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Trapping Drake

Lee Brazil

Breathless Press

Calgary, Alberta

www.breathlesspress.com

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This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and 

incidents are products of the author’s imagination or are 

used fictitiously and are not to be construed as real. Any 

resemblance to actual events, locales, organizations, or

persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

Trapping Drake

Copyright© 2012 Lee Brazil

ISBN: 978-1-77101-005-4

Cover Artist: Victoria Miller

Editor: Olivia Ventura

All rights reserved. No part of this book may be used 

or reproduced electronically or in print without written 

permission, except in the case of brief quotations 

embodied in reviews.

Breathless Press

www.breathlesspress.com

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Dedication

This story is dedicated to my muse, Havan, for the constant 

inspiration and encouragement she provides.

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Chapter One

“Fuck.” His headlights glinted on white hair at the side of 

the road as Drake struggled to see through the pouring rain. The 

young woman standing beside her car, hazard lights blinking 

furiously, clearly needed assistance. He didn’t feel like playing 

Good Samaritan, but the rain was coming down in torrents, and 

no one else was likely to stop in this neighborhood.

Pulling his SUV over to the side of the road, Drake Fallon 

turned on his high beams and hazard lights. Sighing heavily, he 

stepped from the car and approached the woman rummaging 

through the trunk of her car. “Can I help you, Miss?”

The girl jumped. “Oh shit!” Her husky voice was startled.

The voice stroked over his nerves, soothing and stimulating 

at once. Surprised, he peered more closely, tempted to drag the 

driver into the glare of his headlights to verify his suspicions. “Are 

you  all  right?  Do  you  need  assistance?”  When  no  clarification 

came, he reached for his wallet and flashed his identification, be-

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fore pulling out a  business card and handing it over as well. “I’m 

with the police department. I’m perfectly trustworthy, I promise 

you. What seems to be the problem?”

“I need to change a flat, and it looks like my brother Jay has 

neglected to put the jack back in the car.” When the driver finally 

vouchsafed him an answer, it was in a softer, slightly higher voice 

that did nothing to allay his suspicions.

“You do have a spare, though? I can change it for you. It’ll be 

faster that way. I’ve got a jack in my trunk. Why don’t you go sit in 

the front of my car and warm up while I take care of this for you?” 

And I can get a damn good look at you when you pass through the 

headlights on your way there. He strained his eyes impatiently, 

taking in the long, straight fall of ash-blond hair, the bulk of a 

short leather jacket disguising the driver’s torso, and the slender 

length of hip and leg encased in tight black denim. The denim led 

to shiny rain-slick leather boots with three-inch heels. Not the best 

wear for changing a tire. He couldn’t clearly distinguish any facial 

features in the strange shadows, but had an impression of high 

cheekbones, dark eyes, and full lips on pale flesh.

The driver gave a mumble of assent and headed off to Drake’s 

vehicle,  stepping  dangerously  close  to  the  passing  traffic  as  he 

opened the door. Drake caught his breath and stared as the dome 

light popped on and confirmed his suspicions. Slight and delicate 

of frame, a little oddly dressed, pretty beyond belief, but no doubt 

about it, male.

Whistling, he walked around to the back of the SUV, trying 

to keep one eye on the man in his passenger seat, telling himself 

it was just a natural precaution, making sure he’s not a thief. He 

opened the back hatch of the SUV, then picked up his jack and 

a wrench. Setting the equipment down beside the sports car, he 

pulled the spare out of the trunk and strolled around to the pas-

senger side window of his vehicle, tapping until the man inside 

lowered it. “Keys?” He held out his hand to catch the keys as the 

motorist dropped them into his palm. Drake eagerly absorbed 

the close view of deep blue eyes, the delicate arch of pale brows, 

and the smooth unlined face. He raised a hand to brush along the 

smooth length of the narrow jaw, catching himself just in time.

“Here you go.” The driver again seemed to make an effort to 

make his voice sound more feminine than it had at first.

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Drake smiled encouragingly. “It’s okay. I’ll help you with 

your tire, even if you’re a man.” He accepted the keys and smiled 

more broadly as the young man sputtered. “It’ll just be a minute.” 

Conscious of the blue gaze on his back, he strolled back to the 

little sports car, unable to care that the rain had soaked through 

his clothes and his shirt now clung damply to his chest and back. 

Maybe his friend back there would enjoy the view. Opening the 

car door, he quickly applied the parking brake. A brick to prevent 

rolling would have been nice, but he wasn’t going to waste time 

looking for one. The less time he spent out in this rain, the better.

He turned his attention to the spare tire, only to find its con-

dition less than roadworthy. He fingered the treads where they 

seemed inordinately worn. Fumbling in his pocket for change, he 

pulled out a penny and slid it into the groove, peering close. Yeah. 

No way could he in good conscience send someone out to drive in 

this rain with tires like that.

Decision made, he hefted the tire and slung it back in the 

trunk, then heard the car door slam and the driver approach. He 

closed the trunk and gathered up his supplies, turning to face the 

blond man.

“Is there a problem?” This time he made no attempt to sound 

female, and Drake shivered as the husky tenor stroked across his 

nerve endings. Wow. That was a hell of a voice.

“Yeah. I can’t put this tire on your car. It’s worn down well 

past being safe to use.” The man started to argue, but Drake raised 

a hand to silence him. “No. I can’t and I won’t. The main purpose 

of tread on your tires is to provide traction and prevent drivers 

from hydroplaning and having accidents in just such deluges as 

we are standing in right now. I wouldn’t put that tire on your car 

if it were dry as a bone out here. It’s just not safe. Now get back in 

my car while I put this stuff away, and we’ll assess your options.”

Fascinated, he watched the man’s open mouth clamp shut, 

full lips pressing into a tight red line as he shoved his thin white 

hands into the pockets of his leather jacket. He watched the flex-

ing muscles under that tight denim head back to the car. Drawing 

in a deep breath, Drake headed around to the back, striving to get 

himself under control before he returned to close proximity with 

the blond in his car.

He made a show of storing the tools, then went back to check 

that the sports car was locked before climbing into the driver’s 

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seat of his car. He turned up the heat a bit and twisted around to 

face the blond, who watched him cautiously. He forced a smile. 

“I’m Drake Fallon. And you are?”

“I’m  Jesse  Cahill.  What  do  I  do  now?”  Jesse. Drake rolled 

the word around in his head. He liked it. It suited this little man 

nicely. Slightly feminine, but definitely male. He also like the way 

the blond seemed to look to him for help to solve his problems. 

It made him feel more masculine, less tired and hungry, and less 

like a failure after his long day at work. Appeals to your protective 

instincts, you mean.

“Well, do you have AAA?” Jesse sank neat white teeth into 

his plump lower lip, shaking his head and Drake fought back a 

groan, dragging his gaze up from temptation to eye level again. 

“Anyone you can call?”

Jesse broke eye contact and twisted his hands together in his 

lap. He stared out the front window at the rain for a moment be-

fore looking back at Drake and again shaking his head.

“Are you sure?” Drake asked. “You mentioned a brother earli-

er. Can he come and pick you up? We can call roadside assistance 

and get your car towed if you like.”

“He can’t. He works graveyard as an emergency room nurse, 

so he can’t leave the hospital.” Jesse hesitated. “Could you call me 

a cab?”

Was elation at the prospect of getting to spend a bit more time 

with this stranger wrong? “How about this? We’ll call FSP, and I’ll 

wait here with you until they come. Then we can go get a cup of 

coffee and warm up, and I’ll drive you home.” When he realized 

he was holding his breath, he forced himself to breathe normally.

A rush of unwarranted happiness spread through him when 

Jesse nodded acceptance. “I need to get my things from the car.”

“Okay, you go ahead and do that while I get FSP on the line.” 

He kept one eye on Jesse, who loaded his arms up with the con-

tents of his backseat, while speaking to the dispatch operator.

When Jesse slid back into the car he held a laptop bag, a back-

pack, and a covered plate. Drake took the backpack and the lap-

top bag and placed them on the backseat. Jesse waved the covered 

plate under his nose. “Are you hungry?”

Nodding, Drake watched Jesse slide the cover off the dish, and 

the delicious aroma of dark chocolate and raspberries filled the 

car. He moaned. His stomach rumbled and he coughed in embar-

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rassment. “I’m sorry. I just got off a twelve-hour shift that should 

have been eight hours long, and I haven’t eaten since noon. Those 

brownies smell amazing. They are brownies, right?” His mouth 

watered in anticipation.

Jesse smiled broadly and handed him the plate, taking one for 

himself first. “Yep. They are. I baked them for a school bake sale 

tomorrow, but your heroic measures in coming to my aid deserve 

a reward more than the student council kids.”

Biting into the melt-in-your-mouth, chewy morsel, Drake 

moaned again. Gorgeous and a good cook? “You’re a teacher?”

“Yes. I teach composition and literature at the Lynden Private 

High School. I also have the misfortune to be the faculty advisor 

to the Student Government. It’s a fundraising nightmare. What 

did FSP say?”

“They’re on their way. In fact, there they are. Do you want me 

to talk to them for you?”

“No, thanks, I can handle it. I appreciate all your help though.”

Drake nibbled another brownie while Jesse talked to the tow 

truck driver. He turned back to the car as the driver hitched his 

car up and prepared to deliver it to the garage. Jesse slid into the 

seat  next  to  Drake,  folding  the  work  order  slip  from  the  truck 

driver and sliding it into his pocket. “Look, I’m kind of tired. Can 

we forego the coffee, if you don’t mind?”

Disappointed, Drake agreed. “Where do you live?” Hearing 

that  Jesse  lived  relatively  close  to  his  own  apartment  complex 

pleased him. Proximity would make pursuing this acquaintance 

easier.  The  drive  to  Jesse’s  neighborhood  was  relatively  quick, 

and he and Jesse managed to chat casually the whole way.

Pulling into the drive, he turned to face Jesse, who had one 

hand on the door handle and an uncertain look on his face. Cau-

tiously, sensing that Jesse wasn’t immune to him, Drake gave in 

to his earlier temptation. He reached out and ran his hand down 

the side of that gorgeous face. When Jesse leaned into his touch, 

Drake’s pulse sped up and he curled his finger around the back of 

Jesse’s neck, threading his fingers into the still-damp blond locks. 

Tilting Jesse’s head up, he leaned down, staring deep into the blue 

eyes, looking for any sign that his kiss was unwelcome. Jesse’s 

eyes widened, and he expelled a sweet rush of air that hotly ca-

ressed Drake’s lips. Drake sighed and brought their mouths to-

gether. Pausing, he again gave the skittish Jesse a chance to pull 

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away. When no objection came, he tilted his head and caressed 

the full lower lip with his own, adoring the soft warmth, reveling 

in the delicate intimacy.

With a breathy whimper, Jesse’s mouth opened slightly and 

Drake took full advantage. He swept his tongue inside, tracing 

hungrily over smooth velvety surfaces, teasing and massaging 

Jesse’s timid tongue with his own. The sweet flavor and delicious 

heat, the residual taste of raspberry and dark chocolate intoxicat-

ed him, and he wanted more. He moaned loudly and pulled Jesse 

closer, pressing his mouth open wider, coaxing a response from 

the trembling man in his arms.

A sudden flash of bright light from a passing car startled him 

and Jesse shoved him away, breathing heavily. “Oh my God,” he 

whispered, huge eyes locking on Drake’s face. “I can’t.”

“Jesse? I’m sorry I got carried away. It’s just...you’re so damn 

sexy. I know I overstepped. Look. It’s late. Can I see you again?”

“No. Not I can’t sleep with you. I want to. But I can’t. There’s 

someone else.”

Drake jerked back as if slapped. “Someone else? And you 

couldn’t call him to help you, I suppose?”

“You assume it’s a him?”

Drake snorted in response. He damn well knew the someone 

else was a him. No straight man wore three-inch heels in the rain, 

no matter how fucking short he was. Not to mention, he’d likely 

have  been  punched  square  in  the  jaw  at  the  first  touch  if  Jesse 

weren’t gay.

“I know it’s a him. Just like I know you can’t be all that in love 

with him if you can kiss me like that.”

“I didn’t. You...” Flustered looked good on Jesse. He looked 

just as adorable unable to put two sentences together as he had 

sopping wet on the side of the road. Jesse fumbled with the door 

handle, and Drake quietly flicked the lock. Child safety locks or 

some such thing. If the car reached a speed in excess of fifteen 

miles per hour, the door locks engaged automatically.

“I’m really sorry,” Jesse tried again. Drake scowled. He was 

pouting, but he refused to let that bother him now. He was tired, 

hungry, wet to the skin, and disappointed that the first man he’d 

been seriously interested in since Alexi left him was attached to 

someone.

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“Me too. You didn’t have to flirt with me. Just like you didn’t 

have to pretend to be a woman. I’d have helped you even if you’d 

told me up-front you were unavailable. You have my card. Call 

me when you break things off with this guy who doesn’t satisfy 

you.” A tiny twinge of guilt for his bitter jibes gnawed at his con-

science as the SUV door slammed on what sounded vaguely like 

a muttered “when hell freezes over.” Drake slumped back in his 

seat and drove wearily off to his own apartment, feeling old and 

worn out.

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Chapter Two

Stepping through the doorway, Jesse resisted the urge to look 

back over his shoulder at the incredibly handsome, dangerous 

man who’d just come to his rescue like a knight in shining ar-

mor. He’d never felt the slightest temptation to stray before, but 

Drake Fallon had short-circuited his thinking. Closing his eyes, he 

inhaled deeply the scents of home: warm vanilla, a touch of cin-

namon, and the barest hint of residual smoke. He inhaled deeply 

again, hoping to chase the seductive scent of Drake from his nos-

trils.

Jay must have smoked in the house again and lit incense hop-

ing to cover the smell. He shook his head, smiling fondly. A nurse 

who smoked. Jay claimed the majority of the staff at the hospital, 

doctors included, smoked. When Jesse chastised him, asking him 

if he’d jump off a bridge if the doctors at the hospital did it, Jay 

smacked him on the arm, just as he had when they were eight. 

Jay claimed that working in the emergency room he saw a million 

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ways that people’s lives could be cut short outside of their control, 

no matter if they smoked.

Gorgeous  brown  eyes,  thick  dark  curls  of  hair,  and  a  firm 

square jaw roughened with stubble intruded on his thoughts of 

Jay. Drake, oh fuck, did the man know how to kiss! Seduction in 

the flesh. When those firm lips met his, he’d been washed under 

a tide of desire he hadn’t felt for a man other than Jay, ever. He’d 

come to terms years before with his and Jay’s relationship. He’d 

never desired another man or woman, until now. Drake had con-

fused and flustered him from the moment he’d stepped into the 

glare of his own headlights and approached Jesse. There was no 

other possible explanation for his stupid urge to hide by pretend-

ing he was female. What caused him to forget his commitment to 

Jay during that kiss he couldn’t fathom, but he could ignore it. It 

wouldn’t happen again. Jay remained the most important person 

in his life.

Shaking off his perturbed thoughts, Jesse locked the door and 

left the porch light on for Jay when he got in from his shift in the 

early morning hours. His twin brother worked too many shifts 

at  the  short-staffed  hospital.  Jay  said  the  overtime  pay  made  it 

worthwhile, but Jesse missed curling up next to Jay, seeing his 

smiling face when he got home from school, and being with him 

in general. Maybe he could blame the long spell of celibacy for 

his strange attraction to the cop this evening. With Jay working 

twelve hours on the night shift,  and Jesse’s schedule at the school 

and his classes for his master’s degree, they barely traded kisses 

in passing most days.

Realizing he stood dumbly in the entrance hall of his home 

as though he were a stranger waiting for permission to enter, 

Jesse placed his backpack and laptop bag on the cedar bench by 

the front door. Missing something. The brownie plate. Grandma’s 

Wedgwood. Only then did he realize he’d left the brownie plate 

with its few remaining brownies on the floor of Drake’s SUV.

Fingering the little rectangle of cardstock in the pocket of his 

jeans, he shrugged off the leap of pleasure at the idea of seeing 

Drake again. He wouldn’t call. He could live without the plate, 

even if it was a part of the matched set his mother had passed 

down to him from her grandmother. If Jay asked, he could claim 

one of the kids at the bake sale had broken it. Maybe he could find 

a replacement from one of the online auction sites. Seeing Drake 

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was too much temptation. The man made him hot, and that was 

wrong. He loved Jay, and screwing around wasn’t an option.

He hung his leather jacket on the coatrack above the bench 

and sat to tug off his boots. Drake’s brown eyes and Jay’s blue 

ones swirled through his mind. He could picture them, the three 

of them, actually. Drake’s large muscular body, golden and tan, 

rough with the tiny hairs that dotted his arms, all muscle and fire. 

Jay, sweet, lean and lithe, pale from sleeping during the day and 

working at night. Sighing, Jesse shoved the boots under the bench 

and headed down the hall to shower.

The fantasy sped through his mind, unrolling in lush detail 

as he stepped under the hot spray, evolving as he shampooed 

his long blond hair and applied the conditioner. Closing his eyes 

he tried to imagine the touch of those large rough hands on his 

skin, in tandem with the smooth familiar stroke of Jay’s hands. 

His stirring cock rose to prominence as he imagined the two of 

them touching him there, his own hand stroking and rubbing, 

whimpers of pleasure and frustration spilling from his lips. The 

insidious idea of Drake taking him wove through his mind and 

the vision changed, two conditioner-slick fingers easing into the 

tiny opening of his anus. Biting his lip, he squeezed his cock tight 

in one hand and probed gently with a finger, pushing it slowly in, 

groaning as he gave himself a few quick strokes, then pushed in 

the second finger alongside the first. The stretch and burn faded 

quickly and when he came, it wasn’t Jay’s name he whispered, 

but Drake’s.

Shivering with pleasure and a touch of guilt, he quickly rinsed 

his hair and stepped out of the shower. Remodeling the bathroom 

was the next project on the household improvement list. A few 

more days a month of overtime and they would have the mon-

ey to begin the project. They’d jointly purchased the ranch-style 

home in a decent neighborhood with their mother’s insurance 

money when she passed away. Jesse had been thrilled when Jay 

suggested remodeling the kitchen first. He loved cooking, and the 

newly remodeled kitchen was a cook’s dream.

After the kitchen, they’d focused their efforts on the backyard 

and the outdoor entertainment area. He didn’t regret those choic-

es,  exactly.  But  showering  in  this  tiny  little  ancient  tub  shower 

was a pain in the ass. They couldn’t enjoy one another’s company 

in the shower here as they had in their old apartment.

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Exhausted,  he  fell  into  bed,  curling  onto  his  side  and  hug-

ging Jay’s pillow. Inhaling the scent of Jay, a mingling of cologne, 

shampoo and underlying man, soothed him. It reminded him that 

he had love, and that was worth more than a hot fling with a sexy 

guy. If his dreams were as full of Drake as they were of Jay, then 

he couldn’t help it. A man’s dreams were beyond his control.

***

Jay pulled his jeep into the driveway, grimacing as he real-

ized that his efforts to get off work early had been wasted. Jesse’s 

Mustang was missing. He must have gone to school extra early 

for a meeting or something. Damn it. Jay thumped the steering 

wheel with a clenched fist. He was sick of working nights, sick of 

sleeping alone, sick of not seeing Jesse.

He slid his seat back and pulled the little thermal icebox out of 

the passenger seat. Another thing he was sick of. Packing lunches. 

The cafeteria food sucked, and for a place that was supposed to 

preserve life, it was damned unhealthy. Jesse usually made sure 

that he had plenty of healthy food for his shifts, but eating alone 

in the break room at work just wasn’t the same as sharing a meal 

with Jesse, in the privacy of their own home, where they could 

laugh, talk, kiss, and more as the mood moved them.

Two more nights and he’d have a three-day weekend, all of 

Friday, Saturday, and Sunday to spend with Jesse. He would hold 

that idea in his arms today and hold Jesse through the long week-

end. Another week and he’d switch to the day rotation and get to 

spend more time with Jesse.

Wearily, he locked his car and headed to the front door. In 

the dim light of early morning, the porch light glowed dully, and 

he smiled. Jesse had left it on for him knowing how he hated to 

be submerged in darkness, an irrational fear from childhood that 

he’d never quite vanquished. When his father had ranted about 

the lights in the bedroom being left on and his mother had caved 

in, taking the night light away, Jesse had used his allowance to 

purchase a tiny laser pointer, and they’d huddled under the blan-

kets of the full-size bed they’d shared, hiding in the light.

Jesse’s  jacket  rested  on  its  hook,  his  ridiculous  boots  stood 

under the bench in the entryway, and his laptop and backpack 

sat on the bench. Jay’s heart soared. Car or no car, Jesse hadn’t 

left for work yet. Hastily he pulled off his own jacket and tossed 

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it casually onto the bench, toed off his rubber-soled work shoes, 

and headed down the hall, pulling off his scrubs as he went. He’d 

shower  quickly,  then—he  smiled  wickedly—wake  Jesse  via  his 

preferred method.

The shower was still damp, and Jesse’s clothes were scattered 

around. He must have gotten in late. It was so typical of Jesse that 

he couldn’t bother to aim for the laundry basket. Jay took respon-

sibility for the laundry, just as Jesse did the cooking and shop-

ping. The man kept his kitchen pristinely clean, every tool, dish 

and ingredient squarely in place, but outside the kitchen, outside 

his own realm, chaos.

Too eager to play to waste time, Jay kicked his twin’s clothes 

to the side and stepped into the shower. The hot water refreshed 

and revived his tired muscles. He soaped up, shampooed his hair, 

and rinsed off quickly. He couldn’t pass over brushing his teeth 

and taking a swig of mouthwash. Jesse would bitch if he tasted 

cigarettes on Jay’s breath.

He  didn’t  bother  to  belt  his  short  black  flannel  robe  as  he 

stepped out of the bathroom. Instead he threw it on the floor when 

he entered the master bedroom. Jesse lay naked on the queen-size 

bed, the covers kicked aside. He cuddled Jay’s pillow in his arms, 

and his lips parted as he slept.

Beautiful. How was it possible that the man could be more 

beautiful today than the last time he’d seen him? Jay crossed the 

room silently, standing next to the bed and gazing down at his 

lover. Lithe white limbs, graceful and lightly muscled. Fine white-

blond hairs, delicate and soft to the touch. Pale peach nipples on 

a firm-muscled chest and abdomen. Hand slightly trembling with 

passion and love, Jay stretched out and  tenderly stroked through 

the slightly damp locks of ash-blond hair. Idiot. To go to bed with 

his hair damp. He’d catch a cold. Such an old wives’ tale for a man 

of science!

Frowning,  he  noted  the  dark  shadows  under  Jesse’s  eyes. 

How late had he stayed up studying? Where was his car? Leaning 

forward, Jay pressed a kiss to the softly parted red lips.

“Drake,” his brother sighed, releasing the pillow he’d cuddled 

and turning toward Jay, arms outstretched.

What the fuck? Jay jerked away from Jesse’s reach. The chill of 

shock leeched through his system. Drake. Who the fuck is Drake? 

All desire to play disappeared. He stood uncertain, pulse racing, 

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panic setting in. Breathe deeply, calm down. Don’t jump to con-

clusions, don’t panic. He eyed his brother warily, as though the 

man had slapped him. Had Jesse met someone? Neither of them 

had ever thought it possible, though both had tried to date other 

people. A tormented few years of misery, jealousy, and depres-

sion had convinced them otherwise. What would he do if Jesse 

had decided that he wanted out of their relationship? What could 

he do? He didn’t really have a fucking choice, did he?

He couldn’t stand in the way of Jesse having a normal rela-

tionship with someone he could love and care for. Someone soci-

ety would accept more easily than him. Neither could he let some 

asshole take advantage of Jesse’s generous, soft-hearted nature. 

He’d find out more about this Drake before he calmly handed his 

brother, his love, over to another man. If Drake wasn’t worthy of 

Jesse, then he’d take care of that problem too.

He’d spent many years taking care of Jesse, looking after him. 

They looked after each other. He wasn’t going to stop that now, 

unless this Drake proved up to the task.

But he sure as hell couldn’t sleep now! Climbing into the bed 

over his brother’s body, he grabbed his pillow and stretched out 

onto his side, facing Jesse. He traced each dear feature tenderly 

with a fingertip, gently exploring, memorizing again the face and 

body that had been his alone for the last five years. A sense of ur-

gency overcame his scruples about Jesse’s tiredness. If he didn’t 

have much more time with Jesse, if the advent of Drake spelled 

the end of Jay and Jesse...then he needed more than wanted.

He sidled closer on the big bed, enjoying the cool brush of 

the cotton sheets against his skin. His hands drifted down from 

Jesse’s face to his chest, exploring, finding a tiny peach nipple and 

pinching it lightly. Taking his heart in hand, he leaned forward 

and pressed another kiss on Jesse’s parted lips, this time sliding 

his tongue inside to familiar territory. Jesse’s mouth muffled his 

groan of pleasure.

“You’re home,” Jesse whispered, blue eyes opening wide and 

shining with love. When Jay saw that look, sank into those deep 

pools, felt the adoration in Jesse’s return touch, he couldn’t be-

lieve this Drake could pose any threat to their relationship at all. 

Jesse tugged Jay closer, deepening this kiss. Jay melted into him, 

half-covering  Jesse’s  body  with  his.  He  reached  between  them 

and stroked his hand down to Jesse’s hard, leaking cock.

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Jesse tilted his head, and Jay responded by trailing his lips 

from Jesse’s mouth across his cheek and down to the hollow of 

his throat. The temptation to bite, to suck hard, to mark his lover, 

was difficult to surmount, but he didn’t want to cause Jesse any 

trouble at school. “I’ve missed you so much. Need you so much.” 

His voice was husky, a trembling whisper.

Jesse  responded  by  reaching  out  and  pulling  Jay’s  head 

back to him, holding him in place, refusing to relinquish his lips. 

Jay sighed in pleasure. Jesse still wanted him, still desired him. 

What that meant for this Drake, he couldn’t say. But he couldn’t, 

wouldn’t, give this up. He groaned again as Jesse’s s tongue swept 

inside his mouth, tasting, teasing.

Jay could only murmur indistinct sounds of approval, hoping 

his touch conveyed his pleasure and awe, as Jesse still refused to 

give up his kiss.

“Oh, honey, Jesse.” Jay pulled away, looking down into Jesse’s 

deep blue eyes. “Need to taste you,” he said, sinking to his knees 

and  twisting  about  on  the  mattress  to  press  hot  open-mouthed 

kisses to the thick cock that arched against Jesse’s flat belly.

Jesse shook. “I want you to suck me.” His hands came down 

to comb through Jay’s hair, and he sighed in pleasure as Jay licked 

his dripping cock. Jay reveled in Jesse’s tight grip on his hair, each 

gentle tug to the fine strands sending jolts of pleasure through his 

body straight to his eager cock.

“Love you,” Jay answered before taking as much of the cock 

into his mouth as he could, sucking and tonguing it while Jesse 

jerked against him, moaning loudly. Jesse’s breath hitched when 

Jay sucked him in to the root and ran his fingers down the crack 

of his ass. His fingertip pressed against the hole, and Jesse arched 

wildly, whimpering.

“Oh,  Jay...oh,  I  love  you!”  A  rush  of  warm  cum  into  Jay’s 

mouth quickly followed the loud groan. He swallowed in satis-

faction, stroking his own cock as he licked and sucked Jesse.

When  Jesse  lay  gasping  for  breath  murmuring  indistinct 

words  of  love  and  satisfaction,  Jay  shifted  up  onto  his  knees, 

squeezing and stroking his cock frantically. He was nearly there. 

Jesse reached a limp hand toward him, a generous offer, but Jay 

shook his head. His teeth sank into his lower lip, and he felt the 

well of cum rising. His balls drew up tight to his body, and he 

shuddered as cum spurted in long ribbons onto Jesse’s taut belly. 

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Jesse moaned again, swiping his hand through the sticky wetness, 

and as Jay watched, licked the semen from his fingers.

Squeezing his eyes shut, Jay searched for control. He wanted 

to cry, he wanted to scream, he wanted to beg Jesse not to leave 

him. Instead, he clasped his twin’s wrist, guided his finger back to 

the ribbon of semen, his mark on his man, and brought the drip-

ping finger to his own mouth.

Slowly, Jay licked and sucked cum from the slim fingers, lov-

ing the bitter salt of it, the sweet taste of Jesse’s flesh and the faint-

est hint of the tangerine shower gel Jesse used.

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Chapter Three

When Jesse’s coworker and friend picked him up for work 

an hour later Jay stayed in bed, trying to sleep but staring at the 

ceiling instead. Fuck. He might as well get up. Maybe doing some 

laundry and yard work would convince his body of the necessity 

of sleep. He made a mental note to call about Jesse’s Mustang be-

fore falling asleep. They could find the money for new tires. He 

cursed his own carelessness. He knew Jesse was clueless about 

shit like that. He should have checked the tires long ago and in-

sisted on new ones.

He crossed the carpeted floor to the thrift store dresser they 

shared. It didn’t even match the bed. The furniture, like the rest of 

the room, was cheap but functional. He wished he had the money 

to buy better for Jesse, but his lover never complained about the 

things they had or could afford. When Jay started taking on the 

extra shifts at the hospital to save up the money for the bathroom 

remodel, Jesse had protested. Jay shrugged his protests off. Work 

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was nothing. He was used to it, and Jesse had worked hard to 

help pay for his nursing degree. Jesse deserved the best.

Pulling on a pair of faded button-fly Levis, Jay gathered a pile 

of garments from the floor. Jesse’s laundry, like his own dishes, 

landed on the most convenient surface, each of them confident the 

other would take care of it.

Remembering the damp clothes in the bathroom, he dropped 

the pile in his hands by the door and crossed the hall. As he 

scooped up the jeans and silky blue shirt, a slip of white cardstock 

fell from the pocket. He picked the paper up, intending to put it 

on the dresser top for Jesse, but the name on the card caught his 

attention. Drake Fallon. Drake. This had to be the man Jesse had 

met. He dropped the card as though it had bitten him, and then 

picked it up gingerly by the corner. Wet clothes in one hand, busi-

ness card in the other, he crossed to the dresser. He held on to 

the card for a long moment, then sighing, let it fall to the scarred 

wooden top.

In the laundry room he sorted the pile from the laundry basket 

and started a load in cold water. The business card, with its phone 

number and handwritten cell number, kept taunting him. Drop-

ping a load of laundry into the machine without going through 

his ritual of checking the pockets, he added detergent and fabric 

softener. He wanted to call that number to hear the voice of the 

man who thought he could hit on Jesse on the side of the road in 

the middle of the night.

Ought to feel grateful, I suppose, that he didn’t just leave Jes-

se stranded there. Anger and a touch of insecurity sent his gaze 

toward the bedroom at the back of the house. Slamming the lid 

of the machine, he stalked back to the bedroom. He’d call, God 

damn it. He had to know if the man was worthy of Jesse’s tender, 

loyal heart. Jesse... Jay flopped down on his brother’s side of the 

bed, fumbling for his cell phone. He held the white rectangle of 

cardstock between forefinger and thumb, stomach rippling with 

unease as he punched in the number.

It rang twice before a breathless, deep voice answered. “Jesse.” 

That voice uttering his twin’s name sent unexpected shivers down 

Jay’s spine. He gulped. Holy shit. If the man’s face and body fol-

lowed through on the perfection, the seduction in that voice,  he 

was fucked. “Jesse. I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said what I did last 

night. I apologize. Blame it on tiredness, just...I’m sorry, okay?”

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Stunned, Jay briefly considered identifying himself. After all, 

he’d never said he was Jesse, had he? The man leaped to a conclu-

sion.

“Jesse?  Say  something.  Never  mind.  Don’t  say  anything. 

Look, can you meet me for a coffee? I know, you probably think I 

should be apologizing for more, like the kiss, but I’d like to apolo-

gize in person. Your partner won’t mind that, will he?”

Well, thank fuck for small mercies. Apparently Jesse had told 

the asshole that he was involved with someone. And what the 

fuck? He kissed Jesse? Jesse hadn’t said anything about the guy 

kissing him when he told Jay about the Good Samaritan who’d 

helped him.

Full of self-righteous indignation and a strong desire to see 

the face that went with the voice, Jay agreed to meet Drake Fallon 

for coffee. While he was there, he’d make sure the man never had 

the urge to contact Jesse again. What kind of asshole takes advan-

tage of a man in a situation like that? Clearly the man was a user.

***

Drake gripped his phone tightly, running the other hand 

through his mussed hair. When he’d seen J. Cahill come up on 

his caller ID, the wash of pleasure he’d felt surprised him. He’d 

actually contemplated trying to find Jesse’s phone number with 

the information he had about the man. He regretted his parting 

shot the night before, not that he doubted the truth of what he’d 

said. No man who kissed him like that could be thinking about 

someone else, in love with someone else. Mostly, he regretted not 

having the opportunity to see the man again.

His dreams had been full of lush red lips and deep blue eyes, 

expanses of pale skin and heated caresses. He’d awakened hard 

and aching. Seeing Alexi and Simon in that bar last month, en-

countering  Alexi  again,  seeing  the  elation  love  had  brought  to 

his ex-boyfriend’s life, he’d wanted more than casual sex himself. 

That look, and the naked adoration on Simon’s face, had con-

vinced him that it was time for more, that there was more out 

there than affection and hot sex.

He thought he’d found someone special with his first glimpse 

of Jesse. His first bite of those brownies had convinced him. Jesse 

was special, worth a little extra effort, worth time.

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The boyfriend was baggage, sure, but if things between them 

were as bad as they seemed, they’d break up eventually. Waiting 

to kiss Jesse would have been wiser. He’d apologize, offer friend-

ship, and be patient. He could do that. If the damn dreams don’t 

drive me crazy first. Now, though, he gave his cock a rough stroke. 

The damn thing had reacted with vibrant enthusiasm to hearing 

Jesse’s voice, though he hadn’t seemed to have much to say other 

than a muted agreement to meet for coffee.

A quick cold shower and ten-minute drive later and he sat at a 

table in the midmorning sun, two cups of coffee and a plate of cin-

namon rolls in front of him. He should have offered to pick Jesse 

up. How would the man get to the coffee shop?

He watched clouds chasing each other gently across the blue 

sky, listening casually to the muttered rush of people coming and 

going  around  him. A  cleared  throat  attracted  his  attention  and 

he rose instinctively. “Jesse. I’m glad you could make it. I should 

have offered to pick you up.” Grateful for the dark glasses that 

hid  his  expression,  he  let  his  eyes  travel  up  and  down  the  full 

length of Jesse’s body. In the brilliant light of day  he was even 

better looking than he’d been drenched with rain on the side of the 

road in the dark of night. Flawless pale skin, fine white-blond hair 

pulled back today in a neat ponytail, firmly set plum lips, head 

tilted at a challenging angle. His eyes were indeed a deep blue.

The man looked tired, though. Good. Maybe he’d dreamed 

as restlessly as Drake. Drake certainly hoped that he had played 

a part in them!

“I have my brother’s jeep.” The husky tenor was exactly as 

he remembered, a sensual caress that his body responded to au-

tomatically.

“Ahh, well. Good, then. Please.” He gestured to the chair 

nearest his own at the small round wrought iron table, but Jesse 

smirked and deliberately chose the chair farthest from him. Fair 

enough. Attitude was acceptable under the circumstances. “I got 

plain house blend. If you’d like something else I’d be happy to get 

it for you.”

Jesse shook his head, propping one denim-clad ankle over the 

other, showing off a pair of battered Vans. He reached into his 

jacket pocket and pulled out a pack of cigarettes, tapping them on 

the palm of his hand a few times. Strangely enough, Drake hadn’t 

remembered the taste of cigarettes from last night’s kiss. Usually 

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he could tell if a man smoked. Drake smoked in high school and 

had finally quit when Alexi refused to kiss him. It had taken him 

a few months, but he’d finally come to appreciate the difference 

not smoking made in his life. Fascinated, Drake watched as Jesse 

pulled a cigarette from the pack and offered it to Drake. He shook 

his head. “No, thank you. You know, it’s illegal to smoke those in 

public venues in this state.” He couldn’t tear his gaze away from 

the red lips pressed tight to the white cigarette, imaging those lips 

closed tightly around his finger, his cock. He shifted in his chair.

“You going to arrest me, Drake?” The sweetness from last 

night had definitely faded. Jesse had a right to be pissed, he sup-

posed.

“No, I’m not. But I’m not defending you if the manager asks 

you to leave, either.” Thin white fingers pulled the cigarette from 

his mouth and tossed it on the ground. He smudged it out with 

the battered skate shoe, and then glared at Drake.

“Fine. But if I can’t smoke I’m not staying long. Say what you 

have to say and I’ll say what I have to say, and let’s get the fuck 

out of here.” He picked up the coffee cup that Drake pushed over 

to him and took a sip of the black liquid, closing his eyes in bliss.

Oh, good Lord. If the man looked like that over a cup of cof-

fee, Drake would give a lot to see how he looked in orgasm. And, 

he vowed, he’d find out some day soon. “Okay.” He pitched his 

voice to a soothing tone and persevered in the face of Jesse’s hos-

tility. “I apologize. I shouldn’t have said anything about your 

boyfriend. And I shouldn’t have kissed you, even though I didn’t 

know you were in a relationship. We’d barely met and I rushed 

things, a lot. I’d offer the excuse that you were just too damned 

sexy and I wasn’t thinking clearly, but I’m an adult and I should 

be able to control my impulses better than I did.” And wasn’t that 

the fucking truth? He generally exercised a great deal of control 

over his actions and his emotions. Jesse seemed to bring out this 

rash side of him.

Jesse’s mouth dropped open and he stared.

“Really. I’m sorry. I was wrong, I admit it. Can we agree to be 

friends?” Jesse had become paler. Hadn’t he expected the apology 

to extend to the kiss?

A  jerky  nod  answered  him.  Jesse  broke  eye  contact  and 

watched two college girls as they passed by chattering and gig-

gling. At  last  he  turned  back  to  face  Drake,  and  his  expression 

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seemed troubled. Drake’s protective instincts stirred. “What is it? 

What’s wrong?”

“Nothing. Look, I’m involved with someone. I just came here 

to make sure you know that. And I’ve got to go.”

Pushing, knowing he might regret the outcome, Drake insist-

ed, “But we can be friends.”

“Yeah,  sure...”  Jesse  slid  from  his  seat  and  reached  for  the 

cigarette packet again, grimacing slightly as he realized what he 

was doing. He clenched his hand in a fist at his side. “Call me 

sometime. We can...do something.”

A less gracious acceptance of an overture of friendship Drake 

had yet to hear, but he’d take what he could get. Sipping his cof-

fee, he watched Jesse make his way across the parking lot to a 

white soft-top jeep. The man didn’t even look back once to wave.

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Chapter Four

Jesse waved to Shane, the coworker who had given him a lift 

to and from school today. Seeing Jay’s jeep in the driveway sur-

prised and worried him. Jay should have left for work over an 

hour ago.

“Honey?” he called as he shut the door. He dropped his 

things on the cedar bench and listened for Jay’s answer.

“Back here.” The husky voice came from the back of the house, 

and relieved that Jay hadn’t overslept, Jesse headed to the large 

family room that looked out over the patio and backyard. Jay sat 

on the sofa, arms wrapped around his knees, looking outside.

When  Jesse  approached  him,  he  turned  his  head  slightly 

away. Jesse automatically pressed the palm of his hand against 

Jay’s forehead. No fever. “What’s wrong, honey? Did you over-

sleep?”

“No. I’m okay. I called in sick. I wanted to talk to you.” Jay 

turned  back  to  face  him,  and  Jesse  sank  onto  the  sofa,  staring. 

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Jay’s eyes were darkly shadowed and red-rimmed. Had he not 

slept at all? He reached out to embrace and offer comfort, but Jay 

pulled away, leaning back against the sofa arm.

“Please. Don’t. I need to talk to you, and then...if you’re nice 

to me, I won’t be able to say this.”

“Jay, you’re scaring me. What is this about?” Jay hadn’t ever 

called in sick to work before. If anything, he went to work when 

he shouldn’t. His brother had never refused his touch. Since birth 

they had been one another’s comfort and support. The rejection 

sent a searing pain, a sense of loss through him. He couldn’t lose 

Jay.

“I saw Drake today.”

Drake?  Guiltily,  Jesse  flushed.  “How  did  you  even  know 

about Drake?” The words were out, and he couldn’t take them 

back. He should have given Jay all the details from his adventure 

last night, not just the bare bones. He could see, though, that Jay 

had felt guilty about the whole thing with the missing jack and 

the worn treads on the tires, so he’d downplayed it. Silly thing to 

hide, anyway.

Jay’s  sardonic  smirk  said  as  much.  “When  I  got  home  this 

morning, I went to wake you.”

Jesse shuddered with the memory. Beautiful way to wake up. 

“Yes?”  It was like coaxing a reluctant thirteen-year-old into tell-

ing a story. Jay wasn’t usually like this. He was normally so sure 

and brash.

“You whispered his name. I knew it was important. I was 

worried.”

Oh God. That couldn’t have been good. “I’m sorry.” He forced 

the apology out and brushed the moisture from his eyes as his 

throat clogged with emotion. He’d pushed the confusion Drake 

engendered to the back of his mind, determined to let it go and 

be happy with Jay, who he knew loved him. Again he reached for 

Jay, wanting to reassure his love.

Again Jay evaded him. “I’m not done. I found his card in your 

pocket after you went to work. I realized he had to be the guy 

who helped you with the car last night. I wasn’t digging, I swear. 

I wouldn’t invade your privacy like that. It fell out of the pocket 

when I picked up the laundry, and the name...it caught my atten-

tion.”

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Heart aching, Jesse nodded. “I know you wouldn’t. But you 

could, you know. There’s nothing I wouldn’t share with you.” It 

had been foolish to hold any little thing back.

Jay’s eyes held his intently. “Really? Let me finish, and say 

that again.”

“If you let me hold you, you’ve got a deal.”

“I don’t deserve it after what I’ve done, but I’d like noth-

ing more than to be held by you.” This time when Jesse reached 

for him, Jay moved into his arms in a rush, snuggling close and 

clutching him tightly.

Jesse let his hands wander, stroking silky hair, petting pale 

skin,  reclaiming,  reassuring  himself  and  Jay.  “Okay.  Go  ahead. 

When I hold you, I can handle anything.”

“I called him. I met him. We talked.” Jesse stilled and pressed 

his lips to the crown of Jay’s head.

“What did he say?” If Drake had been as big a bastard to Jay 

as he’d been at the close of the night last night, he’d hunt him 

down and kill him.

“He thought I was you.” Okay, that was moderately better. 

“He apologized.” That was even better. What in that could make 

Jay so emotional? “For kissing me.”

Shit. “I’m sorry. He kissed me and it was only once. I should 

have told you. It didn’t mean anything.” Fuck. He knew Drake 

was trouble. “Please, don’t be upset about it.”

Jay shook his head. “I’m not upset about that. I got that he 

kissed you and not the other way around from what he said. I ad-

mit when I found the card, when you whispered his name, I was 

worried that he was someone who could take you away from me. 

Someone that you could love without stigma, but...”

“I love you, Jay, honey. I found Drake sexy, yeah. I’ve never 

been attracted to anyone but you like that. I didn’t fall in love with 

him at first sight, though.”

“But you could love him, later. Couldn’t you?” Jay insisted.

“Maybe. But that’s not what this is all about, is it?” He knew. 

Jesse knew what was coming. Jay and he, they were almost like 

one person in two bodies. It stood to reason, didn’t it, that if he 

found Drake so freaking attractive, if he thought he could love 

Drake, then Jay felt the same way?

“No.” Jay tilted his head to meet Jesse’s eyes again. His own 

reflected a deep sadness and near despair. “You know, don’t you? 

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How he made me feel? I’ve been sitting here wishing I’d been the 

one he kissed, feeling like a jealous ass, because I love you and I 

want you, and I think I want him, too.”

Jesse swallowed carefully, combing his fingers through Jay’s 

silky ash-blond hair. “So, what are you saying?”

“I don’t know. I just knew I had to tell you. I couldn’t stand in 

your way. If you feel like I have felt all day, there’s no way I can 

force that on you.”

“Jay, I’m not sure, but it sounds like you just gave me permis-

sion to see Drake.” Heart pounding, Jesse nearly held his breath 

waiting for the answer. He couldn’t do it, could he? Even with 

permission?

“Yeah, I am. Now let’s go back to your earlier statement. Is 

Drake something you couldn’t share with me? Is that why you 

didn’t tell me about the kiss?”

Sharing Drake with his brother? “If only you knew what I was 

dreaming when you heard me whisper his name, you wouldn’t 

ask me that.”

For the first time that evening, Jay smiled. “The same thing 

I’ve been torturing myself with all afternoon?”

“More than likely. I didn’t tell you because I thought noth-

ing would come of it. I didn’t plan to pursue it. Drake is sexy as 

hell, but I love you, and I would never do anything to make you 

unhappy.”

“You  make  me  happy.”  Jay’s  whispered  declaration  lured 

Jesse closer. When Jay skimmed his lips over Jesse’s cheek toward 

his mouth, Jesse tilted his head to allow better access. His eyes 

drifted closed when Jay sucked his bottom lip into his mouth and 

traced it with his tongue.

Jesse cradled Jay’s head in his hands, opening to accept the 

tender caresses. Jay muffled a laugh that melted into a groan as 

Jesse’s tongue swept inside his mouth, tasting, teasing. They shift-

ed about on the sofa until their bodies pressed together, chest-to-

chest and hip-to-hip in the narrow space.

Suddenly Jesse couldn’t get close enough. A sense of urgency, 

a response to the advent of change, he knew, swept through him. 

He tugged at Jay’s T-shirt, pulling it smoothly up and over his 

twin’s head, regretting the separation of their mouths but reveling 

in the contact with warm pale flesh. He would caress, would love 

the uncertainty of the last few hours from Jay’s memory.

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Jesse  wasn’t  alone  in  his  enthusiasm.  Jay’s  hands  trembled 

as  he  fumbled  with  the  buttons  of  the  jeans  Jesse  wore,  finally 

just shoving the loose denim down over his hips and thighs. Jesse 

whispered encouragement and approval, hoping his touch con-

veyed his pleasure and awe.

“Oh God. I need you. Please?”

Jesse’s body shook as he watched Jay. “What do you want?” 

This was all about Jay, making Jay feel loved, secure.

“I want you to fuck me.” His shock at Jay’s response must 

have shown. It wasn’t something they’d ever done before.

“Really?”

“Not if you don’t want to.” Jay trembled, waiting for his re-

sponse, clearly regretting making his wishes known.

Jesse looked down, grabbed Jay’s hand, and brought it to his 

throbbing  cock.  “Oh,  I  want  to.  It’s  just...well...I  never...”  How 

could he be embarrassed to tell Jay he’d never done that before?

“Me  neither,”  Jay  said,  stroking  his  hand  soothingly  over 

Jesse’s jaw. “I’ve never done it either, but...I think it’s something 

Drake will want, and I may be a stupid jealous fool, but I want the 

first time either of us does this to be the two of us, not the two of 

you.”

Jesse wasn’t sure what Drake had to do with this, but he knew 

what he wanted, and if they could find a place for Drake in their 

lives, it would just be the icing on the cake. He dug between the 

sofa cushions for a tube of lube and carefully prepared Jay. Not 

having done it before wasn’t an excuse for hurting his beloved. 

He knew the mechanics involved, and he knew every expression, 

could interpret every emotion on Jay’s face. Watching closely for 

signs of pain or that Jay had changed his mind, he cautiously pen-

etrated the little opening with a lubed finger, stretching and loos-

ening the muscle before adding a second finger and repeating the 

process.

When  they  were  both  flushed  and  breathing  heavily,  he 

judged Jay ready and pressed the slick head of his cock to the tiny 

opening, hesitating again. “You’re sure?” He had to make the of-

fer, give Jay the chance to back out. “We don’t have to do this. My 

loving you doesn’t depend on this.”

“Please,” Jay whispered. Groaning, Jesse pushed forward as 

the  muscle  stretched  and  accepted  him.  Jay  stilled  and  sighed. 

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Pleasure. His expression spoke only of pleasure and happiness. 

Giving in, Jesse surged forward.

“I love you.” Their voices mingled.

Jesse groaned. Beautiful. The sensations, the pure intimacy, 

the deep close contact of making love with Jay like this were over-

whelming. He thrust deeper, his body rubbing against Jay’s cock 

with every movement.

Jesse  stared  down  into  Jay’s  eyes,  clear,  dark  blue  pools  of 

emotion and desire. He’d never have chosen Drake over Jay, but 

Drake and Jay? Jesse’s rhythm increased as the pinnacle of release 

neared. Heavy breathing and the slap of skin on skin mingled 

with Jay’s sexy whimpers.

“So close,” Jay whispered, clutching tightly at Jesse’s body, 

petting and stroking frantically wherever he could reach.

“Yes, come for me,” Jesse murmured through panted breaths. 

He gasped when the flood of wet heat spilled on their bellies and 

the clenching of muscles around his invading cock signaled Jay’s 

release. His own orgasm followed closely, the massaging muscles 

coaxing it from him.

Jesse threaded shaking fingers through Jay’s hair and kissed 

him deeply. He pressed tiny kisses to Jay’s jaw and throat, moan-

ing lightly. “That was amazing,” he sighed. They lay in silence, 

snuggling on the sofa as the light of the late evening faded into 

night.

“So, how do we go about this?” Jay’s voice was content and 

happy, all traces of sadness missing.

“Dating Drake? Finding out if we love him? If he can love us? 

Good question.” He thought about it for a moment. “You say you 

didn’t tell him you were you?”

“No. He thinks I’m you.” Jay snuggled closer.

“Okay, so...this isn’t strictly honest...and...” Jesse grabbed a 

blanket from the back of the sofa to pull over them.

“I got it. He could end up hating us, you know.” Jay knew 

exactly what he was thinking. He always did. They’d traded plac-

es as kids plenty of times, but the goal here was different. They 

wouldn’t try to pass themselves off as each other. Each of them 

would be himself; Drake just wouldn’t know that there were actu-

ally two J. Cahills.

“It might be irrelevant. He may not love us in the first place. 

I think we shouldn’t make the decision to tell him more about us 

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until we know more about him. He’s a cop, you know. We have to 

know we can trust him, and he needs a chance to get to know us.”

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Chapter Five

“So are you going to tell me about this new man in your life?”

“New man?” Drake looked up from the papers he was busily 

shuffling to gaze blandly at his partner.

The big lug wasn’t buying the innocent act, though. There 

were  benefits  to  having  the  same  partner  for  so  many  years. 

Drake just couldn’t recall any of them when Sean Mullins stared 

at him in that probing manner. “Yeah. I can tell when you’re see-

ing someone.”

Drake snorted. “Super detective, eh? Tell me more.”

Sean’s feet came off the desk and slammed into the cracked li-

noleum underneath with a thud as he pinned Drake with a sharp 

glance. “You admit it?”

“I wasn’t aware I was hiding anything.” Drake pushed the 

stack of files over to a corner of his desk to make room for his feet. 

It was late and the reports were overdue, but they wouldn’t be 

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getting done tonight either. “You’re the great detective. You tell 

me what your keen wit has deciphered.”

“He’s blond, short, and helpless.”

Drake crumpled a sheet of scratch paper on his desk and 

threw it at Sean. “Why do you say that?”

“’Cause that’s the kind you go for, cute big-eyed waifs. Help-

less. People who need looking after, taking care of, you know.”

So Jesse was a petite blond, and he had needed help the night 

they met. Didn’t mean a thing. “Alexi wasn’t blond.” As though 

that were proof. “Neither was he helpless.”

“And he broke up with you because you were smothering 

him with your caretaking ways,” Sean insisted.

“He broke up with me to get married and have kids, to make 

his parents happy.”

“Please. I saw him with that guy in the bar a few months ago. 

Your old buddy Simon, wasn’t it? He’s no more straight than you 

are.”

Explaining Alexi’s decisions smacked too much of making ex-

cuses. Besides, Jesse was a petite blond and he did seem to need 

looking after, if the condition of his car tires was any indication. 

Quite honestly, Drake found that appealing. He liked taking care 

of his man and liked being taken care of in return. “Okay, so he’s 

blond and petite. I’ll grant you that much.” Blond, petite, and gor-

geous. “What else do your senses tell you, Batman?”

Sean rubbed his chin with one big hand, tapping the fingers 

of the other on his desk top as he considered Drake. “Well, I’d say 

you’ve been seeing him since...last Wednesday. Tuesday we had 

that bust go bad on the south side. Wednesday you were a royal 

bastard to be around. By Thursday you were plotting.”

“Not bad. I met Jesse on Tuesday night. Helped change his 

tire. I thought I screwed things up before we had a chance, but 

met him for coffee on Wednesday and apologized. He accepted, 

and we’ve been out a couple of times since then.” Last Friday, 

he’d been spellbound as he watched Jesse stroll into that bar. His 

blond hair gleamed in the dim lighting, loose and flowing over 

his shoulders. He’d taken the time to apply makeup and wore a 

soft-looking silvery gray sweater that hit mid thigh. The sweater 

was belted with a wide swathe of supple leather that rested in a 

knot at his hip over tight skinny jeans and those same boots from 

Tuesday. Jesse was beautiful, completely androgynous. Every eye 

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in the place, male and female, had followed his progression across 

the floor to Drake’s side. He’d felt more than a little thrill of pride 

to be with the man.

After a single drink at the bar, Jesse had casually invited him 

to attend a pep rally/bonfire on the beach. He’d accepted with-

out hesitation, even though Jesse made it clear that in front of the 

students there could be no touching of any kind. The experience 

opened his eyes to who Jesse was on a whole different level. Stu-

dents swarmed them as soon as they got out of the Mustang, chat-

ting, laughing, and vying for Jesse’s attention. Jesse had given it 

freely, and the evening had passed quickly.

“So, tell me what I don’t already know?” Sean was a dog with 

a bone, refusing to give up until he’d pumped every ounce of in-

formation possible from Drake.

“He’s a teacher at the performing arts high school. Don’t 

smirk at me. Not a drama coach or any of those artsy things. He 

teaches literature and advises the student government. Bakes 

damned good brownies, too.” Kissed like a dream as well. He 

hadn’t been expecting it, either.

Jesse’s call on Saturday morning had surprised him, but he’d 

been pleased to accept the invitation to the pier for the afternoon. 

The  change  in  Jesse  from  the  night  before  was  startling.  He’d 

switched his seductive sweater and skinny jeans for a sleeveless 

loose-fitting T-shirt and board shorts in a muted mustard color. 

His hair had been ruthlessly pulled back into a ponytail and he 

hadn’t worn a vestige of makeup. This Jesse was just as attrac-

tive, somewhat more vulnerable though, as though the absence of 

makeup left him unguarded.

Jesse had offered him a skateboard, but was willing enough 

just to walk when he’d declined. After indulging in people-watch-

ing as they strolled along the pier, they’d stopped for ice cream at 

a Cold Stone Creamery. A drip of his plain old-fashioned vanilla 

with chocolate chips had clung to his lips, and Jesse had shocked 

him by leaning over and licking it away. It was a small step from 

a lick to a lingering kiss.

“Sounds perfect. Too good to be true, in fact. What’s wrong 

with him?” Had his unease communicated itself to Sean some-

how? The man really did see too much.

“He’s not in the market for a boyfriend.”

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That seemed to startle Sean, who checked his watch and be-

gan clearing his own desk. “And you are?”

“With Jesse? Yeah. I think I’d like more than a few dates and 

some hot sex. I’d like a relationship.” Drake grabbed the papers 

he’d neglected to fill out and shoved them into a drawer of his 

desk, turning the lock. And wasn’t that a kick in the pants? First 

guy since Alexi that he wanted more from, and even casual sex 

was off the menu.

“So, convince him.” Both men rose from their chairs and 

headed toward the door.

Sean made it sound easy. Drake just wished it were. “He’s 

already involved with someone.”

“You’re going to let him go that easily?” Sean gestured Drake 

to precede him through the door, and they continued down the 

hall.

“No. You know I’m not. It’s just going to take time. And...

there’s something else.” Something that had been troubling him a 

bit since that kiss at the ice cream shop.

“What? You’re just making excuses. Got some commitment 

issues of your own, huh?”

“Hardly. There’s just something...It’s like he’s two different 

people. This cheerful, helpful, chatty, social teacher who’s fun to 

be around and sexy as hell. I mean, you would know if you saw 

him Friday night...gorgeous in makeup and heels.” Drake lapsed 

into contemplation.

“And? What’s the problem, Drake? I know you don’t care 

about appearances.” Sean stood beside his own car which was 

parked next to Drake’s SUV, flipping his keys in his hand.

“And then...he’s this complete skater guy with board shorts 

and Vans who seems to get a thrill out of people-watching and 

listening to me talk.” He shook his head slowly.

“Maybe he’s schizophrenic. Or maybe he just enjoys a variety 

of things. Take your time and get to know him. Hey, bring him 

over some weekend. Lisa would love to meet your new man.”

Drake grimaced. “He’s not mine. Yet.”

“I have confidence in you. You’ll bring him around. Open in-

vitation. When he’s yours, we want to meet him.” Sean slid into 

his vehicle and drove off to his pregnant wife and happy home.

Drake  slipped  into  his  own  vehicle,  considering  his  next 

move. It was his turn to call, to do the inviting. The problem was 

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he didn’t know which Jesse to cater to. Maybe a drink at the bar 

would be the best choice. That way, whether he showed up look-

ing like a fashion model or a skater boy, he’d be comfortable. Had 

to decide soon, though; it was after nine, and he knew Jesse would 

have to work early in the morning.

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Chapter Six

Determined not to let too much time elapse between thought 

and  deed,  Drake  pulled  Jesse’s  home  phone  number  from  his 

pocket. It might have been a misuse of departmental resources 

to search for it. He tried to feel bad about that, but couldn’t. Fig-

ured the police department and the good citizens owed him some 

perks for all the missed lunches and unpaid overtime he’d put in 

over the years. He programmed it into his phone. He planned to 

make frequent use of the number, to become so much a part of 

Jesse’s everyday life that he’d be the first one Jesse turned to when 

things finally ended with the guy who couldn’t kiss. Okay, that 

was a lame assumption, but it made Drake feel better about being 

rejected.

He  pressed  the  speed-dial  button  he’d  just  programmed  in 

and listened to the ring. A sleepy voice answered. “Hello?”

“Jesse?”  He  felt  a  bit  foolish,  but  was  vindicated  when  the 

answer came.

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“No.  This  is  his  brother,  Jay.  Hang  on,  I’ll  get  him.”  There 

was a rustle of fabric and murmur of voices, and sooner than he 

thought possible the voice returned.

“Yes?” Curious. The brother’s voice and Jesse’s were identi-

cal.

“Jesse?” he asked, wanting to be sure.

“Yes, it’s Jesse. Who is this, please?” Jesse sounded as sleepy 

as his brother had. A muffled yawn and the murmur of voices at 

least confirmed there were two people in the room.

“It’s Drake, Jesse. You told me when we left the pier Saturday 

to call sometime this week.”

Silence. “Sorry, I didn’t recognize your voice on the phone, 

Drake. I did tell you to call, didn’t I?”

“Is it too late? You were asleep? I can call in the morning if 

you prefer.”

More rustling and murmuring followed by the light padding 

sound of feet on a floor and the running of a faucet. “No. It’s okay. 

What’s up?”

A thought flashed through his head and he grabbed at it, held 

it. Couldn’t believe how good it made him feel. “So, you live with 

your brother, not the boyfriend?” Oh boy. That could get him back 

in hot water. Why did he speak before thinking around this man?

“Jay? Yes. He’s my brother.” Drake had the sense that Jesse 

had more to say, but nothing was forthcoming. “Anyway, Drake, 

I have class early in the morning, and I’m kind of beat.”

Oh, broad hint. Back on focus, Drake. “Yes, well, I called to see 

if you got your car situation worked out, and I wondered if you 

wanted to get a drink after work tomorrow. I’m off at six, and 

there’s a great bar about halfway between your place and mine. 

In fact, it’s at the same strip mall where we had coffee last week.”

Drake heard an indrawn breath and then Jesse said, “Refresh 

my memory. Which one was that exactly?”

“On Robards, where the Starbucks is. You were pretty tired 

that morning, huh?”

“Yeah. Tired. That would be Cabana Sue’s? I know it. I’ll meet 

you there at six tomorrow.”

The dead air indicated Jesse had hung up before Drake could 

formulate a response. How had Jesse managed to meet him at ten 

that morning when he should have been in school? He’d probably 

taken a sick day after the long and exhausting night.

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***

The hours between the phone call and strolling through 

the door of Cabana Sue’s were typically slow, but Drake smiled 

broadly as he automatically selected a seat with his back to the 

wall at a secluded table with a view of the doors. He’d see Jesse 

before Jesse saw him. He ordered a cerveza and a round of chips 

and salsa. If possible, he’d convince Jesse to eat with him before he 

left. Somehow that seemed like a small victory to him.

He sipped his beer slowly, watching minutes tick past while 

he pretended not to notice that Jesse was ten minutes late, then fif-

teen. Some stirring in the air sharpened his attention and he stud-

ied the lithe grace of the petite man who stood in the doorway, 

looking left and right, searching for him. Being the object of that 

search felt good, really good. He knew the instant Jesse spotted 

him because his face lit up and a sweet smile curved his plump 

mouth. And damn, if that didn’t feel even better.

Jesse wore tight-fitting denim today and a silky, blousy white 

shirt that looked just as good on him as the T-shirt and board 

shorts he wore on their last date. In place of the black skate shoes 

he wore heels again and appeared a bit taller as a result. It seemed 

he’d taken the time to add eyeliner and a touch of lip gloss as well.

Drake  narrowed  his  eyes.  Something  was  different  today. 

The appearance was familiar, a blend of Friday night’s super-

model and Saturday afternoon’s casual. The change was more in 

his bearing, his attitude. “You talked to your boyfriend about us, 

didn’t you?”

Blue eyes widened in surprise as Jesse slid into the seat closest 

to Drake. “I did. How did you know?”

To Drake’s surprise, Jesse leaned in close and brushed his lips 

over his cheek in greeting. The warmth of Jesse’s thigh close to his 

own soaked through their jeans, and Drake wished he’d chosen 

the seat across the table instead. He couldn’t concentrate clearly 

when Jesse sat this close. He’d learned that in the front seat of his 

SUV the other day. “You seem confident. Not conflicted.”

Jesse tilted his head and looked up at Drake through his lash-

es. “Did I seem conflicted before?”

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“No. You seemed tired, pissed and shaken.” Blunt. But ef-

fective. Jesse straightened his head, his face grew serious, and he 

turned to face Drake in the small space.

“I talked to my boyfriend. About you.”

“You told him about the kiss? About what I said?” His heart 

beat faster. Could it come this soon? The breakup he’d predicted?

“I did. I told him all of it.” Jesse reached a hand out and traced 

a delicate finger along the veins in Drake’s hand where it rested 

on the table; he tensed, then relaxed into the caress. Small steps

Drake scowled at the waiter who approached the table to take 

Jesse’s drink order, but it didn’t deter the young man.

“Hey, Jay. What do you want to drink?”

Jesse flinched, then laughed. “I’m not Jay, Emilio. I’m Jesse. 

Jay’s on the night shift this month. And I’ll have a Long Island iced 

tea.” Tumblers rolled into place in Drake’s head, but he couldn’t 

focus on the solution. His body and mind were distracted by the 

heat and warmth sitting close to him, by the pink tongue tracing 

slick lips nervously. By the possibilities inherent in that conversa-

tion Jesse had had with his boyfriend.

“So,” he persevered as the waiter walked away, looking dis-

appointed. Must have a crush on the brother. “What happened? 

He didn’t hurt you, did he?” The sudden possibility angered him. 

He checked Jesse over quickly, looking for any bruises or signs of 

abuse. Nothing.

“Of course he didn’t hurt me! He’d never hurt me!”

Drake drew in a deep breath. “Okay, sweetheart...please just 

tell me the story of what happened when you told your boyfriend 

about me. And you probably should tell me what you told him 

and if he knows you’re here tonight talking to me.” He kept an 

eye on the door, expecting a big angry man to come stalking in 

looking to reclaim Jesse at any moment. Assumptions, he chided. 

You’re making assumptions again!

“He told me it was okay, that he understood.”

“He understood?” The guy really had to be a fucking idiot. 

“He understood what exactly?”

“That I want you. That I want to know you better, I mean.” 

Jesse blushed as beautifully as he did everything else.

“And he was okay with that?” Unbelievable. The man couldn’t 

possibly be in love with Jesse and “understand” something like 

that. Every word he heard made Drake more determined to make 

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Jesse  his.  He  could  love  Jesse  properly,  kiss  him  so  he’d  forget 

about every other man he’d ever known, and make sure he was 

safe on the roads and elsewhere.

“Yes, and he wants to meet you.” That surprised Drake. He 

searched Jesse’s eyes for some sign, of what, he didn’t know. That 

he could be trusted, maybe. Nothing but intense emotion showed, 

and...hope?

“He wants to meet me?” Drake’s voice was flat. “Really. Why 

is that, Jesse?”

“Because when we met before you didn’t know who I was.” 

The voice came from behind Jesse, but it was Jesse’s voice.

Drake’s head whipped up, and his eyes widened. “Fuck.”

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Chapter Seven

Drake’s eyes narrowed, and Jay forced himself to stillness un-

der his scrutiny. Piercing gray eyes gave him the once-over from 

head to toe. It was nerve-wracking. He counted his breaths, in and 

out, striving to project a calm he just didn’t feel. This plan might 

have been the biggest mistake of his and Jesse’s lives, and Lord 

knew they had certainly made a few.

Drake pointed a blunt finger at him. “I met you last week. We 

had coffee.” His harsh tone flicked Jay like a whip.

Jay  could  control  his  breathing,  but  some  things  were  be-

yond human control. Flushing, he nodded. “I’m sorry. We also 

went down to the pier on Saturday afternoon skateboarding.” He 

pulled out a chair and seated himself at the little table. The basket 

of chips and salsa sat neglected by the table’s occupants. Absently 

he picked up a chip and began breaking small bits off it. “Don’t 

be mad at Jesse. He didn’t know what I was doing that first time. 

He was at work.” Drake looked stunned, and Jay knew he was 

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babbling, but he couldn’t seem to stop himself. Drake just stared 

from him to Jesse and back again. The more silent Drake got, the 

more Jay felt the urge to fill the empty space.

They should have stuck with the original plan, let him get 

to know them and then gradually introduce the idea of there be-

ing two J. Cahills. He’d forced this revelation too soon. “After you 

helped Jesse with his tire, I found your number in the laundry, 

and I wanted to know more about you. So I called. I was...worried 

about Jesse.”

He could see gears clicking and information falling into place 

in Drake’s eyes. The big man reached out, downed his beer in one 

long swallow, and waved a hand for the waiter, ignoring Jesse’s 

protest.  “Tequila,”  he  ordered  brusquely.  “Bring  the  bottle  and 

three glasses.” He shoved the chips closer to Jay and deliberately, 

it seemed, gathered Jesse’s hand in his. He looked down at Jesse. 

“You’re the one I met on the highway a week ago Tuesday night.” 

He wasn’t asking, he was telling.

Jesse nodded, started to speak, but was cut off. “No. Not yet. 

I need to understand this, who was who when, before anything 

else. You.” He frowned, pointing at Jay.

Jay  squelched  the  tremor  that  tried  to  manifest  itself.  That 

voice, those penetrating gray eyes. He shivered. Drake was just 

too much. “You called me. We met at the coffee shop. And then...

when I called...yesterday...I spoke first to you, then Jesse.”

“Yes. Jesse met you here last Friday for drinks and the pep 

rally. I was working. You and I went skateboarding before my 

shift started Saturday.”

Jay saw Jesse nodding as his own head bobbed. He’d made a 

neat little pile of chip crumbs on the table in front of himself. Un-

thinking, he reached out to place his hand on Jesse’s for comfort 

and  support,  but  saw  Drake’s  big  square  hand  with  its  buffed, 

blunt cut nails just in time. At the last second, before making con-

tact with the two hands on the table already, he veered to the side 

and  swiped  Drake’s  beer  bottle.  Shaken,  yet  somehow  pleased 

with Drake’s protective gesture, he began shredding the label 

from the bottle strip by strip. He hurt for a whole slew of reasons 

at this moment. He wanted to yell that Jesse didn’t need protect-

ing from him, that he would never hurt the man he loved in any 

way. He wanted that protective mantle over his own shoulders, 

as it was so clearly spread over his brother’s. He wanted the com-

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fort and security of Jesse’s hand clasp, but also of Drake’s. But 

Drake didn’t know that. How much of the situation had Drake 

processed? Clearly he had the identical twin thing settled, but had 

he equated the “boyfriend wants to meet you” with Jay’s arrival?

The waiter approached with the tequila bottle and glasses, his 

eyes lighting up when he noted Jay. Jay ducked his head hoping 

to avoid eye contact, but Emilio cooed with happiness and set the 

contents of the tray on the table. His hand came down on Jay’s 

shoulder, and he bent close to speak over the growing crowd. 

Caro, I missed you lately. You haven’t been in for months. And 

your naughty brother,” Emilio cast a censorious glance at Jesse, 

“he told me you were working the night shift.”

Jay saw the glint of fire in Drake’s eyes, the tightening of his 

lips,  and  shrugged  the  hand  off  his  shoulder  quickly.  “I  am.  I 

have to leave soon.” He cast pleading eyes at Jesse. Usually Jesse 

laughed  off  Emilio’s  blatant  flirtation  and  declarations  of  love. 

What else could he do? In public they were brothers. It wouldn’t 

do to appear too possessive or jealous, but Jesse was as aware of 

Drake’s mounting tension and clenching fingers as Jay.

Drake heard the desperation in his voice and threw a bill on 

the table. Against state law, he swiped the bottle from the table 

and glared Emilio’s protests into submission. “Let’s go. I assume 

you two arrived together? I’ll follow you to your place.”

Jay leaped to his feet. He needed to talk to Jesse, make sure 

they were still on the same track, still wanted the same thing. 

More than talk, he needed physical contact to be reassured that 

Jesse  still  wanted  him.  Seeing  Jesse  with  Drake,  the  protective 

touch, the blatant desire that flared between them, he had to be 

sure. The two of them just looked so right together.

He shoved his hands in his pockets and walked behind Drake 

and Jesse as Drake clung tightly to Jesse’s hand on the way to the 

car. He kept his gaze on that hand clasp. Jesse’s fingers looked 

small and more delicate and artistic than ever clenched inside 

Drake’s sturdy grasp. Was Drake staking a claim? Letting it be 

known that he had made a choice? Jay looked up to meet Jesse’s 

apologetic, pleading glance over his shoulder.

He nodded as reassuringly as he could. He could see quite 

clearly from the white-knuckled grip that Drake wasn’t giving 

Jesse a choice about the hand holding.

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“It’s okay,” he mouthed. He slowed his pace, observing the 

man with his brother. Drake was talking urgently, his expression 

intent.

Jay approached his jeep in time to hear Drake address Jesse. 

“I think you should ride with me.” His protective stance partially 

blocked Jay’s view of Jesse.

“No,  I’ll  be  fine.”  Jesse  patted  Drake’s  shoulder  gently.  He 

tugged his hand, wincing slightly, but Drake didn’t let go.

Jay waited patiently for the other two to notice him. Drake 

turned his head to glare. “I’ll be right behind you.” The warning 

wasn’t necessary. Jay was fully convinced the man would murder 

him with the least provocation.

He scowled fiercely at Jay, but finally released Jesse’s hand 

and opened the passenger door of the jeep for him. Jay couldn’t 

look away, and Drake maintained eye contact as he deliberately 

lowered  his  mouth  to  Jesse’s.  Jay  sucked  in  a  deep  breath.  He 

wouldn’t. He would. Jay’s heart beat swiftly and blood rushed in 

his ears as Drake thoroughly kissed Jesse, who seemed helpless to 

protest for long minutes. The sheer eroticism of the kiss drew his 

gaze, but Jay felt that it was the power of Drake’s will that forced 

him to watch.

Jay didn’t know what Drake hoped to prove with the kiss, 

what he wanted to provoke, but it was the hottest fucking thing 

he’d ever seen and his body responded accordingly. He licked his 

own suddenly dry lips and nodded jerkily. Drake’s eyes narrowed 

on him, missing nothing. “I’ll be right behind you, sweetheart.” 

He turned back to Jesse, pressing a finger to his dazed brother’s 

lips. “We’ll sort this all out. You won’t be alone with him for long.”

Just  that  quickly,  the  arousal  faded.  Jay  felt  sick.  Nausea 

cramped his stomach as he slid behind the wheel of the jeep, star-

ing straight ahead while Drake fussily fastened Jesse’s seat belt. 

He could feel the hot anger of Drake’s gaze burned into him, but 

he ignored it. Drake had understood part of the implication of his 

arrival at that time. He just didn’t understand it all. How could 

he?

***

Drake didn’t bother knocking on the door of the house where 

he’d dropped Jesse off just a week ago. He figured they knew he 

was coming. He stepped into the dim foyer, noted Jesse’s boots 

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under a bench to the side, and Jay’s skate shoes haphazardly next 

to  them.  He  bent  and  pulled  off  his  own  running  shoes,  leav-

ing them by Jesse’s boots. No shoes in the house was a common 

enough rule in Southern California households. And he wouldn’t 

be leaving in a hurry anyway. There was a lot to be settled here, 

about Jesse, Jay, and that damned touchy-feely waiter.

In his socks, he moved silently down the hall toward a cozy 

glow of lamplight. He stood in the doorway of a large airy fam-

ily room, much nicer than what he’d glimpsed of the rest of the 

house. Jay sat on a comfortable-looking sofa, his knees drawn up 

to his chest, arms wrapped around them while his usually defi-

ant chin rested atop the faded denim that covered his knees. His 

bare feet poked out below, giving him a vulnerable and youthful 

air that he hadn’t had before. The resemblance to Jesse was even 

more pronounced in this attitude. Jesse hovered over his brother, 

looking anxious and uncertain. He petted Jay’s hair, whispered 

words that Drake couldn’t hear.

Something was wrong with this picture. Jesse didn’t have the 

look of a man being abused. He looked worried, concerned for 

his brother. I know I didn’t misunderstand. Jesse said his boyfriend 

wanted to meet me. Then Jay answered the why. The implication 

had been clear. Jay was both the brother and the boyfriend.

Strange as the thought had been, Drake hadn’t been able to 

dwell too long on the idea. The waiter’s proprietary attitude to-

ward Jay had seriously pissed him off, and that had confused him 

as well. He supposed that maybe it shouldn’t have. When he’d 

seen how tired Jay looked Saturday, he’d just wanted to put the 

man to bed and soothe him to sleep. Of course, at the time he’d 

thought it was Jesse.

Some noise must have given his presence away. Jesse looked 

at him with pleading eyes. “Drake, please. It’s not like you think. 

You hurt him. Tell him you don’t believe that about him.”

Drake looked more closely at Jay. The shiny track of a sin-

gle  tear  held  his  attention.  Swearing  softly,  without  thinking 

he strode across the room, sliding onto the sofa and pulling Jay 

into his arms. “I’m sorry I hurt you. Babe, please. It was just the 

shock.” He gave in to impulse, and the burning desire that had 

overtaken him at the bar, to find out how identical Jay and Jesse 

were. He pressed his lips to Jay’s, coaxing, tenderly, begging him 

with lips and tongue to forgive his hasty words. Eventually, the 

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trembling man in his arms relaxed and opened up. Drake sighed 

in relief. The similarities were there, it was true, but he would 

always be able to tell Jay’s kiss from Jesse’s. Equally sweet and 

hot, Jay’s kiss was tinged with the acrid flavor of smoke. More 

than that, the brother he had assumed to be the dominant partner 

in the relationship seemed to need wooing. Whether a product of 

the events of the night or the norm, Jay was less aggressive.

Slowly, sensing Jay calm and feeling Jesse’s approval in the 

gentle caress of his hands, he acknowledged the thought that had 

crossed his mind: The reason he had been furious at the waiter 

was that Jay belonged to him, just as Jesse did. From the moment 

he’d  looked  up  and  seen  two  Jesses,  he’d  fought  off  images  of 

what he wanted to do with them. It wasn’t anything he’d ever 

imagined before, but he couldn’t shake the vision of the three of 

them, naked and entwined, kissing, caressing. Realizing that Jay 

was Jesse’s boyfriend, his visions had taken a dangerously seduc-

tive turn as he imagined himself watching the two of them please 

each other and then joining in to take his own pleasures. He’d 

shocked himself.

Jay  hadn’t  deserved  to  bear  the  brunt  of  his  self-loathing. 

Sighing, he turned on the couch and pulled Jesse closer, kissing 

him lightly on the forehead. “Okay. Before I jump to any more 

faulty conclusions, one of you explain this to me.” Jay tried to pull 

away, but Drake tightened his grip. “No. You stay here. I need to 

hold you.” And Jay needed to be held. Jesse beamed at him in ap-

proval, so he must have done something right. God knew what.

“Jesse, you tell him.” Jay’s voice was raw from crying, and 

Drake pressed a sympathetic kiss to his head.

“Okay. Drake, Jay and I, we...well, we’re very close.” Drake 

arched a brow. “We’re in love. We love each other, more than 

some people think is right. We both tried for a long time to fight 

how we felt. It made us miserable. Then we worked it out. Until 

I met you.”

Unsure what that meant but determined not to speak until 

he’d processed everything this time, not wanting to hurt anyone, 

Drake just nodded. He ran a soothing hand through Jay’s hair, 

tugging the band that held it in a ponytail out as he did so. Jesse, 

he noted, wore his hair down already. He smiled encouragingly 

at  Jesse,  shifting  slightly  as  the  weight  of  Jay’s  body  snuggled 

against him began to affect his focus. He reacted to Jay’s proxim-

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ity exactly as he had to Jesse’s in the car. The same overwhelming 

desire and the same need to protect filled him.

“We moved here, where no one knew us, and we’ve been very 

discreet about ourselves, Drake. No one knows but you.” Now 

Jesse sounded anxious.

“Your secret is safe with me,” he assured them, pulling Jesse 

close to place a tender kiss on his trembling mouth. “As far as I 

know, there’s no law against consenting adults doing what they 

want.”

Jesse’s eyes shone with relief. “We hoped you’d feel that way. 

Because, well...I met you. And when Jay found out about you, he 

met you. And we both feel the same way.”

Bewildered, Drake looked from one to other. “I’m doing my 

best  not  to  leap  to  conclusions  here,  but...could  you  be  a  little 

clearer?”

Jay pushed Jesse out of Drake’s arms, grabbed his head and 

pulled him down, taking his mouth in a heated kiss. Then he drew 

back and Jesse was there, repeating the maneuver.

Jesse drew back and looked at Jay, and then the two of them 

kissed, right in front of Drake’s eyes. His semihard cock jolted 

to full arousal instantly. His field of vision filled with pale skin, 

ashy hair swinging freely, and identical rosy red mouths locked 

in hunger. Clear enough. That kind of feeling he understood.

He leaned forward and slowly, tentatively, feeling his way 

in this new venture, brought his mouth into the game. He traced 

kisses over one pale cheek to where the two mouths met and 

probed with his tongue, tasting the heat of the kiss. In a second 

the twins had made room for him, and the three-way kiss began 

again. It was deliciously wet, hot, messy, and incredible.

He fell back against the sofa, pulling the two with him. Jay 

straddled his lap, and Jesse knelt on the floor at his side as the kiss 

went on and on.

“This clear enough?” Jay’s voice broke through the haze of 

desire, the rush of blood in Drake’s ears.

“Oh yeah. That’s pretty clear. And...” He paused to breathe 

deeply, hoping he wasn’t going to regret this. “I feel the same.” 

Not exactly, but he could handle it. The twins might well be sexu-

ally attracted to him, but he’d hoped he had found someone he 

could learn to love, who could love him. He could settle for be-

ing part of a caring relationship. These two loved each other, and 

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neither of them would risk bringing a third into such a precari-

ous relationship casually, without feeling something. Maybe they 

wouldn’t ever love him as they did one another, but it was worth 

taking the chance. If he suspected that he was already well on the 

way to falling in love with Jay and Jesse, he’d keep it to himself.

He could do his damnedest to make the relationship last as 

long as he could. And when they got tired of sharing one another 

with him, well, he’d have memories to keep him company.

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Chapter Eight

Jesse grabbed Jay and Drake both by a hand and tugged as he 

rose awkwardly to his feet. “Bed. There’s no room here.”

The other two moved with more alacrity than grace, and Jesse 

smiled in amusement as he watched them struggle to their feet. 

Though  the  bedroom  was  only  a  few  feet  away,  getting  there 

seemed to take forever as Drake and Jay were constantly stopping 

the forward motion of their small group to share kisses and ca-

resses or strip off garments. The bonus to that was that they were 

all naked by the time they reached the bedroom.

Jesse  paused  on  the  threshold,  watching  Drake  take  in  the 

surroundings as Jay kissed him. Drake strolled over to the bed, 

and Jesse’s eyelids drifted down as Jay stole his breath with an-

other kiss.

He heard the creak of the bedsprings and muffled thump of 

pillows  being  fluffed.  “Show  me.”  Drake’s  voice  was  a  hoarse 

whisper. “How it is between the two of you.”

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Together he and Jay moved across to the bed, climbing onto 

the mussed sheets on either side of Drake. They faced each other, 

knees pressed tight to Drake’s muscular thighs. Embracing, they 

leaned into one another, kissing, caressing, loving.

“Beautiful,”  Drake  murmured  in  encouragement.  Jesse 

peeked at Drake from the corner of his eye, seeing the enthralled 

look on his lean, square-cut face, the molten heat of passion in his 

gray eyes. Drake’s rough hands came up to tentatively touch. Jes-

se shifted into the touch, loving the heat of it on his thigh. Perfect. 

This was perfect. Jay’s hot mouth devoured his own; the familiar 

gentle touches of his twin inflamed his desire as much as the new-

ness of Drake’s touch did.

Unable to wait longer, he reached down to clasp Jay’s throb-

bing erection in his palm. He shuddered as Jay moved at the same 

time to return the touch. Drake’s rumbled “Yes,” mingled with his 

and Jay’s. Trembling with building pleasure, he felt Drake’s hand 

explore his body, roaming to all the places it could reach. A tiny 

whimper escaped, and he bit down on his lip to stifle the sounds 

of pleasure.

Jay’s free hand curled about his nape and pulled him closer, 

sealing his mouth with his own. Jesse moaned freely into the kiss. 

He barely heard Drake’s curse over the rush of blood in his ears 

as the tension began at the base of his spine and spread through-

out his lower body. His balls drew up tight, and it was his turn to 

swallow Jay’s cries. They both surrendered to the welling orgasm 

at the same moment. Hot spurts of cum slicked his hand as he 

firmly jerked Jay’s cock, milking it of every last drop.

At last they stilled, breathing heavily, resting against one 

another. Jesse opened his eyes to see Drake run a single finger 

through  the  sticky  liquid,  the  mingled  essence  of  his  and  Jay’s 

orgasms. Jay’s gasp told him his brother watched as well. Drake 

brought  his  finger  to  his  mouth  and  flicked  it  with  his  tongue, 

moaning  a  little  at  the  taste.  His  big  body  shuddered  beneath 

them.

Swiftly, Jay and Jesse dropped to their sides, cuddling up close 

and leaning in to kiss Drake softly. “Was that what you wanted 

to see?” Jesse asked. He knew Drake had enjoyed the show. He 

could tell by the man’s heaving chest, his glassy eyes, and the 

rock-hard erection that leaked steadily against his belly.

“That and more.”

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Jesse met Jay’s gaze, and the two began a purposeful journey 

of exploration. Their mouths met at Drake’s mouth for a heated 

kiss,  and  then  each  explored  at  will,  roaming  down  the  clean-

shaven cheeks to the sensitive hollows behind his ears and down 

his neck. Jesse wanted to know Drake as thoroughly as he knew 

Jay.  He  wanted  to  know  where  and  how  to  touch  to  bring  the 

older man to pleasure.

Jay made his own explorations, traveling a similar path, but 

Jesse knew his brother’s kisses were different. Would Drake ap-

preciate  the  differences  between  them  in  and  out  of  bed?  He 

threaded his fingers through the dark hair on Drake’s chest and 

tugged gently as he kissed along his collarbone to the hollow of 

Drake’s throat. He resisted the urge to linger there, to suck and 

mark the man as theirs. Instead he moved on down to a nipple 

and laved it with his tongue before gently nibbling it with his 

teeth.

Drake’s groans and sighs of pleasure spurred him on. Jay’s 

chuckle as Drake jerked and swore made his heart sing. Jay was 

prone  to  nipping  sharply  with  his  fine  white  teeth,  and  Drake 

must have liked it because his hands came up to cradle Jay’s head 

to his chest and his hoarse demand for more sent shivers down 

Jesse’s spine. Some day he’d sit back and just watch, but for now, 

he couldn’t get enough of touching.

He kissed his way wetly down taut muscles, dipping his 

tongue into hollows and licking and sucking at whatever flesh of-

fered itself to him. When he arrived at his destination, he reached 

for Jay, tugging his twin down.

Together  they  licked  and  lapped  at  the  sensitive  flesh  of 

Drake’s balls, soft tender caresses followed by firm rough strokes 

of their tongues. As one they moved up his cock, licking and 

sucking until their mouths met at the tip, where they took turns 

rubbing the throbbing head with their tongues and poking at the 

leaking slit, sucking the salty precum from it. He was so absorbed 

in his task, Drake’s hand fisting in Jesse’s hair startled a cry from 

him.

Drake’s cock glided into Jesse’s open mouth and he sucked 

firmly, rolling his tongue around the head. A few short thrusts, 

and the thick vein pulsed against his tongue as Drake began to 

come. Jesse pulled away, ignoring Drake’s urgent tug at his hair, 

and Jay moved in to take over, sucking and licking Drake.

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Jay  pulled  back  and  they  were  both  there  again,  tongues 

swiping over the pulsing head, hands stroking the throbbing 

length, kissing each other and Drake’s cock as he finally relaxed 

back onto the bed.

***

Drake slowly drifted back to awareness. Opening his eyes, he 

looked up into Jesse’s shining blue eyes.

“I love—”

Fearing the rest of the words that Jesse might speak, Drake 

hurriedly pressed a finger to his swollen red mouth, still damp 

from sucking his cock. “Don’t say anything. This is new; let’s give 

it time and see how it turns out, hmm?” He knew already how 

it would turn out for him. In time he would fall in love with the 

vulnerable Jesse. How he’d come to feel about Jay, he wasn’t sure, 

but he sensed that the same potential was there. And they loved 

each other.

Drake had vague memories of Jay leaving the bed earlier and 

wondered if Jay regretted what they had done. “Jay?” he asked 

quizzically, lifting a brow.

Jesse chuckled. “I love...” He caught himself, then rushed on. 

“That.”

Bewildered, Drake asked cautiously, “What?”

“The eyebrow thing.” Jesse’s attempt to emulate the raising 

of one brow was comical. “It’s so Spock. Intellectual and all, you 

know, sexy.”

“Spock? As in emotionless and logical?” Was that how he ap-

peared? Damn. He hiked himself further up the bed, stuffing the 

pillows behind his back. “Where’s Jay?”

“Showering. He has to go to work in a bit. And I didn’t mean 

emotionless. I meant sexy, and strong, and okay, maybe a bit alien. 

And intelligent.” Drake pulled Jesse down and kissed him gently.

“I got it, baby. You’re cute when you babble. Can’t you do the 

brow thing?”

Jesse shook his head. “No. I really would like to. Practiced 

and tried for years, but I can’t. I can do this, though.” He held one 

hand in front of them and spread his fingers in the traditional Vul-

can salute. “Live long and prosper,” he intoned solemnly.

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“I like this one,” Jay interrupted. He held out his hand to his 

brother  with  the  first  two  fingers  extended  and  the  rest  curled 

under. “Attend me.”

Chuckling, Drake grabbed the extended hand and pulled Jay 

close for a kiss as well. Jay responded eagerly, and a bit of ten-

sion eased inside Drake. He hadn’t been sure how Jay would react 

when the passion faded. A sudden warm wetness on his abdomen 

startled Drake. He looked down to see that Jay had brought back 

a damp cloth and was swiping the residue of their passion off his 

belly.

“Did you resolve the crises of the world while I was gone or 

just talk Star Trek?” Jay seemed okay, but Drake could already 

tell that Jay hid more of his emotions and thoughts than Jesse did. 

Jesse was an open book, Jay a deep well. Was he really okay with 

sharing Jesse with Drake? Only time would tell.

“He can do the eyebrow thing!” Jesse laughed, crawling over 

Drake to make room on the bed for Jay, who immediately climbed 

into  the  spot  vacated  by  his  brother  and  looked  expectantly  at 

Drake.

“Well?” he demanded.

Feeling foolish, Drake arched his brow. “I cannot believe how 

much  amusement  you  two  are  getting  out  of  this.  Seriously,  I 

barely made the Star Trek generation through reruns. How did 

you two come to be such fanatics?”

“Our mother was a big fan. We grew up on reruns and con-

ventions. Stood in line for all the movies.”

“Ah. I see. You want me for my resemblance to a certain green-

blooded Vulcan. Well, I can assure you that I am not guided by 

logic all the time.”

Instantly they covered his face in tiny damp kisses and two 

hands, one firm and capable, one gentle and soft, braced against 

his  chest.  Jesse  stopped  and  leaned  back.  “We  decided,  honey. 

We’re going to take things slow and see where they lead.”

Drake watched bemused as they stared into one another’s 

eyes, seemingly continuing the conversation in their heads. Fi-

nally, Jay broke the contact and turned back to Drake. “So, you 

no longer believe I’m forcing Jesse to do something he finds dis-

tasteful?” His tone was challenging, his expression mocking. Jesse 

made a brief, aborted gesture as though to intervene, but Drake 

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and Jay simultaneously waved him to silence and he subsided, 

muttering something about them ganging up on him.

Drake chose his words carefully. Jay gave every appearance 

of being stalwart and independent, but he could be hurt easily. 

That  much  had  been  seen  earlier.  “I’m  not  sure,”  he  noted  Jay 

stiffen, “how your relationship came to be. I hope that one day 

you can tell me about that, if we’re together long enough. But I can 

see that it is consensual and loving.”

“You don’t think it’s perverted and evil?” Jay challenged.

Sighing, Drake crossed his arms over his chest, and then real-

izing how defensive it looked, he uncrossed them. Fuck. “I don’t 

think anything as beautiful as what you two just showed me can 

be evil or perverted. It’s not common, I grant you that. It’s not the 

easy route to choose in life. But it’s not my place to judge.”

Jay looked unconvinced. He glanced uneasily from Jesse to 

Drake and back again before standing and muttering, “I have to 

go to work. My supervisor called.”

Light dawned. Jay feared leaving him here alone with Jesse. 

He thought Drake would try to influence Jesse into leaving him or 

something. Funny, he hadn’t thought Jay would be the insecure 

twin.

Drake followed Jay from the bed. “I’d better go too. I have to 

work in the morning myself.”

Jay’s relief saddened him, but at the same time it felt good to 

reassure him. He pulled on his jeans, found by the doorway, and 

then wandered down the hall looking for the rest of his clothes. 

Jesse and Jay’s voices mingled quietly behind him in the bedroom.

He’d never been part of a threesome before. The pitfalls be-

came all too clear. Between possessiveness, jealousy, and inse-

curity, the potential for disaster was obvious. Maybe he should 

rethink getting involved in such a tricky situation.

He found his shirt by the sofa and tugged it over his head, 

remembering the picture Jay had made sitting there with his arms 

wrapped around his knees, tears of pain, tears Drake had caused, 

trickling down his smooth cheek.

Fuck it. Too late. He was already involved, and there was no 

going back.

The twins stepped into the hall behind him as he tugged on 

one shoe and knelt to tie the lace.

“You can stay,” Jesse offered hopefully.

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Drake smiled at him and turned to Jay. “Not tonight, babe. 

This is new, and we all need to come to terms with it. We don’t 

know each other all that well, and your brother deserves the peace 

of mind of knowing he’s left you home safe, not with some strang-

er he’s barely met.” Of course, he and Jay both knew that wasn’t 

the real reason he needed to leave, but it would do.

A  flicker  of  emotion,  possibly  gratitude,  crossed  Jay’s  face. 

“I’m off Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Can we see you this week-

end?”

Accepting the olive branch was easy. “Sure. I’m off this week-

end  too.”  Clearly  Jay  still  needed  alone  time  with  Jesse.  “Let’s 

meet tomorrow evening and make some plans. We can talk about 

how we’re going to do this.” And he knew just where they could 

go. Visions of a handsome waiter touching Jay danced through 

his  head,  and  his  eyes  narrowed  in  response.  He  knew  exactly 

where they should go tomorrow.

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Chapter Nine

After having slept all day on Friday, Jay awakened when Jesse 

arrived home. Making love and snuggling with Jesse revitalized 

him, and the two of them set off for Cabana Sue’s anticipating 

seeing Drake again for the first time since Wednesday’s big reveal.

Though they hadn’t seen Drake, both Jay and Jesse received 

phone  calls  from  him.  Jay  wasn’t  sure  what  Drake  had  said  to 

Jesse. Hopefully it had been the same casual, friendly type of con-

versation he’d had with Drake on Thursday morning. He couldn’t 

ask  Jesse  either.  Jesse  would  be  hurt  by  the  insecurity  that  Jay 

experienced every time he thought of Drake. The idea of seeing 

Drake again tonight filled him with anticipation and a touch of 

fear. Mostly, it flooded his imagination with graphic images of 

things  he  wanted  to  do  with  Jesse  to  Drake,  things  he  wanted 

to do to Jesse for Drake. The idea of having sex with Jesse while 

Drake watched aroused him unbearably.

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Cabana Sue’s on Friday night was a hopping place with a 

mariachi band and a crowd of eager twentysomethings anxious 

to down a few dollar margaritas from shot glasses and head on 

down to the next novelty spot. It was loud, colorful, and damned 

if Emilio wasn’t working tonight too. He scanned the crowd look-

ing for the tall lanky Drake, who should stand out in the crowd 

by virtue of sheer magnetism. He spotted Drake at a horseshoe-

shaped booth at the back of the restaurant. It was the perfect size 

for three of them, but it was in Emilio’s section.

Sighing and straightening his shoulders, Jay placed a hand 

on Jesse’s shoulder and leaned forward to whisper into his ear so 

as to be heard over the crowd. “Back wall, center.” Leaning back, 

he watched excitement color Jesse’s face. His broad smile showed 

gleaming white teeth, and his eyes seemed to sparkle a bit bright-

er. Damn. How fucking lucky was he to be loved by such a man? 

His gaze traveled back to Drake. Couldn’t be seen mooning over 

Jesse in this place. They were too well-known here.

Drake had seen them too. His gaze intently followed their 

progress across the crowded floor, and the heat there said he’d 

more than missed them. He didn’t watch just Jesse; his molten 

glance moved from Jay to Jesse and back again. Perhaps Drake 

had spent the last few days fantasizing about the three of them 

as well.

The  anxious  knot  of  tension,  his  constant  companion  since 

Jesse first whispered Drake’s name, lessened just the tiniest bit. 

Maybe, just maybe, things would work out okay after all. If Drake 

could love Jesse and accept Jay, then maybe the three of them had 

a chance at something good.

He arrived at the table on Jesse’s heels and stood uncertainly. 

Drake sat squarely in the center of the horseshoe and Jesse slid in 

on the right, sidling right up against Drake. Jesse tilted his head 

up and pouting, demanded a kiss, chastising Drake for his tardi-

ness in offering the sign of affection.

Torn, Jay lingered at the edge of the table. Where did he be-

long in this setup? Should he slide in alongside Jesse and hope 

that Drake got the hint and slid along, providing them with more 

room? Should he give in gracefully and allow Drake to separate 

him and Jesse? The anxious knot tightened again. Jesse turned to 

look at him curiously, patting the seat beside himself. Drake ig-

nored conventional politeness and leaned across the narrow table. 

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Before Jay could protest, Drake grabbed his hand in a tight grip 

and forcibly compelled him onto the seat to his left.

Opening  his  mouth  to  give  Drake  a  piece  of  his  mind  was 

pointless because he found himself thoroughly kissed. The angry 

words he wanted to say fled, and he could only produce a muffled 

whimper. Drake was damn good at this. His warm, firm lips slid 

possessively along Jay’s mouth; his tongue slipped inside and laid 

claim to the moist heat.

When Drake finally freed him, it was all Jay could do to gulp 

in air and try to control his bodily reactions.

“Tequila. Bring the bottle, three shot glasses.” Drake’s hard, 

commanding voice caused Jay to shiver. Sexy as it might be, he 

was damn glad that tone wasn’t directed at him.

“Sir.” Emilio, who had come over to the table some time dur-

ing that kiss, addressed Drake.

The tension he’d been conscious of earlier faded away. Drake 

had just let Emilio know, in no uncertain terms, that Jay was off-

limits. For the first time, Jay felt that Drake’s interest might genu-

inely extend to him. Maybe Jesse wasn’t the only one that Drake 

cared about. Maybe he could learn to love Jay as well?

The fear of being on the fringe of the relationship they were 

embarking on began to fade. Oh, he’d known that Drake enjoyed 

seeing him and Jesse together Wednesday. He was damned sure 

that Drake enjoyed their mouths on him, but now...he felt the tini-

est hope that Drake just might like him, Jay, not just him, Jesse’s 

reflection.

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Setting the Trap

Preview: Chapter One

Drake Fallon had spent a lot of time in the last three months 

sitting  in  the  emergency  room  waiting  for  Jay  Cahill.  Usually 

though, he sat in the lobby anticipating a pleasant evening. This 

time he was perched on an uncomfortable gurney, freezing his ass 

off waiting for a surgeon to stitch the knife wound in his upper 

arm.

He was angry, disappointed, and he hurt. He wanted to be 

held and taken care of. He wanted Jesse.

The curtain rings rattled and he looked up. Jay entered the 

little cubicle, his ash blond hair secured in a neat pony tail at the 

nape of his neck, his sky blue scrubs impeccably neat. Damn. It 

looked like he wasn’t going to get the coddling he wanted this 

evening after being attacked by a crackhead.

“The doctor will be with you shortly.” Jay was reading over 

the chart, then his head jerked up sharply. “Drake? What the hell 

happened? It says here knife wound?”

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Sighing, Drake nodded shortly. He didn’t feel like being po-

lite. His scowl was instant. The paper crinkled under his butt as he 

shifted on the uncomfortable surface. “We were doing a door to 

door thing, canvassing for witnesses to an accident. Some crack-

head got the wrong idea and came at me with a knife. I didn’t 

move fast enough.”

He  stared  resentfully  as  Jay  put  down  the  chart  and  ap-

proached him. He shouldn’t be so angry, so bitter, but it was clear 

from the pristine state of his scrubs that Jay had just started his 

shift, and since Jay was working there was no way he’d get to see 

Jesse tonight.

He’d thought he understood the intricate web of emotions 

he’d be maneuvering through when he began this relationship 

with the brothers three months earlier. He hadn’t expected that 

those three months would pass with only a handful of dates, 

mostly because their schedules didn’t align well.

Jay’s shifts rotated between a month of nights and a month of 

days, twelve hour shifts, and an incredible amount of overtime. 

Jesse’s school schedule was more manageable, but neither brother 

would see him without the other. Last week, when Jay was off, 

Jesse had been out of town chaperoning his student government 

group at a leadership seminar, so once again he’d been alone. And 

now, damn it, when he needed someone to look after him and 

soothe him, he’d be alone again.

“Does  Jesse  know  about  this?”  Jay  demanded.  He  poked 

and prodded at the slash, and Drake growled. “He’s going to be 

pissed. Shit, Drake, you could have been killed!”

“No, I couldn’t have. Have you ever dealt with these crack-

heads? Anyone who can rub two brain cells together can outwit 

them. I wouldn’t have been hurt at all, except I wasn’t expecting 

the guy. And no, I didn’t call Jesse. I don’t guess he’s going to 

know either.” Because by the fucking time they all had time off at 

the same time, he’d be healed.

“Why shouldn’t he know?” Jay produced a cell phone from 

somewhere and leaned on the gurney. “He’ll come get you. You 

aren’t going to be able to drive home after the stitches, and you’ll 

need looking after. Jesse is great at nurturing people.”

“I can drive myself home. It’s not a big deal. Just a scratch.”

“It’s  more  than  a  scratch,  you  big  lug.  It’s  pretty  deep  and 

it’s going to need a lot of stitches. But mostly you need someone 

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to drive you because of the codeine in the pain killers they gave 

you.”

The pain killers were finally taking effect. His arm felt pleas-

antly numb, and a warm haze of codeine fogged his brain. He 

wasn’t thinking clearly, obviously. Oh wow. “So, you’re off work? 

I thought you were just starting your shift?”

“I am. Seven to seven. But Jesse’s home. He has to study for 

an exam and he has papers to grade, but he’ll still come get you.”

“I can’t see Jesse without you.”

“Who says?”

He grimaced. “You did. Well, not in so many words, but I 

knew you didn’t want me around Jesse when you weren’t there.”

Jay’s hand clenched on his arm, and there wasn’t enough co-

deine on the planet to keep that from hurting. “Uh...” He flinched. 

Jay’s eyes widened and his face paled a little.

“Sorry!” Jay drew his hand away swiftly. “For both. I didn’t 

trust you then.”

“And now you do?” He shook his head slightly to clear the 

fog.

“Just a second, Drake. He’s picking up. Jesse? Honey, it’s Jay. 

I’m fine. It’s Drake. He’s here at the ER getting some stitches. We 

need you to come pick him up and take him home.”

The doctor, a tall angular man in his early thirties, entered the 

cubicle at that moment, and frowned sternly at Jay on the phone. 

“Well, Mr. Fallon. Feeling numb, now are we?”

Drake rolled his eyes and kicked his feet impatiently aginst 

the metal frame of the gurney. “My arm is. I don’t know about 

you. I’m hoping you aren’t too numb to sew me up.” The doctor 

wasn’t amused. Jay was though. He could tell by the twitching of 

his lips.

“Nurse, if you’re done with the phone, I could use some help 

here.”

Drake stiffened at the asshole’s impatient tone. He might re-

sent the fuck out of Jay right now for standing between him and 

Jesse, but damned if the doc had any right to talk to his lover like 

that!

“Bite me, Clive.” Jay threw at the doctor. “I’m talking to his 

boyfriend about coming to pick him up. Stupid cop thought he 

could drive himself home after getting sewn up.”

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Indistinguishable squawking came through the receiver, but 

it didn’t sound like Jesse approved of that at all.

“You’re lucky we have such a hard time finding competent 

staff,” The doctor taunted. He took over poking and prodding at 

Drake’s arm. Clattering instruments on a metal tray tried to dis-

tract Drake, but he pinned his gaze on Jay. He wasn’t sure, but it 

sounded like he might be going to get his pampering after all.

“Half an hour, Jesse. I’ll walk him out to you.” Jay tucked the 

phone away and gave his whole attention to the smirking physi-

cian. “Don’t give me that bullshit about the top of the top. Your 4.0 

doesn’t mean anything more than mine, except about sixty thou-

sand dollars more debt. Your bedside manner sucks and you’re 

hurting him!”

The codeine’s melty warm fog made Jay sound loving. Drake 

closed his eyes and pretended it was true. He could do that under 

the influence of drugs. Sober, he had to stay safe, to protect him-

self. Three months of hot sex and random dates had shown him 

that. These two loved each other, and he was a novelty whose 

charm could wear off any time. A little emotional distance kept 

things right for all of them.

And when he was past the weakness of seeing his empty life 

flash before his eyes, he’d remember that. For now, he wanted his 

boyfriends with him. “Hey, can you come too?”

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Biography

I’m an avid reader and former teacher of grammar and com-

position who believes that falling in love is the grandest adven-

ture anyone can have.  In a nutshell, that’s every story I have to 

tell.  

Relocating from the crazy pace of life in Southern California’s 

Orange County to the beautiful and leisurely atmosphere of the 

Illinois countryside has given me the time to indulge the desire to 

write that I set aside when I started teaching fourteen years ago. 

Readers can find out more about me and my writing by visiting 

me at my blog, Lee’s Musings or finding me on Facebook.  Feel 

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