Summary
What really happened when Edward left Bella during New Moon? What if the wolves hadn't saved
her from Laurent in the clearing? More importantly what if Victoria had plans for a fate worse than
death for Bella? A dark AU on what could have been.
This is a dark story with a mature rating. It involves drug usage, violence and sexuality.
This is ultimately Edward and Bella but there are other characters as well. If any of this
offends you click away now and don’t read it. Otherwise you’ve been warned so please
don’t flame me about Edward and Bella not being together and happy from the very
beginning or because the characters are doing something bad.
Chapter 1.
It had been three weeks. Three weeks of absolute torture; three weeks of agony; three weeks of a
heart he thought was dead, aching uncontrollably. It had been three weeks since he’d left Bella.
Edward wondered briefly how she was doing. Did she miss him? Was she angry? Had she started to
move on? His chest began to ache harder from the thought of it. Was she seeing Mike Newton
now? He wouldn’t blame her if she was; he had practically thrown her into Mike’s arms. Edward felt
his hands tense at the idea of her with . . . his knuckles cracked loudly on their own accord, with
Mike Newton.
A horn blared and he looked up anxiously before jumping back onto the curb. The car that had
almost hit him roared past and he let himself sink into his own thoughts again. The minds of the
people surrounding him were a vague hum, meaningless noise that he ignored like he had the
people of Forks.
Edward knew the street he was looking for and turned one corner and then the next and found
himself in a dimly lit part of LA. The homeless were bundling down in their tattered clothes, drunks
were slumped in the doorways and the women lining the street were bored and tired looking.
“Looking for a date handsome?” A blonde with too much makeup and red heels asked briskly as he
hurried past her. “Please don’t want anything too weird,” her mind pleaded. “I just want to make
enough to keep Tony happy and make my rent. And my ass is killing me from the fucker earlier
with the electric cord.”
He grimaced at the image in her thoughts. Reaching into the inner pocket of his coat, Edward
grabbed a small wad of bills and pressed them into her hand, closing her fingers around them. “Not
tonight beautiful,” he murmured and tried to sound gentlemanly. “Why don’t you get some rest?”
He didn’t know how much he’d handed her but it was more than she’d likely make the rest of the
night combined. The smile she returned was an honest one, even if he could see how tired she was
from the way the edges drooped.
His cell phone buzzed as he walked away from her and toward the alley at the end of the block,
which was his destination. Reaching into his pants pocket for his phone, he saw the name on the
screen. Alice. She’d seen what he was going to do. Of course, she’d known what he was planning
as soon as he decided on it, which was why he’d purposely kept his thoughts random trying to
prevent himself from making the decision that had been made when he stepped onto the flight
from Austin to LA. Tracking Victoria had failed, leaving Bella was killing the remains of his immortal
soul, what did it matter what happened to him now? He shoved the phone back into his pocket
without answering.
Alice knew where he was going and why. She’d keep his secret. After all, she’d been keeping
Jasper’s for all this time. That was where he’d gotten the idea originally. Edward had known that
sometimes Jasper split away from Alice on long hunting trips; hunting trips to cities where
vampires shouldn’t roam. LA, Las Vegas, he’d seen them once in Miami. Alice would hide in the
shadows and cower in the boutiques of expensive hotels, waiting for Jasper to return from his solo
hunting trips. Edward could feel how miserable she was, how it hurt her that he couldn’t just stick
to the lifestyle they had all embraced, how she second guessed herself and wondered if perhaps it
wasn’t just the blood he was seeking but the company as well. Edward could also feel how utterly
devoted she was to him regardless and how desperate she was to keep his secret. He knew how
afraid she was that he would tell Carlisle, and even though he’d never given any signs of anger at
Jasper’s weakness, she was afraid they’d find themselves without a home.
He turned down the alley and nodded to the burly man leaning against a wrought iron stairway rail.
One glance at him and the man nodded coolly, knowing Edward as one of his own kind. Edward
tried to keep his disgust to a minimum and wondered if the other vampire was really there to act
as a doorman to keep undesirables out or if in reality his job was to lure in those who may have
lost their way and could provide the patrons of the establishment with some sport.
He made his way slowly into the dark bar and pressed through the crowd of vampires. “Poison?” A
bartender with brilliant ruby eyes asked suddenly. “Low on O negative tonight.”
“You have anything animal?”
“Animal?” He repeated and then laughed. “Must be a friend of that Jasper guy. Think I have some
mountain lion around here somewhere, hold on.” The bartender wandered away and Edward let his
eyes travel over the crowd. Heavy metal music blared and he could see the eyes of some of the
bar’s patrons on him. Lusts of all kind seeped into his brain from the thoughts of others. Blood lust,
sexual frustration, a general craving for something other than what was available, all of it echoed
and pounded to the heavy beat of the drums.
The bartender returned a few moments later with a glass filled with red liquid. “No mountain lion;
did have leopard though.” He pushed the glass to Edward and nodded.
“Thanks,” he reached for a bill to hand the man.
“On the house,” the bartender shook his head and pushed Edward’s hand away from his. “That
Jasper has come in handy a few times keeping the unruly ones under control.”
“Really?” He raised his eyebrows and took a drink. It was bottled, not fresh, and the preservatives
made the blood bitter. He grimaced and took another sip anyway.
“I take it you’re not here for just a drink?” The bartender asked quietly and Edward followed his
gaze to the back wall of the bar. He could see the cages in long rows, stacked two high, and the
creatures hidden in the shadows within. The reason every vampire had come here tonight. The
substitute he’d seen so clearly in Jasper’s mind time and again. Completely abhorrent to Carlisle’s
way of thinking, worse than killing humans he’d once declared. Monstrous, barbaric, cruel, Carlisle
had growled once when they’d come upon a caravan trading them 60 years earlier. ‘What did it
matter?’ Edward thought to himself. He was a monster anyway.
“How much?” He nodded toward the cages and tried to appear disinterested, like the question was
merely idle speculation.
“$500 for an hour, $5000 for the night,” the bartender replied. “They don’t fight unless it’s a
special request on your part. But you pay for any damages once you’re done.”
Edward reached into his jacket and pulled out another wad of bills. $5000 fell onto the bar before
he could stop himself – it was a small price to pay for freedom. It was a chance to forget her for
the night, to distract his mind from the pain of being without her for just a few hours. He didn’t
think it would work but he wanted something to dull the need that filled all his senses.
Another vampire, larger than Emmett and twice as scary looking in the darkness, came toward him
at the bartender’s unsubtle head jerk. The bartender handed him a room pass card for upstairs and
nodded toward the other man. “Follow Alexei, he’ll get you what you need.”
“Right,” Edward agreed curtly and followed the larger vampire, trying to decode the empty banality
of his Russian mind. He couldn’t care less about what he was doing, Edward realized quickly. All he
was to him was an inconvenience, the images of the porn he’d been watching filtering into his
mind. Edward tried not to flinch when he realized that it wasn’t random smut he’d found on the
internet or pay per view but the security cameras to the various rooms. He shuddered; thankfully
he hadn’t come here to indulge in those particular pleasures tonight.
Edward glanced through the first row of cages, taking in the frightened stares and the even more
frightened thoughts coming from the inhabitants in front of him. On the end he saw her, the heart
shaped face, chestnut hair that would fall in silky waves if it were brushed, large doe eyes looking
at him frightfully as she cowered, legs to her chest, in the back corner of her cage. She wasn’t who
he wanted and he couldn’t even smell her blood, it was impossible for these creatures’ blood to
have an aroma, but she was close. She was so very, very close that he could imagine it was her.
He could imagine it was the very heroin he’d refused to let himself taste.
“That one,” he pointed into the cage and watched as the brute next to him opened the metal door
and then pulled her out by the leash secured to her neck. Giving Edward the handle of the leash,
he grunted and pointed toward the steps before stomping away. Edward looked at the creature
shivering next to him and felt his resolve weaken.
“Are you all right?” He asked her quietly. When she shivered in response, he unwrapped his hand
from around the leash and wrapped an arm around her waist. He could hear from her mind that
she would be punished if he was displeased with her, made to suffer, so instead of requesting that
they return her to her cage he lead her silently from the bar and up the stairs. The doors were
identical, except for the numbers, and he assumed the rooms were as well; they weren’t meant for
luxury or romance; they served a purpose, just like the cheap motels that the humans used for
their sordid affairs. This was the vampire version of a cheap fuck and he hated himself for it.
Pushing the pass card into the door lock, he heard a faint click and then shouldered his way into
the room; nondescript; a small bathroom to one side with a sink and a shower, and a few dingy
looking towels. The room itself held a bed, an overstuffed chair and a cheap television set. He
noticed the hooks on the wall near the bank of windows and noticed their mates inserted into the
wall above the headboard. Without thinking, he knew that restraints and other devices were in the
small closet should he choose to use them.
Edward felt the light brush of something on his shoulder and watched as the waif, who wasn’t his
Bella, brushed gently past him to kneel at the foot of the bed. Closing the door, he made his way
slowly to the chair and sat. Throwing his head back, he closed his eyes and tried to come to grips
with what he was doing. ‘Repellent,’ Carlisle growled in his mind, ‘Repulsive, inhumane, savage.’
He could tell her to sleep, tuck her in and listen to her dream all night. He could pretend she was
his Bella and protect her. He could hold her and comfort her so that the terrified visions playing
inside her mind still. He could be good to her. He could forget the reason he was here and push the
cravings, the curiosity, aside.
Picking his head up, he looked at her and noticed she was still shivering, the terror in her mind has
subsided a little and in its place comes resignation. She was surprised he hadn’t attacked her
already; most patrons didn’t usually wait much beyond closing the door. “What’s your name?” He
asked, suddenly curious.
“We don’t have names,” she whispered. “It’s not allowed.”
“Surely you have a name,” he replied and tried to smile while keeping his lips closed, she knew
what his teeth were for and it wouldn’t do any good to scare her with them. “Mine is Edward.”
“I’ll get in trouble,” she mutters.
“I won’t tell them you’ve told me,” he tried again gently. “What’s your name?”
“Casey,” the girl replied softly and didn’t let her eyes leave the dingy brown carpet.
“That’s pretty,” he tried to sound reassuring. “How old are you Casey?”
“I don’t know,” she shook her head despondently. “We don’t celebrate much here.”
“It doesn’t matter,” he reached out a hand to her in an attempt to be soothing. She scooted closer,
still not looking up at him, so that she was kneeling next to his left foot. “Do you remember how
old you were when this happened?”
“Fifteen,” she whispered again and he couldn’t help letting his fingers slide through her hair. “It
was just after the war started.”
‘The war,’ he thought to himself. He doubted it was the same war he’d been an adolescent
through; somehow she seemed younger than he was.
“The Great War?”
She shook her head then. “Not that war, the next one.”
The next one, World War II. She’d been a slave here since World War II. “What’s the last thing you
remember Casey?” He found himself asking, even though he shouldn’t care. He shouldn’t want this
girl, this creature, to seem real. He shouldn’t want her to feel human.
“They didn’t let us go to school because the bombs had hit Hawaii,” she answered. “I was supposed
to stay inside but it was just so boring and the man outside, I thought he might have news. He
looked like someone official.”
Edward felt his stomach twist as he realized what she was recounting. He looked like someone
official. She’d been inside the house and all he’d had to do was attract her attention, inflame her
curiosity, and she’d gone willingly to where he was. It was what made them such good predators, a
skill he’d used himself so many times when he still hunted among men, he’d compelled her outside
and to her fate.
“I won’t hurt you Casey,” he whispered gently as he reached down to pull her into his lap. She was
almost identical in size to his Bella and the memory of the same weight made his breathing
labored. She wasn’t his Bella, he reminded himself. His Bella wasn’t broken, her mind was still
clear, and her heart beat was still as rapid as a swallow’s wings. His Bella was still a human, still
fully alive. This wasn’t Bella; this was a Halfling, a creature made to sustain vampires when they
couldn’t hunt, a creature whose full blood capacity could replenish with just a few drops of blood
and a faint heartbeat in a matter of hours. She was a pleasure toy, a pet, an object to be bought
and sold in their world. Her heartbeat would remain slow, shallow, and while she wouldn’t live
forever her life would be prolonged as long as she was fed from and the venom in her system
replenished frequently. She would be trapped for the rest of her indefinitely long life inside the
body of a 15 year old girl. This wasn’t his Bella, but once upon a time, before this thing had
happened to her, she could have been.
“I won’t hurt you Casey,” he managed to repeat softly as he settled the girl into his arms. “I
promise I don’t want to hurt you.”
She nodded slightly and when her head moved he could see the faint silver scarring on her neck.
Bites that overlapped bites covered her wrists as well, he noticed. She let her head fall back
slightly and he could see the throb of her pulse and the blood pulsing slowly beneath it. Once upon
a time she could have been his Bella, but that doesn’t stop him from leaning in and giving her neck
a tender bite.
Chapter 2.
He couldn’t help the way his lip curled upward as the petite blonde danced around the living room,
reminding him of Alice. A hot pink pipe dangled from her fingers and she’d occasionally flick a black
lighter underneath so that she could take long hits from its contents. He’d brought her a virtual
pharmacy of illegal drugs and every time she went straight to the pot.
“What are you laughing at Edward?” Sandy giggled.
“You,” he smirked. “Smoking grass and listening to that noise. Could you be anymore clichéd?”
“That noise,” she pointed at him with her free hand, “is Jimi Hendrix.”
“It’s noise,” Edward insisted.
“Says the man that likes the Rondelles,” she snorted. “Besides, I’m staying true to the classics of
my age pot and loud rock n’roll.”
“That would be your mental age or the generation you were a part of?”
“Both,” Sandy retorted before sticking her tongue out and shaking her wild mane of curls at him.
“Besides, you wouldn’t have brought it if you didn’t want it yourself.”
Edward shrugged because, as usual, she’d seen past his facade. He had bought a new stash so
they could indulge before he was required to be at the club tonight. Indulging had become the
consoling discovery of this new life, the life he forced himself to endure without Bella. He could
numb his pain and loneliness in drugs and blood dolls. Without them, he knew, he’d have never
lasted this long.
“You’re going to get the munchies,” Edward warned as he watched her take a final hit and then tap
the ashes into the nearby kitchen sink.
“It isn’t like I’d gain any weight,” she laughed. “It’s been 40 years since I’ve gained an ounce.”
“True,” Edward replied dryly as he shoved out of the chair he’d been lounging in and reached out
for her arm. Pushing the sleeve of her oversized black tshirt up to expose her elbow, he smiled at
her mischievously. “But when you get the munchies, by default, I get the munchies and we both
know I’m rather particular about my snacks.”
He watched her eyes flutter closed as he bit into the flesh of her elbow and began to drink. Letting
his own eyes close, he let the drowsiness from the pot seep through his brain.
He’d never realized that drug induced oblivion was possible for his kind until he’d first met Sandy.
She was his only friend and confidant in the half life he now led. The vampire and the blood doll, he
chuckled quietly to himself as he led her stumbling blindly toward the couch.
He released his teeth from her arm gently and then gave the small puncture wounds a brief swipe
of his tongue, watching in fascination as the wounds closed. Pressing her back into the black
leather of the sofa, he moved to sit at the other end and pulled her tiny, bare feet into his lap. She
was his his friend, his confidant, his exclusive blood doll and he was devoted to caring for her.
She was his pet, he thought soberly. He wasn’t the first vampire to keep his own, private, blood
doll but he was the only one amongst the small, loose alliance of vampires who called Chicago their
home. For all that the others teased him about his infatuation; they had accepted his claims in
regard to her. He was young, unnecessarily hot headed when provoked, and most importantly
too valuable to William as a mind reader for them to question his demands.
It was good to be needed, Edward decided as he watched his pet curl up on her side and drift into
a hazy sleep. The sleepy euphoria of the drug lingered in his system as he shifted carefully,
adjusting her feet in his lap.
He wondered if he should carry her to her bed in their shared apartment and quickly dismissed the
idea. He had never stepped into her room and he never would it was his only rule. Her room was
her own private sanctuary and he would not violate her, or her trust in him, by going there. He let
the absurdity of the situation sink into his mind Edward and Sandy, the vampire and the blood
doll, the master and his prized pet.
He giggled, a little stoned from the contact high of her blood, the virgin and his courtesan mistress.
He couldn’t give that to her, no matter how many parts of him wanted to, and thankfully she never
expected him to. That act was still tied to the undead part of his heart that belonged to Bella and,
while Sandy occupied a large section of that heart, without the emotion the act was meaningless to
him.
He shifted again as he blocked out the sweetness of her dreams. Sandy didn’t want him like that
either and he knew it was because the “Bella” parts of her heart belonged to another vampire who
was 40 years gone, burnt for the right to possess her. Unlike Edward, when he first came home to
Chicago, she hadn’t allowed it to end the happiness in her life.
He reached over to stroke her wild shock of hair and thought about the psychadelic ray of sunshine
that had assaulted his senses that first night. He wondered if Alice had seen her coming and what
she thought if she had.
He walked slowly into the sprawling first floor of William Grayson’s club. It was still early, just past
twilight, and the club had been empty except for a lone bartender.
“I’m here to see William Grayson,” he announced and the bartender nodded to a staircase in the
back of the club.
“Top of the stairs, first door on the right. Mind you, knock first because he’s got a doll up there
with him.”
“Right,” Edward nodded curtly. Of course he would have a doll with him. Grayson was known for
running the largest vampire club in the Midwest and was only rivaled in size by one in Manhattan
and another in New Orleans, both of which he also owned. All of his clubs were connected to
dollhouses and he had a reputation for only keeping the most beautiful, obedient dolls that were
available. They were all considered rare delicacies and vampires flocked to his clubs to spend
money for their charms as well as their blood. As their owner it was only expected that Grayson
indulge whenever he felt the need.
“Here comes the sun,” a cheerful voice sang out lightly. “Here comes the sun and I say it’s all right.
Da da da da da da dum dum. Little darlin’ I see the ice is slowly melting. Little darling, it feels like
years since it’s been clear. Here comes the sun, do da do da. Here comes the sun and I say it’s all
right.”
“Funny,” a deeper voice chuckled. “Very funny. Perhaps you could try singing something a little
less ironic?”
“Like what?” He reached out to feel the mind of who he expected was William Grayson and
watched the blonde sprite lounging on the other man’s desk. “Oh, I know!”
He couldn’t help but smile as he saw her smirk through the other man’s eyes. Whatever she had
suddenly planned it would be hilarious. “Look at me,” she trilled dramatically. “I’m Sandra Dee,
lousy with virginity! Won’t go to bed till I’m legally wed, I can’t I’m Sandra Dee.”
He watched her little head shake as her eyelashes fluttered. She was playing up the act that she
was doing, almost pantomiming along with the words as Grayson howled with laughter. “I’m Doris
Day,” she crooned. “I was not brought up that way. I won’t come across because ever Rock
Hudson lost his heart to Doris Day.”
“Not quite,” Grayson broke in and the girl in front of him began to shriek with her own laughter.
“Although, my little Sandy, perhaps you would have made him change his mind! It’s hard to
imagine a man wanting to be the girl instead of have her when you’re around.”
Edward choked slightly at the forwardness of the man behind the door and the images playing in
his mind. He’d expected to hear the lust in Grayson’s mind, blood as well as physical, but the
fantasy that had played there was kinkier than he had ever expected.
“I think your new mind reader is here,” he heard the woman croon as he watched her slip off the
desk and curl herself up like a cat in a nearby chair.
“Edward?” Grayson called out his name. “Are you out there?”
He reached for the latch tentatively and pushed open the door. “I’m sorry to disturb your
afternoon,” he tried to sound apologetic.
“You disturbed nothing young man,” Grayson replied smoothly. “Sandy had just come up to
entertain me until you arrived. I thought you would like to meet. The two of you are the closest in
age and I thought you might become friends.”
“Really?” Sandy bounced excitedly in her seat and peered up at him. “How old are you?”
“107,” he answered quickly and looked down at his feet. “And you?”
“56,” she shrugged. “Not quite the same age but we’re closer than everyone else. All the other
dolls are at least 200 and the closest to us in age at all is Victor at the bar, he’s 175, but you won’t
want to hang out with him,” she grimaced. “He’s a bit off in the head. One too many knocks on the
noggin, if you know what I mean. How old were you before?”
“Before?”
“Before you became a vampire,” she elaborated.
“Oh,” Edward stuttered suddenly. That was what Grayson had meant by them being closest in age.
“I was 17.”
“Really?”
“Yes, and how old were you?”
“I was 16 but almost 17. If you’re 107 that means you were born in 1901? So you would have
been going off to the war wouldn’t you?”
“I’d planned too,” Edward nodded. “Then I become ill with Spanish influenza.”
“You were sick when they turned you?” Her eyes grew wide at the thought. “Groovy.”
“Groovy? Were you sick as well?”
“No,” she shook her head. “No one wants a sickly blood doll. I was in the middle of a pretty good
trip though.”
“Where had you traveled?” Edward couldn’t help but wonder about why anyone would take a
vacation to become a vampire. Perhaps she’d been taken from a resort area? Maybe she was a
kidnapped tourist of some kind?
Grayson laughed suddenly and Edward shifted toward him. “She was on drugs Edward. Sandy is
very much a child of her age, a hippie to the very center of her core. Don’t let her help you
decorate your quarters or they’ll be tie dyed with gigantic yellow sunflowers covering every
surface.”
“Oh,” Edward nodded slightly at both of them and tried to smile. “Well, it’s very nice to meet you
Sandy. I hope we can be friends, if Mr. Grayson hires me and he allows for that.”
“Do you want the job?” She asked him from inside her mind. “Blink twice if you really do.” He
blinked twice and watched as her face lit up.
Turning toward the man behind the desk she smiled beguilingly. “You’re giving him the job aren’t
you?”
“Well,” Grayson looked him over and Edward knew the job was his. Grayson had decided to keep
him before he’d ever set foot in Chicago; the minute he’d heard that a powerful mind reader was
coming toward Chicago he had wanted him. “I don’t really think I need him.”
“Of course you do!” Sandy snapped as she jumped to her feet and grabbed Edward’s arm, dragging
him toward the desk. “He’s brilliant and do you know how good he would be for business? We don’t
tell anyone what he does, let them think he’s part of your security detail, and then you can steal
plans from the mind of anyone you meet! Of course you’re going to hire him.”
“Sandy,” the older vampire growled.
“No,” she shook her finger at him and Edward was astounded. She belonged to this vampire and
treated him as if he were her pet instead of the other way around.
Turning to Edward she stamped her foot angrily. “Tell me what I’m thinking!”
“Chocolate ice cream,” he blurted out. “With sprinkles on top.”
“All of it,” she demanded.
“And if he doesn’t hire me you’ll never put on that pink waitress uniform and let him bend you over
the desk again,” Edward grimaced at the replay of the other man’s previous mental image.
“Sandy,” the other vampire sighed and Edward cowered slightly as he saw the ferocious look on
her face as she snarled at Grayson.
“Hire him! Or else,” she stopped and a smile slid across her features. “I’ll stop allowing anyone to
feed from me.”
Even now, Edward was shocked at the threat she had made for him. Vampires and blood dolls were
a symbiotic relationship. A vampire needed blood to survive and would waste without it. Once a
blood doll transformed they couldn’t survive without venom, they withered and died unless they
were fed from. To threaten not to allow others to feed from her was the same as threatening to
end her own life for him and Grayson wouldn’t allow that to happen. Edward had learned quickly
that Sandy was the one thing Grayson would do anything for, the only thing he cared about, and
he would give her anything she desired.
That was how Edward had come to be a part of Grayson’s security team, although most of his time
was spent entertaining the girl by his side. He’d fed from her constantly as they began to trust
each other and soon the other girls avoided him, afraid of the glares they earned whenever his
eyes lingered on them. Edward fed only from Sandy and within a month she refused to allow
anyone else to touch her. Grayson had just chuckled when he was told and commented about
‘young love’ before giving his blessing. Within hours, the vampire population of Chicago was aflame
with the gossip of Grayson giving his favorite courtesan to his newest golden child within the
coven.
Edward hadn’t wasted time in finding them a penthouse near the club to move into. Sandy was his
best friend and, while he didn’t desire her body, he’d become possessive about the sweetness of
her blood. She was the only one who really knew what he could do, Grayson had kept his gift a
secret, and also knew him for who he really was. She was the only other person who knew about
Bella and had let him cry huge, tearless, sobs into her neck several times as he confessed to his
longing for his mortal soul mate.
His despair over Bella had led to their first experimentation with acid. She’d told him that pot would
have been easier for him to tolerate his first time, but she needed to make sure it had an effect.
He’d watched, amazed, as she pushed the tiny purple pill onto her tongue and allowed it to
dissolve. He watched her pupils dilate and heard her breathe come short as she pressed her wrist
to his lips. Her mind had fragmented and he knew the drug had taken effect so he bit down into
her wrist and drank from her. The blood had been sweeter than ever before and he’d gasped in
pleasure at it. A hazy bliss filled his mind and the room began to saturate with Technicolor as he
realized that they had been successful. A blood doll could feel the effects of narcotics, they could
get high or drunk, and while he couldn’t experience either first hand, he could mimic the effects of
it from her now tainted blood.
He’d come back to himself, two hours later, fully refreshed and playing with one of her wayward
curls. He’d been surprised to find that his chest no longer ached and he’d managed to pass the
time without thinking about Bella. That had led to wild experimentation on both of their parts. She
had a preference for pot, he preferred to drop ecstasy instead; she couldn’t stand cocaine and he’d
agreed completely the jitters had made him too nervous; he liked to compose on acid and she
preferred to sleep off oxycontin and anything else that made her drowsy. They reached
compromises and made concessions but before long they spent a good portion of their time in a
drugged out haze where Bella could no longer reach him and cause any pain.
It wasn’t a life Carlisle would have approved of for him, but for once Edward didn’t care. He didn’t
hurt anymore, he didn’t crave something else anymore, and that was all that mattered to him.
Chapter 3.
“You don’t work anymore,” Edward growled angrily as he looked at the petite blonde sitting next to
him in his Aston Martin. “That was part of the agreement when you moved in with me. You. Don’t.
Work. Anymore.”
“I’m not working,” Sandy snapped and tapped her fingers against the passenger side door. “William
asked me to come in just for a little while to look at his newest batch of dolls.”
“Are you going straight home afterwards?”
“William invited me to stay for a bit and keep him company.”
“So I’ll spend all night worrying about someone trying to feed off of you,” Edward answered
tersely. “That’s what I do when William ‘asks’ you to visit the club and keep him company. I spend
all night either listening to his foul fantasies starring you or listening to others speculate about the
best way to get you alone to feed off of you. Most of them have lecherous fantasies about you as
well.”
She reached over to grab his jaw as the car jerked into the covered parking garage just inside
Grayson’s compound. Pulling his face around so that she was staring directly into his eyes she
made her face stern. “No one else feeds off me but you no one. Not William, not anyone else
just you. William just asked me to come in tonight to look at his newest acquisitions. He wants my
take to see where each of them should go. He wants me to assess how much training they may
need, if a broken one or a sick one has slipped through, that sort of thing.”
“He should evaluate them himself,” Edward answered sullenly.
“They’re cattle to him,” Sandy retorted, “just like they are to you. They’re nothing more than a
food source.”
“You’re not a food source,” Edward reached out to grasp her hands in his and stared at the console
between them. “You’re my best friend, not a food source. You’re—“
“I’m?”
“You’re the closest thing I’ll ever have to a mate now that Bella’s gone and I’m screwing this up
with you.”
He felt her lean her forehead against his and her blonde curls billowed around them, obscuring
their faces from anyone else that could be in the garage. “You’re not screwing this up,” she
whispered. “You can’t help the fact you’re an over possessive idiot.”
“Thanks,” he snorted lightly and reached over to pull her toward him so that she was straddling his
lap, her back to the rest of the garage.
“That doesn’t mean you’re not my best friend though,” she pointed out as he began to rub his hair
against her face. Slowly he moved to brush his face over her shirt covered torso and let his hands
run up her legs. He shifted slightly so that she was up higher, against the steering wheel as he let
his face nuzzle delicately at the front of her pants, near the apex of her thighs, and then brushed
quick fingers up underneath the sides of her shirt to tickle her lightly.
“Edward,” she gasped and began to squirm slightly.
“Sandy,” he breathed back lightly, mocking her tone. Any human, or outsider, that saw them would
think they had run across a teenage couple making out in the front of a ridiculously expensive
luxury car. Anyone who knew either of them would think they had intruded on Grayson’s golden
boy making love to his pet before starting his shift for the night. Regardless, no one would dare
disturb them.
What none of them realized was that all of it was an elaborate ploy to cover up what they weren’t
doing and sometimes Edward wondered if the charade was really worth it. Some part of him
thought it might actually be easier to just throw Sandy across the hood of his new toy and have his
way with her than to try to create the illusion that he routinely was.
No, his inner monologue protested. That part of you belongs just to Bella.
Bella’s gone, his inner 17 year old whined petulantly. We’ve given up on ever seeing Bella again
and even though there’s no medical evidence that a penis can in fact atrophy and then fall off it
hasn’t been disproven either. Let’s not risk it.
Edward groaned into the side of Sandy’s neck and closed his eyes. He was now officially arguing
with himself. Maybe he’d gone mad? That was possible. He had never exhibited signs of madness
before, that he knew of, but it was possible that he’d gone mad. What happens when a vampire
suffers multiple personality disorder? Would all of his personalities be vampiric or could one of
them possibly be human? Maybe he was just now finally reaching puberty.
That’s it, he decided. I’m 107 years old and I’ve just now reached puberty. God, I’m an absolute
failure at everything including my own sexual health.
“This car is too small,” he managed to spit out between clenched teeth.
“You were the one who wanted it,” Sandy replied sweetly. “I told you it was ostentatious and flashy
but no, no, Edward Cullen had to have an Aston Martin.”
“I let you have your mini,” he snorted as he reached over for the door handle and then stepped
out, Sandy still curled up in his arms. “Don’t complain.”
“I wouldn’t if you’d let me drive it once in a while.”
“You might get hurt.”
“Edward,” Sandy laughed. “I’m part of the undead. Remember 100 separate bites from vampires
over 4 days? Each time having the venom resucked out of my system before it could take hold?
Any of this ringing a bell?”
“You’re not invincible though,” he argued sullenly. “No granite skin. You can still be harmed.”
“Silly vampire,” she wrapped her arms around him and pulled him up against her, her back leaning
against the driver’s side door.
“Stubborn Halfling,” he replied with a smile as he bent down to nuzzle her neck again.
“If you feel that way about it,” she smiled. “I guess I can just move back in here.”
“Nope,” he pressed her firmly against the side of the car, “my stubborn Halfling.”
“Yours?”
“Just mine.”
“Demanding aren’t you?”
“Possessive,” he replied. “Hot headed, tempermental, spoiled, and completely unreasonable.”
“At least you have a clear view of yourself.”
“And you love me anyway,” he teased before leaning in to brush his lips against hers, transferring
the tiniest bit of venom onto her lips so that her breath would smell like him.
“Sometimes I wonder why,” she snorted before smiling indulgently at him. She always thought his
rituals were silly. The faint scent of him always lingered on her because they were constantly in
contact and the fact that he’d fed from her recently would be noticeable to any vampire within ten
feet of her. It didn’t matter to him though, if they were anywhere near another vampire he would
go about diligently marking as much of her as he could so that she positively reeked of him.
“Because I adore you more than anyone else in my life,” Edward answered honestly. It was the
truth, she was the most important thing to him on this Earth beside Bella and he knew he would
willingly give his life for either of them.
“Silly vampire,” she giggled and placed her lips gently on his cheek. “You’re going to break my
heart when you finally wise up and go home to that girl of yours.”
“Don’t,” he whispered faintly and let his forehead rest against hers. “Don’t tell me how I need to go
home to her. I can’t do that. I can’t ruin her life like that. Besides, it’s been long enough that she’s
forgotten me. She’s moved on. There’s nothing left for me there with her.”
“Silly vampire,” Sandy muttered again and leaned in to kiss his other cheek, letting her fingers trail
through his hair. “You really are such a silly, stubborn vampire.”
“Can’t you two get a room?” A loud voice echoed around the garage and Edward jerked his face up
to look at Constantine as he stepped out of a large cargo truck. “Wait! You have a room. You have
an entire apartment together. Why are you making out in the garage?”
“Killing time before work,” Edward answered and pushed Sandy slightly behind him. Constantine’s
thoughts were always vulgar and the images he was currently entertaining involving Sandy and the
hood of Edward’s car were making Edward vaguely nauseous. Edward wasn’t sure if the current
fantasy was even possible, constrained as they were by a human range of motion, and it would
definitely scratch his paint job.
“Well,” Constantine shook his head. “When you’re done groping around like two horny teenagers
can you help me unload the newest batch of cargo?”
“Fine,” Edward sighed before leaning down to plant a light kiss on Sandy’s cheek. “Why don’t you
go on inside and find William?” He urged her.
Once she was inside he turned toward Constantine and tried to block the other vampire’s thoughts
from his mind. “What’s the cargo?”
“Newest batch of cattle,” Constantine replied with a grin, “straight out of the compound in
Chinatown.”
“Fresh?” Edward raised his eyebrows. The vampires in San Francisco’s Chinatown were the
exclusive providers of blood dolls and once a girl had been turned they took three months to train
her before putting her up for sale. Fresh dolls were an expensive and limited commodity and even
Grayson tended to recycle his dolls from one club to the next or buy new stock from other club
owners.
“Every one of them,” Constantine confirmed as he and Edward moved around to the back of the
truck.
Pushing open the back sliding door Edward grimaced at the sight in front of him. Sixteen girls were
packed inside the back of a Uhaul truck, staring nervously at him. “All right ladies,” he tried to
make his voice sound authoritative. “Welcome to Chicago. Out you come.”
He looked over and Constantine nodded at him once before they began to coax the young women
out of the back of the truck and herded them toward the garage door. All of them were dirty,
scared and quite a few were trying to desperately find a way to escape. The level of panic in their
thoughts made Edward jumpy as he continued to help each of them from the back of the truck.
“Come on,” he reached out for the last girl, not bothering to look at her just like he hadn’t bothered
to look at any of the other girls. “Out you come. It doesn’t do you any good to cower in the back,
I’ll just come drag you out.”
He felt a cold hand touch his own and jerked away from her in shock. She was skinnier than the
last time he’d seen her. Her translucent white skin was now just pale, dull almost, and her
mahogany curls hung in lifeless hunks around her face. He looked into two blank, flat, brown eyes
and realized her mind was still silent. Looking around he recognized three other girls huddled
together staring at him as well. He hadn’t bothered to pay attention to their thoughts and they had
slipped past him without any recognition.
Standing, huddled together, in the dank garage were Lauren Mallory, Jessica Stanley and Angela
Weber. Glancing back down at the girl whose hand he was holding his world crumbled around him.
Staring back at him blankly was the girl he’d run away to save. Bella Swan was staring back at him
as if he was nothing more than a stranger and as he took a deep breath he realized something
even more sickening he couldn’t smell her blood at all. She was no longer his beautiful Bella, the
thing in front of him now was a Blood Doll.
Chapter 4.
“Edward,” Sandy pulled him into a long corridor just beyond Grayson’s office. “What is going on?”
“What?”
“Edward,” she placed her hands on his shoulders gently. “You’ve been acting like a space cadet for
the past two hours. What’s going on?”
“It’s Bella,” he managed to gasp as his hands started to shake. Once he’d admitted it, he wasn’t
sure what to say next.
“Bella? Is she hurt? Did Alice see something?”
“No,” he buried his head in the soft shoulder in front of him.
“Edward, what’s wrong with Bella?”
“She’s here.”
“Here? Where here? You mean she’s in Chicago?”
“No,” he buried his head deeper and felt dry sobs racking through his body. “She’s here.”
“Here?” Sandy repeated. “As in here in this building? One of the new blood dolls?”
She pulled back from him and grasped his face with her hands. “Do you know all four of them?”
All four of them, he thought to himself. Angela, Lauren, Jessica and his own Bella were all inside
that truck. “Yes.”
“That explains the other three girls’ behavior.”
“What behavior?”
“Edward, they were hysterical. I didn’t have a choice but to let Madeline sedate them.”
“What about Bella?”
“The other girl is catatonic – completely unresponsive. It’s understandable for all of them, if you
think about it. The others didn’t know what you are and Bella never thought she’d see you again.”
“What did you do with her?”
“We put them in the cages.”
“What?” Edward jerked back from her in horror. “You put Bella in a cage?”
“I didn’t know it was Bella,” Sandy wrung her hands. “Besides that’s how all new blood dolls are
treated. You live in the cages until you’re trained and you’ve earned your way out.”
“How long?”
“Until Madeline decides she trusts them not to run. A normal girl takes about six months. If they
earn her trust quicker it can be shorter.”
“How long were you in there?” Edward bit his lip as he asked. He and Sandy had never discussed
the details of her life inside the dollhouse before.
“William had me removed after two weeks. It didn’t take long for us to reach an agreement.”
“An agreement?” Edward felt his stomach lurch at the formal sounding words. Sandy had broken
after two weeks inside the cages. How long would she he couldn’t bring himself to say her name
last inside them?
“I’ll talk to William,” Sandy gave him a brief squeeze. “It may take a bit to arrange everything but
I’ll have them moved before daybreak.”
“Arrange everything?”
“We’ll find fosters for the other three and in the morning I’ll move back into my old room.”
“Fosters?”
“You can’t send them home Edward,” Sandy replied. “They’re fully changed. They’ll die there unless
your family takes them in. William knows some vampires that are solitary, good vampires; they’ll
take them in as pets. I promise all three will go to gentle masters.”
“And Bella?”
“I’ll make arrangements for you to take her home tonight. I’ll come tomorrow to get my things.”
“Your things?” He couldn’t understand what she was saying.
“To move back here,” Sandy prompted.
“You’re leaving me?” Edward felt his chest tighten at the thought. What had he done to upset her?
Did she think he’d had Bella brought here on purpose?
“Bella’s here now,” Sandy smiled at him. “She’s your mate and she’s here now. It’s okay. We’ll still
see each other when you come to work and if you decide to go home again you can always visit.
It’s not like time’s working against us.”
“No!” Edward snapped. “You can’t leave me!”
“Edward,” Sandy shook her head in disbelief. “Bella’s here. You don’t need me anymore. Besides,
William won’t let you keep two dolls for yourself. It’s too dangerous for us.”
“Don’t leave,” Edward pleaded as he pulled her into his arms. “Please don’t leave me.”
“But Bella?”
“I don’t want Bella,” Edward whimpered as he said it. “She’s not my Bella.”
“Edward”
“No, she’s not my Bella. My Bella was human. My Bella was alive and that thing is not my Bella.”
“She is,” Sandy insisted. “She’s changed, yes, but inside she’s still your Bella. She’s just terrified
right now. What she’s been through was traumatic. I know.”
“No,” Edward shook his head again. “That thing is not my Bella.”
“Edward,” Sandy pulled back to take his hand. “Come on, I’ll show her to you. It’s Bella.”
“No!” He pulled away from her. “I can’t. I can’t see her like this. I can’t deal with this.”
“All right,” Sandy said soothingly. “What do you want me to do then?”
“Find them homes,” Edward said softly. “All of them need homes.”
“Okay.”
“And promise you won’t leave.”
“I won’t leave,” Sandy nodded.
“Promise?”
“I promise not to leave,” Sandy agreed. “I’ll explain the situation to William but he may not let all
of them go. Give me the priority on each of them.”
“Bella first,” Edward whispered. “I can’t stand to see her, but please make sure she goes to a good
home.”
“The very best,” Sandy nodded. “I know just the woman to take her.”
“Thank you,” Edward sighed. “Next would be Angela she’s always been Bella’s true friend. She’s
very shy so she’ll need someone very kind.”
“Of course,” Sandy agreed, “someone older perhaps?”
Edward shrugged on the idea. “Then Jessica and Lauren. Neither of them are good people and
they’ve always treated Bella horribly. I don’t want them going to monsters but ”
“I understand,” Sandy nodded. “Perhaps someone more aggressive would teach them some
manners?”
“How are you going to get William to agree?”
“That’s my business,” Sandy smiled. “Promise you won’t listen?”
“I guard the door tonight,” Edward replied. “I’ll do my best to block you out.”
“Thank you,” Sandy smiled as she gave him a brief hug before shoving him in the direction of the
door. “And Edward?”
“Hmmm?”
“Whatever you might overhear I don’t mean 99% of it.”
“What about the other 1%?”
“It won’t take a mind reader to tell it’s the truth,” she answered softly before waving him away.
Chapter 5.
Sandy shook her head slowly as she walked away from her distraught companion. She couldn’t
understand what he was so upset over, why he was fighting this so hard. He loved Bella. He
wanted Bella. He was apparently terrified of hurting Bella with his vampire strength and her human
frailty in the face of his urges. Now Bella was here, Bella was a blood doll, Edward could drink from
Bella and not only would it not hurt her it would be necessary. Edward couldn’t lose his precious
self control and accidentally kill Bella. Sandy knew she wasn’t always the brightest but that seemed
like something to celebrate not something to be devastated about.
Meanwhile, Edward was, Sandy stopped. Meanwhile, Edward was being Edward and that meant
things had to be complicated. Edward wasn’t happy unless the situation was complicated and he,
personally, was miserable. You adore him though, she reminded herself. He’s the best friend
you’ve had in a long time and you’d do anything for him. Absolutely anything, including things he
would never want. Although, Sandy thought to herself as she began to hum Led Zepplin’s When
the Levy Breaks, getting laid would certainly do him a world of good.
She reached Grayson’s door and knocked on it sharply. “Come in!”
“Baby,” she purred as she did her utter best to slink through the door and into her former lover’s
office. “Can I talk to you for a second? Please?”
“Sure Princess,” Grayson pushed back from his desk and stared as she made her way as
seductively as possible over to his desk. “What’s on your mind? Sick of the cub yet?”
“No,” Sandy pouted lightly. “That’s what I wanted to talk with you about.”
“Hmmm,” Grayson pursed his lips and then patted his knee. “Well, come talk to daddy about it.”
“Sell the new bitches you just bought.” Sandy demanded.
“Excuse me?”
“The new blood bitches you brought in, sell them. Get them the hell out of here.”
“All of them?” Grayson’s eyes widened. “I’ve had some of those girls for years in other clubs! You
can’t feel threatened by them! You?”
“Not all of them,” Sandy growled, “just the four new ones that are causing Madeline so many
problems with their carrying on. She won’t be sad to see them go and I want them gone.”
“You want me to get rid of them?” Grayson stuttered. “Why?”
“They’re from Forks,” Sandy snapped.
“Forks? As in Forks, Washington? Where your new little vampire cub is from?”
“Do you know anywhere else with such a ridiculous name?” Sandy did her best to snarl.
“You cannot be serious,” Grayson shook his head. “I had heard they were some form of revenge
but I never got the whole story. Someone decided to poach on the Cullen’s precious sanctuary and
take blood dolls for trophies? The only thing better than that ”
Sandy let out a low growl and glared at him. Grayson wasn’t stupid.
“You have got to be having me on love,” Grayson chuckled. “They turned his precious singer?”
“They turned the singer,” Sandy confirmed.
“Does he know?”
“Yes.”
“And now he doesn’t want you anymore,” Grayson shook his head. “Adolescents are so fickle aren’t
they?”
“Very funny,” Sandy shook her head and curled her head up in his shoulder. “He says he doesn’t
want her, claims that she smells funny.”
“That’s always the way isn’t it?” Grayson consoled. “They’re never quite as appealing once the
scent is gone more a case of true blood lust rather than true love.”
“I don’t want to take any chances,” Sandy pouted and squirmed closer because she knew it would
get her what she wanted.
“What would you have me do then?”
“Sell them.”
“All four of them? You realize they’re double bubble right? Worth more than their weights in gold?”
“All four of them? You’re sure? The blonde looked pretty skanky.”
“I had Madeline check all of them. Double bubble. All four of them are virgins and except for their
turn and the maintenance venom after their change, none of them have ever been fed from. Do
you know what they’ll go for once they’re auctioned?”
“Sell them after they’re auctioned off then!”
“You really want rid of all four of them? That’s the only terms you’ll accept?”
“What did you have planned instead?” Sandy pretended to sulk.
“Well,” Grayson stretched backwards. “I had intended to keep all four of them and then sell off two
of the other girls to private owners. I don’t really need four new girls. I’d intended for one of the
brunettes and the one with the curls to become feeders and the blonde and the other brunette to
take over on a ‘for rent’ basis. It would be a tough choice though both brunettes would bring in
high profits and the blonde would replace you.”
“Edward says the blonde is a bitch. She’ll need to be broken.”
“Yes,” Grayson clucked his tongue. “The report I received said that she was a handful as well. The
others are generally meek though. I can see the gleam in your eyes, Princess. What is going
through that delightful brain of yours?”
“Sell the brunettes as pristine. You’ll make more off the collectors with two pristine blood dolls than
you’d make if you sold every used one in the house. Keep the other two as feeders. Once the
blonde learns her place, move her into a room.”
“You may have a point,” Grayson conceded. “Why both brunettes?”
“The singer and her best friend,” Sandy shrugged. “Best if we keep all thoughts of her out of a
certain young vampire’s mind.”
“And the sweetener for me?” Grayson shrugged. “What do I get for conceding to your requests?”
“What do you want?”
“What do you think I want?”
“Give Edward a month away from Chicago long enough for me to get the singer out of his mind.”
“And where will you be going?”
“New Orleans, Manhattan, wherever you’re willing to let us take over one of the compounds.”
“Feeling homesick?” Grayson tilted his head to the side and smiled. “Want to check in on the
family? See if mummy and daddy are still hanging on? Peek in on the nieces and nephews?”
“Fuck you,” Sandy went to stand.
“That is what I had intended,” Grayson agreed before reaching into his desk and pulling out a key
ring. “Take the month, enjoy the District, and don’t let the cub play to stereotypes too much. There
are too many aspiring writers down there looking for their next dark tale.”
“Right,” Sandy nodded. “So?”
“So,” Grayson lifted her easily onto the desk and stood between her legs. “I know a little secret
that your cub is trying desperately to hide.”
“What would that be?”
“He. Hasn’t. Touched. You.” Grayson enunciated slowly.
“Of course he has,” Sandy snapped.
Grayson buried his face in her hair and chuckled. “Oh no, no he hasn’t. He’s fed from you, I’ll grant
that, and I can smell his stench all over you. He’s done a good job of making it look like he’s had
you but I’m guessing that our dear little Edward is still as pure as the driven snow. Biblically
speaking, of course.”
“You don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“Silly little Sandy,” Grayson chuckled. “I know exactly what I’m talking about. He hasn’t touched
you at all. You must be going insane for it. Celibacy has never exactly been your strong suit has
it?”
She felt strong hands on her shoulders and before she could respond Grayson had spun her around
and bent her over the desk in front of him. “Hands over your head Princess,” he crooned. “Let
Daddy take care of everything.”
She replayed Hendrix’s version of the Star Spangled Banner in her mind. She listed all of Clapton’s
hits. She recited the lyrics to every Janis Joplin song. She carefully kept all thoughts of what
Grayson was currently doing or Edward blocked from her mind. She knew he’d be angry if he knew
what she was doing to secure Bella’s safety and his own comfort. She didn’t need Edward feeling
guilty about what she’d fully expected to happen.
A few moments later she heard him grunt and then a sharp thrust before he patted her gently on
the hip and pulled away. “I’ve missed that,” Grayson murmured as he leaned down to press a kiss
into her hair. “But I know eventually you’ll get sick of being the untouched consort of your little
virgin cub and come home to me.”
“Right,” Sandy nodded as she retrieved the keys he’d left on the desk in front of her. “So we have
an agreement?”
“The brunettes remain untouched and go to private buyers once you and Edward have left town for
your romantic vacation; the blonde and the curly haired ones are auctioned off and after that
they’ll work their way out of the cages like everyone else.”
“Deal,” Sandy nodded.
“You’ll be leaving soon?”
“Once Edward’s shift is over,” Sandy agreed. “Better to leave now than wait around for him to
change his mind about the singer.”
“Of course,” she could see the smirk on Grayson’s face before she spun and made her way to the
door. She’d need to clean herself up and regain her composure before she saw Edward again. Plus,
she wanted a chance to find out what had happened in Forks and reassure at least the two
brunettes about their safety.
“So,” Grayson announced as she reached the door to his office. “Any ideas on who I should sell
them too? Majorica for the singer and Vladimir for the friend?”
Majorica and Vladimir? Sandy blanched at the thought. They were aggressive vampires who kept
stables of blood dolls to act as pain slaves, dolls who were meant to feed their desire to hurt
others. Giving the girls to them would be the exact opposite of what she promised Edward would
happen.
“No,” she shook her head. “I want rid of them, I don’t want them harmed.”
“So?” Grayson raised an eyebrow. “Who?”
“Offer Bella to Carlotta. From how Edward describes his singer, she’ll do well in that environment.”
“And, of course, my sister avoids any interactions with the rest of us that she can and keeps
herself in seclusion.”
“That helps,” Sandy agreed.
“And the other one? Angela, I believe her name is?”
“Gus,” Sandy decided. “He’s been lonely since the accident. Gus would be a good master for her.”
“That is true,” Grayson conceded. “He’s been different since the fire. It’s been twelve years,
perhaps it’s time he takes a new doll. Angela’s the one with glasses?”
“Looks like a librarian? Yes. Edward says she’s very sweet and innocent.”
“Perfect,” Grayson agreed. “My son always did like the sweet ones. He’ll adore her. Meanwhile, I’ve
noticed I make no profit.”
“Consider it good karma,” Sandy retorted as she made her way out the door.
“Like that helps me in the slightest,” she heard Grayson snort as the door closed behind her and
she walked away.
Chapter 6.
Angela crouched inside the cage next to Bella and tried her best to comfort her silent best friend.
The other girl shook violently and the harder she shook the tighter Angela kept her arms around
her.
“This is her fault,” she heard Lauren announce angrily from a cage near them.
“It’s no one’s fault,” she snapped back angrily and began to rock the weeping girl in her arms. “No
one asked for this.”
“You saw him,” Jessica joined in. “That was Edward Cullen out there and you know it. He’s one of
them. You can’t think it’s a coincidence that he’s one of them, here, and this is where we end up
like we are. It’s because of her!”
“Why would Edward purposely do something like this to Bella?” Angela tried to keep her voice
reasonable. Edward had always seemed like a nice guy and she couldn’t understand why he would
ever do something this horrible. “He loved her. Why would Edward try to hurt her like this?”
“I don’t know,” Lauren wailed dramatically. “But what I do know is we’re trapped here and her
boyfriend is one of those monsters!”
“I’d keep those opinions to yourself if you’d like to keep breathing,” a sharp voice announced from
further down the corridor and Angela could hear the sound of footsteps coming toward them. She
took in a deep breath and realized that she couldn’t smell anything. It wasn’t a vampire then, it
was another blood doll.
“What’s it to you?” Lauren snarled.
“Well,” a tiny woman with a mane of blonde hair stopped in front of their cages. “First, those
monsters are what’s going to keep you alive so if I were you I’d either warm up to them or keep
my opinions to myself. But you can take that as just a suggestion from someone who’s been
around the block sotospeak. Second, Grayson doesn’t take too kindly to the property being
disrespectful, even in private, and he’s got a viciously creative mind when it comes to punishment.
Three, I know for a fact that Edward had nothing to do with your arrival here and since he’s a
friend of mine I don’t take kindly to anyone talking badly about him. By extension that means Bella
is off limits as well.”
“And what are you going to do about it if I don’t?” Angela could tell that Lauren was just trying to
be brave. “You’re just like us.”
“Well,” the blonde shrugged again.
“She doesn’t know anything, does she?” The redhead standing next to the blonde laughed. “Stupid
girl, this here is William Grayson’s favorite blood doll and Edward’s ”
“Doesn’t matter,” the blonde cut in and Angela wondered exactly what she was to Edward because
apparently it did matter very, very much. “Throw her in the box until it comes time to auction her.”
“The box?” The redhead repeated.
“She needs to learn some manners and the box is the best way to do it.”
“Right,” the redhead agreed and motioned to two large vampires at either end of the corridor. “You
heard Sandy, toss her in the box.”
Angela buried Bella’s head in her shoulder, covering her eyes, as she watched the two vampires
drag a screaming Lauren from her cage and into the corridor. Ripping off the few clothes she was
wearing, they held her between them as the other two vampires brought what looked to be a small
metal footlocker on wheels to rest in front of them.
“You can’t!” Jessica screeched.
“Why?” The blonde shook her head. “You don’t need to breathe, eating isn’t essential. All you need
to survive is venom. Consider this a warning to all of you. Your survival here rests on how often
you’re fed from. Don’t do your job, act sullen, and you will wither and die.” Turning, she looked at
the four vampires, “keep her in there until Grayson auctions her off.”
Angela gripped Bella tighter and grimaced as they pushed a wailing Lauren into the box, folding her
in half, before slamming the lid shut and locking it. “Which one of you is Angela and which of you is
Bella?”
She glanced up and saw the blonde staring speculatively between the two cages. “We are,” she
lifted one hand up to catch the woman’s attention. “I’m Angela and this is Bella.”
“Right,” the blonde nodded curtly and then turned to the redhead. “Get them out of the cage and
take them to my room.”
“Grayson said they were to stay in the cages until they were auctioned,” the other woman
protested.
“They’ve already been sold,” the blonde commented.
Sold? They’d been sold? What did this woman mean they’ve been sold?
“Really?” The redhead seemed impressed. “No one has come to look at them. When should I
expect them back?”
“They’re not coming back,” the blonde answered. “It was a private sale and a full transfer of
ownership. Owners should pick them up either tonight or tomorrow.”
“Lucky girls,” the redhead whistled.
“Makes you wish you’d have kept your knickers on as a girl doesn’t it?” The blonde teased.
“Apparently,” the redhead laughed before reaching for the padlocks at the front of their cage.
“What about me?” Jessica whimpered.
“You weren’t sold,” the blonde answered calmly. “You’ll be auctioned off to the highest bidder for
tonight and you’ll resume work in the morning. Sorry.”
Angela flinched slightly as the two vampires reached in and lifted her and Bella from the cage,
breaking them apart. Once she was standing upright, she wrapped her arms around Bella’s
shoulder again to support the other girl.
“Come with me,” the blonde motioned imperiously and started to walk away. Angela led Bella out
of the corridor and followed the blonde along the winding halls of what seemed like a large maze of
rooms. The blonde stopped in front of a door and pushed it open, beckoning them inside. Once
they were in, she shut the door and motioned for them to take a seat.
“I’m Sandy,” the blonde stuck out her hand to Angela.
“Angela,” she smiled tentatively.
“Don’t worry,” Sandy shrugged. “My act is way more vicious than I ever really am. Venom tea?”
“Pardon?”
“Venom tea?” Sandy repeated. “It’s tea with venom in it. It won’t keep you alive on its own but it
will spread out the time needed between feedings. Would you like a cup?”
“Yes,” Angela nodded. “We’d both like a cup.”
“How long has she been silent?” Sandy asked as she turned back toward a small kitchenette.
“How did you know?”
“Besides the fact she hasn’t said a word? I’ve seen my fair share of girls in shock. So, how long?”
“Since the attack,” Angela answered quietly. “She just sort of broke.”
“Tell me about it?”
“Excuse me?”
“Tell me about the attack,” Sandy repeated. “It sounds like you were purposely staked out and
kidnapped.”
“We were,” Angela agreed.
“That’s not normal for blood dolls,” Sandy explained. “We don’t get many new girls and when we
do they’re normally mistakes vampires who attempted to turn someone and failed, chickened
out half way through. Instead of killing them they bite too shallow and find they can’t drink
someone’s blood. It leaves the victim half transformed and they bring them here. There are a few
hunters out there but they take one girl at a time, not four from one small town.”
“It was a woman,” Angela answered quietly, “a flame haired woman and an African American man
with dreads. We were at a movie and they attacked us as we were going to the car. The redhead
kept talking about getting revenge and how it would make things impossible for the Cullens now.
We didn’t know what they meant but now that I see Edward, I guess it makes sense. They’re
vampires aren’t they? All of them?”
“Yeah,” Sandy nodded. “They’re vampires. That’s when Bella stopped speaking?”
“The minute she saw the redheaded woman she said ‘Victoria’ and then we haven’t heard a word
from her since. I don’t know how to make her talk.”
“She’ll talk in time,” Sandy reassured her as she poured three cups of tea. “You’ve done everything
you could.”
“So,” Angela stopped and stared at her speculatively. How could she ask the other woman exactly
who she was?
“I’ve made some arrangements for you,” Sandy broke in. “I mean, I’m pretty sure you know what
this place is, so I thought you’d prefer not to stay here. Edward would prefer to not have you here
either.”
“This place it’s a ”
“It’s a dollhouse,” Sandy explained. “A vampiric version of a brothel where all the girls are blood
dolls.”
“And Edward?”
“He’s part of Mr. Grayson’s security team. He explained to me that you were friends and that’s why
I assume someone was hunting you, out of revenge against him. So, I decided to make the best
out of a bad situation and make some arrangements for you.”
“Arrangements?”
“You’ve been sold,” Sandy explained gently. “I know it sounds bad but I promise it won’t be.”
“Okay,” Angela took a shaky sip of her tea.
“You’ll be going to Mr. Grayson’s son Gus. He lives on a farm outside Hammond and doesn’t come
into Chicago much. He’s wary about being around his father’s compound. I promise you, he’s one
of the sweetest men you’ll ever mee,.very kind. He had the same blood doll for over 100 years and
he hasn’t taken another consort since.”
“What happened?” Angela asked.
“There was an accident,” Sandy replied quietly. “She died.”
“She died?”
“Look,” Sandy looked uncomfortable. “I don’t know exactly what happened, but somehow there
was an accident and she was killed in the resulting fire. He was mad with grief over it and he’s just
now starting to come around again. I can’t tell you all the details but I can tell you that if you let
him, he’ll spoil you with attention. I know you think they’re all monsters but Gus is most definitely
the most humane monster you’ll ever meet.”
“What about Bella?”
“Bella is going to Grayson’s sister Carlotta, another big softie. If anyone can help her heal from
this, it’s Carlotta. I promise, both of you are going to good homes. Now, they should be here in a
few hours so I thought you’d both like to have hot baths and then perhaps some rest. I know both
have been withheld from you for a long time.”
“Thank you,” Angela said gratefully as she stood to go run Bella a bath. Once she had the smaller
girl inside the tub she returned to the front room and stared at Sandy. “What about Edward?”
“He’ll be leaving for a few weeks,” Sandy replied quietly. “He’s taking some time to deal with
things. You can imagine this was a shock for him.”
“Right,” Angela agreed. “What about you and Edward?”
“We’re friends,” Sandy answered softly. “He feeds off of me on occasion but other than that we’re
just good friends. He loves Bella.”
“So why isn’t he taking her home with him?”
“I don’t know,” Sandy shook her head. “Because he’s a stubborn ass would be my best guess. I’m
working on it though. Give me a few weeks away from Chicago and hopefully I’ll have talked some
sense into him.”
“Sure,” Angela smiled.
“Angela?” Sandy asked before she took a sip of her tea.
“Yes?”
“I’m sorry this happened to you. Really I am.”
Chapter 7.
Bella followed the dark haired woman out of the red sedan and into the large, white clapboard
house silently. They were somewhere outside of Chicago proper, she hadn’t paid much attention to
where they were driving, but she could tell by their surroundings that they were in a very nice
suburb filled with luxury cars and enormous houses.
“I don’t have any food in the house,” the woman announced slowly. “I wasn’t expecting to need
any. Tonight, we’ll order out for you something to eat and then tomorrow you can take the BMW to
the grocery store and retrieve whatever you’d like to eat.”
Bella stared at the woman silently. She was going to allow her to just get in the car and drive to
the grocery store? She wasn’t worried that Bella was going to disappear?
“I’ll leave my bank card for you to pay for groceries and anything else you might like. If you’d like
to stop at the mall there are several clothing stores and you’ll be able to replenish your wardrobe.
The BMW is yours now so I hope you’ll use it whenever you want to go out, all I ask is that you
leave me a note to let me know you’re out and approximately when you’ll be back. I don’t need to
know where you’re going or who you’re with; I just want to know what time I should start getting
worried about you. Tomorrow I’ll call to have you placed on my credit cards and my bank card so
that you have spending money for whatever you want. After I get home from work we’ll go to the
mall and have you added to my cell phone plan and you can get whatever phone you like plus
anything else you think you’ll need.”
Bella felt her jaw drop slightly. The woman was giving her a car and money? And a cell phone?
Didn’t she realize the risks inherent in that? Bella could escape with the freedom that this woman
was giving her.
“Surprised?” The woman laughed and walked forward to embrace her lightly. “What were you
expecting? Did you think I’d put a dog collar on you and chain you to a wall? Come, sit down and
we’ll discuss this like two reasonable women.”
Bella didn’t resist as she felt the other woman take her hand and begin to tug her toward the
overstuffed black sofa in the middle of the living room. “Come sit beside me,” the woman patted
the seat cushion next to her and when Bella sat she felt the other woman’s arms wrap around her
in a loving embrace. “My name is Carlotta and Sandy has told me that you prefer to go by Bella,
which I think is a perfectly beautiful name, it’s very fitting for you. That is also what we will call
each other. I won’t refer to you as ‘pet’ or ‘slave’ or anything other than Bella or possibly
‘sweetheart’. You are not to refer to me as ‘mistress’. I am Carlotta and you are Bella. Do you
agree?”
Bella nodded her head slowly and let herself relax slightly. “I know you’re currently silent,” Carlotta
continued. “I hope that eventually that will change and you’ll come to trust me enough to speak
with me. I think we could be very good friends and I would like that very much. I’m sure you’re
surprised about the freedom I’m giving you. I want to be very clear with you Bella, in case no one
else has been. If you are not fed from you will die. Because you’ll carry my scent on you
exclusively, no one else will dare feed from you in Chicago so if you run away you will die. Do you
understand why I’m unconcerned about allowing you your freedom?”
Bella nodded again because she knew all of this already. It had all been explained to her by the
trainers. She could not live without a vampire to feed off of her and no vampire would steal the
blood doll of another without facing reprisals. Considering Carlotta was Grayson’s sister and
Grayson was the most powerful vampire in Chicago no one would dare drink from Bella without her
permission.
“Now,” Carlotta continued. “The run of the house is yours. You’re welcome to go wherever you like
and explore as much as you care to. My library is in the back of the house and I would like you to
consider it your library as well. My only request is that you do not touch my desk. I’ll have a desk
brought in for you, if you’d like, along with a computer and I’ll give you the same courtesy as you
extend to me. Just as my desk is mine, your desk will be yours and I will not snoop through it.
Agreed?”
Bella nodded again. While she was still repulsed by the monster sitting next to her because of what
she was, Bella found that she was also someone that she could have been friends with before her
change. “You’ll have your own room, which I’ll show you after dinner,” Carlotta continued. “It’s
your choice if you sleep there or in my room. I’ll make no secret about my sexual preferences or
the fact that I find you alluring. I am not a mistress that abuses my pets though so if you share my
bed it will be because you’ve decided to be there. I won’t ask you to do anything that you haven’t
initiated first.”
Bella flinched slightly and the other woman began to rub her arms soothingly. The only person she
had ever considered having a sexual relationship with was Edward and she’d definitely never found
herself attracted to a woman in that way before. She couldn’t imagine ever wanting this woman to
do those sorts of things to her. Bella took a deep breath and tried to regain her composure. Hadn’t
Carlotta just promised her that she wouldn’t force herself on Bella? Told her that she wouldn’t
make demands? If Bella trusted her with everything else she’d just said then she would have to
trust the other woman in that regard as well.
“I also will only feed on you when you offer yourself to me,” Carlotta continued. “Before you panic,
I don’t believe that the two acts are mutually needed. You can choose to let me feed from you
every day but never once want my embrace and that will be fine. The only insistence I must make
is that you will allow me to feed from you once every two weeks. A blood doll cannot survive much
more than 20 days without venom and I don’t believe in taking chances. I know you did not choose
this life but I will not allow you to go into venom withdrawal and die out of sheer stubborn pride. If
you have not offered your blood to me in fourteen days I will take it by force for your own good. Do
you understand?”
Bella nodded again and the other woman quit rubbing her arms. “Now, I’d like for you to eat.
There’s a Thai place around the corner that delivers. Do you like pad thai?” Bella nodded. “Good,”
Carlotta replied. “I’ll order a thing of pad thai and a 2 liter bottle of Coke for you. The caffeine and
the sugar will help with your shock from everything that’s happened. After dinner I’ll show you to
your room and bathroom and then, if you like, you can get some rest.”
Bella nodded and watched as Carlotta stood and walked toward the telephone. Half an hour later
the delivery man was at the door and she tore into the packages of food that Carlotta had ordered.
It had been days since she’d eaten and while she didn’t need food to survive her body still craved
it.
“Slow down,” Carlotta laughed as Bella began to shovel food into her mouth. “Just because I don’t
have food in the house now doesn’t mean I intend to starve you! Taste your food.”
Bella swallowed and then took a deep breath. She glanced over at the vampire and found Carlotta
reclining on the couch, watching her eat with amusement. “Eat,” Carlotta urged. “But don’t make
yourself sick in the process. I promise you can eat whenever you like, just don’t make yourself
sick.”
Bella nodded and slowed her bites down. The Thai food was good and she wanted to relish it but
somehow her instincts kept fighting against her, pushing her to bolt down her food as quickly as
possible. At the Training Center they had laced their food with venom, not allowing anyone to feed
off of them, and had only thrown in small amounts at a time letting the blood dolls fight for what
they ate. Once Lauren had realized she would have to fight for what she got to eat the blonde had
become aggressive even turning on the other three girls from Forks. Thankfully, Angela had the
ability to be just as aggressive but her compassionate instincts were still in tact. Without her, Bella
and Jessica wouldn’t have managed to survive as well as they had.
Bella finished the food in front of her and then her soda before glancing up at Carlotta. What would
happen to her now? What did the other woman have planned? She had heard horror stories about
the doll houses and even about the masters and mistresses that they could be placed with but
Carlotta had yet to signal that she would be a violent mistress. In fact, Bella thought, she’d done
everything to try and show otherwise.
“Are you finished?”
Bella nodded silently and pushed her plate away.
“Come along then,” Carlotta nodded and reached for the empty plate and glass. “I’ll show you the
rest of the house and we’ll start in your kitchen.”
Bella followed behind her, taking in the opulent surroundings. She had always thought that the
Cullen’s lived in the lap of luxury but nothing had prepared her for this. Compared to her new
mistress the Cullen’s lived like paupers. “This is your kitchen,” Carlotta announced as they walked
into a gourmet kitchen that would rival the best restaurants. “I have no reason to be in it so please
consider it as yours.”
Bella nodded and smiled, trying to come up with a way to show her pleasure at the gift without
speaking. Reaching out, she slipped underneath Carlotta’s cashmere covered arm and snuggled in
close to her side. She had enjoyed the feel of the other woman next to her on the couch, enjoyed
the feel of contact with someone who wasn’t afraid.
“So sweet,” Carlotta cooed and Bella snuggled into her side, letting Carlotta stroke her hair, to
show her gratitude. “Come along now sweet Bella,” Carlotta urged and began to walk through the
rest of the downstairs.
“Through here we have the never used dining room,” Carlotta chuckled. “It leads back into the
main living room. Through these doors is another sitting room that I use as a studio, the library
and a bathroom.”
Bella followed as she was led from room to room, gasping in delight at the sheer size of the bright
library in the southern part of the house. Two floors high, she thought it might be larger than both
the house she’d grown up in and her father’s house in Forks. “Do you like it?” Carlotta purred and
Bella pressed against her again, nodding. “Good, I hope you’ll feel at home in here. There are
plenty of books, we’ll bring you in a desk and once you’ve finished your high school education
hopefully you’ll find it a good place to study while you’re attending college.”
Bella looked up at the other woman sharply. College? She intended to let Bella not only finish high
school but also go to college?
“Once you start speaking again, of course,” Carlotta added. “There are plenty of good schools here
in Chicago. I’m sure we can find somewhere that has a major you’re interested in that seems like a
good fit. Is that something you’d like?”
Carlotta was serious, Bella realized. She actually intended to let Bella attend a university! Any
university of her choice here in Chicago. She wouldn’t be forced to follow Edward’s dreams of going
to Dartmouth she’d be allowed to find a school that suited her and her interests.
For a moment Bella felt guilty. What about Angela? The other girl had helped her so much and
Bella knew she’d gone to another master. Was her master as kind to her as Carlotta was being to
Bella? She knew that Jessica and Lauren weren’t getting these types of opportunities but she hoped
that Angela would as well.
“What’s wrong Bella?” Carlotta asked, suddenly concerned. Bella nuzzled into the other woman’s
shoulder. It wouldn’t do any good for her to think Bella was ungrateful. “Do you want to go to
college?”
Bella nodded enthusiastically and Carlotta pursed her lips. “Are you worried about your friend? The
other girl who was sold?”
When Bella dropped her gaze Carlotta pulled her close again and wrapped her arm around Bella
tighter. “Oh sweetheart,” she crooned. “I’ll call my nephew tomorrow and we’ll make arrangements
for you and the other girl to see each other. Don’t worry, she’ll be happy with him and I’m sure if
the two of you want to go to university together he’ll allow it. Trust me Bella; he makes me look
like a tyrant. If your friend has played her cards right he’s probably carrying her around on a velvet
cushion and catering to her every whim as we speak.”
Bella let out a sigh of relief. She doubted that Angela’s master would be that easy to manipulate
but she hoped that he was half as kind as Carlotta seemed to be.
“Now,” Carlotta continued as she led Bella out of the library. “Come along my precious one. Oops, I
have to apologize. I promised I’d only call you Bella or sweetheart. I hope you didn’t mind the
endearment?”
Bella shook her head ‘no’ and pressed closer. As long as Carlotta didn’t call her ‘love’ she thought
that she’d be all right. She never wanted to hear that particular nickname again. Sweetheart was
generic and precious, well, it sounded as though Carlotta really did think that about her. She could
learn to let it grow on her.
“Well then, Precious,” Carlotta chuckled. “I’ll show you where your room and your bathroom are.”
Bella followed her up the stairs as Carlotta pointed out various rooms and then opened the door
into a light, airy suite. There was a small sitting area that led into a bedroom with a cherry wood
four poster bed, matching dresser, and a vanity table. White curtains fluttered in the window and a
delicate white and blue Persian rug lay on the hardwood floor beneath the bed.
“Your bathroom is through there,” Carlotta motioned to the door next to the nightstand and then
patted Bella on the back. “I’m sure you’re tired, so I’ll let you retire for the evening.” Leaning
down, she pressed a gentle kiss onto Bella’s cheek and patted her on the shoulder. “Try to rest.”
Bella nodded and watched as Carlotta walked toward the door. “Bella?” Carlotta announced and
Bella turned to look at her. “I’m truly happy you’ll be living here and I hope, in time, you’ll come to
trust me and see me as your friend.”
Bella smiled in return and nodded as Carlotta smiled and left the room. So far the vampire seemed
genuine and Bella wondered about her. It seemed rare that an actual family had been turned. At
first she’d thought that the other blood doll had been referring to a family similar to the Cullens,
vampires who’ve all chosen the same way of life. Then Angela’s master, Grayson’s son, had arrived
and she could see that the resemblance between them wasn’t just a result of the venom. These
two had been related in their human lives. They were father and son. When Carlotta appeared a
few moments later, she’d had her suspicions confirmed. They really were a family that had been
turned into vampires, but she had no idea how old they were or what events had led to their
change. Perhaps one day she could persuade Carlotta to discuss it.
Bella walked slowly into the large bathroom off her bedroom and started to randomly touch the
various soaps and lotions that Carlotta had left for her. Opening the caps of things, she began to
sniff the various scents. The lavender caught her attention and Bella quickly rooted through the
various bottles to find the shampoo, body wash, and lotion all in the same scent. Filling the marble
tub with hot water she let herself sink into it and relax. Closing her eyes, she tried to let her mind
go blank.
Edward, she thought absently. She had clung to the hope that Edward would save her from this.
That Edward would find out what happened to her and save her somehow. Even that Edward would
be happy about what happened because now they could be together. She wasn’t a vampire and he
could feed off of her, fulfill his craving for her blood without feeling guilty. They could start over
again. Except Edward was here. Edward was one of these vampires. She had seen the red tinge in
his eyes when they had locked onto hers. Her Edward was feeding from blood dolls and Bella was
almost certain that he was feeding quite frequently from the blonde who had arranged her sale.
The other woman had said she was a friend of Edward’s. Did Edward want her sold so that she
could avoid working in the doll house or did he not want to be around her?
Why hadn’t he bought her himself? He’d known what was happening. He’d watched from the
doorway of Grayson’s office as she was brought in and given to Carlotta for inspection. He’d stood
there blankfaced as she was led away from him, looking over her shoulder the whole way and
trying to understand what had happened between them. He hadn’t even met her gaze as she left.
Sniffling, Bella shivered under the water. She didn’t want to have nightmares again tonight about
Edward. It seemed like all she did anymore was dream about how much it hurt when Edward left
her and how he had betrayed her by leaving her unprotected from Victoria. Pulling herself out of
the tub, she dried off quickly and then wrapped the silk robe that was hanging on the door hook
around her. The room was silent and it terrified her. She hadn’t been alone since the night of the
attack; always sleeping huddled beside Angela in the dark.
Running a shaky finger through her hair, she made a decision. Pushing open her door, she padded
quickly down the hallway to Carlotta’s room. She knocked hesitantly and the door was open in an
instant. “Can you not sleep Bella?”
Bella shook her head and sniffled. Wrapping her arms around the other woman’s waist she craned
her head to the side, presenting her neck, hoping that Carlotta would understand what she was
offering.
“Oh sweetheart,” Carlotta soothed. “Come here, come to bed.” Bella followed along mutely, letting
Carlotta tuck her into the large bed and then curling up behind her.
“So lovely,” Carlotta murmured as she brushed Bella’s hair back. “Such a lovely, lovely girl.”
Bella tried her best to relax back against Carlotta, reminding herself not to be scared about what
was about to take place. There was a faint pinch on the side of her neck and then a pleasant
tingling sensation, almost as if someone were slowly sliding a feather across her skin. She closed
her eyes and enjoyed the feel of it for several moments, letting colors flash before her eyes and
feeling herself becoming sleepy. The tingling stopped, then she felt the faint trace of a tongue over
her neck and Bella sighed.
“Very good,” Carlotta whispered into her hair. “You were so very, very brave. I’m proud of you
Bella. Now go to sleep.”
Bella sighed and burrowed deeper into the pillow she’d been resting on. Edward had always made
his hunting trips sound terrifying but the feeling of being fed off of had been surprisingly pleasant,
soothing even. Part of her wondered if it would be something Carlotta would only do every fourteen
days of if perhaps she could convince her to feed more frequently. She’d definitely like to be fed
from more frequently, Bella decided. If it caused her to feel this relaxed she’d allow the other
woman to feed from her every night.
Chapter 8.
“Is this really necessary?” Sandy squirmed slightly in her seat and tried to hide the fact that she
was gripping the door handle with white knuckles.
“What?” Edward replied, with an edge in his voice. “I’m immortal, you’re immortal, and I like to go
fast, what’s the problem? You’ve never complained before.”
“Um,” Sandy took a deep breath and tried to sound calm. “I’m not complaining about the speed,
it’s just that you’ve never taken the on ramp for the Dan Ryan on two wheels before. Or cut off a
cop, or a church bus, and you normally don’t use the side of the road as your own personal lane.”
“I need a vacation,” Edward growled back angrily.
“What you need is a Valium,” Sandy snapped at his tone and then reached over to slap him upside
the back of the head. “Since you didn’t let me go back to our apartment, I’m fresh out so a blow to
the back of the head is the best you’re getting.”
“Why are you being such a bitch?” Edward snarled.
“It’s a latent emotion that comes out when someone I love is acting insane,” Sandy announced.
“Any ideas what’s causing it?”
She watched as Edward’s fingers slowly loosened on the steering wheel and the accelerator’s
needle began to fall. They were still doing well over 100 mph but she watched as he casually
flicked the blinker on and began to pull off at an exit ramp. Taking a right, Edward pulled into a
darkened Dominic’s parking lot and brought the car to a stop.
“You okay?” He asked quietly.
“I should be asking you the same question,” Sandy snapped, still not completely ready to forgive
him.
“No,” he shook his head quietly. “I’m not all right.”
She watched as the door popped open and then the faint blur of Edward coming around to her side
of the car. She swung around in the seat so that her feet were on the pavement and cradled the
kneeling vampire in her arms. “Shhh,” she rubbed his disheveled hair and began to hum soothingly
to him. “It will work out.”
“No it won’t,” he managed to gasp and she moved down to rub his shaking shoulders. She could
feel the faint pricks of venom working into her skin from where it seeped from his eyes and
squeezed him in closer to her. “It will never be right again.”
“It will,” Sandy insisted quietly. “There are options.”
“Options?” He asked brokenly. “What options?”
“We’ll take a few days for you to clear your head and then you’ll see that there are all sorts of
options Edward.”
“Name three,” he argued sullenly.
“Hmm,” Sandy ruffled his hair. “Well, I always like to indulge the children around me so here it
goes. One, you can get your head out of your ass and realize you love Bella. Then you could try to
make it work between you. I’m not saying it will be easy but it’s an option. Two, you can decide
that you can’t deal with this and you stay away from Bella entirely. She’s got Carlotta to take care
of her and we can do anything you want. We can stay in Chicago, move somewhere else, it’s not
like time is working against either of us.”
“That’s only two,” Edward muttered into her shoulder.
“Hmm,” Sandy ruffled his hair again.
“No,” Edward announced as he realized what she was thinking. “That’s not going to happen.”
“Going home is an option,” Sandy suggested.
“How do I explain Bella’s disappearance and my sudden reappearance to her father the Chief of
Police?”
“You don’t,” Sandy shrugged. “She’s been gone almost six months. You lie and act surprised that
she’s gone. Any idea that she might have gone to be with you died the day the other three girls
went missing.”
“So I shouldn’t tell him I know where she is?”
“Would it do any good?”
“No,” Edward agreed. “The other suggestion though is what I was telling you no to. I’m not leaving
you.”
“You don’t have to take care of me Edward,” Sandy sighed. “I’m not that delicate. I’ve taken care
of myself for a long time.”
“Are you saying you don’t want me around anymore?” Two watery, pale red eyes stared up at her
dejectedly.
“No,” she patted his head again. “I never said that and you know better anyway. I just want you to
know that if you decide you need some time alone I understand.”
“I don’t need any time alone,” Edward grumbled. “Besides, we’re supposed to be a team. The two
of us, remember?”
“I know that Edward,” Sandy soothed. “But I understand if you want to be a team with Bella
instead.”
“No,” he shook his head. “It was never like that with Bella. It was ” he stopped.
“It was?”
“I think what Bella and I had was screwed up,” Edward admitted.
“Screwed up?”
“I don’t know how to explain,” Edward sighed and burrowed his head into her shoulder again. “I
just don’t think Bella and I were how we were supposed to be with each other.”
“Well,” Sandy pulled away from him and reached out to push his chin up with her finger so that
they were staring at each other. “How does this sound we’ll take a bit and get away from it all.
Let you see the world I come from, sort of, and you can clear your head. Once your head is clear
then you can think things through and it will all make more sense.”
“Do you think so?”
“A change of scenery helps everyone’s perspective,” Sandy nodded assuredly. “Let’s give it a try. If
it doesn’t work we’ll try something else.”
“Really?”
“We’re a team, stupid,” Sandy snorted.
“You know, I think you’re the first person to call me stupid,” Edward muttered.
“Maybe someone else should have,” Sandy prompted as she slid her legs back in the car. “Now get
in the car and drive me home. Chop, chop!”
“Yes ma’am,” Edward chuckled. “Anything else I should be doing ma’am. Champagne while I
chauffeur perhaps?”
“Just drive Edward,” Sandy giggled.
“Right, tell me about home then?”
“What do you want to know?”
“Everything,” Edward answered. “What the city’s like? What’s your family like? Do you actually see
them when you go home or just spy on them? Why did you leave? You know, for being your best
friend I actually know very little about you.”
“Not much to tell,” Sandy shrugged.
“Come on,” Edward laughed. “You know all about me. You’ve gotten a ton of mileage out of the
fact that I wanted to be a soldier and I was a momma’s boy. You’ve got to give me something to
work with. Were you a daddy’s girl? Tell me something Sandy!”
“Oh all right,” she sighed. “There’s not much to tell but if it makes you happy I’ll kill ten minutes or
so.”
“I’m listening,” Edward prompted.
“Where do you want me to start?”
“Start at the beginning,” Edward sighed.
“Okay,” Sandy shrugged. “Well, I guess to begin with I have to start with the fact that my family
and your family were nothing alike. No lace curtains and pianos for us. My grand daddy was a
bayou hick that moved down to New Orleans believing the crap that came spewing out the mouth
of Huey Long. He really did believe that man when he said that every man was going to be a king
and the only difference between the money in New Orleans and the hicks in northern Louisiana was
where they lived. Obviously there were some other issues of intelligence and job skills that he
hadn’t taken into account. That meant he ended up working as a longshoreman so my dad grew up
near the docklands. He met mom right after he got back from World War II and before you knew it
they were married with a baby on the way. That led to three other great, wonderful, perfect babies
and then in 1950 you got me the fuck up.”
“Sandy,” Edward frowned. “I’m sure you’re exaggerating.”
“Actually,” she sighed, “those were the last words my father ever said to me Edward. You, Sandy,
are a complete and total fuck up. The end.”
“I’m sure he didn’t mean it,” Edward said weakly.
“Yeah, actually he did,” Sandy shrugged. “Now, do you want me to go on or are you going to
continue editorializing it for me?”
“Continue,” Edward nodded.
“Anyway, like I said, there were the four perfect kids and me. That’s two brothers who both went
on to be the quarterbacks for St. Dominic’s School for Boys, both of whom won the state playoffs
their senior year, joined the Army, did their stints, and came home to work with Dad at the Jax
Brewery. My sisters had Jackie Kennedy flips, pink cashmere sweater sets and a penchant for
pearls. Both of them were fans of the idea that one day one of the Fab Four would want to hold
their hand. One married the captain of the baseball team for St. Dominic’s who grew up on the
corner of our street and the other married a boy from about a block over who played tight end.
Both of them were going steady by the time they finished high school biology, “pinned” before
senior year, and engaged the day after graduation.”
“Ah the early sixties,” Edward laughed.
“Right, I’m sure you and the rest of the Cleaver family fit right in,” Sandy snorted. “Meanwhile, the
Jackie made me look like a French poodle, I was more interested in Betty Friedman than Betty
Crocker, and the idea of getting married and keeping house “just like mom” made me vaguely
nauseous. Not to mention, by the time I had hit that stage the boys weren’t going to work at the
Brewery anymore, they were worrying about the draft. I couldn’t understand how we were all
supposed to just carry on like everything was normal while people were dying in a country that the
geography teacher at St. Bernadette’s couldn’t even find on a map. What about you? I can’t
imagine it was easy to keep you and your brothers from attracting attention then.”
“We moved a lot,” Edward shrugged. “We’d start as young as possible at each school and
whenever anyone would notice us we’d move. It was Emmett that got the most attention. He’s so
big,” Edward shrugged. “When it got really bad under Johnson, Carlisle just moved us to Denali
and kept us out of school. He claimed it was safer for us to hide than it was to even try and
interact with people. Meanwhile, we’re living with a family of succubi who are suffering from a
shortage of available young men.”
“I can’t imagine your sisters or your mother were pleased,” Sandy laughed.
“It was actually hardest on me,” Edward stared determinedly ahead. “They decided that what I
needed was the proper incentive to ‘loosen up’ and for almost a year they tortured me.”
“Tortured? Do tell!”
“The worst was Tanya,” Edward groaned. “She’d show up while I was out hunting and, um, well,”
“Well?”
“Pleasure herself in my bed,” Edward choked out. “Then she’d leave her panties tucked under my
pillow. I’d come home and the smell was like this wave the minute I walked through the door.”
“And you’ve got the hormones of a seventeen year old boy ” Sandy giggled.
“Let’s get back to your childhood,” Edward suggested hopefully.
“Living with vampires, so you had absolutely no privacy,” she continued.
“Sandy,” Edward groaned.
“Oh all right,” she sighed. “Can’t you see where it’s funny though?”
“Not really,” Edward muttered.
“A little bit?” She held her fingers up just slightly spaced apart.
“A little bit,” he conceded. “Now, back to you.”
“Right,” Sandy agreed. “So, with the perfect television family as the background I rebelled. Grew
my hair long, wore bell bottoms, skipped school to hang out on Tulane’s campus and listen to the
anti war protestors, dropped acid, and just generally experienced the sixties. The whole time I
thought I had this idea of the world that my parents couldn’t even conceive of. We were on to
something different, a new way of living, broader horizons. I look at my generation now and we
have the same horizons, we didn’t push anything forward at all. We tuned in, turned on and
dropped out but somehow we ended up in the exact same place.”
“That’s a rather bleak view,” Edward muttered.
“Have you looked around lately?” Sandy snorted. “All this mess? Homeland Security, Patriot Act,
Guantanamo Bay, violations of the Geneva Convention, killing doctors? That’s my generation and
like everything else we’ve fucked up don’t expect us to apologize because the one thing we learned
in the sixties was that if you do stupid things in large enough groups no one will stop you.
That’s not what we’re talking about though,” Sandy sighed. “What we’re talking about is me. I was
dropping out, tuning in, turning on and fighting the man when I met Dante.”
“That’s the vampire that turned you?”
“Yeah,” Sandy shrugged. “He was different from anyone else I’d ever met and before I knew it, I
was standing in the living room telling my parents that I was dropping out of school to go to New
York and ‘find myself’. I wanted to find a new way to live and New Orleans was stifling me. It was
the Summer of Love and life was going to be so groovy,” Sandy laughed bitterly.
“And that’s where the story ends,” Edward replied with a gentle smile.
“No,” Sandy shrugged.
“But that’s where you need it to end for now?”
“Yeah,” she whispered. “That’s where I need it to end for now because I don’t know if I can deal
with the rest.”
“It’s okay,” Edward reached over to pat her knee.
“It’s starting to be,” Sandy smiled at him encouragingly.
Chapter 9.
“You can’t be serious!” Edward protested as he stared at the ball cap that Sandy had just thrown
into his lap.
“Why ever not?”
“It’s daylight!”
“And? You’ve never been outside before midnight before?”
“In the South!”
“I once again repeat,” Sandy answered dryly, “and? Is there a point to this discussion?”
Edward motioned out the window of the house they were staying at in the Garden District. “The
sun is out!”
“It’s a beautiful day,” Sandy nodded. “That’s why we need some fresh air and beignets. The
beignets for me and the fresh air for you, gloomy Gus.”
“Sandy,” Edward growled.
“Oh you cannot be serious,” she snorted. “There’s something one of the great, holierthanthou
Cullens doesn’t know how to do? Seriously? The great Dr. Cullen doesn’t know how to shield his
precious family from the sun? What did you do on the ten days a year the sun shown in your little
hick town? Cower in the shadows like some Bella Lugosi impersonator?”
“Ha ha,” Edward snorted. “You know very well what would have happened if we went out in the
sun.”
“Well of course,” Sandy rolled her eyes, “unless you were shielded, of course.”
“Shielded?”
“You know, for how arrogant your family is you would think they would be a bit more observant. It
must be the animal blood addled your brains.”
“What are you talking about?” Edward snapped.
“None of you noticed that in the sunlight anywhere your glamour puss sisters had makeup they
didn’t sparkle? Or, if your hands were dirty they didn’t sparkle?”
“What?” Edward felt his jaw drop open at the thought. Peering back through his memories he
realized she was right. Alice and Rosalie’s lips never seemed to sparkle. If they were wearing eye
shadow or nail polish they didn’t sparkle there either. “You mean?”
“Yes grasshopper,” Sandy snorted. “Makeup, dirt, it covers the skin, blocks the pores, so if it’s thick
enough or of the right consistency then you don’t sparkle.”
“You’re serious?”
“No, I’m pulling your fucking vampiric leg,” Sandy snorted and pressed him down into the nearest
chair. “Of course I’m serious and you are currently between me and fried doughy goodness
sprinkled in powdered sugar. I don’t know if anyone has explained to you how serious of a situation
that could be for even your life span.”
“Uh?”
“Quit asking questions, let me get you sunproofed and then take me for beignets or I’m going to
go get a match and light you on fire.”
“Right,” Edward promptly rolled the sleeves of his oxford down and buttoned the wrists so that his
arms were covered.
“Now,” Sandy reached into the bag she’d slung down on the desk next to him and where the
baseball hat had come from. “A little stage makeup on your face and hands, hat on and no one will
ever suspect that you’re not just any other mortal out on your daily errands.”
“You don’t think people will notice me in makeup?”
“This is the right consistency so I can put on a really light coat of it,” Sandy argued. “Even up close
no one will notice it and if they do, honey its New Orleans, you won’t be the first pretty boy they’ve
seen in makeup.”
Edward snorted again and shook his head. He didn’t want to complain too much though because
the possibility of going out in the sun was something that he’d never considered before and he had
to admit it seemed appealing. Really appealing. He hadn’t been out in the sunlight in public since
1918. Sandy was right they had been cowering like a poor imitation of movie vampires out of
their fear of the sun. Had they been arrogant, thinking that they knew everything about the
lifestyle they were forced to live? Were they been so wrapped up in being right about their dietary
choices that they hadn’t been open to learning from others?
“Sit still,” Sandy commanded and began to lightly apply makeup to his face and neck. After that
she carefully placed the ball cap on his head and stepped back as she began to make adjustments
to it. “I couldn’t find a Cubs hat,” she said suddenly. “You’ll have to make do with an old school
Yankees.”
“How old school?”
“Well, the last time I’ve been to the House that Ruth built, Johnson was still President.”
“This is yours?” Edward glanced upward at the bill of his hat.
“Yep,” Sandy nodded, “bought for my very first and very last live baseball game. The idea was that
Dante and Martine would blend in better if all of us were in hats, just like everyone else.”
“So,” Edward tried to smother his curiosity. “Was this your very last baseball game ever or ?”
“Ever,” Sandy shrugged and then turned away from him sharply, moving over to stare out the
window. “But yes, it was one of the last things I did while I was still mortal.”
“Sandy,” Edward took a deep breath and tried to come up with some way to help her open up
about this like she had helped him open up about Bella when he’d first arrived.
“Let’s do your hands now and then we can get outside and enjoy the day,” Sandy said quickly and
he watched her swallow hard.
“Do you want ”
“No,” she shook her head. “Let’s get outside.”
“You’ll feel better,” Edward started.
“Edward,” Sandy warned as she reached for his hand and began to apply makeup, “don’t. Let’s just
go get some fresh air.”
He didn’t say anything else as she quickly finished covering his hands and then pulled him out of
his seat, toward the front door. They were quickly out of the front garden and onto the street,
Sandy pulling on his hand, leading him down the street.
“So where are we going?”
“Marseille’s on Rue Marigny for coffee and beignets. They’re a little local place that the tourists
don’t ever end up at. It’s all takeaway so there won’t be too many people there. I thought you
might be more comfortable starting out with smaller groups of people.”
“Thanks,” Edward nodded as they turned down another street toward Tulane. Edward took a deep
breath in, enjoying the heavy smell of tropical flowers. Glancing down at his hand he couldn’t help
but smile at the dull flesh staring back at him. He wasn’t sparkling. His hand could pass for that of
a human. He was still pale, Sandy hadn’t actually changed his skin tone, but his flesh was duller
now, more human looking. “So, is this the area of the city you grew up in?”
“Hah,” Sandy laughed harshly, “no. I wouldn’t dream of taking you into the neighborhood I grew
up in now.”
“Don’t think I can handle myself?” Edward laughed.
“I have no doubt that you could,” she retorted. “I just happen to have a thing for your car and I
can almost guarantee that they’ll have that thing stripped before you can blink.”
“You think?”
“If stripping a car down to the nuts and bolts was an Olympic sport, these guys would have the
gold without breaking a sweat. The 9th ward was not somewhere you wanted to take a $250,000
car before Katrina. Now, it would be criminal.”
“So, how are we going to visit your family?”
“You mean spy on my family?”
“Yes,” Edward agreed as they turned onto a commercial avenue and the stream of college age
students began to increase. They must be near the University, he thought, as she turned down a
small side street and stopped in front of a green door.
“Here we are,” Sandy reached for the door handle and Edward hurried forward to open it for her
instead.
“Hey, hey,” he chided. “Just because we’re in your hometown doesn’t mean that everything has
gone topsy turvy. I still get to open doors for you. We wouldn’t want people to think I wasn’t a
proper southern gentleman.”
“You’re not a southern gentleman,” Sandy pointed out. “You’re a Yankee.”
“Are you holding that against me?”
“Nah,” Sandy laughed. “You can’t help it that your parents didn’t have the sense to let you be born
in the glorious South.”
“All right smart ass,” Edward cracked as he motioned her inside.
“Edward,” Sandy appeared shocked as she led him inside the small bakery. “Did you just call me a
smart ass?”
“Well,” he shrugged. “You know what they say about shoes and if they fit.”
“They’re ugly?” Sandy replied.
“Nope,” Edward shifted toward the cases that acted as a counter and perused the contents. They
looked, well, vaguely intriguing, he decided. The smell was still revolting but he could see that
Sandy was literally salivating the moment she stepped inside the bakery. “If the shoe fits, angel,
you need to wear it.”
“It’s still probably ugly,” Sandy replied. “But you called me a smart ass!”
“Yes,” Edward nodded. “I did.”
“You said a cuss word!” Sandy crowed.
“So?”
“So,” she laughed again, “you, Edward, don’t cuss. I’m so proud of you!”
“Because I said ass?”
“Yes! You actually loosened up to not only joke with me but you also said the word ass and didn’t
flinch or apologize. We’ll loosen you up yet, Edward Cullen, just you wait and see!”
“Can I help ya’ll?” A woman called out as she came around the corner from the kitchen and into the
main shop.
“A dozen hot with sugar,” Sandy replied in the same accent. “Two cups of coffee with extra cream.”
The clerk looked over at Edward. “You sure you just want a dozen honey?”
“Yes,” he smiled charmingly. “I won’t be having more than one, thank you.”
“Honey you can’t just have one beignet,” the woman laughed.
“He’s got the diabetes,” Sandy broke in. “He can only have one.”
“Oh,” the woman shook her head. “I’m so sorry sweetie. Here,” Edward watched as she moved
around the counter to pull something out of one of the far cases. “These are diabetic friendly. We
can’t have you going around without something sweet.”
“Thank you,” Edward smiled at the woman again. She walked into the kitchen, where he could hear
her covering the newest batch of beignets in sugar and then bagging a dozen for Sandy. Coming
back out, she poured them two travel cups of coffee with generous helpings of what smelled like
fresh cream and placed them on the counter with the bag as Edward reached for his wallet to pay.
Once outside, he looked down at the small packet of what appeared to be very dark cookies in his
hand. “What are these exactly?”
“Pralines,” Sandy replied, “apparently they’re sugar free pralines.”
“Right,” Edward moved to throw the packet in the nearest trash can as she reached out with
almost vampiric speed and grabbed his arm.
“What are you doing?” Sandy hissed.
“You really don’t expect me to eat them?” Edward looked at her wide eyed. “Maybe you’re confused
because we’re outside and the sun is shining but I’m still a vampire and that means I don’t eat
pralines.”
“That doesn’t mean you throw them away!” Sandy explained.
“What am I supposed to do with them?”
“Well, a smart vampire that wants fed sometime in the next century would continue carrying them
until we get home so that your blood doll can have them for a snack later tonight.”
“Oh,” Edward nodded. “Sorry, I didn’t think you’d want them.”
“Edward,” Sandy looked at him levelly. “Never, ever, ever, think that a southern woman who is
blessed with the fact that she doesn’t have to watch her weight ever again will turn down sweets.
Especially pralines. I may not be hungry enough to eat them now,” she continued.
“But you will be eventually?” Edward couldn’t help but laugh.
“Yep.”
“You know what you eat changes how your blood tastes right?”
“Are you complaining my blood is too sweet? Don’t tell me you want me shoveling down carrots.”
“Course not,” Edward smirked as he wrapped an arm around her shoulder. “I was going to offer to
stop and buy you the sugared version on the way home if you wanted.”
“I knew there was a reason I liked you.” Sandy smiled as she pushed up on her toes and pressed a
gentle kiss on his cheek.
Chapter 10.
“So sweet,” Edward couldn’t help moaning as he took a deep drink from the open wound on her
inner thigh. He pulled away from the wound to lick the crease of her inner thigh and planted a kiss
at the silky skin covering the ridge where her pubic bone met her hip. Nuzzling his nose against the
lace of her black panties he smiled and let out a sigh. “You are so very, very sweet.”
“So you like pralines and beignets?” Sandy chuckled and raised her head from the pillow it was
resting on. Reaching down, she ran her fingers through his hair.
“Mmhmmm,” he breathed and began to kiss along the junction of thigh and hip again. “Ecstasy
always makes you taste so fucking sweet and this just makes it better.”
“Did you just say fucking?” She giggled and let her hair fall back.
“This city is doing wonders for my ability to relax,” Edward chuckled as he moved his way back
down to his feeding site. “Loosened me right up. Are you still rolling?”
“God yes,” she burst into another round of hysterical giggling, jerking his mouth against her thigh
and causing blood to dribble down the side of his mouth.
“You made me spill my food,” Edward growled.
“Well, it’s my blood,” she gasped out between giggles.
“And you’re mine,” Edward retorted. “So therefore, it belongs to me. So quit moving and let me eat
you.”
Sandy roared with laughter and he couldn’t help but pull away from her thigh to look at her. “Well,
then move two inches to the left,” she choked out.
“Two inches,” he stopped and felt his jaw drop opened as he realized what she was suggesting.
“You mean?”
“Well,” she giggled without bothering to look up at him, “if you’re down there and you’re going to
make such a blatant sexual comment and not realize it then you could at least be nice and help a
girl out.”
Edward glanced up at the tiny blonde’s curves and felt the world shift as the ecstasy took full effect
instead of just making him relaxed. His head cleared and he was finally able to push away all the
baggage that had been cluttering his mind so that everything seemed so much clearer. He adored
Sandy. She was his equal, his partner, the only person who could pull him out of his moods. She
was the only person who ever dared to call him out for how he behaved. The only person he had
ever respected as much as her was Carlisle. He loved her ability to push him outside of his
boundaries. He felt his jaw drop open as the drugs cleared his mind and he realized something that
had been niggling in the back of his head for a while. He loved her. It wasn’t like he’d felt about
Bella but, he swallowed, he loved her.
What the hell, he thought to himself as he felt the drugs loosening his inhibitions. Edward reached
out, ripping the delicate black panties from her tiny frame and dipped his head down to run his
tongue along her folds, taking in a deep breathe of her scent. His toes curled instantly and he felt
himself dropping into her mind experiencing a double dose of the high they were both currently
riding. Her mind exploded into a riot of rainbow colors and he felt a jolt of pleasure race up her
spine and slam into her brain violently. His cock hardened instantly and he groaned against her
heated skin, attacking it with his tongue.
“Please,” he heard her crying quietly in her mind. “Oh please, please don’t stop. It’s been so long
since, oh please.”
He moved to suck lightly on her clit and the fireworks in her mind burst again at the sensation. He
could tell that she was close, even though he’d never done this to anyone else before, and
redoubled his efforts. “Please,” she gasped out and he heard it echoed inside of her mind. “Please,
I’m so, so,” she gasped out and her whole body shuddered as she climaxed against his mouth.
Edward pulled away from her slick folds and bit into her thigh again, taking a deep pull from the
femoral artery. A second drink and he felt her shudder against his mouth. He hardened even
further and pulled away from the wound in her leg, licking the teeth marks to seal the wound.
What did it matter anymore? He wondered. He’d been saving himself for a mate, his silly
romanticized ideal of a mate, and it had all fallen apart. He’d ruined his chosen mate’s life, turning
her into a creature doomed to a half life she had broken under the strain of what had become of
her life because of him. He had a new mate. A mate who was his equal, who could be with him
forever and was strong enough for the life they were forced to live. He had saved himself for a
mate and he had one now, even if neither of them had officially acknowledged it.
He began pressing open mouth kisses up her shuddering, naked form, worshipping the woman
underneath him. “Edward?” He could hear the questioning tone of her gasp.
“I want you,” he growled as he reached down to unfasten his jeans and shoved them down his hips
along with his underwear.
“Really?”
“Really,” Edward murmured into her ear before giving it a gentle nip. “Okay?”
“Yeah,” Sandy nodded slightly as she shifted her legs to wrap them around his hips. “Okay.”
Edward grasped her hips urgently and pressed himself inside of her, letting himself sink
simultaneously into the heat of her body and the heated presence of her mind. He couldn’t help the
gasp of pleasure he felt as a feeling of love and adoration surrounded him. He felt as though he
was intruding suddenly at the dual connection he now had with her mind and her body. Moaning,
he shifted his hips again and realized that he couldn’t give up the feeling of her body clenching
around him so instead he would force himself out of her mind.
“No,” she reached out and ran her hand along his cheek, shaking her head. “No.”
“No?”
“Stay,” she whimpered and raised her hips to meet his.
“You’re sure?”
“Stay,” she said confidently and he let himself fall back inside of her mind, allowing himself to revel
in the beauty. The knowledge that she simply cared for him and wanted to love him for who he was
that she didn’t feel the need to change him or make him exercise control that he never really
had, control that hadn’t ever really been necessary made his devotion to her even stronger.
“Sandy,” he moaned at the strength of his feelings at the mixture of being in both her body and
mind at the same time. “I,” he gasped as static charges began to pulse through his body, making
his toes curl tighter and his hips snapped forward urgently chasing his own orgasm. Reaching
between their joined bodies he pressed his thumb to her clit and began to rub against it, using his
vampiric speed to increase the friction and bring her more pleasure.
“Oh!” She cried out and he felt her body convulse against his, her walls tightening around him and
milking him dry as his hips jerked futilely against her as he came.
“Sandy,” he whimpered. “I love you.”
“I know,” she panted and reached out to stroke his cheek lovingly in return. “I know, sweetheart.
Drink now.”
“But,” he gazed down at her in shock. “That’s not why ”
“I know,” she let her eyes drift closed as she pulled him closer to her. “I know it’s not. You need to
drink though. It’s okay.”
Nodding, he acknowledged that she was right and that he was desperately thirsty for the blood he
could see thundering through the artery in her neck. Pushing her face gently to the side he kissed
the pulse point in her neck before sinking his teeth into the skin there and taking another deep
drink. It was sweeter than it had been even a half hour before and he couldn’t help the greedy,
slurping sounds coming from his mouth as he sucked more urgently against her skin to try to gain
more blood. The blood began to slow and he knew that he was draining her dry. Her eyelids
fluttered erratically and he could feel her slipping into unconsciousness.
“I’m sorry,” he heard her mind whisper and was shocked to see Bella’s face inside of her mind. “Oh
Bella, I’m so, so sorry.”
Bella? She was apologizing to Bella? Why would she apologize to Bella? He wondered as he pulled
away from her now comatose form to stare at her in shock. Did she still believe that he wanted to
spend his life with Bella? That he still wanted the other woman, no he shook his head, the other
blood doll to be his mate? Did she think that she was somehow something less to him than Bella
had been? That she was the other woman?
Is she the other woman? A nagging part of his mind asked as he started to come off the roll that
the ecstasy in her blood had caused. Are you only with her to banish thoughts of Bella?
No, he decided. She wasn’t some sort of replacement for Bella. She wasn’t second rate or the other
woman. Perhaps Bella had been his ideal mate when he was living his life under the principles that
Carlisle espoused but now he wasn’t and she could no longer be the woman he spent his life with.
They had moved too far apart from each other to reconcile their lives. The thought of her as a
blood doll repulsed him and he stopped short at the idea.
Did Sandy repulse him? No, he decided, he relished her presence in his life. Why though? She was
a blood doll as well so shouldn’t he be repulsed by her? No, no, Sandy had chosen to live this life.
She hadn’t broken under the strain and he didn’t have to worry about her safety like he did with
Bella. Sandy didn’t repulse him in the slightest. She seemed to constantly intrigue him even though
he had clear access to her mind. Her mind intrigued him.
Why was she apologizing to Bella then? Was she apologizing for her presence in his life? That she
was no longer a secret to be kept from the other woman?
She should think that, the nagging part of his brain snorted in derision. Think about how you
treated her for the past few days. Your life together is stable, safe and then suddenly you see Bella
Swan and all your manners fly out the window and you’re a snarling, overbearing monster making
demands that she arrange the world to your liking and then force her into hiding as if you were
ashamed. You run like a coward and then without warning, in a fit of blood induced lust, ravage her
body before draining her almost completely dry. She should be sorry she ever met you, ever
agreed to allow someone as worthless as you to become her friend much less allow you to feed
from her. She’s given you everything, absolutely everything, and you treat her as if she were a
dirty secret to be kept hidden.
Edward swallowed as he scooped her up and into his arms. Slowly making his way out of the
library he started toward the stairs. Once there, he took them at a human pace to keep from
waking her and opened the door to the master bedroom suite. Juggling her gently into one arm he
pulled down the silk coverlet and placed her gently on the bed before using his normal pace to
move around the bed and slip in beside her. Her skin was still deathly pale and freezing to his
touch. He had taken too much from her, he thought, and his heart ached. He’d taken too much and
she wouldn’t recover. He would lose her like he’d lost... He stopped the path his mind was taking.
It wasn’t fair to her for him to compare them. It wasn’t fair for him to even have the other woman
in his mind. He’d made his choice, Sandy was his mate, and he would have to push Bella from his
mind. He wanted to push Bella from his mind.
Bending his face close to hers he sniffed lightly at her neck and smelled the faintest hint of blood.
Concentrating, he could hear the faint beat of her pulse and let out a sigh of relief she was
recovering and after a good night’s sleep would be as good as new. Tomorrow he would force her
to rest. He’d pamper her like she deserved spoil her even. Tomorrow he’d show her just how
much she meant to him and hopefully they could move into this new facet of their relationship
without any awkwardness between them. He was sure they would need to talk things through but
tomorrow he would actively show her how much he cherished her and then the next day they could
talk as they drove back to Chicago.
It was time, he decided. It was time to take his mate and go home, go back to the life he had
created with her and forget that his painful past had ever existed.
Chapter 11.
“I don’t think this is a good idea,” Edward muttered into Sandy’s ear as they made their way past
the bouncer and toward a side table in the seedy blues bar she’d dragged him to.
“Why?”
“After last night you should be resting,” Edward answered, repeating himself for the fourth time
that night and the twelfth time that entire day.
“I’m fine,” Sandy shrugged. “You’ve drained me and we’ve gone out the next night before so
what’s the big deal now?”
The big deal? The big deal, he thought to himself. The big deal was that she’d woken up this
morning and acted as if nothing had changed between them. She had looked confused to find him
lying in the bed beside her and even asked if he was feeling all right when he made her breakfast.
It was like last night had never happened for her. He desperately wanted to call Jasper and ask him
if all vampires had this awkwardness when they were first mated with each other or if it was simply
because she was a blood doll instead.
“The big deal is that you’re my mate and you should let me take care of you,” Edward explained,
again not for the first time that day.
He noticed Sandy roll her eyes as she motioned toward one of the waitresses and ordered two
drinks a Southern Comfort for her and a beer to place in front of him. “You and this mating
thing,” she shook her head. “I think you’re getting a little too hopped up over it. It’s not that big of
a deal. Besides, I have a reason for being here and if you’re just going to argue with me all night
you can go ahead and go back to the townhouse. I’ll find my own way home.”
“No,” he glared at her. “I’m not leaving you here alone with all these drunks. You should hear what
some of the men are thinking about you!”
“Edward?” Sandy reached out and grasped his hand in hers and he felt instantly better. “Shut up. I
want to watch my niece perform and I don’t want to argue with you the whole night about it. So,
shut up and let’s watch my niece make a spectacle of herself.”
“Your niece?”
“Yes, my niece plays with the house band once a week on Saturdays and I’d like to watch
her.”
“You’re not worried about being caught?” Edward stared at her in shock.
“We’ve never met,” Sandy explained. “She’s my sister’s youngest child and she was born years
after my change.”
“What about her mother? Surely she’d recognize you here!”
“My sister died when Natalie was two,” Sandy glanced away and immediately in his mind he saw
images from hers, showing him a packed house surrounding a casket and a scared little girl
clutching another woman’s legs. The entire perspective was that of someone looking in from
outside through a window. “Car accident.”
“Were you close?”
“Not by the time I was changed,” Sandy shrugged. “She had done what was expected and couldn’t
understand why I couldn’t just settle down and behave like the rest of them. When I left for New
York we argued and I never saw her again. When she died, a vampire that Grayson knows down
here called to tell me it had been on the news.”
“Grayson is on good terms with the vampires here?”
“He helped set up the Renfield colony near Bayou Larraine. Quite a few vampires make their home
there with their blood dolls. They can live in the open and not look any stranger than the other
residents at least to those inside.”
“What’s a Renfield colony?”
“The one at Bayou Larraine is a compound of sorts for people who suffer from Renfield’s Syndrome
and what you would call their mates – their blood dolls.”
“You mean humans who ingest ” Edward felt his stomach roll at the idea. Who would want to take
part in such an activity? It was cannibalism of sorts. It would be like him drinking from Alice.
“Yeah,” Sandy nodded. “There are some there that have actually refused treatment. They actually
believe they need to ingest blood to survive. Then there are the vampires, and lastly are those
who’ve just made it a lifestyle choice to drink blood.”
“A lifestyle ” Edward trailed off and absently took a swig from his beer, gagging as the vile liquid
poured down his throat.
“It takes all types they say,” Sandy shrugged. “Anyway, we’re off topic. Grayson knows the
vampires inside the colony and one of them called to let him know my sister had died. He set up a
trust for Natalie, had the lawyers claim that it was from a life insurance policy. Every time I come
down here I just make sure to check up on her. The last few times I’ve been here I watched her
perform. She’s quite good.”
“Right,” Edward shrugged, glancing at the woman sitting next to him that was currently reciting
passages of the Karma Sutra to him in the original Hindi, and wondered what she was keeping
from him.
They sat in silence as she finished her drink and then his, watching as a dark haired young woman
took the stage for a campy sketch with someone who appeared to be acting as an emcee of sorts.
The emcee turned out to be a singer with the blues band and the same woman Natalie played
guitar. He watched Sandy, who was staring at the stage in rapt attention, while the other woman
played her set and sang a few songs with the band.
He noticed the tears in her eyes when everyone left stage except for the woman who was now
sitting on a stool. He looked around and noticed that most of the patrons had gone silent the
regulars obviously expecting something to come next.
He reached over to wrap his arm around Sandy’s shoulders as Natalie strummed an acoustic guitar.
“There ain’t no reason things are this way,” she crooned into the microphone. “It’s how they always
been and they intend to stay. I can’t explain why we live this way we do it everyday.”
“Are you okay?” He whispered and watched as she nodded, never taking her eyes from the stage.
“There ain’t no reason things are this way,” the young woman continued to sing. “It’s how they’ve
always been and they intend to stay. I don’t know why I say the things that I say but I say them
anyway. But love will come set me free, I do believe. Love will come set me free, I know it will.”
He kept his arm wrapped around the young woman who should be old now and closed his eyes,
letting the music flood over him. For the first time on their trip he began to wonder what it was like
for her coming home to a place that had changed but hadn’t. What it was like to see people that
thought she was dead, people she loved dearly who couldn’t know she was close enough to touch
them.
He’d never thought about how lucky he’d been in his change. He’d been alone an only child
whose parents were gone. His family wiped out before his end had come. There was no one left to
remember the human boy, Edward Masen, besides Carlisle. He had always known that Carlisle was
a good man, an excellent father figure, but he’d never thought about how considerate the other
man had been moving them away from Chicago before he escaped his blood lust. They never went
to live in any of the places where any of them had been human Carlisle let them walk away and
never look back. Chicago had changed so much from when he had lived there before that he
couldn’t recognize it, but he still didn’t go to the area where he’d spent his mortal life. Now he
knew why he instinctively avoided any connection with his past. He could feel his mate suffering as
she imagined the life fate had taken away from her. A life he could have never taken a part in
because he’d have been old or even dead, hundreds of miles away in Chicago while she lived out
her life in New Orleans.
He followed her silently out of the club after the band’s second set. Without speaking, he pulled the
car around so that they could silently tail her niece home, watching as she pulled her car in front of
a nondescript condo in Metairie. Still not bothering to speak, he offered Sandy his hand and then
helped her onto his back, scaling the tree at the end of the building and hopping between balconies
until they reached her niece’s. Sitting in the deep shadows, he pulled her into his arms, letting her
sit between his legs as he began to hum to her, watching the only link she had with her old life
going through the horribly mundane routine of being miraculously, boring and human.
“What happened to you?” He whispered hours after her niece had fallen asleep and the moon had
set.
“It wasn’t supposed to end like this,” she replied back just as quietly. “He was supposed to love
me.”
“And?” Edward felt his heart constrict at the thought of someone hurting the tiny woman in his
arms.
“You think you were the first vampire to fall in love with a human?” She chuckled. “There have
been hundreds of vampires who have fallen for a human usually it ends badly.”
“It ended badly for me,” Edward pointed out.
“No,” she shook her head. “You’re just stubborn and stupid. Most vampires end up killing their
human. Some though, like you and Dante don’t. You decided to turn your love.”
“I didn’t want to turn Bella,” Edward argued. “I never intended to.”
“You would have eventually,” Sandy replied evenly. “Dante swore he’d never change me either, but
then I was mugged and almost killed. He had a split second to make a decision and he just acted
attempted to turn me.”
“What went wrong?”
“He couldn’t resist,” she shrugged. “Martine managed to pull him off, but by that time I’d been
drained too far. The only way that I would survive was for him to continue biting me, giving me
enough venom to force a change. That’s how it was for most of us before the farms began. We
were accidents. Occasionally someone would change a group of women or boys to sell, but most
vampires who kept a doll had botched their change and hadn’t worked up the courage to destroy
them.
“What did Carlisle call us the last time you spoke with him? An abomination? Against nature? You
didn’t realize how right he was we’re mistakes, things that shouldn’t exist.”
“And I should?”
“Point taken,” Sandy laughed softly.
“What about Dante?” He asked and instantly regretted it. He really didn’t want to know about any
other man that had been in his mate’s life but at the same time was curious about what had
caused apparently both of her sires to abandon her.
“Hostile takeover.” She was so quiet he barely heard her. “William wanted to expand his control to
include New York, Dante and Martine didn’t follow along with the plan.”
“They worked for Grayson?”
“Didn’t even know him,” she muttered. “They were just two vampires who didn’t want to kneel
down and pay tribute to someone else. Dante claimed he’d lived long enough with the Volturi’s
rules and he didn’t intend to hand over control of his life to anyone else. He wasn’t a slave
anymore and he wouldn’t be treated as one. When he and Martine refused to cooperate, Grayson
had them killed.”
“And you? How did you survive?”
“Rumor has it that William offered to trade; me for their autonomy. Stupid man should have made
the deal, dying didn’t keep me out of a dollhouse in the end. In the end I became what they
refused to be.”
“You’re not,” he soothed. “Whatever you were with Grayson you know that’s not true now.”
“Edward,” he could hear the defeat in her tone. “Do you really think that I would be here if it
weren’t for the fact I’m a coward?”
“Sandy,” he sighed and squeezed her tighter. “You’re upset. We’re mates and you know I would
never treat you like Grayson has. You are my equal in every sense of the word. I love you.”
“I love you too, Edward,” Sandy sighed. “But we aren’t mates we’re each others consolation
prize.”
Chapter 12.
“Bella?” She could hear Carlotta making her way through the house and smiled.
“I’m in the studio,” she called out and closed the book she was reading, laying it on the floor next
to her chaise lounge. Standing up, she quickly brushed her hands down her clothes to smooth any
wrinkles. She smiled when she saw the other woman totter into the studio, her arms filled with
packages and a large, flat canvas holder tucked under each arm. Rushing over, she grabbed the
packages from Carlotta and set them on the nearest desk.
“Hello darling,” Carlotta smiled and then leaned in to kiss Bella on the cheek. “How was your day?”
Bella kissed the other woman’s cheek in return and then smiled. “Quiet,” Bella replied. “I’ve spent
the day enjoying the sunshine and reading.”
“Good,” she noticed Carlotta scratch at her hands absently at the mention of sunlight. “Give me
one minute to wash my hands and face then I’ll be back. Are you hungry?”
“A bit,” Bella replied as she followed Carlotta out of the studio and up the stairs to their bedroom.
Flopping onto the bed, Bella rested her chin in her upturned palm and watched Carlotta as she
quickly scrubbed the makeup from her hands and face. “You’re home early. Do we have plans
tonight?”
“There’s a new gallery opening on Huron,” Carlotta called out as she reached for a hand towel to
wipe her face. “I’m expected to make an appearance and I thought you’d like to join me. I thought
we could call Gus and Angela to invite them along with us.”
“Really?” Bella asked excitedly.
“Why not?” Carlotta’s reflection smiled at her in the mirror. “You should spend some time with
Angela. You had fun shopping last week didn’t you?”
“Well,” Bella shrugged. “It was shopping.”
“Liar,” Carlotta snorted. “You may have everyone else fooled but I know you enjoyed it.”
“I needed the clothes,” Bella replied.
“And the coffee?”
“Buying a whole new wardrobe requires caffeine,” Bella defended.
“And the cinnamon roll?”
“Um,” Bella stalled.
“A girl needs to eat?” Carlotta joked. “So, how about Thai food tonight? There’s a place near the
gallery that my staff tells me is quite good.”
“Well,” Bella smiled. “Do you think Gus and Angela would want to come?”
“Well,” Carlotta mimicked, “I may have already called to ask them and they’re meeting us at 8 for
dinner.”
“Really?” Bella was excited about seeing Angela again. The two of them had been close before they
had been changed but now the bond between them was stronger. They had gone to the mall last
week, to shop and catch up, and ended up spending nine hours together six of them in the
bookstore. It was the best shopping trip Bella had ever been on.
“Run down to the living room and grab the black garment bag, will you?” Carlotta smirked and
Bella hopped off the high bed, racing down to the living room and back again. When she reached
the bedroom, Carlotta had just entered from the bathroom and was tying her robe around her. “Go
on,” Carlotta urged. “Open it already. Before you argue you need something to wear tonight.”
“Thank you,” Bella smiled before tugging down the zipper of the bag and pulling out the navy
cotton sundress inside. A second hanger held a gray strapless office dress with a thin red belt
wrapped around it. “You’ll look gorgeous in this,” she said as she turned to look at Carlotta.
“Good to know I’ll look acceptable to take you out,” Carlotta teased. “I thought we should talk
about tonight before we go.”
“Talk?” Bella turned to look at her, holding the sundress up against her in front of the mirror next
to the bed. “About?”
“Perception,” Carlotta shrugged.
“You mean that people will think I’m your girlfriend?”
“Does that bother you?”
“Should it?” Bella asked carefully. She and Carlotta hadn’t defined their relationship in any way but
she didn’t have a problem with people assuming that they were more than roommates. While they
weren’t sexual with each other, she and Carlotta were physically affectionate, hugging and kissing
on the cheek frequently, and Bella had moved to sleep in Carlotta’s room after the first night
because she found that she was more comfortable there.
“I wouldn’t think so,” Carlotta said carefully, “but I don’t want you to be uncomfortable in any way.
If it does make you uncomfortable, I can say that you’re renting a room from me while you’re at
university.”
“Nope,” Bella answered decisively. “We’ll just have to lie again in four years after I’ve supposedly
graduated. Plus, people will just assume anyway and snicker at us for trying to hide it. You’re out
and it will be easiest if we just define it as girlfriends for other people.”
“Really?” She watched Carlotta raise an eyebrow curiously.
“Unless it bothers you?” Bella raised her own eyebrow in return.
“That I have a beautiful, well read, intelligent, young, brunette girlfriend? Especially since you’re
going to look like Aphrodite herself in that dress?”
Bella could feel her embarrassment and if she were still human she knew she would be blushing.
“That settles it then. I am Isabella Dwyer, you’re girlfriend. What’s the rest of my back story then?
How did we meet?”
“I thought,” Carlotta replied as she gently pushed Bella to sit at the vanity table. “That we would
tell people you were a student at the University, since that will be true soon enough, and that we
met at a bar downtown also technically true. What do you think?”
“What do I study?”
“What do you want to study?”
“What did you study?”
“According to my resume, I studied Renaissance History and Modern Languages at Harvard,”
Carlotta smirked. “According to their files, I have a PhD in History with an emphasis in Renaissance
Italian Art.”
“Let me guess,” Bella teased, “your dissertation was on female painters in the Renaissance?”
“What else?” Carlotta teased in return. “But I wouldn’t tell people that you’re majoring in the same
thing my doctorate is in. They’ll start to think you’re some gold digger who’s trying to use me to
get ahead.”
“What about English Literature?” Bella suggested.
Carlotta cocked her head and looked at Bella in the mirror as she twisted Bella’s hair into an
intricate knot at the nape of her neck. “I could see it. Is that what you’re thinking about majoring
in?”
“I hadn’t originally,” Bella let her voice drop as she thought about what she had originally expected
out of her life. “At first I had planned on majoring in English and education so that I could teach
High School. Then I met Edward and ”
“And you didn’t expect that you would ever need to go to college or get a career?” Carlotta cut in.
“Was that silly?”
“I wouldn’t call it a solid financial decision,” Carlotta said gently. “And I wouldn’t do it personally
but I don’t think anyone could blame you for making the decisions you did given the information
you had.”
“Why wouldn’t you have done it?”
“I’ve been around long enough that staying home has gotten boring to me. I needed something to
do, I always did. So, I would have gone insane without something to do.”
“Do you think I would have felt the same way after I was changed?”
“Not for the first few years,” Carlotta patted her on the shoulder and then sat sideways on the
vanity bench next to her. “You would have been too worried about the blood lust in the first few
years but after that you might have gotten bored. Do you get bored being here all day long with
nothing to do?”
“Yeah,” she murmured. “I do, sort of.”
“Then you would have gotten bored as a vampire. Your basic personality wouldn’t have changed. If
you were an active person before, you’d be an active, industrious vampire afterward. And you
shouldn’t worry, I won’t be working these hours for long and then we can start on the traveling
that we’ve planned before you start university.”
“Planning?” Bella raised her eyebrows at the woman sitting next to her. “You mean you were
serious the other night?”
“If you’re talking about the conversation we had where you told me all the places in the world you
would want to go, and we then narrowed it down to Europe before talking about how I would like
to show you my home, then yes, I was serious.”
“Really?” Bella heard her voice raise an octave out of excitement. “We’re going on a tour of
Europe?”
“Is that what you want?”
“Thank you!” She threw her arms around the other woman’s neck and gave her a squeeze.
“You’re not going to complain about the expense?” Carlotta asked her cautiously. “I know you don’t
like spending too much money on yourself.”
“It does bother me,” Bella said cautiously. “I don’t like that you’re spending money on me but ”
“I would have gone even if you wouldn’t have moved in with me,” Carlotta pointed out. “I go for
three months every year.”
“I was going to say that,” Bella added. “You mentioned that you went to Europe for a few months
at a time pretty often. And,” she shrugged and glanced at the bench, twisting her fingers together.
“Well, I’ve always wanted to go to Europe. I haven’t traveled all that much and,” she let her voice
peter out.
“And?”
“You did say we could go to a play at the Globe and visit where some of my favorite authors
worked. Can we really go to Steventon rectory and Bath?”
“Of course,” Carlotta laughed. “We’ll go anywhere you like sweetheart. You start planning where
you want to go and I’ll make sure it happens.”
“Then I won’t complain about the money. Just don’t tell me how much we’re spending.”
“Deal,” Carlotta laughed even harder and then leaned down to kiss Bella affectionately again on the
cheek before running her nose along the side of Bella’s neck.
“Are you thirsty?”
“A bit,” Carlotta murmured. “I didn’t want to bother you with it before we left.”
“We have time don’t we?”
“Mmhmm,” Carlotta’s voice sounded huskier.
Bella tilted her jaw toward Carlotta, pushing her neck against Carlotta’s cool mouth. Reaching over,
she took her hands and wrapped them around her own waist and snuggled against her.
She felt the slight scrape of Carlotta’s teeth behind her ear, her favorite place to be fed from, and
shivered as Carlotta pressed her mouth against her skin. A moment later, the hypnotic feel of her
blood being pulled into the other woman’s mouth made her breath come quickly and her toes
curled.
“Oh,” she whimpered slightly as the feeling intensified. Carlotta hummed in response and began to
drink deeper, pulling more insistently against the skin of her neck. She felt a sudden warmth as the
icy mouth pulled away from her neck and exposed it to the warmer air of the room. A quick swipe
from Carlotta’s tongue to seal the puncture wounds on her neck and then she felt the weight of the
vampire’s head resting against her shoulder as her hair draped across Bella’s chest and veiled
Carlotta’s face.
“Thank you,” Carlotta purred.
“You’re welcome,” Bella smiled. “You know I adore you right?”
“Good,” Carlotta gave her a chaste kiss against what should have been the puncture wound and
she could feel the other woman’s smile against her skin. “Because I worship you as my own
personal goddess.”
Chapter 13.
“So,” Angela looked at Bella as they stood sidebyside in the crowded gallery, sipping their drinks.
“How are things going with Carlotta?”
“Good,” Bella nodded and then took a sip of her Coke. “Really, really good. She’s really nice and ”
“And?”
“Encouraging,” Bella shrugged. “She was serious about me finishing school and then going to
University. She brought home all the paperwork to forge my transcripts and has even taken me on
a tour of the campus.”
“Wow,” Angela nodded and took a drink of her own soda. “That is supportive.”
“What about Gus?”
“He’s not as enthusiastic about it as Carlotta but he’s behind the idea if I want it.”
“He doesn’t want you to go to school?”
“He does,” Angela shrugged, “just not right now.”
“Why not?”
“Well,” Angela hesitated and she could see the other girl spinning something around on her left
hand.
“Oh my God!” Bella couldn’t help but shriek as she saw the diamond Angela had been spinning
sparkle. “Is that a ?”
“It’s nothing official,” Angela giggled. “I mean it can’t be official can it? Gus is, well, what he is, and
I’m what I am and Mr. Grayson would never give his approval. Gus assured me that if there was
some way then we would but there isn’t so we’re not.”
“So this,” Bella motioned to the solitaire on Angela’s finger. “Is?”
“He says it’s a symbol,” Angela giggled. “It’s meant to remind me that he’ll never want anyone
else. Even if we can’t really get married he considers me to be his mate and his wife.”
“Angela!” Bella stuttered. “You barely know him! What about Ben?”
“Oh, Bella!” Angela moaned and then reached down to pull Bella out of the main gallery and into a
side room. “What about Ben? It’s been how long now? How long have we been missing? There’s no
trace of us left, Bella. The four of us went for a girl’s night to the movies and never came home. If
we were lucky someone found Jessica’s car in Port Angeles and knows that we didn’t just run off.
Who knows though? The people that took it could have taken her car as well and then we’ve just
vanished without a trace. They’ve quit looking for us Bella to everyone in Forks we’re dead.”
“But Ben loves you!”
“And I love Ben,” Angela insisted. “But we can’t be together and as far as Ben’s concerned, I’m
dead. I would rather he find someone else and be happy than be miserable forever pining away for
me. And I know he’d feel the same. I won’t spend eternity wishing that night had never happened
and dreaming about what could have been with Ben. Eternity’s too long for that. I’d rather push
forward and find happiness again and I just hope that Ben’s done the same.”
“Oh, Angela,” Bella found herself reflexively hugging the other woman. “I’m sorry! I didn’t mean to
upset you and I’m happy that you’re happy with Gus! I didn’t mean anything by it.”
“I know,” Angela smiled and hugged her in return. “And I am happy. What about you? Are you and
Carlotta serious?”
“Serious?” Bella gaped. “You mean? Angela!”
“What?” Angela shrugged. “There’s nothing wrong with it. She cares for you; you care for her,
what’s the problem? Don’t tell me you aren’t turned on when she feeds from you.”
“Angela,” Bella growled. “In case you haven’t noticed, Carlotta and I are both women!”
“So? Have you ever considered it Bella? Like really considered it?”
“Angela! I can’t believe you’re asking this and with your father being a preacher as well!”
“My father never had a problem with homosexuality Bella,” Angela shrugged. “Our church didn’t
take a stance either way on it. In fact, my father always told me to find someone I loved and not
care about what anyone else said about it. So why aren’t you considering it with Carlotta because
she has certainly considered it with you!”
“Well,” Bella mumbled. “It’s not that I haven’t considered it.”
“You’ve considered it?” Angela prompted.
“Well, like you said,” Bella hedged. “When she’s feeding, there’s this tingling and then I get all hot
and my toes curl and ”
“And you don’t want her to stop biting you?”
“Exactly,” Bella nodded. “I just, then I think about it later and I lose all my nerve. I mean, I
couldn’t manage to seduce a male vampire. How on Earth am I going to seduce a female one?”
“You mean Edward?” Angela asked sharply. “This is about Edward?”
“Not exactly,” Bella shrugged. “I mean, sort of, but it’s more about me. I mean, Edward said I was
his singer, that I smelled better to him than anyone ever did before. He claimed we were mates,
destined to be together, but in the end he decided he didn’t love me and he just left. If I can’t keep
my supposed mate, then how am I ever going to keep another vampire?”
“You listen to me!” Angela snapped as she reached for Bella’s chin to hold her in place. “You listen
and you listen good, Bella Swan, because I’m not repeating myself. Edward is an immature,
arrogant prick who didn’t deserve you and most certainly wasn’t meant to be your mate. You
deserve better than him!”
“Angela!”
“No,” the other girl shook her head. “You listen to me, Bella Swan! I was there when Edward left
you and I saw how it shattered you. I saw the way you fell apart and we all had to watch and wait
for you to put yourself back together over him. Then, just as you were starting to come back from
it, those monsters kidnapped us because of him! It wasn’t Edward that hid you from the others
inside the training camp and it wasn’t Edward that made sure you ate, so you listen to me and you
listen to me good. Edward Cullen doesn’t deserve anything from you not one more moment of
your time or ounce of your emotion, unless that emotion is hate. He doesn’t deserve to claim you
as a mate. He’s despicable and someone deserving of you would have never treated you like he did
or abandoned you. Carlotta would never treat you that way. Don’t you dare let Edward Cullen keep
you from reaching out for something good because he was rotten!”
“Angela,” Bella sighed.
“No,” Angela hugged her tighter. “No, you’re my best friend and I won’t let you be unhappy
because of him. You deserve better, Bella, and Carlotta wants to give you better. You just don’t see
it.”
“I do see it,” Bella protested.
“Then quit being so scared and grab it, Bella. Grab what she’s offering and forget Edward Cullen
ever existed. Pretend he’s nothing more than the scum on your shoe.”
“I know,” she waffled. “It’s just ”
“Just?”
“I want to hate him so bad, Angela, but then I think about ”
“He’s taken a mate, Bella.” Angela cut in.
“A mate?” She stuttered as she felt the carefully reconstructed bits of her heart shatter. “Are you
sure? I thought he was keeping a blood doll.”
“Yes, the blood doll is his mate,” Angela nodded. “Gus took me back to the dollhouse with him so
that he could meet with his father. I asked to go along and check on Jessica and Lauren. He
thought it would do me good to see the others and assure them I was doing okay not that they
cared but that’s not the point.”
“The point?”
“When I was there I saw Edward.”
“You saw Edward? What did he say?”
“He didn’t,” Angela glanced down and began to twirl her ring again. “He was leaving Mr. Grayson’s
office just as we were arriving. Mr. Grayson had a large stack of money on his desk and told Gus
that Edward had just formally asked to make Sandy his mate.”
“Formally?”
Angela nodded. “It’s the closest thing a blood doll and a vampire can do to marrying. The Volturi
don’t allow vampires to marry their blood dolls officially even though you can pose as man and
wife for humans so instead vampires formally recognize their blood dolls as consorts. They take
vows linking you to them throughout eternity or until one of you is killed. You have to have the
permission of the most powerful vampire in your area to do it and then they ask the Volturi for
permission on your behalf.”
“The Volturi?”
“The Volturi,” Angela agreed. “It costs a lot of money so most vampires don’t bother. Gus had to
pay the Volturi, and if it weren’t that Mr. Grayson was his father, he would have had to pay him as
well. Not to mention in Edward’s case he also had to buy his blood doll instead of having her given
as a gift to him.”
“He had to buy her?” Bella repeated.
“Before,” Angela grimaced. “It was more of an arrangement. Like they were dating almost? A trial
period, I guess. Now that he’s decided to make her his mate he bought her outright. He holds a
‘title’ to her and Mr. Grayson can’t make him give her back unless Edward breaks the law somehow
and he takes her in punishment. She belongs to him.”
“Why would he do that?” Bella muttered.
“She’s bound to him now,” Angela sighed. “According to what Mr. Grayson told Gus, he paid more
for her than any other blood doll’s ever been sold for.”
“Why?” Bella swiped at the traitorous tears rolling down her face.
“He told Mr. Grayson he loved her.” Angela answered quietly. “That she was his mate and he
couldn’t live without her. He threatened that they would run if Mr. Grayson didn’t give them
permission to be together. That they wouldn’t be separated and that she’d sworn to not allow
anyone else the right to feed from her but Edward.”
“She’d die,” Bella rolled her eyes. “Surely he knew that she didn’t mean it.”
“Apparently,” Angela grimaced, “that was how she arranged Mr. Grayson’s permission to move in
with him. She refused to be fed from anyone else and he was afraid she’d do herself real harm if
he didn’t agree.”
“So?”
“Edward is one of his most trusted confidants, Bella. There’s some that refer to him as Mr.
Grayson’s heir apparent since Gus wants no part in running the coven. He sees Edward as a son
and Sandy is his favorite.”
“Sandy?”
“Edward’s mate,” Angela supplied. “He’s even hosting them a, I guess you’d call it a reception of
sorts once he binds them.”
“You’re serious?” Bella wrapped her arms around her middle and began to rock slowly back and
forth. “Oh God, you’re serious.”
“Bella?” She could hear Carlotta’s frantic voice in the doorway. “Honey?”
“No,” she shook her head and began to rock more violently.
“You told her?” Carlotta asked and Bella looked up to see Angela nod. “She knows that Edward is
marrying?”
“He’s,” Angela muttered.
“Oh don’t be ridiculous,” Carlotta snapped. “He’s marrying her. Just like Gus is marrying you. It
doesn’t matter if the Volturi change the name to ‘the Horizontal Monkey Dance Ceremony’ and
make you juggle rings of fire it’s the same idea. You’re getting married and Edward is marrying
Sandy publicly.”
“When?” Bella sobbed.
“Tomorrow night,” Carlotta answered. “I’ve already declined our invitation and William was very
understanding, all things considered. I left our offering and no one will mention our nonattendance.
What about Gus?”
“Mr. Grayson wouldn’t allow us to miss,” Angela answered. “He said if we didn’t attend he wouldn’t
give us permission to formalize our relationship.”
“Figures,” Carlotta snorted, “the self serving bastard.”
“But,” Bella tried to control her erratic breathing.
“Come on darling,” Carlotta cooed in her ear suddenly as she helped her to her feet. “Let’s get you
home. I’m worried about you.”
“Okay,” she whimpered and clung to the other woman.
“I’ll find Gus and we’ll leave with you,” Angela suggested.
“I think that’s a good idea,” Carlotta agreed.
As they made their way quickly toward the door, Bella kept her arms tight around her stomach
probably looking like she had a stomach flu. She was sure that if she was still human she’d be
nauseous right now. Once outside, she gulped in the fresh air and leaned on Angela as Gus and
Carlotta conversed quietly.
“He doesn’t deserve you,” Angela whispered. “Take this as a sign that you deserve better, Bella.
There’s no reason to wait for him anymore and there’s nothing wrong with being with someone
who loves you.”
“I know,” she nodded and straightened her spine, letting her arms fall to her side. Angela was right
Edward was a cad who didn’t deserve another moment of her life especially when she was
lucky enough to have someone who did care about her.
Chapter 14.
“Why are you insisting on this again?” Sandy rolled her eyes as she stared at Edward in the mirror.
“And why exactly do you think I need to wear this, this What the fuck is this exactly?”
“Alice sent it for you,” Edward shrugged. “She said when she saw it she knew it was perfect. It
looks like a very, um ”
“A very um?”
“Look,” he ran his fingers through his hair and she could tell he was frustrated. “It looks like a
beautiful dress. I’m sure you’ll be radiant in it.”
“It looks like something my grandmother would have worn! And why in the name of Janis Joplin
and Betty Friedman would I need a wedding gown?”
“It’s a very nice dress!” Edward insisted. “And it does not look like something a grandmother would
wear. In fact, it vaguely resembles one the daughter of a friend of my mother’s wore at her
wedding just before I was turned.”
“Edward?”
“Yes?” She could tell he desperately wanted this conversation to be over with from the miserable
look in his eyes but she wasn’t just going to give this up. The entire premise of it was ridiculous
and it was going to set all of her plans back to the Stone Age if not destroy them entirely. Didn’t
her stupid, sweet, stubborn bastard vampire best friend realize that she was too busy remolding
his life into something infinitely better to marry him?
“You were born two years before my Gran.”
“Oh. Well, would you consider trying it on? Alice prides herself on her fashion sense and ”
“And she’ll a.) know that I didn’t wear it and b.) be hurt?”
“She already knew you’d put up a fight and she said if you did to assure you that this wasn’t the
dress. She made sure to tell me to emphasize that last bit because you’d understand.”
The dress, Sandy snorted. Of course the meddling psychic would know what she would think when
she saw the reproduction relic on the hanger. The dress was so very obviously made with Isabella
Swan in mind and Sandy knew that she would look breathtaking in it if Sandy could only manage
to pawn it off on her. One thing Edward’s annoying sisters hadn’t realized in all the times they had
called to chastise their brother for his actions and give him various orders for her to fulfill, or when
they’d sent boxes of clothes that in no way suited her but the two of them simply adored she
had an excellent bullshit meter and it was especially tuned to vampires. It was a skill she’d
acquired quickly in this life. Rosalie and Alice couldn’t care less about her unless she was Bella
Swan and willing to be manipulated into doing what they wanted.
‘If Bella would have stood up to them more none of us would even be here,’ Sandy thought to
herself. If she’d simply have told Alice ‘no’ about a stupid party that she didn’t even want then
none of the actions from that night would have taken place and they’d be back in Forks, graduating
from high school and planning a wedding. Of course, the Cullen sisters hadn’t admitted their own
actions in what Sandy had since dubbed “The Great Cullen Clusterfuck”. Nor would they, she
suspected.
“I’m not wearing it,” she announced firmly as Edward’s cell phone rang. “That’ll be Alice.”
“Hello?” Edward ran his fingers though his hair as he held the phone warily to his ear and Sandy
could hear his annoying sisters competing to see who could rant at him the loudest as they assured
him that she was in fact wearing that dress or one of them would hold her down while the other
forced it onto her and burnt all her clothes. She saw Edward glance up at her when he realized she
could hear both sides of the conversation and raised his eyebrows.
‘They even think about it and fucking the entire Volturi guard won’t save them,’ she warned him
silently, narrowing her eyes. ‘I will have them hunted down, restrained and I will light their asses
on fire myself then dance in the light of the flames.’
Edward’s eyes widened slightly as he heard her thought and then focused his attention back on the
phone. “Alice, I really think this is something you should let go. If Sandy doesn’t want to wear it
then Fine, but you’re asking for it.”
Turning he looked at Sandy apologetically as he held out the phone to her. “She wants to talk to
you,” he shrugged, aware of the fact that she’d heard the other woman commanding him to put
her on the phone.
“Yes?”
“That dress is perfectly lovely!” A shrill voice hissed at her over the phone. “Do you know the
lengths I had to go through to get it?”
“No,” Sandy shrugged. “And I don’t really care either. If you’d have asked my opinion instead of
just trying to use me as your own personal Barbie Doll you wouldn’t have wasted the energy or the
money.”
“You’re wearing that dress,” Alice snapped.
“Nope,” Sandy made sure to pop the ‘p’ sound to annoy the other woman even more. “And not
only am I not wearing it; Alice, I’m going to do you a favor and do something someone should
have done for you a long time ago. Fuck you and the cowboy you rode in on sweetcheeks ‘cause I
don’t take orders.” With that she took the phone away from her ear and closed it with a decisive
snap. Edward stared at her gaping.
“You just ”
“Hung up on your rude ass sister?” Sandy asked. “Yep. Maybe it’ll teach her some damn manners.
And for the record, I’m not wearing that dress. One, it’s ugly as fuck and two, I have no reason to
wear it.”
“Sandy,” he dropped to his knees in front of her as the phone began to buzz again. He ignored it
and took her hands in his. “Can we please not fight about this? Please? We’re getting married
tomorrow night. Can’t you just accept it and be happy? Pretend to be happy even?”
“It’s a ridiculous idea!”
“It is not!” Edward snapped. “You’re my mate and I know you hate that term and you want to
argue it with me but hear me out. Fine, we might be replacements to each other for mates that we
lost but isn’t that okay? You lost Dante and I lost ”
“No,” Sandy argued. “You didn’t. She’s within arms reach and you can even have her for all
eternity no more worrying about losing your control and drinking from her or crushing her or
whatever other worries you had about her mortality. All you have to do is claim her.”
“She ”
“You know Carlotta’s already offered to trade her for me.”
“Yes!” Edward bellowed at her and she could hear the window panes reverberating from it. “And I
was never more insulted in my life. Asking me to trade you like some baseball card. A book! Well,
I’ve read this one and you’ve read that one so we’ll just swap now!”
“That’s how it’s done!” Sandy screamed back at him. “If you want Bella then you’ve got to
compensate Carlotta for her and they won’t let you keep two blood dolls so the easiest way is to
swap Bella for me!”
“I DON’T WANT BELLA!” She was sure the glass was going to break from the force of his voice.
“Liar,” she sighed and if she were mortal the look in his eyes then would have scared her. The
phone rang and he snatched it up irritatedly. “WHAT?!”
“Oh, Carlisle,” he sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose, taking unnecessary, shaky breaths to
calm his temper. “What? You’re not serious! Fine!”
Sandy caught the phone he threw at her in exasperation and cocked her eyebrow at him. “My
father would like to speak with you. He’s requested that I leave the apartment so that you can
speak privately. Do you mind?”
“Of course not,” she shook her head and placed the phone to her ear as he slammed out of their
apartment.
“Sandy?” She could hear the soft voice on the other end of the phone chuckling.
“Carlisle, I presume?”
“It’s a pleasure to finally speak with my future daughterinlaw. I have to apologize that we haven’t
met before and that we won’t get to see you at the wedding.”
Sandy growled in irritation. “It’s fine. I understand it would be difficult for you considering the
difference in lifestyle choices. I don’t think it will be much of an affair to be honest.”
“Yes,” she could hear his barely concealed amusement still. “My daughter Alice may have
mentioned that there are some issues in contention.”
“Some,” Sandy laughed. “Which ones were you interested in discussing?”
“Blunt,” he answered.
“No sense beating around the bush is there? We both know you’re not calling to talk about how I
think the weather will be for my wedding. In case you’re curious Ivan, our psychic, assures me that
it should be cloudy until about 10 tomorrow night and then clear up so there’s a good view of the
stars. Edward should be pleased.”
“But not you, I take it?”
Sandy shook her head. He sounded so much like William that it made her want to laugh. She didn’t
know if it was because they had once moved through the same world, though she’d never tell
Carlisle just how small their world had been since that was William’s secret to tell or keep, or if it
was something that they’d both developed while leading their respective covens. “It should be
lovely,” she answered evasively.
“I see,” he murmured. “Well, let’s start this properly then and start small. Shall we?”
“Of course.”
“I would like to apologize for my daughters.” He replied. “There are several reasons, excuses, for
why they behave as they do. I’d like to tell you that it comes from being turned as a teenager, or
the fact that their lives are spent pretending to be adolescents and being surrounded by them, or
even that they’re quite simply used to being the most powerful things around and they think that
gives them the right to behave as they do.”
“But?”
“That doesn’t make it excusable.” He answered. “Apparently, Rosalie decided after you hung up
that she was coming to Chicago to ‘teach you some manners’ and Alice immediately had a vision of
her sister going up in flames. I informed her that it was a very, very real possibility. After that, I
also explained to her that adults don’t take kindly to being dictated to and ordered about and
unlike them you’ve spent your immortality as an adult and not as an adolescent.”
“I imagine they aren’t happy about that,” Sandy laughed.
“No,” he chuckled as well. “Jasper wanted to call and talk to you ”
“Empathic powers don’t work over the phone,” Sandy snorted.
“No,” Carlisle answered, “but he can be quite persuasive when he tries.”
“So why am I talking to you?”
“Alice’s next vision involved both her and Rosalie aflame while Emmett and Jasper were forced into
some contraption that vaguely resembled a cage with added steel spikes inside of it.”
“Ahh, a deviant’s cage,” Sandy smirked. “I don’t think I’ve ever seen a vampire inside one.
Generally they’re meant for placing dolls inside during nest feedings.”
“Well,” she could hear his discomfort as he suddenly understood what the cages were for. “I would
still like to apologize.”
“Of course,” Sandy shrugged. “It’s not a big deal. I could have handled it better myself honestly so
I apologize as well.”
“There’s no need,” Carlisle replied. “I understand you’re under a significant amount of stress.
Would you like to talk about the fact that you are suddenly marrying my son against your own
will?”
“I think you’ve answered your own question. It’s against my will.”
“Of course,” he laughed. “How redundant of me. Would you like to talk about how the two of you
have found yourselves in this very interesting situation?”
“You know Bella Swan’s here?”
“And that he’s refusing to see her?” Carlisle replied. “Yes, I do know about that situation. The two
of you spent some time in New Orleans so that Edward could get his head on straight didn’t you?”
“Right,” Sandy nodded. “Well, you see, um ”
“I live with a psychic Sandy,” Carlisle answered her calmly. “And though he may appear to be
seventeen, my son is, in fact, old enough to make his own decisions and so are you.”
“Okay,” she took a deep breath. “Well, while we were in New Orleans he was feeding and it shifted
and we were having sex. I mean, purely consensual sex, he didn’t do anything inappropriate.”
“I understand,” he continued to soothe her.
“Then he just sort of freaks out. Starts talking about how we’re mates now, bonded or something. I
mean we’ve always been best friends and if you’ve got to have a vampire, which in my case it’s
sort of a necessity, then Edward’s by far one of the best to let nibble on your neck but mates?
Commitment? Then he starts bringing up formalizing us.”
“I take it you don’t agree?”
“Look, I love him, I adore him, he’s my best friend and the sex yeah the sex is great but it’s
not something to get married over. It doesn’t require some sort of formal commitment.”
“I know I don’t have to tell you that Edward comes from a much different time where they had a
much different perspective on sexual relations between two people.”
“And I come from a generation that used sex like most people use Hallmark cards?” Sandy
smirked. “How did your kids make it through the Sixties?”
“We were in a remote part of Alaska because of the war so they missed most of it but before you
ask yes, my daughters were very much of the sweaters and pearls set. I remember Emmett
wanting to go to Woodstock and Rosalie refusing because of the dirt, Alice because she didn’t like
how the hippies dressed, and Edward because he hated the music.”
“Yeah he’s more of a Fifties pop fan,” Sandy giggled. “Do you realize he made me watch a Doris
Day movie once?”
She held the phone away from her ear as Carlisle roared with laughter. “Oh please,” he managed
to gasp out.
“Me!” She giggled. “A child of the Sixties curled up in pink flannel cupcake pajamas that his sister
bought me, eating the popcorn he insisted on burning for me, and watching the Pajama Game!
You’re so lucky there weren’t any lighters around.”
“Hold on,” she heard him still giggling, a door shut and then the tale tell whistle of him running. “I
am so sorry,” he snorted a few moments later.
“Really?”
“I can only imagine how painful that was. The Pajama Game was cringe worthy when it came out, I
can only imagine it’s worse now. Do you know I once fantasized about switching to human blood?”
“Really?”
“Yes, just long enough to move out to California and drain the more annoying Hollywood starlets
dry. Doris Day and Debbie Reynolds were at the top of my list.”
“I think it would have been an acceptable slip.” Sandy snorted.
“Look,” Carlisle said suddenly serious. “I understand that you and Edward have very different views
on this and I do understand your point, my children all come from one of the most sexually
repressive time periods in modern history. I meanwhile, came of age during the English Civil War.”
“Right,” Sandy retorted. “Because that Cromwell, man he was one heck of a swinger!”
“Shut it,” Carlisle answered dryly. “We had our share of sexual expression along with the
repressive tactics. Ever hear of the Ranters?”
“Point taken,” Sandy conceded.
“Now, besides you thinking my son is marrying you because you took his virginity, why is he so
adamant on this? If it were just the sex he’d be put out but he wouldn’t be forcing you into this.”
“Last week he realized that I could be taken from him,” Sandy sighed and sunk down onto the
pillows. “Grayson suspected one of his men was stealing from him and had Edward in the room
while he questioned him and the man’s blood doll. He was supposed to read their minds and tell
Grayson when they were lying. You could say it disturbed him.”
“And?”
“It turns out the man was stealing and the doll knew it. He executed both of them. Him for stealing
and her for not reporting him. Grayson claimed it was her duty to inform him because she was still
his property. Until then Edward had always assumed that when Grayson had given me to him it
was a final thing. Then Edward realized he could reclaim me at any time.”
“So he watched both of them burn?”
“No,” she shook her head as she remembered the other woman’s screams. “They burnt the
vampire, she was casked. It took three weeks.”
“Oh sweet Jesus,” she heard him moan and realized he knew what the punishment entailed. She
shuddered as she remembered watching them seal the other woman into a wooden barrel with no
means of escape, denying her access to the venom essential to her survival. “So he decided then
”
“He claimed it was for my safety. That if he formally owned me then Grayson couldn’t take me
back. I would be Edward’s property. Of course, your son is a good man, and he refuses to ‘own me
like some sort of car,’ in his words. Plus Grayson only agreed to sell me to Edward if we formalized
it. So, we’re having a wedding.”
“Okay,” she heard Carlisle take in a breath. “So far all of this makes sense. My son is trying to
protect you and of course he’s trying to do the right thing in all the wrong ways. I can understand
why that upsets you but you do realize it’s for your own protection don’t you?”
“I do,” Sandy shook her head again and swallowed. “It’s just that it’s final. You know as well as I
do that the Volturi don’t allow divorce. They hold formalization vows sacred and they’re meant for
life.”
“You doubt he’ll want you for eternity?”
“No, he’s stubborn,” Sandy sighed. “Even if he didn’t he’d never admit it. But if we do this, it’s over
for him and Bella. He can’t come back from this.”
“It’s already over for him and Bella it seems.”
“It doesn’t have to be. Excuse me for saying this but if he’d get his head out of his ass and
apologize, it would take time but she’d forgive him eventually and they could be together. But ”
“He won’t listen?”
“No!”
“Well,” she heard Carlisle sigh. “I agree with you, my son does indeed have his head up his ass and
it’s ruined his possible reconciliation with Bella. And I appreciate that you’re trying to do what you
believe is best you’re a good friend to both of them.”
“I try,” Sandy threw an arm over her face. “I think she sees me more as the slut who stole her
boyfriend though.”
“Bella’s a very understanding girl,” Carlisle reassured her. “But it seems my son is set on this and I
feel like I should tell you that while his logic may be flawed, his motives are pure and I have to
agree with him that this is the safest course of action for you. Also, you can’t force him to be with
someone he no longer wants. Especially since, if I understand correctly, he’s marrying you with or
without your consent tomorrow night and then it’s a purely academic question of whether he’d be
happier with her or you.”
“Not necessarily,” Sandy whispered, low enough that she knew the phone’s microphone wouldn’t
register the sound.
“I wish you and my son the best Sandy,” Carlisle continued. “And I believe that you are very good
for Edward.”
“Thank you,” she smiled.
“Hopefully he’ll bring you to visit us in Forks for the holidays.”
“Perhaps,” she hedged.
“Well, I’ll say good bye because I’m sure my son is pacing just out of hearing range waiting to
continue your argument.”
“Good bye Carlisle.”
“Oh Sandy?”
“Yes?”
“Also, just so you know, I’m sure you’ll be lovely in whatever you choose to wear tomorrow and I
agree; that dress is ugly as sin. I wouldn’t blame you in the slightest for not wearing it.”
She heard the decisive click and smiled at the phone. She could see where some of Edward’s better
qualities had come from. Setting the phone on the nightstand she relaxed.
‘I’m off the phone,’ she thought and took a deep breath, knowing he would be tuned to her inner
voice waiting. ‘And I promise, I’m happy about the wedding. Just don’t make me wear that
dress.’
“Okay,” Edward announced as he hurriedly slid into the bed, wrapping his arms around her. “Wear
whatever makes you happy. Just promise me that you won’t leave me at the altar tomorrow night.”
“There is no altar,” Sandy snuggled back against his chest.
“It’s a figure of speech.”
Chapter 15.
“Are you sure you’re ready for this?” Carlotta looked at her skeptically in the dressing room mirror.
“Why wouldn’t I be?” Bella arched an eyebrow and pressed a cardinal red, strapless dress against
her body, tugging at the fabric. “What do you think about this one?”
“I think the color is outstanding,” Carlotta shrugged. “I worry that the pleating at the front of the
empire is going to make you look like you have a tummy though. You should try it on. And you
know why you wouldn’t be ready for this.”
“Angela is my best friend,” Bella insisted. “I’m not going to miss her wedding, commitment
ceremony, formalization thingy. What are we supposed to call it anyway?”
“Unless you’re talking to a member of the Volturi, calling it a wedding will be fine,” Carlotta
shrugged. “If you’re talking to one of them, well I’ll give you a quick lesson in Volturi etiquette
when we get home.”
“They have their own etiquette?” Bella held up a royal blue halter dress with a flared skirt and
peered at it in the mirror. “What do you think?”
“Yes, they have their own etiquette,” Carlotta retorted as she tilted her head to the side and
evaluated the dress in the mirror. “They officially have sticks shoved that far up their asses. It’s
part of initiation into the guard.”
“Really?”
“Mmhmm,” Carlotta smirked. “You’re avoiding the topic at hand and, by the way, you’ll look
stunning in it. Once again, I urge you to just try it on.”
“Right,” Bella nodded and gathered up the three dresses she was interested in the red, the blue,
and a pink that Carlotta had suggested. As she stepped into the changing cubicle she glanced back
at Carlotta. “And I’m not avoiding the topic. I just don’t think it’s a necessary one. I’m not missing
Angela’s wedding.”
“You know he’s going to be there,” Carlotta warned.
“Really?” Bella tried to make her voice sound innocent through the curtain as she slipped into the
pink dress and looked at it critically. “Angela didn’t mention that he’d been invited.”
“Everyone was invited,” Carlotta shook her head as Bella stepped out of the cubicle and let her look
at the dress critically. “And everyone will attend, considering who Gus is. William isn’t going to
allow anyone to slight him or the Volturi by not being in attendance. Try the red on, I don’t think
the hemline on this suits you.”
“You know, you’re not so bad to shop with?” Bella giggled as she turned around for Carlotta to
unzip her and then stepped back into the cubicle.
“Why is that? And don’t keep trying to change the subject it’s not going to work.”
“Because you don’t throw a gagillion outfits into my arms and then rush me into a cubicle.”
“Why would I? Anyone with a good eye should be able to tell what will look good on you and what
won’t style wise. If they know you well enough they can then take into account your personal
preferences, the color palette that suits you best, fabrics you’ll be most comfortable in, and then
most of the grunt work can be done on the racks and you’re not playing Bella Barbie.
“Plus, I happen to have a very good idea of what stores will have the things you like and what ones
won’t. If we have a clear goal in mind, know the stores, know all the rest of the stuff to eliminate
clothes on the rack, then we’re not spending all day trudging through the mall.”
“I love you,” Bella answered as she stepped back out of the cubicle in the red and twirled around.
“I love you too,” Carlotta nodded and then circled her finger, motioning for Bella to spin again.
“Why do you love me right now in particular?”
“Because you don’t want to spend all day trudging through the mall,” Bella announced.
“Of course not,” Carlotta answered as she tugged lightly on the hem of the dress. “You want to go
to the bookstore; I need to stop by the art supply shop to replenish my supplies and I can think of
more fun things to do at home.”
“Really?” Bella smirked. “What about lunch? After all of this I’m going to be hungry.”
“So am I,” Carlotta agreed and then winked. “This is a definite possibility. Try on the blue. If they
both suit, we’ll take them along while we shop for shoes and accessories.”
“We’re not buying them both are we?”
“Of course not,” Carlotta shook her head. “But if you decide on one and then can’t find shoes or
accessories, we have to come back here and start over. It’s easier if we grab both; go over to the
shoe department and pick out shoes; go to accessories and pick those out, and then decide
between the two complete looks from there.”
“You know,” Bella stepped back into the cubicle and slipped out of the red dress and into the blue
one. “That seems entirely counterintuitive but it somehow makes a lot of sense.”
“I learned it from a very elegant but very busy woman many years ago.”
“Really? Who?” Bella stepped out in the blue halter and began tugging at the aline skirt.
“La Pompadour,” Carlotta muttered. “Quit tugging at the hemline, it looks perfect without your
fussing.”
“You think this one is it?”
“I hate the color,” Carlotta shrugged. “But you’re not buying it to impress me.”
“Says who?”
“Says every female instinct in me that looks at that dress and says ‘revenge is sweet. Suffer,
Edward, you miserable bastard, suffer.’”
“I am not trying to get revenge on Edward.”
“You are,” Carlotta replied. “You’re pissed that he married another woman and you want him to see
what he’s missing.”
“I am not and I do not,” Bella replied as she stepped back into the dressing room and changed into
her street clothes.
“Just grab the blue,” Carlotta motioned toward it.
“I thought you said take them both?”
“I saw a pair of silver stilettos that will make your legs look a mile long in that dress and we don’t
need to buy any accessories.”
“Why not?” Bella carefully draped the blue dress over her arm and then hung the others on the
return rack.
“If it’s lustful, remorsefilled attention from your ex that you want,” Carlotta took the blue dress
from her and began walking toward the shoe department. “I have the diamonds to make that dress
a gigantic neon sign that says ‘Look What You’re Missing, Jackass.’ I even know how to do your
hair. Thankfully the Volturi will be in town.”
“Why is that?”
“Because otherwise, I would be fending off aggressive, interested buyers all night while Edward
writhes in pain because you’ve slipped through his fingers.”
“Are you sure I won’t fall and break my neck in these?” Bella looked at the stiletto sandals that
Carlotta was holding.
“You’ll be fine. You’re not nearly as clumsy as you claimed you once were. For a human, you’re
downright graceful. Besides, I’ll be beside you for the whole night, I wouldn’t dream of allowing you
to fall and ruin your revenge.”
“It’s not revenge,” Bella insisted as she slipped out of her ballet flats and sat to try on the stilettos.
“Wow, these are actually comfortable!”
“They’re specially made for ballroom dancing. Better construction, more padding, slightly wider toe
box.”
“That makes them more comfortable?”
“Do they feel like a regular pair of high heels?”
“No,” Bella shook her head as she walked around in them, suddenly feeling more graceful with
each delicate step she took.
“Then obviously, yes, that makes them more comfortable, my love. And yes, what you’re doing is
revenge, which I understand.”
“You do?”
“Of course I do,” Carlotta answered as she held the box out for Bella to deposit the shoes in once
she’d finished taking them off. “I can’t think of a woman that hasn’t had her moment of woman
scorned revenge on an old lover.”
“Even you?”
“Even me,” Carlotta confirmed as they made their way to the register. “Why is that so hard to
believe?”
“I don’t know,” Bella shrugged. “I just thought ”
“You just thought?”
“You’d be more the one doing the scorning and less the one getting revenge.”
“Flattery will not get you out of this conversation Bella.” Carlotta warned, laughingly, as she
handed the attendant her credit card and signed the sales slip.
“I’m not trying to flatter you,” Bella protested as they made their way out of the department store
and into the mall. “And nothing is getting you off this topic.”
“I know what would get me off this topic,” Carlotta smirked.
“What’s that?”
“Let’s skip the rest of our errands, get you some lunch to go and go home.”
“I’m not really that hungry,” Bella giggled.
“Really?” Carlotta’s smile grew as she wrapped her arm around Bella’s waist and pulled her through
the mall and into their car at her natural speed. “I’m famished.”
“That’s funny,” Bella looked over at Carlotta in the driver’s seat and batted her eyelashes, trying to
act flirtatiously. “You just ate last night.”
“Hmm,” Carlotta murmured as she slammed her foot onto the gas and the car tore down the
interstate. “I must be having a growth spurt or something. It seems like I’m hungry all the time
now.”
“Do vampires have growth spurts?”
“Of course we do,” Carlotta answered innocently. “Surely you knew that?”
“No, no, I didn’t.” Bella giggled as the other woman wrenched the steering wheel, taking the corner
of their street on two wheels and letting the car hurtle into the drive, brakes squealing.
“Happens all the time,” Carlotta answered as she threw the car into park and smirked at Bella
again.
Bella swallowed and tried to screw up her courage. Licking her lower lip she glanced up at Carlotta
through her lashes. “You wanna play a game?”
“A game? Really?”
“Yeah,” Bella nodded and glanced down before looking back up again, “a game.”
“Okay,” Carlotta smiled at her encouragingly. “What type of game?”
“How about hide and seek?”
“Hide and seek?”
“You stay out here and count to 100 at human speed.”
“And what about you?”
“I’ll go inside and hide so that you can come find me.”
“100?”
“100,” Bella confirmed.
“1,2,” Carlotta began slowly.
Bella scurried toward the front door, listening to Carlotta count slowly from the car. Once inside,
she hastily began removing her clothes, scurrying from the front room to Carlotta’s studio,
dropping clothes as she went. Inside the studio, she hurriedly pushed the door almost closed,
leaving only a sliver of it opened. Glancing at the mirror, she quickly fluffed her hair and then tried
her best to lounge seductively against the chaise lounge.
“99,” she heard Carlotta purr softly as her heels clicked on the hardwood floor in the hallway.
“100,” the redhead announced as she pushed open the door of the studio and stood, staring at
Bella. “Oh my.”
“Hi,” Bella knew that if she was still human she would be blushing a furious shade of red.
“What a lovely surprise,” Carlotta whispered as she planted herself on the floor next to the chaise
lounge and draped her arm over Bella’s waist. “Is this for me?”
“Mmhhmm. I thought you might like a little more options for your lunch.”
“Hmm,” Carlotta murmured as she leaned forward to lick Bella’s neck. “Where to begin? Let’s see, I
do so very much like your neck. The blood there is very sweet.”
“Really?”
“But,” Carlotta began to trail kisses across her collarbone before dipping her head lower, working
toward the inside of Bella’s left breast. “I have a sneaking suspicion that it will be delicious here as
well.”
“Do you think?” Bella gasped as the other woman brought her tongue up to circle Bella’s nipple,
flicking at it leisurely.
“You like that honey?”
“Oh yes,” Bella managed to whimper as Carlotta sucked her nipple into her mouth and began to
flick at it more rapidly. She felt the other woman’s cool hand slip up and knead her breast, working
her exposed nipple between icy fingers. She couldn’t help arching her hips upward as the heat
between her legs grew. She felt a sharp tug on her nipple and then Carlotta’s fingers began to trail
down her body toward her apex as she pulled her mouth off of Bella’s nipple and began to plant
loving kisses on her inner left breast.
An icy tendril traced against her clit as she felt the sharp pinch of Carlotta’s teeth against her
breast and then the tingle of the vampire drinking her blood. “Oh God,” Bella gasped as a second
finger dipped down into her heated sex, slipping inside of her.
“Not exactly,” Carlotta giggled as she pulled away from Bella’s breast slightly and licked the
puncture wounds. “But thanks for the sentiment.”
“More,” she panted. “Please. Please more.”
“More?” Carlotta murmured as she kissed down the length of Bella’s torso and then licked across
the top of her pubic mound.
“God, yes!” She moaned and felt arctic lips pressing against her heated flesh before moving to her
inner thigh and teeth pressing against her sensitive skin. Carlotta’s finger began to rub tight circles
against Bella’s clit as she maneuvered her other hand down to pump two fingers in and out of her
pussy.
She felt flushed, heated, as she ground her hips between the other woman’s fingers, trying to pull
the one set inside of her further in as she desperately sought more friction from the other.
“Oh, oh,” she moaned repetitively, tossing her head back and forth as the pleasure raced through
her. “I’m, oh God, I’m so close.”
“Good,” Carlotta purred as she pulled back from her feasting site on Bella’s inner right thigh and
licked the wound hastily closed. The fingers inside of her twisted, curling to hit a spot at the front
of her walls as Carlotta sucked her clit hard and began to flick her tongue against it at vampire
speed.
“Oh fuck,” Bella cried out as her hips jerked off the chaise lounge, her orgasm racing through her
body, cramping her legs and making her toes curl as her back bowed upward, pressing her clit
more forcefully against the other woman’s mouth.
“Mmm,” Carlotta purred against her sensitive flesh, making Bella shiver, as she began to lap up her
juices. “I never thought I’d say this, but I think this might be sweeter than your blood.”
“Really?” Bella panted before taking in a shaky breath.
“It’s a very close call,” Carlotta answered as she slipped her fingers out of Bella’s pussy and began
to lick them clean like a cat. Once she was finished she leaned down, kissing Bella lightly on the
lips. “But I will say both are delicious.”
“I love you,” Bella murmured against Carlotta’s lips.
“I love you too, darling. And you know I’ll be right beside you at Angela’s wedding.”
“Really?”
“Really. And I promise, Edward Cullen won’t have any idea what hit him.”
Chapter 16.
“I don’t see why we have to go,” Edward snapped and Sandy couldn’t help but sigh.
“Because, for the third time; if we don’t go it will be seen as a slight against William and Gus. For
someone so worried about his position in this organization I didn’t think you’d want to take the risk
of insulting William.”
“He and Gus have both called to tell me that our attendance isn’t necessary if you’ll be
uncomfortable.”
“Why would I be uncomfortable?” Sandy asked as she held up a brilliant emerald colored dress
against her skin. “What do you think of this one?”
She watched as Edward glanced at the dress in the mirror and his lip curled up in a one sided
smile. “You’ll look beautiful in it. Is it new?”
“Do you mind?” she quirked an eyebrow at him.
“Of course not.” Edward walked over to their bed and flopped across it. “You know I don’t care if
you spend our money. Did you buy jewelry to go with it as well?”
“No,” she shook her head. “I wanted to know what you thought first.”
“Good,” Edward glanced up at her with a coy smile. “That means I get to buy the jewelry for you
instead.”
“Nothing too ostentatious,” Sandy warned.
“Of course not,” Edward shrugged. “We wouldn’t want you to upstage the bride. Somebody might
try to persuade you to go home with them instead.”
“Not likely.” Sandy snorted at his reflection in the mirror before she hung the dress in her closet.
“They’ll be afraid you’ll rip their head off and if you don’t, then they’d still face the Volturi’s wrath.”
“I still don’t think we should go.” Edward’s reply was muffled by the pillow his face was buried in.
“We have to,” Sandy insisted. “Besides, what are you so afraid of?”
“The bride asking for my head as her wedding present,” Edward retorted.
“Don’t be ridiculous,” Sandy laughed.
“She’s a blood doll because of me.” Edward sat up and glared at her. “They’re all like this because
of me. Because I was ”
“Human?” Sandy suggested. “Fallible? Naive? Not thinking straight? Prone to dramatics? Should I
go on?”
“No.” Edward shook his head and began to pick at threads on their duvet.
“She’s found Gus and she’s happy with him,” Sandy answered as she moved to sit next to Edward
on the bed. “She’s forgiven you.”
“For becoming a blood doll.” Edward shook his head. “But ”
“You made mistakes Edward,” Sandy reached out for his hand. “Welcome to being a human, or in
your case, a humanlike creature. We’re not perfect it’s better that way.”
“Is it?”
“Being imperfect? Of course it is. If everything you did and said was immediately perfect wouldn’t it
be boring?”
“True,” Edward sighed. “But I meant, was it a mistake? I don’t regret marrying you.”
“I know you don’t.” Sandy nodded and began to rub his hands between hers. “But maybe you
shouldn’t have run away all those months ago in Forks.”
“What’s the point in wondering about it?” Edward replied. “I ran and because of that, Bella and the
rest were left unprotected; leaving them easy victims for Victoria to attack. We’re all here now and
nothing will change that.”
“Perhaps not,” Sandy said quietly and looked down at the duvet, keeping her eyes away from
Edward’s. He’d know something was up if he looked directly at her, she wouldn’t be able to keep
masking her thoughts from him if he caught on. “That means the best thing for you to do is face it
head on.”
“What do I do?” Edward asked. “What do I say to her?”
“Her? You mean Bella?”
“Yes.” Edward ran his hands up through his hair. “Angela is her best friend so you know she’ll be
there.”
“Honestly? I would let Bella make the first move, Edward. Let her approach you if she wants to but
if not, you’ve made your choices and she’s made the ones she can, it may be best to just walk
away and let her have a clean break.”
“Do you think she’ll want that?” Edward asked and she could see the hope in his eyes at the
thought that he could avoid her.
“No.” Sandy shook her head. “She’s going to want to know why.”
“Why? Why what?”
“Why everything,” Sandy replied. “Why did you leave? Why didn’t you rescue her from the
dollhouse? Why did you let her go to Carlotta? Why hasn’t she seen you since the first, accidental
meeting months ago? Why did you marry me instead of working it out with her? She’ll want to
know.”
“What do I tell her?”
“I don’t know,” Sandy shrugged. “Personally, I’ve always found that the truth is always the best
thing to tell someone. Even if it hurts them at least you’ve given them the respect of being honest
with them.”
“I don’t think we should go,” Edward muttered.
“We’re going, you pussy,” Sandy snapped. There was no way she would let Edward ruin her plans.
Everything hinged on getting a chance to see Isabella Swan. Angela had called to warn her that
Bella and Carlotta were attending and she wouldn’t let Edward’s weakness keep her from seeing
the other blood doll.
“Sandy,” Edward growled.
“What? You’re going to play the big, bad vampire card now? Try to be in charge?”
“Don’t,” Edward warned. “I’ve said that we’re not required to be present and we won’t be going.”
“We’re not going to bring attention to ourselves by not going,” Sandy argued.
“I’ve done enough to ruin Angela Weber’s life,” Edward snapped. “I won’t ruin her wedding by
fighting with Bella at it.”
“Then don’t fight with Bella,” Sandy snarled in return. “But you’re not going to humiliate me by not
attending.”
“Humiliate you?”
“If we don’t attend then the gossip will be that I was afraid to face your ex,” Sandy huffed. “That I
was jealous and didn’t want the two of you in the same room together. I won’t be humiliated
because you won’t grow a spine and face a 110 pound little girl.”
“That’s the most ridiculous thing I’ve ever heard!”
“That doesn’t mean that it’s not true! Besides, I thought you wanted to see me in that dress!”
“I do! We’ll go out. I’ll take you somewhere nice! I can’t believe this is all over whether or not you
get to wear a dress! You hate wearing dresses!”
“It’s not about the dress!” Sandy screamed. “This is about you making me look like a jealous, fool
of a wife!”
“Fine!” Edward snapped. “We’ll go if you just shut up about it! I don’t know why you care so much
you hate going back into the dollhouse.”
“Thank you,” Sandy replied softly.
“I don’t know why it means so much to you,” Edward muttered as he flopped back onto the bed.
“I want to show off my handsome new husband,” Sandy replied as she crawled up the bed toward
him. Straddling his waist, Sandy looked down at Edward coyly.
“Show me off huh?” Edward ran his hand up her side and cupped her left breast, running his thumb
over her nipple slowly. “What else do you want to do with your new husband?”
“Well ” Sandy bit her lip as his right hand began to trail up her inner thigh and then moaned.
“Because, you see ” Edward let his left hand trail up to her neck and he gripped her hair pulling
her head up to face him. “I have some ideas about what I’d like to do with my lovely new wife.”
“Really?”
“Mmmhmm,” Edward nodded and smiled wickedly. “I was just curious if your ideas and mine were
compatible.”
“It depends on what your ideas were,” Sandy smirked and felt a sudden rush of air as Edward
flipped her onto her back, hovering above her. A few rough jerks and she watched as her now torn
clothing fluttered onto the floor. “Oh you have naked ideas.”
“Is that bad?” Edward purred against her neck as he began to lick down the side of it. “Not
something you were interested in?”
“No, no,” Sandy shook her head and smiled. “Your naked ideas mesh very well with my ideas.”
“And what were your ideas?”
“Hmm,” Sandy shifted her hips away from him and leaned up to bite his ear sharply.
“Oh,” Edward’s eyes lit up. “I see.”
“Do you?”
“You’ve been a very, very bad blood doll sweetheart.”
“Have I?” She peered at him and fluttered her eyelashes.
“I made a decision earlier and you questioned it, fought with me, and called me names. Is that how
you’re supposed to behave?”
“No,” she shook her head slowly.
“No,” Edward shook his head in time with hers. “I am the vampire and you are the blood doll. Do
you know what that means little girl?”
“You make the decisions?” Sandy tried her best to appear innocent and childlike.
“That’s right,” Edward growled. “I make the decisions and you obey what I tell you. But you didn’t
behave and now I have to punish you. Do you know what I’m going to do to you?”
“No,” she sat up on her knees, prepared to bolt as soon as he reached for her. Edward was creative
in his ‘punishments’ and she’d learned very quickly that he liked for her to try to escape in the
beginning.
“I,” she watched as Edward shifted, undoing his leather belt, “am going to warm your ass for
daring to question me. If you can’t sit down tomorrow, maybe you’ll decide to remember who’s in
charge.”
“I’m sorry,” she whimpered and moved to scoot away from him.
“You know where I want you to be,” Edward warned.
“I said I was sorry.” Sandy played along as he let the belt swing idly back and forth between his
fingers. “I promise I won’t ” She shifted and prepared to bolt.
“Nice try little girl,” Edward growled as she landed heavily, ass up, across his lap. “But not nearly
fast enough.”
She felt the sharp sting of his belt across her ass and arched upward, rubbing her clit against the
rough fabric of his jeans. The second strike brought tears to her eyes and she felt her nipples
tighten into hard nubs. Edward put his left forearm on her back and pushed her back down across
his lap as he hit her with the belt a third time.
“Oh God!” she couldn’t help moaning as she pushed her ass up higher, craving the next strike.
“Are you going to behave from now on?” Edward hissed as he hit her a fourth time.
“Yes,” she whimpered.
“Louder,” Edward ordered on the fifth strike.
“Yes!”
“Who’s the vampire here, Sandy?”
“You are!” She felt the tears streaming down her cheeks and gasped against the sixth strike.
“And who’s the blood doll?” She jerked as the seventh hit her upper thighs.
“I am!” She wailed as the side of the belt brushed her clit on the eighth strike and she felt her legs
begin to quiver.
“Who’s in charge then Sandy?” Edward growled as the ninth strike caused her to sob.
“You are! Oh God, Edward, you are. You’re in charge.” She couldn’t keep her voice steady as the
tenth strike came down hard on her ass and she wailed.
“That’s right,” Edward purred as he ran an ice cold hand across her ass, massaging it lightly.
“That’s right sweetheart. Show me how good of a girl you want to be now.”
“Please,” Sandy let herself slip easily into the role of a submissive blood doll. “What can I do to
show you how good of a girl I want to be?”
“Get on the bed on your hands and knees,” Edward replied as he gathered her in his arms and
placed her gently on the mattress beside him. Scrambling onto her knees, Sandy faced the
headboard and then looked back over her shoulder at Edward as she let her hands fall forward to
support her on all fours.
“So beautiful,” Edward murmured and she watched as he began to remove his own clothing. “Turn
around and close your eyes. I didn’t say you could watch.”
Sandy nodded and turned to face forward again, dropping her head down between her hands,
pushing her ass slightly higher into the air. “Yes, Edward.”
“Good girl,” he crooned and she felt the bed dip behind her. Cold fingers ran up her thighs and
stopped at her hips, grasping them tightly. A moment later she felt the tip of his ice cold cock
between her legs and shivered. Edward chuckled behind her as he shoved his full length inside
making her shiver and squirm as he pressed into her heat.
“So good, sweetheart,” Edward moaned as he grasped her hips tighter and pulled almost
completely out of her pussy, slamming back into her at the last moment, causing her to arch her
back and groan. She shivered, squirming against the thick, rockhard cock inside of her as one of
his hands grabbed her curls and pulled her flush against his chest, still rocking his hips and
plunging in and out of her.
“Give me what I want,” Edward swore against her shoulder and Sandy reached up to sweep her
hair away from his mouth. He attacked her neck with his mouth, roughly nipping at her skin,
tearing at the vein as his hips began to buck faster.
“Oh God,” she whimpered as her entire body tightened, the sensation of being drained at her neck
warring with the delicious friction from Edward plunging his cock in and out of her. The hand in her
hair moved down to wrap around her shoulders, holding her in place against his chest while the
one on her hip slid down, bringing his index finger to rest on her clit, rubbing tight circles against it
as she squirmed between Edward’s hand and his cock.
“Oh fuck,” Sandy moaned as he picked up his pace, sucking at the vein in her neck harder as well.
She let her own hands trail up to begin rolling her nipples between her thumbs and index fingers,
pushing her closer to her release as Edward swallowed her blood frantically and she knew he was
close as well.
She felt him wrench his mouth away from her neck and growl loudly as his hips snapped a final
time, pouring his release into her. When he finally pulled his cock free, leaving her feeling empty
and spent, Sandy collapsed forward onto the pillows, exhausted.
“Wow,” Edward gasped as he collapsed next to her, rolling her onto her side so that he could reach
her neck again. “That was ” He began to lap at the still open wound on her neck.
“Amazing?”
“Uh huh,” Edward answered absently as he took a smaller sip and then licked the wound closed. “I
think you’re going to have a mark, sweetheart.”
“Marking me as your own?” she chuckled breathlessly.
“I don’t want anyone thinking you’re still available when I’m forced to take you back into that pit of
vipers,” he murmured as he snuggled into her neck.
“So we are going?”
“We don’t have much of a choice,” he answered quietly. “The bright side is that I’ll get to see you
in that dress.”
“Thank you,” Sandy whispered as she closed her eyes and felt herself begin to drift.
“Thank me afterwards,” Edward chuckled. “Quite possibly naked.”
“Pervert,” she laughed and then let herself relax.
Chapter 17.
She tugged at her dress slightly as she stepped from the car and tried to focus. She wasn’t nervous
about seeing him, not in the slightest. She didn’t feel anything toward Edward Anthony Cullen
except anger. Hatred perhaps, she thought to herself. Everything that had happened was his fault
and he hadn’t taken responsibility for it. Leave it to Edward to decide what was best for everyone
and then leave so that others could suffer the consequences. He was a coward, a fraud, she
reminded herself and she was well rid of him.
He had, she swallowed; he had caused this mess. He had broken her heart, shattered her
emotionally and, just when she was finally putting herself back together again without him, Victoria
and Laurent had attacked them that night turning her, Angela, Jessica and Lauren into the
wraiths they were now to get revenge against Edward. “A mate for a mate,” Victoria had sneered
when they were shoving the girls into the trunk with she felt bile lurching upwards in her
stomach Mike and Jacob. They had fed from two of her friends, leaving their corpses in the
woods, and taken three more to be condemned to this half life as revenge against Edward and he
hadn’t even cared. He’d taken another mate and hadn’t even been concerned that she existed. He
had left to protect her and then when he failed, left her on her own again.
“Are you nervous?” Carlotta asked as she wrapped her arm around her.
“No,” Bella shook her head. “Why would I be nervous?”
“Because I can feel it coming off you in waves and so can every other vampire within a five mile
radius. He’s not going to fall for your revenge if he can feel your nerves.”
“I’m not nervous,” Bella insisted. “I’m angry. Do you know the damage he caused because he knew
better than everyone else?”
“I know sweetheart,” Carlotta crooned as she pulled her closer and then shifted to face her. “Look
at me.”
Bella felt herself transfixed by her vampire’s blood red eyes as the other woman stared at her.
“Everything will be fine, Bella,” Carlotta murmured softly, actively dazzling her. “All you need to do
is relax. You’ve come to see Angela and Edward isn’t important. No matter what he says it’s not
important, Bella. Do you understand?”
“Yes,” she answered numbly, knowing that right now she would have no choice but to agree with
anything Carlotta told her, accept any request as an order of the highest significance.
“Let’s go inside now,” Carlotta suggested.
“Yes,” Bella nodded and then let Carlotta lead her into the doorway where they stopped.
“I have a question for you,” Carlotta asked as she pulled her just inside the foyer of Grayson’s
mansion.
“What?”
“Did you and Edward ever ”
“Ever?” Bella looked at her and when Carlotta raised her eyebrows, quickly shook her head no.
“No, we never, he was old fashioned,” she stuttered.
“Oh,” Carlotta nodded. “Did he ever see you naked?”
“Naked?” Bella squeaked. “No!”
“Topless?”
Bella’s blush caused Carlotta to clutch her sides, giggling. “Okay then, that answers that.”
“Why?” Bella raised her eyebrows in expectation.
“I want to exact my own little bit of revenge,” Carlotta smiled smugly and then glanced over at
Edward. When Bella followed her gaze she could see that he had a tight grip on his blood doll’s
hand and his jaw was set in a stiff line.
“What are you doing?” Bella asked before Carlotta leaned down to press her cold lips against
Bella’s, letting her icicle tongue slip out to trace her lower lip. Bella opened her mouth slightly and
let her tongue tangle with Carlotta’s for a few moments before the vampire pulled away gasping.
“What was that for?”
“Just showing young Edward what he’s missing out on,” Carlotta chuckled as she wrapped her arm
around Bella’s waist and began walking into the main ballroom with her. “Come, we need to pay
our respects to my brother and the Volturi before the ceremony begins.”
Carlotta glided gracefully over the marble floors to where three vampires in black robes stood
talking to another vampire in a black tuxedo with a scarlet tie. “William,” Carlotta bobbed her head
slightly before turning to curtsey to the three men in black robes. “Aro, Marcus, Caius.”
“Carlotta,” all three men inclined their heads to her politely and the one in the suit, Grayson,
reached for her hand. “How are you my dear sister?”
“Well,” Carlotta smiled artificially and Bella could tell she was uncomfortable.
“And how is your lovely doll? Isabella, isn’t it?”
She kept her mouth shut until Carlotta turned to look at her with a raised eyebrow. “I’m quite well,
thank you,” she murmured and kept her eyes cast down. “Lady Carlotta is an excellent mistress.”
“Wonderful,” Grayson boomed loudly. “That’s good to know. I was so very worried when ”
“Where is my darling nephew, the groom?” Carlotta cut in quickly.
“Honestly,” Grayson shrugged. “I have no idea. If you would like me to guess, I would say that he
is hidden away with that doll. What is her name? Andrea? Annabelle?”
“It’s Angela,” Carlotta cut in, amusement in her voice, “and you well know it.”
“Angela,” Grayson conceded. “You’re right. My son is formalizing his union with the enchanting
Angela.”
“I’m surprised to see all three of you here,” Carlotta turned from her brother dismissing him from
her presence silently.
“We would not wish to disrespect our good friend William today,” the youngest of the three robed
men said with a respectful nod. “Although I must say I am amazed at the number of formalizations
taking place within your coven recently William. This is the second and I assume there will be a
third soon?”
“A third?” Carlotta turned to look at her brother.
“Yes,” he shrugged. “Well, I haven’t agreed to anything yet but it seems that Alistair is quite taken
with the curly haired blood doll that came with your own Isabella.”
“Alistair?” Carlotta sounded surprised and Bella took the opportunity to look over her shoulder to
spy on Jessica, leading an older vampire around behind her like a puppy. “The nomad?”
“That very one,” Grayson chuckled. “I was surprised as well. So when should we expect for you to
be announcing your own formalization?”
“We haven’t decided,” Carlotta growled at him playfully. “But thank you so very much for now
putting me on the spot. Any idea where Gus is with his bride? I’m sure Bella would like to wish her
best friend well.”
“No,” Grayson shook his head. “But I can find him quickly. Edward!”
Bella glanced over as she watched Edward bow his head slightly in obedience before taking the
other blood doll’s hand and leading her toward them. “Mr. Grayson,” he said deferentially. “You
requested my presence, Sir?”
“What have I told you about calling me William, Edward? I gave you my very own jewel, boy. I
think of you as a soninlaw.”
“You mean you’re going to go after him with a shot gun?” She heard the blonde’s melodic purr.
“No,” Grayson shook his head and then opened his arms to embrace her. “Not all of us have had
your colorful upbringing, my Sandy. I simply meant that we shouldn’t be so formal. Now, how are
you, my prize? Commitment seems to suit you.”
“I’m quite well,” she watched as the other blood doll dipped her head respectfully and stepped out
of Grayson’s arms and back into Edward’s space. His hands immediately relaxed from the clench
they were in and Bella couldn’t help the surge of jealousy she felt when he put his arm possessively
around the blonde, without so much as looking at her.
“Edward,” she could see the calculation in Grayson’s eyes as he glanced at her briefly and prepared
for the worst. “You do know my sister, Carlotta, don’t you? And her blood doll, Isabella? You two
are acquainted aren’t you?”
“Yes,” she heard him answer and could tell it was taking everything in his power not to growl at the
other vampire. “Isabella and I were acquainted during her mortal life.” Turning he nodded to her
and Carlotta. “Ladies.”
“That’s right,” Grayson feigned shock. “Isabella and those other three dolls are from that town your
coven resides in. Forks, isn’t it? Such a quaint name for a town.”
“Yes,” Edward agreed. “They’ve all come from Forks. I was given to understand that they were
taken during a territory dispute between my family and some nomads.”
“Hmm,” Grayson shook his head. “Nasty business that. Territory feuds never end well. Isn’t that
right Sandy, my darling?”
She noticed the other blood doll pale slightly and Edward tightened his grip on her waist. “No,” she
managed to strangle out. “They never do.”
“If you’ll excuse us,” Edward said tersely, “My wife is needed in the bride’s chambers prior to the
ceremony.”
What? Bella thought to herself. She knew that Angela had met Edward’s blood doll during their
commitment ceremony but hadn’t realized that they were close enough that she would be invited
to the bridal suite.
“Really?” Grayson seemed surprised as well.
“I have some Nandira root,” the blonde bowed her head slightly and Bella noticed that all of the
vampires, including Carlotta, began to salivate slightly. “I was hoping to make a gift of it to Angela
before the ceremony.”
“That’s most generous of you,” one of the robed vampires suggested. “Where did you come to find
such a valuable gift?”
“My Edward is too lenient with my allowance,” she replied as Edward took her arm and bowed his
head to the other vampires, ignoring Bella’s presence.
“If you’ll excuse us,” he murmured.
“Edward,” Grayson interrupted. “I have some business I’d like to discuss with you later.”
“Of course,” he nodded before tugging his blood doll away.
“If you’ll excuse us as well?” Carlotta announced suddenly and pulled Bella gently in the opposite
direction.
“What is Nandira root?” Bella asked quietly.
“Why?”
“Because every one of you was drooling like a dog in the grocery store meat department.”
“Oh,” she noticed Carlotta looked slightly embarrassed. “It’s, um, well it’s like refined white sugar
for vampires.”
“Sugar?”
“If a blood doll drinks it, the Nandira root will ratchet up the sweetness of the blood to epic
proportions. How do I explain? Chocolate?”
“Yes?”
“It’s like the finest chocolate sauce imaginable mixed with blood.”
“So it turns a blood doll into dessert? Why was everyone so interested in it?”
“Because it’s also highly addictive,” Carlotta answered. “So it really is like sugar. Unlike sugar
though, it’s very, very rare and therefore very expensive.”
“Then how would Edward have ”
“I doubt it was Edward,” Carlotta shrugged. “Sandy is rather popular and has been around long
enough that she has quite a few contacts. Not to mention where she’s from ”
“What’s that have to do with anything?”
“Bella, she’s from New Orleans.”
“So?”
Carlotta sighed. “Let’s just say that the creepy supernatural vibe you get in certain parts of the city
aren’t public relations ploys. The city is so immune to the supernatural that they barely bother to
hide.”
“Really?”
“Voodoo, witchcraft, vampire tours, they throw some window dressing on it and everyone thinks
it’s something put on for the tourists but ”
“They’re really hiding out in public like the Cullens do?”
“Exactly,” Carlotta nodded. “And William has used Sandy as an ambassador of sorts when he deals
with any of the southern covens or any time there’s interspecies relations.”
“Interspecies? You mean human and vampire?”
“Not necessarily,” Carlotta grumbled as she led Bella to one of the rows of white seats and sat
down beside her. She heard the soft strains of a piano and glanced over, watching the muscles in
Edward’s back shift as he began to play softly and the other guests made their way toward the
chairs.
Once everyone was seated, Bella watched as Edward shifted seamlessly into Chopin’s Wedding
March and Angela appeared at the top of the front staircase, Grayson holding tightly to her arm.
She felt her breath come short as she watched her dearest friend descend gracefully, the full white
skirt swaying around her like a bell. Everyone was silent as Grayson led her up the short aisle to
where Gus was waiting, hands folded solemnly in front of him. Once they reached him, Grayson
placed Angela’s hands in Gus’s and then stepped away.
“Friends,” one of the black robed men stood between the couple and addressed the crowd. “We
come here today to witness one of our own commit himself to the care of a blood doll. Is there
anyone here who knows if this should not be allowed? Is there any reason why this vampire does
not deserve the succor of his own pet?”
Bella watched as the assembled vampires all sat silently, motionless, giving their implicit
permission to the match. “So be it,” the black robed vampire continued. “Gus Grayson do you
accept the responsibility of taking this blood doll as your pet? Do you agree to nurture, comfort and
provide for it for all of eternity?”
“Yes,” Bella noticed that his voice didn’t waver when he replied and felt Carlotta squeeze her hand.
One day perhaps she and Carlotta would take these same vows, Bella thought to herself.
“And will anyone here vouch for this pet?” The black robed one asked the assembly. “Is she loyal,
trustworthy? If he brings her into this coven will she sow discord amongst its members? Is she
worthy of the honor being bestowed upon her to belong to one instead of many?”
“I will vouch for her,” she heard Edward speak up and glanced over at him, standing next to the
piano.
“You vouch for this pet?”
“I do,” Edward nodded. “I have known Angela since her mortal life. I have never known her to be
disloyal or unkind. I have the added benefit of knowing her thoughts and there is no more
kindhearted being to be found than she.”
“High praise for one so unworthy of notice,” the black robed vampire nodded and Bella felt her
hands clench. How dare he insult her friend that way? She felt Carlotta begin to rub her arm
soothingly and tried to relax. As difficult as the caste system of vampire society was to deal with,
she was exposed only rarely and for that she was grateful.
“Child,” the man turned his attention to Angela and fixed her with his glare. “Do you wish to belong
to this vampire? Do you wish to place your existence in the hands of one instead of many? Do you
understand the implications if you do?”
“I trust him with my life,” Angela nodded.
“So be it,” the vampire nodded. “Bring forth the collar and bid your pet to kneel.”
Bella watched, fascinated as Angela sank to her knees in front of Gus as he retrieved what looked
like a metal dog collar and lead from his pocket. Sweeping her hair out of the way, Angela bowed
her head and allowed him to fasten the collar around her neck and then take the hand loop of the
thin lead in his hand.
“May you be happy together,” the officiant said formally and bowed to Gus solemnly. Gus bowed in
return and then turned to face the assembly, bowing to them and waiting until their bow in return
before leading Angela down the aisle and to the doors of the main salon.
“What happens now?” Bella asked quietly.
“Much like a regular wedding,” Carlotta murmured. “There will be a reception afterwards. We’ll give
our well wishes to the happy couple, and then we’ll mingle with the other guests for a while before
we make an early exit.”
“An early exit?”
“Yes,” Carlotta nodded. “It seems my brother has arranged a nesting as part of the festivities and I
assumed you wouldn’t wish to be present. Most of the vampires with kept dolls will leave before
then so it won’t be considered odd for us to go.”
“A nesting?”
“A nest feeding,” Carlotta elaborated. “Blood dolls will be put into cages that are suspended from
the ceiling and when the lids are closed they’ll be ”
“They’ll be? You mean ” Bella felt her stomach churn at the thought. “That’s ”
“Revolting? Uncivilized? Utterly depraved?”
“Uh huh,” Bella nodded.
“I agree, which is why I don’t take part and we’ll be leaving before it begins. Now, why don’t we
pay our respects to your friend?”
“Carlotta,” she tried not to shiver as she heard his voice. She turned to see that he was looking at
the two of them carefully.
“Edward,” her vampire nodded politely.
“Your brother requests your presence. It seems there is something of importance to discuss.”
“Let me make Bella comfortable ”
“She can go upstairs into one of the bedrooms with Sandy,” Edward broke in. “I was told to tell you
that your presence was requested immediately.”
“Immediately,” she noticed Edward’s tone shift slightly, as if he could relay the importance of this
command with his voice alone.
“I see,” Carlotta seemed confused. Turning, she fixed Bella with a compassionate stare. “Bella, go
with Sandy upstairs. Please don’t talk to anyone else or leave the room unless Edward or I come to
retrieve you. Do you understand?”
“But ”
“Bella.”
“I understand, Carlotta,” she lowered her head in obedience.
“Thank you,” Carlotta whispered in her ear as she leaned down to kiss her gently on the cheek. “I
won’t be long and then we’ll leave.”
“Of course,” she nodded and then watched as her lover stepped away, following the man she once
thought of as her soul mate across the ballroom. Turning her head, she looked over at the blonde
blood doll studying her and felt her stomach clench. She was alone with the one person in the
universe whose very presence offended her. She was ordered to stay with Edward’s wife.
Chapter 18.
Well,” Sandy looked at the girl glaring daggers at her and tried her best to smile. “That was easier
to orchestrate than I thought. Come along, it’s better if we don’t have this discussion down here
where all the neighbors can see.”
“Excuse me?” The girl looked baffled.
“I don’t know about you,” she reached out for Bella’s arm and she flinched. Sandy grabbed it more
firmly and began to lead her through the ballroom and toward the stairs. “But I can’t stand
showing dirty underwear in public so we’ll go upstairs now to air it out.”
“But Angela,” Bella stuttered.
“Has already retired for the evening,” Sandy motioned around. “Whatever they need Carlotta and
Edward for they need Gus for as well.”
“Then I’ll go with Angela,” Bella looked about wildly and Sandy could sense she was trying to
escape.
“Not likely,” Sandy continued tugging her toward the steps and once they reached them, led the
girl up behind her. “She’s being prepared for her first feasting and unless you’ve been bound, you
can’t attend.”
“First feasting?”
“It’s sort of like a wedding night. You know how they get the bride all ready for her wedding night?
Same idea except, well, while they might fuck, he’s got to feed off of her to consummate the
relationship.”
“But Gus has been feeding from Angela since she arrived.”
“I know that,” Sandy rolled her eyes. “It’s just some dumb archaic ritual.”
“Shouldn’t you be taking part though?” Bella looked at her hopefully. “I mean you’re bound to
Edward, shouldn’t you attend?”
“Nice try little one,” Sandy shook her head as she pulled Bella down the hallway. “I was ordered to
watch you and so that’s what I’m doing.” ‘Nice try on slipping me though,’ she thought to herself.
“I don’t need to be watched,” Bella insisted.
“Sorry,” Sandy shrugged. “My orders are to watch you and I can’t say I’m complaining I’ve
wanted to talk to you since you arrived.”
“Talk to me?” Bella huffed as Sandy reached for the door handle of what was once her bedroom.
“Why? I don’t want to talk to you.”
“I’m sure you don’t,” Sandy laughed. “But you should.”
“Why?”
“Because, Bella, my dearest,” Sandy answered as she pulled her inside and locked the door. “I
intend to right the fuck up that is your life.”
“There’s nothing wrong with my life,” Bella insisted.
“Your life is the definition of fucked up,” Sandy countered and then reached into her handbag for
the present she’d brought, hoping for the chance to give it to Bella. Once she had it in her hands,
she tossed it to the angry young blood doll.
“What’s this?”
“A gift,” Sandy retorted. “And the first step in my plan.”
She watched as Bella unwrapped the package and then immediately dropped it on the floor. “Holy
Crow! It’s a hand!”
“Monkey’s paw,” a manic voice cackled at them from one corner of the room and they both spun
around to stare. Lauren Mallory stared back at them vacantly, clothes dirty and hair tangled, her
bony finger pointing at the shriveled brown paw lying on the floor. “She gave you a monkey’s paw.
Keep away the sorcerer; keep the evil pixies at bay.”
“Hiding from the nesting are you?” Sandy snapped before she grabbed the addled girl and dragged
her from the room, pushing her out the door and slamming it behind her. “You’ll not hide in here
and get us into your mess.”
“What?”
“You haven’t seen her since you went to Carlotta’s have you?”
“No,” Bella shook her head. “What happened to her?”
“Broke under the strain,” Sandy shrugged. “Some dolls do. They can’t take the lifestyle and they
just snap. Her mind is gone.”
“What’ll happen to her?”
“She seems docile enough,” Sandy shrugged. “Grayson normally keeps the docile ones as long as
he has a use for them. He’ll keep her in one of the cages to work, use her for nest feedings,
anything he can, really, until he no longer has a use for her.”
“And then?”
“Then, well, if he can find her a place, he’ll ship her on. If not, he’ll dispose of her.”
“Dispose? You mean kill her?”
“He can’t send her out on her own,” Sandy shook her head. “But that’s nothing we have any
control over so it’s best not to dwell. Pick up the paw and then get all your feelings out.”
“Excuse me?”
“Look, you hate me and I understand why, Bella Swan,” Sandy kicked her shoes off and then
flopped down on her old bed. “So get it all out. You’ll feel better.”
She watched the other girl pick up the monkey’s paw between her thumb and forefinger and drop it
into her handbag before sitting down in the rocking chair. “What am I supposed to do with it?”
“Keep it on you,” Sandy shrugged. “Lauren was right. It will protect you from other supernatural
beings.”
“You’re joking?”
“No.”
“A monkey’s paw?”
“It’s actually a changeling’s paw. This changeling just happened to shift into a monkey when it lost
it’s hands. Not very bright of it.”
“And it will keep me safe from supernatural beings? You’re joking.”
“Bella Swan,” Sandy sat up and looked at the other girl sternly. “Three years ago if I’d have told
you that vampires existed and that you’d become a wraith, what would you have said?”
“I’d have said you were crazy.”
“There,” Sandy flopped back on the bed. “Follow the crazy lady’s advice and shove the damn hand
in your purse.”
“Why?”
“I just told you ” Sandy shook her head in frustration, “it will protect ”
“No,” Bella cut her off. “I want to know why you’re with Edward. And how. How did you two end up
together?”
“Oh,” Sandy looked at the ceiling. “That’s complicated but I’m glad you asked.”
“You are?”
“It makes it easier to explain if you’re asking the questions instead of me forcing you to listen. So I
guess I should start at the beginning huh?”
“That might help,” Bella answered her softly.
“First, I have to tell you that I had no idea that you existed when I met Edward,” Sandy told her.
“Once we’d become close friends and he moved me from the dollhouse, Edward told me about you.
Before that, all I knew was that he was wandering, shunning his coven for some reason.”
“Shunning his coven?”
“He hasn’t seen his family since Forks,” Sandy answered. “He’s spoken to them, but no visits, even
though they’re close enough he could be there within two hours if he ran. Before he came to
Chicago he had gone nomad, living on his own, sharing the hospitality of other covens, until he
heard that William was interested in his services. He told me that at first the only reason he was
even interested in the position was because he thought it would keep his mind so busy he would
quit thinking about you.”
“Did it work?”
“No,” Sandy kept her gaze trained on the ceiling. “The only times he wasn’t thinking about you was
when we were high and sometimes even then you were with him.”
“Edward was high?”
“Frequently. If I were human he’d have OD’ed me more than once chasing his highs.”
“And now?”
“I think he needs it but he won’t admit that he does. You have to understand, Bella, I always
expected my stay with Edward to be temporary. He was caving and at some point he was coming
back to Forks to reconcile with you. I knew that, I was fine with it.”
“You were fine with it?”
“At the time, Edward and I were purely platonic friends.”
“Platonic?”
“Yeah, like no fucking?”
“I know what platonic means,” she heard the girl snap. “I just can’t imagine you’re the type to be
platonic.”
“You know nothing about me, Bella Swan,” she warned in a low voice. “I want to help you, but
insult me again and I can reconsider.”
“Help me? How?”
“We’ll get to that,” Sandy replied. “Back to the story. Edward and I were roommates with feeding
priviledges until the day he saw you in the back of that truck. Until then, it was always temporary
even if he wouldn’t say it aloud both of us knew that.”
“What happened then?”
“He claims he can’t smell you anymore,” Sandy answered. “Which makes sense. Vampires can’t
smell us on our own so you’re blood no longer sings to him.”
“So it was the blood all along?” Bella sniffed and Sandy could hear the hurt in her voice.
“I don’t think so,” Sandy tried to sound sympathetic. “I think it was the shock of seeing you.
Edward thought he left to protect you and then that day he realized that all he did was put you in
more danger. I don’t think he no longer wants you; I think he’s stunned by the turn of events. He
doesn’t know how to handle it. So, in typical Edward fashion, he overreacted.”
“Overreacted?”
“Ran,” Sandy answered, “fought off any suggestion that he come back here and talk to you. He
pushed every mention of you out of the conversation and did everything in his power to push you
from his life. That lead to some hasty actions on our part and well, you know Edward, he’s old
fashioned.”
“Wait, you mean he married you because you slept with him?”
“I think that’s part of it,” Sandy answered. “He immediately started the ‘mates’ talking the next
day. I think what really did it was when William casked Fiona for concealing Giles’ plan from him.”
“I heard about that,” Bella murmured.
“Yeah, well Edward was the one they used to probe her mind and convict her. He watched them
cask her and he could hear her crying out for the next three days while he worked. Needless to
say, he became even more insistent afterwards claimed he needed to protect me.”
“And what about you?”
“What about me?”
“Why did you marry Edward?”
“Because it was what he wanted and he wouldn’t listen to me about what was best for him. Look,
you don’t understand. I love Edward; I really do. Not in a husband and wife sort of way, but I love
him more than anyone else currently alive and would willingly follow after him down Michigan
Avenue crawling on my hands and knees like a dog on a leash if he asked. You want to know why?”
“Why?”
“Because I didn’t get given away as a gift to the kindest mistress the woman I couldn’t stand could
find. I wasn’t like you, Bella Swan. There was no Carlotta for me. I was taken in a territory dispute
and I was put in the cages and made to work my way out. I was in that doll house before your
parents were even born. Did you know that? Before your parents had drawn their first breath, I
had breathed my last free one. I worked my way out of the cages and I ingratiated myself to
Grayson to survive. I became his pet of choice because it meant I no longer had to be auctioned
off.”
“You mean you belonged to Grayson?”
“Not formally,” Sandy sighed. “Thank God for that, but yes, no one fed from me but Grayson and
those he gave me to for an occasional feed. Three times a week I went into that office and let him
bend me over that desk to have his way before he fed from me. Do you know why?”
“No, why?”
“Because it was better than the alternatives,” Sandy blinked rapidly. “Then Edward arrived and
there was a way out. I knew it was temporary but I was hoping that once he decided to return
home he’d take me with him. I was so sure that Doctor Cullen would come up with some novel
treatment to get me venom without being fed on. That’s his mission isn’t it? To turn all the
vampires vegetarian? Then you show up as a blood doll and it just all goes to shit, Bella Swan.”
“Well it wasn’t exactly my choice,” she snapped.
“Oh do shut up,” Sandy rolled her eyes. “I told you when we came in here I had a way to set it
right and I do, so quit acting like this is some sort of Jane Austen novel and you’re the tragic
heroine. Trust me; the tragedy in this tale isn’t yours to bear.”
“Because it’s so rough for you to live with Edward doting on you,” Bella argued.
“Do you love him?”
“No!”
“At least try to sound convincing if you’re going to lie about the obvious. Do you love him?”
“Yes.”
“Once this is over he’s going to blame you,” Sandy warned her. “But I really do believe you’re
mates and it hurts him to not be with you even if he’s lying to everyone, including himself, about
it.”
“But the Volturi. I didn’t think ”
“Don’t think,” Sandy interrupted. “You don’t know enough about the situation to do it well. Leave
the thinking to those of us who’ve been around a while. All you do is keep that damn hand on you
at all times and wait for me to call.”
“And what? I’m just supposed to trust that you’re not going to cask me or something?”
“Please,” Sandy rolled her eyes and looked over at Bella. “If I wanted you gone I wouldn’t cask you
in secret. I’d destroy you in public so everyone could watch. It’s not like everyone’s not expecting it
anyway. So trust me, keep the hand, wait for me to call, and between now and then, keep your
whiny mouth shut. Are we clear?”
“I ” Bella was interrupted by a knock on the door and it suddenly opened.
“Sandy?” Edward nodded to both of them. “They’re preparing for the nesting. I assumed you would
”
“I am rather tired,” she agreed quickly and stood up from the bed. Turning, she nodded to Bella.
“It was a pleasure to see you, Bella.”
“Likewise,” the girl could barely conceal her dislike.
“Remember that advice I gave you,” Sandy said as she followed Edward from the room and then
smiled at Carlotta in the hallway. “Good night, Carlotta. It was a pleasure to see you again.”
She heard Bella huff inside the room and bit her cheek. The girl could barely keep her emotions in
check and Sandy was worried that perhaps she had told her too much. All it would take was one
rash comment from Bella Swan and all her plans would crumble into dust.
Chapter 19.
“What are you thinking about?” She asked Edward as they drove silently through the streets of
Chicago toward their loft. He tapped his fingers against the steering wheel again and glanced over
at her.
“Is it that obvious?”
“That something’s bothering you? Yeah, it is. What’s up?”
“How was Bella tonight?”
“She was good,” Sandy nodded and tried to keep the sting of his interest in the girl from bothering
her. She knew that they were mates, was actively working to get them reunited, why did it hurt
her so much that he was concerned for the girl? Didn’t she secretly want him to be?
No, Sandy decided. Secretly she wanted Bella Swan to go far away, die even, so that she had a
chance to build a life with an unencumbered Edward Cullen. I could fall in love with him, she
thought to herself. It would be so easy to fall in love with him if he were free.
“She wasn’t hateful to you was she?”
“What?” Sandy bit her lip. He was worried about how Bella had behaved toward her? “She was
perfectly fine. Lauren Mallory scared her but other than that she seems to be adjusting well.”
“She’s happy with Carlotta then?”
“From what she says,” Sandy nodded.
“Did you know they’re lovers?”
“I had suspected as much,” Sandy answered and glanced at him sideways. “She didn’t mention it
though. Why? Did Carlotta mention it?”
“No,” Edward tapped his fingers against the steering wheel again. “She may have been a little
more visual in her description.”
“Naughty mental pictures?”
“Graphic,” Edward corrected. “I was sort of surprised, I guess.”
“Really? I thought you knew Carlotta was a lesbian.”
“I did,” Edward nodded. “I knew Carlotta was a lesbian I just didn’t realize Bella was. I guess now
I’m glad things turned out like they did. How miserable would she have been as a lesbian in a
normal marriage?”
“Edward,” Sandy giggled. “I don’t think Bella’s exactly a lesbian.”
“You don’t?”
“No,” Sandy shook her head and her shoulders quivered with laughter. “When blood dolls are fed
upon it’s almost impossible not to get aroused by it. I mean seriously, you have to try not to get
turned on. If the vampire who’s feeding from you is good it’s almost impossible not to orgasm. A
blood doll with a gentle vampire will do just about anything sexually to be fed from and enjoy it.
And Carlotta’s good.”
“Really?” She could see Edward’s eyebrows nearly reach his hair line. “You’ve, um, ”
“Been with Carlotta? Yes, I have and she’s a very conscientious feeder.”
“So you, um ” If he were human she knew Edward would be blushing right now.
“Got off with her? Yes. I had a very lovely orgasm with Carlotta sometime in the early 80’s. When
did White Wedding come out?”
“1982.”
“Well then, I had a very lovely orgasm with Carlotta some time during 1982.”
“What about, um ”
“What about?”
“What about me?” Edward said hurriedly.
“What about you?”
“Do you, well you know?”
“Come my brains out? Yes. Every single time.”
“Really?” His voice perked up and she couldn’t help but smile at how pleased he seemed with
himself.
“Yes, really. It’s actually sort of unfair to you. I have massive, toe curling orgasms with you and
you get no sexual release at all.”
“Well,” he shrugged. “I get to feed.”
“That’s true,” she leaned against his shoulder. “So, is that what’s bothering you? That Bella’s
getting off with another woman?”
“What? No, no, I’m glad she’s with Carlotta. I want her to be with someone that makes her as
happy as I am with you.”
“Uh huh,” Sandy tried to keep her tone neutral.
“It just surprised me.”
“So if that’s not what’s on your mind,” she pressed.
“What do you think about taking in a child?” She could tell he was trying to keep his voice light.
“Um, WHAT?”
“A child,” Edward repeated. “Small, human, this one is in diapers.”
“A human child?”
“Yes, a human child. William mentioned that you might need to have something to nurture. That it
might make you less restless if you had something to care for.”
“So you immediately thought human child? You know, Edward most men would have started off
suggesting a cat, a dog, maybe a nice goldfish. Not a human child.”
“I know,” he nodded, “and trust me that was my first idea. You like animals I was thinking a cat,
something that could actually take care of itself if given the chance.”
“So, how did you go from cat to kid?”
“William suggested it.”
“Wait,” Sandy turned to stare at him. “You said this one is in diapers. This one. That means you
already have a child picked out?”
“No,” he shook his head. “It wasn’t like that, this one sort of fell into our laps and it needs
somewhere to go.”
“Fell into your laps?”
“That was what William wanted to meet about,” Edward continued hurriedly. “One of the newborns
killed a doe.”
A doe, Sandy recoiled from the thought. There were rules in their society, things that were
forbidden to prevent them from gaining attention. The top of the list was changing a child into a
vampire and the second was killing a known doe, a woman with a small child that needed her to
care for it. “They ”
“The child is staying with Priscilla and Jesse on their farm. She told William that things were okay
so far but she’s concerned Jesse will lose his resolve and attack the child before the week is out.”
“So why haven’t they dumped it somewhere? A hospital or something?”
“I don’t know,” Edward shook his head. “William said they wanted it to go away without police
interference. The woman wasn’t really on the grid from what he could tell. Low wage job, no family
nearby, transitory housing. The idea is that if they both just disappear then people will think
they’ve moved on and not question it. If they dump the child then the police will investigate and
possibly find the body.”
“No one’s going to notice they’re gone?” She couldn’t believe that someone’s life could be so
casually destroyed and then covered up.
“The child needs a home,” Edward repeated. “William thought we might be the best candidates
because I can control my thirst and you have a nurturing side.”
“I don’t,” Sandy stuttered and tried to calm her racing thoughts. He wanted a child? A human child.
“I don’t know if I could ”
“Think of it as a changeling,” Edward suggested. “As soon as it reaches adulthood I’ll change it.”
“Change it?” She repeated.
“I wouldn’t expect you to raise it and then watch it die,” Edward replied. “I would change it as soon
as it’s mature enough to handle it.”
“We don’t have the room,” she tried to rationalize what he was saying. No, they couldn’t take in a
child. He didn’t belong to her, he belonged to Bella Swan and she had a plan, a well orchestrated
plan in regards to them, a child would only destroy that plan before it even began.
“We’ll meet with the child tomorrow evening and if you decide this is something you want then
we’ll find a new place the day after. If need be we can be a little cramped until we find
somewhere.”
“But ”
“Sandy,” he looked at her pleadingly. “We’re married. This is what married people do, they start
families.”
“We’re not a normal married couple!”
“William didn’t ask Sandy,” he replied quietly. “He very calmly made his case and told me that we
were meeting with the child tomorrow afternoon. Unless there is some reason that the child cannot
possibly go home with us then we’re becoming parents.”
“But ”
“It has to go somewhere,” Edward insisted. “And currently we’re the best option.”
“Look ”
“Sandy ” they both blurted out at the same time.
“You first,” she motioned toward him.
“No,” Edward shook his head. “You.”
“Look, I’m just taken back a bit,” Sandy lied. “Children were never something I considered a
possibility.”
“You think I did?”
“No,” she shook her head. “You just have to give me a moment to wrap my head around the idea
that William has suddenly decided that we’re becoming parents. To a human none the less. I’m on
board with it Edward but you have to give me some time to adjust to the idea after you spring it on
me out of nowhere.”
“I know,” he reached up to pinch the bridge of his nose. “I know I could have found a better way to
tell you, and I’m just as nervous about the idea of this as you are, but I really think this could be
good for us.”
“To prevent William from lighting one of us on fire?”
“No, and not for any political motivations either. I really do think that this could bring us closer
together.”
“I hope so,” Sandy sighed as she reached over to pat his hand. “Because in all honesty I have no
idea what we’re getting into here.”
“I love you,” Edward murmured softly as he laced her fingers through hers.
“I love you too,” she mumbled. “What time are we supposed to meet with the child?”
“Three o’clock at William’s.”
Three o’clock, Sandy thought to herself. It was barely 1 am now. That meant a plan she had
expected to take weeks to execute now had to be completed in less than 12 hours if she were to
succeed.
Chapter 20.
He tried to ignore the buzzing of his phone as he pulled on his jacket and ran his fingers through
his hair. He had agreed to only sit in on a few meetings for Grayson today before taking Sandy to
meet the child at the other man’s mansion. All of them had run long and they were now running
late. He wasn’t concerned about William complaining, the other man was running as late as he
was, but he worried about the child being left alone with Grayson’s staff they weren’t all the
most restrained of vampires, the reason he kept them at his home and not inside his clubs.
The phone began to buzz again once he reached the parking garage and he jerked it from his
jean’s pocket, snapping it open quickly. “What? What is it that’s so important Alice?”
“She’s gone,” his sister answered quickly.
“Who’s gone?”
“Sandy, Edward. She’s gone.”
“What do you mean she’s gone? Gone where?”
“I don’t know,” Alice wailed. “I saw her moving around your apartment, music playing, and then
the next thing I see is her in a car with Bella.”
“And?”
“Then this vision of you in some sort of room, facing Bella in front of a group of men with the entire
family there ”
“Is Sandy in that vision?” Edward hurriedly slid into his car and turned the ignition on.
“No,” Alice cried. “She’s just gone. After the vision of you fades out, I can’t see either of them
anymore.”
“Either of them?”
“I see Sandy in a car with Bella and then they both just disappear.”
“Try looking for them again,” Edward replied as he peeled out of the parking garage and onto the
downtown street, racing for home.
“It’s just blurry,” Alice replied. “You need to get home now. Whatever she’s doing Edward, it’s not
good.”
“Has this ever happened before? Have you ever just lost someone from a vision before?”
“No! People don’t just disappear Edward! The only way they disappear is ”
“No! No! That’s not what happened,” Edward snapped. “Don’t say it because that’s not what
happened.”
“Then find them, Edward,” Alice shrieked. “I can’t see them. You have got to get home and find
them.”
“I’m outside the building, Alice,” Edward replied as he hurried out of his car and toward the stair
well. “Her car is in it’s parking spot so she didn’t leave in it.”
“It was Bella’s car,” Alice answered breathlessly.
“Bella’s? Sandy wouldn’t get in Bella’s car; they can barely tolerate being in the same room with
each other. Last night the tension was so thick between them you could have cut it with a knife.”
“I know what I saw,” Alice argued. “Sandy was in a car with Bella and Bella was driving it. It was
Bella’s car.”
“Fine, I’m at the front door ” Edward threw open the door and instantly knew something was
wrong. “Shit,” he muttered. “Alice?”
“What?”
“How quickly can you get to Chicago?”
“Why?”
“Because something is very, very wrong,” Edward answered as he stood in the doorway and stared
at his pristine apartment. Glancing around, he tried to look for clues as to what could have
happened. He didn’t know what was bothering him but all the hairs on the back of his neck had
raised and he was instantly nervous. Something had happened here, and while he didn’t know
what it was, all his instincts told him that it was bad.
“Sandy?” He couldn’t smell her scent at all normally, but usually he could hear her breathing from
outside the door. Now there was nothing though and he wasn’t surprised when she didn’t respond.
He sniffed experimentally and didn’t know whether to be relieved or disappointed that he didn’t
smell anything. For whatever reason she’d left, Sandy hadn’t been bleeding when she stepped out
of the apartment. That was a good sign it meant she wasn’t hurt.
Why had she disappeared? Edward wondered. Scanning the bookshelves, he could see that all of
her books and CD’s were in their place, and her lighter and pipe were on the side table. Stepping
into the kitchen, he noticed that there was food on the counter she must have been preparing
her lunch when whatever happened occurred. Scanning the apartment, he realized that everything
was still in its place. Her clothes were still in the closet, her purse hung across the back of her chair
by it’s strap, food in the kitchen, toothbrush in the bathroom, car keys on their hook. Even her
shoes were still by the door. It was as if she had simply disappeared into thin air.
“Sandy?” He called out again helplessly, trying to get some sense of where she could have gone
and why she would be with Bella. The white square on his pillow caught his attention and he
grasped it hastily, tearing it open in his search for answers.
‘You belong to Bella. It’s not fair of me to keep you from her. I love you with all of my heart and I
want you to be happy. Sandy.’
He felt his stomach tighten as the blood inside of it fought to spill out. He belonged to Bella? She
was gone because Bella Swan had some prior claim? He read the note again. The wording seemed
too stiff for his Sandy, the handwriting too stilted and formal. Could she have been forced to write
it?
No, Bella Swan wouldn’t be capable of forcing Sandy into anything physically even if she did have
the vicious streak that would make her hurt someone else out of revenge, which she didn’t. Edward
knew that Bella wouldn’t have kidnapped her alone not over him. Could it have been over the
child? Bella had never mentioned wanting children to him; had she wanted them and simply not
wanted to hurt his feelings? Was that why she had taken Sandy?
Could it have been Carlotta? He couldn’t think of any reason that Carlotta would want to take
Sandy away from him. Was it to free herself of Bella? Was she looking for the easiest way to let the
blood doll down gently? That didn’t make sense to Edward. They had seemed so happy together
just the night before.
Grayson? No, William was with him all day. Edward knew that wouldn’t keep the other man from
sending his minions, but why try to force them into adopting a human child to then take the blood
doll that would care for it less than a day later? It didn’t make sense.
The Volturi? Why would they want a blood doll? Could they be hoping to ransom her in return for
his membership in their Guard? But why involve Bella Swan? Why not be upfront and claim
responsibility for her disappearance? Aro wouldn’t hesitate to make it known that he’d taken
Sandy, so why hide behind Bella? It didn’t make sense.
A territory dispute? Another coven hoping to make a move into Grayson’s territory? Why not attack
someone closer to Grayson? Another vampire? Unless, Edward stared at the note again, unless
they assumed that Sandy was still Grayson’s favorite doll and had taken her to get to him. Why
involve Bella though? Could Carlotta be part of the plot? Even worse, could they have taken Bella
as part of the ransom as well?
Mechanically, Edward flipped his phone back open and hit Carlotta’s number on his speed dial.
“Carlotta?”
“Yes?”
“Carlotta,” he took a deep breath he didn’t actually need. “This is Edward Cullen. Do you know if
Sandy is with Bella?”
“Sandy with Bella? Um, no, Edward I don’t think they’re going to be going out for coffee anytime
soon. Why do you ask?”
“Do you happen to know where Bella is?”
“She should be at home, Edward. Would you like me to call her?”
“Could you?”
“Can you tell me why first?”
“My sister Alice is a psychic ”
“Yes?”
“Well, she had a vision of Sandy and Bella in a car together and then they vanished.”
“Vanished?”
“Both of them. When I got home,” Edward pinched the bridge of his nose. “Sandy’s gone and
there’s a note here about how I belong with Bella.”
“Hold on,” Carlotta snapped and he heard the click of her setting her cell phone on her desk as she
picked up a desk phone. He could hear the ring of the second phone through her speaker and
strained to hear even better, hoping that Bella would pick up.
“Shit,” Carlotta muttered.
“Does she have a cell phone?”
“That was her cell phone,” Carlotta replied. “She doesn’t have her voice mail set up so I can’t leave
her a message.”
“Do you think she’d answer a message if she’s not answering her phone?” Edward growled.
“I don’t know,” Carlotta hissed. “I have no idea what’s going on! We need to call William.”
“Something’s happened to them,” Edward replied as he heard her once again set her cell phone
down on the desk and pick up the office handset.
“We don’t know that,” Carlotta replied as they listened to the phone connect and then ring.
“William Grayson, please? This is his sister, Carlotta.”
Edward paced his bedroom, nervously waiting for the third vampire to come on the line. Could he
have requested that the two blood dolls come in for some reason to meet with him and simply
forgotten to tell Edward and Carlotta? Did he purposely not tell them?
“Hello?”
“William? This is Carlotta. I have Edward Cullen on the other line.”
“Oh really? And can I ask why we’re suddenly having a conference call? Was there a meeting I
forgot about?”
“The girls are missing,” Edward announced and knew the other vampires could hear him clearly.
“Pardon?”
“It seems Sandy and Isabella are missing, William,” Carlotta answered. “Edward’s sister had a
vision of the two of them together and then they suddenly disappeared. When Edward got home,
he found a note from Sandy telling him she was leaving and I can’t reach Isabella on her phone.”
“They’ve run away? That doesn’t sound like Sandy. Edward, have you done something to upset
her?”
“No!”
“These are not two blood dolls who would run off together, William,” Carlotta retorted. “There’s a
lot of hostility there between them.”
“Hostility?”
“Bella was Edward’s singer in her mortal life.”
“I see,” Grayson whistled through his teeth. “And Sandy is your blood doll. That would be
awkward. We’ll send out a search party immediately to track them. Edward, Carlotta, I need both
of you to meet me at the Dollhouse as soon as possible. I’ll send out orders for every vampire
within a hundred miles to meet us and begin searching. I’ll have a bulletin out to the other covens
they won’t be able to hide with anyone who submits to Volturi law.”
“William,” Carlotta broke in. “Speaking of the Volturi ”
“They’re still here, Sister, but confined to my home with an agreement not to make mischief
among my coven. Their guard is lodged here as well. What use have they for blood dolls? Surely
not enough to risk an uprising.”
“Of course,” Carlotta murmured. “I’ll be at your office in a few.”
“Edward?”
“Five minutes,” he replied.
“Bring the letter with you. It will help us get a feel for what we’re dealing with. Perhaps Matteus
can get a feel for her emotions when writing it.”
Four hours later, Edward was slumped back in Grayson’s sofa trying to wrap his head around the
complete lack of information they currently had. They hadn’t been able to trace Bella or Sandy very
far from the apartment before the scent abruptly died in the stench of shape shifter urine. There
had been no calls, no demands for ransom, simply nothing. Alice sat beside him and began to rub
his arm soothingly.
“Do you see anything?” He asked her hoarsely.
“No,” she shook her head.
“Edward?” Grayson stepped into his office and glanced sharply at him. “We’d like to speak with you
now.”
Speak with him, Edward thought to himself. More like put him to the Volturi Guard for their own
brand of questioning. Once Grayson was sure that Sandy was definitely gone, he had called in the
Volturi to begin questioning the dollhouse occupants, Carlotta, and Edward. He had placed a call to
every supernatural being in the Chicago area, demanding their presence to prove they hadn’t taken
the doll.
Edward stood and followed Grayson into a conference room where Aro, Marcus, and Caius sat
along with several members of the guard. “Aro,” he stuck his hand out formally, knowing that they
would use the other vampire’s gifts to see the truth.
“Edward,” Aro nodded and took his hand. Closing his eyes, he focused and then looked at William.
“He had no part in this.”
“You feel strongly for the blood dolls that are missing,” Marcus announced. “One of them is your
mate, you feel quite strongly for her.”
“Yes,” Edward nodded.
“Edward,” Grayson ran his hands through his hair absently and then slumped into the chair at the
head of the table. “Do you have any idea who could have done this? Why they would do this?”
“I don’t know,” Edward pulled his hand from Aro’s and then buried his face in it. “I thought she was
happy. She was nervous about meeting the child today but I never thought she’d run.”
“We don’t think that she did,” Grayson answered. “Matteus said that the emotions coming from the
note were very powerful.”
“Sandy wrote it?”
“Yes, and from what Matteus could sense, she was very upset as she did so. We were concerned
because of the strong presence of your venom on the paper.”
“My venom?”
“It is tears,” Demetri broke in. “I’ve found it before when I’ve tracked blood dolls. Their tears are
venom, so you can track them by following the scent of the most recent vampire to feed from
them.” The vampire reached for the note and sniffed it. “She was crying as she wrote it,” he
repeated and then pointed to a spot near her signature. “Here, she kissed it. I can tell by the
concentration of the venom.”
“So she didn’t write the note willingly,” Edward looked at Demetri hopefully. That meant she hadn’t
left him on her own accord. “You can track whoever has taken her. You’ve been in Sandy’s
presence; you know the tenor of her mind.”
“She’s gone,” Demetri growled. “I have tried to track her from here, I have gone out with the
search parties who have lost her scent and hoped to track her from there. There is nothing,
Edward. It’s as if she’s simply disappeared.”
“And Bella?”
“Her as well. I have never tried to track her mind but I cannot find her either. I have looked.”
“They couldn’t have simply disappeared!”
“Mr. Grayson,” an underling called out as he opened the door. “One of the blood dolls may have
some news.”
“Bring her in!”
Edward watched as a giggling Lauren Mallory was pulled into the room, straightening her ragged
clothing around her body. “Hello,” she batted her eyelashes at Alec and then immediately froze,
her eyes going wide.
“Alec let her go,” Aro ordered in a bored voice. “And Jane, quit torturing her. It isn’t nice to play
tricks on the ill.”
“Slut,” Jane hissed at the blood doll as she released her with her eyes. Lauren sank onto the floor,
crawling over to wrap her arms around Edward’s legs, cowering submissively.
“Lauren,” he tried to keep his voice gentle as he reached down and pulled her to sit in the chair
next to his. “They said you might know something about what happened to my wife? What
happened, Lauren?”
“Didn’t want to see the movie they picked out anyway,” Lauren mumbled. “There was a really great
Julia Roberts movie playing and instead we went to a horror film. Tyler failed his history test and
couldn’t go. Poor, lucky Tyler. ‘Mate for a mate’, the redhead told Bella when they took us. Sucked
Mike dry and watched poor little Jessica cry. Didn’t love her anyway, thought she was annoying
with how she popped her gum, but she cried when the red head drank his blood. Sobbed like a
baby when they dumped the corpses in the wood.”
“Victoria?” Edward asked her urgently. “The red head, was her name Victoria? Did she take Bella
and Sandy today?”
“We’d have smelled another vampire, Edward.” Caius insisted.
“She’s good, Caius,” Edward repeated. “She could have reasoned out a way to mask her scent. If
Demetri has never met her he couldn’t track her.”
“What about the apartment? She used shape shifter urine outside to block their scent trails but
you’d still smell her in the apartment.”
“I don’t know,” Edward pinched the bridge of his nose. “Victoria is clever. She could have found a
way to hide her smell. A pelt perhaps? The same shape shifter who’s urine she used?”
“Monkey’s paw,” Lauren cackled. “Hiding with a monkey’s paw. Silence the sorcerer, blind the evil
pixie one. Cut the sight and stifle the smell. Monkey’s paw, monkey’s paw, she’s hidden with a
monkey’s paw. Poor little monkey lost his hands so they could hide.”
“A monkey’s paw?” Edward grasped Lauren’s shoulders. “Do you mean Victoria has a monkey’s
paw and is using it to hide Sandy and Bella?”
“A shape shifter’s paw would block all of our powers,” Felix announced. “And your psychic wouldn’t
be able to see them if they were carrying it. Is she having headaches?”
“Yes,” Edward nodded.
“Why didn’t I think of this,” Grayson muttered. “Alice mentioned her headaches; I should have
known there was a shifter involved. We’ll bring them in, see who could have taken her.”
“Wait,” Aro broke in. “She said they had the paw of a shape shifter not the entire shape shifter.
How many of those animals do you think would readily give up a hand just to hide? Let me touch
the girl.” Edward placed Lauren’s hand in Aro’s and watched as the other man concentrated. “Her
mind is broken,” he sighed.
“You can’t read it?”
“No,” Aro’s shoulders slumped. “It’s nothing but disjointed fragments. Very much like trying to see
what a room looks like by looking through shards of glass. It’s all there but none of it makes
sense.”
“What about the Hoodooeines?” Grayson suggested. “They would know who had a shape shifter’s
paw and perhaps how to trace it? They could provide us with a liaison between us and the shifters.”
“It is possible,” Aro nodded, “and may be the best course. We can keep our guard and your
vampires looking and bring in the Hoodooeines for guidance. If I remember correctly, Papa
Legbago is fond of Edward’s Sandy isn’t he?”
“Yes,” Edward nodded. “He supplies her with Nandira root and Venom Tea whenever she requests
it.”
“Close indeed,” Marcus interrupted.
“We’ll call and ask for his help,” William nodded.
“Sir,” a young vampire named Dante raced into the room and looked around, terrified. “I don’t
want to interrupt but ”
“Monkey’s paw,” Lauren sang disjointedly. “Oh the little monkey’s paws are gone. Poor , poor
monkey doesn’t have any paws.”
“Matteus, take her back to the cages now that we’re done with her. I can’t stand to listen to her
ramblings right now.” Turning, he looked at the vampire standing in the doorway. “What is it
Dante?”
“Bella Swan has returned home,” he announced as the room fell silent and all the vampires stared
at him in shock.
“Monkey’s paw, monkey’s paw,” Lauren laughed hysterically. “Bella Swan was hiding with a
monkey’s paw. Bad, bad, Bella to take the monkey’s paw away.”
Edward turned to stare at the mentally shattered girl next to him. “What?”
Lauren simply cackled before laying her head on his shoulder and beginning to croon nonsense to
herself.
Chapter 21.
“Will you quit pulling me?” Bella snapped at the tiny woman dragging her down the hallway. The
other blood doll just snorted and continued to tug her down the hallway forcefully before stopping
at the last door and opening it, shoving Bella through.
Bella stumbled and then looked up. Carlotta was there, along with Mr. Grayson, Edward, and the
Cullens. “Alice!” She couldn’t help the smile that broke out on her face. “Esme!” They weren’t
smiling at her and Bella was suddenly nervous. “Emmett? Carlisle? Rose? Jasper?”
“Bella,” Carlotta broke in and her tone was somber. Bella noticed that her vampire wouldn’t look
her in the eye. What was going on? “Could you sit down please?”
“Monkey’s paw,” she heard a sing song voice laugh under the table. “Bella’s got a monkey’s paw,
took the queen and now we’re going to put her in a box.” She glanced down and saw that Lauren
was hidden beneath the table, curled around Edward’s feet and playing with what looked like a rag
doll.
“Bad, bad, Bella. Put her in a box and make her bleed,” Lauren’s eyes shone with excitement.
“Make her bleed and let them eat. Teach her to be bad,” she shook her finger at the doll and
continued to jabber. “Bad, Bella to take a monkey’s hand.”
“Carlotta,” she could feel herself trembling at Lauren’s words. “Is something wrong?”
“Where were you today?”
‘Lie’, Bella reminded herself. Lie like Sandy told you to do. “I was at the bookstore.”
“Why didn’t you answer your cell phone?”
“I forgot it at home,” she replied quickly. That part was almost the truth. She’d left her cell phone
at home but it hadn’t been an accident.
“What’s in the bag?” Grayson broke in.
“Just my stuff,” Bella tried to be evasive.
“Empty it,” one of the other men said sternly and Bella took a deep breath as she upended her bag
and let the contents spill out onto the table. Everyone jerked back as the monkey’s paw fell out
last.
“Monkey’s paw,” Lauren giggled. “Bella’s got a monkey’s paw. Gonna put her in a cage.”
She watched as Edward took a pen and began to poke at it experimentally, Carlisle looking on in
fascination. “Why do you have this?” Grayson asked.
“It was supposed to protect me from harm,” Bella replied. “It was given to me as a gift and I was
told to keep it on me.”
“By who?” A tiny girl asked. “Who would give you such a revolting thing as a gift?”
“Edward’s wife,” she answered calmly.
“Bella,” Esme looked scandalized. “Do you know what this is?”
“A monkey’s paw, it prevents anyone’s gift from working on me.”
“It’s why I couldn’t see you,” Alice accused.
“If Bella and the monkey’s paw are here,” Edward broke in. “Alice, you can ”
“I’m already looking for her, Edward. There’s nothing there, my mind just slides over her. I know
she’s there, Edward, but it’s like there’s static on the tv screen I’m trying to watch her on.”
“Bella,” Carlisle looked at her sternly. “Why can’t Alice see Sandy?”
“Because she has the monkey’s other paw,” Bella answered tightly. Why were the Cullens so
worried about that girl? Wasn’t she everything they reviled about the rest of vampire society? They
were supposed to care about her so why were they suddenly treating her like a criminal?
“Where is she?” Edward lunged across the table at her angrily. “Where is Sandy, Bella?”
“Edward!” She saw Emmett reach out and grab Edward by the collar and fling him back into his
seat. Jasper grabbed his hands and Emmett kept hold of his collar while he glared at Bella.
“Bella?” She turned to see Rose kneeling next to her seat. “Bella, what happened?”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” Bella kept her eyes away from Rose’s golden ones.
“Sandy gave me the paw at Angela’s commitment ceremony to keep me safe from other
supernatural creatures. She told me to put it in my bag and it would keep me safe. I didn’t think it
was allowed but she showed me hers and told me that Edward had given it to her so it had to be
okay.”
“Edward?” Grayson looked at the restrained vampire.
“I have no idea what she’s talking about,” he answered through gritted teeth.
“That’s because she’s lying,” Jasper announced. “I can feel it coming off of her. Bella’s lying.”
“I am not,” she insisted.
“You are,” Jasper shook his head.
“Give me her hand,” one of the men insisted.
“Aro,” Carlisle broke in. “We don’t need to put Bella to the question. She’s normally a very good
girl. Surely this is all a misunderstanding.”
“Give him her hand,” William hissed and Bella watched as Rose put her hand in the cold vampire’s.
“Her mind is blank,” he announced, looking confused. “I cannot read her. Very interesting. Did you
know you were harboring a shield William?”
“No,” he shook his head. “It had never come up. Carlotta?”
“She doesn’t deflect my powers of persuasion,” Carlotta shook her head.
“It’s only internal powers,” Edward broke in. “I can’t read her mind because that’s internal. Alice
can see her future though and Jasper can manipulate her emotions along with everyone else in the
room’s because it’s external.”
“I see,” Aro hummed. “Remarkable. Remarkable indeed.”
“Bella,” Rose caught her attention again. “Bella you need to tell us what happened. I promise it will
be better for everyone if you just tell us. Where is Sandy?”
“I don’t know,” Bella shrugged.
“Bella,” Esme broke in, sounding stern.
“I don’t,” she insisted. “She called me this morning around 11 and asked if I could meet her at her
apartment. She told me it was important so I went.”
“And?” Edward looked at her anxiously.
“She asked me to take her to the airport. She said she was going to visit with your family for a few
days and that you were meeting her there once your meetings were done.”
“And you believed her?” One of the members of the Volturi asked. “Don’t play stupid. Everyone
knows that blood dolls aren’t allowed to travel alone.”
“Actually,” Grayson cleared his throat. “I’d allowed Sandy to take short trips by herself before. She
was an excellent negotiator and I often used her to deal with the southern covens.”
Bella watched as the Volturi rolled their eyes and began to converse quietly with each other. “That
makes it more difficult,” one of them grumbled.
“No matter,” the one who had taken her hand decreed. “We know where to start. Demetri, you and
Alec will go to the airport and attempt to trace her smell.”
“If she has the monkey’s paw,” Edward broke in.
“Let’s assume that the airport security won’t allow her to take a desiccated hand through security,”
the man replied. “She’ll have dumped it. Meanwhile, William, I’m sure one of your people can find
out what flight she’s on.”
“I’m working on it right now Sir,” a vampire who hadn’t spoken before suddenly announced. “Shit.”
“What?” Edward trained his eyes on the other vampire.
“Sandy isn’t on any flights under hers or any other assumed name.”
“Isabella Dwyer,” Carlotta said quietly and Bella felt her heart sink. “Check under Isabella or Bella
Dwyer.” Turning, she looked at Bella and her face was full of disappointment. “She used your
identification to get on the plane didn’t she? She’s traveling as Isabella Dwyer?”
“Yes,” Bella nodded. “She asked for my identification and I gave it to her.”
“Here it is,” the vampire at the computer announced. “Isabella Dwyer is on nine separate flights
leaving O’Hare airport; Bella Dwyer is on four flights; Isabella Swan is on three flights; and Bella
Swan is on another five.”
“What?” Edward looked at him and Bella could see his confusion.
“She’s bought tickets for 31 separate flights, all with connections. We have 74 possible cities in
which she could now be hiding.”
“Which flight did she check in for?” Carlisle cut in. “She would have been forced to check in for her
flight. Which flight did she check in for?”
“Um,” the vampire looked at all of them sheepishly. “It seems she checked in for all of them.
Scanned her boarding pass for them as well.”
“What?” Emmett snorted. “How could she have been on 31 different flights?”
“She wasn’t,” Jasper answered quietly. “She checked in for all of them and collected her boarding
pass.”
“But how did she get them scanned?” Emmett repeated.
“Simple,” Jasper answered. “She scanned the one for the flight she actually took and then bribed
the airline personnel to scan her other passes for her.”
“And they’d do that?” Emmett asked. “With the state of security in today’s airports?”
“You had someone else with you,” Esme looked at Bella. “Someone went with you didn’t they?”
“What does that have to do with anything?” Rosalie glanced at her and then at Esme.
“He had a badge didn’t he Bella?” Esme persisted. “He showed them a badge ”
“And the air marshals scanned her through thinking she was a government witness!” Jasper
slammed his hands down on the table. “They didn’t even look at the ID.”
“I don’t know,” Bella answered quietly. “I didn’t ask.”
“There was a man with her wasn’t there?” Esme persisted.
“Yes,” Bella nodded. “He met her at the airport.”
“Was it another vampire?” Grayson asked her sternly.
“No,” Bella shook her head. “He wasn’t a vampire.”
“What did he look like?” Grayson demanded.
“Large,” she answered slowly. “He was African American, shaved head.”
“What else?” Edward looked at her frantically. “What else do you know about him?”
“He sounded like Laurent when he spoke,” Bella added.
“He spoke? You heard him speak? What did he say?” Edward pleaded with her. “Bella, you have to
tell us what he said.”
“He didn’t say much,” Bella shook her head. “He called her name when she got out of the car and
then came over to help her out. He gave her a hug and called her ‘ma petite,’ that was it.”
“Bella?” Jasper looked at her intensely. “You said he sounded like Laurent. Why?”
“I don’t know, he just did. He had the same lilt in his voice that Laurent did.”
“Did it sound like Sandy’s?” Jasper pressed. “Like mine?”
“Not quite,” Bella shook her head again and tried to get him to look at her. “He sounded more like
her than you, Jasper, but it still wasn’t the same. He sounded like Laurent, that’s the best way to
describe it.”
“He’s Haitian,” Jasper said and the rest of the vampires nodded. Jasper turned to Edward. “Who
does she know here in the Haitian community?”
“Who doesn’t she know?” Edward snapped. “Bella, the man, did he have a tattoo? Think really
hard, did he have a tattoo on his forearm?”
“Yes,” she nodded. “It was a five point star and a few more signs.”
“Dominic Legbago,” Grayson looked up sharply. “You think Dominic Legbago took her?”
“His father isn’t here and where else would she get a shifter’s paw from than the Hoodooeines?”
“Fuck,” Grayson buried his head in his hands and Edward began to shake his own back and forth.
“No,” Edward muttered. “She’s lying.” Turning, he looked at Bella. “You’re lying. You’re helping
someone keep her hostage. This is all a lie.”
“It’s the truth,” Jasper said hollowly. “Bella’s telling the truth.”
“She is,” Alice glanced at Edward and then her, casting her eyes downward quickly, refusing to
meet Bella’s. “She’s telling the truth.”
“If Bella’s telling the truth and Sandy is with Dominic Legbago,” Edward stopped and slumped down
in his seat.
“Oh Bella,” Esme brought her hand to her mouth and stared at her in horror. She looked around
the table and saw that Emmett, Carlotta and Alice’s eyes were cast down refusing to look at her;
Carlisle and Jasper looked at her pityingly; and the rest of the vampires present glared, including
Rose. “How could you?”
“How could I what?” She looked at Esme and Carlisle, trying to understand why they were treating
her this way. Didn’t they understand that none of them would be in this situation if Edward would
have just been reasonable and not overreacted at her birthday party? “All I did was drive her to the
airport. She told me she was going to your house. How was I supposed to know she was lying?”
“Because she wouldn’t have needed your ID to travel to see the Cullens,” Carlotta said hollowly.
“You knew she was running, Bella, and you helped her.”
“So? It’s not my fault.”
“Why?” Carlotta asked her sadly. “What possessed you to do such a thing?”
“What? I didn’t tell her to run. Maybe if Edward treated her better ”
“You’re blaming me for this!” He tried to lunge for her and almost made it before Emmett and
Jasper caught him. “How can you blame me for this?”
“Well if she were happy she wouldn’t have left you now would she?”
“Bella,” Alice looked at her sadly. “She didn’t leave because of Edward.”
“What?”
“No,” Edward shook his head. There’s a mistake somehow. She wouldn’t do this.”
“Edward,” Alice’s eyes glazed over suddenly and everyone fell silent looking at her.
“Alice?” Jasper reached for her hand and grasped it tightly. “What do you see Alice?”
“Green,” she murmured. “So green outside. But there’s so much traffic.”
“Traffic?” Jasper looked at her. “Where is there traffic?”
“She’s in a green field, bright emerald green, but all around I can hear the traffic.”
“A park?” Edward asked her nervously. “Is she in a park?”
“I don’t know,” Alice opened her eyes and looked at him sadly. “But Edward, you have to find her.”
“No!” Edward pushed back from the table and stared at his sister in horror. “She’s not! No!”
“Edward?” Esme looked at him and then at Bella. “What is it?”
“You!” He turned and glared at Bella. “How could you have done this?”
“Son?” Carlisle broke in. “What is it?”
“Edward?” Grayson looked at him.
“She’s committing suicide,” Edward said quietly.
“What?” Rosalie looked around the table. “How can she commit suicide?”
“Fire,” Alice said sadly. “Edward you have three days.”
“No,” he shook his head. “Where is she, Alice?”
“I don’t know!”
Suddenly Carlotta was in front of her. “Bella, where is she? If you know where she is then you have
to tell us. I know you don’t like Sandy but Bella, please, if you know where she is you have to tell
us.”
“I don’t know,” Bella told her honestly. “All I did was what she told me. She gave me the monkey’s
paw at Angela’s wedding and told me to keep it in my purse to keep me safe. Then she called
earlier and asked me to take her to the airport. She asked for my identification and gave me hers.
She told me if anyone asked I was to tell them I took her to the airport so she could go visit the
Cullens and Edward was coming to meet her afterwards.”
“You didn’t ask where she was going?” Carlotta asked her sadly, gripping her hands.
“She told me it didn’t matter. That it was better if I didn’t know.”
“What else did she say Bella?” Esme asked her suddenly. “What did she tell you?”
“She ”
“Bella!” Esme said sternly. “What did she tell you to make you lie?”
“She said that she was going to make it right again,” Bella murmured. “That she was going to fix
Edward’s mistakes and make him happy again. She said when you figured it out, I was to tell
Edward that she loved him. That she did this because she loved him and wanted him to be happy.”
“Edward,” Alice looked at him sadly.
“No,” he shook his head and glared at Bella. “You know more than you’re saying. Tell me what else
you know.”
“I don’t!”
“You do!”
“Edward,” Jasper pulled his brother to face him. “She doesn’t know anything else. I can tell when
Bella’s lying and she’s telling you the truth. She doesn’t know where she is.”
“Here’s what we’re going to do,” William broke in suddenly. “Alice, you can see Sandy again yes?”
“Yes,” she nodded and refused to look at Bella. “I can see her future now.”
“Then, you’ll stay here and wait for another vision. Meanwhile, we’ll send search parties to
everywhere she has a ticket for. Edward?”
“I’m going to New Orleans,” he announced. “She wouldn’t do anything rash without seeing her
niece one last time. She’s the only link Sandy had left to her mortal life. She wouldn’t let it go
without saying good bye.”
“That’s our best bet,” Grayson agreed. “Maybe her niece will know what she had planned next.
Everyone else will split up and search for her. Dr. Cullen?”
“My family, except for Jasper and Alice, will go wherever you think is best.”
“The psychic and her mate shall stay here. I think it would be best if you searched the area around
Seattle. It seems one of her tickets under the name Bella Dwyer lands there in a few hours. You
know the area best, hopefully if she’s there you can find her quickest.”
“Why would she go to Seattle?” Emmett broke in.
“Forks,” Rose said quietly. “She wanted to be close to Edward.”
“But,” Emmett looked at her.
“I would,” Rose said softly and touched his arm.
“What do we do with Bella?” Carlotta asked suddenly and she turned to stare at her. Do with her?
What did Carlotta mean do with her?
“Put her in the cages,” William shrugged. “We can’t try her until we know what she’s done. If we
find Sandy she’ll be tried for aiding another blood doll in an escape attempt. If she dies, then we
try her for that.”
“You’ll try her for murder?” Carlisle looked aghast.
“We’ll try her for her part,” Grayson answered sternly. “Now, put her in ”
“She can stay in Alice and Jasper’s care,” Carlisle said suddenly.
“No,” Alice broke in.
“Alice,” Carlisle looked at her.
“No,” Alice repeated. “I won’t take responsibility for her Carlisle.”
“Jasper?”
“No,” the lanky vampire stood behind Alice’s chair and put his hands on her shoulders. “Bella knew
what Sandy intended and she helped her. I won’t take responsibility for her.”
“She goes in the cages,” Grayson interrupted. “I don’t care if someone’s willing to watch her or not.
She’s being tried for a crime she’ll stay in the cages like any other criminal. Carlotta?”
She looked at the red head whose bed she’d shared. Who claimed to love her. “The law is the law,”
she said quietly and nodded her head. “I don’t want anyone to think that she’s getting special
treatment because of me.”
“Ivan, Matteus,” Grayson nodded toward her and the two vampires stood, each moving to take one
of her arms.
“Wait! What? No! You can’t put me in some cage! Carlotta?” The woman wouldn’t look at her.
“Esme,” the woman she thought of as a mother looked away from her and the rest of the family
stared at her in horror. “Emmett? Jasper? Carlisle?” Her voice rose with each name. “Rose? Alice?”
“Bella,” Rose looked at her and barely concealed her sneer of revulsion. “How could you?”
“How could I? I just took her to the airport!”
“You knew,” Rose countered as she walked past Bella and out of the room, Emmett close behind
and not meeting Bella’s eyes. “You knew what she meant to do and you let her do it to hurt
Edward.”
“She’s the one hurting Edward!”
“And you helped her,” Alice replied sadly. “After we took you in as one of our own you did this?”
“Well why aren’t you helping me if I’m one of you?”
“Because if we have to choose, Bella,” Jasper looked at her closely. “Edward is our brother and you
did this to hurt him. We can’t help you.”
“But ”
“Just hope we find her safe,” Carlisle broke in and Bella could tell he was trying to keep his
emotions in check as they led her away from the group. “That’s the only thing any of us can hope
for is that we find her safe.”
Chapter 22.
“Natalie?” She turned to look at him and Edward tried to remember to pretend to breath.
“Yes?” Her lilt sounded exactly like Sandy’s. “Can I help you?”
“This is going to sound strange,” Edward tried to keep his voice friendly sounding. “But I’m
searching for my wife and I think you might know her.”
“Your wife?”
“Yes,” Edward handed her a picture of Sandy and waited. “Her name is Sandy. Have you seen her
before?”
“Cousin Sandy?” The girl’s eyes brightened. “Of course I know her.”
“Cousin Sandy?”
“Yeah, I didn’t know she’d gotten married. She didn’t even mention you this afternoon when we
met for lunch.”
“You saw her today?” Edward felt his hope rise. Her niece had seen her today? Surely she couldn’t
have gone far then.
“I was sort of surprised actually,” Natalie shrugged. “I mean she’s always sort of just showed up
my Uncle Carl said that she sounded a lot like her mother because my Aunt Sandra was that way
as well.”
“Your Uncle Carl?”
“Yeah, did Sandy not tell you about any of us? Uncle Carl isn’t really an uncle, he was a close
family friend and I always thought he might have had a thing for Aunt Sandra from how he
talked but he took me in after my parents died. Aunt Sandra had already died and Sandy was
being raised by her dad’s family. She came down a few years ago and introduced herself while she
was looking at going to graduate school at Tulane. I thought she would want to meet the rest of
the family but she was sort of shy. I kept thinking she would meet everyone else when she came
down for various business meetings but she never seemed to have the time.”
“But you saw her today?” Edward tried to bring the girl back on topic.
“Yes,” she pulled a cigarette out of her purse and lit it. “We met for lunch and coffee. She said she
was in for a business meeting.”
“A business meeting?”
“Yeah,” Natalie nodded. “That’s usually when we get together. Didn’t you know?”
“No, no I knew that she met up with you when she came down here for business,” Edward tried to
make his reply casual.
“You know it’s funny,” Natalie looked at him shrewdly. “She’s never mentioned you. How long have
you been married?”
“Not long,” Edward hedged.
“And she didn’t tell you she had a business meeting here this week?”
“Did she mention anything strange to you while you met for lunch?”
“Yeah,” she nodded. “It was sort of strange. She told me that recently she was going through some
of her mother’s stuff and found things that were meant for my mom and wanted to give them to
me. With her dad dead now she was trying to get their estates in order.”
“Really? That doesn’t sound so strange,” Edward shrugged. “Sandy really did want to make sure
things were put right when her dad died,” he lied.
“No, no that made sense,” Natalie nodded, “it was just something else. She wrote me a really large
check and told me it was part of her mother’s estate and she wanted me to have it. It was a lot of
money and all I could think is that she could have done so much with that money, why would she
give it to me and not even flinch? I mean are you two loaded? It just had a really odd vibe to it.”
“Did she mention anything else?” Edward asked as she took another drag of her cigarette and he
tried to keep from curling his nose at the smell.
“What’s going on?” She looked at him speculatively. “Something isn’t right. My cousin comes down
here and has lunch with me, giving me a check from her mother’s estate worth millions, tells me
it’s for me to do all the things I’ve never had the money to do before. Then her husband who she
didn’t even mention when I saw her this afternoon comes down here looking for her and asking
questions but won’t tell me his name. There’s something fishy going on and I’m not saying
anything more until you tell me what the hell is going on.”
“Natalie,” Edward tried to focus his eyes on hers.
“Oh no you don’t,” she snapped. “You can’t dazzle me with a pretty little flutter of your eyelashes.
You tell me what’s wrong with my cousin.”
“She’s missing,” Edward said simply. “I came home and all her things were there but she wasn’t.”
“You didn’t know she was coming here for a meeting?”
“She didn’t have a meeting,” Edward shook his head. “Her boss, everyone in Chicago is looking for
her.”
“But ”
“She’s been really upset since her father’s death,” Edward broke in. “I’m worried that she might do
something. I’ve been trying to push her into therapy but she hasn’t been receptive.”
“You think she might do something to hurt herself?”
“I’m afraid so, yes.” Edward nodded.
“We’re supposed to meet for breakfast,” Natalie told him anxiously.
“Tomorrow morning?”
“She told me she wasn’t sure she could meet me for my performance tonight because of her
meeting but we were supposed to meet for breakfast before she flew home to Chicago.”
“Do you know where she’s staying?” Edward asked hurriedly.
“The Omni Royal Orleans,” Natalie told him and then pulled her phone open. “The text she sent me
said she was at the Omni Royal room 1134.”
“Thank you,” Edward nodded and turned to hurry away from her. He now had a starting point for
his search. He would be able to hear her mind as soon as he got close to the hotel.
“Um, hey wait!” Natalie called out behind him. “Um ”
“Edward,” he answered.
“Edward, you’ll have Sandy call me once you’ve found her. Just so I know she’s okay?”
“Of course,” Edward replied. “I’m sure there was just some sort of miscommunication and we’re
overreacting for no reason.”
“Thank you,” Natalie called out as she stubbed her cigarette and turned to go back inside the bar.
Edward raised his hand absently in acknowledgement as he hurried down the street barely
waiting until she’d gone inside before he began to move at his natural speed and reached for his
phone.
“Carlisle,” he said as soon as the other man picked up. “I’ve found her.”
“You’ve found her? Are you sure?”
“She met with her niece today for lunch. They’re supposed to meet for breakfast tomorrow
morning.”
“Really? Doesn’t it seem strange that she would ”
“I have her hotel room number,” Edward cut in, “and I’m on my way over there now. If I can get
her to talk to me maybe I can talk some sense into her and persuade her to come home.”
“What if that doesn’t work? What if she doesn’t want to listen to you?”
“Carlisle, I’m going to disrespect everything you and Esme have taught me about how to treat my
mate ”
“If need be, you tie her up and lock her in the closet,” Carlisle answered. “Then you call and your
brothers and I will drive down and help you bring her back to Chicago forcibly.”
“Really?”
“Edward, I don’t condone the lifestyle you’ve chosen to live but that girl didn’t have a say in the
situation. If she’s not fed from she’ll die and everyone knows that. Just because I don’t agree with
the practice doesn’t mean I’ll condemn her to death because of it. Whatever happened between the
two of you to cause this, I won’t let her harm herself even if you can’t work out the differences
between you.”
“Carlisle,” he took in a shuddering breath that he didn’t need but desperately wanted the air to fill
his lungs. “I’m at the hotel. I need to go upstairs now.”
Edward slowed to a human pace as he stepped into the hotel lobby and made his way to the bank
of elevators. Hitting the up button he waited impatiently for the elevator to arrive and once it did,
stepped in, pressed the floor button, and began to tap his foot impatiently as the doors slid closed.
The floors clicked by too slowly for his liking and Edward paced the elevator’s confines irritated.
“Come on, come on,” he muttered. “Come on.” The doors slid open on the eleventh floor and he
dashed out of it unconcerned about whether there were humans around to see him.
“1134,” he muttered as he reached the door and turned the knob, placing his shoulder in it to pop
the lock. He stepped in and stopped, the room was empty. She wasn’t there. His phone rang and
he answered it unthinkingly. “Alice?”
“She’s at a baseball stadium,” Alice snapped. “I saw her again and drew it. She’s at a baseball
stadium.”
“A baseball stadium?” He heard a quick shuffle and then Jasper took the phone from Alice.
“I know it sounds strange Edward but that’s what her vision is. It’s a baseball stadium. I haven’t
been to Wrigley but think, Edward, is that what you saw in Alice’s vision?”
Edward closed his eyes and focused on what he’d seen in Alice’s mind. The grass was extremely
green and manicured. He took his eyes away from the sight of his mate immolating herself and
focused on the area surrounding her. He could see the dugouts in the distance and the stands
surrounding them. It wasn’t the Wrigley Field that he remembered from his youth.
“Yankee Stadium!”
“What?”
“She’s at Yankee Stadium,” Edward replied.
“In New York? Why would she be there?” Jasper sounded confused.
“It was the last memory she had of her mortal life,” Edward answered.
“Huh?”
“Before she was changed,” Edward explained, “Dante and Martine took her to a baseball game at
Yankee Stadium because she’d never seen a live, professional baseball game before. They were
separated in the crowds and she was attacked. They changed her in a nearby alley to prevent her
from dying.”
“You think she ”
“If you had to choose where to end this life,” Edward retorted as he raced out of the room and
down the stairs, out into the humid New Orleans air, turning north as he began to run. “Where
would you go?”
“We’re leaving now,” Jasper told him. “We’ll meet you at the stadium.”
Edward closed his phone without saying good bye, shoving it in his pocket as he picked up speed,
willing his legs to move faster so that he could get there in time. Why are you doing this
sweetheart? He thought. What possessed you to do this? Where did I fail you? What made you
think that we couldn’t have a good life together? That we didn’t belong together?
The state of Tennessee flew by and he tried to block the thought of what he would do if he was too
late from his mind as he raced through Virginia and as he cut across the bottom tip of Pennsylvania
and into New Jersey he reminded himself that he wouldn’t fight with her when he found her. He’d
sit down with her and they would rationally discuss what was bothering her he’d find out why
she had deluded herself into thinking that he would be better off without her. They would talk
about it and he would make her see that he loved her. They’d get away, he promised himself as he
raced through New Jersey and into New York. They’d leave Chicago and all the bad memories they
had there. They could go live with his family, or find somewhere that neither of them had ever
been and start over there, both of them fresh. He knew she missed the water; they’d start a life
together somewhere close to the water somewhere with a beach that she could walk along.
Somewhere that he wouldn’t be at the service of another vampire and they wouldn’t be required to
pay lip service to the rules of their society. They’d start over, he promised himself as he ran into
the Bronx and around the corner of 161st street.
Hurriedly, he circled the stadium and found one of the gates open. Quietly, he slipped inside and
made his way toward the field, where he knew she’d be from Alice’s vision. As he reached the field,
he skid to a stop and stared. Her back was to him and he couldn’t help but watch her as she stood
on the pitchers mound, staring up into the left field stands, lost in her own thoughts.
“Honey,” she turned to look at him at the sound of his voice.
“Hello Edward,” she smiled at him sadly and when he stepped forward, the stench of gasoline
enveloped him. “I wouldn’t come any closer, sweetheart.”
“Sandy,” he watched in horror as she began to flick a silver Zippo lighter open and closed. “Honey,
you need to put that down,” he held his hands out soothingly and noticed the empty gas can lying
on its side next to her.
“Oh Edward,” she shook her head. “I was hoping that Bella would have been strong enough to
keep you in the dark longer. I didn’t want you to be here for this.”
“It’s okay, darling,” he crooned, rooted to his spot as she continued to flip the lid open and then
closed. “I don’t have to be here for anything. All you have to do is put the lighter down and we’ll
leave.”
“I can’t do that Edward.”
“Yes,” he saw Alice and Jasper enter the field behind her and hoped that she wouldn’t notice them.
“Yes you can, darling. Just put down the lighter and we’ll go. We’ll leave Chicago and start over
somewhere else.”
“You need to be with Bella,” she answered. “Bella is meant to be your mate.”
“No, honey,” Edward tried to figure out how to step closer. “You’re my mate. I made a commitment
to you and I meant it. I love you.”
“I love you,” she agreed and Edward heard Jasper’s thoughts as he ordered Edward to keep her
occupied while he attempted to sneak up behind her.
“Sweetheart, explain this to me,” Edward tried to keep her focused on him. “Why do you want to
leave me so badly? Why would you hurt yourself?”
“I don’t want to leave you,” Sandy shook her head sadly and he could see the tears running down
her face. “I love you, Edward, that’s why I’m doing this.”
“Because you love me?”
“I want you to be happy, Edward. I love you so much that I want you to have a happy eternity.”
“We will,” Edward reassured her. “You just need to put down the lighter and we’ll get you cleaned
up. We can have a wonderful life together. Just please put down the lighter before you get hurt.”
“You deserve to be happy, Edward,” she answered. “I found my mate, Edward, and I love you so
much that I don’t want you to live without yours like I have. It’s no way to live.”
“Then put down the lighter, Sandy, because if it accidentally lights, I’m going to be in the exact
situation you want to avoid. I don’t want to live without you, sweetheart.” He watched as Jasper
edged closer, almost within arms reach when Alice suddenly caught his eye, motioning her mate
frantically away from her.
He watched as Sandy noticed Alice trying desperately to catch Jasper’s attention and turned to
stare at her. “Hello, Alice,” she said hollowly.
“Sandy,” Alice sounded nervous as she answered her.
“Please take care of him, Alice,” Sandy told her and Edward watched as his sister’s face crumpled
in horror as Sandy flicked the lighter open and the tiny flame that appeared suddenly roared to life
and engulfed her.
“Jasper!” Alice screamed as her mate stepped away from the human torch Edward’s mate had
become, his arms rose in front of his face to protect it.
His mouth went dry as he stood helpless, watching the woman he loved immolate herself. Within a
matter of seconds she had crumpled into a pile of ash, the venom causing her body to burn faster
than dry tinder. He saw Alice and Jasper across the flames, his sister’s face buried in Jasper’s chest
as he held her, both of their faces averted to the destruction in front of them.
He crumpled to his knees as the pyre her body had become began to cave in upon itself. She was
gone. His mate was gone. Alice’s arms engulfed him suddenly as Jasper went over to stamp out
the flickering flames where she had just been. “Don’t,” he muttered. “Don’t let her ”
“He’ll collect the ashes Edward,” Alice murmured into his hair, burying his face in her shoulder so
that he wouldn’t have to watch as Jasper collected his love’s remains. A moment later, he felt a
second, stronger, set of arms around him as Jasper pulled him to his feet and began to propel him
away from the field.
“Did you,” he shuddered, sobbing dryly, wishing that his body could produce tears to mourn her.
“I have all of her,” Jasper reassured him. “I didn’t leave a particle behind. All of her is here.”
“Come on, Edward,” Alice urged as she and Jasper pulled his body from the stadium.
“Carlisle,” he heard Jasper announce into his cell phone.
“Did you find her?” Carlisle asked.
“Yes,” Jasper answered hollowly.
“You’re on your way back to Chicago with them?”
“No,” Jasper’s voice stayed grim. “We were too late.”
“Too late?”
“We’re bringing Edward and her remains back to Chicago. We’ll see you soon.”
“Of course,” Carlisle answered and Edward could hear the pain in his father’s voice. “Tell Edward
we’ll be with you soon.”
“He needs you,” Jasper agreed.
Chapter 23.
“Bella Swan,” Aro announced formally to the crowd of vampires standing in William Grayson’s main
ballroom. The blood doll cowered at the front of them, huddled in the back corner of her cage. “You
have been tried and found guilty of conspiracy to deprive a vampire of his rightful property. Do you
have anything to say for yourself?”
Edward watched blankly as the girl in the cage shivered, remaining silent. He had never enjoyed
watching people suffer violent punishment, hadn’t lusted after retribution like this since his days
living away from Carlisle and hunting wrong doers. He wanted her to suffer. He wanted her casked.
“Very well,” Aro nodded. “Bella Swan because you have deprived Edward Cullen of his property you
must recompense him for it.”
Recompense him? How was she supposed to recompense him for driving the woman he loved to
her death?
“Because you have no property to pay your debt, I order you into the service of Edward Cullen.”
“What?” He exploded out of his seat and stared at Aro in horror. “You cannot be serious! Aro, I’ve
petitioned you to end my own life. How can you give me a murderer instead?”
“Edward,” Aro focused on him. “You must know that I cannot grant your request to die. Your gifts
are too promising for you to end your life.”
“I still don’t want her!” Edward protested. “She killed Sandy and your idea of consequences is she
gets exactly what she wanted? She gets to take my wife’s place?”
“Edward,” Aro sighed. “I cannot punish this creature beyond the measures I have taken. She has
inconvenienced you and deprived you of your property. In return she must pay for your losses.
Since she can’t do that she is being given to you in repayment.”
“What am I supposed to do with her?”
“Well keep her as a blood doll of course,” Aro shrugged. “What else would you do with her?”
“No!” Edward tried to argue and suddenly felt Carlisle gripping his shoulder.
“That will be fine, Aro,” Carlisle cut in. “Your judgment is reasonable. Please excuse my son in his
grief.”
“Of course,” the Volturi leader shrugged. “My further judgment is that you must return to your
coven, Edward Cullen, and take your new property with you. She has damaged the leader of this
coven’s goodwill and he will not allow her to remain within its confines.”
“William?” Edward stared at the other man in shock.
“Go home to your family, Edward,” Grayson answered him hollowly; his eyes black and bruised a
dark purple beneath. “Take the monster and go home to your family.”
Go home to your family and grieve, Edward. He heard the other man continue in his mind. Cask
her, burn her, I’ll give you the materials if you wish, but take her from my court. Go home to
mourn and let yourself heal. Destroy the creature if you wish but go home and heal.
He nodded silently as the other vampires filed out, leaving him alone with his family, Bella, and
Grayson. “Do you want ” his voice broke.
“No,” Grayson shook his head. “Do with her what you see fit.”
“Of course,” Edward nodded.
“We’ll be leaving immediately for Pennsylvania,” Carlisle broke in. “We don’t want to strain your
hospitality any more.”
“Of course,” Grayson nodded as he came forward to embrace Edward. “You are welcome here
again whenever you wish, son of mine.”
“Thank you,” he mumbled.
“Edward,” Carlisle broke in.
“Good bye, William. Thank you for ”
“Thank you for making her happy,” Grayson answered.
“Edward!” Carlisle called out two days later. “Where’s Bella?”
“In her cage unless she’s found a way out of it,” he retorted.
“Edward!”
“What!”
“She is a human being and not an animal.”
“She’s cattle,” he snapped. “Nothing more, nothing less.”
“You put yourself in this position and now you’re going to take responsibility for it! Go take the
poor girl out of her cage.”
“Fine!”
“And quit acting like a sulking teenager!”
Edward stormed into the bedroom next to his and glared at the cage and its occupant. “Carlisle
said I have to get you out of your cage.”
“We wouldn’t want to disappoint Carlisle,” Bella snarled. “I would hate to upset one of the great
Cullens.”
“You don’t have to leave the room if you’d prefer,” Edward seethed. “All I have to do is take you
out of the cage. That doesn’t mean any of us are required to spend time with you. You can stay in
this room or hide in Carlisle’s office if you prefer.”
“Make sure you feed from her,” Carlisle’s voice wafted up from the yard. “It’s been over a week
since she’s been fed from.”
“Carlisle says I have to feed from you.” Edward glared at her.
“I’d rather die,” Bella retorted.
“I’d rather let you,” Edward answered.
“I hate you,” Bella announced as she stepped away from him.
“Not nearly as much as I hate you,” Edward hissed. “Now shut up and let me drink your blood.”
“Bastard!”
“Fucking harpy!”
“Oh go to hell!”
“You first, sweetheart,” Edward suggested. “Now will you please just be quiet and let me bite you?”
Epilogue
ONE YEAR LATER
He plunked his hands down on the keys and growled at the piano in front of him. It. Wasn’t.
Working. The melody, the bridges, he could hear all of it in his mind, but every time he put his
fingers to the keys something different came out. Her song wouldn’t come to him anymore; instead
all he got was the lullaby he hated with his entire existence.
He heard her and Alice giggling upstairs and felt his upper lip curl into a snarl. The rest of them
had forgiven her; Alice first, and then Esme within days of her return. He could tell Emmett had
forgiven her long before he acknowledged it publicly he hadn’t wanted to anger Rosalie.
Surprisingly, Carlisle had taken a while to come around to her again. He’d been nice, Edward
conceded, polite but distant. The thought that she had been a part of someone’s death had sat
uneasily with him and though their relationship was better, Edward knew it wasn’t what it had once
been. Rosalie had taken almost nine months to begin even speaking to Bella again, and even now
she wasn’t warm to her. Jasper, Edward glared at the keys again, Jasper was an enigma. His
thoughts were carefully blank in regard to Bella and while he was unfailingly polite, he still avoided
her. Edward knew it bothered Alice but the only thing she’d ever let slip inside her mind around
him was that Jasper was still consumed with guilt over everything. Jasper had resolved that
somehow, all of it was his fault.
Hearing the sound of tires crunching against the gravel of the mile long driveway the second they
pulled off the main road, Edward slammed the cover down over his piano keys. He’d fed from Bella
two days ago so he could leave ‘to hunt’ without anyone bothering him about it. He knew that his
mood affected them and made it a point to leave as frequently as possible now to spare them.
‘Edward Cullen’, the delivery driver’s voice echoed inside his head. ‘Always wondered about them
living out here in the old MacEntire place. Never get any mail for them. Hmm, unmarked brown
paper package. Wonder what old Edward Cullen’s got? Bet it’s porn. Why do they always send porn
in the same packages? Everyone always knows what it is. Better to wrap it in bright red and blue
paper with the word, PORN!, splashed across it in big green letters.’
Edward chuckled as he walked slowly onto the porch, careful to make all his movements appear
natural and human like. They had no interaction with the town of Laboratory, Pennsylvania, and
the only ones who ever went into town were Alice and Bella to stock up on groceries for Bella
and spread the lie that it was just them and their very ill father in the MacEntire place and they
didn’t like to come to town and leave him alone. There were holes in the story, of course, but
they’d learned that sometimes a faulty story was better than an airtight one because it didn’t seem
rehearsed.
The delivery driver stepped out of his white postal van and glanced up at Edward on the porch.
“Edward Cullen?”
“That’s me,” he nodded.
“Huh,” the postal guy looked at him speculatively. “Those girls who live here told Jenny at the
grocery store it was just them and their father out here. Didn’t mention you. Are they around?”
“Just inside with Dad,” Edward nodded. “I’m Edward, their brother. I’m home from college for a
few weeks.”
“Hmm,” the postman didn’t sound convinced.
“I can call Alice out if you’d like. Let her tell you I’m not some ax murderer with a grudge.” He
wouldn’t dare call Bella. He wouldn’t put it past her to tell the postman he was a raving psychopath
holding them all hostage. After her stupidly planned escape/suicide attempt at Christmas he had
made sure someone was always keeping a close eye on her.
Her escape attempt, he had to struggle not to groan in frustration and draw further suspicion from
the postman silently sizing him up. Two days before Christmas she’d gone into town for supplies,
leaving while he was hunting and Alice was distracted with online shopping to have delivered to her
postal box in downtown Pittsburgh. He’d come home three days later to an overwrought bunch of
vampires. Bella had shown up in Chicago, trying to move back in with Carlotta. When the other
vampire had called them about retrieving her, Bella had fled out on her own in the middle of the
night. Two nights later, he’d intercepted her trying to clumsily sneak back into her old room in
Forks. Tying her up and gagging her hadn’t been his finest moment but he rationalized it by the
fact that she’d utterly refused to see reason and come quietly.
“Nah,” the postman shrugged a second later. “Just sign here.”
Edward took the stylus and electronic register from him, quickly making a mark, and handed it
back, taking the package at the same time. “Have a good day.”
“You too.” The postman scurried off the porch and back into his van, throwing it quickly in reverse
and making a three point turn to get out of their quickly his eyes never leaving Edward.
Great, now he was Alice and Bella’s homicidal maniac of a brother. He’d need to make himself
especially scarce now that someone from the town had seen him and could recognize him. It
wouldn’t do to have a local catching a chance glimpse at him hunting if he got careless and in
the past year he’d gotten exceedingly careless. What was the worst that could happen? The Volturi
had already denied his repeated appeals to them for death.
Turning, he walked back into the house and made to throw the package onto the side table, not at
all curious about its contents. Probably something Alice ordered for him. Grand Isle, LA the post
stamp glared at him brightly and he stopped, staring at the package in his hands. R. Sidane, 101
North Grace St., Grand Isle, Louisiana. He didn’t know anyone his hands began to tremble as he
fumbled with the corner of the paper. Ripping it away quickly, he let the remains of the packaging
fall onto the floor, unconcerned, as he stared at the blank DVD case in his hands. Opening it, he
looked at a silver disk with the word, Edward, scrawled on it in messy red ink. He swallowed and
sucked in a deep breath he didn’t actually need as the handwriting registered in his mind. ‘Eggs,
pancake batter, coffee,’ the grocery list he’d seen on their fridge that fateful day in their apartment
sucker punched him in the solar plexus of his memory.
Thundering up the stairs, he retreated to the top floor, his private sanctuary from the rest of the
family and Bella. Shutting his door firmly behind him, he slipped the disk into his DVD player and
tapped his foot impatiently as it loaded.
Three seconds later, she was on the screen and he felt his knees buckling. “Edward?” She looked
distracted and he could see that she wasn’t focused on the camera but on someone behind it. “Are
you sure it’s on?”
“It’s on,” a male voice confirmed. “Now you might want to hurry it up, his plane just landed and if
you’re going to get gone ”
“I know, I know,” she smiled tightly and brushed her wild shock of blonde hair out of her face. “Get
lost and let me do this in private, huh?”
He heard retreating footsteps and then the click of a door before she focused on the camera and by
extension, him. “Edward? Do you have Bella with you? Of course you don’t, why did I bother
asking? Go get Bella!” She pointed at him imperiously. “You heard me, go get her. I’ll wait.”
“Argh,” he glared at the screen and stubbornly refused to move his feet. She was a DVD, she
wouldn’t know if he actually obeyed her.
“Now Mister!” She snapped. “I am not wasting precious minutes of this conversation lecturing you
about acting like the teenager you were in your mortal life. Move it!”
“Fine!” Edward threw his hands up and grit his teeth at the TV. Hitting the pause button, he
stormed out of the room and down the stairs to Alice’s room.
“She’ll be one minute,” Alice called out.
“Fine!” He stomped back up the stairs. He’d gone to get Bella, just like DVD Sandy had asked. If
she knew so much, then she’d have foreseen that Bella wouldn’t want to be alone with him. Once
inside the room, he sat heavily on the bed and hit the play button.
“Thank you,” she smiled warmly at him from the screen. “First, you’re angry, confused, betrayed
and most of all, you just don’t understand. You have no understanding of why I did what, in my
time line, I’m about to do, and as you’re watching this, what I did one year ago today. Let’s just
say it’s complicated. Really complicated. And I’d leave it at that but you’re too damn curious for
your own good and you’ll want to know. I’m going to leave it till last though because I want you to
hear the important parts before you go off on a rage. Important bit number one I love you so
much. I do. And if it would have been in the cards, I would have been ecstatic to spend every
moment of eternity with you.”
“Then why ”
“I’ll explain it all when we get to the end,” she admonished on screen. “Two, you’re a good man,
Edward Cullen. I know you don’t believe it and I’m going to guess that in the past year you haven’t
gone out of your way to show it, but you are. Eternity could be a blessing for you don’t waste it.”
“It’s not ”
“You don’t know that yet,” she countered. “You’re still too angry at me to see it.”
“I’m no”
“Yeah you are, don’t lie to yourself. It’s pointless when I know better. You are pissed at me and
you have every right to be. Now point three Bella really had no idea what I was doing and she
didn’t want to help. I forced her. I’m sure she didn’t tell you that, but I did. At first I thought telling
her I was running away with another vampire would work she’d hate you enough that she’d be
happy to see you suffer as revenge. But she didn’t. She told me she would call you the moment I
left. That she’d tell. She’d make a scene in the airport and get us all arrested if she had to.
Anything to stall until you could get there. Luckily, I had been a girl scout and I came prepared.
Ironically, she let me go to my death trying to keep me from it.” Sandy held up an empty vial.
“Werewolves blood,” she wrinkled her nose. “Horrible tasting, by the way. A powerful enough
dosage to taint my blood for six weeks. Better to let me run off with another vampire using her ID
then making you watch me starve, unable to save me. Do you know what her last words to me
were? ‘He’s going to find you. Edward’s not just going to let you go.’
“Not surprisingly, she was right. Apparently, your plane landed just as we were setting up the
video camera. If I’m lucky, you’ll follow the carefully laid out bread crumbs to my niece, the hotel
clear across town from here, and by the time you realize I’ve never been there, I’ll be gone. All
that matters though is this in a moment where she could have gotten revenge on you, hurt you
beyond all belief, Bella Swan loved you enough to help me leave so that you wouldn’t have to
suffer.”
“I ”
“I was the consortwhore of a lord among vampires,” Sandy continued. “I learned enough Volturi
law curled up in that arm chair that I could run a vampire law school if you’d all quit drooling over
my blood enough to concentrate. So before you ask yes I knew the ruling would be for Bella to
come to you. In fact, Caius promised me that was how they’d rule when I got off the phone with
him, just before we started filming.
“I wonder if you’d figured that out yet? They think, devastated by my loss, you’re going to flee the
Cullens and they’ll offer you a position in the guard that you will gratefully take to distract yourself
from thoughts of me. I didn’t feel the desire to correct their vain stupidity it was working in my
favor. They’ve known since the day of Angela’s wedding. I had Jane arrange it while I knew you’d
be busy trying to read Aro and Marcus for William.
“That was your biggest mistake with me by the way,” she shrugged. “If you’d have just listened
into my head every once in a while instead of tuning me out to be polite you’d have known what
I was planning long in advance.
“Let’s see,” she ran her hand through her hair again and he could see the tears welling up in her
eyes, starting to spill silently over onto her cheeks. “Told you I loved you, cleared Bella, implicated
the Volturi, I think I’ve covered everything required in a suicide note/video thingy. Just two things
left.”
“But ” He was on his knees now, holding onto the screen trying to keep calm enough that he
didn’t crush in the sides with his fingers.
“Why,” she said suddenly. “You need to know why. I guess we should start with the basics. I don’t
believe in mates,” she said loudly. “I never have. Before I was a vampire I didn’t and I don’t now.
You find somebody, you fall in love, and then you have good times and bad times and hope the
good outweighs the bad. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn’t and you fall out of love. I’ve
seen it and let me tell you, I’ve been around enough vampires to know. You’re more like humans
than you want to believe, Edward. You fall out of love, your spouses die, things happen, and you
move on. Eternity is too long to be tied to a ghost. Take it from the voice of experience. Two weeks
after I was turned, I was put into a cage and made to watch my creators burn. The man I thought
I’d spend all of eternity married to was lit on fire so I could pass like a shiny bauble into another
man’s hands. 40 years later, I fell in love with you. If there was any such thing as mates, Edward,
I’d have done this,” she waved her hands distractedly at the room around her, “years ago.”
“The problem is, Edward, you believe in mates. You believe in it so strongly that you refuse to see
reason. The minute it got hard with Bella you shut down because suddenly she wasn’t your mate.
First, it was her mortality and the fact that your brother Jasper couldn’t help but see her as a
vampire Meals on Wheels. Then it was that she was a blood doll and I don’t know because you
never explained it to me – but somehow that was bad. You couldn’t cope with that and so you just
shut down where Bella was concerned. The idea that you and your mate would be perfect
extensions for each other gave you an excuse to duck and run when it got hard. It was hard;
therefore, you figured she must not be your mate. I was easy; therefore I must be your mate. And
you’d go to any length to prove it to everyone including yourself.
“In the process, you were destroying Bella. She loved you; she still does love you I wager. Because
you were afraid to let it be hard for once you were destroying the both of you. I couldn’t let you do
that. You could do wonderful things together and you could be happy. Both of you deserve to be
happy. That’s why I’m doing this.
“Edward, you love Bella. That’s why you’re so angry at her. You love her and she betrayed you by
helping me. Before that, she betrayed you by being flawed. It’s okay though,” Sandy sniffed
suddenly and he could see that she was holding back sobs, “because in the end, I love you enough
to make it right. I’m doing this to make your life right again.”
“Sandy!” He had curled up into a ball on the floor, his arms wrapped around his knees tightly, and
his hands over his ears like a small child trying to keep the words he knew was coming from
registering.
“I love you, sweetheart,” she smiled then and the screen went black. She was gone. Again.
Fragile arms wrapped around him and he felt his body shift as Bella began to rock him back and
forth like a child. “Why didn’t you ” he rasped out, breaths he didn’t need coming out
unnecessarily short and he knew if he were a human he’d be sobbing.
“It didn’t matter,” Bella muttered. “She was gone and I helped.”
“But you were trying to help me.”
“I did,” Bella answered. “What you needed was someone to blame so that’s what I did. I gave you
someone besides Sandy to blame.”
“Bella,” he reached up to place his hands on her cheeks, bringing her face down toward his. “I ”
“It’s okay, Edward,” she rested her forehead against his. “It will all be okay.”
He breathed in her scent, so different from her human life but some of the notes were still the
same. He took a second breath and let his hands fall to her waist, letting her cradle him as he held
onto her like a life preserver in a stormy sea. “It’ll get better,” she crooned and then kissed the top
of his head gently. “I promise, every day it will get a little better.”