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Rough River Coyotes 11

 

Catching a Clumsy Mate

 

He stumbles right into love without even realizing it… 

When clumsy cowboy Reid Holland is approached by a naked man, 

he damn near breaks his own neck falling off a ladder. Instantly 

smitten, Reid assumes the man must be for another. No way 

would he luck out and get such a stunning partner. But when the 

man turns out to be his mate, he’s convinced there’s been a 

mistake. 

Disoriented yet irresistibly drawn to Reid, stylist and party planner 

Finn Kirkpatrick struggles to remember what he’s doing in Utah, 

but one thing he’s not confused about is his attraction to the 

awkwardly shy cowboy. He is used to the finer things, but he also 

knows a good thing when he sees it, and Reid is just that. 

Genre: Alternative (M/M or F/F), Shape-shifter, Western/Cowboys 
Length: 36,434 words 

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Rough River Coyotes 11 

 
 
 
 
 

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CATCHING A CLUMSY 

MATE 

Rough River Coyotes 11 

 

ANITRA LYNN MCLEOD 

Copyright © 2013 

 
 
 
 
 

Chapter 1 

 
“Pardon me. I seem to be lost. Can you help me?” 
Reid Holland turned from trimming the orchard trees to find a 

naked man approaching him. Lord have mercy. From the other 
cowboys on the Rough River Ranch, he knew what a disoriented 
naked man meant, but that didn’t make him any less fumbling than 
usual. He damn near dropped the branch lopper right into his leg. 
Thankfully, he didn’t, but he did manage to wobble on the ladder.  

“Oh! Let me help you.” The naked man rushed over and grabbed 

Reid’s leg in an effort to steady him. Unfortunately, his touch caused 
a whole new kind of destabilization. This close, Reid got a good whiff 
of him. He smelled like the very essence of life distilled into the 
perfect scent. He was wild flowers, baking bread, a new bar of soap, 
and the scent of a fresh paperback all wrapped up into one. Instantly 
aroused, Reid realized his cock was about at the same level as the 
handsome stranger’s mouth. He swallowed hard. Reid tried to find 
something to say, but words escaped him. And then his intense 
shyness caused him to try to move away, forgetting completely the 
fact he was up on a ladder. Unable to find any semblance of balance, 
he tumbled off, landing on his butt in the dirt. He was embarrassed 

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beyond belief, but he stayed right where he was because he had a 
spectacular view of the man’s naked body. Just like his scent, his 
form was all the best things rolled up into one. 

“Are you all right?” Now he was kneeling beside Reid in the dirt, 

his expression concerned. His meticulously styled brown hair 
gleamed with multicolored highlights. His eyes were jade green. A 
beautifully soft, slightly opaque kind of jade. His lashes were so long 
they looked almost fake. If he hadn’t have been so close, Reid may 
have thought they were false, but they weren’t. They were real, and 
this man was simply stunning. “Oh, dear. Are you mute?” 

“I can talk.” Reid patted himself on the back for managing to get 

that out. If there had been anyone else around, he would have 
gratefully allowed them to help this man find his mate. But there was 
only him. There were plenty of cows in the next field over, but the 
nearest human was back at the farmhouse. 

“Allow me to help you up.” He offered out his hand. 
Reid just sat there staring. He was six three and a good two fifty 

while the man before him was maybe five seven and one sixty-five. 
Reid felt even more self-conscious than he normally did. He was 
supposed to be an alpha, yet he was the one who couldn’t manage to 
string two words together or even stand upright. But he’d also had 
manners drilled into him to the point he automatically offered out his 
hand. 

Reid managed to get to his feet without putting any strain on the 

other man, but once he was upright, the man didn’t let go of his hand. 
He was looking at Reid and blinking very fast. Convinced he had 
injured himself when he dropped the loppers, Reid looked down. All 
he saw was a damn big bulge in his jeans. Mortified, he wanted to 
turn away, but he didn’t want to take another tumble into the dirt. 

Instead, he thanked the handsome man for helping him and then 

stepped back, forcing him to let go of his glove-clad hand. He 
managed to do this without falling down. However, before he could 
congratulate himself on his miraculous ability to take a step without 

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turfing it, he realized he’d stepped into something that squished. He 
was convinced it was a cowpie, but he didn’t want to look down and 
see. If he had managed to step in shit, he didn’t want the man in front 
of him to notice. 

“You’ve crushed your box.” 
“What?” Reid was so poleaxed by the comment he looked down 

and realized what he’d squashed was the juice box he’d brought with 
him for lunch time. “Damn. That was my favorite flavor, too.” 

“Aren’t you a little old to be drinking out of a box?” 
Reid looked up. The guy was serious. For once, his almost 

crushing awkwardness disappeared. Who the hell was this guy to tell 
him what he should and shouldn’t drink? A strange mixture of anger 
and embarrassment made him put his hands on his hips, glare, and 
pointedly say, “I didn’t realize there was an age limit. Next time I’ll 
have my butler pack me a bottle of champagne to better suit his 
majesty.” 

The man flinched back. “I don’t know why I said that.” 
Rather than continue on with that rather meaningless subject, Reid 

asked, “What’s your name?” 

“I’m—I’m—Finn Kirkpatrick.” As soon as he said his name, he 

made a face. “That’s my real name. My given name. But that’s not 
what—I think I go by something else.” 

“I’ll just call you Finn until you remember the other name.” Reid 

bent over to pick up his now-mangled lunch. He’d taken the juice box 
out to sip on between snips, something he now regretted. He’d been 
planning on trimming the last tree then taking a break, but now he 
supposed he should take Finn up the farmhouse so he could figure out 
who his mate was. Just as Reid started to stand back up, he realized he 
was now at face level with Finn’s cock. His very hard cock. He was 
uncut, and as Reid stayed still, Finn grew enough that the head 
emerged from the foreskin. It was slow-motion sexy, causing Reid to 
lick his lips. What he wouldn’t give to move over the small fraction of 
space between them and suck on that sweet prick. 

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“What’s your name?” Finn asked. 
“Reid. Reid Holland.” Reid couldn’t take his gaze off Finn’s cock, 

but if he stayed bent over much longer, he knew he was going to 
make Finn think he was a weirdo. He straightened.   

Finn looked up at him and seemed to waver. 
“Are you injured?” Instantly alert, Reid dropped his lunch back in 

the dirt and circled around Finn, looking for blood. 

“I don’t think I am. I’m just very confused.” Finn dropped his 

hands down to cover his junk. “How did I get here?” 

“I don’t know. I was just trimming trees.” Reid didn’t want to be 

the one to explain everything to him because he’d make a huge mess 
of it.  

“Where am I?” 
“You’re on the Rough River Ranch. Seven hundred thousand 

acres of prime grazing land with a hundred thousand head of cattle.” 

“A ranch?” Finn made another face. “Why in the world would I 

have come here?” 

Reid knew why Finn was here, but he wasn’t too sure how to go 

about telling him he was a coyote-shifter looking for his mate. He was 
on the verge of explaining when his cell phone rang. It was his boss, 
Marshal, asking him how things were going. 

“Good.” Reid kept his gaze on Finn, noting that he looked equal 

amounts confused and repulsed. Reid wasn’t sure what was making 
him so upset, but whatever it was, it was annoying him plenty. Finn 
somehow managed to twist the handsome right off his face. “There’s 
a guy out here.” 

“A naked man?” Marshal asked. 
“Yeah.” Reid would have said a lot more, but he didn’t want to 

freak out Finn any more than he already seemed to be. “Says his name 
is Finn Kirkpatrick.” 

“Is he yours?” 
Reid stood there with the sun beating down on him, the smell of 

parched land and cherry juice in his nose, the feel of sweat-wet boots 

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on his feet, and a hard-on that was probably the most epic erection of 
his life. He had just automatically assumed Finn was here for 
someone else. But now that Marshal mentioned it, he allowed himself 
a quick fantasy of what it would be like to have a mate. Sadly, Reid 
saw himself tripping and falling on Finn, injuring him horribly. 

“Reid?” Marshal’s voice came over the phone with perfect clarity. 

Given how popular the area beyond their ranch was for recreation, the 
powers that be had recently installed a cell tower. Overnight, they 
went from having the worst reception to the best. But that didn’t 
matter when Reid didn’t know what to say. “Do you need help?” 

“I fell off the ladder.” Reid had no clue why he was telling 

Marshal about his fumbling. It wasn’t like the man didn’t know he’d 
hired on a grade-A klutz. But Marshal had never made Reid feel less 
for his issues. Left alone and given solitary work, Reid got along just 
fine. It was only when he was around other men, especially attractive 
ones, that he became a lightning rod for every mishap in the universe. 
If something could go wrong, it would, but only while Reid was in 
close proximity to a man he found attractive.  

“Are you injured?” 
“No. I’m embarrassed.” Reid realized Finn was looking at him 

curiously. “I’m fine. I’ll bring him up to the farmhouse.” 

“Is he yours?” 
Rather than answer, Reid hung up. Knowing Marshal, he’d 

probably think he did it accidentally. That was good. He hadn’t 
wanted to be rude, but he also had no idea how to answer that 
question. Was Finn here for him? If he was, he was going to be 
devastated to find out he had a big, clumsy oaf for a mate. 

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Chapter 2 

 
Finn Kirkpatrick was the name he’d been born with, but that 

wasn’t what he called himself. He was certain of that. It was such an 
excessively Scottish name that when he used it he felt a burning need 
to be dressed in a kilt and speak with a thick accent. To get away from 
his roots, he’d moved to the big city and reinvented himself.  

“New York City.” 
“That’s where you’re from?” Reid tucked his phone back into his 

front pocket. Given how hard the man was, there didn’t seem to be a 
lot of room in his jeans. When Finn realized he was riveted to the 
man’s crotch, he yanked his gaze away so abruptly he managed to 
take a step back. He was relieved when he hit dirt and not a cow patty 
or a sticker patch. It had taken him forever to get to Reid because he’d 
been dodging both along the way. 

“That’s where I live.” Finn looked around at the hot, dry 

landscape. The air was so devoid of humidity his skin suddenly felt 
unbelievably itchy. His mouth was also so dry that the juice box he’d 
disdained now looked inordinately good. He didn’t even care that 
there was a big heelprint crushing the bottom. The top half looked 
okay. But he could hardly ask this man to share it with him when he’d 
put him down for having it in the first place. 

“You’re a long way from New York.” 
“Where am I, exactly?” Finn felt he should apologize and explain 

that he honestly hadn’t meant any harm earlier, but he wasn’t really 
sure why he’d piped up with the comment in the first place. 
Something to do with his job, maybe? Everything was out of focus 
and fuzzy in his head. It was like the information was there. He just 

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couldn’t quite see it through the haze. 

“Utah.” 
“Utah?” That was one of those states he’d heard about but had 

never had any inclination to visit. Finn liked nightlife. He adored glitz 
and glamor. Awakening without a stich of clothing annoyed him 
beyond comprehension. It wasn’t the fact that he was naked, but the 
fact that he would make a horrible impression without clothing. That 
thought only caused him to furrow his brow and wonder at himself. 
Just what kind of a man was he? He seemed far more concerned with 
making a good impression than he did with the fact he was nude 
without any solid memories from the night before. 

“Utah. Forty-fifth state of the Union. Famous for honeybees, 

skiing, and polygamy.” 

“Utah.” Just the name Utah spoke of exactly what he found 

himself standing in now—bleak, boring, and mostly unpopulated 
land. Why would anyone want to live here when the city was so 
exciting? “Where’s the nearest city?” 

“Scorpion is about fifty miles that way.” Reid pointed. “But I 

wouldn’t call it a city.” 

“No?” 
“No.” Reid shook his head. “More like a town. Nice place though. 

Good eats at some of the restaurants. Not as good as Cassidy’s food 
but nothing really is.” 

“Cassidy?” 
“Chief cook and bottle washer for the ranch.” 
Finn could only peer up at the massive cowboy. He was tall and 

broad, dressed in a blue chambray shirt, faded dungarees, a light tan 
hat, and matching gloves. Although, to be fair, he didn’t think the 
gloves were selected because they matched the hat. No. This was a 
working man who probably picked his wardrobe for functionality and 
not visual appeal. But then he noticed there was a kerchief around his 
neck. It was powder blue and matched the man’s eyes. The 
inappropriate erection he’d gotten when Reid bent down to retrieve 

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his lunch was back and stronger than ever. What in the world was 
wrong with him? Yes, the man was handsome in a rough way, but he 
was most definitely not Finn’s type. 

“How in the world did I end up out here?” Finn felt dazed. “The 

last thing I remember is driving.” That was strange in and of itself 
because he didn’t think he did a lot of driving in New York. He either 
walked or took taxicabs everywhere. 

“Well, there’s a reason for everything. I can’t really explain it all 

here. Let’s get you up to the big house.” 

“Big house?” Finn was mortified to realize that he was echoing 

everything this man said. 

“The farmhouse.” 
Finn felt utterly off center. All he could think about clearly was 

how rough this man’s shadow of a beard would feel against his face 
when they kissed. When? The word echoed in his head. He was not 
going to kiss this man. As soon as he told himself that, his cock only 
got harder and his attention only riveted more fully on the cowboy’s 
mouth. He was lightly sweaty and a little dusty from his work, but his 
lips were clean. They also were a little redder than usual, probably 
because of the juice. While he watched, Reid licked his lips, causing 
Finn to utter a hungry little cry. 

Reid’s brows lifted, tilting his hat back a bit. Obviously, he’d 

heard the noise Finn had just made. In answer, he growled. It was a 
low, aggressive sound that somehow managed to wrap around Finn’s 
body. And then he was stepping forward, intent on kissing a man he 
didn’t know. Reid stood still, watching him, his powder-blue eyes 
displaying his excitement and a stunned kind of disbelief. 

Breathless with anticipation, Finn placed his hands against Reid’s 

chest, stunned by the hardness of his muscles. He wasn’t a man who 
got his tan from a spray or his build from a gym. He was all real. And 
Finn was going to kiss him. Finn closed his eyes right as their lips 
came together.  

Magic.  

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There was no other word to describe the feeling that possessed 

him. What he had right here and right now was something so 
enchanting that he wasn’t allowed to come to this moment with full 
knowledge of himself. He would only ruin everything. Somehow, the 
fates had stripped him of his identity to show him what his life had 
been lacking. 

Reid seemed to be holding himself deliberately still. He didn’t 

grasp Finn or open his mouth. He simply stood and allowed Finn to 
kiss him. When Finn pressed closer and parted his lips, Reid followed 
suit. Slipping his tongue into his mouth allowed Finn to taste the fruit 
juice that Reid had been drinking. It was sweet and oddly familiar, but 
he wasn’t prepared for how famished he suddenly felt. It wasn’t a 
hunger for food that gripped him, but a need for sex. He wanted to 
have this man right here in the middle of the fruit trees. 

Urged onward by powerful primal drives, Finn moved closer to 

Reid, deepening their kiss. When he felt Reid’s cock against his belly, 
Finn slid his hand down to palm him. Right before he made contact, 
Reid’s cell phone clamored for attention.  

Reid stumbled back so quickly he apparently tripped over his own 

feet. He fell backward, landing on his butt. Unfortunately, he hit the 
juice box. Bright red fluid gushed out and down the inside of his 
jeans. 

Finn stood, stunned. He had an insane urge to laugh but didn’t 

want to hurt Reid’s feelings. All the while his phone was still blaring.  

Clearly embarrassed, Reid fished the thing out of his pants. Rather 

than snarl in answer, he simply said, “Yeah?” Reid then listened to 
whoever was on the other end. He made a point of not looking at 
Finn. He also didn’t bother getting up. “Call Marshal. I have 
something I have to take care of.” He listened again, this time with his 
eyes closed. “Just get someone else, would you? I really can’t. I have 
someone with me.” 

Whoever he was talking to started talking so loudly Reid pulled 

the phone away from his ear. He looked up at Finn, shook his head, 

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and rolled his eyes. Without moving the speaker close to him, he drew 
the microphone close and said, “I have to go.” Reid turned the phone 
off and slipped it back into his pocket. 

“You’re not having a very good day, are you?” Finn crouched 

down beside him. 

Reid laughed. “It’s pretty normal so far. Well, except for that kiss. 

That’s not normal at all.” 

“You expect me to believe that a naked man hasn’t come up to 

you in an orchard and kissed you so passionately you fell on your 
fanny?” 

Reid blushed ever so slightly. He darted his powder-blue gaze up 

and shook his head. “No. That happens to me every day. But 
squashing my juice box so it looks like I had a horrible accident 
between my legs? That’s the surprise.” 

Finn laughed and offered out his hand again. He didn’t know why 

he bothered. If Reid actually put any weight on him, he’d probably 
toss him over his shoulder.  

“I’m good.” 
They stood together. 
“Sorry I’m such a mess.” 
“You’re just very shy, aren’t you?” 
“Yeah.” Reid tilted his head down, using his hat to shade his eyes. 

“I should get you to the farmhouse.” 

Without looking, Reid set off walking. Finn got a great view of 

him and his cherry-stained butt. He took two steps to follow but 
stopped. He’d walked across the open field to get to Reid. To do so 
he’d had to dodge cow patties and stickers. Of course, he hadn’t 
known they were stickers until he stepped in them. Here, there 
seemed to be less of the low-growing plants, but that didn’t mean he 
was keen on finding out. 

“Reid?” 
“What?” He turned around and instantly made a face. “Lord have 

mercy. I’m such a jackass.” He ran back over to Finn’s side. “Here, 

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let me carry you.” 

The idea of being in this man’s arms for any length of time made 

Finn feel positively giddy. However, when Reid turned and crouched 
down, Finn was confused. 

“Hop on my back.” 
Feeling foolish for having practically thrown himself at this man, 

who clearly wasn’t interested, Finn climbed onto his back. Reid 
grasped his knees while Finn clung to his shoulders. When Reid set 
off across the dusty prairie, Finn discovered that his fascination for 
this shy and almost painfully awkward cowboy was only getting far 
more intense. With each step he took, Finn’s cock rubbed into his 
lower back. The man simply had to feel the hot, hard length. Finn 
kept waiting for him to say something, but Reid stayed remarkably 
silent. 

Afraid that if he spoke he would only distract him and cause him 

to fall again, Finn stayed silent and tried to understand why he was so 
aroused. He couldn’t remember everything about himself, but he was 
fairly certain Reid wasn’t the typical guy he was attracted to. For 
some reason, he kept seeing himself with men who were as well put 
together as he usually was. Finn knew he was always impeccably 
groomed. He was certain of that. He also wouldn’t ever drink 
anything out of a box, and he certainly wouldn’t go anywhere with a 
man who was sweaty and smelled so incredibly good. 

Finn buried his nose against Reid’s back and sniffed. Yes, it was 

definitely him that smelled so wickedly pleasant. It wasn’t cologne or 
laundry soap or anything manmade. It was the smell of a man. A real 
man. Finn wanted to start with his lips then work his way down to his 
thick and hairy cock. 

That made him tense. 
How did he know that Reid was hairy? Finn looked down at 

Reid’s forearms. They were covered with a light dusting of black hair. 
Given what this man did for a living, it was doubtful he shaved 
himself. He’d obviously not bothered to shave his face this morning, 

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so the rest of him was probably in a very natural state. Somehow, the 
thought of Reid naked and coming toward him made Finn keenly 
aware of how his cock was rubbing on his back. 

“Stop!” 
“What’s wrong?” Reid stopped and instantly put Finn down. 
It was only then that Finn realized he was a stroke away from 

climax. When Reid turned around, the first place he looked was down 
at Finn’s cock. 

“What’s wrong with me?” 
“You’re turned on?” Reid looked from his prick to his face then 

away.  

“I know that. The question is why?” 
“It’s not your fault.” Reid met his gaze for barely a second before 

he was looking away again. “It’s because I’m your mate.” 

“Mate?” 
“I’m really sorry.” Reid met his gaze, and his heartfelt pain was 

evident. “But you don’t have to be stuck with me. I’ll get you to the 
house then go. Eventually, you’ll switch over to another guy who 
isn’t such a disaster.” 

“I don’t understand.” 
“See? I can’t even explain something without making a mess. I’m 

hopeless.” 

“You’re not.” Finn took half a step closer, feeling again a 

profound urge to kiss this man that he didn’t know. The word mate 
was one that he knew and understood, but he had a feeling he wasn’t 
grasping the full meaning that Reid was trying to convey. “I think 
you’re incredibly sweet.” 

“Yeah? That’s only because I’ve got cherry juice all over my ass.”  
Finn couldn’t help it. He laughed. When Reid looked up, he 

initially looked hurt, but then he seemed to realize that Finn was 
laughing at the situation, not him. Reid laughed, too, but he kept his 
attention on the ground. 

Drawn to him again, Finn moved close. “Kiss me.” 

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“You don’t have to be stuck with me.” 
“I’m not stuck with you.” Finn moved slowly because he didn’t 

want to startle him. The last thing he wanted was to have Reid fall 
down a third time. “I want to kiss you because I want to kiss you.” 

“But there are men who are way better.” Reid looked on the verge 

of launching into a full-blown argument about why he was unsuitable, 
so Finn kissed him quiet. This time, Reid wrapped his arms around 
him. At first, his hold was tentative, but the more Finn deepened the 
kiss, the firmer his grip became. Eventually, his glove-clad hands 
cupped Finn’s buttocks. Carefully, he lifted Finn up, pressing him so 
tight he almost couldn’t breathe. And then Reid was grinding their 
cocks together. Each pass heightened Finn’s awareness and made him 
almost desperate for release. He felt he’d been saving up a climax for 
his entire life.  

Tearing his mouth away, Finn rose up so that he was able to wrap 

his legs around Reid’s waist. Now that he had better maneuverability, 
he was able to control more of the movement. He was also able to 
reach between their bodies and free Reid’s cock from his dungarees. 
Hot flesh met hot flesh, spilling copious amounts of pre-cum. Since 
Reid was so strong and able to hold him up without Finn having to 
hang on, Finn was able to wrap his hand around both of their cocks so 
they were sliding past one another within the tight channel of his fist.  

“I’m so close. So very close.” Finn had to let go of their cocks 

because he wanted to kiss Reid and he couldn’t reach. As their 
mouths came together, Finn tightened his legs, Reid tightened his 
hands, and they climaxed amid growls and whimpers. Clinging to his 
shoulders, kissing him more gently, Finn realized that though he 
didn’t have all his memories, he was positive he’d never done 
anything like that. 

“We shouldn’t have done that.” Reid pulled back only long 

enough to speak, but then he was back, kissing Finn possessively. 

“Why not?” Finn asked between kisses. 
“Because now I don’t think I can let you go.” 

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Finn felt a confusing conflict. He felt content in Reid’s arms. He 

knew what they’d just shared was only a taste of what they could 
have together, but he also knew this place wasn’t right for him. He 
was a city boy in the arms of a very big and sexy country man. 
Normally, such a momentary dip into another lifestyle wouldn’t be 
more than a way to pass the time, but he knew without asking that 
what he was falling into with Reid was a forever-after kind of thing. 
The question was, just how much of his glamorous lifestyle was he 
willing to give up? 

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Chapter 3 

 
Reid knew he should have just kept going when Finn told him to 

stop. He’d loved the way his cock was stroking along his back. He 
was counting his steps, wondering how many it would take to make 
him climax. Since Reid had to change his pants, he wouldn’t mind 
changing his shirt, too. But then Finn had seemed panicked. So Reid 
stopped. And then they were kissing again. His mouth had tasted so 
incredibly good. Reid had wanted to tell him that he was a wonderful 
kisser, but he didn’t want to confess the truth that he actually had 
nothing to compare his kiss to.  

Reid had never kissed anyone.  
And then the kiss had gone wild. When Finn had unfastened 

Reid’s jeans and forced their cocks to rub together, he thought he was 
dreaming. Never in his life had he ever felt what he did with this 
stunning young man. It was powerful and fast, a blinding kind of need 
to mark him before another alpha came along. Reid had been 
determined to give Finn a chance with one of the other men on the 
ranch, but all that got swept away by raw need. Reid wanted Finn. He 
didn’t want anyone else to ever touch him. Not intimately like this. 
And then they were moving faster, their kisses were more frantic, and 
then he’d climaxed so hard he swore time stood still. 

When Reid came back to reality, he wanted to hold onto Finn so 

tightly he could never get away. Even though Reid knew that was 
wrong—he’d seen his own father ruin relationship after relationship 
with his desperate clinging ways—he also didn’t want to do anything 
to imprison his mate. 

Mate

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That word evoked so much for Reid. He thought of lazy Sunday 

mornings in bed. Reading the same books and then talking about who 
would be best to play the characters in the movie version. They would 
be able to do anything together and be happy. Just as Reid was falling 
into the warm fuzzy bliss of that fantasy, he saw himself falling out of 
bed and ruining the moment. He would somehow manage to drop the 
book in the toilet, destroying it so it had to be thrown away. And 
anywhere they went he would stumble, fall, and embarrass the both of 
them. As much as he wanted someone to share his life with, he 
couldn’t inflict that on Finn. 

“It’s not fair to you.” Reluctantly, Reid put him down. “You 

shouldn’t have to just get a mate but should be able to pick one.” 

“I have no idea what you’re talking about.” Finn stood there 

rather awkwardly. Reid blamed himself. 

“Get on my back, and let me get you to the house.” 
“There’s a huge mess on your shirt.” 
“It balances out the mess on my jeans.” Reid buttoned up his 

pants, tucked in his shirt, and then bent over so Finn could climb on 
him. Once he was settled, he moved swiftly toward the farmhouse. 
“Trust me, no one is going to look twice.” 

“Why?” 
“Because I’m the resident klutz.” Reid let out a sigh that did little 

to make him feel better. “But you don’t have to be stuck with me. If 
you just wait for a few days, you’ll find another alpha.” 

“What in the world are you talking about?” 
Rather than answer, Reid decided to shut up and walk faster. 

Someone at the house could explain it to him because heaven knew 
Reid would only make a mess of it, just like he did everything else. 
By the time he got to the porch, he was huffing and puffing hard 
enough to almost blow the door down. Before he could, Storm opened 
the door and came flying out so fast he almost knocked Reid over. 

“Sorry!” Storm kept right on going. From the brief glimpse Reid 

had of his face, Storm was upset. Really upset. So much so that he 

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was crying. 

“Damn it, Storm. That isn’t what I meant at all!” Cassidy was 

right on his mate’s heels. He stopped abruptly in the doorway. “Reid. 
Hi.” Cassidy’s gaze went past him, obviously watching Storm.  

“Is everything okay?” Reid didn’t want to get into the middle of a 

fight, but he also couldn’t just stand there and say nothing. Honestly, 
he was worried. Storm and Cassidy were perfectly suited mates who 
seemed to work so well together. To see them at odds made him 
realize he would never be able to make a pairing work. Just like his 
dad always said, he was better off alone. 

“Storm is upset.” Cassidy left it at that. “But it looks like we have 

another visitor.” His smile was genuine. “I’m Cassidy.” 

“Chief cook and bottle washer,” Finn said. 
“Ah. I see my reputation precedes me.” 
“This is Finn Kirkpatrick. He needs to be cleaned up, fed, dressed, 

the whole bit.” Reid released Finn from his back, relieved that his part 
in this was over. Unfortunately, before he could hoof it, Cassidy took 
one look at him and tsked.  

“Looks like you had an accident. Or two.” Cassidy blushed 

suddenly, probably because he realized what had caused the stain on 
Reid’s shirt. “Come on in. I just folded your laundry, so you’ve got 
some clean jeans and shirts.” 

Knowing it would be rude to walk off, and he really didn’t want to 

spend the day in sticky red pants, Reid followed Finn who followed 
Cassidy into the house. The first thing that hit him was a blast of cool 
air. It was heavenly. Morning was still filling in the valley, but it was 
the last of summer. The temperature should be falling off a little each 
day, but apparently, Mother Nature didn’t get the memo because it 
seemed to Reid it was getting hotter each day. 

“I’ll just go up and—” 
“You are going to come in here and help your mate get situated.” 

Cassidy went into the laundry room. 

“What is this mate thing about?” Finn asked. 

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Cassidy spun and looked from Finn, to Reid, to the wet spots on 

Reid’s shirt, then up to Reid’s eyes. “You didn’t tell him?” 

“I tried, but I was making a mess of it just like I do everything, so 

I stopped.” 

Cassidy sighed. “Let’s get you settled and then we’ll talk.” 

Cassidy grabbed a bright-blue storage bin and then handed it to Finn. 
“Help yourself to anything in these stacks and or on those hangers.” 

While Finn was looking over the collection of clothes, some new, 

some used, Cassidy handed Reid a stack of laundry. Just as he always 
did, Reid buried his nose in the pile and sniffed. Nothing smelled as 
good as laundry that had hung outside to dry. Well, there was Finn’s 
scent, but Reid was doing his best not to think about that. 

“You should have told him,” Cassidy admonished. 
“I didn’t know how.” 
“He’s yours. It’s really—” 
“I don’t want him.” 
Cassidy’s cinnamon eyes went so wide it was a wonder they 

didn’t fall out of his head.  

“He can do a hell of a lot better than me.” Reid kept his voice 

down because he didn’t want Finn to join in on the conversation. He 
just wanted to go up to his room, clean up, get dressed, and then go 
back out to the orchard. “I’m going to go change. I’ll sleep out in the 
barn so another alpha can pick up on his scent.” 

Cassidy opened his mouth to respond, but Reid turned away 

before he could. Feeling like a total coward, he hoofed it up to the 
second floor. He went past Paul’s old room and into his own. Paul 
and Jacob were in their house now. It was a good thing. Jacob was 
loud. Really loud. When the two had been mating, all the single 
alphas had to leave the big house. Jacob had been releasing a glut of 
beta pheromones, but also, the noise was enough to make every man 
on the ranch—mated or not—crave someone to mate with.  

Reid was no exception. 
Desperate to get away, Reid had tossed some camping gear 

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together then rode off to the swimming hole near the river. He’d spent 
the night looking at the stars and wondering what kind of a mate he’d 
get. Each time he pictured the moment, he saw himself messing it up 
somehow. In the end, he decided he was better off alone. He vowed if 
and when some beautiful naked man came up to him, he’d make sure 
he went to someone else. The fact that Finn was so handsome wasn’t 
going to make him change his mind. Reid had made his decision and 
he was going to stick with it. 

On his way up the stairs, he kept the clean laundry close so he 

could smell that and not the lingering essence of Finn. If he didn’t get 
his scent off him, he was going to lose his resolve to leave Finn for 
another alpha. 

Once inside his room, Reid closed the door and stripped out of his 

clothes. Before he could change his mind about pursuing Finn, he 
shoved his dirty clothing into the hamper then put some towels on top 
for good measure. He didn’t want the scent to sneak out and mess 
with his resolve. Bare, he went into his shower. Most of the rooms 
had claw-foot tubs, but his little room had been some kind of storage 
area, so he had a more modern shower that was plenty big enough for 
him. Since he’d only managed to prune a few of the wind-damaged 
orchard trees, he wasn’t that dirty, but he still thoroughly cleaned 
himself. From what Paul—their resident chemist and cowpuncher—
had said, there didn’t have to be a lot of pheromones to make a man 
crazy. 

It dawned on Reid then that Finn would also be driven by those 

itty bitty chemical messengers. Still, if he showered and didn’t come 
near Reid again, Finn would eventually find another alpha. That was 
what had happened to Storm. He’d been raped by his intended and 
had run here, seeking sanctuary at the ranch. He’d ended up with 
Cassidy, and they made a perfect couple. 

Although, that made Reid wonder why the two were fighting. 

Storm was volatile, but it was pretty impossible for anyone to get into 
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easygoing. No one had a sweeter disposition than the ranch’s cook. 

“And it’s none of my business.” 
“What isn’t?” 
Reid startled and damn near fell in the shower. Thankfully, when 

he and Marshal had been designing it, they’d used slightly rough 
rocks to line the bottom. Instead of taking a header, Reid’s feet 
gripped up on the rocks, holding him in place. When he peered 
through the vapor-covered glass wall, he realized Finn was in his 
bathroom.  

After settling his plastic bin on the closed toilet seat, Finn opened 

the shower door and walked right in like he belonged there. Naked, 
unfazed, and clearly intent on sharing the shower, Finn looked up at 
him and again asked, “What isn’t any of your business?” 

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“Nothing. You should just wait your turn.” 
“Didn’t you ever learn to share?” 
Rather than answer, Reid turned away. Finn wasn’t about to let 

Reid dismiss him because he thought he wasn’t worthy. Cassidy 
hadn’t explained everything about this mating thing, but he’d given 
Finn enough information to know that there was an inevitability to the 
event. 

“No matter who you are or where you’re from, you’re in the right 

place for you to be. You can fight it all you want, but you’ll just make 
yourself—and probably a bunch of other people—miserable in the 
process.” Cassidy had sighed and looked upward. “Reid’s a good 
man.” 

“But?” 
“But he’s a little clumsy and very self-conscious.” 
“He’s also very sweet.” Finn still didn’t remember everything 

about his past, but he recalled enough to sympathize with Reid. He 
was fairly certain there had been a time when he didn’t think of 
himself as good enough. He’d changed his opinion, but doing so took 
hard work, dedication, and surrounding himself with people who 
loved him for who he was. Maybe all Reid needed was someone to 
show him the way. 

“Reid is one of the gentlest men I know.” Cassidy’s smile was 

bright and welcoming. “A man could do plenty worse than to have a 
mate like him.” 

Trusting his instincts, Finn took his small pile of possessions up to 

the second floor. Even though he could hear the shower running, he’d 

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still be able to track Reid down just by his scent. As much as Finn 
wanted to call himself an urban sophisticate, he still had plenty of 
primal human drives. And from what little information he’d managed 
to glean from Cassidy, there was an animal component that was 
driving him toward Reid and vice versa. Unable to wrap his head 
around being a coyote-shifter, Finn ignored that aspect for now. He 
didn’t remember turning into a coyote last night in order to track 
down his mate, but that didn’t mean it wasn’t true. It only meant that 
he really couldn’t think about it at this moment. 

Finn had stopped outside Reid’s bedroom door, wondering if he’d 

locked it. When he found out it wasn’t, he took it as a bit of an 
invitation until he got in and realized it didn’t have a lock. 
Unperturbed, Finn continued on into the bathroom to find that Reid 
was talking to himself. 

Bold as brass, Finn had let himself right into the big shower. He’d 

thought there was plenty of room until he found himself practically 
nose to chest with Reid. 

“You should go into Paul’s old room. Next door. It’s empty, and 

you’ll be safe there.” Reid had a death grip on the bath puff. 

“I don’t want to be safe.” Finn took the puff from him, added 

more shower gel, and then proceeded to lather Reid’s body. Just as he 
imagined while clinging to his back in the orchard, he was hairy. And 
it was sexier than Finn could have imagined. There was a light 
sprinkling of hair along his chest, just like on his arms, that thickened 
near his cock then got lighter again along his legs. 

“Keep hanging around me and you’re bound to get hurt.” 
“Is that a threat?” Finn asked playfully. 
“I told you I’m a walking accident. I’m surprised I haven’t already 

inflicted you with a permanent injury.” 

“You’re way too hard on yourself.” Finn slipped his hand around 

Reid’s cock. “Speaking of hard.” 

“Don’t.” Reid pushed his hand away and turned. 
Finn just washed his backside. Reid’s entire body, including his 

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ass, was nothing but muscle. He was a big man, and normally Finn 
would be intimidated, but Reid was also terminally shy, which made 
him seem far less frightening. As he stroked over him, Finn suddenly 
realized why Reid was so determined to push him away. It wasn’t just 
fear of harming him with his clumsiness, but he literally didn’t know 
what to do with him. Finn was pretty sure that Reid was a virgin. 

“I need you to explain all this to me.” Finn was done washing 

him, so he added more suds and cleaned himself. He wasn’t 
particularly dirty, only dusty, but smoothing the puff over his body 
gave him something to do. Cleaning up also proved to him very 
clearly that he was thoroughly aroused even though he’d just recently 
had one of the most intense orgasms of his life. 

“I don’t—I can’t—I’m not any good at this kind of thing.” Reid 

rinsed himself vigorously then got out of the shower before Finn 
could stop him.  

Rather than run after him, Finn finished up, rinsed off, and then 

stepped out. To his surprise, Reid was standing there with a towel. 

“Thank you.” Finn accepted the towel, watching how Reid’s gaze 

met his with so much want showing it was positively hungry. 

“Why did you come in here?” Reid picked up his own towel from 

the edge of the sink and finished drying himself off. 

“Because you’re my mate.” Finn was surprised how right it felt to 

say. He still didn’t remember an awful lot about his past, but he took 
Cassidy’s words to heart. There was a reason he was here, and 
fighting against fate was going to hurt. So he didn’t. Eventually, he’d 
know everything there was to know. Finn seriously doubted that it 
would change his mind about Reid. He believed there was something 
basic that drew couples together. To hang it on a scent seemed silly, 
but then again, animals didn’t have nearly the issues humans did 
when it came to forming loving and lasting relationships. 

“You can do better.” 
“Stop putting yourself down.” 
“I’m not. I’m just being honest.” Reid dried his hair, twisting the 

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black strands around his head. He looked wild and untamed, filling 
Finn with a need to civilize him. Or perhaps what was really pushing 
Finn was a longing to indulge himself in dropping his civilized 
veneer.  

“Do I look like a man who knows what he wants to you?” After 

drying himself, Finn put the towel over the bar, ensuring that the tag 
was in the back and the decorative front was facing out. When Reid 
tossed his haphazardly over the bar, Finn straightened it with a fussy 
kind of automatic need to have things in order. He found it funny that 
simply doing everyday actions revealed exactly what kind of a man 
he was. “Well? Do I?” 

“You look like a man who only wants the best.” 
The comment surprised Finn. 
“Look at your hands.” 
Finn lifted them and looked. 
“Your nails are neatly trimmed, buffed, and there’s not a callus 

anywhere on you.” Reid stuck out his hand. “Now look at mine.” 

Finn took Reid’s hand into his. His hand was big, strong, callused, 

and his nails were a mess. They were clean, but ragged and uneven, 
almost as if he had a habit of biting them off when they got too long. 

Reid tried to take his hand back, but Finn wouldn’t let go. He 

found tremendous pleasure in simply holding his hand. “What’s your 
point?” 

“My point is that we are totally different people.” 
“And that means we would never work?” 
“That’s what that means.” Reid tugged on his hand, and Finn let 

him go. “You need someone more sophisticated.” 

Finn had a flash of memory. He was dressed to the nines, floating 

around a party like a social butterfly. The man next to him was 
impeccably groomed and had an outward persona as a successful 
businessman. But there was a horrible dark side to him. He was sickly 
possessive of Finn. He wanted to tie him up and hit him to prove his 
mastery. He’d slapped Finn once, hard. So hard that the mark had 

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meant Finn had to stay in their shared apartment for two weeks until 
the bruise faded. He’d left him after that. But he’d been afraid, too. 
Not that the man would follow him but that he’d never do any better 
because he was more concerned with appearance than substance. 

“Finn?” Reid was there, pulling him into his arms. “Are you 

okay?” 

“I remembered someone.” 
“Your true mate?” 
“A man who hurt me.” 
Reid quite literally transformed from a worried friend into a 

furious protector. “Who hurt you?” 

“He’s long gone.” Finn reached up and cupped Reid’s face. “But 

you’re here.” 

“I’m not—” 
Finn didn’t want to hear any more self-deprecating talk, so he cut 

Reid off with a kiss. Reid melted into him, clearly wanting more, but 
just as obviously afraid. Refusing to stop, Finn managed to urge Reid 
back to his bed. It was a big sleigh bed with a light, clear stain on the 
oak wood and a crazy quilt spread over the top. Once he had Reid on 
the bed, he urged him to his back and into the center. 

“I shouldn’t. I don’t want to hurt you.” 
“You won’t.” 
“I will.” Reid’s whole face scrunched up. “I always find a way to 

mess things up.” 

“Not this time.” Finn grasped Reid’s wrist and lifted it toward the 

head of the bed. “Did you ever play make-believe?” 

“A long time ago.” 
“Pretend that I’ve tied you up.” Finn placed Reid’s other hand 

above his head. “You can’t move unless I tell you to.” 

“Why?” 
“You’re worried about hurting me, right?” 
“Yeah.” 
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“No. I’ll find a way. You just don’t know me the way I know me.” 
Finn leaned close, placing his mouth right above Reid’s. “I know 

enough to know you are without a doubt the sweetest man I’ve ever 
met.” 

Reid blinked several times. 
“You know something? I do that, too, when I know something 

deep inside but I can’t quite wrap my head around the truth.” 

“What?” 
“Blinking fast. You know I’m right. Just how out in the orchard I 

looked at you and did that because I knew I wanted you with this 
intense longing but I was afraid.” Finn kissed him gently. “But I’m 
not afraid now. No matter what you say to me, I’m not afraid of you.” 

Reid looked on the verge of arguing that they shouldn’t be 

together, but he also seemed to be so hopeful that they should be. 
Watching him was like witnessing a beautiful tragedy unfolding. 

“I’m right,” Finn said. 
“Please don’t let me hurt you.” 
“I won’t.”  
“What are you going to do to me?” Reid suddenly didn’t seem 

quite as worried. Now he seemed intrigued. 

“I’m going to claim my mate.” 
“Cassidy told you?” 
“He said I shifted into a coyote to find you. He also said that once 

we mate you’ll be able to shift into one, too.” Finn kissed Reid’s 
cheeks and chin, surprised at how good his short, sharp hairs felt 
against him. According to his spotty memory, he’d only kissed men 
who were tightly shaved. In a way he was glad that Reid was his first 
real man because Finn was certain he was Reid’s first all the way 
around.  

“Did Cassidy mention it’s not a destiny thing? If you wait, you’ll 

eventually find another alpha that smells just as good to you as I do.” 

“I want you.” 
“But you haven’t met the others.” 

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“I don’t care.” 
“But once we do this, it’s a forever kind of thing.” 
“I know.” 
“But—” 
“If you say but one more time, I’m going to tie you up for real.” 
Reid smiled. “Will you, now?” 
“I will. Don’t I look serious?” Finn flashed what he hoped was his 

most severe expression. 

“You look very intent.” 
“I am.” Finn straddled Reid. “Cassidy said that there was no point 

to fighting the inevitable. I’m here, and you’re my mate. So you’d just 
better deal with it.” 

“I’ve never…” Reid wasn’t able to finish. Instead, he looked away 

and seemed totally embarrassed. 

“I’m glad.” 
Reid’s gaze snapped to him. “You are?” 
“I am.” Finn kissed him half a dozen times. “My only regret is 

that I wish I could give you the same.” 

“I don’t mind.” Reid actually looked relieved. “One of us should 

know what the hell we’re doing.” 

“I didn’t say that.” Finn settled himself so that he was sitting 

lightly right on top of Reid’s straining cock, the heat of which was so 
intense it was almost too much. Almost. “I have to say with you 
everything feels brand new.”  

“Everything?” 
“It’s like I woke up today and realized everything in my life was 

only filling space.” 

“I don’t understand.” 
“I put all these things in my world to make it seem full when you 

were what was missing.” Finn kissed Reid before he could answer. 
He did this because he wanted to taste his mouth again, and he smiled 
slightly when he was still able to taste a faint bit of cherry, but 
mainly, Finn kissed Reid because he suddenly felt intensely sad that 

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so much of what he thought he needed to make his existence 
worthwhile was nothing more than stuff. The man below him was 
real. He was deliciously simple. Not in mind, but in the elements that 
made him whole. There was a complexity to Reid, but the fact was he 
was more open and honest than anything in Finn’s world. “Please 
don’t send me away.”  

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“I don’t think I could send you away.” Reid kept his hands up and 

his legs extended and spread. He allowed himself to be captive to 
Finn as a way to protect them both. “I’ve been trying to put you off 
since you came to me, but you’re the most determined man I’ve ever 
met.” 

“And don’t you ever forget it.” 
“I won’t.” Reid laughed lightly. “I don’t think you’d let me.” 
Finn squirmed atop Reid’s cock, making him struggle to hold 

steady. Finn’s ass was small, tight, and he had a way of moving that 
was somehow like he had an extra joint in his hips. In a simultaneous 
wave, he moved up, down, and all around to the point Reid was pretty 
sure he was going to climax again without ever having gotten inside 
Finn. But maybe that was for the best. If he never penetrated him, 
Reid couldn’t start the bonding process, and Finn would still be free 
to find another. 

“You make me crazy.” 
“I do?” Reid hadn’t done anything, so he wasn’t certain how he’d 

managed to inflame Finn’s desire. Maybe whatever Cassidy said had 
caused him to feel sorry for him. “I’ll stop.” 

“What?” 
“I’ll stop making you crazy.” 
“Is that so?” Finn laughed lightly. “I don’t think that’s going to 

make a damn bit of difference.” 

Before Reid could answer, Finn’s lips were locked again with his. 

Finn was rocking his hips faster, harder, and so frantically Reid 
thought he was going to be unable to keep his hands up. More than 

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anything, he wanted to grasp onto him, center him, and then thrust 
into his ass until he was buried to the hilt. He wanted to know what it 
would be like to claim another. But then again, the last thing he 
wanted to do was hurt anyone, especially not a man as stunning as 
Finn. So Reid kept his hands up. He stayed still. His body ached, his 
mind rebelled, and the animal inside snarled with demands, but the 
core of Reid was stronger. 

“Do you want me?” Finn asked, his voice breathless and sweet 

against Reid’s lips. 

“I do. I can’t think of anyone I’ve ever wanted more.” And then 

Finn was kissing him with ravenous hunger. He found lube 
somehow—Reid imagined that Cassidy had slipped him the bottle—
and then he was slicking up Reid’s cock with his manicured hands. 
After a moment, he was centering him. Reid’s prick pressed against 
the snug ring of Finn’s ass. It was a timeless moment that allowed 
him to feel both his invading pressure and Finn’s surrender. And then 
he was sliding inside him. 

A stream of shocked expletives came out of Reid’s mouth. He was 

a man who rarely swore, but suddenly he uttered so much that he 
would surely make a sailor blush. Reid simply didn’t know what else 
to do. He wanted to move but didn’t dare. Besides, Finn was doing 
fine on his own. When Reid opened his eyes and watched him, he 
discovered Finn’s eyes were closed, his head was back, and he 
seemed utterly blissed out. 

For the first time in his life, Reid felt whole. This was right. Even 

though he’d been afraid for Finn’s safety, there was no denying that 
they fit beautifully together. In the moment, he didn’t feel his usual 
crushing anxiety. Carefully, he lowered his hands and cupped Finn’s 
hips. His skin was soft and yielding to Reid’s touch. When he gently 
lifted and lowered him, Finn’s eyes came open, he peered down, and 
he smiled. 

Working together, they quickly reached the tipping point, but 

rather than tumble effortlessly over as they had in the orchard, they 

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each struggled to make the moment last. Reid didn’t want his first 
time to be over too quickly, but also, he wanted to make sure the act 
was good for Finn. His pleasure mattered a great deal to him. Far 
more than his own did. But hanging on became ever more difficult. 
Finn was able to lift and lower himself while simultaneously 
tightening his channel around Reid’s cock. That, coupled with the 
visual of watching him in obvious enjoyment, conspired to push Reid 
right over the edge. 

“I can’t last.” 
“Don’t try.” Finn lowered his bottom all the way then pressed his 

chest against Reid’s. He kissed him sweetly, using a lot of tongue 
while he uttered breathless cries.  

Reid spanned his hands over Finn’s hips, holding him steady as he 

flicked upward. He was careful not to go too deep or move too much. 
All he really wanted was to get as deep as he could before his climax 
jetted. Right at the moment of release, Finn clamped down, holding 
him so tight he couldn’t move even if he wanted to. All Reid could do 
was hold him, kiss him, and let the orgasm bind them together. For a 
moment, he worried he hadn’t pleased Finn, but he felt his release 
across his belly and smiled. 

Shortly after the shakes left him, the base of his cock swelled, 

tying him to Finn. When he startled, clearly shocked, Reid explained 
that it was simply a part of the mating process.  

“I hope you don’t have any plans because from what the other 

guys said, it lasts about half a day.” 

“Half a day?” 
“Like six to twelve hours depending.” 
Finn looked deeply concerned. 
“What’s wrong?” 
“I’m thirsty. I was in the orchard, too, but I got distracted.” 
“No worries.” Carefully, Reid sat up and slid toward the edge of 

the bed while keeping a tight hold on Finn. “There’s a glass in the 
bathroom.” 

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They were halfway there when an urge to thrust overcame Reid. 

“Sorry.” He pressed Finn against the wall and rocked gently until he 
released deep inside him again. Finn wasn’t upset because he 
climaxed between their bellies. 

“Is this what’s going to happen all day?” 
“Afraid so.” 
“Wow.” 
“Are you regretting—” 
“No! Not at all.” Finn toyed with Reid’s hair. “I’m just not sure 

how much more I can take without going into some kind of pleasure 
coma.” 

Pleased, Reid continued on into the bathroom where they both 

drank then they returned to the bed. 

“I’m hungry.” 
“Now that I can’t help you with. There’s no food up here. Oh, 

wait.” Reid got back up and made his way over to his dresser. There 
was a candy bar along with his change, wallet, and a half-gone pack 
of mints. They took the candy and mints with them over to the bed.  

Barely had he gotten onto his back when Finn was devouring the 

candy bar. “Sorry. Do you want some?” 

“No. Go ahead.” All of his civilized veneer was gone. Finn went 

after the treat like a ravenous beast. It was on the tip of his tongue to 
mention he’d had breakfast, but he didn’t want to rub his mate’s face 
in it.  

His mate
Reid found himself grinning. He had a mate. And not just any 

mate, but a totally hot one who’d seduced him. When Reid thought 
about it, he realized that was probably the only way it was going to 
happen, what with his shyness and anxiety. If not for Finn pursuing 
him so vigorously, Reid didn’t think he’d ever have ended up with a 
man in his bed. 

Finn ate the treat in record time then noticed he’d left little bits of 

chocolate all over Reid’s chest. When he decided to lick them up, 

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Reid felt another climax shake his body.  

“You have no idea how good that feels.” 
“I have some idea.” Reid smiled. 
“It’s like the knot is right on my prostate. Every time you move, 

the knot works over that spot.” 

“Every time you clamp down, it crushes around the whole surface 

of my cock, knot and all.” 

They spent the next hour driving one another crazy until they 

simply couldn’t climax again. Drained didn’t even fit the state that 
Reid found himself in. He was so perfectly spent and utterly content 
he drifted off to sleep.  

When he awoke, it was late in the evening. The sun was setting 

and the heat was finally abating. He was still inside his mate, but 
something felt different. When he looked around his room, he realized 
his eyes were seeing things in a totally new way. A yawn made him 
realize he wasn’t human but coyote and so was Finn. Apparently, 
their bodies weren’t going to give them a chance to mess up their 
mating. Reid smiled even though doing so felt very strange with his 
canine face. They were now bound for a lifetime. Before a million 
and one potential problems could rob him of his joy, Reid licked 
Finn’s face and climaxed. 

Finn blinked up at him as he slowly seemed to realize where he 

was and what had happened. “Am I a coyote?” 

“Yep.” 
“And so are you?” 
“Yep.” 
“Thank God. If we weren’t both animals, this would be very, very 

awkward.” 

Reid laughed, which caused him to slip out of Finn. Before he 

even realized what was happening, he was human once again.  

“That has to be the most incredible thing that has ever happened 

to me.” 

“Shifting?” 

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“Yes. That. But also being with you.” Finn kissed Reid’s 

shoulder. “I always felt like something was missing. Now I know you 
were what was missing.” 

“I never thought I’d get a mate.” 
“Aw, Reid. You really need to wake up and realize how 

handsome, sweet, and sexy you are.” 

“When you look at me like that, I believe it.” 
Finn lowered his lips, clearly angling for another kiss, but his 

stomach let out a rumble that literally shook the bed. 

“Wow.” Finn looked down at his belly. “I guess we’ve got to go 

and eat.” 

“I guess we do.” Reid climbed out of bed and offered out his hand 

to Finn. “But we should probably wash up first.” 

“Good idea.” 
They made quick work of the shower. Reid was drying his hair 

when he looked out the window. “Oh, no.” He felt his stomach knot 
up. Whatever hunger he had was suddenly gone. 

“What’s wrong?” Finn came over and peered down. “A cop?” 
“Sheriff. You’re about to meet Judd Kingsley, the biggest 

homophobic asshole in the county.” 

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Chapter 6 

 
A curious premonition went through Finn as he dressed in his 

borrowed clothes. The name Judd Kingsley was familiar to him, but 
he had no idea why.  

“Finn?” 
“Yes?” 
“Are you okay? I was just teasing about meeting him. We don’t 

have to go downstairs. I can bring something up for you.” 

“You’re sweet, but there’s something familiar about him. Or at 

least his name.” Finn pulled on a pair of stretchy gray briefs, the soft 
navy-blue sweats, and a bright lime-green T-shirt. He felt 
uncomfortable. He was happy with the colors, but the casual fit and 
pedestrian fabrics weren’t what he was used to. 

“You don’t normally wear stuff like that, do you?” 
“No. How can you tell?” 
“You look uncomfortable.” 
“It’s not that I’m not grateful. I am. Truly. But I think I’m used to 

suits. Ties. And footwear that doesn’t flip or flop.”  

“No offence taken. I know Cassidy wouldn’t be upset either. He 

just got clothing that would be easy to fit whoever showed up.” Reid 
pulled a pale-blue T-shirt over his head. It made his eyes stand out. 
“What?” 

“Your eyes are more vivid.” 
“It’s part of mating. Your eyes are a very beautiful jade.” 
“They are?” Finn hadn’t even noticed. He went into the bathroom 

and stood staring at himself while he brushed his teeth.  

“Nice, huh?” 

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“They look fake.” 
“They’re really eyes.” 
“Silly!” Finn pinched his butt. “I meant the color is kind of fake-

looking. Like contacts or something. Yours though. Wow. Very 
beautiful.” 

Reid leaned over so he could see himself in the mirror. He tilted 

his head back and forth as if he wasn’t quite sure he was seeing 
himself. “I feel different.” 

“Considering what we just did, that’s not surprising.” Finn tucked 

his shirt in and called it good. He looked up and realized Reid was 
staring at him. “Is something wrong?” 

“No. Something is very, very right.” Reid stroked his cheek, 

making Finn shiver. “Are you cold?” 

“Aroused.” 
“Again?” 
“I don’t know what to tell you.” Finn looked down at the rapidly 

growing bulge in his sweats. “Maybe that’s why I always wore slacks. 
You can’t really see how turned on I am in regular pants. Sweats, 
though, seem to show everything.” 

“They do.” Reid’s voice was husky.  
Before Finn knew what he was doing, Reid had his sweats and 

briefs pulled down, and he sucked Finn’s cock into his mouth. 

The only way Finn was able to stay upright was to grasp the sink. 

Thank God it had a solid vanity because if it had been mounted on the 
wall he would have ripped it off. Reid kept right on sucking him and 
cupping his balls until Finn climaxed with a high, breathless cry. He 
had never had so much given to him without anything expected back. 
Once Reid was done, he put Finn’s clothing back to rights, pulled him 
close, kissed him, then proceeded to brush his teeth as if nothing had 
happened. 

A little dazed, Finn went into the main part of the bedroom. He 

looked out the window, wondering if the vehicle was still there. It 
was. But now there was a heavyset man standing beside it talking 

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with a tall dark-haired man. 

“That’s Marshal,” Reid said, coming up beside Finn. “He owns 

the ranch.” 

“Why does it look like the Sheriff is furious?” 
“Because he probably is. He’s got something against Marshal.” 
“What?” 
“Dunno exactly. He just really hates him. Maybe because Marshal 

is out and proud or maybe because he doesn’t want anyone to be 
happy. Judd Kingsley is a very miserable man, and you know what 
they say about misery.” 

“It loves company?” 
“You got it.” Reid sighed, blowing minty-fresh breath against 

Finn’s ear. “Ready to go eat?” 

“Yes.” Whatever nerves he had about meeting the sheriff seemed 

to have disappeared. Probably in no small part to his mate’s talented 
mouth. As they went down the stairs together, Reid took a hold of 
Finn’s hand, reminding him again that he’d made the right choice. 
Reid was attentive, kind, and so sweet he could probably pass for 
candy. 

In the kitchen, Cassidy congratulated them then settled them at the 

table. He piled on food until Finn thought he was going to burst. 
Everything was excellent. “I’m going to get huge.” 

“Naw. We’ll find a way to work it off.” Reid kept the comment 

quiet, so it was just between the two of them. 

“Is that so?” 
“I can think of all kinds of ways for us to, uh, exercise.” Reid 

waggled his brows, making Finn laugh. “So, Cassidy. What’s the 
sheriff want?” 

When Cassidy gave them a rather pensive glance, Finn wondered 

if there was something more to the lawman’s visit than a minor 
quibble with the owner of the ranch. 

“He says he’s looking for someone named Allistair Chadwick.” 
Finn’s entire body went taut. 

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“Finn?” 
“That’s me.” 
“I thought your name was Finn Kirkpatrick?” 
“That’s my given name. Remember? I told you I had another 

name that I couldn’t remember. Not until now, at any rate.” Finn 
looked up at Cassidy, who was biting his lower lip. “What does he 
want me for?” 

“Your rental car was found abandoned on the River Road. Inside 

was a cell phone, wallet, and luggage. The only thing not there was 
you.” 

“Oh, dear.” Finn rose. “I guess I should go out there and tell him 

I’m okay.” 

“And just what are you going to tell him?” Cassidy asked, tucking 

his hair behind his ear. 

“Oh. Right.” Finn realized he couldn’t tell the sheriff the truth. 

Well, he could, but if he did, he’d end up in a lot more trouble than he 
already was. Frankly, if someone told him the tale of his last hours a 
few days ago he would have expected them to go right into the 
nearest loony bin. “I’ll tell him a modified version of the truth.” 

“And that is?” Reid asked. 
“I have amnesia.” 
“I don’t know.” Cassidy was looking toward the back of the 

house. Not toward the front where the lawman was with Marshal but 
toward the hallway that clearly went into another part of the house.  

Curious, when Finn looked that direction he didn’t see anything. 

Still, Cassidy’s concern aside, he got up. “I’m not going to let your 
boss take the heat.” 

Before either man could stop him, Finn was out the door. When 

he stepped onto the porch, Marshal looked at him, clearly surprised. 
Reid may have told him there was a naked man out in the orchard, but 
Finn and Marshal hadn’t actually met. Rather than bother with 
introductions now, considering they might just make things more 
awkward, Finn went right up to the sheriff. 

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Judd Kingsley was a very heavyset man with a florid face. He had 

deep lines bracketing his mouth, but it was obvious they weren’t 
smile lines. He looked like a man who spent an inordinate amount of 
time scowling. A long time ago, Finn’s mother had remarked that by 
the time someone turned forty, they got the face they deserved. 
Clearly, Kingsley had gotten a mug that no mother could love because 
it was exactly what he’d earned. He wasn’t a nice man. It was just as 
obvious that he actually had no interest in finding Allistair Chadwick. 
The only reason he was here was to hassle Marshal. That became 
apparent when he didn’t let up once from his long-winded diatribe. 

Finn struggled to control himself but found his own temper 

remarkably short. He was waiting for the man to take a breath so he 
could introduce himself and find out where his car and other 
possessions were. But Kingsley either had gills or had found a way to 
breathe through his ears. There was no break in his haranguing. In 
fact, Kingsley was so intent on Marshal that he didn’t even notice that 
three men were now standing on the porch. 

“Does he ever stop?” Finn asked Reid. 
“Not usually.” Reid stroked Finn’s back, giving him added 

strength. 

“He’ll notice eventually. Probably when he gets in the car to go.” 

Cassidy tossed the dishtowel he was drying his hands on over his 
shoulder. 

The three of them stood there until, just as Cassidy said, Kingsley 

was climbing up into his SUV. He stopped talking abruptly when he 
looked right at Finn. “Who the hell are you?” 

“I think I’m the man you’re looking for.” Finn took half a step 

toward him only to watch in incredulous shock as Kingsley tore into 
Marshal for wasting his time yet again. 

“He didn’t know I was here. I didn’t even know who I was until 

someone said my name.” 

That shut Kingsley up but not for long. Under his breath, he 

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while he removed a clipboard from his vehicle. “Are you Allistair 
Chadwick?” 

“Yes.” 
“Fucking figures. Another queero for the land of gay cowboys.” 
Finn was so shocked he simply stood there, staring at the man 

who was sworn to uphold the law. He wondered how in the world 
Kingsley managed to do that when he clearly had to be the biggest 
bigot in the universe. Worse, he had no issue with displaying his 
homophobia. Finn wasn’t stupid. He was aware that despite there 
being a lot of progress in the world, there were still a lot of 
homophobic jerks. What shocked him was that he’d never met one so 
open about his hatred.  

“How do you still have a job with that attitude?” The question 

slipped out before Finn could think twice about taking on a man with 
more authority than brains. A second too late he realized he’d just 
stuck his foot into a very angry hive of wasps. 

“Attitude? You want attitude? You leave your car practically in 

the middle of the road and come out here to get your nuts off and 
think I should, what? Kiss your butt and call it ice cream? You’re 
lucky I don’t slap the cuffs on you and haul your faggot ass into jail.” 

Finn was so shocked by his nastiness he quite literally recoiled. 
“Don’t you dare talk to him like that.” Reid took a step forward, 

placing himself between Finn and the sheriff. 

“Oh, goody. Big and tall fumble fingers is going to save the day. 

What are you going to do? Fall on me?” 

Reid growled.  
Kingsley’s eyes went wide. 
“Easy, Reid. Kingsley was just going.” Marshal was attempting to 

keep the peace. 

“Fuck off, Marshal.” Kingsley spat on the ground, very nearly 

hitting Marshal’s boot. “I’ll go when I’m good and ready. You knew 
he was here all the goddamn time and just stood there with your 
thumb up your ass.” 

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“I didn’t know he was here.” In sharp contrast to Kingsley’s 

petulant tone, Marshal kept his manner relaxed. “I just got back from 
town.” 

“Just tell him where he can retrieve his—”  
“He’s coming to the station with me.” Kingsley deftly cut Reid 

off. 

“No, I’m not. I’ve not broken the law.” 
“Are you hard of hearing? You left your motherfucking—sorry, 

fatherfucking car in the middle of the road. You could have killed 
someone.” 

“I also could have stood on the car and danced the Macarena then 

drove it into the river. Yet I didn’t. You can’t arrest me for something 
that might have happened.” Finn had reached his limit. He couldn’t 
pretend to be civil any longer, not with this bully pushing all his 
buttons. A sudden flash of memory brought Finn’s father to full life in 
his head. He was the same way. Always, Finn’s father put him down 
for who he was, how he dressed, and who he liked. That was why he 
had such a sudden and almost inescapable urge to strike out at this 
man. Finn was not aggressive. He considered himself mature enough 
to use his words and not his fists, but suddenly, he wanted to pummel 
this overgrown bully until he couldn’t speak at all. 

Just as Finn felt his hand balling into a fist, Reid transformed. He 

was standing by his side, snarling lightly, when all of the sudden he 
turned into a massive black coyote. With a growl that sounded louder 
and more violent than an approaching storm, Reid catapulted off the 
porch and right toward Kingsley. 

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Chapter 7 

 
Reid didn’t even realize what he was doing until it was too late. 

All of the sudden he found himself turning into a coyote and lunging 
at Kingsley. Thankfully, rather than landing on him, knocking him 
flat, and then eating his face, Reid managed to slam into the driver’s 
side door of Kingsley’s SUV. Instead of him smashing the big 
windbag, he managed to hit him with his own car door. Staggering 
back, Reid had no idea what happened until he shook his head and 
looked around. The door was wide open, Kingsley was on the ground, 
and Reid had a ringing in his ears that probably wasn’t going to go 
away anytime soon. 

“Shit!” Marshal was down on his knees, assessing Kingsley as 

Reid collapsed in the gravel. Between his head hitting the outside and 
Kingsley’s head hitting the inside of the door, he wasn’t sure which of 
them was more injured. 

“Reid!” Finn was at his side, petting him while frantically 

examining his head. “You’re going to have a huge knot. It’s getting 
big already.” 

For the life of him, Reid struggled not to giggle. He had a big knot 

all right, but he wasn’t thinking about the one on his head. Halfway 
through his dirty thought he realized this was absolutely not the time 
or the place. He’d just gotten everyone on the ranch in trouble with 
his half-assed attempt at heroics. Kingsley had been running out of 
excuses to come onto the ranch, and Marshal was hopeful that come 
winter, they just might be shut of the man for good. But Fumbling 
Reid took care of that for him. 

“You knocked him clean out.” Marshal looked over at Reid. 

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“Well, at least this time he didn’t piss himself.” 

Reid returned to his human form, shaken and a little confused 

about what happened. “I’m sorry, Marshal. I just got so angry, and 
then I was lunging at him.” 

“Don’t worry about it, Reid. I don’t think you could help it.” 

Marshal shook his head and laughed lightly. “Kingsley’s got a real 
knack for pushing an alpha’s protective buttons.” 

Reid took a step back then realized he was walking on very sharp 

gravel in his bare feet. All his clothes were on the porch, still buttoned 
and zipped. He’d always wondered what happened to the guys’ 
clothes when they shifted. Now he knew. Everything had just fallen 
away when he shifted.  

“Here.” Finn gathered up Reid’s clothes then brought them out to 

him.  

Feeling totally embarrassed, Reid got dressed. “I guess some 

things aren’t ever going to change.” 

“What do you mean?” Finn asked, helping to hold him up as he 

slipped his boots back on. 

“I’m always going to be a klutz.” 
“That wasn’t you being clumsy. That was you being protective.” 

Finn made sure he was steady then leaned up and kissed his cheek. 
“For what it’s worth, I like that your instinct was to look out for me.” 

“Yeah?” 
“Yes.” 
Reid went from feeling all kinds of horrible to feeling warm and 

fuzzy inside. Although, looking at Finn was probably responsible for 
that. 

“That’s all well and good, but we’ve got a real problem here.” 

Marshal was still crouched down next to the sheriff. “He’s got a 
pretty good gash in his head.” 

“But he’s still alive?” Cassidy asked. “That’s too bad.” 
“Cass, seriously. We do not need a dead lawman on the ranch.” 
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the picture.” 

“Yes, but away from here. Not dead here.” Marshal sighed hard. 
“I’m sorry, Marshal.” Reid didn’t know what to do. Like usual, he 

made a mess and then stood there unable to figure out how to put it to 
rights.  

“I know. I know. Really, Reid, don’t beat yourself up about it. If 

you’ll recall, I did the same thing. But what kind of story are we 
going to spin this time?” Marshal looked up at Reid, his eyes 
searching. 

“This time?” Finn asked. “Just how often has this happened?” 
“This would be the second time.” Cassidy went past them to hand 

the dishtowel from his shoulder to Marshal to put on Kingsley’s head. 
“Kingsley was out here doing basically the same thing to Marshal’s 
mate, Elliot.” 

“He pushed my button something fierce, and I did the same thing 

Reid just did.” 

“Except you landed on him rather than bashing your head into the 

car door.” 

“You just got excited, that’s all.” Marshal sighed. “But last time 

we concocted a tale about a renegade coydog.” 

“Coydog?” Finn asked. 
“A mix of coyote and dog. We couldn’t just say it was a coyote. 

Marshal was too big. And we didn’t want a bunch of idiots with guns 
out hunting coyotes on land that was supposed to be a sanctuary for 
coyote-shifters.” 

“Oh. Right.” Finn looked around at the bluffs as if just now 

realizing he wasn’t invincible in his animal form. 

“Despite the fantastic story we spun, Kingsley still demanded 

action from Wildlife Services. The last thing we need is a bunch of 
those guys with guns out here.” 

“Too bad Dillion doesn’t work for them anymore,” Cassidy said. 
“Dillion Palmer?” Finn asked. 
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“I do. He’s why I was—oh. That’s why I was coming here!” Finn 

turned to Reid, his excitement clear. “Dillion called me to help him.” 

“Help him with what?” Reid was relieved that Dillion was fully 

mated to Micah. If not for that, Reid might be concerned he’d gotten 
in the middle of something he shouldn’t have. 

Suddenly the animation left Finn’s face. “I don’t think I should—

that is, it was a private—I think Dillion should be the one to tell you.” 

Anxiety made Reid hyperaware. All kinds of dangerous thoughts 

got into his head and started trying to put down roots. The upshot of 
all the scary thoughts was that Reid was going to lose Finn and he’d 
be alone and lonely again. 

“Don’t you even get that look on your face.” Finn stepped closer. 

“It’s nothing bad. Just something that I don’t know if Dillion wants 
everyone to know.” 

“Like a wedding?” Cassidy asked, his eyes gleaming. “We could 

do with a big old fancy wedding.” 

“That would just draw way too much attention to us.” Marshal 

looked up at Finn. “Please tell me it’s not a wedding.”  

“I’m not doing this.” Finn crossed his arms and shook his head. 

“My lips are sealed.” 

“Fine. I’m sure whatever you’re doing for Dillion is fascinating, 

but we’re still left with the knocked-out lawman.” Marshal sighed. 
“Too bad Doc isn’t here. He’d be able to tell me if this worthless 
gasbag is going to die.” 

“He’s not going to die,” Cassidy said. “It looks like the edge of 

the door hit him in the temple. He’s hurt, but he’s not going to croak 
on us, which I still maintain would be a blessing.” 

Reid wasn’t sure if the information that Kingsley would live made 

him happy or sad. Frankly, he was rather ambivalent. Kingsley had 
been nothing but a huge boil on the butt of the ranch. Every time they 
turned around it seemed he was out looking for trouble. When 
Kingsley didn’t find any problems, he had no issue with making 
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busy. Storm had it right that Kingsley should just go and find a guy to 
hit the sheets with. That would go a long way toward him dealing 
with his latent homosexuality. Not that Reid would wish Kingsley on 
anyone. He was amazed the man had found a woman who could put 
up with him. The odds of there being a man who could were on a par 
with the odds of a talking unicorn coming down off the bluff and 
offering everyone rides. 

“We don’t want him to get Wildlife Services out here again, so we 

have to tell him something other than a big dog attacked him.” 
Marshal stood up. “Does anyone have any ideas?”  

“It’s my fault.” Finn stepped forward.  
“No, it—” 
“Let me finish.” Finn held his hand up to Reid, cutting him off. “I 

moved over to go with him and accidentally fell against the door, 
hitting him.” 

“He’ll just be angrier with you.” Reid didn’t like Finn having to 

put himself in jeopardy to cover up for his fumble. 

“Yes, well, but that’s okay. He might huff and puff, but he can’t 

arrest me.” Finn looked very confident. “It was an accident.” 

“I don’t know. He’s mean. He’ll just find a reason to drag you in.” 

Reid was terrified that if Kingsley got his hands on Finn, he’d hurt 
him or send him away. He realized it was an irrational fear, but that 
didn’t make it any less sharp. 

“Let’s just see what he has on his little clipboard here.” Cassidy 

grabbed it and stood. “Okay, your car is at the impound lot behind 
Sullivan’s. They do the towing for the county. Looks like you just 
need to pay a fee. Oh, and it’s a rental, so the rental company has 
been notified. Doubt they’ve come for it though since you’ve got 
another two weeks on your contract.” Cassidy frowned. 

“What?” Finn asked. 
“Just the notes Kingsley made on the side of the report.” Cassidy 

looked up at Finn. “He made detailed notes about what you look 
like.” 

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“That sounds like pretty standard cop stuff,” Marshal said. 
“Describing him as a tight and toned twink?” Cassidy looked over 

at Marshal. “That doesn’t sound official to me at all. He also made a 
note that your clothing was found near the car buttoned and zipped up 
like you’d just jumped right out of it.” 

“I shifted out of it. Please tell me I didn’t make a mess for all of 

you?” Finn shivered, prompting Reid to put his arm around him. 

“You didn’t. You had no control over your shifting at that point. 

Even now, mated as you are, primal instincts can clearly push us to 
transform.” 

“Looks like your personal items are at the courthouse in the 

custody of the county sheriff’s office. No one reported you missing, 
but your disappearance is listed as suspicious.” 

“Dillion didn’t report you missing?” Reid was surprised.  
“I didn’t tell him the exact day I was going to be getting in. I flew 

into Denver then rented a car. I took the scenic route since I’ve never 
been here before.” Finn looked up at him, his eyes wide and 
concerned. “Can you help me find these places?” 

“Of course.” Reid felt a little more grounded. If there was one 

thing he knew, it was the area of Scorpion County. “I’m sure I can 
borrow the truck.” Reid looked over at Marshal, who nodded. 

“Yeah, that’s fine, but are we going to tell him that—sorry, I don’t 

know your name.” 

“This is Finn Kirkpatrick. My mate.” Reid couldn’t believe how 

proud saying that made him feel.  

“But he’s looking for someone named Allistair.” 
“That’s my legal name.” 
“You’re not in any trouble, are you?” Marshal’s voice was kind, 

and that made Reid realize that he would never automatically think 
badly of someone, not the way Kingsley did. 

“I’m a law-abiding citizen.” Finn placed his hand over his heart. 

“I was just driving last night when I suddenly felt funny. I remember 
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hear and smell the river. I was surprised how loud it seemed, and then 
I smelled something that just made me drool and—” Finn turned 
bright red.  

“Don’t worry about it,” Marshal offered quickly. “We get it. 

You’re not the first beta. It’s perfectly normal. At least it is for us.” 

“Guys, he’s coming around.” Cassidy tossed the clipboard back in 

Kingsley’s car then seemed to realize Kingsley had been holding it 
when he went down. So Cassidy grabbed it from the car and dropped 
it next to Kingsley’s sprawled form. “We’re going with you running 
into the door, right?” 

“Right.” Finn moved over and knelt down on the other side of 

Kingsley. He made a big show of apologizing and helping the man to 
his feet. 

Whatever Finn did for a living, he should consider tossing it in for 

a job as an actor. Reid had been the one to cause the mess but even he 
was believing Finn that he’d stumbled in the gravel and run into the 
door. The man was very convincing.  

After some grousing, and a sly but noticeable swipe at his crotch, 

probably to make sure he hadn’t wet his pants, Kingsley got into his 
vehicle. He waited until he had the door closed and locked before he 
rolled the window down halfway to give Finn the information on 
where and when he could pick up his possessions and his vehicle. 
Clearly, he’d changed his mind about taking him in. It seemed to Reid 
that the man just wanted to get shut of them. And then Kingsley was 
backing away from the house and set off on the long drive. 

Reid watched him indirectly, out the corner of his eye. Kingsley 

kept scratching his head and looking back. He clearly wanted to 
believe Finn, but he also didn’t seem convinced he hadn’t seen 
another big black coydog. 

“That man is going to be trouble,” Cassidy said to no one in 

particular. 

“What else is new?” Marshal waited until Kingsley rounded the 

corner of the long drive before he turned toward the house. “Since it’s 

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too late to pick up your car or personal items, I suggest you go in the 
morning.” 

Finn nodded. 
“And welcome to the Rough River Ranch.” Marshal extended his 

hand, which Finn shook. 

“Thank you. It’s been exciting so far.” 
Everyone laughed as they went back into the house. Reid was 

worried about dealing with Kingsley tomorrow, but he was also 
excited to have Finn here. He never thought he’d have a mate, so 
having one as handsome as Finn was doubly exciting. 

“I’m really sorry if I’ve brought more trouble down on you, 

Marshal.” Reid had always tried to keep a low profile, but he couldn’t 
let go of Kingsley attacking his mate. His behavior was unacceptable. 
It had to stop. 

“Don’t sweat it.” Marshal clapped Reid on the back. “Really. I 

think he bought your mate’s tale.” 

“Can I use your phone?” Finn asked. “I should call Dillion and 

tell him I’m okay.” 

Reid fished it out and handed it over. Rather than go inside, Finn 

stayed out on the porch to make his call. “Um, yeah.” 

“What?” 
“I just realized I don’t have his number memorized. I realized this 

after I noticed your phone doesn’t have any of my contacts.” Finn was 
blushing so hard it was a wonder his face didn’t glow in the twilight. 

“No problem. Who knows anyone’s phone number anymore?” 
“I can barely keep track of my own.” Finn smiled at him as he 

followed Reid inside the house. After asking around, it was Cassidy 
who had Dillion’s number. After programing it in, Finn went outside. 

“What in the world could he be doing for Dillion?” Cassidy 

wondered aloud. 

“I don’t know.” Reid was determined not to think it was anything 

hinky. He trusted Finn. They had just met, but that didn’t matter. 
They were mates now. He felt he would be betraying him if he didn’t 

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trust him. 

“You were very sweet, you know.” Cassidy came close to Reid, 

examining his head. “Going after Kingsley like that.” 

“He needs someone to take him down.” Reid settled at the table so 

Cassidy could check the ever-growing lump on his head. It was 
tender, but not cut.  “How does he get away acting the way he does?” 

“He’s careful about who he does that kind of crap in front of.” 

Marshal settled at the table across from Reid. “One day, though, one 
day he’s going to forget.” 

“Or someone is going to give him a run for his money.” Dillion 

Palmer entered with Micah on his arm and Finn following behind. 
Dillion was the only man Reid knew who was as big as Marshal. By a 
bare inch, Marshal edged him out in the height department, but 
Dillion was heavier. Still, the two men were gigantic. Being around 
them was about the only time Reid felt smaller. Not small because he 
was too big and tall for that, but he certainly felt smaller than usual. 
That thought led him to wonder what it was like for Micah, who was 
five two and maybe one twenty. Just how did he and Dillion work 
things out in the bedroom? When that thought aroused him, Reid 
decided to stop thinking of how the mated pairs fit together. It wasn’t 
any of his business, and he shouldn’t think such thoughts about his 
pack mates.  

That thought made him smile despite his headache. He not only 

had a mate, but he was now part of the larger pack. The men he 
worked with were now even more his family than they had been 
before. 

“Well, hell. If I had known I had the power to make people appear 

by talking about them, I’d have mentioned you sooner.” Marshal was 
up and around the table, his hand out to draw Dillion and then Micah 
into one of those curious hugs that Reid had never mastered. It started 
out as a handshake that turned into a semi hug with the clasped hands 
between them. Reid had never tried to mimic the act because he was 
convinced he’d end up giving someone an uppercut. 

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“I guess I don’t need your phone after all.” Finn grinned as he 

handed Reid back his phone. 

“Reid? You ended up with Reid?” Micah wasn’t smiling so much 

as his mouth just didn’t seem able to go all the way closed.  

Before Reid could read way too much into Micah’s reaction, Finn 

pressed into his side, grabbed his hand, and proudly said, “He’s my 
mate.” 

Unable to speak from the pride practically swelling his head, Reid 

nodded. 

“That’s wonderful!” Micah seemed genuinely happy, putting 

whatever concern Reid might have had to rest. He knew he had a 
habit of thinking the worst about himself. He also realized that 
sometimes he assumed other people were thinking badly of him when 
they weren’t. He was working on it, but it was a rather slow process. 
Already, Finn was making him far less introverted. 

“So, can I tell them?” Finn asked. 
“You didn’t tell them why you were headed our way?” Dillion 

accepted a beer from Cassidy then settled at the table next to Marshal. 

“I didn’t know if it was public knowledge or not.” 
“After what just happened, I think they’ll be thrilled to know.” 

Dillion paused dramatically, making everyone wait while he sipped 
his beer. “Damn, this is really good.” 

“Tell them, dear, or I will.” Micah sat across from him, his 

butterscotch hair gleaming from the overhead light. 

When Finn sat down next to Micah, Reid settled on the other side 

of him. Some mated pairs liked to sit across from one another, but 
Reid liked to be by Finn’s side. As soon as he was settled, Finn put 
his hand on his leg, reminding him why he wanted to sit as close as he 
could. 

“I’m running for sheriff.” Dillion glanced around at all the men 

present. “Wow. I finally said something that got everyone to shut 
their yaps. Had I known, I would have used this at our last meeting.” 

“You’re really going to do it?” Marshal looked truly pleased. 

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“Yep. I called Allistair—Finn here to come and help me get some 

things together.” 

Reid looked down at his mate. “What do you do?” 
“He’s your mate and you don’t even know?” Micah teased, his 

fuchsia eyes gleaming. 

“It happened really fast,” Finn said, grinning and blushing.  
Reid felt embarrassed and on the spot, but Finn was laughing and 

passing everything off. Rather than stumble away, Reid just stayed 
right where he was and let his discomfort pass. To his surprise, it did. 
He saw the humor in what was said. No one was making fun of him. 
They were ribbing him. Now that he was more open, he was able to 
see that. Tension eased out of his shoulders. 

“I’m a stylist. But I also plan parties and do other things to help 

people project a certain kind of image.” 

“So you’re going to help Dillion became a gleaming example of 

what a sheriff should be?” Cassidy asked. 

“I am.” Finn looked right at Dillion. “I wasn’t all that enthusiastic 

about this project when Micah told me about it, but after meeting the 
current sheriff? I want to help you crush that despicable worm in a 
virtual landslide.” 

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Chapter 8 

 
“You realize the election is a little over a year away, right?” 

Dillion asked. 

“Yes. I know. But you can never be too far ahead of the curve.” 

Finn wished he had his luggage. He’d like to start working on things 
right away. However, when Reid placed his hand on his knee, he 
thought that he could probably wait a day. Or two. “There are things 
that you can start doing now to get your name out there and make you 
more appealing to voters.” 

“I knew you were the right man to help us with this.” Micah 

wrapped his arm around Finn’s shoulders, giving him a sideways hug.  

“So you two know each other from New York?” Reid asked. 
“We worked together on a party once. Micah was the 

photographer.” 

“After seeing what Allistair—sorry, Finn, can do, I knew he could 

really help Dillion.” 

“You don’t seem like you need a stylist.” Marshal considered the 

man next to him.  

“It’s not just about what he wears, but how he presents himself. 

He should start working now to build his image. As sad as that might 
seem, it matters in this day and age.” Again, Finn was really missing 
his gear. “Oh, no.” 

“What?” 
“You don’t think they went through all my things, do you?” Finn 

had a sudden and rather horrible image of a Kingsley pawing at his 
laptop. 

“I’m sure they probably did. Why? Was there something private 

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in there?” 

“My phone’s password protected. My laptop, too.” But he 

imagined they had all kinds of high tech gear and super smart 
technicians who could break in and lay all his private things bare. 

“Then they’re safe.” 
“Are you certain?” 
“From what Billy said, he was just about the only person on staff 

with any computer knowledge and he’s not super savvy or anything 
like that.” Cassidy lifted his hands. “His words, not mine.” 

“Who is Billy?” 
“He’s one of us. He used to work for the sheriff’s department.” 
“Poor man.” Finn felt sorry for anyone who worked there. 
“Indeed.” Marshal laughed. “If not for Billy, an innocent man 

would have gotten sent away for a murder he didn’t commit.” 

“Because of Kingsley’s homophobia?” Finn was now afraid to 

even go down and retrieve his things. Maybe he was better off just 
starting over. 

“Not directly but that certainly didn’t help the situation.” Marshal 

explained about Owen, Noel, and a BDSM club called the Last Resort 
on the edge of town. 

“Wow. And here I was thinking this place was a sleepy little 

western town.” 

“Nope.” Cassidy brought beer for some, coffee for others. “It’s a 

seething hotbed of lust, secrets, and gorgeous gay shifters.” 

“God, Cass. You make it sound like a soap opera.” 
“Hey, in a lot of ways this place would be perfect for a daytime 

drama show.” 

“But the club is shut down now.” Micah sighed rather forlornly. 
“How do you know?” Finn asked pointedly. 
“I just know.” Micah refused to say any more than that, but Finn 

was positive a little flash of something passed between him and 
Dillion. That drew Finn’s attention to Dillion. Micah had said he was 
big, but Finn had never seen anyone so massive. But the way he 

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looked at Micah and the way he touched him told Finn that Dillion 
might be huge, but he was gentle, especially with his mate. 

Everyone was laughing, but as Finn sat there he started to realize 

that Dillion running for sheriff might not be the best idea in the world. 
When he looked up, he met Dillion’s emerald-green eyes. There was a 
flash in them, almost like Dillion knew what Finn was going to say 
before he opened his mouth. So he didn’t. Because right after looking 
at him, Dillion turned his attention onto his mate. In that moment, 
Finn realized Dillion might want to become sheriff to protect the 
town, but he was running mainly because Micah wanted him to. It 
was clear Dillion would do anything to make his mate happy. 

“When you run for office, don’t they dig up everything in your 

private life?” Reid asked. 

Finn exchanged a glance with Dillion. He’d been willing to leave 

the topic for another day, but Reid clearly didn’t grasp the subtler 
currents. Not that Finn was upset. It was a natural question that 
someone was bound to ask. 

“You all might want to give that some serious thought.” Into the 

kitchen stormed a man with beautiful gray hair and cloudy gray eyes. 
He looked agitated. Finn realized he was the man who had gone 
rushing past him and Reid when they’d come in the house earlier 
today. This was Storm. Cassidy’s mate.  

“What’s wrong?” Marshal asked. 
“Honey, please. We need to—” Cassidy was moving toward him, 

but it was clear that Storm wasn’t going to be cut off. 

“We need to tell them because we both know I’m right.” Storm 

placed his hands on his hips, widening his stance as if he was ready to 
come to blows. 

“Someone better tell me what’s going on.” Marshal looked doubly 

concerned. “Did you hear from one of the teams?” 

“Teams?” Finn asked. He was just now realizing there was a hell 

of a lot more going on here than he’d imagined. This wasn’t a sleepy 
little ranch at all. But Storm’s outburst had saved him, at least 

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temporarily, from having to talk about how Dillion running for sheriff 
would expose all of them to potential media scrutiny.  

“Long story. I’ll explain.” Reid looked distinctly uncomfortable. 
“Maybe you’d better start spilling the beans.” Finn realized rather 

suddenly that he knew practically zilch about the ranch, these men, or 
even his mate. Just what in the world had he jumped into with both 
feet? 

“I’m pregnant!” Storm blurted it out and then stood there while 

every man in the room peered at his belly. 

All the questions and concerns in Finn’s mind evaporated. 

“Pregnant?” 

“He’ll do it to you, too!” Storm thrust an accusing finger at Reid. 

“That’s all they want to do. Fuck you until you’re huge and then—
and then—how could you do this to me?”  

Cassidy was struggling to calm his mate while downplaying his 

sudden outburst. “Storm, please. We don’t know that’s what’s going 
on.” 

“Oh, no?” Storm yanked up his shirt, displaying a belly that 

looked mildly distended. It wasn’t as shocking as he seemed to think 
it was. “Just look. I’m as big as a house!” 

“How is that even possible?” Finn felt utterly disoriented. And 

then, he felt his own belly drop down about three flights of stairs. He 
and Reid had been fornicating like crazy ever since they’d met. 
Tentatively, he touched his own belly. Was he even now carrying 
their child? “Oh. God.” 

“See?” Storm nodded vigorously as he held Finn’s gaze. “That’s 

what they want. They say they won’t, but they do. And then you let 
them because if feels so fucking good, but then they walk away to 
make dinner while you sit in bed and gestate God knows what in your 
belly.” 

There was dead silence for an excruciatingly long ten seconds. 
“Where the hell is it going to come out?” Storm bellowed the 

question loudly enough that anyone within half a mile of the 

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farmhouse could have heard him. 

“Oh, Storm. I’m so sorry.” Cassidy tried to wrap Storm up in his 

loving embrace, but Storm wasn’t having it.  

“Don’t you dare.” Storm sidestepped him and pulled his shirt back 

down. “You’re the one who got me in this mess in the first place. You 
and your penis!” 

Finn almost laughed. It was right there, trying to escape, but he 

swallowed his mirth when he realized it wasn’t funny at all. Storm 
was clearly hysterical. But he also had a very good point. Just where 
in the hell was a baby going to come out? As Finn sat there pondering 
that, an even more shocking idea came to him. What would it be, 
exactly? Baby, coyote, or some cross between the two?  

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Chapter 9 

 
Reid wasn’t prepared for Finn to pass out. He was lucky he 

noticed him breathing fast and put his arm around him to comfort 
him. That was the only thing that stopped Finn from tumbling off the 
back of the bench. His weight was slight. Reid could hold him for 
hours and not get tired, but that wasn’t going to actually help Finn 
cope with the situation. 

“Is he okay?” Micah tried to help hold him up, but Reid had him 

so Micah let go. 

“Can you get some water? Or a wet cloth? Something?” Reid had 

no idea what to do for someone who had passed out from fear. He’d 
felt his mate getting tenser by the second, but he didn’t think he was 
going to hyperventilate himself into a faint. 

“Did you knock him up?” Storm demanded. 
“Storm, stop.” Cassidy grasped Storm’s shoulder. 
“Just another alpha who can’t control himself!” Living up to his 

name, Storm stormed out of the kitchen with Cassidy hot on his heels. 

Just before he exited the kitchen, Cassidy looked back at Reid. 

“I’m sorry. He’s…” 

“Don’t worry about me. Go make sure he’s okay.” Reid wasn’t 

upset with Storm. All he had to do was put himself in Storm’s shoes 
and he understood why he was angry and lashing out. Deep down, 
behind the fury and hysterics, Storm was terrified. Given his situation, 
he had a right to be.  

Reid looked down at Finn and realized that was undoubtedly what 

led to him passing out. Finn must have imagined himself as pregnant 
and then freaked out when he wondered where the baby would come 

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out. Just thinking of it was scaring the crap out of Reid. The only 
reason he didn’t join him in hyperventilating was because he didn’t 
want to drop Finn. Instead, Reid looked down at his mate’s flat 
tummy and wondered if he had actually impregnated him. Given how 
he managed to mess everything up, he wouldn’t be surprised if he 
had. He hadn’t meant to, but that was pretty much the story of his life. 

As much as the idea of kids made him glad, he wouldn’t want to 

just spring that on Finn without them talking about it. Since he was 
gay and always had been gay, he’d never once worried about 
impregnating anyone. Well, that, and the fact he was a virgin before 
Finn pretty much meant he had just accepted the fact he’d never be a 
father. But now, with this twist, he was realizing he could be a dad. It 
was a wonderful thought, but not if his mate didn’t feel the same.  

“Okay, we need to get a handle on this right now.” Marshal had 

his phone out. 

“Who are you calling?” Dillion asked. 
“Well, Doc went with one of the teams in case they came across 

anyone in need of medical attention. Dooley stayed behind in case we 
needed any medical care here.” Marshal lifted the phone to his head. 
“Dooley. We need you up at the big house. I know, and I’m sorry, but 
it’s kind of an emergency. Whoa, no. Not that kind. No blood, just a 
lot of raging hormones.” 

Reid continued to hold Finn, who seemed to be coming around 

just in time for Micah to put a wet cloth on his forehead. 

“You okay?” Reid asked, feeling a million kinds of guilty. 
“I think so.” Finn looked almost green. “I need to—I need a 

moment to myself.” 

Reid stood with Finn but let him go off to the bathroom alone. 
“He can’t be pregnant already,” Micah said. 
“Given how clumsy I am, I wouldn’t be surprised if he was.” 
“Clumsy isn’t the issue here.” Marshal got up, probably to follow 

after Cassidy and Storm, but then seemed to think better of it. “We 
need Dooley to confirm what Storm suspects. I know Paul and Jacob 

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have been trying—” 

“Everyone within twenty miles of the ranch knows they’ve been 

trying,” Elliot said as he entered the kitchen. 

“Hey.” Marshal swept him up against his chest, making Reid long 

to do the same to Finn. “Did you see Cass and Storm when you came 
up?” 

“Yeah. They’re on the porch.” Elliot looked back that direction 

then up to his mate. “He’s really scared.” 

“Storm told you what was going on?” 
“He snarled at me in passing. Asked if you’d knocked me up yet. I 

put two and two together.” 

“Smart and sexy.” Marshal kissed the top of Elliot’s head. 
“I am. But so is my mate.” Elliot got himself a lingering smooch 

from Marshal.  

“If he’s scared, why is he so mad?” Micah asked. 
“Because it’s the only way he knows how to channel his fear.” 

Elliot kissed Marshal’s chin then went over to the huge coffee urn. 
“Anyone else want some?” 

By the time Dooley and his mate Tristan arrived, everyone had 

something to drink or eat because as soon as he got some coffee, 
Elliot raided the fridge. Half of them were sitting at the table, and the 
other half were standing around. The alphas looked guilty and 
concerned while all the betas just seemed to be scared.  

“This looks like the beginnings of an intervention.” Dooley 

grabbed two beers, popped the caps, handed one to his mate, and kept 
the other for himself. “Can we go into the parlor? There’s more comfy 
seats in there, and after the day I’ve had, I need a little cushiness.” 

Everyone moved that direction but for Reid. He stayed close by 

the bathroom door, wondering how Finn was. Just as he lifted his 
hand to knock, Finn opened the door. If not for fast reflexes, Reid 
would have bopped him in the nose.  

“Are you…” Reid trailed off. It was obvious that Finn wasn’t 

okay. His lashes were still wet, and his eyes were bloodshot. He’d 

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been crying. “What can I do?” 

For a moment, he thought Finn was going to brush past him, but 

his question startled him enough that he stopped abruptly. “Thank you 
for asking, but there’s really nothing you can do.” 

“There must be something.”  
“I just—I didn’t realize what I was getting into.” 
“I didn’t think to tell you.” 
“I know. I’m not angry with you. Honestly, I’m not. I’m 

just…concerned. It’s a lot to take in. I thought I was okay with the 
shifting. I really thought that was just so amazing and unique. Also, 
having a predestined mate was romantic, but finding out I might get 
pregnant? It’s just…” 

“Scary.” 
“Yes. Very much so.” 
“Then let’s go find out what Dooley has to say.” Reid realized it 

might put his fears to rest or it might just give him a whole bunch of 
new ones. Still, knowledge was power. He wanted to know for his 
mate’s sake but also for his own. Moreover, he wanted to help. Reid 
had no idea what he could do, but there had to be something.  

“It doesn’t matter to you, though.” Finn wiped his eyes again with 

trembling fingertips. 

“Of course it does. You’re my mate. Anything that happens to you 

affects me. How could you think otherwise?” 

“I’m sorry. I don’t—lord. I’m trying to freak out as calmly as I 

can. Isn’t that just priceless? I always have to be seen as the most 
together guy no matter what.” Finn scoffed at himself, but Reid 
wasn’t having it. 

“You have a right to freak out however you want.” 
“Thank you.” Finn smiled wanly as he looped his arm with 

Reid’s. “Shall we?” 

They went into the parlor. Marshal was sitting in the oversized 

recliner with Elliot in his lap. Dooley was centered on the long leather 
couch with Tristan on one side and Dillion and Micah curled up 

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together on the other. Cassidy was on the rocker, but Storm wasn’t 
sitting on his lap. He was pacing along the front windows. 

Unsure where to sit, Reid took the other oversized recliner. When 

Finn looked at him and then away, Reid thought he might still need 
some distance, but Finn settled into his lap. Reid was so relieved he 
felt tears threaten. He pushed them away, concerned that the other 
alphas present might think he was weak. Physically, Reid was very 
strong, but emotionally, he knew he was a lot more tender than most.  

“Storm, please sit down. I’m finding it difficult to concentrate 

with you pacing.” Dooley sounded exhausted, prompting Reid to 
wonder what he’d been doing all day. “We’ve got a bunch of sick 
animals and now this.” 

“Now this? Now this?” Storm’s voice rose. “Like I’m just some 

annoyance to your day?” 

“Not at all.” Dooley rose. “Take pity on me. I’ve been up since 

five. I haven’t been sleeping well, and I had to put two animals down 
today. I know I’m a vet, but it hurts. It always hurts when I have to do 
that. So just please try to relax. Let me examine you.” 

“I’m pregnant. I know it.” Storm was so agitated that no matter 

how kind and soft-spoken Dooley was, or anyone was, he seemed 
determined to lash out. 

As much as Reid felt for Storm, he was getting angry with him. 

Yes, Storm had a reason to be upset, but he had no right to make 
everyone else miserable even if the situation was totally 
understandable. Reid wanted to do something but wasn’t sure his 
intervention wouldn’t make things worse. And then a strange but 
potentially useful idea came to him. It was a little on the crazy side, 
but it might just work. 

“Would it help if I let you hit me?” Reid rose. He had to lift Finn 

to get up, but he didn’t think Finn was just going to want to stay in his 
lap if Storm actually took him up on his offer. 

“What are you doing?” Finn asked, his voice conveying his shock. 
“What I can.” 

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“Are you crazy?” Storm asked. 
“No. At least I don’t think I am. But you seem really angry, and if 

punching someone will make you feel better, then you can hit me all 
you want.” 

Storm stared at him, shaking his head sharply side to side. “That’s 

crazy.” 

“I know. But I guess it’s the only thing I can think of.” 
“I’m not going to hit you.” Storm was shaking. Ever so slowly, 

tears fell. 

“Okay. Then let Dooley have a look at you. All he wants to do—

all any of us want to do—is help you.” 

When Storm looked on the verge of collapse, Cassidy was there, 

holding him. He gave Reid a look that he couldn’t figure out, but he 
realized Cassidy was surprised. Not by what Reid had done so much 
as he was shocked his odd tactic had worked.  

Reid turned to go back to his seat and discovered that Finn was 

standing, looking at him with an expression he couldn’t quite read. 
Finn wasn’t upset. Surprised, maybe? It was difficult to tell. Reid 
went over, sat down, and took Finn onto his lap and back into his 
arms.  

Weepy but far more amenable, Storm allowed Dooley to check 

him over. Everyone stayed since all of them had a stake in the 
outcome. Not directly, of course, but eventually all of them could be 
in the exact same situation. The beta mates must be wondering if their 
turn to understand Storm’s agitation firsthand was next, but the alpha 
mates didn’t escape, either. Reid was fairly certain they were thinking 
what he was. How in the world would he be of any use to his mate if 
or when he became pregnant? 

“I need you to shift for me. I think it’s going to be easier to 

understand what’s going on inside if you do.” Dooley touched 
Storm’s shoulder. “Can you do that?” 

Storm shifted. 
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how many times he saw it happen, he was never going to find it 
anything but utterly fascinating. Storm was standing there, looking 
hurt and angry, and then his body collapsed into a cylinder. That long 
thin bundle seemed to jump up and out of his clothing and form into a 
coyote about three feet away. His clothing, still buttoned and zipped, 
fell into a puddle. 

As soon as he shifted, Storm went right over and looked up at his 

mate. Cassidy settled on the floor, and Storm licked Cassidy’s face. It 
was obviously an apology. 

“I know. I’m sorry, too. Do you feel better as a coyote?” 
Storm nodded. 
Reid realized Cassidy and Storm were being very kind in letting 

the rest of them in on the situation. They could have communicated 
silently with each other, shutting everyone out. Probably Storm didn’t 
want everyone thinking he was a total dick. 

“Why don’t you just hold him while I take a listen, okay?” Dooley 

settled in front of Cassidy while Storm sat in Cassidy’s lap.  

Dooley used a stethoscope to listen to Storm’s belly. Even though 

Storm was inside his coyote body, Dooley still used his soft voice and 
explained everything he was doing. He was a kind and attentive 
veterinarian who really cared about every creature he tended. Having 
to put down an animal, even to spare it from misery, obviously took a 
toll on him. His eyes were bloodshot, and the bags below them looked 
heavy. But Reid had a feeling Dooley wouldn’t trade his life with 
anyone. He loved the ranch, and he loved his mate.  

Tristan stayed close, probably ready to give Dooley anything he 

needed out of his black medical bag or to fetch anything that wasn’t 
inside. 

“Is—” Cassidy barely managed to get the one word out before he 

was choking up. “Is he pregnant?” 

Hope laced his voice. Reid detected there was fear in Cassidy, too, 

but it was just as obvious he wanted the answer to be yes.  If anyone 
on the ranch was destined to be a loving parent, then that man was 

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Cassidy. From what Reid had heard, he’d been one of the first men to 
come out and make this land his full-time home. No matter how many 
men came or what issues they brought with them, Cassidy loved 
mothering them all. And he was good at it. There was always 
something cooking in his kitchen, and the never-ending laundry didn’t 
bother him in the least. Reid figured he’d go crazy from the endless 
repetition, but not Cassidy. He was the heart of the ranch. At least he 
was to Reid. But in his mind the kitchen was always the heart of a 
home. Since Cassidy was always in there, it seemed natural for Reid 
to think of him as the heart of the ranch. 

“He is.” Dooley smiled at Cassidy then gently caressed Storm’s 

belly. “It’s strange for me to say this, but I guess strange is the new 
normal around here. He is most definitely pregnant.” 

“A pregnant male?” Finn asked, his voice dazed. 
“Well, that’s the kicker.” Dooley handed his stethoscope to 

Tristan, who tucked it away into his black bag. He stood, stretched, 
then went over to the couch. Tristan joined him, and soon the two 
were sitting close together on the end opposite from Dillion and 
Micah. “In human form we’re all male. But once we shift, things 
change.” 

“Change?” Finn asked. 
Reid realized he was playing catch-up to what the rest of them 

already knew. 

“The alpha mates are male in coyote form. But you, Storm, and all 

of the beta mates I’ve examined so far are hermaphrodites. Er, you are 
when you shift into coyotes. I haven’t examined you directly, but trust 
me on this. Otherwise your mating in coyote form would have been 
painful as hell.” 

Finn’s whole body tensed. “I’m both male and female in coyote 

form?” 

“Yeah.” Dooley grasped Tristan’s hand. “If you’re anything like 

the other men I’ve tested, you are fertile to a degree when you’re a 
coyote. You get hard, you ejaculate, but you don’t have much sperm 

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motility. Still, technically, if you mated with another beta you could 
get him pregnant. Not like anyone’s tried that.” Dooley looked around 
at all the men assembled. “At least if they have, they aren’t telling 
me.” 

There was a bunch of snickers, but no one fessed up to switching 

off partners like that. Reid found it extremely unlikely. The individual 
men might be kinky, but he was pretty sure they drew the line at mate 
swapping. Reid couldn’t imagine letting another man kiss Finn, let 
alone do anything else to him. 

“Where was I? Oh, right. Beta mates.” Dooley looked over at 

Finn. “So as a coyote you do have male genitals that are functional, 
but you also have female genitals. And as I suspected but couldn’t 
really prove until Storm helped me out, those are very functional. 
From my research, there are times—seasons, really—where you’re 
more likely to be in heat.” 

“Heat? Like a dog?” 
“Well, yeah. I guess.” Dooley yawned. “Sorry. Very long day. But 

yes, you go into heat. In the wild, female coyotes don’t go into heat if 
resources are slim or if they aren’t healthy. Their bodies know when 
the best chance for reproduction is. As for our kind…” Dooley 
shrugged. “That really doesn’t matter since we have things pretty 
comfy.” 

“Comfy?” 
“Plenty of food, water, shelter. As a coyote, you don’t have nearly 

the same issues as a wild coyote.” 

“Oh. Right. That makes sense.” Finn looked over at Cassidy, and 

Reid followed his gaze.  

Cassidy was sitting with his eyes closed while he stroked over 

Storm’s coyote ears. Storm’s eyes were closed, too, making them both 
look almost meditative. 

“So did Cassidy know Storm was in heat?” 
Cassidy’s eyes came open, and so did Storm’s. They looked at 

one another for a long moment, clearly communicating with each 

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other the way mates could. Eventually, Storm nodded then settled his 
head down on Cassidy’s leg to enjoy more of his soft strokes. 

“I knew he was. I can’t even tell you how good he smelled that 

night.” Cassidy made a face that sparked longing in Reid. “We had 
talked about it because we knew it could happen. But all my 
agreements, all my willpower…” Cassidy sighed. “I couldn’t resist.” 

There was a pause. 
“Oh, Storm. It wasn’t you.” Cassidy shook his head at his mate. 

“He wants me to say it wasn’t my fault but his for shifting and 
practically shoving his—I’m not using that word, Storm—in my face. 
I could have run the other direction but, well, animal instinct, you 
know?” 

Reid realized that all the males present were nodding. All but 

Finn. Reid didn’t have to ask what he was thinking. It was pretty 
damn clear he was probably planning on never shifting into a coyote 
again. 

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Chapter 10 

 
“Believe me, I know what you mean about that scent.” Dillion 

sighed as he kissed the top of Micah’s head.  

Finn wondered what Dillion meant, but he didn’t have the courage 

to ask. He was too busy worrying and wondering if he was pregnant. 
Even though he and Reid had only just mated, that didn’t matter. All 
it took was one time. Finn placed one hand low on his belly. One time 
at the right time and then poof! Everything he knew or at least 
thought he knew was over. As terrified as he was, he couldn’t help a 
curious kind of anticipation. Bringing life into the world was a 
powerful gift, even more so than his ability to shift. Changing into a 
coyote was cool, but giving birth? That was something that he’d never 
in a billion years thought he’d be able to do. 

“You resisted?” Cassidy asked Dillion. 
“I had to.” Dillion flashed a grin that was wickedly sexy. Finn 

knew exactly how Micah had fallen under the man’s spell. Dillion 
was uber-alpha, but he was also gentle. The combination of which 
must have made his friend positively crazy. 

“Explain.” The word slipped out of Finn’s mouth before he could 

edit himself. He felt unbelievably rude for prying into their private 
life, but he also wanted to know how the mated pairs had resisted. As 
much as he lusted after Reid, and thought they were a very good 
match, he wasn’t anywhere near ready to have kids. Not now, at least. 
Maybe not ever. It was simply too difficult to wrap his head around 
the idea that he actually could. Being an out and proud gay man made 
certain things—children of his own—a total impossibility. Since it 
wasn’t likely to happen, at least not unless he and his partner hired a 

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woman and then dealt with all of that—well, hell. It just wasn’t 
something he’d ever really considered. “I’m sorry. Ignore me. I just—
I’m still trying to wrap my head around all of this.” 

“Tossing children into the mix is more than you can take?” Micah 

met Finn’s gaze. “Believe me, I know. I’ve been there. I think all of 
us have. It’s incredible and mind-blowing but scary as hell, too.” 

“Yes.” Finn was glad that someone understood. Not that he didn’t 

think Reid did. He was an extremely sensitive man who clearly cared 
about everyone on the ranch. Offering himself out as a punching bag 
just to make Storm feel better? That had told Finn a lot about Reid. 
He was willing to do almost anything to help resolve a tense situation. 
For a moment, Finn had thought that Storm was going to haul off and 
hit him. He’d tensed so hard he was practically vibrating. If Storm 
touched Reid, Finn was going to intervene. Pregnant or not, Finn 
wasn’t about to stand aside and let anyone touch his mate in anger or 
in lust. That made Finn understand that not only was Reid far more 
astute than he’d thought, but Finn was falling in love with him far 
faster than he would have believed possible. 

“What I meant about knowing that scent is that Micah was 

pouring it off one night.” Dillion looked around, seeming to catch the 
eye of the alphas. “I gave chase. Believe me, I followed him, 
determined to catch up.” 

“And?” 
“By the time I did, he’d shifted over to human.” Dillion kissed the 

top of Micah’s head very firmly. “We mated. Fast and furious and he 
was practically on fire—right. That’s not what you want to know. 
Micah was able to shift without consummating. If he hadn’t, he might 
be in the same position Storm is now.” 

“That’s why I understand why you’re so scared,” Micah said to 

Storm. “I think everyone here does. We get it. From how it could 
happen right down to your fear about what will happen next.” 

Storm stayed as a coyote. Finn wanted him to switch back so he 

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in his animal form while his mate caressed his long, pointed ears. 
Finn wondered if he was that pretty when he was a coyote. He 
decided he was different because he realized coyote Storm had the 
same gray hair as human Storm. Running through the field he’d look 
like smoke. 

“But what is it, and where will it come out?” Finn realized he was 

becoming as hysterical as Storm had been earlier. “Sorry. I’m—I’m 
so sorry. I’m just—” 

“Scared.” Cassidy kept right on petting his mate. It became 

obvious he was trying to keep Storm relaxed. “It’s okay. Really.”  

Finn would have run out of the room but for Reid’s embrace. And 

running away wasn’t going to change how he felt.   

“We really need an ultrasound machine.” Dooley’s eyes were 

closed and his head was back against the couch. “But my guess—and 
keep in mind this is just me speculating—when Storm is human, his 
baby is human. When he’s coyote, his baby is, too.” 

“But where is it in him when he’s human? He’d kind of missing 

that particular part.” Finn had a horrible image of the baby filling up 
his intestines. When he realized he was freaking himself out worse, he 
tried to stop thinking about that aspect all together. Unfortunately, he 
couldn’t stop himself. It was like a slow-motion car wreck. He simply 
couldn’t look away. 

“I think he carries that part over from his coyote body. That way, 

no matter what, the baby is safe and has what it needs to thrive.” 
Dooley rolled his head forward and opened his eyes, pinning Finn 
where he was sitting. “As to where it’s going to come out, I’m pretty 
sure he’ll have to deliver as a coyote. There just isn’t any other 
logical way for that to work.” 

“As if any part of this is logical.” Finn laughed lightly at first then 

he realized it was taking a turn for more hysterical. “I just—how did 
he know he was pregnant? It’s not like he missed his period.” 

“He says he felt funny.” Cassidy continued to stroke over Storm’s 

ears. For all Finn could tell he seemed to be asleep. In a way he was 

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glad that Storm was finally calm, but in another way he was worried. 
He wanted to know everything now. Not later. Now. When Finn 
didn’t understand something, he would whip out his smartphone and 
search for all the information he could find. His friends teased him 
that he was an info-junkie, but he didn’t care. Finn found the 
unknown scary as hell.  

“Funny like how?” 
“Like his stomach felt bloated. He noticed when he was a coyote 

he felt extremely protective of himself. I noticed that I was more 
attentive to him, too. Maybe there was a part of me that knew.” 

“Pheromones.” Displaying his remarkable kindness, Reid kept his 

voice low since his mouth was close to Finn’s ear.  

“I thought that’s what compelled us to mate?” Finn asked. 
“Right.” Dooley nodded thoughtfully. “They do, but they also 

could convey a lot of information.” 

“Storm’s hormones going into overdrive would certainly alter his 

pheromones. And clearly, if he’s got a child in him, the chemical 
changes would be pretty crazy.” Cassidy’s hand slipped down to 
Storm’s belly. Finn was surprised that he found himself envious of 
that simple yet fundamentally possessive stroke. He didn’t understand 
how he could be simultaneously terrified of being pregnant yet 
ironically crave that same state. Maybe he was going crazy from the 
chemical changes already going on inside him. 

“What we really need is more equipment. I can’t tell you what’s 

going on without a way to see inside him.” 

“How much is an ultrasound machine?” 
“Used, we’re probably looking at about a grand or two.” 
Dillion whistled lightly. 
“That’s not that much,” Finn said. “Sorry, but if all of the guys 

pitch in, we should be able to get one. And I might know someone 
who could help.” 

Everyone present was more than willing to pitch in on buying 

equipment because they certainly couldn’t take the pregnant men to a 

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regular doctor or even a vet. Somehow, knowing that he was basically 
trapped here only exacerbated Finn’s fear.  

“We need to be careful about leaving paper trails back to us when 

we buy equipment,” Dooley said. 

“Why?” 
“Some of it I can justify as a veterinarian, but we already have one 

lawman looking to make trouble for us. Just imagine the mess 
Kingsley will make if he finds out we have pregnant males on the 
ranch.” 

“It’s none of his goddamn business,” Finn said vehemently. “Just 

who the hell does he think he is? Coming out here and sticking his 
nose into our business. It’s harassment, pure and simple.” 

“Now you know why I want his job.” Dillion sighed. 
And then Finn realized this wasn’t all about him. There were lots 

of other people here. He looked over at Micah and realized he was 
falling asleep in Dillion’s arms. Dillion looked completely happy. 
Finn almost felt badly for what he was going to say, but he felt he had 
to be honest. “You shouldn’t run.” 

“What?” Dillion’s mind was clearly elsewhere. 
“For sheriff. If you run, all of this might come out.” 
Finn looked at each of the men in turn. “Running for any kind of 

political office puts you and pretty much everyone you know up for 
scrutiny. I know it doesn’t seem fair, but there it is.” 

“Most everyone knows I’m gay.” 
“The fact that you are isn’t the issue. To some voters, yes, sexual 

orientation is a big deal, but can you imagine what would happen if 
voters found out all the men on this ranch were able to shift into 
animal form?” Finn gave them a moment to let that sink in. “People 
are afraid of the unknown. Even in this supposedly enlightened day 
and age, I don’t think people would openly embrace something so 
outside the norm.” 

“I’m having a horrible image of the townsfolk descending with 

pitchforks and torches.” Elliot hugged Marshal hard. 

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“That would be a hell of a lot easier to shut down than assault 

rifles and Molotov cocktails. Hell, I can see them using those 
Humvees at Sullivan’s like tanks.” Marshal frowned at what he’d said 
but didn’t bother to take it back. What was the point? 

Everyone was quiet for a moment. 
“And pregnant males. That’s just so far from center that—” 

Dillion stopped talking when Storm let out a low, keening moan of 
despair. 

“That’s not happening. No one is coming to get you.” Cassidy 

frowned at all the other men. It was clear he was agitated that he’d 
just gotten Storm to calm down and here they were edging him right 
back up. “We’re not going to let that happen.” 

“Then Finn’s right. I shouldn’t run. Kingsley knows I’m tight with 

all of you. And—hell. He knows about a little kink of mine that 
probably won’t play well with the voters.” 

“Kink?” 
“He likes me to wear pink panties sometimes. Sheesh. It’s not like 

you enjoy masturbating to burning puppies or something totally 
deranged like that.” 

There was a chorus of nervous laughter. 
“Pink?” 
“I like pink,” Dillion said defensively. “Besides, the color matches 

Micah’s eyes.” 

“Well, as far as things go, that’s pretty tame. But coyote-shifters, 

pregnant men, and whatever else might be going on out here? That’s 
not a good thing to have become public knowledge.” 

“I keep thinking of those old movies where the government gets 

involved and tries to build a race of super shifting humans.” 

“There already might be someone doing that.” Reid explained 

about the compounds. 

“That’s where the others are?” Finn was even more concerned. 

What if he was pregnant and one of those sickos found out? What if 
they took him away? 

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“Finn?” 
“I want to go to bed.” He was up and off Reid’s lap before he 

could stop him. 

“Finn, hey. Wait a second. It’s not all doom and gloom. Really. 

It’s not.” Marshal was obviously deeply concerned by Finn’s terror. 
“The ranch is a haven.” 

“It is?” 
“It really is. We’re very safe here. There’s only one road in or out 

of the entire valley.” 

“But Kingsley…” 
“He’s a pain, and yes, he comes out here sniffing around for 

trouble, but he’s not going to be the sheriff forever. Whether Dillion 
runs or not, there are other men—hell, and two women that I know 
of—angling for his job. Also, Storm came from two male shifters. So 
we know that it works and works just fine.” 

Finn looked over at Storm. He was back to being blissed out in 

Cassidy’s lap.  

“It’s true.” Cassidy didn’t look up. “We found out when his 

fathers sent him a letter.” 

“Where are his fathers?” When no one answered, Finn thought the 

worst. How could he not? 

“His fathers had to abandon Storm to protect him,” Cassidy said 

softly. “We tried to find them, but when they made themselves 
disappear, they did a very good job. From what they said in their 
letter, they were afraid enough of the shifter hunters to separate from 
their only child.” 

Finn looked down at his perfectly flat belly. He wasn’t ready for 

all of this. Not by a long shot. But the thought of someone else 
terrifying him to the point he felt the best thing to do for his child was 
to abandon him was somehow much worse.  

“We don’t know if there are actually shifter hunters anymore. His 

fathers said that’s who they were afraid of, but I think the only people 
after shifters now are those who want to uncover the secret of how we 

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shift.” Marshal eased Elliot up and off his lap then stood. “I know this 
is a lot to take in. Believe me, I do. But we’re making this ranch as 
safe as we can. And we’ve done a lot.” 

“Like making an alliance with Leader and his people,” Elliot 

offered. 

“Leader?” Finn felt he needed a flowchart. For his more 

complicated parties, he always had one on his laptop so that he knew 
when and where everything would be unfolding. Here, he was lost, 
and that was only adding to his anxiety. 

“I’ll explain everything to him.” Reid placed his hands gently on 

Finn’s shoulders. “Come on. Let’s go up to bed.” 

As he moved toward the stairs with Reid at his back, Finn 

couldn’t help but worry that they were going to be alone again. He 
didn’t trust himself not to shift and encourage Reid to mount him. If 
he had no control over his shifting before, how in the world would he 
be able to resist if all his hormones were compelling him now? 

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Chapter 11 

 
“I’m not going to make you do anything.” Reid could literally feel 

his mate’s tension. When Finn was nervous, his upper body tightened 
like he was trying to touch his shoulders to his earlobes. “I just 
thought you needed a break.” 

“Thank you.” Finn walked woodenly over to the bed. He turned 

on the lamp and then stood by the window, looking out into the yard. 

Unsure what to do, Reid closed the door but then leaned against it. 

He didn’t want to be too close when he sensed his mate needed space. 

“Who is Leader?” Finn kept right on looking out the window. The 

moon was a small sliver, casting very little light. Tomorrow night it 
would be the new moon. Normally, Reid looked forward to that night 
because he enjoyed nothing better than getting a blanket and going 
out to the swimming hole to do a little star gazing. He always 
imagined going with a mate would be better, but he didn’t think Finn 
would be in the mood. 

“Leader is the leader of the coyotes in the hills. His kind is like 

ours in some ways. But different, too.” 

“That’s a lot of double speak, Reid.” 
“Sorry. They are coyotes who can shift into humans. But not 

humans like us. They are old humans. Old in terms of—damn.” Reid 
took a deep breath. “Ancient humans.” 

“Like the one they found named Lucy?” 
“Yeah. They’re short, with very thick skin. Big heads. Stout, 

strong bodies. They came down because they needed Doc’s help. 
Leader was injured. He would have died without surgery.” 

“Doc saved him?” 

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“Doc and Dooley. And another man. Sorry, I forgot his name. I 

think he was someone Doc knew from the local hospital. I wasn’t 
really involved.” 

“No?” 
“No. I never thought I’d have a mate, so I just tried to stay out of 

everyone’s way.” 

“Oh, Reid.” Finn turned from the window, his face twisted with 

concern. “I’m not going to abandon you.” 

“I didn’t say you would.” Reid had thought that, but he certainly 

wouldn’t say it. He didn’t want to make Finn feel guilty if that was 
what he was planning on doing. 

“I just—all of this is a lot to take in.” Finn lifted his hand as if to 

encompass not only their room but the entire ranch. 

“What can I do?” Reid hated being in tense situations. He wanted 

to make things better but never had any clue how to do that. Through 
trial and error, he’d realized asking was usually the best thing he 
could offer. 

“Nothing.” Finn flashed him a wan smile. “I just have to accept 

that things are different. I had my whole world mapped out.” Finn 
settled on the edge of the bed with one leg up and bent while the other 
was touching the floor. While he talked, he toyed with the seam down 
the inside leg of his sweats. “I changed my name, my style, 
everything. The very first person I ever was a stylist to was myself.” 

“Was that why you changed your name?” Reid moved over to the 

other side of the bed. He’d always liked the room he had with the 
king-sized mattress, but once he was settled, he realized how close he 
and Finn really were. Still, he was far enough away that he hoped 
Finn wouldn’t feel crowded. 

“I grew up in a little town. Probably a lot like the town you told 

me about. Scorpion?” 

“Yeah. It’s fifty miles that way.” He pointed automatically while 

in his head he saw the layout of the valley and the surrounding land 
like he had a topographical map in his brain. “Were you…was it not 

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good?” 

“That would be an understatement.” Finn reached across the bed 

that separated them, taking Reid’s hand in his. As simple as it was, his 
touch was reassuring. “I was always so different from everyone else. I 
liked things to be beautiful, functional, and fun.” 

Reid squeezed his hand, happy to just touch him and listen. If 

there was one thing he knew he was good at, it was being an attentive 
listener. 

“I knew I was gay pretty much from the first time I sat on Santa’s 

lap.” 

“I don’t understand.” Reid hoped he didn’t have a strange Santa 

fetish, or worse, he really hoped he hadn’t encountered a perverted 
Santa. 

“You know those little mock kitchens? They have a stove, fridge, 

all that? I asked for one of those. I was so excited when I saw one in 
some magazine of my mother’s. I imagined myself creating fabulous 
dinners for my guests. Even then I wanted to throw parties.” 

“Aw, that’s sweet.” Yet judging by Finn’s face, the memory was 

far from nice. 

“My father didn’t think so. He wanted me to want boy things. Or 

what he perceived as boy things. My sister could have the kitchen 
stuff, but I was supposed to want the race car that I could peddle 
around on the sidewalks.” 

“But most of the greatest chefs in the world are men.” 
“I never thought of that. But it wouldn’t have mattered. He had 

clearly defined gender roles.” 

“What about your mother?” 
“She loved me no matter what.” This time, Finn’s smile was wide 

and genuine. “But she also knew fighting my father was a waste of 
time. She let him get me whatever he deemed most manly, but behind 
his back she taught me how to cook and let me read books on hosting 
parties. I got to plan my tenth birthday party. It was wonderful. My 
father finally gave up on molding me into his clone. He withdrew 

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from the family after that. He was there, but he wasn’t happy. And 
then he wasn’t even there anymore.” 

“He left you?” 
Finn nodded. “He blamed me and my mother. He tried to get 

custody of my sister, but it didn’t happen. Probably for the best, too. 
God only knows what he would have tried to mold her into. Some 
kind of doormat for men, probably. He was just so angry that my 
mother loved me the way I was. It was as if she betrayed him.” 

“I’m so sorry.” 
“Thank you.” Finn squeezed his hand as if Reid’s small show of 

support meant the world to him. “I wonder where he is sometimes, 
but it’s more of a curiosity than I actually care. I doubt he changed. 
He probably had another son. One he can love. Well, one he can love 
in his conditional way.” After a long beat of silence, Finn looked up 
and asked, “What about your family?” 

“My family was just really average. They still live over in Red 

Bluff. It’s about seventy-five miles that way.” The map popped up in 
his head with a little green arrow pointing to his family’s house. “My 
parents are still married. I see them about once a month.” 

“Do they know about you?” 
“They know I’m gay. They don’t know about the shifting.” 
“So you weren’t born of two shifting men?” 
“Nope. Regular old mom and dad.” Reid grinned. “So far as I 

know, Storm is the only one who came into the world that way.” 

“He seems so normal.” 
“Storm is normal.” Reid wondered if Finn, despite the horrible 

treatment of his father, was bigoted. 

“Oh, no! I didn’t mean—I didn’t mean to put him down. I don’t 

know why in the world I said that. Of course he’s normal. He’s just 
not what I—I’m going to shut up now.” 

“Please don’t. If you don’t ask questions, you won’t ever feel 

comfortable here, and I want you to be happy.” 

“Happy.” Finn nodded. “I thought I could give everything up. All 

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the glitz and glamor of New York. The city just never really sleeps, 
you know? You can find anything at any time day or night. I could 
leave all that behind. Or I thought I could. But then I’m walking into a 
world that is so different from anything I’ve ever thought of. It’s 
overwhelming.” 

“If you don’t want to live here, we can find another place.” 
“Really?” Finn met Reid’s gaze with a stunned kind of surprise. 
“Of course.” Reid realized that in order for their pairing to work 

they had to have the ability to discuss things and compromise. “I love 
it here. I always have. From the moment I set foot on the ranch, I 
knew I was in the right place for me. But if you aren’t happy here, I 
don’t think I can be either.” 

“You’d give all of this up for me?” 
“You’re my mate.” 
Blinking rapidly, Finn leaned across the mattress. When he 

couldn’t quite reach him, Reid made up the difference. They met in 
the middle and shared a sweet kiss. 

“I think I’m a very lucky man,” Finn whispered as he pulled 

away. 

“You are?” 
“I think I got the kindest mate in the bunch.” 
“I think I’m lucky, too.” 
Sweet kisses slowly turned more passionate. Reid was determined 

to keep his dick to himself because he didn’t want Finn freaking out 
again about getting pregnant, but Finn seemed determined to get Reid 
out of his clothes. 

“I thought you were scared?” 
“From what Dooley said, we should just avoid having sex as 

coyotes.” Finn popped the buttons apart on Reid’s shirt. “You can’t 
get me pregnant in human form.” 

“But what if you already are?” 
“Let’s just skip over that for now, okay? I don’t want to think 

about that. Not just now.” Finn was very good at working Reid’s 

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clothing apart. The only thing he forgot was the fact that Reid was 
wearing boots. 

“My pants aren’t going to come off until those do.” Reid leaned 

over, shucked his boots, then shimmied out of his jeans. By the time 
he turned around, Finn was naked on the bed. His eyes were bright 
and expectant. There was some fear there as evidenced by the tight 
lines around his mouth, but he was far less frantic in his concern. “I 
can’t offer you a lot, but I can tell you that I will always put you first. 
If you are—right, we’re not talking about that—but just in case 
something like that were to happen to you, I would do everything I 
could to keep you safe.” 

“I know you would.” Finn pulled Reid close, stroking his hands 

over his head, sifting the strands of Reid’s hair through his fingers. 
“You made me start to fall in love with you tonight.” 

“I did?” Reid was so used to messing things up he couldn’t 

believe he’d somehow managed to do something right. “How did I do 
that?” 

“When you offered to let Storm punch you.” 
“He wouldn’t have.” 
“I know. But by doing that, you made him see that he was hurting 

people with his words. If he was going to do that, then he should just 
hit you with his fists. It got through to him when nothing else was 
working.” 

“I just wanted him to stop hurting.” Reid kissed Finn’s shoulder. 

“I don’t want to hurt you. Not ever.” 

“You won’t. I know you won’t.” 
Reid pulled Finn tightly against him, loving the way he fit so 

perfectly. He wasn’t sure who or what to thank for giving him the gift 
of a mate, but he was grateful all the same. Unlike their frantic 
mating, this was a slow journey of loving tenderness. Reid explored 
his mate with his gaze and his hands. When he had him moaning 
softly, he then used his lips on every part of his body. He discovered 
that Finn was ticklish but only in a curious spot. Right above where 

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his briefs would ride. They laughed until Reid touched a little firmer 
and a little lower. By the time he took Finn’s cock into his mouth, 
Finn was gasping in need. But Reid wasn’t finished with him yet. 
Truth be told, he would never be done loving his mate. 

“Please, Reid. I want you inside me.” Finn was fumbling at the 

bedside table. When he laid his hand on the lube, he handed it over to 
Reid. “Please.” 

Setting it aside, Reid kept right on teasing his mate. But all too 

soon he knew he wasn’t going to be able to take any more. His body 
strained to take possession of Finn. Each lick and kiss was pushing 
both of them to find completion. Smoothing his hands over his skin, 
Reid settled his mate on his back then slicked up his cock. 

“Why are you—” Finn never got to finish asking why Reid was 

lubing up his cock. Once he had his mate slick, he took him in hand 
and then lubed himself up by rubbing their pricks together. “I like the 
way you think.” 

“I believe in sharing.” Reid grinned as he continued to slide their 

now very slick pricks against one another. He’d be happy to keep on 
going like this, but then Finn arched upward, spreading his legs wide. 
The invitation was too good to resist. So he didn’t.  

Slowly, with careful attention to his mate’s face, Reid entered 

Finn. When Finn’s head went back and his mouth came open, Reid 
almost retreated. Almost. But in the very next breath, Finn uttered a 
cry of bliss that compelled Reid to go deeper. By the time he was 
buried in his mate, Reid was shaking. Not from the strain of holding 
himself up but from the strain of holding himself back. As much as 
the alpha in him wanted to push hard and fast to find release, the man 
inside wanted to take his time and show his mate without words how 
much he cared for him. 

The slower Reid went, the more time he had to really look at Finn 

and feel the connection between them growing. He knew the other 
mated pairs on the ranch weren’t in love when they first came 
together, but that was something that always came to them. 

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Eventually, they found the spark that made love seem like it had 
always been there and they just hadn’t noticed. Finding out that Finn 
had felt the first tug of love tonight because of something he’d done 
on impulse pleased Reid more than he could ever express. For once, 
he felt secure in simply being himself. 

“You look happy,” Finn said, gripping Reid’s shoulders. 
“I am. I think for the first time I’m really happy.” 
“Good.” Finn kissed him tenderly. “I have a feeling you deserve it.” 
“So do you.” Reid increased the pace, loving the way his mate’s 

body accommodated his. Each plunge caused Finn to grip along his 
cock. Reid felt powerful when Finn wrapped his arms and legs around 
him and clung tightly to him, kissing his neck frantically as they got 
closer to heaven. When the moment came, Finn spilled between their 
bellies and Reid buried himself as deeply as he could. His orgasm was 
so powerful he had to tighten his entire body in order to prevent 
himself from bucking frantically.  

“It’s okay. Fuck me, Reid. You’ve made the sweetest love to me, 

and I know you need something more raw now.” 

“I don’t want to—” 
“You won’t hurt me.” 
Reid thrust hard and fast, loving the way Finn welcomed each 

plunge of his body. By the time his release was over, he was drained 
and barely able to roll to his side with Finn still pressed against him. 

“You are so beautiful.” Reid kissed the tip of Finn’s nose. “I’m an 

extremely lucky man.” 

Finn smiled and blushed. “I’m lucky, too.” 
“You are?” 
“You’re kind, and tender, and—” 
“Clumsy.” 
“That’s not fair. Don’t put yourself down like that.” Finn stroked 

his hands over Reid’s back. “I like you just the way you are.” 

“Yeah?” It was strange, but Reid didn’t think anyone had ever 

told him that.  

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“Yes. And you’re not clumsy. Not as much as you think you are. I 

think you just get distracted easily. That’s when you fumble. But 
you’re a deep thinker, Mr. Holland. Men like you aren’t always so 
attentive to the physical plane because your head is off in a mental 
plane.” 

“I like that.” Reid pressed his forehead to Finn’s. “I’m going to 

put that on a T-shirt.” 

“I’ll get one for you.” 
“Oh. I see your angle.”  
Finn flashed him a curious look. 
“You just want to get me a shirt so you can take it off and have 

your way with me.” 

Finn’s smile was like a warm blanket on a cold evening. “You 

found me out.” 

“Maybe I’ll get you pink panties.” 
“That was a revelation tonight, wasn’t it?” Finn giggled. “Not that 

I’m putting them down. It’s just deliciously kinky.” 

“Are you kinky?” Reid hadn’t had enough regular sex to ever 

contemplate anything outrageous. 

“I’ve done some racy things.” 
“Like?” 
“Like I’m not telling.” Finn shook his head. “Is there anything 

you want to try?” 

“I haven’t done enough of anything to really be bored with things 

yet.” 

“But surely you’ve had fantasies.” 
“Well, yeah. I suppose. But they aren’t wild or outrageous.” 
“Tell me one.” 
“Okay. Uh, like, tomorrow night is the new moon. I’ve always 

gone out to the swimming hole and spent the night stargazing. While 
I’m out there on my back looking up, I’ve wondered what it would be 
like to have someone with me. Someone who’s my mate.” 

“So we’re just holding hands and watching the stars?” 

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“At first.” Reid closed his eyes to better picture the scene. “But 

then things would get more intense.” 

“I could do that.” 
“Get more intense?” 
“Go stargazing with you and make love with you under the stars.” 
“It’s a date.” Reid fell asleep with his mate in his arms and 

anticipation in his heart. 

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Chapter 12 

 
“I don’t think I’ve ever been so annoyed.” Finn struggled to keep 

a civil tongue in his head and murder out of his gaze. “That man 
could test the patience of Gandhi.” 

“He’s very trying.” 
“You’re not irritated?” 
“Not so much. But I’m used to dealing with cows, and they can be 

way more stubborn than the sheriff.” 

Finn laughed. It seemed each time he did something with Reid he 

fell a little more in love with him. Reid simply had a unique way of 
looking at the world.  “Remind me again why you’re with me?” 

“Because you’re sweet, sexy, and suave.” 
“Oh, you are good.” Finn looped his arm with Reid’s. “Let’s take 

my stuff and go shopping.” 

“Shopping?” 
“Mm-hmm. Shopping.” 
“For what?”  
“A surprise party.” 
“For who?” 
“You’ll see.” Finn waited at the cutaway door for one of the 

deputies to bring his possessions from the back room. This was only 
done after Kingsley grilled him to ensure he was really the owner of 
the items. Annoyed, because last night Kingsley had threatened to 
haul him off to jail but then today was refusing to believe he was who 
he said he was, Finn quickly realized that Kingsley lived to irritate 
other people. He didn’t have much of anything going on, so he 
created drama out of nothing to give himself something to do. Worse, 

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it seemed all the men and women who worked for him were cut from 
the same cloth. As much as Finn would love to help Dillion take 
Kingsley’s job, he realized that doing so would expose all the men of 
the ranch to scrutiny. It didn’t matter that Dillion and Micah lived in 
town. When the muckrakers went looking for muck to fling, their trail 
would inevitably lead to the Rough River Ranch. Still, there had to be 
someone they could help get elected. Anyone would be better than 
Judd Kingsley. 

“I love parties,” Reid said. 
“You do?”  
“Sure. There’s almost always cake involved. Any situation that 

involves cake is a good one in my humble opinion.” 

“Ah. Now I know the way to your heart. Sweets.” 
“That. And sex.” Reid kept his voice whisper soft. “Mix the two 

together and I’ll be yours for all time.” 

“I’ll remember that.” Finn realized that despite his fears and the 

almost one-eighty-degree shift in his lifestyle, he was happy with 
Reid. He was a good man. His willingness to change things so they 
could both be happy filled Finn with confidence that they would 
eventually work things out. Micah had undergone a similar 
restructuring when he’d gone from New York to Scorpion. If Micah 
could make it work, Finn felt that he could, too. Especially when 
there was a curious kind of rightness to the ranch and even the little 
town of Scorpion. For some crazy reason, Finn felt comfortable. Not 
that he didn’t love the city, because he did, but here, in these very 
different places, there just wasn’t the same kind of pressure to be 
wearing the right thing and be seen in the right places with the right 
people. He found he was far less self-conscious. 

When they finally brought his belongings out, Finn was dismayed 

to find that his wallet was intact but for the cash. He was fairly certain 
someone from the sheriff’s office had pocketed the money, but he had 
no proof. Speculation was pointless, so he just wrote it off as the cost 
of finding his mate. Five-hundred dollars in exchange for Reid? He’d 

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have happily paid a hundred times that much. At least his phone and 
laptop were in working condition. And his suitcase, while it looked 
like someone had rifled through it, still contained his clothing. 

“Are you going to keep the car?” Reid asked as he picked up most 

of the items to carry out to the pickup. 

“I called the company. They have a place here where I can turn it 

in. I just need to pay the impound fee then drive it over to their 
office.” 

“Let’s get that done, then. Do you need money?” 
“No. I’m good.” Finn had quite a bit saved. “I’ll have to find a 

job.” 

“I have money.” 
“I’m sure you do, but I like working.” 
“Oh. Right. Well, there’s not a lot of work around here. I mean 

unless you want to learn to be a cowboy.” 

“I don’t know about that.” Finn had a sudden image of himself in 

leather chaps and a black hat. When he realized that was all he was 
wearing, he struggled to keep his giggles suppressed. 

“What?” Reid put his clothing in the bed of the truck while Finn 

kept his briefcase and laptop up front.  

“Oh, just my silly mind. Thinking of me dressed in cowboy gear 

made me laugh.” 

“You’d look sexy.” 
“I would?” 
“Oh, yeah. Tight jeans, a snug shirt, and—” 
“I was picturing me in black chaps and a hat.” 
“Only that?” 
“Only those two things.” 
Reid swallowed hard. “Yeah. That—that would be good. For me. 

Not for work, but I would certainly enjoy you dressed that way.” 

“See? You are kinky.” 
“And now I’m picturing you wearing chaps, a hat, and pink 

panties.” 

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“You just can’t let that go, huh?” 
“It’s just so different. I never would have guessed in a million 

years. But it’s…well, don’t laugh.” 

“At you? Never.” 
“Swear?” Reid asked as he jumped into the cab of the truck. 
“I do so solemnly swear.” Finn got in beside him and placed his 

hand on his heart. 

“I tried on a pair of my sister’s panties once.” 
Finn thought his eyes were going to fall out of his head, but at 

least he didn’t laugh. 

“By mistake!” Reid said, jamming the key in the ignition. “I was 

sleepy, and my mom mixed up the laundry. Anyway, I’m barely 
awake when I pull them on, and I realize they feel really funny. Silky 
and way too snug on my junk.” 

Finn had to press his lips tightly together not to laugh. He 

managed, but barely. “Did you like them?” 

“No!” Reid pulled his seat belt on, prompting Finn to do the same. 
“Be honest.” 
“Well, yeah. I mean the fabric was so slippery. It was like cool 

and hot on my skin at the same time.” Reid was so red he looked 
sunburned. “You think I’m a pervert.” 

“Not at all!” Finn slapped Reid’s leg playfully. “It was an 

accident. It’s not like you had some weird fetish for your sister’s 
underwear.” 

“God no. I like my sister as a sister.” Reid kept his gaze on the 

road. “It’s okay. You can laugh.” 

“Oh, thank God!” Finn laughed loud and long. “Although, now I 

want to get some panties.” 

“For you?” 
“For us. We can take turns.” 
They laughed all the way to the impound lot. Once Finn dropped 

off the car, he was back in the truck, and they were headed to the 
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party he was throwing tonight with Cassidy’s help. In short order they 
were driving up the River Road toward home. 

“I just can’t believe how beautiful everything is.” Finn had the 

window down so he could feel the wind in his hair. He felt free in a 
way he didn’t remember ever feeling before.  

“I love it here. And it’s different.” 
“What do you mean?” 
“I’ve driven this road probably a thousand times, but it’s never 

quite the same because the light is different. Not just in intensity, but 
the angle. The colors are always changing and—it’s just a magical 
place.” 

“I think so, too.” And in that moment, Finn knew he could never 

ask Reid to go. He belonged here. And when he was very honest with 
himself, Finn thought he was a part of this place as well. He had to be. 
There were a lot of coincidences in the world. And he believed some 
were big and some were small, but the fact he’d been drawn here 
because of a friendship then discovered his dormant shifter 
ability…there had to be something more at play than just coincidence. 
“What makes us shifters? I mean Storm came from two shifters, so it 
makes sense he would have the ability, but what about those of us 
who came from non-shifting humans?” 

“I don’t know.” Reid shrugged. “I know Dooley and Doc have 

been trying to figure out if there’s something genetic, but I don’t think 
they have an answer.” 

“Are all the shifters gay?” 
“Again, I don’t know. But I think there are other shifters. I mean 

we know there are because Storm’s dads said that there were other 
enclaves of shifters.” 

“All coyote?” 
“Different animals. And they have different ways of mating, so it 

makes sense that there are heterosexual shifters out there.” 

Finn considered. 
“But I also think this is the best gift.” 

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“Shifting?” 
“Well, not that so much. But we can actually have children 

together.” 

Finn dropped his hand down to his belly. Despite all they’d been 

doing today, the idea he might be pregnant was never very far from 
his attention. He was still freaked out by the whole idea, but he was 
less terrified and far more curious than he had been last night. 

“Are you feeling better about that?” 
“In a way.” Finn considered. “Storm will go first. By that point 

we’ll know how it all works. I guess I feel sorry that he’s got to go 
through it alone.” 

“He’s not alone. Every man on that ranch will move heaven and 

earth to help him.” 

“Of course. And I’m sure he knows that. But no one can give birth 

for him. That’s all up to Storm. That’s what undoubtedly made him so 
terrified he was lashing out.” 

“He seemed calmer this morning.” 
“He did, didn’t he?” Finn had entered the kitchen with some 

reservation because Storm was in there with Cassidy, but it became 
clear within moments that he was in a very different headspace than 
he’d been in the previous night.  

“I won’t force you into that, you know.” Reid kept his attention on 

the winding road. “I want kids but not right away and not unless you 
want them, too.” 

“I never really gave it any thought. I figured as a gay guy that 

would be just about the last thing I’d ever have to deal with. But 
now…I just don’t know how I feel about it.” 

Reid let the matter drop, but Finn kept running scenarios through 

his mind. He saw himself with a swelled belly and oversized shirts. 
Reid would be doubly attentive, triply, probably. And then they 
would have a new and very fragile life to guide through the world. 
The more he considered the idea, the scarier it became. But it wasn’t 
the idea of carrying the child or even giving birth that frightened him. 

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Those concerns were waylaid by knowing that a man like Dooley 
would be there to help him. Watching Dooley with Storm last night 
showed him very clearly he would be in excellent medical hands. And 
he had no doubts about Reid as a father. What he was worried about 
was what kind of a world he’d be bringing his child into. If there were 
shifter hunters still out to track them, that was a concern. Not to 
mention bigoted fools like Kingsley.  

And then, the most terrifying question of all popped into his head. 

How in the world would they explain how they had children? If 
Kingsley or some other official started snooping around and 
discovered a bunch of children on the ranch, questions would be 
raised. The idea of zealots with pitchforks and torches descending on 
them became a very real possibility. 

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Chapter 13 

 
“Surprise!” 
Reid was almost as surprised as Storm. He had no idea that Finn 

and Cassidy had been planning a surprise baby shower for Storm until 
he was called into the kitchen. Clearly, Storm was oblivious because 
he about jumped out of his skin and then he started to cry. 

“Aw,” Cassidy said, taking his mate into his arms. “Please tell me 

those are tears of joy.” 

“They are. You big, wonderful man, you.” 
“Thank Finn. It was his idea.” 
Finn shook off the praise, but Reid sensed he was pleased. As 

soon as the guest of honor arrived, Finn was in his element. He had 
everything choreographed from the cake to the gifts. How all the men 
had time to even get gifts was beyond Reid until he realized Finn had 
probably gotten Cassidy to whip them all into shape. And then the 
best gift of all. With Tristan’s help, Finn had gotten ahold of an 
ultrasound machine. It was used, and it wasn’t as high-tech as what 
would be found in most gynecologist offices, but it would certainly 
help Dooley in making assessments. But even better than that, it went 
a long way in reassuring Storm that, though he was in this alone to 
some degree, the other men of the ranch were with him in more ways 
than just spirit.  

“You done did good.” Reid kissed the top of his mate’s head. 
“I hope so. I just wanted him to think of this more as a celebration 

and less as a trial to endure.” 

“I think he’s getting there.”  
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by a luscious lemon cake that certainly didn’t disappoint Reid, they 
turned to the gifts. Most notably, the ultrasound machine. 

“I realize it’s a gift for Dooley, but—” 
“No. It’s a gift for me, too.” Storm settled on the couch. “I want to 

know. The more I know, and the more I understand, the less scary this 
all becomes.” 

Cassidy leaned over the back of the couch so he could hold 

Storm’s hand.  

After Storm laid down and lifted up his shirt, Dooley spread some 

kind of goo all over his slightly pooched belly and turned on the 
machine. Carefully, he rubbed the flattened wand over his tummy 
while everyone peered anxiously at the screen. Since there were so 
many men crowded into the living room, they were lined up behind 
the couch. Finn was in front of Reid. He kept his arms around Finn, 
holding him close but also giving him strength. More than any of the 
others, Finn seemed vested in the outcome. 

“What the hell is that?” Storm was straining upward, trying to get 

a better look, but Cassidy held him down.  

“Just relax,” Dooley said, then murmured his nonsensical words 

that always seemed to soothe the animals he worked on. “Okay, this 
just isn’t working.” 

“Keep trying!” Storm demanded. 
“No, I mean, it’s hard to look around when—it’s going to be 

easier to see if you’re in coyote form. That way, I know where 
everything is.” 

“Oh.” 
Storm shifted, but there was another delay while they had to shave 

the hair off his belly. The interruption upped the tension in the room 
until all the men present could give piano strings a run for their 
money. When Dooley finally got to work examining Storm’s coyote 
belly, everyone, including Reid and Finn, was straining forward. 

“There we go.” Dooley grinned. “One big, healthy pup.” 
What came up on the screen wasn’t like anything Reid had ever 

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seen. He couldn’t really see a puppy in the swirling black-and-white 
pixels. Leaning over, pressing his mouth close to Finn’s ear, he asked, 
“Do you see anything?” 

“Not really.” 
“Hang on.” Dooley tried to do something with the machine, but 

jostled the wand. “Damn. Okay, learning curve, folks. Let’s try this 
again.” After some more fiddling around, he finally found a way to 
freeze the shot on the screen. “Ah! Okay, now, look here.” Dooley 
pointed, outlining the coyote puppy. 

“Oh!” Cassidy pressed his free hand to his mouth. 
Storm wasn’t really able to see, so Dooley helped to lift his head. 
Once Dooley showed him what he was looking at, Reid saw 

exactly what he meant. It was a tiny coyote puppy. He could clearly 
see the head and four little paws. Tears filled his eyes, forcing him to 
blink rapidly. When he took surreptitious looks out the corners of his 
eyes, Reid was relived to discover he wasn’t the only one emotionally 
overcome. From what he could see, he doubted there was a dry eye in 
the house. 

“It was worth every penny.” Tristan wiped his eyes with the back 

of his hand. “To see him like this. It’s just…” 

“Amazing.” Cassidy reached over and caressed Storm’s head. The 

touch was similar to what he’d given him last night, but somehow, his 
strokes conveyed even more love this time. “Our boy.” 

Storm yipped. 
“Don’t switch back just yet,” Dooley said. “I’d like to make sure 

there’s only one.” 

“There might be more?” Cassidy sounded excited and scared in 

fairly equal measure. 

“Maybe. It’s hard to tell.” Dooley eased the flattened wand over 

and around. “Nope. Only one.” 

“Storm was worried because he seems so big.” 
“Oh, he’s not. I did that with the screen so I could see him more 

clearly. He’s really this size.” Dooley fiddled with the machine. “See? 

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Tiny little thing. I don’t think you’re going to have any trouble 
delivering him when the time comes.” 

“And when might that be?” Cassidy asked the question that was 

probably on everyone’s mind. 

“Well, that’s a little more tricky. If he was a coyote in the wild, it 

would take about two months. But since he’s a shifter, I don’t really 
know. Humans take nine months. However, judging by the size of the 
pup—when coyotes give birth the pups weigh about nine ounces—but 
you’re bigger than the average coyote bitch.” 

“You know he doesn’t mean it that way.” Cassidy frowned down 

at Storm. “He wants me to tell you to stop calling him a bitch.” 

“Aren’t you funny.” Dooley laughed. “But that’s the correct 

term.” 

“I’m not a stud,” Cassidy said to Storm. “Even if that’s the 

companion word to bitch I don’t want to be called that.” 

While all the men around him were talking, making jokes, or 

whispering quietly to one another, Reid couldn’t look away from the 
image on the machine. He was looking at a child. A very special child 
who would be both human and coyote. He would be cherished by his 
parents and every man on the ranch. Protective instincts filled every 
cell in Reid’s body.  

“So, basically, I don’t really know the time or how big he’ll be, 

but I don’t think you’ll have an issue delivering.” 

“And if he does?” Cassidy asked, his expressive gaze riveted to 

Dooley right along with Storm’s. 

“We will have everything set up to do a C-section. I’ve done them 

before on other animals.” 

“You have?” Cassidy seemed surprised. 
“I have. I’m comfortable and confident that I can do that if you 

need it.” Dooley placed his hand very gently on Storm’s belly. “But I 
don’t think you will. Okay?” 

Storm nodded. 
“Okay, why don’t you shift back over and let me have a second 

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try at finding the baby in human form.” 

Storm shifted and waited anxiously as Dooley slid the wand 

around his belly. Cassidy’s grip on his hand was so tight his fingers 
were almost pale. When he noticed, he eased up, but Reid realized his 
other hand was gripping the back of the couch so tightly he probably 
would leave permanent dents in the cushion. 

“There!” Dooley reached over and froze the image. 
“Oh.” Finn leaned closer, his keen interest obvious to Reid. 

Determined to support him no matter how he felt, Reid placed his 
hand on Finn’s shoulder. When Finn reached up and took his hand, 
Reid felt a powerful connection. Standing there, hand in hand, 
looking at the tiny life within Storm was somehow more intimate than 
anything they had shared thus far. “He’s so tiny.” 

“Very much so.” Dooley smiled. “I’d say you’ve got quite some 

time before he’s born.” 

“Still, we better get moving on getting things ready.” 
“Clearly, we are going to use Finn and Tristan to help with that.” 

Cassidy looked at both men. “If they can get an ultrasound machine 
here that fast, they’re the guys to help organize the ranch for this child 
and all the children to come.” 

“I’d be happy to help. Honored to, actually.” Finn wiped at his 

face with his free hand. 

Reid couldn’t see him, but he felt a shifting in his attitude. He 

might still be concerned, and rightfully so, but he was no longer 
terrified, and that was a step in the right direction. 

After cleaning up and saying goodnight to everyone, they went 

upstairs for bed. They brushed their teeth and then made ready for 
bed. It seemed to Reid that Finn had a gentle smile on his face the 
entire time. Once they were both in bed, Finn turned off the light then 
slid close to Reid. 

“Thank you for tonight.” Reid kissed the top of Finn’s head. He 

felt more content than he ever had. Seeing Storm’s baby and realizing 
all would be well took a huge strain off his mind. He undressed and 

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then slid into bed.  

“You’re welcome.” Finn kissed Reid’s chest.  
“We need more parties.” 
“You just want more cake.” 
“Yes, that, too, but seriously, we need to celebrate things. We 

have so much happening. There’s a lot we can’t control, but there’s 
more that’s really astonishing. I get that Storm is afraid. It makes 
sense because he’s the first. But to see what a miracle that is…I just 
feel so incredibly grateful that we can do something that most gay 
couples can’t. We can bring life into this world that is equal amounts 
of us. Others can hire a surrogate, but it’s not both of them.” 

“It’s still amazing that way, though.” 
“Sure. I’m not knocking it. Not at all. It’s a generous gift on the 

part of those women, and I’m sure it’s amazing because life is just 
flat-out astonishing all the way around.” Reid placed his hand on 
Finn’s belly. “If you are, I’m thrilled. If you’re not, it’s okay because 
we’ll be ready someday.” Reid waited breathlessly for Finn to speak. 
He’d witnessed his reaction to the events tonight and thought he felt 
better, but it was one thing to think and another thing to know. “Are 
you okay?” 

“I’m better now.” Finn sighed. “I’m still scared, but it’s not with 

the kind of mind-numbing, panic-inducing visceral fear I had earlier. 
It’s more beautiful than I imagined.” 

“Beautiful?” 
“Like you said. We can do something that only a very few can. 

We can have a child together. A child that is literally part of you and 
part of me. It’s amazing. But scary, too.” 

“I thought Dooley made it clear that medically we’re ready for 

anything that happens.” 

“That alleviated a lot of my fears. Honestly, it did, but there are 

other concerns. I guess that’s my cross to bear. I can’t help but think 
of all the potential things that could go wrong.” 

“I think that’s why you’re good at planning parties. You’re good 

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at anticipating what people might need. And having a backup plan if 
things go wrong.” 

“Thank you. I think so. But sometimes that skill backfires in other 

areas of my life. Like this with the children. I think, okay, I can have 
one. Amazing. And there’s the physical aspects. But then what about 
afterward?” 

“Afterward?” 
“Breast-feeding.” 
“Oh.” Reid hadn’t thought about that. 
“I think I’d stay as a coyote to do that. Storm has nipples when 

he’s a coyote. I’ll bet I do, too. So I think that would be the way to 
give the baby immunity from disease. But then I can—we can—
formula feed after that. So we’d have this human baby.” 

“I can learn how to take care of a baby.” 
“I’m sure you can. So can I. You’re thinking diapers, and burping, 

and all of that.” 

“Right.” 
“But there’s more. There’s paperwork.” 
“Paperwork?” 
“He won’t be born in a hospital. He won’t have a birth 

certificate.” 

Reid suddenly thought of how vital paperwork was to exist in the 

modern world. With the advent of electronic records, faking 
documentation was probably getting more difficult all the time. “And 
school. Vaccinations.” 

“Yes. It’s all just the tip of the iceberg, though.” 
“I don’t know what you mean.” 
“The nosy and abusive sheriff.” Finn moved a little closer to Reid. 

“Can you image what he’ll do if he discovers a bunch of children out 
here? Even if we can prove by DNA that they are biologically ours, 
he’ll wonder where the mothers are.” 

Reid had a horrible vision of the authorities—the nameless, 

faceless authorities—coming to the ranch and taking all the children 

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away. He realized that he was squeezing Finn so tightly he was 
making it difficult for him to breathe. “I’m sorry.” 

“It’s okay. I understand. Really. I do. I’m sorry that I’ve managed 

to just give you something new to be worried about. Where you might 
sometimes be physically clumsy, I guess I’m that way when it comes 
to emotional issues. Like telling Dillion he shouldn’t run for sheriff. 
At least I kept my mouth shut around Storm and Cassidy.” Finn 
moved back a bit like he was trying to see Reid in the dark. “But I had 
to tell you. I need to share all my thoughts with someone and since 
you’re my mate…” 

“You should always tell me what you’re thinking about.” Reid 

stroked Finn’s face. “It’s the only way we can consider everything. 
Knowledge really is power.” 

“I think so.” 
“But with that comes the idea we’ve got to do something to solve it.” 
“How? I don’t know anyone who can fake papers. And the more 

kids we have, the bigger of a target we’ll be.” 

“We’ll figure it out. I just wish we could find other compounds 

who’ve made it work. Surely, they’d have ideas on how to overcome 
that. I just don’t want to be seen as a crazy cult.” 

“Cult?” 
“I’m thinking of what happened in Waco with David Koresh. 

Their main concern was with trying to take the kids away.” 

“There has to be a way to prevent that. There has to be.” 
Reid held Finn close, but he couldn’t think his way around the 

problem. The idea of Finn having their child was tainted in a way he 
didn’t think he could get over. Protective instincts that had filled him 
when he saw Storm and Cassidy’s child filled him again. He would 
find a way to make the ranch safe for their children. Not just his and 
Finn’s child, but all the children that would come from the mated 
pairs.  

“One or two children won’t hit anyone’s radar, but a dozen. 

More? That’s going to get people talking and snooping around.” 

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Reid held Finn close to him, unable to sleep for his concerns. He 

wasn’t angry at Finn for mentioning what he’d realized was a 
problem. If anything, he was grateful that he’d thought of something 
the others might not have. They needed to start working on solutions 
to that potential problem now. Because one thing Reid knew for 
certain was that whether or not he and Finn had children, he was 
honor bound to protect the offspring of his fellow shifters. 

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Chapter 14 

 
“So, do you like it?” Finn felt awful for the sleepless night he’d 

given his mate. In an effort to make it up to him, he’d put together a 
picnic for their stargazing. 

“I love it.” Reid grinned as he examined the stuffed-full basket. 

“Are you ready?” 

“I am.” Finn joined Reid in the truck then slid close. “I don’t need 

the seat belt, do I?” 

“Naw. I’m not going to be hot rodding.” Reid put his arm around 

him. “It’s not that far.” 

“It’s so pretty out here.” The sun had just set over the bluff, filling 

the sky with dramatic glowing clouds while echoing those colors on 
the landscape. The sky turned the buttes orange, pink, and purple. 
“I’ve never seen sunsets like this.” 

“The desert does have her beauty.” 
“That’s why you love it here.” 
“Oh, yeah. But there’s more. It’s the guys who work here. Every 

man who’s made this place home, the ones who stay and really put 
down their roots, they’re like my family.” Reid kept his attention on 
the road, but Finn saw the depth of his emotion. “I would do anything 
for them. I know it’s mutual.” 

“I feel that way, too.” 
“Yeah?” 
“Yes. I know I’m new here, but I want to be a part of everything. I 

feel safe here.” Finn touched his belly, wondering yet again if he was 
or wasn’t. After a quick talk with Dooley, who was rushing to attend 
to one of the cows, he said he was trying to find a way to determine 

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pregnancy. Finn had stood in the yard, watching him go, wondering 
how he kept everything together. When he saw Tristan bringing him 
his breakfast in the barn, he had part of his answer. His mate was 
there to help him. And Finn didn’t have to see it to know that the 
reverse was true. When Tristan was in need, Dooley was there for 
him. Armed with that very touching information, Finn decided he 
needed to be there for his mate now. 

“I thought you were worried about what might happen with the 

kids in the future?” Reid shifted the truck into a higher gear then put 
his arm back around him. 

“I’m concerned. I think it’s wise to look ahead and plan for or 

possibly even head off potential problems. But I can’t get away from 
feeling like I’m in the right place for me.” 

“Yeah?” 
“It’s as if I always knew the city wasn’t really right. It got me 

away from my home, away from all the troubles there, but I didn’t 
really belong in New York. I think that was just another phase I 
needed to work through.” 

“So you’ll start wearing jeans and cowboy boots and—” 
“It’s not about what I wear. But I imagine my wardrobe will have 

to change by necessity.” Finn looked down at his dress slacks and 
button-down oxford shirt. The summer-weight fabrics were light 
enough that he wasn’t melting in the heat, but the paler colors showed 
every bit of red dust they came in contact with, and there was a hell of 
a lot of red dirt around. 

“I like the way you dress.” 
“Thank you. But it’s not very practical for the ranch.” 
“Depends what you’re doing.” 
“If you had your way, I wouldn’t be in my clothes for long.” 
“See? Now you’re thinking.” Reid took his arm off his shoulders 

to shift down, then kept his hand there as he traversed several turns. 
“And we’re here.” 

“It’s beautiful.”  

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“Some beavers dammed up part of the Rough River, which caused 

the river to swell and make a swimming hole.” 

“So the water isn’t stagnant?” 
“Nope.” Reid climbed out and retrieved the basket from the back. 

“The water still moves through. Slowly and all, but it keeps it free of 
mosquitoes, and any fish that get in can still get out.” 

“And it makes a perfect place to swim.” 
“And stargaze.” Reid took him over to a patch of long grass. 
“Looks well used.” Most of the grass was flattened. 
“I come out here a lot.” Reid turned red and looked away. 
Finn placed a blanket on the ground, wondering what brought on 

Reid’s sudden embarrassment. As he settled on the ground to pull 
things out of the basket, he realized a man out here alone would 
probably attend to some of his baser needs. He grinned. Somehow, 
the idea of his mate masturbating in the wild was far more of a turn-
on than picturing him doing the same in bed.  

“You realize there’s enough food in there for about six guys, 

right?” Reid watched Finn as he took food out of the basket and set it 
on the blanket. 

“I thought it was a bit much, but Cassidy insisted. I think part of 

this is his way of saying thanks for getting the ultrasound machine.” 

“How did you do that?” 
“I had the money, and Tristan had the computer know-how. He 

went and searched around online to find places that sell used 
equipment.” 

“There are places like that?” 
“Yes indeed.” Finn pulled out a bottle of wine and gave it to Reid 

to open. “Just like there are auction sites for electronics and clothes, 
there’s one for medical equipment. And we managed to find a seller 
who was close.” 

“How close?” After opening the bottle, Reid poured two glasses. 
“Grand Junction.” 
“Ah. That’s why Tristan suddenly had to go shopping.” Reid 

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handed him his glass. 

“To us.” 
“To us.”  
Just as Finn lifted the glass to his lips, he suddenly realized he 

was about to drink when he might be pregnant. Rather than ruin the 
simple toast, he took a sip, then set it aside. Each of them filled up 
their plates, and then they ate while the sun set and the night filled the 
valley with darkness. 

“And now for the cake.” 
“Don’t get too excited. It’s leftover from the party.” 
“It’s still cake, and it will still work.” 
“Work?” 
“Come on,” Reid said, flashing Finn a lusty look. “We both know 

why you’re giving me sweets. You want sex.” 

“You’ve found me out.”  
“Did you bring the panties?” 
“Darn it.” Finn snapped his fingers. “I knew I was forgetting 

something.” 

“Ah, well. Perhaps another time.” 
“Perhaps.”  
They ate in silence, watching as the light slowly faded from the 

valley. 

“Are you done?” 
“Yes.” 
Reid got to work packing everything back in. “Do you want the 

rest of your wine?” 

“No. I’m good.”  
Reid poured out both glasses then tucked them into the basket. 

After he put it in the truck, they snuggled close and looked up at the 
sky. Slowly, the night darkened, forcing the stars to pop out. It was 
almost magical because there seemed to only be a handful then 
suddenly there were so many some of them they merged together, 
creating a path across the sky. 

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“That’s why they call it the Milky Way. It looks like someone 

spilled milk.” Finn was utterly fascinated. 

“Can you see the stars in the city?” 
“Only the celebrity type.” Finn laughed at his own joke. “I 

haven’t really even looked since…well, since I was a little kid.” 

Together they tried to remember as many constellations as they 

could, but then they were distracted by one another. Even though it 
was so late at night they were almost into the early hours of the 
morning, the air was still surprisingly warm. When Reid worked the 
buttons of Finn’s shirt apart, the shiver he felt was strictly one of 
anticipation. In what Finn was discovering was his typical moseying 
fashion, Reid popped the buttons apart, following each one up with a 
kiss. By the time he got down to Finn’s trousers, he was frantic with 
longing. 

“You are so good at that.” 
“What?” Reid asked, lifting his head. “Kissing you?” 
“Making me crazy for you.” Finn buried his fingers in Reid’s hair. 

As he placed his mouth against his belly for another kiss, Finn felt his 
smile. “Oh, I see. You like making me crazy.” 

“I do. I really do.” 
“Remember those words, mister, because you’re going to need 

them.” 

“I am?” 
“If you think I’m having a child out of wedlock, you’re crazy.” 
Reid halted in midkiss. He kept his mouth pressed to the ticklish 

spot right above where the elastic of his briefs rode. 

“You want to get married?” 
“Did you think we were just going to live in sin?” 
“I guess I never really thought about it.” Reid left off kissing his 

way down. Instead, he switched directions and came back up. 

“Hey. I was enjoying that.” 
“I won’t leave you hanging. But do you really want to get 

married?” 

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“Of course! Not only am I a gay man but I’m a party planner. 

Those two things combined mean I want the biggest, fanciest, most 
eye-popping celebration in the history of the town.” 

Reid’s silence spoke volumes, which was a good thing since Finn 

couldn’t see his face. Without any moonlight and absolutely no city 
lights, Finn couldn’t see his hand in front of his face. 

“You mean to say you actually want to marry me?” 
The tone of Reid’s voice made Finn realize he wasn’t upset about 

getting married. Reid was deeply touched. Before he could speak, 
Reid found his lips in the dark and kissed him so passionately he very 
nearly took Finn’s breath away. When he felt moisture, he realized 
Reid was crying. Tenderly, Finn wiped at his tears. 

“Lord have mercy. I am such a pansy.” 
“No, you’re sweet and sensitive.” Finn kissed him half a dozen 

times. “There’s nothing wrong with shedding tears of joy.” He 
paused. “They are tears of joy, right?” 

“Yeah. And surprise. And—hell. I just never figured I’d get a 

mate, but to get one like you? I’m the luckiest guy in the world.” 

“Then no more talk of clumsy or other put-downs. Got it?” 
“Yes, sir.” Reid laughed as he pulled Finn on top of him. “So 

when do you want to do the deed?” 

“I thought we were going to do that here?” 
“The wedding, smarty. When do you want to tie the knot?” 
“How about a winter wedding? That gives me enough time to 

plan. And we can do something really amazing in blue.” 

“Blue?” 
“Because it will be winter. There’s no way I’m doing white with 

all this red dirt.” Finn giggled. “Besides, if I’m pregnant, I can’t really 
wear white.” 

“I won’t tell.” 
“Of course not. You’re the one who corrupted me.” 
“Yep. That’s me. Mr. Corruption.” 
“Mister, huh?” Finn rose.  

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“What are you doing?” 
“Getting undressed. It’s surprisingly warm tonight.” Finn 

removed all his clothes and heard noises that he suspected were from 
Reid doing the same. It was difficult to tell in the almost perfect dark. 
No wonder Cassidy had insisted on tucking a flashlight into the 
basket. Without it, they’d never make it back to the truck.   

“What was wrong with Mr. Corruption?” Reid asked. 
“Mister just sounds so official.” 
“Hey, when I corrupt someone, I like to go all out. I have a name 

tag and a clipboard, too.” 

“How very respectable. And sexy.” Finn settled on top of his 

mate, discovering that he had gotten undressed. “I love the feel of 
you.” 

“Me? You’re the one who’s all soft.” Reid stroked over Finn’s 

back and down to his buttocks. 

“You’re the one who’s all hard.” Finn deliberately rocked his 

cock against his mate’s.  

“Keep that up, and I won’t be.” 
“Not for long, at any rate.” Finn laughed lightly until Reid lifted 

him for a sweet kiss that turned suddenly frantic. Fumbling for the 
picnic basket, he managed to snag the bottle of lube he’d tucked along 
the edge. Within seconds, he had Reid’s cock slicked up and was 
slowly taking him inside. Nothing in the world felt as pure as that 
particular moment. The way their two bodies merged into one was 
astonishingly beautiful. 

With a slow yet inevitable rising beat, they rocked together, 

making the warm night positively sultry. When the moment of release 
came, Finn locked his mouth on his mate’s, kissing him as they 
climaxed within seconds of one another. 

Deliciously exhausted, Finn collapsed on top of Reid and let out a 

long, contented sigh. This was a good life. He could see his future 
stretching before him in a way that was entirely different than what 
he’d once envisioned, but this one was better. Mainly because it 

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included Reid Holland. 

“Ooh, should I take your name?” Finn pondered. “Finn Holland. 

Or maybe a hyphenated Finn Kirkpatrick-Holland.” 

“It’s a little long.” 
“Fine. I’ll just take your name.” 
“No more Allistair Chadwick?” 
“No. He died the moment I shifted to find you.” 
“Do you miss him?” 
“I can honestly say that I don’t.” Finn had thought image and 

station were the two most important things in the universe to him. At 
the time, they were, but now, they didn’t matter in the least. What 
truly mattered were the people he chose to surround himself with. The 
connections he made, the good he did, and the way he lived his life 
every day meant so much more than all the appearances in the world 
ever could. 

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Chapter 15 

 
Reid and Finn sat side by side on the long couch in the living 

room of the farmhouse. Dooley had found a pregnancy test for dogs 
that he thought would work on coyotes. The only problem was they 
needed to wait at least three weeks before he could run the test. 
During that time, Finn had kept himself occupied with wedding plans, 
and Reid was working with Paul on designing a house and figuring 
out where they’d like it to go. Finn’s only stipulation was that he 
wanted a skylight in the bedroom so they could see the stars at night. 
It took some creative construction, but Reid was able to work that into 
the plans. Since winter was coming sooner than anyone really wanted 
to think about, they’d already broken ground. By the time the weather 
turned cold, it would be ready.  

Reid was excited and nervous, but at least all the money he’d been 

tucking into savings had a purpose. Finn pitched in, too, but his 
biggest contribution was in furnishing the house and buying them a 
car. As much as he liked the pickup truck, he wanted something a 
little more fuel efficient. He’d also gotten something a little sporty. 
After pinning him down and licking his ticklish spot, Reid got Finn to 
confess he loved driving along the River Road. It was just twisty 
enough to be fun but not so challenging it was scary. 

“I hardly ever drove in the city.” Finn looked up at him with his 

big, beautiful jade eyes. “Are you upset?” 

“No.” Reid had kissed him then, loving the way Finn surrendered 

almost effortlessly.  

What amazed Reid was that they made a good pair. Finn brought 

joy to the ranch with his need to celebrate. But he also brought style 

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and panache. Finn made friends readily. Even though he wasn’t used 
to hard physical labor, he was able to organize supplies for chores and 
help Marshal come up with a workable plan for attending to a myriad 
of details. Marshal was amazed at Finn’s ability to hold so much 
information present in his mind at one time. Word spread that if there 
was a complicated issue, Finn was the man to plan and organize the 
attack. 

“I could turn this into my job, you know.” 
“Yeah?” Reid wondered if that would be enough to keep him 

occupied. 

“Yes. I would still make myself available to the people in town to 

do parties and such, but I think I could do a lot right here on the 
ranch.” 

Reid couldn’t have been happier. 
But through it all, Reid knew Finn was worried. When Finn 

thought no one was looking, he would caress his belly and look away. 
Whatever was in front of him wasn’t what he was seeing. Finn was 
looking toward the future, wondering what his life might be like if he 
was carrying their child. As much as Reid wanted to ease his mind, 
there simply wasn’t anything he could do. 

When the three weeks was up, they’d gone to Dooley for the test.  
“Even then, don’t put too much into the results.” Dooley had done 

his best to find a solution, but he wasn’t able to say with certainty it 
was going to work. 

“Well, then why are we doing this?” Reid had wanted to know 

one way or the other not because it was going to change anything, but 
because not knowing was agitating Finn. He wasn’t going to be able 
to relax until he knew. 

“Sweetie, we’re doing this because it’s the best thing we can do 

right now. Just like Storm is the first in terms of actually having a 
baby, I get to be first in figuring out a way to test the beta mates.” 

“Right. Sorry.” Sometimes Reid became so focused on the two of 

them he forgot that there were dozens of men hanging on the 

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outcome. 

“I think it will tell us, though. I just want to give myself some 

wiggle room so if it doesn’t work you won’t be upset.” 

“We won’t be upset with you,” Finn assured Dooley. “We know 

you’re doing your best.” 

Reid agreed then held Finn after he shifted. Dooley examined him 

then drew some blood. Finn shifted back. Instead of standing in the 
clinic, they’d gone back to the farmhouse.  

So they had sat there, not talking, waiting for Dooley to come 

back. Everyone else was out working, which gave them some private 
time to come to terms with the results. Even Storm and Cassidy were 
out of the kitchen for a change. They had gone over to Grand Junction 
to pick up things for the nursery. For now, they were going to have 
things set up in their room since it was big enough, but eventually, 
they were going to need a permanent place for the baby. Marshal was 
already talking with Vance about moving the office from the current 
room it was in to the side parlor opposite the living room. Since 
Vance was spending far less time in the office, thanks to some 
computer help from Tristan, he was amenable to the move.  

The office space was huge, and it had a bathroom attached. Reid 

thought it was way too big for one kid, but then he saw the plans. 
There would be basinets on one side and bunk beds on the other. Finn 
had organized the place so that the office could accommodate a lot of 
kids. Perhaps even his and Finn’s. But Reid didn’t want to get ahead 
of himself. They weren’t quite there yet. And Finn’s concern about 
nosy townspeople was a good one that was brought up at the last 
ranch meeting. A lot of the men were still out checking on 
compounds, but those who were in attendance understood the 
potential for problems. 

“I never thought of that, but yes, it’s an issue. Kingsley would 

have a field day.” Marshal had pulled Elliot just a little closer, 
prompting Reid to wonder if they were trying to get pregnant or not. 
“Still, this is the reason why we’ve come together. At least I think it 

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is. Here, now, on this ranch, we all came together because it’s a safe 
place for our kind and it should be for our kids.” 

“We just have to find a way to make that happen.” 
“And we will,” Elliot said. “Right now the men out looking at 

those compounds might find something or someone who can help. 
Because clearly, the place where Jacob grew up had to have dealt 
with this issue.” 

“I wish I could remember, but I don’t.” Jacob was sitting close to 

his mate Paul. “I know they had to have paperwork on me because I 
have a birth certificate, driver’s license—all of that stuff. I even have 
a vaccination record. And I do remember getting the shots, so that one 
isn’t made up, it’s real.” 

“I’ll bet Doc would like to know that so he can vaccinate our 

child.” It was clear Cassidy loved saying our child because he had 
done so at least four times during the meeting.  

“And the paperwork is something I can handle.” Jake Tanner, 

resident cowboy and attorney, had revealed that though he couldn’t 
forge papers, he could certainly find someone who could. “It’s more 
common than you’d think.” 

“Why does that scare me?” Jake’s mate Nathan asked. 
“Because you watch too much affiliate news. Most people forging 

paperwork aren’t lowlife criminals. A lot of decent people are running 
from some damn unsavory types. Sometimes the only way to get 
away is to disappear and start over under a whole new identity.” 

“Maybe someday our kids can be born in a hospital and be just 

like everyone else. But until that day comes, we need to take care of 
our own.” 

When every man there vowed to make that so, Reid felt like he’d 

been given the biggest warm fuzzy in the universe. He had been 
feeling anxious about the situation, but he believed in and trusted that 
as a group, they could and would protect their own.  

Finn squeezed Reid’s hand, bringing him back to the present 

moment. He looked up in time to see Dooley coming through the 

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door. 

“Okay, it looks like the answer is no.” As he spoke, he crouched 

down in front of them. 

Reid had expected him to hem and haw. He wasn’t prepared for 

him to just spew it out like that. When Reid looked over at Finn, he 
was sitting very still, blinking rapidly. 

“Finn?” 
“I’m okay.” He met Reid’s gaze. “I wasn’t sure how I would feel 

either way, but I’m sad and relieved. Is that bad?” 

“No. It’s how you feel. And now we have time. We can plan. I 

would have been happy if you were, but it’s okay that you’re not.” 
Reid was struggling to put his own emotions into context. There were 
just so many thoughts and feelings that emerged rather suddenly it 
was like expecting a spring shower but getting blasted with a fire 
hose. 

Finn nodded and released a pent-up breath. He then turned to 

Dooley. “How accurate is this?” 

“Well, there’s a marker in the blood that I was looking for. Or, 

more accurately, that marker is what the test looks for. To make sure 
this would work, I took some blood from Storm to run the test first to 
make sure that indicator was there in his coyote blood. It is in him but 
not in you.” 

“And enough time elapsed that it would show?” 
“That’s why I wanted to wait. For domesticated dogs, they say 

twenty days after mating.” 

“It’s been twenty-one as of today.” Finn beat him to sharing that 

number. It seemed both of them had been keeping track. 

“So I would say that this is ninety-nine percent accurate.” Dooley 

darted his gaze from Reid to Finn. “Are you both okay?” 

“We are,” Reid said. “I think we’re just a little shocked to finally 

know.” 

“If you need anything else, don’t hesitate to ask. Okay?” Dooley 

rose. 

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“When will I go into heat?” Finn asked. 
“Well, coyotes in the wild generally go into heat mid-January to 

mid-March. The actual heat only lasts two to maybe ten days. Male 
coyotes only make sperm around that time, too.” 

“Really?” Reid had no idea their mating was so regimented. 
“Yep. It’s actually pretty interesting. But with our kind, there’s 

something else going on. Storm got pregnant in the summer. That 
wouldn’t happen with wild coyotes.” 

“Is there a way for me to tell when he’s in heat?” Reid did not 

want to just pounce on his mate. “From what Cassidy said, there’s a 
distinctive smell, but I’m afraid if I caught a whiff it would be too 
late. I mean, I wasn’t able to resist the call to mate as a human so 
I…yeah.” 

“I hear you on that. Basically, that’s the tip-off. You’ll know 

because he’ll smell irresistible. There would also be some swelling of 
his vulva, but you’d not really be able to see that unless you were 
trained. By the time you got near enough to look, you’d be ensnared 
in the mating scent.” 

“So there’s nothing we can do?” Reid asked the question, but it 

was clear Finn was just as keen on the answer as he was. 

“You can be aware. Micah knew what was happening and 

switched back to human before Dillion could mate with him.” A 
sudden sappy smile crossed Dooley’s face. “Or at least he didn’t mate 
with him in coyote form. So far, it’s the only way to prevent 
pregnancy that I know of.” 

“So either no sex or we have to have coyote condoms,” Finn said 

flippantly. 

They all laughed. 
“That would be great, but I don’t see how you could get them on 

with your little paws.  For now, the best advice I can give you is to 
practice the ancient art of abstinence.” Dooley turned back to the door 
but looked over his shoulder. “But that doesn’t apply if you’re 
human.” After a saucy wink, he left. 

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“Are you sure you’re okay?” Reid squeezed Finn’s hand. 
“I really am. I was relieved. But then I felt guilty for feeling that 

way. But now we know. We can plan. And that’s good for me. I can’t 
help it. I’m a planner.” 

“I think that’s good. I’m more haphazard, so this is good news. 

We have time.” 

“We do.” Finn looked up at Reid. “But damn he would have been 

cute.” 

“I think you’re going to get all the fawning over kids you’ll need. 

Storm is just the first.” 

“That’s right! I can channel all those parental instincts into 

helping them until I’m ready.” 

“See? It always works out.” 
“But for Kingsley.” 
“He hasn’t been back since the last time. I think me shifting and 

attacking him scared him.” 

“Let’s hope.” 
“You ready to get to work?” 
“I am.”  
They stood together.  
“And now I can have wine on my wedding day.” 
“I noticed you’ve been refraining.” Reid noticed during their 

picnic but hadn’t said anything. 

“I’ve noticed you’ve been abstaining, too.” 
“I just didn’t want to if you couldn’t. We’re in this together.” 
“So let’s go get a bottle of wine and christen our new house.” 
“I think they’re framing today.” 
“Okay, we’ll wait until tonight and then go star gazing.” 
“It’s not a new moon yet.” 
“That’s okay. I wasn’t all that interested in looking at the stars.” 
“Trying to get into my pants again?” Reid tsked several times. 

“You are a lusty mate.” 

“You love it.” 

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“I do. And I love you.” 
Finn stopped in midstride. He looked up at Reid. “I love you, 

too.” 

“Did you doubt I felt that way?” 
“No, just—we hadn’t said it. I guess it’s just nice to hear.” 
“I think so, too.” 
“So, my love, let’s go upstairs and rechristen our bed.” 
“Sounds like a plan.” 
After long and languorous lovemaking, they each went to work on 

their separate projects, coming back together for dinner with the other 
men. And then they went out to make love for the first time in the 
framework of their house. But then, Finn gave him the best gift of all. 
The gift of trust. He wanted to patrol with the other men, and that was 
something they did in coyote form. 

Watching his mate shift pleased Reid. As a human, Finn was 

beautiful, but he was also stunning as a coyote. His fur was rich 
brown and his eyes hypnotic jade. Human or coyote, Reid knew he’d 
follow him anywhere. 

“Come on, shift!” Finn waited for Reid to switch over. As soon as 

he did, they were off, running across the field.  

Shortly, they caught up to Marshal and the others, blending in 

with them as they patrolled the foothills and buttes. Since there was 
only one road in or out of the valley, they didn’t have much to worry 
about, but they patrolled to mark their territory. Doing so was a 
primal instinct, but it also served to keep wild coyotes away. Leader 
and his kind did the same farther up and around the backside of the 
buttes. 

“Who’s that?” Finn asked, looking down at the main road. 
When Reid looked, he saw dual headlights but nothing else to 

help him determine what the vehicle was or who was driving it. “I 
don’t know.”
 

The others looked down, but no one recognized the vehicle. 
Everyone started moving downward because Cassidy and Storm 

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were alone in the farmhouse. If there was trouble afoot, they wanted 
to be there. Even though their clothes were back at the building site, 
Reid and Finn kept going. Reid didn’t care if he had to fight naked. If 
trouble had come into the valley, he was going to be there for his pack 
mates. 

Moving swiftly and silently, they were able to keep the vehicle in 

sight as they cut across the upper field. By the time the car pulled up 
to the barn, the group of coyotes was practically on them.  

As soon as the car door opened and Reid saw Doc, he knew 

something was wrong. He shifted over just in time to see a very 
pregnant man get out of the passenger seat. 

“What can I do?” Reid asked. 
Doc didn’t bat a lash at Reid’s naked state. Given how aware Doc 

was, and the fact he was the focus for all the shifters on the continent, 
he no doubt had been aware of them the entire time. “Find Dooley. I 
can’t do this alone.” 

Dooley was there, helping the young man into the barn where the 

makeshift clinic had been installed. They’d been adding on to it and 
expanding it until they’d finally moved the animals out to another 
structure. 

“I don’t want to give birth in a barn!” The young man struggled 

against Dooley but just as quickly changed his mind and clung to him. 
“Don’t let go. Don’t let me do this alone!” 

Frozen by fear and indecision, Reid broke through his inactivity 

by imagining the young man was Finn. As soon as he did that, he 
knew what to do. With Finn’s help, he mobilized everyone to bring 
supplies and to get a vehicle ready to go should the birth prove too 
difficult. Coffee was made, and sandwiches, and any and all supplies 
that weren’t in the barn were brought in. After getting everything into 
motion, Reid went into the big house to get dressed then he brought 
the other men’s clothing over. 

By the time he got inside the clinic to see if there was anything 

else he could do, Reid discovered that the young man had gone into 

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labor on the way to the ranch. From a hurried exchange with Doc, 
they had discovered and raided one of the dark compounds. Since 
Marshal hadn’t liked the idea of labeling the compounds good or evil, 
they arrived at the more accurate dark for a compound that was 
imprisoning shifters and experimenting on them verses light for a 
compound that echoed what they were striving for on the Rough 
River Ranch. Doc had tried to get the young man to shift into his 
coyote form, but he couldn’t. Someone had done something to him so 
that he was no longer able to shift. 

Finn was standing to the side, transfixed and horrified. Gently, 

Reid took him outside and held him close. 

“He’ll be okay. Doc and Dooley can help him.” 
“But why can’t he shift?” 
“Because he was probably drugged.” Reid had told Finn about the 

compounds, but hearing about the atrocities committed wasn’t the 
same as witnessing the results first hand. Drugs were being developed 
to force men to shift so they could be bred, so it didn’t surprise Reid 
that a drug had either backfired or possibly the man had been drugged 
after he’d become pregnant. He wouldn’t know until the child was 
delivered and Doc told them what had happened. Not that the 
mechanics really mattered. At this point, the only thing that mattered 
was saving both the man and his baby. 

Finn was clearly distraught, but he agreed with Reid that his own 

emotions were secondary to being there for someone else. “If it were 
me, that’s what I’d want. So that’s exactly what I’m going to do.” 

Finn was instrumental in making sure everyone had what they 

needed. He helped with food and drinks, but he also helped to arrange 
sleeping areas for those who needed to catch a few Zs.  

Just as the sun was coming up, the young man had been delivered 

of his child via cesarean. Since the father was exhausted and 
struggling to recover from his ordeal, all the other men pitched in to 
help with the baby. When Finn’s and Reid’s turn came around, they 
were both eager to watch over the newborn. He was healthy, 

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seemingly happy, and so sweetly beautiful Finn couldn’t stop looking 
at him. 

“He’s just amazing. I don’t know what else to say.” 
“You don’t have to say a word.” 
When their time was up, Finn was reluctant to let go, but he did 

because he didn’t want to deprive anyone else of the sheer joy of 
holding onto such a beautiful creature.  

“There’s more men coming. We just got here first because of his 

obvious distress. And mine. There was no way I was going to try to 
do a C-section on that land or in the car.” Doc’s eyes were bloodshot, 
and his shoulders tight with stress. “We need to get food and rooms 
ready for about twenty new men.” 

“We can do that.” Finn automatically volunteered himself and 

Reid. Not that Reid minded. As he was following his mate’s 
instructions, he suddenly realized that he hadn’t felt awkward or out 
of place once. In fact, he’d spent the last few weeks feeling more 
confident and relaxed than he ever had in his life. Even now, in the 
midst of chaos, he felt strong and capable. 

“Are you okay?” 
“I’m great. Really and truly great. I’ve never felt so good.” 
“Being needed is a good feeling.” 
“It’s more than that.” Reid pulled Finn close, kissing him soundly. 

“It’s being with you. I don’t feel out of place around other people 
anymore. I feel confident.” 

“I’m glad.” Finn smiled up at him then gave him a kiss.  
“Okay. Enough of that. Let’s get things organized.” 
By the time the men arrived, the ranch was ready to welcome 

them and accommodate their individual needs. Finn organized the 
influx of new shifters. While Cassidy filled their bellies in the kitchen 
and out on the back table, Finn gathered a list of names and particular 
details and then figured out where each man was going to go. If they 
were paired, he kept them together and tried to give them a private 
room. If they were skittish, he put them with stronger men. If they had 

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been kept in a cage, Finn ensured they had a bright and open place to 
sleep.  

Watching Finn work, Reid realized he was in his element. He was 

able to juggle a lot of moving parts and make sure everything came 
together in harmony. As they worked together to help others, Reid fell 
even more in love with his mate. Despite all the changes he’d 
undergone, including a complete reversal of his environment, Finn 
didn’t sit around and boo-hoo his situation. He embraced the 
challenge. Reid realized that was why his clumsiness had fallen away. 
Instead of concerning himself over what he should and shouldn’t do, 
he simply accepted the situations as they came and then worked to 
make them better. Reid had no doubt that he and Finn could handle 
anything and everything that came at them. 

Finn looked up from prepping a cot in the office. “What?” 
“Just—I love you.” 
“I love you, too.” Finn smiled then winked. “And if you’re a very 

good man who helps me set up the rest of these beds, I’ll show you.” 

“How can I resist an offer like that?” 
“You can’t.” 
Helping others turned out to be exactly what he needed to 

embrace himself, his mate, and truly understand the part he was 
destined to play. As Reid continued to do his best, he knew that no 
matter what, he was making the ranch a better place for himself, Finn, 
and all the children who would come. He might fumble, but if he fell, 
there would be someone to catch him. Reid swore that he would do 
the same for them. 

 

 

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