having the same issue because he could feel his own pulsating shots of pleasure trickle back
down onto his balls. Once their cocks had subsided, each of them licked the other clean.

When Josh was done, he rotated Robin around so he could gently kiss him. Josh whispered, “You
shaved.”

In spite of everything that just took place, Robin blushed. “Nope, I started waxing.” The fact that
after all they had done the simple admission that he waxed could cause Robin’s face to turn red
was one of the many reasons he adored him. The guy was adorable.

Josh’s fingers lightly caressed Robin’s smooth skin. Josh growled, “I love it.”

Robin beamed but remained silent.

Happiness rushed through him as he watched that beautiful smile. Josh’s hand reached out to tuck
some of Robin’s blue green hair behind his ear. Robin leaned into Josh’s touch and closed his
eyes as if he were savoring the loving touch.

When Josh heard Angel he remembered he wasn’t alone with Robin. “Shhhh, Dare it’s okay. I
already did, when you did.”

Dare’s chuckle was soft and low. Josh couldn’t help but be envious of the bond Dare and Angel
had. The love they shared was so strong and deep. It was beautiful to witness. They freely
expressed it. He wanted that.

“But aren’t you going to be inside me,” Darius whined adorably. Josh thought the formally
straight man had Angel wrapped around his little finger almost as tightly as Robin had Josh tied
up in knots.

“Yes, birthday baby. Let me just hold you for a bit,” Angel said.

Josh looked over at the couple and back down at Robin, who he held like a precious treasure.
Josh whispered, “He’s almost as cute as you when you pout.”

“I don’t pout.” Robin rolled his eyes and his lower lip began to stick out in his patented pout.
After he realized what he had done, rather than admit that Josh was right, Robin stuck his tongue
out at him.

Darius looked over to stage whisper to Robin. “I don’t know what he’s talking about, do you?”
Darius mirrored Robin’s lower lip as he eyes were cracking up with glee.

Robin smirked but hid it quickly. “Nope, he’s just making stories up.” Robin grinned over at
Darius and added, “But he’s right, you are pretty cute.”

Darius shook his head, blushed a little and then smiled at Robin.

Angel kissed Dare’s head. “You are absolutely adorable.”

Josh whispered in Robin’s ear. “As are you.” Right before giving him a small kiss on his cheek.
Robin sighed and snuggled into him as if he had everything he could ever want.

CHAPTER 13

After a few minutes of cuddling, Robin got up and got everyone a bottle of water. Josh admired
how he didn’t seem to be the least bit shy in not having a stitch of clothing on. Robin’s shyness
seemed to be situational.

Robin was such a mix of polar opposites that if Josh hadn’t grown up with him he would not
understand the man at all. Even though he was terribly shy, he could perform in front of
thousands. Any mention of sexual things caused Robin to blush, yet the man read novels that
could make a prostitute feel like a virgin. He could walk around naked, but was shy about open
changing rooms. His boundaries had always been varied, but there were always reasons behind
them. The fact that Josh understood most of them made him smile.

It wasn’t quite an uncomfortable silence, but the group didn’t make small talk. The air changed
into a moment of tension right before Darius started to kiss Angel in a long, wet, opened mouth
kiss. Josh watched Dare nuzzle into Angel all needy and full of aroused desire.

The two of them looked delicious together and made Josh want to cuddle Robin into his lap.

Angel broke the silence. “Are you two up for a little more?” There was no pressure in the tone,
just a simple question with a very complex answer.

Josh looked at Robin for a moment. Josh was certain he could see the erection Robin had been
trying to hide from him. Josh grinned over at Angel. “Yup.” He nodded his head. “What are you
thinking?”

“Well, I am going to turn Dare over my knee for his birthday spanking then I am going to fuck
him into his next year properly.” Angel was giving Darius a sexy smirk that dared him to
disagree.

Darius’s eyes got big. “You can’t!” he sputtered in surprise.

Angel gave him a slow sexy smile. “Wanna bet?” A hand wrapped around Darius’s arm and
tugged firmly.

Darius looked over at Robin and Josh as he moaned low. It surprised the hell out of Josh when
without a word Darius allowed himself to be flipped over so he was ass up over Angel’s lap.
Angel petted his back and smiled up at them. “Glad you aren’t going to put up a fight, Dare.” His
hand caressed the ivory skin of the man’s backside and gave it a little pat.

Josh’s mouth went dry. It was like watching his fantasies play out live. He had recently
discovered Robin’s erotica with a heavy BDSM slant and it turned him on something fierce. How
many times had he thought about turning Robin over his knee as he stroked himself to a quick
orgasm in the shower? The way those parts of the novels were so well read it told him that Robin

might also be into it in a major way.

Robin groaned and looked away but not before Josh could see how much he craved the kind of
attention Darius was about to get. Robin was restless and full of want.

Angel turned his head to look at Josh and easily assessed the situation. Putting it all into words,
Angel said, “Looks like you have a spanking of your own to administer, birthday or not.” Darius
arched his back thrusting his ass up as if inviting Angel to return his attention to the ass in front
of him.

Angel raised his hand and bought it down firmly on his lover’s ass. Darius wriggled with
pleasure. Josh watched as Darius’s butt rose up again like it was seeking out Angel’s palm. Angel
looked over at Josh and arched an eyebrow. “There’s plenty of room on the couch.”

Josh looked at Robin for a long moment. Need and want seemed to be rolling off him in waves.
Without a word, he held out his hand. Robin turned his head to Josh and eyed his hand for a
moment before placing his own in it. Josh let out the breath he had been holding and led him over
to sit down on the opposite end of the sofa. Josh gestured for Robin to lie over his knee.

Robin eyes got huge and he visibly swallowed. There was no question how much this turned
Robin on since his hard cock was slapping against his flat stomach. He opened his mouth to say
something but nothing came out.

Josh smiled. “It’s okay Robby. I’ve got you. You let me take care of everything. All you have to
do is get over my knee and I will give you exactly what you need.”

Robin’s hand went up to his mouth to try to hide the whimper of need that escaped. He seemed to
be paralyzed with indecision. Clearly, he wanted what Josh offered but he seemed terrified to
take it. Josh needed to assist because he was not able to take what he wanted.

Looking at Robin, he stated, “I am finally going to give you what you need. I am going to fill up
that empty place you have deep inside Robby. I understand. I know what to do. So get over my
lap. Now.” He brokered no room to negotiate and even added a little steel to his words. His hand
reached out to capture Robin’s and he gently helped him get comfortable on his lap. Josh’s hand
started rubbing over Robin’s rounded rump.

Darius and Robin were lying so they were facing each other. He could see Darius’s ass was
raised as if it were hoping for a hand to smack it. Apparently, the two men had waited for them to
catch up. But now they were ready.

Angel looked at Robin before bringing down his hand hard and fast. Darius jumped, moaned then
reached across the space for Robin’s hand. Robin took it and seemed to draw strength from the
connection. Josh saw Robin squeeze tighter as he felt the very first spank fall on the center of his
own butt.

“Mmmmm, oh Josh.” Robin’s hips rolled over his thighs moaning as if he were heading for a
climax. Josh wondered how long Robin had this hidden need.

Angel raised his hand up and bought it down on Darius’s ass. Josh timed his palm so Robin saw
the guitarist’s spank land as he felt his own bottom sting with a sharp swat. Josh found it
incredibly arousing when Robin pushed his ass up to meet the hand that was stinging him.

Josh saw Darius wiggle over Angel’s lap until his mouth fell open in a gasp of pleasure. Josh
wasn’t sure what had changed but the way he was moving looked like Darius was fucking his
cock between Angel’s thighs.

He moved Robin around until he groaned, “Oh yeah.” Robin’s long dick fell between Josh’s legs.
The precum dripped all over Josh’s thighs in sticky strings to ease Robin’s way. Josh was panting
as he tightened his thighs to create a slim channel for Robin.

The response was immediate. “God! Yes!” Robin fairly shouted. Josh was spanking him quite
hard now and all Robin seemed to want was more. “More, Josh. Please. Harder” He was begging
so sweetly Josh had no desire to deny him.

Darius’s fingers remained entwined with Robin’s as they were each given a good old-fashioned
spanking while they were getting laid in a very unique way. It was like a hot sexy machine.
Robin’s sweet ass would pop up and Josh would spank it down into his thighs. Robin would
moan as he drove his dick between Josh’s legs and his hips would pull his cock back through the
friction pushing his butt up for another warming smack from Josh.

Robin movements became faster. His whispered moans of ecstasy were getting louder. Josh
didn’t want the feelings he was creating in Robin to end. But he knew Robin’s body could only
enjoy the friction of his thighs for so long until it needed to seek its climax.

Robin needed relief and Josh was more than happy to provide it. He tightened his thighs and
squeezed the cock pushing between them. His punishing hand kept a steady rhythm even though
it was starting to burn his palm on Robin’s plump rump. “That’s right Robby. I got you. Fly.
Take what you need.”

Robin’s hips stuttered on their journey. He cried out. “Yes!” Robin seemed to come apart over
his lap. Josh made sure Robin’s ass was spanked down into his lap firmly until his climax
finished ripping through him. Robin throbbed out his load right onto the floor. “Mmmmm,”
Robin was purring with complete satisfaction.

Josh softly petted Robin’s dark red spanked ass. He hoped he hadn’t hurt him. Robin was out of
it. Josh stroked and comforted the bottom he so recently smacked as Robin slowly floated back to
earth.

At a distance, Josh knew Darius had orgasmed as well.

It was really adorable the way Darius and Robin’s hands remained locked together. Josh didn’t
feel any jealousy by the gesture of affection. The two spanked men clearly bonded through their
shared experience. They were in sub heaven and Josh didn’t disturb their peace.

Josh shared a look of satisfaction with Angel. They had done this to their men. Josh pushed away
the sadness that came when the voice in his head said Robin wasn’t his man. Angel nodded

smugly as he looked at the two red-bottomed men who had collapsed after their major orgasms.
Josh smiled back feeling a deeper camaraderie with Angel then he’d had prior to this evening.

Josh caressed calming circles on the beautiful and sore butt. Josh felt at peace with everything in
the world. He felt completely in synch with Robin.

Darius held in Angel’s lap, was humming softly in contentment. Angel turned the smaller man in
his lap to hold him, murmuring sweet nonsense in his ear. His cherry red ass was being rubbed
gently.

Josh decided to do the same. He moved Robin up and around so he could hold him on his lap.
Slowly, Robin was returning to reality and with it embarrassment followed. When Robin couldn’t
look into his eyes, Josh could almost hear Robin’s mortified thoughts.

Josh wanted to reassure him so he whispered for Robin’s ears only, “God. You were amazing! I
loved giving you what you needed. That was so fucking hot!” Robin opened his eyes to peek at
him. He hoped Robin knew he couldn’t possibly fake the joy written on his face.

As if Angel understood Robin needed a bit of reassurance, Angel grinned over at them, saying,
“You two are hotter than hell!” He kissed Darius for a minute. “Don’t you agree, baby?”

Darius slowly pulled his eyes off of Angel to look over at them with a relaxed smile. “Yeah, they
are hot as hell!” Darius reached out to Robin with his hand. Robin shyly smiled as he took it. “I
liked sharing my birthday spanking with you. Thank you.”

Robin blushed and hid his face in Josh’s shoulder. Josh leaned his head down to nuzzle him.
“See, Robby. No one is judging you.”

Angel looked at both their limp partners and chuckled. “Josh, I think the boys need to rest a
moment.”

“Do not!” Both Darius and Robin whined.

Josh and Angel just cracked up and hugged each of them tighter.

Angel tossed a pillow on the floor in front of his feet. “Well, then since you aren’t tired.” He
helped Darius to kneel on it. Angel smirked over at Josh. “I think no spanking is complete
without a thank you blow job.”

Josh had no idea what Darius’s reaction was because Robin moaned in his ear before slipping
down in front of Josh. Josh’s eyes were crossing from the suction Robin’s mouth was applying to
his cock before his brain understood what was happening.

“Oh, Robin. So good. But you don’t have to…” Josh couldn’t even finish the sentence that only a
stupid man would utter.

Robin’s lips rode up his cock and came off with a pop. He smiled sweetly at Josh. “Oh, but I do.”

His wickedly long tongue drew a wet line from Josh’s base to the very tip of his cock. When
Robin’s tongue licked off the clear drop of sweetness that was there, Josh’s head fell back against
the couch.

Robin’s mouth was dragging up and down with incredible friction. Josh struggled but succeeded
in opening his eyes to watch. ‘Sucking off the spanker’ was a fantasy Josh needed to witness as
well as experience.

“Wait,” Robin said pulling off of his dick.

Worry raced through Josh. Had his luck run out? Was Robin stopping?

“What?”

Robin moved to reach around him to pull a cushion off the sofa. Through lowered eyes he sent
Josh a heated look as a blush colored his pretty face. “I need a pillow too.”

“Oh.” A strangled groan came from Josh. Robin’s wickedly talented mouth returned to the
business of thanking Josh for the spanking he has given him.

Robin seemed completely relaxed in his role of serving him. Smiling up at Josh, he proceeded to
bring him to the razor’s edge of orgasm in short order. Josh slowly turned his head to look over at
Darius and Angel. He couldn’t help but think for a guy who kept claiming he was ‘straight’, or at
least he had been until recently, Darius certainly looked like he could suck cock better than most
gay ones he had seen on the net.

Robin followed his eyes over to the other couple and grinned. He reached a hand to Darius who
took it. They linked hands as they sucked. Their heads started to move at the same pace as if they
were linked together by the activity.

Angel looked over at Robin then up at Josh to grin at their good fortune. “I think I like birthdays.
How about you?”

Josh’s reply was cut off by Robin’s hot response to the teasing. He pushed all the way to the root
of Josh’s cock. Once there he swallowed. Josh’s insides clenched. His cock pulsed with need.
Josh heard Angel’s shout of completion. But still he fought manfully to hold out to get a little
more of this glorious feeling. Truth be told, that wonderful mouth was going to win the battle
without much of a fight.

When Robin pulled up to gulp some air and went back down on Josh’s cock. Feeling those throat
muscles swallow around his cock, Josh knew it would be over in seconds. Robin swallowed
again. The massaging throat coaxed Josh’s dick into relieving itself of its milky burden in a
heated rush. On a harsh shout, Josh came and came. Robin swallowed several more times as
waves of pleasure crashed over Josh.

Josh was in Robin’s hot mouth as the amazingly pleasant aftershocks receded. Josh reopened his
eyes and realized Robin was tugging out his own orgasm with his left hand. His right hand was
still holding onto Darius, who was engaged in the same activity. Both men still had the cocks

they’d satisfied in their mouths and their bodies shuddered from the ecstasy of their own
completions. When they were finished, they gave a quick squeeze to the other’s hand. Then
Robin and Darius launched themselves up into the arms of the men they’d just swallowed.

No shame this time only satisfaction gleamed in Robin’s eyes. Darius was curled up into Angel’s
lap and Robin did the same in Josh’s. If ever there were a moment in time to freeze this would be
one of them.

Darius cleared his throat. “Robin, was it my imagination or wasn’t I promised to be fucked into
my next year properly?”

Giggling, Robin grinned over at Dare. “Why Dare, I do believe that was the promise. He
certainly gave you a birthday spanking, so the promised fucking was next on the agenda.”
Turning to Josh, Robin coyly asked, “Now since it wasn’t my birthday but I got spanked anyway,
does that mean I also get fucked?”

Angel and Josh looked at each other and groaned a little before turning their attention back onto
their partners.

CHAPTER 14

Josh was thrilled that Robin had easily accepted Angel’s invitation to spend the weekend in the
penthouse without so much as a second thought. It was great not to make the drive home. Josh
hoped by staying put there would be other opportunities for more intimate time with Robin. And
maybe Robin wanted that too.

Josh woke up smiling before he even knew why. As conscious thought returned, he realized his
beautiful Robby was in bed with him and curled up around him. Last night they had made love to
exhaustion; Josh was convinced his cock might really fall off but it would have been worth it.
Robin’s arms had wrapped around Josh when he carried him into the guest bedroom. Robin had
stayed snuggled into him as they’d lain down on the bed, then went directly to sleep in Josh’s
arms.

If this wasn’t Heaven, then certainly recalling the hours prior had to be. The activities that
continued once they were locked away from the rest of the world filled parts of Josh’s heart he
always feared would remain empty.

When they woke, they had made love again, taking turns being inside of each other. At the
thought of Robin deep inside him, he instantly wanted more. Josh wanted to do it again and
again. Truth be told, he never wanted it to end. But the reality of needing a bathroom crept into
his wishful thinking.

Josh started to untangle his body from Robin to use the en suite bathroom but, predictably, his
light sleeping bed partner’s eyes popped open. Robin was fully awake and seemed uncertain at
being entwined with Josh.

Robin smiled with a blush coloring his pale cheek. “Morning.” After all they had done last night
and until early this morning, it was adorably cute that Robin blushed with innocence at being in
his bed. His cheeks colored such a pretty shade.

Josh’s heart warmed. “Morning, Rob Rob. I just have to…” He pointed to the bathroom.

Nodding Robin released him. After he took care of business, he took a quick shower and brushed
his teeth. Josh almost looked presentable. He exited the bathroom to let Robin freshen up.

Josh lay back on the bed listening to the shower. He had no idea what to do. Robin gave no
indication of how he was feeling this morning. Did he regret last night? Did he want to continue?
Did he feel bad? Josh had so many questions. He hoped for some answers now that Robin was
back.

These were the same questions that always followed the random encounters they shared. He
wanted more and Robin backed off. Neither ever spoke of them. He had always allowed Robin to
pretend it hadn’t happened for the sake of his happiness. Trying to acknowledge this side of their

relationship served only to push Robin away. So Josh learned to keep his trap shut on the subject
and swallow the pain that the denial caused him.

When Robin emerged from the bathroom, Josh pulled back the sheets and patted the spot next to
him hopefully. Robin paused and his smile was hesitant, but he joined Josh.

“You okay, Robby?” Josh asked softly.

Robin nodded and blinked his beautiful eyes as he sat on the bed, clearly uncertain about the
entire situation. He nervously combed fingers through his green and blue lion’s mane, which was
a bit limp from all the tussling. His fingers got caught on a tangle causing him to frown twisting
the knot to the left and then right.

Josh almost volunteered to brush his hair. The hairdressers made sure to spend extra time
brushing and fussing with his hair because he purred with pleasure. Instead he grabbed Robin and
threw him back on the bed and started tickling him.

As Robin was getting breathless from the laughter, there was a subtle shift of mood. The tickling
slowed into soft caresses. Both men became very aware that they were naked in bed. Touching.
Softly. Robin froze and the look on his face was one of great need and want. Before another blink
of his eyes, Josh was claiming Robin’s full pink lips.

Robin moaned and rolled over onto Josh. He held Josh’s face tenderly as he deepened the kiss.
Their passion flared hotter. Robin’s body slid across Josh in pure temptation. Their cocks were
impatiently waiting for some action. Robin ground his hips down forcing their cocks together.
Skin against skin. Heat. Lust. Friction.

Josh just lay there looking up at the prettiest creature he had ever seen. Right there with him,
Robin wasn’t shy at all. He was taking what he needed from Josh. Everything. He could have
anything he wanted. I want to give it all to him. I want him to have everything.

Josh’s hands found those perfectly formed ass cheeks he loved so much and squeezed them. His
fingers sank in deep as kneaded them. He pulled Robin down into him with greater force, which
increased the delicious scrape of cock against cock.

Robin straightened his arms to rise up above him. Josh thought he looked like a beautiful angel
with his pale white skin, his beautiful face and his peacock colored hair flying around him.

It looked like Robin was at Heaven’s gate. The movements of his hips become more heated as the
hot slide of cock on cock started to boil over. It felt so good Josh could barely control himself but
he focused his movements to maximize Robin’s pleasure.

Robin bit his lip and looked down at Josh. He whispered so softly, “I love you.” A second later,
Robin’s eyes were locked onto Josh’s as he cried out his ecstasy. “Ohhhhh, God! Coming.
Coming. Yeah!” Sharp thrusts against him accompanied every word.

Hot seed splashed over Josh, slicking over their heated cocks easing the friction. He bucked up
into Robin and shot his pleasure in long gushes of relief. Josh was dimly aware that Robin was
shivering with sizable aftershocks. Finally, Josh was empty.

“Mmmmm, nice.” Robin fell back down onto Josh’s body. He shimmied and nuzzled into Josh’s
neck. They held each other tight. Sleep welcomed them back for several more hours of peace and
perfection.

* * *

Josh woke up on his stomach to Robin kissing him, light, soft butterfly kisses pressed
everywhere. Soft sexy kisses were pressed down behind his knees. A long wet lick of Robin’s
tongue traced his thigh muscles and teased his cease. Josh spread his legs and his butt pushed out
a little.

Apparently that was all the permission Robin was looking for because Josh was then treated to a
wickedly wet and very talented tongue licking between his ass cheeks.

“Oh,” Josh gasped as Robin used his tongue more firmly. Josh loved being rimmed. They hadn’t
done it often but when they did, damn. Just damn!

“Mmmm.” Robin sounded like he was enjoying his task.

Josh certainly did. Robin’s long wet tongue licked into him. Deeper. Deeper. But still not enough.
Only a tease of what Josh wanted. Josh might have been embarrassed if this was anyone else, but
this was the person he had always considered his other half. He reached back and separated his
cheeks presenting Robin with a perfect target to aim his wicked tongue.

“Oh, God! Yes!” Robin proclaimed happily as he buried his face deeper between Josh’s ass
cheeks.

The amazingly talented tongue teased Josh’s hole making him want more. Deeper. The flicks of
fire were centered on Josh’s entrance. He pushed back seeking more. Needing more.

Robin’s finger found the opening only to taunt and tease it. Another finger joined and a third
followed. Still it wasn’t enough. Josh needed more.

Groaning, Josh was pushing back. His ass was begging to be taken by Robin. Finally, he said it,
“Please. I need it.”

There was movement behind Josh and the bed moved then a drawer opened. Robin slicked
himself up then returned to lie over Josh’s back.

Robin’s cock teased his hole as more slick was added. He eased himself in, while stopping Josh
from pushing back in a rush. Very, very slowly Robin entered with a long drawn out sigh.

When Robin was fully imbedded in Josh’s channel all movement stopped. Even though it wasn’t
necessary, Robin waited patiently to make sure Josh’s body adjusted to his fullness. Josh’s heart
sang with joy about being completely connected to Robin. Maybe it was sappy but damn it all
that’s exactly how he felt. Complete. Whole.

Long wet kisses were placed on his upper back as Robin started to slowly move. In and out so
loving and tender it brought tears to Josh’s eyes. Robin was treating him as if he were made of
spun glass. Adoring him with his body. Josh was overwhelmed by the intense love he was
experiencing.

Minutes ticked by as Robin slowly moved over Josh’s body kissing his neck and shoulders,
giving tender caresses that deeply moved him. Time ceased to matter as Josh just enjoyed the
gentle movement of Robin loving him.

Robin changed the angle of his thrust and his cock was starting to nudge at Josh’s sweet spot
deep inside more firmly. Josh arched up into it trying to change the speed. Robin was moving at a
pace that had Josh going out of his mind with desire.

Robin bit the place between Josh’s shoulder and neck in response. “Impatient much?” Robin
asked teasingly.

“Fuck. What do you think?” Josh moaned into the pillow again. “You feel so fantastic. I just
want…”

Giggling, Robin moved a little quicker. “Better?”

The slight change of pace had Josh panting, “Uhn, hmmm. Just like that.”

His needy words seemed to affect the male inside him in the exact way he had hoped. Robin
moaned and started moving up and down on his ass quicker.

“Harder. Robby. Make me really feel you,” Josh begged. He wanted to make sure this wasn’t a
dream. He wanted to feel this merging of their bodies for a week, for a year, forever.

Groaning with heat, Robin picked up the pace and began thrusting harder. Josh did everything he
could to let him know he loved it. Wanted it. Needed it.

Robin’s hand, still moist from the slick, slipped underneath Josh to wrap a firm fist around his
cock. He groaned at the additional stimulation and started pushing back harder. Long hard slow
strokes were given and Josh was sure it was going to kill him. Before he could complain, Robin
picked up the speed to stroke him quicker. The pace of his fist matched the cock that was
thrusting into him again and again.

Robin’s hips were slamming into Josh’s ass in a rapid pistoning that was pure decadence. Sounds
were pulled out from deep inside of Josh as he spilled himself into the firm grip. He felt Robin’s
hips hesitate then shudder against his butt until wet heat filled Josh’s ass. Robin was back to
placing loving sweet kisses on his shoulders and neck. He sagged down over his back.

Josh loved the weight of Robin on his back. Still inside of him. Still connected, safe, and
satisfied. He felt so sated he almost fell asleep.

Giving a satisfied stretch, Robin finally rolled off in exhausted heap. “Mmmmm, that was good.”
Robin murmured with deep satisfaction. Josh cuddled into his side and kissed his cheek.

Apparently, Robin didn’t want to always be submissive. He clearly still enjoyed topping and he
did it very well. Josh needed to figure out a balance that would satisfy all the different needs
Robin had. But not right now.

Right now, Robin wrapped him up tight and Josh melted into him. He ran his fingers through
Robin’s hair now tangled even more than when they started. A comfortable silence fell over
them.

They talked about nothing in particular. A melody for a song that Josh had running through his
head was kicked around. Robin talked about a new application for their iPads he thought they
needed. They talked out lyrics that were giving Robin trouble. They talked about where they
should go on their next break from the tour. Topics floated intermittently between the two and the
silences in between were filled with meaningful stares that ended in fits of laughter.

Josh toyed with pieces of Robin’s hair, playing with the shiny color, letting it slip through his
fingers as he watched Robin talk. They stayed close together. Linked. Happy. Insulated from the
rest of the world. Josh could imagine how it could be between them if only Robin would let it
happen.

“Let me brush your hair, Robin.”

Robin reached up to push his own hand through it. “It’s a rat’s nest, I know it.” He giggled a little
self-consciously.

Josh jumped up and went to the bathroom’s fully stocked amenities cabinet to grab a brush.
Pulling off the plastic he said, “Come here.” He pushed a pillow against the headboard to lean
against and spread his legs to make room for Robin.

“Really?” Robin asked, already moving into position. “I love my hair brushed.”

Josh smirked as if he didn’t know that. “Yes, I know and you hide it so well.” He pulled the brush
down slowly through the messy tresses being careful not to pull any snarls too hard.

“Mmmmm. Oh. Josh.” Robin began making all sorts of pretty noises.

Josh gently brushed out the tangles ensuring the brush bristles ran over his scalp. Finally, all the
tangles were gone and now Josh could fully enjoy playing with Robin’s hair without worrying
about hurting him.

“Oh. Nice. Hey you know, if the whole rock star doesn’t work out you could be a hairdresser.”
Robin teased.

“Like my talents, do you?”

“Oh, yeah.” Robin’s laughter bounced off the wall but soon he was purring as Josh proceeded to
brush his long hair nice and slow. “Oh, mmmmm. So good. You can be my personal hairdresser.”

Josh laughed and said, “Robby, do you know you make almost the same sounds when someone is
brushing your hair as you do when you are coming?”

“What? Mmmmmm, I do not. Oh, yeah.” When Josh started to laugh, Robin looked over his
shoulder to glare at him. “Hush up.” But the stare evaporated as Josh drew the brush down the
center of his head all the way to his ends. His closed his eyes and sighed. “Oh, Josh.” Josh
laughed so hard he was shaking the bed. Robin shrugged as he said, “Whatever. Just keep
brushing.” His head swiveled around for more hair attention. “So good.”

Josh whispered in his ear. “You like when I give you a good hair job?” Josh pulled the brush
across Robin’s scalp down to the very ends of it.

Groaning and laughing, he nodded. “You give the best hair job ever!”

Why couldn’t it always be like this? Why couldn’t it?

CHAPTER 15

The hairbrush was finally set aside. They were still just talking about nothing. Josh wanted
nothing to disturb this simple contentment between them. But a soft wrinkle of paper attracted
Robin’s attention. His head was lying on Josh’s shoulder and it was feeling too perfect to move.
But Josh knew his Robin’s curiosity was unstoppable.

Robin jumped up to retrieve the paper that had slid under the door. He carried it back to bed. It
has a one-word question on it: Food?

Both of their stomachs rumbled at the suggestion. They hadn’t eaten since last night.

Josh didn’t even think about food, but now he felt guilty not letting Robin eat. The guy never ate
that much, so must be hungry. The sunshine had stopped trying to peek through the drapes a
while ago. So they had missed at least two meals. It was well past the time to eat.

Josh called out. “Yeah, thanks.”

Angel’s muffled voice was heard through the door. “I ordered pizzas. They’ll be here in twenty
minutes. Time enough for a shower if you two are fast.” Soft footsteps went back down the
hallway.

Josh pulled Robin into his arms. “I guess we should shower.” He didn’t really want to wash
Robin off of his skin. A twisted part of him never wanted to wash where Robin’s lips had been.
But that was demented thinking on his part.

Looking at the clock, Robin frowned. “Yeah, I guess we should. It’s almost nighttime.” Robin
agreed and jumped up. Stopping at the bathroom door, he looked over his shoulder. “You
coming?”

Josh felt his eyes go wide. “If you want me to…”

Robin blushed. “Of course.” Josh saw he meant the double entendre. Robin added with a twinkle
in his big blue eyes, “We can wash each other’s backs.”

“Oh, I will wash more than your back,” Josh growled. The sweet sexy moans and groans during
the hair brushing had excited Josh but the look of need on Robin’s face lengthened his cock to
full erection.

Josh finally identified that needy lost look. Robin wore that face when he needed to be taken.
When he desperately wanted someone else to take charge and make sure he safely got what he
needed. How many times had he seen it and not acted on it? Well, no more. Robin would get
what he needed and Josh was going to be the one to give it to him.

Josh wondered if his body was trying to make up for the years of time lost. A silent cry from his
heart whispered that he should store these memories for all the years to come. He would enjoy
whatever Robin would allow and greedily look for more. No! He needed to step up and take
control. Robin could say no but he seemed to crave direction. Josh needed to stop being a wuss
and give it to him.

Robin’s giggle chased away the evil thoughts that were trying to steal moments away from this
paradise retreat from Josh. Robin looked over his shoulder blushing as he went into the bathroom
to start the shower.

Fully intending to wash more than his Robin’s back, Josh joined him in the shower. Some parts
needed extra washing and rubbing to make them really clean. He was just the man for the job.

Robin got wet under the warm water then switched places with Josh who did the same. Robin
loaded a washcloth with shower gel and scrubbed him down with the suds. Josh almost laughed
at how practical Robin approached their shower. As Robin was shampooing his hair, Josh started
licking up and down his neck to suck another hickey into his neck marking him taken.

“I am going to have you again,” Josh growled over Robin’s broken moan of hot pleasure. Josh
rinsed his hair. He massaged shampoo into Robin’s scalp until he was shivering from it. Rinsed
and conditioned, Josh pulled Robin firmly to him. Josh captured his lips in a hot wet embrace that
had Robin’s knees just about buckling.

Taking the advantage, Josh turned the beautiful man into the wall. Josh slapped his ass before
pushing a conditioner-slicked finger up Robin’s fine ass. He opened him with care but did it
quickly. Robin kept looking over his shoulder at Josh.

“Face forward,” Josh growled in a voice that spoke of dominance.

Robin looked surprised for a moment but then a whimper of pure submission escaped and he
meekly did as requested. The trembling of excitement gave Josh a jolt of confidence he needed to
give the other man what he craved.

“Good boy,” Josh said as he spanked him ass three times hard.

“Oh.” Robin pushed his ass out looking for Josh’s palm as he hissed out, “Yes, need this.” Soft
and low barely heard above the shower.

Josh was going to give him the opposite kind of loving that Robin had given him. He was
positive it was exactly what Robin wanted. Fast and hard. Robin’s submissive need was calling
out loudly for satisfaction. Now that Josh had figured it out he was going to do his best to fulfill
that craving. If the truth were told, Josh liked taking control, and lived to give Robin what he
needed.

Three fingers were opening Robin and Josh knew he was ready. He leaned over him and said
“Mine.” Right before he plunged into that sexy rounded ass, balls deep.

Robin cried out in surprised need. Josh wrapped his fingers around Robin’s hips and guided him

to move at a rapid pace.

Robin surrendered to his suppressed desire. “Yeah.” He allowed himself to be pulled back and
forth sawing Josh’s cock in and out of his needy opening.

Josh thrust into Robin’s heat in quick steady jabs. That beautiful ass colored by his handprints lit
his imagination. “That’s right. Mine, Robby. Mine.” Each word was accompanied by a hard deep
thrust.

“Yes. God! So close! Please!” Robin’s voice was all deep and husky. Sex dripped from it. He
was so needy that he shaking from it. Robin reached a hand forward, seeking to relieve his ache.

Josh thrust in quick. He was ready to shoot off as well. “Hands on the wall.” Robin looked over
his shoulder with a sexy pout of being denied his fist but he complied. “That’s right. Good
Robby.” Going a bit alpha on him, Josh spanked Robin’s bottom. Hard. “You’ll come from my
cock. Just me.”

“Oh. Yeah!” Robin was groaning pushing his ass back for more attention. Gasping for air he
begged, “More.”

Josh thrust as his palm connected with Robin’s ass. “You’re mine.” Josh’s mouth sucked up a
hickey onto his neck and that was the trigger they needed. It all collided into one big mass
orgasm.

Josh didn’t know who came first all he knew they were both coming. Robin’s channel was
spasming on his cock in the most delightful way extending his orgasm as he painted the shower
wall with his cream. Finally, when the pleasant aftershocks went through them and nature
deemed it time for them to separate they did so with regret.

Now that it was over Josh was a little worried he had gone too far. He turned Robin around to
kiss softly kiss his lips. “You okay?”

Robin’s eyes were glazed and a bit unfocused as if he had yet return to his body. He nodded
though and his head fell onto Josh’s shoulder. Josh held him petting his back and caressing his
newly reddened bottom. Robin purred from the attention. Josh quickly finished washing up
Robin, who just stood there and let him move him this way and that. It was only Robin’s
growling stomach that drove them from the warm wet environment.

After their very satisfying shower, Josh held out the robe that was in the closet for Robin. Robin
stood there and let Josh dress him. It was a bit big on him but it made him like so cute.

Robin seemed to come back to earth and dropped a kiss on Josh’s cheek once he finished tying
the belt around his slim waist. With damp hair and grins they couldn’t hide they walked into the
main part of the penthouse suite.

Angel was just setting the pizzas on the coffee table and Darius was just bringing sodas in from
the mini fridge.

“How are you guys doing?” Angel asked with a smirk.

“Fine.” Josh’s grin may have gotten bigger. He felt like he was on top of the world. The last
twenty hours had been a dream come true. He didn’t sense any weirdness between them, which
was a relief.

Robin had gone over to stand closely to Darius and quietly asked, “How are you?”

Darius blinked and tilted his head. “Fine.”

With a small smile and a big blush, Robin quirked his mouth to the side and asked again, “How
are you?” This time his palm gently ran over Darius’s ass.

“Oh.” Darius turned a nice shade of red as he answered the real question this time. “A little sore.
You?”

Robin shocked the room when he turned his back to Darius and lifted the back of his robe to
share his secret. He displayed his lovely assets. Robin blushed over his shoulder as he said, “A bit
pink, I think.” Giggling happily, Robin wiggled against Darius’s gentle hand as it palmed his
butt.

Darius smiled back and tilted his head towards Robin’s ear. “A bit warm too.”

Robin’s musical giggle sounded through the room. Robin whispered loudly, “New.” His eyes
sparkling with delight as he shared with the blond. Darius nodded approvingly. Robin smiled
shyly at Josh.

Angel looked over Josh, eyebrow arched in question. Josh flashed a quick smile and a shrug.
Maybe the smile looked a little smug but Angel nodded his approval.

Josh didn’t feel any jealousy lick up at his insides. He wasn’t threatened by Darius’s hand on
Robin’s sweet little ass. Josh actually liked that Robin wanted to share with Darius what they had
done. It was like he not only accepted it but like he was proud of it or something. It made what he
was experiencing with Robin real.

“Robin as sweet as that ass is the pizza’s getting cold.” Angel chuckled as he herded everyone
over to the sofas for pizza. Angel sat down and pulled Darius right onto his lap. He reached over
and got a piece of pizza on a plate. Picking up the dripping gooey slice by the crust he held it in
front of Dare’s mouth.

“Mmmmm.” Darius moaned in pleasure as he ate the cheesy saucy piece.

Josh thought that was a wonderful way to sit down. That way he could make sure Robin actually
ate but more to the point he could have him right on his lap as he did so.

“Ohhh,” Robin gasped then giggled as he was pulled onto Josh’s lap. He wiggled his butt around
until he was comfortable. Opening his mouth he took a tiny bird bite of pizza and grabbed a
napkin to wipe his lips. Swiveling on Josh lap he turned so he was sitting astride Josh’s thighs.

Robin held out the delicious looking slice for Josh to take a bite. “Here, now you.”

Josh smiled and complied by taking a bite. “And now you.” His mouth followed the piece to
Robin’s lips. Robin chewed then wiped his mouth. Josh said, “You missed some.” His lips
captured his and kiss him soundly.

“Do I have anything on my face, Dare?” Angel’s voice betrayed his guilty intentions of stealing
kisses.

“Yeah, my lips.” Darius laughed and kissed his whole face.

They all traded bites and kisses until both pies were polished off and only crumbs remained. The
mutual public displays of affections by each couple seemed to excite and challenge the other
couple. But oddly enough seemed to reinforce who belonged to whom.

Josh could feel Robin’s long cock rubbing against his own. Their cocks had long since escaped
their robes. They needed each other yet again.

Angel and Darius looked over at the two younger men and smiled. Josh knew they watched them
until their own embrace began to get heated.

Soon Josh didn’t really notice them at all as his world shrunk down to just Robin. Hot wet lips
caressing carelessly with lust and something much more tender. When Josh looked up again from
the lovely creature in his arms, they were alone in the main room of the penthouse. He heard a
bedroom door click shut and Josh was more than happy to enjoy privacy.

He stood up holding onto Robin who kept his legs wrapped around Josh. Lips were tracing up
and down Josh’s neck making him crazy with need. A hickey placed hard on his neck made him
almost lose control and take him in the hallway without preparation. He knew he should have
more control. They had been together so many times in such a short duration but it didn’t seem to
be enough to cover Josh’s aching need.

Entering the bedroom, Josh barely kicked the door shut before stumbling over to the bed. He
grabbed the lube and used it where he needed to ease his way as quickly as possible.

Josh started to lay Robin on the bed when Robin had other ideas. “Up against the wall.”

“What?” Josh questioned him. Not wanting to misunderstand him.

“I want it.” Robin talked through kissing his lips and face. “Up against the wall.”

“Why?”

“Cause I want it that way. Hot and desperate. Give it to me, Josh.” Robin’s voice was low and
greedy.

Who was he to refuse such a request? He was thankful for his increased weight training, he had a
feeling it might come in handy but he couldn’t imagine this would be the use. Robin felt light as a
feather in his arms. He moved with Robin still twined around him.

As Robin was pushed up against the wall he moaned in ecstasy. “Yeah, Josh. Just like this.”

Josh reinserted his fingers and added more lubrication until Robin was ready. His hand went to
the nape of Robin’s neck and pulled his mouth down to his and claimed it in a long kiss. His
prick found where it was needed most and slipped in. On a long slow glide he seated himself
deep inside Robin’s willing passage.

Robin’s head fell back against the wall. “Take me Josh.” His voice was rough with want. “Oh,
now.”

Holding Robin’s hips he moved him up and down on his cock. With hands wound into Josh’s
hair, Robin started going wild. He started to move himself slamming down with more force
making Josh groan.

Josh knew they couldn’t last long. It was too hot. They needed too bad. They wanted too much.
Pushing Robin into the wall, he thrust into him.

Robin’s hand wrapped around his cock and Josh didn’t stop him. He watched as Robin stroked
his long beautiful cock. The tip seeped with sweetness that Josh wished he had time to lick. But
time was short. Robin moved his fist up and down, taking care of his cock.

“Please Josh!” Robin cried out wanting more.

“Yeah. Yeah.” Josh gave it to him with several more powerful thrusts.

Panting heavily Robin arched his body against him and came to a shattering conclusion. His
passage squeezed and milked Josh to orgasm. Josh felt his release wash over him in waves of
pleasure crashing over his body. Robin covered them both with his cream as he moaned in
satisfaction. His head rolled back against the wall and his legs dropped down to the floor.

Breathing heavily, Josh kissed Robin soundly. Without a word he led Robin into the bathroom
and propped him up against the counter while he started the shower. He drew him into the steamy
water and washed Robin lovingly. Josh washed himself and rinsed them both. He quickly dried
them and led his almost sleeping lover to bed.

CHAPTER 16

Josh woke and, without thought, reached for Robin. He was more than a little dismayed that
instead of a warm body, he found newspapers. Tabloids to be exact.

The front page of each of them had a photograph of Josh with various women. The captions were
beyond ridiculous. “Is the ‘forbidden’ relationship over?” It had a picture of him and Robby
hugging on one side. On the other side a picture of Josh with a woman he had met for five
seconds at a party. “Is Josh cheating on his ‘twin’?” That caption accompanied a picture of Robin
looking dismal. It was actually a photo of him leaving the doctor’s office. He had been getting
over a bad case of the flu and was still sick but had refused to let Angel cancel the concert. The
final picture and capture was unreal. “Accident or Suicide Attempt?” The image was of Robin’s
twisted car destroyed in the accident and another of Robin asleep in the hospital. Where did these
people even get these photos?

He used the bathroom and got himself together. Obliviously Robin wanted him to see the stories.
He went into the main space of the suite.

“Hey, morning.” He greeted Darius and Angel as his eyes scanned the room for Robin.

Darius answered the question before he even asked. “Robin borrowed some clothing and shoes to
go for a run.” Darius shook his head as Angel frowned. “He came back in less than ten minutes
with those freaking tabloids.”

“I saw them.” Josh sighed, knowing how hurt his brother could get by people’s thoughtless
words. “Where is he?”

Darius shrugged. “He came back, got dressed and left. He said he would rent a car and meet you
at home.”

“Fuck!” Josh knew it was bad. He felt like anything he and Robin had had during the last couple
of days was slipping through his fingers like sand. He’d lost it before he even had it. “Fuck! Why
do they keep saying we are twins? Yeah, we were born on the same day but Jesus give it a rest
you know?” He was so angry. “Do you think they know and just don’t care how they screw with
people’s lives? Or are they just insensitive morons?”

“They do it to sell papers.” Angel shook his head. “Sorry, man.”

A thought washed over him. “You don’t think Robin thinks I have been with those girls, do
you?”

Angel shook his head. “If you hear something enough sometimes you start to question what you
already know for sure.”

He turned away from his other band members. There was nothing they or anyone else could say
that would make this right.

* * *

Sometimes, Josh hated being right. After the debauchery of Darius’s private after party on his
birthday, nothing further happened. Nothing. It cut Josh through to the core having Robin not
even acknowledge what they had shared.

Robin was present but so distant. They still lived together, cooked together, and played music
together, but Robin was careful not to touch Josh. There seemed to be a cold wall between them,
locking him on one side and Robin on the other. The barrier was one he couldn’t breach. He
didn’t know how to scale the wall of ice and it was breaking his heart.

For the first time in his life, Josh felt completely alone. Everything was getting to him. He
couldn’t eat, couldn’t sleep, and his temper was short.

All he wanted was what he couldn’t have. Robin clearly did not want what he did. It killed Josh
to think that Robin saw what they had done with regret. It chewed him up inside to know the lies
printed about him had triggered this rift between them.

Days turned into weeks. Weeks turned into a month. Dusty didn’t question what was wrong with
him; he just started dragging Josh out for a drink after practice. One beer turned into another and,
before Josh knew it, the night had slipped away.

Since Dusty didn’t drink more than one beer, he was the designated driver. Josh’s problem didn’t
go away, but he felt relieved to just let go and forget his life for a while. That first night, Josh
actually slept for the first time in days.

Whenever Dusty didn’t ask him to go for a beer, he asked Dusty. He pushed if he had to; it was
the only thing keeping him sane. Josh wondered if he were on his way to becoming an alcoholic
like his father, but then he decided he didn’t really give a fuck. There were much worse things he
could be. What did he care?

After a week and a half, Angel teased Dusty. “So you guys are going out again? What, are you
two dating now?”

Dusty, never one to miss an opportunity to bug Angel, retorted, “Yeah. Why are you jealous?”

Angel opened his mouth to say something but closed it as if he remembered they were treading
where they shouldn’t.

Silence. Every eye slid over to Robin who had become very interested in the cords connected to
his keyboards. He kept unplugging them and connecting them as if there had been a problem in

the last perfectly played song. Once they took in Robin’s lowered head and shaking hands they
looked over at Josh. All eyes were on him. Accusing him.

Of what exactly? Of loving him? Of Robin not loving him back? Or maybe letting Robin think he
was out getting laid? What the fuck did they want from him?

Granted, Josh made sure not to see the hurt look that Robin had on his face when he was never
asked to join him and Dusty for their nightly bar hopping. He worked hard to avoid feeling guilty
for not sitting in their apartment watching Robin cut him out. It was petty to let Robin keep his
belief that Josh was out getting some, but he was tired of the established pattern. Something had
to change, but for now, Josh tried to just numb it all out.

Robin was still polite. He still took care of Josh in so many little ways. Robin still cooked Josh’s
favorite foods and left them in the fridge to be microwaved for when he finally dragged himself
in. Robin made sure he recorded Josh’s shows, reminded him when it was time for their dental
appointments, everything he had always done. But now so much was lacking from their
interaction it felt like Josh’s heart had been ripped out.

Thankfully, Darius broke the silence by answering Dusty. “Angel is most certainly not jealous of
you, Dusty. He has me and I am quite high maintenance.” Everyone gave the expected chuckle,
then Darius said, “Now let’s get back to practicing the last song cause you sounded a bit slow,
Dusty.”

Dusty snorted but started the intro to the song. And everyone breathed a sigh of relief.

* * *

That night Robin took Megan up on her offer to introduce him to Stephen Carmen. She knew
Robin wanted to change the story being told by the tabloids so she said it would be good for
Robin to be seen out. Josh heard Megan tell him that Robin being seen out didn’t mean they were
dating or anything. She said Stephen understood Robin wasn’t looking for anything more than
light conversation.

The same night, Josh proceeded to get very drunk and continued every night he knew Robin and
Stephen were meeting up. It ate at his guts but he didn’t say anything. He pretended everything
was fine, and he drank. Dusty kept him company and didn’t judge.

* * *

A couple of weeks, six articles about Robin’s heartbreak over Josh’s supposed infidelity, and four
dates later for Robin and Stephen, Angel announced they would be finally shooting the video to
accompany their upcoming single that was to be released the following month. They finally had
the huge warehouse and it was all set for them to film. They flew out to LA to do the shoot.

So bright and early, The Dark Angels were standing around waiting when a pleasant looking guy
strolled up to them.

“About time you hired me to direct a video for you.” He slapped Angel on the back.

Dusty shook his hand. “No choice, Shawn. Everyone else was busy.” He laughed tossing his
blond hair over his shoulders to grin at Angel.

“Screw you Dusty,” the director said with a smile. He turned to Robin, Josh and Darius to shake
their hands. “Nice to meet you guys in person.”

Josh asked, “So you guys really have known each other since high school?”

“Yeah, same gym class.” The director looked around and said, “Let me get this started so we
have a hope of being done today.” He clapped his hands. “Okay, people. Let’s do this. I know
you are all busy so let’s do this video. The general idea is just to give a visual to the beautiful
words of the song. It’s all about love and helping people we love and just being loved. So let’s
shoot you guys first.” He said pointing to Josh and Robin. “Darius, Dusty, and Angel why don’t
you take about two hours or so and just relax.”

Angel smirked and grabbed Darius’s hand to pull him away from the group. His intentions were
clearly broadcasted to anyone who looked over in their general direction.

The director sighed with good nature. “Use my trailer, if you must.”

“Come on, Shawn. You know Angel must,” Dusty said smirking.

Shawn shook his head as he chuckled softly. “The sheets are clean,” he muttered to no one in
particular.

“Ha! They won’t be for long. Thanks Shawn, you are a true friend,” Angel called back to him.
Darius’s face reddened as Angel dragged him away towards a trailer.

Dusty threw up his hands as he watched them go then looked over at Shawn. “You guys got
Wi-Fi here?”

An assistant rushed up with the network and password information then took Dusty off to find a
comfortable place to surf the web.

Shawn smiled warmly at both Josh and Robin. Robin looked a bit green around the gills. He
pointed out the benefits. “The beauty of video unlike a live show, we can shoot as many takes as
needed. I am going to make you two look terrific. So forget about the cameras and just try to
follow my instructions. And be yourselves—the fans adore you two!”

They nodded.

“Makeup.” As soon as the adorable little pixie with the makeup case ran up, Shawn started
dictating what he wanted. “I want their eyes to pop. I want Robin’s lips pinker and highlight them
more. Make them even more soft and plush.” Shawn winked at the little make up wizard as she
batted her long lashes back at him. “Make Josh’s cheek bones sharper and emphasis his lashes.”

The pixie moved to make the makeup magic happen while they just sat there. Since Robin was
used to wearing makeup, he sat there patiently and even asked some questions as they put glitter
polish over his blue-green manicure and fussed with his flawless face. Josh, on the other hand,
squirmed so much the little pixie had to tell him, with a giggle, to relax.

Shawn explained what his vision was as the little make up pixie used her brushes and puffs to
enhance their natural features. “I wanted to tie this to your very first interview in Rolling Stone as
well as the song’s title: Two Halves of the Same Whole.” He explained what he was referring to,
“I believe the words Josh used was ‘soul mates beyond eternity’ to describe your relationship.”

‘Soul mates beyond eternity’ was a phrase brought up over and over. It was distorted into
something other than the love he had for Robin. Josh had always known Robin was his soul mate;
he knew it within his heart. Just as he knew there would be no other...ever.

Josh’s breath hitched as he stole a glance at Robin who was studiously not looking at him. Josh
shrugged. “I was feeling poetic.” Yeah, keep it casual. That worked. It stops people from seeing
what they shouldn’t see.

The Director smiled. “Indeed. Now we are going to show that aspect of love but make it more of
a suggestion.” He could see them tense and geared up to reject the idea. “All very tasteful.
Nothing out there. Just allowing people to appreciate your bond as they choose to view it.”

“What? Are we back to the twincest bullshit?” Josh felt rage course through his body and he
almost raised his voice.

Robin looked upset and stared at the far wall.

Rolling his eyes, Shawn tried to mollify the boys. “No, Josh. Not the twincest bullshit. I know
that has been plaguing you boys, but come on. The title of the song?” He seemed sincere when he
said, “I will have you do nothing, hear me, nothing, you aren’t comfortable with...” His voice
trailed off but then picked up on his expectation of the video. “I want you guys to just be
yourselves; you will be showing each other how you play your instruments. So Josh, you will
help Robin finger the right chords of your bass and Robin, you will move Josh’s fingers over the
right keys. Make it fun and happy.”

Josh looked over at Robin who looked away from him.

Taking a deep breath, Shawn continued. “I also want you guys to put on these sneakers; you will
take one of each color.” He held up a bright blue pair and a red pair of some new brand of
sneakers just hitting the market. Shawn verbally pushed past Josh’s groan of protest. “Hey, you
were the ones that told the interviewer the story, how Robin’s mother who raised both of you

used to dress you in matching outfits. Which I do believe also contributes to the whole twin thing.
Not to worry.” Shawn mimicked a fan girl. “It will be fab!”

* * *

As they shot take after take, Robin began to loosen up. A piece of the wall that was between them
was chipped away to reveal a door. Josh didn’t question it, but quickly opened it to slip in. Robin
and he teased one another, laughed, and interacted normally for the first time since Darius’s
birthday celebration.

He felt reconnected to Robin. Josh couldn’t contain his happiness as he was allowed back into
their space. It was wonderful and right.

Saying he loved Robin wearing his favorite bass was an understatement of massive proportions.
He had taken his time adjusting the strap so it lay on Robin’s hip perfectly. When his arms
wrapped around him to help get the fingering right, he felt him lean back into him. It was almost
normal except for little touches and catches in breath. Sexual tension seemed to be building
between them and Josh was hoping it would ignite.

When it was Josh’s turn to pretend he didn’t know how to play, Robin shoulder-bumped him and
giggled. Oh, that sound was magic. They were having so much fun. Watching Robin’s glittery
nails dance across the keys filled Josh with longing. He especially liked it when Robin gently
took his hand to show him hand over hand how to play the song. Josh regretted seeing their time
shooting the video come to an end. Robin seemed disappointed as well.

“Do you want to grab dinner tonight, Robby?” Josh asked not hiding his hope.

Robin frowned for a second and shook his head. “I’m sorry but I can’t.”

Reality crashed in. “Oh, right. You have a date.”

“Wait. No, I can cancel it,” Robin said quickly.

No, Josh wouldn’t do that to him. “Nah, that’s okay. Go have fun with what’s his name. Stevie?”

Robin’s frown deepened as he corrected, “Stephen.”

“Whatever,” Josh said as he turned and walked away.

A week later, the tabloids were reprinting old pictures with new captures regarding them. A lot of
them focused on Josh’s many affairs with random women. One even suggested The Dark Angels
were breaking up. The stories were pure fiction but they sold copies.

* * *

As Josh watched the finished video with the band, he saw Shawn had been right. The love he and
Robin had for each other shone through in everything they did. They didn’t need to do anything
salacious, just playing together on the keyboard or bass, their love for each other came off them
in waves.

Hell, putting on their shoes together, just smiling at each other or laughing with each other as the
new song played, it was clear there was love there. Anyone who looked could see there was more
between them. They really were an example of two halves of the same whole.

Josh looked around at the other guys in the room. Angel and Darius were cuddled up together
grinning and enjoying everyone’s antics on the screen. They were happy with the video.

Dusty seemed a bit more quiet than usual. He had been cast in the role of the person still looking
for his other half in any way shape or form. Shawn was scary good at capturing snapshots of the
band’s reality.

Robin just stared at the screen with watery eyes, biting his lower lip. He was clearly upset. Josh
could feel the pain he was going through as if it were his own. He was probably worried about
Stephen seeing this video and what he would think of their interaction.

Josh felt like his feelings for Robin were broadcast loud and clear. They were all right there but
Robin clearly didn’t want his love. Josh couldn’t take it anymore. Before the video ended, he
jumped up and left.

CHAPTER 17

Josh sighed as he saw Dusty walk into the bar. He’d come to Josh’s rescue yet again. “This seems
to becoming a habit. People are gonna talk.” He teased Josh, trying to lighten the mood as he sat
down next to him.

Josh growled. “They already are!” He shot back the double shot of whiskey and gestured for a
refill.

“How many of those have you had?” Dusty asked with concern that he didn’t bother to hide.

Josh picked up the new glass and looked at it for a moment and then slammed back the dark
amber liquid. He took comfort in feeling the burning bite all the way down to his stomach.
“Including this one?” Dusty shook his head and Josh couldn’t help but smirk. “Not nearly
enough.” He had lost count, but the fact that he was still sitting upright suggested he hadn’t had
nearly enough. Josh waved to the bartender to give him another.

Dusty waved the bartender away, and tried to distract Josh. “Hey, you’re pounding them back so
fast you haven’t let them hit your system.”

Josh thought about that for a moment. “Hmmm, probably so.” Dusty was a good friend, he stayed
with him, drank a little, and just sat next to him. Dustin made sure he got home okay each and
every time. “Don’t want to sound like an ass, but don’t you have anything better to do than
follow me?” Josh asked as he was trying to remember if the bartender had given him the drink he
asked for and he’d slammed it back without feeling it. Didn’t matter. He asked for another one.

Dusty frowned as he answered, “No man, I don’t have anything better to do than hunt your drunk
ass down. It is immensely entertaining for me to watch you get drunk.”

Josh snorted. He thought that was pretty funny or maybe the alcohol was kicking in.

“So what’s the deal? You trying for alcohol poisoning or coma?”

“Multiple choice. Damn, I didn’t study.” Josh looked over at Dustin who seemed to be blurrier
than usual.

“Dude, you’ve been drinking like a fuck-up for the past two months. Every minute we are done
practicing you’re drinking to get drunk. I haven’t said anything. I figured you have shit going on
so I’ve just been letting you do your thing.” Dusty sighed. “But tonight, you aren’t even letting
yourself settle for a buzz.”

“So?” Josh wanted to know why that would be an issue for anyone but him.

Dusty leaned forward to spell it out for Josh…slowly. “You know, you coming to practice with

hangovers is starting to wear on everyone, especially Robin.”

“Ha!” Josh would have laughed if it hadn’t hurt so fucking much. Other than making the video,
Robin had not even spoken to him since Darius’s birthday. Not really. Oh sure, he answered
questions with yes or no, but as far as conversations or doing things together it was like Josh had
caught the plague.

“What?” Dusty questioned and by the look in his eye Josh was pretty sure he had guessed the
root of the problem.

“Robin couldn’t give a shit about me. He hasn’t talked to me in weeks. Robby’s too wrapped up
in Stevey or Stephen or whatever the fuck his name is.”

Dusty ran his hand down through his long blond hair before shaking his head. “Doubt that, man.
He’s upset that you’re drinking so much.” Josh arched an eyebrow forcing Dusty to admit, “And
he is upset with all the recent shit in the tabloids, not to mention the wild fan fiction on The Dark
Angels.”

“Yeah, tabloids twist the truth and the fan fiction can be just twisted,” Josh said as he felt the bar
moving slightly. Dusty wasn’t reacting to it so he must be well on his way to a nice blissful
drunk.

Dusty put a hand on Josh’s shoulder. “Look man, it bites. But just because it is on the Internet
doesn’t make it true. I mean have you seen the fan fiction on me?” Dusty saw he was losing Josh.
So he boiled it down to one simple concept. “What I am saying is, it doesn’t matter.”

“No? No? Ha! Wow! Ha!” Josh was angry and bitter. He knew Robby decided to date Stephen to
eliminate the rumors. And now Robin was probably in love with the fucking freak.

Josh allowed his misery to wash over him. He took a drink from the glass in front of him. After
realizing Dusty must have had the bartender give him water, he almost spat it out but it was icy
cold and felt good going down. Josh asked a question he hadn’t asked out loud to anyone else.
“What do you think of Stephen?”

“He’s fine.” Dusty was looking a little too hard at Josh.

Josh couldn’t stop the snort of disgust and waved the bartender for another drink. The bartender
pointedly ignored him. Frowning, he took another sip of the water.

“You know he is only being seen with Stephen because he wants to stop the rumors. They’re just
friends.”

Josh felt an arm snaking around him. Looking down at the hand grasping at him, Josh recognized
the nails with little pink diamondettes as female. He turned to greet the bold chick. “Hello,
sweetheart.” Josh figured he might as well use his charm on someone.

“Hi. I like, really like love your music.” Her bleached blonde hair looked like it would fall out if
a straightening iron were taken to it any time in the next three years. But ignoring the sprayed on

tan and tight top, she was almost pretty. Looking over at Dusty, she said, “Ohhhhhh, yeah. You
are the drummer, Dusty. I told my friend it was, like you guys. But she was like no. I was like
yeah-ah.” Barely taking a breath during her giggle, she continued. “Would you like to um, like go
someplace?”

Josh had a feeling that was where this was going. He almost wished he could say yes, but there
was no way. “Nah, honey, I have had too much to drink to be of any use to you.” That was
always a great excuse. Always worked like a charm.

She giggled and pushed something in his mouth. He tried to spit it out but instead his teeth
crunched it and he swallowed. “What the fuck was that?” Did the bitch just poison him?

“That was like,” she giggled like the moron she was. “You know the little pill.” She cupped the
front of his jeans and squeezed. “You won’t have any problems now.”

The alcohol was taking effect in a major way. He felt dizzy and sick.

“Jesus! He’s twenty-three, he doesn’t need pills.” Dusty was too disgusted with the bitch to carry
on a dialogue so he pushed the girl away. “Josh, are you okay?”

The room started spinning. He wasn’t sure if the pill would take affect that quickly or if the
alcohol finally decided to make itself known. Josh tried to stand up as if he could move away
from the feeling, or at least the bleach blonde viper who was still trying to touch him. His foot
hooked the leg of the stool and he took a tumble. His hands saved him from face planting but
fuck they hurt and then everything went black.

* * *

When Josh woke up, he was in a hospital room. The doctor was lecturing Dusty on being careless
while drinking. “Oh, Mr. Strider you have joined us.” The doctor stepped over the bed and shined
a light into his eyes. “You were dehydrated from the alcohol. I understand that someone gave you
a pill for erectile dysfunction.” The doctor wrote something down on the chart.

“Yeah, I told you some crazy girl,” Dusty answered clearly frustrated.

The doctor looked at both of them with doubt. “Yes, well. It should be out of your system in 24 to
36 hours. If your erection lasts more than four hours please come back.” He sounded annoyed as
he filled out more forms. “You sprained your wrists but if you follow instructions they should be
ready for your next show. Your friend tells me you play bass. It shouldn’t affect your finger
movements.”

“So I can go?” Josh asked in surprise.

The doctor set down his clipboard on the cart and opened the curtains. “Yes, you can go. There is

no medical reason to keep you. Hospitals are for sick people.” He turned on his heel and left.

Dusty stared at the fluttering curtain with his mouth opened. Grinning, he turned back to Josh,
“Well, let’s get you home.”

After Dusty helped him into his bed, he must have fallen asleep. Josh woke up to see Robin was
sitting in the chair staring off into space. As soon as he moved, Robin was by his side. Josh tried
to scratch his nose but lifted up a bandaged hand. “What?” Looking at the other hand confirmed
it was locked in gauze as well. “Right. I forgot.”

“Dusty said your hands will be fine. You sprained both wrists when you fell off the barstool. The
doctor said if you kept them wrapped for five days they should be better by the next show. But
only if you rest them.”

“How am I supposed to do anything?” Josh was disturbed and probably still a little drunk.

“I can take care of you,” Robin said without hesitation.

Josh knew he looked horrified by the idea. “I don’t want you to have to be my nurse. I know
you’re busy.”

Robin moved to sit on the bed. He moved closer to Josh’s face and took his forearm above the
bandages. “Hey, nothing is more important than you are.”

Josh wished he could believe him. He had just enough alcohol in his system to ask, “What about
Stephen?” He tried but failed to keep the irritation out of his voice just saying his name.

“What about him?” Robin looked confused.

“Won’t he be upset you’re spending all your time taking care of me?”

Clearly exasperated by Josh’s comment he said, “Like I fucking care about anyone but you.”

Robin never swore so he’d meant to emphasize his point. But Josh needed to push for
information. “But isn’t it serious with the two of you?”

Robin’s brow furrowed. “No. We’re only seeing each other to, you know, to help stop the…you
know…the rumors. We’re just friends.” His voice trailed off. Robin always busied himself when
he was nervous so he fussed with Josh’s covers and pillows. “How are you feeling? Is there
anything I can get for you?”

Josh was awake enough now to feel the Cialis was still in his system. Yeah, a blowjob! He had a
hard on that you could break bottles on. Oh God! He was beginning to really notice it. His cock
was so sensitive that the pressure of the sheet and duvet was almost enough to make him come.
The fabric had been stretched tight when Robin sat on the bed, pressing down on his cock.

Robin followed Josh’s eyes downward. His eyes widened as he saw the tented material pulled
taunt over Josh’s lap. There was no mistaking what caused the obscene distortion.

Robin’s big beautiful eyes devoid of their usual black rim of eyeliner caught Josh’s. Robin
opened his mouth and then cleared his throat before trying to speak. “Cialis?”

Josh shrugged. Looking down at his mummified hands he began to wonder how the hell he was
going to take care of things. Moonlight was streaming in from the window, casting shadows and
making Robin’s creamy white skin almost glow. The moon made him look almost fae. He was so
beautiful it almost hurt to look at him.

“Can I, um, help?” Robin asked as he was tugging down the sheets.

Josh realized he was naked under the swaths of silk and cotton. He wondered if Robin had
undressed him. The thought sent a chill through his body.

“Robby, you don’t have to,” Josh told him as his own body was screaming at the lunacy of his
words. His cock wanted nothing else in the world more than for Robin to tend to his need. His
heart craved the physical connection. But his brain knew that would be folly.

Robin pulled the sheet and duvet to the bottom of the bed and the gentle breeze from the central
air vent kissed over Josh’s aroused flesh. Josh knew Robin could see him throb and waited no
more.

Robin’s hot wet mouth swallowed him straight down his throat tearing a moan of desire from
Josh. No gagging, just a nice swallow to massage his aroused dick. It felt so good. Josh knew this
would be an embarrassingly short encounter.

Robin got right to work moving his mouth up and down. Gentle hands played with Josh’s balls,
rolling them softly. The sacs were drawn up tight and ready to spurt. A finger slipped behind
them and circled his hole that had gone too long unfilled. The light tease was too much. Josh’s
body released his pent up frustration down Robin’s throat. His orgasm was long and strong but as
he finished Josh realized he was still rock hard.

Robin pulled his mouth off Josh, swallowing down the remaining drops. He delicately wiped his
lips and looked away as he licked his fingers. The action made Josh’s insides twist. It was
probably wishful thinking but it was as if Robin couldn’t bear the thought of not ingesting all of
what he had given him.

Josh opened his mouth to say something to him, but he closed it. What could he say? Thank you?
Gross. I love you? True. But he knew from history those words had ramifications that could upset
Robin.

“Josh?” Robin asked so many questions with just his name, he didn’t know what he should
answer first.

Josh taking the coward’s way out just shrugged. Maybe if he ignored his erection it would
disappear.

“Should I...?” Robin asked leaving the question out there.

“You don’t have to,” he said as if his body wasn’t begging for Robin to give him more.

Robin grinned. “I know I don’t have to...but I kind of need you, too.” Without further words,
Robin stood and stripped off his clothing. Soon he wore his collar necklace, a sexy smile and
nothing else.

Getting the bottle of lubrication and a condom from the nightstand, Robin joined him on the bed.

Robin answered the question that must have been on Josh’s face. “I put these in here a while ago.
Just in case...you brought someone home.” The pain of the perceived hurt and the perceived
betrayal that seemed to be cutting Robin deeply bled into his tone.

“Robby, I haven’t—not with anyone but you.” Josh was suddenly choked by emotion and could
barely get the words out.

“But all those women?” Robin pointed out what every tabloid had claimed.

Josh knew he was painted as a huge slut which was especially funny since the only times he had
sexual experience with more than just his right hand, Robin was in attendance.

Josh shook his head. “No one. Ever.” Josh stared into his beautiful eyes. “Just with you.”

Robin’s beautiful eyes got wide with shock. “Really?” After Josh reconfirmed it with a nod,
Robin’s face lit up with a very happy smile.

It was the first real smile Josh had seen on Robin in quite some time. Robin didn’t say more. He
kissed Josh softly on the mouth until it roared into a fiery passion. Josh heard the bottle of lube
being opened and he wanted to see Robin prepare but he couldn’t bear not to continue to kiss
him. On and on their lips traced over each other. Tongues licked out to play and tease exciting
both of them beyond reason.

Robin sat back on his knees and straddled Josh’s hips. Josh inhaled deeply as his cock found the
place he wanted to be most of all. He slid inside of Robin as the light filtering in through the
blinds played over Robin’s form. Very slowly Robin slid down onto Josh with one long moan.

When he was as close to him as physically possible, Josh exhaled. “Oh, so fucking tight and hot!”
The relief his heart felt at being connected to Robin was almost unbearable. Josh was complete
for the first time in months. He felt whole.

Robin who was usually modest, almost virginal, seemed to relish the fact that Josh was deeply
embedded inside him. Josh could see the image in the large mirror behind Robin. He was
breathless as that perfect ass rose off his cock only to consume it time and time again. Josh
groaned from the pleasure of feeling Robin moving slowly up and down his stiff prick.

Looking away from the mirror, Josh was treated to the front view of his love. His long peacock
colored hair flared around his shoulders, his kiss swollen lips drawn up in a sexy fuck-me smile
and his very aroused cock hoping for some direct attention, mesmerized Josh.

Josh’s right hand reached for Robin’s cock until he realized his fist was trapped under gauze. He
growled in frustration. “Touch yourself for me, Robby,” Josh just about begged as his dick was
sucked back into the scorching hot back passage. “Wait,” he said impatiently as he slowly picked
up the pace. He just noticed the unopened condom package. Robin changed the angle. Based on
the agonized groan, Josh knew he was pegging Robin’s prostate. Josh’s eyes landed on the
golden plastic package. “Robin, condom.” Robin seemed to ignore him. “You forgot the
condom.”

Robin sexy smile turned into a grin. “No I didn’t. You said…mmmmm,” Robin got lost in the
feeling for a moment. He moved himself up and back down as if he was chasing a good feeling.
“You said you haven’t been with anyone but me.”

“Yeah?” Josh was still not getting it.

“Neither have I,” Robin said.

“Oh,” was all Josh could think of to say. “I thought...” Josh decided it was best not to finish that
sentence.

Robin grinned happily at him. “No one but you.” A delicious internal clenching emphasized each
word that was making Josh’s eyes cross. “Only you.”

Wishing like hell he had his hands, Josh just lay there and watched Robin take him. “Really?”

Robin’s hand wrapped around his cock and tugged. “Yeah.” He seated himself onto Josh’s prick
and drew off it, riding Josh like he was racing on a pony. He was moving so fast he was almost
bouncing. “No one else.”

Josh was breathing hard and froze as his body was hurled over the edge. “Robin, oh Robin!” His
dick spasmed as if he hadn’t just come from Robin’s loving mouth.

As warm pulsing gushes filled Robin, he followed Josh with a few firm jerks on his cock. He
painted Josh’s chest with his love and devotion. “So good! Love you!” Robin was close to
shouting and he didn’t seem to care. Josh was glad. It felt too amazing for Robin to worry about
being loud. He loved seeing him lose control.

Robin’s hole pulsed around Josh as if it were sucking everything out of Josh from deep inisde
him. This gave Josh wicked pleasurable aftershocks. “Love you, Robby,” he whispered as Robin
collapsed on top of him shivering with satisfaction.

After a while, Robin got up to get a warm washcloth. He cleaned himself in the bathroom then
tended gently to Josh. When he was done, he curled himself around Josh.

Josh thought he had fallen asleep but then Robin asked, “You were in the bar with Dusty right?
So why would she give you Cialis?”

Chuckling, Josh answered honestly, “I think it’s gotten around that my drinking prevents me
from physical involvements.” Feeling Robin stiffen and start to withdraw. “Shhhh, listen. I

always used it as an excuse. Dusty thought it was funnier than hell. I couldn’t really blurt out the
truth.”

Robin pulled back to look deeply into his eyes. “The truth?”

“Yeah.” He frowned not knowing how much he should say to him at this very moment. But he
decided he would cut to the chase. “I can’t even jerk off without having fantasies about you.”
Watching Robin’s face as this little tidbit registered, he said, “I love you. Don’t want anyone
else.” Josh shrugged as if it couldn’t be helped. And it really couldn’t. “I never have wanted
anyone but you.”

“Really?” Tears ran down Robin’s cheeks. “Me, either.” He giggled when Josh tried to brush
them away with his big-bandaged hands. “Love you so much. Sometimes, it hurts so bad,” Robin
whispered through his tears.

“I know. I don’t want you hurting anymore.”

“Yeah, but there isn’t a choice. We aren’t supposed to be in love with each other.” Robin looked
like he was going to cry again.

“Why the hell not?” This interlude with Robin helped him put things in perspective. “Is there a
rule that says since we grew up in the same house we can’t be together? Fuck the rules. I am tired
of having my heart ripped out.”

Robin’s breath hitched.

Josh continued. “Look, we have money now. We are family and always will be family. But for
the love of Buddha, we aren’t related and I want so much more.” Josh was still feeling woozy
from the alcohol, the pill, and now the confession. But he continued to talk. “Let everyone talk.
Who the fuck cares? It’s not like it has hurt the band. Hell, with us, the band has a whole other
level of groupie.” Josh chuckled at Robin’s grave expression.

He waited as Robin turned it over in his head. Giving him time to process was key to Robby
accepting the idea. Josh bit his lip to help himself remain quiet allowing Robin the space to think.

When Robin was still staring off into space after five minutes, Josh moved his body flush next to
him. Skin to skin. Cock to cock. He leaned in and gave him a small inviting kiss. “Imagine it,
Robby.” Another soft moist kiss was given. “You and me.” Josh cupped his face and kissed each
cheek. “Together. Really together.” His tongue licked out to trace Robin’s beautiful lips. “Exactly
how we want to be together.”

Robin looked at him.“You really won’t just leave me?” Finally his complete and total fear of
abandonment was making an appearance.

“Never. Whether you keep me as the kid you grew up with, non-related stepbrother, your best
friend, or let me be your lover, I am not going anywhere. As a matter of fact, I think I might have
a way to tie you to me in a way you will clearly understand.” He fingered Robin’s collar. “Would
you like us to be tied together?”

“Yes.” Robin answered without hesitation. That gave him something to think about. He kept
talking nervously as if he were trying to talk the pieces into place.

Josh hated hiding his feelings but if that’s what it would take to make Robin comfortable, he
would do it. “And no one needs to know for certain. Let the rumor mill spin.”

Robin frowned for a moment. “The guys know.”

Josh shrugged. “So?”

Giggling, Robin snuggled into him. “I guess they seem to like it.”

“You think?” Laughing, Josh asked, “What gave it away?” Josh kissed Robin soundly on the
mouth. “Angel inviting us to play with him? Or Darius’s birthday? Or Dare cuddling you every
chance he gets now?”

“It’s not like that, Josh.”

Josh couldn’t stop his laughter on seeing Robin’s almost prudish expression. “I see nothing
wrong with you snuggling with Darius once in a while. You two are pretty cute together. I think
it helps you see your needs aren’t so different.” He held him tightly against him. “Just as long as
you belong to me.”

Robin looked up at him through his impossibly long lashes. “I think I really do, but...”

That seemed to be the tipping point. Robin groaned and rocked his body into Josh’s. Aroused and
needy, Robin welcomed his advances. He rolled on top and starting sucking Josh’s neck.

Josh groaned. He loved getting hickeys from Robin. “Be inside me, Robby.”

Robin pulled back and smiled at the request. “You sure?” Robin couldn’t resist teasing him. His
fingers already slick and preparing him for their joining.

Heated from the inside out, Josh pushed down on Robin’s wet digits. “Yeah. Don’t make me
wait. Not anymore.” They both knew they were not talking about sex but right now that’s all
Robin seemed to be able to handle. “Please!”

Robin answered Josh’s agonized plea almost immediately. Robin slid inside and didn’t stop until
he was balls deep. Closing his eyes, Robin just stopped to savor the feeling.

Josh couldn’t stop the words. “Every night.” Robin pulled out slow and pushed in fast and deep.
“Every morning.” Robin’s eyes were locked onto his and he didn’t say no, so Josh took that as a
yes. “Mine. Together.”

Robin’s intensity was focused solely on fucking him. Josh thought he almost appeared possessed.
He moved his shaft in and out going harder and faster. Robin seemed to lose control as he took
him.

Josh wanted to cup his rounded ass and pulled him in even deeper but with his hands out of

commission that was impossible. Robin had never taken Josh liked this; it was flat out hot. Josh
would be feeling it tomorrow but he relished the thought. Proof that Robin loved him. Needed
him. Wanted him.

Robin started moaning his enjoyment. With each and every thrust, he got a little louder until he
was trembling in an effort not to spend before his soul mate. “Josh. Close. So close.” He reached
between them and fisted Josh’s prick. Josh was stroked inside and out.

It didn’t take much for Josh to come again. His passage clamped down tight on Robin, and then
as the waves of orgasm carried him away he felt his opening pulse in time with the ribbons of
white that coated his chest. His body forced Robin to find the same release. On a broken cry,
Robin filled Josh. Josh’s body kept squeezing the cock inside him as release was given and
received.

Robin fell forward onto Josh. When Josh tried to cup Robin’s face lovingly, they both wound up
laughing because Josh’s bandaged hands just bumped into Robin’s face. Laughing, Robin held
Josh’s face so he could press a kiss that held all the love that was possible. Robin settled back
down and cozied right up to Josh.

“Mind if I sleep here?” Robin mumbled as if he needed permission.

Wrapping his arms around him, Josh replied, “Not at all. This is our bed now.”

Robin giggled and rested his head into the crook of his shoulder. “No, I mean right here.” Robin
snuggled down onto him.

Josh tried to pet his hair but was unable to so settled for stroking his back in circles with his
bandaged paws. Grinning with pleasure at the question, Josh answered, “Yeah, Robby. Right here
is just fine.”

Soon Robin was sleeping right on top of Josh. Josh found himself still smiling and feeling
completely at peace with the world. Until he remembered Robin hadn’t agreed to anything.

Sighing as his adorable lover cuddled closer to him in his sleep. Josh knew this is how things
should be. How things needed to be. He just needed to keep Robin convinced of that!

CHAPTER 18

“Oh God! Yeah, yeah!” The scream ripped through their quiet apartment as Robin woke up
orgasming in Josh’s mouth.

Robin blinked awake as he shot off another volley of come in Josh’s hot greedy mouth. When he
was done, he sighed with relief and satisfaction. “Mmmmm.” Robin quietly moaned with a smile
on his face looking down at Josh.

Josh squirmed his way up to kiss Robin on the mouth. He knew he tasted of Robin’s cum, but he
wanted a kiss. Robin gave him a nice open mouth French kiss sharing his taste, then he seemed to
remember. “How are your hands, Josh?”

Laughing, “Fine. But I think you were more worried about my mouth a couple minutes ago.”

Robin rolled his eyes and then grinned. “True. Great way to wake up.”

“Really, I wouldn’t know.” Josh teased making it plain what he was hoping for. His hard cock
was tenting the sheet.

A sexy smile crawled over Robin’s face. “Really? Hmmm, well, I would have to say it is the very
best way to wake up.” Robin pulled the covers back up from where they’d slipped down as if he
were going to go back to sleep.

Josh growled and waited for some attention.

Robin just lay there. Then when Josh frowned, he pretended he just begun to understand. “Oh, I
see.” He giggled. “Would you like me to…you know?” Robin gestured towards Josh’s arching
cock.

“Yes!” Josh loved when Robin teased, so he fairly shouted as his dick was throbbing. He was
pretty sure it had nothing to do with the Cialis left in his system and more to do with Robin in his
bed.

Robin was terribly sexy when he chose to tease. Josh loved it and he loved him. Right now
though his dick wanted to be inside that sweet sucking mouth so he could come.

Josh was a bit off centered not being able to rest his weight on his hands and Robin took full
advantage of that as he knocked him flat on his back. Slithering slowly down Josh’s body, Robin
paused to look up at him.

“Come on.” Josh was certainly not above begging. He knew what he needed and it was very clear
whom he needed it from.

Robin batted his extra long eye lashes, flirting sweetly with Josh. “Yes, Josh?”

“Need you,” Josh grumbled as his bandaged hands moved uselessly at his sides.

Robin’s eyes were drawn to his injuries and he hurried to rectify the situation. Yeah, he would
use guilt if it meant…Josh groaned loudly as Robin’s mouth slid over his cock.

“Damn!” Josh just about whimpered as those gorgeous pillowed lips began dragging up and
down his shaft. “You are so freaking good at that.”

He sucked up to the tip and released it, giggling cutely when the cock swayed back towards his
mouth as if it were trying to re-enter. “You taught me everything I know.” Robin smiled around
Josh’s cock and shockingly enough the boy blushed. It was puzzling to him how Robin could
blush at a time like this, but Josh didn’t have much time to ponder this thought or any other for
that matter.

His cock was being giving the royal treatment. A tongue was stroking up and down as hot suction
was being administrated. It was that combination along with his aroused state that sent him
keening over the edge much sooner than he anticipated. On a harsh cry, come gushed out of him
and Robin swallowed him down quickly until his balls ran dry.

Robin’s lips pulled off his cock with a pop. “There. So now what do you think? Is that the best
way to wake up or what?” Robin was still teasing Josh.

Josh laughed then sobered. He couldn’t let their love dangle between them anymore. “Waking up
with you is the best way to wake up.” They shared a long open mouthed kiss that was flavored
with their seed.

There was shift in the mood between them. A lot was said last night and resolution was needed.
They couldn’t go on like this. It hurt too much and at some point the hurt would turn into anger.

“Robin, I love you. I have always loved you.” Josh looked away from his beautiful face afraid of
what he would see. Unsure why he was telling him other than proving the point of how much he
really did love him, he said, “You know, I don’t even know if I am gay or bi.”

“What?”

“Seriously. I have never been attracted to anyone other than you. Not male or female, just you,”
Josh stated a little sadly. It was a bit pathetic but there it was. There was no one else for Josh
before or in the future. There was only Robin.

“No. Don’t say that.”

“Have you been attracted to anyone else?” Josh couldn’t keep the jealousy out of his voice.

Robin stared at Josh for a long moment. Josh wondered if he would refuse to answer. Biting his
lip, he confessed. “Well, no not really. But I’ve always known I was gay.”

Josh wanted clarity. “Not even Darius?” He wasn’t jealous, more curious.

Robin looked shocked then he giggled. “Nope. I mean, he and Angel are hot together. I liked
watching them. It was cool…you know on his birthday…” Josh could see Robin was fighting to
find the right words to convey his true meaning. “We’re both the same.” Robin’s big eyes looked
up at Josh to ask for assistance.

“Submissive,” Josh stated.

“Yeah, I guess.” Blushing Robin nodded. “We both, I don’t know, understand each other. I don’t
have to explain everything from the beginning to him; he knows.”

Josh actually did understand. He had never felt threatened by Darius at all. He didn’t mind Robin
kissing or hugging Darius because well, as Robin implied he was ‘safe’. Darius was all about
Angel.

Robin’s involvement with Dare seemed to help him come to terms with his confusion about his
submissive streak. He had never been with anyone without Josh being there with him,
participating and watching. Josh was always a part of it and he enjoyed it too, so jealousy didn’t
come into play.

Robin looked away from Josh. “It isn’t easy, you know.”

Josh tried to stroke Robin’s face but wound up just pushing his bandaged hands over his cheeks.
But Robin leaned into them and Josh was thrilled to see the love shining in Robin’s eyes.

Josh smiled. “I know. I admire that you are willing to explore that part of yourself with me.” Josh
had always suspected that Robin was interested in Domination/submission since those parts of
Robin’s romance novels were so well read.

He knew Robin needed firm boundaries to feel safe. It wasn’t until Darius’s birthday that he
realized he could be the one to set those boundaries. That he needed to man up. Robin didn’t need
or want to be controlled constantly but he needed the security it provided.

“Thanks.” Robin’s tension seemed to ease and his tongue loosened. “It’s a bit scary to, you know,
want that stuff. With Darius doing the same stuff I felt like less of a freak…”

“You are so not a freak. You’re so beautiful when you let me give you what you need.”

“You’re what I need,” Robin whispered as he rolled into Josh’s arms.

“Then give yourself to me. All the time.”

“But…”

“But what? So what we grew up together and have the same last name. Why does that matter so
fucking much? Because, people won’t like it? I don’t fucking care! We don’t need to flaunt it.
Outside The Dark Angels who do we hang out with? It’s not like we have a ton of friends. As
long we have each other and our music, what else do we need?”

“I don’t know.” Robin looked concerned and more than a little confused. He rolled away from

Josh. “I need to think.”

“Robin…” Josh failed to keep the hurt out of his voice. Here we fucking go again! What is there
to think about? You either love me or you don’t! “Please, Robby.”

Robin peeked at Josh over his shoulder. “Let me have some time.” He was standing and dressing
before Josh even had a chance to respond.

Josh just lay there wishing the bed would swallow him up. He wanted to rewind time. He felt like
he was screwing this up if only he could take back some words. Some pressure. But he couldn’t
go back to how things were. Not after last night and this morning. This was how life should be.
But Robin was walking away…again.

Josh felt the despair washing over him as he heard the apartment door shut. A tear rolled down
his face as he started to laugh. He just realized he had to go to the bathroom and had no hands.

* * *

“Asshole. Just put it on a plate and cut it up.” Josh knew he shouldn’t be snapping at the man
who brought him food, but he was upset and beyond frustrated with the lack of hands. The fact
that he didn’t know where Robin had gone for the last few hours wasn’t making his mood any
brighter.

“Wow, man. Take it down a notch.” Dusty did as requested. “You could have called one of the
assistants if you didn’t want my help. You are a rock star, you know.”

“I didn’t want to deal with them.”

Dusty grinned. “So deal with me and stop bitching.” Then he poked a piece of hamburger and
bun with a fork holding it out to Josh, “Here comes the chew-chew train. Chew chew. Open up.”
His voice was high and sing songy as he bugged the hell out of Josh.

Josh didn’t know whether to slap him or punch him. After smelling a whiff of the greasy burger
and fries he opened up for the chew-chew. “Mmmmm, fuck that’s good,” Josh mumbled more to
himself than Dusty.

“The plane is coming in for a landing. Open up the hanger,” Dusty said in the same high pitched
voice saved for children.

Josh rolled his eyes. “You do know I am not two-years-old right?”

Dusty cracked up. He clearly enjoyed tormenting Josh. “Yeah, man. Force of habit I guess.” Josh
knew he grew up taking care of his younger brothers, so his experience involved turning
spoonfuls of food into airplanes and trains.

Stopping himself from asking what habit he was referring to Josh changed the subject. “So,
what’s it like outside?”

Looking around, Dusty asked, “Where’s Robin?”

“Out.” Josh hoped he sounded normal. “Is it cold?”

Dusty fed him some fries and moved the soda closer to him so he could suck it down with a
straw. “Out? You said that before but it doesn’t really tell me anything.” Dusty said in
annoyance.

“What?” Josh was getting pissed. “He went out. He is an adult you know.”

Dusty held up his hands. “Dude, relax. I just asked. I mean, it’s weird. I would have expected him
to be here.” Dusty fed him the rest of the food.

Josh looked away and tried to take interest in the photographs they had hung up of their various
trips. He tried to change his frown to something neutral but that seemed pretty impossible.

Sitting back, Dusty just watched him silently. Josh looked at him and tried not to feel like he was
being analyzed. The stare seemed to intensify and Josh felt like he was being opened up for an
organ examination.

“What?”

“What?” Dusty asked as if he didn’t know he was staring and seeing much more than he should.

“What? You’re the one who’s staring,” Josh exclaimed completely exasperated with the
conversation. Maybe starving to death would have been better.

“You know I’m here if you need to talk.” Dusty sat forward as if he were waiting for Josh to spill
his guts.

“Thanks,” Josh grumbled realizing he really did appreciate Dusty’s friendship.

“About anything.” Dusty stared at him and it was clear where this line of discussion was going.

“And by anything, you mean Robin?” Josh may only have gotten his GED but he wasn’t stupid.

“Yeah.” Dusty tossed a hunk of his long blond hair over his shoulder. He shook his head and
sighed as if he could feel some of the pain Josh was in.

Josh had never really said anything to Dusty about his relationship with Robin. He knew Dusty
got second hand information from Angel about the time they had spent with him and their more
recent gathering after Darius’s birthday bash. But the guy never said a thing.

“It has to be tough.” Dusty’s hair slid back over his shoulders again as he leaned towards Josh.
“You know we all support you guys, right? Regardless. Whatever. You know?”

Josh smiled at Dusty realizing how much hearing the words meant. “Maybe you should tell that
to Robin.”

“Why?”

“This morning I sort of…” Josh inhaled. What the hell had he done exactly? “I might have given
him an ultimatum.”

Dusty sat back and arched his eyebrow over his green eyes. “Really. Why now?”

Josh sighed with a frown. “’Cause this sucks. You know? I mean he’s it for me. I don’t want to
wait for special occasions to have him. Or when his urges overwhelm him; I want him all the
time.”

“Understandable, but Robin said he didn’t want that?” Josh loved the disbelief in Dusty’s
question. It gave him cause for hope.

Josh shrugged. “He said he needed time to think.”

“Dude, you know I like Robin. Great guy, but the boy likes to think things through.” Josh opened
his mouth but Dusty raised a finger to stop him. “Even things he knows. When things are
changing he likes to take a step back and take a good long look.”

Josh nodded. He knew Dusty wasn’t telling him anything he didn’t know already. It just sucked!

“Give him a chance to think about things.” Dusty grinned. “He loves you, man. Give him time to
process.”

“Yeah,” Josh begrudgingly said.

“Come on.” Dusty picked up the plastic covers that would protect his bandages against water. “I
ain’t going to shower you.” Dusty laughed. “I’ll let Robin wash and tend to all your nooks and
crannies, but I can help you get in a bath. You still smell of the bar from last night and that
bitch’s cigarette.”

Josh was going to reject the idea but after his time sitting down to go pee and trying to pull up his
sleep pants, he figured he would take any help he could get. “Thanks, dude.”

Within a few minutes, Dusty had settled him into the garden tub with the plastic protectors on his
mits. He held up his hands and looked at them. “Feels like I have condoms on my arms.”

“Well, I ain’t bending over for an anal probe so take that out of your mind,” Dusty teased.

Not to be outdone, Josh gave it right back to him. “You know, Angel is right. You are obsessed
with gay sex. It’s anal this and probe that. I personally think it is something you need to look
into.”

Dusty’s mouth dropped open for a moment to look at Josh. He frowned as he was clearly trying
to think of a comeback. He shrugged. “You know I could drown you quite easily.”

Josh’s laugh barked out. “Hey, wash my hair. It is so itchy and I have no freaking fingers at the
moment.”

“Yeah. I am your drummer not your manservant.”

Josh frowned at him. “Come on, man. Help me out,” Josh begged a little.

The final straw was when Josh held up his bandaged hands looking for sympathy. “Fine. As you
wish, Lord Dumbass. Lean back you jackass and I will wash your hair.” Dusty sighed
dramatically as if he were truly put out by it. He dumped shampoo and scrubbed.

Josh laughed. “On the left hand side, above the ear. Yeah. Right there.”

“Should I be looking for lice?” Dusty chuckled as he scrubbed with his fingertips.

“Only when you look at your pubic hair.”

Dusty cuffed him in the back of his head. “Dude, so not cool.” But then he laughed spoiling his
irritation. Dusty asked as he washed Josh’s hair, “So when did you know you were gay?”

Josh’s head cocked to one side. “Why is everyone obsessed with labels? Truth is I don’t know
what the fuck I am.”

“Huh? Are you bi like Dare?”

Josh laughed. “I don’t think anyone is bi like Dare.”

Dusty joined him in the chuckle. “Yeah, that boy refuses labels in a major way.”

Nodding, Josh agreed. “But why do we force people to choose? Who the hell cares? As long as
you get a say in your own genitals it shouldn’t matter.” Coming down off of his soapbox, he
shrugged. “I don’t know what I am. Seriously, I have always been attracted to Robin. Not really
anyone else.”

“Ever?” Dusty was more than a little surprised by that admission.

“Ever… I mean I can appreciate attractive people, but I don’t feel the desire to be with them. If
that makes any sense…” Josh was pretty sure it didn’t.

“But you were with Angel and Darius,” Dusty pointed out trying to understand.

“Yeah, but Robin was there. I was focusing on him. His reactions to… everything.”

“Interesting.”

“What?” Josh wanted to know.

“Just thinking of our game of Truth or Dare. Darius said he wasn’t gay. You’re saying you don’t
know if you’re gay, just that you just want Robin.” Dusty took the handheld showerhead and

sprayed out the soap from Josh’s hair. “Maybe people shouldn’t have to be pushed into a
category. Maybe sexuality is more fluid. There a number of studies on this issue.” Josh watched
Dusty drift away in his own thoughts until he said, “I wonder if there is just a predisposition that
some people are more open to same sex relationships even if they wouldn’t consider themselves
gay. And what is gay?”

Josh scrunched his face up. “Why does it matter?”

Dusty seemed lost in his own head again. “Huh? Oh, I don’t know; I just find it interesting.
Someone should do another study on…” Dusty’s eyes refocused on Josh.

Josh, used to Dusty going off on an intellectual foray, simply waited until it was done.

Laughing when he realized he had lost Josh a while back, Dusty smiled at him, “Okay, stand up
and I will turn on the shower so you can get the soap off of you.”

“Thanks.” Josh struggled to his feet. Once he was done, he soon found himself wrapped in his
terry cloth robe to soak up the water and Dusty was using a towel to dry his hair.

Josh grinned at Dusty. “You are going to make a great dad someday.”

Dusty’s eyes went wide with surprise. “What?” He glared at Josh. “Right. I am not that old. I am
just a great older brother.”

Josh burst out with laughter. “Yeah, right. You only act like you’re ancient.” He sobered a
moment. “But seriously, thanks.”

Dusty smirked. “Just called me Nurse Wretched.”

“Is it time for my enema?”

Dusty pointed a finger at Josh. “See. It’s not me! It’s everyone else! You are looking for the anal
probe.”

“See, there you go bringing up an anal probe!” Josh said with all the love he felt for the guy.
“Fuck you.”

“As I tell Angel all the time, I don’t want to make your better half jealous!”

Josh’s grin got bigger. He loved that Dusty referred to Robin as his better half. He really hoped
that would be the case. “I really hope so.”

Dusty’s eyes sparkled with mirth. “That I would fuck you or that Robin would be jealous?” He
cracked up at his own joke. Dusty ran a brush through Josh’s wet hair.

“Dumb ass!” Josh couldn’t hold back the laugh that erupted from deep inside. “No, that Robin
would be my other half.”

“Better half, dude.” Dusty shook his head,

“Again, fuck you.”

“Again, no thank you,” Dusty quipped. Then he got serious for a moment. “Give him time. It’s a
lot to deal with.”

“Yeah, I know. But for me it’s not. So…”

Dusty shook his head. “With everything you guys have been through it’s no wonder he has trust
issues. You know when Angel wanted Dare, he basically told him and showed him how it would
be.”

“So you think I should force him?”

“Josh, you wouldn’t be forcing him to do anything. More like guiding him. Angel said…” Dusty
stopped talking when he realized what he was saying.

“What did he say?” Josh wanted to know because obviously Angel was handling Darius better
then he was handling Robin.

Shrugging, Dusty finished his thought. “Look, Robin is clearly a bit on the subby side. Angel said
you were a bit alpha with him and he practically creamed himself just from your voice.” Dusty
snorted, letting it be known what he thought of that. “So just give him what he needs…”

“I have been thinking the same thing but I don’t want to force him or push him into something.”
Josh admitted where his thoughts kept circling.

“Not forcing…”

Josh nodded his head. “Taking control would give him the security he seems to need.”

Dusty shrugged as he reasoned, “Then maybe he’ll let go of the ‘brother’ bullshit excuse that he
uses to keep you at a distance. Though I doubt our fans will let it go. They seem to simply ignore
the fact that you aren’t related.”

Sighing, Josh’s frustration came out in his tone. “Tell me about it. You know how much those fan
fictions used to hurt his feelings?”

Dusty exhaled. “Yeah, I know.” They exited the bathroom. Josh went to sit on the sofa and Dusty
got them some bottles of water. He remembered that Josh needed a straw and snagged the one in
his empty soda cup.

“Got any favorites?” Dusty brought in a pill. “Take just half a dose. The doctor said it would
keep down any swelling and pain.”

“Favorites?” Josh asked.

“Yeah, any favorite stories or writers from our fan sites.”

Josh laughed giving him the party line. “I don’t read those stories.”

Dusty smirked. “Yeah, right. I like that writer DarkJustine28. She’s an awesome story teller.”

“Oh, I am sure she’s a favorite of yours. In every story she writes you’re the most attractive of the
group.”

“Thought you didn’t read fan fiction.” Dusty grinned at having tripped up Josh.

“Must be the pain meds.” Josh frowned. Granted, since he just took them he doubted they
affected him at all, but it was the only excuse he could come up with.

“Yeah, whatever you say, dude. Just admit it. Confession is good for the soul.”

Josh rolled his eyes. “Fine. I admit it. It’s been the only consistent outlet I have!” He tilted his
head and looked at Dusty. “How do you know DarkJustine28 is a girl?

“She may have emailed our fan site, once or twice.” Dusty stopped meeting Josh’s eyes. “I saw
her picture. She’s beautiful.”

“Do you have a stalker?” Josh asked, half serious.

“No. Gawd, no! She is a true Red Sox fan though, and we are far and few between! We stick
together.” He laughed in an uncharacteristic oddly uncomfortable way.

Robin walked through the door. Josh breathed a sigh of relief. Dusty smiled. “Well, that would be
my cue to leave.”

Dusty walked past Robin but not before he stopped for a hug. Josh couldn’t hear what was
whispered. It was a quick conversation ending with Dusty saying, “Stop letting bullshit control
you, and do what you want.”

Robin gave him another big hug. Dusty waved at Josh and left. Robin lingered at the door for a
moment.

Robin realized he had left Josh in the house alone for hours. Filled with guilt, he rushed over and
began apologizing. “Oh, Josh. I am so sorry for leaving you here when you need my help. I don’t
know what I was thinking.”

Josh certainly didn’t mind when Robin’s arms came around him, hugging him close. He felt
himself melting into the heat and love but he needed to set things straight.

“So sorry, Josh.” Robin placed a gentle kiss on his cheek.

Josh choked. Robin was rejecting him. “It’s okay.” So that was it. He’d done his thinking and
come to the conclusion it was over.

Robin’s eyes went wide and he giggled. “No, I mean sorry for leaving you. That was thoughtless.
And sorry for needing time. I mean I didn’t really need to decide.” He sighed. “I knew…I just
needed time to adjust to getting my head on straight. I needed to figure out how I could have
what I wanted.”

“You mean…”

Robin nodded his head. “I mean I want you. I love you. I want this to work. I want to be with
you. I always have.”

“Be with me.” Josh repeated the words. “As in…” his voice trailed off not believing it could be
real.

“As in be together; you are mine and I am yours.”

“Oh!” Josh exclaimed happily and pushed Robin down on the sofa to kiss him deeply. “I think
there are some things we need to discuss.”

It was Robin’s turn to look worried. “What?”

Hard to be dominating when one didn’t have hands but Josh gave it his best shot. “I want this
collar to mean you are mine—and I want us to get married.”

Robin’s eyes went big but he stayed silent just looking up at Josh.

“I know you aren’t looking to be a slave boy twenty-four seven, but you need some boundaries.
You need someone to watch out for the tigers and to give you what you need.” Josh’s voice
automatically seemed to drop lower. “Give you what you crave.”

Robin’s response could be seen and heard in his rapid breathing. Below his waist, his tight pants
showed the outline of his very hard cock that also answered loud and clear. But he stayed silent.

“I want to marry you because I will be the one to fulfill these needs you have. I want it legal. I
will fill the voids you have inside with love.” Josh stopped to watch Robin for a moment. “And
discipline.” Robin’s eyes shut as he shivered. Josh smiled, liking his response. “I want you to
know you never have to worry about me leaving you. You will be completely mine.”

“You want to be my Dom?” Robin asked quietly.

“When you need it, yeah. Master, Dom, Dominant, Alpha, whatever you want to call it. As your
submissive needs come out, I will be answering them. Problems?”

“Ah, no I guess not.” A smile of happiness brightened Robin’s face.

Josh nodded his head pleased with the progress he had made. “We will pick out a safe word.”

“Death.”

“What?”

“Death, that’s my safe word.” Robin blushed just a little.

Josh was surprised. “You have a safe word?”

“Well, yeah. I mean, yeah.”

Josh shrugged and thought for a moment. “I guess that’s a great word that wouldn’t be said
normally, and a real downer.”

Robin giggled. “Exactly the point.”

Josh kissed those lips tenderly but was careful not to get carried away. “So when did you pick out
your safe word?”

Burying his head into Josh’s shoulder he whispered, “When I was thirteen.”

Josh didn’t know what to say to that. So he got back to the bigger question. “Now that we have a
safe word. Will you marry me?”

“Yes,” Robin cried out before kissing Josh. “Yes.” Kisses rained down on Josh’s face. “Yes.”
Josh loved the answer.

Chaste kisses went to hot sex in a matter of moments. But it was the best way to celebrate their
new understanding.

CHAPTER 19

At the hotel where the band was staying for their last Saturday night show before the holiday
break, Josh and Robin invited the band and Megan to a celebration of what Robin was referring
to as ‘their declaration.’ They would share their news with Uncle Leo when they visited on their
upcoming vacation, but they were sure he would be pleased.

Josh put together the ceremony. He wanted to make sure Robin would know that he was tied to
him, and that those ties were so strong there was no getting loose. He collared Robin in front of
their friends, who were more like family to them. They used the original leather pieces they had
given to each other years ago and had them retooled to include the Celtic designs for love. During
the ceremony, he and Robin unveiled their engagement tattoos. The scrolling tattoos encircling
the fourth finger of their left hands ensured they were permanently marked as taken.

It was a short but sweet demonstration of their commitment to each other. Afterwards, room
service catered food for the celebration. Everyone got a little bit drunk and had a wonderful time
just talking into the early morning.

Josh noticed when Robin was nervous or distressed, his fingers went to his newly designed
leather. When his fingers felt the Celtic designs, a tiny smile would touch his lips and he became
calm. The little strap of leather allowed him to believe in the knowledge that he belonged to Josh
and Josh wasn’t going anywhere. Looking down at his finger tattoo served the same purpose.

A few weeks after their holiday break before their concert schedule started up, Josh walked into
the living area of their practice space. Darius was sitting close to Robin so he could see the
computer screen. They were so engrossed in Darius’s laptop that neither of them looked up when
he sat in the red chair in the bay window.

After clearing his throat twice to no avail, Josh simply asked, “What are you guys reading?”

Both Darius and Robin jumped. Robin gave a little bit of a girlie shout of surprise; which made
Josh smile.

Robin’s eyes went big as he tried to fib. “Nothing.”

Angel slipped up behind them. “Hmmm, I guess fan fiction by DarkJustine28 is nothing.” He was
quiet for a moment then he looked up at Josh and said one word, “Fuck.” It carried so many
meanings.

“What?” Josh was up and crowding next to Angel to read over his Robin’s shoulder.

Darius had grabbed Robin’s hand to stop from clicking the window closed. He still clutched it as
everyone read the super hot story about the twins.

The basic plot had them falling together in a passionate heap. They could no longer stand the
tension and after a long hard practice, DarkJustine28 had them give into temptation.
DarkJustine28 was a damned good writer and even better at guessing at what happened between
them.

Dusty sauntered up. “What are you bums reading?” When he saw, he chuckled. “Yeah, that’s a
good one.”

Angel looked up at him. “You mean you already read it?”

Chuckling again, Dusty said, “Hell, yeah.” He shook his head. “I happen to care about what’s out
there on the band. I read that hours ago.” He patted Josh on the back. “Happy ending, and not the
massage parlor kind.”

Everyone groaned at Dusty’s spoiler without warning. “Whatever. As if the two of you wouldn’t
have a happy ending!”

Robin looked up at Dusty with his big green-blue eyes and asked, “You think?”

“Abso-fucking-lutely. I think those freaking ring tattoos force you to get married and be happy.”
Josh looked down at his fourth finger on his left hand and agreed with Dusty. A beautiful
scrolling ring design that matched Robin’s was prominent.

Darius bumped into Robin’s side as a show of agreement and support. Dare whispered loudly,
“Yeah, I agree with Dusty for once. Between the collaring and ring tattoos I would say you are
well on your way to being tied down. Now if you would just set a wedding date.”

Robin looked up past Angel who was grinning at him to Josh. His eyes were shining and Robin
looked really happy and content. His fingers moved up to trace his collar. Robin shouldered Dare
back but didn’t say anything as he smiled at Josh.

Josh wasn’t pushing the marriage thing…yet. It had just become legal in New York and everyone
was running to do it. He was fine waiting. Robin was marked as his, twice over, so he had time. If
Robin wanted a long engagement, that was fine with him.

Relief flooded Josh. He hadn’t realized he had been holding his breath because usually fan fiction
would have sent Robin into a downward spiral about their relationship. But he didn’t seem to be
all that bothered by it. Maybe the circlet of leather was working its magic, giving Robin the
security he needed to deal with it. Hell, he actually seemed to be enjoying the fan fiction!

Robin staged whispered to Josh, “It is pretty hot. I don’t want to ruin it for you but several toys I
have never heard of are involved.”

Dusty and Angel started laughing when Josh said, “As soon as you guys are done with the
computer, let me know. I need to do some shopping.”

* * *

By the end of the following week, they were someplace in the mid-west. Angel shouted out the
name during the show, but damn if Josh could remember it. Megan breezed into the open
dressing area they were given. “Hello, pretties.” She laughed at Dusty’s frown. “Water,
everyone?”

Everyone just lifted the bottles in their hands to show they were hydrating.

“You going to tell us if the rumors are true?” Dusty asked the same question he had every single
time he seen Megan in the last few weeks. He was hoping to wear her down so she would admit
she was in negotiations for an overseas tour.

Megan grinned. “That you’re gay? I think you are closer to the source to know if that’s true or
not.”

“Oh, snap!” Dare chortled happily. Angel grinned up at him then buried his face in Darius’s neck.

Dusty sputtered a bit. Josh cracked up when Angel emerged to shout out, “I knew it! Told you
so.” Then quickly reburied his face in Dare’s neck.

Pushing Josh to the side, Dusty said, “Argh! You are a one trick pony, Luv.”

“Um, nope. Angel’s got lots of tricks,” Dare chimed in. Robin blushed and giggled as he shoulder
bumped Darius but he turned to catch Josh’s eye to share the joke.

Megan sighed dramatically. “You are wearing me out with this question, you know that right?”
Throwing her hands up. “Okay. You are a smart guy, or at least you pretend to be. What do you
think? Your first tour was wildly successful through the US. You’ve sold a shit load of music
overseas. Radio and TV shows all around the globe are promising to blow me if I agree to get
your asses over there. Hmmmm, would I try to go after more of the foreign market with a world
tour?” She grinned at all of them before turning to Dusty who had his mouth hanging open. “I
love getting head, Dusty, so what do you think?”

* * *

A couple weeks later, Robin and Josh had almost escaped into the unmarked Town Car. Josh
hired one to get them back to the hotel with as little fuss as possible. But Megan stepped in their
path blocking freedom. “Hey, you guys. Got a second?” she asked, but saying no really wasn’t an
option. No matter how bad they wanted to get back to the hotel room and try out those new toys.

“Sure, Megan. What’s going on?” Clearly something was up otherwise she would be off
celebrating their concert with one of her many boy toys.

“Your father.” Looking at Robin she amended, “and your stepfather, is giving an interview.”

“What?” Josh was surprised. He couldn’t imagine what that asshole would say but he knew it
couldn’t be good! Robin just pressed in closer to him as he traced the patterns on his collar.

Megan put her hand on both their shoulders to try to calm them down. Okay, probably more to
calm Josh down. “That new show Rock News Now is doing an exclusive with him.”

“I don’t believe this. What is the fucker going to say?”

“I don’t know honey.” Megan’s hair of curls tossed about indicating she was rather upset with
this development.

Robin inhaled but he kept quiet. Robin kept touching his collar, as if he were a child looking to
his teddy bear for safety.

“It’s going to be okay, Robby. Regardless of what that fucker says.” As Josh spoke those words
he could only hope they were true.

Robin didn’t respond to Josh but turned towards Megan to ask, “Can he hurt us, Megan?”

She shrugged. “I wish I could answer that. I just don’t know what will come out of his mouth.”

Josh could feel Robin wanted to run. But instead of putting distance between them, he turned to
Josh and asked, “Can we go now?”

He liked that Robin was turning to him instead of heading for the hills. “One moment, Robby.”
Josh traced his hand up his back to reach Robin’s collar. Once there he wrapped a finger around it
to pull Robin closer to him. The soft whimper he heard assured him Robin got the reminder of
whom he belonged to.

Stifling the smile that threatened, Josh asked, “Megan? Anything else we need to know?”

“Yeah. There were some letters. The label has been dealing with them though…”

Josh cut her off. “Some letters? From him? And they failed to let us know?”

Megan looked away. “The label didn’t want you guys upset while you were on tour. They didn’t
want me to tell you.”

Robin asked a simple question. “Why didn’t you tell us?”

“When you guys first signed with them, I needed to sign paperwork that they recently pulled out
to shove in my face.” She closed her eyes for a moment and said to no one in particular, “The
fucking confidentiality forms that you sign never seem to protect the right people!”

Josh was sorry Megan was upset but he needed to know what the letters said. “What did the
letters say?”

Megan closed her eyes for a moment pulling herself together, back into being the manager they
all loved and were a tad scared of. “That he was Robin’s real father.”

“As in biological?” Robin asked in surprise. “Real?”

“Yeah. That you guys aren’t twins but you’re half brothers…”

“He’s not. We’re not.” Robin shook his head. “We’re not brothers!”

It was odd for Josh to hear him say that. Robin was always the one saying they were brothers so
his denial struck a confusing chord in Josh. And to say it with such passion, Josh wasn’t quite
sure what to think.

* * *

Josh got Robin into the Town Car and back to the hotel. The Dark Angels usually got a suite of
rooms and shared a common room. But in smaller cities, the hotels could only come up with
connecting rooms. This was one of those less opulent hotels.

The assistants still unpacked Josh and Robin in different rooms. They just recently started to
openly share a bed, but Robin liked to have his own closet and bathroom. He was very particular
of how he wanted his vast collection of cosmetics and clothing arranged.

Robin walked through the unlocked connecting door between their rooms and started tossing off
his clothing as he went. His stage makeup was off, but he still sported some liner, which Josh
always found sexy as hell. Robin gathered up his clothing in the laundry bag and stashed it in the
closet.

Robin hadn’t said a word since they left the arena. Josh was starting to get a little concerned.
Robin was more secure with their relationship now but Josh was still worried that something,
anything could screw it up. This could be that thing.

Turning to him naked in the middle of the room, Robin kneeled. This was an odd turn of events
and Josh wasn’t sure what to make of it. He bought some time by going around the room to lock
all the doors so they would have privacy.

Robin was still kneeling with his head down. His hands were behind his back and he kneeled
ramrod straight in the perfect posture of a submissive. “Josh?” His voice was low and nervous.

“Yes, Robby?” Josh ran a hand through his hair forcing Robin to look up at him.

“If…” Robin didn’t finish the thought. He didn’t need to. Josh was worried about the very same
thing. What if somehow his father was Robin’s biological father and they were really related?
Was that even possible? What then? “Will I still belong to you?” He asked on a broken sob.

Silence sat between them. Josh knew it was impossible that they were actually brothers. His
father was just being a dick. But what if? Josh refused to let him go down that road because
Dusty was right; he could easily thumb his nose at society. He wanted Robin and didn’t really
care about blood or not. But would Robin be able to deal with it? Stopping all the hypothetical
crazy making thoughts. They had no place here.

“You’re mine.” Josh put the steel in his voice that he knew Robin craved. Wanting to be clear
even if the impossible did come to pass, he said, “Nothing and no one will change that.” His hand
let go of Robin’s hair to trace the collar so there were no mistakes. Josh’s hand reached out to
pull on a hunk of that wild green-blue hair. He wrapped it around his hand and used the grasp he
had on the hair to tilt Robin’s head back. “I think you need to be reminded that you are
completely mine.”

“Oh God!” Robin groaned right before Josh claimed his mouth. The kiss was outright possession,
and when Josh pulled away there were no question lingering in those soulful blue-green eyes
about whom he belonged to. Robin knew.

“I need what is mine. Get on the bed.” Looking down at the gorgeous kneeling man, Josh added,
“Now.”

Evidently, he liked what Josh was doing because Robin’s eyes rolled up in his head as they
closed. He bit his lower lip. Josh watched him as he worried the plump flesh with his teeth. His
long cock was dripping sweetness and was obviously ready to follow Josh’s lead. “Oh,” he
whispered through a pant. Gathering his wits Robin stood up and opened his eyes to search Josh
out.

As he walked past Josh to follow instructions, Josh grabbed his shoulder and stopped his
movement. He slapped his ass. The sound seemed to echo off the walls like a gunshot. Robin
moaned as he turned to look at Josh over his shoulder. He kissed the hand that was holding him
in place.

“I should spank your ass for doubting who you belong to.” Josh stated as he gave that perfect ass
another smack dead center.

Robin was breathless. “Oh, God. So close.” Nothing turned him on quicker.

“Nope. Not yet. You need to be taught you are mine. Stick out that beautiful butt.” Josh’s hands
were teasing patterns in the cheeks he was soon going to toast.

Robin made a sound like a strangled animal but did as requested. The sight of a willing Robin
giving him a better target so Josh could spank him was mind blowing. He gave him measured
slow strikes with time to feel each one. Each individual spank gave time for reflection of the pain
and pleasure it was causing Robin.

The harder Josh hit those rounded globes the sexier Robin sounded. After ten or eleven smacks,
Josh said, “Okay. Now, lay over a pillow in the middle of the bed. I want to see that ass high in
the air.” He sent him on his way with another tap to his ass.

Robin’s red ass wiggled as he moved quickly to do Josh’s bidding. He laid down on the over a
big fluffy pillow. His red bottom pushed up in the air on display for Josh’s approval. Robin
turned his head so he could watch Josh’s approach.

The whole situation seemed surreal. But Josh let his inner dominant come out to play, keeping a
close eye on Robin to make sure he didn’t cross any lines. Even though they had a safe word,
Josh knew he couldn’t take them too far off the usual path. He needed Robin to understand that
he belonged to Josh in any and all circumstances.

Josh undressed slowly to hide the fact that his hands were trembling with excitement. He needed
to appear as if he were in complete and total control of the situation. He got the lubrication from
his toiletry bag and got onto the bed. He couldn’t stop himself from kissing both adorably red
cheeks. Robin giggled until Josh’s tongue found his crease and licked deeply.

“Argh!” Robin pushed back looking for more.

“Like that, Robby?” Josh asked.

“Yes,” was the quick response from the man who just reached back to part his cheeks
encouraging Josh to go deeper. He didn’t disappoint.

He gave him some more tongue and then let two of his fingers sink in deep. Josh carefully
opened him until three digits were moving in and out. Adding some slick to his cock, Josh lined
up and waited at Robin’s entrance.

“Josh?” Robin turned and looked at him with a mixture of confusion and lust.

“I am going to take what is mine.” After stating that, Josh slammed into him balls deep. He only
paused for a moment then he pulled back out and pushed back in, hard. “You are mine. Never
fucking doubt that!”

Adjusting Robin’s angle just a bit so he could nail his sweet spot, he pounded into the sweet ass
at a wickedly fast speed.

Josh knew he was driving up against Robin’s prostate dead on. The lustful sounds of pleasure
escaping his mouth in between his words was delicious. “Take me. Yours. Make me yours.
Always yours.”

“That’s right and don’t forget it.” Josh’s palm rewarmed Robin’s ass. His dick continued to heat
the channel that clasped it tight in its grip.

“Uh uh. Yeah. So close.” Robin was begging for release.

Josh knew the pillow would be enough friction but his fist would make the feeling even better.
He reached round and grabbed Robin’s needy prick and pulled. Up and down he squeezed his fist
around Robin’s cock as he pounded into him harder than ever before. He wanted Robin to have
no doubts about them ever.

“Please, Josh!” Robin’s body froze as it always did right before orgasm.

Josh didn’t have much choice but to give him permission. “Yes, come for me.” And Robin did.

Gibberish came out of Robin’s mouth as his cock sprayed out his release. His ass gripped Josh’s
cock with the rhythmic squeezes of his orgasm. The climax was felt in the most delicious way
around Josh’s cock. He wanted it to last longer but could not deny himself the white-hot pleasure
so he let Robin bring him to heaven.

“Mmmmm, yeah. Just like that,” Josh said as Robin’s body involuntarily pulsed around Josh
bringing him to a fabulous climax.

The shivers of the aftershocks continued to wrack both of them until they were wrung out. Josh
smacked Robin’s butt one more time before collapsing next to him.

Robin curled immediately around him placing his head on Josh’s shoulder. Josh cuddled him
closer as he put a hand through his wild hair. Josh ran his fingers through it so it fanned out on
the pillow around his head like a blue-green halo.

They were still trying to catch their breath when Josh asked, “Are you okay?” He knew he had
been rougher than ever. His dick hurt a little from the treatment he had dished out, but in a good
way.

“Mmmm, yeah.” Robin sounded soft and melted. Completely relaxed and at peace with life.

“I didn’t hurt you?”

Robin giggled. “I didn’t say that. Of course, you hurt me. You hurt me deliciously. Exactly how I
wanted you too.” He breathed out a sigh of contentment. “I needed that.” None of Robin’s usual
embarrassment clung to his words.

“You sure?”

“’Course.” Robin started really laughing. The sound was a beautiful and happy melody. If Josh
could write music like that it would go platinum in a day.

“What, Robby?” Josh asked with a grin. He wanted in on the joke.

“I think...” Between laughs he got the words out. “I think that’s what they call topping from the
bottom.” His laughter turned into chortling.

Josh’s grin got bigger. “Me thinks I was played.”

“Oh no, Master.” Robin teased him. “I am just a good little slave boy who needed discipline!” He
laughed so hard he covered his mouth and shook with it.

Rolling his eyes, he pulled Robin in for a kiss. “Be a good slave or else…”

“Mmmmm, or else what? Not much of a threat, I like your or elses a lot.”

Josh growled. “So do I.” His hand traced over Robin’s heated ass. “I love giving you what you
need.”

Trouble sparkled in those blue-green eyes. “Oh, yeah?” Robin moved over Josh.

“Yes…” Josh looked over at Robin and knew the submissive that lived deep inside was well fed
and no longer wanted to play. “What do you need right now, Robby?”

Robin was kissing Josh’s shoulders and neck, licking and biting as his mouth skimmed over his
body. Josh was fairly purring with the renewed lust that was zipping through him. Robin’s
talented little pink tongue had found his nipples and was intent on making Josh lose his mind.
Robin’s tongue circled, teased and taunted first one then the other and then back to the first.
Finally, Josh’s body arched and Robin bit down causing Josh to cry out.

Rolling Josh over on to his belly, Robin picked up the lube and squeezed some directly into
Josh’s entrance. “Hey!” That shit was cold. Robin’s fingers followed and Josh’s annoyance was
erased. “Mmmm, yes.” He arched his ass up so Robin could put those long skilled fingers of his
to better use than the keyboards.

Robin was lying on top of Josh and his cock was riding up through his crease, teasing the hell out
of him and making Josh actually whine for Robin’s cock. “Oh, yeah. More.” Josh even tried to
move in such a way that the long cock would slip into him.

Blowing Josh’s hair away from his ear, Robin whispered. “Want me inside?”

Such a sexy question from Robin was almost too much for Josh. “God!”

Robin moved his cock so that he was able to thrust into the tight pocket Josh’s thighs and his ball
sac made. “Mmmmm, Josh. You feel so good.”

He could barely think. It all felt amazing. “Inside me.”

Within a breath of being asked, Robin was doing just that. He was giving Josh exactly what he
needed and taking exactly what he wanted. Robin entered very slowly. When he was fully seated,
he kissed Josh’s neck before saying, “Mmmm, that’s good. You are so tight, Josh. You like me
inside you?”

Gone was the submissive, and in his place was a sexy tease that was driving Josh out of his mind.
He could only moan and push his ass back hoping that Robin would take pity on him and move.

Robin rose up on his hands and started pumping his hips into Josh. He moved a little too slowly,
teasing Josh even more but then he started moving in a grinding motion. The grinding circles
were doing amazing things. Josh pushed back.

Nice and slow, Robin wouldn’t be rushed. When he was topping he did things his way and they
were always exactly what Josh needed even when he didn’t know what that was. Robin’s slow,
loving movements were feeding Josh’s soul. The pace allowed him to enjoy the connection
without rushing to the finish line.

The movements slowly picked up speed. Robin pulled Josh up onto his knees so he could tend to
his ache. His cock was stroked. They were connected. Just as Robin needed to be taken and
shown to whom he belonged, Josh needed to be shown how much Robin loved him. He was very
loved.

Robin’s mouth was by his ear, licking and kissing his neck. “You feel so good. I love you, Josh.”
More sexy bites marking Josh’s neck were placed. “Are you ready?”

“Yeah, almost.” Josh said. Robin’s hand stroked his cock faster. “Oh. Yeah. Like that. Almost.
Oh! God! I love you!” He felt like he was coming inside and out. His body shook as it spurted out
his essence.

Robin’s teeth bit down hard and Josh could feel his ass being filled. The hot wetness jetting into
him seemed to extend Josh’s pleasure, completing it. When Robin was finally done, Josh fell face
first on the bed bringing Robin right down with him.

Years may have passed before Josh could move again. Robin was giggling. With a herculean
effort Josh turned his head. “What?”

Grinning at Josh, Robin said, “So do you like my or elses?”

Josh’s laugh barked out. “Definitely.” He turned so he could brush the messy hair out of Robin’s
eyes. “And for the record, Master enjoys being played.”

“And played with…” Robin’s giggles echoed off the walls as sleep claimed Josh.

CHAPTER 20

“And that’s why I kicked them out of the house!” Josh’s father spat out the words with venom.

Robin and Josh sat there stunned. Even though Megan had warned them, nothing prepared them
for what they were witnessing. The guys wanted to watch it with them, but Josh wanted to be
alone with Robin to deal with the fallout. They sat there in some hotel somewhere in southern
California, watching the monster of their childhood tell lies on the new popular celebrity
television show, Rock News Now. The focus was on music and the people in the industry but
really it was little better than a gossipy tabloid.

Josh’s father was claiming to also be Robin’s father. He was spinning tales that didn’t make sense
and didn’t seem to follow any kind of time line. He was just lumping false accusations upon them
with no rhyme or reason other than revenge.

The blonde female reporter, and Josh would use that term lightly when referring to her
livelihood, seemed to be salivating over the salacious details that Robin’s stepfather was spewing.
She was licking her lips as if she were savoring something delicious. “So you are saying you
were unfaithful to your first wife with the woman you eventually married because she had your
child? Robin?”

He looked up to the right as if he were trying to follow the details she was playing back to him
that he had spewed to her. “Yes, that’s right.”

“Are you saying the boys knew this?” She tilted her pretty blonde hair as if it would help her
listen.

“Of course, um, they knew.” He kept moving in his seat like he had ants in his pants.

“And you are saying they were having sex? All over the house without a care for privacy or
discretion?”

He frowned and scrunched up his face. “Yes.” The man was hamming it up. He even covered his
face like the admission had hurt him. “I’m writing a book about the pain of it…”

Book? Dear Lord, the fucker wrote a book. I can’t even look at Robin!

Smiling into the camera, she didn’t take the bait that would allow him to plug his book. Instead
she asked, “So you had begged them to stop their naughty relationship but they didn’t.” The way
she panted over the word naughty, worried Josh that her breathlessness would make her pass out.

“That’s right.” The monster dragged his eyes up out of the reporter’s deep cleavage, trying to pay

attention. “They were brothers and they were being…gay.” He said it like it was a disease. No
faking his disapproval of the gay life style. “So I had to kick them out. I couldn’t have that going
on under my roof. I was so upset.” He tried to pull off a sad look but failed.

“I bet you were.” The report looked into the camera with sympathy. “Two boys without even
finishing high school deserved to be pushed out onto the streets for being gay?”

“Josh was eighteen.” He tried to justify his lovely parenting. “And Robin was almost eighteen.”
Their ‘father’ frowned and looked more confused. “Well, yes… I mean what was I to do?
They’re brothers.” He tried to look helpless but instead just looked mean.

“Right. Who could blame you?” Her sympathy vanished as if it were never there. “But they
aren’t related, are they?”

“Well, um, yes they are.” He looked uncomfortable as if he’d ingested milk gone sour. “But
before their mother died…God rest her soul…we had Robin’s last name changed to mine.”

“Yes, but why was that? Wasn’t your name listed on his birth certificate as his father?” The
reporter’s eyes gleamed as if she had an insect pinned to a slide under a microscope.

A picture of Robin’s birth certificate was flashed on the screen.

“How did they get that?” Robin asked, surprised and a bit unnerved by the invasion.

Josh shrugged and kept watching. A red computer generated pen circled the spot that said
Unknown for the father’s name.

The TV flipped back to the studio where Josh’s father was lying to the reporter. He continued
with the falsehoods by adding, “That was her intention, but her family wouldn’t allow it.”

“I was under the assumption that she had no family.” The reporter jumped on the
misrepresentation with glee.

“Oh, well, yes, um…” He covered his face again. “We were going to fix that but she died too
soon.” His father worked himself up enough to have misty eyes.

“So you honored her intentions by never officially adjusting the paperwork for Robin and by
kicking them out of the house?”

“Well, um…It wasn’t like that.”

“What was it like?” She allowed him rope then gleefully tugged it back.

“They were out of control. They were running wild. Doing unspeakable things everywhere. I was
a single parent and I had my hands full.”

Her blonde curls didn’t move as she nodded her head. “Unspeakable things you say?
Uncontrollable? So tell me why the man that took them in off the streets said nothing of the
kind.”

A clip from Uncle Leo’s shop in Santa Cruz came on. Josh and Robin had talked to him the day
before and he had told them all about the excitement of being interviewed, but one never knew
how it would be spliced together.

“So Uncle Leo, may I call you that?” the blonde reporter asked.

“Of course, my dear.” Uncle Leo politely ignored her attempt at flirting with him.

Her smile looked sincere. “So tell me about the twins, Uncle Leo.”

“Well, first they aren’t twins my dear. But they are musical geniuses.”

“They were living on the streets…” Drawing him back to where she wanted him to tell the story.

“I was being beaten up by two ruffians and Robin and Josh charged across the street to save me.
Then they carried my groceries home and I invited them to have dinner with me. We had,” Uncle
Leo thought for a moment. “Tacos. And they were delicious. I use salsa instead of water with the
mix.”

Smiling at Uncle Leo’s cooking tips, the blonde brought him back around to the story he had to
tell. “Were they troubled, Uncle Leo?”

“Troubled? The jackass that called himself their father kicked them out on the streets. They
hadn’t graduated high school so they couldn’t even get a job. I hate to imagine what they might
have had to do if they hadn’t rescued me that night. But they did because they are sweet, good
boys.”

“Did they know how to play music when they met you?”

“Oh, no. I will take the credit for showing them the basics, but Josh could pick up any instrument
and master it within days. And Robin, oh gentle Robin writes such beautiful lyrics and plays the
piano so beautifully.” He pulled a napkin out of his jacket and wiped his eyes. “I am sorry. I just
wished my Betsy could have met them. She would have been as proud of them as I am.”

Robin touched a hand to his heart and sniffed for Uncle Leo. Josh put a hand on his shoulder to
comfort him but still couldn’t look at him. He couldn’t go back to the way things were. He didn’t
care what his father claimed.

“Do you see them still?”

Uncle Leo laughed. “Oh, of course. They set me up with FaceTime so I see them almost every
day. I also go to concerts.” He unbuttoned his shirt to show off his latest concert shirt. He gave
thumbs up. “Great show! And we usually see each other on most holidays. They were here for the
Fourth of July. They helped Jack and I do the summer inventory. Such good boys.”

“Jack? Is that another young man you are caring for?” The reporter tried to sound suspicious but
it came across as curious.

“Yes, my boy Jack. He’s living with me now and he’s a good boy too. Very smart, that one.” He

leaned forward. “My son thinks so, too.” Somehow Uncle Leo looked very pleased to get that
piece of gossip out there.

“Your son?” They were getting off track and the reporter was looking worried.

“Yes, he’s a doctor. He just got back from Doctors Without Borders.” Uncle Leo’s pride showed
through. “And Jack is starting college this fall.”

The report couldn’t seem to help herself she smiled brightly at him. “So all your boys are doing
well.”

“Yes, and none of them are trouble.” He looked into the camera and smiled. “The Dark Angels
will be coming to an arena near you, so go see them! And the new album will be released next
month.”

The reporter’s smile could be heard in her, “Thank you Uncle Leo.” The clip ended with him
smiling broadly.

The next shot was back in the studio with his alcoholic poor excuse for a father and the blonde
who was grinning like a Cheshire cat. “It didn’t seem to me that Uncle Leo thought they were
trouble.”

Shrugging his shoulders “Maybe he didn’t see them. They are sneaky about it.”

“Wait, but you said they were doing it all over the house.” The reporter grinned, as she seemed to
know she had him stumbling over his words.

He just frowned. “All I know is they should be ashamed of themselves.”

“Hmmm, yes but their manager also doesn’t think your claim is correct. She thinks it has more to
do with your numerous attempts to extract money from them and their record label.”

“I…um, I don’t know what you are talking about.”

“Oh, don’t you?” She smiled like a snake looking at a big fat juicy mouse. “We have a copy of
one of the letters you sent to their label.”

On screen a handwritten letter appeared. It was straight to the point, though it lacked creativity.

Send me a check for $100,000 immediately. Or I will tell everyone the twins are really related.
That they are half-brothers.

It was signed by the jackass with his home address and dated two months ago.

“I didn’t write that!” The liar denied it as if it were the God’s honest truth.

“I took the liberty of comparing your signature to the one on the letter you sent to the boys’ label

and the release of information you signed for us today.” She grinned at him.

On the television screen a side-by-side comparison. One didn’t need to be a handwriting expert to
know it came from the same person. The little flourishes he added to his initials were a dead
giveaway.

The TV picture flashed back to the reporter, who’s grin turned into a smirk and their frowning
father who kept shaking his head.

“So you tried to blackmail them for money. When that didn’t work you decided to make up a
story to sell a story. Our show paid you well, Mr. Strider. So why don’t you tell me, who is
Robin’s real father?”

“I don’t know.” He realized what he said. “No. Wait! I am their father. I am.”

“Yes, well, Josh and Robin submitted to a DNA test.” She waved the sealed envelope as if she
had no clue of the contents. The reporter made a big show of opening it then reading it silently.
She grinned at the audience. “The test shows that they are not, and cannot, be related. They are
not twins, brothers, half brothers, or even distant cousins.” She shrugged as if she might be
disappointed by that fact.

“No, that’s a lie,” he screamed. “They are brothers! Half-brothers.”

Security was standing on either side of him. “Please calm down, sir.”

Her big toothy smile lit up the picture. “Sometimes, we are able to uncover the truth.” Their
father was in the background being bleeped out. “I hope people decide to let The Dark Angels
twins be.” She air quoted the word twins mockingly. “If this man was part of their early years,
one could only imagine the trauma they suffered. They deserve whatever happiness they can
find.”

The abusive man that stole most of the positive memories of childhood stopped swearing long
enough to accuse her. “You’re probably a Dark Angels fan! Whore!”

She shrugged and grinned at the camera. “Who isn’t? Rock on boys!” She tossed her blonde hair
over her shoulders.

Josh was surprised at how the show ended. His father was shown to be a real asshole. But as he
turned off the set, he was almost afraid to look at Robin. Robin had really opened up these past
few weeks. He was happier, more confident and more outspoken.

Josh decided that maybe he should just leave the room, so he started to stand up. Before he got up
Robin was draped across him, holding him.

“Hey.” Josh wrapped his arms around Robin. “It’s okay.”

“I know, Josh.” Robin took a shaky breath. “Just seeing him…”

“Yeah, sucked. I’ve tried to block out his ugly face.” Josh ran his fingers through Robin’s pretty

colored hair. His fingers played in it.

“Yeah, me too.” Sighing, Robin leaned into Josh.

Josh was still afraid to ask but he had to know if there would be fallout from that asshole’s lies.
Well, lies for that time period. “Are we okay?”

Robin pulled back to look at Josh. “Of course.” Robin frowned, and sat up in his lap. “Unless you
think—”

“No! No. Seriously. I just wanted to make sure you were okay. He said some pretty awful
things.”

Robin smiled sadly. “Though now those awful things are true.” He made awful sound pretty
damn sexy. “I am indiscreet and having sex with you everywhere I can.”

Josh grinned and poked him. Robin wiggled his rounded rump against Josh’s lap. His body
instantly responded to the hot package on his lap. Going hard. Wanting. Needing.

Robin’s giggled turned into a sensuous moan.

Chuckling Josh nodded his head. He pulled him down harder into his lap to get more intense
friction from his sweet ass.

His fist wrapped around Robin’s cock that was standing at attention in his light cotton sleep
pants.

Smiling to himself at the memory, Josh turned to Robin. “Just for the record, I don’t think what
we are doing is awful. I love you. I know you love me. That’s all that matters.

“I know it doesn’t matter, but I like knowing people don’t see us as perverts.”

“Oh, I am definitely a pervert. I want to pervert all over you.” Josh pushed Robin back onto the
couch.

Robin turned so he was on top of Josh. He twisted around so he was facing Josh’s feet. He swung
his long legs on either side of Josh’s head to straddle his neck. Josh’s hands went immediately to
firmly cup those anxiously moving lush mounds of ass. That gorgeous dick was hiding under his
sleep pants and that needed to be remedied.

Noticing the beautiful multi-color hair flowing across his thighs made Josh want even more.
Josh’s shaft that was trying to rip out of the sleep pants to get to Robin’s lips. A wet mouth teased
his erection. It saturated the thin material causing Josh to buck up looking for more attention. He
needed more.

Barely able to function, Josh helped the very erect almost angry cock out of Robin’s sleepwear.
He welcomed it in his mouth with warm wet heat causing a groan of happiness to vibrate around
his cock. Good cause and effect! He couldn’t think past the orgasm that was already brimming so
he echoed the rhythm the sweet talented mouth was setting on his dick.

The suction increased and it felt like his cock was getting sucked off by a vacuum. It was the new
model, one that had a very talented tongue.

Robin was squirming around trying to get more of himself into Josh. His restless movements of
need were heating up. His grip on Robin’s amazing ass tightened.

If he were going to come it would be while swallowing his Robby’s seed. Trying to control those
hips was impossible. Though he did guide that ass to increase the depth of the thrusts that were
hitting the back of his throat. He pulled those rounded mounds that were in his hands down
firmer.

His gag reflex had long been trained to not react allowing him to swallow around the dick. Over
and over. Josh’s long index finger teased along the crease of those beautiful cheeks causing a
strangled moan of release around his cock. Cause and effect. Robin swallowed around his dick
taking him down to the root. Cause and effect—such an amazing scientific principle.

As Josh swallowed deeply around the cock that he had pushed into his throat, his body released
his pleasure in gushing waves. Robin swallowed even as he pumped seed into Josh’s mouth.
“Mmmmm…” He tried to say more but it was impossible. He just held on for the wild ride until
it finally came to a shuddering stop.

Robin moved around so he was laying on top of Josh. “Mmmmm, this is where I belong.”

Josh held on tight because he couldn’t have agreed more.

EPILOGUE

Megan’s Halloween Bash was in full swing. Dusty had just arrived with Angel and Josh. Dusty
was dressed as a pirate. Angel dressed like a vampire. Josh was being quite the jackass. He
dressed as Dusty. He sported a long blond haired wig down to his ass, and drumsticks in his
hands. The costume wasn’t bad; it was the fact that he was mimicking Dusty’s mannerisms that
was annoying Dusty. Josh was tapping on everything with his sticks, saying things that Dusty
was known to say; he even sounded like him.

Megan cracked up when she saw the three of them. “Angel, Dusty, and um, Dusty!”

“Yeah, the boy wanted to dress up like his hero,” Dusty said, smirking.

Rolling his eyes Josh grunted. “Right.” Then tapped out an ill-timed beat on Megan.

Dusty glared in horror at the beat and slashed back with a vengeance that only good friends were
allowed. “Oh, no see actually Robin wants me so Joshy figured he would get some if he dressed
up like me.”

Ignoring Josh’s growl, Dusty’s eyes followed everyone else’s, which seemed to focus on two
figures wiggling their asses on the dance floor in short matching sequin dresses. He slapped
Angel on the shoulder. “Look at those two. Wow, bet you boys wish you weren’t gay, huh?”

As the words left Dusty’s mouth the two girls turned around on the crowded dance floor. Dusty’s
expression was priceless as Robin and Dare laughingly made their way over to them.

Angel and Josh laughed in his face. “Admit it! They are fucking hot! And don’t you wish you
were gay?”

“Fuck you, Ang. They’re in dresses!” Dusty said it as he annoyingly checked out their asses.

Robin giggled and threw his arms up in the air to dance for the group.

Darius spoke up in a voice so feminine even Josh did a double take and he was in the joke. “Still
claim straightness, drummer-boy?”

“Actually, I…” Dusty’s words stopped as he watched with an open mouth as Robin and Dare
gave each other a lovely open-mouthed kiss. “I…” He was trying to come up with why that was
so fucking hot and he couldn’t find a reason.

Grinning at Dusty, Dare teasingly asked, “You like me kissing my girlfriend, huh?”

Dusty swallowed hard. It was clear he had tried to look away from the hot wet kiss but couldn’t
seem to pry his eyes away. “That’s just not right,” Dusty said shaking out his long blond hair. He
looked confused and rather ill.

Josh opted to help him out. “It’s because they look like girls, you can think of them as lesbians.
Right?” He patted him on the shoulder.

Darius snorted.

Robin piped up. “Yeah, but I usually look like a girl.”

Angel laughed and shook his head as he pulled Darius into his arms.

Smiling, Josh traced a finger around the hem of his dress. “But you don’t usually wear a dress.”
Josh grabbed Robin and pulled him close to rub his arousal against him.

“Neither do you,” Angel said seductively to Darius. “Come on, I never really wanted to fuck a
girl before. This is a definite first for me.”

“Hey, maybe you’re bisexual, too.” Darius laughed and waved to the other band members as a
very determined Angel pulled him away looking for a private corner.

Josh laughed. Looking at Robin and seeing the lustful gleam in his eye, maybe some privacy
would be a good idea.

Robin moved and pushed his own arousal against Josh to let him know he wasn’t the only one
who wanted some alone time. Robin whispered, “I’m wearing fuck me heels. I wonder why
they’re called that.” He grinned at Josh’s open mouth stare.

Dusty just stood there looking rather confused. “You think Megan has a computer she’ll let me
use?”

“Research? You’re at a party! Lots of real girls here for you.” Josh could tell Dusty was upset so
he stopped teasing. Plus, it would give him a chance to get Robin alone and show him why his
shoes got their name.

Dusty nodded. He rubbed his chin as he eyed Robin in the very short dress. “You do look damn
good in that dress, Robin. You got some legs on you.” Josh knew he was pulling his chain so he
could pretend everything wasn’t twisted up more than usual in his head.

Josh gave him a growl anyway and Robin giggled as he was steered away from Dusty and the
party into a quiet bedroom. Josh kissed Robin until they were both breathless.

“You’re mine.”

Robin grinned. “I know that. And you’re mine.” His fingers touched the leather encircling his
elegant neck and he held up his delicate hand to show off his ring tattoo. “We’re tied together.”
He entwined their hands interlocking their fingers.

They both said at the same time, “Always. Together. Forever.

* * *

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

Z. believes in soul mates, love at first sight, and overcoming all odds to find happily ever afters.
Born in Upstate NY, Z.Allora and partner have spent the last fifteen years together traveling
across the United States, the Middle East and Asia. These travels provide the inspiration behind
many of the detailed settings and characters throughout Z.’s work.

Z. received a Master degree in Psychology and Bachelor degrees in both English and Philosophy.
(though Z’s editors would probably question the English degree).

Z. is both a writer and a huge fan of M/M romance as well as Yaoi. It is said the pen is mightier
than the sword. Z. thinks all writers and publishers of M/M are promoting equality, since
everyone deserves a happily ever after.

Visit http://www.zallorabooks.com for more on The Dark Angels. To contact Z. you can email at
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