I decided to do The Rules because I wanted a proper relationship. My relationships always fail because I'm too soft, and people take advantage of me. Even my best friends sometimes take advantage of me.

Before I started doing The Rules I was seeing Michael four or five times a week and talking on the phone several times a day.

So it was difficult following The Rules because I couldn't phone him, and when he phoned me, I had to finish the conversation first. I love chatting on the phone but I had to tell him I was busy even when I wasn't.

At first, The Rules worked. He became more interested and he even took me to meet his mum.

But then he said I was acting strangely. He said I'd changed - at first I was warm and friendly, but I was getting colder and harder. I knew it wasn't the real me, but I couldn't tell him about The Rules - that's one of the rules!

The rules are supposed to make you mysterious and fascinating, but he just thought I was behaving like a cow.

Then I began to fall in love with him and I wanted to see him more, but I couldn't. I didn't like playing games with him any more. It didn't feel right.

And then something awful happened. He saw the book ... He was so angry!

He told me to go and play games with somebody else and left.

Anyway, I threw away my copy of The Rules and now I'm reading a book called The Joy Of Being Single. I've decided that I don't have to find a man and get married to be happy. I'm much happier now.

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