The rumors about me are true. Every last inch of them.
Intimidation, robbery, murder...Fve done it all, and I'm damn
good
at what I do.
Nobody will come between me and the revenge I worked so hard to
get. Not the bastards who are out to kill me first. Not any of the
women who wanna tie me down. Nobody. Until I set eyes on her.
Callie's trying to start over when she winds up working for me.
She wants a new life and the last thing she needs is me in it. Bu t
I've never let that stop me before. One taste and I'm addicted.
My enemies want to use her to hurt me. F**k that. Anyone who
wants to come between us better bring a body bag. She's mine.
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1. Damian
2. Callie
3. Damian
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5. Damian
6. Callie
7. Damian
8. Callie
9. Damian
10. Callie
11. Damian
12. Callie
13. Damian
14. Callie

15. Damian
16. Callie
17. Damian
18. Callie
19. Damian
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I'm wrong for her in all the right ways.

Everyone in the city knows who I am: Vincent Citrione, top capo of the
most powerful crime family in the city. If you've got two brain cells to
rub together, you're scared sh*tless of me.
As for women, I given them the hardest, dirtiest f*ck of their lives
before showing them the door. They know better than to expect more.
Commitments? F*ck 'em.
At least, that was my motto until I caught her snooping in the wrong
place at the wrong time. Aubriella. I wanted her to be like all the rest of
the girls. I wanted to forget her.
But I can't forget her lush curves... or the soft moans spilling from her
lips.
She thinks she can say no to me and get away with it. She thinks she
can walk away after what she's seen. But one taste and I know she's
going to be mine. I don' t care what it takes.
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Prologue - Damian and Callie
She's the first thing I see when we pull up to the gas station. I've
been out of jail for a few months now, but fuck, I've never seen a
woman like her. Not before jail or after. She's leaning against a
Mercedes and she's exactly my type: not the kind of woman who
blows over in a strong breeze. She's curvy in the right places and
has a sweet, full mouth that would look perfect wrapped around
my cock. If it was another day, another time, I'd go make her
mine. Not today though. Not now.
Benny gets out of the car first and I see the piece tucked into the
back of his slacks. I get out after him, holstering a .44 below my left
arm.
"You know the guy, right?" I ask.
Benny looks nervous, but he nods. "Balding, 40's, name is—" I
hold up a finger to him in warning, cutting his words off like a
knife. "No details. Not in public."
He swallows hard, but finally nods his head. I clap him on the
back of the neck. "Good. Follow my lead."
I lean against my Mercedes while I wait for the tank to fill. My phone
buzzes, and a quick glance confirms what I already knew. Another call
from Greg. He has called fifteen times in thirty minutes, which is
probably more than he has called me in the last six months. I distantly
consider pouring a little gas on the phone—just a little—and lighting it
on fire. Maybe I could answer the call before I do and let him listen to
the flames. Okay, maybe not. That would be a little crazy, but I feel a
little crazy right now.
Two men in suits are walking toward the gas station and something in
the way they move catches my eye. One of them is shorter and stout,
and the other is drop-dead gorgeous. He flicks the slack out of his
sleeves with a quick pop of his arms and adjusts the cuff on the sleeve
beneath his jacket. His face is all sharp, sculpted lines with heavy, dark
eyebrows and full lips made for kissing. Except you would have to be
crazy to kiss a guy like that. He has trouble written all over him, from
the tattoos snaking up his neck and his wrists, to the black purpose in
his

eyes that says nothing stops him from getting what he wants. He's bad
news, so dangerous that I shouldn't even be letting myself fantasize
about him.
Benny follows me into the store. I tap him on the shoulder and
point to the back coolers where the beer is. I give him the signal to
wait for my lead, and he nods, moving casually through the store
as if he's browsing for something. I do the same, all the while
conscious of the .44 at my side. It burns there, like a bloodthirsty
animal begging to be released.
Tonight is the night, though. I spent the last seven years in prison
planning this, to the very last detail. And it all starts tonight.
I move behind a rack of candy bars, glancing toward the back of
the store where a tacky bead-curtain blocks off a room lit by a
single dangling bulb. Four well-dressed men huddle around a
small card table inside. One of them is smoking a cigar and the
others are talking quietly.
I catch Benny's eye, nodding my head toward the men and
motioning for him to get ready.
I try to stop stealing glances through the store windows at the man in
the suit, my dark stranger. I finish pumping and decide to run into the
store for a Cosmic Brownie, not so that I can get a closer look at the guy
in the suit. Definitely not. Cosmic Brownies are a weakness of mine. I
had been trying to cut back on sweets, but brownies were made for days
like today. Days when it feels like it can't get any worse.
As soon as I open the door, his head turns toward me.
He's wearing a dark gray suit, but not like most men I know wear suits.
Normal guys wear suits to weddings and look uncomfortable, stiff, and
awkward. This man wears the suit like it's the most natural thing in the
world, like every line and seam of the clothes are made to accentuate
his body.
The heat of his glare melts the cold ball of anger I've been holding in
my chest since I caught Greg with that woman. I've never felt so
transfixed; like a rabbit staring into the eyes of a lion, I know I'm at his
mercy in that moment. He stands in front of the blinding white light of
cold drink display, his stunning black form cutting sharp lines against
the

brightness. One look and I know it's not just his clothes and eyes that
are dark.
He doesn't hesitate to look directly into my eyes for as long as he likes.
He bites his full bottom lip, sweeping his gaze down my body before
flicking his long eyelashes up to meet my eyes once more. With a
smirk, he looks away, walking out of sight behind a display case.
Instead of giving Benny the signal to move, I'm thinking about her,
thinking about the things I would do to her. Fuck. I've seen some
beautiful women—I live in New York for crying out loud—but this
girl is coming dangerously close to making me scrap months of
planning. I'm ready to tell Benny to fuck off so I can go get her
number and show her how a real man pleases a woman. She's
never been fucked like I would fuck her. I could curl her toes with
a whisper, weaken her knees with a touch, and shatter her world
with a kiss. She deserves me, and I'm going to make sure she gets
what she deserves.
But not today. It can't be today. I've waited too long for this and
sacrificed too much. It all starts tonight. And it has to be tonight.
All the pieces are in place. One wrong move now and it all comes
crashing down.
I swallow hard, wondering if this man is only getting to me so much
because of what I just went through, or he's really just that alluring.
With my legs feeling a little bit weak, I finally get moving. I grab my
Cosmic Brownie, take two steps toward the register and then turn,
giving the entire box a long, hard look. I glare at it. If those brownies
didn't want to be eaten, they should have worn something less revealing
than a transparent cellophane wrapper. Those brightly colored spheres
of gorgeous sugar on top of each brownie beckons me. My hand hovers
over a second one. I grab it, smiling a little to myself. The thought that
puts me over the top was knowing that Greg would've told me to 'be
careful with the sweets' or he would've said something obnoxious like,
'you know those go straight to your ass'.
Well, ass, this is Callie calling. Get ready for a delivery of two Cosmic
Brownies. A few seconds later I replay the thought in my head

and laugh at how gross it actually sounds. It feels good to laugh after
the last hour, but the sound is too loud in the quiet store, and a few
heads turn to look at me. I palm the brownies and hurry toward the
register, adding embarrassment to the list of today's tragedies.
In my hurry, I bump into a wall. A buff, gorgeous wall with tattoos.
I turn and instinctively grab the woman who bumps into me. My
hands are on her shoulders and she's close enough that I can smell
her perfume, close enough that I could kiss her.
"Excuse me," she says, standing motionless in my grasp.
I' m about to sabotage over a year of plans to do whatever it takes
to get between her legs when Benny catches my eye from the other
end of the store. He tilts his head toward the back room and I see a
fifth man with sunglasses setting a suitcase in front of the four
men.
Damn. If we don't make our move soon, it will be too late. I didn't
spend seven years planning to throw it all away for a woman, no
matter how fucking sexy she is.
The guy in the suit lets me go and walks toward his friend. I bend down
to pick up the brownies I dropped, feeling light-headed. I must have
forgotten to breathe while his hands were on me. It's an effort not to
gasp for air and embarrass myself even more. I'm not normally a mess
around guys, but I guess the last hour really rattled me. I pay for the
brownies and hurry out of the store. I look back over my shoulder once
when I reach my car, but can't see him anymore.
I get in my car and turn the radio on, trying to wrap my head around
what just happened. The strange part is I find myself thinking more
about my dark stranger than about my cheating fiance. I flip through
the radio stations until I find a sad song. I feel confused, angry,
betrayed, stupid, and more emotions I can't even identify. So I crank up
the volume on the sad song and try my best to just feel one emotion for
a little while. It's time for a mobile pity party.
Callie - Chapter 1
I check my mascara in the rearview before getting out of the car. It
looks about as bad as I'd expect after all the crying I did on the short

drive to Aubriella' s house. Some quick tissue work with a little bit of
spit clears up the worst of it. I grab my one suitcase from the backseat
of the Mercedes Greg bought me as an engagement present and slam
the door. I set the suitcase down and open the door one more time,
slamming it even harder. I dust my hands and smile.
Greg always scolded me when I closed the door too hard.
I look at Aubriella's house and raise my eyebrows. She has done well
for herself. It's nestled in a sprawling gated community in upstate New
York full of McMansions and full-blown mansions. Greg and I had just
finished a month long house hunting stint, so I notice all the selling
points: great lot with trees blocking the view of any roads or other
houses, recessed driveway tucked below the house, custom glass walls
that make for a breathtaking view and probably give the entire house
spectacular natural lighting. I don't know the market in this particular
area, but the house easily cost somewhere in the double digit millions.
You go girl.
I step beneath the huge square overhang. The front door is huge and
made of clear glass, giving me a clear view into the living room. I ring
the doorbell, fidgeting a little with my suitcase and taking a deep
breath. I haven' t seen her in years. Not since high school. We were
inseparable, but calling her up after years without more than a happy
birthday over facebook was terrifying. Asking her for a place to stay
while I try to put the pieces of my life back together? That was worse.
A little boy runs into view behind the glass, tearing through the house
and disappearing behind a wall. A few seconds later, I see Aubriella,
who is trailed by a little girl who can't be any older than two. Aubriella
hasn't changed a bit. In fact, she looks even better. Great, even. She still
has the dark hair I remember and those powerful eyes that hold you and
don't seem to let you go. She was always so strong, not like me. Greg
wouldn 't have dared cheat on a woman like her.
An unwelcome, vivid memory flashes in my mind:
His car driving by the restaurant. The blonde hair in the passenger
seat.
I squeeze my eyes shut, forcing myself to picture something else,
anything else, but all I see is his laughing face, his lying eyes.

The door opens. Aubriella smiles wide. Without thinking, I rush
forward and hug her. I swallow hard, trying not to break down, again.
Be strong. I pull back, kneeling to smile at the little girl. She holds a
small hand up and rushes toward me and I give her the high-five she
seems to be asking for. She claps her hands together once with a silly
little grin and then her face goes blank. She backs away and clutches
Aubriella's leg, looking at me with a frightened expression.
She knows you' re broken. Damaged. Used. I mentally scold myself.
Stop feeling so sorry for yourself. The two-year-old definitely doesn' t
know any of that. Every little kid gets taught to be careful around
strangers.
The little boy comes running back into view with a tiny dinosaur in his
hands. He looks a little older than the girl, but not by much. He sees me,
does a high-pitched roar, and then runs back off.
"Come in!" says Aubriella.
Her voice startles me, as if waking me from a trance. I force a smile and
follow her inside. Aubriella picks up a little red toy truck and hands it
to the little girl, who snatches it from her and hugs it protectively.
"Honey, can you go give this to daddy?"
The little girl rushes toward the stairs. My eyes follow the large,
winding staircase up and lock on a tall, darkly handsome man. He's
breathtaking. He wears a dress shirt and makes it look as casual as a
t-shirt and as elegant as a suit at the same time. Almost every exposed
inch of his skin is tattooed. He's having a hushed conversation on the
phone and I can barely catch any of it, but it sounds like he's
threatening someone. Still, when he sees the little girl, his face splits
into a gorgeous smile as he kneels to take the truck from her and scoop
her into his arms, interrupting his call to blow a raspberry on her
stomach.
I feel a jealous pang in my stomach. Greg's words float up from my
memory, unbidden and unwelcome. "When are we going to try for
kids? You 're not getting any younger, you know. "
A hot tear rolls down my cheek without warning and I quickly wipe it
away. Bastard.
Aubriella smiles up at him, so caught up in admiring her husband

that she doesn't notice my emotion. "That's Vince. My husband." She
says the words slowly, almost as if she's taking the time to savor how
they feel passing over her lips, like they're still newlyweds.
When we talked over the phone she said she got married six years ago.
Six years together and she still loves him that much? I feel an ache in
my gut that has nothing to do with Greg. It's a pain that tells me I'll
never find that. That kind of love is for people who are complete.
Vince comes downstairs and smiles politely at me, but seems to be
almost oblivious of anything else in the room but Aubriella. He gives
her a look so steamy that I feel like blushing. He wraps her in a tight
hug, lifting her and spinning her. He smiles into her eyes, kissing her.
"I can't wait," he says.
"Vince," says Aubriella, laughing. "You're being rude." He sets her
down and pulls her possessively to his side, finally giving me his
attention. "Sorry. Aubriella told me you were coming.
Callie, right?"
I nod.
His phone buzzes in his pocket and his features turn dark. I see a hint of
the danger in him and want to take a step back, but I stand still. He
smooths his features quickly and holds a hand up to me. "This will just
be a minute."
Vince turns his back and starts having a hushed conversation over the
phone while the babies chase each other in circles around the house.
Aubriella gives me a meaningful look. "I get the impression that you
had to leave in a hurry. Do you need anything?" she lowers her voice.
"Money? I can help you, whatever you need."
I shake my head. "I can't take your money. You're already doing so
much by letting me stay here."
Vince's voice surprises me. "Do you know anything about bartending?"
he asks.
I turn and see that he has finished his phone call. "Yeah, actually. I did
it in college for a few months."
"My little brother owns a restaurant called The Spot. Things are a little
icy between us, but I know he'd give you a job if you told him I sent
you," says Vince.

Aubriella gives him a warning glare. It's husband and wife nonverbal
communication, but I can pick up that he's treading on dangerous
ground right now.
"I-I could..." I stammer, wanting the job, but not wanting to do
anything to irritate Aubriella.
"Vince," says Aubriella through her teeth. "Callie is my friend." Now
it's his turn to give her a warning look. "And she's just going to be
bartending at the restaurant. Nothing else. I promise. I'll warn Damian
to leave her alone."
She glares harder at him, if that's possible. "Since when has Damian
listened to anyone?"
After a brief staring match, Vince turns to me with a reassuring smile.
"The pay is great." Who is Damian?
The last two hours were a whirlwind of activity as the Aubriella got her
kids ready for their vacation. I spent thirty minutes alone with her and a
pair of drinks in their basement bar while Vince watched the kids for
us. A few gallons of tears later and she knew the whole story. It felt
good to get it all out, but talking about what happened is like scratching
a mosquito bite; each time I give in and go back to it, I'm only making it
worse, breaking the skin even deeper. God, I'm such a mess right now.
I just want to put all this behind me and move on with my life. I want to
start over. Hell, I could even go for some rebound sex. After a lifetime
of the clinical procedures Greg called "making love", I could use
something real and passionate.
Where did that thought come from? Am I still thinking about the guy at
the gas station? Of course I am...besides being pissed at myself for not
seeing that Greg was an asshole sooner, I have hardly been able to think
about anything other than the man in the suit. Just remembering the
power of his eyes is enough to give me chills.
Maybe the next few weeks that I'll be watching Aubriella's house will
be the perfect opportunity to reorganize my life and start moving on. It
could be a chance to put Greg and all his stupid fucking coral colored
shorts and polos behind me.

Leaving Greg meant leaving my job and my financial security way
behind though. I'm good at what I do, really good. I've launched ad
campaigns that have saved struggling businesses and turned prosperous
businesses into thriving ones. The only problem is Greg and his father
are so connected that I'll probably need to leave the country if I want to
find a job after pissing them off. I had my own accounts, but I checked
on my phone and Greg somehow managed to get them frozen. He
probably thinks I'll come crawling back and begging for money. Screw
that. And screw him.

18
Damian
I splash cold water on my face and look in the mirror. Fuck. There's
blood on my suit, and this shit didn't come cheap. A bruise is forming
beneath my eye, so dark it's almost purple. I slam my fist on the sink so
hard that the plaster holding it to the wall crumbles, spraying the
ground with white dust. The lights in this place are like needles in my
still aching head.
Benny is slumped in the corner, tapping his sweaty head with the hilt of
his .44 over and over. "Fuck man," he says.
"Get it together. We're not stopping. I don't give a shit what they
say."
He looks up at me. He has a long face like a dog who has been kicked
one too many times. Come to think of it, he's got the personality of a
dog, too. He's not the smartest or the strongest guy I know, but you bet
your ass he is loyal to a fault. "That could have gone bad."
"But it didn't," I snap. "I got scratched a few times, but we got what we
came for, didn't we?"
"Scratches? He stabbed you! He fucking stabbed you! "
Yeah, there is that. The pain is getting worse. It's like someone has a
hot poker beneath my armpit and they are just jamming it in there,
twisting it around. I pull off my suit jacket and undershirt, tossing them
on the ground. They're ruined anyway. I look at the damage in the
mirror. I didn't have much to do in prison besides work out and plan.
My body shows it. There's no fat on me, just slabs upon slabs of muscle
that cast hard lines of shadow in the overhead lighting of the bathroom.
There's a thin red gash beneath my armpit and a long trail of blood
soaking me all the way down to my slacks.
I kneel and rip two strips free from my undershirt. I ball one up and
press it to the wound, holding it in place by pinning my arm against it
while I wrap the other strap around my broad chest and tie it off. It hurts
like a motherfucker, but I don't so much as flinch.
"Benny," I say. "You remember what we said when we decided to

do this?"
He lowers his head, tapping the barrel of his pistol against his scalp
repeatedly.
"I asked you a question."
"We said we'd go all the way or die trying."
"Exactly. Did we say we'd stop because one of us got stabbed? Did we
say we'd stop because we had to make more bodies than we wanted
along the way? No. We said we were going to bite and fucking claw our
way to the revenge we deserve. We said we were going to bury them
for what they did to us. I need to know if you're still in this. Because if
you're not, I don't care how long I've known you. I'll find someone else.
Do you understand me?"
Benny looks up. I can't tell if the look on his face is fear or
determination, but he nods. "I'm with you."
I don't bother putting my shirt back on before moving into the
restaurant. After all, I own the fucking place.
It' s early afternoon and the restaurant is mostly empty. The staff is
changing over shifts. Servers are flipping tablecloths and sweeping
beneath the tables. I glance to see if the bartenders are behind the
counter because I could use a...holy shit.
It' s her.
The girl from the gas station. I don't even bother to wonder what she's
doing here. All I know is she's mine now. I feel a predatory smile
spread over my lips. The stab wound can wait, I need to talk to her.
Now.

20
Callie
Five Minutes Earlier
It' s four in the afternoon, just three hours since I caught Greg with that
woman. Every time I close my eyes I see the discarded trail of clothes
leading from the living room to the kitchen I found when I came home
early. I didn't call ahead to let him know I was coming like I normally
would. I just drove, and I opened the front door as quietly as I could.
I can still see the thin, smooth legs, and the way her glossy red stilettos
dangled from well-manicured toes. I remember the way her legs shook
every time he pounded into her on our kitchen table. Slap. Slap. Slap.
I take a deep breath and push it all down. I'm standing outside a classic
looking brick restaurant. It's tucked between a dry cleaners and a
laundromat in the small town of Pike's Ward where Aubriella lives. A
huge wave of what the hell am I doing washes over me. Shouldn't I be
lying on Aubriella's couch, swimming in a sea of candy wrappers and
tissues right about now? Maybe. But screw that. What Greg did makes
me angry more than anything. I won' t be sad for him. I' m going to pick
up the pieces of my life and move on.
I don't know how long bartending will last. I'm used to handling
million-dollar marketing accounts for corporations, after all, but I
know I need to do something. Aubriella practically begged me to get
some sleep and start tomorrow, but that was the last thing I needed. I
want to get my mind off of him, to do something physical and just
forget.
Vince said the dress code wasn't strict, so I just wore one of the few
outfits I grabbed on my way out: a black top with a deep V-neck and a
pair of black yoga pants and black converse sneakers. Bartenders
always seem to wear black, but I wonder if I subconsciously picked the
outfit to suit my mood. Black and bitchy.
I stand outside the restaurant and gather myself before stepping in. It' s
called The Spot and it looks a little run-down from the outside. Am I

absolutely sure I want to do this? I can't put my finger on it, but
something deep in my chest tells me that my life is going to change
once I step through those doors. I shake the nerves out of my hands and
blow out a long breath. I don't really want to do anything right now,
except maybe find the Cosmic Brownie headquarters and gorge myself
to death in the warm brownie mix. But I need to do something. I can
feel how close I am to giving up. If I don't keep moving and find
something else to put my energy into, I could lose myself.
I pull the heavy wooden door open and it creaks like a dying animal.
The interior of the restaurant is surprisingly modern but elegant. The
floor is some sort of light, unpolished wood and the walls are dark with
patches of leather padding above the booths. Pictures of what look like
the Italian countryside and vineyards adorn the walls. It's exactly the
kind of restaurant the Olive Garden tries so hard to look like, but never
quite manages. I immediately like the place.
A man behind the bar with a receding hairline nods to me and moves to
lean his hairy forearms on the bar. He has a shrewd face, like he's
suspicious of me, but amused at the same time. "What'll it be,
beautiful?"
I clear my throat quietly. "I' m actually here for a job. Vince Citrione
said—"
The man's eyebrows climb his forehead and he straightens. "Of course,
of course. Come on. I'll grab Julia and she can start showing you the
ropes. My names George, but they all call me Tubbs."
It' s mid-afternoon and the restaurant is largely deserted except for an
elderly couple at the far end of the building and a lone man who is
reading a newspaper and sipping coffee. So when the bathroom door
bangs open and a shirtless man emerges, I notice. I notice real fast.
My eyes go straight to his torso. It's not the kind of body you get from
spending hours in an air-conditioned gym using fancy machines. It' s a
body made from hard work and conflict. Tattoos snake over his chest,
arms, and back, begging to be looked at closer, to be traced with a slow
fingertip. Or Tongue... One look at him and it's clear that every muscle
on his body has a purpose, and it serves that purpose with a brutal
efficiency. It takes me an embarrassingly long time to notice that

he has some kind of bandage tied to his side and it's covered in blood.
Then I see his face. It's him.
The man in the suit from the gas station. The predator. That's what I've
started thinking of him as, whether I realized it or not. It was in the way
his eyes claimed me, the way he owned the space around him. That's
exactly what he is. He's the predator, and I'm the prey. I saw it then and
I see it now. Watching him walk is mesmerizing. There's a perfect
confidence in him, as if he's at complete ease while simultaneously
coiled and full of power, ready to strike out at any moment.
His eyes find mine and he pauses mid-stride. The shadow of a smile
crosses his face, but it's gone so quickly I don't know if I imagined it.
He scans me from head to toe, taking extra time at my hips and tits,
then his attention is gone and he's striding toward the bar without a
backward glance.
The absence of his attention feels like being splashed with cold water. I
feel breathless, momentarily empty. When the feeling passes I tell
myself I' m being ridiculous. No matter how hot this guy is, he's
obviously bad news. It's not like I would actually get along with a guy
like him. It doesn't take two looks to know that he and I are from
different worlds. We're different people. Maybe right now the last thing
I want is to stay in my own world.
"Sir," says Tubbs. "You're hurt."
The man looks down at the bloody wound below his arm and shrugs
dismissively. "It's nothing. Just get me a warm towel to wipe this
shit off."
Tubbs starts to turn and then the shirtless man stops him with an
outstretched hand.
"No. Actually, I want her to get me the towel."
There's a hint of an accent in the man's voice that I find fascinatingly
attractive. It's not overpowering, not even present in every word he
says, but it's there. It's a faint swirl of vowels and consonants, an
exaggeration of certain sounds and an omission of others that makes his
voice interesting and intensely sexy.

I' m startled to be noticed again. Hell, I had almost forgotten I was in
the room, too. I swallow hard. I don't know what comes over me, but
I'm speaking before I even think. "I'm a bartender, not a servant."
Tubbs sucks in a sharp breath. I can see his mouth hanging open from
the corner of my eye.
The shirtless man moves toward me in no hurry, making every step feel
like a threat. His voice is low, barely above a whisper, but it cuts
through the room like a thunderclap. "I asked for a towel."
Now my temper flares. I've been through enough shit without this
asshole thinking he can order me around like a slave. Gorgeous or not,
I' m one cheating ex-fiance beyond taking crap from anyone right now.
"No. You told him that you wanted me to get you a towel. You didn't
ask me for a thing."
He bites his lip, eyes taking me in from head to toe. "What if I fire you
for mouthing off?"
My stomach clenches and I feel suddenly breathless. I look to Tubbs.
"He can't—can he?"
Tubbs gives me a sad look. "That's Damian Citrione you're talking to,
hun. He owns this place." Something in his voice tells me that owning
this restaurant is the least of the reasons I shouldn't have spoken to him
like that.
I swallow my pride and turn to Damian, trying to ignore the sight of his
ripped body only inches from mine. I don't know why I suddenly care
so much about keeping this job. Whether it's to avoid having to tell
Aubriella I got fired a few minutes after stepping in the door or because
I want the distraction that bad—or if I just want an excuse to see him
again. To see Damian again. "I'm sorry," I say, the words like acid in
my throat. I'm sorry that I might lose this job, but I'm not sorry I stood
up to your rude ass. "Next time you treat me like a slave, I'll obey
without question." I nearly wince. My words come out hard and dry,
and I know I' m about to get fired for them.
His face is stone, but there's a hint of laughter in his eyes. "You're sexy
as hell when you're pissed."
I bite down hard, fighting through a torrent of emotions: anger, arousal,
fear. "You can't talk to your employees like that. It's totally

inappropriate."
A smirk splits his face and the flash of his white, perfect teeth is too
much. He's drop-dead gorgeous and I hate him for it. "Inappropriate?
Yes. You could say the things I would do to you are inappropriate."
That slight accent is doing all the wrong things to me. I inhale through
my nose, holding back my anger as I move behind the bar, find a towel,
and run cold water over it. I don't even care if it's a clean rag. I stomp
back toward Damian and hold the rag out to him, planting my other
hand on my hip as I wait for him to take it. I'm one wrong word away
from walking out of this place and doing my best to apologize to
Aubriella and Vince. Then again, I know if I walk away right now I'll
never stop thinking about this guy. Asshole or not, his eyes promise
endless hours of steaming passion like I've never felt before..
He takes my hand and presses it to his side. His palm is warm against
mine, sending liquid heat coursing through my veins. I know that his
hard body is only separated from my hand by the thin, wet cloth and it's
making my muscles feel as soft as butter. A brief mental image of him
ordering me to bend over one of the barstools while he prowls behind
me and rips down my pants flashes in my head. I've never met a man
with so much confidence, so much command. Not even Vince, who
despite the clear danger in his expression has softened some from his
time with Aubriella. Damian is still wild and untamed, unpredictable
and dangerous as a rattlesnake.
My cheeks burn with mingled fear and embarrassment. Asshole. My
hand moves of its own will, gently scrubbing the blood from his side,
cleaning him. I can clean the blood, but I can't wash away the source of
it all. Just like I can't change him.
Dammit. I' ve just met the guy and he turns out to be a total asshole,
even if he is ridiculously attractive. Now I am lamenting how I can't
change him? Why should I want to change anyone? Isn't that what was
always wrong with Greg? He put more energy into trying to make me
the woman he wanted me to be than he did into getting to know the
woman I am. Eight years and he never really knew me. He just knew
that I wasn't the woman he wanted.
So he went out and took her.

"I think you got that spot pretty clean."
I start, realizing my hand has been rubbing a circle over the same
smooth cluster of muscles beneath his ribs.
The elderly couple hasn't even glanced up during the entire exchange,
but the man reading his newspaper is openly staring as Damian tries to
make me jump through hoops.
"Anything else, boss?" I ask. I mean it to come out rude and prickly, but
calling him boss makes my skin tingle. There's a seductive edge in my
voice that was completely unintentional and I wish I could take it back.
Hell, I wish he would just put a shirt on so I can stop trying to operate
with soup for brains.
"For now," he says.

26
Damian
Benny is pacing around the dimly lit office in the back of The Spot,
running his hands through his hair like a fucking maniac, and all I can
think of is her. I had to ask Tubbs after she left that night for her name.
Callie Beccaccio. And holy fucking hell was she drop-dead
unbelievable. Curves in the right places and Jesus Christ, those big doe
eyes of hers and the way her smile is a little crooked? Yeah. She may
not know it yet, but she's going to end up in my bed. She'll end up bent
over the hood of my car for all I care.
"You listening?" asks Benny.
"I already know the plan, Benny. I' m just humoring your dumb ass. So
if you need to keep reciting it you go right ahead."
He ruffles his hair again and keeps pacing. "You're sure they won't pin
this back on us?"
"You keep making me repeat the plan and I' m going to start wondering
if you're wearing a fucking wire."
Benny stops dead, his long face snapping toward me. I see the fear in
his eyes. I feel a little shitty for putting him through it, but there's no
room for mercy in my line of work. I learned that the hard way. The
real fucking hard way. I paid seven years for it, and if I have to be an
asshole to stay on the streets, so be it..
"It's okay, Damian. I got the plan, you don't need to—"
"I'm just fucking with you, Benny. Relax. I'll make it real simple for
you, okay? We're not getting my brother's family involved in this. He
has a family and a fucking wife to worry about. I' m not bringing any of
this shit on him. So we're doing this on our own. We look after
ourselves, and we make our own way. In blood."
Benny nods, sitting down and pulling at the patch of hair on his chin. "I
just hope it's not our own blood."
I cross the room in a few quick strides and kneel in front of him, taking
his face in both my hands. "It won't be, because no one is as fucking
vicious as we are. No one wants it as bad. The Sanatores ran

their mouths and got us locked up, and if they had their way, we never
would have got out. They need to pay. Okay? You and I, Benny. We 're
going to be the guys. Once the Sanatores and Anastasios are done
tearing each other apart, we're going to step in and grab the power. You
want protection around here? You come through us. You want
someone hit? You come through us. You want to place a bet? Us." I let
him go and stand, moving to look out the back window at the clean
small town and the clueless people outside. "As long as the Sanatores
think the Anastasios were behind that shit we pulled at the gas station,
we're golden. We just need to sit back and watch the fireworks.
SPECIAL_IMAGE-images/svgimg0001 .svg-REPLACE_ME
Ever since Callie walked into my restaurant last week and got the job,
I've been finding more and more excuses to be at The Spot. Tonight
she's wearing a black skirt that is just short enough to make me think I
might catch a glimpse of her ass when she kneels beneath the bar and
just long enough to keep me from getting the payoff I want. If I'm going
to see that ass of hers, it's not going to be by accident, which is fine by
me.
I lean out from the kitchen and find her pouring two drinks for a guy
and his girl. The girl has had so much plastic surgery that she looks like
Mrs. Fucking Potato and the guy must get botox or some shit because
he looks permanently surprised. Callie notices me and nearly stumbles
over the rubber mat on the ground. She catches herself in time and
barely avoids spilling the two drinks before blowing a strand of hair
from her face and setting them down in front of the guests.
I' m about to find an excuse to get her to come back to my office when
a guy in a leather jacket approaches the bar. The place is packed, and I
shouldn't notice him in particular, but I do. I've been around assholes
and violence too long not to spot it from a mile away. He's looking for
trouble.
If you fuck with Callie, you found trouble. Asshole.
I' m a little surprised at how protective I feel toward her already. Don't I
just want to take her out back and lay her over the hood of my car for a
good fuck and then be done with it? Maybe.
The guy in the leather jacket flicks his sunglasses down over his

eyes and leans back on the stool like he owns the place. With a smug
grin, he snaps his fingers as Callie passes. I smile when she walks right
past him even though she obviously heard him. He shifts in his chair,
face twitching while she grabs a plate from another guest. This time he
reaches over the bar and grabs her arm before she can pass him.
My hand is on his throat before I realize I've moved. Forks and knives
screech on plates before a single moment of stunned surprise hushes
the restaurant, and then the only sound is the rasp of his throat as he
struggles for air. He grips at my forearm, trying to pry my hand away,
but my grip is a steel vise and no amount of struggle is going to get him
free. He's trying to say something.
I let up my grip for a second. "What was that, asshole?" I ask.
"Fucking prick. Let me—"
I still have him by the neck as I lean partially over the bar. I shove him
with one hand and watch with satisfaction as his stool slowly tips
backward until he can't right his balance. He tries to jump from the
falling stool, but it brings him down with a loud thump. His head whips
back and smacks into the ground.
Callie stands beside me. Her lips are pulled back slightly, either in a
grimace or a smirk. I can't tell which. Frankly, I don't care. No one
comes into my restaurant and touches my staff. I should take the fucker
out back and put some hot lead in him. Seven years ago, I would have.
I would have done a lot of shit if I hadn't been ratted out. There's no
point though. The guy is crawling on all fours looking for his shades
like a
dog.
I turn my back on him and focus on Callie.
"You okay?" I ask, touching her arm. Just feeling her smooth skin gives
me an electric jolt of excitement. I don't know that I can drag this out
much longer. She's different from the women I've been with before.
They were always easy, even the ones who wanted to play games and
act like they were hard to get. It has always been that way with women.
Not her. I don't know what it is about her, but I want to find out more. I
don't know if just fucking her will be enough.
She jumps at my touch. "Yeah. I've dealt with assholes before. I'll be
fine." The way she holds her glare on me says I'm one of those

assholes. Can't argue there.
I hear the door slam. Probably the guy leaving, but I don't bother to turn
and look. People gradually resume their conversations and soon the
regular din of conversation has returned.
"Good. I'll make sure he's never allowed in here again."
"Look," she says. "I know you just wanted to help, but if I have to
worry that my boss is going to strangle every guy who gives me a hard
time, this is going to be a really stressful work environment."
I smirk. Why does hearing her call me boss make me want to pin her to
a wall and fuck her? "Fair enough. I'll wait until you're not watching
next time."
She rolls her eyes, but I can see the hint of a smile fighting to claim her
mouth.
Benny slides a mask over his face and then gives me a thumbs up. I nod
to him and he slips around the back of the grocery store. Jobs like this
prickle at my dignity a little, but we need the cash. Once we are able to
start going more public with recruitment, I'll need the money for guns,
payoffs, court fees, you name it. I've already set up a relatively steady
stream of income from the restaurant and a few places we've shaken
down for protection money, but we need more.
It' s starting to get late in the evening, and the grocery store is pretty
packed. It's not ideal, but we had to make our move when the trucks
show up, and the good shit comes in now. Ripping off delivery trucks
has been a staple of my business model. Most people don't realize it,
but if you have a way to offload the goods, you can make more money
from robbing a truck than you can from emptying the safe at a store.
Bulk groceries are where the money is. Each truck actually carries up to
ten grand worth of food, which we can sell to our fences for five or six
grand, depending on the day.
Benny should be working his way around back. I take a few minutes to
grab a small shopping cart and fill it with some things: prosciutto,
lasagna sheets, parmesan, mushrooms, a baguette, and the most
expensive bottle of wine I can find. I casually roll the cart to the back of
the store and wait by the door that leads to the loading bay. A

young girl comes out of the door and I wheel my cart in before it closes.
Outside, I see Benny crouched near the large bay doors. A semi-truck is
backed into the loading bay. Two high school kids are leaning by the
door. One of them literally jumps when he sees me.
"Sir," says the taller of the two. "You can't be back here."
I reach behind my back and pull my pistol free, racking a bullet in the
chamber for dramatic effect. I' m not about to shoot some kids, but they
don't know that. Their faces go white.
"Please," says the shorter kid who jumped.
"Just answer my questions and do what I say. Where is the truck
driver?"
"H-he goes to the diner across the street while we unload." "Where
does he leave the keys?" "I-don't..." starts the tall one.
"On the tire," interrupts the short one. "I've seen it. He puts them on top
of the front tire. Passenger side."
"Good. Now, I want to see you two run as fast as you can in that
direction." I point my gun out the open bay doors, past the parked
semi-truck and toward a seemingly endless field of grass. "Now!" I say,
jabbing the gun toward them.
They scramble, tearing out of the place as fast as they can.
"On top of the tire!" I shout to Benny. "Passenger side."
He steps out from the shadows and then lifts his mask to give me a
peculiar look. "You went shopping?"
I shrug. "I needed some shit. I've got big plans for tonight, and I figure
if we're going to rob a place, I might as well get everything I need."
Thirty minutes later, I'm driving my '69 Camaro toward the place
Callie's staying. The car roars at the slightest touch like a wild fucking
animal and I love every second of driving it. Smooth riding luxury cars
never appealed to me. Give me a car that's raw and powerful and I'll
call it a day.
Callie never told me where she lived, so I dug through her file and lifted
her address from there, but I'm her fucking boss. I'm suppose to

know where she lives. I was confused as hell when I saw the address
though. Why is she staying at Vince's place? What the fuck is my
brother doing with her in his house? If I know him at all, he's loyal and
would never cheat, so something else has to be going on.
My groceries are piled on the seat beside me. By now, Benny should be
at the warehouse unloading our lifted goods. I have another guy who
will buy the stolen semi. He'll tear it apart and give me a few grand for
the parts too.
Little by little.

32
Callie
"This place is amazing," says Julia.
I run my finger along a decorative strip of stone that's embedded in the
wall. "Yeah, it's incredible."
Julia has worked a few shifts with me at The Spot already and insisted
on coming to help me settle in when she learned I was staying by
myself. The truth is, I really just wanted to sleep, or at least lay in bed
and stare at the ceiling, but Julia wouldn't take no for an answer. I
haven't had enough time to process everything. In some ways it feels
like it has only been a week and in others it feels like it has already been
a week. One week since the life I knew was revealed for the farce it had
been all along. I still feel the swirl of unresolved emotions and painful
memories threatening to crack my thin facade of control.
"How did you say you know her? The woman who lives here, I mean,"
asks Julia.
"From high school," I say.
"And she just trusted you with her house out of the blue? That's
really...something."
I smile thinly, wanting to change the subject. Julia seems like someone
I would normally get along with. I'm just so on edge right now that
every question feels like an accusation.
"Hey," I say, sitting down on the couch and covering my legs with a
soft blanket. "What do you know about Damian?"
Julia sits across from me on a modern looking chair shaped like a
hollowed-out bean. There's a knowing smile on her face. "Already?"
I blush. "Already what?"
"You know what I mean. You're already wanting to fuck him?" I give
her a look. "I ask what you know about him and you assume I want to
sleep with him?"
"You're saying you don't?"
I open my mouth to deny it and realize I would be lying. I swallow
hard, looking down. "I just want to know what kind of guy he is. Like,

who just walks around a restaurant they own shirtless and covered in
blood like that? And I've never seen one, but that looked a lot like a stab
wound."
"I think every woman who has ever met Damian wants to know what
kind of guy he is. All they ever find out is that he...how can I put this
delicately? He has a huge cock."
If I had been drinking something I would have spit it out. A laugh rips
through me, and it feels good. Julia smiles back at me.
"So have you...you know?" I ask.
"Fucked him? No," she says. The look on her face tells me not to push
the subject any further so I don't.
The moment that would have been awkward is avoided when my phone
buzzes on the coffee table. I lean forward and see the name on display.
Greg.
My hand hovers over the phone for a second. He has been calling all
week, and I still haven't answered. As much as I want to pick it up and
scream my head off at him for being a worthless, cheating, fuck, I'm
afraid to. Everything I saw still has a dreamlike quality to it, like if I fell
asleep now I might wake up and realize it never happened. Somehow I
know that confronting him will break the spell. The truth will come
crashing down on me, and I don't know if I'm strong enough not to be
swept away by the force of it.
I pull my hand back into my lap and force myself to look away from the
phone. Julia gives me a slightly concerned smile that is probably
supposed to be reassuring. She probably just put the pieces together.
New girl at work shows up out of nowhere. She's staying with a friend.
Avoiding calls from a guy. Yeah, it is probably painfully obvious.
The doorbell rings.
"I should get that," I say, glad for an excuse to get away from the
still-ringing phone.
I swing the door open, expecting a FedEx guy or something. Instead, I
see Damian, looking suave and dangerous in a black dress shirt and
black suit. His buttons are undone enough to give me a hint of the
perfectly smooth, tattooed chest beneath. I can't help myself from

remembering how he looked without a shirt, and I can't help but
wanting to see it again. He's holding a bag of groceries in one hand and
a bottle of wine in the other.
"What is this?" I ask.
"I saw that you were staying at my brother's place, so I figured I'd come
by."
I give him a quizzical look. "You say that like it makes sense."
He smirks. "What if I said I wanted to cook you the most delicious
dinner you' ve ever had?"
I fold my arms. "I'd say that I already ate." I hate that my heart beats out
of my chest just from being near him. I don't know if it's from fear or
attraction. Or both.
"Good thing I brought a pack of cards, then. We'll play while you build
up an appetite."
I smile wryly. "You're persistent. But I can't, I have a friend over right
now."
"I was just leaving," says Julia. She gives me a quick hug and then
winks at me when Damian can't see. She mouths the words fuck him.
Before I know it, Damian has stepped inside and Julia is gone. I don't
even remember inviting him in, but he's walking toward the kitchen
already. Shit.
I move after him, trying to think of a polite way to tell my boss that I
want him to leave. Sir, could you please leave? I'm not sure I can be
around you for an extended period of time without doing something
stupid like jumping your bones.
"Where does he keep the wine glasses?" asks Damian.
I lean against the fridge and watch as he searches through the kitchen
cabinets. "I really don't think this is a good idea."
"See, that's exactly how I know it is a good idea. If it seemed like a
good idea, it'd probably be boring as shit."
I furrow my eyebrows. "Do you do this often?"
"What?" he asks.
"Invite yourself into people's houses and forcefully cook them
food?"
He finally finds the wine glasses and starts uncorking the bottle.

"This isn't your house."
I sigh. "You know what I mean."
He pours the wine and hands me a glass. "If I knew what you meant,
that'd mean I understood you." He sips his wine and raises his
eyebrows, obviously pleasantly surprised by the taste. "And I don't
understand you. But I want to."
"I thought you just wanted to sleep with anything that breathes and has
a pair of tits."
He walks toward the living room, forcing me to follow him or be left
standing in the kitchen like an idiot. He sits on the couch and kicks his
feet up on the coffee table. "You've been talking to Julia too much. You
can't believe everything you hear about me."
"Can I believe it if it comes from you?"
He smirks. "Maybe."
I sit in the bean chair Julia was in, sipping the wine for the first time. I
see why Damian enjoyed it. It's sweet and smooth, not dry and cloying
like I normally find wine to be. "I' m not looking for a relationship," I
say when the silence stretches too long.
"So you're single, then. I was wondering about the engagement ring.
Bad breakup?"
I sigh, not sure why I haven't taken it off yet. "It's irrelevant. I'm just
not..."
"Hey," he says, leaning forward and locking me in place with his
intense eyes. "All jokes aside, if you tell me to fuck off, I will. But if
you don't, I' m not going to stop until you're mine."
My heart hammers against my ribs and I feel breathless. Jesus. His
words and the way he's looking at me are almost too much. I'm
ashamed to feel myself getting aroused. A few seconds pass and I can't
bring myself to speak. Two words and it's all over. I can go back to
feeling sorry for myself and moping around. I can update my resume
and start looking for another marketing job around here.
Before I know it, a minute of silence has passed and he hasn't looked
away. A slow smile spreads across his lips as he sips from his wine.
"Glad that's settled."
I sink into my chair, blushing. Why do I feel like I just promised to

sleep with him?
"Bullshit!" I yell.
Damian groans as he flips over the cards. He is terrible at this game,
and I can't help giggling as I watch him scoop up all my discarded cards
and his own. I have one card left and he has a handful.
Damian narrows his eyes at me. "Aces." He puts down two cards and I
put down the last card I hold. "Bullshit!" he yells, slamming his palm
on the table. I flip the card and show him the ace. He laid down an ace
and a two.
I laugh as he drops his cards and sighs. "Fuck. I think you cheated
somehow."
I smirk. "Playing you in cards does feel like cheating. It's not really
fair."
He tosses a card at me and stands to go check on the food. I smile over
the rim of my wine glass, watching his tight ass and the way it looks in
the slacks he's wearing. He stripped off his jacket and wears his dress
shirt with the sleeves rolled up and a few buttons undone. I keep
finding my eyes wandering to those undone buttons. I've had too much
to drink already and can feel it going to my head. I know I'm getting
tipsy because I'm definitely not as bitter as I should be. I'm even on the
verge of enjoying myself. I keep feeling like I should be in mourning or
something. After all, my fiance cheated on me. He also had my bank
accounts frozen and has probably blacklisted me at every marketing
job in the continental US, yet here I am, staring at Damian's ass and
loving every second of it.
"You like pepper?" he asks, raising his voice over the sizzling of
pancetta in the skillet.
"Sure."
He grinds a pepper mill over the skillet and gives it a skillful toss. "I
can't say I took you for the chef type," I say. He turns and quirks an
eyebrow at me. "What was it? The tattoos?" I shrug. "I guess when I
picture guys like you, I don't picture them going home and cooking."
"Guys like me?"

I move into the kitchen and lean on the island behind him, watching as
he tosses the pancetta in the skillet and stirs the lasagna sheets he's
boiling in water. "Yeah, you know. Bad boys. The kind of guys my
mom would turn over in her grave if she knew I was talking to." He
turns, suddenly serious. "I'm sorry about your mom." The sincerity in
his words touches me and I'm surprised to find myself on the verge of
tears. Just like that. "Don't be. She was terrible. Disowned me when I
was younger and I practically never talked to her after." I don't mention
the reason she kicked me out. I never do.
He goes back to the skillet, talking over his shoulder. "Family should
always be together."
"Yeah. But it doesn't always work out that way."
The food is delicious. He made some sort of creamy mushroom alfredo
sauce with bits of flavorful pancetta and prosciutto cooked in. Then he
twirled in tender lasagna sheets to soak it all up. Every bite is like an
explosion. For the first few minutes, I eat in complete silence,
marveling at how much flavor he managed to cook into the meal. "Do
you like it?" he asks.
I wipe my mouth, blushing when I realize I've just been pounding down
bite after bite silently. "This is amazing. You're really full of surprises,
aren't you? "
He smirks. "Stick around, I've got some other surprises you wouldn't
believe."
I blush again. I swear, I must have gone the last ten years of my life and
blushed two or three times, and those were because of embarrassment.
Being around Damian makes me feel like some blushing maiden from a
medieval story.
"Why are you really here?" I ask. "It's not to cook me dinner." He folds
his napkin and sets it down on the table. "You want the
truth?"
"I do."
"All right. I came here because from the moment I saw you, I knew I
needed to have you. I've seen beautiful women before and wanted
them, but no one has ever stuck in my head like you. I haven't stopped

thinking about you, about the things I want to do to you." He leans
forward and the predatory smirk flashes across his face.
My voice sounds small. Distant. "What would you do to me?" I
swallow hard. My heart is pounding in my ears and I have to press my
thighs together. His words are doing something to me, something that
scares me and excites me at the same time.
"I'd start with your pussy. I'd work you with lips first, and then my
tongue. And I'd take my time about it. Once you were done cumming
on my face, I'd pin your hands above your head and—"
I hold my hand up, feeling breathless. His smirk widens. If I let him
keep talking, I won't be able to stop it from happening. It will stop
being a fantasy and it will be real. And I can't take real right now. Not
yet.
Someone pounds on the front door.
Damian stands up, looking toward the sound. "Wait here," he says.
I' ve never been good at following orders, so I sneak behind Damian as
he moves to the door. He swings it open and my stomach clenches.
It's Greg.
After just a week of separation, Greg looks ridiculous to me now. He's
wearing Easter pink shorts, a white polo, and brown boat shoes. His
hair is slicked back with too much product to reveal his smooth,
contemptuous features. He never seemed scrawny or frail to me before.
After all, he religiously works out in the gym three times a week, but
next to Damian, he looks like a child.
"Who the fuck are you?" demands Greg. Then he leans around
Damian's wide shoulders and spots me standing there. "What the fuck,
Callie?"
"You need to leave," says Damian.
"Why? So you can fuck her? That's my fiancée, asshole, let me in."
Damian puts a hand on Greg's chest and when Greg tries to slap it
away, Damian grabs Greg's arm and twists it, pinning him face first
into the doorframe. He leans close, speaking into Greg's ear.
"Do you hear that?" asks Damian.
"Hear what?" asks Greg. He sounds like he has cotton shoved in

his mouth from being pressed so hard into the wall.
"The sound of your fiancée not telling me to stop before I permanently
fuck up your shoulder."
"Callie," he whines. "Tell him to stop. Tell this fucker to get off
me."
All I can think of is the sight of those stilettos and long legs, bouncing
every time he pounded himself into her.
Damian looks back toward me, eyebrows raised.
"He's not worth it," I say. "Just let him go."
Damian smashes Greg's face into the doorframe before letting him go.
Greg stumbles backward, pressing delicate fingers to his nose and then
looking incredulously at the blood. "I think you broke my nose," but his
voice is so stuffed it sounds like he says "dose".
"Whoops," says Damian. "I can be real clumsy. You may want to fuck
off before I accidentally break something else."
"Do you have any idea who my father is? The district attorney is a close
friend of my family. If I talk to the right people, you'll—"
Damian steps forward. "I'm not interested in what your friends can do
to me. What can you do?"
Greg glares over his bloody hands, still clutching his nose. "You'll
regret this."
He stumbles away from the porch, looking over his shoulder once
before yanking the door of his BMW open. He pulls it shut, still careful
not to close the door too hard. Ridiculous. The engine roars and he tries
to back out quickly, but overcorrects. He slams on the brakes just
before hitting a tree. Then he's forced to back slowly out of the
driveway because he's not a good enough driver to go any faster.
I can' t remember what I ever saw in him.

40
Damián
I search her name on the computer in the back room of the restaurant.
Callie Beccaccio. I find some social media shit, but I don't want to be
that creepy, so I stick to the generic results. I find something about her
job. Marketing consultant for B&G Conglomerate Group? The fuck is
that? I'm about to search for more when Benny bursts through the door.
"It's starting," he says with a smile. "Tell me," I say.
"Carlito Anastasio was just found dead on a pier out in Long Island. No
one knows, but there are whispers that it was the Sanatores." "Shit," I
say, slamming my fist on the table.
"Shit what? We've spent months trying to start a war between
them. Why shit?"
"Because Carlito's sister married into the Ricci's family." Benny falls
into the nearest chair, looking dejected. "Fuck. What do we do?"
"I don't know yet. The whole fucking idea was to let the Anastasios and
the Sanatores chip away at each other until one of them was weak
enough for us to make a move. If the Ricci's get involved? They're
fucking crazy. There won't be shit left to take over. They will burn the
whole place to the ground."
"So what do we do?" asks Benny again.
"Something stupid. I need to handle something first though."
Callie is laughing with some guy at the bar while she pours him a drink.
I clench my fists and go to the guy, tapping him on the shoulder. "That's
my seat," I say.
Callie gives me a warning look. I reassure her with a wink. The guy
turns. "There are open seats all over. Fuck off." "Whether I have to kick
your ass or not, I'm sitting in that stool in the next ten seconds. So why
don't you go get yourself one of those open

seats and skip the embarrassment."
He takes me in from head to toe, scowls, and then gets up, leaving the
restaurant without even touching the drink Callie just poured. I sit and
down it in one shot.
"Really?" she asks, putting her fists on her hips. "Am I supposed to be
impressed by that?"
I smirk. "You weren't?"
"No. You can't just punch and threaten your way through life."
"Those aren't my only two techniques." I take a second to admire the
healthy amount of cleavage she has on display, biting my lip.
She sighs, pulling her shirt up but I can see the red staining her cheeks.
"When are you going to just admit that you want to fuck me?" I
ask.
She sets a glass down a little too hard. "I don't need another asshole in
my life. So if that's what you are, just get lost, okay?"
"You were wrong about me before, weren't you? What was it you said,
'Damian, you're so full of surprises, I can't believe I was so wrong about
you!'"
She smiles a little, eyes still on the bar for a moment before she lifts her
long lashes and meets my gaze. "I definitely didn't say that."
I lean back, resting my arm on the back of the stool next to me. "I'm
paraphrasing, but that was what you meant. I saw it in your eyes."
She turns to take a sip from a water bottle.
"Why don't I get you off early sometime. Maybe tonight?" I ask.
She almost chokes, spitting some of the water out and wiping it away
with the back of her hand. When she recovers, she's scowling at me.
"Do you think about anything other than sex?"
"You're the one with your mind in the gutter. I'm just talking about
getting you off work. I am your boss after all."
"What if I say no?"
I raise my eyebrows, leaning back and folding my arms like it's a tough
question and I'm hesitant to answer. "Refusing a direct order from your
boss? People have lost their jobs over less."
She rolls her eyes, but still goes to grab her coat and leans into the

back and yells for Julia to cover for her.
I hold the door for her, mainly so I can look at her ass when she walks
past.
She stops when she sees the car, turning to give me a questioning look.
"Is this yours?"
"You like it?" I ask.
She tries and fails to hide an excited smile. "It's okay."
I don't have many weaknesses, but cars are one of them. I know I
should really be stockpiling all the cash I can for when we make our
move to take over, but I couldn't help myself when I saw this baby at an
auction. Glossy black with chrome detailing and it was owned by a
collector since he drove it off the showroom floor in 1969.
I open the car door and gesture for her to get in.
"I can open doors on my own, you know."
"Not when you're with me," I say.
I get in and start the engine.
"With you?" she asks. "What exactly do you think this is?"
"Whatever you want it to be," I say, gunning the gas so hard that her
hands flash out, bracing against the door on one side and my thigh on
the other. She squeezes the hard muscle of my leg tightly, not letting go
even when I ease off the gas and pull on the main road. I grin at her, but
she only scowls and pulls back her hand.
This girl.
What kills me most is she won't even admit to herself how bad she
wants it. It' s all over her. I can practically smell it on her. Fuck. I bet I
could even taste it. I downshift, loving the way the car bucks against me
as I push it harder. Maybe that's what draws me to cars like this. The
harder you push them, the louder they scream, but there's no denying
that they were made to be pushed, made to be tested to their absolute
limits. Hell, it'd be a shame not to.
I bite my lip, looking at the way Callie's black cotton skirt is riding up
her thighs as the car purrs under her.
"It looks like it's going to storm, maybe you should slow down," she
says.
I check the rearview to look for clouds but notice a black car

behind me instead. There are two adult men in the front seats, and I
can't explain why, but the car is making my trigger finger itch. On a
hunch, I swerve to take a turn down a random side-street, cutting
between a row of small houses with well-groomed lawns. Callie gasps.
"I said slow down, not try to crash the car!" she says, clutching my
thigh again.
I pull up beside a house and park on the street, watching my rearview.
"What are you doing?" she asks.
I say nothing, still watching as the black car takes the turn and drives
slowly past us. A few dozen feet in front, the car hits the brakes and
suddenly pulls to the side of the road to wait. I'm being tailed. I don't
know if it's the Sanatores, the Anastasios, or the Riccis. All I know is
it's bad. Benny and I were supposed to be completely off the radar. If
anyone is tailing me, it means someone at least suspects we're involved.
But how?
"What's going on?" asks Callie.
"Stay here," I say. I reach past her and pull my .44 from the glove
compartment. She winces when she sees it, eyes going wide.
I grit my teeth, squeezing the grip of the gun as I tuck it into the back of
my pants. I glance around the quiet neighborhood, making sure no one
is outside. It's clear, for now. I walk to the parked car and rap on the
window with my knuckles, leaning down to point at the guy behind the
glass. "Open the fucking door." I say.
He gives me the finger and starts to reach for something in his jacket
pocket, so I rip my gun free and smash it through the glass, grabbing
him by the collar. His buddy in the passenger seat reaches to pull a gun
on me but I'm too fast for him. I point the .44 between the passenger's
eyes. "Move and I splatter your brains across this window."
The passenger at me, but he's smart enough to stay still.
"Roll down your window—other hand, asshole! Good. Now toss the
gun out." He does as he's told. "Both of you, out of the car. This door," I
say through gritted teeth. What, did the fucker think I wanted him to
step out on the other side of the car right next to where he threw the
gun?

I take a step back, keeping the gun leveled at them as the driver steps
out and the passenger has to crawl over the stick shift to get out. I can
tell they are mafia muscle from one look. The driver is pretty jacked
with a jaw like a brick, the passenger is more wiry with the cold look of
a killer in his eyes.
"Who sent you?" I ask. From the corner of my eye, I notice a woman
step out the front door with two tiny dogs on a leash, pause, and then
hurry back inside.
"Damian! What are you doing?" yells Callie.
I move my eyes toward her, gesturing for her to get in the car. It's not
safe for her here. Damn, it wasn't even safe for me to stop and—
It feels like a brick wall crashes into me and then my head is
rebounding off the pavement. The big one is on top of me, reaching in
his jacket for some kind of weapon. My vision is blurred, but I still see
the other one running around the side of the car for his gun. I'm in a shit
position as far as leverage goes, but I'm able to hook my elbow around
the big guy's wrist, squeezing and rolling. He realizes real fast that he
has to roll off me or his wrist is going to snap like a twig as I twist,
using my whole body to push into him.
The weight comes off me as we reverse positions and I scrape my gun
off the ground from where it fell and jab him in the teeth with the
muzzle. The hard steel punches right through and he claps his hands to
his mouth. I dive to my stomach, pressing my cheek to the ground so I
can see beneath the car. I see the gun lying on its side and two feet. Just
when a hand reaches to grab the gun, I squeeze the trigger.
Boom!
The sound echoes out in the quiet neighborhood. The wiry one is
standing now, holding his wrist as blood spurts from the gunshot
wound that took off his index finger. I jump and slide over the hood,
pistol whipping him and putting my foot on his chest. I kneel down,
still putting all my weight into him as I press the cold barrel to his
forehead. "Name. Give me a fucking name."
"Ricci. Cristiano Ricci," hisses the man, wincing against the pain and
the expectation of a bullet.
I feel ice in my chest. "What do they want with me?"

"Fuck if I know. We were just supposed to keep an eye on you."
Callie is standing behind the passenger door, leaning forward and
covering her mouth. Damn. She has already seen too much. I can't
make her a witness to murder too.
"Get in the car, Callie," I shout.
"Why, so you can kill him?" she asks. I can hear the emotion in her
voice, it's thick and pained.
"Just get in the fucking car."
"No," she says. "If you're going to do it. You're going to have to do it
while I watch."
I grit my teeth, finger tensing around the trigger as I come within
millimeters of ending
this cocksucker. But I don't. I can't say what it is. Maybe it's just how
bad I want to make her mine. Maybe not. For all I know, it's just
bullshit. Maybe when I finally get between her legs, I'll be bored and
want to toss her aside like all the women before, but I'm not so sure
anymore, and that scares me.
I get off him, gripping his shirt and pulling back my arm as if to break
his face with the gun, but I relax, even if my face is still twitching with
rage. What kind of message is this going to send? Damian Citrione gets
tailed by two Riccis and he lets them walk? Every asshole in the city is
going to think they have free license to spy on me and only risk losing a
few teeth or a finger.
It's stupid as hell, and I know it, but it doesn't change what I'm going to
do. I walk away from brick-jaw, who's still squirming on the ground
trying to find all the pieces of his teeth. I turn my back on the killer,
who looks more like a beaten dog than anything else. I get back in the
car and slam the door, waiting for Callie to get in. She sits down, face
stony and hard.
"I can't believe you," she says.
"You want me to just say how's it fucking going? Nice of you to tail me
today?"
"So you nearly killed them just because they followed you? What kind
of person does that? How did you even know they were following you
before you punched through the fucking window?"

The darkening sky flashes white and a few seconds later, a thunder
splits the silence, cracking sharp at first and dying in a growl of low
rumbles. Rain patters on the windshield.
"I can't take risks right now," I say.
"So what if you decide I'm a risk? Are you going to shove a gun down
my throat?"
I purse my lips thoughtfully. "It's not my gun that I want to shove down
your throat."
She glares. "I'm not playing."
"I'd never do anything to hurt you. Not unless you wanted it."
Her eyebrows pull together. "Why would I want you to hurt me?"
"People think pain and pleasure are opposites, but they're not. They are
compliments, just like hot and cold. Get out of a hot tub and jump into a
pool—it'll feel a hell of a lot colder. You don't know how good fucking
can feel unless you've mixed it with a little pain. I'll show you soon."
Callie tries to turn away before I can see how she bites her lip, but she's
not quick enough. My cock stiffens. She wants it. I know she does.
Still, she has her arms crossed and from the look on her face, she's
pissed at me. Oh well. I know how to cure that.

47
Callie
The rain is pouring down hard and the sky is black. Blinding flashes of
white cast the countryside in sharp relief, emphasizing how alone we
are out here. I don't know my way around the area to begin with, so I'm
far beyond lost. Being lost with Damian feels terrifying and thrilling at
the same time. I knew he was dangerous, I just didn't expect to see it. I
think the part that scares me most is how the violence only draws me to
him more, making me want to help him, to fix him. I can see a good
person somewhere inside him, deep inside, but I think he's on a path to
bury that goodness once and for all. Unless I can help.
It looks like we're in the country, which is surprisingly beautiful, even
in the tumult of the storm. He pulls off on a small dirt road that cuts
between farmhouses and huge plots of land. He turns through an open
fence and drives across an overgrown field, parking the Camaro in the
grass beneath a huge tree with a trunk at least three times thicker than a
normal tree. Lightning illuminates the sky and I see that we're in the
middle of a rolling field about a mile away from a small farmhouse and
the main road, nestled between trees on every side.
He puts the car in park and relaxes into his seat. Without the sound of
the engine roaring, I can hear the rain patter against the roof and an
occasional rumble of thunder roll through the hills.
"Where are we?" I ask. The truth is that I don't care. Every time I' m
with Damian, I feel my problems fade into background noise. It's like
he's so intense and so present that there's no space for anything else.
The same intensity that draws me to him is also what scares me. I just
saw who he really was back there. He would've killed those men. The
thought sends a shiver through me.
"I used to come here before I went to prison. When I felt like getting
away, I'd come up here and just let it all fall away."
"Prison? What for?"
A darkness settles into his features that has nothing to do with the storm
clouds outside. "For trusting the wrong person."

The silence that follows stretches until I realize he's not going to say
anything more on the subject. I clear my throat. "So you just came out
here by yourself? I didn't take you for the silent, thinking type."
"That shit you saw back there? I don't enjoy that. It's part of the
business, though. Anybody who says it doesn't get to them is full of
shit."
"The restaurant business?" I ask. Why is my heart pounding like crazy?
Why am I so scared to ask that question even though I know the
answer?
He thinks for a moment, long enough for a bolt of lightning to
illuminate his gorgeous features. "Guys in my line of work don't bring
women into it, Callie. It's safer that way."
"Too late. You just nearly murdered two guys in front of me. I'd say
you already brought me in." I wish I could say the words without a ball
of fear writhing in my chest.
He smirks. "You have a point. Just—look, the less you know the better.
Those were some guys from out of town that are bad news. They work
for a guy who's even worse news. I didn't give them anything worse
than they probably give on a weekly basis. Assholes, both of them.
Don't worry about them."
"You shot one of them," I say. A voice in the back of my head is telling
me to drop it, telling me this man beside me in the car is just as
dangerous as he is beautiful. I should just let it go and take his excuses.
"You saw that, then? I wondered."
"What, do you think I was checking my phone while you were in the
middle of a gun fight in a fucking suburban neighborhood?"
How can he look so smug? So arrogant? He just shrugs at me, still
giving me that irresistible and infuriating look.
"What if I had called the cops on you?" I ask. He leans forward,
snapping to face me as his features harden.
"What did you say?"
"I didn' t—" I stammer. God, Callie. Did you really just imply that you
might call the cops on a guy who carries a gun in his glove
compartment and attacks people for following him?
"Don't ever talk about the cops. Do you understand?"

I nod my head, unable to look away from him.
"You don't have to be afraid of me, but if you start talking like that
around some of the guys I know, it wouldn't end well."
"I'm just confused. All of this is so bizarre. I don't even know what I' m
saying or thinking half the time."
He looks thoughtful. "You know what always calmed me down when I
was a kid?"
"What?"
He smirks at me and then steps out of the car and into the rain. "I think
I just need to get you a little wetter to clear your mind." He jogs in front
of the car, heading for my door.
I scramble for the locks, laughing when I realize what he's trying to do.
He pulls on the handle and his smirk widens when he realizes I've
locked him out. The rain is soaking his clothes through almost
immediately and flattening his hair against his head. He digs in his
pocket and holds up something I can't quite see. Lightning flashes and I
catch the glint of something metallic. I try to crawl to the driver seat to
escape him, but he's able to pick the lock in a few seconds, opening the
door and grabbing my leg before I can get away. He yanks me toward
him.
I feel my skirt ride up as he does, and I'm thankful it's so dark in the
storm because I just wore white cotton panties and he would've just
gotten an eyeful. He scoops me up with a strong arm under my
midsection, standing me up gently, then shutting the door. He's
completely soaked. He looks amazing, even with his hair plastered to
his head and dripping. The white button-down shirt he wears might as
well be transparent as it clings to the peaks and valleys of his muscled
torso. A tight sense of excitement grows in my chest as I look at him.
The rain soaks through my clothes almost instantly. Even under the
tree, thick rivulets of water pour down on us. I find a spot where a thick
branch overhead blocks most of the water. He moves in so close that
the water dripping from his nose lands between my breasts, sending a
cold chill down my torso. I bite my lip, unable to look away from him.
"When I was a kid," he says, voice soft but full of gravel. "I used to
walk out in storms like this and just run. I'd find a road or a field and
run

until my legs gave out and all I could do was lay there and look up. I
guess I was daring the storm to take me down. You know? Strike me
down. Besides, it felt good. It's hard to focus on all the shit in your life
when it's just you and nature." I smile. "That's beautiful." He leans
closer. "You are too." I laugh. "Don't get cheesy."
"What's on your mind?" he asks. "Is it that asshole who came by
Vince's place?"
I look down. "I don't want to talk about him." "Then stop thinking
about him." "It's not that easy."
He grins, turning to gesture to the open field where the storm still rages.
"Let's go for a run then."
"Are you crazy?" I ask. "I'm pretty sure the best way to get struck by
lightning is running out in the middle of an open field." Then again, so
is standing under a big ass tree, but for some reason I don't want to get
back in the car.
He jingles a set of keys in front of my face. My keys. I snatch for them,
but he pulls them back. He turns, winds up, and throws them
impossibly far into the darkness. "Damn," he says, stepping forward
and putting his arm on the tree beside my head. "I guess you have to
decide if you want to risk the lightning or risk staying here with me
until the storm passes."
I swallow hard, painfully aware that if I just leaned forward a few
inches my lips would be against his. "You said I didn't have to be afraid
of you."
"I said I wouldn't hurt you. I never said you shouldn't be afraid of
me."
"Why should I be afraid?" "Because I want you, and I get what I want."
His lips crash into mine as lightning sets the night ablaze. The sounds
of the storm dull in my ears and every nerve in my body attunes to him.
I can smell his scent, a woodsy, fresh smell that I can't get enough of.
My hands explore his broad back, nails digging into the

endless peaks and ridges of his muscles. He presses his body against
mine, the force amplified by thunder booming through the night. I wrap
my legs around him, winding my arms behind his neck and letting his
powerful arms lift me from the ground and spin me around.
He carries me to the still running car and lays me down on the hood.
The warmth of the metal and vibration of the engine hum through me.
Damian positions himself between my legs, looking down at me like a
vengeful god. Lightning splits the sky behind him, silhouetting his
powerful frame as he rips his shirt off and unbuckles his belt.
Am I really letting this happen? I've only ever been with Greg, and I
made him wait years before he even got to see me naked. Now I've
known this guy less than a week and I'm about to let him fuck me in on
top of his muscle car in the middle of a storm? Maybe I am. It's not
something the old Callie would do. It's not something Greg's accessory
would do. Maybe I don't want to be the old Callie anymore. I want to be
someone new, someone who didn't waste half of her life with a piece of
shit who can't keep his dick in his pants.
Damian puts his hands on my thighs and then pauses. "Fuck." he
says.
"What?" I ask.
"I don't have a condom."
Maybe it's the storm or the completely crazy few days I've had or it's
just how unbelievably bad I want him inside me, but I know one
thing—I need this. And I need it now. "I don't care. Just fuck me. Fuck
me and pull out—come on me, mark me."
The look on his face is feral as he pulls my soaked skirt down and lifts
my shirt off. He takes his time, rubbing his hands over my body. The
car's headlights cast two long beams of light that are cut by the
hundreds of streaking lines of rain. Lightning and thunder still rage all
around us, and I feel myself getting completely lost in the moment. My
back arcs when his hands find my breasts. He rubs them through my
wet bra and then undoes it, freeing them and moving his focus to my
panties.
"You're fucking incredible," he growls through gritted teeth.
I lift my head to watch him. The sight of Damian over my naked flesh
sends such a thrill through me that I almost grab his face and press

it into my waiting heat.

53
Damian
My cock is about to fucking burst from the need to get inside her, but I
want her taste just as much. I grab her panties and tear them off of her,
shredding the material like wet paper.
"God," she sighs, leaning her head back and pushing herself up toward
me.
She fucking loves it.
I hook my arms around her thighs and pull her closer to the edge of the
car so I can lean down to reach her perfect pussy. The only problem
with fucking in the middle of a rainstorm is that the rain has washed
away most of her taste, but she's still incredible. I take her clit between
my lips and tease it with my tongue, sliding along her folds. Callie
bucks into me, rubbing herself against my mouth hungrily. She wants it
so bad. She'll get it, but she's going to get it as fast or as slow as I want
to give it. Lucky for her, I can't remember the last time I've wanted to
fuck this badly. Hell, I don't know that I ever have.
I use my fingers to work her clit while I circle her entrance with my
tongue, driving the length of it inside her and loving every second of it.
I work every part of her, moving just before it gets too sensitive and
finding a rhythm that keeps her gasping and digging her heels into my
back.
Hard rain slams into me as the night cries out with her. I roam my
hungry hands across her body, unable to satisfy the ravenous need
swelling inside me. I've never wanted it this badly, never felt this good
before.
When I can tell she's about to cum, I stand. She gives me an incredulous
look, but I wave my finger at her.
"You get to cum when I' m ready for you to cum. Do you understand?"
The way she nods her head and locks those big, doe eyes on mine is so
fucking sexy. I lean down and kiss her, making sure she gets a taste of
how delicious her pussy is before the rain washes it off me.

I reach under her hips and flip her over so that her ass faces me. I take a
step back, admiring for as long as I can before my need to be inside her
overcomes everything else. She's so perfect. She has curves in all the
right places. I've never understood guys who go after model thin
women or pushovers. Give me a woman who's soft in the right places
and knows how to hold her own in a conversation and I'm happy.
Something about Callie has me firing on all cylinders. I don't know if
it's those wide hips or the way she bites that thick lip of hers when she's
turned on, or the way she likes to challenge and test me. Hell, it's
probably all of that. I've never met a woman like her. I've never fucked
a woman like her.
With both hands on her hips, I pull her toward me, thrusting my cock
into her in one swift motion. Her pussy grips me like a fucking glove.
Jesus Christ. Greg must have a tiny cock, because she's tighter than a
virgin. The heat of her wrapping around my cock as I pump in and out
of her is almost too much. Knowing she is letting me fuck her without a
condom is such a turn on that I'm already having trouble holding my
load. I drive myself inside her and bend down, gripping her face I turn
her toward me so that I can taste her mouth again.
Her warm tongue swirls in my mouth as the rain pours down on us. My
cock drives in her to the root, and her tight pussy throbs around it as I
make her wait, kissing her deeply and holding her hips as she tries to
move against my length. Not yet. I straighten and pull my hand back,
slapping her so hard on the ass that it sounds like a thunderclap. She
whips her head back, moaning into the night.
"Damian!"
I move my cock in her now and she shudders against me, dropping her
head back below her shoulders and arching her back like a cat. I lean
down to her ear and wait until the thunder dies out so I'm sure she hears
me.
"Say yellow if you want me to ease off. Red means stop.
Understand?"
"Yes," she says breathlessly.
I flip her over, watching as her heavy tits pillow into almost perfect
spheres. I lean down, taking her nipple in my mouth as I find her

entrance again with my cock. I wrap my fingers around her neck,
squeezing until she has to struggle for breath. Her eyes widen slightly
in panic, and I ease off for a moment, giving her a chance to safeword
me if wants to, but she shakes her head slightly and then nods at me,
biting her lip.
I squeeze a little harder, starting to work myself into her and finding a
rhythm. She moans, the vibrations passing through her long neck and
into my fingers.
"You like getting fucked by your boss?" I ask through gritted teeth,
spraying rainwater from my soaked lips. "Yes," she gasps.
"Call me boss. Say how bad you want your boss to fuck you." "Fuck
me, boss. Please, Damian. Fuck me!" I nearly lose it. My hands
tightening again around her neck. Her moans are muffled by the lack of
air and the storm, but her body says it all. Her ass lifts off the car as she
practically begs me to go deeper and harder. Her tits shake with every
thrust of my body.
Her pussy clenches around me as she cums, hard. I let go of her neck
and watch as the flood of air makes her orgasm turn into something like
she's never felt. Her eyes go wide and she silently mouths something I
can't make out, clinging to me like the survivor of a shipwreck as the
waves of her orgasm rock her to the core. Her small hand searches for
my cock and strokes it fiercely as she moans into my chest. My cock
pulses, spraying hot cum over her stomach.
As if on cue, the rain starts to die down. I lean against the car, still
naked and hard. I fold my arms and grin at her. "You had better go grab
those keys."
She gives me a wry smile and tries to pick up her clothes. I beat her to
it, picking them up and holding them close to my chest in a tight ball.
"I'd rather watch you go searching for them naked." She tries once
more to grab for the clothes.
"I'll throw them up in the tree if you don't get to looking for those
keys."
Finally, Callie smirks at me and tiptoes into the wet grass, perfect ass
shaking with each step. I love every second of it, watching as she

eventually bends over and gives me a ridiculous view. I realize I have
no intention of making this my only time with her. I feel like I just took
a huge gulp of water and it only made me thirstier. What is this woman
doing to me?

57
Callie
I take a sip of the expensive wine, feeling guilty. Julia doesn't seem to
have any of my reservations, and she's enjoying herself thoroughly,
drinking freely and asking the waiter to bring extra bread. The place is
called Seasons '84. I know it must be expensive, because there aren't
even prices listed on the menu. I'm no stranger to fancy restaurants.
Greg always thought he could buy his way out of trouble. Not returning
my calls? How about some jewelery? Forgetting we were supposed to
meet for a date? Let' s go somewhere really expensive tomorrow. It
never made any difference. If anything, it just pissed me off even more,
but he didn' t pay enough attention to notice.
"So you and Damian must be getting pretty serious for him to treat you
to a place like this."
I frown, swirling the wine in my glass. "Not exactly. He's been trying to
get me to go on a real date with him and I' ve been stalling. I guess he
thought this would be charming. If I won't go somewhere nice with
him, he'll send me with you."
Julia's face falls a little.
I sigh. "I'm sorry, Julia. I didn't mean it like that. I'm really glad you and
I are getting the chance to do this together. It just rubs me the wrong
way that he thinks he can buy me."
She smiles. "No. It's fine. I completely understand. But hey, I've always
said if a guy is going to try to buy you, make sure he knows it won't be
cheap."
I smirk. "I'm really not interested in all that. Hell, I don't even know
what I want."
"What's not to want?" she asks as she spreads some butter on her bread.
"Speaking of wanting, all we ever do is talk about me. What about you?
What do you want?"
Her cheeks redden a little. She's so frank and straightforward that I' m
surprised to see her get embarrassed over anything.

"All I really want now is to just make it to the next paycheck."
Something in her tone says she's holding back, and even though I'm not
sure she wants me to ask, I decide to push it. "That's all you want now.
What did you want before?"
She smiles sadly, looking down at her empty glass. "I was going to
school to be a psychologist, but I ran out of money to pay for my last
semester of undergrad. I told myself the bartender thing was just
temporary until I got back on my feet, but that was two years ago. Now
they are telling me more than half the credits I already earned are going
to expire next year. And...well, I don't really want to talk about it. It's
pointless and I'm done feeling sorry for myself. Sometimes you just
have to move on."
"Hey, don't say that. You still have a year. You can totally pull that
off."
"Yeah, totally," she says, shoulders slumping, her tone dejected. She
sighs and then perks up. "So you said Damian is trying to get you to go
on a real date. That means you guys had an unreal date."
She gives me a smirk so scandalous I can't help but laugh. Like usual
when the topic is Damian, my mood quickly sours when my thoughts
pass from his perfect body to the dangerous life he lives. "We, well," I
say, pausing to find the right words. "Spent some time together. I just
don't know if I can keep seeing him." I don't know how to say what I' m
thinking. What does she know? Maybe she has guessed, but when I
think about confiding in her and explaining what I saw with the two
men and the guns...it feels like a bad idea. The memory of how Damian
reacted at the mention of cops keeps flashing in my mind.
Julia smiles knowingly. "It's the criminal thing. You think he's a
mobster or something."
I laugh nervously. "I didn't say that."
"You didn't have to. Everybody talks about it. They say he's some kind
of loose cannon in the criminal underground. I don't know, and
personally, I wouldn't really care. I think good guys are overrated."
"I'm not so sure. Maybe there's something to be said for not having to
worry if your boyfriend is going to get shot."
She shrugs. "I'm just saying that I wouldn't let a guy like him slip

away. He's not going to wait forever. Do you really want to be forty and
looking back on this, wondering what it would have been like to be
with
him?"
As much as I hate to admit it, she has a point. Maybe I should just take
a leap of faith, even if it's a reckless one, and give him a chance.
All the lanes in the bowling alley are lit with black lights, making the
pins glow neon green. The walls are covered in fluorescent murals of
zombies and mutated animals. The music is loud and pulsing, and
almost every lane is packed with groups of laughing teens and young
adults. I'm almost surprised when I remember that Damian is standing
beside me.
I glance guiltily at him again, admiring the way he manages to make
jeans and a t-shirt look nicer than most guys can make a suit and tie
look. His hair is casually pushed away from his face, but a few stray
strands dangle over his forehead in a way that is effortlessly sexy. The
muscles of his legs press against the jeans, begging to be touched and
making it impossible not to think back to how his cock felt inside me.
His completely, unprotected cock.
Remembering that I let him inside me without protection still makes
me feel like a complete idiot. I don't know what I was thinking. My
period is due in about a week, and I' m already having nightmares about
the decisions I'll have to make if it doesn't come. How did my boring,
but predictable life turn into such a mess so quickly?
Damian's possessive hand on my shoulder distracts me from everything
else. He leads me the front where we are supposed to pick up our
bowling shoes. The guy behind the counter's eyes bulge when he sees
Damian. "Mr. Citrione," he says. "She's a size eight," says Damian.
The guy nods and rushes to the back without asking Damian's size. He
returns with two pairs of bowling shoes. "You're all set, sir."
Damian leads me toward an open alley. "You don't have to pay
here?" I ask.
"He owes me a couple favors."
Something about that gives me an uneasy chill. How did I let Julia talk
me into this? Yes, he's unbelievably gorgeous. Yes, he's charming.

But he's trouble in every sense of the word. I don't know what to expect
when I'm with him. One minute we driving and the next he's punching
through somebody's window and shooting a guy in the hand. He
actually shot somebody right in front of me and here I am going
bowling with him? I really must be losing it. I already have so much
instability in my life. I just don't know if I can handle any more. Greg
has still been trying to call every day, even at odd hours of the morning.
I'm pretty sure I saw him sitting in a parked car outside Aubriella's
house the other day, too.
Damian plugs our names into the bowling computer, which seems like
it hasn't been upgraded in twenty years. He goes and picks out a bright
pink ball for me and a black ball for himself.
"Are you trying to get an advantage by giving me such a light
ball?" I ask.
He raises his eyebrows. "You want to pick your own? Be my guest."
I go set the pink ball down, moving past a group of young kids to find a
heavier red ball. I test the weight, and it is a little heavier than I'm used
to, but the stubborn part of me wants to prove I can handle it. I show
him the ball and try to give my best, what do you think of that' look.
He laughs. "Ladies first."
I take a deep breath, suddenly nervous that I' m going to gutterball it.
I've always been a decent bowler, but it would be just my luck to make
a fool of myself in front of him. I roll the ball down and it looks like it's
going straight for the gutter at first, but it starts to curve and eventually
hooks into the pins, knocking all but one down.
"Yes!" I yell, jumping a few times and shaking my fists.
Damian covers his mouth, trying not to laugh at me.
My face reddens and I try to walk back with as much dignity as I can
muster, waiting for my ball to come back in the return rack. My next
shot is nowhere near the pin, which makes Damian get a cocky smirk
on his face.
He lifts his ball, walking toward the pins. I can't help noticing how
good his broad, muscular back and tight ass look. His powerful hands
and forearms are corded and cut with so much muscle that I have
trouble

taking my eyes away from them. I'm suddenly sure he's going to bowl
strike after strike. He winds up and takes his shot, but the ball instantly
thumps into the gutter. "Shit!" he yells.
Now it's my turn to laugh. My laughter cuts short when someone taps
my shoulder. My heart nearly stops with fright, and when I turn to see
Greg, my stomach clenches. He looks like shit. His hair is a mess and
there's a stain on his shirt.
"What are you doing here?" I ask.
He scowls. "I could ask you the same thing. I didn't realize you were
such a slut."
Damian is beside me, his presence comforting and frightening at the
same time. More than anything, I'm worried he's going to do something
stupid, like hurt Greg, even though part of me wants him to.
"Fuck off," says Damian.
Greg steps forward, jabbing a finger into Damian's chest. "She's my
fiancée, pal. I don't know who you—"
Damian's hand closes around Greg's. The muscles in Damian's arm
stand out powerfully, veins growing more pronounced as the two men
lock eyes. Greg's look of confidence quickly dissolves to panic.
"Let me go."
Damian glances at me. To my surprise, he lets Greg go, even if he does
look reluctant about it.
Greg holds his hand to his chest, cradling it like it's broken. "You think
you're tough, right? Well, I had my people look into your criminal
record. There is so much dirt on you that I could get you put away with
as little as a word."
Damian takes a step closer until it's clear how much he towers over
Greg. "Let me make one thing clear. The only thing keeping me from
smashing your bleached teeth on this computer is Callie. Why don't
you fuck off to your trust fund and never come back."
Greg grits his teeth. "She is mine. "
I step forward and slap him hard across the face. The stunned look of
disbelief he gives me is more satisfying than I could have imagined. I
almost laugh, but the rage in my chest is enough to keep me from

breaking. "I'm not yours. I'm not anybody's thing anymore. You
decided that when you couldn't keep your little dick in your pants."
He clenches his fists, but looks at Damian and apparently decides he'll
have to settle for clenching his teeth. "I'm not done here," he says
before turning and storming off.

63
Damian
I take a look at the group of guys gathered around the restaurant. My
guys. It feels good to see shit starting to really come together. I pat
Brooks on the back and lean in close so only he can hear. "Anything I
need to know about?"
He gives me an uncertain look. "We had better talk." I nod, clapping
him once more on the shoulder and moving to make sure the doors are
locked. It's after-hours, but it never hurts to be careful. God knows I
learned that lesson the hard way.
"You all know not to spend the money, right?" There are grumbles and
nods around the room. Five guys, including Benny. Guys I hope I can
trust.
"What's the fucking point of ripping off all that shit if we can't have
some fun with the money?" asks Ramirez. He's as stupid as they come,
but the guy is a maniac with a gun or without one. Nobody fucks with
him, and it never hurts to have some muscle in your crew, even if you
don't plan for things to get violent.
"Have some patience," I say. "For one, if you start buying shit you don't
normally buy, it'll risk tipping off the feds. You'll have to trust me on
the rest, but just know that if anyone finds out we did this job, even if
it's just a rumor, it will royally fuck my plan."
"You want us to trust you, but you won't trust us?" asks Franco. He's a
clever kid. Young, ambitious, and the kind of guy I wouldn't mind
having at my right hand when all this comes to a head. He's also the
kind of guy I need to be careful of.
"Yeah. You got a problem with that? You can walk away and I'll keep
your share of the split."
Franco just grins, as if he knew I'd say something like that. "Everybody
else good?" I ask. They all nod and start to stand. "We'll be in touch." I
grab Brooks before they all leave and nod for him to follow me to the
back. From the corner of my eye, I see Benny watching us head to

the kitchen before he steps outside.
"So what's going on?" I ask Brooks, leaning on the stainless steel table
the cooks use to roll out dough.
He's a big guy with dark purple lips that remind me of a fish. Still, he
goes way back with my Pops, and he's loyal. "It's Benny," he says. "I
had to meet with family in Jersey the day after we pulled the scam. My
uncle took me to his favorite place and I saw Benny sitting at a table for
two with a guy who looked a whole hell of a lot like Cristiano Ricci."
Ice cold anger seeps into my veins. "You're sure?"
"No. It was dark as fuck in there and the two guys got up a few minutes
after we were seated. I never got a great look at them, but I'm pretty
sure it was Benny, and I'm pretty sure the other guy was Cristiano. I
wasn't even going to say anything about it until today. Benny has been
glaring at me like he wants to cut my fucking throat."
I nod. "You did good telling me, Brooks. Go on and get out of here. I'll
handle this."
Callie shows up for the morning shift a few hours later. I haven't slept
in at least a day, but seeing her gives me a shot of much-needed energy.
She has her hair done in some kind of complicated braid and looks
ridiculously hot. "I have some good news," I say.
"Oh?" she asks, quirking an eyebrow and crossing her arms. Cooks are
banging pans around in the back and servers are setting the tables, but
no one is paying us any attention in front of the bar.
"I'm promoting you to the head of marketing."
She shakes her head, expression falling. "I don't want you to feel like
you have to promote me just because we're...I don't even know."
"That's not why," I say, irritated that she is throwing my kindness back
in my face. "I looked up your work history. You were some a real
hotshot in the marketing world. I don't want to waste your talent behind
the bar."
Something in her expression shifts. "If you promise this isn't some
scheme to get in my pants again, I'll consider it."
I grin. "I can't promise that. Waking up in the morning is part of my
scheme to get in your pants again."

She finally smiles, biting her lip. "Okay, but let's call it a probationary
period. I can walk away at any time. Okay?"
"If you want to think you can walk away from me, fine. Deal."
"When do I start?"
"Now," I say, leading her to the back office, where she sits in my
chair.
"How does it feel?" I ask, leaning against the door and grinning.
"It feels good, actually. Really good. I should probably be afraid to
accept any favors from you, but I really appreciate this one. I've
actually been itching to get back into doing something more
challenging. It will help take my mind off things."
"You've been hearing from him?"
"Greg?"
"Yeah. Has he been bothering you still?"
"Some, I guess. It's nothing I can't handle though. Just some texts and
stuff like that."
"Why don't you block his number?"
"I did, but he must have some kind of connection with the phone
companies, too. It only lasted a few hours and then the texts started
coming back."
I frown. Normally, I would think she's just being paranoid, but I have a
guy who keeps an ear to the ground from inside the FBI and he said
there's been heat after my name lately, that one of the higher-ups started
showing an interest in me all of the sudden. Coincidentally, I got that
call the day after I squeezed little Greg's hand too hard and pissed him
off. I also just happened to get tailed by the Ricci's the day after I
pushed Greg's face into the door. I guess he really does have powerful
friends. Either way, fuck him. I'm not going to let some rich asshole
intimidate me.
"Anyway," she says. "If you want me to start today, I need to know
what my budget is. Advertising is all about money, and without—"
I cut her off. "Hey. I've got money. You just tell me what you need and
I' ll make it happen. Okay?"
She bites her lip. "Five thousand. To start."
I laugh. "Jesus Christ. You don't fuck around. I mean, yeah. If it's

going to take five grand to get this place bringing in more money, then
I' ll get you five grand."
My phone buzzes in my pocket. "Give me a minute," I say.
I leave Callie in the office where I can already hear her furiously typing
at the keyboard. I step into the walk-in freezer so she doesn't overhear.
"This is Damian."
"Damian Citrione?"
I clench my fists. I can already tell from the voice that it's a cop or a fed.
Still, I know better than to say anything, so I just wait.
"Right," says the voice. It drips with condescension. "Your type always
seems to think the law can't touch you. Well, what would happen if
someone tipped off the Anastasios or the Sanatores? What if they knew
you were trying to get them to tear each other to pieces? Hell, what if a
dead Ricci showed up and your prints were on the murder weapon?"
I squeeze the phone so hard that the glass screen cracks. This fucking...
"What's your name?" I ask. My voice is a hoarse whisper.
"Agent Conway. We'll be getting to know one another very soon. Don't
worry about that, Mr. Citrione."
"I don't know who you think you're fucking with, but I'm not the kind
of guy you want to make an enemy of."
"Maybe you should just start worrying about what's going to happen
when three of the most powerful crime families in the Northeast try to
find a way to hurt you. Where do you think they'll start?" I hear papers
ruffling over the phone. "Miss. Beccaccio, is it?"
I hang up the phone and slam my fist against the freezer door, denting
the thick metal and sending a jolting pain through my arm. Fuck.
There's no way the feds caught wind of our operation on their own. No
way in hell. A sinking feeling in my gut tells me Greg was involved. It
couldn't have been Benny. If he was meeting with the Cristiano Ricci
like Brooks thought, that could explain why they are tailing me. Even if
he had a reason to, he wouldn't dare go to the feds though. He'd be
crucified before they could even start the witness protection
paperwork.
I step out of the freezer and hear the faint sound of Callie humming
from inside my office. Cold dread spreads through me. I know what I
need to do. Agent Conway was right about one thing, if the families

come after me, they will start with her. I can't put her through that, not
after everything she's already been through. It hurts even more because
I' ve never been so driven to keep someone safe as I am with Callie. It
tells me that she really is more to me than just a casual fuck. She
worked her way deeper in me than that, and now I have to throw away
the only real connection I've ever had with a woman. It's the only way
to keep her safe.
I open the door and she looks up at me, smiling. "I made a Twitter
account for the restaurant. Do you want to see our first official tweet?"
I take a deep breath. "I made a mistake getting involved. This won't
work. I can get you a few month's pay, anything you need, but you have
to go."
Her face freezes, somewhere between shock and disbelief. "I don'
t—what do you mean?"
"I mean it's over. We're done. You need to leave. You should go back
home, just get out of town. I'll make sure you have money until you
find another job."
She closes the laptop slowly, holding her hand on it and staring at the
wall. Callie purses her lips, stands, and rushes from the room without
another word. I watch her go, hoping I' m doing the right thing, hoping
this is the best way to keep her safe.

68

Callie
I stare at the ceiling, feeling completely numb. I lost track of how long
I've been here on Aubriella's couch. I was going to just grab the few
things I have and leave, but Julia saw the way I left and risked her job to
leave the restaurant and come over to talk to me. My head is in her lap
and she's running her fingers through my hair. I don't think about my
parents much anymore, but her fingers on my scalp bring me back,
reminding me of how my mom used to play with my hair while we
watched TV.
"My mom used to run her fingers through my hair like this," I say,
closing my eyes. "Before everything went to shit." "What happened?"
asks Julia.
I laugh humorlessly. "What didn't? I was ungrateful, she was spiteful.
We clashed. A lot."
"What about your dad?"
"He was like her lapdog. Once she kicked me out, he disappeared. They
both did. I had to grow up real fast. It's how I ended up settling for a guy
like Greg. I was seventeen, homeless, and about to graduate high
school with no money to pay for college or a place to live. I was
sleeping on friends' couches and skipping meals to save money. It
seemed like Greg had everything, money, connections, good looks...I
actually thought I was lucky when he wanted to date me and solve all
my problems."
"Why did they kick you out?"
"My mom took out as much money in loans as she could under my
name with no intention of paying them back. I even tried helping her
pay them off but she just kept taking out more debt in my name as soon
as I freed up the credit. When I went to the police about it, she
disowned me, said I was ruining her life."
"You have to be kidding," says Julia. "She did that to her own
daughter?"
"I wish I was kidding. I never would have ended up with a guy like
Greg if they hadn't kicked me out. Greg seemed like the answer to all
my prayers. For a while I relied on him to pay for college, then he made

sure I got a really good job with his father's company, and then the
house and bank accounts were in his name. I had everything, but I knew
it'd all go away if I left him." I sigh. "And then I caught him cheating."
"Men are assholes."
"So was the woman who thought it was okay to fuck him on our kitchen
table."
Julia laughs. "Good point." She grabs a pillow and slips out from under
my head, sliding the pillow in to take her place. "I think you could use
another Cosmic Brownie."
"Twist my arm, why don't you," I say, smiling.
She comes back with the brownie and a glass of water. I thank her and
sit up, taking a long gulp of water.
There's a look on Julia's face when she sits down. She's holding
something wrapped in a paper towel. My stomach clenches when I
realize what it is. I've been doing everything I can not to think about it,
but seeing it in her hand is like a slap in the face from reality. I can't just
throw it away. I can't hide from it. Somehow I know when she says
what she's about to say, it's going to become real.
"Callie...I'm sorry for snooping, but I saw this when I went to throw
away the brownie box." She holds up the pregnancy test. "This is yours,
right? It's positive."
Fresh tears roll down my cheeks. I nod my head, looking down and
twisting my fingers together. "I don't know if it's his." I say.
"Damian's?" she asks.
"Yes," I say, sniffing and wiping away more tears. "I never wanted
children with Greg, but I caught him using a safety pin to poke holes in
a condom once. I just...I don't know." I cover my face with my hands.
Julia sits beside me, hugging me tightly. "Hey. We'll figure this out. Do
either of them know?"
I shake my head. "I was going to tell Damian, before..."
Someone knocks at the door.
Julia hides the pregnancy test under a pillow and moves to answer it. I
follow close behind, watching as she swings the door open to reveal
two men in black leather jackets. "Oh," says the first. He has a thick
italian accent. My eyes trace his outline, noticing the bulge at his hip. A

gun.
"Excuse us," says the other man. He has the same accent. They both
have dark hair and thick eyebrows. Brothers, maybe. "We must have
the wrong house."
Both men turn to leave, but one looks over his shoulder in a way that
gives me chills. I don't know what it means, but I have a feeling they
knew exactly who would answer the door. I just can't figure what
message they were trying to send. Were they Damian's people? Is he
trying to make sure I leave? Or did he push me away because he's in
some kind of danger?
Julia closes the door and turns to me, giving me a puzzled look.
I hug myself tightly, wishing I could still go to Damian. I've known him
for a little less than a month and he's already upended my life. When it
seemed like he wanted me unconditionally, it felt like I had all the time
in the world to decide what I felt about him and how I wanted things to
be between us. Now that he's gone, all I can think of is how badly I wish
I still had him. The way he ended things made no sense. One minute he
was himself, and the next he was completely different, cold and
uncaring. I don't know who was on the other end of that phone, but I
know they are the reason he threw me away.
"Thanks for agreeing to meet with me," says Greg. He's wearing a
black polo with light pink khaki shorts and boat shoes. His blonde hair
is slicked to the side and his face is clean shaven. I used to think he was
attractive, now all I can see is his insecurity. He blinds everyone around
him with money and hopes they don't see through to the weakness
beneath.
We' re in a small, family owned coffee shop. I chose somewhere public
and busy on the off chance that Greg would try something stupid, like
kidnapping me. There was also the distant creeping fear I felt after the
two Italian men showed up at the house. Greg is drinking some foamy
drink that took him several minutes to explain to the barista. I have a
coffee with cream and sugar.
"I want to know what you did to him," I say coldly.
"To who? That brute you were fucking?"

My fingernails dig into my knees beneath the table. With an effort, I
control myself. "To Damian."
The shadow of a self-satisfied smile flickers across Greg's face, but he
suppresses it, doing his best attempt at an innocent face. "I called a few
people and got some information about him. I just wanted to learn more
about this guy you were risking your future to be with. How much did
he tell you about what he does?"
"He told me everything," I say flatly. It's a complete lie, but lying to
Greg doesn't feel wrong at all. It feels good, even.
Greg sniffs. "Right. So he told you about the drugs he was selling?
Heroine, I think it was. You would know though, right?"
I shift in my seat. "He told me everything." My voice is a little quieter
this time. He could be lying. He probably is lying.
Greg senses my unease and his smile widens. "What were the charges
again? Distributing narcotics to minors? Human trafficking? My
memory is fuzzy, maybe you can remind me of the details?"
I slam my fist on the table, making Greg jump and several people turn
their heads toward us. "Don't fuck with me," I say. "You cheated on
me. You manipulated me for years. You didn't want me when you had
me, and now you're just mad because you're so fucking entitled that
you can't stand the idea of something that belonged to you being taken
away. So drop the protective act. Quit pretending you care at all about
what's best for me." And dear God, please don't let this baby be yours.
He pulls his head back, lip twitching. He points his finger at me and
opens his mouth to speak and then clenches his hand into a fist and
grimaces. "I do care about what's best for you. I'm best for you.
That...thug certainly isn't. I know that much."
I push my chair back and stand. "That thug apparently agrees, because
he fired me and told me he never wants to see me again. So you'll have
to find some other way to try to make my life miserable now. Just leave
him alone."

73

Damian
I push Ramirez up against the wall behind the restaurant. He's got a few
inches and a few pounds on me, but everybody knows not to fuck with
me, and he looks as scared as he should be.
"What part of don't buy anything excessive did you not understand?"
"I was going to buy a new car anyway, it's only a few hundred a month
more than the one I was going to get."
"You bought a fucking eighty thousand dollar car. You think the feds
knew you were planning on buying one anyway? You're a fucking
garbage man. Don't you think throwing that kind of money around is
going to set off some red flags for them?"
"How the fuck should I know?"
I grip his shirt tight, pulling my other hand back and trying as hard as I
can not to punch him until he's unrecognizable. I relax my fist, the only
thing keeping me from violence is the thought of Callie's face. "You
should know because I told you. In plain fucking English. I didn't even
use any big words so there's no reason it shouldn't have sunk into your
thick skull."
He scowls. "So what am I supposed to do?"
"Get rid of it."
"You know how much money I'll lose if I sell it now?" I jab a finger at
him. "You're going to lose a lot more than money if you don't."
I watch Ramirez leave a minute later, feeling empty inside. Before I
met Callie, there was nothing I wanted more than to head my own
familia. More than that, I wanted revenge against the fuckers who got
me locked up. I don't know how many times I pictured it: looking at the
Sanatore rats tied up in chairs, bruised and bloody, sliding a gun inside
their mouths one by one and pulling the trigger. If it wasn't for the
Sanatores, I never would have gone to prison, never would have
become so distant with my family. They royally fucked up my life and
they need to pay for that.
Now it all seems so distant. I still want to kill those pieces of shit,

but it doesn't seem as important anymore. I only had Callie for a little
while, if I even had her at all, and now she's gone. Losing her has made
everything else seem less. I don't know if I realized it at the time, but
being with her made me start to picture a future where I could be happy,
even if I never get the power and revenge I've been after.
If I've learned one thing, it's that good things don't last. Not for people
like me, at least. Maybe I don't deserve them. God knows I've done
terrible things. Bloody things. Maybe this is my punishment. I get a
taste of what life could be like for someone else, and then it's ripped
away.
My phone rings. I sit down on a crate behind the restaurant, sighing.
Unknown number.
I pick up but don't say anything.
"Cristiano Ricci sends his regards," says the voice. It's a calm voice, no
accent. Not a voice I recognize. "Is that right?" I ask.
"He has a proposition for you. Come to 1486 Leaf Street in thirty
minutes and come alone."
"How about I shove a stick up my ass and put an apple in my mouth too
and save you assholes the trouble?"
"You won't be harmed."
I laugh. "Yeah, I'm sure. If he wants to meet me, he can find me at The
Spot. If he doesn't know where it is, he has thirty minutes to find out
where it is and get here."
I hang up the phone, letting out a long breath through my nose. It's
reckless to even agree to meet him on my own turf. The Riccis are
about as trustworthy as feral dogs. At the same time, having a feral dog
on my side when my back is against the wall might not be a terrible
thing. It might even get the feds off my back some if the Riccis get into
the fray. There will be so much blood in the streets that I'll seem like a
small fish. Maybe then I could try to patch things up with Callie. It's a
long shot. It's reckless. But I don't really have anything left to lose.
I' m about to give up waiting for Cristiano when I see a black sedan pull
up to the restaurant. The place is relatively busy, which gives me a

little confidence that the Riccis won't come in and try to kill me. Not
right now at least. It all depends on how much they know. If they think
I'm just some small-time player who is in the wrong place at the wrong
time, they might try to put me on their board and use me. If they realize
I' m the one who is actually moving the pieces, things might get
complicated.
A man in a white suit and sunglasses steps out of the car. He's thin, in
his forties with black hair that's slicked back and wet with product. He
pops the wrinkles out of his jacket and then strides toward the
restaurant. I can see the vague outline of other people waiting in the car
behind the heavily tinted windows.
Before he even reaches the restaurant, I see a black SUV slowly come
to a stop across the street. Two guys in baseball caps turn their heads
toward the restaurant. Feds. They are so fucking obvious it hurts, but I
guess they don't care. We can't touch them, and they know it. I just wish
I knew if they were watching me or Cristiano.
He finds my table and sits down. If anyone in the restaurant knew how
much potential violence was brewing, they would be trampling one
another to get to the exits. They have no idea.
"Damian," says Cristiano. "I've heard so much about you." He has a
subtle Italian accent and perfectly white teeth, except for a slightly
yellowing canine that I can't seem to look away from.
"Good things, I hope."
He spreads his hands. "That depends whose side you're on." "And
whose side are you on?"
Cristiano leans back, twisting something on the watch he wears. The
gears tick and wind as his manicured fingers swirl it again and again.
"That depends. Who killed Carlito? Maybe you don't know this, but his
sister is married to my little brother. She was highly distressed when
she heard the news."
I nod. My mind races, running through the possible ways I could play
this. On one hand, Cristiano may have already decided I killed Carlito.
In that case, I'm fucked either way and he's just hoping to figure out
who I was working against. On the other hand, he might actually think
I know something. If he takes my word for it, I have the

opportunity to sick the Ricci dogs on the Sanatores or the Anastasios.
"What makes you think I know who killed him?" I ask. "The feds seem
to think you know."
I raise an eyebrow. "Why would they tell you. Unless you're ratting to
them."
Carlito's calm evaporates in an instant. He leans forward, eyebrows
drawn and lips curled. "I've killed men for less."
"Yet here I am, still breathing," I say. "I'm not interested in threats. If
you want to fucking go, we'll go. Otherwise, why don't you just skip the
tough guy shit."
Carlito takes a deep breath, lips still twitching. "We have some
connections. Money in the right hands." He gives me an impatient look,
clearly telling me more than he planned.
"I may know something about who killed him, but why would I tell
you?"
"What's your price?"
"Blood," I say, clenching my fists under the table. "Anastasio blood." If
he takes the bait, It will get the Anastasios out of the picture and leave
the Sanatores for me. Either way, it will get the Ricci's off my ass,
which would be a welcome relief.
I pull up outside Vince's house. Callie's car is in the driveway. Good. I
was worried she might just leave town as soon as I cut ties with her. I
still can't help feeling like I did the wrong thing. Agent Conway was
right though, even if he was an asshole. Being with me would make her
a target. If they think I've thrown her aside, they won't bother trying to
use her against me.
Then I see the black sedan parked a few houses down. The engine is
running and there are two men sitting in the car. Are they watching her?
Shit. I get out of the car, tucking my gun in my waistband and walking
toward the car. Before I get there, the car backs up into a driveway and
the driver guns it, not slowing down until they are out of sight.
I look toward Vince's house, gritting my teeth. She's going to want to
kill me, but I need to make sure she's still safe. I have to.

79

Callie
I pack the last of what little I own in my suitcase and take one final look
in the mirror. I look terrible. There are bags under my eyes from crying
and lack of sleep. One month and I've been cheated on and thrown
away by a criminal who probably got me pregnant. The sooner I can
put this behind me, the better. I'm not wearing makeup, and my clothes
are anything but fresh. Considering what I've been through, I give
myself a pass. The part that shocks me is how much more it hurt to lose
Damian than it did to lose Greg.
I don't think I ever consciously knew it, but catching Greg cheating on
me didn't really surprise me. It just pissed me off. It made me feel like
an idiot. Like one of those women I always got mad at in movies who
were so blind to what was right in front of them. I zip up the suitcase
and lug it down the winding staircase. Would it have killed them to
install an elevator? The staircase looks beautiful, but after walking up
and down it on a regular basis, I find myself just wishing it went in a
straight line and saved me the steps.
I know I' m probably forgetting something, but I need to just leave. I
don' t even know where I' m going to go. I can try calling some other
old friends from high school, maybe. I guess I'll be begging for couches
to crash on until I can find another advertising job to get me back on my
feet. I'm not going to let Damian pay me off to try to make everything
okay. I can make my own way, I just can't stay here. Aubriella won't be
out of town forever, and knowing I'm still so close to Damian hurts too
much.
I' ll have to call Aubriella and offer to pay to have someone else come
watch her house until they get back. I just hope she doesn't ask
questions. I don't want her to know how much of a mess I am.
I should be thankful. I knew being with him was a bad idea. I mean,
what kind of person knowingly gets involved with a guy in the mafia? I
would always have to look over my shoulder and wonder if someone
was after us. I'd know the lips I was kissing were the lips of a killer. I
lean against the wall as an unexpected wave of emotion makes my legs
weak. God. He's probably the father. Greg never got me

pregnant in however many years he was probably trying to poke holes
in condoms. What are the chances that it would suddenly work?
If Damian is the father.. .I can't even go there right now. Instead, I see
images of myself in a shitty apartment, trying to soothe a screaming
baby while I struggle to do work with my free hand. A single mom. But
I' ll take it over going to Greg for help.
There's a knock at the door. I start, standing straight and wiping the
tears from my eyes. Thankfully I'm not wearing mascara, so I clean up
most of the damage before opening the door. My breath catches when I
see him. He's wearing a dark suit that fits him perfectly. His hair is
pushed to the side carelessly, but still manages to look elegant and
classy. His strong jaw is flexing as his dark eyes take me in hungrily.
Even though I know he's through with me, I can't stop from wanting to
go to him, to wrap my arms around him and beg him to keep me.
"Callie," he says.
I take a deep breath. Don't be weak. "What do you want?" I ask. His
face falls a little. "Has anyone else been by?" "You don't get to ask me
those questions anymore. You threw me away."
He steps forward, putting his strong hands on my shoulders. I feel a
thrill of excitement rush through me, making me warm and cold at the
same time. "Answer my fucking question."
I glare at him. Something inside me feels like it's on fire, like I could hit
him or scream. "No."
He's inches from me, hands still on my shoulders. I hear him take in a
slow breath through his nose. "I need to know," he says through
clenched teeth.
"Too fucking bad," I say, stepping back and trying to close the door on
him.
He slaps a hand to the door, holding it open effortlessly. I struggle
against it, glaring at him. All the anger and disappointment is coming to
the surface and I can't stop it. I just want to stop being thrown away and
mistreated. I want a man to want me, to crave me, to think I'm so
valuable that they wouldn't do anything to risk losing me. Looking at
the man who is probably the father of my unborn child and knowing
he'll

never feel that way about me lights an unquenchable rage inside me.
He steps inside, slamming the door behind him. His massive form
blocks the doorway, wide shoulders and powerful hands clenched. He's
the incarnation of rage and power. I take a step back. "I' m trying to
protect you," he growls.
"You've done a really great job of that," I say, backing into the couch
and losing my balance. I fall on my ass, scooting back away from him
as he comes closer.
"I didn't want it to be this way," he says, still walking slowly toward
me.
"You got what you wanted. You fucked me and left. I shouldn't have
been surprised."
"I wanted more," he says quietly.
I reach the end of the couch, having no more room to back away from
him. He looms over me. Something strange passes over his face, and
my eyes wander down his body, realizing his cock is hard, straining
against his slacks. I know I should feel terrified, appalled that he would
force himself into the house and corner me like this, but my body is
responding to him. My core clenches, spreading a blossoming warmth
between my legs. Why am I so fucked up? Why is this turning me on? "I
wanted you to be mine," he says.
"Fuck you," I say. "You don't get to come back here and do this. You
already tossed me aside. It's not fair to do this. You can't just take me
when it suits you."
He glares. "What makes you think you can talk to me like that? I should
teach you a fucking lesson."
My heart starts pounding even harder in my chest. Why do I want him
to teach me a lesson? Why does imagining his hand slapping my bare
ass make me feel giddy with excitement? A confused ball of emotion
wells in my chest when I realize what I'm about to say. "Fuck. You." I
say.
He lunges forward, pinning me to the couch. His voice is barely above
a whisper in my ear. "Do you remember the safe word?"
This is my chance. I can end it. I could. I should. But I don't want to.
My body doesn't want to. I need this too much. "Yes," I whisper.

He grabs my sweatpants and yanks them off. I try to get away from
him, kicking my feet as he manhandles me, but his hands are like steel
vises, inescapable and impossibly powerful. Even as I curse at him and
yell, I feel more turned on than I've ever felt. Even though I know one
word can stop it all, the fear of his power amplifies everything else.
Feeling how powerless I am against him is strangely liberating.
He flips me over, trying to get my shirt off. I manage to scratch his face,
leaving four red lines on his cheek. He growls, shredding my thin white
shirt effortlessly until I'm left in my bra and panties. He takes his jacket
off and tosses it carelessly on the ground. He fumbles at his belt with
his free hand and pushes me down by the chest with his other hand.
"I' m going to teach you a fucking lesson," he says.
I squirm, trying to free myself, but unable to. He climbs on the couch
beside me and positions his head between my legs, grinning up at me
like a devil. I make a show of resisting, kicking my legs and twisting
my hips, but seeing his full lips between my legs has me practically
soaked with anticipation. I want to feel him again, to feel his tongue
against me and inside me.
He puts his hands down hard on my hips, pinning me to the couch and
licking me through my panties.
"You taste so fucking good."
I moan, writhing against him and shaking with need. He grabs the
waistband of my panties and yanks, snapping it like a rubber band.
Having my clothes literally torn off is so incredibly hot. The warmth of
his mouth on my bare mound is almost more than I can handle. He laps
at me like he's relishing every second of it, and I can't bring myself to
even pretend to resist anymore. My hands dig in his hair, squeezing
hard and pushing him harder into me, deeper.
Being with him like this makes everything feel okay. It's not perfect,
and it's not right, but it's better than being alone and abandoned. With
his beautiful head between my legs lighting my nerves on fire, I feel
like I can forget for the first time in days.
He kisses the insides of my thighs, running his tongue along the crease
between my leg and my pussy. I gasp, throwing my head back and
squeezing my eyes shut.

"Fuck me," I beg.
He stands, pulling his unbuckled belt free and sliding his pants down.
He's only wearing the blood-red button down shirt with the buttons
undone. His perfectly carved body is tantalizingly close to being bare.
"Take off my underwear and suck my cock," he says.
I bite my lip. Why is this all turning me on so much? I've never had sex
like this. Not even close. I've never even fantasized about this kind of
sex, but God, I have a feeling that's going to change.
I get on my knees in front of him and reach to pull his boxers down. He
grabs my wrists, looking down at me and shaking his head. "Take them
off with your mouth."
I blush, nodding and moving to use my teeth to pull his underwear
down. A chill passes through me to have my mouth so close to his cock.
His scent fills my nose, raw and absolutely irresistible. I breathe it in
deeply through my nose, fighting the urge to slide my hand between my
legs and give my clit the friction it's begging for.
His cock springs free, resting against my cheek. I move my mouth to
the base of his length, kissing him and sliding my tongue along his
length, kissing him and cupping his warmth in my hands as I work my
way to the tip. He's so long that I have to scoot back a little to reach. I
swirl my tongue around him, using my lips to keep my teeth from
scraping him. He's so wide I can barely fit him in my mouth.
I find a rhythm, working my hands across him and swirling my tongue
along the rim of his head. He grabs a fistfull of my hair, pushing my
head down on him so far that I gag. He works in and out of me,
groaning with satisfaction and throwing his head back. He bends his
neck to watch me, and I move my eyes up his gorgeous body to meet
his gaze. His eyes dart to the side, locking on something behind me.
Without warning, he pulls himself out of my mouth and walks away. I
turn, distracted at first by his perfect ass. He picks something up from
the couch and holds it in front of his eyes, staring intently.
Oh shit. It's the pregnancy test.
"What's this?" he asks.
He turns. I barely even notice his naked body. My heart is

pounding and I feel like I'm gasping for breath. "It's..." "You're
pregnant," he says. "Is it mine?"
I shake my head, suddenly self-conscious of my nakedness. I cover
myself with my hands. "I don't know. It could be. I always made Greg
use protection, but I caught him trying to damage the condoms before."
I swallow hard. "I don't want it to be his," I say quietly.
He gives me a hopeful look, tossing the test to the floor and moving to
kneel beside me. He takes my head in his hands, looking intently in my
eyes. "If this baby is mine. then so are you."
My stomach turns over. God. I want that. I really do. Even if being with
him is dangerous, I'll take it. I can live with that. I want to be with him.
I want him to be the father.
"If it's Greg's," I say, "He's going to do everything he can to make sure
he gets custody."
"Fuck him," says Damian.
The simplicity of how he sees the world is refreshing. He doesn't care if
Greg has the money and connections to do almost anything. He doesn't
dwell on the past or what could happen. He just acts, moving forward
with a relentless confidence that can't be dampened. Maybe that's what
draws me to him so much. He's so many things I'm not, and he's strong
in ways I'm not. Part of me wants to tame him, to take the wild and
violence out of him.
"His father is friends with the district attorney," I say. "He could—"
Damian silences me by kissing me so hard that it knocks me back. He
falls on top of me, catching my head with his hand and straddling me.
He's ripping his shirt off with his free hand and then my bra. Within
moments, we're both completely naked. His cock presses against my
entrance. He rocks his hips, spreading my wetness and sliding inside
me easily. My walls stretch to fit him, but it's a pleasant pain, a
comfortable fullness.
He leans down and kisses me softly for the first time, his lips like satin
against mine and his tongue a warm caress. His hips move like a
well-oiled machine, smoothly pistoning his cock into me. I feel my
body mounting toward a climax rapidly. Emotion and sensation swirl
together,

forming a perfect torrent of ecstatic release that washes away pain and
uncertainty. I dig my fingers into his back, wrapping my legs around
him, trying to get him to fill me even more deeply.
He flexes, squeezing his hands against my hips as his cock pulses. A
rush of warmth fills me, triggering my own climax. I gasp like I've been
plunged in cold water. My body shudders. An explosion of pleasure
wipes my worries and pain away in a blissful burst of white light. For a
few quivering moments, everything feels like it will be okay, like being
with him is right and there's no need to ever question that.
When the aftershocks of my orgasm fade and he lays beside me on the
floor, thin tendrils of doubt creep through my body. I know if the baby
isn't his, he'll leave. It has to be his, or this will all end. Even if it is, will
he really stay? And what kind of father would he be?
He leans over to kiss me again, but I stop him with a finger to his chin.
His eyes search mine.
"What will you do if the baby is Greg's?" I ask.
"Maybe I'll just kill Greg."
I scowl. "That's not funny."
He smirks, but the humor quickly fades from his face. "All I know is
that I need to make sure you're safe. That both of you are safe."
I narrow my eyes at him, standing to start putting my clothes on again
"Why wouldn't we be?"
Damian watches me admiringly. "You know what kind of man I am,
Callie."
I do. Too well. "So what are you going to do, lock me in a cage until I
give birth?"
He strokes his chin. "That's not a bad idea."
I pull my sweatpants up over my naked flesh, because someone thinks
the only way to take panties off is shredding them like an animal.
"Don't even think about it."
"You're going to come stay with me, at least. It's too dangerous here."
He stands and starts putting his own clothes back on.
It' s hard to focus while I watch his naked body move. Every muscle is
perfect, strong and defined with no fat softening his edges. He catches
me looking and gives me a look that says he will happily fuck

me again if I want it. I blush deeply, pulling my half-shredded shirt
over my head without bothering to put a bra on.
"I need to call someone to watch the house for Aubriella before I
go."
"I'll have my guys handle that."
"And what if I don't want to go with you? How can I trust you after
what you did?"
"You weren't complaining when my head was between your legs." I
purse my lips. "Just because..!, well..." I wave my hand in frustration.
"There's a difference between being what I need physically and what I
need emotionally."
He steps close enough to kiss me, freezing me with his dark eyes. "You
need me. End of story."
I shudder, despite how irritated I am with him. He thinks he can just
lock those bedroom eyes on me and solve everything. The frustrating
part is how I can't think straight when he's looking at me.
"Okay," I say, licking my lips. My heart is pounding from being so
close to him. It doesn't seem to matter that I've already slept with him
twice now, I feel like I' m a little girl again, having a borderline panic
attack just from being near a cute guy. "I'll go with you. For now. But
you have to give me my job back."
He quirks an eyebrow and a grin pulls at the corner of his mouth.
"You're making demands now?"
"Yes," I say, hoping he doesn't see the way I'm fiddling with my hands.
"Fine. It's yours." He leans in and kisses me softly, sending chills
through me with one brush of his fingertip along my jawline. His hand
falls to my stomach. He holds it there, looking in my eyes. "I think we'll
name him Victor."
I can't help from smiling. "Or Victoria?"
Damian lives in a Colonial style house a few miles north of Aubriella's
house. I raise my eyebrows when we pull up. "You live here?" I ask.
"What did you expect?"

I shake my head. I really don't know what I expected. Did I think he' d
live in some kind of brick building underground with pictures of old
Italian men and the Italian countryside? "Nevermind," I say, feeling
silly.
He carries my only bag of belongings up the few steps of the wide
whitewashed porch framed by elegant columns. The interior is
shockingly well-maintained. The floor is polished wood that gleams.
The crown molding along the walls is perfectly white and free of dirt. It
has a dated, but elegant and classic feeling. I'm immediately warmed
and comforted by the atmosphere. It's the kind of place you could curl
up and read a good book with a warm blanket while a fire crackles
somewhere in the distance. There's a view of rolling green and
well-manicured lawns through every window.
"How do you afford all of this?" I ask. "The restaurant can't possibly." I
trail off at the look on his face.
I guess it wasn't the most polite question I could have asked, but the
look of darkness on his face went beyond impropriety. It's clearly a
topic I' m not supposed to talk about. He leads me to the bedroom with
my suitcase, setting it inside the large closet.
"Who said I'm sleeping in your room?"
He looks genuinely confused for a second. "I want you and my baby as
close as I can get you. I'll know you're safe that way."
I smile a little. Hearing him talk about the baby like it's already here is
oddly comforting. Still, it makes me feel strange. I never thought I'd be
a parent. Not in a million years. All I ever knew was that I didn't want
kids. I didn't think about why. Now I can see that I didn't want kids
because I thought I'd always be with Greg. How was I so blind? It
wasn't kids I didn't want, it was Greg I didn't want. I was terrified of
giving him a permanent tether to me, and yet I said yes when he
proposed because I couldn't think of a good enough reason to say no.
Thinking about all of the wasted time makes me feel a little sick, or
maybe it's the beginnings of morning sickness. I haven't even had time
to look online and see what to expect. Greg always kept me from
getting too close to many other women, or men for that matter. I've
never even had a friend who has had a baby. The extent of my
knowledge comes

from movies and TV shows.
I quietly unpack my few belongings, finding empty space in the
well-organized closet across from Damian's things. "Is that all you
have?" he asks. "I left in a little bit of a hurry."
Damian kneels and works the lock on a small safe in the corner of the
closet. He opens it and reaches inside, rooting around for a second then
pulling out a roll of money held together by a rubber band. He tosses it
to me and I catch it, surprised by how heavy it is. I nearly drop it in
shock when I see that they are all one hundred dollar bills. "I can't take
this," I say.
He shrugs. "You're going to have to, because I'm not taking it
back."
I shake my head, reaching to hand it to him. He takes my hand and
pushes it to my chest, closing his strong hands around mine. "I want
you to have it. Consider it an advance for the work you're going to do
for the restaurant."
" I . " My eyes well with tears. Greg never just gave me anything. He
bought me plenty of nice things, but he never just gave. There was
always some catch, something he expected out of the exchange,
whether it was going with him to an event, behaving in front of his
parents, or forgiving him when he was an asshole. Damian must want
something, too, and I just can't see what it is...yet.
"I'll make sure you have a car you can use. We can go out tomorrow."
"What's wrong with my car?" I ask.
"It's marked. They probably have trackers on it by now. They'll know
exactly where you are. Besides, that asshole gave it to you. Fuck him."
I feel my anxiety level rise a little. Is he just being paranoid, or is it
really that dangerous to be connected to him?
"Come on," he says. "I want to show you where the safe room is."
"Safe room?"
He shows me a door that looks oddly out of place in a spare bedroom
connected to his by a shared bathroom. The door is heavy metal

and looks like something you would see in a bank vault. There's a
touchscreen outside the door. Damian taps through a few options on a
touchscreen display, holds his finger to the pad, and then takes my
hand. He presses my finger to the pad and waits until a green light scans
it.
"You need in, just put your fingertip here. Okay?"
I grin a little. "You don't think this is a little paranoid?"
"Maybe," he says. "But I have a lot of enemies. In my line of work, if
they can't beat you at the game, they play dirty. I needed a place to slip
to and escape if it came to that."
I wonder for the hundredth time what I' m getting myself into.

91

Damian
Even though my house is about as safe as it gets, I feel uneasy leaving
Callie at home. The plan is quickly turning into something
unpredictable and new, though, and I can't just disappear and hope it
resolves on its own. I'm headed to a bar outside Boulder Hill to meet
Benny when my phone rings.
"What is it?" I ask, not even looking at who called because Brooks said
he'd call this morning.
"This is Agent Conway."
My hand tightens on the steering wheel. "I hope you're calling to tell
me you gave up."
"On the contrary, I just thought you should know about a folder that
landed on my desk this morning." I hear papers ruffling over the phone.
"Jordan Ramirez? Waste management consultant, it seems. Just
purchased an eighty thousand dollar car last week. I just can't get my
head around where the money came from. I mean, there was also a case
on my desk about a string of semi-trucks carrying industrial materials
that were robbed. So imagine my confusion when I saw that a certain
Benny Frankato was apparently moving large quantities of goods
through some known fencers."
My heart pounds in my chest. I wish this cocksucker was in front of me
so I could just reach out and snap his neck, but he's not, and he's got my
fucking number. He found out about the scam because Benny was too
lazy or too stupid to go out of town with the goods like I told him to and
because Ramirez blew the cash like I told him not to.
"Interesting theory, Agent," I say. "I still don't see what any of this has
to do with me. "
"Of course. You'll have to pardon me. I'm just an old man thinking out
loud here. We'll find out who the mastermind is when he decides to
spend the money. I don't know why I'm even bothering hunting down
all
the details."
I clench my teeth. I don't know if he's bluffing or if he really will spot
the cash moving somehow. Bluff or not, if his goal was to piss me off
and make me think twice about spending the money like I planned,

he succeeded. It feels like everything's falling apart around me, but if I
think fast, I know I can still make this mess turn out in my favor. Even
if Cristiano takes my bait and goes after the Anastasios, I'm still in a
shittier position than when I started. I'll have to take on the Sanatores at
full strength, and they are an old familia with deep roots in Italy. No
one ever knows exactly how much muscle a familia has, but I'm not
going to be able to force them out of town if I try to match them blow
for blow. I' ll have to come at them another way.
"I' m a busy man, Agent Conway. Next time you want to call to chat,
why don't you try your mother instead?"
Conway laughs in a dry, humorless way. "We'll see who is calling their
mother when this is all over. Oh, I almost forgot. Did you need any help
getting Mrs. Beccaccio moved into your place?"
I grit my teeth together, really wishing this fucker was somewhere I
could see. I'd empty an entire clip into his smug face if I could. "Have a
good day, Agent," I say, hanging up the phone.
I park outside the distribution center where Ramirez works and wait for
him to come outside. It's about thirty minutes before he shows up,
tossing the keys to the fucking car he still hasn't gotten rid of and
catching them. He looks happy as a pig in shit, and it's all I can do not to
put a bullet in him right here and now.
I blink my lights when he passes in front of my car. A couple of the
guys he's with look toward my car, but only Ramirez catches the
significance. He looks both ways, almost as if he's thinking about
running, and then he mouths something, probably a curse, and gets in
the car.
"Damian. I didn't expect to see you here."
"And I didn't expect you to be dumb enough to keep the car. Did I not
make myself clear?"
He sniffs, scratching his nose and leaning back. "I'm looking for
someone to pay me what it's worth. I might as well use it until then."
I grab his shirt, pushing him back until his head hits the passenger
window. "You get rid of the car today or I' m going to fucking bury you
in it. Do you understand?"

He swallows. "Come on, Damian. You've known my uncle since you
were a little kid. You don't have to say shit like that to me."
"I'm already catching heat because you didn't get rid of the car when I
told you to because you wanted to save a few bucks. A few bucks, by
the way, you wouldn't have had to save if I didn't set you up with the
scam job."
"So if they already know about it, what difference does it make if I
keep it?"
My hands tighten around his shirt. I imagine smashing his head against
something hard until it breaks. But I don't. I have too much to lose now.
It's not just about revenge or making it big anymore, it's about being
there for Callie.
"The difference," I say through gritted teeth, "is that I told you to get rid
of the fucking car. So you're going to get rid of it."
He nods his head slowly. "You're right. I'm sorry. I'll get rid of it.
Today."
I let him go. "Good. Now get out of my sight."
Ramirez practically falls over himself in his hurry to get out of the car.
I still don't know how everything went to shit so fast. I had so long in
prison to think this through. I thought I had gone over every possibility,
but I never thought I'd let a woman come between me and revenge.
Never. I can hardly blame myself, though. Before prison, the only thing
women were to me was a warm place to put my cock for a few nights
until I got bored. It's almost funny. The first time a woman isn't
practically begging me to stick around, I can't bring myself to walk
away.
I know the smart thing to do. All I'd have to do is go back to my place,
kick Callie out, and get this fucking rich ex-fiance of hers out of my
hair. But I know I' m never going to do that. She means way too much
to me. Oddly enough, so does the baby growing in her belly, even if it's
not mine. Just thinking about the baby makes protective feelings surge
through me. I have a red hot desire to kill every cocksucker that is
trying to put the squeeze on Callie and I. I'm surprised to realize how
much I want the baby to be mine. It's not just about hating Greg. In a
way, I can see myself turning things around if I had a kid to take care
of.

I couldn't keep living this lifestyle if I had a kid of my own looking up
to me.
Hell, maybe I could even train up somebody I trust and pass things over
to them. I'd make sure they kept me paid and happy, and then I'd keep
my nose out of their business. Maybe Franco, or Benny, if he can prove
he isn't going behind my back to the Riccis, at least. Jesus. Listen to
me. A few weeks with Callie and I'm already thinking about hanging
up the only thing I've ever known? The frightening part is knowing
how much I really would do for her. She already means so much to me.
I can only imagine the things I would do for her if the baby is mine.
God help the world, because anything that tries to come between us is
going to burn.
Living with Callie has been incredible. I made sure she bought a lot of
new cotton panties, because that shit has always been way sexier to me
than all the lace. I love the way her ass feels beneath the thin fabric, and
the way she soaks straight through it when I touch her in the right
places. She suggested I buy extra if I was going to keep tearing them off
her every time I wanted to fuck her, and I think we're already going to
have to go back out and buy more soon. For the first time in a long time,
things almost feel good.
I can't even tell that she's pregnant yet, but I still have a compulsion to
put my hands on her belly and feel for movement several times a day. It
has the unintended side effect of leading to sex more often than not. It
seems like every time we touch, an overwhelming compulsion to fuck
comes over both of us. I've already had her in almost every room of the
house and in almost every position. But we've been doing more than
just sleeping together. She has been making me breakfast in the
morning and waiting up for me when I come home late. I' ve had her
working the advertising side from home while I try to make sure things
are safe on the outside for her. We've watched every season of
Breaking Bad together in what must have only been three or four days,
and I find myself loving the way she asks me to clarify every little
detail of the show, like I have all the answers.
It feels normal. And that's something I never thought a guy like me

could feel. Of course, as soon as I leave the house, I'm swimming in
rumors, new info about where the feds are watching us, which
Anastasios were killed by the Riccis, and the growing list of people
who want me and Callie dead. It gets worse every day, and now I can't
help thinking more about how I' m going to keep her safe than I do
about getting the power I need to bring the Sanatores to their knees for
what they did. Frankly, I don't want revenge anymore if it's going to
cost me
Callie.
She walks out of the bedroom and stretches with her arms over her
head. Her hard nipples press through the thin white t-shirt she's
wearing, and her shirt lifts so I can see a hint of her stomach and the
mound of her sex beneath the cotton panties she wears. I set my coffee
down and go to her, wrapping my arms around her waist and sliding my
hands beneath the elastic waistband of her panties. I help myself to two
generous fistfuls of her ass, groaning with satisfaction. She bites her
lip.
"You're so fucking beautiful," I say, tucking a hair behind her ear and
pressing myself against her.
"You're not so bad yourself," she laughs. Her hands slide beneath my
shirt and roam my back.
I see a car pulling up the driveway through the window. "Shit," I
say.
"What?" she asks, turning to look. "Go get dressed."
She sees the car and hurries to the bedroom.
It' s Greg, and the only reason I can think he would bother to show up is
to make another threat or gloat about some new evidence he has over
me. I open the door, crossing the lawn toward his car in a few long
strides. Greg and a man in a suit with a briefcase step out of the car. The
look on Greg's face says I'm not going to like what I hear next.
"Just the man I was hoping to see," says Greg. He snaps his fingers and
waves the man I assume to be a lawyer forward. "Show him."
The lawyer reaches in his briefcase and pulls out a single piece of
paper. He hands it to me and steps back like I might hit him. Maybe I
will. I squint at the paper and see enough. It's obviously some pencil
pusher bullshit that he thinks is going to mean something to me. I press

the paper into Greg's chest so hard that he stumbles backwards,
slamming against his car.
"Did you see that?" he asks the lawyer. "That was assault. He just
assaulted me. Make sure you document that." Greg straightens his
clothes and pushes his hair out of his face.
"Yeah, make sure you get this too." I slam my palm into the windshield
of Greg's car, sending a spiderweb of cracks through the safety glass.
"That's for wasting my time."
I turn to walk away just as Callie rushes out of the front door. She threw
on a blue dress, the same one I fucked her in last week. Maybe I should
point that out to Greg.
"What's going on?" she asks.
Greg calls over my shoulder. "This caveman broke my windshield.
And he didn't bother to read the court orders saying that baby is going
to belong to me when it's born."
Her face turns so dark with rage that I almost take a step back. She
looks ready to kill something. "Who the fuck said anything about a
baby?" she asks.
"Come on. Did you really think I wouldn't find out? My father has so
many connections in the Northeast that I could get away with murder if
I wanted to." He pauses to give me a look that I assume is supposed to
be threatening.
Callie crosses her arms. "It's not yours."
"You should hope it is. My family will be sure that any child of mine is
cared for. The child will never want for money or affection. It will be a
life most couldn't even dream of, and it will certainly be a safer life
than if he is the father. He's a killer, Callie. He has killed before and
he'll kill again. He uses people and throws them away when he's done.
Do you really want to trust him to raise a child?"
Something inside me twists. Greg would look better with a few bullet
holes in his forehead, but he's right about one thing. Callie and her baby
would be better off without me in their lives. As long as they are
connected to me, there is the chance that one of my enemies will target
them to get to me. Can I really claim to care about them if I let that
happen?

"Come on, Damian. Let's just go back inside."
I signal for her to wait. My insides are still churning. I don't know what
I'm going to do, but his words have seeped inside me and won't let go.
Do you really want to trust him to raise a child? Either way, I do know
one thing, every second this fucker spends on my property is a second
too long.
"You're trespassing," I say. "I'm going to walk to my house, pick up a
gun, and walk back here. If I can still see either of you when I do, I' m
going to shoot you. Do you understand?"
Greg gives his lawyer a nervous glance, but the lawyer is already
hurrying to the passenger side of his car. I turn to walk toward the
house so they won't see me smirking. I wouldn't have actually shot
them because I know it would have scared Callie. It was still worth it to
watch them scramble. The car engine starts and the engine roars as
Greg backs out of the driveway before I reach the house.
Callie gives me a look when we're inside.
"What? I wasn't really going to shoot them."
"You know, it's not normal to threaten to kill people all the time."
I bite my lip, moving close to her. "You like fucking me so much
because I'm normal?'
"Fair point," she says, dodging my kiss and making me meet her eyes.
"We need to talk about this, Damian. We can't just keep...I don't know
what we're doing."
"About what? Greg? The baby?"
"All of it," she says sighing and flopping down on the couch.
I sit beside her, pulling one of her legs onto my lap and rubbing her
calf. "What do you want me to say?" I ask. "Do you want me to say I'll
change? Do you want to hear that I'll raise the baby even if it's not
mine?"
Tears well in her eyes at my tone and she pulls her leg away, crossing
her legs and hugging herself. "I don't...I don't expect you to raise the
baby if it's not yours. And I realize that the things you do aren't just
something you can walk away from. I've seen movies."
"I'm trying, Callie. That's all I can really do. You mean the fucking
world to me. Do you know that? If you even knew the half of what I've

already done to be with you, I wouldn't even have to tell you that."
She nods her head. I can see that she wants to ask what I've done, but
she knows better. I've just let a plan to become the most powerful Don
in the Northeast go to shit because her ex-fiance wants to wave his dick
in my face. Even thinking about it makes me want to hit something. At
first, the only real danger was events not falling into place cleanly
enough for me to step in and grab control. Now, thanks to Greg and his
dog, Agent Conway, my name is in the mix. If the Riccis stop
pressuring the Anastasios and the Anastasios stop pressuring the
Sanatores, I can almost guarantee they are going to come after me. If
they want to come for me, fuck them, but I can't be there to protect
Callie every second of the day, and that' s what scares me. What if they
try to go after her?
I have to change the game somehow. I don't know what I'll do yet, but if
I can throw another wrench into the mix and push this whole shitstorm
to another level, I might be able to get some of the heat off Callie and I.
Maybe.
"So what are we going to do?" she asks. "Can I start leaving the house
and coming to the restaurant soon? You've had me cooped up here like
a prisoner for over a week now." She looks down, smiling a little
mischievously. "Don't get me wrong, being your prisoner hasn't been
that bad, but I can' t live like this forever. I' m going stir crazy." "It's
dangerous." "You can keep me safe."
I move to put my arm around her. She rests her head on my chest and I
breathe in the scent of her, feeling protectiveness surge through me. I
know I can't keep her here forever, but the thought of anything
happening to her and the baby is too much to bear. I don't know that I
could let her out of my sight outside the house. I'll have to figure
something out though, for her.
I kiss the top of her head. "We'll go out tomorrow. Just let me take a
few precautions and get some guys on hand. You know how the
president has secret service? That'll look like kid stuff compared to
what I' m going to set up for you."
I can use the guys Benny has been picking up in preparation for our
move against the Sanatores. Paying them all is costing me out the ass,

but Benny has been in charge of putting them to work collecting
protection money and running jobs to help control the cost. Still, I'll
need all the bodies I can get in a few weeks, and I might as well use
them to protect Callie in the meantime.
She laughs, pulling her head back to smile at me. "You don't think
that'll be overkill?"
"For you? No."

101

Callie
Julia can't seem to keep her eyes on her plate. She takes a bite, glances
to her left, then her right, and then over my shoulder.
"Relax," I say, even if I feel anything but relaxed.
"So they are all here to just watch you? Don't you think that's a little
creepy?"
"Creepy? No. Scary? Yes."
There are four guys that I can see. They all wear casual clothes, but
stand out somehow. Maybe it's the deliberate way they are doing casual
things, like the one who is trying to look interested in his phone, but
hasn't touched the screen for at least five minutes, or the one whose
hand must be tired from stirring his coffee for so long. Damian said
they are guys he trusts and that they will protect me. Seeing the men
and knowing why they are here only makes me feel more vulnerable. I
just wish Damian was here, but he said he needed to take care of some
business in Long Island.
Julia takes a deep sip from her wine. "So, how is the advertising going
for the restaurant?"
"Good. Really good. There were a few things I wanted to do inside the
restaurant, but once I get that done, I don't think Damian is going to
know what to do with all the customers he's going to have."
"As long as he doesn't hire too many people and start messing with my
hours."
"I think everyone is going to be getting more hours. I've been running
Facebook ads, Twitter campaigns, an Instagram account, and I even
created a dedicated Facebook group that has over a thousand local
members. I had this idea to turn it into a kind of game so that..." I notice
the way Julia is still scanning the room, looking bored already.
She realizes I stopped talking a few seconds later and covers her
forehead. "I'm sorry, Callie. This is just so weird. I can't relax, you
know?" Her eyes follow one of Damian's guys who keeps pacing
outside the restaurant.
I sigh. "I know. I'm just trying to convince myself that I can live like
this. Or that it's only temporary. Well, the real reason I called you

here was to give you this," I say, reaching in my purse and pulling out
the money Damian gave me. It was ten thousand dollars when I
counted it out, and I could barely fit it into an envelope.
Julia frowns at the envelope. "What is this? Why is it so heavy?"
I lower my voice. "It's hopefully enough money for you to go back to
school, at least for a semester. I don't know how much grad school
costs, but it should be a start."
She shakes her head, pushing the envelope back towards me. "I can't. I
don't know how much this is, but I know it's too much."
"You can go throw it in that trash can if you don't want it, but I'm not
taking it back."
Julia gives me a long look and finally stands, smiling and giving me a
tight hug. "I don't deserve to be your friend," she says into my neck.
"Yes, you do. You've been here for me through so much already, and I
can always count on you to be honest when I need it."
She pulls back, frowning. "I hate to say it, but if you want honesty,
this," she says, waving a finger at the guys protecting me, "is not
normal. You need to walk away from him while you still can."
I wait in the doctor's office, feeling nervous as hell. For the first time
today, my nervousness isn't because of the armed men scattered around
the room, trying to look inconspicuous. I'm having a doctor confirm my
pregnancy, and I' m terrified of what he'll say. The strangest part is, I'm
scared of either outcome. If there really is a baby, it could be Greg's or
it could be Damian's. It had been weeks since the last time Greg slept
with me and when Damian fucked me. But either possibility is
frightening, even though I know I want it to be Damian's with every
fiber of my being, stupid or not.
I'm also scared that he'll tell me there's no baby. I should be crossing
my fingers for that news. For some reason I'm not. Maybe it's my hope
that a baby will be the missing piece to make things work between
Damian and I. Until now, what we had together defied definition. I
wasn't his girlfriend. There has never been enough trust and open
communication to call it that. But there was too much emotional

connection to call it casual sex. And Jesus, there's nothing casual about
the way he fucks me. Whoever thought "sleeping together" was
synonymous with fucking never had a man like Damian between their
legs. When our clothes come off and it's just us, it feels right, like
nothing could ever come between us. As soon as the chemicals stop
flowing and I have time to really think things through, I realize how
crazy this all is, how crazy I must be to even consider spending my life
with this man.
Is that what I'm considering? Would I really marry a man like him? I
fidget in the uncomfortable chair, watching a very pregnant woman
waddle out and stand in front of the nurse's desk. My mind wants one
thing and my body wants another. I know I just feel good when I'm with
him. It feels right and perfect, but it's not. I know that on a deep, logical
level. How can it be perfect when he's a killer? How can I think it's
right when being with him puts me and my unborn child at risk?
Maybe I don't deserve a perfect guy though. Maybe I don't want one.
After all, wasn't that what all my friends always said about Greg? He's
absolutely perfect! And who wouldn't have thought so? When we first
met, he was charming, polite, and he swept me off my feet with
extravagant dates and presents. Before the sheen of newness had worn
off, he had already started becoming something else. He would make
comments about my friends, my clothes, what I ate, how I spoke. He
was always trying to turn me into something that fit his picture of
perfect. Even after all our time together, I'm still not sure he ever saw
me for who I was or tried to appreciate it. The only reason he's still
chasing after me is probably that I didn't have the dignity to turn into
what he wanted or expected before I walked away. "Miss Beccaccio?"
asks the nurse.
I stand, noticing Damian's men moving to follow me. I shake my head
at them. What do they think is going to happen? All five of them are
going to cram into the examination room and watch me undress? Hell
no.
One of the guys moves close to me. He has dark skin and a scruffy face.
"Damian is going to have our fucking balls if we let you out of our
sight."

"And what do you think he'd do if I told him you were in the room
while the doctor spreads my legs?"
The man pales, swallowing and motioning for the guys to stay put.
"Just yell if you need us."
I roll my eyes. "I think I'll be okay."
The nurse takes me to an examination table and takes my vitals. To my
surprise, the doctor doesn't even make me wait. He steps into the room
only a minute or two after the nurse let me in. He gives me a curt nod,
turning his back to me and fiddling with some glass containers while
the nurse finishes taking my blood pressure.
She licks her lips, and I realize her upper lip is sweating, which
surprises me because it's practically freezing in here.
"Is everything okay?" I ask.
The nurse gives a forced smile. "Your blood pressure looks fine, honey.
Don't worry."
I think about yelling for Damian's men to come, but I know I'm just
being paranoid. The nurse raises her eyebrows as she looks at the
reading of my blood pressure.
The doctor turns around, clasping his hands behind his back. He looks
like a grandfather, and the smile he gives me is warm. It puts me at ease
somewhat. "First pregnancy?" he asks.
"Yes. I hope so," I say.
"If your body is telling you that you're pregnant, I'm sure you are.
Could you hand me that pen, please? I just need a signature."
I turn to grab the pen beside the exam table and the nurse rushes
forward, pinning my arms to my side and cupping a hand over my
mouth. I scream as the doctor pulls a syringe from behind his back.
Everything happens in slow motion, like we're underwater and this is a
nightmare. My muscles feel unresponsive, like jelly. The cruel
expressions on their faces seem monstrous. The doctor jabs the syringe
into my neck and pumps a clear fluid into me. I strain against them, but
immediately feel my vision going black and my muscles losing
strength. My scream turns to a sigh, and everything goes black.
The sheets feel like clouds around me and I think I could lay in this

bed and never move for as long as I live. Everything feels numb and
soft and comfortable. Damian sits in a chair beside the bed. We're in his
house. Our house. It's a good thought and it makes me smile.
He stands, taking in a sharp breath. "Callie."
"Hey baby," I say in a poor impersonation of Elvis Presley.
He moves a lock of hair from my forehead, cupping my cheek.
"How do you feel?"
"Why do you look so mad? Mr. Grumpy pants," I say, chuckling and
reaching to pinch his cheeks.
A grin tugs at the corner of his mouth, but the icy anger doesn't leave
his eyes. "I need to know what you remember?"
What I remember? Why is he being so serious? What's he talking.
A syringe. The doctor. The sweat on the nurse' s upper lip.
It comes back in a rush, knocking the lingering effects of the sedative
from me in an instant. I close my eyes, covering my face. "They
drugged me. I don't know why. I just remember being stuck with a
needle and then I was here."
He nods, sitting on the bed and pulling me into a tight hug. "My guys
said you told them to wait outside the doctor's office?"
I blush. "Yeah. Bad idea?"
He shrugs. "Don't worry about it now. You were right, I would've
ended anyone who got to see your pussy. That's just for me."
"Why would they drug me? I don't understand. You don't think they did
something to the baby, do you?"
Damian frowns. "They wouldn't dare touch that fucking baby." His
hand moves protectively to my stomach and he kisses me beneath the
ear. "They wouldn't dare."
Tears well in my eyes. I reach to wipe them but Damian takes my hand
and gently wipes my eyes with his knuckle. "Hey," he says. "I'm here
for you, okay? I'm going to find out what happened and I'm going to
make it right. I promise."
I hug him. It feels good knowing that he is watching over me. He's
more force of will than man, all purpose and no hesitation. Having him
beside me gives me the strength I need to keep myself sane in the
middle

of all of this. Not for the first time, I wonder where I would be without
him. Probably in way less danger and not looking over my shoulder
every minute. The thought makes me smirk. The strange thing is I'd
rather be in the position I'm in now than where I was, watching my life
slip away inch by inch with Greg, letting him take who I am and try to
mold it into who he wanted.
The waitress hands me a menu and then gives one to Damian. She's
absolutely gorgeous, and she's practically begging Damian to notice
her with the way she leans in front of him and thrusts her boobs in his
face, but he doesn't even so much as flick his eyes toward her. I smile a
little. Greg would have been making eyes at her all night.
I realize this is actually the first time I've been out to eat with Damian.
He has paid for Julia and I to go out several times between when I
wouldn't let him take me out and when he couldn't be there. I guess he
got tired of me complaining about being cooped up, so he packed me in
a car and said we could eat anywhere I wanted. The look of surprise on
his face when I said I'd rather go to a cheap barbecue place was
priceless.
He looks over the menu, working his lips in concentration. "You sure
this is the place you want to eat at? You deserve the best."
"I've had enough fancy restaurants to last a lifetime," I say. I don't want
to keep bringing up Greg when I'm around him. I can't keep myself
from comparing everything with Damian to how it was with Greg, but
it's only because the contrast makes me realize how horrible it was
before. If I talk about it too much though, I worry Damian will start to
think I'm fixated on Greg somehow. Thankfully, that couldn't be any
farther from the truth.
"Good. I actually prefer this kind of place, too. I should know by now
you're not like other women. I give you a few thousand dollars to go
shopping and you get under a hundred dollars worth of clothes from a
bargain bin. I give you a pick of any restaurant in town or even in New
York and you pick this place. You can't be bought, can you?"
"God knows Greg tried," I say, nearly wincing when I realize I'm
already talking about Greg again.

Damian eyes me over his menu and then continues scanning.
"What the hell is a chitlin?"
I suppress a smile. "They're really good. You should order us some."
"Okay. Do you want any other appetizers?" "Corn nuggets?" I suggest.
The waitress comes back a minute later with our drinks and tries again
to get Damian's attention, but fails. She takes our appetizer order and
huffs off, making sure to shake her ass when she walks away.
"Were you originally from the South?" asks Damian.
"Florida," I say. "I moved up here when..." I pause, not wanting to talk
about Greg or the past we have together.
Damian is tactful enough to ignore my uncomfortable pause. "Doesn't
get much more South than that."
"Geographically, no," I say. "Culturally, it's mostly a watered down
version of the South most people think of. You have the outdoorsy
types, suburban moms, and farmers rubbing shoulders just about
everywhere you look."
"What were you?"
An orphan, basically. "A little bit of everything, I guess."
He narrows his eyes at me. "Part of my work is knowing when people
are lying to me."
I shift in my seat. "I'm not lying." I say slowly.
"You're holding something back. You can trust me, Callie."
"It's not some big secret. It's just embarrassing. I never had anything
growing up. Even when I got a big advertising job, I couldn't ever get
over the guilt of spending money. I remember what it was like and... it
doesn't feel right."
"I'm sorry. I didn't know."
I shake my head, feeling like an idiot as tears prick at my eyes. "It's not
a big deal." It was. "I survived, didn't I?" Sort of.
He frowns. "I don't like that you think you need to hold back around
me. You can tell me anything."
"Yeah, because I'm the only one with trust issues at this table."
He slams a fist on the table, making the silverware jump and my

glass nearly topple over. The rage in his face is gone in an instant.
Several people turn to look at us, but he doesn't notice. "It's not the
same. Not at all. I'm keeping you in the dark to keep you safe, not
because I'm worried what you'll think. You know who I am and
what—"
"Chitlins and corn nuggets," says the waitress, oblivious to the tense
moment she's interrupting. "Do you want ranch with those?"
"No—"
"Yes," I say, interrupting Damian.
He gives me a disgusted look. "Ranch?"
"You haven't eaten a corn nugget if you haven't had one with ranch."
He shrugs and grabs a chitlin, popping it in his mouth. I watch,
covering my mouth to keep from bursting out laughing as his face
slowly turns from disinterest to disgust. He gags, grabbing a napkin and
spitting
the chitlin into it. "What the fuck is that?"
I can't stop from laughing anymore. "I think the anatomically correct
term is pig poop shoots'."
The anger in his eyes only makes me laugh harder. "Pig intestines,
battered and fried."
"Oh yeah? You think you're funny pulling one over on me like
that?" he asks.
"The look on your face was pretty good," I say.
He shakes his head, drinking several long gulps of water and then
taking the lemon and squeezing it directly into his mouth. "Jesus
Christ. People really eat that?"
Before I can answer, my eyes are drawn to the door where Greg enters
with his lawyer in tow. Damian follows my eyes. His hand clenches
into a fist so tight his knuckles turn white. "This fucker is like a
cockroach. Just when you think he's gone..."
Greg grabs a chair from a couple's table without asking and pulls it up
to ours, sitting down backwards in it. I'm struck by how false his shows
of confidence seem. They are exactly that, shows. Unlike Damian,
Greg has to posture and prance to try to convince everyone around him
that he's confident and important. Damian has a natural inevitability to

the way he moves that requires no explanation or grand gestures. He's a
force to be reckoned with and anyone who gets in his way will come
against his power. It's written in his every feature and movement as
firmly as if it was in stone.
Greg snaps his fingers and reaches a hand over his shoulder. His lawyer
slips a piece of paper in his hand and Greg slaps it on our table. "Who
wants to read it first?" he asks.
I scoop it up and scan it, heart and stomach sinking at the same time. It's
a paternity test. "I never took a paternity test," I say quickly. Even
though my mind goes back to the bruise on my stomach, the one I
thought was probably just from struggling against the doctors. They
really did test me.
"Says right here you did, sweetie. The same day you went to see if you
were really pregnant."
Damian snatches the paper from his hands. "Why the fuck would they
give this to you? This is personal medical information."
Greg reaches over to point to a spot near the middle of the paper. "I
forgot you can't read. It says here that I'm the father, so I guess that's
why they gave me my fiancee's personal medical information?"
Damian's eyes meet mine across the table. Hot tears prick at my eyes as
I reach for the papers to see for myself. "You had the doctor drug me,
didn't you."
"You don't have to answer that," says the lawyer from behind
Greg.
"All that matters is we know the baby is mine. It's ours. You can leave
this loser behind and give the baby a life it deserves. Not whatever shit
show he is going to give you."
"I don't care if it's yours," I say, voice thick with emotion. I really don't.
I want to do this with Damian, even if it's Greg's baby. I just can't
imagine Damian wanting to stick around and raise some other guy's
kid. "I'm never going to raise this baby with you. You're not even going
to come close to it."
Damian is oddly silent across from me at the table. I can't read his
expression, but the lack of emotion on his face frightens me more than
if he were openly showing anger.

"That's where you're wrong," says Greg. "I have a number of ways to
make sure I have access to the child. If he so much as tries to come
within an inch of my child, I'll see that a court rules him unfit as a
parent. He'll never be legally allowed in the child's life or yours. In fact,
if you press me on it, I can make sure they tear the baby from your arms
in the hospital bed. So maybe you should consider playing nice and
remember who you're dealing with."
"You couldn't," I say, even though deep down I know he could and he
would. I've seen too many times just how much Greg can make happen
with his father's money and connections. He just dumped a steaming
pile of crap on my life and my plans, and I don't know if Damian is
going to stick around to help me clean it up, or if he's going to do what
most sensible people would and walk away.

112

Damian
"He didn't look this heavy when he was alive," says Benny. Sweat
beads on Benny's bulldog face as he helps me drag Ramirez's body
toward the dumpster at the dock. It's dark out and our only company are
the seagulls. "But you know what they say, dying adds twenty pounds."
"They don't say that," I grunt, heaving as we toss Ramirez in with the
trash.
"Who do you think it was?" asks Benny.
I found Ramirez's car parked in front of The Spot this morning. His
body was propped up in front of the steering wheel. The murder
weapon was on the seat beside him. My knife. I checked my glove
compartment and saw that it had been stolen. I'm sure my prints would
be on that knife, and only my prints. It was a message, but whether it
was from Greg, Conway, the Anastasios, or the Sanatores, I have no
idea. I just know someone is trying to tell me they can get to me when
they want to.
"Maybe you can tell me. I heard you were meeting with Cristiano."
Benny's face tightens. "I thought you might hear about that, but it's not
what you're thinking. Not at all."
"Maybe you can enlighten me," I say slowly. I feel coiled, ready to
burst into action at the first wrong word out of his mouth. I want to
clean up my act for Callie, but if one of my own was setting me up with
the Riccis, I can't let that slide, not even for Callie.
"I met this girl when I was down in Jersey for one of our fence jobs.
She's a good Italian girl, way out of my league, and for some reason,
she likes me. Things have been getting pretty serious. Well, it turns out
Cristiano Ricci is her distant cousin or some shit. She said I had to get
permission from him if I wanted to be with her. That's all it was.
Cristiano didn't even know I ran with you."
I nod my head. I want to believe it, so I decide to, unless someone gives
me a reason not to. It sure as hell beats the possibility of my best friend
backstabbing me. I clap him on the shoulder. "Good. That's good. You
can tell me this shit though, you know. I don't want to be hearing about
it from the guys before I hear about it from you next time, okay?"
"Yeah. It won't happen again."

There's an uncomfortable pause. Benny looks toward the car Ramirez
bought. "What are you going to do with it?" "Drive it into the bay," I
say. "Fuck. That's a nice car. You sure?" "When am I ever not sure?"
Benny raises his palms. "All right, all right. We'll trash the car. Just
seems like a shame. Anyway, how are things with that girl of yours?"
I dust off my hands. "Shitty," I say. "She's pregnant and it's not mine."
Benny whistles. "Big deal. Have her get a fucking abortion and put one
of your own soldiers in there."
"I don't believe in that," I say. "You know that." "Yeah yeah. Damian
Citrione who I've seen go at guys with a hammer for owing him a few
bucks has a conscience when it comes to killing babies."
"You have a problem with that?"
"No problem here," says Benny. "What are you going to do though?
You going to raise some guy's kid?"
I turn on Ramirez's car, put it in neutral. The car slowly rolls toward the
bay as I watch, crossing my arms. "I don't know. I don't know if I could
love another guy's kid. I feel like I'd see him every time I looked at it,
like she'd always be thinking about him. You know?"
The car reaches the end of the port and tips over, splashing down a few
seconds later.
"Yeah. I'd want to punch the kid in the face." "That's why you're an
asshole," I say. "No argument there."
"So how's it going with the crew? Last time we talked you said you had
about ten guys lined up?"
"Yeah. It's tough. The only guys I can find who have ever even shot a
gun at a person are already working for other familias. Then the ones
who aren't are hesitant about joining on when you won't let me tell
them what they'll be doing."
"And how many do you think are going to work for me if they

know we're planning to make a move on one of the most powerful
crime families in the Northeast?"
"I'm just saying it's slow going. If you have any ideas I'm all
ears."
"Nothing here. Callie's ex has some tightass prick from the Feds
watching my every move. Name's Conway. When we started this shit I
wanted to get the Sanatores and the Anastasios to duke it out long
enough for me to make a move on the Sanatores. Now I wish I could do
the same shit with her ex-fiancé, Conway, and all these other fuckers
who are after my blood."
"Why can't you?" asks Benny.
I squint at him in surprise, "You might actually have a point, Benny." I
still don't know if I can trust him, but these days, I don't know if I can
trust anyone except Callie. And things have been tense with her, to say
the least. I know what she wants me to say. She wants to hear that I'm
going to stay and help raise the baby like it's my own, but I don't know.
It feels wrong. She hasn't asked me to take a stance on it one way or
another, but I can see it in her eyes, just like I can tell that she's not
going to wait around forever to hear my answer.
"So how are you going to play it?" asks Benny.
I run my tongue over my teeth. "I need to do some digging first. But
nobody with that kind of money is squeaky clean. Maybe if I can find
some way to get Conway sniffing after Greg instead of me, it would be
a start. After that, I could try to think of some way to..." the idea comes
to me but I don't want to risk telling Benny. "I don't know," I say. "I'll
figure the rest out later."
"How long are we going to keep pretending this isn't an issue?" asks
Callie.
I was hoping to get a few things and go out to start looking into Greg,
but Callie was waiting up on the couch when I came home. She has
been feverishly working on the advertising for the restaurant ever since
we found out about the baby. I'm not sure if it's just an outlet for her
frustration or something else, but I know if she keeps it up, I'm going to
have to start taking the business more seriously. It has always just

been a convenient way to explain some of the influxes of cash I get. It's
also nice to have a place to set up meets that I have control over. With
all the money coming in after Callie started running my ads though, it's
looking more and more like a prospering restaurant that is bringing in
enough money to catch my notice.
I grab my jacket and use it to cover my hand as I pull the pistol from
between the couch cushions. I don't expect to need it, but these days I
don't leave home without at least a few pieces. "What do you want me
to say?" I ask, surprising myself with the irritation that is obvious in my
voice.
Her head pulls back slightly as if my tone stung her, but she recovers
quickly. "I want to know, Damian. I feel so alone right now, like you' re
shutting me out. I just want to know what to expect. Do you want me to
take this stranger's baby and get the hell out of your life? Do you want
me to stay? I need to know, I'm going crazy over here."
"You're not leaving," I say.
"That is only half an answer."
"It's all the answer I'm ready to give. Right now, I just want to keep you
safe. I'm doing everything I can to make sure nobody hurts you and that
nobody will ever think of hurting you again. I can't be thinking about
babies and everything else. I just need to handle this."
"So just stay put because you say so?"
"Yes," I snap, spinning to face her. "You do what I fucking say so I can
keep you safe."
"Why should I care about being safe if I'm just a doormat to you?"
I drop my things and advance on her. "Watch how you talk to me."
"Oh? Did I forget to call you sir? Or do you prefer master? Was I
supposed to suck your—"
I push her down on the couch and climb on top of her. My knee is
between her legs and the rage boiling inside me starts to feel
indistinguishable from lust. I want to teach her a lesson, but more than
anything, I just want to have her. I want to fuck her like everything is
normal between us, like there's not another man's baby in her belly, like
she's mine and always will be.
Before I know what I' m doing, my mouth is on hers. She kisses me

back for a few seconds, her tongue warm against mine. Then her small
hands are pushing me off of her. I pull back just in time to see her hand
blurring toward my face. My cheek stings. She slapped me, and she
looks like she's thinking about doing it again. Anger burns in my chest,
making me want to show her that she belongs to me and that I still have
power over her body.
"You think you can just fuck me and make me forget?" she asks. The
tone in her voice betrays how aroused she is, and I can see the hardened
tips of her nipples clearly.
"You only need to say one word to stop me, but you won't say it. You
want my cock between your legs."
"Fuck you," she says. "You can't solve everything with sex." "We'll
see," I growl.
She tries to slap me again but I grab her wrist. Her lips turn into a thin
line as she struggles against me. She tries to punch me with her other
hand, but I catch it, too. Lowering myself to kiss her neck. "Just one
word, and it all stops. You know the word."
"Get off me," she whispers, but the conviction in her tone is gone.
"Those aren't the magic words." I use my shoulder to pin her arm down
and move my hand between her legs, spreading her thighs easily and
shoving my hand down the yoga pants she wears. My finger slides over
her engorged clit. "You're so fucking wet. I don't think your pussy
wants me to get off of you. I think it wants me to get you off."
I find her mouth, kissing her hard as my finger circles her clit and slides
inside her entrance. She bites my lip hard enough that I taste blood, but
then soothes it with soft passes of her tongue. Fuck. She's incredible.
Even as she presses her hips into my hand and the soft vibrations of her
moans pass through her lips into mine, I can't help thinking about the
baby. Why does it really matter? Whether it's my baby or his, it's also
Callie's. Isn't that enough?
The question reignites my anger. I don't know the answer, and I'm not
used to not knowing. The uncertainty makes me want to act. I pull her
pants and panties down roughly and free my cock, positioning myself
over her. She reaches down and grabs me, stroking my length hungrily.
I watch as her full tits bounce with the motion and arch my back,
groaning

in satisfaction. She's incredible.
"You want it so fucking bad, don't you?" I ask.
She bites her lip, nodding her head. I slide into her even as she still
strokes me. She doesn't take her hand away, and the combination of her
heat and the tight grip of her hand is amazing. I lean over her as she
reaches down, still rubbing the base of my cock with her hand and
grazing my balls. Her need to be touching me is such a turn on that I
already feel the tingling threat of an orgasm building. I pull out briefly
and she uses her hand to stroke me and rub the head of my cock against
her slick clit.
"Jesus Christ," I groan.
"You like that?" she asks.
"Fuck yeah, baby."
She increases her pace, rocking her hips against me and letting my cock
dip into her briefly before pulling it back out to rub against her clit. Her
other hand finds my balls and cups them, stroking the sensitive skin
behind them and making my eyes clench with pleasure.
"I' m going to cum if you keep that up," I say.
She bucks her hips into me, overwhelming me with sensation. I feel the
building tension threatening to release just as she takes her hand away
and plunges my cock in her pussy to the hilt. My eyebrows pull
together and I push myself as deeply into her as I can.
"Fuck!" I shout. My balls tighten and my cock pulses, spraying hot cum
inside her. She clenches against me, her pussy milking my cock for
every last drop of cum.
When the last of our orgasms have faded, I roll off her and sit beside
her on the couch. I pull my pants up, not caring if my cock is still wet
from her. She pulls her panties and pants back up over her pussy that is
still dripping with my cum. It's so fucking hot that I could almost go at
her again. She excuses herself to go to the bathroom and I lean back on
the couch, more confused than before.
She sits on the couch beside me and pulls her knees up, hugging them
to her chest. "So," she says. "At least we know the sex is good."
I laugh. "Damn right."
"But..."

She's not going to let it go. I know she won't, and hell, I don't blame her.
I scratch the back of my head and lean my head back in frustration. "I
don't know. Maybe he's right. Maybe the baby will be better off without
me in its life. Greg was right about one thing. I'm dangerous, and you
and the baby would be safer if you weren't connected to me."
She shakes her head. "I don't care about that. I mean, I care, but we'll
work through it."
"It's not that simple, Callie. I have enemies. Powerful enemies. I can do
my best to protect you, but with them out there I would never know if
you were safe. I would always be wondering if they were going to find
you on your way to work or while you were at the grocery store. I can't
be everywhere."
"Can't we just leave? Start over somewhere?"
"I have unfinished business here."
She gives me a searching look. "Let me in. Can't you just tell me what's
going on so I can help? I'm tired of being in the dark." "It's too
dangerous."
"You said it yourself. I'm in danger, too. I have a right to know
why."
I sniff, searching my mind for some way out of this but I can't see it.
"The less you know, the—"
"Don't regurgitate that mobster bullshit to me again. I have a right to
know and you know it."
I briefly try to remember why I like women who are strong-willed so
much. Sometimes it just feels like a pain in my ass. I still can't help
from grinning at her spunk. "All right. You want to know? I'll tell you.
There are five Citrione brothers. If you ask my Pops, there are three.
Vince is the only one who even admits that my younger brother and I
exist, but that's the way our world works. Everybody has your back till
you get pinched, and then they don't want anything to do with you.
They think you'll turn them in for a deal. My younger brother got
locked up the year before I did on some bullshit charges. Pops never
visited him once.
"When I was 19, I had a falling out with my family. Pops was

promoting my brothers up the food chain while he kept giving me grunt
work. He thought I was too reckless to be trusted with more
responsibility. I guess he was right, because I went to a rival family, the
Sanatores, and started working some jobs on the side with them. It
started small with basic stuff: shakedowns, intimidation, collection.
They saw my potential and quickly started giving me more and more
responsibility. Eventually, I was running a betting racket that was
bringing in more money than you could imagine.
"Just when I thought things were going my way, I got pulled in by the
cops. I got seven years for racketeering in federal prison. It took me a
few months of digging from inside, but I eventually figured out the
Sanatores had a grudge against my Pops and the whole thing from the
start to finish was just a way for them to get at him."
She frowns. "I'm sorry, Damian. I didn't know..."
I shrug. "It's part of the business. I should have seen it coming, but I
was too pissed at my Pops. I took a stupid risk and I trusted the wrong
people. Lesson learned. But I spent every day in prison planning out a
way to get back at them and make them pay. That's part of our business,
too. If you're going to fuck someone over, you had better expect them
to come back at you. I can't just leave without making them pay for
what
they did."
"So this is just about revenge?"
"Sure. Revenge, retribution, justice, whatever you want to call it."
"They are the ones who want to hurt us?"
"Them, the Anastasios, the Riccis, the feds. That night you saw me at
the gas station, I was going to rob a big cash drop that was being sent to
some of the top Sanatore bosses. It was supposed to be a clean job.
Benny and I would come in, flash our heat, grab the briefcase, and then
leave a trail that would make it look like the Anastasios were
responsible. But things got bloodier than planned. Still, the plan was
going fine. The Sanatores took the bait and started making moves
against the Anastasios.
"But when the killing started, they made the mistake of killing someone
with connection to the Riccis, which brought them into the mix. And
then Greg pulled strings to get some fed named Conway sniffing

around me and feeding information to the families."
Callie looks thoughtful. "Wow... You weren't kidding when you said
we were in danger."
"I wish I had been."
"So what are you going to do?"
Telling all of this to a woman feels so wrong. I know I'm putting her in
danger, but I also know she's not going to let me off the hook unless I
keep her in the loop. "I'm not sure how yet, but I want to find a way to
redirect everyone's attention. I need a big enough target that everyone
forgets about me. Once they forget about me, I'll be able to make my
move against the Sanatores."
"What about Greg?" asks Callie.
"What about him? He's an asshole."
"I mean, why don't you find a way to get the families going after him.
Aren't they always trying to find ways to get more money?"
I laugh. "That's not how this works. We don't really just rob people."
"Why not? Wouldn't they make an exception if there was enough
money to be made?"
I scratch my chin. "I mean... it's not like he keeps his money in a safe or
some shit, right? It's gotta be all tied up in investments and real estate."
She leans forward, eyes lit with the idea. "No. I mean, some of it is tied
up, yes, but he always bragged to me. He has this safe he keeps in his
closet. It's custom made and apparently impregnable, but he didn't trust
banks. He would always tell me how he had millions just sitting in the
safe for a rainy day. I guess it made him feel rich knowing he just had
that much money on hand."
My mind churns. It's a stretch, a big stretch, but it could work. The
families don't normally get involved in this kind of thing, but if I could
somehow make it sweet enough, maybe they would. "What about the
rest of his money? Is it clean?"
"I don't know. His father was always involved in so much and it was
never clear where exactly Greg stood in the middle of it. I know Greg
made it seem like he was passing money to officials to get favors

from time to time, but that's all I really know."
"Any chance you know the code to that safe of his?"
Callie laughs. "He never trusted me with that kind of thing. I think he
thought if I actually got my hands on his money I would've just
disappeared in the middle of the night. In his mind, it was the leash he
had on me."
"He didn't know you at all, did he?" I ask. I can't believe he was with
her for years and not see how little she really cares about money. He
really had no idea what he had in her.
She makes a sour face. "That's an understatement."
"We're going to get him back. I don't know how yet, but when we do
get to him, it's going to be hard and fast. He won't know what hit him."

123

Callie
Damian finally let me go back over to check on Vince and Aubriella's
house. I've felt guilty letting Damian's "guys" watch it, whatever that
means. I figured it would be best if I ran by to make sure everything
was still going smoothly. Damian assured me that he'd shoulder the
blame with his brother if something went wrong with the house, but I
get the impression things between the two of them are icy at best.
Damian hasn't said as much, but it's in his body language when he talks
about Vince, they still hold grudges. From what he told me, Damian
resents the way Vince sided with their Pops, and Vince resents the way
Damian went outside the family.
Either way, I made a promise to Aubriella and I don't want to betray her
kindness by slacking on that duty. I just can't imagine some meathead
mobsters taking the job very seriously. When I enter through the front
door, I find two men in their forties with their feet kicked up on the
coffee table eating pizza and watching TV. They quickly put down
their food and stand when they see me.
"Miss Beccaccio, the boss didn't say you were coming," says one.
"Where's your security detail?"
"They are surrounding the house, probably looking extremely
conspicuous while they try to be stealthy. I made sure none of them
called ahead so I could see how Damian's 'trusted guys' were actually
treating the house."
"We've been watering the plants every day, miss."
I put my hands on my hips. "And you've also been putting your greasy
fingers on the couch."
The guy closest to me quickly grabs a napkin and tries to rub the stain
out.
Thirty minutes later, I've gone through the entire house and made a list
of items that need immediate attention. They've been using the shower
and used Aubriella's soap, there is hair in the sink, one of them tracked
dirt into the kitchen, there are fingerprints all over the microwave...it's
like a bunch of cavemen were unleashed on this beautiful house. I
would stay to fix everything myself, but Damian only

agreed to let me come out here if it was a short visit. He said this is the
place everyone knows to look for me, and they will definitely be
watching. If I stay too long, it gives them time to think of a way to get
to me. It's still bizarre to think people I've never met are out to get me.
It's like something from a movie, and if it wasn't for the guys with guns
who have been following me around, I don't think I'd believe it was
real.
Once I' m sure the two men know exactly how I expect the house to
look next time I see it, I head back to the car. I'm being driven around in
a black SUV like some kind of VIP. If not for the circumstances, I
would get a kick out of it.
I mentally steel myself for what I'm about to do. Damian gave me
permission to go check on Aubriella's house, but he didn't exactly say I
could go anywhere else. I know he's just trying to protect me, but I also
don' t plan to sit idly and let him try to do everything on his own. I have
some ideas on how I can help, but I need to talk to Greg's accountant
first.
"You want to go where?" asks the driver. He shakes his head. "Damian
said—"
"Damian said you are supposed to keep me safe. How safe do you think
I'll be if I get out of this car and walk there myself?"
The men exchange wary looks. The driver sighs and starts the engine.
"Where did you say his office was?"
The accountant is one Greg used to drag me to see with him. I have no
idea what the man knows, but I want to help somehow, even if I don't
end up finding anything useful, the least I can do is try. Damian is a
good guy, but he tries so hard to protect me from danger that he tends to
overlook the fact that I'm capable and can help him. I can't complain
though. I know he took a huge risk and an even bigger leap of faith in
telling me everything he did. Even from watching movies, I know
mafia guys don't just talk about their business so openly. For him to tell
me so much, he must really care about me. Even if he doesn't plan to
stick around to help with the baby.
The idea comes to me like a bubble, rising through my mind and
bursting at the surface, releasing all the dark thoughts and doubts that

come with it. He doesn't want the baby. By extension, he doesn't want
me. He kept talking about what Greg said, that he wasn't fit to be a
father, but I've seen the good man beneath the darkness and the
violence in him. He has it in him to try to be different and to try to do
what's right. He has the willpower to change, and I think I've seen
enough of that to know that he would change for me and the baby. I just
wish he would do it for a baby that wasn't his own. I know it's unfair to
ask of him though. I don't even blame him.
What man would want to raise another man's child? It must seem like
the ultimate betrayal, to know that the woman you care for has a tiny
human growing inside, and someone other than Damian helped me to
create it. How he could get past that, I don't know. And maybe he never
will. I just wish he knew how much I want the baby to be his, how
much the thought of Greg's deceptive attempts to get me pregnant
disgust me. I know I will be able to love the baby either way, I just hope
beyond all hope that I can share that love with Damian.
I sign in at the front desk of the accountant's office and take a seat,
waiting for my name to be called. I fidget with my fingers, trying to
imagine how Damian must see me. To him I must really seem like a
mess. I let him have sex with me in the middle of a thunderstorm when
I barely knew him. I let him inside me without a condom. Then I tried
to push him away because I waited until after I had unprotected sex
with him to seriously consider what I was getting myself into. And then
I let him walk back into my life, fuck me, and act like everything was
normal again. Now here I am again, on the fence between being with
him and not being with him, and all I can do is wish that he wanted me
as much as I want him. It's embarrassing how badly I want him. I want
his scent, his touch, his face, and everything about him to be part of my
life. I can even look past the violence and the crime because I know he
won't live that life forever. If he lets the baby and I in his heart, he'll
realize he has to change to protect us.
"Callie Beccaccio?" calls Jason. He's a relatively young guy, but Greg
always liked to tell people his accountant was top of his class at
Harvard and a young go-getter.
I smile, standing to follow. I let George, one of the guys sent by

Damian to keep an eye on me, follow me to Jason's office. I learned my
lesson the hard way. Nowhere is safe from the people who want to hurt
us. I'm not going to even risk going into an accountant's office alone.
"Who's this?" asks Jason. "My uncle," I say. "Uncle George."
George gives a stiff smile that is utterly unconvincing. Jason pauses
just long enough before smiling back that I know he sees through the
lie, but he does a good job of acting natural as he reaches to shake
George's hand and then to kiss me on the cheek. "Please, sit," says
Jason.
I take a seat across from his desk, feeling my heart pound. How do I
even ask what I want to ask?
"What can I do for you? Normally, Greg always comes along." "He
couldn't make it today. Look, Jason, I'm going to be really honest here,"
I say, abandoning my previous plan of trying to pretend things were
still okay with Greg and that I just wanted some basic information.
"Things are getting rocky between Greg and I. Very rocky. I need to
know that if we. separate, that, well. I need to know that he has enough
money to take care of me." Even pretending to be this kind of person
makes me feel sick, but I think it might be my best chance of finding
out what kind of dirty business Greg is involved in.
"Greg has a sizable estate. I think you would be fine," says Jason, a
little coldly.
"He cheated on me," I say, realizing I need to win Jason's sympathy if
this is going to have any hope of working.
Jason's lips twitch. I can't read his face, but he nods slowly. "I see." He
turns to his computer and taps a few keys and then clicks his way
through a few menus. I can see spreadsheets from the angle I have on
his monitor, but not detail.
"If I were looking to protect my share of Greg's finances, I would
consider pulling it out of a few business ventures he's involved in."
"Such as?" I ask, heart still pounding.
"A large portion of his money is currently invested in real estate. But if
authorities were to investigate some of the numbers and properties,
well." Jason looks at me apologetically and spreads his hands. "To be

honest, without going into too much detail, the vast majority of your
fiancé—ex-fiancé's finances are not secure. A man with less
connections would already have been thrown in jail and had his assets
frozen."
I nod. "I understand," I say. I don't know enough, but I get that Jason
can't tell me more. He's already putting his neck on the line, and I don't
want to push him to do more. "Thank you so much. If anyone asks, I
never spoke to you."
He smiles. "Thank you. Have a good evening, Callie. I hope this helps.
My dad cheated on my mom when I was ten," he says. He pauses, as if
not knowing what else to say.
I give him a sad smile and reach to grab his hands. "Thank you."
It doesn't take long to find out where Greg's real estate is located. He
has dozens of properties from downtown New York to scattered
properties within northern New York and Connecticut. I have Damian's
people drive me to the nearest house he owns. It's a three bedroom
home in a gated community. I read somewhere that you can get into
90% of gated communities with the same passcode and have the driver
try the code one-two-three-four. To my surprise, it actually works.
I get out in front of a Spanish style home with stucco walls and orange
clay shingles. The yard is overgrown and the house looks completely
empty. I walk up the front yard and look inside. It looks trashed.
There's no furniture and obviously no one living there. A quick check
on my phone shows that the house is being rented and has been by the
same tenants for seven years. It doesn't make any sense though. There
is obviously no one paying to rent this place for years just to leave it
trashed like this. But what could Greg stand to gain from keeping an
empty property and claiming to rent it out?
We spend the next two hours driving to look at two more of his
properties. They are both the same as the first. Different locations and
sizes, but they are empty and unoccupied even though everything
online says they are being rented. I don't know if it means anything. It
probably doesn't, but it's something.
"You shouldn't have risked it," says Damian.

We' re back at his place and he was waiting in the kitchen for me when
I came home, looking every bit the worried wife. I almost would have
laughed if I didn't know how dangerous he is. Besides, when I give him
too much of a reason to be mad at me, it seems to turn him on. He is like
a sex fiend when I disobey him, and I know if I ever want to get him
going, I just have to start putting my foot down and being stubborn. The
truth is I love every second of it. I love baiting him into it and I love the
intensity of his focus. I especially love having him inside me. Still, for
every bit that I love about being with him, I'm even sadder to know that
it's all temporary. It may not be today, tomorrow, or even a week from
now, but this baby in my belly is going to make him leave me sooner or
later. And knowing it breaks my heart.
"Well I did risk it, and I found something useful. So maybe you can
stop being Mr. Overprotective for long enough to hear me out?"
I see his hands tightening into fists and I feel the thrill and fear of
knowing that he's probably already thinking about fucking me until I
apologize for mouthing off to him. Part of me wants him to, but the
other part knows that I can only distract myself with sex and his touch
for so long. If we don't solve the bigger problem, it will only ever be
temporary. Everything between us will end.
"Fine. What did you find?"
After I've explained what I saw, Damian sits down on the couch,
eyebrows drawn in thought. "You're sure they were empty?" he asks.
"Positive. Do you have any idea what it means?" "I have some idea,
yeah, but I don't know. I need to pass this along to a guy I know and
have him check some things out. This is good though. Real good."
Damian looks up to glare and jab a finger at me. "So how about you
stay put this time while I go handle that?"
I cross my arms. "You said it yourself. I practically have the secret
service watching over me. You should let me keep trying to help. I
already proved that I can be useful, didn't I?"
His jaw flexes. "Yes. But you've done enough now. I can take it from
here. I don't want to be worrying about you while I'm out." Damian
stands, grabbing his jacket and heading for the door.
"Wait," I say, rushing to him and standing on my tiptoes to kiss

him softly on the mouth.
The heat in his eyes threatens to break me. How can he look at me like
that when he knows he's going to leave me and this baby? Has he
forgotten? Or maybe he's starting to change his mind? I want to tell him
that I love him. The words burn on the tip of my tongue, but I know
with a shattering certainty that he won't say them back, even if he feels
it. I can't take that disappointment, so I swallow them like hot coals,
letting the emotion sit and simmer in my stomach. "Be careful," I
whisper.

131

Damian
I'm on the way to meet with Franklin Guerre, one of the best private
investigators I know. Pops used to use him if he needed dirt on
someone, and I used him a few times when I was getting everything set
up. He asked to meet at a small cafe outside City Hall. I only realized I
was starving when the smell of pancakes and bacon hit my nose. I have
a heaping plate of pancakes and syrup in front of me. Franklin sips on
his coffee, eyes darting around the cafe.
He looks like a walking cliché with the fedora he wears and the brown
overcoat. "I already did a little digging," says Franklin. "For someone
with so much money, he's sloppy. Real sloppy. The father, Anthony
Cartwright, is careful, but Greg is the weak link. Some of their
operations are linked and I have a feeling if I look a little closer I'll be
able to use Greg to find some dirt on Anthony."
I swallow a mouthful of pancakes. "I don't give a shit about his father. I
just want Greg to get fucked."
Franklin gives me a patient look. "Think about it, Damian. No matter
how badly you hurt Greg, his father is going to bail him out of the mess.
The only way you get him out of your hair once and for all is pulling
him up by the root. You need to ruin Anthony, too."
I run a hand through my hair. Fuck. He's right. Waging war with Greg
on top of the crime families already felt like I was biting off more than
I could chew, but going after his father, too? There's no way I can do
both on my own. I need to find some way to pit them against each
other, I just don't know how yet. "Did you look into the properties yet?"
I ask.
"A little. By itself, it might not be much, but it's concrete evidence. We'
re going to have a whole heaping pile of substantial evidence, so the
properties could come into play as our Ace. As far as I can tell, it's a tax
avoidance scheme that is saving him millions. I haven't confirmed it
yet, but I think he's using his father's connections in the registrar's
office to create false persons. Fake socials, fake credit scores,
everything. So when the county comes after them for back taxes on the
properties, it's not Greg's problem. And he gets to double dip because
he writes off the

properties as business expenses, even though they are just sitting
unoccupied. It could get him a few years in federal prison by itself, but
that' s not going to be enough."
I nod. "I don't want the fucker coming back at us in a few years. I want
him buried."
Franklin leans forward, lowering his voice. "Not to suggest anything,
but just out of curiosity, why isn't he already buried?"
I sniff, suddenly losing my appetite. It's a question I've asked myself
already, but I have avoided answering it. "There's a girl," I say.
"Callie Beccaccio," says Franklin.
"Right, I should have known you would've already looked into it.
Anyway, I can't just handle this the way I used to. She would never
forgive me."
Franklin raises an eyebrow. "That's the only reason?"
"Yes," I say coldly, even though I know it's not true. The truth is she
makes me want to change. Whenever I think about doing things my old
way, I see her face when I had the gun to the Ricci thug's head. I know
it would have broken her. It's one thing for her to know I've killed, it's
another to see it, to feel it. Killing is something I never got used to. I
tolerated it, but I'd be lying if I said it didn't stick with me. Every
fucking person I've ever killed is like a chunk of myself that is gone. I
can feel the holes, the gaps, like voids where emotion refuses to stick
and bleeds right through. Being with Callie has started to fill those
holes, and I worry that killing again is going to open them back up, or
worse, scare her away and leave them open for good.
My phone buzzes. I check the caller. Unknown, but I memorized the
number from Callie's phone. Greg Cartwright.
"Shit," I say. "I need to take this. Keep looking, Franklin."
He nods, remaining in the booth as I head to my car with the phone.
"How did you get my number?" I ask. I watch from the driver seat as
Franklin slowly stands and leaves the cafe.
"Haven't you learned by now that nothing is beyond my reach?"
"Tell me why I shouldn't hang up."
"Because you want to know how badly I screwed you."

"Trust me, I've heard about your bad screwing already."
There's a pause where he's obviously trying to think of something to
say and failing. "I have the security camera footage from the gas station
when you and your friend, Benny Capobianco, shot and killed five men
in cold blood."
My blood goes cold and my hand tightens on the steering wheel. We
trashed the cameras and followed the wires back to a computer and
trashed that too. Most gas stations run their security footage on a closed
circuit system, but if it was backed up externally somewhere, he might
actually have the footage. "Why are you telling me this?"
"Because I want you, your filthy mobster cronies, and every last trace
of you to be out of Callie's life by tomorrow night. If you're not, I' ll
submit the footage to my close friend, the district attorney."
I hang up the phone and punch the console of my car. "Fuck!" I need to
think, but all I can focus on is the image of my hands around Greg's
neck, squeezing until he pops like the zit he is. I have less than 48 hours
to find something concrete enough to scare Greg into handing over the
evidence he has on me. My phone rings again and I see Cristiano
Ricci's name on the display. As if things could get any worse.
"What is it?" I snap into the phone.
"You thought you could play me off like some kind of idiot? You
thought you could feed me bullshit information and get my family and I
to do your dirty work? Well, I know the truth now. And you're about to
learn why nobody crosses the Riccis."
He hangs up the phone.
I turn the car on and stomp on the gas. Callie. If he has done anything to
hurt her, he's going to wish he was dead. No. He's going to wish he was
never born. I try to call the guys I have watching Callie on my way over
but get no answer. I try Callie's phone but get nothing.

135

Callie
I sip some of the tea I found in Damian's pantry. It's pretty good, but I
decide to add a little honey to it. I walk slowly around the house,
thinking about what I can do to help. Most of all, I wish I had a chance
to try a few codes on Greg's safe. I never even thought about trying
when I was with him. I guess it goes to show how emotionally beaten
down and broken I was. I didn't even realize I was a prisoner. I didn't
realize he was a worthless prick.
Greg always thought he had me hostage because of the money. He
thought if he cut me off, I would come crawling back to him if I ever
got the idea to leave. It was never the money. I stayed with him because
for as long as I could remember, the people I cared about had been
casting me off like unwanted trash. Even if it was toxic, Greg wanted
me to stay around. I think I had convinced myself he was as good as I
deserved. Then I met Damian, and while he's far from perfect, he's
exciting and strong and kinder than he realizes. But he's going to leave
soon, I know he is.
Some people would probably blame the baby. They would resent it or
want to get an abortion to fix things. I can't make myself do that.
Whether it's Greg's or Damian's, I already feel something so strong and
unbreakable between the baby and I that I couldn't even imagine
wanting to be rid of it. It's my own person, someone I can have a chance
to raise the right way, not like what my parents did. I'll be able to love
him or her and care for them. Even if everything else I've known
changes, I'll have that, and I can find comfort in the knowledge.
A dark shape moves in front of the window. I figure it's one of
Damian's guys, even though they don't normally move anywhere in a
hurry, whoever that was looked to be running. I grip my tea a little
tighter, trying not to let myself get worked up. I'm just being paranoid.
Then I hear a loud bang on the other side of the house. I jump, moving
to look out the window towards the car where one of Damian's guys
normally waits. His head is leaning back and one of the windows is
broken. I drop my tea, barely noticing as the cup shatters. I run as fast
as I can toward the spare bedroom where the safe room is. There's a
loud

crash nearby and I hear heavy footsteps and harsh voices.
I press my finger to the pad on the door. Locks on the other side of the
door click and grind painfully slow while the door still remains shut.
The footsteps get closer.
"She's in here!" someone shouts.
The door finally opens and I grab it, pulling as hard as I can to move the
heavy metal.
"Stop right there, sweetheart."
I freeze, wanting to cry when I see how close I was to safety. I'm
tempted to try it anyway, to rush inside and pull the door as fast as I
can, but the man is only a few feet behind me. He would be able to gun
me down in an instant if he wanted to. I think of the baby in my belly
and grit my teeth, putting my hands up. The man moves toward me and
in a blur of motion, he whips the back of his pistol across my temple.
Everything goes black.

138

Damian
The first thing I see when I tear up the driveway toward my house is the
broken window on Donnie's car. There's a bullet hole in the side of his
head and blood sprayed everywhere. Rico and Lars are down on the
side of the house. Three bullets in Rico's chest and one in Lars'
forehead. If my guys looked like they had gone down fighting, it would
be a bad sign, but it would've meant Callie had some kind of warning.
Seeing them caught unaware like this makes my skin go cold.
"Callie! " I yell, moving through the house with my gun drawn.
"Callie! "
There's no answer. The only thing keeping me from going fucking
berserk right then and there is knowing she could be in the safe room. I
rush through the house toward it, stepping over the broken glass from
where they must have forced their way in. The safe room door is open,
but the room is empty. That means she was here. Only my finger or
hers could have opened it. The opened safe door tells me everything. It
tells me too much. She didn't sneak off or evade them, she tried to make
it to the safe room and was caught before she could.
I punch the drywall beside me. Plaster sprays everywhere as my fist
creates a crater in the wall.
Cristiano Ricci is a fucking dead man. I had hoped to be done killing,
but I'll make an exception for him. That's one hole in my conscience I'll
gladly bear.
The phone rings too many times. I think no one is going to answer, and
then I finally hear a click. "Damian," says Cristiano. "I was wondering
when you would call."
"You have one chance. Give Callie back to me unharmed now, and I'll
only kill you. If I have to come find her, I'm going to tear your whole
fucking operation to the ground."
He laughs. "Unharmed? Too late for that. I guess I'll have to take my
chances."
I squeeze the gearshift until I think it's going to snap, urging the car
faster even though I don't know where I'm going. I have no idea

where Cristiano would have her.
"What do you want?" I ask.
"Pain. I want you to feel the same pain I felt when my niece's husband
was murdered."
"What about a trade? Me for Callie. Just tell me where to go and you
can fucking have me. Just let her go."
Cristiano tsks. "I don't think so. You would love that. You get to play
hero and come to her rescue? No. I don't think so. I want you to live a
long, long life. I want you to have plenty of time to remember what
happens when you cross Cristiano Ricci."
"I don't know how, but I'll find you. I can promise you that. This is
going to end one way. You, me, and a bullet. You had your chance," I
say, hanging up. I'm so mad my hands are shaking. I want to break
something, kill something. My Callie. I want to be there for her. And
the baby. The thought hits me like a truck, coming from nowhere, but
coming so clearly that I know it's true. I know it from the depths of my
being. I want to help her raise the child. I want to raise it like it's my
own, even if it's Greg's. It's Callie's, and that's enough for me. God.
Why didn't I see it sooner?
An idea strikes me. I don't know if it will work, but it might, and that's
better than what I'm currently working with. First, I call Franklin and
ask him to pause what he's doing and put all his resources into finding
out where the Riccis have hideouts. Next, I call Greg.
"Damian?" he asks.
"Yeah. I did what you said and walked away from Callie," I say, lying
through my teeth. "but when I left her alone, a crime family run by
Cristiano Ricci kidnapped her. They are holding her and plan to hurt or
kill her. So if you really care about her and that baby, you may want to
use those unlimited resources of yours to do something about it."
There's a long pause and then he hangs up the phone.
I sigh. It's a shot in the dark, but it could do something. If I have to risk
Greg finding her first and getting to save the day, I don't give a shit. I
just want Callie to come out of this unharmed. I'll kiss the fucking
Sanatore's feet if I have to. Anything to get her out alive and safe.

141

Callie
I' m yanked out of the back of the car and tossed to the hard concrete. I
manage to brace my fall, but my palms get chewed up from the hard
landing. I wince, refusing to cry out or whimper. I don't want these
assholes to see they are getting to me. I want to be strong.
We're on a dock somewhere. I didn't realize it was already so late, but
the sun is setting across the bay, giving the motionless ships in the bay
long, ominous shadows. There are seven men, all wearing suits and
carrying guns. One of them wears a white suit and has his hair slicked
back. He's handsome, but in a feline sort of way, like a dancer. From
the way the others treat him, it's clear that he's in charge.
"What do you want from me?" I ask.
The man in the white suit approaches me, stroking my chin with his
fingertip. I flinch away, glaring at him. "I' m Cristiano Ricci. Your
boyfriend made the mistake of pissing me off. He's going to pay with
your blood."
The tone in his voice begs no argument. What he says is a cold truth
and there's no debating it. These men are going to kill me. I'm struck by
a sudden overwhelming helplessness like I've never felt. I think it must
be how people feel when they are falling from deadly heights. There
must be a moment of realization, where panic and calm find a balance.
The ground rushes up with the inevitability of a sunrise, and the only
thing left to do is make peace. The violent promise in Cristiano's eyes is
as good as a guarantee.
My thoughts ping pong between Damian and the baby. I can stand the
thought of dying, but I can't stand the thought of losing them. Of
leaving them. I won't. I don't know how yet, but I'm going to fight this.
Even if it's as futile as fighting against gravity, I'm going to fight.
"Want me to do it, boss?" asks a tall man with broad shoulders and a
full gut.
"No," says Cristiano. "A bullet is too easy." He looks around the dock
thoughtfully and his eyes land on a large hook dangling from a chain.
It's connected to some kind of crane, presumably for lifting large crates
from ships. He snaps his fingers and points towards it. His men

apparently figure out what he wants and one runs up to the crane to
operate the controls and lower the hook to ground level.
Cristiano reaches for me and I flinch back. His face contorts in anger
and his hand snaps out like lightning, cupping me by the back of the
neck. His other fist slams into my jaw, making my vision flash black
and my legs go weak. Two of the men take me by the arms and drag me
toward the hook. Before I regain my strength, I feel myself being
flipped upside down. Cold metal presses against my lower back,
hooking under my jeans. A hand fumbles against my skin and I feel the
hook punch through my jeans below the waistband. The men release
me and I'm hanging by my jeans. I feel them slipping already, but thank
God they are tight. Cristiano takes some ropes from one of his men and
binds my hands behind my back and my legs together. Then he loops
all the rope around the hook so that I'm stuck to it, even if my jeans give
out.
I wanted to fight back, but there's nothing I can do. Seven men with
guns surround me. The crane arm swings and I watch as concrete gives
way to cold, black water. There's a grinding of gears as the crane begins
lowering me slowly, but unrelentingly toward the water. They are
going to drown me. It all seems to happen so fast that my mind can't
keep up. I' m about to die. My head is going to plunge beneath the water
and I'll try to hold my breath. Eventually, I'll gasp for air and only find
water. It will fill my lungs and I'll drown. I'm going to die.
Damian. I love you. I'm sorry I never said it. Even if you wouldn't have
said it back. I wish I had told you how much I love you. How much you
mean to me, and how you 're the only person who has ever made me
feel like me. I wish I could have raised this baby with you.
Police sirens wail in the distance. Cristiano curses, ordering his men to
spread out.
"Shouldn't we just leave?" says one of his men. "There's only one
fucking way on this dock. We're trapped. Just wait up top for my signal
and light them up when I say. I don't give a shit how many pigs they
bring, this bitch is dying and we're walking away, even if we are up to
our ankles in blood when we do." His men nod, climbing the stairs.
My hair is dangling in the water and the gentle waves made by the

boats bobbing and sinking in the water lap at my eyebrows, but the man
operating the crane has stepped away from the controls and the crane
stops dipping me toward the water. Still, a few more inches...I fight
against the panic threatening to consume me. I can't even curl my body
up and away from the water because of how tight the ropes are. My
body is rigid and locked. I'll be absolutely powerless to do anything.
Damian. Please help me.

145

Damian
I follow the cop cars as closely as I dare. Franklin was able to find out
that Cristiano had his hands in a few shipping operations, so I knew to
wait near the docks, but I didn't know which one. Apparently Greg's
people did, because I saw three cop cars come screaming toward the
C&G docks. I see Cristiano waiting at the end of the docks in a white
suit with his hands behind his back. The three cop cars park in front of
him and six officers get out, taking cover behind their car doors and
pointing pistols at him.
I park my car and get out, sneaking toward them. I called for Benny to
bring help, but he was out of state working on fencing the last of the
goods we ripped off. I shouldn't need any muscle, because I don't think
even the Riccis aren't crazy enough to kill cops. Mafia connections can
make a lot of crimes disappear, but killing cops isn't one of them.
"Freeze!" shouts one of the cops.
Cristiano smiles calmly, hands still behind his back. "I'm frozen."
"Show us your hands! "
"Which one is it, freeze, or show you my hands?" His eyes move to a
nearby roof and he gives the slightest nod." For three seconds, nothing
happens.
Gunshots ring out, deafening in the clear night. The muzzle flashes
light the darkened dock like lightning.
Cristiano rolls behind a crate. Four of the cops drop instantly, dust and
blood bursting from their uniforms as bullets tear through them from
both sides. One of the shooters is only a few feet from the boxes I was
moving behind. I quickly rush behind him and take him by the neck,
squeezing hard and then bashing his skull with the butt of my pistol. He
immediately slumps against me.
Even in the middle of the chaos, all I can think of is Callie. I keep
searching for her. Bullets spray sparks near my head, skidding off
metal shipping containers. I notice a hook dangling over the water and
see that it's shaking. A stray bullet wouldn't make it shake like that.
Callie. I rush past an opening, risking bullets to get closer.
Gunshots crack and burn through the night, making my ears ring.

Cristiano fires from behind the crate, peppering the cop cars with bullet
holes. His men keep unloading, but the two surviving cops shoot back,
dropping two of Cristiano's men. I find the other shooter near me and
pull a knife from my pocket, jabbing it in his heart in one swift motion.
He drops, gun clattering to the ground. I'm getting an angle on
Cristiano as I move closer, but I still hear at least two or three of
Cristiano's guys on the roof firing.
One of the cops takes a bullet in the neck. Falling and grabbing the
wound, legs spasming. The last cop drops one more of Cristiano's guys
before a bullet catches him in the head. He falls and the silence that
follows is deafening.
Cristiano stands casually, not realizing I'm still here. "Let's get the fuck
out of here," he shouts to the men on the roof. The two men start
coming down a flight of stairs. I jump out from cover and squeeze off
the fastest three shots of my life. One takes Cristiano in the chest and
the other two take his men in the faces. Both men die instantly, but
Cristiano spins, clutching his wound and spraying bullets at the space I
was just in.
"Damian!" He yells, sounding crazed in his excitement. "I
underestimated you! "
I don't have time for this shit. Callie is on that hook. I know it. I try not
to let my mind run through possible scenarios. Just get there. Just save
her. I ignore Cristiano, rushing past him and running into the open,
firing blindly behind me to keep him at bay. Bullets zip through the air,
passing near my head. I leap off the dock and toward the hook. The
dark water envelops me, cold enough to suck the air from my lungs. I
surface and see her.
"Damian!" she gasps. She's hanging upside down, face red enough that
I can even see it in the near darkness. The water is right at her
eyebrows.
I tread water, reaching for my knife and kicking off my shoes. "Hold on
baby, I'm going to get you out of this." I start hacking at the ropes tying
her to the hook, but it's slow work.
Metal grinds overhead and Callie starts to dip below the water. I look
up. Fuck. Cristiano must have got to the controls. He's going to fucking
drown her.

"Damia—" her words are cut off as her head plunges beneath the water.
No. I' m going to save her. I furiously hack at the ropes, grinding my
teeth as I dig through the seemingly endless layers of rope. Something
gives, and I free her upper body. Her legs go beneath the water. I suck
in a deep breath, diving and finding her mouth. I press mine to hers,
moving her hand to plug her nose. I breath a lungful of air into her
mouth and go back to her legs, carefully cutting at the rope, making
sure I don't cut her. The hook keeps getting lower, and I feel pressure
build in my ears. My body screams for air, but I only surface to get
another lungful so I can swim back and breathe it into Callie's mouth.
We' re a few feet below the surface and everything is black, silent and
oddly calm. The water is remorseless, utterly unaware that two people
are struggling for life within it. I finally make it through the ropes on
her legs, just as I think I can't make it any longer without air. I grab her
to pull her free but something is still stuck. I feel around blindly until I
realize the hook is through her jeans too. I yank it free and grab her by
the waist, kicking to get us to the surface.
I feel my consciousness slipping and my legs weakening, but Callie
kicks her legs too, giving us the last push we need to reach the surface.
Water breaks over our heads and the cold night air greets us. We suck
in deep, ragged breaths. My strength trickles back, and I start trying to
get us under the dock incase Cristiano decides to find out if the hook
took care of us or not.
We struggle to swim in our water-laden clothes, moving toward the
safety beneath the dock painfully slow. I see Cristiano lean over the
dock, clutching the wound in his chest. He holds a gun in the other
hand.
"You're harder to get rid of than a cockroach, Citrione!" He fires down
at us, bullets splashing in the water dangerously close to us.
I dig my own gun out and aim up right at his face and squeeze the
trigger. It clicks. Fuck. Water jammed it. His gun clicks when he fires
the last bullet in his clip just as we're passing beneath him. He swears,
struggling to reload with shaking hands.
We find a staircase leading back to the surface of the dock when we
swim out of his line of sight. I sit Callie on it, making sure she's okay

before signaling for her to wait. I drop my useless gun and pull out the
knife. She shakes her head at me.
"I have to stop him now or he's going to try this again." I'm about to
move up the stairs and then I pause. "I'll help you raise Greg's baby
under one condition."
She gives me an incredulous look. "You're grinning at a time like
this? Wait. What? What condition?"
"You have to agree to marry me."
For a second, her face is unreadable. Then her lips quiver and her eyes
fill with tears. She leans forward, hugging her wet body against mine
and sobbing into my shoulder. "Yes. Yes. Yes! God, yes."
She's freezing, and I wish I had time to hold her tight and warm her. I
hate knowing that my baby is so cold, but I can't risk Cristiano finding
us down here like sitting ducks.
I pull away, smiling. "Don't worry. I'll be careful up there. He's not
going to expect me to come at him."
She takes a deep breath, the happiness in her face melting away. "If you
let anything happen to you, I'll never forgive you."
"Deal," I say, smirking. I move up the ladder quietly. The cold water
drying on my skin is making my hands numb, but the burning hatred I
have for this Ricci fucker who tried to hurt my Callie is enough to
warm them. I hear more sirens in the distance. Damn. That was fast. I
can't think about that right now though. I need to end Cristiano. The
cops might just arrest him, and that means he would have a chance to
get loose again. I have to kill him.
I see him kneeling over the edge of the dock, one hand pointing a gun
down toward the water and the other holding the bloody wound in his
chest. I use the large shipping containers to sneak as close as I can
without him seeing, all while the police sirens grow louder and louder
in the distance.
I clutch my knife and press my back to a container that is only a few
feet from him. I kneel, grabbing a loose chunk of concrete near my
foot. I toss it over the container and into the water. The splash draws his
attention, so when I emerge from behind the box, his back is to me. I
walk toward him with deadly purpose, knife at the ready. I'm about to

drive the point home when the sirens reach a crescendo and the sound
of several car doors opening reaches my ears. "Freeze! " yells one of
the cops.
Cristiano turns toward the sound, noticing me and pointing his gun at
my chest. We're arm's length apart, both poised to kill. "Don't fucking
move a muscle!" shouts the cop. I meet Cristiano's eyes, fascinated by
the way the red and blue light of the sirens catches his features,
enhancing the crazed mania in his face. "I'm going to kill that bitch of
yours when I get out. Maybe I'll wait until the baby is born so I can—"
His eyes widen as the knife punches through his suit, undershirt, skin,
and heart. At the same time, his finger twitches on the trigger. Blinding
light flashes between us and it feels like a hammer hits me in the center
of the chest. I fall backwards, head bouncing off the concrete. The last
thing I see through dimming eyes is Cristiano collapsing to the ground
with glazed eyes.
Sorry, Callie. I couldn't risk letting him live.

151

Callie
I hear a gunshot and rush to the upper level of the dock. My legs move
sluggishly from the cold, but my fear for Damian pushes me forward. I
had heard sirens, but as far as the police are concerned, both Damian
and Cristiano probably look like bad guys. They both are bad
guys.
I see at least ten police cars and countless officers swarming the scene.
Red and blue light washes over the entire port, but my eyes can't seem
to move from the two motionless bodies by the water's edge. I realize
there's already an ambulance here. They must have had a call that
officers were down. Three paramedics are kneeling by Damian and
Cristiano's bodies.
A paramedic wearing blue gloves check's Cristiano's pulse and shakes
her head, moving to check Damian's.
My heart pounds so hard that I can feel it throbbing in my throat. I
realize I've fallen to my knees, hands covering my mouth. I'm too numb
to even cry. I just feel a gaping emptiness, like a hole opened up in the
very core of my being and everything good or happy I've ever felt is
being sucked out of it, leaving an empty shell behind. Be okay. Please.
I need you, Damian. I want to be your wife, to make you happy, to share
my life with you and watch this baby grow with you. Please, I needed
you to help fix me, and I wanted to try to help you find happiness, too.
The paramedic looks up sharply, shouting something I can't hear over
the sirens. The other two paramedics rush to the ambulance and pull a
stretcher out. They slide a back board beneath Damian and lift him,
putting him on the stretcher and folding the wheels to slam the
ambulance doors behind him.
He's alive. The thought swirls around my mind like blinding white
light, making everything it touches feel good and right again. For now.
I can't think about "what if", he's alive. They are going to drive away
with him. Without me. I stand, legs feeling uneasy and ready to give
beneath me.
"Hey!" I shout. My voice is hoarse and weak. "Hey!" I'm hobbling
toward the officers now. A few heads turn towards me. The officers are

gesturing and rushing to grab blankets from trunks. "Miss, are you
okay?"
I try to push past the men and women covering me with blankets,
pointing toward the ambulance. "Damian. Please. Let me go with him,"
I
beg.
"She's hypothermic. Get her in an ambulance."
"Get more blankets! "
"No, I need to go with him."
Hands are half-pushing, half-carrying me toward another ambulance. I
struggle weakly, mumbling about Damian even though it feels like my
consciousness is slipping in and out of focus. He's okay. He's alive.
They won't tell me where he is. Damian is a prime suspect in the
murder of the officers who were killed in addition to the criminals, and
I'm an eye witness. The only reason the case hasn't gone national
already is because of Greg's influence. He doesn't care about protecting
Damian at all, but he knows I was at the scene and he's using all of his
weight to keep the case from reaching the media. It's only a matter of
time though.
To my annoyance, there's nothing I can do to keep Greg from visiting
me in the hospital. When I ask the nurses and doctors, they just dodge
my question. Greg has no doubt gotten to them in some way already.
He's sitting beside my bed. I feel okay, though I don't put up too much
of a fight because I want to stay until they are absolutely sure the baby
is okay.
Greg reaches for my hand, but I pull mine away.
"Is he okay?"
Greg frowns. "Stop asking about him. I don't know or care how that
animal is doing."
"Then I have nothing to talk to you about."
"How about your legal options?" he says. "Even a sniff of evidence in
the wrong way and you might find yourself implicated in the murder of
a very significant number of people, and some of those people are cops,
Callie. The justice system is ruthless when it comes to protecting

its own."
I cross my arms. "You know I didn't kill anyone. I was tied up during
the shooting. All the officers there saw me come up dripping wet from
being in the water."
He gives me a condescending smile that makes me want to throw my
metal tray of food at his face. "Come on, Cal. You know it's not about
what I know or what really happened. Haven't you learned by now that
I can buy whatever reality I please? Give me a reason, and I can ruin
your life."
"Don't call me Cal," I say.
He sighs, standing and brushing the wrinkles from his chinos and polo.
"I'll give you some time to think things over. Maybe you'll come to
your senses and realize I'm the only hope you have of not giving birth
to that baby in a prison hospital."
A few seconds after Greg leaves, a man in a fedora and an overcoat
slips into the room. "Miss. Beccaccio," he says. He has a gruff voice,
but his tone is professional and cordial. "Hello..." I say
"Franklin Guerre. Like the cheese. I work with Damian."
"Is he okay?" I ask.
"He's doing well. The bullet missed all his vital organs by a few
centimeters. He's very lucky. A few weeks in bed and he should be
fine."
I sink back in my bed, closing my eyes and saying a silent prayer of
thanks. The relief that surges through me is visceral, relaxing muscles I
didn't know were tense and causing the exhaustion that I was holding
back to return. I can't remember the last time I prayed, but I feel like I
owe the Big Guy one after this.
"That's not the only reason I'm here," he says, pulling up a chair and
taking a seat. "Damian had me looking into Greg. He wanted to find
some dirt, something that he could use as leverage to get Greg to back
off once and for all. If he could, he, w e l l . "
"You can tell me," I say. "Damian already filled me in on most of the
plan."
Franklin raises his eyebrows. "Really? Are we talking about the

same Damian Citrione? Tall, big muscles, bad temper?" I smile. "Same
one."
"Since when does he talk business with women?" asks Franklin. Then
he catches himself, holding out a hand in apology. "I'm sorry to sound
so crass. It's just an old business with old ways. I meant no offense."
"None taken," I say. "I didn't give him much of a choice."
Franklin flashes his teeth in a crooked grin. "I see why he likes you so
much. You must be the girl he talked about who tipped him about the
real estate. Good work on that. It got me going in the right direction."
I smile, blushing a little from the praise. "So you found something else
to use against Greg?"
"You could say I found someone to use against Greg, yeah."
As if on cue, a man in a black suit that somehow screams FBI walks in.
He has thinning hair and a lined, severe face.
"Miss Beccaccio. Agent James Conway," says Franklin.
I narrow my eyes. "I've heard of you."
"Good things, I'm sure," says Conway sarcastically. "I was a pain in
Damian's ass, but Greg has practically held a gun to my career for years
now, making sure I barked when he said to bark. Granted, your
boyfriend has done bad things and probably deserves everything I was
giving him."
"Can we trust him?" I ask Franklin.
Franklin gives Conway an appraising look. "Yes. He almost has as
much motivation as you to see Greg out of the picture."
Conway nods. "He planted false evidence on my work computer. It' s in
the permanent logs if anyone thinks to look for it, and all they need is a
word from him to check. It would ruin me in an instant. I'd probably
spend the rest of my life behind bars. I've been dealing with it, but I' m
ready to be done. I want my life back. I have grandchildren that I would
like to watch grow up. So if I can help nail this fucker, I will."
I raise my eyebrows. "Fair enough. Is there any way we can talk about
this with Damian?"
Franklin shakes his head. "Not quite yet. They are going to want to
question him before he can talk to anyone, but we made sure he has the

best lawyer money can buy. We need to do this on our own and make
sure things are already in motion before the trial. If we can make our
move before the public hears about this, it will be even better. Our
chances of getting the legal system to look the other way will dwindle if
we're on every news station. Public officials are particularly cautious
about taking bribes and giving into intimidation when they know they
are being watched."
"So where do we start?"
"WIth the good news," says Franklin. "I was digging around and came
across this," he reaches in his briefcase and pulls out a manilla
envelope, handing it to me.
I frown in confusion, pulling a piece of paper from inside. "My
paternity test? I already s a w . " My eyes widen as they scan the page.
"This says Greg... isn 't the father. But when he—"
"It was a forgery. He didn't have Damian's DNA to test, but the baby
isn't Greg's. As long as there are no other possible fathers, that
m e a n s . "
His words slam into me. I feel breathless, beside myself. I burst with
sudden, immediate need to tell Damian. The baby is Damian's. My
eyes well with happy tears, spilling onto the page. I sniff, smiling and
reading the line over and over. Greg Cartwright: No match. "Does
Damian know?"
"I thought you should tell him," says Franklin.
It' s four days before Franklin is able to find a way for me to see
Damian. Even then, he had to forge documents to make it look like I
was a family member. My heart beats a little faster when I see Callie
Citrione on the fake ID. If we are able to get Damian out of these
charges and take care of Greg somehow, my real ID will say that soon.
I'll be his wife. When I talk about him I'll say my husband. It feels so
strange, but in a great, butterfly-filled way. At the same time, the
lingering fear that everything could be pulled out from under us in an
instant keeps me grounded. We're very far from safe, and even I could
end up getting implicated in the crime at any time, which scares me less
than the thought of Damian being put in jail.

I know he has done terrible things and most people would say he
deserves jail, but I've come to know him, and I think there's a kind and
good man inside him. He's just a person who has had to grow hard and
strong to survive in the world he was born into. I know he can find a
way to reshape himself to live a life that won't put the baby and I in
danger.
I had to call Aubriella and tell her everything that had happened. She
came back from vacation yesterday with Vince, and I didn't want her to
hear it from someone else. She was surprised, to say the least. I guess
she didn't expect her housesitter to get involved with the mafia and a
national crime while she and Vince were off vacationing. But from the
sounds of it, she had her own share of surprises when she first met
Vince, so she took the news better than I expected.
I haven't had time to visit her again because Franklin and Conway have
had me running from place to place helping them gather evidence. It
feels good, to be honest. I know it's probably killing Damian to be
sitting on his hands, but knowing I'm doing everything in my power to
help my man is a good feeling. I was also satisfied to see the way
Franklin and Conway have gradually begun to defer to my judgment
more and more often. Apparently I have a good nose for this kind of
thing, and I've been able to point them in the right direction more than a
few times.
I find Damian propped up in a bed and wired up to countless machines
by tubes and wires. He's sitting in silence, eyes dark and distant. When
I step in the room, he snaps his head toward me, features softening.
"Callie."
I rush forward, hugging him as carefully as I can. "Bullet wound," he
grunts. I gasp, pulling back. "I' m sorry! "
He smirks, reaching out to pull me back in for another hug. "I didn't say
stop. I was just hoping for a sympathy fuck." "You have such a one
track mind." "With a body like yours, can you blame me?" I stand,
putting my hand on my hip. "You really should be more focused on
getting out of this without ending up in jail." The truth about the baby
burns in my chest, threatening to burst out at any moment, but I

want to wait for the right time.
His face falls a little. "Callie, they are accusing me of over ten murders.
I don't know if I can slip all of that." "We'll see about that," I say
stubbornly. He grins. "Do you know something I don't?" "Actually,
yes. I know a lot of things you don't," I pause long enough for him to
glare at me playfully. "I don't want to bog you down with the details.
You just need to focus on recovering."
"Fuck that," he says. "I'll be fine. I need to know what's going on,
Callie."
I shake my head. "Just know that we're making a lot of progress and
we're going to get you out of this soon."
He grabs my arm, pulling me closer. I'm surprised by how strong he is,
even when he's recovering from a bullet wound. "Tell me."
The heat in his gaze threatens to break through my resolve. "The baby
is yours," I say.
He doesn't react immediately. After a few moments, his brows
pinch together. "What?"
"Greg forged the paternity papers. It was always yours." I could be
imagining it, but I think I see tears at the corner of Damian's eyes. He
blinks and they're gone as quickly as they came though. "You're sure?"
I smile, bending to kiss him. "I'm sure." He pulls me in tightly, hugging
me hard. "Bullet wound," I say, laughing.
"Fuck the bullet wound," he says, sliding his hand up my shirt and
under my bra. His calloused fingers graze my nipple and it hardens
immediately at his touch.
"No," I rasp. "Fuck me."
He yanks the cords from his body until he's completely detached from
the machines, pulling me on the bed. I straddle him, feeling his already
hard cock beneath the hospital sheets. I pull them down and lift the skirt
I wear up to my hips. Damian grabs my panties and pulls, shredding
them with a hunger that makes me quiver. I want him so badly that I
barely even think about the fact that a nurse or doctor could walk

in at any moment. They might even wonder why his "sister" is fucking
him in the hospital bed, but I don't care about that either.
He's already naked except for the thin gown, and I free his length in one
quick motion, sliding my slick pussy over him, grinding myself into
him and letting the full length of his cock rub along my valley. He tries
to sit up to reach for my tits and then winces, falling back to the bed. I
reach behind him and use the controls on the bed to make the bed rise
up so he can reach me without straining.
He gives me a curious look. "Have you done this before?" I laugh. "No,
but we may have to get one of these at your place." He uses his other
hand to circle my already throbbing clit with his thumb. I reach down to
grab his cock and guide it inside me. I'm already so wet that he slides in
without any difficulty. The width of his length stretches my walls in a
way I've come to love. I run my eyes down the hard lines of his abs and
the sharp V of muscle leading to his cock, unable to get enough.
"I love you," I gasp as I feel myself nearing climax. The words slip free
and are gone, like birds accidentally loosed into the night. The finality
of it scares me and I wish I hadn't said it out loud. What if he doesn't say
it back? He asked you to marry him, for Christ's sake. Why wouldn 't
he?
He cups me by the back of the neck and pulls me down to kiss me hard,
thrusting his tongue in my mouth and swirling against me. "I love you,
too," he says, locking eyes with me.
I said and heard the words with Greg before when I thought I knew
what they meant. I had no idea. Hearing them come from his perfect
lips is like an explosion inside me. I almost don't realize my pussy is
clenching against him in orgasm. He loves me.
Damian bites his lip, pressing his head back into the pillow. His warm
cum fills me. I love feeling him cum inside me so much that I know
we're going to end up with more than one baby if we make it out of this.
The thought brings an unwelcome sadness as I slump down, carefully
laying myself on him so that I don't press on the bloody bandage over
his chest. If we make it out.
A nurse walks in, looking down at a chart as she comes all the way

in the room and beside the bed. She glances up, taking a few seconds to
process what she sees. Damian and I lie completely still until Damian
laughs.
The nurse blushes furiously and turns to walk from the room.
I think my face is probably as red as the blood on Damian's bandage as
I slide off of him, pulling my skirt down and throwing away the tattered
panties he tore off me.

161

Damian
It' s a full week before I' m well enough to be let out of bed. Because of
the nature of the charges against me, they are holding me in the
Sullivan Correctional facility, where I've been now for ten days. Callie
visits me every time they let her and updates me on their progress. I'm
so fucking proud to see how she's handling everything. The women I'
ve known before would have been crumbling and crying all the time,
waiting at home and hoping everything works out.
Callie is spending every day with Franklin and Conway gathering
evidence and building a case against Greg and his father. It feels like
progress, but it's far from a sure thing. For all we know, bringing Greg's
whole family to the ground wouldn't do shit to get me off the hook, but
if we play our cards right, we might be able to convince Greg and his
father the only way they get out of this without jail is by helping me.
Benny sits on the other side of the visitation window. I'm apparently
dangerous enough that the only way I can safely talk to someone is
through bulletproof glass with a phone.
"I delivered your message to the Sanatores," says Benny.
"What'd they say?"
"They are interested, yeah."
"They sure as fuck should be. There are literally millions to be
scammed out of these Cartwright pricks. Did you pass along my
suggestion?"
Benny smirks. "Yeah. You would just knock open the wall and yank it
out. Figure the combo out later or force your way into the thing. They
seemed to consider it."
I feel a flood of relief. Good. If everything falls into place perfectly, we
may just make it out of this after all. Maybe. It's going to require a lot of
luck and a hell of a lot of finesse, but damn if we don't have a chance.
"Remind me why you want to tip the Sanatores off to this rich guy' s
motherload again?"
"Because there's no way I'm going to be able to go after them the way I
wanted to before. If I make it out of this case without jail time,

they are going to be watching me so close that I won't even be able to
steal a pack of gum. Taking the Sanatores down in a hail of gunfire is
off the table, especially now that I have a baby on the way." "You still
have me. Just tell me what to do." I shake my head. "It was one thing to
ask you to risk your life beside me for revenge, it's another to sit here
and watch you go do it by yourself. No. It's not going to scratch the itch
as much as we wanted, but we've got to at least try to take them down
another way, a way that won't get you killed."
"And how is stealing Greg's safe going to help make that happen?"
"That depends on how we end up playing it, but trust me. If they take
that safe, they're fucked."
After Benny leaves, they lead Vince in to visit. He's wearing a suit with
a blood red undershirt. His skin is tanner than usual from the vacation
and he looks good. He looks happy. I' m glad to see it, even if he and I
never found a way to get along.
"Hey little brother," he says into the phone.
I smirk. "I've got an inch on you," I say. "Watch who you call
little."
"You don't have an inch on me where it counts," he says. I smirk back
at him.
"How are you doing?" he asks, face growing serious. "Is there anything
I can do?"
I shake my head. "I'm okay. I've got something in the works." I swallow
some of the anger and bitterness I've held toward him for all these years
and put my fist to the glass. "Thanks for coming by."
He pounds his fist against the glass. "Take care of yourself, Damian. If
you need anything, just ask. Okay?"
I nod, hanging up the phone and waiting for the next visitor to come in.
Franklin strolls in, still wearing that silly fedora and overcoat. He grabs
the phone and I pick up again.
"We've got something big. I found a legal loophole that could be a
difference maker."
"Oh yeah?" I ask.
"Human trafficking," says Franklin. "Greg's father had a maid

brought over from Sweeden and they ended up having an affair. Well,
the maid brought charges of sexual abuse against him. Said the sex was
never consensual and that she wasn't paid for her work. She was about
to bring it to trial when deportation paperwork started to be filed
against her and her family."
"I thought human trafficking was big shit, like crates of prostitutes
being shipped around?"
"Not always. And this may end up being a wasted charge, but if it gets
brought against him, it means he legally has to open his books to the
feds. They'll have freedom to dig through every last number and
receipt. They'll find enough to bury him if they do, and all that evidence
is going to lead them straight to Greg. It will be a demolition of the
Cartwright empire. All I need is your word to go live with it."
"No. Not yet. We need to bring what we have to Greg and make him
see that he's royally fucked if we push it through. If we pull the trigger
before he helps us, he'll have no reason to do what we want." Besides, I
want to make sure the Sanatores go down with the Cartwrights.
Franklin purses his lips. "You got it."
Conway comes in as Franklin leaves. I have grown to actually like the
old fuck, despite the initial impression he gave me. He has a disdain for
the system that I can absolutely get behind. My kind of guy, really.
"I need you to pull whatever strings you can to get monitoring
equipment on Greg. I want to know who he calls, when he calls them,
and what he says."
Agent Conway shrugs. "Shouldn't be a problem."
"Good."
Conway dips his head to me and leaves without another word. Straight
to business and no bullshit. I like that about him.
The one visitor I've been waiting for finally comes into the visitation
room. She's wearing a tunic and leggings, the hint of her perfect curves
just beneath the long shirt driving me wild. I vaguely wonder if I could
vault over the top of the bulletproof glass and have my way with her
before the guards got in here to separate us.
"I hate seeing you in here," she says sadly, putting her small hand

against the glass.
I press mine to it. "Well, don't get used to it. I think this is going to
work."
"I hope so."
"Hey," I say, forcing her to meet my eyes. "I'm going to find a way to
be there for you and the baby, even if I have to break out of this fucking
place."
She grins. "Don't go breaking out yet, Rambo. Let's see if the slightly
less insane plan works first." She presses a hand to her stomach. "We
will wait for you, no matter what happens."

166

Callie
Aubriella sips a cup of coffee at the table across from me while Vince
holds her protectively by his side. We're in a little cafe a few miles from
the prison. Seeing her with her man gives me aches of longing. A tear
surprises me, rolling down my cheek and splattering to the table
without warning. I wipe my eye, shaking my head.
"Sorry. I know I haven't been with him long. I must look ridiculous."
Aubriella gives me a sympathetic smile, reaching across the table to
squeeze my hand. "You don't look ridiculous at all." She looks at
Vince, biting her lip. "Not that he needs an ego boost, but I was head
over heels after about a week."
"A week?" he asks. "I was head over heels after about four seconds."
She gives him a sour look. "You mean around the time you were
threatening me?"
"Hey," he says, smirking. "If I didn't like you, I would've skipped the
threats and went straight to the actions."
Aubriella's cheeks flush pink. "I don't seem to recall a very long period
of time passing before the action. Does that mean you didn't like
me?"
Vince winks at me. "I'm sorry about her. She missed her calling.
Should have been a lawyer, I think."
I laugh. Seeing them still so happy together after kids and so many
years warms my spirits. "Can I ask a question? An uncomfortable one,
maybe?"
They exchange a look and Aubriella waits for Vince to nod. "Go
ahead," he says, voice serious.
"How do you make it work, with the, well, business?" Aubriella
answers. "It took time. We both had to make compromises, but in the
end, I don't think it was that different than any relationship. There's
always going to be areas of compromise, give and take, you know?"
"And the kids?"

Vince answers this time. "By this time next year I will be retired and on
good terms. Without going into too much detail, I've been taking steps
for years now to be less involved and pass more burden along to my
men. I've also done what I can to make our business more legitimate."
"I didn't think you could ever leave the lifestyle. That's how it works in
the movies, at least," I say, feeling stupid.
"It depends. I'm in a position to leave. Damian is in a different position
from me. When he walked away from the family, he walked away from
its protection too. He has enemies, and he may have some ghosts to put
to rest before he can completely walk away, but I wouldn't be surprised
if he's willing to do it. I know he cares about you and he has always
been two things, reckless and loyal. There may be some fireworks
before it's all over, but I think he'll find a way to make a life for you and
the baby."
"Bad news," says Franklin through the phone.
I' m standing in the waiting area to be let in to see Damian. The place is
crowded and I have to plug my other ear with a finger to hear him
clearly.
"What is it?" I ask. "Is there a TV nearby?"
"Yes," I say. The news is playing, and a blonde newscaster holding a
stack of papers is talking to the camera, but I can't hear it. A few
seconds later the image flashes to a video of Damian being led into a
police car in handcuffs. The graphic at the bottom reads "Biggest Mafia
Murder Of The Century".
"You see it?" he asks.
"What does this mean?" I ask. My heart is pounding and I feel like I
can't get a full breath of air. It all suddenly feels even more real, more
permanent.
"It means even Greg probably can't just throw his weight into the case
to get us off the hook anymore. It's still possible, but it's going to take
more finesse now. I'm working on something, so don't panic. Just keep
your head down and I'll be in touch, okay? Don't do anything

reckless."
He hangs up the phone and I look back at the TV. They are showing
footage of crime tape on the dock and the body bags being carried to
ambulances. It feels like forever before my name is called to go to the
visitation room.
Damian waits on the other side of the glass, phone in hand. I sit down
grabbing the phone and looking hard into his eyes, trying to see if he
knows or not yet. Something in his look tells me he knows. But he
smiles.
"I have a surprise," says Damian.
I give him a puzzled look as a guard motions for me to stand and follow
him to a door at the edge of the room. Damian gets up, walking in the
same direction on the other side of the glass.
I' m led into a hallway and then into a small closet. The guard motions
for me to wait while he goes to let Damian out of the visitation room
and into the closet with me.
Damian claps the guard on the shoulder, grinning. "I owe you one,
Hank."
Hank glances over his shoulder. "Five minutes." The door closes and
we're bathed in absolute darkness. "What's happen—" I try to ask, but
Damian's mouth crashes against mine. His hands roam me, driving up
my shirt and cupping my breasts. He grabs my thigh and pulls my leg
around his hips, pressing his hard cock into me. I gasp, throwing my
head back as he kisses my neck. I can't see anything, but the
deprivation of sight is making all the sensations more vivid.
I reach down and help him pull my pants and panties down half-way.
He doesn't wait for me to get them all the way off, turning me around so
my cheek is pressed to the wall. I hear a ruffle of clothing and then a
split second later he spits. Warm, wet fingers lubricate my entrance. He
presses his cock into me with no hesitation, filling me so completely
that I cry out.
"Fuck. I needed this," he grunts, still pumping himself in me furiously.
"God. Don't stop," I gasp.

His pelvis slaps against my bare ass, my pussy already wet and slick
against him. The ferocity of it has me already edging close to a climax.
I feel the building sensation growing between my legs, turning into
something warm that sends tendrils of pleasure through my whole
body. I' m gasping so loud that people in the hallway must hear, but I
don' t care.
He kisses my neck, hot breath buffeting my skin. His strong hands grip
me by the hips as he pulls my ass hard against his cock with each thrust,
making sure every last inch of him is inside me. "I'm going to cum," I
moan. "God, it's so good." He grunts, moving even faster until my
world is a blur of sensation and ecstasy. I reach back, gripping his bare,
firm ass. Feeling it flex and relax as he moves into me puts me over the
edge. I cover my mouth with my other hand, screaming against my
palm.
"Fuck!" he growls, slamming into me and folding his body over mine
as his cock jolts, spraying heat inside me.
A few seconds later there's a knock at the door. He helps me pull my
pants up and pulls his own up quickly. I'm glad I wore dark jeans,
because I can already feel his cum soaking through my panties and into
my jeans.
The door opens and Hank grins. "Hope you had enough time." He leads
Damian back first to the visitation room and then me. I 'm still weak in
the legs as the last traces of my orgasm wash over my body. It feels
surreal, walking into the room of sad spouses and family members like
nothing just happened. I know my hair must be a mess, and if anyone
cared to pay enough attention it would be obvious what just happened,
but I don't care. If everything doesn't fall together perfectly, that may be
the last time I ever get to be with Damian, and I want to remember it,
down to the smallest detail.
I breathe out a long, shuddering breath into the phone and then smile at
Damian. "That was a nice surprise."
He smirks. "I thought you'd like that. I think I may have liked it more,
though. I've had trouble thinking about how to get out of here because
I've just been thinking about getting into you."
"I know how you feel," I say. "I wish we could go back to how

things were."
"Don't worry, Callie. We're going to figure this out."
"How? The whole country is going to be scrutinizing every move in the
case now" I say.
"We can still use Greg. Conway is already planting evidence that will
be "discovered" and make it look like the Sanatores were at the crime
scene too. That should give Greg's connections enough room to make
the case winnable."
"Should," I say wearily.
"Think of it as Plan A. If it doesn't work, we'll just try Plan B." "And
what's Plan B?"
"We can figure that out when we get there. One last thing. They are
moving me to a higher security wing of the prison. I won't have
visitation rights." He sees the look on my face and nods. "That means
you have to be the one to convince Greg to help us."
I take a deep breath. I want to do everything I can to never talk to that
slimeball again, but if it means giving Damian a chance to get free, I'll
do it. "I'll do my best."
"I know you will. You're stronger than you give yourself credit for.
Stronger than I gave you credit for. You can do this."
I wait on a bench in a public park. The air is chilly and I hug myself
tightly to warm my hands. Birds chirp and two small girls chase each
other through the playground equipment while their mom plays on her
phone. It' s a completely normal day for everyone else, and they have
no idea what kind of mess I'm in. It feels so strange, like I'm an
outsider. Still, I'd rather be fighting tooth and nail to help free Damian
than struggling to think of a reason to get out of bed in the morning.
I see Greg before he sees me. He gets out of a slick black car that
probably costs way more than it looks like it. He's wearing a ridiculous
coat that has to be way too warm for the weather. Oversized buttons run
down the front and the coat opens in a high collar that reaches his ears.
He finds me soon enough and takes the seat next to me on the bench. I
scoot away, giving myself as much space as I can.
"Callie," he says softly. "You know I won't bite."

"No," I say. "You'll cheat, though."
He rolls his eyes. "Jesus Christ, Callie. Do you have any idea how
many women throw themselves at me? You would be amazed at how
many of them I turned down. Only sleeping with a few here and there
practically makes me a saint."
A few? So it really wasn't the only time. I knew it somewhere deep
down, but hearing it confirmed seals off any last bit of mercy I might
have shown him. He never had a chance with me again, but I might
have spared him some cruelty for the few good moments there were
between us. Not now.
"I' m not here to talk about the adventures of your tiny dick," I say. His
cheeks grow red and he opens his mouth to speak, but I cut him
off.
"You need to find a way to get the charges against Damian dropped, or
you' re going to lose everything."
He stares at me in stunned silence before bursting out laughing. "You're
threatening me? I still have even more evidence I could bring against
Damian if he wants to piss me off."
"We have enough evidence to move against your father, and when we
do, the feds are going to start following all those trails of dirty money,
and where do you think they're going to lead?"
At first, I think Greg is going to curse at me or maybe even try to hit
me, but he just laughs again. "You think I'm going to put my neck on
the line to save my father? You can have the old bastard. He always
talked down to me about how I wasn't responsible enough to handle
more of the family businesses. We'll see who is responsible when the
feds are knocking down his door."
I sigh. "You don't understand. If they look into your father's accounts,
they are going to realize his money is dirty. If they realize his money is
dirty..."
Greg stares blankly at me. "I understand perfectly well. You can have
him. Screw him, and screw your mobster boyfriend. They can both
rot."
I take a deep breath, trying hard not to scream or strangle him. I say
each word slowly, hoping that maybe it will sink in this time. "All the

money you have came from your father. That means all your money is
dirty too. If your father falls, you fall."
Something finally reaches Greg and his lips purse in anger. "And I' m
just supposed to believe you have a magical pile of evidence
somewhere stashed away?"
"No. See for yourself," I say, handing him a copy of our evidence.
He slowly flips through the folder, eyes squinted in confusion. "I don't
get what half of this means. It's just a bunch of numbers and legal
jargon. It could mean anything."
"Do you want to risk your future on that?"
He shifts uncomfortably when I snatch the evidence back from
him.
"Even if this is all true, do you really think I didn't prepare for
something like this? How stupid do you think I am?"
Don't answer that. I have to try very hard not to smile when I realize
what he's about to say. Greg has no idea what the Sanatores were doing
last night. He doesn't know the safe is gone. I just hope he was dumb
enough to keep all his backup money in one place.
"I think you're smart enough to realize you don't have a choice in this,"
I say.
"I have a choice. About fifty million of them, to be exact. Unmarked
bills, in cash. I can take it and go at the drop of a dime. I'll be out of the
country before they even catch my scent."
I make a show of wincing. "You mean there was that much money in
the safe in your closet?"
The color drains from his face.
"Yeah," I say. "I know you wouldn't be stupid enough to keep all your
cash in one place, which is good, because I heard some mafia types
broke in and stole your safe."
"That's ridiculous. It's the most well-secured safe money can buy. It
would take days to break into it."
I shrug. "I didn't say they broke into it, I just said they took it."
"They...took it?" He asks, swallowing hard. I can see the thoughts
racing behind his eyes. He has to know he's cornered now.
"No one has called to tell you about it yet?"

"I was busy this morning," he says distractedly, pulling his phone from
his pocket and glancing at the screen. He must see something he doesn't
like because his face gets even paler before he slips it back in his
pocket.
"I'm surprised you didn't hear anything. Apparently the criminals
knocked a hole in your wall and yanked it out with some kind of crane."
"I was weekending in my beach house, you know I am never home on
the..." His eyes narrow. "You did this. I don't know how, but you did
this."
"I wish I did," I say casually. "I could use fifty million dollars." His lips
compress into an angry line. "What do you want?" "You know what I
want. I want Damian to be a free man." "He killed a dozen people,
Callie," says Greg, his voice full of whiny frustration. "How am I
supposed to do anything about that?"
"No," I say. "I was there. I also know you already pulled some strings
to have evidence withheld, because it should have been clear as day
that there was a shootout between Cristiano's men and the police.
Damian didn't kill any cops. In fact, he was helping the cops except
when he killed Cristiano, and that was in self-defense."
Greg's expression darkens. "I didn't have the evidence withheld. I had it
destroyed. It's too late to go back to that."
"Then say it was the Sanatores. They are the ones who just broke into
your house for the safe. Evidence has already been planted that makes
it look like the Sanatores were at the crime scene and responsible for
the deaths. Say they contacted you when I was kidnapped for ransom
money, and they must have gone after your safe when that plan failed."
Greg frowns in confusion.
"Just call whoever you need to call, and I'll sit right here and tell you
exactly what to say. If you do that, we won't turn in the evidence
against your father. You'll still get to live your cushy lifestyle and you'll
just be down a safe. If you play this right, they might even get the safe
back for you when they go after the Sanatores."
Greg locks eyes with me for a long while, his face pouty and resigned.
He finally nods, fishing his phone out of his pocket and making the first
call.

176

Damian
The courtroom is packed but I only have eyes for one person in the
crowd. Callie sits with her hands squeezing her knees. She looks
beautiful in a crisp blue skirt and white blouse. Her full tits press
against the material and I can see the bulge of her soft flesh above her
bra line. I lick my lips, wishing I could go to her right now. I've heard
the old cliché that absence makes the heart grow fonder, but I can't
believe how true it is. I was already absolutely crazy about her, but now
my need for Callie is ravenous. If I somehow get to walk away from
this, I don't know if I could keep my hands off her long enough to reach
the car. I don' t know if I could wait to marry her until people could get
plane tickets and make hotel arrangements. I might just drag her to the
nearest altar.
My thoughts are dangerous though. Dangerous because they all depend
on a series of events playing out in an absolutely perfect way. Nothing
can go wrong, or it will all fall apart. The last few weeks have been
more a trial of patience than a trial of justice for me. Day in and day out,
I wait, listening to witnesses and prosecutors talk. The good part was
after Callie met with Greg, the prosecution started to sound much less
hungry for my blood. At times, they even seemed borderline
incompetent, which was hopefully a result of the pressure he was
putting on them to get me out of this. The fact that one man, even one as
clueless as Greg, can have so many connections continues to surprise
me.
The turning point in my case came when new evidence was discovered'
and presented, implicating some of the top members of the Sanatore
family in the murders at the dock. Callie told me that Agent Conway
had actually spent most of his career trying to take the Sanatores down,
so when the idea of planting evidence to nail them came up, he was like
a man possessed, carefully making sure evidence was found in just the
right places and at just the right times to erase any doubt that the
Sanatores were involved.
The next turning point was when two of the police officers who were
first on the scene said they saw Cristiano shoot me before I stabbed
him. In the space of a few days, I started to look a lot less like a mass

murderer, and a lot more like the hero who saved Callie Beccaccio.
If the jury deliberates in time, today will be the final day of my trial. I' ll
find out whether I' m guilty of any of the dozens of charges against me,
and I'll find out if the rest of my life is going to be full of the happiness
I don't deserve. I turn to find Callie in the crowd for the hundredth time,
catching her eyes and winking. She takes a deep breath and smiles
back, but I can see how forced and tense it is. She's nervous as hell, and
I just wish I could take her in my arms and kiss her until her worries
melt away.
The courtroom hushes immediately when the jurors emerge from
deliberation. I watch helplessly as the lead juror stands, clutching a
sheet of paper and looking down. His hands are shaking, and I
remember he's just a regular guy, probably wishing he didn't have to
miss work for this, wishing he could get back to his life. I don't know if
even Greg could get to the jurors, so the question becomes whether we
put on a good enough show to convince these people I'm innocent.
"We, the jury, find Damian Citrione not guilty of the count o f . "
I listen to the endless list of charges against me and breathe a small sigh
of relief each time the verdict comes back not guilty. It takes nearly
thirty minutes for the jury to read through each charge and their verdict,
but in the end, I' m only charged with trespassing on private property,
which the judge says is grounds to place me on probation for six
months. It feels unreal. In less than an hour, the justice system decided
that I get to keep my life. I turn to look at Callie, whose cheeks are wet
with tears. She smiles wide at me, this time there is no hesitation or
strain in her face.
Then, as if it's the most natural thing in the world, the judge says I' m
free to go. Press swarm around me and Callie as we duck past them,
weaving our way through the Brooks.
"Mr. Citrione, how did you know where to find Mrs. Beccaccio on the
night of the murders?"
"Mr. Citrione! Why didn't you say anything about the Sanatore family
when you were initially questioned?"
"Sources say there was corruption on a wide scale in this case. What are
your comments?"

I wave off the questions, pushing past the reporters and bulldozing any
who get too close with my shoulders. We manage to catch an elevator
by ourselves, closing off the sound of shouted questions. I raise my
eyebrows and sigh. "They're like fucking vultures."
"Well, it doesn't matter what they say. You're free. And you're with us
now."
I move into her, my hand finding the gentle swell of her belly. "My
little man," I say quietly.
"Little man, is it?" she asks with a smile. She's so close that I can feel
the heat of her breath on my neck. "I was thinking it would be a little
girl. Victoria Citrione."
"If it's a girl, that'll just give me an excuse to keep getting you pregnant
until we get a boy."
She laughs, but I cut her off with a hard kiss. The elevator doors open at
the same time, and I catch someone standing there from the corner of
my eye. I pull away from Callie, noticing we haven't reached the
ground floor yet. Greg Cartwright steps into the elevator, looking
pissed.
"Enjoying yourselves?" he asks, standing beside us with his hands in
his pockets. "I just wanted to tell you that you had better get used to
looking over your shoulders. You think you can just blackmail me and
get away with it? Just wait. When you least expect it, I'll—"
My fist cracks against Greg's jaw. His head whips to the side and bangs
into the elevator door. His eyes roll back and close as he slumps to the
floor, unconscious. I grab him quickly by the shoulders and lay him on
his side, moving him to the corner of the elevator and turning his face to
the wall. The doors open a few seconds later and two women's eyes
widen when they see him on the ground.
"Had too much to drink," I say casually, grabbing Callie's arm and
leading her from the elevator.

180

Callie
Three Months Later
I show Damian a printout of The Spot's numbers for the month. He
leans forward, putting a hand on my shoulder as he takes a closer look.
"You're telling me we made that much just from selling people
food?"
I try not to smile too wide. "It's a wonder what a little advertising can
do, isn't it?"
He shakes his head. "No. It's a wonder what you can do." He kisses me.
"With money like this, who needs to break the law."
"It will only get better. If you franchise the restaurant and start
investing in expansion, there's really no ceiling to how much we can
grow this. It helps that people love the food."
He laughs. "I thought I was the only one who knew I was a good
cook."
"I hate to admit it, but you're an amazing cook. I think the problem is
you're just amazing at everything you try. Except card games and
bowling, at least."
Damian gives me a fiery look. "You think you're slick, but I know your
games now. You start trying to piss me off when you want to fuck." His
hand slides up my shirt, moving under my bra. "You know better than
to tempt me in public. Remember what I did to you at that hotel
pool?"
My cheeks burn red at the memory. There were people walking by as
he fingered me under our towel. If anyone had paid enough attention, it
would have been obvious, but no one did. It was exhilarating and
terrifying at the same time. But that's a combination I'm getting more
and more used to with him. "I remember," I say quietly.
He bites his lip. "Good. If you can keep your pants on long enough, I
have a surprise for you," he says with a smirk. He leans his head out of
the small restaurant office and shouts down the hall for Julia.
She steps in, holding a rag and a glass she was cleaning. "Yes?" she
says, eyes darting between Damian and I.
I give her a look that says I'm sorry and I don't know what this is

about.
"I heard you were trying to pay for school?" asks Damian.
My heart sinks. I don't know how he heard, but I had almost forgotten
about all the money he gave me. He never asked where it went, and I
worry that he'd be pissed to learn I gave it away. From the look on
Julia's face, she's worried about the exact same thing.
"Yes. I want to be a therapist," says Julia, her voice uncharacteristically
meek.
"Yeah, well I paid for it. I know some people in the education field and
I made a few arrangements. I also got your name thrown to the top of a
few lists for graduate school for when you finish the last semester of
undergrad."
Julia frowns. "I can't accept that..."
"Too bad, because I already did it. I did it for Callie, because I know
she cares about you, and I get good fiancé points whether you take me
up on it or not. So to be honest, I don't give a shit if you go to the classes
I paid for or if you go to graduate school."
I scowl at Damian. "For the record, you don't get as many points if she
doesn't go."
"In that case, you had better accept, or I'll fire you."
Julia laughs in disbelief. "You really did that? This isn't some kind
ofjoke?"
Damian just shrugs. I know he probably doesn't care about her or her
education, but knowing he went through all of that just for me makes
me swell with warmth. I'm thrilled for Julia, too.
She wipes a tear from her eye and hugs Damian and then me,
whispering thank you in my ear at least ten times. I feel like I should
tell her I had no part in any of this, but I also don't see the point in
ruining the mood, so I just hug her back.
"Go on, get out of here," says Damian. "You've got drinks to serve!"
She nods and hurries off.
"You are the nicest asshole I've ever seen," I say in amazement. He
quirks an eyebrow at me.

183

Damian
I get off the phone with the wedding planner for what I hope is the last
time. Picking colors and decorations is like torture, but I want the day
to be perfect for Callie. She has put up with so much shit from me that
she deserves every last detail to be just right, even down to the
placement of the monograms on the silverware. I step back out into the
cafe where Benny, Brooks, and Franklin are drinking coffee in a booth.
I sit down with them.
"So what did you find?" I ask Franklin.
"Not much, which is good. The Sanatores that were pulled in and
arrested after your trial must have been most of the brains. It seems like
the rest of them are just splitting off and joining with other crews
instead of trying to rebuild. It may not have been the way you wanted it
to go down, but you took them off the map."
I nod. He's right, it's not how I thought I wanted it. To be honest though,
being with Callie has soothed the fire for violent revenge in me. I can
live with justice. I might go as far as to say I'm happy it turned out this
way.
"What about the Cartwrights?"
"They took some heat for the trial. A few of the people they pressed to
help you spoke out against them. But the public doesn't care much
about the owner of a mega corporation and his son. The story is
scandalous, but neither of them are famous enough for it to really stick
or matter. It'll blow over soon."
"So they will both be back to living their lives of luxury," I say sourly.
Franklin nods, reaching to pull something from his briefcase. "Unless
you turn this into authorities." He hands me a manilla envelope stuffed
with papers.
"Evidence?" I ask.
"Enough to sink the Cartwrights overnight. I thought you should hold
on to it, in case Greg makes good on his promise to turn in that security
footage he has of you and Mr. Capobianco."
"Just call me Benny. And Damian," says Benny, "I think we should

drop him before he has a chance to turn us in. What if he just goes
straight to the cops with it and doesn't come through us?"
"He won't. I'll make sure he knows we have the book on him. Trust
me."
Benny nods. "Fair enough. If you think he's safe, I'll trust you on
it."
"I do. Thanks, Franklin." I say pointedly, giving Franklin the signal that
he's free to leave.
He tips his fedora and stands, leaving without finishing his coffee.
"How's the business?" I ask Benny and Brooks.
"Not the same with you on probation," says Benny, "but we're doing
okay. I got a new source of industrials out of Jersey that should bring in
a few extra grand a month for us. I was thinking if we—"
I hold up my hand. "That's good. Benny. I want you to take over for me.
Permanently. I've got a fiancé who is pregnant with my child. I can't
keep living this lifestyle. And I trust you to run this thing in my place.
The guys will listen to you, and you've got a good head on your
shoulders."
He gives me a look of astonishment. "Just like that? You're going to
walk away?" "Yeah."
Brooks raises his eyebrows. "Good for you, Damian. You're doing the
right thing."
"I know."

Epilogue
Callie
A tropical rendition of wedding music plays in the background. It's
hard to hear over the rustle of palm trees and the whoosh of waves
lapping at the beach, but I think I'll get over it somehow. Damian
wouldn't let me stress about planning the wedding, which might have
bothered some women. Not me. It's like he knew I didn't want to have
to think about it. I just wanted the day to be special and to be with him.
All the little details didn't seem that important to me.
It made me smile seeing him try to be sneaky about laboriously
planning the day though. He would slip off and take calls, whispering
about floral arrangements and color pairings. I would say it showed me
another side of him, but it really didn't. Damian has always acted with
one driving purpose since we met, and that was to do what would keep
me safe first and foremost, and what would keep me happy right behind
that. I' ve just been surprised to see that he will go to any lengths to
make me happy, even leaving behind the only kind of life he has ever
known.
I made sure he knew that it was his choice. I wasn't going to leave him
if he stayed in the mafia, but I was going to at least have some ground
rules or expectations for the safety of our family. When I got into this
relationship with Damian, I knew I didn't want to force him to change.
God knew Greg tried that with me for so long that I couldn't live with
myself if I did. Did I not-so-gently nudge him out of murdering some
people in cold blood? Maybe. But I think that's one exception I can live
with.
Franklin Guerre stands beside me, wearing a sharp blue fedora and suit.
He looks a little ridiculous, but in his charming, slightly off sort of way.
Since I definitely wasn't inviting my family, Damian said he wanted
Franklin to walk me down the aisle. Franklin looks over to me. "You
ready?"
I suck in a deep breath, which is easier said than done in my wedding
gown. I didn't want to look ridiculous with some overly frilly thing on
the beach, so I chose a more sleek style without all the bells and
whistles. It still has beautifully elegant lines and a cut that I was happy
to

see flattered my frame in all the right places. It's tight around the baby
bump and the chest though, and I worry a sharp breath might pop me
right out of it. I underestimated how much my belly would grow from
the baby between when I tried the dress on a few weeks ago and now.
Damian stands beneath the makeshift altar of terraced wood laced with
palm fronds. His back is to the ocean and he faces a beautiful
arrangement of chairs framed by half pillars with strings of flowers
hung between them.
The sun sinks beneath the waves inch by inch as I begin walking down
the aisle toward Damian. He's cast in shadow, little more than a black
shape against the brilliance of the sun, and I can't help remembering
seeing him this way the first time, at the gas station. Back then I
thought the darkness I saw was a reflection of the man inside, now I
know it's only a part of him, even as his face is shrouded in blackness,
he' s bathed in light from behind. If I look closely enough, I can see the
faint halo of reddish orange surrounding his body, almost like a
promise of the man he is becoming. For me.
The ceremony was a blur. I feel guilty for not noticing more, but as
soon as my eyes met Damian's, it felt like I was in a daze. The priest
spoke, I said the words, I cried, and I kissed him more passionately than
was dignified in public. It was only thirty minutes ago and I'm already
forgetting everything except for snapshots of how perfect it was.
We sit outside a beach cafe. It's a barbecue place, and I felt a swelling
of love toward Damian when I saw it. He remembered the first time we
ate together was to have barbecue. It's a simple thing, but that's all I
ever needed in a relationship. I only ever wanted small
acknowledgments of affection, not the grand gestures Greg thought
could smooth over any mistake.
A waitress sets a plate of fried chitlins at our table and I burst out
laughing. Damian smiles at me from the other end of the table and pops
one in his mouth, trying to look like he's enjoying it. The way the
corners of his mouth pull down faintly in a grimace makes me laugh
even harder.
Julia stops by our table and makes a face at the chitlins. "You guys

like those things? You know pig shit passes through those, right? They
are small intensti—"
"We know," I say, grinning. "Thank you for coming, Julia, it means a
lot to me. You're one of the few friends I have here."
She leans in to give me a hug. "That's fine by me. It means I get you all
to myself."
"How is school going?"
"Good. Great, really. I' m about to get the last credits I needed to apply
for grad school in a few weeks. I've already started contacting schools.
I'm thinking of staying here in New York, though. Anyway, I'll let you
two get back to your food."
Vince and Aubriella are next to visit our table.
"The ceremony was beautiful," says Aubriella.
"Thank you," says Damian.
She gives him an odd look and Vince laughs.
"What, did you plan it?" asks Vince.
For the first time since I've known Damian, I see him blush.
"Yeah. Maybe I did."
Vince's eyebrows flick up and he smirks. "Well, good job. It was nice."
"Where are the kids?" I ask Aubriella.
She points over to a table where Agent Conway's grandchildren and
Aubriella's kids are watching a woman in a cheesy lab coat drop dry ice
into colored beakers of water. "They are entertained and supervised,
which means we are happy," she says, squeezing her husband by the
waist.
Her husband. My eyes slide from Aubriella to Damian. My husband,
Damian. I twist the wedding band around my finger idly. My husband.
The thought makes me feel a little giddy, and I want to find an excuse
to say the words out loud. "My husband ordered us some chitlins. Do
you want any?" I ask.
Aubriella gives me a look that says she sees straight through my ploy,
and now it's my turn to blush. "It feels weird to say it, doesn't it?"
"Really weird. But good," I agree.
Vince reaches down to grab a chitlin. Aubriella looks like she's

about to warn him but Damian and I both catch her eye, shaking our
heads slightly. He pops it in his mouth, chews distractedly, and
swallows, reaching to grab another. Damian looks down, covering his
mouth in an attempt to hold back laughter. Aubriella puts a palm to her
forehead in surrender. All I can do is watch in amazement.
Before the reception is over, we catch up with the last of our short list
of guests. I even meet Aubriella's old friend, Aria, who wishes us luck.
Agent Conway tells us that he was finally able to get out from beneath
Greg's blackmail by threatening to release what he knew on the
Cartwrights. I didn't realize how much strain he held in his features
until it was gone. He looks like a new man, ten years younger and ten
times happier. Franklin wishes us well, and promises to be ready if we
ever need him again.
The only notable absence is Greg, who was not invited, but we had
expected to crash the party. To me, it's a sign that he has finally given
up on sabotaging us, and a sign that Damian and I can continue forward
on our own finally, without it feeling like the entire world is crashing
down around us.
We move to dance together again as the reception is nearing its end.
The song is slow, and one I don't recognize. The singer sounds more
hopeful than she does sad, but the chords are sorrowful, pulling at my
emotions. I cling to Damian, my firm, swollen belly pressing into his
hard body. His strong, protective hands circle me and I feel complete.
We hold each other, moving slowly in circles, letting the music pass
through us, and I can't help feeling as though the song traces the path
our relationship took. The sadness in the music gradually lightens, with
major chords being worked into the composition. The vocals become
more powerful and elements of the orchestra begin enriching the
solitary piano. The song ends with a wash of harmonious sounds that
blend together and fade out peacefully.
Isn't that how it was between Damian and I? We were drawn together
by sadness and anger, and even though the sorrow was always
surrounding us, the moments we shared together were like protected
clusters of joy and excitement. In the past few months I've felt the
shroud of sadness fading away like mist before the sun. We're happy

now. Things still aren't perfect. There are lingering fears of what might
happen if Damian's former enemies come after us. We're still afraid
Greg might decide to try something to sabotage us. But we're not
focused on it anymore. We're focused on each other, the way we should
be. And we're focused on making sure we are ready to be the happiest,
and most supportive parents possible for little Victoria. Damian wasn't
too upset that he'd have to keep trying to get me pregnant to get the boy
he wanted. He actually seemed excited.
Damian
Four Years Later
Victoria stands on a stool by the dough table helping Callie roll out
dough for pizzas. All she's really helping to do is make a mess, but she
looks like she's having the time of her life. Her little hands are covered
in flour and her face is drawn in concentration as she tries to make a
round shape out of the dough by smashing it with her palms. Callie
smiles lovingly at her, reaching over to help guide her hands and make
the pancake of dough back into a ball. Her stomach is already as
swollen as I remember it being near the end of her pregnancy with
Victoria and she's only five months in, but the doctor said that's normal
with twins.
Twins. I still can barely believe it. It took longer than we expected to
get pregnant again, but it gave me an excuse to fuck Callie as often as
possible, not that I really needed one. We've already got a room set up
with two cribs for the boys when they are born. Callie painted airplanes
on their walls herself. Whenever I think about our family I swell with
pride. I never thought this was the kind of life a guy like me could have.
I pictured myself dying a violent death before forty or living to be old,
gray, and pissed off. I thought I'd always have to have eyes in the back
of my head to look out for the people I pissed off along the way. Now?
I can hardly believe it, but I haven't broken the law in years. Benny took
over all the loose ends for me. Things never worked out with him and
that girl down in Jersey, so he's happy to put all his time into the
business. I still keep in touch with him, but we don't talk work. He asks
about the family, I ask him if he's got his eyes on any new women, and
that' s about it.

I even told Benny he didn't need to keep kicking extra profits to me. We
have five franchise locations of The Spot now, including one in
downtown New York, which has been bringing in unbelievable cash.
Callie has a team of people helping her manage the advertising now,
but she still likes to get her hands dirty and help me cook, which has
been where I' ve spent a lot of time lately. I dream up new recipes for
the restaurant, perfect old ones, or just enjoy myself while I whip up
something delicious for my girls.
It's not the life I thought I would lead. It's better. Better than anything I
ever thought I deserved.
I move behind Callie, hugging her and kissing the top of her head.
Victoria turns to smile up at me and stick her tongue out. I reach to grab
it and she giggles, tucking her chin into her neck and swatting at me
with her doughy hands. My hand slides down Callie's back and wraps
around her swollen stomach. My family. Not my mafia family, not my
crime family, just my family. My gorgeous wife, beautiful daughter,
and two little men just waiting to greet the world. I couldn't possibly
love them any more, but I know I'll keep finding ways day after day.

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