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LORD JIM

BY JOSEPH CONRAD

AUTHOR'S NOTE

Lord Jim, by Joseph Conrad

When this novel first appeared in book form a notion got about that I had been bolted away with. Some
reviewers maintained that the work starting as a short story had got beyond the writer's control. One or two
discovered internal evidence of the fact, which seemed to amuse them. They pointed out the limitations of the
narrative form. They argued that no man could have been expected to talk all that time, and other men to listen
so long. It was not, they said, very credible.

After thinking it over for something like sixteen years, I am not so sure about that. Men have been known,
both in the tropics and in the temperate zone, to sit up half the night 'swapping yarns'. This, however, is but
one yarn, yet with interruptions affording some measure of relief; and in regard to the listeners' endurance, the
postulate must be accepted that the story was interesting. It is the necessary preliminary assumption. If I hadn't
believed that it was interesting I could never have begun to write it. As to the mere physical possibility we all
know that some speeches in Parliament have taken nearer six than three hours in delivery; whereas all that
part of the book which is Marlow's narrative can be read through aloud, I should say, in less than three hours.
Besides--though I have kept strictly all such insignificant details out of the tale--we may presume that there
must have been refreshments on that night, a glass of mineral water of some sort to help the narrator on.

But, seriously, the truth of the matter is, that my first thought was of a short story, concerned only with the
pilgrim ship episode; nothing more. And that was a legitimate conception. After writing a few pages,
however, I became for some reason discontented and I laid them aside for a time. I didn't take them out of the
drawer till the late Mr. William Blackwood suggested I should give something again to his magazine.

It was only then that I perceived that the pilgrim ship episode was a good starting-point for a free and
wandering tale; that it was an event, too, which could conceivably colour the whole 'sentiment of existence' in
a simple and sensitive character. But all these preliminary moods and stirrings of spirit were rather obscure at
the time, and they do not appear clearer to me now after the lapse of so many years.

The few pages I had laid aside were not without their weight in the choice of subject. But the whole was
re-written deliberately. When I sat down to it I knew it would be a long book, though I didn't foresee that it
would spread itself over thirteen numbers of Maga.

I have been asked at times whether this was not the book of mine I liked best. I am a great foe to favouritism
in public life, in private life, and even in the delicate relationship of an author to his works. As a matter of
principle I will have no favourites; but I don't go so far as to feel grieved and annoyed by the preference some
people give to my Lord Jim. I won't even say that I 'fail to understand . . .' No! But once I had occasion to be
puzzled and surprised.

A friend of mine returning from Italy had talked with a lady there who did not like the book. I regretted that,
of course, but what surprised me was the ground of her dislike. 'You know,' she said, 'it is all so morbid.'

The pronouncement gave me food for an hour's anxious thought. Finally I arrived at the conclusion that,
making due allowances for the subject itself being rather foreign to women's normal sensibilities, the lady
could not have been an Italian. I wonder whether she was European at all? In any case, no Latin temperament
would have perceived anything morbid in the acute consciousness of lost honour. Such a consciousness may
be wrong, or it may be right, or it may be condemned as artificial; and, perhaps, my Jim is not a type of wide
commonness. But I can safely assure my readers that he is not the product of coldly perverted thinking. He's
not a figure of Northern Mists either. One sunny morning, in the commonplace surroundings of an Eastern
roadstead, I saw his form pass by--appealing--significant--under a cloud--perfectly silent. Which is as it
should be. It was for me, with all the sympathy of which I was capable, to seek fit words for his meaning. He
was 'one of us'.

J.C.

Lord Jim, by Joseph Conrad

1917.

LORD JIM

Lord Jim, by Joseph Conrad

CHAPTER 1

He was an inch, perhaps two, under six feet, powerfully built, and he advanced straight at you with a slight
stoop of the shoulders, head forward, and a fixed from-under stare which made you think of a charging bull.
His voice was deep, loud, and his manner displayed a kind of dogged self-assertion which had nothing
aggressive in it. It seemed a necessity, and it was directed apparently as much at himself as at anybody else.
He was spotlessly neat, apparelled in immaculate white from shoes to hat, and in the various Eastern ports
where he got his living as ship-chandler's water-clerk he was very popular.

A water-clerk need not pass an examination in anything under the sun, but he must have Ability in the abstract
and demonstrate it practically. His work consists in racing under sail, steam, or oars against other water-clerks
for any ship about to anchor, greeting her captain cheerily, forcing upon him a card--the business card of the
ship-chandler--and on his first visit on shore piloting him firmly but without ostentation to a vast, cavern-like
shop which is full of things that are eaten and drunk on board ship; where you can get everything to make her
seaworthy and beautiful, from a set of chain-hooks for her cable to a book of gold-leaf for the carvings of her
stern; and where her commander is received like a brother by a ship-chandler he has never seen before. There
is a cool parlour, easy-chairs, bottles, cigars, writing implements, a copy of harbour regulations, and a warmth
of welcome that melts the salt of a three months' passage out of a seaman's heart. The connection thus begun
is kept up, as long as the ship remains in harbour, by the daily visits of the water-clerk. To the captain he is
faithful like a friend and attentive like a son, with the patience of Job, the unselfish devotion of a woman, and
the jollity of a boon companion. Later on the bill is sent in. It is a beautiful and humane occupation. Therefore
good water-clerks are scarce. When a water-clerk who possesses Ability in the abstract has also the advantage
of having been brought up to the sea, he is worth to his employer a lot of money and some humouring. Jim
had always good wages and as much humouring as would have bought the fidelity of a fiend. Nevertheless,
with black ingratitude he would throw up the job suddenly and depart. To his employers the reasons he gave
were obviously inadequate. They said 'Confounded fool!' as soon as his back was turned. This was their
criticism on his exquisite sensibility.

To the white men in the waterside business and to the captains of ships he was just Jim--nothing more. He
had, of course, another name, but he was anxious that it should not be pronounced. His incognito, which had
as many holes as a sieve, was not meant to hide a personality but a fact. When the fact broke through the
incognito he would leave suddenly the seaport where he happened to be at the time and go to
another--generally farther east. He kept to seaports because he was a seaman in exile from the sea, and had
Ability in the abstract, which is good for no other work but that of a water-clerk. He retreated in good order
towards the rising sun, and the fact followed him casually but inevitably. Thus in the course of years he was
known successively in Bombay, in Calcutta, in Rangoon, in Penang, in Batavia--and in each of these
halting-places was just Jim the water-clerk. Afterwards, when his keen perception of the Intolerable drove him
away for good from seaports and white men, even into the virgin forest, the Malays of the jungle village,
where he had elected to conceal his deplorable faculty, added a word to the monosyllable of his incognito.
They called him Tuan Jim: as one might say--Lord Jim.

Originally he came from a parsonage. Many commanders of fine merchant-ships come from these abodes of
piety and peace. Jim's father possessed such certain knowledge of the Unknowable as made for the
righteousness of people in cottages without disturbing the ease of mind of those whom an unerring Providence
enables to live in mansions. The little church on a hill had the mossy greyness of a rock seen through a ragged
screen of leaves. It had stood there for centuries, but the trees around probably remembered the laying of the
first stone. Below, the red front of the rectory gleamed with a warm tint in the midst of grass-plots,
flower-beds, and fir-trees, with an orchard at the back, a paved stable-yard to the left, and the sloping glass of
greenhouses tacked along a wall of bricks. The living had belonged to the family for generations; but Jim was
one of five sons, and when after a course of light holiday literature his vocation for the sea had declared itself,
he was sent at once to a 'training-ship for officers of the mercantile marine.'

CHAPTER 1

He learned there a little trigonometry and how to cross top-gallant yards. He was generally liked. He had the
third place in navigation and pulled stroke in the first cutter. Having a steady head with an excellent physique,
he was very smart aloft. His station was in the fore-top, and often from there he looked down, with the
contempt of a man destined to shine in the midst of dangers, at the peaceful multitude of roofs cut in two by
the brown tide of the stream, while scattered on the outskirts of the surrounding plain the factory chimneys
rose perpendicular against a grimy sky, each slender like a pencil, and belching out smoke like a volcano. He
could see the big ships departing, the broad-beamed ferries constantly on the move, the little boats floating far
below his feet, with the hazy splendour of the sea in the distance, and the hope of a stirring life in the world of
adventure.

On the lower deck in the babel of two hundred voices he would forget himself, and beforehand live in his
mind the sea-life of light literature. He saw himself saving people from sinking ships, cutting away masts in a
hurricane, swimming through a surf with a line; or as a lonely castaway, barefooted and half naked, walking
on uncovered reefs in search of shellfish to stave off starvation. He confronted savages on tropical shores,
quelled mutinies on the high seas, and in a small boat upon the ocean kept up the hearts of despairing
men--always an example of devotion to duty, and as unflinching as a hero in a book.

'Something's up. Come along.'

He leaped to his feet. The boys were streaming up the ladders. Above could be heard a great scurrying about
and shouting, and when he got through the hatchway he stood still--as if confounded.

It was the dusk of a winter's day. The gale had freshened since noon, stopping the traffic on the river, and now
blew with the strength of a hurricane in fitful bursts that boomed like salvoes of great guns firing over the
ocean. The rain slanted in sheets that flicked and subsided, and between whiles Jim had threatening glimpses
of the tumbling tide, the small craft jumbled and tossing along the shore, the motionless buildings in the
driving mist, the broad ferry-boats pitching ponderously at anchor, the vast landing-stages heaving up and
down and smothered in sprays. The next gust seemed to blow all this away. The air was full of flying water.
There was a fierce purpose in the gale, a furious earnestness in the screech of the wind, in the brutal tumult of
earth and sky, that seemed directed at him, and made him hold his breath in awe. He stood still. It seemed to
him he was whirled around.

He was jostled. 'Man the cutter!' Boys rushed past him. A coaster running in for shelter had crashed through a
schooner at anchor, and one of the ship's instructors had seen the accident. A mob of boys clambered on the
rails, clustered round the davits. 'Collision. Just ahead of us. Mr. Symons saw it.' A push made him stagger
against the mizzen-mast, and he caught hold of a rope. The old training-ship chained to her moorings quivered
all over, bowing gently head to wind, and with her scanty rigging humming in a deep bass the breathless song
of her youth at sea. 'Lower away!' He saw the boat, manned, drop swiftly below the rail, and rushed after her.
He heard a splash. 'Let go; clear the falls!' He leaned over. The river alongside seethed in frothy streaks. The
cutter could be seen in the falling darkness under the spell of tide and wind, that for a moment held her bound,
and tossing abreast of the ship. A yelling voice in her reached him faintly: 'Keep stroke, you young whelps, if
you want to save anybody! Keep stroke!' And suddenly she lifted high her bow, and, leaping with raised oars
over a wave, broke the spell cast upon her by the wind and tide.

Jim felt his shoulder gripped firmly. 'Too late, youngster.' The captain of the ship laid a restraining hand on
that boy, who seemed on the point of leaping overboard, and Jim looked up with the pain of conscious defeat
in his eyes. The captain smiled sympathetically. 'Better luck next time. This will teach you to be smart.'

A shrill cheer greeted the cutter. She came dancing back half full of water, and with two exhausted men
washing about on her bottom boards. The tumult and the menace of wind and sea now appeared very
contemptible to Jim, increasing the regret of his awe at their inefficient menace. Now he knew what to think
of it. It seemed to him he cared nothing for the gale. He could affront greater perils. He would do so--better

CHAPTER 1

than anybody. Not a particle of fear was left. Nevertheless he brooded apart that evening while the bowman of
the cutter--a boy with a face like a girl's and big grey eyes--was the hero of the lower deck. Eager questioners
crowded round him. He narrated: 'I just saw his head bobbing, and I dashed my boat-hook in the water. It
caught in his breeches and I nearly went overboard, as I thought I would, only old Symons let go the tiller and
grabbed my legs--the boat nearly swamped. Old Symons is a fine old chap. I don't mind a bit him being
grumpy with us. He swore at me all the time he held my leg, but that was only his way of telling me to stick to
the boat-hook. Old Symons is awfully excitable--isn't he? No--not the little fair chap--the other, the big one
with a beard. When we pulled him in he groaned, "Oh, my leg! oh, my leg!" and turned up his eyes. Fancy
such a big chap fainting like a girl. Would any of you fellows faint for a jab with a boat-hook?--I wouldn't. It
went into his leg so far.' He showed the boat-hook, which he had carried below for the purpose, and produced
a sensation. 'No, silly! It was not his flesh that held him--his breeches did. Lots of blood, of course.'

Jim thought it a pitiful display of vanity. The gale had ministered to a heroism as spurious as its own pretence
of terror. He felt angry with the brutal tumult of earth and sky for taking him unawares and checking unfairly
a generous readiness for narrow escapes. Otherwise he was rather glad he had not gone into the cutter, since a
lower achievement had served the turn. He had enlarged his knowledge more than those who had done the
work. When all men flinched, then--he felt sure--he alone would know how to deal with the spurious menace
of wind and seas. He knew what to think of it. Seen dispassionately, it seemed contemptible. He could detect
no trace of emotion in himself, and the final effect of a staggering event was that, unnoticed and apart from
the noisy crowd of boys, he exulted with fresh certitude in his avidity for adventure, and in a sense of
many-sided courage.

CHAPTER 1

CHAPTER 2

After two years of training he went to sea, and entering the regions so well known to his imagination, found
them strangely barren of adventure. He made many voyages. He knew the magic monotony of existence
between sky and water: he had to bear the criticism of men, the exactions of the sea, and the prosaic severity
of the daily task that gives bread--but whose only reward is in the perfect love of the work. This reward
eluded him. Yet he could not go back, because there is nothing more enticing, disenchanting, and enslaving
than the life at sea. Besides, his prospects were good. He was gentlemanly, steady, tractable, with a thorough
knowledge of his duties; and in time, when yet very young, he became chief mate of a fine ship, without ever
having been tested by those events of the sea that show in the light of day the inner worth of a man, the edge
of his temper, and the fibre of his stuff; that reveal the quality of his resistance and the secret truth of his
pretences, not only to others but also to himself.

Only once in all that time he had again a glimpse of the earnestness in the anger of the sea. That truth is not so
often made apparent as people might think. There are many shades in the danger of adventures and gales, and
it is only now and then that there appears on the face of facts a sinister violence of intention--that indefinable
something which forces it upon the mind and the heart of a man, that this complication of accidents or these
elemental furies are coming at him with a purpose of malice, with a strength beyond control, with an
unbridled cruelty that means to tear out of him his hope and his fear, the pain of his fatigue and his longing for
rest: which means to smash, to destroy, to annihilate all he has seen, known, loved, enjoyed, or hated; all that
is priceless and necessary-- the sunshine, the memories, the future; which means to sweep the whole precious
world utterly away from his sight by the simple and appalling act of taking his life.

Jim, disabled by a falling spar at the beginning of a week of which his Scottish captain used to say afterwards,
'Man! it's a pairfect meeracle to me how she lived through it!' spent many days stretched on his back, dazed,
battered, hopeless, and tormented as if at the bottom of an abyss of unrest. He did not care what the end would
be, and in his lucid moments overvalued his indifference. The danger, when not seen, has the imperfect
vagueness of human thought. The fear grows shadowy; and Imagination, the enemy of men, the father of all
terrors, unstimulated, sinks to rest in the dullness of exhausted emotion. Jim saw nothing but the disorder of
his tossed cabin. He lay there battened down in the midst of a small devastation, and felt secretly glad he had
not to go on deck. But now and again an uncontrollable rush of anguish would grip him bodily, make him
gasp and writhe under the blankets, and then the unintelligent brutality of an existence liable to the agony of
such sensations filled him with a despairing desire to escape at any cost. Then fine weather returned, and he
thought no more about It.

His lameness, however, persisted, and when the ship arrived at an Eastern port he had to go to the hospital.
His recovery was slow, and he was left behind.

There were only two other patients in the white men's ward: the purser of a gunboat, who had broken his leg
falling down a hatchway; and a kind of railway contractor from a neighbouring province, afflicted by some
mysterious tropical disease, who held the doctor for an ass, and indulged in secret debaucheries of patent
medicine which his Tamil servant used to smuggle in with unwearied devotion. They told each other the story
of their lives, played cards a little, or, yawning and in pyjamas, lounged through the day in easy-chairs without
saying a word. The hospital stood on a hill, and a gentle breeze entering through the windows, always flung
wide open, brought into the bare room the softness of the sky, the languor of the earth, the bewitching breath
of the Eastern waters. There were perfumes in it, suggestions of infinite repose, the gift of endless dreams. Jim
looked every day over the thickets of gardens, beyond the roofs of the town, over the fronds of palms growing
on the shore, at that roadstead which is a thoroughfare to the East,--at the roadstead dotted by garlanded islets,
lighted by festal sunshine, its ships like toys, its brilliant activity resembling a holiday pageant, with the
eternal serenity of the Eastern sky overhead and the smiling peace of the Eastern seas possessing the space as
far as the horizon.

CHAPTER 2

Directly he could walk without a stick, he descended into the town to look for some opportunity to get home.
Nothing offered just then, and, while waiting, he associated naturally with the men of his calling in the port.
These were of two kinds. Some, very few and seen there but seldom, led mysterious lives, had preserved an
undefaced energy with the temper of buccaneers and the eyes of dreamers. They appeared to live in a crazy
maze of plans, hopes, dangers, enterprises, ahead of civilisation, in the dark places of the sea; and their death
was the only event of their fantastic existence that seemed to have a reasonable certitude of achievement. The
majority were men who, like himself, thrown there by some accident, had remained as officers of country
ships. They had now a horror of the home service, with its harder conditions, severer view of duty, and the
hazard of stormy oceans. They were attuned to the eternal peace of Eastern sky and sea. They loved short
passages, good deck-chairs, large native crews, and the distinction of being white. They shuddered at the
thought of hard work, and led precariously easy lives, always on the verge of dismissal, always on the verge
of engagement, serving Chinamen, Arabs, half-castes--would have served the devil himself had he made it
easy enough. They talked everlastingly of turns of luck: how So-and-so got charge of a boat on the coast of
China--a soft thing; how this one had an easy billet in Japan somewhere, and that one was doing well in the
Siamese navy; and in all they said--in their actions, in their looks, in their persons--could be detected the soft
spot, the place of decay, the determination to lounge safely through existence.

To Jim that gossiping crowd, viewed as seamen, seemed at first more unsubstantial than so many shadows.
But at length he found a fascination in the sight of those men, in their appearance of doing so well on such a
small allowance of danger and toil. In time, beside the original disdain there grew up slowly another
sentiment; and suddenly, giving up the idea of going home, he took a berth as chief mate of the Patna.

The Patna was a local steamer as old as the hills, lean like a greyhound, and eaten up with rust worse than a
condemned water-tank. She was owned by a Chinaman, chartered by an Arab, and commanded by a sort of
renegade New South Wales German, very anxious to curse publicly his native country, but who, apparently on
the strength of Bismarck's victorious policy, brutalised all those he was not afraid of, and wore a
'blood-and-iron' air,' combined with a purple nose and a red moustache. After she had been painted outside
and whitewashed inside, eight hundred pilgrims (more or less) were driven on board of her as she lay with
steam up alongside a wooden jetty.

They streamed aboard over three gangways, they streamed in urged by faith and the hope of paradise, they
streamed in with a continuous tramp and shuffle of bare feet, without a word, a murmur, or a look back; and
when clear of confining rails spread on all sides over the deck, flowed forward and aft, overflowed down the
yawning hatchways, filled the inner recesses of the ship--like water filling a cistern, like water flowing into
crevices and crannies, like water rising silently even with the rim. Eight hundred men and women with faith
and hopes, with affections and memories, they had collected there, coming from north and south and from the
outskirts of the East, after treading the jungle paths, descending the rivers, coasting in praus along the
shallows, crossing in small canoes from island to island, passing through suffering, meeting strange sights,
beset by strange fears, upheld by one desire. They came from solitary huts in the wilderness, from populous
campongs, from villages by the sea. At the call of an idea they had left their forests, their clearings, the
protection of their rulers, their prosperity, their poverty, the surroundings of their youth and the graves of their
fathers. They came covered with dust, with sweat, with grime, with rags--the strong men at the head of family
parties, the lean old men pressing forward without hope of return; young boys with fearless eyes glancing
curiously, shy little girls with tumbled long hair; the timid women muffled up and clasping to their breasts,
wrapped in loose ends of soiled head-cloths, their sleeping babies, the unconscious pilgrims of an exacting
belief.

'Look at dese cattle,' said the German skipper to his new chief mate.

An Arab, the leader of that pious voyage, came last. He walked slowly aboard, handsome and grave in his
white gown and large turban. A string of servants followed, loaded with his luggage; the Patna cast off and
backed away from the wharf.

CHAPTER 2

She was headed between two small islets, crossed obliquely the anchoring-ground of sailing-ships, swung
through half a circle in the shadow of a hill, then ranged close to a ledge of foaming reefs. The Arab, standing
up aft, recited aloud the prayer of travellers by sea. He invoked the favour of the Most High upon that journey,
implored His blessing on men's toil and on the secret purposes of their hearts; the steamer pounded in the dusk
the calm water of the Strait; and far astern of the pilgrim ship a screw-pile lighthouse, planted by unbelievers
on a treacherous shoal, seemed to wink at her its eye of flame, as if in derision of her errand of faith.

She cleared the Strait, crossed the bay, continued on her way through the 'One-degree' passage. She held on
straight for the Red Sea under a serene sky, under a sky scorching and unclouded, enveloped in a fulgor of
sunshine that killed all thought, oppressed the heart, withered all impulses of strength and energy. And under
the sinister splendour of that sky the sea, blue and profound, remained still, without a stir, without a ripple,
without a wrinkle-- viscous, stagnant, dead. The Patna, with a slight hiss, passed over that plain, luminous and
smooth, unrolled a black ribbon of smoke across the sky, left behind her on the water a white ribbon of foam
that vanished at once, like the phantom of a track drawn upon a lifeless sea by the phantom of a steamer.

Every morning the sun, as if keeping pace in his revolutions with the progress of the pilgrimage, emerged with
a silent burst of light exactly at the same distance astern of the ship, caught up with her at noon, pouring the
concentrated fire of his rays on the pious purposes of the men, glided past on his descent, and sank
mysteriously into the sea evening after evening, preserving the same distance ahead of her advancing bows.
The five whites on board lived amidships, isolated from the human cargo. The awnings covered the deck with
a white roof from stem to stern, and a faint hum, a low murmur of sad voices, alone revealed the presence of a
crowd of people upon the great blaze of the ocean. Such were the days, still, hot, heavy, disappearing one by
one into the past, as if falling into an abyss for ever open in the wake of the ship; and the ship, lonely under a
wisp of smoke, held on her steadfast way black and smouldering in a luminous immensity, as if scorched by a
flame flicked at her from a heaven without pity.

The nights descended on her like a benediction.

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CHAPTER 3

A marvellous stillness pervaded the world, and the stars, together with the serenity of their rays, seemed to
shed upon the earth the assurance of everlasting security. The young moon recurved, and shining low in the
west, was like a slender shaving thrown up from a bar of gold, and the Arabian Sea, smooth and cool to the
eye like a sheet of ice, extended its perfect level to the perfect circle of a dark horizon. The propeller turned
without a check, as though its beat had been part of the scheme of a safe universe; and on each side of the
Patna two deep folds of water, permanent and sombre on the unwrinkled shimmer, enclosed within their
straight and diverging ridges a few white swirls of foam bursting in a low hiss, a few wavelets, a few ripples, a
few undulations that, left behind, agitated the surface of the sea for an instant after the passage of the ship,
subsided splashing gently, calmed down at last into the circular stillness of water and sky with the black speck
of the moving hull remaining everlastingly in its centre.

Jim on the bridge was penetrated by the great certitude of unbounded safety and peace that could be read on
the silent aspect of nature like the certitude of fostering love upon the placid tenderness of a mother's face.
Below the roof of awnings, surrendered to the wisdom of white men and to their courage, trusting the power
of their unbelief and the iron shell of their fire-ship, the pilgrims of an exacting faith slept on mats, on
blankets, on bare planks, on every deck, in all the dark corners, wrapped in dyed cloths, muffled in soiled
rags, with their heads resting on small bundles, with their faces pressed to bent forearms: the men, the women,
the children; the old with the young, the decrepit with the lusty--all equal before sleep, death's brother.

A draught of air, fanned from forward by the speed of the ship, passed steadily through the long gloom
between the high bulwarks, swept over the rows of prone bodies; a few dim flames in globe-lamps were hung
short here and there under the ridge-poles, and in the blurred circles of light thrown down and trembling
slightly to the unceasing vibration of the ship appeared a chin upturned, two closed eyelids, a dark hand with
silver rings, a meagre limb draped in a torn covering, a head bent back, a naked foot, a throat bared and
stretched as if offering itself to the knife. The well-to-do had made for their families shelters with heavy boxes
and dusty mats; the poor reposed side by side with all they had on earth tied up in a rag under their heads; the
lone old men slept, with drawn-up legs, upon their prayer-carpets, with their hands over their ears and one
elbow on each side of the face; a father, his shoulders up and his knees under his forehead, dozed dejectedly
by a boy who slept on his back with tousled hair and one arm commandingly extended; a woman covered
from head to foot, like a corpse, with a piece of white sheeting, had a naked child in the hollow of each arm;
the Arab's belongings, piled right aft, made a heavy mound of broken outlines, with a cargo-lamp swung
above, and a great confusion of vague forms behind: gleams of paunchy brass pots, the foot-rest of a
deck-chair, blades of spears, the straight scabbard of an old sword leaning against a heap of pillows, the spout
of a tin coffee-pot. The patent log on the taffrail periodically rang a single tinkling stroke for every mile
traversed on an errand of faith. Above the mass of sleepers a faint and patient sigh at times floated, the
exhalation of a troubled dream; and short metallic clangs bursting out suddenly in the depths of the ship, the
harsh scrape of a shovel, the violent slam of a furnace-door, exploded brutally, as if the men handling the
mysterious things below had their breasts full of fierce anger: while the slim high hull of the steamer went on
evenly ahead, without a sway of her bare masts, cleaving continuously the great calm of the waters under the
inaccessible serenity of the sky.

Jim paced athwart, and his footsteps in the vast silence were loud to his own ears, as if echoed by the watchful
stars: his eyes, roaming about the line of the horizon, seemed to gaze hungrily into the unattainable, and did
not see the shadow of the coming event. The only shadow on the sea was the shadow of the black smoke
pouring heavily from the funnel its immense streamer, whose end was constantly dissolving in the air. Two
Malays, silent and almost motionless, steered, one on each side of the wheel, whose brass rim shone
fragmentarily in the oval of light thrown out by the binnacle. Now and then a hand, with black fingers
alternately letting go and catching hold of revolving spokes, appeared in the illumined part; the links of
wheel-chains ground heavily in the grooves of the barrel. Jim would glance at the compass, would glance
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body, in the very excess of well-being; and, as if made audacious by the invincible aspect of the peace, he felt
he cared for nothing that could happen to him to the end of his days. From time to time he glanced idly at a
chart pegged out with four drawing-pins on a low three-legged table abaft the steering-gear case. The sheet of
paper portraying the depths of the sea presented a shiny surface under the light of a bull's-eye lamp lashed to a
stanchion, a surface as level and smooth as the glimmering surface of the waters. Parallel rulers with a pair of
dividers reposed on it; the ship's position at last noon was marked with a small black cross, and the straight
pencil-line drawn firmly as far as Perim figured the course of the ship--the path of souls towards the holy
place, the promise of salvation, the reward of eternal life--while the pencil with its sharp end touching the
Somali coast lay round and still like a naked ship's spar floating in the pool of a sheltered dock. 'How steady
she goes,' thought Jim with wonder, with something like gratitude for this high peace of sea and sky. At such
times his thoughts would be full of valorous deeds: he loved these dreams and the success of his imaginary
achievements. They were the best parts of life, its secret truth, its hidden reality. They had a gorgeous virility,
the charm of vagueness, they passed before him with an heroic tread; they carried his soul away with them
and made it drunk with the divine philtre of an unbounded confidence in itself. There was nothing he could
not face. He was so pleased with the idea that he smiled, keeping perfunctorily his eyes ahead; and when he
happened to glance back he saw the white streak of the wake drawn as straight by the ship's keel upon the sea
as the black line drawn by the pencil upon the chart.

The ash-buckets racketed, clanking up and down the stoke-hold ventilators, and this tin-pot clatter warned him
the end of his watch was near. He sighed with content, with regret as well at having to part from that serenity
which fostered the adventurous freedom of his thoughts. He was a little sleepy too, and felt a pleasurable
languor running through every limb as though all the blood in his body had turned to warm milk. His skipper
had come up noiselessly, in pyjamas and with his sleeping-jacket flung wide open. Red of face, only half
awake, the left eye partly closed, the right staring stupid and glassy, he hung his big head over the chart and
scratched his ribs sleepily. There was something obscene in the sight of his naked flesh. His bared breast
glistened soft and greasy as though he had sweated out his fat in his sleep. He pronounced a professional
remark in a voice harsh and dead, resembling the rasping sound of a wood-file on the edge of a plank; the fold
of his double chin hung like a bag triced up close under the hinge of his jaw. Jim started, and his answer was
full of deference; but the odious and fleshy figure, as though seen for the first time in a revealing moment,
fixed itself in his memory for ever as the incarnation of everything vile and base that lurks in the world we
love: in our own hearts we trust for our salvation, in the men that surround us, in the sights that fill our eyes,
in the sounds that fill our ears, and in the air that fills our lungs.

The thin gold shaving of the moon floating slowly downwards had lost itself on the darkened surface of the
waters, and the eternity beyond the sky seemed to come down nearer to the earth, with the augmented glitter
of the stars, with the more profound sombreness in the lustre of the half-transparent dome covering the flat
disc of an opaque sea. The ship moved so smoothly that her onward motion was imperceptible to the senses of
men, as though she had been a crowded planet speeding through the dark spaces of ether behind the swarm of
suns, in the appalling and calm solitudes awaiting the breath of future creations. 'Hot is no name for it down
below,' said a voice.

Jim smiled without looking round. The skipper presented an unmoved breadth of back: it was the renegade's
trick to appear pointedly unaware of your existence unless it suited his purpose to turn at you with a devouring
glare before he let loose a torrent of foamy, abusive jargon that came like a gush from a sewer. Now he
emitted only a sulky grunt; the second engineer at the head of the bridge-ladder, kneading with damp palms a
dirty sweat-rag, unabashed, continued the tale of his complaints. The sailors had a good time of it up here, and
what was the use of them in the world he would be blowed if he could see. The poor devils of engineers had to
get the ship along anyhow, and they could very well do the rest too; by gosh they--'Shut up!' growled the
German stolidly. 'Oh yes! Shut up--and when anything goes wrong you fly to us, don't you?' went on the
other. He was more than half cooked, he expected; but anyway, now, he did not mind how much he sinned,
because these last three days he had passed through a fine course of training for the place where the bad boys
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durned, compound, surface-condensing, rotten scrap-heap rattled and banged down there like an old
deck-winch, only more so; and what made him risk his life every night and day that God made amongst the
refuse of a breaking-up yard flying round at fifty-seven revolutions, was more than he could tell. He must
have been born reckless, b'gosh. He . . . 'Where did you get drink?' inquired the German, very savage; but
motionless in the light of the binnacle, like a clumsy effigy of a man cut out of a block of fat. Jim went on
smiling at the retreating horizon; his heart was full of generous impulses, and his thought was contemplating
his own superiority. 'Drink!' repeated the engineer with amiable scorn: he was hanging on with both hands to
the rail, a shadowy figure with flexible legs. 'Not from you, captain. You're far too mean, b'gosh. You would
let a good man die sooner than give him a drop of schnapps. That's what you Germans call economy. Penny
wise, pound foolish.' He became sentimental. The chief had given him a four-finger nip about ten
o'clock--'only one, s'elp me!'--good old chief; but as to getting the old fraud out of his bunk--a five-ton crane
couldn't do it. Not it. Not to-night anyhow. He was sleeping sweetly like a little child, with a bottle of prime
brandy under his pillow. From the thick throat of the commander of the Patna came a low rumble, on which
the sound of the word schwein fluttered high and low like a capricious feather in a faint stir of air. He and the
chief engineer had been cronies for a good few years--serving the same jovial, crafty, old Chinaman, with
horn-rimmed goggles and strings of red silk plaited into the venerable grey hairs of his pigtail. The quay-side
opinion in the Patna's home-port was that these two in the way of brazen peculation 'had done together pretty
well everything you can think of.' Outwardly they were badly matched: one dull-eyed, malevolent, and of soft
fleshy curves; the other lean, all hollows, with a head long and bony like the head of an old horse, with sunken
cheeks, with sunken temples, with an indifferent glazed glance of sunken eyes. He had been stranded out East
somewhere--in Canton, in Shanghai, or perhaps in Yokohama; he probably did not care to remember himself
the exact locality, nor yet the cause of his shipwreck. He had been, in mercy to his youth, kicked quietly out of
his ship twenty years ago or more, and it might have been so much worse for him that the memory of the
episode had in it hardly a trace of misfortune. Then, steam navigation expanding in these seas and men of his
craft being scarce at first, he had 'got on' after a sort. He was eager to let strangers know in a dismal mumble
that he was 'an old stager out here.' When he moved, a skeleton seemed to sway loose in his clothes; his walk
was mere wandering, and he was given to wander thus around the engine-room skylight, smoking, without
relish, doctored tobacco in a brass bowl at the end of a cherrywood stem four feet long, with the imbecile
gravity of a thinker evolving a system of philosophy from the hazy glimpse of a truth. He was usually
anything but free with his private store of liquor; but on that night he had departed from his principles, so that
his second, a weak-headed child of Wapping, what with the unexpectedness of the treat and the strength of the
stuff, had become very happy, cheeky, and talkative. The fury of the New South Wales German was extreme;
he puffed like an exhaust-pipe, and Jim, faintly amused by the scene, was impatient for the time when he
could get below: the last ten minutes of the watch were irritating like a gun that hangs fire; those men did not
belong to the world of heroic adventure; they weren't bad chaps though. Even the skipper himself . . . His
gorge rose at the mass of panting flesh from which issued gurgling mutters, a cloudy trickle of filthy
expressions; but he was too pleasurably languid to dislike actively this or any other thing. The quality of these
men did not matter; he rubbed shoulders with them, but they could not touch him; he shared the air they
breathed, but he was different. . . . Would the skipper go for the engineer? . . . The life was easy and he was
too sure of himself--too sure of himself to . . . The line dividing his meditation from a surreptitious doze on
his feet was thinner than a thread in a spider's web.

The second engineer was coming by easy transitions to the consideration of his finances and of his courage.

'Who's drunk? I? No, no, captain! That won't do. You ought to know by this time the chief ain't free-hearted
enough to make a sparrow drunk, b'gosh. I've never been the worse for liquor in my life; the stuff ain't made
yet that would make me drunk. I could drink liquid fire against your whisky peg for peg, b'gosh, and keep as
cool as a cucumber. If I thought I was drunk I would jump overboard--do away with myself, b'gosh. I would!
Straight! And I won't go off the bridge. Where do you expect me to take the air on a night like this, eh? On
deck amongst that vermin down there? Likely--ain't it! And I am not afraid of anything you can do.'

The German lifted two heavy fists to heaven and shook them a little without a word.

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'I don't know what fear is,' pursued the engineer, with the enthusiasm of sincere conviction. 'I am not afraid of
doing all the bloomin' work in this rotten hooker, b'gosh! And a jolly good thing for you that there are some of
us about the world that aren't afraid of their lives, or where would you be--you and this old thing here with her
plates like brown paper--brown paper, s'elp me? It's all very fine for you--you get a power of pieces out of her
one way and another; but what about me--what do I get? A measly hundred and fifty dollars a month and find
yourself. I wish to ask you respectfully--respectfully, mind--who wouldn't chuck a dratted job like this? 'Tain't
safe, s'elp me, it ain't! Only I am one of them fearless fellows . . .'

He let go the rail and made ample gestures as if demonstrating in the air the shape and extent of his valour; his
thin voice darted in prolonged squeaks upon the sea, he tiptoed back and forth for the better emphasis of
utterance, and suddenly pitched down head-first as though he had been clubbed from behind. He said 'Damn!'
as he tumbled; an instant of silence followed upon his screeching: Jim and the skipper staggered forward by
common accord, and catching themselves up, stood very stiff and still gazing, amazed, at the undisturbed level
of the sea. Then they looked upwards at the stars.

What had happened? The wheezy thump of the engines went on. Had the earth been checked in her course?
They could not understand; and suddenly the calm sea, the sky without a cloud, appeared formidably insecure
in their immobility, as if poised on the brow of yawning destruction. The engineer rebounded vertically full
length and collapsed again into a vague heap. This heap said 'What's that?' in the muffled accents of profound
grief. A faint noise as of thunder, of thunder infinitely remote, less than a sound, hardly more than a vibration,
passed slowly, and the ship quivered in response, as if the thunder had growled deep down in the water. The
eyes of the two Malays at the wheel glittered towards the white men, but their dark hands remained closed on
the spokes. The sharp hull driving on its way seemed to rise a few inches in succession through its whole
length, as though it had become pliable, and settled down again rigidly to its work of cleaving the smooth
surface of the sea. Its quivering stopped, and the faint noise of thunder ceased all at once, as though the ship
had steamed across a narrow belt of vibrating water and of humming air.

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A month or so afterwards, when Jim, in answer to pointed questions, tried to tell honestly the truth of this
experience, he said, speaking of the ship: 'She went over whatever it was as easy as a snake crawling over a
stick.' The illustration was good: the questions were aiming at facts, and the official Inquiry was being held in
the police court of an Eastern port. He stood elevated in the witness-box, with burning cheeks in a cool lofty
room: the big framework of punkahs moved gently to and fro high above his head, and from below many eyes
were looking at him out of dark faces, out of white faces, out of red faces, out of faces attentive, spellbound,
as if all these people sitting in orderly rows upon narrow benches had been enslaved by the fascination of his
voice. It was very loud, it rang startling in his own ears, it was the only sound audible in the world, for the
terribly distinct questions that extorted his answers seemed to shape themselves in anguish and pain within his
breast,-- came to him poignant and silent like the terrible questioning of one's conscience. Outside the court
the sun blazed--within was the wind of great punkahs that made you shiver, the shame that made you burn, the
attentive eyes whose glance stabbed. The face of the presiding magistrate, clean shaved and impassible,
looked at him deadly pale between the red faces of the two nautical assessors. The light of a broad window
under the ceiling fell from above on the heads and shoulders of the three men, and they were fiercely distinct
in the half-light of the big court-room where the audience seemed composed of staring shadows. They wanted
facts. Facts! They demanded facts from him, as if facts could explain anything!

'After you had concluded you had collided with something floating awash, say a water-logged wreck, you
were ordered by your captain to go forward and ascertain if there was any damage done. Did you think it
likely from the force of the blow?' asked the assessor sitting to the left. He had a thin horseshoe beard, salient
cheek-bones, and with both elbows on the desk clasped his rugged hands before his face, looking at Jim with
thoughtful blue eyes; the other, a heavy, scornful man, thrown back in his seat, his left arm extended full
length, drummed delicately with his finger-tips on a blotting-pad: in the middle the magistrate upright in the
roomy arm-chair, his head inclined slightly on the shoulder, had his arms crossed on his breast and a few
flowers in a glass vase by the side of his inkstand.

'I did not,' said Jim. 'I was told to call no one and to make no noise for fear of creating a panic. I thought the
precaution reasonable. I took one of the lamps that were hung under the awnings and went forward. After
opening the forepeak hatch I heard splashing in there. I lowered then the lamp the whole drift of its lanyard,
and saw that the forepeak was more than half full of water already. I knew then there must be a big hole below
the water-line.' He paused.

'Yes,' said the big assessor, with a dreamy smile at the blotting-pad; his fingers played incessantly, touching
the paper without noise.

'I did not think of danger just then. I might have been a little startled: all this happened in such a quiet way and
so very suddenly. I knew there was no other bulkhead in the ship but the collision bulkhead separating the
forepeak from the forehold. I went back to tell the captain. I came upon the second engineer getting up at the
foot of the bridge-ladder: he seemed dazed, and told me he thought his left arm was broken; he had slipped on
the top step when getting down while I was forward. He exclaimed, "My God! That rotten bulkhead'll give
way in a minute, and the damned thing will go down under us like a lump of lead." He pushed me away with
his right arm and ran before me up the ladder, shouting as he climbed. His left arm hung by his side. I
followed up in time to see the captain rush at him and knock him down flat on his back. He did not strike him
again: he stood bending over him and speaking angrily but quite low. I fancy he was asking him why the devil
he didn't go and stop the engines, instead of making a row about it on deck. I heard him say, "Get up! Run!
fly!" He swore also. The engineer slid down the starboard ladder and bolted round the skylight to the
engine-room companion which was on the port side. He moaned as he ran. . . .'

He spoke slowly; he remembered swiftly and with extreme vividness; he could have reproduced like an echo
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revolt he had come round to the view that only a meticulous precision of statement would bring out the true
horror behind the appalling face of things. The facts those men were so eager to know had been visible,
tangible, open to the senses, occupying their place in space and time, requiring for their existence a
fourteen-hundred-ton steamer and twenty-seven minutes by the watch; they made a whole that had features,
shades of expression, a complicated aspect that could be remembered by the eye, and something else besides,
something invisible, a directing spirit of perdition that dwelt within, like a malevolent soul in a detestable
body. He was anxious to make this clear. This had not been a common affair, everything in it had been of the
utmost importance, and fortunately he remembered everything. He wanted to go on talking for truth's sake,
perhaps for his own sake also; and while his utterance was deliberate, his mind positively flew round and
round the serried circle of facts that had surged up all about him to cut him off from the rest of his kind: it was
like a creature that, finding itself imprisoned within an enclosure of high stakes, dashes round and round,
distracted in the night, trying to find a weak spot, a crevice, a place to scale, some opening through which it
may squeeze itself and escape. This awful activity of mind made him hesitate at times in his speech. . . .

'The captain kept on moving here and there on the bridge; he seemed calm enough, only he stumbled several
times; and once as I stood speaking to him he walked right into me as though he had been stone-blind. He
made no definite answer to what I had to tell. He mumbled to himself; all I heard of it were a few words that
sounded like "confounded steam!" and "infernal steam!"--something about steam. I thought . . .'

He was becoming irrelevant; a question to the point cut short his speech, like a pang of pain, and he felt
extremely discouraged and weary. He was coming to that, he was coming to that--and now, checked brutally,
he had to answer by yes or no. He answered truthfully by a curt 'Yes, I did'; and fair of face, big of frame, with
young, gloomy eyes, he held his shoulders upright above the box while his soul writhed within him. He was
made to answer another question so much to the point and so useless, then waited again. His mouth was
tastelessly dry, as though he had been eating dust, then salt and bitter as after a drink of sea-water. He wiped
his damp forehead, passed his tongue over parched lips, felt a shiver run down his back. The big assessor had
dropped his eyelids, and drummed on without a sound, careless and mournful; the eyes of the other above the
sunburnt, clasped fingers seemed to glow with kindliness; the magistrate had swayed forward; his pale face
hovered near the flowers, and then dropping sideways over the arm of his chair, he rested his temple in the
palm of his hand. The wind of the punkahs eddied down on the heads, on the dark-faced natives wound about
in voluminous draperies, on the Europeans sitting together very hot and in drill suits that seemed to fit them as
close as their skins, and holding their round pith hats on their knees; while gliding along the walls the court
peons, buttoned tight in long white coats, flitted rapidly to and fro, running on bare toes, red-sashed, red
turban on head, as noiseless as ghosts, and on the alert like so many retrievers.

Jim's eyes, wandering in the intervals of his answers, rested upon a white man who sat apart from the others,
with his face worn and clouded, but with quiet eyes that glanced straight, interested and clear. Jim answered
another question and was tempted to cry out, 'What's the good of this! what's the good!' He tapped with his
foot slightly, bit his lip, and looked away over the heads. He met the eyes of the white man. The glance
directed at him was not the fascinated stare of the others. It was an act of intelligent volition. Jim between two
questions forgot himself so far as to find leisure for a thought. This fellow--ran the thought--looks at me as
though he could see somebody or something past my shoulder. He had come across that man before--in the
street perhaps. He was positive he had never spoken to him. For days, for many days, he had spoken to no
one, but had held silent, incoherent, and endless converse with himself, like a prisoner alone in his cell or like
a wayfarer lost in a wilderness. At present he was answering questions that did not matter though they had a
purpose, but he doubted whether he would ever again speak out as long as he lived. The sound of his own
truthful statements confirmed his deliberate opinion that speech was of no use to him any longer. That man
there seemed to be aware of his hopeless difficulty. Jim looked at him, then turned away resolutely, as after a
final parting.

And later on, many times, in distant parts of the world, Marlow showed himself willing to remember Jim, to
remember him at length, in detail and audibly.

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Perhaps it would be after dinner, on a verandah draped in motionless foliage and crowned with flowers, in the
deep dusk speckled by fiery cigar-ends. The elongated bulk of each cane-chair harboured a silent listener.
Now and then a small red glow would move abruptly, and expanding light up the fingers of a languid hand,
part of a face in profound repose, or flash a crimson gleam into a pair of pensive eyes overshadowed by a
fragment of an unruffled forehead; and with the very first word uttered Marlow's body, extended at rest in the
seat, would become very still, as though his spirit had winged its way back into the lapse of time and were
speaking through his lips from the past.

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'Oh yes. I attended the inquiry,' he would say, 'and to this day I haven't left off wondering why I went. I am
willing to believe each of us has a guardian angel, if you fellows will concede to me that each of us has a
familiar devil as well. I want you to own up, because I don't like to feel exceptional in any way, and I know I
have him-- the devil, I mean. I haven't seen him, of course, but I go upon circumstantial evidence. He is there
right enough, and, being malicious, he lets me in for that kind of thing. What kind of thing, you ask? Why, the
inquiry thing, the yellow-dog thing--you wouldn't think a mangy, native tyke would be allowed to trip up
people in the verandah of a magistrate's court, would you?--the kind of thing that by devious, unexpected,
truly diabolical ways causes me to run up against men with soft spots, with hard spots, with hidden plague
spots, by Jove! and loosens their tongues at the sight of me for their infernal confidences; as though, forsooth,
I had no confidences to make to myself, as though--God help me!--I didn't have enough confidential
information about myself to harrow my own soul till the end of my appointed time. And what I have done to
be thus favoured I want to know. I declare I am as full of my own concerns as the next man, and I have as
much memory as the average pilgrim in this valley, so you see I am not particularly fit to be a receptacle of
confessions. Then why? Can't tell--unless it be to make time pass away after dinner. Charley, my dear chap,
your dinner was extremely good, and in consequence these men here look upon a quiet rubber as a tumultuous
occupation. They wallow in your good chairs and think to themselves, "Hang exertion. Let that Marlow talk."

'Talk? So be it. And it's easy enough to talk of Master Jim, after a good spread, two hundred feet above the
sea-level, with a box of decent cigars handy, on a blessed evening of freshness and starlight that would make
the best of us forget we are only on sufferance here and got to pick our way in cross lights, watching every
precious minute and every irremediable step, trusting we shall manage yet to go out decently in the end--but
not so sure of it after all--and with dashed little help to expect from those we touch elbows with right and left.
Of course there are men here and there to whom the whole of life is like an after-dinner hour with a cigar;
easy, pleasant, empty, perhaps enlivened by some fable of strife to be forgotten before the end is told--before
the end is told--even if there happens to be any end to it.

'My eyes met his for the first time at that inquiry. You must know that everybody connected in any way with
the sea was there, because the affair had been notorious for days, ever since that mysterious cable message
came from Aden to start us all cackling. I say mysterious, because it was so in a sense though it contained a
naked fact, about as naked and ugly as a fact can well be. The whole waterside talked of nothing else. First
thing in the morning as I was dressing in my state-room, I would hear through the bulkhead my Parsee
Dubash jabbering about the Patna with the steward, while he drank a cup of tea, by favour, in the pantry. No
sooner on shore I would meet some acquaintance, and the first remark would be, "Did you ever hear of
anything to beat this?" and according to his kind the man would smile cynically, or look sad, or let out a swear
or two. Complete strangers would accost each other familiarly, just for the sake of easing their minds on the
subject: every confounded loafer in the town came in for a harvest of drinks over this affair: you heard of it in
the harbour office, at every ship-broker's, at your agent's, from whites, from natives, from half-castes, from
the very boatmen squatting half naked on the stone steps as you went up--by Jove! There was some
indignation, not a few jokes, and no end of discussions as to what had become of them, you know. This went
on for a couple of weeks or more, and the opinion that whatever was mysterious in this affair would turn out
to be tragic as well, began to prevail, when one fine morning, as I was standing in the shade by the steps of the
harbour office, I perceived four men walking towards me along the quay. I wondered for a while where that
queer lot had sprung from, and suddenly, I may say, I shouted to myself, "Here they are!"

'There they were, sure enough, three of them as large as life, and one much larger of girth than any living man
has a right to be, just landed with a good breakfast inside of them from an outward-bound Dale Line steamer
that had come in about an hour after sunrise. There could be no mistake; I spotted the jolly skipper of the
Patna at the first glance: the fattest man in the whole blessed tropical belt clear round that good old earth of
ours. Moreover, nine months or so before, I had come across him in Samarang. His steamer was loading in the
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day long and day after day in De Jongh's back-shop, till De Jongh, who charged a guilder for every bottle
without as much as the quiver of an eyelid, would beckon me aside, and, with his little leathery face all
puckered up, declare confidentially, "Business is business, but this man, captain, he make me very sick. Tfui!"

'I was looking at him from the shade. He was hurrying on a little in advance, and the sunlight beating on him
brought out his bulk in a startling way. He made me think of a trained baby elephant walking on hind-legs. He
was extravagantly gorgeous too--got up in a soiled sleeping-suit, bright green and deep orange vertical stripes,
with a pair of ragged straw slippers on his bare feet, and somebody's cast-off pith hat, very dirty and two sizes
too small for him, tied up with a manilla rope-yarn on the top of his big head. You understand a man like that
hasn't the ghost of a chance when it comes to borrowing clothes. Very well. On he came in hot haste, without
a look right or left, passed within three feet of me, and in the innocence of his heart went on pelting upstairs
into the harbour office to make his deposition, or report, or whatever you like to call it.

'It appears he addressed himself in the first instance to the principal shipping-master. Archie Ruthvel had just
come in, and, as his story goes, was about to begin his arduous day by giving a dressing-down to his chief
clerk. Some of you might have known him--an obliging little Portuguese half-caste with a miserably skinny
neck, and always on the hop to get something from the shipmasters in the way of eatables--a piece of salt
pork, a bag of biscuits, a few potatoes, or what not. One voyage, I recollect, I tipped him a live sheep out of
the remnant of my sea-stock: not that I wanted him to do anything for me--he couldn't, you know--but because
his childlike belief in the sacred right to perquisites quite touched my heart. It was so strong as to be almost
beautiful. The race--the two races rather--and the climate . . . However, never mind. I know where I have a
friend for life.

'Well, Ruthvel says he was giving him a severe lecture--on official morality, I suppose--when he heard a kind
of subdued commotion at his back, and turning his head he saw, in his own words, something round and
enormous, resembling a sixteen-hundred-weight sugar-hogshead wrapped in striped flannelette, up-ended in
the middle of the large floor space in the office. He declares he was so taken aback that for quite an
appreciable time he did not realise the thing was alive, and sat still wondering for what purpose and by what
means that object had been transported in front of his desk. The archway from the ante-room was crowded
with punkah-pullers, sweepers, police peons, the coxswain and crew of the harbour steam-launch, all craning
their necks and almost climbing on each other's backs. Quite a riot. By that time the fellow had managed to
tug and jerk his hat clear of his head, and advanced with slight bows at Ruthvel, who told me the sight was so
discomposing that for some time he listened, quite unable to make out what that apparition wanted. It spoke in
a voice harsh and lugubrious but intrepid, and little by little it dawned upon Archie that this was a
development of the Patna case. He says that as soon as he understood who it was before him he felt quite
unwell--Archie is so sympathetic and easily upset--but pulled himself together and shouted "Stop! I can't
listen to you. You must go to the Master Attendant. I can't possibly listen to you. Captain Elliot is the man you
want to see. This way, this way." He jumped up, ran round that long counter, pulled, shoved: the other let him,
surprised but obedient at first, and only at the door of the private office some sort of animal instinct made him
hang back and snort like a frightened bullock. "Look here! what's up? Let go! Look here!" Archie flung open
the door without knocking. "The master of the Patna, sir," he shouts. "Go in, captain." He saw the old man lift
his head from some writing so sharp that his nose-nippers fell off, banged the door to, and fled to his desk,
where he had some papers waiting for his signature: but he says the row that burst out in there was so awful
that he couldn't collect his senses sufficiently to remember the spelling of his own name. Archie's the most
sensitive shipping-master in the two hemispheres. He declares he felt as though he had thrown a man to a
hungry lion. No doubt the noise was great. I heard it down below, and I have every reason to believe it was
heard clear across the Esplanade as far as the band-stand. Old father Elliot had a great stock of words and
could shout--and didn't mind who he shouted at either. He would have shouted at the Viceroy himself. As he
used to tell me: "I am as high as I can get; my pension is safe. I've a few pounds laid by, and if they don't like
my notions of duty I would just as soon go home as not. I am an old man, and I have always spoken my mind.
All I care for now is to see my girls married before I die." He was a little crazy on that point. His three
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gloomy view of their matrimonial prospects the office would read it in his eye and tremble, because, they said,
he was sure to have somebody for breakfast. However, that morning he did not eat the renegade, but, if I may
be allowed to carry on the metaphor, chewed him up very small, so to speak, and--ah! ejected him again.

'Thus in a very few moments I saw his monstrous bulk descend in haste and stand still on the outer steps. He
had stopped close to me for the purpose of profound meditation: his large purple cheeks quivered. He was
biting his thumb, and after a while noticed me with a sidelong vexed look. The other three chaps that had
landed with him made a little group waiting at some distance. There was a sallow-faced, mean little chap with
his arm in a sling, and a long individual in a blue flannel coat, as dry as a chip and no stouter than a
broomstick, with drooping grey moustaches, who looked about him with an air of jaunty imbecility. The third
was an upstanding, broad-shouldered youth, with his hands in his pockets, turning his back on the other two
who appeared to be talking together earnestly. He stared across the empty Esplanade. A ramshackle gharry, all
dust and venetian blinds, pulled up short opposite the group, and the driver, throwing up his right foot over his
knee, gave himself up to the critical examination of his toes. The young chap, making no movement, not even
stirring his head, just stared into the sunshine. This was my first view of Jim. He looked as unconcerned and
unapproachable as only the young can look. There he stood, clean-limbed, clean-faced, firm on his feet, as
promising a boy as the sun ever shone on; and, looking at him, knowing all he knew and a little more too, I
was as angry as though I had detected him trying to get something out of me by false pretences. He had no
business to look so sound. I thought to myself--well, if this sort can go wrong like that . . . and I felt as though
I could fling down my hat and dance on it from sheer mortification, as I once saw the skipper of an Italian
barque do because his duffer of a mate got into a mess with his anchors when making a flying moor in a
roadstead full of ships. I asked myself, seeing him there apparently so much at ease--is he silly? is he callous?
He seemed ready to start whistling a tune. And note, I did not care a rap about the behaviour of the other two.
Their persons somehow fitted the tale that was public property, and was going to be the subject of an official
inquiry. "That old mad rogue upstairs called me a hound," said the captain of the Patna. I can't tell whether he
recognised me--I rather think he did; but at any rate our glances met. He glared--I smiled; hound was the very
mildest epithet that had reached me through the open window. "Did he?" I said from some strange inability to
hold my tongue. He nodded, bit his thumb again, swore under his breath: then lifting his head and looking at
me with sullen and passionate impudence--"Bah! the Pacific is big, my friendt. You damned Englishmen can
do your worst; I know where there's plenty room for a man like me: I am well aguaindt in Apia, in Honolulu,
in . . ." He paused reflectively, while without effort I could depict to myself the sort of people he was
"aguaindt" with in those places. I won't make a secret of it that I had been "aguaindt" with not a few of that
sort myself. There are times when a man must act as though life were equally sweet in any company. I've
known such a time, and, what's more, I shan't now pretend to pull a long face over my necessity, because a
good many of that bad company from want of moral--moral--what shall I say?--posture, or from some other
equally profound cause, were twice as instructive and twenty times more amusing than the usual respectable
thief of commerce you fellows ask to sit at your table without any real necessity--from habit, from cowardice,
from good-nature, from a hundred sneaking and inadequate reasons.

' "You Englishmen are all rogues," went on my patriotic Flensborg or Stettin Australian. I really don't
recollect now what decent little port on the shores of the Baltic was defiled by being the nest of that precious
bird. "What are you to shout? Eh? You tell me? You no better than other people, and that old rogue he make
Gottam fuss with me." His thick carcass trembled on its legs that were like a pair of pillars; it trembled from
head to foot. "That's what you English always make--make a tam' fuss--for any little thing, because I was not
born in your tam' country. Take away my certificate. Take it. I don't want the certificate. A man like me don't
want your verfluchte certificate. I shpit on it." He spat. "I vill an Amerigan citizen begome," he cried, fretting
and fuming and shuffling his feet as if to free his ankles from some invisible and mysterious grasp that would
not let him get away from that spot. He made himself so warm that the top of his bullet head positively
smoked. Nothing mysterious prevented me from going away: curiosity is the most obvious of sentiments, and
it held me there to see the effect of a full information upon that young fellow who, hands in pockets, and
turning his back upon the sidewalk, gazed across the grass-plots of the Esplanade at the yellow portico of the
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looked, and it was odious. I waited to see him overwhelmed, confounded, pierced through and through,
squirming like an impaled beetle--and I was half afraid to see it too--if you understand what I mean. Nothing
more awful than to watch a man who has been found out, not in a crime but in a more than criminal weakness.
The commonest sort of fortitude prevents us from becoming criminals in a legal sense; it is from weakness
unknown, but perhaps suspected, as in some parts of the world you suspect a deadly snake in every
bush--from weakness that may lie hidden, watched or unwatched, prayed against or manfully scorned,
repressed or maybe ignored more than half a lifetime, not one of us is safe. We are snared into doing things
for which we get called names, and things for which we get hanged, and yet the spirit may well
survive--survive the condemnation, survive the halter, by Jove! And there are things--they look small enough
sometimes too--by which some of us are totally and completely undone. I watched the youngster there. I liked
his appearance; I knew his appearance; he came from the right place; he was one of us. He stood there for all
the parentage of his kind, for men and women by no means clever or amusing, but whose very existence is
based upon honest faith, and upon the instinct of courage. I don't mean military courage, or civil courage, or
any special kind of courage. I mean just that inborn ability to look temptations straight in the face--a readiness
unintellectual enough, goodness knows, but without pose--a power of resistance, don't you see, ungracious if
you like, but priceless--an unthinking and blessed stiffness before the outward and inward terrors, before the
might of nature and the seductive corruption of men--backed by a faith invulnerable to the strength of facts, to
the contagion of example, to the solicitation of ideas. Hang ideas! They are tramps, vagabonds, knocking at
the back-door of your mind, each taking a little of your substance, each carrying away some crumb of that
belief in a few simple notions you must cling to if you want to live decently and would like to die easy!

'This has nothing to do with Jim, directly; only he was outwardly so typical of that good, stupid kind we like
to feel marching right and left of us in life, of the kind that is not disturbed by the vagaries of intelligence and
the perversions of--of nerves, let us say. He was the kind of fellow you would, on the strength of his looks,
leave in charge of the deck--figuratively and professionally speaking. I say I would, and I ought to know.
Haven't I turned out youngsters enough in my time, for the service of the Red Rag, to the craft of the sea, to
the craft whose whole secret could be expressed in one short sentence, and yet must be driven afresh every
day into young heads till it becomes the component part of every waking thought--till it is present in every
dream of their young sleep! The sea has been good to me, but when I remember all these boys that passed
through my hands, some grown up now and some drowned by this time, but all good stuff for the sea, I don't
think I have done badly by it either. Were I to go home to-morrow, I bet that before two days passed over my
head some sunburnt young chief mate would overtake me at some dock gateway or other, and a fresh deep
voice speaking above my hat would ask: "Don't you remember me, sir? Why! little So-and-so. Such and such
a ship. It was my first voyage." And I would remember a bewildered little shaver, no higher than the back of
this chair, with a mother and perhaps a big sister on the quay, very quiet but too upset to wave their
handkerchiefs at the ship that glides out gently between the pier-heads; or perhaps some decent middle-aged
father who had come early with his boy to see him off, and stays all the morning, because he is interested in
the windlass apparently, and stays too long, and has got to scramble ashore at last with no time at all to say
good-bye. The mud pilot on the poop sings out to me in a drawl, "Hold her with the check line for a moment,
Mister Mate. There's a gentleman wants to get ashore. . . . Up with you, sir. Nearly got carried off to
Talcahuano, didn't you? Now's your time; easy does it. . . . All right. Slack away again forward there." The
tugs, smoking like the pit of perdition, get hold and churn the old river into fury; the gentleman ashore is
dusting his knees--the benevolent steward has shied his umbrella after him. All very proper. He has offered
his bit of sacrifice to the sea, and now he may go home pretending he thinks nothing of it; and the little willing
victim shall be very sea-sick before next morning. By-and-by, when he has learned all the little mysteries and
the one great secret of the craft, he shall be fit to live or die as the sea may decree; and the man who had taken
a hand in this fool game, in which the sea wins every toss, will be pleased to have his back slapped by a heavy
young hand, and to hear a cheery sea-puppy voice: "Do you remember me, sir? The little So-and-so."

'I tell you this is good; it tells you that once in your life at least you had gone the right way to work. I have
been thus slapped, and I have winced, for the slap was heavy, and I have glowed all day long and gone to bed
feeling less lonely in the world by virtue of that hearty thump. Don't I remember the little So-and-so's! I tell

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you I ought to know the right kind of looks. I would have trusted the deck to that youngster on the strength of
a single glance, and gone to sleep with both eyes--and, by Jove! it wouldn't have been safe. There are depths
of horror in that thought. He looked as genuine as a new sovereign, but there was some infernal alloy in his
metal. How much? The least thing--the least drop of something rare and accursed; the least drop!--but he
made you--standing there with his don't-care-hang air--he made you wonder whether perchance he were
nothing more rare than brass.

'I couldn't believe it. I tell you I wanted to see him squirm for the honour of the craft. The other two
no-account chaps spotted their captain, and began to move slowly towards us. They chatted together as they
strolled, and I did not care any more than if they had not been visible to the naked eye. They grinned at each
other--might have been exchanging jokes, for all I know. I saw that with one of them it was a case of a broken
arm; and as to the long individual with grey moustaches he was the chief engineer, and in various ways a
pretty notorious personality. They were nobodies. They approached. The skipper gazed in an inanimate way
between his feet: he seemed to be swollen to an unnatural size by some awful disease, by the mysterious
action of an unknown poison. He lifted his head, saw the two before him waiting, opened his mouth with an
extraordinary, sneering contortion of his puffed face--to speak to them, I suppose--and then a thought seemed
to strike him. His thick, purplish lips came together without a sound, he went off in a resolute waddle to the
gharry and began to jerk at the door-handle with such a blind brutality of impatience that I expected to see the
whole concern overturned on its side, pony and all. The driver, shaken out of his meditation over the sole of
his foot, displayed at once all the signs of intense terror, and held with both hands, looking round from his box
at this vast carcass forcing its way into his conveyance. The little machine shook and rocked tumultuously,
and the crimson nape of that lowered neck, the size of those straining thighs, the immense heaving of that
dingy, striped green-and-orange back, the whole burrowing effort of that gaudy and sordid mass, troubled
one's sense of probability with a droll and fearsome effect, like one of those grotesque and distinct visions that
scare and fascinate one in a fever. He disappeared. I half expected the roof to split in two, the little box on
wheels to burst open in the manner of a ripe cotton-pod--but it only sank with a click of flattened springs, and
suddenly one venetian blind rattled down. His shoulders reappeared, jammed in the small opening; his head
hung out, distended and tossing like a captive balloon, perspiring, furious, spluttering. He reached for the
gharry-wallah with vicious flourishes of a fist as dumpy and red as a lump of raw meat. He roared at him to be
off, to go on. Where? Into the Pacific, perhaps. The driver lashed; the pony snorted, reared once, and darted
off at a gallop. Where? To Apia? To Honolulu? He had 6000 miles of tropical belt to disport himself in, and I
did not hear the precise address. A snorting pony snatched him into "Ewigkeit" in the twinkling of an eye, and
I never saw him again; and, what's more, I don't know of anybody that ever had a glimpse of him after he
departed from my knowledge sitting inside a ramshackle little gharry that fled round the corner in a white
smother of dust. He departed, disappeared, vanished, absconded; and absurdly enough it looked as though he
had taken that gharry with him, for never again did I come across a sorrel pony with a slit ear and a
lackadaisical Tamil driver afflicted by a sore foot. The Pacific is indeed big; but whether he found a place for
a display of his talents in it or not, the fact remains he had flown into space like a witch on a broomstick. The
little chap with his arm in a sling started to run after the carriage, bleating, "Captain! I say, Captain! I
sa-a-ay!"--but after a few steps stopped short, hung his head, and walked back slowly. At the sharp rattle of
the wheels the young fellow spun round where he stood. He made no other movement, no gesture, no sign,
and remained facing in the new direction after the gharry had swung out of sight.

'All this happened in much less time than it takes to tell, since I am trying to interpret for you into slow speech
the instantaneous effect of visual impressions. Next moment the half-caste clerk, sent by Archie to look a little
after the poor castaways of the Patna, came upon the scene. He ran out eager and bareheaded, looking right
and left, and very full of his mission. It was doomed to be a failure as far as the principal person was
concerned, but he approached the others with fussy importance, and, almost immediately, found himself
involved in a violent altercation with the chap that carried his arm in a sling, and who turned out to be
extremely anxious for a row. He wasn't going to be ordered about--"not he, b'gosh." He wouldn't be terrified
with a pack of lies by a cocky half-bred little quill-driver. He was not going to be bullied by "no object of that
sort," if the story were true "ever so"! He bawled his wish, his desire, his determination to go to bed. "If you

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weren't a God-forsaken Portuguee," I heard him yell, "you would know that the hospital is the right place for
me." He pushed the fist of his sound arm under the other's nose; a crowd began to collect; the half-caste,
flustered, but doing his best to appear dignified, tried to explain his intentions. I went away without waiting to
see the end.

'But it so happened that I had a man in the hospital at the time, and going there to see about him the day before
the opening of the Inquiry, I saw in the white men's ward that little chap tossing on his back, with his arm in
splints, and quite light-headed. To my great surprise the other one, the long individual with drooping white
moustache, had also found his way there. I remembered I had seen him slinking away during the quarrel, in a
half prance, half shuffle, and trying very hard not to look scared. He was no stranger to the port, it seems, and
in his distress was able to make tracks straight for Mariani's billiard-room and grog-shop near the bazaar. That
unspeakable vagabond, Mariani, who had known the man and had ministered to his vices in one or two other
places, kissed the ground, in a manner of speaking, before him, and shut him up with a supply of bottles in an
upstairs room of his infamous hovel. It appears he was under some hazy apprehension as to his personal
safety, and wished to be concealed. However, Mariani told me a long time after (when he came on board one
day to dun my steward for the price of some cigars) that he would have done more for him without asking any
questions, from gratitude for some unholy favour received very many years ago--as far as I could make out.
He thumped twice his brawny chest, rolled enormous black-and-white eyes glistening with tears: "Antonio
never forget--Antonio never forget!" What was the precise nature of the immoral obligation I never learned,
but be it what it may, he had every facility given him to remain under lock and key, with a chair, a table, a
mattress in a corner, and a litter of fallen plaster on the floor, in an irrational state of funk, and keeping up his
pecker with such tonics as Mariani dispensed. This lasted till the evening of the third day, when, after letting
out a few horrible screams, he found himself compelled to seek safety in flight from a legion of centipedes.
He burst the door open, made one leap for dear life down the crazy little stairway, landed bodily on Mariani's
stomach, picked himself up, and bolted like a rabbit into the streets. The police plucked him off a
garbage-heap in the early morning. At first he had a notion they were carrying him off to be hanged, and
fought for liberty like a hero, but when I sat down by his bed he had been very quiet for two days. His lean
bronzed head, with white moustaches, looked fine and calm on the pillow, like the head of a war-worn soldier
with a child-like soul, had it not been for a hint of spectral alarm that lurked in the blank glitter of his glance,
resembling a nondescript form of a terror crouching silently behind a pane of glass. He was so extremely
calm, that I began to indulge in the eccentric hope of hearing something explanatory of the famous affair from
his point of view. Why I longed to go grubbing into the deplorable details of an occurrence which, after all,
concerned me no more than as a member of an obscure body of men held together by a community of
inglorious toil and by fidelity to a certain standard of conduct, I can't explain. You may call it an unhealthy
curiosity if you like; but I have a distinct notion I wished to find something. Perhaps, unconsciously, I hoped I
would find that something, some profound and redeeming cause, some merciful explanation, some convincing
shadow of an excuse. I see well enough now that I hoped for the impossible--for the laying of what is the most
obstinate ghost of man's creation, of the uneasy doubt uprising like a mist, secret and gnawing like a worm,
and more chilling than the certitude of death--the doubt of the sovereign power enthroned in a fixed standard
of conduct. It is the hardest thing to stumble against; it is the thing that breeds yelling panics and good little
quiet villainies; it's the true shadow of calamity. Did I believe in a miracle? and why did I desire it so
ardently? Was it for my own sake that I wished to find some shadow of an excuse for that young fellow whom
I had never seen before, but whose appearance alone added a touch of personal concern to the thoughts
suggested by the knowledge of his weakness--made it a thing of mystery and terror--like a hint of a
destructive fate ready for us all whose youth--in its day--had resembled his youth? I fear that such was the
secret motive of my prying. I was, and no mistake, looking for a miracle. The only thing that at this distance
of time strikes me as miraculous is the extent of my imbecility. I positively hoped to obtain from that battered
and shady invalid some exorcism against the ghost of doubt. I must have been pretty desperate too, for,
without loss of time, after a few indifferent and friendly sentences which he answered with languid readiness,
just as any decent sick man would do, I produced the word Patna wrapped up in a delicate question as in a
wisp of floss silk. I was delicate selfishly; I did not want to startle him; I had no solicitude for him; I was not
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point for me. He had grown old in minor iniquities, and could no longer inspire aversion or pity. He repeated
Patna? interrogatively, seemed to make a short effort of memory, and said: "Quite right. I am an old stager out
here. I saw her go down." I made ready to vent my indignation at such a stupid lie, when he added smoothly,
"She was full of reptiles."

'This made me pause. What did he mean? The unsteady phantom of terror behind his glassy eyes seemed to
stand still and look into mine wistfully. "They turned me out of my bunk in the middle watch to look at her
sinking," he pursued in a reflective tone. His voice sounded alarmingly strong all at once. I was sorry for my
folly. There was no snowy-winged coif of a nursing sister to be seen flitting in the perspective of the ward; but
away in the middle of a long row of empty iron bedsteads an accident case from some ship in the Roads sat up
brown and gaunt with a white bandage set rakishly on the forehead. Suddenly my interesting invalid shot out
an arm thin like a tentacle and clawed my shoulder. "Only my eyes were good enough to see. I am famous for
my eyesight. That's why they called me, I expect. None of them was quick enough to see her go, but they saw
that she was gone right enough, and sang out together--like this." . . . A wolfish howl searched the very
recesses of my soul. "Oh! make 'im dry up," whined the accident case irritably. "You don't believe me, I
suppose," went on the other, with an air of ineffable conceit. "I tell you there are no such eyes as mine this
side of the Persian Gulf. Look under the bed."

'Of course I stooped instantly. I defy anybody not to have done so. "What can you see?" he asked. "Nothing,"
I said, feeling awfully ashamed of myself. He scrutinised my face with wild and withering contempt. "Just
so," he said, "but if I were to look I could see--there's no eyes like mine, I tell you." Again he clawed, pulling
at me downwards in his eagerness to relieve himself by a confidential communication. "Millions of pink
toads. There's no eyes like mine. Millions of pink toads. It's worse than seeing a ship sink. I could look at
sinking ships and smoke my pipe all day long. Why don't they give me back my pipe? I would get a smoke
while I watched these toads. The ship was full of them. They've got to be watched, you know." He winked
facetiously. The perspiration dripped on him off my head, my drill coat clung to my wet back: the afternoon
breeze swept impetuously over the row of bedsteads, the stiff folds of curtains stirred perpendicularly, rattling
on brass rods, the covers of empty beds blew about noiselessly near the bare floor all along the line, and I
shivered to the very marrow. The soft wind of the tropics played in that naked ward as bleak as a winter's gale
in an old barn at home. "Don't you let him start his hollering, mister," hailed from afar the accident case in a
distressed angry shout that came ringing between the walls like a quavering call down a tunnel. The clawing
hand hauled at my shoulder; he leered at me knowingly. "The ship was full of them, you know, and we had to
clear out on the strict Q.T.," he whispered with extreme rapidity. "All pink. All pink--as big as mastiffs, with
an eye on the top of the head and claws all round their ugly mouths. Ough! Ough!" Quick jerks as of galvanic
shocks disclosed under the flat coverlet the outlines of meagre and agitated legs; he let go my shoulder and
reached after something in the air; his body trembled tensely like a released harp-string; and while I looked
down, the spectral horror in him broke through his glassy gaze. Instantly his face of an old soldier, with its
noble and calm outlines, became decomposed before my eyes by the corruption of stealthy cunning, of an
abominable caution and of desperate fear. He restrained a cry-- "Ssh! what are they doing now down there?"
he asked, pointing to the floor with fantastic precautions of voice and gesture, whose meaning, borne upon my
mind in a lurid flash, made me very sick of my cleverness. "They are all asleep," I answered, watching him
narrowly. That was it. That's what he wanted to hear; these were the exact words that could calm him. He
drew a long breath. "Ssh! Quiet, steady. I am an old stager out here. I know them brutes. Bash in the head of
the first that stirs. There's too many of them, and she won't swim more than ten minutes." He panted again.
"Hurry up," he yelled suddenly, and went on in a steady scream: "They are all awake--millions of them. They
are trampling on me! Wait! Oh, wait! I'll smash them in heaps like flies. Wait for me! Help! H-e-elp!" An
interminable and sustained howl completed my discomfiture. I saw in the distance the accident case raise
deplorably both his hands to his bandaged head; a dresser, aproned to the chin showed himself in the vista of
the ward, as if seen in the small end of a telescope. I confessed myself fairly routed, and without more ado,
stepping out through one of the long windows, escaped into the outside gallery. The howl pursued me like a
vengeance. I turned into a deserted landing, and suddenly all became very still and quiet around me, and I
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below I met one of the resident surgeons who was crossing the courtyard and stopped me. "Been to see your
man, Captain? I think we may let him go to-morrow. These fools have no notion of taking care of themselves,
though. I say, we've got the chief engineer of that pilgrim ship here. A curious case. D.T.'s of the worst kind.
He has been drinking hard in that Greek's or Italian's grog-shop for three days. What can you expect? Four
bottles of that kind of brandy a day, I am told. Wonderful, if true. Sheeted with boiler-iron inside I should
think. The head, ah! the head, of course, gone, but the curious part is there's some sort of method in his raving.
I am trying to find out. Most unusual--that thread of logic in such a delirium. Traditionally he ought to see
snakes, but he doesn't. Good old tradition's at a discount nowadays. Eh! His--er--visions are batrachian. Ha!
ha! No, seriously, I never remember being so interested in a case of jim-jams before. He ought to be dead,
don't you know, after such a festive experiment. Oh! he is a tough object. Four-and-twenty years of the tropics
too. You ought really to take a peep at him. Noble-looking old boozer. Most extraordinary man I ever
met--medically, of course. Won't you?"

'I have been all along exhibiting the usual polite signs of interest, but now assuming an air of regret I
murmured of want of time, and shook hands in a hurry. "I say," he cried after me; "he can't attend that inquiry.
Is his evidence material, you think?"

' "Not in the least," I called back from the gateway.'

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'The authorities were evidently of the same opinion. The inquiry was not adjourned. It was held on the
appointed day to satisfy the law, and it was well attended because of its human interest, no doubt. There was
no incertitude as to facts--as to the one material fact, I mean. How the Patna came by her hurt it was
impossible to find out; the court did not expect to find out; and in the whole audience there was not a man
who cared. Yet, as I've told you, all the sailors in the port attended, and the waterside business was fully
represented. Whether they knew it or not, the interest that drew them here was purely psychological--the
expectation of some essential disclosure as to the strength, the power, the horror, of human emotions.
Naturally nothing of the kind could be disclosed. The examination of the only man able and willing to face it
was beating futilely round the well-known fact, and the play of questions upon it was as instructive as the
tapping with a hammer on an iron box, were the object to find out what's inside. However, an official inquiry
could not be any other thing. Its object was not the fundamental why, but the superficial how, of this affair.

'The young chap could have told them, and, though that very thing was the thing that interested the audience,
the questions put to him necessarily led him away from what to me, for instance, would have been the only
truth worth knowing. You can't expect the constituted authorities to inquire into the state of a man's soul-- or
is it only of his liver? Their business was to come down upon the consequences, and frankly, a casual police
magistrate and two nautical assessors are not much good for anything else. I don't mean to imply these fellows
were stupid. The magistrate was very patient. One of the assessors was a sailing-ship skipper with a reddish
beard, and of a pious disposition. Brierly was the other. Big Brierly. Some of you must have heard of Big
Brierly--the captain of the crack ship of the Blue Star line. That's the man.

'He seemed consumedly bored by the honour thrust upon him. He had never in his life made a mistake, never
had an accident, never a mishap, never a check in his steady rise, and he seemed to be one of those lucky
fellows who know nothing of indecision, much less of self-mistrust. At thirty-two he had one of the best
commands going in the Eastern trade--and, what's more, he thought a lot of what he had. There was nothing
like it in the world, and I suppose if you had asked him point-blank he would have confessed that in his
opinion there was not such another commander. The choice had fallen upon the right man. The rest of
mankind that did not command the sixteen-knot steel steamer Ossa were rather poor creatures. He had saved
lives at sea, had rescued ships in distress, had a gold chronometer presented to him by the underwriters, and a
pair of binoculars with a suitable inscription from some foreign Government, in commemoration of these
services. He was acutely aware of his merits and of his rewards. I liked him well enough, though some I
know--meek, friendly men at that--couldn't stand him at any price. I haven't the slightest doubt he considered
himself vastly my superior--indeed, had you been Emperor of East and West, you could not have ignored your
inferiority in his presence-- but I couldn't get up any real sentiment of offence. He did not despise me for
anything I could help, for anything I was--don't you know? I was a negligible quantity simply because I was
not the fortunate man of the earth, not Montague Brierly in command of the Ossa, not the owner of an
inscribed gold chronometer and of silver-mounted binoculars testifying to the excellence of my seamanship
and to my indomitable pluck; not possessed of an acute sense of my merits and of my rewards, besides the
love and worship of a black retriever, the most wonderful of its kind--for never was such a man loved thus by
such a dog. No doubt, to have all this forced upon you was exasperating enough; but when I reflected that I
was associated in these fatal disadvantages with twelve hundred millions of other more or less human beings,
I found I could bear my share of his good-natured and contemptuous pity for the sake of something indefinite
and attractive in the man. I have never defined to myself this attraction, but there were moments when I
envied him. The sting of life could do no more to his complacent soul than the scratch of a pin to the smooth
face of a rock. This was enviable. As I looked at him, flanking on one side the unassuming pale-faced
magistrate who presided at the inquiry, his self-satisfaction presented to me and to the world a surface as hard
as granite. He committed suicide very soon after.

'No wonder Jim's case bored him, and while I thought with something akin to fear of the immensity of his
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verdict must have been of unmitigated guilt, and he took the secret of the evidence with him in that leap into
the sea. If I understand anything of men, the matter was no doubt of the gravest import, one of those trifles
that awaken ideas--start into life some thought with which a man unused to such a companionship finds it
impossible to live. I am in a position to know that it wasn't money, and it wasn't drink, and it wasn't woman.
He jumped overboard at sea barely a week after the end of the inquiry, and less than three days after leaving
port on his outward passage; as though on that exact spot in the midst of waters he had suddenly perceived the
gates of the other world flung open wide for his reception.

'Yet it was not a sudden impulse. His grey-headed mate, a first-rate sailor and a nice old chap with strangers,
but in his relations with his commander the surliest chief officer I've ever seen, would tell the story with tears
in his eyes. It appears that when he came on deck in the morning Brierly had been writing in the chart-room.
"It was ten minutes to four," he said, "and the middle watch was not relieved yet of course. He heard my voice
on the bridge speaking to the second mate, and called me in. I was loth to go, and that's the truth, Captain
Marlow--I couldn't stand poor Captain Brierly, I tell you with shame; we never know what a man is made of.
He had been promoted over too many heads, not counting my own, and he had a damnable trick of making
you feel small, nothing but by the way he said 'Good morning.' I never addressed him, sir, but on matters of
duty, and then it was as much as I could do to keep a civil tongue in my head." (He flattered himself there. I
often wondered how Brierly could put up with his manners for more than half a voyage.) "I've a wife and
children," he went on, "and I had been ten years in the Company, always expecting the next command--more
fool I. Says he, just like this: 'Come in here, Mr. Jones,' in that swagger voice of his--'Come in here, Mr.
Jones.' In I went. 'We'll lay down her position,' says he, stooping over the chart, a pair of dividers in hand. By
the standing orders, the officer going off duty would have done that at the end of his watch. However, I said
nothing, and looked on while he marked off the ship's position with a tiny cross and wrote the date and the
time. I can see him this moment writing his neat figures: seventeen, eight, four A.M. The year would be
written in red ink at the top of the chart. He never used his charts more than a year, Captain Brierly didn't. I've
the chart now. When he had done he stands looking down at the mark he had made and smiling to himself,
then looks up at me. 'Thirty-two miles more as she goes,' says he, 'and then we shall be clear, and you may
alter the course twenty degrees to the southward.'

' "We were passing to the north of the Hector Bank that voyage. I said, 'All right, sir,' wondering what he was
fussing about, since I had to call him before altering the course anyhow. lust then eight bells were struck: we
came out on the bridge, and the second mate before going off mentions in the usual way--'Seventy-one on the
log.' Captain Brierly looks at the compass and then all round. It was dark and clear, and all the stars were out
as plain as on a frosty night in high latitudes. Suddenly he says with a sort of a little sigh: 'I am going aft, and
shall set the log at zero for you myself, so that there can be no mistake. Thirty-two miles more on this course
and then you are safe. Let's see--the correction on the log is six per cent. additive; say, then, thirty by the dial
to run, and you may come twenty degrees to starboard at once. No use losing any distance--is there?' I had
never heard him talk so much at a stretch, and to no purpose as it seemed to me. I said nothing. He went down
the ladder, and the dog, that was always at his heels whenever he moved, night or day, followed, sliding nose
first, after him. I heard his boot-heels tap, tap on the after-deck, then he stopped and spoke to the dog--'Go
back, Rover. On the bridge, boy! Go on--get.' Then he calls out to me from the dark, 'Shut that dog up in the
chart-room, Mr. Jones--will you?'

' "This was the last time I heard his voice, Captain Marlow. These are the last words he spoke in the hearing of
any living human being, sir." At this point the old chap's voice got quite unsteady. "He was afraid the poor
brute would jump after him, don't you see?" he pursued with a quaver. "Yes, Captain Marlow. He set the log
for me; he--would you believe it?--he put a drop of oil in it too. There was the oil-feeder where he left it near
by. The boat-- swain's mate got the hose along aft to wash down at half-past five; by-and-by he knocks off and
runs up on the bridge--'Will you please come aft, Mr. Jones,' he says. 'There's a funny thing. I don't like to
touch it.' It was Captain Brierly's gold chronometer watch carefully hung under the rail by its chain.

' "As soon as my eyes fell on it something struck me, and I knew, sir. My legs got soft under me. It was as if I

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had seen him go over; and I could tell how far behind he was left too. The taffrail-log marked eighteen miles
and three-quarters, and four iron belaying-pins were missing round the mainmast. Put them in his pockets to
help him down, I suppose; but, Lord! what's four iron pins to a powerful man like Captain Brierly. Maybe his
confidence in himself was just shook a bit at the last. That's the only sign of fluster he gave in his whole life, I
should think; but I am ready to answer for him, that once over he did not try to swim a stroke, the same as he
would have had pluck enough to keep up all day long on the bare chance had he fallen overboard accidentally.
Yes, sir. He was second to none--if he said so himself, as I heard him once. He had written two letters in the
middle watch, one to the Company and the other to me. He gave me a lot of instructions as to the passage-- I
had been in the trade before he was out of his time--and no end of hints as to my conduct with our people in
Shanghai, so that I should keep the command of the Ossa. He wrote like a father would to a favourite son,
Captain Marlow, and I was five-and-twenty years his senior and had tasted salt water before he was fairly
breeched. In his letter to the owners--it was left open for me to see--he said that he had always done his duty
by them--up to that moment-- and even now he was not betraying their confidence, since he was leaving the
ship to as competent a seaman as could be found-- meaning me, sir, meaning me! He told them that if the last
act of his life didn't take away all his credit with them, they would give weight to my faithful service and to
his warm recommendation, when about to fill the vacancy made by his death. And much more like this, sir. I
couldn't believe my eyes. It made me feel queer all over," went on the old chap, in great perturbation, and
squashing something in the corner of his eye with the end of a thumb as broad as a spatula. "You would think,
sir, he had jumped overboard only to give an unlucky man a last show to get on. What with the shock of him
going in this awful rash way, and thinking myself a made man by that chance, I was nearly off my chump for
a week. But no fear. The captain of the Pelion was shifted into the Ossa--came aboard in Shanghai--a little
popinjay, sir, in a grey check suit, with his hair parted in the middle. 'Aw--I am--aw--your new captain,
Mister--Mister--aw--Jones.' He was drowned in scent--fairly stunk with it, Captain Marlow. I dare say it was
the look I gave him that made him stammer. He mumbled something about my natural disappointment--I had
better know at once that his chief officer got the promotion to the Pelion--he had nothing to do with it, of
course--supposed the office knew best--sorry. . . . Says I, 'Don't you mind old Jones, sir; dam' his soul, he's
used to it.' I could see directly I had shocked his delicate ear, and while we sat at our first tiffin together he
began to find fault in a nasty manner with this and that in the ship. I never heard such a voice out of a Punch
and Judy show. I set my teeth hard, and glued my eyes to my plate, and held my peace as long as I could; but
at last I had to say something. Up he jumps tiptoeing, ruffling all his pretty plumes, like a little fighting-cock.
'You'll find you have a different person to deal with than the late Captain Brierly.' 'I've found it,' says I, very
glum, but pretending to be mighty busy with my steak. 'You are an old ruffian, Mister--aw--Jones; and what's
more, you are known for an old ruffian in the employ,' he squeaks at me. The damned bottle-washers stood
about listening with their mouths stretched from ear to ear. 'I may be a hard case,' answers I, 'but I ain't so far
gone as to put up with the sight of you sitting in Captain Brierly's chair.' With that I lay down my knife and
fork. 'You would like to sit in it yourself--that's where the shoe pinches,' he sneers. I left the saloon, got my
rags together, and was on the quay with all my dunnage about my feet before the stevedores had turned to
again. Yes. Adrift--on shore--after ten years' service--and with a poor woman and four children six thousand
miles off depending on my half-pay for every mouthful they ate. Yes, sir! I chucked it rather than hear
Captain Brierly abused. He left me his night-glasses--here they are; and he wished me to take care of the
dog--here he is. Hallo, Rover, poor boy. Where's the captain, Rover?" The dog looked up at us with mournful
yellow eyes, gave one desolate bark, and crept under the table.

'All this was taking place, more than two years afterwards, on board that nautical ruin the Fire-Queen this
Jones had got charge of--quite by a funny accident, too--from Matherson--mad Matherson they generally
called him--the same who used to hang out in Hai-phong, you know, before the occupation days. The old chap
snuffled on--

' "Ay, sir, Captain Brierly will be remembered here, if there's no other place on earth. I wrote fully to his
father and did not get a word in reply--neither Thank you, nor Go to the devil!--nothing! Perhaps they did not
want to know."

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'The sight of that watery-eyed old Jones mopping his bald head with a red cotton handkerchief, the sorrowing
yelp of the dog, the squalor of that fly-blown cuddy which was the only shrine of his memory, threw a veil of
inexpressibly mean pathos over Brierly's remembered figure, the posthumous revenge of fate for that belief in
his own splendour which had almost cheated his life of its legitimate terrors. Almost! Perhaps wholly. Who
can tell what flattering view he had induced himself to take of his own suicide?

' "Why did he commit the rash act, Captain Marlow--can you think?" asked Jones, pressing his palms together.
"Why? It beats me! Why?" He slapped his low and wrinkled forehead. "If he had been poor and old and in
debt--and never a show--or else mad. But he wasn't of the kind that goes mad, not he. You trust me. What a
mate don't know about his skipper isn't worth knowing. Young, healthy, well off, no cares. . . . I sit here
sometimes thinking, thinking, till my head fairly begins to buzz. There was some reason."

' "You may depend on it, Captain Jones," said I, "it wasn't anything that would have disturbed much either of
us two," I said; and then, as if a light had been flashed into the muddle of his brain, poor old Jones found a last
word of amazing profundity. He blew his nose, nodding at me dolefully: "Ay, ay! neither you nor I, sir, had
ever thought so much of ourselves."

'Of course the recollection of my last conversation with Brierly is tinged with the knowledge of his end that
followed so close upon it. I spoke with him for the last time during the progress of the inquiry. It was after the
first adjournment, and he came up with me in the street. He was in a state of irritation, which I noticed with
surprise, his usual behaviour when he condescended to converse being perfectly cool, with a trace of amused
tolerance, as if the existence of his interlocutor had been a rather good joke. "They caught me for that inquiry,
you see," he began, and for a while enlarged complainingly upon the inconveniences of daily attendance in
court. "And goodness knows how long it will last. Three days, I suppose." I heard him out in silence; in my
then opinion it was a way as good as another of putting on side. "What's the use of it? It is the stupidest set-out
you can imagine," he pursued hotly. I remarked that there was no option. He interrupted me with a sort of
pent-up violence. "I feel like a fool all the time." I looked up at him. This was going very far--for
Brierly--when talking of Brierly. He stopped short, and seizing the lapel of my coat, gave it a slight tug. "Why
are we tormenting that young chap?" he asked. This question chimed in so well to the tolling of a certain
thought of mine that, with the image of the absconding renegade in my eye, I answered at once, "Hanged if I
know, unless it be that he lets you." I was astonished to see him fall into line, so to speak, with that utterance,
which ought to have been tolerably cryptic. He said angrily, "Why, yes. Can't he see that wretched skipper of
his has cleared out? What does he expect to happen? Nothing can save him. He's done for." We walked on in
silence a few steps. "Why eat all that dirt?" he exclaimed, with an oriental energy of expression-- about the
only sort of energy you can find a trace of east of the fiftieth meridian. I wondered greatly at the direction of
his thoughts, but now I strongly suspect it was strictly in character: at bottom poor Brierly must have been
thinking of himself. I pointed out to him that the skipper of the Patna was known to have feathered his nest
pretty well, and could procure almost anywhere the means of getting away. With Jim it was otherwise: the
Government was keeping him in the Sailors' Home for the time being, and probably he hadn't a penny in his
pocket to bless himself with. It costs some money to run away. "Does it? Not always," he said, with a bitter
laugh, and to some further remark of mine--"Well, then, let him creep twenty feet underground and stay there!
By heavens! I would." I don't know why his tone provoked me, and I said, "There is a kind of courage in
facing it out as he does, knowing very well that if he went away nobody would trouble to run after hmm."
"Courage be hanged!" growled Brierly. "That sort of courage is of no use to keep a man straight, and I don't
care a snap for such courage. If you were to say it was a kind of cowardice now--of softness. I tell you what, I
will put up two hundred rupees if you put up another hundred and undertake to make the beggar clear out
early to-morrow morning. The fellow's a gentleman if he ain't fit to be touched--he will understand. He must!
This infernal publicity is too shocking: there he sits while all these confounded natives, serangs, lascars,
quartermasters, are giving evidence that's enough to burn a man to ashes with shame. This is abominable.
Why, Marlow, don't you think, don't you feel, that this is abominable; don't you now--come--as a seaman? If
he went away all this would stop at once." Brierly said these words with a most unusual animation, and made
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did not seem to me a matter of such great importance. "And you call yourself a seaman, I suppose," he
pronounced angrily. I said that's what I called myself, and I hoped I was too. He heard me out, and made a
gesture with his big arm that seemed to deprive me of my individuality, to push me away into the crowd. "The
worst of it," he said, "is that all you fellows have no sense of dignity; you don't think enough of what you are
supposed to be."

'We had been walking slowly meantime, and now stopped opposite the harbour office, in sight of the very
spot from which the immense captain of the Patna had vanished as utterly as a tiny feather blown away in a
hurricane. I smiled. Brierly went on: "This is a disgrace. We've got all kinds amongst us--some anointed
scoundrels in the lot; but, hang it, we must preserve professional decency or we become no better than so
many tinkers going about loose. We are trusted. Do you understand?--trusted! Frankly, I don't care a snap for
all the pilgrims that ever came out of Asia, but a decent man would not have behaved like this to a full cargo
of old rags in bales. We aren't an organised body of men, and the only thing that holds us together is just the
name for that kind of decency. Such an affair destroys one's confidence. A man may go pretty near through
his whole sea-life without any call to show a stiff upper lip. But when the call comes . . . Aha! . . . If I . . ."

'He broke off, and in a changed tone, "I'll give you two hundred rupees now, Marlow, and you just talk to that
chap. Confound him! I wish he had never come out here. Fact is, I rather think some of my people know his.
The old man's a parson, and I remember now I met him once when staying with my cousin in Essex last year.
If I am not mistaken, the old chap seemed rather to fancy his sailor son. Horrible. I can't do it myself--but you
. . ."

'Thus, apropos of Jim, I had a glimpse of the real Brierly a few days before he committed his reality and his
sham together to the keeping of the sea. Of course I declined to meddle. The tone of this last "but you" (poor
Brierly couldn't help it), that seemed to imply I was no more noticeable than an insect, caused me to look at
the proposal with indignation, and on account of that provocation, or for some other reason, I became positive
in my mind that the inquiry was a severe punishment to that Jim, and that his facing it-- practically of his own
free will--was a redeeming feature in his abominable case. I hadn't been so sure of it before. Brierly went off
in a huff. At the time his state of mind was more of a mystery to me than it is now.

'Next day, coming into court late, I sat by myself. Of course I could not forget the conversation I had with
Brierly, and now I had them both under my eyes. The demeanour of one suggested gloomy impudence and of
the other a contemptuous boredom; yet one attitude might not have been truer than the other, and I was aware
that one was not true. Brierly was not bored--he was exasperated; and if so, then Jim might not have been
impudent. According to my theory he was not. I imagined he was hopeless. Then it was that our glances met.
They met, and the look he gave me was discouraging of any intention I might have had to speak to him. Upon
either hypothesis--insolence or despair--I felt I could be of no use to him. This was the second day of the
proceedings. Very soon after that exchange of glances the inquiry was adjourned again to the next day. The
white men began to troop out at once. Jim had been told to stand down some time before, and was able to
leave amongst the first. I saw his broad shoulders and his head outlined in the light of the door, and while I
made my way slowly out talking with some one--some stranger who had addressed me casually--I could see
him from within the court-room resting both elbows on the balustrade of the verandah and turning his back on
the small stream of people trickling down the few steps. There was a murmur of voices and a shuffle of boots.

'The next case was that of assault and battery committed upon a money-lender, I believe; and the defendant--a
venerable villager with a straight white beard--sat on a mat just outside the door with his sons, daughters,
sons-in-law, their wives, and, I should think, half the population of his village besides, squatting or standing
around him. A slim dark woman, with part of her back and one black shoulder bared, and with a thin gold ring
in her nose, suddenly began to talk in a high-pitched, shrewish tone. The man with me instinctively looked up
at her. We were then just through the door, passing behind Jim's burly back.

'Whether those villagers had brought the yellow dog with them, I don't know. Anyhow, a dog was there,

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weaving himself in and out amongst people's legs in that mute stealthy way native dogs have, and my
companion stumbled over him. The dog leaped away without a sound; the man, raising his voice a little, said
with a slow laugh, "Look at that wretched cur," and directly afterwards we became separated by a lot of
people pushing in. I stood back for a moment against the wall while the stranger managed to get down the
steps and disappeared. I saw Jim spin round. He made a step forward and barred my way. We were alone; he
glared at me with an air of stubborn resolution. I became aware I was being held up, so to speak, as if in a
wood. The verandah was empty by then, the noise and movement in court had ceased: a great silence fell upon
the building, in which, somewhere far within, an oriental voice began to whine abjectly. The dog, in the very
act of trying to sneak in at the door, sat down hurriedly to hunt for fleas.

' "Did you speak to me?" asked Jim very low, and bending forward, not so much towards me but at me, if you
know what I mean. I said "No" at once. Something in the sound of that quiet tone of his warned me to be on
my defence. I watched him. It was very much like a meeting in a wood, only more uncertain in its issue, since
he could possibly want neither my money nor my life--nothing that I could simply give up or defend with a
clear conscience. "You say you didn't," he said, very sombre. "But I heard." "Some mistake," I protested,
utterly at a loss, and never taking my eyes off him. To watch his face was like watching a darkening sky
before a clap of thunder, shade upon shade imperceptibly coming on, the doom growing mysteriously intense
in the calm of maturing violence.

' "As far as I know, I haven't opened my lips in your hearing," I affirmed with perfect truth. I was getting a
little angry, too, at the absurdity of this encounter. It strikes me now I have never in my life been so near a
beating--I mean it literally; a beating with fists. I suppose I had some hazy prescience of that eventuality being
in the air. Not that he was actively threatening me. On the contrary, he was strangely passive--don't you
know? but he was lowering, and, though not exceptionally big, he looked generally fit to demolish a wall. The
most reassuring symptom I noticed was a kind of slow and ponderous hesitation, which I took as a tribute to
the evident sincerity of my manner and of my tone. We faced each other. In the court the assault case was
proceeding. I caught the words: "Well--buffalo--stick--in the greatness of my fear. . . ."

' "What did you mean by staring at me all the morning?" said Jim at last. He looked up and looked down
again. "Did you expect us all to sit with downcast eyes out of regard for your susceptibilities?" I retorted
sharply. I was not going to submit meekly to any of his nonsense. He raised his eyes again, and this time
continued to look me straight in the face. "No. That's all right," he pronounced with an air of deliberating with
himself upon the truth of this statement--"that's all right. I am going through with that. Only"--and there he
spoke a little faster--"I won't let any man call me names outside this court. There was a fellow with you. You
spoke to him--oh yes--I know; 'tis all very fine. You spoke to him, but you meant me to hear. . . ."

'I assured him he was under some extraordinary delusion. I had no conception how it came about. "You
thought I would be afraid to resent this," he said, with just a faint tinge of bitterness. I was interested enough
to discern the slightest shades of expression, but I was not in the least enlightened; yet I don't know what in
these words, or perhaps just the intonation of that phrase, induced me suddenly to make all possible
allowances for him. I ceased to be annoyed at my unexpected predicament. It was some mistake on his part;
he was blundering, and I had an intuition that the blunder was of an odious, of an unfortunate nature. I was
anxious to end this scene on grounds of decency, just as one is anxious to cut short some unprovoked and
abominable confidence. The funniest part was, that in the midst of all these considerations of the higher order
I was conscious of a certain trepidation as to the possibility--nay, likelihood--of this encounter ending in some
disreputable brawl which could not possibly be explained, and would make me ridiculous. I did not hanker
after a three days' celebrity as the man who got a black eye or something of the sort from the mate of the
Patna. He, in all probability, did not care what he did, or at any rate would be fully justified in his own eyes. It
took no magician to see he was amazingly angry about something, for all his quiet and even torpid
demeanour. I don't deny I was extremely desirous to pacify him at all costs, had I only known what to do. But
I didn't know, as you may well imagine. It was a blackness without a single gleam. We confronted each other
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blow, though I don't think I moved a muscle. "If you were as big as two men and as strong as six," he said
very softly, "I would tell you what I think of you. You . . ." "Stop!" I exclaimed. This checked him for a
second. "Before you tell me what you think of me," I went on quickly, "will you kindly tell me what it is I've
said or done?" During the pause that ensued he surveyed me with indignation, while I made supernatural
efforts of memory, in which I was hindered by the oriental voice within the court-room expostulating with
impassioned volubility against a charge of falsehood. Then we spoke almost together. "I will soon show you I
am not," he said, in a tone suggestive of a crisis. "I declare I don't know," I protested earnestly at the same
time. He tried to crush me by the scorn of his glance. "Now that you see I am not afraid you try to crawl out of
it," he said. "Who's a cur now--hey?" Then, at last, I understood.

'He had been scanning my features as though looking for a place where he would plant his fist. "I will allow
no man," . . . he mumbled threateningly. It was, indeed, a hideous mistake; he had given himself away utterly.
I can't give you an idea how shocked I was. I suppose he saw some reflection of my feelings in my face,
because his expression changed just a little. "Good God!" I stammered, "you don't think I . . ." "But I am sure
I've heard," he persisted, raising his voice for the first time since the beginning of this deplorable scene. Then
with a shade of disdain he added, "It wasn't you, then? Very well; I'll find the other." "Don't be a fool," I cried
in exasperation; "it wasn't that at all." "I've heard," he said again with an unshaken and sombre perseverance.

'There may be those who could have laughed at his pertinacity; I didn't. Oh, I didn't! There had never been a
man so mercilessly shown up by his own natural impulse. A single word had stripped him of his discretion--of
that discretion which is more necessary to the decencies of our inner being than clothing is to the decorum of
our body. "Don't be a fool," I repeated. "But the other man said it, you don't deny that?" he pronounced
distinctly, and looking in my face without flinching. "No, I don't deny," said I, returning his gaze. At last his
eyes followed downwards the direction of my pointing finger. He appeared at first uncomprehending, then
confounded, and at last amazed and scared as though a dog had been a monster and he had never seen a dog
before. "Nobody dreamt of insulting you," I said.

'He contemplated the wretched animal, that moved no more than an effigy: it sat with ears pricked and its
sharp muzzle pointed into the doorway, and suddenly snapped at a fly like a piece of mechanism.

'I looked at him. The red of his fair sunburnt complexion deepened suddenly under the down of his cheeks,
invaded his forehead, spread to the roots of his curly hair. His ears became intensely crimson, and even the
clear blue of his eyes was darkened many shades by the rush of blood to his head. His lips pouted a little,
trembling as though he had been on the point of bursting into tears. I perceived he was incapable of
pronouncing a word from the excess of his humiliation. From disappointment too--who knows? Perhaps he
looked forward to that hammering he was going to give me for rehabilitation, for appeasement? Who can tell
what relief he expected from this chance of a row? He was naive enough to expect anything; but he had given
himself away for nothing in this case. He had been frank with himself--let alone with me--in the wild hope of
arriving in that way at some effective refutation, and the stars had been ironically unpropitious. He made an
inarticulate noise in his throat like a man imperfectly stunned by a blow on the head. It was pitiful.

'I didn't catch up again with him till well outside the gate. I had even to trot a bit at the last, but when, out of
breath at his elbow, I taxed him with running away, he said, "Never!" and at once turned at bay. I explained I
never meant to say he was running away from me. "From no man--from not a single man on earth," he
affirmed with a stubborn mien. I forbore to point out the one obvious exception which would hold good for
the bravest of us; I thought he would find out by himself very soon. He looked at me patiently while I was
thinking of something to say, but I could find nothing on the spur of the moment, and he began to walk on. I
kept up, and anxious not to lose him, I said hurriedly that I couldn't think of leaving him under a false
impression of my--of my--I stammered. The stupidity of the phrase appalled me while I was trying to finish it,
but the power of sentences has nothing to do with their sense or the logic of their construction. My idiotic
mumble seemed to please him. He cut it short by saying, with courteous placidity that argued an immense
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this expression: he might have been alluding to some trifling occurrence. Hadn't he understood its deplorable
meaning? "You may well forgive me," he continued, and went on a little moodily, "All these staring people in
court seemed such fools that--that it might have been as I supposed."

'This opened suddenly a new view of him to my wonder. I looked at him curiously and met his unabashed and
impenetrable eyes. "I can't put up with this kind of thing," he said, very simply, "and I don't mean to. In court
it's different; I've got to stand that--and I can do it too."

'I don't pretend I understood him. The views he let me have of himself were like those glimpses through the
shifting rents in a thick fog--bits of vivid and vanishing detail, giving no connected idea of the general aspect
of a country. They fed one's curiosity without satisfying it; they were no good for purposes of orientation.
Upon the whole he was misleading. That's how I summed him up to myself after he left me late in the
evening. I had been staying at the Malabar House for a few days, and on my pressing invitation he dined with
me there.'

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'An outward-bound mail-boat had come in that afternoon, and the big dining-room of the hotel was more than
half full of people with a-hundred-pounds-round-the-world tickets in their pockets. There were married
couples looking domesticated and bored with each other in the midst of their travels; there were small parties
and large parties, and lone individuals dining solemnly or feasting boisterously, but all thinking, conversing,
joking, or scowling as was their wont at home; and just as intelligently receptive of new impressions as their
trunks upstairs. Henceforth they would be labelled as having passed through this and that place, and so would
be their luggage. They would cherish this distinction of their persons, and preserve the gummed tickets on
their portmanteaus as documentary evidence, as the only permanent trace of their improving enterprise. The
dark-faced servants tripped without noise over the vast and polished floor; now and then a girl's laugh would
be heard, as innocent and empty as her mind, or, in a sudden hush of crockery, a few words in an affected
drawl from some wit embroidering for the benefit of a grinning tableful the last funny story of shipboard
scandal. Two nomadic old maids, dressed up to kill, worked acrimoniously through the bill of fare,
whispering to each other with faded lips, wooden-faced and bizarre, like two sumptuous scarecrows. A little
wine opened Jim's heart and loosened his tongue. His appetite was good, too, I noticed. He seemed to have
buried somewhere the opening episode of our acquaintance. It was like a thing of which there would be no
more question in this world. And all the time I had before me these blue, boyish eyes looking straight into
mine, this young face, these capable shoulders, the open bronzed forehead with a white line under the roots of
clustering fair hair, this appearance appealing at sight to all my sympathies: this frank aspect, the artless smile,
the youthful seriousness. He was of the right sort; he was one of us. He talked soberly, with a sort of
composed unreserve, and with a quiet bearing that might have been the outcome of manly self-control, of
impudence, of callousness, of a colossal unconsciousness, of a gigantic deception. Who can tell! From our
tone we might have been discussing a third person, a football match, last year's weather. My mind floated in a
sea of conjectures till the turn of the conversation enabled me, without being offensive, to remark that, upon
the whole, this inquiry must have been pretty trying to him. He darted his arm across the tablecloth, and
clutching my hand by the side of my plate, glared fixedly. I was startled. "It must be awfully hard," I
stammered, confused by this display of speechless feeling. "It is-- hell," he burst out in a muffled voice.

'This movement and these words caused two well-groomed male globe-trotters at a neighbouring table to look
up in alarm from their iced pudding. I rose, and we passed into the front gallery for coffee and cigars.

'On little octagon tables candles burned in glass globes; clumps of stiff-leaved plants separated sets of cosy
wicker chairs; and between the pairs of columns, whose reddish shafts caught in a long row the sheen from the
tall windows, the night, glittering and sombre, seemed to hang like a splendid drapery. The riding lights of
ships winked afar like setting stars, and the hills across the roadstead resembled rounded black masses of
arrested thunder-clouds.

' "I couldn't clear out," Jim began. "The skipper did--that's all very well for him. I couldn't, and I wouldn't.
They all got out of it in one way or another, but it wouldn't do for me."

'I listened with concentrated attention, not daring to stir in my chair; I wanted to know--and to this day I don't
know, I can only guess. He would be confident and depressed all in the same breath, as if some conviction of
innate blamelessness had checked the truth writhing within him at every turn. He began by saying, in the tone
in which a man would admit his inability to jump a twenty-foot wall, that he could never go home now; and
this declaration recalled to my mind what Brierly had said, "that the old parson in Essex seemed to fancy his
sailor son not a little."

'I can't tell you whether Jim knew he was especially "fancied," but the tone of his references to "my Dad" was
calculated to give me a notion that the good old rural dean was about the finest man that ever had been
worried by the cares of a large family since the beginning of the world. This, though never stated, was implied
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poignant sense of lives far off to the other elements of the story. "He has seen it all in the home papers by this
time," said Jim. "I can never face the poor old chap." I did not dare to lift my eyes at this till I heard him add,
"I could never explain. He wouldn't understand." Then I looked up. He was smoking reflectively, and after a
moment, rousing himself, began to talk again. He discovered at once a desire that I should not confound him
with his partners in--in crime, let us call it. He was not one of them; he was altogether of another sort. I gave
no sign of dissent. I had no intention, for the sake of barren truth, to rob him of the smallest particle of any
saving grace that would come in his way. I didn't know how much of it he believed himself. I didn't know
what he was playing up to--if he was playing up to anything at all--and I suspect he did not know either; for it
is my belief no man ever understands quite his own artful dodges to escape from the grim shadow of
self-knowledge. I made no sound all the time he was wondering what he had better do after "that stupid
inquiry was over."

'Apparently he shared Brierly's contemptuous opinion of these proceedings ordained by law. He would not
know where to turn, he confessed, clearly thinking aloud rather than talking to me. Certificate gone, career
broken, no money to get away, no work that he could obtain as far as he could see. At home he could perhaps
get something; but it meant going to his people for help, and that he would not do. He saw nothing for it but
ship before the mast-- could get perhaps a quartermaster's billet in some steamer. Would do for a
quartermaster. . . . "Do you think you would?" I asked pitilessly. He jumped up, and going to the stone
balustrade looked out into the night. In a moment he was back, towering above my chair with his youthful
face clouded yet by the pain of a conquered emotion. He had understood very well I did not doubt his ability
to steer a ship. In a voice that quavered a bit he asked me why did I say that? I had been "no end kind" to him.
I had not even laughed at him when--here he began to mumble--"that mistake, you know-- made a confounded
ass of myself." I broke in by saying rather warmly that for me such a mistake was not a matter to laugh at. He
sat down and drank deliberately some coffee, emptying the small cup to the last drop. "That does not mean I
admit for a moment the cap fitted," he declared distinctly. "No?" I said. "No," he affirmed with quiet decision.
"Do you know what you would have done? Do you? And you don't think yourself" . . . he gulped something . .
. "you don't think yourself a--a--cur?"

'And with this--upon my honour!--he looked up at me inquisitively. It was a question it appears--a bona fide
question! However, he didn't wait for an answer. Before I could recover he went on, with his eyes straight
before him, as if reading off something written on the body of the night. "It is all in being ready. I wasn't;
not-- not then. I don't want to excuse myself; but I would like to explain-- I would like somebody to
understand--somebody--one person at least! You! Why not you?"

'It was solemn, and a little ridiculous too, as they always are, those struggles of an individual trying to save
from the fire his idea of what his moral identity should be, this precious notion of a convention, only one of
the rules of the game, nothing more, but all the same so terribly effective by its assumption of unlimited
power over natural instincts, by the awful penalties of its failure. He began his story quietly enough. On board
that Dale Line steamer that had picked up these four floating in a boat upon the discreet sunset glow of the
sea, they had been after the first day looked askance upon. The fat skipper told some story, the others had
been silent, and at first it had been accepted. You don't cross-examine poor castaways you had the good luck
to save, if not from cruel death, then at least from cruel suffering. Afterwards, with time to think it over, it
might have struck the officers of the Avondale that there was "something fishy" in the affair; but of course
they would keep their doubts to themselves. They had picked up the captain, the mate, and two engineers of
the steamer Patna sunk at sea, and that, very properly, was enough for them. I did not ask Jim about the nature
of his feelings during the ten days he spent on board. From the way he narrated that part I was at liberty to
infer he was partly stunned by the discovery he had made--the discovery about himself--and no doubt was at
work trying to explain it away to the only man who was capable of appreciating all its tremendous magnitude.
You must understand he did not try to minimise its importance. Of that I am sure; and therein lies his
distinction. As to what sensations he experienced when he got ashore and heard the unforeseen conclusion of
the tale in which he had taken such a pitiful part, he told me nothing of them, and it is difficult to imagine.

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'I wonder whether he felt the ground cut from under his feet? I wonder? But no doubt he managed to get a
fresh foothold very soon. He was ashore a whole fortnight waiting in the Sailors' Home, and as there were six
or seven men staying there at the time, I had heard of him a little. Their languid opinion seemed to be that, in
addition to his other shortcomings, he was a sulky brute. He had passed these days on the verandah, buried in
a long chair, and coming out of his place of sepulture only at meal-times or late at night, when he wandered
on the quays all by himself, detached from his surroundings, irresolute and silent, like a ghost without a home
to haunt. "I don't think I've spoken three words to a living soul in all that time," he said, making me very sorry
for him; and directly he added, "One of these fellows would have been sure to blurt out something I had made
up my mind not to put up with, and I didn't want a row. No! Not then. I was too--too . . . I had no heart for it."
"So that bulkhead held out after all," I remarked cheerfully. "Yes," he murmured, "it held. And yet I swear to
you I felt it bulge under my hand." "It's extraordinary what strains old iron will stand sometimes," I said.
Thrown back in his seat, his legs stiffly out and arms hanging down, he nodded slightly several times. You
could not conceive a sadder spectacle. Suddenly he lifted his head; he sat up; he slapped his thigh. "Ah! what
a chance missed! My God! what a chance missed!" he blazed out, but the ring of the last "missed" resembled a
cry wrung out by pain.

'He was silent again with a still, far-away look of fierce yearning after that missed distinction, with his nostrils
for an instant dilated, sniffing the intoxicating breath of that wasted opportunity. If you think I was either
surprised or shocked you do me an injustice in more ways than one! Ah, he was an imaginative beggar! He
would give himself away; he would give himself up. I could see in his glance darted into the night all his inner
being carried on, projected headlong into the fanciful realm of recklessly heroic aspirations. He had no leisure
to regret what he had lost, he was so wholly and naturally concerned for what he had failed to obtain. He was
very far away from me who watched him across three feet of space. With every instant he was penetrating
deeper into the impossible world of romantic achievements. He got to the heart of it at last! A strange look of
beatitude overspread his features, his eyes sparkled in the light of the candle burning between us; he positively
smiled! He had penetrated to the very heart--to the very heart. It was an ecstatic smile that your faces--or mine
either--will never wear, my dear boys. I whisked him back by saying, "If you had stuck to the ship, you
mean!"

'He turned upon me, his eyes suddenly amazed and full of pain, with a bewildered, startled, suffering face, as
though he had tumbled down from a star. Neither you nor I will ever look like this on any man. He shuddered
profoundly, as if a cold finger-tip had touched his heart. Last of all he sighed.

'I was not in a merciful mood. He provoked one by his contradictory indiscretions. "It is unfortunate you didn't
know beforehand!" I said with every unkind intention; but the perfidious shaft fell harmless--dropped at his
feet like a spent arrow, as it were, and he did not think of picking it up. Perhaps he had not even seen it.
Presently, lolling at ease, he said, "Dash it all! I tell you it bulged. I was holding up my lamp along the
angle-iron in the lower deck when a flake of rust as big as the palm of my hand fell off the plate, all of itself."
He passed his hand over his forehead. "The thing stirred and jumped off like something alive while I was
looking at it." "That made you feel pretty bad," I observed casually. "Do you suppose," he said, "that I was
thinking of myself, with a hundred and sixty people at my back, all fast asleep in that fore-'tween-deck
alone--and more of them aft; more on the deck--sleeping--knowing nothing about it--three times as many as
there were boats for, even if there had been time? I expected to see the iron open out as I stood there and the
rush of water going over them as they lay. . . . What could I do--what?"

'I can easily picture him to myself in the peopled gloom of the cavernous place, with the light of the
globe-lamp falling on a small portion of the bulkhead that had the weight of the ocean on the other side, and
the breathing of unconscious sleepers in his ears. I can see him glaring at the iron, startled by the falling rust,
overburdened by the knowledge of an imminent death. This, I gathered, was the second time he had been sent
forward by that skipper of his, who, I rather think, wanted to keep him away from the bridge. He told me that
his first impulse was to shout and straightway make all those people leap out of sleep into terror; but such an
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suppose, what people mean by the tongue cleaving to the roof of the mouth. "Too dry," was the concise
expression he used in reference to this state. Without a sound, then, he scrambled out on deck through the
number one hatch. A windsail rigged down there swung against him accidentally, and he remembered that the
light touch of the canvas on his face nearly knocked him off the hatchway ladder.

'He confessed that his knees wobbled a good deal as he stood on the foredeck looking at another sleeping
crowd. The engines having been stopped by that time, the steam was blowing off. Its deep rumble made the
whole night vibrate like a bass string. The ship trembled to it.

'He saw here and there a head lifted off a mat, a vague form uprise in sitting posture, listen sleepily for a
moment, sink down again into the billowy confusion of boxes, steam-winches, ventilators. He was aware all
these people did not know enough to take intelligent notice of that strange noise. The ship of iron, the men
with white faces, all the sights, all the sounds, everything on board to that ignorant and pious multitude was
strange alike, and as trustworthy as it would for ever remain incomprehensible. It occurred to him that the fact
was fortunate. The idea of it was simply terrible.

'You must remember he believed, as any other man would have done in his place, that the ship would go
down at any moment; the bulging, rust-eaten plates that kept back the ocean, fatally must give way, all at once
like an undermined dam, and let in a sudden and overwhelming flood. He stood still looking at these
recumbent bodies, a doomed man aware of his fate, surveying the silent company of the dead. They were
dead! Nothing could save them! There were boats enough for half of them perhaps, but there was no time. No
time! No time! It did not seem worth while to open his lips, to stir hand or foot. Before he could shout three
words, or make three steps, he would be floundering in a sea whitened awfully by the desperate struggles of
human beings, clamorous with the distress of cries for help. There was no help. He imagined what would
happen perfectly; he went through it all motionless by the hatchway with the lamp in his hand--he went
through it to the very last harrowing detail. I think he went through it again while he was telling me these
things he could not tell the court.

' "I saw as clearly as I see you now that there was nothing I could do. It seemed to take all life out of my
limbs. I thought I might just as well stand where I was and wait. I did not think I had many seconds . . ."
Suddenly the steam ceased blowing off. The noise, he remarked, had been distracting, but the silence at once
became intolerably oppressive.

' "I thought I would choke before I got drowned," he said.

'He protested he did not think of saving himself. The only distinct thought formed, vanishing, and re-forming
in his brain, was: eight hundred people and seven boats; eight hundred people and seven boats.

' "Somebody was speaking aloud inside my head," he said a little wildly. "Eight hundred people and seven
boats--and no time! Just think of it." He leaned towards me across the little table, and I tried to avoid his stare.
"Do you think I was afraid of death?" he asked in a voice very fierce and low. He brought down his open hand
with a bang that made the coffee-cups dance. "I am ready to swear I was not--I was not. . . . By God--no!" He
hitched himself upright and crossed his arms; his chin fell on his breast.

'The soft clashes of crockery reached us faintly through the high windows. There was a burst of voices, and
several men came out in high good-humour into the gallery. They were exchanging jocular reminiscences of
the donkeys in Cairo. A pale anxious youth stepping softly on long legs was being chaffed by a strutting and
rubicund globe-trotter about his purchases in the bazaar. "No, really--do you think I've been done to that
extent?" he inquired very earnest and deliberate. The band moved away, dropping into chairs as they went;
matches flared, illuminating for a second faces without the ghost of an expression and the flat glaze of white
shirt-fronts; the hum of many conversations animated with the ardour of feasting sounded to me absurd and
infinitely remote.

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' "Some of the crew were sleeping on the number one hatch within reach of my arm," began Jim again.

'You must know they kept Kalashee watch in that ship, all hands sleeping through the night, and only the
reliefs of quartermasters and look-out men being called. He was tempted to grip and shake the shoulder of the
nearest lascar, but he didn't. Something held his arms down along his sides. He was not afraid--oh no! only he
just couldn't--that's all. He was not afraid of death perhaps, but I'll tell you what, he was afraid of the
emergency. His confounded imagination had evoked for him all the horrors of panic, the trampling rush, the
pitiful screams, boats swamped--all the appalling incidents of a disaster at sea he had ever heard of. He might
have been resigned to die but I suspect he wanted to die without added terrors, quietly, in a sort of peaceful
trance. A certain readiness to perish is not so very rare, but it is seldom that you meet men whose souls,
steeled in the impenetrable armour of resolution, are ready to fight a losing battle to the last; the desire of
peace waxes stronger as hope declines, till at last it conquers the very desire of life. Which of us here has not
observed this, or maybe experienced something of that feeling in his own person--this extreme weariness of
emotions, the vanity of effort, the yearning for rest? Those striving with unreasonable forces know it
well,--the shipwrecked castaways in boats, wanderers lost in a desert, men battling against the unthinking
might of nature, or the stupid brutality of crowds.'

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'How long he stood stock-still by the hatch expecting every moment to feel the ship dip under his feet and the
rush of water take him at the back and toss him like a chip, I cannot say. Not very long--two minutes perhaps.
A couple of men he could not make out began to converse drowsily, and also, he could not tell where, he
detected a curious noise of shuffling feet. Above these faint sounds there was that awful stillness preceding a
catastrophe, that trying silence of the moment before the crash; then it came into his head that perhaps he
would have time to rush along and cut all the lanyards of the gripes, so that the boats would float as the ship
went down.

'The Patna had a long bridge, and all the boats were up there, four on one side and three on the other--the
smallest of them on the port-side and nearly abreast of the steering gear. He assured me, with evident anxiety
to be believed, that he had been most careful to keep them ready for instant service. He knew his duty. I dare
say he was a good enough mate as far as that went. "I always believed in being prepared for the worst," he
commented, staring anxiously in my face. I nodded my approval of the sound principle, averting my eyes
before the subtle unsoundness of the man.

'He started unsteadily to run. He had to step over legs, avoid stumbling against the heads. Suddenly some one
caught hold of his coat from below, and a distressed voice spoke under his elbow. The light of the lamp he
carried in his right hand fell upon an upturned dark face whose eyes entreated him together with the voice. He
had picked up enough of the language to understand the word water, repeated several times in a tone of
insistence, of prayer, almost of despair. He gave a jerk to get away, and felt an arm embrace his leg.

' "The beggar clung to me like a drowning man," he said impressively. "Water, water! What water did he
mean? What did he know? As calmly as I could I ordered him to let go. He was stopping me, time was
pressing, other men began to stir; I wanted time--time to cut the boats adrift. He got hold of my hand now, and
I felt that he would begin to shout. It flashed upon me it was enough to start a panic, and I hauled off with my
free arm and slung the lamp in his face. The glass jingled, the light went out, but the blow made him let go,
and I ran off--I wanted to get at the boats; I wanted to get at the boats. He leaped after me from behind. I
turned on him. He would not keep quiet; he tried to shout; I had half throttled him before I made out what he
wanted. He wanted some water--water to drink; they were on strict allowance, you know, and he had with him
a young boy I had noticed several times. His child was sick--and thirsty. He had caught sight of me as I passed
by, and was begging for a little water. That's all. We were under the bridge, in the dark. He kept on snatching
at my wrists; there was no getting rid of him. I dashed into my berth, grabbed my water-bottle, and thrust it
into his hands. He vanished. I didn't find out till then how much I was in want of a drink myself." He leaned
on one elbow with a hand over his eyes.

'I felt a creepy sensation all down my backbone; there was something peculiar in all this. The fingers of the
hand that shaded his brow trembled slightly. He broke the short silence.

' "These things happen only once to a man and . . . Ah! well! When I got on the bridge at last the beggars were
getting one of the boats off the chocks. A boat! I was running up the ladder when a heavy blow fell on my
shoulder, just missing my head. It didn't stop me, and the chief engineer--they had got him out of his bunk by
then--raised the boat-stretcher again. Somehow I had no mind to be surprised at anything. All this seemed
natural--and awful-- and awful. I dodged that miserable maniac, lifted him off the deck as though he had been
a little child, and he started whispering in my arms: 'Don't! don't! I thought you were one of them niggers.' I
flung him away, he skidded along the bridge and knocked the legs from under the little chap--the second. The
skipper, busy about the boat, looked round and came at me head down, growling like a wild beast. I flinched
no more than a stone. I was as solid standing there as this," he tapped lightly with his knuckles the wall beside
his chair. "It was as though I had heard it all, seen it all, gone through it all twenty times already. I wasn't
afraid of them. I drew back my fist and he stopped short, muttering--

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' " 'Ah! it's you. Lend a hand quick.'

' "That's what he said. Quick! As if anybody could be quick enough. 'Aren't you going to do something?' I
asked. 'Yes. Clear out,' he snarled over his shoulder.

' "I don't think I understood then what he meant. The other two had picked themselves up by that time, and
they rushed together to the boat. They tramped, they wheezed, they shoved, they cursed the boat, the ship,
each other--cursed me. All in mutters. I didn't move, I didn't speak. I watched the slant of the ship. She was as
still as if landed on the blocks in a dry dock--only she was like this," He held up his hand, palm under, the tips
of the fingers inclined downwards. "Like this," he repeated. "I could see the line of the horizon before me, as
clear as a bell, above her stem-head; I could see the water far off there black and sparkling, and still--still as
a-pond, deadly still, more still than ever sea was before--more still than I could bear to look at. Have you
watched a ship floating head down, checked in sinking by a sheet of old iron too rotten to stand being shored
up? Have you? Oh yes, shored up? I thought of that--I thought of every mortal thing; but can you shore up a
bulkhead in five minutes--or in fifty for that matter? Where was I going to get men that would go down
below? And the timber--the timber! Would you have had the courage to swing the maul for the first blow if
you had seen that bulkhead? Don't say you would: you had not seen it; nobody would. Hang it--to do a thing
like that you must believe there is a chance, one in a thousand, at least, some ghost of a chance; and you
would not have believed. Nobody would have believed. You think me a cur for standing there, but what
would you have done? What! You can't tell--nobody can tell. One must have time to turn round. What would
you have me do? Where was the kindness in making crazy with fright all those people I could not save
single-handed--that nothing could save? Look here! As true as I sit on this chair before you . . ."

'He drew quick breaths at every few words and shot quick glances at my face, as though in his anguish he
were watchful of the effect. He was not speaking to me, he was only speaking before me, in a dispute with an
invisible personality, an antagonistic and inseparable partner of his existence--another possessor of his soul.
These were issues beyond the competency of a court of inquiry: it was a subtle and momentous quarrel as to
the true essence of life, and did not want a judge. He wanted an ally, a helper, an accomplice. I felt the risk I
ran of being circumvented, blinded, decoyed, bullied, perhaps, into taking a definite part in a dispute
impossible of decision if one had to be fair to all the phantoms in possession--to the reputable that had its
claims and to the disreputable that had its exigencies. I can't explain to you who haven't seen him and who
hear his words only at second hand the mixed nature of my feelings. It seemed to me I was being made to
comprehend the Inconceivable--and I know of nothing to compare with the discomfort of such a sensation. I
was made to look at the convention that lurks in all truth and on the essential sincerity of falsehood. He
appealed to all sides at once--to the side turned perpetually to the light of day, and to that side of us which,
like the other hemisphere of the moon, exists stealthily in perpetual darkness, with only a fearful ashy light
falling at times on the edge. He swayed me. I own to it, I own up. The occasion was obscure,
insignificant--what you will: a lost youngster, one in a million--but then he was one of us; an incident as
completely devoid of importance as the flooding of an ant-heap, and yet the mystery of his attitude got hold of
me as though he had been an individual in the forefront of his kind, as if the obscure truth involved were
momentous enough to affect mankind's conception of itself. . . .'

Marlow paused to put new life into his expiring cheroot, seemed to forget all about the story, and abruptly
began again.

'My fault of course. One has no business really to get interested. It's a weakness of mine. His was of another
kind. My weakness consists in not having a discriminating eye for the incidental--for the externals--no eye for
the hod of the rag-picker or the fine linen of the next man. Next man--that's it. I have met so many men,' he
pursued, with momentary sadness--'met them too with a certain-- certain--impact, let us say; like this fellow,
for instance--and in each case all I could see was merely the human being. A confounded democratic quality
of vision which may be better than total blindness, but has been of no advantage to me, I can assure you. Men
expect one to take into account their fine linen. But I never could get up any enthusiasm about these things.

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Oh! it's a failing; it's a failing; and then comes a soft evening; a lot of men too indolent for whist--and a story.
. . .'

He paused again to wait for an encouraging remark, perhaps, but nobody spoke; only the host, as if reluctantly
performing a duty, murmured--

'You are so subtle, Marlow.'

'Who? I?' said Marlow in a low voice. 'Oh no! But he was; and try as I may for the success of this yarn, I am
missing innumerable shades--they were so fine, so difficult to render in colourless words. Because he
complicated matters by being so simple, too--the simplest poor devil! . . . By Jove! he was amazing. There he
sat telling me that just as I saw him before my eyes he wouldn't be afraid to face anything--and believing in it
too. I tell you it was fabulously innocent and it was enormous, enormous! I watched him covertly, just as
though I had suspected him of an intention to take a jolly good rise out of me. He was confident that, on the
square, "on the square, mind!" there was nothing he couldn't meet. Ever since he had been "so high"--"quite a
little chap," he had been preparing himself for all the difficulties that can beset one on land and water. He
confessed proudly to this kind of foresight. He had been elaborating dangers and defences, expecting the
worst, rehearsing his best. He must have led a most exalted existence. Can you fancy it? A succession of
adventures, so much glory, such a victorious progress! and the deep sense of his sagacity crowning every day
of his inner life. He forgot himself; his eyes shone; and with every word my heart, searched by the light of his
absurdity, was growing heavier in my breast. I had no mind to laugh, and lest I should smile I made for myself
a stolid face. He gave signs of irritation.

' "It is always the unexpected that happens," I said in a propitiatory tone. My obtuseness provoked him into a
contemptuous "Pshaw!" I suppose he meant that the unexpected couldn't touch him; nothing less than the
unconceivable itself could get over his perfect state of preparation. He had been taken unawares--and he
whispered to himself a malediction upon the waters and the firmament, upon the ship, upon the men.
Everything had betrayed him! He had been tricked into that sort of high-minded resignation which prevented
him lifting as much as his little finger, while these others who had a very clear perception of the actual
necessity were tumbling against each other and sweating desperately over that boat business. Something had
gone wrong there at the last moment. It appears that in their flurry they had contrived in some mysterious way
to get the sliding bolt of the foremost boat-chock jammed tight, and forthwith had gone out of the remnants of
their minds over the deadly nature of that accident. It must have been a pretty sight, the fierce industry of
these beggars toiling on a motionless ship that floated quietly in the silence of a world asleep, fighting against
time for the freeing of that boat, grovelling on all-fours, standing up in despair, tugging, pushing, snarling at
each other venomously, ready to kill, ready to weep, and only kept from flying at each other's throats by the
fear of death that stood silent behind them like an inflexible and cold-eyed taskmaster. Oh yes! It must have
been a pretty sight. He saw it all, he could talk about it with scorn and bitterness; he had a minute knowledge
of it by means of some sixth sense, I conclude, because he swore to me he had remained apart without a
glance at them and at the boat--without one single glance. And I believe him. I should think he was too busy
watching the threatening slant of the ship, the suspended menace discovered in the midst of the most perfect
security--fascinated by the sword hanging by a hair over his imaginative head.

'Nothing in the world moved before his eyes, and he could depict to himself without hindrance the sudden
swing upwards of the dark sky-line, the sudden tilt up of the vast plain of the sea, the swift still rise, the brutal
fling, the grasp of the abyss, the struggle without hope, the starlight closing over his head for ever like the
vault of a tomb--the revolt of his young life--the black end. He could! By Jove! who couldn't? And you must
remember he was a finished artist in that peculiar way, he was a gifted poor devil with the faculty of swift and
forestalling vision. The sights it showed him had turned him into cold stone from the soles of his feet to the
nape of his neck; but there was a hot dance of thoughts in his head, a dance of lame, blind, mute thoughts--a
whirl of awful cripples. Didn't I tell you he confessed himself before me as though I had the power to bind and
to loose? He burrowed deep, deep, in the hope of my absolution, which would have been of no good to him.

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This was one of those cases which no solemn deception can palliate, where no man can help; where his very
Maker seems to abandon a sinner to his own devices.

'He stood on the starboard side of the bridge, as far as he could get from the struggle for the boat, which went
on with the agitation of madness and the stealthiness of a conspiracy. The two Malays had meantime remained
holding to the wheel. Just picture to yourselves the actors in that, thank God! unique, episode of the sea, four
beside themselves with fierce and secret exertions, and three looking on in complete immobility, above the
awnings covering the profound ignorance of hundreds of human beings, with their weariness, with their
dreams, with their hopes, arrested, held by an invisible hand on the brink of annihilation. For that they were
so, makes no doubt to me: given the state of the ship, this was the deadliest possible description of accident
that could happen. These beggars by the boat had every reason to go distracted with funk. Frankly, had I been
there, I would not have given as much as a counterfeit farthing for the ship's chance to keep above water to the
end of each successive second. And still she floated! These sleeping pilgrims were destined to accomplish
their whole pilgrimage to the bitterness of some other end. It was as if the Omnipotence whose mercy they
confessed had needed their humble testimony on earth for a while longer, and had looked down to make a
sign, "Thou shalt not!" to the ocean. Their escape would trouble me as a prodigiously inexplicable event, did I
not know how tough old iron can be--as tough sometimes as the spirit of some men we meet now and then,
worn to a shadow and breasting the weight of life. Not the least wonder of these twenty minutes, to my mind,
is the behaviour of the two helmsmen. They were amongst the native batch of all sorts brought over from
Aden to give evidence at the inquiry. One of them, labouring under intense bashfulness, was very young, and
with his smooth, yellow, cheery countenance looked even younger than he was. I remember perfectly Brierly
asking him, through the interpreter, what he thought of it at the time, and the interpreter, after a short
colloquy, turning to the court with an important air--

' "He says he thought nothing."

'The other, with patient blinking eyes, a blue cotton handkerchief, faded with much washing, bound with a
smart twist over a lot of grey wisps, his face shrunk into grim hollows, his brown skin made darker by a mesh
of wrinkles, explained that he had a knowledge of some evil thing befalling the ship, but there had been no
order; he could not remember an order; why should he leave the helm? To some further questions he jerked
back his spare shoulders, and declared it never came into his mind then that the white men were about to leave
the ship through fear of death. He did not believe it now. There might have been secret reasons. He wagged
his old chin knowingly. Aha! secret reasons. He was a man of great experience, and he wanted that white
Tuan to know--he turned towards Brierly, who didn't raise his head--that he had acquired a knowledge of
many things by serving white men on the sea for a great number of years--and, suddenly, with shaky
excitement he poured upon our spellbound attention a lot of queer-sounding names, names of dead-and-gone
skippers, names of forgotten country ships, names of familiar and distorted sound, as if the hand of dumb time
had been at work on them for ages. They stopped him at last. A silence fell upon the court,--a silence that
remained unbroken for at least a minute, and passed gently into a deep murmur. This episode was the
sensation of the second day's proceedings--affecting all the audience, affecting everybody except Jim, who
was sitting moodily at the end of the first bench, and never looked up at this extraordinary and damning
witness that seemed possessed of some mysterious theory of defence.

'So these two lascars stuck to the helm of that ship without steerage-way, where death would have found them
if such had been their destiny. The whites did not give them half a glance, had probably forgotten their
existence. Assuredly Jim did not remember it. He remembered he could do nothing; he could do nothing, now
he was alone. There was nothing to do but to sink with the ship. No use making a disturbance about it. Was
there? He waited upstanding, without a sound, stiffened in the idea of some sort of heroic discretion. The first
engineer ran cautiously across the bridge to tug at his sleeve.

' "Come and help! For God's sake, come and help!"

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'He ran back to the boat on the points of his toes, and returned directly to worry at his sleeve, begging and
cursing at the same time.

' "I believe he would have kissed my hands," said Jim savagely, "and, next moment, he starts foaming and
whispering in my face, 'If I had the time I would like to crack your skull for you.' I pushed him away.
Suddenly he caught hold of me round the neck. Damn him! I hit him. I hit out without looking. 'Won't you
save your own life--you infernal coward?' he sobs. Coward! He called me an infernal coward! Ha! ha! ha! ha!
He called me--ha! ha! ha! . . ."

'He had thrown himself back and was shaking with laughter. I had never in my life heard anything so bitter as
that noise. It fell like a blight on all the merriment about donkeys, pyramids, bazaars, or what not. Along the
whole dim length of the gallery the voices dropped, the pale blotches of faces turned our way with one accord,
and the silence became so profound that the clear tinkle of a teaspoon falling on the tesselated floor of the
verandah rang out like a tiny and silvery scream.

' "You mustn't laugh like this, with all these people about," I remonstrated. "It isn't nice for them, you know."

'He gave no sign of having heard at first, but after a while, with a stare that, missing me altogether, seemed to
probe the heart of some awful vision, he muttered carelessly--"Oh! they'll think I am drunk."

'And after that you would have thought from his appearance he would never make a sound again. But--no
fear! He could no more stop telling now than he could have stopped living by the mere exertion of his will.'

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' "I was saying to myself, 'Sink--curse you! Sink!' " These were the words with which he began again. He
wanted it over. He was severely left alone, and he formulated in his head this address to the ship in a tone of
imprecation, while at the same time he enjoyed the privilege of witnessing scenes--as far as I can judge--of
low comedy. They were still at that bolt. The skipper was ordering, "Get under and try to lift"; and the others
naturally shirked. You understand that to be squeezed flat under the keel of a boat wasn't a desirable position
to be caught in if the ship went down suddenly. "Why don't you--you the strongest?" whined the little
engineer. "Gott-for-dam! I am too thick," spluttered the skipper in despair. It was funny enough to make
angels weep. They stood idle for a moment, and suddenly the chief engineer rushed again at Jim.

' "Come and help, man! Are you mad to throw your only chance away? Come and help, man! Man! Look
there--look!"

'And at last Jim looked astern where the other pointed with maniacal insistence. He saw a silent black squall
which had eaten up already one-third of the sky. You know how these squalls come up there about that time
of the year. First you see a darkening of the horizon--no more; then a cloud rises opaque like a wall. A straight
edge of vapour lined with sickly whitish gleams flies up from the southwest, swallowing the stars in whole
constellations; its shadow flies over the waters, and confounds sea and sky into one abyss of obscurity. And
all is still. No thunder, no wind, no sound; not a flicker of lightning. Then in the tenebrous immensity a livid
arch appears; a swell or two like undulations of the very darkness run past, and suddenly, wind and rain strike
together with a peculiar impetuosity as if they had burst through something solid. Such a cloud had come up
while they weren't looking. They had just noticed it, and were perfectly justified in surmising that if in
absolute stillness there was some chance for the ship to keep afloat a few minutes longer, the least disturbance
of the sea would make an end of her instantly. Her first nod to the swell that precedes the burst of such a
squall would be also her last, would become a plunge, would, so to speak, be prolonged into a long dive,
down, down to the bottom. Hence these new capers of their fright, these new antics in which they displayed
their extreme aversion to die.

' "It was black, black," pursued Jim with moody steadiness. "It had sneaked upon us from behind. The infernal
thing! I suppose there had been at the back of my head some hope yet. I don't know. But that was all over
anyhow. It maddened me to see myself caught like this. I was angry, as though I had been trapped. I was
trapped! The night was hot, too, I remember. Not a breath of air."

'He remembered so well that, gasping in the chair, he seemed to sweat and choke before my eyes. No doubt it
maddened him; it knocked him over afresh--in a manner of speaking--but it made him also remember that
important purpose which had sent him rushing on that bridge only to slip clean out of his mind. He had
intended to cut the lifeboats clear of the ship. He whipped out his knife and went to work slashing as though
he had seen nothing, had heard nothing, had known of no one on board. They thought him hopelessly
wrong-headed and crazy, but dared not protest noisily against this useless loss of time. When he had done he
returned to the very same spot from which he had started. The chief was there, ready with a clutch at him to
whisper close to his head, scathingly, as though he wanted to bite his ear--

' "You silly fool! do you think you'll get the ghost of a show when all that lot of brutes is in the water? Why,
they will batter your head for you from these boats."

'He wrung his hands, ignored, at Jim's elbow. The skipper kept up a nervous shuffle in one place and
mumbled, "Hammer! hammer! Mein Gott! Get a hammer."

'The little engineer whimpered like a child, but, broken arm and all, he turned out the least craven of the lot as
it seems, and, actually, mustered enough pluck to run an errand to the engine-room. No trifle, it must be
owned in fairness to him. Jim told me he darted desperate looks like a cornered man, gave one low wail, and

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dashed off. He was back instantly clambering, hammer in hand, and without a pause flung himself at the bolt.
The others gave up Jim at once and ran off to assist. He heard the tap, tap of the hammer, the sound of the
released chock falling over. The boat was clear. Only then he turned to look--only then. But he kept his
distance--he kept his distance. He wanted me to know he had kept his distance; that there was nothing in
common between him and these men--who had the hammer. Nothing whatever. It is more than probable he
thought himself cut off from them by a space that could not be traversed, by an obstacle that could not be
overcome, by a chasm without bottom. He was as far as he could get from them--the whole breadth of the
ship.

'His feet were glued to that remote spot and his eyes to their indistinct group bowed together and swaying
strangely in the common torment of fear. A hand-lamp lashed to a stanchion above a little table rigged up on
the bridge--the Patna had no chart-room amidships--threw a light on their labouring shoulders, on their arched
and bobbing backs. They pushed at the bow of the boat; they pushed out into the night; they pushed, and
would no more look back at him. They had given him up as if indeed he had been too far, too hopelessly
separated from themselves, to be worth an appealing word, a glance, or a sign. They had no leisure to look
back upon his passive heroism, to feel the sting of his abstention. The boat was heavy; they pushed at the bow
with no breath to spare for an encouraging word: but the turmoil of terror that had scattered their
self-command like chaff before the wind, converted their desperate exertions into a bit of fooling, upon my
word, fit for knockabout clowns in a farce. They pushed with their hands, with their heads, they pushed for
dear life with all the weight of their bodies, they pushed with all the might of their souls--only no sooner had
they succeeded in canting the stem clear of the davit than they would leave off like one man and start a wild
scramble into her. As a natural consequence the boat would swing in abruptly, driving them back, helpless and
jostling against each other. They would stand nonplussed for a while, exchanging in fierce whispers all the
infamous names they could call to mind, and go at it again. Three times this occurred. He described it to me
with morose thoughtfulness. He hadn't lost a single movement of that comic business. "I loathed them. I hated
them. I had to look at all that," he said without emphasis, turning upon me a sombrely watchful glance. "Was
ever there any one so shamefully tried?"

'He took his head in his hands for a moment, like a man driven to distraction by some unspeakable outrage.
These were things he could not explain to the court--and not even to me; but I would have been little fitted for
the reception of his confidences had I not been able at times to understand the pauses between the words. In
this assault upon his fortitude there was the jeering intention of a spiteful and vile vengeance; there was an
element of burlesque in his ordeal--a degradation of funny grimaces in the approach of death or dishonour.

'He related facts which I have not forgotten, but at this distance of time I couldn't recall his very words: I only
remember that he managed wonderfully to convey the brooding rancour of his mind into the bare recital of
events. Twice, he told me, he shut his eyes in the certitude that the end was upon him already, and twice he
had to open them again. Each time he noted the darkening of the great stillness. The shadow of the silent
cloud had fallen upon the ship from the zenith, and seemed to have extinguished every sound of her teeming
life. He could no longer hear the voices under the awnings. He told me that each time he closed his eyes a
flash of thought showed him that crowd of bodies, laid out for death, as plain as daylight. When he opened
them, it was to see the dim struggle of four men fighting like mad with a stubborn boat. "They would fall back
before it time after time, stand swearing at each other, and suddenly make another rush in a bunch. . . .
Enough to make you die laughing," he commented with downcast eyes; then raising them for a moment to my
face with a dismal smile, "I ought to have a merry life of it, by God! for I shall see that funny sight a good
many times yet before I die." His eyes fell again. "See and hear. . . . See and hear," he repeated twice, at long
intervals, filled by vacant staring.

'He roused himself.

' "I made up my mind to keep my eyes shut," he said, "and I couldn't. I couldn't, and I don't care who knows it.
Let them go through that kind of thing before they talk. Just let them--and do better--that's all. The second

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time my eyelids flew open and my mouth too. I had felt the ship move. She just dipped her bows--and lifted
them gently--and slow! everlastingly slow; and ever so little. She hadn't done that much for days. The cloud
had raced ahead, and this first swell seemed to travel upon a sea of lead. There was no life in that stir. It
managed, though, to knock over something in my head. What would you have done? You are sure of
yourself--aren't you? What would you do if you felt now--this minute--the house here move, just move a little
under your chair. Leap! By heavens! you would take one spring from where you sit and land in that clump of
bushes yonder."

'He flung his arm out at the night beyond the stone balustrade. I held my peace. He looked at me very steadily,
very severe. There could be no mistake: I was being bullied now, and it behoved me to make no sign lest by a
gesture or a word I should be drawn into a fatal admission about myself which would have had some bearing
on the case. I was not disposed to take any risk of that sort. Don't forget I had him before me, and really he
was too much like one of us not to be dangerous. But if you want to know I don't mind telling you that I did,
with a rapid glance, estimate the distance to the mass of denser blackness in the middle of the grass-plot
before the verandah. He exaggerated. I would have landed short by several feet--and that's the only thing of
which I am fairly certain.

'The last moment had come, as he thought, and he did not move. His feet remained glued to the planks if his
thoughts were knocking about loose in his head. It was at this moment too that he saw one of the men around
the boat step backwards suddenly, clutch at the air with raised arms, totter and collapse. He didn't exactly fall,
he only slid gently into a sitting posture, all hunched up, and with his shoulders propped against the side of the
engine-room skylight. "That was the donkey-man. A haggard, white-faced chap with a ragged moustache.
Acted third engineer," he explained.

' "Dead," I said. We had heard something of that in court.

' "So they say," he pronounced with sombre indifference. "Of course I never knew. Weak heart. The man had
been complaining of being out of sorts for some time before. Excitement. Over-exertion. Devil only knows.
Ha! ha! ha! It was easy to see he did not want to die either. Droll, isn't it? May I be shot if he hadn't been
fooled into killing himself! Fooled--neither more nor less. Fooled into it, by heavens! just as I . . . Ah! If he
had only kept still; if he had only told them to go to the devil when they came to rush him out of his bunk
because the ship was sinking! If he had only stood by with his hands in his pockets and called them names!"

'He got up, shook his fist, glared at me, and sat down.

' "A chance missed, eh?" I murmured.

' "Why don't you laugh?" he said. "A joke hatched in hell. Weak heart! . . . I wish sometimes mine had been."

'This irritated me. "Do you?" I exclaimed with deep-rooted irony. "Yes! Can't you understand?" he cried. "I
don't know what more you could wish for," I said angrily. He gave me an utterly uncomprehending glance.
This shaft had also gone wide of the mark, and he was not the man to bother about stray arrows. Upon my
word, he was too unsuspecting; he was not fair game. I was glad that my missile had been thrown away,--that
he had not even heard the twang of the bow.

'Of course he could not know at the time the man was dead. The next minute--his last on board--was crowded
with a tumult of events and sensations which beat about him like the sea upon a rock. I use the simile
advisedly, because from his relation I am forced to believe he had preserved through it all a strange illusion of
passiveness, as though he had not acted but had suffered himself to be handled by the infernal powers who
had selected him for the victim of their practical joke. The first thing that came to him was the grinding surge
of the heavy davits swinging out at last--a jar which seemed to enter his body from the deck through the soles
of his feet, and travel up his spine to the crown of his head. Then, the squall being very near now, another and

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a heavier swell lifted the passive hull in a threatening heave that checked his breath, while his brain and his
heart together were pierced as with daggers by panic-stricken screams. "Let go! For God's sake, let go! Let
go! She's going." Following upon that the boat-falls ripped through the blocks, and a lot of men began to talk
in startled tones under the awnings. "When these beggars did break out, their yelps were enough to wake the
dead," he said. Next, after the splashing shock of the boat literally dropped in the water, came the hollow
noises of stamping and tumbling in her, mingled with confused shouts: "Unhook! Unhook! Shove! Unhook!
Shove for your life! Here's the squall down on us. . . ." He heard, high above his head, the faint muttering of
the wind; he heard below his feet a cry of pain. A lost voice alongside started cursing a swivel hook. The ship
began to buzz fore and aft like a disturbed hive, and, as quietly as he was telling me of all this--because just
then he was very quiet in attitude, in face, in voice--he went on to say without the slightest warning as it were,
"I stumbled over his legs."

'This was the first I heard of his having moved at all. I could not restrain a grunt of surprise. Something had
started him off at last, but of the exact moment, of the cause that tore him out of his immobility, he knew no
more than the uprooted tree knows of the wind that laid it low. All this had come to him: the sounds, the
sights, the legs of the dead man--by Jove! The infernal joke was being crammed devilishly down his throat,
but--look you--he was not going to admit of any sort of swallowing motion in his gullet. It's extraordinary
how he could cast upon you the spirit of his illusion. I listened as if to a tale of black magic at work upon a
corpse.

' "He went over sideways, very gently, and this is the last thing I remember seeing on board," he continued. "I
did not care what he did. It looked as though he were picking himself up: I thought he was picking himself up,
of course: I expected him to bolt past me over the rail and drop into the boat after the others. I could hear them
knocking about down there, and a voice as if crying up a shaft called out 'George!' Then three voices together
raised a yell. They came to me separately: one bleated, another screamed, one howled. Ough!"

'He shivered a little, and I beheld him rise slowly as if a steady hand from above had been pulling him out of
the chair by his hair. Up, slowly--to his full height, and when his knees had locked stiff the hand let him go,
and he swayed a little on his feet. There was a suggestion of awful stillness in his face, in his movements, in
his very voice when he said "They shouted"--and involuntarily I pricked up my ears for the ghost of that shout
that would be heard directly through the false effect of silence. "There were eight hundred people in that
ship," he said, impaling me to the back of my seat with an awful blank stare. "Eight hundred living people,
and they were yelling after the one dead man to come down and be saved. 'Jump, George! Jump! Oh, jump!' I
stood by with my hand on the davit. I was very quiet. It had come over pitch dark. You could see neither sky
nor sea. I heard the boat alongside go bump, bump, and not another sound down there for a while, but the ship
under me was full of talking noises. Suddenly the skipper howled 'Mein Gott! The squall! The squall! Shove
off!' With the first hiss of rain, and the first gust of wind, they screamed, 'Jump, George! We'll catch you!
Jump!' The ship began a slow plunge; the rain swept over her like a broken sea; my cap flew off my head; my
breath was driven back into my throat. I heard as if I had been on the top of a tower another wild screech,
'Geo-o-o-orge! Oh, jump!' She was going down, down, head first under me. . . ."

'He raised his hand deliberately to his face, and made picking motions with his fingers as though he had been
bothered with cobwebs, and afterwards he looked into the open palm for quite half a second before he blurted
out--

' "I had jumped . . ." He checked himself, averted his gaze. . . . "It seems," he added.

'His clear blue eyes turned to me with a piteous stare, and looking at him standing before me, dumfounded and
hurt, I was oppressed by a sad sense of resigned wisdom, mingled with the amused and profound pity of an
old man helpless before a childish disaster.

' "Looks like it," I muttered.

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' "I knew nothing about it till I looked up," he explained hastily. And that's possible, too. You had to listen to
him as you would to a small boy in trouble. He didn't know. It had happened somehow. It would never happen
again. He had landed partly on somebody and fallen across a thwart. He felt as though all his ribs on his left
side must be broken; then he rolled over, and saw vaguely the ship he had deserted uprising above him, with
the red side-light glowing large in the rain like a fire on the brow of a hill seen through a mist. "She seemed
higher than a wall; she loomed like a cliff over the boat . . . I wished I could die," he cried. "There was no
going back. It was as if I had jumped into a well--into an everlasting deep hole. . . ." '

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'He locked his fingers together and tore them apart. Nothing could be more true: he had indeed jumped into an
everlasting deep hole. He had tumbled from a height he could never scale again. By that time the boat had
gone driving forward past the bows. It was too dark just then for them to see each other, and, moreover, they
were blinded and half drowned with rain. He told me it was like being swept by a flood through a cavern.
They turned their backs to the squall; the skipper, it seems, got an oar over the stern to keep the boat before it,
and for two or three minutes the end of the world had come through a deluge in a pitchy blackness. The sea
hissed "like twenty thousand kettles." That's his simile, not mine. I fancy there was not much wind after the
first gust; and he himself had admitted at the inquiry that the sea never got up that night to any extent. He
crouched down in the bows and stole a furtive glance back. He saw just one yellow gleam of the mast-head
light high up and blurred like a last star ready to dissolve. "It terrified me to see it still there," he said. That's
what he said. What terrified him was the thought that the drowning was not over yet. No doubt he wanted to
be done with that abomination as quickly as possible. Nobody in the boat made a sound. In the dark she
seemed to fly, but of course she could not have had much way. Then the shower swept ahead, and the great,
distracting, hissing noise followed the rain into distance and died out. There was nothing to be heard then but
the slight wash about the boat's sides. Somebody's teeth were chattering violently. A hand touched his back. A
faint voice said, "You there?" Another cried out shakily, "She's gone!" and they all stood up together to look
astern. They saw no lights. All was black. A thin cold drizzle was driving into their faces. The boat lurched
slightly. The teeth chattered faster, stopped, and began again twice before the man could master his shiver
sufficiently to say, "Ju-ju-st in ti-ti-me. . . . Brrrr." He recognised the voice of the chief engineer saying
surlily, "I saw her go down. I happened to turn my head." The wind had dropped almost completely.

'They watched in the dark with their heads half turned to windward as if expecting to hear cries. At first he
was thankful the night had covered up the scene before his eyes, and then to know of it and yet to have seen
and heard nothing appeared somehow the culminating point of an awful misfortune. "Strange, isn't it?" he
murmured, interrupting himself in his disjointed narrative.

'It did not seem so strange to me. He must have had an unconscious conviction that the reality could not be
half as bad, not half as anguishing, appalling, and vengeful as the created terror of his imagination. I believe
that, in this first moment, his heart was wrung with all the suffering, that his soul knew the accumulated
savour of all the fear, all the horror, all the despair of eight hundred human beings pounced upon in the night
by a sudden and violent death, else why should he have said, "It seemed to me that I must jump out of that
accursed boat and swim back to see--half a mile--more --any distance--to the very spot . . ."? Why this
impulse? Do you see the significance? Why back to the very spot? Why not drown alongside--if he meant
drowning? Why back to the very spot, to see--as if his imagination had to be soothed by the assurance that all
was over before death could bring relief? I defy any one of you to offer another explanation. It was one of
those bizarre and exciting glimpses through the fog. It was an extraordinary disclosure. He let it out as the
most natural thing one could say. He fought down that impulse and then he became conscious of the silence.
He mentioned this to me. A silence of the sea, of the sky, merged into one indefinite immensity still as death
around these saved, palpitating lives. "You might have heard a pin drop in the boat," he said with a queer
contraction of his lips, like a man trying to master his sensibilities while relating some extremely moving fact.
A silence! God alone, who had willed him as he was, knows what he made of it in his heart. "I didn't think any
spot on earth could be so still," he said. "You couldn't distinguish the sea from the sky; there was nothing to
see and nothing to hear. Not a glimmer, not a shape, not a sound. You could have believed that every bit of
dry land had gone to the bottom; that every man on earth but I and these beggars in the boat had got
drowned." He leaned over the table with his knuckles propped amongst coffee-cups, liqueur-glasses,
cigar-ends. "I seemed to believe it. Everything was gone and--all was over . . ." he fetched a deep sigh . . .
"with me." '

Marlow sat up abruptly and flung away his cheroot with force. It made a darting red trail like a toy rocket
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'Hey, what do you think of it?' he cried with sudden animation. 'Wasn't he true to himself, wasn't he? His
saved life was over for want of ground under his feet, for want of sights for his eyes, for want of voices in his
ears. Annihilation--hey! And all the time it was only a clouded sky, a sea that did not break, the air that did
not stir. Only a night; only a silence.

'It lasted for a while, and then they were suddenly and unanimously moved to make a noise over their escape.
"I knew from the first she would go." "Not a minute too soon." "A narrow squeak, b'gosh!" He said nothing,
but the breeze that had dropped came back, a gentle draught freshened steadily, and the sea joined its
murmuring voice to this talkative reaction succeeding the dumb moments of awe. She was gone! She was
gone! Not a doubt of it. Nobody could have helped. They repeated the same words over and over again as
though they couldn't stop themselves. Never doubted she would go. The lights were gone. No mistake. The
lights were gone. Couldn't expect anything else. She had to go. . . . He noticed that they talked as though they
had left behind them nothing but an empty ship. They concluded she would not have been long when she once
started. It seemed to cause them some sort of satisfaction. They assured each other that she couldn't have been
long about it--"Just shot down like a flat-iron." The chief engineer declared that the mast-head light at the
moment of sinking seemed to drop "like a lighted match you throw down." At this the second laughed
hysterically. "I am g-g-glad, I am gla-a-a-d." His teeth went on "like an electric rattle," said Jim, "and all at
once he began to cry. He wept and blubbered like a child, catching his breath and sobbing 'Oh dear! oh dear!
oh dear!' He would be quiet for a while and start suddenly, 'Oh, my poor arm! oh, my poor a-a-a-arm!' I felt I
could knock him down. Some of them sat in the stern-sheets. I could just make out their shapes. Voices came
to me, mumble, mumble, grunt, grunt. All this seemed very hard to bear. I was cold too. And I could do
nothing. I thought that if I moved I would have to go over the side and . . ."

'His hand groped stealthily, came in contact with a liqueur-glass, and was withdrawn suddenly as if it had
touched a red-hot coal. I pushed the bottle slightly. "Won't you have some more?" I asked. He looked at me
angrily. "Don't you think I can tell you what there is to tell without screwing myself up?" he asked. The squad
of globe-trotters had gone to bed. We were alone but for a vague white form erect in the shadow, that, being
looked at, cringed forward, hesitated, backed away silently. It was getting late, but I did not hurry my guest.

'In the midst of his forlorn state he heard his companions begin to abuse some one. "What kept you from
jumping, you lunatic?" said a scolding voice. The chief engineer left the stern-sheets, and could be heard
clambering forward as if with hostile intentions against "the greatest idiot that ever was." The skipper shouted
with rasping effort offensive epithets from where he sat at the oar. He lifted his head at that uproar, and heard
the name "George," while a hand in the dark struck him on the breast. "What have you got to say for yourself,
you fool?" queried somebody, with a sort of virtuous fury. "They were after me," he said. "They were abusing
me--abusing me . . . by the name of George."

'He paused to stare, tried to smile, turned his eyes away and went on. "That little second puts his head right
under my nose, 'Why, it's that blasted mate!' 'What!' howls the skipper from the other end of the boat. 'No!'
shrieks the chief. And he too stooped to look at my face."

'The wind had left the boat suddenly. The rain began to fall again, and the soft, uninterrupted, a little
mysterious sound with which the sea receives a shower arose on all sides in the night. "They were too taken
aback to say anything more at first," he narrated steadily, "and what could I have to say to them?" He faltered
for a moment, and made an effort to go on. "They called me horrible names." His voice, sinking to a whisper,
now and then would leap up suddenly, hardened by the passion of scorn, as though he had been talking of
secret abominations. "Never mind what they called me," he said grimly. "I could hear hate in their voices. A
good thing too. They could not forgive me for being in that boat. They hated it. It made them mad. . . ." He
laughed short. . . . "But it kept me from--Look! I was sitting with my arms crossed, on the gunwale! . . ." He
perched himself smartly on the edge of the table and crossed his arms. . . . "Like this--see? One little tilt
backwards and I would have been gone--after the others. One little tilt--the least bit--the least bit." He
frowned, and tapping his forehead with the tip of his middle finger, "It was there all the time," he said

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impressively. "All the time--that notion. And the rain--cold, thick, cold as melted snow--colder--on my thin
cotton clothes--I'll never be so cold again in my life, I know. And the sky was black too--all black. Not a star,
not a light anywhere. Nothing outside that confounded boat and those two yapping before me like a couple of
mean mongrels at a tree'd thief. Yap! yap! 'What you doing here? You're a fine sort! Too much of a bloomin'
gentleman to put your hand to it. Come out of your trance, did you? To sneak in? Did you?' Yap! yap! 'You
ain't fit to live!' Yap! yap! Two of them together trying to out-bark each other. The other would bay from the
stern through the rain--couldn't see him--couldn't make it out--some of his filthy jargon. Yap! yap!
Bow-ow-ow-ow-ow! Yap! yap! It was sweet to hear them; it kept me alive, I tell you. It saved my life. At it
they went, as if trying to drive me overboard with the noise! . . . 'I wonder you had pluck enough to jump. You
ain't wanted here. If I had known who it was, I would have tipped you over--you skunk! What have you done
with the other? Where did you get the pluck to jump--you coward? What's to prevent us three from firing you
overboard?' . . . They were out of breath; the shower passed away upon the sea. Then nothing. There was
nothing round the boat, not even a sound. Wanted to see me overboard, did they? Upon my soul! I think they
would have had their wish if they had only kept quiet. Fire me overboard! Would they? 'Try,' I said. 'I would
for twopence.' 'Too good for you,' they screeched together. It was so dark that it was only when one or the
other of them moved that I was quite sure of seeing him. By heavens! I only wish they had tried."

'I couldn't help exclaiming, "What an extraordinary affair!"

' "Not bad--eh?" he said, as if in some sort astounded. "They pretended to think I had done away with that
donkey-man for some reason or other. Why should I? And how the devil was I to know? Didn't I get somehow
into that boat? into that boat--I . . ." The muscles round his lips contracted into an unconscious grimace that
tore through the mask of his usual expression--something violent, short-lived and illuminating like a twist of
lightning that admits the eye for an instant into the secret convolutions of a cloud. "I did. I was plainly there
with them--wasn't I? Isn't it awful a man should be driven to do a thing like that--and be responsible? What
did I know about their George they were howling after? I remembered I had seen him curled up on the deck.
'Murdering coward!' the chief kept on calling me. He didn't seem able to remember any other two words. I
didn't care, only his noise began to worry me. 'Shut up,' I said. At that he collected himself for a confounded
screech. 'You killed him! You killed him!' 'No,' I shouted, 'but I will kill you directly.' I jumped up, and he fell
backwards over a thwart with an awful loud thump. I don't know why. Too dark. Tried to step back I suppose.
I stood still facing aft, and the wretched little second began to whine, 'You ain't going to hit a chap with a
broken arm--and you call yourself a gentleman, too.' I heard a heavy tramp--one--two--and wheezy grunting.
The other beast was coming at me, clattering his oar over the stern. I saw him moving, big, big--as you see a
man in a mist, in a dream. 'Come on,' I cried. I would have tumbled him over like a bale of shakings. He
stopped, muttered to himself, and went back. Perhaps he had heard the wind. I didn't. It was the last heavy
gust we had. He went back to his oar. I was sorry. I would have tried to--to . . ."

'He opened and closed his curved fingers, and his hands had an eager and cruel flutter. "Steady, steady," I
murmured.

' "Eh? What? I am not excited," he remonstrated, awfully hurt, and with a convulsive jerk of his elbow
knocked over the cognac bottle. I started forward, scraping my chair. He bounced off the table as if a mine
had been exploded behind his back, and half turned before he alighted, crouching on his feet to show me a
startled pair of eyes and a face white about the nostrils. A look of intense annoyance succeeded. "Awfully
sorry. How clumsy of me!" he mumbled, very vexed, while the pungent odour of spilt alcohol enveloped us
suddenly with an atmosphere of a low drinking-bout in the cool, pure darkness of the night. The lights had
been put out in the dining-hall; our candle glimmered solitary in the long gallery, and the columns had turned
black from pediment to capital. On the vivid stars the high corner of the Harbour Office stood out distinct
across the Esplanade, as though the sombre pile had glided nearer to see and hear.

'He assumed an air of indifference.

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' "I dare say I am less calm now than I was then. I was ready for anything. These were trifles. . . ."

' "You had a lively time of it in that boat," I remarked

' "I was ready," he repeated. "After the ship's lights had gone, anything might have happened in that
boat--anything in the world--and the world no wiser. I felt this, and I was pleased. It was just dark enough too.
We were like men walled up quick in a roomy grave. No concern with anything on earth. Nobody to pass an
opinion. Nothing mattered." For the third time during this conversation he laughed harshly, but there was no
one about to suspect him of being only drunk. "No fear, no law, no sounds, no eyes--not even our own,
till--till sunrise at least."

'I was struck by the suggestive truth of his words. There is something peculiar in a small boat upon the wide
sea. Over the lives borne from under the shadow of death there seems to fall the shadow of madness. When
your ship fails you, your whole world seems to fail you; the world that made you, restrained you, took care of
you. It is as if the souls of men floating on an abyss and in touch with immensity had been set free for any
excess of heroism, absurdity, or abomination. Of course, as with belief, thought, love, hate, conviction, or
even the visual aspect of material things, there are as many shipwrecks as there are men, and in this one there
was something abject which made the isolation more complete--there was a villainy of circumstances that cut
these men off more completely from the rest of mankind, whose ideal of conduct had never undergone the
trial of a fiendish and appalling joke. They were exasperated with him for being a half-hearted shirker: he
focussed on them his hatred of the whole thing; he would have liked to take a signal revenge for the abhorrent
opportunity they had put in his way. Trust a boat on the high seas to bring out the Irrational that lurks at the
bottom of every thought, sentiment, sensation, emotion. It was part of the burlesque meanness pervading that
particular disaster at sea that they did not come to blows. It was all threats, all a terribly effective feint, a sham
from beginning to end, planned by the tremendous disdain of the Dark Powers whose real terrors, always on
the verge of triumph, are perpetually foiled by the steadfastness of men. I asked, after waiting for a while,
"Well, what happened?" A futile question. I knew too much already to hope for the grace of a single uplifting
touch, for the favour of hinted madness, of shadowed horror. "Nothing," he said. "I meant business, but they
meant noise only. Nothing happened."

'And the rising sun found him just as he had jumped up first in the bows of the boat. What a persistence of
readiness! He had been holding the tiller in his hand, too, all the night. They had dropped the rudder
overboard while attempting to ship it, and I suppose the tiller got kicked forward somehow while they were
rushing up and down that boat trying to do all sorts of things at once so as to get clear of the side. It was a
long heavy piece of hard wood, and apparently he had been clutching it for six hours or so. If you don't call
that being ready! Can you imagine him, silent and on his feet half the night, his face to the gusts of rain,
staring at sombre forms watchful of vague movements, straining his ears to catch rare low murmurs in the
stern-sheets! Firmness of courage or effort of fear? What do you think? And the endurance is undeniable too.
Six hours more or less on the defensive; six hours of alert immobility while the boat drove slowly or floated
arrested, according to the caprice of the wind; while the sea, calmed, slept at last; while the clouds passed
above his head; while the sky from an immensity lustreless and black, diminished to a sombre and lustrous
vault, scintillated with a greater brilliance, faded to the east, paled at the zenith; while the dark shapes blotting
the low stars astern got outlines, relief became shoulders, heads, faces, features,--confronted him with dreary
stares, had dishevelled hair, torn clothes, blinked red eyelids at the white dawn. "They looked as though they
had been knocking about drunk in gutters for a week," he described graphically; and then he muttered
something about the sunrise being of a kind that foretells a calm day. You know that sailor habit of referring
to the weather in every connection. And on my side his few mumbled words were enough to make me see the
lower limb of the sun clearing the line of the horizon, the tremble of a vast ripple running over all the visible
expanse of the sea, as if the waters had shuddered, giving birth to the globe of light, while the last puff of the
breeze would stir the air in a sigh of relief.

' "They sat in the stern shoulder to shoulder, with the skipper in the middle, like three dirty owls, and stared at

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me," I heard him say with an intention of hate that distilled a corrosive virtue into the commonplace words
like a drop of powerful poison falling into a glass of water; but my thoughts dwelt upon that sunrise. I could
imagine under the pellucid emptiness of the sky these four men imprisoned in the solitude of the sea, the
lonely sun, regardless of the speck of life, ascending the clear curve of the heaven as if to gaze ardently from a
greater height at his own splendour reflected in the still ocean. "They called out to me from aft," said Jim, "as
though we had been chums together. I heard them. They were begging me to be sensible and drop that
'blooming piece of wood.' Why would I carry on so? They hadn't done me any harm--had they? There had
been no harm. . . . No harm!"

'His face crimsoned as though he could not get rid of the air in his lungs.

' "No harm!" he burst out. "I leave it to you. You can understand. Can't you? You see it--don't you? No harm!
Good God! What more could they have done? Oh yes, I know very well--I jumped. Certainly. I jumped! I told
you I jumped; but I tell you they were too much for any man. It was their doing as plainly as if they had
reached up with a boat-hook and pulled me over. Can't you see it? You must see it. Come. Speak--straight
out."

'His uneasy eyes fastened upon mine, questioned, begged, challenged, entreated. For the life of me I couldn't
help murmuring, "You've been tried." "More than is fair," he caught up swiftly. "I wasn't given half a
chance--with a gang like that. And now they were friendly--oh, so damnably friendly! Chums, shipmates. All
in the same boat. Make the best of it. They hadn't meant anything. They didn't care a hang for George. George
had gone back to his berth for something at the last moment and got caught. The man was a manifest fool.
Very sad, of course. . . . Their eyes looked at me; their lips moved; they wagged their heads at the other end of
the boat--three of them; they beckoned--to me. Why not? Hadn't I jumped? I said nothing. There are no words
for the sort of things I wanted to say. If I had opened my lips just then I would have simply howled like an
animal. I was asking myself when I would wake up. They urged me aloud to come aft and hear quietly what
the skipper had to say. We were sure to be picked up before the evening--right in the track of all the Canal
traffic; there was smoke to the north-west now.

' "It gave me an awful shock to see this faint, faint blur, this low trail of brown mist through which you could
see the boundary of sea and sky. I called out to them that I could hear very well where I was. The skipper
started swearing, as hoarse as a crow. He wasn't going to talk at the top of his voice for my accommodation.
'Are you afraid they will hear you on shore?' I asked. He glared as if he would have liked to claw me to pieces.
The chief engineer advised him to humour me. He said I wasn't right in my head yet. The other rose astern,
like a thick pillar of flesh--and talked--talked. . . ."

'Jim remained thoughtful. "Well?" I said. "What did I care what story they agreed to make up?" he cried
recklessly. "They could tell what they jolly well liked. It was their business. I knew the story. Nothing they
could make people believe could alter it for me. I let him talk, argue--talk, argue. He went on and on and on.
Suddenly I felt my legs give way under me. I was sick, tired--tired to death. I let fall the tiller, turned my back
on them, and sat down on the foremost thwart. I had enough. They called to me to know if I
understood--wasn't it true, every word of it? It was true, by God! after their fashion. I did not turn my head. I
heard them palavering together. 'The silly ass won't say anything.' 'Oh, he understands well enough.' 'Let him
be; he will be all right.' 'What can he do?' What could I do? Weren't we all in the same boat? I tried to be deaf.
The smoke had disappeared to the northward. It was a dead calm. They had a drink from the water-breaker,
and I drank too. Afterwards they made a great business of spreading the boat-sail over the gunwales. Would I
keep a look-out? They crept under, out of my sight, thank God! I felt weary, weary, done up, as if I hadn't had
one hour's sleep since the day I was born. I couldn't see the water for the glitter of the sunshine. From time to
time one of them would creep out, stand up to take a look all round, and get under again. I could hear spells of
snoring below the sail. Some of them could sleep. One of them at least. I couldn't! All was light, light, and the
boat seemed to be falling through it. Now and then I would feel quite surprised to find myself sitting on a
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'He began to walk with measured steps to and fro before my chair, one hand in his trousers-pocket, his head
bent thoughtfully, and his right arm at long intervals raised for a gesture that seemed to put out of his way an
invisible intruder.

' "I suppose you think I was going mad," he began in a changed tone. "And well you may, if you remember I
had lost my cap. The sun crept all the way from east to west over my bare head, but that day I could not come
to any harm, I suppose. The sun could not make me mad. . . ." His right arm put aside the idea of madness. . . .
"Neither could it kill me. . . ." Again his arm repulsed a shadow. . . . "That rested with me."

' "Did it?" I said, inexpressibly amazed at this new turn, and I looked at him with the same sort of feeling I
might be fairly conceived to experience had he, after spinning round on his heel, presented an altogether new
face.

' "I didn't get brain fever, I did not drop dead either," he went on. "I didn't bother myself at all about the sun
over my head. I was thinking as coolly as any man that ever sat thinking in the shade. That greasy beast of a
skipper poked his big cropped head from under the canvas and screwed his fishy eyes up at me.
'Donnerwetter! you will die,' he growled, and drew in like a turtle. I had seen him. I had heard him. He didn't
interrupt me. I was thinking just then that I wouldn't."

'He tried to sound my thought with an attentive glance dropped on me in passing. "Do you mean to say you
had been deliberating with yourself whether you would die?" I asked in as impenetrable a tone as I could
command. He nodded without stopping. "Yes, it had come to that as I sat there alone," he said. He passed on a
few steps to the imaginary end of his beat, and when he flung round to come back both his hands were thrust
deep into his pockets. He stopped short in front of my chair and looked down. "Don't you believe it?" he
inquired with tense curiosity. I was moved to make a solemn declaration of my readiness to believe implicitly
anything he thought fit to tell me.'

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'He heard me out with his head on one side, and I had another glimpse through a rent in the mist in which he
moved and had his being. The dim candle spluttered within the ball of glass, and that was all I had to see him
by; at his back was the dark night with the clear stars, whose distant glitter disposed in retreating planes lured
the eye into the depths of a greater darkness; and yet a mysterious light seemed to show me his boyish head,
as if in that moment the youth within him had, for a moment, glowed and expired. "You are an awful good
sort to listen like this," he said. "It does me good. You don't know what it is to me. You don't" . . . words
seemed to fail him. It was a distinct glimpse. He was a youngster of the sort you like to see about you; of the
sort you like to imagine yourself to have been; of the sort whose appearance claims the fellowship of these
illusions you had thought gone out, extinct, cold, and which, as if rekindled at the approach of another flame,
give a flutter deep, deep down somewhere, give a flutter of light . . . of heat! . . . Yes; I had a glimpse of him
then . . . and it was not the last of that kind. . . . "You don't know what it is for a fellow in my position to be
believed--make a clean breast of it to an elder man. It is so difficult--so awfully unfair--so hard to
understand."

'The mists were closing again. I don't know how old I appeared to him--and how much wise. Not half as old as
I felt just then; not half as uselessly wise as I knew myself to be. Surely in no other craft as in that of the sea
do the hearts of those already launched to sink or swim go out so much to the youth on the brink, looking with
shining eyes upon that glitter of the vast surface which is only a reflection of his own glances full of fire.
There is such magnificent vagueness in the expectations that had driven each of us to sea, such a glorious
indefiniteness, such a beautiful greed of adventures that are their own and only reward. What we get--well, we
won't talk of that; but can one of us restrain a smile? In no other kind of life is the illusion more wide of
reality--in no other is the beginning all illusion--the disenchantment more swift--the subjugation more
complete. Hadn't we all commenced with the same desire, ended with the same knowledge, carried the
memory of the same cherished glamour through the sordid days of imprecation? What wonder that when some
heavy prod gets home the bond is found to be close; that besides the fellowship of the craft there is felt the
strength of a wider feeling--the feeling that binds a man to a child. He was there before me, believing that age
and wisdom can find a remedy against the pain of truth, giving me a glimpse of himself as a young fellow in a
scrape that is the very devil of a scrape, the sort of scrape greybeards wag at solemnly while they hide a smile.
And he had been deliberating upon death--confound him! He had found that to meditate about because he
thought he had saved his life, while all its glamour had gone with the ship in the night. What more natural! It
was tragic enough and funny enough in all conscience to call aloud for compassion, and in what was I better
than the rest of us to refuse him my pity? And even as I looked at him the mists rolled into the rent, and his
voice spoke--

' "I was so lost, you know. It was the sort of thing one does not expect to happen to one. It was not like a fight,
for instance."

' "It was not," I admitted. He appeared changed, as if he had suddenly matured.

' "One couldn't be sure," he muttered.

' "Ah! You were not sure," I said, and was placated by the sound of a faint sigh that passed between us like the
flight of a bird in the night.

' "Well, I wasn't," he said courageously. "It was something like that wretched story they made up. It was not a
lie--but it wasn't truth all the same. It was something. . . . One knows a downright lie. There was not the
thickness of a sheet of paper between the right and the wrong of this affair."

' "How much more did you want?" I asked; but I think I spoke so low that he did not catch what I said. He had
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reasonable.

' "Suppose I had not--I mean to say, suppose I had stuck to the ship? Well. How much longer? Say a
minute--half a minute. Come. In thirty seconds, as it seemed certain then, I would have been overboard; and
do you think I would not have laid hold of the first thing that came in my way--oar, life-buoy,
grating--anything? Wouldn't you?"

' "And be saved," I interjected.

' "I would have meant to be," he retorted. "And that's more than I meant when I" . . . he shivered as if about to
swallow some nauseous drug . . . "jumped," he pronounced with a convulsive effort, whose stress, as if
propagated by the waves of the air, made my body stir a little in the chair. He fixed me with lowering eyes.
"Don't you believe me?" he cried. "I swear! . . . Confound it! You got me here to talk, and . . . You must! . . .
You said you would believe." "Of course I do," I protested, in a matter-of-fact tone which produced a calming
effect. "Forgive me," he said. "Of course I wouldn't have talked to you about all this if you had not been a
gentleman. I ought to have known . . . I am--I am--a gentleman too . . ." "Yes, yes," I said hastily. He was
looking me squarely in the face, and withdrew his gaze slowly. "Now you understand why I didn't after all . . .
didn't go out in that way. I wasn't going to be frightened at what I had done. And, anyhow, if I had stuck to the
ship I would have done my best to be saved. Men have been known to float for hours--in the open sea--and be
picked up not much the worse for it. I might have lasted it out better than many others. There's nothing the
matter with my heart." He withdrew his right fist from his pocket, and the blow he struck on his chest
resounded like a muffled detonation in the night.

' "No," I said. He meditated, with his legs slightly apart and his chin sunk. "A hair's-breadth," he muttered.
"Not the breadth of a hair between this and that. And at the time . . ."

' "It is difficult to see a hair at midnight," I put in, a little viciously I fear. Don't you see what I mean by the
solidarity of the craft? I was aggrieved against him, as though he had cheated me-- me!--of a splendid
opportunity to keep up the illusion of my beginnings, as though he had robbed our common life of the last
spark of its glamour. "And so you cleared out--at once."

' "Jumped," he corrected me incisively. "Jumped--mind!" he repeated, and I wondered at the evident but
obscure intention. "Well, yes! Perhaps I could not see then. But I had plenty of time and any amount of light
in that boat. And I could think, too. Nobody would know, of course, but this did not make it any easier for me.
You've got to believe that, too. I did not want all this talk. . . . No . . . Yes . . . I won't lie . . . I wanted it: it is
the very thing I wanted--there. Do you think you or anybody could have made me if I . . . I am--I am not
afraid to tell. And I wasn't afraid to think either. I looked it in the face. I wasn't going to run away. At first-- at
night, if it hadn't been for those fellows I might have . . . No! by heavens! I was not going to give them that
satisfaction. They had done enough. They made up a story, and believed it for all I know. But I knew the truth,
and I would live it down--alone, with myself. I wasn't going to give in to such a beastly unfair thing. What did
it prove after all? I was confoundedly cut up. Sick of life--to tell you the truth; but what would have been the
good to shirk it-- in--in--that way? That was not the way. I believe--I believe it would have--it would have
ended--nothing."

'He had been walking up and down, but with the last word he turned short at me.

' "What do you believe?" he asked with violence. A pause ensued, and suddenly I felt myself overcome by a
profound and hopeless fatigue, as though his voice had startled me out of a dream of wandering through
empty spaces whose immensity had harassed my soul and exhausted my body.

' ". . . Would have ended nothing," he muttered over me obstinately, after a little while. "No! the proper thing
was to face it out-- alone for myself--wait for another chance--find out . . ." '

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'All around everything was still as far as the ear could reach. The mist of his feelings shifted between us, as if
disturbed by his struggles, and in the rifts of the immaterial veil he would appear to my staring eyes distinct of
form and pregnant with vague appeal like a symbolic figure in a picture. The chill air of the night seemed to
lie on my limbs as heavy as a slab of marble.

' "I see," I murmured, more to prove to myself that I could break my state of numbness than for any other
reason.

' "The Avondale picked us up just before sunset," he remarked moodily. "Steamed right straight for us. We
had only to sit and wait."

'After a long interval, he said, "They told their story." And again there was that oppressive silence. "Then only
I knew what it was I had made up my mind to," he added.

' "You said nothing," I whispered.

' "What could I say?" he asked, in the same low tone. . . . "Shock slight. Stopped the ship. Ascertained the
damage. Took measures to get the boats out without creating a panic. As the first boat was lowered ship went
down in a squall. Sank like lead. . . . What could be more clear" . . . he hung his head . . . "and more awful?"
His lips quivered while he looked straight into my eyes. "I had jumped--hadn't I?" he asked, dismayed. "That's
what I had to live down. The story didn't matter." . . . He clasped his hands for an instant, glanced right and
left into the gloom: "It was like cheating the dead," he stammered.

' "And there were no dead," I said.

'He went away from me at this. That is the only way I can describe it. In a moment I saw his back close to the
balustrade. He stood there for some time, as if admiring the purity and the peace of the night. Some
flowering-shrub in the garden below spread its powerful scent through the damp air. He returned to me with
hasty steps.

' "And that did not matter," he said, as stubbornly as you please.

' "Perhaps not," I admitted. I began to have a notion he was too much for me. After all, what did I know?

' "Dead or not dead, I could not get clear," he said. "I had to live; hadn't I?"

' "Well, yes--if you take it in that way," I mumbled.

' "I was glad, of course," he threw out carelessly, with his mind fixed on something else. "The exposure," he
pronounced slowly, and lifted his head. "Do you know what was my first thought when I heard? I was
relieved. I was relieved to learn that those shouts-- did I tell you I had heard shouts? No? Well, I did. Shouts
for help . . . blown along with the drizzle. Imagination, I suppose. And yet I can hardly . . . How stupid. . . .
The others did not. I asked them afterwards. They all said No. No? And I was hearing them even then! I might
have known--but I didn't think--I only listened. Very faint screams--day after day. Then that little half-caste
chap here came up and spoke to me. 'The Patna . . . French gunboat. . . towed successfully to Aden. . .
Investigation. . . Marine Office . . . Sailors' Home . . . arrangements made for your board and lodging!' I
walked along with him, and I enjoyed the silence. So there had been no shouting. Imagination. I had to believe
him. I could hear nothing any more. I wonder how long I could have stood it. It was getting worse, too . . . I
mean--louder." 'He fell into thought.

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' "And I had heard nothing! Well--so be it. But the lights! The lights did go! We did not see them. They were
not there. If they had been, I would have swam back--I would have gone back and shouted alongside--I would
have begged them to take me on board. . . . I would have had my chance. . . . You doubt me? . . . How do you
know how I felt? . . . What right have you to doubt? . . . I very nearly did it as it was--do you understand?" His
voice fell. "There was not a glimmer--not a glimmer," he protested mournfully. "Don't you understand that if
there had been, you would not have seen me here? You see me--and you doubt."

'I shook my head negatively. This question of the lights being lost sight of when the boat could not have been
more than a quarter of a mile from the ship was a matter for much discussion. Jim stuck to it that there was
nothing to be seen after the first shower had cleared away; and the others had affirmed the same thing to the
officers of the Avondale. Of course people shook their heads and smiled. One old skipper who sat near me in
court tickled my ear with his white beard to murmur, "Of course they would lie." As a matter of fact nobody
lied; not even the chief engineer with his story of the mast-head light dropping like a match you throw down.
Not consciously, at least. A man with his liver in such a state might very well have seen a floating spark in the
corner of his eye when stealing a hurried glance over his shoulder. They had seen no light of any sort though
they were well within range, and they could only explain this in one way: the ship had gone down. It was
obvious and comforting. The foreseen fact coming so swiftly had justified their haste. No wonder they did not
cast about for any other explanation. Yet the true one was very simple, and as soon as Brierly suggested it the
court ceased to bother about the question. If you remember, the ship had been stopped, and was lying with her
head on the course steered through the night, with her stern canted high and her bows brought low down in the
water through the filling of the fore-compartment. Being thus out of trim, when the squall struck her a little on
the quarter, she swung head to wind as sharply as though she had been at anchor. By this change in her
position all her lights were in a very few moments shut off from the boat to leeward. It may very well be that,
had they been seen, they would have had the effect of a mute appeal--that their glimmer lost in the darkness of
the cloud would have had the mysterious power of the human glance that can awaken the feelings of remorse
and pity. It would have said, "I am here--still here" . . . and what more can the eye of the most forsaken of
human beings say? But she turned her back on them as if in disdain of their fate: she had swung round,
burdened, to glare stubbornly at the new danger of the open sea which she so strangely survived to end her
days in a breaking-up yard, as if it had been her recorded fate to die obscurely under the blows of many
hammers. What were the various ends their destiny provided for the pilgrims I am unable to say; but the
immediate future brought, at about nine o'clock next morning, a French gunboat homeward bound from
Reunion. The report of her commander was public property. He had swept a little out of his course to
ascertain what was the matter with that steamer floating dangerously by the head upon a still and hazy sea.
There was an ensign, union down, flying at her main gaff (the serang had the sense to make a signal of
distress at daylight); but the cooks were preparing the food in the cooking-boxes forward as usual. The decks
were packed as close as a sheep-pen: there were people perched all along the rails, jammed on the bridge in a
solid mass; hundreds of eyes stared, and not a sound was heard when the gunboat ranged abreast, as if all that
multitude of lips had been sealed by a spell.

'The Frenchman hailed, could get no intelligible reply, and after ascertaining through his binoculars that the
crowd on deck did not look plague-stricken, decided to send a boat. Two officers came on board, listened to
the serang, tried to talk with the Arab, couldn't make head or tail of it: but of course the nature of the
emergency was obvious enough. They were also very much struck by discovering a white man, dead and
curled up peacefully on the bridge. "Fort intrigues par ce cadavre," as I was informed a long time after by an
elderly French lieutenant whom I came across one afternoon in Sydney, by the merest chance, in a sort of
cafe, and who remembered the affair perfectly. Indeed this affair, I may notice in passing, had an
extraordinary power of defying the shortness of memories and the length of time: it seemed to live, with a sort
of uncanny vitality, in the minds of men, on the tips of their tongues. I've had the questionable pleasure of
meeting it often, years afterwards, thousands of miles away, emerging from the remotest possible talk, coming
to the surface of the most distant allusions. Has it not turned up to-night between us? And I am the only
seaman here. I am the only one to whom it is a memory. And yet it has made its way out! But if two men who,
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between them as sure as fate, before they parted. I had never seen that Frenchman before, and at the end of an
hour we had done with each other for life: he did not seem particularly talkative either; he was a quiet,
massive chap in a creased uniform, sitting drowsily over a tumbler half full of some dark liquid. His
shoulder-straps were a bit tarnished, his clean-shaved cheeks were large and sallow; he looked like a man who
would be given to taking snuff--don't you know? I won't say he did; but the habit would have fitted that kind
of man. It all began by his handing me a number of Home News, which I didn't want, across the marble table.
I said "Merci." We exchanged a few apparently innocent remarks, and suddenly, before I knew how it had
come about, we were in the midst of it, and he was telling me how much they had been "intrigued by that
corpse." It turned out he had been one of the boarding officers.

'In the establishment where we sat one could get a variety of foreign drinks which were kept for the visiting
naval officers, and he took a sip of the dark medical-looking stuff, which probably was nothing more nasty
than cassis a l'eau, and glancing with one eye into the tumbler, shook his head slightly. "Impossible de
comprendre-- vous concevez," he said, with a curious mixture of unconcern and thoughtfulness. I could very
easily conceive how impossible it had been for them to understand. Nobody in the gunboat knew enough
English to get hold of the story as told by the serang. There was a good deal of noise, too, round the two
officers. "They crowded upon us. There was a circle round that dead man (autour de ce mort)," he described.
"One had to attend to the most pressing. These people were beginning to agitate themselves--Parbleu! A mob
like that--don't you see?" he interjected with philosophic indulgence. As to the bulkhead, he had advised his
commander that the safest thing was to leave it alone, it was so villainous to look at. They got two hawsers on
board promptly (en toute hale) and took the Patna in tow--stern foremost at that--which, under the
circumstances, was not so foolish, since the rudder was too much out of the water to be of any great use for
steering, and this manoeuvre eased the strain on the bulkhead, whose state, he expounded with stolid glibness,
demanded the greatest care (exigeait les plus grands menagements). I could not help thinking that my new
acquaintance must have had a voice in most of these arrangements: he looked a reliable officer, no longer very
active, and he was seamanlike too, in a way, though as he sat there, with his thick fingers clasped lightly on
his stomach, he reminded you of one of those snuffy, quiet village priests, into whose ears are poured the sins,
the sufferings, the remorse of peasant generations, on whose faces the placid and simple expression is like a
veil thrown over the mystery of pain and distress. He ought to have had a threadbare black soutane buttoned
smoothly up to his ample chin, instead of a frock-coat with shoulder-straps and brass buttons. His broad
bosom heaved regularly while he went on telling me that it had been the very devil of a job, as doubtless (sans
doute) I could figure to myself in my quality of a seaman (en votre qualite de marin). At the end of the period
he inclined his body slightly towards me, and, pursing his shaved lips, allowed the air to escape with a gentle
hiss. "Luckily," he continued, "the sea was level like this table, and there was no more wind than there is
here." . . . The place struck me as indeed intolerably stuffy, and very hot; my face burned as though I had been
young enough to be embarrassed and blushing. They had directed their course, he pursued, to the nearest
English port "naturellement," where their responsibility ceased, "Dieu merci." . . . He blew out his flat cheeks
a little. . . . "Because, mind you (notez bien), all the time of towing we had two quartermasters stationed with
axes by the hawsers, to cut us clear of our tow in case she . . ." He fluttered downwards his heavy eyelids,
making his meaning as plain as possible. . . . "What would you! One does what one can (on fait ce qu'on
peut)," and for a moment he managed to invest his ponderous immobility with an air of resignation. "Two
quartermasters--thirty hours--always there. Two!" he repeated, lifting up his right hand a little, and exhibiting
two fingers. This was absolutely the first gesture I saw him make. It gave me the opportunity to "note" a
starred scar on the back of his hand--effect of a gunshot clearly; and, as if my sight had been made more acute
by this discovery, I perceived also the seam of an old wound, beginning a little below the temple and going
out of sight under the short grey hair at the side of his head--the graze of a spear or the cut of a sabre. He
clasped his hands on his stomach again. "I remained on board that--that--my memory is going (s'en va). Ah!
Patt-na. C'est bien ca. Patt-na. Merci. It is droll how one forgets. I stayed on that ship thirty hours. . . ."

' "You did!" I exclaimed. Still gazing at his hands, he pursed his lips a little, but this time made no hissing
sound. "It was judged proper," he said, lifting his eyebrows dispassionately, "that one of the officers should
remain to keep an eye open (pour ouvrir l'oeil)" . . . he sighed idly . . . "and for communicating by signals with

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the towing ship--do you see?--and so on. For the rest, it was my opinion too. We made our boats ready to drop
over--and I also on that ship took measures. . . . Enfin! One has done one's possible. It was a delicate position.
Thirty hours! They prepared me some food. As for the wine--go and whistle for it--not a drop." In some
extraordinary way, without any marked change in his inert attitude and in the placid expression of his face, he
managed to convey the idea of profound disgust. "I--you know--when it comes to eating without my glass of
wine--I am nowhere."

'I was afraid he would enlarge upon the grievance, for though he didn't stir a limb or twitch a feature, he made
one aware how much he was irritated by the recollection. But he seemed to forget all about it. They delivered
their charge to the "port authorities," as he expressed it. He was struck by the calmness with which it had been
received. "One might have thought they had such a droll find (drole de trouvaille) brought them every day.
You are extraordinary-- you others," he commented, with his back propped against the wall, and looking
himself as incapable of an emotional display as a sack of meal. There happened to be a man-of-war and an
Indian Marine steamer in the harbour at the time, and he did not conceal his admiration of the efficient manner
in which the boats of these two ships cleared the Patna of her passengers. Indeed his torpid demeanour
concealed nothing: it had that mysterious, almost miraculous, power of producing striking effects by means
impossible of detection which is the last word of the highest art. "Twenty-five minutes--watch in
hand--twenty-five, no more." . . . He unclasped and clasped again his fingers without removing his hands from
his stomach, and made it infinitely more effective than if he had thrown up his arms to heaven in amazement. .
. . "All that lot (tout ce monde) on shore--with their little affairs--nobody left but a guard of seamen (marins de
l'Etat) and that interesting corpse (cet interessant cadavre). Twenty-five minutes." . . . With downcast eyes and
his head tilted slightly on one side he seemed to roll knowingly on his tongue the savour of a smart bit of
work. He persuaded one without any further demonstration that his approval was eminently worth having, and
resuming his hardly interrupted immobility, he went on to inform me that, being under orders to make the best
of their way to Toulon, they left in two hours' time, "so that (de sorte que) there are many things in this
incident of my life (dans cet episode de ma vie) which have remained obscure." '

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'After these words, and without a change of attitude, he, so to speak, submitted himself passively to a state of
silence. I kept him company; and suddenly, but not abruptly, as if the appointed time had arrived for his
moderate and husky voice to come out of his immobility, he pronounced, "Mon Dieu! how the time passes!"
Nothing could have been more commonplace than this remark; but its utterance coincided for me with a
moment of vision. It's extraordinary how we go through life with eyes half shut, with dull ears, with dormant
thoughts. Perhaps it's just as well; and it may be that it is this very dullness that makes life to the incalculable
majority so supportable and so welcome. Nevertheless, there can be but few of us who had never known one
of these rare moments of awakening when we see, hear, understand ever so much--everything--in a
flash--before we fall back again into our agreeable somnolence. I raised my eyes when he spoke, and I saw
him as though I had never seen him before. I saw his chin sunk on his breast, the clumsy folds of his coat, his
clasped hands, his motionless pose, so curiously suggestive of his having been simply left there. Time had
passed indeed: it had overtaken him and gone ahead. It had left him hopelessly behind with a few poor gifts:
the iron-grey hair, the heavy fatigue of the tanned face, two scars, a pair of tarnished shoulder-straps; one of
those steady, reliable men who are the raw material of great reputations, one of those uncounted lives that are
buried without drums and trumpets under the foundations of monumental successes. "I am now third
lieutenant of the Victorieuse" (she was the flagship of the French Pacific squadron at the time), he said,
detaching his shoulders from the wall a couple of inches to introduce himself. I bowed slightly on my side of
the table, and told him I commanded a merchant vessel at present anchored in Rushcutters' Bay. He had
"remarked" her,--a pretty little craft. He was very civil about it in his impassive way. I even fancy he went the
length of tilting his head in compliment as he repeated, breathing visibly the while, "Ah, yes. A little craft
painted black--very pretty--very pretty (tres coquet)." After a time he twisted his body slowly to face the glass
door on our right. "A dull town (triste ville)," he observed, staring into the street. It was a brilliant day; a
southerly buster was raging, and we could see the passers-by, men and women, buffeted by the wind on the
sidewalks, the sunlit fronts of the houses across the road blurred by the tall whirls of dust. "I descended on
shore," he said, "to stretch my legs a little, but . . ." He didn't finish, and sank into the depths of his repose.
"Pray--tell me," he began, coming up ponderously, "what was there at the bottom of this affair--precisely (au
juste)? It is curious. That dead man, for instance--and so on."

' "There were living men too," I said; "much more curious."

' "No doubt, no doubt," he agreed half audibly, then, as if after mature consideration, murmured, "Evidently."
I made no difficulty in communicating to him what had interested me most in this affair. It seemed as though
he had a right to know: hadn't he spent thirty hours on board the Palna--had he not taken the succession, so to
speak, had he not done "his possible"? He listened to me, looking more priest-like than ever, and with
what--probably on account of his downcast eyes--had the appearance of devout concentration. Once or twice
he elevated his eyebrows (but without raising his eyelids), as one would say "The devil!" Once he calmly
exclaimed, "Ah, bah!" under his breath, and when I had finished he pursed his lips in a deliberate way and
emitted a sort of sorrowful whistle.

'In any one else it might have been an evidence of boredom, a sign of indifference; but he, in his occult way,
managed to make his immobility appear profoundly responsive, and as full of valuable thoughts as an egg is
of meat. What he said at last was nothing more than a "Very interesting," pronounced politely, and not much
above a whisper. Before I got over my disappointment he added, but as if speaking to himself, "That's it. That
is it." His chin seemed to sink lower on his breast, his body to weigh heavier on his seat. I was about to ask
him what he meant, when a sort of preparatory tremor passed over his whole person, as a faint ripple may be
seen upon stagnant water even before the wind is felt. "And so that poor young man ran away along with the
others," he said, with grave tranquillity.

'I don't know what made me smile: it is the only genuine smile of mine I can remember in connection with
Jim's affair. But somehow this simple statement of the matter sounded funny in French. . . . "S'est enfui avec

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les autres," had said the lieutenant. And suddenly I began to admire the discrimination of the man. He had
made out the point at once: he did get hold of the only thing I cared about. I felt as though I were taking
professional opinion on the case. His imperturbable and mature calmness was that of an expert in possession
of the facts, and to whom one's perplexities are mere child's-play. "Ah! The young, the young," he said
indulgently. "And after all, one does not die of it." "Die of what?" I asked swiftly. "Of being afraid." He
elucidated his meaning and sipped his drink.

'I perceived that the three last fingers of his wounded hand were stiff and could not move independently of
each other, so that he took up his tumbler with an ungainly clutch. "One is always afraid. One may talk, but . .
." He put down the glass awkwardly. . . . "The fear, the fear--look you--it is always there." . . . He touched his
breast near a brass button, on the very spot where Jim had given a thump to his own when protesting that there
was nothing the matter with his heart. I suppose I made some sign of dissent, because he insisted, "Yes! yes!
One talks, one talks; this is all very fine; but at the end of the reckoning one is no cleverer than the next
man--and no more brave. Brave! This is always to be seen. I have rolled my hump (roule ma bosse)," he said,
using the slang expression with imperturbable seriousness, "in all parts of the world; I have known brave
men--famous ones! Allez!" . . . He drank carelessly. . . . "Brave--you conceive--in the Service--one has got to
be--the trade demands it (le metier veut ca). Is it not so?" he appealed to me reasonably. "Eh bien! Each of
them--I say each of them, if he were an honest man--bien entendu--would confess that there is a point--there is
a point--for the best of us--there is somewhere a point when you let go everything (vous lachez tout). And you
have got to live with that truth--do you see? Given a certain combination of circumstances, fear is sure to
come. Abominable funk (un trac epouvantable). And even for those who do not believe this truth there is fear
all the same--the fear of themselves. Absolutely so. Trust me. Yes. Yes. . . . At my age one knows what one is
talking about--que diable!" . . . He had delivered himself of all this as immovably as though he had been the
mouthpiece of abstract wisdom, but at this point he heightened the effect of detachment by beginning to twirl
his thumbs slowly. "It's evident-- parbleu!" he continued; "for, make up your mind as much as you like, even a
simple headache or a fit of indigestion (un derangement d'estomac) is enough to . . . Take me, for instance--I
have made my proofs. Eh bien! I, who am speaking to you, once . . ."

'He drained his glass and returned to his twirling. "No, no; one does not die of it," he pronounced finally, and
when I found he did not mean to proceed with the personal anecdote, I was extremely disappointed; the more
so as it was not the sort of story, you know, one could very well press him for. I sat silent, and he too, as if
nothing could please him better. Even his thumbs were still now. Suddenly his lips began to move. "That is
so," he resumed placidly. "Man is born a coward (L'homme est ne poltron). It is a difficulty-- parbleu! It
would be too easy other vise. But habit--habit--necessity-- do you see?--the eye of others--voila. One puts up
with it. And then the example of others who are no better than yourself, and yet make good countenance. . . ."

'His voice ceased.

' "That young man--you will observe--had none of these inducements--at least at the moment," I remarked.

'He raised his eyebrows forgivingly: "I don't say; I don't say. The young man in question might have had the
best dispositions-- the best dispositions," he repeated, wheezing a little.

' "I am glad to see you taking a lenient view," I said. "His own feeling in the matter was--ah!--hopeful, and . .
."

'The shuffle of his feet under the table interrupted me. He drew up his heavy eyelids. Drew up, I say--no other
expression can describe the steady deliberation of the act--and at last was disclosed completely to me. I was
confronted by two narrow grey circlets, like two tiny steel rings around the profound blackness of the pupils.
The sharp glance, coming from that massive body, gave a notion of extreme efficiency, like a razor-edge on a
battle-axe. "Pardon," he said punctiliously. His right hand went up, and he swayed forward. "Allow me . . . I
contended that one may get on knowing very well that one's courage does not come of itself (ne vient pas tout

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seul). There's nothing much in that to get upset about. One truth the more ought not to make life impossible. . .
. But the honour--the honour, monsieur! . . . The honour . . . that is real--that is! And what life may be worth
when" . . . he got on his feet with a ponderous impetuosity, as a startled ox might scramble up from the grass .
. . "when the honour is gone--ah ca! par exemple--I can offer no opinion. I can offer no opinion--because--
monsieur--I know nothing of it."

'I had risen too, and, trying to throw infinite politeness into our attitudes, we faced each other mutely, like two
china dogs on a mantelpiece. Hang the fellow! he had pricked the bubble. The blight of futility that lies in wait
for men's speeches had fallen upon our conversation, and made it a thing of empty sounds. "Very well," I said,
with a disconcerted smile; "but couldn't it reduce itself to not being found out?" He made as if to retort
readily, but when he spoke he had changed his mind. "This, monsieur, is too fine for me--much above me--I
don't think about it." He bowed heavily over his cap, which he held before him by the peak, between the
thumb and the forefinger of his wounded hand. I bowed too. We bowed together: we scraped our feet at each
other with much ceremony, while a dirty specimen of a waiter looked on critically, as though he had paid for
the performance. "Serviteur," said the Frenchman. Another scrape. "Monsieur" . . . "Monsieur." . . . The glass
door swung behind his burly back. I saw the southerly buster get hold of him and drive him down wind with
his hand to his head, his shoulders braced, and the tails of his coat blown hard against his legs.

'I sat down again alone and discouraged--discouraged about Jim's case. If you wonder that after more than
three years it had preserved its actuality, you must know that I had seen him only very lately. I had come
straight from Samarang, where I had loaded a cargo for Sydney: an utterly uninteresting bit of business,--what
Charley here would call one of my rational transactions,--and in Samarang I had seen something of Jim. He
was then working for De Jongh, on my recommendation. Water-clerk. "My representative afloat," as De
Jongh called him. You can't imagine a mode of life more barren of consolation, less capable of being invested
with a spark of glamour--unless it be the business of an insurance canvasser. Little Bob Stanton--Charley here
knew him well--had gone through that experience. The same who got drowned afterwards trying to save a
lady's-maid in the Sephora disaster. A case of collision on a hazy morning off the Spanish coast--you may
remember. All the passengers had been packed tidily into the boats and shoved clear of the ship, when Bob
sheered alongside again and scrambled back on deck to fetch that girl. How she had been left behind I can't
make out; anyhow, she had gone completely crazy--wouldn't leave the ship--held to the rail like grim death.
The wrestling-match could be seen plainly from the boats; but poor Bob was the shortest chief mate in the
merchant service, and the woman stood five feet ten in her shoes and was as strong as a horse, I've been told.
So it went on, pull devil, pull baker, the wretched girl screaming all the time, and Bob letting out a yell now
and then to warn his boat to keep well clear of the ship. One of the hands told me, hiding a smile at the
recollection, "It was for all the world, sir, like a naughty youngster fighting with his mother." The same old
chap said that "At the last we could see that Mr. Stanton had given up hauling at the gal, and just stood by
looking at her, watchful like. We thought afterwards he must've been reckoning that, maybe, the rush of water
would tear her away from the rail by-and-by and give him a show to save her. We daren't come alongside for
our life; and after a bit the old ship went down all on a sudden with a lurch to starboard--plop. The suck in was
something awful. We never saw anything alive or dead come up." Poor Bob's spell of shore-life had been one
of the complications of a love affair, I believe. He fondly hoped he had done with the sea for ever, and made
sure he had got hold of all the bliss on earth, but it came to canvassing in the end. Some cousin of his in
Liverpool put up to it. He used to tell us his experiences in that line. He made us laugh till we cried, and, not
altogether displeased at the effect, undersized and bearded to the waist like a gnome, he would tiptoe amongst
us and say, "It's all very well for you beggars to laugh, but my immortal soul was shrivelled down to the size
of a parched pea after a week of that work." I don't know how Jim's soul accommodated itself to the new
conditions of his life--I was kept too busy in getting him something to do that would keep body and soul
together--but I am pretty certain his adventurous fancy was suffering all the pangs of starvation. It had
certainly nothing to feed upon in this new calling. It was distressing to see him at it, though he tackled it with
a stubborn serenity for which I must give him full credit. I kept my eye on his shabby plodding with a sort of
notion that it was a punishment for the heroics of his fancy--an expiation for his craving after more glamour
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condemned to toil without honour like a costermonger's donkey. He did it very well. He shut himself in, put
his head down, said never a word. Very well; very well indeed--except for certain fantastic and violent
outbreaks, on the deplorable occasions when the irrepressible Patna case cropped up. Unfortunately that
scandal of the Eastern seas would not die out. And this is the reason why I could never feel I had done with
Jim for good.

'I sat thinking of him after the French lieutenant had left, not, however, in connection with De Jongh's cool
and gloomy backshop, where we had hurriedly shaken hands not very long ago, but as I had seen him years
before in the last flickers of the candle, alone with me in the long gallery of the Malabar House, with the chill
and the darkness of the night at his back. The respectable sword of his country's law was suspended over his
head. To-morrow--or was it to-day? (midnight had slipped by long before we parted)--the marble-faced police
magistrate, after distributing fines and terms of imprisonment in the assault-and-battery case, would take up
the awful weapon and smite his bowed neck. Our communion in the night was uncommonly like a last vigil
with a condemned man. He was guilty too. He was guilty--as I had told myself repeatedly, guilty and done
for; nevertheless, I wished to spare him the mere detail of a formal execution. I don't pretend to explain the
reasons of my desire--I don't think I could; but if you haven't got a sort of notion by this time, then I must
have been very obscure in my narrative, or you too sleepy to seize upon the sense of my words. I don't defend
my morality. There was no morality in the impulse which induced me to lay before him Brierly's plan of
evasion--I may call it--in all its primitive simplicity. There were the rupees-- absolutely ready in my pocket
and very much at his service. Oh! a loan; a loan of course--and if an introduction to a man (in Rangoon) who
could put some work in his way . . . Why! with the greatest pleasure. I had pen, ink, and paper in my room on
the first floor And even while I was speaking I was impatient to begin the letter-- day, month, year, 2.30 A.M.
. . . for the sake of our old friendship I ask you to put some work in the way of Mr. James So-and-so, in
whom, &c., &c. . . . I was even ready to write in that strain about him. If he had not enlisted my sympathies he
had done better for himself--he had gone to the very fount and origin of that sentiment he had reached the
secret sensibility of my egoism. I am concealing nothing from you, because were I to do so my action would
appear more unintelligible than any man's action has the right to be, and-- in the second place--to-morrow you
will forget my sincerity along with the other lessons of the past. In this transaction, to speak grossly and
precisely, I was the irreproachable man; but the subtle intentions of my immorality were defeated by the moral
simplicity of the criminal. No doubt he was selfish too, but his selfishness had a higher origin, a more lofty
aim. I discovered that, say what I would, he was eager to go through the ceremony of execution, and I didn't
say much, for I felt that in argument his youth would tell against me heavily: he believed where I had already
ceased to doubt. There was something fine in the wildness of his unexpressed, hardly formulated hope. "Clear
out! Couldn't think of it," he said, with a shake of the head. "I make you an offer for which I neither demand
nor expect any sort of gratitude," I said; "you shall repay the money when convenient, and . . ." "Awfully good
of you," he muttered without looking up. I watched him narrowly: the future must have appeared horribly
uncertain to him; but he did not falter, as though indeed there had been nothing wrong with his heart. I felt
angry-- not for the first time that night. "The whole wretched business," I said, "is bitter enough, I should
think, for a man of your kind . . ." "It is, it is," he whispered twice, with his eyes fixed on the floor. It was
heartrending. He towered above the light, and I could see the down on his cheek, the colour mantling warm
under the smooth skin of his face. Believe me or not, I say it was outrageously heartrending. It provoked me
to brutality. "Yes," I said; "and allow me to confess that I am totally unable to imagine what advantage you
can expect from this licking of the dregs." "Advantage!" he murmured out of his stillness. "I am dashed if I
do," I said, enraged. "I've been trying to tell you all there is in it," he went on slowly, as if meditating
something unanswerable. "But after all, it is my trouble." I opened my mouth to retort, and discovered
suddenly that I'd lost all confidence in myself; and it was as if he too had given me up, for he mumbled like a
man thinking half aloud. "Went away . . . went into hospitals. . . . Not one of them would face it. . . . They! . .
." He moved his hand slightly to imply disdain. "But I've got to get over this thing, and I mustn't shirk any of
it or . . . I won't shirk any of it." He was silent. He gazed as though he had been haunted. His unconscious face
reflected the passing expressions of scorn, of despair, of resolution--reflected them in turn, as a magic mirror
would reflect the gliding passage of unearthly shapes. He lived surrounded by deceitful ghosts, by austere
shades. "Oh! nonsense, my dear fellow," I began. He had a movement of impatience. "You don't seem to

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understand," he said incisively; then looking at me without a wink, "I may have jumped, but I don't run away."
"I meant no offence," I said; and added stupidly, "Better men than you have found it expedient to run, at
times." He coloured all over, while in my confusion I half-choked myself with my own tongue. "Perhaps so,"
he said at last, "I am not good enough; I can't afford it. I am bound to fight this thing down--I am fighting it
now." I got out of my chair and felt stiff all over. The silence was embarrassing, and to put an end to it I
imagined nothing better but to remark, "I had no idea it was so late," in an airy tone. . . . "I dare say you have
had enough of this," he said brusquely: "and to tell you the truth"--he began to look round for his hat--"so
have I."

'Well! he had refused this unique offer. He had struck aside my helping hand; he was ready to go now, and
beyond the balustrade the night seemed to wait for him very still, as though he had been marked down for its
prey. I heard his voice. "Ah! here it is." He had found his hat. For a few seconds we hung in the wind. "What
will you do after--after . . ." I asked very low. "Go to the dogs as likely as not," he answered in a gruff mutter.
I had recovered my wits in a measure, and judged best to take it lightly. "Pray remember," I said, "that I
should like very much to see you again before you go." "I don't know what's to prevent you. The damned
thing won't make me invisible," he said with intense bitterness,--"no such luck." And then at the moment of
taking leave he treated me to a ghastly muddle of dubious stammers and movements, to an awful display of
hesitations. God forgive him--me! He had taken it into his fanciful head that I was likely to make some
difficulty as to shaking hands. It was too awful for words. I believe I shouted suddenly at him as you would
bellow to a man you saw about to walk over a cliff; I remember our voices being raised, the appearance of a
miserable grin on his face, a crushing clutch on my hand, a nervous laugh. The candle spluttered out, and the
thing was over at last, with a groan that floated up to me in the dark. He got himself away somehow. The
night swallowed his form. He was a horrible bungler. Horrible. I heard the quick crunch-crunch of the gravel
under his boots. He was running. Absolutely running, with nowhere to go to. And he was not yet
four-and-twenty.'

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CHAPTER 14

'I slept little, hurried over my breakfast, and after a slight hesitation gave up my early morning visit to my
ship. It was really very wrong of me, because, though my chief mate was an excellent man all round, he was
the victim of such black imaginings that if he did not get a letter from his wife at the expected time he would
go quite distracted with rage and jealousy, lose all grip on the work, quarrel with all hands, and either weep in
his cabin or develop such a ferocity of temper as all but drove the crew to the verge of mutiny. The thing had
always seemed inexplicable to me: they had been married thirteen years; I had a glimpse of her once, and,
honestly, I couldn't conceive a man abandoned enough to plunge into sin for the sake of such an unattractive
person. I don't know whether I have not done wrong by refraining from putting that view before poor Selvin:
the man made a little hell on earth for himself, and I also suffered indirectly, but some sort of, no doubt, false
delicacy prevented me. The marital relations of seamen would make an interesting subject, and I could tell
you instances. . . . However, this is not the place, nor the time, and we are concerned with Jim-- who was
unmarried. If his imaginative conscience or his pride; if all the extravagant ghosts and austere shades that
were the disastrous familiars of his youth would not let him run away from the block, I, who of course can't be
suspected of such familiars, was irresistibly impelled to go and see his head roll off. I wended my way
towards the court. I didn't hope to be very much impressed or edified, or interested or even
frightened--though, as long as there is any life before one, a jolly good fright now and then is a salutary
discipline. But neither did I expect to be so awfully depressed. The bitterness of his punishment was in its
chill and mean atmosphere. The real significance of crime is in its being a breach of faith with the community
of mankind, and from that point of view he was no mean traitor, but his execution was a hole-and-corner
affair. There was no high scaffolding, no scarlet cloth (did they have scarlet cloth on Tower Hill? They should
have had), no awe-stricken multitude to be horrified at his guilt and be moved to tears at his fate--no air of
sombre retribution. There was, as I walked along, the clear sunshine, a brilliance too passionate to be
consoling, the streets full of jumbled bits of colour like a damaged kaleidoscope: yellow, green, blue, dazzling
white, the brown nudity of an undraped shoulder, a bullock-cart with a red canopy, a company of native
infantry in a drab body with dark heads marching in dusty laced boots, a native policeman in a sombre
uniform of scanty cut and belted in patent leather, who looked up at me with orientally pitiful eyes as though
his migrating spirit were suffering exceedingly from that unforeseen-- what d'ye call
'em?--avatar--incarnation. Under the shade of a lonely tree in the courtyard, the villagers connected with the
assault case sat in a picturesque group, looking like a chromo-lithograph of a camp in a book of Eastern travel.
One missed the obligatory thread of smoke in the foreground and the pack-animals grazing. A blank yellow
wall rose behind overtopping the tree, reflecting the glare. The court-room was sombre, seemed more vast.
High up in the dim space the punkahs were swaying short to and fro, to and fro. Here and there a draped
figure, dwarfed by the bare walls, remained without stirring amongst the rows of empty benches, as if
absorbed in pious meditation. The plaintiff, who had been beaten,--an obese chocolate-coloured man with
shaved head, one fat breast bare and a bright yellow caste-mark above the bridge of his nose,--sat in pompous
immobility: only his eyes glittered, rolling in the gloom, and the nostrils dilated and collapsed violently as he
breathed. Brierly dropped into his seat looking done up, as though he had spent the night in sprinting on a
cinder-track. The pious sailing-ship skipper appeared excited and made uneasy movements, as if restraining
with difficulty an impulse to stand up and exhort us earnestly to prayer and repentance. The head of the
magistrate, delicately pale under the neatly arranged hair, resembled the head of a hopeless invalid after he
had been washed and brushed and propped up in bed. He moved aside the vase of flowers--a bunch of purple
with a few pink blossoms on long stalks--and seizing in both hands a long sheet of bluish paper, ran his eye
over it, propped his forearms on the edge of the desk, and began to read aloud in an even, distinct, and
careless voice.

'By Jove! For all my foolishness about scaffolds and heads rolling off--I assure you it was infinitely worse
than a beheading. A heavy sense of finality brooded over all this, unrelieved by the hope of rest and safety
following the fall of the axe. These proceedings had all the cold vengefulness of a death-sentence, and the
cruelty of a sentence of exile. This is how I looked at it that morning--and even now I seem to see an
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I felt this at the time. Perhaps it is for that reason that I could not bring myself to admit the finality. The thing
was always with me, I was always eager to take opinion on it, as though it had not been practically settled:
individual opinion--international opinion--by Jove! That Frenchman's, for instance. His own country's
pronouncement was uttered in the passionless and definite phraseology a machine would use, if machines
could speak. The head of the magistrate was half hidden by the paper, his brow was like alabaster.

'There were several questions before the court. The first as to whether the ship was in every respect fit and
seaworthy for the voyage. The court found she was not. The next point, I remember, was, whether up to the
time of the accident the ship had been navigated with proper and seamanlike care. They said Yes to that,
goodness knows why, and then they declared that there was no evidence to show the exact cause of the
accident. A floating derelict probably. I myself remember that a Norwegian barque bound out with a cargo of
pitch-pine had been given up as missing about that time, and it was just the sort of craft that would capsize in
a squall and float bottom up for months--a kind of maritime ghoul on the prowl to kill ships in the dark. Such
wandering corpses are common enough in the North Atlantic, which is haunted by all the terrors of the
sea,--fogs, icebergs, dead ships bent upon mischief, and long sinister gales that fasten upon one like a vampire
till all the strength and the spirit and even hope are gone, and one feels like the empty shell of a man. But
there--in those seas--the incident was rare enough to resemble a special arrangement of a malevolent
providence, which, unless it had for its object the killing of a donkeyman and the bringing of worse than death
upon Jim, appeared an utterly aimless piece of devilry. This view occurring to me took off my attention. For a
time I was aware of the magistrate's voice as a sound merely; but in a moment it shaped itself into distinct
words . . . "in utter disregard of their plain duty," it said. The next sentence escaped me somehow, and then . .
. "abandoning in the moment of danger the lives and property confided to their charge" . . . went on the voice
evenly, and stopped. A pair of eyes under the white forehead shot darkly a glance above the edge of the paper.
I looked for Jim hurriedly, as though I had expected him to disappear. He was very still--but he was there. He
sat pink and fair and extremely attentive. "Therefore, . . ." began the voice emphatically. He stared with parted
lips, hanging upon the words of the man behind the desk. These came out into the stillness wafted on the wind
made by the punkahs, and I, watching for their effect upon him, caught only the fragments of official
language. . . . "The Court. . . Gustav So-and-so . . . master . . . native of Germany . . . James So-and-so. . .
mate . . . certificates cancelled." A silence fell. The magistrate had dropped the paper, and, leaning sideways
on the arm of his chair, began to talk with Brierly easily. People started to move out; others were pushing in,
and I also made for the door. Outside I stood still, and when Jim passed me on his way to the gate, I caught at
his arm and detained him. The look he gave discomposed me, as though I had been responsible for his state he
looked at me as if I had been the embodied evil of life. "It's all over," I stammered. "Yes," he said thickly.
"And now let no man . . ." He jerked his arm out of my grasp. I watched his back as he went away. It was a
long street, and he remained in sight for some time. He walked rather slow, and straddling his legs a little, as
if he had found it difficult to keep a straight line. Just before I lost him I fancied he staggered a bit.

' "Man overboard," said a deep voice behind me. Turning round, I saw a fellow I knew slightly, a West
Australian; Chester was his name. He, too, had been looking after Jim. He was a man with an immense girth
of chest, a rugged, clean-shaved face of mahogany colour, and two blunt tufts of iron-grey, thick, wiry hairs
on his upper lip. He had been pearler, wrecker, trader, whaler too, I believe; in his own words--anything and
everything a man may be at sea, but a pirate. The Pacific, north and south, was his proper hunting-ground; but
he had wandered so far afield looking for a cheap steamer to buy. Lately he had discovered--so he said--a
guano island somewhere, but its approaches were dangerous, and the anchorage, such as it was, could not be
considered safe, to say the least of it. "As good as a gold-mine," he would exclaim. "Right bang in the middle
of the Walpole Reefs, and if it's true enough that you can get no holding-ground anywhere in less than forty
fathom, then what of that? There are the hurricanes, too. But it's a first-rate thing. As good as a
gold-mine--better! Yet there's not a fool of them that will see it. I can't get a skipper or a shipowner to go near
the place. So I made up my mind to cart the blessed stuff myself." . . . This was what he required a steamer
for, and I knew he was just then negotiating enthusiastically with a Parsee firm for an old, brig-rigged,
sea-anachronism of ninety horse-power. We had met and spoken together several times. He looked knowingly
after Jim. "Takes it to heart?" he asked scornfully. "Very much," I said. "Then he's no good," he opined.

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"What's all the to-do about? A bit of ass's skin. That never yet made a man. You must see things exactly as
they are--if you don't, you may just as well give in at once. You will never do anything in this world. Look at
me. I made it a practice never to take anything to heart." "Yes," I said, "you see things as they are." "I wish I
could see my partner coming along, that's what I wish to see," he said. "Know my partner? Old Robinson.
Yes; the Robinson. Don't you know? The notorious Robinson. The man who smuggled more opium and
bagged more seals in his time than any loose Johnny now alive. They say he used to board the
sealing-schooners up Alaska way when the fog was so thick that the Lord God, He alone, could tell one man
from another. Holy-Terror Robinson. That's the man. He is with me in that guano thing. The best chance he
ever came across in his life." He put his lips to my ear. "Cannibal?--well, they used to give him the name
years and years ago. You remember the story? A shipwreck on the west side of Stewart Island; that's right;
seven of them got ashore, and it seems they did not get on very well together. Some men are too cantankerous
for anything--don't know how to make the best of a bad job--don't see things as they are--as they are, my boy!
And then what's the consequence? Obvious! Trouble, trouble; as likely as not a knock on the head; and serve
'em right too. That sort is the most useful when it's dead. The story goes that a boat of Her Majesty's ship
Wolverine found him kneeling on the kelp, naked as the day he was born, and chanting some psalm-tune or
other; light snow was falling at the time. He waited till the boat was an oar's length from the shore, and then
up and away. They chased him for an hour up and down the boulders, till a marihe flung a stone that took him
behind the ear providentially and knocked him senseless. Alone? Of course. But that's like that tale of
sealing-schooners; the Lord God knows the right and the wrong of that story. The cutter did not investigate
much. They wrapped him in a boat-cloak and took him off as quick as they could, with a dark night coming
on, the weather threatening, and the ship firing recall guns every five minutes. Three weeks afterwards he was
as well as ever. He didn't allow any fuss that was made on shore to upset him; he just shut his lips tight, and
let people screech. It was bad enough to have lost his ship, and all he was worth besides, without paying
attention to the hard names they called him. That's the man for me." He lifted his arm for a signal to some one
down the street. "He's got a little money, so I had to let him into my thing. Had to! It would have been sinful
to throw away such a find, and I was cleaned out myself. It cut me to the quick, but I could see the matter just
as it was, and if I must share--thinks I--with any man, then give me Robinson. I left him at breakfast in the
hotel to come to court, because I've an idea. . . . Ah! Good morning, Captain Robinson. . . . Friend of mine,
Captain Robinson."

'An emaciated patriarch in a suit of white drill, a solah topi with a green-lined rim on a head trembling with
age, joined us after crossing the street in a trotting shuffle, and stood propped with both hands on the handle of
an umbrella. A white beard with amber streaks hung lumpily down to his waist. He blinked his creased eyelids
at me in a bewildered way. "How do you do? how do you do?" he piped amiably, and tottered. "A little deaf,"
said Chester aside. "Did you drag him over six thousand miles to get a cheap steamer?" I asked. "I would have
taken him twice round the world as soon as look at him," said Chester with immense energy. "The steamer
will be the making of us, my lad. Is it my fault that every skipper and shipowner in the whole of blessed
Australasia turns out a blamed fool? Once I talked for three hours to a man in Auckland. 'Send a ship,' I said,
'send a ship. I'll give you half of the first cargo for yourself, free gratis for nothing--just to make a good start.'
Says he, 'I wouldn't do it if there was no other place on earth to send a ship to.' Perfect ass, of course. Rocks,
currents, no anchorage, sheer cliff to lay to, no insurance company would take the risk, didn't see how he
could get loaded under three years. Ass! I nearly went on my knees to him. 'But look at the thing as it is,' says
I. 'Damn rocks and hurricanes. Look at it as it is. There's guano there Queensland sugar-planters would fight
for--fight for on the quay, I tell you.' . . . What can you do with a fool? . . . 'That's one of your little jokes,
Chester,' he says. . . . Joke! I could have wept. Ask Captain Robinson here. . . . And there was another
shipowning fellow--a fat chap in a white waistcoat in Wellington, who seemed to think I was up to some
swindle or other. 'I don't know what sort of fool you're looking for,' he says, 'but I am busy just now. Good
morning.' I longed to take him in my two hands and smash him through the window of his own office. But I
didn't. I was as mild as a curate. 'Think of it,' says I. 'Do think it over. I'll call to-morrow.' He grunted
something about being 'out all day.' On the stairs I felt ready to beat my head against the wall from vexation.
Captain Robinson here can tell you. It was awful to think of all that lovely stuff lying waste under the
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Queensland! And in Brisbane, where I went to have a last try, they gave me the name of a lunatic. Idiots! The
only sensible man I came across was the cabman who drove me about. A broken-down swell he was, I fancy.
Hey! Captain Robinson? You remember I told you about my cabby in Brisbane--don't you? The chap had a
wonderful eye for things. He saw it all in a jiffy. It was a real pleasure to talk with him. One evening after a
devil of a day amongst shipowners I felt so bad that, says I, 'I must get drunk. Come along; I must get drunk,
or I'll go mad.' 'I am your man,' he says; 'go ahead.' I don't know what I would have done without him. Hey!
Captain Robinson."

'He poked the ribs of his partner. "He! he! he!" laughed the Ancient, looked aimlessly down the street, then
peered at me doubtfully with sad, dim pupils. . . . "He! he! he!" . . . He leaned heavier on the umbrella, and
dropped his gaze on the ground. I needn't tell you I had tried to get away several times, but Chester had foiled
every attempt by simply catching hold of my coat. "One minute. I've a notion." "What's your infernal notion?"
I exploded at last. "If you think I am going in with you . . ." "No, no, my boy. Too late, if you wanted ever so
much. We've got a steamer." "You've got the ghost of a steamer," I said. "Good enough for a start-- there's no
superior nonsense about us. Is there, Captain Robinson?" "No! no! no!" croaked the old man without lifting
his eyes, and the senile tremble of his head became almost fierce with determination. "I understand you know
that young chap," said Chester, with a nod at the street from which Jim had disappeared long ago. "He's been
having grub with you in the Malabar last night--so I was told."

'I said that was true, and after remarking that he too liked to live well and in style, only that, for the present, he
had to be saving of every penny--"none too many for the business! Isn't that so, Captain Robinson?"--he
squared his shoulders and stroked his dumpy moustache, while the notorious Robinson, coughing at his side,
clung more than ever to the handle of the umbrella, and seemed ready to subside passively into a heap of old
bones. "You see, the old chap has all the money," whispered Chester confidentially. "I've been cleaned out
trying to engineer the dratted thing. But wait a bit, wait a bit. The good time is coming." . . . He seemed
suddenly astonished at the signs of impatience I gave. "Oh, crakee!" he cried; "I am telling you of the biggest
thing that ever was, and you . . ." "I have an appointment," I pleaded mildly. "What of that?" he asked with
genuine surprise; "let it wait." "That's exactly what I am doing now," I remarked; "hadn't you better tell me
what it is you want?" "Buy twenty hotels like that," he growled to himself; "and every joker boarding in them
too-- twenty times over." He lifted his head smartly "I want that young chap." "I don't understand," I said.
"He's no good, is he?" said Chester crisply. "I know nothing about it," I protested. "Why, you told me yourself
he was taking it to heart," argued Chester. "Well, in my opinion a chap who . . . Anyhow, he can't be much
good; but then you see I am on the look-out for somebody, and I've just got a thing that will suit him. I'll give
him a job on my island." He nodded significantly. "I'm going to dump forty coolies there--if I've to steal 'em.
Somebody must work the stuff. Oh! I mean to act square: wooden shed, corrugated-iron roof--I know a man in
Hobart who will take my bill at six months for the materials. I do. Honour bright. Then there's the
water-supply. I'll have to fly round and get somebody to trust me for half-a-dozen second-hand iron tanks.
Catch rain-water, hey? Let him take charge. Make him supreme boss over the coolies. Good idea, isn't it?
What do you say?" "There are whole years when not a drop of rain falls on Walpole," I said, too amazed to
laugh. He bit his lip and seemed bothered. "Oh, well, I will fix up something for them--or land a supply. Hang
it all! That's not the question."

'I said nothing. I had a rapid vision of Jim perched on a shadowless rock, up to his knees in guano, with the
screams of sea-birds in his ears, the incandescent ball of the sun above his head; the empty sky and the empty
ocean all a-quiver, simmering together in the heat as far as the eye could reach. "I wouldn't advise my worst
enemy . . ." I began. "What's the matter with you?" cried Chester; "I mean to give him a good screw--that is,
as soon as the thing is set going, of course. It's as easy as falling off a log. Simply nothing to do; two
six-shooters in his belt . . . Surely he wouldn't be afraid of anything forty coolies could do--with two
six-shooters and he the only armed man too! It's much better than it looks. I want you to help me to talk him
over." "No!" I shouted. Old Robinson lifted his bleared eyes dismally for a moment, Chester looked at me
with infinite contempt. "So you wouldn't advise him?" he uttered slowly. "Certainly not," I answered, as
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badly cut up, but he isn't mad as far as I know." "He is no earthly good for anything," Chester mused aloud.
"He would just have done for me. If you only could see a thing as it is, you would see it's the very thing for
him. And besides . . . Why! it's the most splendid, sure chance . . ." He got angry suddenly. "I must have a
man. There! . . ." He stamped his foot and smiled unpleasantly. "Anyhow, I could guarantee the island
wouldn't sink under him--and I believe he is a bit particular on that point." "Good morning," I said curtly. He
looked at me as though I had been an incomprehensible fool. . . . "Must be moving, Captain Robinson," he
yelled suddenly into the old man's ear. "These Parsee Johnnies are waiting for us to clinch the bargain." He
took his partner under the arm with a firm grip, swung him round, and, unexpectedly, leered at me over his
shoulder. "I was trying to do him a kindness," he asserted, with an air and tone that made my blood boil.
"Thank you for nothing--in his name," I rejoined. "Oh! you are devilish smart," he sneered; "but you are like
the rest of them. Too much in the clouds. See what you will do with him." "I don't know that I want to do
anything with him." "Don't you?" he spluttered; his grey moustache bristled with anger, and by his side the
notorious Robinson, propped on the umbrella, stood with his back to me, as patient and still as a worn-out
cab-horse. "I haven't found a guano island," I said. "It's my belief you wouldn't know one if you were led right
up to it by the hand," he riposted quickly; "and in this world you've got to see a thing first, before you can
make use of it. Got to see it through and through at that, neither more nor less." "And get others to see it, too,"
I insinuated, with a glance at the bowed back by his side. Chester snorted at me. "His eyes are right
enough--don't you worry. He ain't a puppy." "Oh, dear, no!" I said. "Come along, Captain Robinson," he
shouted, with a sort of bullying deference under the rim of the old man's hat; the Holy Terror gave a
submissive little jump. The ghost of a steamer was waiting for them, Fortune on that fair isle! They made a
curious pair of Argonauts. Chester strode on leisurely, well set up, portly, and of conquering mien; the other,
long, wasted, drooping, and hooked to his arm, shuffled his withered shanks with desperate haste.'

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'I did not start in search of Jim at once, only because I had really an appointment which I could not neglect.
Then, as ill-luck would have it, in my agent's office I was fastened upon by a fellow fresh from Madagascar
with a little scheme for a wonderful piece of business. It had something to do with cattle and cartridges and a
Prince Ravonalo something; but the pivot of the whole affair was the stupidity of some admiral--Admiral
Pierre, I think. Everything turned on that, and the chap couldn't find words strong enough to express his
confidence. He had globular eyes starting out of his head with a fishy glitter, bumps on his forehead, and wore
his long hair brushed back without a parting. He had a favourite phrase which he kept on repeating
triumphantly, "The minimum of risk with the maximum of profit is my motto. What?" He made my head
ache, spoiled my tiffin, but got his own out of me all right; and as soon as I had shaken him off, I made
straight for the water-side. I caught sight of Jim leaning over the parapet of the quay. Three native boatmen
quarrelling over five annas were making an awful row at his elbow. He didn't hear me come up, but spun
round as if the slight contact of my finger had released a catch. "I was looking," he stammered. I don't
remember what I said, not much anyhow, but he made no difficulty in following me to the hotel.

'He followed me as manageable as a little child, with an obedient air, with no sort of manifestation, rather as
though he had been waiting for me there to come along and carry him off. I need not have been so surprised as
I was at his tractability. On all the round earth, which to some seems so big and that others affect to consider
as rather smaller than a mustard-seed, he had no place where he could--what shall I say?--where he could
withdraw. That's it! Withdraw--be alone with his loneliness. He walked by my side very calm, glancing here
and there, and once turned his head to look after a Sidiboy fireman in a cutaway coat and yellowish trousers,
whose black face had silky gleams like a lump of anthracite coal. I doubt, however, whether he saw anything,
or even remained all the time aware of my companionship, because if I had not edged him to the left here, or
pulled him to the right there, I believe he would have gone straight before him in any direction till stopped by
a wall or some other obstacle. I steered him into my bedroom, and sat down at once to write letters. This was
the only place in the world (unless, perhaps, the Walpole Reef--but that was not so handy) where he could
have it out with himself without being bothered by the rest of the universe. The damned thing--as he had
expressed it--had not made him invisible, but I behaved exactly as though he were. No sooner in my chair I
bent over my writing-desk like a medieval scribe, and, but for the movement of the hand holding the pen,
remained anxiously quiet. I can't say I was frightened; but I certainly kept as still as if there had been
something dangerous in the room, that at the first hint of a movement on my part would be provoked to
pounce upon me. There was not much in the room--you know how these bedrooms are--a sort of four-poster
bedstead under a mosquito-net, two or three chairs, the table I was writing at, a bare floor. A glass door
opened on an upstairs verandah, and he stood with his face to it, having a hard time with all possible privacy.
Dusk fell; I lit a candle with the greatest economy of movement and as much prudence as though it were an
illegal proceeding. There is no doubt that he had a very hard time of it, and so had I, even to the point, I must
own, of wishing him to the devil, or on Walpole Reef at least. It occurred to me once or twice that, after all,
Chester was, perhaps, the man to deal effectively with such a disaster. That strange idealist had found a
practical use for it at once--unerringly, as it were. It was enough to make one suspect that, maybe, he really
could see the true aspect of things that appeared mysterious or utterly hopeless to less imaginative persons. I
wrote and wrote; I liquidated all the arrears of my correspondence, and then went on writing to people who
had no reason whatever to expect from me a gossipy letter about nothing at all. At times I stole a sidelong
glance. He was rooted to the spot, but convulsive shudders ran down his back; his shoulders would heave
suddenly. He was fighting, he was fighting--mostly for his breath, as it seemed. The massive shadows, cast all
one way from the straight flame of the candle, seemed possessed of gloomy consciousness; the immobility of
the furniture had to my furtive eye an air of attention. I was becoming fanciful in the midst of my industrious
scribbling; and though, when the scratching of my pen stopped for a moment, there was complete silence and
stillness in the room, I suffered from that profound disturbance and confusion of thought which is caused by a
violent and menacing uproar--of a heavy gale at sea, for instance. Some of you may know what I mean: that
mingled anxiety, distress, and irritation with a sort of craven feeling creeping in--not pleasant to acknowledge,
but which gives a quite special merit to one's endurance. I don't claim any merit for standing the stress of Jim's

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emotions; I could take refuge in the letters; I could have written to strangers if necessary. Suddenly, as I was
taking up a fresh sheet of notepaper, I heard a low sound, the first sound that, since we had been shut up
together, had come to my ears in the dim stillness of the room. I remained with my head down, with my hand
arrested. Those who have kept vigil by a sick-bed have heard such faint sounds in the stillness of the night
watches, sounds wrung from a racked body, from a weary soul. He pushed the glass door with such force that
all the panes rang: he stepped out, and I held my breath, straining my ears without knowing what else I
expected to hear. He was really taking too much to heart an empty formality which to Chester's rigorous
criticism seemed unworthy the notice of a man who could see things as they were. An empty formality; a
piece of parchment. Well, well. As to an inaccessible guano deposit, that was another story altogether. One
could intelligibly break one's heart over that. A feeble burst of many voices mingled with the tinkle of silver
and glass floated up from the dining-room below; through the open door the outer edge of the light from my
candle fell on his back faintly; beyond all was black; he stood on the brink of a vast obscurity, like a lonely
figure by the shore of a sombre and hopeless ocean. There was the Walpole Reef in it--to be sure--a speck in
the dark void, a straw for the drowning man. My compassion for him took the shape of the thought that I
wouldn't have liked his people to see him at that moment. I found it trying myself. His back was no longer
shaken by his gasps; he stood straight as an arrow, faintly visible and still; and the meaning of this stillness
sank to the bottom of my soul like lead into the water, and made it so heavy that for a second I wished heartily
that the only course left open for me was to pay for his funeral. Even the law had done with him. To bury him
would have been such an easy kindness! It would have been so much in accordance with the wisdom of life,
which consists in putting out of sight all the reminders of our folly, of our weakness, of our mortality; all that
makes against our efficiency--the memory of our failures, the hints of our undying fears, the bodies of our
dead friends. Perhaps he did take it too much to heart. And if so then-- Chester's offer. . . . At this point I took
up a fresh sheet and began to write resolutely. There was nothing but myself between him and the dark ocean.
I had a sense of responsibility. If I spoke, would that motionless and suffering youth leap into the
obscurity--clutch at the straw? I found out how difficult it may be sometimes to make a sound. There is a
weird power in a spoken word. And why the devil not? I was asking myself persistently while I drove on with
my writing. All at once, on the blank page, under the very point of the pen, the two figures of Chester and his
antique partner, very distinct and complete, would dodge into view with stride and gestures, as if reproduced
in the field of some optical toy. I would watch them for a while. No! They were too phantasmal and
extravagant to enter into any one's fate. And a word carries far--very far--deals destruction through time as the
bullets go flying through space. I said nothing; and he, out there with his back to the light, as if bound and
gagged by all the invisible foes of man, made no stir and made no sound.'

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'The time was coming when I should see him loved, trusted, admired, with a legend of strength and prowess
forming round his name as though he had been the stuff of a hero. It's true--I assure you; as true as I'm sitting
here talking about him in vain. He, on his side, had that faculty of beholding at a hint the face of his desire and
the shape of his dream, without which the earth would know no lover and no adventurer. He captured much
honour and an Arcadian happiness (I won't say anything about innocence) in the bush, and it was as good to
him as the honour and the Arcadian happiness of the streets to another man. Felicity, felicity--how shall I say
it?--is quaffed out of a golden cup in every latitude: the flavour is with you--with you alone, and you can
make it as intoxicating as you please. He was of the sort that would drink deep, as you may guess from what
went before. I found him, if not exactly intoxicated, then at least flushed with the elixir at his lips. He had not
obtained it at once. There had been, as you know, a period of probation amongst infernal ship-chandlers,
during which he had suffered and I had worried about--about--my trust--you may call it. I don't know that I
am completely reassured now, after beholding him in all his brilliance. That was my last view of him--in a
strong light, dominating, and yet in complete accord with his surroundings--with the life of the forests and
with the life of men. I own that I was impressed, but I must admit to myself that after all this is not the lasting
impression. He was protected by his isolation, alone of his own superior kind, in close touch with Nature, that
keeps faith on such easy terms with her lovers. But I cannot fix before my eye the image of his safety. I shall
always remember him as seen through the open door of my room, taking, perhaps, too much to heart the mere
consequences of his failure. I am pleased, of course, that some good--and even some splendour--came out of
my endeavours; but at times it seems to me it would have been better for my peace of mind if I had not stood
between him and Chester's confoundedly generous offer. I wonder what his exuberant imagination would
have made of Walpole islet--that most hopelessly forsaken crumb of dry land on the face of the waters. It is
not likely I would ever have heard, for I must tell you that Chester, after calling at some Australian port to
patch up his brig-rigged sea-anachronism, steamed out into the Pacific with a crew of twenty-two hands all
told, and the only news having a possible bearing upon the mystery of his fate was the news of a hurricane
which is supposed to have swept in its course over the Walpole shoals, a month or so afterwards. Not a vestige
of the Argonauts ever turned up; not a sound came out of the waste. Finis! The Pacific is the most discreet of
live, hot-tempered oceans: the chilly Antarctic can keep a secret too, but more in the manner of a grave.

'And there is a sense of blessed finality in such discretion, which is what we all more or less sincerely are
ready to admit--for what else is it that makes the idea of death supportable? End! Finis! the potent word that
exorcises from the house of life the haunting shadow of fate. This is what--notwithstanding the testimony of
my eyes and his own earnest assurances--I miss when I look back upon Jim's success. While there's life there
is hope, truly; but there is fear too. I don't mean to say that I regret my action, nor will I pretend that I can't
sleep o' nights in consequence; still, the idea obtrudes itself that he made so much of his disgrace while it is
the guilt alone that matters. He was not--if I may say so--clear to me. He was not clear. And there is a
suspicion he was not clear to himself either. There were his fine sensibilities, his fine feelings, his fine
longings--a sort of sublimated, idealised selfishness. He was--if you allow me to say so--very fine; very
fine--and very unfortunate. A little coarser nature would not have borne the strain; it would have had to come
to terms with itself--with a sigh, with a grunt, or even with a guffaw; a still coarser one would have remained
invulnerably ignorant and completely uninteresting.

'But he was too interesting or too unfortunate to be thrown to the dogs, or even to Chester. I felt this while I
sat with my face over the paper and he fought and gasped, struggling for his breath in that terribly stealthy
way, in my room; I felt it when he rushed out on the verandah as if to fling himself over--and didn't; I felt it
more and more all the time he remained outside, faintly lighted on the background of night, as if standing on
the shore of a sombre and hopeless sea.

'An abrupt heavy rumble made me lift my head. The noise seemed to roll away, and suddenly a searching and
violent glare fell on the blind face of the night. The sustained and dazzling flickers seemed to last for an
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planted solidly upon the shores of a sea of light. At the moment of greatest brilliance the darkness leaped back
with a culminating crash, and he vanished before my dazzled eyes as utterly as though he had been blown to
atoms. A blustering sigh passed; furious hands seemed to tear at the shrubs, shake the tops of the trees below,
slam doors, break window-panes, all along the front of the building. He stepped in, closing the door behind
him, and found me bending over the table: my sudden anxiety as to what he would say was very great, and
akin to a fright. "May I have a cigarette?" he asked. I gave a push to the box without raising my head. "I
want--want--tobacco," he muttered. I became extremely buoyant. "Just a moment." I grunted pleasantly. He
took a few steps here and there. "That's over," I heard him say. A single distant clap of thunder came from the
sea like a gun of distress. "The monsoon breaks up early this year," he remarked conversationally, somewhere
behind me. This encouraged me to turn round, which I did as soon as I had finished addressing the last
envelope. He was smoking greedily in the middle of the room, and though he heard the stir I made, he
remained with his back to me for a time.

' "Come--I carried it off pretty well," he said, wheeling suddenly. "Something's paid off--not much. I wonder
what's to come." His face did not show any emotion, only it appeared a little darkened and swollen, as though
he had been holding his breath. He smiled reluctantly as it were, and went on while I gazed up at him mutely. .
. . "Thank you, though--your room--jolly convenient--for a chap--badly hipped." . . . The rain pattered and
swished in the garden; a water-pipe (it must have had a hole in it) performed just outside the window a parody
of blubbering woe with funny sobs and gurgling lamentations, interrupted by jerky spasms of silence. . . . "A
bit of shelter," he mumbled and ceased.

'A flash of faded lightning darted in through the black framework of the windows and ebbed out without any
noise. I was thinking how I had best approach him (I did not want to be flung off again) when he gave a little
laugh. "No better than a vagabond now" . . . the end of the cigarette smouldered between his fingers . . .
"without a single--single," he pronounced slowly; "and yet . . ." He paused; the rain fell with redoubled
violence. "Some day one's bound to come upon some sort of chance to get it all back again. Must!" he
whispered distinctly, glaring at my boots.

'I did not even know what it was he wished so much to regain, what it was he had so terribly missed. It might
have been so much that it was impossible to say. A piece of ass's skin, according to Chester. . . . He looked up
at me inquisitively. "Perhaps. If life's long enough," I muttered through my teeth with unreasonable animosity.
"Don't reckon too much on it."

' "Jove! I feel as if nothing could ever touch me," he said in a tone of sombre conviction. "If this business
couldn't knock me over, then there's no fear of there being not enough time to--climb out, and . . ." He looked
upwards.

'It struck me that it is from such as he that the great army of waifs and strays is recruited, the army that
marches down, down into all the gutters of the earth. As soon as he left my room, that "bit of shelter," he
would take his place in the ranks, and begin the journey towards the bottomless pit. I at least had no illusions;
but it was I, too, who a moment ago had been so sure of the power of words, and now was afraid to speak, in
the same way one dares not move for fear of losing a slippery hold. It is when we try to grapple with another
man's intimate need that we perceive how incomprehensible, wavering, and misty are the beings that share
with us the sight of the stars and the warmth of the sun. It is as if loneliness were a hard and absolute
condition of existence; the envelope of flesh and blood on which our eyes are fixed melts before the
outstretched hand, and there remains only the capricious, unconsolable, and elusive spirit that no eye can
follow, no hand can grasp. It was the fear of losing him that kept me silent, for it was borne upon me suddenly
and with unaccountable force that should I let him slip away into the darkness I would never forgive myself.

' "Well. Thanks--once more. You've been--er--uncommonly--really there's no word to . . . Uncommonly! I
don't know why, I am sure. I am afraid I don't feel as grateful as I would if the whole thing hadn't been so
brutally sprung on me. Because at bottom . . . you, yourself . . ." He stuttered.

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' "Possibly," I struck in. He frowned.

' "All the same, one is responsible." He watched me like a hawk.

' "And that's true, too," I said.

' "Well. I've gone with it to the end, and I don't intend to let any man cast it in my teeth
without--without--resenting it." He clenched his fist.

' "There's yourself," I said with a smile--mirthless enough, God knows--but he looked at me menacingly.
"That's my business," he said. An air of indomitable resolution came and went upon his face like a vain and
passing shadow. Next moment he looked a dear good boy in trouble, as before. He flung away the cigarette.
"Good-bye," he said, with the sudden haste of a man who had lingered too long in view of a pressing bit of
work waiting for him; and then for a second or so he made not the slightest movement. The downpour fell
with the heavy uninterrupted rush of a sweeping flood, with a sound of unchecked overwhelming fury that
called to one's mind the images of collapsing bridges, of uprooted trees, of undermined mountains. No man
could breast the colossal and headlong stream that seemed to break and swirl against the dim stillness in
which we were precariously sheltered as if on an island. The perforated pipe gurgled, choked, spat, and
splashed in odious ridicule of a swimmer fighting for his life. "It is raining," I remonstrated, "and I . . ." "Rain
or shine," he began brusquely, checked himself, and walked to the window. "Perfect deluge," he muttered
after a while: he leaned his forehead on the glass. "It's dark, too."

' "Yes, it is very dark," I said.

'He pivoted on his heels, crossed the room, and had actually opened the door leading into the corridor before I
leaped up from my chair. "Wait," I cried, "I want you to . . ." "I can't dine with you again to-night," he flung at
me, with one leg out of the room already. "I haven't the slightest intention to ask you," I shouted. At this he
drew back his foot, but remained mistrustfully in the very doorway. I lost no time in entreating him earnestly
not to be absurd; to come in and shut the door.'

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'He came in at last; but I believe it was mostly the rain that did it; it was falling just then with a devastating
violence which quieted down gradually while we talked. His manner was very sober and set; his bearing was
that of a naturally taciturn man possessed by an idea. My talk was of the material aspect of his position; it had
the sole aim of saving him from the degradation, ruin, and despair that out there close so swiftly upon a
friendless, homeless man; I pleaded with him to accept my help; I argued reasonably: and every time I looked
up at that absorbed smooth face, so grave and youthful, I had a disturbing sense of being no help but rather an
obstacle to some mysterious, inexplicable, impalpable striving of his wounded spirit.

' "I suppose you intend to eat and drink and to sleep under shelter in the usual way," I remember saying with
irritation. "You say you won't touch the money that is due to you." . . . He came as near as his sort can to
making a gesture of horror. (There were three weeks and five days' pay owing him as mate of the Patna.)
"Well, that's too little to matter anyhow; but what will you do to-morrow? Where will you turn? You must live
. . ." "That isn't the thing," was the comment that escaped him under his breath. I ignored it, and went on
combating what I assumed to be the scruples of an exaggerated delicacy. "On every conceivable ground," I
concluded, "you must let me help you." "You can't," he said very simply and gently, and holding fast to some
deep idea which I could detect shimmering like a pool of water in the dark, but which I despaired of ever
approaching near enough to fathom. I surveyed his well-proportioned bulk. "At any rate," I said, "I am able to
help what I can see of you. I don't pretend to do more." He shook his head sceptically without looking at me. I
got very warm. "But I can," I insisted. "I can do even more. I am doing more. I am trusting you . . ." "The
money . . ." he began. "Upon my word you deserve being told to go to the devil," I cried, forcing the note of
indignation. He was startled, smiled, and I pressed my attack home. "It isn't a question of money at all. You
are too superficial," I said (and at the same time I was thinking to myself: Well, here goes! And perhaps he is,
after all). "Look at the letter I want you to take. I am writing to a man of whom I've never asked a favour, and
I am writing about you in terms that one only ventures to use when speaking of an intimate friend. I make
myself unreservedly responsible for you. That's what I am doing. And really if you will only reflect a little
what that means . . ."

'He lifted his head. The rain had passed away; only the water-pipe went on shedding tears with an absurd drip,
drip outside the window. It was very quiet in the room, whose shadows huddled together in corners, away
from the still flame of the candle flaring upright in the shape of a dagger; his face after a while seemed
suffused by a reflection of a soft light as if the dawn had broken already.

' "Jove!" he gasped out. "It is noble of you!"

'Had he suddenly put out his tongue at me in derision, I could not have felt more humiliated. I thought to
myself--Serve me right for a sneaking humbug. . . . His eyes shone straight into my face, but I perceived it
was not a mocking brightness. All at once he sprang into jerky agitation, like one of those flat wooden figures
that are worked by a string. His arms went up, then came down with a slap. He became another man
altogether. "And I had never seen," he shouted; then suddenly bit his lip and frowned. "What a bally ass I've
been," he said very slow in an awed tone. . . . "You are a brick! " he cried next in a muffled voice. He
snatched my hand as though he had just then seen it for the first time, and dropped it at once. "Why! this is
what I--you--I . . ." he stammered, and then with a return of his old stolid, I may say mulish, manner he began
heavily, "I would be a brute now if I . . ." and then his voice seemed to break. "That's all right," I said. I was
almost alarmed by this display of feeling, through which pierced a strange elation. I had pulled the string
accidentally, as it were; I did not fully understand the working of the toy. "I must go now," he said. "Jove!
You have helped me. Can't sit still. The very thing . . ." He looked at me with puzzled admiration. "The very
thing . . ."

'Of course it was the thing. It was ten to one that I had saved him from starvation--of that peculiar sort that is
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him, I allowed myself to wonder at the nature of the one he had, within the last three minutes, so evidently
taken into his bosom. I had forced into his hand the means to carry on decently the serious business of life, to
get food, drink, and shelter of the customary kind while his wounded spirit, like a bird with a broken wing,
might hop and flutter into some hole to die quietly of inanition there. This is what I had thrust upon him: a
definitely small thing; and--behold!--by the manner of its reception it loomed in the dim light of the candle
like a big, indistinct, perhaps a dangerous shadow. "You don't mind me not saying anything appropriate," he
burst out. "There isn't anything one could say. Last night already you had done me no end of good. Listening
to me--you know. I give you my word I've thought more than once the top of my head would fly off. . ." He
darted--positively darted--here and there, rammed his hands into his pockets, jerked them out again, flung his
cap on his head. I had no idea it was in him to be so airily brisk. I thought of a dry leaf imprisoned in an eddy
of wind, while a mysterious apprehension, a load of indefinite doubt, weighed me down in my chair. He stood
stock-still, as if struck motionless by a discovery. "You have given me confidence," he declared, soberly. "Oh!
for God's sake, my dear fellow--don't!" I entreated, as though he had hurt me. "All right. I'll shut up now and
henceforth. Can't prevent me thinking though. . . . Never mind! . . . I'll show yet . . ." He went to the door in a
hurry, paused with his head down, and came back, stepping deliberately. "I always thought that if a fellow
could begin with a clean slate . . . And now you . . . in a measure . . . yes . . . clean slate." I waved my hand,
and he marched out without looking back; the sound of his footfalls died out gradually behind the closed
door--the unhesitating tread of a man walking in broad daylight.

'But as to me, left alone with the solitary candle, I remained strangely unenlightened. I was no longer young
enough to behold at every turn the magnificence that besets our insignificant footsteps in good and in evil. I
smiled to think that, after all, it was yet he, of us two, who had the light. And I felt sad. A clean slate, did he
say? As if the initial word of each our destiny were not graven in imperishable characters upon the face of a
rock.'

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'Six months afterwards my friend (he was a cynical, more than middle-aged bachelor, with a reputation for
eccentricity, and owned a rice-mill) wrote to me, and judging, from the warmth of my recommendation, that I
would like to hear, enlarged a little upon Jim's perfections. These were apparently of a quiet and effective sort.
"Not having been able so far to find more in my heart than a resigned toleration for any individual of my kind,
I have lived till now alone in a house that even in this steaming climate could be considered as too big for one
man. I have had him to live with me for some time past. It seems I haven't made a mistake." It seemed to me
on reading this letter that my friend had found in his heart more than tolerance for Jim--that there were the
beginnings of active liking. Of course he stated his grounds in a characteristic way. For one thing, Jim kept his
freshness in the climate. Had he been a girl--my friend wrote--one could have said he was blooming--
blooming modestly--like a violet, not like some of these blatant tropical flowers. He had been in the house for
six weeks, and had not as yet attempted to slap him on the back, or address him as "old boy," or try to make
him feel a superannuated fossil. He had nothing of the exasperating young man's chatter. He was
good-tempered, had not much to say for himself, was not clever by any means, thank goodness--wrote my
friend. It appeared, however, that Jim was clever enough to be quietly appreciative of his wit, while, on the
other hand, he amused him by his naiveness. "The dew is yet on him, and since I had the bright idea of giving
him a room in the house and having him at meals I feel less withered myself. The other day he took it into his
head to cross the room with no other purpose but to open a door for me; and I felt more in touch with mankind
than I had been for years. Ridiculous, isn't it? Of course I guess there is something--some awful little scrape--
which you know all about--but if I am sure that it is terribly heinous, I fancy one could manage to forgive it.
For my part, I declare I am unable to imagine him guilty of anything much worse than robbing an orchard. Is
it much worse? Perhaps you ought to have told me; but it is such a long time since we both turned saints that
you may have forgotten we, too, had sinned in our time? It may be that some day I shall have to ask you, and
then I shall expect to be told. I don't care to question him myself till I have some idea what it is. Moreover, it's
too soon as yet. Let him open the door a few times more for me. . . ." Thus my friend. I was trebly pleased-- at
Jim's shaping so well, at the tone of the letter, at my own cleverness. Evidently I had known what I was doing.
I had read characters aright, and so on. And what if something unexpected and wonderful were to come of it?
That evening, reposing in a deck-chair under the shade of my own poop awning (it was in Hong-Kong
harbour), I laid on Jim's behalf the first stone of a castle in Spain.

'I made a trip to the northward, and when I returned I found another letter from my friend waiting for me. It
was the first envelope I tore open. "There are no spoons missing, as far as I know," ran the first line; "I haven't
been interested enough to inquire. He is gone, leaving on the breakfast-table a formal little note of apology,
which is either silly or heartless. Probably both--and it's all one to me. Allow me to say, lest you should have
some more mysterious young men in reserve, that I have shut up shop, definitely and for ever. This is the last
eccentricity I shall be guilty of. Do not imagine for a moment that I care a hang; but he is very much regretted
at tennis-parties, and for my own sake I've told a plausible lie at the club. . . ." I flung the letter aside and
started looking through the batch on my table, till I came upon Jim's handwriting. Would you believe it? One
chance in a hundred! But it is always that hundredth chance! That little second engineer of the Patna had
turned up in a more or less destitute state, and got a temporary job of looking after the machinery of the mill.
"I couldn't stand the familiarity of the little beast," Jim wrote from a seaport seven hundred miles south of the
place where he should have been in clover. "I am now for the time with Egstrom & Blake, ship-chandlers, as
their--well-- runner, to call the thing by its right name. For reference I gave them your name, which they know
of course, and if you could write a word in my favour it would be a permanent employment." I was utterly
crushed under the ruins of my castle, but of course I wrote as desired. Before the end of the year my new
charter took me that way, and I had an opportunity of seeing him.

'He was still with Egstrom & Blake, and we met in what they called "our parlour" opening out of the store. He
had that moment come in from boarding a ship, and confronted me head down, ready for a tussle. "What have
you got to say for yourself?" I began as soon as we had shaken hands. "What I wrote you--nothing more," he
said stubbornly. "Did the fellow blab--or what?" I asked. He looked up at me with a troubled smile. "Oh, no!

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He didn't. He made it a kind of confidential business between us. He was most damnably mysterious
whenever I came over to the mill; he would wink at me in a respectful manner--as much as to say 'We know
what we know.' Infernally fawning and familiar--and that sort of thing . . ." He threw himself into a chair and
stared down his legs. "One day we happened to be alone and the fellow had the cheek to say, 'Well, Mr.
James'--I was called Mr. James there as if I had been the son-- 'here we are together once more. This is better
than the old ship-- ain't it?' . . . Wasn't it appalling, eh? I looked at him, and he put on a knowing air. 'Don't
you be uneasy, sir,' he says. 'I know a gentleman when I see one, and I know how a gentleman feels. I hope,
though, you will be keeping me on this job. I had a hard time of it too, along of that rotten old Patna racket.'
Jove! It was awful. I don't know what I should have said or done if I had not just then heard Mr. Denver
calling me in the passage. It was tiffin-time, and we walked together across the yard and through the garden to
the bungalow. He began to chaff me in his kindly way . . . I believe he liked me . . ."

'Jim was silent for a while.

' "I know he liked me. That's what made it so hard. Such a splendid man! . . . That morning he slipped his
hand under my arm. . . . He, too, was familiar with me." He burst into a short laugh, and dropped his chin on
his breast. "Pah! When I remembered how that mean little beast had been talking to me," he began suddenly
in a vibrating voice, "I couldn't bear to think of myself . . . I suppose you know . . ." I nodded. . . . "More like a
father," he cried; his voice sank. "I would have had to tell him. I couldn't let it go on--could I?" "Well?" I
murmured, after waiting a while. "I preferred to go," he said slowly; "this thing must be buried."

'We could hear in the shop Blake upbraiding Egstrom in an abusive, strained voice. They had been associated
for many years, and every day from the moment the doors were opened to the last minute before closing,
Blake, a little man with sleek, jetty hair and unhappy, beady eyes, could be heard rowing his partner
incessantly with a sort of scathing and plaintive fury. The sound of that everlasting scolding was part of the
place like the other fixtures; even strangers would very soon come to disregard it completely unless it be
perhaps to mutter "Nuisance," or to get up suddenly and shut the door of the "parlour." Egstrom himself, a
raw-boned, heavy Scandinavian, with a busy manner and immense blonde whiskers, went on directing his
people, checking parcels, making out bills or writing letters at a stand-up desk in the shop, and comported
himself in that clatter exactly as though he had been stone-deaf. Now and again he would emit a bothered
perfunctory "Sssh," which neither produced nor was expected to produce the slightest effect. "They are very
decent to me here," said Jim. "Blake's a little cad, but Egstrom's all right." He stood up quickly, and walking
with measured steps to a tripod telescope standing in the window and pointed at the roadstead, he applied his
eye to it. "There's that ship which has been becalmed outside all the morning has got a breeze now and is
coming in," he remarked patiently; "I must go and board." We shook hands in silence, and he turned to go.
"Jim!" I cried. He looked round with his hand on the lock. "You--you have thrown away something like a
fortune." He came back to me all the way from the door. "Such a splendid old chap," he said. "How could I?
How could I?" His lips twitched. "Here it does not matter." "Oh! you--you--" I began, and had to cast about
for a suitable word, but before I became aware that there was no name that would just do, he was gone. I
heard outside Egstrom's deep gentle voice saying cheerily, "That's the Sarah W. Granger, Jimmy. You must
manage to be first aboard"; and directly Blake struck in, screaming after the manner of an outraged cockatoo,
"Tell the captain we've got some of his mail here. That'll fetch him. D'ye hear, Mister What's-your-name?"
And there was Jim answering Egstrom with something boyish in his tone. "All right. I'll make a race of it." He
seemed to take refuge in the boat-sailing part of that sorry business.

'I did not see him again that trip, but on my next (I had a six months' charter) I went up to the store. Ten yards
away from the door Blake's scolding met my ears, and when I came in he gave me a glance of utter
wretchedness; Egstrom, all smiles, advanced, extending a large bony hand. "Glad to see you, captain. . . .
Sssh. . . . Been thinking you were about due back here. What did you say, sir? . . . Sssh. . . . Oh! him! He has
left us. Come into the parlour." . . . After the slam of the door Blake's strained voice became faint, as the voice
of one scolding desperately in a wilderness. . . . "Put us to a great inconvenience, too. Used us badly--I must
say . . ." "Where's he gone to? Do you know?" I asked. "No. It's no use asking either," said Egstrom, standing

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bewhiskered and obliging before me with his arms hanging down his sides clumsily, and a thin silver
watch-chain looped very low on a rucked-up blue serge waistcoat. "A man like that don't go anywhere in
particular." I was too concerned at the news to ask for the explanation of that pronouncement, and he went on.
"He left--let's see--the very day a steamer with returning pilgrims from the Red Sea put in here with two
blades of her propeller gone. Three weeks ago now." "Wasn't there something said about the Patna case?" I
asked, fearing the worst. He gave a start, and looked at me as if I had been a sorcerer. "Why, yes! How do you
know? Some of them were talking about it here. There was a captain or two, the manager of Vanlo's
engineering shop at the harbour, two or three others, and myself. Jim was in here too, having a sandwich and a
glass of beer; when we are busy--you see, captain--there's no time for a proper tiffin. He was standing by this
table eating sandwiches, and the rest of us were round the telescope watching that steamer come in; and
by-and-by Vanlo's manager began to talk about the chief of the Patna; he had done some repairs for him once,
and from that he went on to tell us what an old ruin she was, and the money that had been made out of her. He
came to mention her last voyage, and then we all struck in. Some said one thing and some
another--not'much--what you or any other man might say; and there was some laughing. Captain O'Brien of
the Sarah W. Granger, a large, noisy old man with a stick--he was sitting listening to us in this arm-chair
here-- he let drive suddenly with his stick at the floor, and roars out, 'Skunks!' . . . Made us all jump. Vanlo's
manager winks at us and asks, 'What's the matter, Captain O'Brien?' 'Matter! matter!' the old man began to
shout; 'what are you Injuns laughing at? It's no laughing matter. It's a disgrace to human natur'--that's what it
is. I would despise being seen in the same room with one of those men. Yes, sir!' He seemed to catch my eye
like, and I had to speak out of civility. 'Skunks!' says I, 'of course, Captain O'Brien, and I wouldn't care to
have them here myself, so you're quite safe in this room, Captain O'Brien. Have a little something cool to
drink.' 'Dam' your drink, Egstrom,' says he, with a twinkle in his eye; 'when I want a drink I will shout for it. I
am going to quit. It stinks here now.' At this all the others burst out laughing, and out they go after the old
man. And then, sir, that blasted Jim he puts down the sandwich he had in his hand and walks round the table
to me; there was his glass of beer poured out quite full. 'I am off,' he says--just like this. 'It isn't half-past one
yet,' says I; 'you might snatch a smoke first.' I thought he meant it was time for him to go down to his work.
When I understood what he was up to, my arms fell--so! Can't get a man like that every day, you know, sir; a
regular devil for sailing a boat; ready to go out miles to sea to meet ships in any sort of weather. More than
once a captain would come in here full of it, and the first thing he would say would be, 'That's a reckless sort
of a lunatic you've got for water-clerk, Egstrom. I was feeling my way in at daylight under short canvas when
there comes flying out of the mist right under my forefoot a boat half under water, sprays going over the
mast-head, two frightened niggers on the bottom boards, a yelling fiend at the tiller. Hey! hey! Ship ahoy!
ahoy! Captain! Hey! hey! Egstrom & Blake's man first to speak to you! Hey! hey! Egstrom & Blake! Hallo!
hey! whoop! Kick the niggers--out reefs--a squall on at the time--shoots ahead whooping and yelling to me to
make sail and he would give me a lead in--more like a demon than a man. Never saw a boat handled like that
in all my life. Couldn't have been drunk--was he? Such a quiet, soft-spoken chap too--blush like a girl when
he came on board. . . .' I tell you, Captain Marlow, nobody had a chance against us with a strange ship when
Jim was out. The other ship-chandlers just kept their old customers, and . . ."

'Egstrom appeared overcome with emotion.

' "Why, sir--it seemed as though he wouldn't mind going a hundred miles out to sea in an old shoe to nab a
ship for the firm. If the business had been his own and all to make yet, he couldn't have done more in that
way. And now . . . all at once . . . like this! Thinks I to myself: 'Oho! a rise in the screw--that's the trouble-- is
it?' 'All right,' says I, 'no need of all that fuss with me, Jimmy. Just mention your figure. Anything in reason.'
He looks at me as if he wanted to swallow something that stuck in his throat. 'I can't stop with you.' 'What's
that blooming joke?' I asks. He shakes his head, and I could see in his eye he was as good as gone already, sir.
So I turned to him and slanged him till all was blue. 'What is it you're running away from?' I asks. 'Who has
been getting at you? What scared you? You haven't as much sense as a rat; they don't clear out from a good
ship. Where do you expect to get a better berth?--you this and you that.' I made him look sick, I can tell you.
'This business ain't going to sink,' says I. He gave a big jump. 'Good-bye,' he says, nodding at me like a lord;
'you ain't half a bad chap, Egstrom. I give you my word that if you knew my reasons you wouldn't care to

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keep me.' 'That's the biggest lie you ever told in your life,' says I; 'I know my own mind.' He made me so mad
that I had to laugh. 'Can't you really stop long enough to drink this glass of beer here, you funny beggar, you?'
I don't know what came over him; he didn't seem able to find the door; something comical, I can tell you,
captain. I drank the beer myself. 'Well, if you're in such a hurry, here's luck to you in your own drink,' says I;
'only, you mark my words, if you keep up this game you'll very soon find that the earth ain't big enough to
hold you--that's all.' He gave me one black look, and out he rushed with a face fit to scare little children."

'Egstrom snorted bitterly, and combed one auburn whisker with knotty fingers. "Haven't been able to get a
man that was any good since. It's nothing but worry, worry, worry in business. And where might you have
come across him, captain, if it's fair to ask?"

' "He was the mate of the Patna that voyage," I said, feeling that I owed some explanation. For a time Egstrom
remained very still, with his fingers plunged in the hair at the side of his face, and then exploded. "And who
the devil cares about that?" "I daresay no one," I began . . . "And what the devil is he--anyhow--for to go on
like this?" He stuffed suddenly his left whisker into his mouth and stood amazed. "Jee!" he exclaimed, "I told
him the earth wouldn't be big enough to hold his caper." '

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'I have told you these two episodes at length to show his manner of dealing with himself under the new
conditions of his life. There were many others of the sort, more than I could count on the fingers of my two
hands. They were all equally tinged by a high-minded absurdity of intention which made their futility
profound and touching. To fling away your daily bread so as to get your hands free for a grapple with a ghost
may be an act of prosaic heroism. Men had done it before (though we who have lived know full well that it is
not the haunted soul but the hungry body that makes an outcast), and men who had eaten and meant to eat
every day had applauded the creditable folly. He was indeed unfortunate, for all his recklessness could not
carry him out from under the shadow. There was always a doubt of his courage. The truth seems to be that it is
impossible to lay the ghost of a fact. You can face it or shirk it--and I have come across a man or two who
could wink at their familiar shades. Obviously Jim was not of the winking sort; but what I could never make
up my mind about was whether his line of conduct amounted to shirking his ghost or to facing him out.

'I strained my mental eyesight only to discover that, as with the complexion of all our actions, the shade of
difference was so delicate that it was impossible to say. It might have been flight and it might have been a
mode of combat. To the common mind he became known as a rolling stone, because this was the funniest
part: he did after a time become perfectly known, and even notorious, within the circle of his wanderings
(which had a diameter of, say, three thousand miles), in the same way as an eccentric character is known to a
whole countryside. For instance, in Bankok, where he found employment with Yucker Brothers, charterers
and teak merchants, it was almost pathetic to see him go about in sunshine hugging his secret, which was
known to the very up-country logs on the river. Schomberg, the keeper of the hotel where he boarded, a
hirsute Alsatian of manly bearing and an irrepressible retailer of all the scandalous gossip of the place, would,
with both elbows on the table, impart an adorned version of the story to any guest who cared to imbibe
knowledge along with the more costly liquors. "And, mind you, the nicest fellow you could meet," would be
his generous conclusion; "quite superior." It says a lot for the casual crowd that frequented Schomberg's
establishment that Jim managed to hang out in Bankok for a whole six months. I remarked that people, perfect
strangers, took to him as one takes to a nice child. His manner was reserved, but it was as though his personal
appearance, his hair, his eyes, his smile, made friends for him wherever he went. And, of course, he was no
fool. I heard Siegmund Yucker (native of Switzerland), a gentle creature ravaged by a cruel dyspepsia, and so
frightfully lame that his head swung through a quarter of a circle at every step he took, declare appreciatively
that for one so young he was "of great gabasidy," as though it had been a mere question of cubic contents.
"Why not send him up country?" I suggested anxiously. (Yucker Brothers had concessions and teak forests in
the interior.) "If he has capacity, as you say, he will soon get hold of the work. And physically he is very fit.
His health is always excellent." "Ach! It's a great ting in dis goundry to be vree vrom tispep-shia," sighed poor
Yucker enviously, casting a stealthy glance at the pit of his ruined stomach. I left him drumming pensively on
his desk and muttering, "Es ist ein' Idee. Es ist ein' Idee." Unfortunately, that very evening an unpleasant affair
took place in the hotel.

'I don't know that I blame Jim very much, but it was a truly regrettable incident. It belonged to the lamentable
species of bar-room scuffles, and the other party to it was a cross-eyed Dane of sorts whose visiting-card
recited, under his misbegotten name: first lieutenant in the Royal Siamese Navy. The fellow, of course, was
utterly hopeless at billiards, but did not like to be beaten, I suppose. He had had enough to drink to turn nasty
after the sixth game, and make some scornful remark at Jim's expense. Most of the people there didn't hear
what was said, and those who had heard seemed to have had all precise recollection scared out of them by the
appalling nature of the consequences that immediately ensued. It was very lucky for the Dane that he could
swim, because the room opened on a verandah and the Menam flowed below very wide and black. A
boat-load of Chinamen, bound, as likely as not, on some thieving expedition, fished out the officer of the King
of Siam, and Jim turned up at about midnight on board my ship without a hat. "Everybody in the room seemed
to know," he said, gasping yet from the contest, as it were. He was rather sorry, on general principles, for what
had happened, though in this case there had been, he said, "no option." But what dismayed him was to find the
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shoulders. Naturally after this he couldn't remain in the place. He was universally condemned for the brutal
violence, so unbecoming a man in his delicate position; some maintained he had been disgracefully drunk at
the time; others criticised his want of tact. Even Schomberg was very much annoyed. "He is a very nice young
man," he said argumentatively to me, "but the lieutenant is a first-rate fellow too. He dines every night at my
table d'hote, you know. And there's a billiard-cue broken. I can't allow that. First thing this morning I went
over with my apologies to the lieutenant, and I think I've made it all right for myself; but only think, captain,
if everybody started such games! Why, the man might have been drowned! And here I can't run out into the
next street and buy a new cue. I've got to write to Europe for them. No, no! A temper like that won't do!" . . .
He was extremely sore on the subject.

'This was the worst incident of all in his--his retreat. Nobody could deplore it more than myself; for if, as
somebody said hearing him mentioned, "Oh yes! I know. He has knocked about a good deal out here," yet he
had somehow avoided being battered and chipped in the process. This last affair, however, made me seriously
uneasy, because if his exquisite sensibilities were to go the length of involving him in pot-house shindies, he
would lose his name of an inoffensive, if aggravating, fool, and acquire that of a common loafer. For all my
confidence in him I could not help reflecting that in such cases from the name to the thing itself is but a step. I
suppose you will understand that by that time I could not think of washing my hands of him. I took him away
from Bankok in my ship, and we had a longish passage. It was pitiful to see how he shrank within himself. A
seaman, even if a mere passenger, takes an interest in a ship, and looks at the sea-life around him with the
critical enjoyment of a painter, for instance, looking at another man's work. In every sense of the expression
he is "on deck"; but my Jim, for the most part, skulked down below as though he had been a stowaway. He
infected me so that I avoided speaking on professional matters, such as would suggest themselves naturally to
two sailors during a passage. For whole days we did not exchange a word; I felt extremely unwilling to give
orders to my officers in his presence. Often, when alone with him on deck or in the cabin, we didn't know
what to do with our eyes.

'I placed him with De Jongh, as you know, glad enough to dispose of him in any way, yet persuaded that his
position was now growing intolerable. He had lost some of that elasticity which had enabled him to rebound
back into his uncompromising position after every overthrow. One day, coming ashore, I saw him standing on
the quay; the water of the roadstead and the sea in the offing made one smooth ascending plane, and the
outermost ships at anchor seemed to ride motionless in the sky. He was waiting for his boat, which was being
loaded at our feet with packages of small stores for some vessel ready to leave. After exchanging greetings,
we remained silent--side by side. "Jove!" he said suddenly, "this is killing work."

'He smiled at me; I must say he generally could manage a smile. I made no reply. I knew very well he was not
alluding to his duties; he had an easy time of it with De Jongh. Nevertheless, as soon as he had spoken I
became completely convinced that the work was killing. I did not even look at him. "Would you like," said I,
"to leave this part of the world altogether; try California or the West Coast? I'll see what I can do . . ." He
interrupted me a little scornfully. "What difference would it make?" . . . I felt at once convinced that he was
right. It would make no difference; it was not relief he wanted; I seemed to perceive dimly that what he
wanted, what he was, as it were, waiting for, was something not easy to define--something in the nature of an
opportunity. I had given him many opportunities, but they had been merely opportunities to earn his bread.
Yet what more could any man do? The position struck me as hopeless, and poor Brierly's saying recurred to
me, "Let him creep twenty feet underground and stay there." Better that, I thought, than this waiting above
ground for the impossible. Yet one could not be sure even of that. There and then, before his boat was three
oars' lengths away from the quay, I had made up my mind to go and consult Stein in the evening.

'This Stein was a wealthy and respected merchant. His "house" (because it was a house, Stein & Co., and there
was some sort of partner who, as Stein said, "looked after the Moluccas") had a large inter-island business,
with a lot of trading posts established in the most out-of-the-way places for collecting the produce. His wealth
and his respectability were not exactly the reasons why I was anxious to seek his advice. I desired to confide
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simple, unwearied, as it were, and intelligent good-nature illumined his long hairless face. It had deep
downward folds, and was pale as of a man who had always led a sedentary life--which was indeed very far
from being the case. His hair was thin, and brushed back from a massive and lofty forehead. One fancied that
at twenty he must have looked very much like what he was now at threescore. It was a student's face; only the
eyebrows nearly all white, thick and bushy, together with the resolute searching glance that came from under
them, were not in accord with his, I may say, learned appearance. He was tall and loose-jointed; his slight
stoop, together with an innocent smile, made him appear benevolently ready to lend you his ear; his long arms
with pale big hands had rare deliberate gestures of a pointing out, demonstrating kind. I speak of him at
length, because under this exterior, and in conjunction with an upright and indulgent nature, this man
possessed an intrepidity of spirit and a physical courage that could have been called reckless had it not been
like a natural function of the body-- say good digestion, for instance--completely unconscious of itself. It is
sometimes said of a man that he carries his life in his hand. Such a saying would have been inadequate if
applied to him; during the early part of his existence in the East he had been playing ball with it. All this was
in the past, but I knew the story of his life and the origin of his fortune. He was also a naturalist of some
distinction, or perhaps I should say a learned collector. Entomology was his special study. His collection of
Buprestidae and Longicorns--beetles all--horrible miniature monsters, looking malevolent in death and
immobility, and his cabinet of butterflies, beautiful and hovering under the glass of cases on lifeless wings,
had spread his fame far over the earth. The name of this merchant, adventurer, sometime adviser of a Malay
sultan (to whom he never alluded otherwise than as "my poor Mohammed Bonso"), had, on account of a few
bushels of dead insects, become known to learned persons in Europe, who could have had no conception, and
certainly would not have cared to know anything, of his life or character. I, who knew, considered him an
eminently suitable person to receive my confidences about Jim's difficulties as well as my own.'

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'Late in the evening I entered his study, after traversing an imposing but empty dining-room very dimly lit.
The house was silent. I was preceded by an elderly grim Javanese servant in a sort of livery of white jacket
and yellow sarong, who, after throwing the door open, exclaimed low, "O master!" and stepping aside,
vanished in a mysterious way as though he had been a ghost only momentarily embodied for that particular
service. Stein turned round with the chair, and in the same movement his spectacles seemed to get pushed up
on his forehead. He welcomed me in his quiet and humorous voice. Only one corner of the vast room, the
corner in which stood his writing-desk, was strongly lighted by a shaded reading-lamp, and the rest of the
spacious apartment melted into shapeless gloom like a cavern. Narrow shelves filled with dark boxes of
uniform shape and colour ran round the walls, not from floor to ceiling, but in a sombre belt about four feet
broad. Catacombs of beetles. Wooden tablets were hung above at irregular intervals. The light reached one of
them, and the word Coleoptera written in gold letters glittered mysteriously upon a vast dimness. The glass
cases containing the collection of butterflies were ranged in three long rows upon slender-legged little tables.
One of these cases had been removed from its place and stood on the desk, which was bestrewn with oblong
slips of paper blackened with minute handwriting.

' "So you see me--so," he said. His hand hovered over the case where a butterfly in solitary grandeur spread
out dark bronze wings, seven inches or more across, with exquisite white veinings and a gorgeous border of
yellow spots. "Only one specimen like this they have in your London, and then--no more. To my small native
town this my collection I shall bequeath. Something of me. The best."

'He bent forward in the chair and gazed intently, his chin over the front of the case. I stood at his back.
"Marvellous," he whispered, and seemed to forget my presence. His history was curious. He had been born in
Bavaria, and when a youth of twenty-two had taken an active part in the revolutionary movement of 1848.
Heavily compromised, he managed to make his escape, and at first found a refuge with a poor republican
watchmaker in Trieste. From there he made his way to Tripoli with a stock of cheap watches to hawk
about,--not a very great opening truly, but it turned out lucky enough, because it was there he came upon a
Dutch traveller--a rather famous man, I believe, but I don't remember his name. It was that naturalist who,
engaging him as a sort of assistant, took him to the East. They travelled in the Archipelago together and
separately, collecting insects and birds, for four years or more. Then the naturalist went home, and Stein,
having no home to go to, remained with an old trader he had come across in his journeys in the interior of
Celebes--if Celebes may be said to have an interior. This old Scotsman, the only white man allowed to reside
in the country at the time, was a privileged friend of the chief ruler of Wajo States, who was a woman. I often
heard Stein relate how that chap, who was slightly paralysed on one side, had introduced him to the native
court a short time before another stroke carried him off. He was a heavy man with a patriarchal white beard,
and of imposing stature. He came into the council-hall where all the rajahs, pangerans, and headmen were
assembled, with the queen, a fat wrinkled woman (very free in her speech, Stein said), reclining on a high
couch under a canopy. He dragged his leg, thumping with his stick, and grasped Stein's arm, leading him right
up to the couch. "Look, queen, and you rajahs, this is my son," he proclaimed in a stentorian voice. "I have
traded with your fathers, and when I die he shall trade with you and your sons."

'By means of this simple formality Stein inherited the Scotsman's privileged position and all his
stock-in-trade, together with a fortified house on the banks of the only navigable river in the country. Shortly
afterwards the old queen, who was so free in her speech, died, and the country became disturbed by various
pretenders to the throne. Stein joined the party of a younger son, the one of whom thirty years later he never
spoke otherwise but as "my poor Mohammed Bonso." They both became the heroes of innumerable exploits;
they had wonderful adventures, and once stood a siege in the Scotsman's house for a month, with only a score
of followers against a whole army. I believe the natives talk of that war to this day. Meantime, it seems, Stein
never failed to annex on his own account every butterfly or beetle he could lay hands on. After some eight
years of war, negotiations, false truces, sudden outbreaks, reconciliation, treachery, and so on, and just as
peace seemed at last permanently established, his "poor Mohammed Bonso" was assassinated at the gate of

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his own royal residence while dismounting in the highest spirits on his return from a successful deer-hunt.
This event rendered Stein's position extremely insecure, but he would have stayed perhaps had it not been that
a short time afterwards he lost Mohammed's sister ("my dear wife the princess," he used to say solemnly), by
whom he had had a daughter--mother and child both dying within three days of each other from some
infectious fever. He left the country, which this cruel loss had made unbearable to him. Thus ended the first
and adventurous part of his existence. What followed was so different that, but for the reality of sorrow which
remained with him, this strange part must have resembled a dream. He had a little money; he started life
afresh, and in the course of years acquired a considerable fortune. At first he had travelled a good deal
amongst the islands, but age had stolen upon him, and of late he seldom left his spacious house three miles out
of town, with an extensive garden, and surrounded by stables, offices, and bamboo cottages for his servants
and dependants, of whom he had many. He drove in his buggy every morning to town, where he had an office
with white and Chinese clerks. He owned a small fleet of schooners and native craft, and dealt in island
produce on a large scale. For the rest he lived solitary, but not misanthropic, with his books and his collection,
classing and arranging specimens, corresponding with entomologists in Europe, writing up a descriptive
catalogue of his treasures. Such was the history of the man whom I had come to consult upon Jim's case
without any definite hope. Simply to hear what he would have to say would have been a relief. I was very
anxious, but I respected the intense, almost passionate, absorption with which he looked at a butterfly, as
though on the bronze sheen of these frail wings, in the white tracings, in the gorgeous markings, he could see
other things, an image of something as perishable and defying destruction as these delicate and lifeless tissues
displaying a splendour unmarred by death.

' "Marvellous!" he repeated, looking up at me. "Look! The beauty--but that is nothing--look at the accuracy,
the harmony. And so fragile! And so strong! And so exact! This is Nature--the balance of colossal forces.
Every star is so--and every blade of grass stands so--and the mighty Kosmos il perfect equilibrium
produces--this. This wonder; this masterpiece of Nature--the great artist."

' "Never heard an entomologist go on like this," I observed cheerfully. "Masterpiece! And what of man?"

' "Man is amazing, but he is not a masterpiece," he said, keeping his eyes fixed on the glass case. "Perhaps the
artist was a little mad. Eh? What do you think? Sometimes it seems to me that man is come where he is not
wanted, where there is no place for him; for if not, why should he want all the place? Why should he run
about here and there making a great noise about himself, talking about the stars, disturbing the blades of
grass? . . ."

' "Catching butterflies," I chimed in.

'He smiled, threw himself back in his chair, and stretched his legs. "Sit down," he said. "I captured this rare
specimen myself one very fine morning. And I had a very big emotion. You don't know what it is for a
collector to capture such a rare specimen. You can't know."

'I smiled at my ease in a rocking-chair. His eyes seemed to look far beyond the wall at which they stared; and
he narrated how, one night, a messenger arrived from his "poor Mohammed," requiring his presence at the
"residenz"--as he called it--which was distant some nine or ten miles by a bridle-path over a cultivated plain,
with patches of forest here and there. Early in the morning he started from his fortified house, after embracing
his little Emma, and leaving the "princess," his wife, in command. He described how she came with him as far
as the gate, walking with one hand on the neck of his horse; she had on a white jacket, gold pins in her hair,
and a brown leather belt over her left shoulder with a revolver in it. "She talked as women will talk," he said,
"telling me to be careful, and to try to get back before dark, and what a great wikedness it was for me to go
alone. We were at war, and the country was not safe; my men were putting up bullet-proof shutters to the
house and loading their rifles, and she begged me to have no fear for her. She could defend the house against
anybody till I returned. And I laughed with pleasure a little. I liked to see her so brave and young and strong. I
too was young then. At the gate she caught hold of my hand and gave it one squeeze and fell back. I made my

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horse stand still outside till I heard the bars of the gate put up behind me. There was a great enemy of mine, a
great noble--and a great rascal too--roaming with a band in the neighbourhood. I cantered for four or five
miles; there had been rain in the night, but the musts had gone up, up--and the face of the earth was clean; it
lay smiling to me, so fresh and innocent--like a little child. Suddenly somebody fires a volley--twenty shots at
least it seemed to me. I hear bullets sing in my ear, and my hat jumps to the back of my head. It was a little
intrigue, you understand. They got my poor Mohammed to send for me and then laid that ambush. I see it all
in a minute, and I think--This wants a little management. My pony snort, jump, and stand, and I fall slowly
forward with my head on his mane. He begins to walk, and with one eye I could see over his neck a faint
cloud of smoke hanging in front of a clump of bamboos to my left. I think--Aha! my friends, why you not
wait long enough before you shoot? This is not yet gelungen. Oh no! I get hold of my revolver with my right
hand--quiet--quiet. After all, there were only seven of these rascals. They get up from the grass and start
running with their sarongs tucked up, waving spears above their heads, and yelling to each other to look out
and catch the horse, because I was dead. I let them come as close as the door here, and then bang, bang,
bang--take aim each time too. One more shot I fire at a man's back, but I miss. Too far already. And then I sit
alone on my horse with the clean earth smiling at me, and there are the bodies of three men lying on the
ground. One was curled up like a dog, another on his back had an arm over his eyes as if to keep off the sun,
and the third man he draws up his leg very slowly and makes it with one kick straight again. I watch him very
carefully from my horse, but there is no more--bleibt ganz ruhig--keep still, so. And as I looked at his face for
some sign of life I observed something like a faint shadow pass over his forehead. It was the shadow of this
butterfly. Look at the form of the wing. This species fly high with a strong flight. I raised my eyes and I saw
him fluttering away. I think--Can it be possible? And then I lost him. I dismounted and went on very slow,
leading my horse and holding my revolver with one hand and my eyes darting up and down and right and left,
everywhere! At last I saw him sitting on a small heap of dirt ten feet away. At once my heart began to beat
quick. I let go my horse, keep my revolver in one hand, and with the other snatch my soft felt hat off my head.
One step. Steady. Another step. Flop! I got him! When I got up I shook like a leaf with excitement, and when
I opened these beautiful wings and made sure what a rare and so extraordinary perfect specimen I had, my
head went round and my legs became so weak with emotion that I had to sit on the ground. I had greatly
desired to possess myself of a specimen of that species when collecting for the professor. I took long journeys
and underwent great privations; I had dreamed of him in my sleep, and here suddenly I had him in my
fingers--for myself! In the words of the poet" (he pronounced it "boet")--

" 'So halt' ich's endlich denn in meinen Handen, Und nenn' es in gewissem Sinne mein.' "

He gave to the last word the emphasis of a suddenly lowered voice, and withdrew his eyes slowly from my
face. He began to charge a long-stemmed pipe busily and in silence, then, pausing with his thumb on the
orifice of the bowl, looked again at me significantly.

' "Yes, my good friend. On that day I had nothing to desire; I had greatly annoyed my principal enemy; I was
young, strong; I had friendship; I had the love" (he said "lof") "of woman, a child I had, to make my heart
very full--and even what I had once dreamed in my sleep had come into my hand too!"

'He struck a match, which flared violently. His thoughtful placid face twitched once.

' "Friend, wife, child," he said slowly, gazing at the small flame-- "phoo!" The match was blown out. He
sighed and turned again to the glass case. The frail and beautiful wings quivered faintly, as if his breath had
for an instant called back to life that gorgeous object of his dreams.

' "The work," he began suddenly, pointing to the scattered slips, and in his usual gentle and cheery tone, "is
making great progress. I have been this rare specimen describing. . . . Na! And what is your good news?"

' "To tell you the truth, Stein," I said with an effort that surprised me, "I came here to describe a specimen. . .
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' "Butterfly?" he asked, with an unbelieving and humorous eagerness.

' "Nothing so perfect," I answered, feeling suddenly dispirited with all sorts of doubts. "A man!"

' "Ach so!" he murmured, and his smiling countenance, turned to me, became grave. Then after looking at me
for a while he said slowly, "Well--I am a man too."

'Here you have him as he was; he knew how to be so generously encouraging as to make a scrupulous man
hesitate on the brink of confidence; but if I did hesitate it was not for long.

'He heard me out, sitting with crossed legs. Sometimes his head would disappear completely in a great
eruption of smoke, and a sympathetic growl would come out from the cloud. When I finished he uncrossed his
legs, laid down his pipe, leaned forward towards me earnestly with his elbows on the arms of his chair, the
tips of his fingers together.

' "I understand very well. He is romantic."

'He had diagnosed the case for me, and at first I was quite startled to find how simple it was; and indeed our
conference resembled so much a medical consultation--Stein, of learned aspect, sitting in an arm-chair before
his desk; I, anxious, in another, facing him, but a little to one side--that it seemed natural to ask--

' "What's good for it?"

'He lifted up a long forefinger.

' "There is only one remedy! One thing alone can us from being ourselves cure!" The finger came down on the
desk with a smart rap. The case which he had made to look so simple before became if possible still
simpler--and altogether hopeless. There was a pause. "Yes," said I, "strictly speaking, the question is not how
to get cured, but how to live."

'He approved with his head, a little sadly as it seemed. "Ja! ja! In general, adapting the words of your great
poet: That is the question. . . ." He went on nodding sympathetically. . . . "How to be! Ach! How to be."

'He stood up with the tips of his fingers resting on the desk.

' "We want in so many different ways to be," he began again. "This magnificent butterfly finds a little heap of
dirt and sits still on it; but man he will never on his heap of mud keep still. He want to be so, and again he
want to be so. . . ." He moved his hand up, then down. . . . "He wants to be a saint, and he wants to be a
devil--and every time he shuts his eyes he sees himself as a very fine fellow--so fine as he can never be. . . . In
a dream. . . ."

'He lowered the glass lid, the automatic lock clicked sharply, and taking up the case in both hands he bore it
religiously away to its place, passing out of the bright circle of the lamp into the ring of fainter light--into
shapeless dusk at last. It had an odd effect--as if these few steps had carried him out of this concrete and
perplexed world. His tall form, as though robbed of its substance, hovered noiselessly over invisible things
with stooping and indefinite movements; his voice, heard in that remoteness where he could be glimpsed
mysteriously busy with immaterial cares, was no longer incisive, seemed to roll voluminous and
grave--mellowed by distance.

' "And because you not always can keep your eyes shut there comes the real trouble--the heart pain--the world
pain. I tell you, my friend, it is not good for you to find you cannot make your dream come true, for the reason
that you not strong enough are, or not clever enough. .Ja! . . . And all the time you are such a fine fellow too!

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Wie? Was? Gott im Himmel! How can that be? Ha! ha! ha!"

'The shadow prowling amongst the graves of butterflies laughed boisterously.

' "Yes! Very funny this terrible thing is. A man that is born falls into a dream like a man who falls into the sea.
If he tries to climb out into the air as inexperienced people endeavour to do, he drowns--nicht wahr? . . . No! I
tell you! The way is to the destructive element submit yourself, and with the exertions of your hands and feet
in the water make the deep, deep sea keep you up. So if you ask me--how to be?"

'His voice leaped up extraordinarily strong, as though away there in the dusk he had been inspired by some
whisper of knowledge. "I will tell you! For that too there is only one way."

'With a hasty swish-swish of his slippers he loomed up in the ring of faint light, and suddenly appeared in the
bright circle of the lamp. His extended hand aimed at my breast like a pistol; his deepset eyes seemed to
pierce through me, but his twitching lips uttered no word, and the austere exaltation of a certitude seen in the
dusk vanished from his face. The hand that had been pointing at my breast fell, and by-and-by, coming a step
nearer, he laid it gently on my shoulder. There were things, he said mournfully, that perhaps could never be
told, only he had lived so much alone that sometimes he forgot--he forgot. The light had destroyed the
assurance which had inspired him in the distant shadows. He sat down and, with both elbows on the desk,
rubbed his forehead. "And yet it is true--it is true. In the destructive element immerse." . . . He spoke in a
subdued tone, without looking at me, one hand on each side of his face. "That was the way. To follow the
dream, and again to follow the dream--and so--ewig--usque ad finem. . . ." The whisper of his conviction
seemed to open before me a vast and uncertain expanse, as of a crepuscular horizon on a plain at dawn--or
was it, perchance, at the coming of the night? One had not the courage to decide; but it was a charming and
deceptive light, throwing the impalpable poesy of its dimness over pitfalls--over graves. His life had begun in
sacrifice, in enthusiasm for generous ideas; he had travelled very far, on various ways, on strange paths, and
whatever he followed it had been without faltering, and therefore without shame and without regret. In so far
he was right. That was the way, no doubt. Yet for all that, the great plain on which men wander amongst
graves and pitfalls remained very desolate under the impalpable poesy of its crepuscular light, overshadowed
in the centre, circled with a bright edge as if surrounded by an abyss full of flames. When at last I broke the
silence it was to express the opinion that no one could be more romantic than himself.

'He shook his head slowly, and afterwards looked at me with a patient and inquiring glance. It was a shame,
he said. There we were sitting and talking like two boys, instead of putting our heads together to find
something practical--a practical remedy--for the evil--for the great evil--he repeated, with a humorous and
indulgent smile. For all that, our talk did not grow more practical. We avoided pronouncing Jim's name as
though we had tried to keep flesh and blood out of our discussion, or he were nothing but an erring spirit, a
suffering and nameless shade. "Na!" said Stein, rising. "To-night you sleep here, and in the morning we shall
do something practical-- practical. . . ." He lit a two-branched candlestick and led the way. We passed through
empty dark rooms, escorted by gleams from the lights Stein carried. They glided along the waxed floors,
sweeping here and there over the polished surface of a table, leaped upon a fragmentary curve of a piece of
furniture, or flashed perpendicularly in and out of distant mirrors, while the forms of two men and the flicker
of two flames could be seen for a moment stealing silently across the depths of a crystalline void. He walked
slowly a pace in advance with stooping courtesy; there was a profound, as it were a listening, quietude on his
face; the long flaxen locks mixed with white threads were scattered thinly upon his slightly bowed neck.

' "He is romantic--romantic," he repeated. "And that is very bad--very bad. . . . Very good, too," he added.
"But is he?" I queried.

' "Gewiss," he said, and stood still holding up the candelabrum, but without looking at me. "Evident! What is
it that by inward pain makes him know himself? What is it that for you and me makes him--exist?"

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'At that moment it was difficult to believe in Jim's existence-- starting from a country parsonage, blurred by
crowds of men as by clouds of dust, silenced by the clashing claims of life and death in a material world--but
his imperishable reality came to me with a convincing, with an irresistible force! I saw it vividly, as though in
our progress through the lofty silent rooms amongst fleeting gleams of light and the sudden revelations of
human figures stealing with flickering flames within unfathomable and pellucid depths, we had approached
nearer to absolute Truth, which, like Beauty itself, floats elusive, obscure, half submerged, in the silent still
waters of mystery. "Perhaps he is," I admitted with a slight laugh, whose unexpectedly loud reverberation
made me lower my voice directly; "but I am sure you are." With his head dropping on his breast and the light
held high he began to walk again. "Well--I exist, too," he said.

'He preceded me. My eyes followed his movements, but what I did see was not the head of the firm, the
welcome guest at afternoon receptions, the correspondent of learned societies, the entertainer of stray
naturalists; I saw only the reality of his destiny, which he had known how to follow with unfaltering footsteps,
that life begun in humble surroundings, rich in generous enthusiasms, in friendship, love, war--in all the
exalted elements of romance. At the door of my room he faced me. "Yes," I said, as though carrying on a
discussion, "and amongst other things you dreamed foolishly of a certain butterfly; but when one fine morning
your dream came in your way you did not let the splendid opportunity escape. Did you? Whereas he . . ."
Stein lifted his hand. "And do you know how many opportunities I let escape; how many dreams I had lost
that had come in my way?" He shook his head regretfully. "It seems to me that some would have been very
fine--if I had made them come true. Do you know how many? Perhaps I myself don't know." "Whether his
were fine or not," I said, "he knows of one which he certainly did not catch." "Everybody knows of one or two
like that," said Stein; "and that is the trouble--the great trouble. . . ."

'He shook hands on the threshold, peered into my room under his raised arm. "Sleep well. And to-morrow we
must do something practical--practical. . . ."

'Though his own room was beyond mine I saw him return the way he came. He was going back to his
butterflies.'

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'I don't suppose any of you have ever heard of Patusan?' Marlow resumed, after a silence occupied in the
careful lighting of a cigar. 'It does not matter; there's many a heavenly body in the lot crowding upon us of a
night that mankind had never heard of, it being outside the sphere of its activities and of no earthly importance
to anybody but to the astronomers who are paid to talk learnedly about its composition, weight, path--the
irregularities of its conduct, the aberrations of its light--a sort of scientific scandal-mongering. Thus with
Patusan. It was referred to knowingly in the inner government circles in Batavia, especially as to its
irregularities and aberrations, and it was known by name to some few, very few, in the mercantile world.
Nobody, however, had been there, and I suspect no one desired to go there in person, just as an astronomer, I
should fancy, would strongly object to being transported into a distant heavenly body, where, parted from his
earthly emoluments, he would be bewildered by the view of an unfamiliar heavens. However, neither
heavenly bodies nor astronomers have anything to do with Patusan. It was Jim who went there. I only meant
you to understand that had Stein arranged to send him into a star of the fifth magnitude the change could not
have been greater. He left his earthly failings behind him and what sort of reputation he had, and there was a
totally new set of conditions for his imaginative faculty to work upon. Entirely new, entirely remarkable. And
he got hold of them in a remarkable way.

'Stein was the man who knew more about Patusan than anybody else. More than was known in the
government circles I suspect. I have no doubt he had been there, either in his butterfly-hunting days or later
on, when he tried in his incorrigible way to season with a pinch of romance the fattening dishes of his
commercial kitchen. There were very few places in the Archipelago he had not seen in the original dusk of
their being, before light (and even electric light) had been carried into them for the sake of better morality
and-- and--well--the greater profit, too. It was at breakfast of the morning following our talk about Jim that he
mentioned the place, after I had quoted poor Brierly's remark: "Let him creep twenty feet underground and
stay there." He looked up at me with interested attention, as though I had been a rare insect. "This could be
done, too," he remarked, sipping his coffee. "Bury him in some sort," I explained. "One doesn't like to do it of
course, but it would be the best thing, seeing what he is." "Yes; he is young," Stein mused. "The youngest
human being now in existence," I affirmed. "Schon. There's Patusan," he went on in the same tone. . . . "And
the woman is dead now," he added incomprehensibly.

'Of course I don't know that story; I can only guess that once before Patusan had been used as a grave for
some sin, transgression, or misfortune. It is impossible to suspect Stein. The only woman that had ever existed
for him was the Malay girl he called "My wife the princess," or, more rarely, in moments of expansion, "the
mother of my Emma." Who was the woman he had mentioned in connection with Patusan I can't say; but
from his allusions I understand she had been an educated and very good-looking Dutch-Malay girl, with a
tragic or perhaps only a pitiful history, whose most painful part no doubt was her marriage with a Malacca
Portuguese who had been clerk in some commercial house in the Dutch colonies. I gathered from Stein that
this man was an unsatisfactory person in more ways than one, all being more or less indefinite and offensive.
It was solely for his wife's sake that Stein had appointed him manager of Stein & Co.'s trading post in
Patusan; but commercially the arrangement was not a success, at any rate for the firm, and now the woman
had died, Stein was disposed to try another agent there. The Portuguese, whose name was Cornelius,
considered himself a very deserving but ill-used person, entitled by his abilities to a better position. This man
Jim would have to relieve. "But I don't think he will go away from the place," remarked Stein. "That has
nothing to do with me. It was only for the sake of the woman that I . . . But as I think there is a daughter left, I
shall let him, if he likes to stay, keep the old house."

'Patusan is a remote district of a native-ruled state, and the chief settlement bears the same name. At a point on
the river about forty miles from the sea, where the first houses come into view, there can be seen rising above
the level of the forests the summits of two steep hills very close together, and separated by what looks like a
deep fissure, the cleavage of some mighty stroke. As a matter of fact, the valley between is nothing but a
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two halves leaning slightly apart. On the third day after the full, the moon, as seen from the open space in
front of Jim's house (he had a very fine house in the native style when I visited him), rose exactly behind these
hills, its diffused light at first throwing the two masses into intensely black relief, and then the nearly perfect
disc, glowing ruddily, appeared, gliding upwards between the sides of the chasm, till it floated away above the
summits, as if escaping from a yawning grave in gentle triumph. "Wonderful effect," said Jim by my side.
"Worth seeing. Is it not?"

'And this question was put with a note of personal pride that made me smile, as though he had had a hand in
regulating that unique spectacle. He had regulated so many things in Patusan--things that would have
appeared as much beyond his control as the motions of the moon and the stars.

'It was inconceivable. That was the distinctive quality of the part into which Stein and I had tumbled him
unwittingly, with no other notion than to get him out of the way; out of his own way, be it understood. That
was our main purpose, though, I own, I might have had another motive which had influenced me a little. I was
about to go home for a time; and it may be I desired, more than I was aware of myself, to dispose of him--to
dispose of him, you understand--before I left. I was going home, and he had come to me from there, with his
miserable trouble and his shadowy claim, like a man panting under a burden in a mist. I cannot say I had ever
seen him distinctly--not even to this day, after I had my last view of him; but it seemed to me that the less I
understood the more I was bound to him in the name of that doubt which is the inseparable part of our
knowledge. I did not know so much more about myself. And then, I repeat, I was going home--to that home
distant enough for all its hearthstones to be like one hearthstone, by which the humblest of us has the right to
sit. We wander in our thousands over the face of the earth, the illustrious and the obscure, earning beyond the
seas our fame, our money, or only a crust of bread; but it seems to me that for each of us going home must be
like going to render an account. We return to face our superiors, our kindred, our friends--those whom we
obey, and those whom we love; but even they who have neither, the most free, lonely, irresponsible and bereft
of ties,--even those for whom home holds no dear face, no familiar voice,--even they have to meet the spirit
that dwells within the land, under its sky, in its air, in its valleys, and on its rises, in its fields, in its waters and
its trees--a mute friend, judge, and inspirer. Say what you like, to get its joy, to breathe its peace, to face its
truth, one must return with a clear conscience. All this may seem to you sheer sentimentalism; and indeed
very few of us have the will or the capacity to look consciously under the surface of familiar emotions. There
are the girls we love, the men we look up to, the tenderness, the friendships, the opportunities, the pleasures!
But the fact remains that you must touch your reward with clean hands, lest it turn to dead leaves, to thorns, in
your grasp. I think it is the lonely, without a fireside or an affection they may call their own, those who return
not to a dwelling but to the land itself, to meet its disembodied, eternal, and unchangeable spirit--it is those
who understand best its severity, its saving power, the grace of its secular right to our fidelity, to our
obedience. Yes! few of us understand, but we all feel it though, and I say all without exception, because those
who do not feel do not count. Each blade of grass has its spot on earth whence it draws its life, its strength;
and so is man rooted to the land from which he draws his faith together with his life. I don't know how much
Jim understood; but I know he felt, he felt confusedly but powerfully, the demand of some such truth or some
such illusion--I don't care how you call it, there is so little difference, and the difference means so little. The
thing is that in virtue of his feeling he mattered. He would never go home now. Not he. Never. Had he been
capable of picturesque manifestations he would have shuddered at the thought and made you shudder too. But
he was not of that sort, though he was expressive enough in his way. Before the idea of going home he would
grow desperately stiff and immovable, with lowered chin and pouted lips, and with those candid blue eyes of
his glowering darkly under a frown, as if before something unbearable, as if before something revolting.
There was imagination in that hard skull of his, over which the thick clustering hair fitted like a cap. As to me,
I have no imagination (I would be more certain about him today, if I had), and I do not mean to imply that I
figured to myself the spirit of the land uprising above the white cliffs of Dover, to ask me what I--returning
with no bones broken, so to speak--had done with my very young brother. I could not make such a mistake. I
knew very well he was of those about whom there is no inquiry; I had seen better men go out, disappear,
vanish utterly, without provoking a sound of curiosity or sorrow. The spirit of the land, as becomes the ruler
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together. He had straggled in a way; he had not hung on; but he was aware of it with an intensity that made
him touching, just as a man's more intense life makes his death more touching than the death of a tree. I
happened to be handy, and I happened to be touched. That's all there is to it. I was concerned as to the way he
would go out. It would have hurt me if, for instance, he had taken to drink. The earth is so small that I was
afraid of, some day, being waylaid by a blear-eyed, swollen-faced, besmirched loafer, with no soles to his
canvas shoes, and with a flutter of rags about the elbows, who, on the strength of old acquaintance, would ask
for a loan of five dollars. You know the awful jaunty bearing of these scarecrows coming to you from a decent
past, the rasping careless voice, the half-averted impudent glances--those meetings more trying to a man who
believes in the solidarity of our lives than the sight of an impenitent death-bed to a priest. That, to tell you the
truth, was the only danger I could see for him and for me; but I also mistrusted my want of imagination. It
might even come to something worse, in some way it was beyond my powers of fancy to foresee. He wouldn't
let me forget how imaginative he was, and your imaginative people swing farther in any direction, as if given
a longer scope of cable in the uneasy anchorage of life. They do. They take to drink too. It may be I was
belittling him by such a fear. How could I tell? Even Stein could say no more than that he was romantic. I
only knew he was one of us. And what business had he to be romantic? I am telling you so much about my
own instinctive feelings and bemused reflections because there remains so little to be told of him. He existed
for me, and after all it is only through me that he exists for you. I've led him out by the hand; I have paraded
him before you. Were my commonplace fears unjust? I won't say--not even now. You may be able to tell
better, since the proverb has it that the onlookers see most of the game. At any rate, they were superfluous. He
did not go out, not at all; on the contrary, he came on wonderfully, came on straight as a die and in excellent
form, which showed that he could stay as well as spurt. I ought to be delighted, for it is a victory in which I
had taken my part; but I am not so pleased as I would have expected to be. I ask myself whether his rush had
really carried him out of that mist in which he loomed interesting if not very big, with floating outlines--a
straggler yearning inconsolably for his humble place in the ranks. And besides, the last word is not
said,--probably shall never be said. Are not our lives too short for that full utterance which through all our
stammerings is of course our only and abiding intention? I have given up expecting those last words, whose
ring, if they could only be pronounced, would shake both heaven and earth. There is never time to say our last
word--the last word of our love, of our desire, faith, remorse, submissions, revolt. The heaven and the earth
must not be shaken, I suppose--at least, not by us who know so many truths about either. My last words about
Jim shall be few. I affirm he had achieved greatness; but the thing would be dwarfed in the telling, or rather in
the hearing. Frankly, it is not my words that I mistrust but your minds. I could be eloquent were I not afraid
you fellows had starved your imaginations to feed your bodies. I do not mean to be offensive; it is respectable
to have no illusions--and safe--and profitable--and dull. Yet you, too, in your time must have known the
intensity of life, that light of glamour created in the shock of trifles, as amazing as the glow of sparks struck
from a cold stone--and as short-lived, alas!'

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'The conquest of love, honour, men's confidence--the pride of it, the power of it, are fit materials for a heroic
tale; only our minds are struck by the externals of such a success, and to Jim's successes there were no
externals. Thirty miles of forest shut it off from the sight of an indifferent world, and the noise of the white
surf along the coast overpowered the voice of fame. The stream of civilisation, as if divided on a headland a
hundred miles north of Patusan, branches east and south-east, leaving its plains and valleys, its old trees and
its old mankind, neglected and isolated, such as an insignificant and crumbling islet between the two branches
of a mighty, devouring stream. You find the name of the country pretty often in collections of old voyages.
The seventeenth-century traders went there for pepper, because the passion for pepper seemed to burn like a
flame of love in the breast of Dutch and English adventurers about the time of James the First. Where
wouldn't they go for pepper! For a bag of pepper they would cut each other's throats without hesitation, and
would forswear their souls, of which they were so careful otherwise: the bizarre obstinacy of that desire made
them defy death in a thousand shapes--the unknown seas, the loathsome and strange diseases; wounds,
captivity, hunger, pestilence, and despair. It made them great! By heavens! it made them heroic; and it made
them pathetic too in their craving for trade with the inflexible death levying its toll on young and old. It seems
impossible to believe that mere greed could hold men to such a steadfastness of purpose, to such a blind
persistence in endeavour and sacrifice. And indeed those who adventured their persons and lives risked all
they had for a slender reward. They left their bones to lie bleaching on distant shores, so that wealth might
flow to the living at home. To us, their less tried successors, they appear magnified, not as agents of trade but
as instruments of a recorded destiny, pushing out into the unknown in obedience to an inward voice, to an
impulse beating in the blood, to a dream of the future. They were wonderful; and it must be owned they were
ready for the wonderful. They recorded it complacently in their sufferings, in the aspect of the seas, in the
customs of strange nations, in the glory of splendid rulers.

'In Patusan they had found lots of pepper, and had been impressed by the magnificence and the wisdom of the
Sultan; but somehow, after a century of chequered intercourse, the country seems to drop gradually out of the
trade. Perhaps the pepper had given out. Be it as it may, nobody cares for it now; the glory has departed, the
Sultan is an imbecile youth with two thumbs on his left hand and an uncertain and beggarly revenue extorted
from a miserable population and stolen from him by his many uncles.

'This of course I have from Stein. He gave me their names and a short sketch of the life and character of each.
He was as full of information about native states as an official report, but infinitely more amusing. He had to
know. He traded in so many, and in some districts--as in Patusan, for instance--his firm was the only one to
have an agency by special permit from the Dutch authorities. The Government trusted his discretion, and it
was understood that he took all the risks. The men he employed understood that too, but he made it worth
their while apparently. He was perfectly frank with me over the breakfast-table in the morning. As far as he
was aware (the last news was thirteen months old, he stated precisely), utter insecurity for life and property
was the normal condition. There were in Patusan antagonistic forces, and one of them was Rajah Allang, the
worst of the Sultan's uncles, the governor of the river, who did the extorting and the stealing, and ground
down to the point of extinction the country-born Malays, who, utterly defenceless, had not even the resource
of emigrating--"For indeed," as Stein remarked, "where could they go, and how could they get away?" No
doubt they did not even desire to get away. The world (which is circumscribed by lofty impassable mountains)
has been given into the hand of the high-born, and this Rajah they knew: he was of their own royal house. I
had the pleasure of meeting the gentleman later on. He was a dirty, little, used-up old man with evil eyes and a
weak mouth, who swallowed an opium pill every two hours, and in defiance of common decency wore his
hair uncovered and falling in wild stringy locks about his wizened grimy face. When giving audience he
would clamber upon a sort of narrow stage erected in a hall like a ruinous barn with a rotten bamboo floor,
through the cracks of which you could see, twelve or fifteen feet below, the heaps of refuse and garbage of all
kinds lying under the house. That is where and how he received us when, accompanied by Jim, I paid him a
visit of ceremony. There were about forty people in the room, and perhaps three times as many in the great
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few youths in gay silks glared from the distance; the majority, slaves and humble dependants, were half
naked, in ragged sarongs, dirty with ashes and mud-stains. I had never seen Jim look so grave, so
self-possessed, in an impenetrable, impressive way. In the midst of these dark-faced men, his stalwart figure
in white apparel, the gleaming clusters of his fair hair, seemed to catch all the sunshine that trickled through
the cracks in the closed shutters of that dim hall, with its walls of mats and a roof of thatch. He appeared like a
creature not only of another kind but of another essence. Had they not seen him come up in a canoe they
might have thought he had descended upon them from the clouds. He did, however, come in a crazy dug-out,
sitting (very still and with his knees together, for fear of overturning the thing)--sitting on a tin box--which I
had lent him--nursing on his lap a revolver of the Navy pattern--presented by me on parting--which, through
an interposition of Providence, or through some wrong-headed notion, that was just like him, or else from
sheer instinctive sagacity, he had decided to carry unloaded. That's how he ascended the Patusan river.
Nothing could have been more prosaic and more unsafe, more extravagantly casual, more lonely. Strange, this
fatality that would cast the complexion of a flight upon all his acts, of impulsive unreflecting desertion of a
jump into the unknown.

'It is precisely the casualness of it that strikes me most. Neither Stein nor I had a clear conception of what
might be on the other side when we, metaphorically speaking, took him up and hove him over the wall with
scant ceremony. At the moment I merely wished to achieve his disappearance; Stein characteristically enough
had a sentimental motive. He had a notion of paying off (in kind, I suppose) the old debt he had never
forgotten. Indeed he had been all his life especially friendly to anybody from the British Isles. His late
benefactor, it is true, was a Scot--even to the length of being called Alexander McNeil--and Jim came from a
long way south of the Tweed; but at the distance of six or seven thousand miles Great Britain, though never
diminished, looks foreshortened enough even to its own children to rob such details of their importance. Stein
was excusable, and his hinted intentions were so generous that I begged him most earnestly to keep them
secret for a time. I felt that no consideration of personal advantage should be allowed to influence Jim; that
not even the risk of such influence should be run. We had to deal with another sort of reality. He wanted a
refuge, and a refuge at the cost of danger should be offered him--nothing more.

'Upon every other point I was perfectly frank with him, and I even (as I believed at the time) exaggerated the
danger of the undertaking. As a matter of fact I did not do it justice; his first day in Patusan was nearly his
last--would have been his last if he had not been so reckless or so hard on himself and had condescended to
load that revolver. I remember, as I unfolded our precious scheme for his retreat, how his stubborn but weary
resignation was gradually replaced by surprise, interest, wonder, and by boyish eagerness. This was a chance
he had been dreaming of. He couldn't think how he merited that I . . . He would be shot if he could see to what
he owed . . .And it was Stein, Stein the merchant, who . . .but of course it was me he had to . . . I cut him
short. He was not articulate, and his gratitude caused me inexplicable pain. I told him that if he owed this
chance to any one especially, it was to an old Scot of whom he had never heard, who had died many years
ago, of whom little was remembered besides a roaring voice and a rough sort of honesty. There was really no
one to receive his thanks. Stein was passing on to a young man the help he had received in his own young
days, and I had done no more than to mention his name. Upon this he coloured, and, twisting a bit of paper in
his fingers, he remarked bashfully that I had always trusted him.

'I admitted that such was the case, and added after a pause that I wished he had been able to follow my
example. "You think I don't?" he asked uneasily, and remarked in a mutter that one had to get some sort of
show first; then brightening up, and in a loud voice he protested he would give me no occasion to regret my
confidence, which--which . . .

' "Do not misapprehend," I interrupted. "It is not in your power to make me regret anything." There would be
no regrets; but if there were, it would be altogether my own affair: on the other hand, I wished him to
understand clearly that this arrangement, this-- this--experiment, was his own doing; he was responsible for it
and no one else. "Why? Why," he stammered, "this is the very thing that I . . ." I begged him not to be dense,
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think so?" he asked, disturbed; but in a moment added confidently, "I was going on though. Was I not?" It was
impossible to be angry with him: I could not help a smile, and told him that in the old days people who went
on like this were on the way of becoming hermits in a wilderness. "Hermits be hanged!" he commented with
engaging impulsiveness. Of course he didn't mind a wilderness. . . . "I was glad of it," I said. That was where
he would be going to. He would find it lively enough, I ventured to promise. "Yes, yes," he said, keenly. He
had shown a desire, I continued inflexibly, to go out and shut the door after him. . . . "Did I?" he interrupted in
a strange access of gloom that seemed to envelop him from head to foot like the shadow of a passing cloud.
He was wonderfully expressive after all. Wonderfully! "Did I?" he repeated bitterly. "You can't say I made
much noise about it. And I can keep it up, too--only, confound it! you show me a door." . . . "Very well. Pass
on," I struck in. I could make him a solemn promise that it would be shut behind him with a vengeance. His
fate, whatever it was, would be ignored, because the country, for all its rotten state, was not judged ripe for
interference. Once he got in, it would be for the outside world as though he had never existed. He would have
nothing but the soles of his two feet to stand upon, and he would have first to find his ground at that. "Never
existed--that's it, by Jove," he murmured to himself. His eyes, fastened upon my lips, sparkled. If he had
thoroughly understood the conditions, I concluded, he had better jump into the first gharry he could see and
drive on to Stein's house for his final instructions. He flung out of the room before I had fairly finished
speaking.'

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'He did not return till next morning. He had been kept to dinner and for the night. There never had been such a
wonderful man as Mr. Stein. He had in his pocket a letter for Cornelius ("the Johnnie who's going to get the
sack," he explained, with a momentary drop in his elation), and he exhibited with glee a silver ring, such as
natives use, worn down very thin and showing faint traces of chasing.

'This was his introduction to an old chap called Doramin--one of the principal men out there--a big pot--who
had been Mr. Stein's friend in that country where he had all these adventures. Mr. Stein called him
"war-comrade." War-comrade was good. Wasn't it? And didn't Mr. Stein speak English wonderfully well?
Said he had learned it in Celebes--of all places! That was awfully funny. Was it not? He did speak with an
accent--a twang--did I notice? That chap Doramin had given him the ring. They had exchanged presents when
they parted for the last time. Sort of promising eternal friendship. He called it fine--did I not? They had to
make a dash for dear life out of the country when that Mohammed--Mohammed--What's-his-name had been
killed. I knew the story, of course. Seemed a beastly shame, didn't it? . . .

'He ran on like this, forgetting his plate, with a knife and fork in hand (he had found me at tiffin), slightly
flushed, and with his eyes darkened many shades, which was with him a sign of excitement. The ring was a
sort of credential--("It's like something you read of in books," he threw in appreciatively)--and Doramin
would do his best for him. Mr. Stein had been the means of saving that chap's life on some occasion; purely
by accident, Mr. Stein had said, but he--Jim--had his own opinion about that. Mr. Stein was just the man to
look out for such accidents. No matter. Accident or purpose, this would serve his turn immensely. Hoped to
goodness the jolly old beggar had not gone off the hooks meantime. Mr. Stein could not tell. There had been
no news for more than a year; they were kicking up no end of an all-fired row amongst themselves, and the
river was closed. Jolly awkward, this; but, no fear; he would manage to find a crack to get in.

'He impressed, almost frightened, me with his elated rattle. He was voluble like a youngster on the eve of a
long holiday with a prospect of delightful scrapes, and such an attitude of mind in a grown man and in this
connection had in it something phenomenal, a little mad, dangerous, unsafe. I was on the point of entreating
him to take things seriously when he dropped his knife and fork (he had begun eating, or rather swallowing
food, as it were, unconsciously), and began a search all round his plate. The ring! The ring! Where the devil . .
. Ah! Here it was . . . He closed his big hand on it, and tried all his pockets one after another. Jove! wouldn't
do to lose the thing. He meditated gravely over his fist. Had it? Would hang the bally affair round his neck!
And he proceeded to do this immediately, producing a string (which looked like a bit of a cotton shoe-lace)
for the purpose. There! That would do the trick! It would be the deuce if . . . He seemed to catch sight of my
face for the first time, and it steadied him a little. I probably didn't realise, he said with a naive gravity, how
much importance he attached to that token. It meant a friend; and it is a good thing to have a friend. He knew
something about that. He nodded at me expressively, but before my disclaiming gesture he leaned his head on
his hand and for a while sat silent, playing thoughtfully with the bread-crumbs on the cloth . . . "Slam the
door--that was jolly well put," he cried, and jumping up, began to pace the room, reminding me by the set of
the shoulders, the turn of his head, the headlong and uneven stride, of that night when he had paced thus,
confessing, explaining--what you will--but, in the last instance, living--living before me, under his own little
cloud, with all his unconscious subtlety which could draw consolation from the very source of sorrow. It was
the same mood, the same and different, like a fickle companion that to-day guiding you on the true path, with
the same eyes, the same step, the same impulse, to-morrow will lead you hopelessly astray. His tread was
assured, his straying, darkened eyes seemed to search the room for something. One of his footfalls somehow
sounded louder than the other--the fault of his boots probably--and gave a curious impression of an invisible
halt in his gait. One of his hands was rammed deep into his trousers' pocket, the other waved suddenly above
his head. "Slam the door!" he shouted. "I've been waiting for that. I'll show yet . . . I'll . . . I'm ready for any
confounded thing . . . I've been dreaming of it . . . Jove! Get out of this. Jove! This is luck at last . . . You wait.
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'He tossed his head fearlessly, and I confess that for the first and last time in our acquaintance I perceived
myself unexpectedly to be thoroughly sick of him. Why these vapourings? He was stumping about the room
flourishing his arm absurdly, and now and then feeling on his breast for the ring under his clothes. Where was
the sense of such exaltation in a man appointed to be a trading-clerk, and in a place where there was no
trade--at that? Why hurl defiance at the universe? This was not a proper frame of mind to approach any
undertaking; an improper frame of mind not only for him, I said, but for any man. He stood still over me. Did
I think so? he asked, by no means subdued, and with a smile in which I seemed to detect suddenly something
insolent. But then I am twenty years his senior. Youth is insolent; it is its right--its necessity; it has got to
assert itself, and all assertion in this world of doubts is a defiance, is an insolence. He went off into a far
corner, and coming back, he, figuratively speaking, turned to rend me. I spoke like that because I--even I, who
had been no end kind to him--even I remembered-- remembered--against him--what--what had happened. And
what about others--the--the--world? Where's the wonder he wanted to get out, meant to get out, meant to stay
out--by heavens! And I talked about proper frames of mind!

' "It is not I or the world who remember," I shouted. "It is you--you, who remember."

'He did not flinch, and went on with heat, "Forget everything, everybody, everybody." . . . His voice fell. . .
"But you," he added.

' "Yes--me too--if it would help," I said, also in a low tone. After this we remained silent and languid for a
time as if exhausted. Then he began again, composedly, and told me that Mr. Stein had instructed him to wait
for a month or so, to see whether it was possible for him to remain, before he began building a new house for
himself, so as to avoid "vain expense." He did make use of funny expressions--Stein did. "Vain expense" was
good. . . . Remain? Why! of course. He would hang on. Let him only get in--that's all; he would answer for it
he would remain. Never get out. It was easy enough to remain.

' "Don't be foolhardy," I said, rendered uneasy by his threatening tone. "If you only live long enough you will
want to come back."

' "Come back to what?" he asked absently, with his eyes fixed upon the face of a clock on the wall.

'I was silent for a while. "Is it to be never, then?" I said. "Never," he repeated dreamily without looking at me,
and then flew into sudden activity. "Jove! Two o'clock, and I sail at four!"

'It was true. A brigantine of Stein's was leaving for the westward that afternoon, and he had been instructed to
take his passage in her, only no orders to delay the sailing had been given. I suppose Stein forgot. He made a
rush to get his things while I went aboard my ship, where he promised to call on his way to the outer
roadstead. He turned up accordingly in a great hurry and with a small leather valise in his hand. This wouldn't
do, and I offered him an old tin trunk of mine supposed to be water-tight, or at least damp-tight. He effected
the transfer by the simple process of shooting out the contents of his valise as you would empty a sack of
wheat. I saw three books in the tumble; two small, in dark covers, and a thick green-and-gold volume--a
half-crown complete Shakespeare. "You read this?" I asked. "Yes. Best thing to cheer up a fellow," he said
hastily. I was struck by this appreciation, but there was no time for Shakespearian talk. A heavy revolver and
two small boxes of cartridges were lying on the cuddy-table. "Pray take this," I said. "It may help you to
remain." No sooner were these words out of my mouth than I perceived what grim meaning they could bear.
"May help you to get in," I corrected myself remorsefully. He however was not troubled by obscure
meanings; he thanked me effusively and bolted out, calling Good-bye over his shoulder. I heard his voice
through the ship's side urging his boatmen to give way, and looking out of the stern-port I saw the boat
rounding under the counter. He sat in her leaning forward, exciting his men with voice and gestures; and as he
had kept the revolver in his hand and seemed to be presenting it at their heads, I shall never forget the scared
faces of the four Javanese, and the frantic swing of their stroke which snatched that vision from under my
eyes. Then turning away, the first thing I saw were the two boxes of cartridges on the cuddy-table. He had

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forgotten to take them.

'I ordered my gig manned at once; but Jim's rowers, under the impression that their lives hung on a thread
while they had that madman in the boat, made such excellent time that before I had traversed half the distance
between the two vessels I caught sight of him clambering over the rail, and of his box being passed up. All the
brigantine's canvas was loose, her mainsail was set, and the windlass was just beginning to clink as I stepped
upon her deck: her master, a dapper little half-caste of forty or so, in a blue flannel suit, with lively eyes, his
round face the colour of lemon-peel, and with a thin little black moustache drooping on each side of his thick,
dark lips, came forward smirking. He turned out, notwithstanding his self-satisfied and cheery exterior, to be
of a careworn temperament. In answer to a remark of mine (while Jim had gone below for a moment) he said,
"Oh yes. Patusan." He was going to carry the gentleman to the mouth of the river, but would "never ascend."
His flowing English seemed to be derived from a dictionary compiled by a lunatic. Had Mr. Stein desired him
to "ascend," he would have "reverentially"--(I think he wanted to say respectfully--but devil only
knows)--"reverentially made objects for the safety of properties." If disregarded, he would have presented
"resignation to quit." Twelve months ago he had made his last voyage there, and though Mr. Cornelius
"propitiated many offertories" to Mr. Rajah Allang and the "principal populations," on conditions which made
the trade "a snare and ashes in the mouth," yet his ship had been fired upon from the woods by "irresponsive
parties" all the way down the river; which causing his crew "from exposure to limb to remain silent in
hidings," the brigantine was nearly stranded on a sandbank at the bar, where she "would have been perishable
beyond the act of man." The angry disgust at the recollection, the pride of his fluency, to which he turned an
attentive ear, struggled for the possession of his broad simple face. He scowled and beamed at me, and
watched with satisfaction the undeniable effect of his phraseology. Dark frowns ran swiftly over the placid
sea, and the brigantine, with her fore-topsail to the mast and her main-boom amidships, seemed bewildered
amongst the cat's-paws. He told me further, gnashing his teeth, that the Rajah was a "laughable hyaena" (can't
imagine how he got hold of hyaenas); while somebody else was many times falser than the "weapons of a
crocodile." Keeping one eye on the movements of his crew forward, he let loose his volubility--comparing the
place to a "cage of beasts made ravenous by long impenitence." I fancy he meant impunity. He had no
intention, he cried, to "exhibit himself to be made attached purposefully to robbery." The long-drawn wails,
giving the time for the pull of the men catting the anchor, came to an end, and he lowered his voice. "Plenty
too much enough of Patusan," he concluded, with energy.

'I heard afterwards he had been so indiscreet as to get himself tied up by the neck with a rattan halter to a post
planted in the middle of a mud-hole before the Rajah's house. He spent the best part of a day and a whole
night in that unwholesome situation, but there is every reason to believe the thing had been meant as a sort of
joke. He brooded for a while over that horrid memory, I suppose, and then addressed in a quarrelsome tone
the man coming aft to the helm. When he turned to me again it was to speak judicially, without passion. He
would take the gentleman to the mouth of the river at Batu Kring (Patusan town "being situated internally," he
remarked, "thirty miles"). But in his eyes, he continued--a tone of bored, weary conviction replacing his
previous voluble delivery-- the gentleman was already "in the similitude of a corpse." "What? What do you
say?" I asked. He assumed a startlingly ferocious demeanour, and imitated to perfection the act of stabbing
from behind. "Already like the body of one deported," he explained, with the insufferably conceited air of his
kind after what they imagine a display of cleverness. Behind him I perceived Jim smiling silently at me, and
with a raised hand checking the exclamation on my lips.

'Then, while the half-caste, bursting with importance, shouted his orders, while the yards swung creaking and
the heavy boom came surging over, Jim and I, alone as it were, to leeward of the mainsail, clasped each
other's hands and exchanged the last hurried words. My heart was freed from that dull resentment which had
existed side by side with interest in his fate. The absurd chatter of the half-caste had given more reality to the
miserable dangers of his path than Stein's careful statements. On that occasion the sort of formality that had
been always present in our intercourse vanished from our speech; I believe I called him "dear boy," and he
tacked on the words "old man" to some half-uttered expression of gratitude, as though his risk set off against
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unexpected and short-lived like a glimpse of some everlasting, of some saving truth. He exerted himself to
soothe me as though he had been the more mature of the two. "All right, all right," he said, rapidly, and with
feeling. "I promise to take care of myself. Yes; I won't take any risks. Not a single blessed risk. Of course not.
I mean to hang out. Don't you worry. Jove! I feel as if nothing could touch me. Why! this is luck from the
word Go. I wouldn't spoil such a magnificent chance!" . . . A magnificent chance! Well, it was magnificent,
but chances are what men make them, and how was I to know? As he had said, even I--even I
remembered--his--his misfortune against him. It was true. And the best thing for him was to go.

'My gig had dropped in the wake of the brigantine, and I saw him aft detached upon the light of the westering
sun, raising his cap high above his head. I heard an indistinct shout, "You--shall-- hear--of--me." Of me, or
from me, I don't know which. I think it must have been of me. My eyes were too dazzled by the glitter of the
sea below his feet to see him clearly; I am fated never to see him clearly; but I can assure you no man could
have appeared less "in the similitude of a corpse," as that half-caste croaker had put it. I could see the little
wretch's face, the shape and colour of a ripe pumpkin, poked out somewhere under Jim's elbow. He, too,
raised his arm as if for a downward thrust. Absit omen!'

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'The coast of Patusan (I saw it nearly two years afterwards) is straight and sombre, and faces a misty ocean.
Red trails are seen like cataracts of rust streaming under the dark-green foliage of bushes and creepers
clothing the low cliffs. Swampy plains open out at the mouth of rivers, with a view of jagged blue peaks
beyond the vast forests. In the offing a chain of islands, dark, crumbling shapes, stand out in the everlasting
sunlit haze like the remnants of a wall breached by the sea.

'There is a village of fisher-folk at the mouth of the Batu Kring branch of the estuary. The river, which had
been closed so long, was open then, and Stein's little schooner, in which I had my passage, worked her way up
in three tides without being exposed to a fusillade from "irresponsive parties." Such a state of affairs belonged
already to ancient history, if I could believe the elderly headman of the fishing village, who came on board to
act as a sort of pilot. He talked to me (the second white man he had ever seen) with confidence, and most of
his talk was about the first white man he had ever seen. He called him Tuan Jim, and the tone of his references
was made remarkable by a strange mixture of familiarity and awe. They, in the village, were under that lord's
special protection, which showed that Jim bore no grudge. If he had warned me that I would hear of him it
was perfectly true. I was hearing of him. There was already a story that the tide had turned two hours before
its time to help him on his journey up the river. The talkative old man himself had steered the canoe and had
marvelled at the phenomenon. Moreover, all the glory was in his family. His son and his son-in-law had
paddled; but they were only youths without experience, who did not notice the speed of the canoe till he
pointed out to them the amazing fact.

'Jim's coming to that fishing village was a blessing; but to them, as to many of us, the blessing came heralded
by terrors. So many generations had been released since the last white man had visited the river that the very
tradition had been lost. The appearance of the being that descended upon them and demanded inflexibly to be
taken up to Patusan was discomposing; his insistence was alarming; his generosity more than suspicious. It
was an unheard-of request. There was no precedent. What would the Rajah say to this? What would he do to
them? The best part of the night was spent in consultation; but the immediate risk from the anger of that
strange man seemed so great that at last a cranky dug-out was got ready. The women shrieked with grief as it
put off. A fearless old hag cursed the stranger.

'He sat in it, as I've told you, on his tin box, nursing the unloaded revolver on his lap. He sat with
precaution--than which there is nothing more fatiguing--and thus entered the land he was destined to fill with
the fame of his virtues, from the blue peaks inland to the white ribbon of surf on the coast. At the first bend he
lost sight of the sea with its labouring waves for ever rising, sinking, and vanishing to rise again--the very
image of struggling mankind--and faced the immovable forests rooted deep in the soil, soaring towards the
sunshine, everlasting in the shadowy might of their tradition, like life itself. And his opportunity sat veiled by
his side like an Eastern bride waiting to be uncovered by the hand of the master. He too was the heir of a
shadowy and mighty tradition! He told me, however, that he had never in his life felt so depressed and tired as
in that canoe. All the movement he dared to allow himself was to reach, as it were by stealth, after the shell of
half a cocoa-nut floating between his shoes, and bale some of the water out with a carefully restrained action.
He discovered how hard the lid of a block-tin case was to sit upon. He had heroic health; but several times
during that journey he experienced fits of giddiness, and between whiles he speculated hazily as to the size of
the blister the sun was raising on his back. For amusement he tried by looking ahead to decide whether the
muddy object he saw lying on the water's edge was a log of wood or an alligator. Only very soon he had to
give that up. No fun in it. Always alligator. One of them flopped into the river and all but capsized the canoe.
But this excitement was over directly. Then in a long empty reach he was very grateful to a troop of monkeys
who came right down on the bank and made an insulting hullabaloo on his passage. Such was the way in
which he was approaching greatness as genuine as any man ever achieved. Principally, he longed for sunset;
and meantime his three paddlers were preparing to put into execution their plan of delivering him up to the
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' "I suppose I must have been stupid with fatigue, or perhaps I did doze off for a time," he said. The first thing
he knew was his canoe coming to the bank. He became instantaneously aware of the forest having been left
behind, of the first houses being visible higher up, of a stockade on his left, and of his boatmen leaping out
together upon a low point of land and taking to their heels. Instinctively he leaped out after them. At first he
thought himself deserted for some inconceivable reason, but he heard excited shouts, a gate swung open, and a
lot of people poured out, making towards him. At the same time a boat full of armed men appeared on the
river and came alongside his empty canoe, thus shutting off his retreat.

' "I was too startled to be quite cool--don't you know? and if that revolver had been loaded I would have shot
somebody--perhaps two, three bodies, and that would have been the end of me. But it wasn't. . . ." "Why not?"
I asked. "Well, I couldn't fight the whole population, and I wasn't coming to them as if I were afraid of my
life," he said, with just a faint hint of his stubborn sulkiness in the glance he gave me. I refrained from
pointing out to him that they could not have known the chambers were actually empty. He had to satisfy
himself in his own way. . . . "Anyhow it wasn't," he repeated good-humouredly, "and so I just stood still and
asked them what was the matter. That seemed to strike them dumb. I saw some of these thieves going off with
my box. That long-legged old scoundrel Kassim (I'll show him to you to-morrow) ran out fussing to me about
the Rajah wanting to see me. I said, 'All right.' I too wanted to see the Rajah, and I simply walked in through
the gate and--and--here I am." He laughed, and then with unexpected emphasis, "And do you know what's the
best in it?" he asked. "I'll tell you. It's the knowledge that had I been wiped out it is this place that would have
been the loser."

'He spoke thus to me before his house on that evening I've mentioned-- after we had watched the moon float
away above the chasm between the hills like an ascending spirit out of a grave; its sheen descended, cold and
pale, like the ghost of dead sunlight. There is something haunting in the light of the moon; it has all the
dispassionateness of a disembodied soul, and something of its inconceivable mystery. It is to our sunshine,
which--say what you like--is all we have to live by, what the echo is to the sound: misleading and confusing
whether the note be mocking or sad. It robs all forms of matter--which, after all, is our domain--of their
substance, and gives a sinister reality to shadows alone. And the shadows were very real around us, but Jim by
my side looked very stalwart, as though nothing--not even the occult power of moonlight--could rob him of
his reality in my eyes. Perhaps, indeed, nothing could touch him since he had survived the assault of the dark
powers. All was silent, all was still; even on the river the moonbeams slept as on a pool. It was the moment of
high water, a moment of immobility that accentuated the utter isolation of this lost corner of the earth. The
houses crowding along the wide shining sweep without ripple or glitter, stepping into the water in a line of
jostling, vague, grey, silvery forms mingled with black masses of shadow, were like a spectral herd of
shapeless creatures pressing forward to drink in a spectral and lifeless stream. Here and there a red gleam
twinkled within the bamboo walls, warm, like a living spark, significant of human affections, of shelter, of
repose.

'He confessed to me that he often watched these tiny warm gleams go out one by one, that he loved to see
people go to sleep under his eyes, confident in the security of to-morrow. "Peaceful here, eh?" he asked. He
was not eloquent, but there was a deep meaning in the words that followed. "Look at these houses; there's not
one where I am not trusted. Jove! I told you I would hang on. Ask any man, woman, or child . . ." He paused.
"Well, I am all right anyhow."

'I observed quickly that he had found that out in the end. I had been sure of it, I added. He shook his head.
"Were you?" He pressed my arm lightly above the elbow. "Well, then--you were right."

'There was elation and pride, there was awe almost, in that low exclamation. "Jove!" he cried, "only think
what it is to me." Again he pressed my arm. "And you asked me whether I thought of leaving. Good God! I!
want to leave! Especially now after what you told me of Mr. Stein's . . . Leave! Why! That's what I was afraid
of. It would have been--it would have been harder than dying. No--on my word. Don't laugh. I must
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Leave! For where? What for? To get what?"

'I had told him (indeed it was the main object of my visit) that it was Stein's intention to present him at once
with the house and the stock of trading goods, on certain easy conditions which would make the transaction
perfectly regular and valid. He began to snort and plunge at first. "Confound your delicacy!" I shouted. "It
isn't Stein at all. It's giving you what you had made for yourself. And in any case keep your remarks for
McNeil--when you meet him in the other world. I hope it won't happen soon. . . ." He had to give in to my
arguments, because all his conquests, the trust, the fame, the friendships, the love--all these things that made
him master had made him a captive, too. He looked with an owner's eye at the peace of the evening, at the
river, at the houses, at the everlasting life of the forests, at the life of the old mankind, at the secrets of the
land, at the pride of his own heart; but it was they that possessed him and made him their own to the
innermost thought, to the slightest stir of blood, to his last breath.

'It was something to be proud of. I, too, was proud--for him, if not so certain of the fabulous value of the
bargain. It was wonderful. It was not so much of his fearlessness that I thought. It is strange how little account
I took of it: as if it had been something too conventional to be at the root of the matter. No. I was more struck
by the other gifts he had displayed. He had proved his grasp of the unfamiliar situation, his intellectual
alertness in that field of thought. There was his readiness, too! Amazing. And all this had come to him in a
manner like keen scent to a well-bred hound. He was not eloquent, but there was a dignity in this
constitutional reticence, there was a high seriousness in his stammerings. He had still his old trick of stubborn
blushing. Now and then, though, a word, a sentence, would escape him that showed how deeply, how
solemnly, he felt about that work which had given him the certitude of rehabilitation. That is why he seemed
to love the land and the people with a sort of fierce egoism, with a contemptuous tenderness.'

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' "This is where I was prisoner for three days," he murmured to me (it was on the occasion of our visit to the
Rajah), while we were making our way slowly through a kind of awestruck riot of dependants across Tunku
Allang's courtyard. "Filthy place, isn't it? And I couldn't get anything to eat either, unless I made a row about
it, and then it was only a small plate of rice and a fried fish not much bigger than a stickleback--confound
them! Jove! I've been hungry prowling inside this stinking enclosure with some of these vagabonds shoving
their mugs right under my nose. I had given up that famous revolver of yours at the first demand. Glad to get
rid of the bally thing. Look like a fool walking about with an empty shooting-iron in my hand." At that
moment we came into the presence, and he became unflinchingly grave and complimentary with his late
captor. Oh! magnificent! I want to laugh when I think of it. But I was impressed, too. The old disreputable
Tunku Allang could not help showing his fear (he was no hero, for all the tales of his hot youth he was fond of
telling); and at the same time there was a wistful confidence in his manner towards his late prisoner. Note!
Even where he would be most hated he was still trusted. Jim--as far as I could follow the conversation--was
improving the occasion by the delivery of a lecture. Some poor villagers had been waylaid and robbed while
on their way to Doramin's house with a few pieces of gum or beeswax which they wished to exchange for
rice. "It was Doramin who was a thief," burst out the Rajah. A shaking fury seemed to enter that old frail
body. He writhed weirdly on his mat, gesticulating with his hands and feet, tossing the tangled strings of his
mop--an impotent incarnation of rage. There were staring eyes and dropping jaws all around us. Jim began to
speak. Resolutely, coolly, and for some time he enlarged upon the text that no man should be prevented from
getting his food and his children's food honestly. The other sat like a tailor at his board, one palm on each
knee, his head low, and fixing Jim through the grey hair that fell over his very eyes. When Jim had done there
was a great stillness. Nobody seemed to breathe even; no one made a sound till the old Rajah sighed faintly,
and looking up, with a toss of his head, said quickly, "You hear, my people! No more of these little games."
This decree was received in profound silence. A rather heavy man, evidently in a position of confidence, with
intelligent eyes, a bony, broad, very dark face, and a cheerily of officious manner (I learned later on he was
the executioner), presented to us two cups of coffee on a brass tray, which he took from the hands of an
inferior attendant. "You needn't drink," muttered Jim very rapidly. I didn't perceive the meaning at first, and
only looked at him. He took a good sip and sat composedly, holding the saucer in his left hand. In a moment I
felt excessively annoyed. "Why the devil," I whispered, smiling at him amiably, "do you expose me to such a
stupid risk?" I drank, of course, there was nothing for it, while he gave no sign, and almost immediately
afterwards we took our leave. While we were going down the courtyard to our boat, escorted by the intelligent
and cheery executioner, Jim said he was very sorry. It was the barest chance, of course. Personally he thought
nothing of poison. The remotest chance. He was--he assured me--considered to be infinitely more useful than
dangerous, and so . . . "But the Rajah is afraid of you abominably. Anybody can see that," I argued with, I
own, a certain peevishness, and all the time watching anxiously for the first twist of some sort of ghastly colic.
I was awfully disgusted. "If I am to do any good here and preserve my position," he said, taking his seat by
my side in the boat, "I must stand the risk: I take it once every month, at least. Many people trust me to do
that--for them. Afraid of me! That's just it. Most likely he is afraid of me because I am not afraid of his
coffee." Then showing me a place on the north front of the stockade where the pointed tops of several stakes
were broken, "This is where I leaped over on my third day in Patusan. They haven't put new stakes there yet.
Good leap, eh?" A moment later we passed the mouth of a muddy creek. "This is my second leap. I had a bit
of a run and took this one flying, but fell short. Thought I would leave my skin there. Lost my shoes
struggling. And all the time I was thinking to myself how beastly it would be to get a jab with a bally long
spear while sticking in the mud like this. I remember how sick I felt wriggling in that slime. I mean really
sick--as if I had bitten something rotten."

'That's how it was--and the opportunity ran by his side, leaped over the gap, floundered in the mud . . . still
veiled. The unexpectedness of his coming was the only thing, you understand, that saved him from being at
once dispatched with krisses and flung into the river. They had him, but it was like getting hold of an
apparition, a wraith, a portent. What did it mean? What to do with it? Was it too late to conciliate him? Hadn't
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with apprehension and through the difficulty of making up his mind. Several times the council was broken up,
and the advisers made a break helter-skelter for the door and out on to the verandah. One--it is said--even
jumped down to the ground--fifteen feet, I should judge--and broke his leg. The royal governor of Patusan had
bizarre mannerisms, and one of them was to introduce boastful rhapsodies into every arduous discussion,
when, getting gradually excited, he would end by flying off his perch with a kriss in his hand. But, barring
such interruptions, the deliberations upon Jim's fate went on night and day.

'Meanwhile he wandered about the courtyard, shunned by some, glared at by others, but watched by all, and
practically at the mercy of the first casual ragamuffin with a chopper, in there. He took possession of a small
tumble-down shed to sleep in; the effluvia of filth and rotten matter incommoded him greatly: it seems he had
not lost his appetite though, because--he told me--he had been hungry all the blessed time. Now and again
"some fussy ass" deputed from the council-room would come out running to him, and in honeyed tones would
administer amazing interrogatories: "Were the Dutch coming to take the country? Would the white man like
to go back down the river? What was the object of coming to such a miserable country? The Rajah wanted to
know whether the white man could repair a watch?" They did actually bring out to him a nickel clock of New
England make, and out of sheer unbearable boredom he busied himself in trying to get the alarum to work. It
was apparently when thus occupied in his shed that the true perception of his extreme peril dawned upon him.
He dropped the thing--he says--"like a hot potato," and walked out hastily, without the slightest idea of what
he would, or indeed could, do. He only knew that the position was intolerable. He strolled aimlessly beyond a
sort of ramshackle little granary on posts, and his eyes fell on the broken stakes of the palisade; and then--he
says--at once, without any mental process as it were, without any stir of emotion, he set about his escape as if
executing a plan matured for a month. He walked off carelessly to give himself a good run, and when he faced
about there was some dignitary, with two spearmen in attendance, close at his elbow ready with a question.
He started off "from under his very nose," went over "like a bird," and landed on the other side with a fall that
jarred all his bones and seemed to split his head. He picked himself up instantly. He never thought of anything
at the time; all he could remember--he said--was a great yell; the first houses of Patusan were before him four
hundred yards away; he saw the creek, and as it were mechanically put on more pace. The earth seemed fairly
to fly backwards under his feet. He took off from the last dry spot, felt himself flying through the air, felt
himself, without any shock, planted upright in an extremely soft and sticky mudbank. It was only when he
tried to move his legs and found he couldn't that, in his own words, "he came to himself." He began to think of
the "bally long spears." As a matter of fact, considering that the people inside the stockade had to run to the
gate, then get down to the landing-place, get into boats, and pull round a point of land, he had more advance
than he imagined. Besides, it being low water, the creek was without water--you couldn't call it dry--and
practically he was safe for a time from everything but a very long shot perhaps. The higher firm ground was
about six feet in front of him. "I thought I would have to die there all the same," he said. He reached and
grabbed desperately with his hands, and only succeeded in gathering a horrible cold shiny heap of slime
against his breast--up to his very chin. It seemed to him he was burying himself alive, and then he struck out
madly, scattering the mud with his fists. It fell on his head, on his face, over his eyes, into his mouth. He told
me that he remembered suddenly the courtyard, as you remember a place where you had been very happy
years ago. He longed--so he said--to be back there again, mending the clock. Mending the clock--that was the
idea. He made efforts, tremendous sobbing, gasping efforts, efforts that seemed to burst his eyeballs in their
sockets and make him blind, and culminating into one mighty supreme effort in the darkness to crack the earth
asunder, to throw it off his limbs--and he felt himself creeping feebly up the bank. He lay full length on the
firm ground and saw the light, the sky. Then as a sort of happy thought the notion came to him that he would
go to sleep. He will have it that he did actually go to sleep; that he slept--perhaps for a minute, perhaps for
twenty seconds, or only for one second, but he recollects distinctly the violent convulsive start of awakening.
He remained lying still for a while, and then he arose muddy from head to foot and stood there, thinking he
was alone of his kind for hundreds of miles, alone, with no help, no sympathy, no pity to expect from any one,
like a hunted animal. The first houses were not more than twenty yards from him; and it was the desperate
screaming of a frightened woman trying to carry off a child that started him again. He pelted straight on in his
socks, beplastered with filth out of all semblance to a human being. He traversed more than half the length of
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hands, and remained petrified with dropping jaws. He was a flying terror. He says he noticed the little children
trying to run for life, falling on their little stomachs and kicking. He swerved between two houses up a slope,
clambered in desperation over a barricade of felled trees (there wasn't a week without some fight in Patusan at
that time), burst through a fence into a maize-patch, where a scared boy flung a stick at him, blundered upon a
path, and ran all at once into the arms of several startled men. He just had breath enough to gasp out,
"Doramin! Doramin!" He remembers being half-carried, half-rushed to the top of the slope, and in a vast
enclosure with palms and fruit trees being run up to a large man sitting massively in a chair in the midst of the
greatest possible commotion and excitement. He fumbled in mud and clothes to produce the ring, and, finding
himself suddenly on his back, wondered who had knocked him down. They had simply let him go--don't you
know?--but he couldn't stand. At the foot of the slope random shots were fired, and above the roofs of the
settlement there rose a dull roar of amazement. But he was safe. Doramin's people were barricading the gate
and pouring water down his throat; Doramin's old wife, full of business and commiseration, was issuing shrill
orders to her girls. "The old woman," he said softly, "made a to-do over me as if I had been her own son. They
put me into an immense bed--her state bed--and she ran in and out wiping her eyes to give me pats on the
back. I must have been a pitiful object. I just lay there like a log for I don't know how long."

'He seemed to have a great liking for Doramin's old wife. She on her side had taken a motherly fancy to him.
She had a round, nut-brown, soft face, all fine wrinkles, large, bright red lips (she chewed betel assiduously),
and screwed up, winking, benevolent eyes. She was constantly in movement, scolding busily and ordering
unceasingly a troop of young women with clear brown faces and big grave eyes, her daughters, her servants,
her slave-girls. You know how it is in these households: it's generally impossible to tell the difference. She
was very spare, and even her ample outer garment, fastened in front with jewelled clasps, had somehow a
skimpy effect. Her dark bare feet were thrust into yellow straw slippers of Chinese make. I have seen her
myself flitting about with her extremely thick, long, grey hair falling about her shoulders. She uttered homely
shrewd sayings, was of noble birth, and was eccentric and arbitrary. In the afternoon she would sit in a very
roomy arm-chair, opposite her husband, gazing steadily through a wide opening in the wall which gave an
extensive view of the settlement and the river.

'She invariably tucked up her feet under her, but old Doramin sat squarely, sat imposingly as a mountain sits
on a plain. He was only of the nakhoda or merchant class, but the respect shown to him and the dignity of his
bearing were very striking. He was the chief of the second power in Patusan. The immigrants from Celebes
(about sixty families that, with dependants and so on, could muster some two hundred men "wearing the
kriss") had elected him years ago for their head. The men of that race are intelligent, enterprising, revengeful,
but with a more frank courage than the other Malays, and restless under oppression. They formed the party
opposed to the Rajah. Of course the quarrels were for trade. This was the primary cause of faction fights, of
the sudden outbreaks that would fill this or that part of the settlement with smoke, flame, the noise of shots
and shrieks. Villages were burnt, men were dragged into the Rajah's stockade to be killed or tortured for the
crime of trading with anybody else but himself. Only a day or two before Jim's arrival several heads of
households in the very fishing village that was afterwards taken under his especial protection had been driven
over the cliffs by a party of the Rajah's spearmen, on suspicion of having been collecting edible birds' nests
for a Celebes trader. Rajah Allang pretended to be the only trader in his country, and the penalty for the
breach of the monopoly was death; but his idea of trading was indistinguishable from the commonest forms of
robbery. His cruelty and rapacity had no other bounds than his cowardice, and he was afraid of the organised
power of the Celebes men, only--till Jim came--he was not afraid enough to keep quiet. He struck at them
through his subjects, and thought himself pathetically in the right. The situation was complicated by a
wandering stranger, an Arab half-breed, who, I believe, on purely religious grounds, had incited the tribes in
the interior (the bush-folk, as Jim himself called them) to rise, and had established himself in a fortified camp
on the summit of one of the twin hills. He hung over the town of Patusan like a hawk over a poultry-yard, but
he devastated the open country. Whole villages, deserted, rotted on their blackened posts over the banks of
clear streams, dropping piecemeal into the water the grass of their walls, the leaves of their roofs, with a
curious effect of natural decay as if they had been a form of vegetation stricken by a blight at its very root.
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with him feebly. Some of the Bugis settlers, weary with endless insecurity, were half inclined to call him in.
The younger spirits amongst them, chaffing, advised to "get Sherif Ali with his wild men and drive the Rajah
Allang out of the country." Doramin restrained them with difficulty. He was growing old, and, though his
influence had not diminished, the situation was getting beyond him. This was the state of affairs when Jim,
bolting from the Rajah's stockade, appeared before the chief of the Bugis, produced the ring, and was
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'Doramin was one of the most remarkable men of his race I had ever seen. His bulk for a Malay was immense,
but he did not look merely fat; he looked imposing, monumental. This motionless body, clad in rich stuffs,
coloured silks, gold embroideries; this huge head, enfolded in a red-and-gold headkerchief; the flat, big, round
face, wrinkled, furrowed, with two semicircular heavy folds starting on each side of wide, fierce nostrils, and
enclosing a thick-lipped mouth; the throat like a bull; the vast corrugated brow overhanging the staring proud
eyes--made a whole that, once seen, can never be forgotten. His impassive repose (he seldom stirred a limb
when once he sat down) was like a display of dignity. He was never known to raise his voice. It was a hoarse
and powerful murmur, slightly veiled as if heard from a distance. When he walked, two short, sturdy young
fellows, naked to the waist, in white sarongs and with black skull-caps on the backs of their heads, sustained
his elbows; they would ease him down and stand behind his chair till he wanted to rise, when he would turn
his head slowly, as if with difficulty, to the right and to the left, and then they would catch him under his
armpits and help him up. For all that, there was nothing of a cripple about him: on the contrary, all his
ponderous movements were like manifestations of a mighty deliberate force. It was generally believed he
consulted his wife as to public affairs; but nobody, as far as I know, had ever heard them exchange a single
word. When they sat in state by the wide opening it was in silence. They could see below them in the
declining light the vast expanse of the forest country, a dark sleeping sea of sombre green undulating as far as
the violet and purple range of mountains; the shining sinuosity of the river like an immense letter S of beaten
silver; the brown ribbon of houses following the sweep of both banks, overtopped by the twin hills uprising
above the nearer tree-tops. They were wonderfully contrasted: she, light, delicate, spare, quick, a little
witch-like, with a touch of motherly fussiness in her repose; he, facing her, immense and heavy, like a figure
of a man roughly fashioned of stone, with something magnanimous and ruthless in his immobility. The son of
these old people was a most distinguished youth.

'They had him late in life. Perhaps he was not really so young as he looked. Four- or five-and-twenty is not so
young when a man is already father of a family at eighteen. When he entered the large room, lined and
carpeted with fine mats, and with a high ceiling of white sheeting, where the couple sat in state surrounded by
a most deferential retinue, he would make his way straight to Doramin, to kiss his hand--which the other
abandoned to him, majestically--and then would step across to stand by his mother's chair. I suppose I may
say they idolised him, but I never caught them giving him an overt glance. Those, it is true, were public
functions. The room was generally thronged. The solemn formality of greetings and leave-takings, the
profound respect expressed in gestures, on the faces, in the low whispers, is simply indescribable. "It's well
worth seeing," Jim had assured me while we were crossing the river, on our way back. "They are like people
in a book, aren't they?" he said triumphantly. "And Dain Waris--their son--is the best friend (barring you) I
ever had. What Mr. Stein would call a good 'war-comrade.' I was in luck. Jove! I was in luck when I tumbled
amongst them at my last gasp." He meditated with bowed head, then rousing himself he added--' "Of course I
didn't go to sleep over it, but . . ." He paused again. "It seemed to come to me," he murmured. "All at once I
saw what I had to do . . ."

'There was no doubt that it had come to him; and it had come through war, too, as is natural, since this power
that came to him was the power to make peace. It is in this sense alone that might so often is right. You must
not think he had seen his way at once. When he arrived the Bugis community was in a most critical position.
"They were all afraid," he said to me--"each man afraid for himself; while I could see as plain as possible that
they must do something at once, if they did not want to go under one after another, what between the Rajah
and that vagabond Sherif." But to see that was nothing. When he got his idea he had to drive it into reluctant
minds, through the bulwarks of fear, of selfishness. He drove it in at last. And that was nothing. He had to
devise the means. He devised them--an audacious plan; and his task was only half done. He had to inspire
with his own confidence a lot of people who had hidden and absurd reasons to hang back; he had to conciliate
imbecile jealousies, and argue away all sorts of senseless mistrusts. Without the weight of Doramin's
authority, and his son's fiery enthusiasm, he would have failed. Dain Waris, the distinguished youth, was the
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which the very difference of race seems to draw two human beings closer by some mystic element of
sympathy. Of Dain Waris, his own people said with pride that he knew how to fight like a white man. This
was true; he had that sort of courage--the courage in the open, I may say--but he had also a European mind.
You meet them sometimes like that, and are surprised to discover unexpectedly a familiar turn of thought, an
unobscured vision, a tenacity of purpose, a touch of altruism. Of small stature, but admirably well
proportioned, Dain Waris had a proud carriage, a polished, easy bearing, a temperament like a clear flame. His
dusky face, with big black eyes, was in action expressive, and in repose thoughtful. He was of a silent
disposition; a firm glance, an ironic smile, a courteous deliberation of manner seemed to hint at great reserves
of intelligence and power. Such beings open to the Western eye, so often concerned with mere surfaces, the
hidden possibilities of races and lands over which hangs the mystery of unrecorded ages. He not only trusted
Jim, he understood him, I firmly believe. I speak of him because he had captivated me. His--if I may say
so--his caustic placidity, and, at the same time, his intelligent sympathy with Jim's aspirations, appealed to me.
I seemed to behold the very origin of friendship. If Jim took the lead, the other had captivated his leader. In
fact, Jim the leader was a captive in every sense. The land, the people, the friendship, the love, were like the
jealous guardians of his body. Every day added a link to the fetters of that strange freedom. I felt convinced of
it, as from day to day I learned more of the story.

'The story! Haven't I heard the story? I've heard it on the march, in camp (he made me scour the country after
invisible game); I've listened to a good part of it on one of the twin summits, after climbing the last hundred
feet or so on my hands and knees. Our escort (we had volunteer followers from village to village) had camped
meantime on a bit of level ground half-way up the slope, and in the still breathless evening the smell of
wood-smoke reached our nostrils from below with the penetrating delicacy of some choice scent. Voices also
ascended, wonderful in their distinct and immaterial clearness. Jim sat on the trunk of a felled tree, and pulling
out his pipe began to smoke. A new growth of grass and bushes was springing up; there were traces of an
earthwork under a mass of thorny twigs. "It all started from here," he said, after a long and meditative silence.
On the other hill, two hundred yards across a sombre precipice, I saw a line of high blackened stakes, showing
here and there ruinously--the remnants of Sherif Ali's impregnable camp.

'But it had been taken, though. That had been his idea. He had mounted Doramin's old ordnance on the top of
that hill; two rusty iron 7-pounders, a lot of small brass cannon--currency cannon. But if the brass guns
represent wealth, they can also, when crammed recklessly to the muzzle, send a solid shot to some little
distance. The thing was to get them up there. He showed me where he had fastened the cables, explained how
he had improvised a rude capstan out of a hollowed log turning upon a pointed stake, indicated with the bowl
of his pipe the outline of the earthwork. The last hundred feet of the ascent had been the most difficult. He had
made himself responsible for success on his own head. He had induced the war party to work hard all night.
Big fires lighted at intervals blazed all down the slope, "but up here," he explained, "the hoisting gang had to
fly around in the dark." From the top he saw men moving on the hillside like ants at work. He himself on that
night had kept on rushing down and climbing up like a squirrel, directing, encouraging, watching all along the
line. Old Doramin had himself carried up the hill in his arm-chair. They put him down on the level place upon
the slope, and he sat there in the light of one of the big fires--"amazing old chap--real old chieftain," said Jim,
"with his little fierce eyes--a pair of immense flintlock pistols on his knees. Magnificent things, ebony,
silver-mounted, with beautiful locks and a calibre like an old blunderbuss. A present from Stein, it seems--in
exchange for that ring, you know. Used to belong to good old McNeil. God only knows how he came by
them. There he sat, moving neither hand nor foot, a flame of dry brushwood behind him, and lots of people
rushing about, shouting and pulling round him--the most solemn, imposing old chap you can imagine. He
wouldn't have had much chance if Sherif Ali had let his infernal crew loose at us and stampeded my lot. Eh?
Anyhow, he had come up there to die if anything went wrong. No mistake! Jove! It thrilled me to see him
there--like a rock. But the Sherif must have thought us mad, and never troubled to come and see how we got
on. Nobody believed it could be done. Why! I think the very chaps who pulled and shoved and sweated over it
did not believe it could be done! Upon my word I don't think they did. . . ."

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eyes. I sat on the stump of a tree at his feet, and below us stretched the land, the great expanse of the forests,
sombre under the sunshine, rolling like a sea, with glints of winding rivers, the grey spots of villages, and here
and there a clearing, like an islet of light amongst the dark waves of continuous tree-tops. A brooding gloom
lay over this vast and monotonous landscape; the light fell on it as if into an abyss. The land devoured the
sunshine; only far off, along the coast, the empty ocean, smooth and polished within the faint haze, seemed to
rise up to the sky in a wall of steel.

'And there I was with him, high in the sunshine on the top of that historic hill of his. He dominated the forest,
the secular gloom, the old mankind. He was like a figure set up on a pedestal, to represent in his persistent
youth the power, and perhaps the virtues, of races that never grow old, that have emerged from the gloom. I
don't know why he should always have appeared to me symbolic. Perhaps this is the real cause of my interest
in his fate. I don't know whether it was exactly fair to him to remember the incident which had given a new
direction to his life, but at that very moment I remembered very distinctly. It was like a shadow in the light.'

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'Already the legend had gifted him with supernatural powers. Yes, it was said, there had been many ropes
cunningly disposed, and a strange contrivance that turned by the efforts of many men, and each gun went up
tearing slowly through the bushes, like a wild pig rooting its way in the undergrowth, but . . . and the wisest
shook their heads. There was something occult in all this, no doubt; for what is the strength of ropes and of
men's arms? There is a rebellious soul in things which must be overcome by powerful charms and
incantations. Thus old Sura--a very respectable householder of Patusan--with whom I had a quiet chat one
evening. However, Sura was a professional sorcerer also, who attended all the rice sowings and reapings for
miles around for the purpose of subduing the stubborn souls of things. This occupation he seemed to think a
most arduous one, and perhaps the souls of things are more stubborn than the souls of men. As to the simple
folk of outlying villages, they believed and said (as the most natural thing in the world) that Jim had carried
the guns up the hill on his back--two at a time.

'This would make Jim stamp his foot in vexation and exclaim with an exasperated little laugh, "What can you
do with such silly beggars? They will sit up half the night talking bally rot, and the greater the lie the more
they seem to like it." You could trace the subtle influence of his surroundings in this irritation. It was part of
his captivity. The earnestness of his denials was amusing, and at last I said, "My dear fellow, you don't
suppose I believe this." He looked at me quite startled. "Well, no! I suppose not," he said, and burst into a
Homeric peal of laughter. "Well, anyhow the guns were there, and went off all together at sunrise. Jove! You
should have seen the splinters fly," he cried. By his side Dain Waris, listening with a quiet smile, dropped his
eyelids and shuffled his feet a little. It appears that the success in mounting the guns had given Jim's people
such a feeling of confidence that he ventured to leave the battery under charge of two elderly Bugis who had
seen some fighting in their day, and went to join Dain Waris and the storming party who were concealed in
the ravine. In the small hours they began creeping up, and when two-thirds of the way up, lay in the wet grass
waiting for the appearance of the sun, which was the agreed signal. He told me with what impatient
anguishing emotion he watched the swift coming of the dawn; how, heated with the work and the climbing, he
felt the cold dew chilling his very bones; how afraid he was he would begin to shiver and shake like a leaf
before the time came for the advance. "It was the slowest half-hour in my life," he declared. Gradually the
silent stockade came out on the sky above him. Men scattered all down the slope were crouching amongst the
dark stones and dripping bushes. Dain Waris was lying flattened by his side. "We looked at each other," Jim
said, resting a gentle hand on his friend's shoulder. "He smiled at me as cheery as you please, and I dared not
stir my lips for fear I would break out into a shivering fit. 'Pon my word, it's true! I had been streaming with
perspiration when we took cover--so you may imagine . . ." He declared, and I believe him, that he had no
fears as to the result. He was only anxious as to his ability to repress these shivers. He didn't bother about the
result. He was bound to get to the top of that hill and stay there, whatever might happen. There could be no
going back for him. Those people had trusted him implicitly. Him alone! His bare word. . . .

'I remember how, at this point, he paused with his eyes fixed upon me. "As far as he knew, they never had an
occasion to regret it yet," he said. "Never. He hoped to God they never would. Meantime-- worse luck!--they
had got into the habit of taking his word for anything and everything. I could have no idea! Why, only the
other day an old fool he had never seen in his life came from some village miles away to find out if he should
divorce his wife. Fact. Solemn word. That's the sort of thing. . . He wouldn't have believed it. Would I?
Squatted on the verandah chewing betel-nut, sighing and spitting all over the place for more than an hour, and
as glum as an undertaker before he came out with that dashed conundrum. That's the kind of thing that isn't so
funny as it looks. What was a fellow to say?--Good wife?--Yes. Good wife--old though. Started a confounded
long story about some brass pots. Been living together for fifteen years--twenty years--could not tell. A long,
long time. Good wife. Beat her a little--not much--just a little, when she was young. Had to--for the sake of
his honour. Suddenly in her old age she goes and lends three brass pots to her sister's son's wife, and begins to
abuse him every day in a loud voice. His enemies jeered at him; his face was utterly blackened. Pots totally
lost. Awfully cut up about it. Impossible to fathom a story like that; told him to go home, and promised to
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through the forest, another day lost in coaxing a lot of silly villagers to get at the rights of the affair. There was
the making of a sanguinary shindy in the thing. Every bally idiot took sides with one family or the other, and
one half of the village was ready to go for the other half with anything that came handy. Honour bright! No
joke! . . . Instead of attending to their bally crops. Got him the infernal pots back of course--and pacified all
hands. No trouble to settle it. Of course not. Could settle the deadliest quarrel in the country by crooking his
little finger. The trouble was to get at the truth of anything. Was not sure to this day whether he had been fair
to all parties. It worried him. And the talk! Jove! There didn't seem to be any head or tail to it. Rather storm a
twenty-foot-high old stockade any day. Much! Child's play to that other job. Wouldn't take so long either.
Well, yes; a funny set out, upon the whole--the fool looked old enough to be his grandfather. But from another
point of view it was no joke. His word decided everything--ever since the smashing of Sherif Ali. An awful
responsibility," he repeated. "No, really-- joking apart, had it been three lives instead of three rotten brass pots
it would have been the same. . . ."

'Thus he illustrated the moral effect of his victory in war. It was in truth immense. It had led him from strife to
peace, and through death into the innermost life of the people; but the gloom of the land spread out under the
sunshine preserved its appearance of inscrutable, of secular repose. The sound of his fresh young voice-- it's
extraordinary how very few signs of wear he showed--floated lightly, and passed away over the unchanged
face of the forests like the sound of the big guns on that cold dewy morning when he had no other concern on
earth but the proper control of the chills in his body. With the first slant of sun-rays along these immovable
tree-tops the summit of one hill wreathed itself, with heavy reports, in white clouds of smoke, and the other
burst into an amazing noise of yells, war-cries, shouts of anger, of surprise, of dismay. Jim and Dain Waris
were the first to lay their hands on the stakes. The popular story has it that Jim with a touch of one finger had
thrown down the gate. He was, of course, anxious to disclaim this achievement. The whole stockade--he
would insist on explaining to you--was a poor affair (Sherif Ali trusted mainly to the inaccessible position);
and, anyway, the thing had been already knocked to pieces and only hung together by a miracle. He put his
shoulder to it like a little fool and went in head over heels. Jove! If it hadn't been for Dain Waris, a
pock-marked tattooed vagabond would have pinned him with his spear to a baulk of timber like one of Stein's
beetles. The third man in, it seems, had been Tamb' Itam, Jim's own servant. This was a Malay from the north,
a stranger who had wandered into Patusan, and had been forcibly detained by Rajah Allang as paddler of one
of the state boats. He had made a bolt of it at the first opportunity, and finding a precarious refuge (but very
little to eat) amongst the Bugis settlers, had attached himself to Jim's person. His complexion was very dark,
his face flat, his eyes prominent and injected with bile. There was something excessive, almost fanatical, in
his devotion to his "white lord." He was inseparable from Jim like a morose shadow. On state occasions he
would tread on his master's heels, one hand on the haft of his kriss, keeping the common people at a distance
by his truculent brooding glances. Jim had made him the headman of his establishment, and all Patusan
respected and courted him as a person of much influence. At the taking of the stockade he had distinguished
himself greatly by the methodical ferocity of his fighting. The storming party had come on so quick--Jim
said--that notwithstanding the panic of the garrison, there was a "hot five minutes hand-to-hand inside that
stockade, till some bally ass set fire to the shelters of boughs and dry grass, and we all had to clear out for dear
life."

'The rout, it seems, had been complete. Doramin, waiting immovably in his chair on the hillside, with the
smoke of the guns spreading slowly above his big head, received the news with a deep grunt. When informed
that his son was safe and leading the pursuit, he, without another sound, made a mighty effort to rise; his
attendants hurried to his help, and, held up reverently, he shuffled with great dignity into a bit of shade, where
he laid himself down to sleep, covered entirely with a piece of white sheeting. In Patusan the excitement was
intense. Jim told me that from the hill, turning his back on the stockade with its embers, black ashes, and
half-consumed corpses, he could see time after time the open spaces between the houses on both sides of the
stream fill suddenly with a seething rush of people and get empty in a moment. His ears caught feebly from
below the tremendous din of gongs and drums; the wild shouts of the crowd reached him in bursts of faint
roaring. A lot of streamers made a flutter as of little white, red, yellow birds amongst the brown ridges of
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' "It was . . . it was immense! Immense!" he cried aloud, flinging his arms open. The sudden movement
startled me as though I had seen him bare the secrets of his breast to the sunshine, to the brooding forests, to
the steely sea. Below us the town reposed in easy curves upon the banks of a stream whose current seemed to
sleep. "Immense!" he repeated for a third time, speaking in a whisper, for himself alone.

'Immense! No doubt it was immense; the seal of success upon his words, the conquered ground for the soles
of his feet, the blind trust of men, the belief in himself snatched from the fire, the solitude of his achievement.
All this, as I've warned you, gets dwarfed in the telling. I can't with mere words convey to you the impression
of his total and utter isolation. I know, of course, he was in every sense alone of his kind there, but the
unsuspected qualities of his nature had brought him in such close touch with his surroundings that this
isolation seemed only the effect of his power. His loneliness added to his stature. There was nothing within
sight to compare him with, as though he had been one of those exceptional men who can be only measured by
the greatness of their fame; and his fame, remember, was the greatest thing around for many a day's journey.
You would have to paddle, pole, or track a long weary way through the jungle before you passed beyond the
reach of its voice. Its voice was not the trumpeting of the disreputable goddess we all know--not blatant--not
brazen. It took its tone from the stillness and gloom of the land without a past, where his word was the one
truth of every passing day. It shared something of the nature of that silence through which it accompanied you
into unexplored depths, heard continuously by your side, penetrating, far-reaching--tinged with wonder and
mystery on the lips of whispering men.'

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'The defeated Sherif Ali fled the country without making another stand, and when the miserable hunted
villagers began to crawl out of the jungle back to their rotting houses, it was Jim who, in consultation with
Dain Waris, appointed the headmen. Thus he became the virtual ruler of the land. As to old Tunku Allang, his
fears at first had known no bounds. It is said that at the intelligence of the successful storming of the hill he
flung himself, face down, on the bamboo floor of his audience-hall, and lay motionless for a whole night and a
whole day, uttering stifled sounds of such an appalling nature that no man dared approach his prostrate form
nearer than a spear's length. Already he could see himself driven ignominiously out of Patusan, wandering
abandoned, stripped, without opium, without his women, without followers, a fair game for the first comer to
kill. After Sherif Ali his turn would come, and who could resist an attack led by such a devil? And indeed he
owed his life and such authority as he still possessed at the time of my visit to Jim's idea of what was fair
alone. The Bugis had been extremely anxious to pay off old scores, and the impassive old Doramin cherished
the hope of yet seeing his son ruler of Patusan. During one of our interviews he deliberately allowed me to get
a glimpse of this secret ambition. Nothing could be finer in its way than the dignified wariness of his
approaches. He himself--he began by declaring--had used his strength in his young days, but now he had
grown old and tired. . . . With his imposing bulk and haughty little eyes darting sagacious, inquisitive glances,
he reminded one irresistibly of a cunning old elephant; the slow rise and fall of his vast breast went on
powerful and regular, like the heave of a calm sea. He too, as he protested, had an unbounded confidence in
Tuan Jim's wisdom. If he could only obtain a promise! One word would be enough! . . . His breathing
silences, the low rumblings of his voice, recalled the last efforts of a spent thunderstorm.

'I tried to put the subject aside. It was difficult, for there could be no question that Jim had the power; in his
new sphere there did not seem to be anything that was not his to hold or to give. But that, I repeat, was
nothing in comparison with the notion, which occurred to me, while I listened with a show of attention, that
he seemed to have come very near at last to mastering his fate. Doramin was anxious about the future of the
country, and I was struck by the turn he gave to the argument. The land remains where God had put it; but
white men--he said--they come to us and in a little while they go. They go away. Those they leave behind do
not know when to look for their return. They go to their own land, to their people, and so this white man too
would. . . . I don't know what induced me to commit myself at this point by a vigorous "No, no." The whole
extent of this indiscretion became apparent when Doramin, turning full upon me his face, whose expression,
fixed in rugged deep folds, remained unalterable, like a huge brown mask, said that this was good news
indeed, reflectively; and then wanted to know why.

'His little, motherly witch of a wife sat on my other hand, with her head covered and her feet tucked up,
gazing through the great shutter-hole. I could only see a straying lock of grey hair, a high cheek-bone, the
slight masticating motion of the sharp chin. Without removing her eyes from the vast prospect of forests
stretching as far as the hills, she asked me in a pitying voice why was it that he so young had wandered from
his home, coming so far, through so many dangers? Had he no household there, no kinsmen in his own
country? Had he no old mother, who would always remember his face? . . .

'I was completely unprepared for this. I could only mutter and shake my head vaguely. Afterwards I am
perfectly aware I cut a very poor figure trying to extricate myself out of this difficulty. From that moment,
however, the old nakhoda became taciturn. He was not very pleased, I fear, and evidently I had given him
food for thought. Strangely enough, on the evening of that very day (which was my last in Patusan) I was once
more confronted with the same question, with the unanswerable why of Jim's fate. And this brings me to the
story of his love.

'I suppose you think it is a story that you can imagine for yourselves. We have heard so many such stories, and
the majority of us don't believe them to be stories of love at all. For the most part we look upon them as
stories of opportunities: episodes of passion at best, or perhaps only of youth and temptation, doomed to
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right, and perhaps in this case too. . . . Yet I don't know. To tell this story is by no means so easy as it should
be--were the ordinary standpoint adequate. Apparently it is a story very much like the others: for me,
however, there is visible in its background the melancholy figure of a woman, the shadow of a cruel wisdom
buried in a lonely grave, looking on wistfully, helplessly, with sealed lips. The grave itself, as I came upon it
during an early morning stroll, was a rather shapeless brown mound, with an inlaid neat border of white lumps
of coral at the base, and enclosed within a circular fence made of split saplings, with the bark left on. A
garland of leaves and flowers was woven about the heads of the slender posts--and the flowers were fresh.

'Thus, whether the shadow is of my imagination or not, I can at all events point out the significant fact of an
unforgotten grave. When I tell you besides that Jim with his own hands had worked at the rustic fence, you
will perceive directly the difference, the individual side of the story. There is in his espousal of memory and
affection belonging to another human being something characteristic of his seriousness. He had a conscience,
and it was a romantic conscience. Through her whole life the wife of the unspeakable Cornelius had no other
companion, confidant, and friend but her daughter. How the poor woman had come to marry the awful little
Malacca Portuguese--after the separation from the father of her girl--and how that separation had been
brought about, whether by death, which can be sometimes merciful, or by the merciless pressure of
conventions, is a mystery to me. From the little which Stein (who knew so many stories) had let drop in my
hearing, I am convinced that she was no ordinary woman. Her own father had been a white; a high official;
one of the brilliantly endowed men who are not dull enough to nurse a success, and whose careers so often
end under a cloud. I suppose she too must have lacked the saving dullness--and her career ended in Patusan.
Our common fate . . . for where is the man--I mean a real sentient man--who does not remember vaguely
having been deserted in the fullness of possession by some one or something more precious than life? . . . our
common fate fastens upon the women with a peculiar cruelty. It does not punish like a master, but inflicts
lingering torment, as if to gratify a secret, unappeasable spite. One would think that, appointed to rule on
earth, it seeks to revenge itself upon the beings that come nearest to rising above the trammels of earthly
caution; for it is only women who manage to put at times into their love an element just palpable enough to
give one a fright--an extra-terrestrial touch. I ask myself with wonder--how the world can look to
them--whether it has the shape and substance we know, the air we breathe! Sometimes I fancy it must be a
region of unreasonable sublimities seething with the excitement of their adventurous souls, lighted by the
glory of all possible risks and renunciations. However, I suspect there are very few women in the world,
though of course I am aware of the multitudes of mankind and of the equality of sexes--in point of numbers,
that is. But I am sure that the mother was as much of a woman as the daughter seemed to be. I cannot help
picturing to myself these two, at first the young woman and the child, then the old woman and the young girl,
the awful sameness and the swift passage of time, the barrier of forest, the solitude and the turmoil round
these two lonely lives, and every word spoken between them penetrated with sad meaning. There must have
been confidences, not so much of fact, I suppose, as of innermost feelings-- regrets--fears--warnings, no
doubt: warnings that the younger did not fully understand till the elder was dead--and Jim came along. Then I
am sure she understood much--not everything--the fear mostly, it seems. Jim called her by a word that means
precious, in the sense of a precious gem--jewel. Pretty, isn't it? But he was capable of anything. He was equal
to his fortune, as he--after all--must have been equal to his misfortune. Jewel he called her; and he would say
this as he might have said "Jane," don't you know--with a marital, homelike, peaceful effect. I heard the name
for the first time ten minutes after I had landed in his courtyard, when, after nearly shaking my arm off, he
darted up the steps and began to make a joyous, boyish disturbance at the door under the heavy eaves. "Jewel!
O Jewel! Quick! Here's a friend come," . . .and suddenly peering at me in the dim verandah, he mumbled
earnestly, "You know--this--no confounded nonsense about it--can't tell you how much I owe to her--and
so--you understand--I-- exactly as if . . ." His hurried, anxious whispers were cut short by the flitting of a
white form within the house, a faint exclamation, and a child-like but energetic little face with delicate
features and a profound, attentive glance peeped out of the inner gloom, like a bird out of the recess of a nest.
I was struck by the name, of course; but it was not till later on that I connected it with an astonishing rumour
that had met me on my journey, at a little place on the coast about 230 miles south of Patusan River. Stein's
schooner, in which I had my passage, put in there, to collect some produce, and, going ashore, I found to my
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greasy, blinking fellow of mixed descent, with turned-out, shiny lips. I found him lying extended on his back
in a cane chair, odiously unbuttoned, with a large green leaf of some sort on the top of his steaming head, and
another in his hand which he used lazily as a fan . . . Going to Patusan? Oh yes. Stein's Trading Company. He
knew. Had a permission? No business of his. It was not so bad there now, he remarked negligently, and, he
went on drawling, "There's some sort of white vagabond has got in there, I hear. . . . Eh? What you say?
Friend of yours? So! . . . Then it was true there was one of these verdammte-- What was he up to? Found his
way in, the rascal. Eh? I had not been sure. Patusan--they cut throats there--no business of ours." He
interrupted himself to groan. "Phoo! Almighty! The heat! The heat! Well, then, there might be something in
the story too, after all, and . . ." He shut one of his beastly glassy eyes (the eyelid went on quivering) while he
leered at me atrociously with the other. "Look here," says he mysteriously, "if--do you understand?--if he has
really got hold of something fairly good--none of your bits of green glass--understand?--I am a Government
official--you tell the rascal . . . Eh? What? Friend of yours?" . . . He continued wallowing calmly in the chair .
. . "You said so; that's just it; and I am pleased to give you the hint. I suppose you too would like to get
something out of it? Don't interrupt. You just tell him I've heard the tale, but to my Government I have made
no report. Not yet. See? Why make a report? Eh? Tell him to come to me if they let him get alive out of the
country. He had better look out for himself. Eh? I promise to ask no questions. On the quiet--you understand?
You too--you shall get something from me. Small commission for the trouble. Don't interrupt. I am a
Government official, and make no report. That's business. Understand? I know some good people that will
buy anything worth having, and can give him more money than the scoundrel ever saw in his life. I know his
sort." He fixed me steadfastly with both his eyes open, while I stood over him utterly amazed, and asking
myself whether he was mad or drunk. He perspired, puffed, moaning feebly, and scratching himself with such
horrible composure that I could not bear the sight long enough to find out. Next day, talking casually with the
people of the little native court of the place, I discovered that a story was travelling slowly down the coast
about a mysterious white man in Patusan who had got hold of an extraordinary gem--namely, an emerald of
an enormous size, and altogether priceless. The emerald seems to appeal more to the Eastern imagination than
any other precious stone. The white man had obtained it, I was told, partly by the exercise of his wonderful
strength and partly by cunning, from the ruler of a distant country, whence he had fled instantly, arriving in
Patusan in utmost distress, but frightening the people by his extreme ferocity, which nothing seemed able to
subdue. Most of my informants were of the opinion that the stone was probably unlucky,--like the famous
stone of the Sultan of Succadana, which in the old times had brought wars and untold calamities upon that
country. Perhaps it was the same stone--one couldn't say. Indeed the story of a fabulously large emerald is as
old as the arrival of the first white men in the Archipelago; and the belief in it is so persistent that less than
forty years ago there had been an official Dutch inquiry into the truth of it. Such a jewel--it was explained to
me by the old fellow from whom I heard most of this amazing Jim-myth--a sort of scribe to the wretched little
Rajah of the place;-- such a jewel, he said, cocking his poor purblind eyes up at me (he was sitting on the
cabin floor out of respect), is best preserved by being concealed about the person of a woman. Yet it is not
every woman that would do. She must be young--he sighed deeply--and insensible to the seductions of love.
He shook his head sceptically. But such a woman seemed to be actually in existence. He had been told of a
tall girl, whom the white man treated with great respect and care, and who never went forth from the house
unattended. People said the white man could be seen with her almost any day; they walked side by side,
openly, he holding her arm under his-- pressed to his side--thus--in a most extraordinary way. This might be a
lie, he conceded, for it was indeed a strange thing for any one to do: on the other hand, there could be no
doubt she wore the white man's jewel concealed upon her bosom.'

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'This was the theory of Jim's marital evening walks. I made a third on more than one occasion, unpleasantly
aware every time of Cornelius, who nursed the aggrieved sense of his legal paternity, slinking in the
neighbourhood with that peculiar twist of his mouth as if he were perpetually on the point of gnashing his
teeth. But do you notice how, three hundred miles beyond the end of telegraph cables and mail-boat lines, the
haggard utilitarian lies of our civilisation wither and die, to be replaced by pure exercises of imagination, that
have the futility, often the charm, and sometimes the deep hidden truthfulness, of works of art? Romance had
singled Jim for its own--and that was the true part of the story, which otherwise was all wrong. He did not
hide his jewel. In fact, he was extremely proud of it.

'It comes to me now that I had, on the whole, seen very little of her. What I remember best is the even, olive
pallor of her complexion, and the intense blue-black gleams of her hair, flowing abundantly from under a
small crimson cap she wore far back on her shapely head. Her movements were free, assured, and she blushed
a dusky red. While Jim and I were talking, she would come and go with rapid glances at us, leaving on her
passage an impression of grace and charm and a distinct suggestion of watchfulness. Her manner presented a
curious combination of shyness and audacity. Every pretty smile was succeeded swiftly by a look of silent,
repressed anxiety, as if put to flight by the recollection of some abiding danger. At times she would sit down
with us and, with her soft cheek dimpled by the knuckles of her little hand, she would listen to our talk; her
big clear eyes would remain fastened on our lips, as though each pronounced word had a visible shape. Her
mother had taught her to read and write; she had learned a good bit of English from Jim, and she spoke it most
amusingly, with his own clipping, boyish intonation. Her tenderness hovered over him like a flutter of wings.
She lived so completely in his contemplation that she had acquired something of his outward aspect,
something that recalled him in her movements, in the way she stretched her arm, turned her head, directed her
glances. Her vigilant affection had an intensity that made it almost perceptible to the senses; it seemed
actually to exist in the ambient matter of space, to envelop him like a peculiar fragrance, to dwell in the
sunshine like a tremulous, subdued, and impassioned note. I suppose you think that I too am romantic, but it is
a mistake. I am relating to you the sober impressions of a bit of youth, of a strange uneasy romance that had
come in my way. I observed with interest the work of his--well--good fortune. He was jealously loved, but
why she should be jealous, and of what, I could not tell. The land, the people, the forests were her
accomplices, guarding him with vigilant accord, with an air of seclusion, of mystery, of invincible possession.
There was no appeal, as it were; he was imprisoned within the very freedom of his power, and she, though
ready to make a footstool of her head for his feet, guarded her conquest inflexibly--as though he were hard to
keep. The very Tamb' Itam, marching on our journeys upon the heels of his white lord, with his head thrown
back, truculent and be-weaponed like a janissary, with kriss, chopper, and lance (besides carrying Jim's gun);
even Tamb' Itam allowed himself to put on the airs of uncompromising guardianship, like a surly devoted
jailer ready to lay down his life for his captive. On the evenings when we sat up late, his silent, indistinct form
would pass and repass under the verandah, with noiseless footsteps, or lifting my head I would unexpectedly
make him out standing rigidly erect in the shadow. As a general rule he would vanish after a time, without a
sound; but when we rose he would spring up close to us as if from the ground, ready for any orders Jim might
wish to give. The girl too, I believe, never went to sleep till we had separated for the night. More than once I
saw her and Jim through the window of my room come out together quietly and lean on the rough balustrade
--two white forms very close, his arm about her waist, her head on his shoulder. Their soft murmurs reached
me, penetrating, tender, with a calm sad note in the stillness of the night, like a self-communion of one being
carried on in two tones. Later on, tossing on my bed under the mosquito-net, I was sure to hear slight
creakings, faint breathing, a throat cleared cautiously--and I would know that Tamb' Itam was still on the
prowl. Though he had (by the favour of the white lord) a house in the compound, had "taken wife," and had
lately been blessed with a child, I believe that, during my stay at all events, he slept on the verandah every
night. It was very difficult to make this faithful and grim retainer talk. Even Jim himself was answered in
jerky short sentences, under protest as it were. Talking, he seemed to imply, was no business of his. The
longest speech I heard him volunteer was one morning when, suddenly extending his hand towards the
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though I stood at his side; his object seemed rather to awaken the indignant attention of the universe. Some
muttered allusions, which followed, to dogs and the smell of roast-meat, struck me as singularly felicitous.
The courtyard, a large square space, was one torrid blaze of sunshine, and, bathed in intense light, Cornelius
was creeping across in full view with an inexpressible effect of stealthiness, of dark and secret slinking. He
reminded one of everything that is unsavoury. His slow laborious walk resembled the creeping of a repulsive
beetle, the legs alone moving with horrid industry while the body glided evenly. I suppose he made straight
enough for the place where he wanted to get to, but his progress with one shoulder carried forward seemed
oblique. He was often seen circling slowly amongst the sheds, as if following a scent; passing before the
verandah with upward stealthy glances; disappearing without haste round the corner of some hut. That he
seemed free of the place demonstrated Jim's absurd carelessness or else his infinite disdain, for Cornelius had
played a very dubious part (to say the least of it) in a certain episode which might have ended fatally for Jim.
As a matter of fact, it had redounded to his glory. But everything redounded to his glory; and it was the irony
of his good fortune that he, who had been too careful of it once, seemed to bear a charmed life.

'You must know he had left Doramin's place very soon after his arrival--much too soon, in fact, for his safety,
and of course a long time before the war. In this he was actuated by a sense of duty; he had to look after
Stein's business, he said. Hadn't he? To that end, with an utter disregard of his personal safety, he crossed the
river and took up his quarters with Cornelius. How the latter had managed to exist through the troubled times
I can't say. As Stein's agent, after all, he must have had Doramin's protection in a measure; and in one way or
another he had managed to wriggle through all the deadly complications, while I have no doubt that his
conduct, whatever line he was forced to take, was marked by that abjectness which was like the stamp of the
man. That was his characteristic; he was fundamentally and outwardly abject, as other men are markedly of a
generous, distinguished, or venerable appearance. It was the element of his nature which permeated all his
acts and passions and emotions; he raged abjectly, smiled abjectly, was abjectly sad; his civilities and his
indignations were alike abject. I am sure his love would have been the most abject of sentiments--but can one
imagine a loathsome insect in love? And his loathsomeness, too, was abject, so that a simply disgusting
person would have appeared noble by his side. He has his place neither in the background nor in the
foreground of the story; he is simply seen skulking on its outskirts, enigmatical and unclean, tainting the
fragrance of its youth and of its naiveness.

'His position in any case could not have been other than extremely miserable, yet it may very well be that he
found some advantages in it. Jim told me he had been received at first with an abject display of the most
amicable sentiments. "The fellow apparently couldn't contain himself for joy," said Jim with disgust. "He flew
at me every morning to shake both my hands--confound him!--but I could never tell whether there would be
any breakfast. If I got three meals in two days I considered myself jolly lucky, and he made me sign a chit for
ten dollars every week. Said he was sure Mr. Stein did not mean him to keep me for nothing. Well--he kept
me on nothing as near as possible. Put it down to the unsettled state of the country, and made as if to tear his
hair out, begging my pardon twenty times a day, so that I had at last to entreat him not to worry. It made me
sick. Half the roof of his house had fallen in, and the whole place had a mangy look, with wisps of dry grass
sticking out and the corners of broken mats flapping on every wall. He did his best to make out that Mr. Stein
owed him money on the last three years' trading, but his books were all torn, and some were missing. He tried
to hint it was his late wife's fault. Disgusting scoundrel! At last I had to forbid him to mention his late wife at
all. It made Jewel cry. I couldn't discover what became of all the trade-goods; there was nothing in the store
but rats, having a high old time amongst a litter of brown paper and old sacking. I was assured on every hand
that he had a lot of money buried somewhere, but of course could get nothing out of him. It was the most
miserable existence I led there in that wretched house. I tried to do my duty by Stein, but I had also other
matters to think of. When I escaped to Doramin old Tunku Allang got frightened and returned all my things. It
was done in a roundabout way, and with no end of mystery, through a Chinaman who keeps a small shop
here; but as soon as I left the Bugis quarter and went to live with Cornelius it began to be said openly that the
Rajah had made up his mind to have me killed before long. Pleasant, wasn't it? And I couldn't see what there
was to prevent him if he really had made up his mind. The worst of it was, I couldn't help feeling I wasn't
doing any good either for Stein or for myself. Oh! it was beastly--the whole six weeks of it." '

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'He told me further that he didn't know what made him hang on--but of course we may guess. He sympathised
deeply with the defenceless girl, at the mercy of that "mean, cowardly scoundrel." It appears Cornelius led her
an awful life, stopping only short of actual ill-usage, for which he had not the pluck, I suppose. He insisted
upon her calling him father--"and with respect, too--with respect," he would scream, shaking a little yellow
fist in her face. "I am a respectable man, and what are you? Tell me--what are you? You think I am going to
bring up somebody else's child and not be treated with respect? You ought to be glad I let you. Come-- say
Yes, father. . . . No? . . . You wait a bit." Thereupon he would begin to abuse the dead woman, till the girl
would run off with her hands to her head. He pursued her, dashing in and out and round the house and
amongst the sheds, would drive her into some corner, where she would fall on her knees stopping her ears,
and then he would stand at a distance and declaim filthy denunciations at her back for half an hour at a stretch.
"Your mother was a devil, a deceitful devil--and you too are a devil," he would shriek in a final outburst, pick
up a bit of dry earth or a handful of mud (there was plenty of mud around the house), and fling it into her hair.
Sometimes, though, she would hold out full of scorn, confronting him in silence, her face sombre and
contracted, and only now and then uttering a word or two that would make the other jump and writhe with the
sting. Jim told me these scenes were terrible. It was indeed a strange thing to come upon in a wilderness. The
endlessness of such a subtly cruel situation was appalling--if you think of it. The respectable Cornelius (Inchi
'Nelyus the Malays called him, with a grimace that meant many things) was a much-disappointed man. I don't
know what he had expected would be done for him in consideration of his marriage; but evidently the liberty
to steal, and embezzle, and appropriate to himself for many years and in any way that suited him best, the
goods of Stein's Trading Company (Stein kept the supply up unfalteringly as long as he could get his skippers
to take it there) did not seem to him a fair equivalent for the sacrifice of his honourable name. Jim would have
enjoyed exceedingly thrashing Cornelius within an inch of his life; on the other hand, the scenes were of so
painful a character, so abominable, that his impulse would be to get out of earshot, in order to spare the girl's
feelings. They left her agitated, speechless, clutching her bosom now and then with a stony, desperate face,
and then Jim would lounge up and say unhappily, "Now--come--really--what's the use--you must try to eat a
bit," or give some such mark of sympathy. Cornelius would keep on slinking through the doorways, across the
verandah and back again, as mute as a fish, and with malevolent, mistrustful, underhand glances. "I can stop
his game," Jim said to her once. "Just say the word." And do you know what she answered? She said--Jim told
me impressively--that if she had not been sure he was intensely wretched himself, she would have found the
courage to kill him with her own hands. "Just fancy that! The poor devil of a girl, almost a child, being driven
to talk like that," he exclaimed in horror. It seemed impossible to save her not only from that mean rascal but
even from herself! It wasn't that he pitied her so much, he affirmed; it was more than pity; it was as if he had
something on his conscience, while that life went on. To leave the house would have appeared a base
desertion. He had understood at last that there was nothing to expect from a longer stay, neither accounts nor
money, nor truth of any sort, but he stayed on, exasperating Cornelius to the verge, I won't say of insanity, but
almost of courage. Meantime he felt all sorts of dangers gathering obscurely about him. Doramin had sent
over twice a trusty servant to tell him seriously that he could do nothing for his safety unless he would recross
the river again and live amongst the Bugis as at first. People of every condition used to call, often in the dead
of night, in order to disclose to him plots for his assassination. He was to be poisoned. He was to be stabbed in
the bath-house. Arrangements were being made to have him shot from a boat on the river. Each of these
informants professed himself to be his very good friend. It was enough--he told me--to spoil a fellow's rest for
ever. Something of the kind was extremely possible--nay, probable--but the lying warnings gave him only the
sense of deadly scheming going on all around him, on all sides, in the dark. Nothing more calculated to shake
the best of nerve. Finally, one night, Cornelius himself, with a great apparatus of alarm and secrecy, unfolded
in solemn wheedling tones a little plan wherein for one hundred dollars--or even for eighty; let's say
eighty--he, Cornelius, would procure a trustworthy man to smuggle Jim out of the river, all safe. There was
nothing else for it now--if Jim cared a pin for his life. What's eighty dollars? A trifle. An insignificant sum.
While he, Cornelius, who had to remain behind, was absolutely courting death by this proof of devotion to
Mr. Stein's young friend. The sight of his abject grimacing was--Jim told me--very hard to bear: he clutched at
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pretended to shed tears. "Your blood be on your own head," he squeaked at last, and rushed out. It is a curious
question how far Cornelius was sincere in that performance. Jim confessed to me that he did not sleep a wink
after the fellow had gone. He lay on his back on a thin mat spread over the bamboo flooring, trying idly to
make out the bare rafters, and listening to the rustlings in the torn thatch. A star suddenly twinkled through a
hole in the roof. His brain was in a whirl; but, nevertheless, it was on that very night that he matured his plan
for overcoming Sherif Ali. It had been the thought of all the moments he could spare from the hopeless
investigation into Stein's affairs, but the notion--he says--came to him then all at once. He could see, as it
were, the guns mounted on the top of the hill. He got very hot and excited lying there; sleep was out of the
question more than ever. He jumped up, and went out barefooted on the verandah. Walking silently, he came
upon the girl, motionless against the wall, as if on the watch. In his then state of mind it did not surprise him
to see her up, nor yet to hear her ask in an anxious whisper where Cornelius could be. He simply said he did
not know. She moaned a little, and peered into the campong. Everything was very quiet. He was possessed by
his new idea, and so full of it that he could not help telling the girl all about it at once. She listened, clapped
her hands lightly, whispered softly her admiration, but was evidently on the alert all the time. It seems he had
been used to make a confidant of her all along--and that she on her part could and did give him a lot of useful
hints as to Patusan affairs there is no doubt. He assured me more than once that he had never found himself
the worse for her advice. At any rate, he was proceeding to explain his plan fully to her there and then, when
she pressed his arm once, and vanished from his side. Then Cornelius appeared from somewhere, and,
perceiving Jim, ducked sideways, as though he had been shot at, and afterwards stood very still in the dusk. At
last he came forward prudently, like a suspicious cat. "There were some fishermen there--with fish," he said in
a shaky voice. "To sell fish--you understand." . . . It must have been then two o'clock in the morning--a likely
time for anybody to hawk fish about!

'Jim, however, let the statement pass, and did not give it a single thought. Other matters occupied his mind,
and besides he had neither seen nor heard anything. He contented himself by saying, "Oh!" absently, got a
drink of water out of a pitcher standing there, and leaving Cornelius a prey to some inexplicable emotion--that
made him embrace with both arms the worm-eaten rail of the verandah as if his legs had failed--went in again
and lay down on his mat to think. By-and-by he heard stealthy footsteps. They stopped. A voice whispered
tremulously through the wall, "Are you asleep?" "No! What is it?" he answered briskly, and there was an
abrupt movement outside, and then all was still, as if the whisperer had been startled. Extremely annoyed at
this, Jim came out impetuously, and Cornelius with a faint shriek fled along the verandah as far as the steps,
where he hung on to the broken banister. Very puzzled, Jim called out to him from the distance to know what
the devil he meant. "Have you given your consideration to what I spoke to you about?" asked Cornelius,
pronouncing the words with difficulty, like a man in the cold fit of a fever. "No!" shouted Jim in a passion. "I
have not, and I don't intend to. I am going to live here, in Patusan." "You shall d-d-die h-h-here," answered
Cornelius, still shaking violently, and in a sort of expiring voice. The whole performance was so absurd and
provoking that Jim didn't know whether he ought to be amused or angry. "Not till I have seen you tucked
away, you bet," he called out, exasperated yet ready to laugh. Half seriously (being excited with his own
thoughts, you know) he went on shouting, "Nothing can touch me! You can do your damnedest." Somehow
the shadowy Cornelius far off there seemed to be the hateful embodiment of all the annoyances and
difficulties he had found in his path. He let himself go--his nerves had been over-wrought for days--and called
him many pretty names,--swindler, liar, sorry rascal: in fact, carried on in an extraordinary way. He admits he
passed all bounds, that he was quite beside himself--defied all Patusan to scare him away--declared he would
make them all dance to his own tune yet, and so on, in a menacing, boasting strain. Perfectly bombastic and
ridiculous, he said. His ears burned at the bare recollection. Must have been off his chump in some way. . . .
The girl, who was sitting with us, nodded her little head at me quickly, frowned faintly, and said, "I heard
him," with child-like solemnity. He laughed and blushed. What stopped him at last, he said, was the silence,
the complete deathlike silence, of the indistinct figure far over there, that seemed to hang collapsed, doubled
over the rail in a weird immobility. He came to his senses, and ceasing suddenly, wondered greatly at himself.
He watched for a while. Not a stir, not a sound. "Exactly as if the chap had died while I had been making all
that noise," he said. He was so ashamed of himself that he went indoors in a hurry without another word, and
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rest of the night like a baby. Hadn't slept like that for weeks. "But I didn't sleep," struck in the girl, one elbow
on the table and nursing her cheek. "I watched." Her big eyes flashed, rolling a little, and then she fixed them
on my face intently.'

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'You may imagine with what interest I listened. All these details were perceived to have some significance
twenty-four hours later. In the morning Cornelius made no allusion to the events of the night. "I suppose you
will come back to my poor house," he muttered, surlily, slinking up just as Jim was entering the canoe to go
over to Doramin's campong. Jim only nodded, without looking at him. "You find it good fun, no doubt,"
muttered the other in a sour tone. Jim spent the day with the old nakhoda, preaching the necessity of vigorous
action to the principal men of the Bugis community, who had been summoned for a big talk. He remembered
with pleasure how very eloquent and persuasive he had been. "I managed to put some backbone into them that
time, and no mistake," he said. Sherif Ali's last raid had swept the outskirts of the settlement, and some
women belonging to the town had been carried off to the stockade. Sherif Ali's emissaries had been seen in
the market-place the day before, strutting about haughtily in white cloaks, and boasting of the Rajah's
friendship for their master. One of them stood forward in the shade of a tree, and, leaning on the long barrel of
a rifle, exhorted the people to prayer and repentance, advising them to kill all the strangers in their midst,
some of whom, he said, were infidels and others even worse--children of Satan in the guise of Moslems. It
was reported that several of the Rajah's people amongst the listeners had loudly expressed their approbation.
The terror amongst the common people was intense. Jim, immensely pleased with his day's work, crossed the
river again before sunset.

'As he had got the Bugis irretrievably committed to action and had made himself responsible for success on
his own head, he was so elated that in the lightness of his heart he absolutely tried to be civil with Cornelius.
But Cornelius became wildly jovial in response, and it was almost more than he could stand, he says, to hear
his little squeaks of false laughter, to see him wriggle and blink, and suddenly catch hold of his chin and
crouch low over the table with a distracted stare. The girl did not show herself, and Jim retired early. When he
rose to say good-night, Cornelius jumped up, knocking his chair over, and ducked out of sight as if to pick up
something he had dropped. His good-night came huskily from under the table. Jim was amazed to see him
emerge with a dropping jaw, and staring, stupidly frightened eyes. He clutched the edge of the table. "What's
the matter? Are you unwell?" asked Jim. "Yes, yes, yes. A great colic in my stomach," says the other; and it is
Jim's opinion that it was perfectly true. If so, it was, in view of his contemplated action, an abject sign of a
still imperfect callousness for which he must be given all due credit.

'Be it as it may, Jim's slumbers were disturbed by a dream of heavens like brass resounding with a great voice,
which called upon him to Awake! Awake! so loud that, notwithstanding his desperate determination to sleep
on, he did wake up in reality. The glare of a red spluttering conflagration going on in mid-air fell on his eyes.
Coils of black thick smoke curved round the head of some apparition, some unearthly being, all in white, with
a severe, drawn, anxious face. After a second or so he recognised the girl. She was holding a dammar torch at
arm's-length aloft, and in a persistent, urgent monotone she was repeating, "Get up! Get up! Get up!"

'Suddenly he leaped to his feet; at once she put into his hand a revolver, his own revolver, which had been
hanging on a nail, but loaded this time. He gripped it in silence, bewildered, blinking in the light. He
wondered what he could do for her.

'She asked rapidly and very low, "Can you face four men with this?" He laughed while narrating this part at
the recollection of his polite alacrity. It seems he made a great display of it. "Certainly-- of
course--certainly--command me." He was not properly awake, and had a notion of being very civil in these
extraordinary circumstances, of showing his unquestioning, devoted readiness. She left the room, and he
followed her; in the passage they disturbed an old hag who did the casual cooking of the household, though
she was so decrepit as to be hardly able to understand human speech. She got up and hobbled behind them,
mumbling toothlessly. On the verandah a hammock of sail-cloth, belonging to Cornelius, swayed lightly to
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'The Patusan establishment, like all the posts of Stein's Trading Company, had originally consisted of four
buildings. Two of them were represented by two heaps of sticks, broken bamboos, rotten thatch, over which
the four corner-posts of hardwood leaned sadly at different angles: the principal storeroom, however, stood
yet, facing the agent's house. It was an oblong hut, built of mud and clay; it had at one end a wide door of
stout planking, which so far had not come off the hinges, and in one of the side walls there was a square
aperture, a sort of window, with three wooden bars. Before descending the few steps the girl turned her face
over her shoulder and said quickly, "You were to be set upon while you slept." Jim tells me he experienced a
sense of deception. It was the old story. He was weary of these attempts upon his life. He had had his fill of
these alarms. He was sick of them. He assured me he was angry with the girl for deceiving him. He had
followed her under the impression that it was she who wanted his help, and now he had half a mind to turn on
his heel and go back in disgust. "Do you know," he commented profoundly, "I rather think I was not quite
myself for whole weeks on end about that time." "Oh yes. You were though," I couldn't help contradicting.

'But she moved on swiftly, and he followed her into the courtyard. All its fences had fallen in a long time ago;
the neighbours' buffaloes would pace in the morning across the open space, snorting profoundly, without
haste; the very jungle was invading it already. Jim and the girl stopped in the rank grass. The light in which
they stood made a dense blackness all round, and only above their heads there was an opulent glitter of stars.
He told me it was a beautiful night--quite cool, with a little stir of breeze from the river. It seems he noticed its
friendly beauty. Remember this is a love story I am telling you now. A lovely night seemed to breathe on
them a soft caress. The flame of the torch streamed now and then with a fluttering noise like a flag, and for a
time this was the only sound. "They are in the storeroom waiting," whispered the girl; "they are waiting for
the signal." "Who's to give it?" he asked. She shook the torch, which blazed up after a shower of sparks. "Only
you have been sleeping so restlessly," she continued in a murmur; "I watched your sleep, too." "You!" he
exclaimed, craning his neck to look about him. "You think I watched on this night only!" she said, with a sort
of despairing indignation.

'He says it was as if he had received a blow on the chest. He gasped. He thought he had been an awful brute
somehow, and he felt remorseful, touched, happy, elated. This, let me remind you again, is a love story; you
can see it by the imbecility, not a repulsive imbecility, the exalted imbecility of these proceedings, this station
in torchlight, as if they had come there on purpose to have it out for the edification of concealed murderers. If
Sherif Ali's emissaries had been possessed--as Jim remarked--of a pennyworth of spunk, this was the time to
make a rush. His heart was thumping--not with fear--but he seemed to hear the grass rustle, and he stepped
smartly out of the light. Something dark, imperfectly seen, flitted rapidly out of sight. He called out in a strong
voice, "Cornelius! O Cornelius!" A profound silence succeeded: his voice did not seem to have carried twenty
feet. Again the girl was by his side. "Fly!" she said. The old woman was coming up; her broken figure
hovered in crippled little jumps on the edge of the light; they heard her mumbling, and a light, moaning sigh.
"Fly!" repeated the girl excitedly. "They are frightened now--this light--the voices. They know you are awake
now--they know you are big, strong, fearless . . ." "If I am all that," he began; but she interrupted him:
"Yes--to-night! But what of to-morrow night? Of the next night? Of the night after--of all the many, many
nights? Can I be always watching?" A sobbing catch of her breath affected him beyond the power of words.

'He told me that he had never felt so small, so powerless--and as to courage, what was the good of it? he
thought. He was so helpless that even flight seemed of no use; and though she kept on whispering, "Go to
Doramin, go to Doramin," with feverish insistence, he realised that for him there was no refuge from that
loneliness which centupled all his dangers except--in her. "I thought," he said to me, "that if I went away from
her it would be the end of everything somehow." Only as they couldn't stop there for ever in the middle of that
courtyard, he made up his mind to go and look into the storehouse. He let her follow him without thinking of
any protest, as if they had been indissolubly united. "I am fearless--am I?" he muttered through his teeth. She
restrained his arm. "Wait till you hear my voice," she said, and, torch in hand, ran lightly round the corner. He
remained alone in the darkness, his face to the door: not a sound, not a breath came from the other side. The
old hag let out a dreary groan somewhere behind his back. He heard a high-pitched almost screaming call
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intense astonishment the low dungeon-like interior illuminated by a lurid, wavering glare. A turmoil of smoke
eddied down upon an empty wooden crate in the middle of the floor, a litter of rags and straw tried to soar, but
only stirred feebly in the draught. She had thrust the light through the bars of the window. He saw her bare
round arm extended and rigid, holding up the torch with the steadiness of an iron bracket. A conical ragged
heap of old mats cumbered a distant corner almost to the ceiling, and that was all.

'He explained to me that he was bitterly disappointed at this. His fortitude had been tried by so many
warnings, he had been for weeks surrounded by so many hints of danger, that he wanted the relief of some
reality, of something tangible that he could meet. "It would have cleared the air for a couple of hours at least,
if you know what I mean," he said to me. "Jove! I had been living for days with a stone on my chest." Now at
last he had thought he would get hold of something, and--nothing! Not a trace, not a sign of anybody. He had
raised his weapon as the door flew open, but now his arm fell. "Fire! Defend yourself," the girl outside cried
in an agonising voice. She, being in the dark and with her arm thrust in to the shoulder through the small hole,
couldn't see what was going on, and she dared not withdraw the torch now to run round. "There's nobody
here!" yelled Jim contemptuously, but his impulse to burst into a resentful exasperated laugh died without a
sound: he had perceived in the very act of turning away that he was exchanging glances with a pair of eyes in
the heap of mats. He saw a shifting gleam of whites. "Come out!" he cried in a fury, a little doubtful, and a
dark-faced head, a head without a body, shaped itself in the rubbish, a strangely detached head, that looked at
him with a steady scowl. Next moment the whole mound stirred, and with a low grunt a man emerged swiftly,
and bounded towards Jim. Behind him the mats as it were jumped and flew, his right arm was raised with a
crooked elbow, and the dull blade of a kriss protruded from his fist held off, a little above his head. A cloth
wound tight round his loins seemed dazzlingly white on his bronze skin; his naked body glistened as if wet.

'Jim noted all this. He told me he was experiencing a feeling of unutterable relief, of vengeful elation. He held
his shot, he says, deliberately. He held it for the tenth part of a second, for three strides of the man--an
unconscionable time. He held it for the pleasure of saying to himself, That's a dead man! He was absolutely
positive and certain. He let him come on because it did not matter. A dead man, anyhow. He noticed the
dilated nostrils, the wide eyes, the intent, eager stillness of the face, and then he fired.

'The explosion in that confined space was stunning. He stepped back a pace. He saw the man jerk his head up,
fling his arms forward, and drop the kriss. He ascertained afterwards that he had shot him through the mouth,
a little upwards, the bullet coming out high at the back of the skull. With the impetus of his rush the man
drove straight on, his face suddenly gaping disfigured, with his hands open before him gropingly, as though
blinded, and landed with terrific violence on his forehead, just short of Jim's bare toes. Jim says he didn't lose
the smallest detail of all this. He found himself calm, appeased, without rancour, without uneasiness, as if the
death of that man had atoned for everything. The place was getting very full of sooty smoke from the torch, in
which the unswaying flame burned blood-red without a flicker. He walked in resolutely, striding over the dead
body, and covered with his revolver another naked figure outlined vaguely at the other end. As he was about
to pull the trigger, the man threw away with force a short heavy spear, and squatted submissively on his hams,
his back to the wall and his clasped hands between his legs. "You want your life?" Jim said. The other made
no sound. "How many more of you?" asked Jim again. "Two more, Tuan," said the man very softly, looking
with big fascinated eyes into the muzzle of the revolver. Accordingly two more crawled from under the mats,
holding out ostentatiously their empty hands.'

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'Jim took up an advantageous position and shepherded them out in a bunch through the doorway: all that time
the torch had remained vertical in the grip of a little hand, without so much as a tremble. The three men
obeyed him, perfectly mute, moving automatically. He ranged them in a row. "Link arms!" he ordered. They
did so. "The first who withdraws his arm or turns his head is a dead man," he said. "March!" They stepped out
together, rigidly; he followed, and at the side the girl, in a trailing white gown, her black hair falling as low as
her waist, bore the light. Erect and swaying, she seemed to glide without touching the earth; the only sound
was the silky swish and rustle of the long grass. "Stop!" cried Jim.

'The river-bank was steep; a great freshness ascended, the light fell on the edge of smooth dark water frothing
without a ripple; right and left the shapes of the houses ran together below the sharp outlines of the roofs.
"Take my greetings to Sherif Ali--till I come myself," said Jim. Not one head of the three budged. "Jump!" he
thundered. The three splashes made one splash, a shower flew up, black heads bobbed convulsively, and
disappeared; but a great blowing and spluttering went on, growing faint, for they were diving industriously in
great fear of a parting shot. Jim turned to the girl, who had been a silent and attentive observer. His heart
seemed suddenly to grow too big for his breast and choke him in the hollow of his throat. This probably made
him speechless for so long, and after returning his gaze she flung the burning torch with a wide sweep of the
arm into the river. The ruddy fiery glare, taking a long flight through the night, sank with a vicious hiss, and
the calm soft starlight descended upon them, unchecked.

'He did not tell me what it was he said when at last he recovered his voice. I don't suppose he could be very
eloquent. The world was still, the night breathed on them, one of those nights that seem created for the
sheltering of tenderness, and there are moments when our souls, as if freed from their dark envelope, glow
with an exquisite sensibility that makes certain silences more lucid than speeches. As to the girl, he told me,
"She broke down a bit. Excitement--don't you know. Reaction. Deucedly tired she must have been--and all
that kind of thing. And--and--hang it all--she was fond of me, don't you see. . . . I too. . . didn't know, of
course . . . never entered my head . . ."

'Then he got up and began to walk about in some agitation. "I--I love her dearly. More than I can tell. Of
course one cannot tell. You take a different view of your actions when you come to understand, when you are
made to understand every day that your existence is necessary--you see, absolutely necessary--to another
person. I am made to feel that. Wonderful! But only try to think what her life has been. It is too extravagantly
awful! Isn't it? And me finding her here like this--as you may go out for a stroll and come suddenly upon
somebody drowning in a lonely dark place. Jove! No time to lose. Well, it is a trust too . . . I believe I am
equal to it . . ."

'I must tell you the girl had left us to ourselves some time before. He slapped his chest. "Yes! I feel that, but I
believe I am equal to all my luck!" He had the gift of finding a special meaning in everything that happened to
him. This was the view he took of his love affair; it was idyllic, a little solemn, and also true, since his belief
had all the unshakable seriousness of youth. Some time after, on another occasion, he said to me, "I've been
only two years here, and now, upon my word, I can't conceive being able to live anywhere else. The very
thought of the world outside is enough to give me a fright; because, don't you see," he continued, with
downcast eyes watching the action of his boot busied in squashing thoroughly a tiny bit of dried mud (we
were strolling on the river-bank)-- "because I have not forgotten why I came here. Not yet!"

'I refrained from looking at him, but I think I heard a short sigh; we took a turn or two in silence. "Upon my
soul and conscience," he began again, "if such a thing can be forgotten, then I think I have a right to dismiss it
from my mind. Ask any man here" . . . his voice changed. "Is it not strange," he went on in a gentle, almost
yearning tone, "that all these people, all these people who would do anything for me, can never be made to
understand? Never! If you disbelieved me I could not call them up. It seems hard, somehow. I am stupid, am I
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with their lives?--they would say, Tuan Jim. And yet they can never know the real, real truth . . ."

'That's what he said to me on my last day with him. I did not let a murmur escape me: I felt he was going to
say more, and come no nearer to the root of the matter. The sun, whose concentrated glare dwarfs the earth
into a restless mote of dust, had sunk behind the forest, and the diffused light from an opal sky seemed to cast
upon a world without shadows and without brilliance the illusion of a calm and pensive greatness. I don't
know why, listening to him, I should have noted so distinctly the gradual darkening of the river, of the air; the
irresistible slow work of the night settling silently on all the visible forms, effacing the outlines, burying the
shapes deeper and deeper, like a steady fall of impalpable black dust.

' "Jove!" he began abruptly, "there are days when a fellow is too absurd for anything; only I know I can tell
you what I like. I talk about being done with it--with the bally thing at the back of my head . . . Forgetting . . .
Hang me if I know! I can think of it quietly. After all, what has it proved? Nothing. I suppose you don't think
so . . ."

'I made a protesting murmur.

' "No matter," he said. "I am satisfied . . . nearly. I've got to look only at the face of the first man that comes
along, to regain my confidence. They can't be made to understand what is going on in me. What of that?
Come! I haven't done so badly."

' "Not so badly," I said.

' "But all the same, you wouldn't like to have me aboard your own ship hey?"

' "Confound you!" I cried. "Stop this."

' "Aha! You see," he said, crowing, as it were, over me placidly. "Only," he went on, "you just try to tell this
to any of them here. They would think you a fool, a liar, or worse. And so I can stand it. I've done a thing or
two for them, but this is what they have done for me."

' "My dear chap," I cried, "you shall always remain for them an insoluble mystery." Thereupon we were silent.

' "Mystery," he repeated, before looking up. "Well, then let me always remain here."

'After the sun had set, the darkness seemed to drive upon us, borne in every faint puff of the breeze. In the
middle of a hedged path I saw the arrested, gaunt, watchful, and apparently one-legged silhouette of Tamb'
Itam; and across the dusky space my eye detected something white moving to and fro behind the supports of
the roof. As soon as Jim, with Tamb' Itam at his heels, had started upon his evening rounds, I went up to the
house alone, and, unexpectedly, found myself waylaid by the girl, who had been clearly waiting for this
opportunity.

'It is hard to tell you what it was precisely she wanted to wrest from me. Obviously it would be something
very simple--the simplest impossibility in the world; as, for instance, the exact description of the form of a
cloud. She wanted an assurance, a statement, a promise, an explanation--I don't know how to call it: the thing
has no name. It was dark under the projecting roof, and all I could see were the flowing lines of her gown, the
pale small oval of her face, with the white flash of her teeth, and, turned towards me, the big sombre orbits of
her eyes, where there seemed to be a faint stir, such as you may fancy you can detect when you plunge your
gaze to the bottom of an immensely deep well. What is it that moves there? you ask yourself. Is it a blind
monster or only a lost gleam from the universe? It occurred to me--don't laugh--that all things being
dissimilar, she was more inscrutable in her childish ignorance than the Sphinx propounding childish riddles to
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seen nothing, she had known nothing, she had no conception of anything. I ask myself whether she were sure
that anything else existed. What notions she may have formed of the outside world is to me inconceivable: all
that she knew of its inhabitants were a betrayed woman and a sinister pantaloon. Her lover also came to her
from there, gifted with irresistible seductions; but what would become of her if he should return to these
inconceivable regions that seemed always to claim back their own? Her mother had warned her of this with
tears, before she died . . .

'She had caught hold of my arm firmly, and as soon as I had stopped she had withdrawn her hand in haste. She
was audacious and shrinking. She feared nothing, but she was checked by the profound incertitude and the
extreme strangeness--a brave person groping in the dark. I belonged to this Unknown that might claim Jim for
its own at any moment. I was, as it were, in the secret of its nature and of its intentions--the confidant of a
threatening mystery--armed with its power perhaps! I believe she supposed I could with a word whisk Jim
away out of her very arms; it is my sober conviction she went through agonies of apprehension during my
long talks with Jim; through a real and intolerable anguish that might have conceivably driven her into
plotting my murder, had the fierceness of her soul been equal to the tremendous situation it had created. This
is my impression, and it is all I can give you: the whole thing dawned gradually upon me, and as it got clearer
and clearer I was overwhelmed by a slow incredulous amazement. She made me believe her, but there is no
word that on my lips could render the effect of the headlong and vehement whisper, of the soft, passionate
tones, of the sudden breathless pause and the appealing movement of the white arms extended swiftly. They
fell; the ghostly figure swayed like a slender tree in the wind, the pale oval of the face drooped; it was
impossible to distinguish her features, the darkness of the eyes was unfathomable; two wide sleeves uprose in
the dark like unfolding wings, and she stood silent, holding her head in her hands.'

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'I was immensely touched: her youth, her ignorance, her pretty beauty, which had the simple charm and the
delicate vigour of a wild-flower, her pathetic pleading, her helplessness, appealed to me with almost the
strength of her own unreasonable and natural fear. She feared the unknown as we all do, and her ignorance
made the unknown infinitely vast. I stood for it, for myself, for you fellows, for all the world that neither cared
for Jim nor needed him in the least. I would have been ready enough to answer for the indifference of the
teeming earth but for the reflection that he too belonged to this mysterious unknown of her fears, and that,
however much I stood for, I did not stand for him. This made me hesitate. A murmur of hopeless pain
unsealed my lips. I began by protesting that I at least had come with no intention to take Jim away.

'Why did I come, then? After a slight movement she was as still as a marble statue in the night. I tried to
explain briefly: friendship, business; if I had any wish in the matter it was rather to see him stay. . . . "They
always leave us," she murmured. The breath of sad wisdom from the grave which her piety wreathed with
flowers seemed to pass in a faint sigh. . . . Nothing, I said, could separate Jim from her.

'It is my firm conviction now; it was my conviction at the time; it was the only possible conclusion from the
facts of the case. It was not made more certain by her whispering in a tone in which one speaks to oneself,
"He swore this to me." "Did you ask him?" I said.

'She made a step nearer. "No. Never!" She had asked him only to go away. It was that night on the river-bank,
after he had killed the man--after she had flung the torch in the water because he was looking at her so. There
was too much light, and the danger was over then--for a little time--for a little time. He said then he would not
abandon her to Cornelius. She had insisted. She wanted him to leave her. He said that he could not--that it was
impossible. He trembled while he said this. She had felt him tremble. . . . One does not require much
imagination to see the scene, almost to hear their whispers. She was afraid for him too. I believe that then she
saw in him only a predestined victim of dangers which she understood better than himself. Though by nothing
but his mere presence he had mastered her heart, had filled all her thoughts, and had possessed himself of all
her affections, she underestimated his chances of success. It is obvious that at about that time everybody was
inclined to underestimate his chances. Strictly speaking he didn't seem to have any. I know this was
Cornelius's view. He confessed that much to me in extenuation of the shady part he had played in Sherif Ali's
plot to do away with the infidel. Even Sherif Ali himself, as it seems certain now, had nothing but contempt
for the white man. Jim was to be murdered mainly on religious grounds, I believe. A simple act of piety (and
so far infinitely meritorious), but otherwise without much importance. In the last part of this opinion
Cornelius concurred. "Honourable sir," he argued abjectly on the only occasion he managed to have me to
himself--"honourable sir, how was I to know? Who was he? What could he do to make people believe him?
What did Mr. Stein mean sending a boy like that to talk big to an old servant? I was ready to save him for
eighty dollars. Only eighty dollars. Why didn't the fool go? Was I to get stabbed myself for the sake of a
stranger?" He grovelled in spirit before me, with his body doubled up insinuatingly and his hands hovering
about my knees, as though he were ready to embrace my legs. "What's eighty dollars? An insignificant sum to
give to a defenceless old man ruined for life by a deceased she-devil." Here he wept. But I anticipate. I didn't
that night chance upon Cornelius till I had had it out with the girl.

'She was unselfish when she urged Jim to leave her, and even to leave the country. It was his danger that was
foremost in her thoughts--even if she wanted to save herself too--perhaps unconsciously: but then look at the
warning she had, look at the lesson that could be drawn from every moment of the recently ended life in
which all her memories were centred. She fell at his feet--she told me so--there by the river, in the discreet
light of stars which showed nothing except great masses of silent shadows, indefinite open spaces, and
trembling faintly upon the broad stream made it appear as wide as the sea. He had lifted her up. He lifted her
up, and then she would struggle no more. Of course not. Strong arms, a tender voice, a stalwart shoulder to
rest her poor lonely little head upon. The need--the infinite need--of all this for the aching heart, for the
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understands--unless one is incapable of understanding anything under the sun. And so she was content to be
lifted up--and held. "You know--Jove! this is serious--no nonsense in it!" as Jim had whispered hurriedly with
a troubled concerned face on the threshold of his house. I don't know so much about nonsense, but there was
nothing light-hearted in their romance: they came together under the shadow of a life's disaster, like knight
and maiden meeting to exchange vows amongst haunted ruins. The starlight was good enough for that story, a
light so faint and remote that it cannot resolve shadows into shapes, and show the other shore of a stream. I
did look upon the stream that night and from the very place; it rolled silent and as black as Styx: the next day I
went away, but I am not likely to forget what it was she wanted to be saved from when she entreated him to
leave her while there was time. She told me what it was, calmed--she was now too passionately interested for
mere excitement--in a voice as quiet in the obscurity as her white half-lost figure. She told me, "I didn't want
to die weeping." I thought I had not heard aright.

' "You did not want to die weeping?" I repeated after her. "Like my mother," she added readily. The outlines
of her white shape did not stir in the least. "My mother had wept bitterly before she died," she explained. An
inconceivable calmness seemed to have risen from the ground around us, imperceptibly, like the still rise of a
flood in the night, obliterating the familiar landmarks of emotions. There came upon me, as though I had felt
myself losing my footing in the midst of waters, a sudden dread, the dread of the unknown depths. She went
on explaining that, during the last moments, being alone with her mother, she had to leave the side of the
couch to go and set her back against the door, in order to keep Cornelius out. He desired to get in, and kept on
drumming with both fists, only desisting now and again to shout huskily, "Let me in! Let me in! Let me in!"
In a far corner upon a few mats the moribund woman, already speechless and unable to lift her arm, rolled her
head over, and with a feeble movement of her hand seemed to command--"No! No!" and the obedient
daughter, setting her shoulders with all her strength against the door, was looking on. "The tears fell from her
eyes--and then she died," concluded the girl in an imperturbable monotone, which more than anything else,
more than the white statuesque immobility of her person, more than mere words could do, troubled my mind
profoundly with the passive, irremediable horror of the scene. It had the power to drive me out of my
conception of existence, out of that shelter each of us makes for himself to creep under in moments of danger,
as a tortoise withdraws within its shell. For a moment I had a view of a world that seemed to wear a vast and
dismal aspect of disorder, while, in truth, thanks to our unwearied efforts, it is as sunny as arrangement of
small conveniences as the mind of man can conceive. But still--it was only a moment: I went back into my
shell directly. One must--don't you know?--though I seemed to have lost all my words in the chaos of dark
thoughts I had contemplated for a second or two beyond the pale. These came back, too, very soon, for words
also belong to the sheltering conception of light and order which is our refuge. I had them ready at my
disposal before she whispered softly, "He swore he would never leave me, when we stood there alone! He
swore to me!". . . "And it is possible that you--you! do not believe him?" I asked, sincerely reproachful,
genuinely shocked. Why couldn't she believe? Wherefore this craving for incertitude, this clinging to fear, as
if incertitude and fear had been the safeguards of her love. It was monstrous. She should have made for herself
a shelter of inexpugnable peace out of that honest affection. She had not the knowledge--not the skill perhaps.
The night had come on apace; it had grown pitch-dark where we were, so that without stirring she had faded
like the intangible form of a wistful and perverse spirit. And suddenly I heard her quiet whisper again, "Other
men had sworn the same thing." It was like a meditative comment on some thoughts full of sadness, of awe.
And she added, still lower if possible, "My father did." She paused the time to draw an inaudible breath. "Her
father too." . . . These were the things she knew! At once I said, "Ah! but he is not like that." This, it seemed,
she did not intend to dispute; but after a time the strange still whisper wandering dreamily in the air stole into
my ears. "Why is he different? Is he better? Is he . . ." "Upon my word of honour," I broke in, "I believe he is."
We subdued our tones to a mysterious pitch. Amongst the huts of Jim's workmen (they were mostly liberated
slaves from the Sherif's stockade) somebody started a shrill, drawling song. Across the river a big fire (at
Doramin's, I think) made a glowing ball, completely isolated in the night. "Is he more true?" she murmured.
"Yes," I said. "More true than any other man," she repeated in lingering accents. "Nobody here," I said,
"would dream of doubting his word--nobody would dare--except you."

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away from you," I said a little nervously. The song stopped short on a shrill note, and was succeeded by
several voices talking in the distance. Jim's voice too. I was struck by her silence. "What has he been telling
you? He has been telling you something?" I asked. There was no answer. "What is it he told you?" I insisted.

' "Do you think I can tell you? How am I to know? How am I to understand?" she cried at last. There was a
stir. I believe she was wringing her hands. "There is something he can never forget."

' "So much the better for you," I said gloomily.

' "What is it? What is it?" She put an extraordinary force of appeal into her supplicating tone. "He says he had
been afraid. How can I believe this? Am I a mad woman to believe this? You all remember something! You
all go back to it. What is it? You tell me! What is this thing? Is it alive?--is it dead? I hate it. It is cruel. Has it
got a face and a voice--this calamity? Will he see it--will he hear it? In his sleep perhaps when he cannot see
me--and then arise and go. Ah! I shall never forgive him. My mother had forgiven--but I, never! Will it be a
sign--a call?"

'It was a wonderful experience. She mistrusted his very slumbers--and she seemed to think I could tell her
why! Thus a poor mortal seduced by the charm of an apparition might have tried to wring from another ghost
the tremendous secret of the claim the other world holds over a disembodied soul astray amongst the passions
of this earth. The very ground on which I stood seemed to melt under my feet. And it was so simple too; but if
the spirits evoked by our fears and our unrest have ever to vouch for each other's constancy before the forlorn
magicians that we are, then I--I alone of us dwellers in the flesh--have shuddered in the hopeless chill of such
a task. A sign, a call! How telling in its expression was her ignorance. A few words! How she came to know
them, how she came to pronounce them, I can't imagine. Women find their inspiration in the stress of
moments that for us are merely awful, absurd, or futile. To discover that she had a voice at all was enough to
strike awe into the heart. Had a spurned stone cried out in pain it could not have appeared a greater and more
pitiful miracle. These few sounds wandering in the dark had made their two benighted lives tragic to my mind.
It was impossible to make her understand. I chafed silently at my impotence. And Jim, too--poor devil! Who
would need him? Who would remember him? He had what he wanted. His very existence probably had been
forgotten by this time. They had mastered their fates. They were tragic.

'Her immobility before me was clearly expectant, and my part was to speak for my brother from the realm of
forgetful shade. I was deeply moved at my responsibility and at her distress. I would have given anything for
the power to soothe her frail soul, tormenting itself in its invincible ignorance like a small bird beating about
the cruel wires of a cage. Nothing easier than to say, Have no fear! Nothing more difficult. How does one kill
fear, I wonder? How do you shoot a spectre through the heart, slash off its spectral head, take it by its spectral
throat? It is an enterprise you rush into while you dream, and are glad to make your escape with wet hair and
every limb shaking. The bullet is not run, the blade not forged, the man not born; even the winged words of
truth drop at your feet like lumps of lead. You require for such a desperate encounter an enchanted and
poisoned shaft dipped in a lie too subtle to be found on earth. An enterprise for a dream, my masters!

'I began my exorcism with a heavy heart, with a sort of sullen anger in it too. Jim's voice, suddenly raised with
a stern intonation, carried across the courtyard, reproving the carelessness of some dumb sinner by the
river-side. Nothing--I said, speaking in a distinct murmur--there could be nothing, in that unknown world she
fancied so eager to rob her of her happiness, there was nothing, neither living nor dead, there was no face, no
voice, no power, that could tear Jim from her side. I drew breath and she whispered softly, "He told me so."
"He told you the truth," I said. "Nothing," she sighed out, and abruptly turned upon me with a barely audible
intensity of tone: "Why did you come to us from out there? He speaks of you too often. You make me afraid.
Do you--do you want him?" A sort of stealthy fierceness had crept into our hurried mutters. "I shall never
come again," I said bitterly. "And I don't want him. No one wants him." "No one," she repeated in a tone of
doubt. "No one," I affirmed, feeling myself swayed by some strange excitement. "You think him strong, wise,
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never be troubled by a voice from there again. This world you don't know is too big to miss him. You
understand? Too big. You've got his heart in your hand. You must feel that. You must know that." "Yes, I
know that," she breathed out, hard and still, as a statue might whisper.

'I felt I had done nothing. And what is it that I had wished to do? I am not sure now. At the time I was
animated by an inexplicable ardour, as if before some great and necessary task--the influence of the moment
upon my mental and emotional state. There are in all our lives such moments, such influences, coming from
the outside, as it were, irresistible, incomprehensible--as if brought about by the mysterious conjunctions of
the planets. She owned, as I had put it to her, his heart. She had that and everything else--if she could only
believe it. What I had to tell her was that in the whole world there was no one who ever would need his heart,
his mind, his hand. It was a common fate, and yet it seemed an awful thing to say of any man. She listened
without a word, and her stillness now was like the protest of an invincible unbelief. What need she care for the
world beyond the forests? I asked. From all the multitudes that peopled the vastness of that unknown there
would come, I assured her, as long as he lived, neither a call nor a sign for him. Never. I was carried away.
Never! Never! I remember with wonder the sort of dogged fierceness I displayed. I had the illusion of having
got the spectre by the throat at last. Indeed the whole real thing has left behind the detailed and amazing
impression of a dream. Why should she fear? She knew him to be strong, true, wise, brave. He was all that.
Certainly. He was more. He was great--invincible--and the world did not want him, it had forgotten him, it
would not even know him.

'I stopped; the silence over Patusan was profound, and the feeble dry sound of a paddle striking the side of a
canoe somewhere in the middle of the river seemed to make it infinite. "Why?" she murmured. I felt that sort
of rage one feels during a hard tussle. The spectre vas trying to slip out of my grasp. "Why?" she repeated
louder; "tell me!" And as I remained confounded, she stamped with her foot like a spoilt child. "Why? Speak."
"You want to know?" I asked in a fury. "Yes!" she cried. "Because he is not good enough," I said brutally.
During the moment's pause I noticed the fire on the other shore blaze up, dilating the circle of its glow like an
amazed stare, and contract suddenly to a red pin-point. I only knew how close to me she had been when I felt
the clutch of her fingers on my forearm. Without raising her voice, she threw into it an infinity of scathing
contempt, bitterness, and despair.

' "This is the very thing he said. . . . You lie!"

'The last two words she cried at me in the native dialect. "Hear me out!" I entreated; she caught her breath
tremulously, flung my arm away. "Nobody, nobody is good enough," I began with the greatest earnestness. I
could hear the sobbing labour of her breath frightfully quickened. I hung my head. What was the use?
Footsteps were approaching; I slipped away without another word. . . .'

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Marlow swung his legs out, got up quickly, and staggered a little, as though he had been set down after a rush
through space. He leaned his back against the balustrade and faced a disordered array of long cane chairs. The
bodies prone in them seemed startled out of their torpor by his movement. One or two sat up as if alarmed;
here and there a cigar glowed yet; Marlow looked at them all with the eyes of a man returning from the
excessive remoteness of a dream. A throat was cleared; a calm voice encouraged negligently, 'Well.'

'Nothing,' said Marlow with a slight start. 'He had told her--that's all. She did not believe him--nothing more.
As to myself, I do not know whether it be just, proper, decent for me to rejoice or to be sorry. For my part, I
cannot say what I believed--indeed I don't know to this day, and never shall probably. But what did the poor
devil believe himself? Truth shall prevail--don't you know Magna est veritas el . . . Yes, when it gets a chance.
There is a law, no doubt--and likewise a law regulates your luck in the throwing of dice. It is not Justice the
servant of men, but accident, hazard, Fortune--the ally of patient Time--that holds an even and scrupulous
balance. Both of us had said the very same thing. Did we both speak the truth--or one of us did--or neither? . .
.'

Marlow paused, crossed his arms on his breast, and in a changed tone--

'She said we lied. Poor soul! Well--let's leave it to Chance, whose ally is Time, that cannot be hurried, and
whose enemy is Death, that will not wait. I had retreated--a little cowed, I must own. I had tried a fall with
fear itself and got thrown--of course. I had only succeeded in adding to her anguish the hint of some
mysterious collusion, of an inexplicable and incomprehensible conspiracy to keep her for ever in the dark.
And it had come easily, naturally, unavoidably, by his act, by her own act! It was as though I had been shown
the working of the implacable destiny of which we are the victims--and the tools. It was appalling to think of
the girl whom I had left standing there motionless; Jim's footsteps had a fateful sound as he tramped by,
without seeing me, in his heavy laced boots. "What? No lights!" he said in a loud, surprised voice. "What are
you doing in the dark--you two?" Next moment he caught sight of her, I suppose. "Hallo, girl!" he cried
cheerily. "Hallo, boy!" she answered at once, with amazing pluck.

'This was their usual greeting to each other, and the bit of swagger she would put into her rather high but
sweet voice was very droll, pretty, and childlike. It delighted Jim greatly. This was the last occasion on which
I heard them exchange this familiar hail, and it struck a chill into my heart. There was the high sweet voice,
the pretty effort, the swagger; but it all seemed to die out prematurely, and the playful call sounded like a
moan. It was too confoundedly awful. "What have you done with Marlow?" Jim was asking; and then, "Gone
down--has he? Funny I didn't meet him. . . . You there, Marlow?"

'I didn't answer. I wasn't going in--not yet at any rate. I really couldn't. While he was calling me I was engaged
in making my escape through a little gate leading out upon a stretch of newly cleared ground. No; I couldn't
face them yet. I walked hastily with lowered head along a trodden path. The ground rose gently, the few big
trees had been felled, the undergrowth had been cut down and the grass fired. He had a mind to try a
coffee-plantation there. The big hill, rearing its double summit coal-black in the clear yellow glow of the
rising moon, seemed to cast its shadow upon the ground prepared for that experiment. He was going to try
ever so many experiments; I had admired his energy, his enterprise, and his shrewdness. Nothing on earth
seemed less real now than his plans, his energy, and his enthusiasm; and raising my eyes, I saw part of the
moon glittering through the bushes at the bottom of the chasm. For a moment it looked as though the smooth
disc, falling from its place in the sky upon the earth, had rolled to the bottom of that precipice: its ascending
movement was like a leisurely rebound; it disengaged itself from the tangle of twigs; the bare contorted limb
of some tree, growing on the slope, made a black crack right across its face. It threw its level rays afar as if
from a cavern, and in this mournful eclipse-like light the stumps of felled trees uprose very dark, the heavy
shadows fell at my feet on all sides, my own moving shadow, and across my path the shadow of the solitary
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foreign to one's memory and colours indefinable to the eye, as though they had been special flowers gathered
by no man, grown not in this world, and destined for the use of the dead alone. Their powerful scent hung in
the warm air, making it thick and heavy like the fumes of incense. The lumps of white coral shone round the
dark mound like a chaplet of bleached skulls, and everything around was so quiet that when I stood still all
sound and all movement in the world seemed to come to an end.

'It was a great peace, as if the earth had been one grave, and for a time I stood there thinking mostly of the
living who, buried in remote places out of the knowledge of mankind, still are fated to share in its tragic or
grotesque miseries. In its noble struggles too--who knows? The human heart is vast enough to contain all the
world. It is valiant enough to bear the burden, but where is the courage that would cast it off?

'I suppose I must have fallen into a sentimental mood; I only know that I stood there long enough for the sense
of utter solitude to get hold of me so completely that all I had lately seen, all I had heard, and the very human
speech itself, seemed to have passed away out of existence, living only for a while longer in my memory, as
though I had been the last of mankind. It was a strange and melancholy illusion, evolved half-consciously like
all our illusions, which I suspect only to be visions of remote unattainable truth, seen dimly. This was, indeed,
one of the lost, forgotten, unknown places of the earth; I had looked under its obscure surface; and I felt that
when to-morrow I had left it for ever, it would slip out of existence, to live only in my memory till I myself
passed into oblivion. I have that feeling about me now; perhaps it is that feeling which has incited me to tell
you the story, to try to hand over to you, as it were, its very existence, its reality--the truth disclosed in a
moment of illusion.

'Cornelius broke upon it. He bolted out, vermin-like, from the long grass growing in a depression of the
ground. I believe his house was rotting somewhere near by, though I've never seen it, not having been far
enough in that direction. He ran towards me upon the path; his feet, shod in dirty white shoes, twinkled on the
dark earth; he pulled himself up, and began to whine and cringe under a tall stove-pipe hat. His dried-up little
carcass was swallowed up, totally lost, in a suit of black broadcloth. That was his costume for holidays and
ceremonies, and it reminded me that this was the fourth Sunday I had spent in Patusan. All the time of my stay
I had been vaguely aware of his desire to confide in me, if he only could get me all to himself. He hung about
with an eager craving look on his sour yellow little face; but his timidity had kept him back as much as my
natural reluctance to have anything to do with such an unsavoury creature. He would have succeeded,
nevertheless, had he not been so ready to slink off as soon as you looked at him. He would slink off before
Jim's severe gaze, before my own, which I tried to make indifferent, even before Tamb' Itam's surly, superior
glance. He was perpetually slinking away; whenever seen he was seen moving off deviously, his face over his
shoulder, with either a mistrustful snarl or a woe-begone, piteous, mute aspect; but no assumed expression
could conceal this innate irremediable abjectness of his nature, any more than an arrangement of clothing can
conceal some monstrous deformity of the body.

'I don't know whether it was the demoralisation of my utter defeat in my encounter with a spectre of fear less
than an hour ago, but I let him capture me without even a show of resistance. I was doomed to be the recipient
of confidences, and to be confronted with unanswerable questions. It was trying; but the contempt, the
unreasoned contempt, the man's appearance provoked, made it easier to bear. He couldn't possibly matter.
Nothing mattered, since I had made up my mind that Jim, for whom alone I cared, had at last mastered his
fate. He had told me he was satisfied . . . nearly. This is going further than most of us dare. I--who have the
right to think myself good enough--dare not. Neither does any of you here, I suppose? . . .'

Marlow paused, as if expecting an answer. Nobody spoke.

'Quite right,' he began again. 'Let no soul know, since the truth can be wrung out of us only by some cruel,
little, awful catastrophe. But he is one of us, and he could say he was satisfied . . . nearly. Just fancy this!
Nearly satisfied. One could almost envy him his catastrophe. Nearly satisfied. After this nothing could matter.
It did not matter who suspected him, who trusted him, who loved him, who hated him--especially as it was

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Cornelius who hated him.

'Yet after all this was a kind of recognition. You shall judge of a man by his foes as well as by his friends, and
this enemy of Jim was such as no decent man would be ashamed to own, without, however, making too much
of him. This was the view Jim took, and in which I shared; but Jim disregarded him on general grounds. "My
dear Marlow," he said, "I feel that if I go straight nothing can touch me. Indeed I do. Now you have been long
enough here to have a good look round--and, frankly, don't you think I am pretty safe? It all depends upon me,
and, by Jove! I have lots of confidence in myself. The worst thing he could do would be to kill me, I suppose.
I don't think for a moment he would. He couldn't, you know--not if I were myself to hand him a loaded rifle
for the purpose, and then turn my back on him. That's the sort of thing he is. And suppose he would--suppose
he could? Well--what of that? I didn't come here flying for my life--did I? I came here to set my back against
the wall, and I am going to stay here . . ."

' "Till you are quite satisfied," I struck in.

'We were sitting at the time under the roof in the stern of his boat; twenty paddles flashed like one, ten on a
side, striking the water with a single splash, while behind our backs Tamb' Itam dipped silently right and left,
and stared right down the river, attentive to keep the long canoe in the greatest strength of the current. Jim
bowed his head, and our last talk seemed to flicker out for good. He was seeing me off as far as the mouth of
the river. The schooner had left the day before, working down and drifting on the ebb, while I had prolonged
my stay overnight. And now he was seeing me off.

'Jim had been a little angry with me for mentioning Cornelius at all. I had not, in truth, said much. The man
was too insignificant to be dangerous, though he was as full of hate as he could hold. He had called me
"honourable sir" at every second sentence, and had whined at my elbow as he followed me from the grave of
his "late wife" to the gate of Jim's compound. He declared himself the most unhappy of men, a victim, crushed
like a worm; he entreated me to look at him. I wouldn't turn my head to do so; but I could see out of the corner
of my eye his obsequious shadow gliding after mine, while the moon, suspended on our right hand, seemed to
gloat serenely upon the spectacle. He tried to explain--as I've told you--his share in the events of the
memorable night. It was a matter of expediency. How could he know who was going to get the upper hand? "I
would have saved him, honourable sir! I would have saved him for eighty dollars," he protested in dulcet
tones, keeping a pace behind me. "He has saved himself," I said, "and he has forgiven you." I heard a sort of
tittering, and turned upon him; at once he appeared ready to take to his heels. "What are you laughing at?" I
asked, standing still. "Don't be deceived, honourable sir!" he shrieked, seemingly losing all control over his
feelings. "He save himself! He knows nothing, honourable sir--nothing whatever. Who is he? What does he
want here--the big thief? What does he want here? He throws dust into everybody's eyes; he throws dust into
your eyes, honourable sir; but he can't throw dust into my eyes. He is a big fool, honourable sir." I laughed
contemptuously, and, turning on my heel, began to walk on again. He ran up to my elbow and whispered
forcibly, "He's no more than a little child here--like a little child--a little child." Of course I didn't take the
slightest notice, and seeing the time pressed, because we were approaching the bamboo fence that glittered
over the blackened ground of the clearing, he came to the point. He commenced by being abjectly lachrymose.
His great misfortunes had affected his head. He hoped I would kindly forget what nothing but his troubles
made him say. He didn't mean anything by it; only the honourable sir did not know what it was to be ruined,
broken down, trampled upon. After this introduction he approached the matter near his heart, but in such a
rambling, ejaculatory, craven fashion, that for a long time I couldn't make out what he was driving at. He
wanted me to intercede with Jim in his favour. It seemed, too, to be some sort of money affair. I heard time
and again the words, "Moderate provision--suitable present." He seemed to be claiming value for something,
and he even went the length of saying with some warmth that life was not worth having if a man were to be
robbed of everything. I did not breathe a word, of course, but neither did I stop my ears. The gist of the affair,
which became clear to me gradually, was in this, that he regarded himself as entitled to some money in
exchange for the girl. He had brought her up. Somebody else's child. Great trouble and pains--old man
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and fearful lest I should think him extortionate, I suppose, he hastily brought himself to make a concession. In
consideration of a "suitable present" given at once, he would, he declared, be willing to undertake the charge
of the girl, "without any other provision--when the time came for the gentleman to go home." His little yellow
face, all crumpled as though it had been squeezed together, expressed the most anxious, eager avarice. His
voice whined coaxingly, "No more trouble--natural guardian--a sum of money . . ."

'I stood there and marvelled. That kind of thing, with him, was evidently a vocation. I discovered suddenly in
his cringing attitude a sort of assurance, as though he had been all his life dealing in certitudes. He must have
thought I was dispassionately considering his proposal, because he became as sweet as honey. "Every
gentleman made a provision when the time came to go home," he began insinuatingly. I slammed the little
gate. "In this case, Mr. Cornelius," I said, "the time will never come." He took a few seconds to gather this in.
"What!" he fairly squealed. "Why," I continued from my side of the gate," haven't you heard him say so
himself? He will never go home." "Oh! this is too much," he shouted. He would not address me as "honoured
sir" any more. He was very still for a time, and then without a trace of humility began very low: "Never
go--ah! He--he--he comes here devil knows from where--comes here--devil knows why--to trample on me till
I die--ah--trample" (he stamped softly with both feet), "trample like this--nobody knows why--till I die. . . ."
His voice became quite extinct; he was bothered by a little cough; he came up close to the fence and told me,
dropping into a confidential and piteous tone, that he would not be trampled upon. "Patience-- patience," he
muttered, striking his breast. I had done laughing at him, but unexpectedly he treated me to a wild cracked
burst of it. "Ha! ha! ha! We shall see! We shall see! What! Steal from me! Steal from me everything!
Everything! Everything!" His head drooped on one shoulder, his hands were hanging before him lightly
clasped. One would have thought he had cherished the girl with surpassing love, that his spirit had been
crushed and his heart broken by the most cruel of spoliations. Suddenly he lifted his head and shot out an
infamous word. "Like her mother--she is like her deceitful mother. Exactly. In her face, too. In her face. The
devil!" He leaned his forehead against the fence, and in that position uttered threats and horrible blasphemies
in Portuguese in very weak ejaculations, mingled with miserable plaints and groans, coming out with a heave
of the shoulders as though he had been overtaken by a deadly fit of sickness. It was an inexpressibly grotesque
and vile performance, and I hastened away. He tried to shout something after me. Some disparagement of Jim,
I believe--not too loud though, we were too near the house. All I heard distinctly was, "No more than a little
child--a little child." '

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'But next morning, at the first bend of the river shutting off the houses of Patusan, all this dropped out of my
sight bodily, with its colour, its design, and its meaning, like a picture created by fancy on a canvas, upon
which, after long contemplation, you turn your back for the last time. It remains in the memory motionless,
unfaded, with its life arrested, in an unchanging light. There are the ambitions, the fears, the hate, the hopes,
and they remain in my mind just as I had seen them--intense and as if for ever suspended in their expression. I
had turned away from the picture and was going back to the world where events move, men change, light
flickers, life flows in a clear stream, no matter whether over mud or over stones. I wasn't going to dive into it;
I would have enough to do to keep my head above the surface. But as to what I was leaving behind, I cannot
imagine any alteration. The immense and magnanimous Doramin and his little motherly witch of a wife,
gazing together upon the land and nursing secretly their dreams of parental ambition; Tunku Allang, wizened
and greatly perplexed; Dain Waris, intelligent and brave, with his faith in Jim, with his firm glance and his
ironic friendliness; the girl, absorbed in her frightened, suspicious adoration; Tamb' Itam, surly and faithful;
Cornelius, leaning his forehead against the fence under the moonlight--I am certain of them. They exist as if
under an enchanter's wand. But the figure round which all these are grouped--that one lives, and I am not
certain of him. No magician's wand can immobilise him under my eyes. He is one of us.

'Jim, as I've told you, accompanied me on the first stage of my journey back to the world he had renounced,
and the way at times seemed to lead through the very heart of untouched wilderness. The empty reaches
sparkled under the high sun; between the high walls of vegetation the heat drowsed upon the water, and the
boat, impelled vigorously, cut her way through the air that seemed to have settled dense and warm under the
shelter of lofty trees.

'The shadow of the impending separation had already put an immense space between us, and when we spoke
it was with an effort, as if to force our low voices across a vast and increasing distance. The boat fairly flew;
we sweltered side by side in the stagnant superheated air; the smell of mud, of mush, the primeval smell of
fecund earth, seemed to sting our faces; till suddenly at a bend it was as if a great hand far away had lifted a
heavy curtain, had flung open un immense portal. The light itself seemed to stir, the sky above our heads
widened, a far-off murmur reached our ears, a freshness enveloped us, filled our lungs, quickened our
thoughts, our blood, our regrets--and, straight ahead, the forests sank down against the dark-blue ridge of the
sea.

'I breathed deeply, I revelled in the vastness of the opened horizon, in the different atmosphere that seemed to
vibrate with the toil of life, with the energy of an impeccable world. This sky and this sea were open to me.
The girl was right--there was a sign, a call in them-- something to which I responded with every fibre of my
being. I let my eyes roam through space, like a man released from bonds who stretches his cramped limbs,
runs, leaps, responds to the inspiring elation of freedom. "This is glorious!" I cried, and then I looked at the
sinner by my side. He sat with his head sunk on his breast and said "Yes," without raising his eyes, as if afraid
to see writ large on the clear sky of the offing the reproach of his romantic conscience.

'I remember the smallest details of that afternoon. We landed on a bit of white beach. It was backed by a low
cliff wooded on the brow, draped in creepers to the very foot. Below us the plain of the sea, of a serene and
intense blue, stretched with a slight upward tilt to the thread-like horizon drawn at the height of our eyes.
Great waves of glitter blew lightly along the pitted dark surface, as swift as feathers chased by the breeze. A
chain of islands sat broken and massive facing the wide estuary, displayed in a sheet of pale glassy water
reflecting faithfully the contour of the shore. High in the colourless sunshine a solitary bird, all black,
hovered, dropping and soaring above the same spot with a slight rocking motion of the wings. A ragged, sooty
bunch of flimsy mat hovels was perched over its own inverted image upon a crooked multitude of high piles
the colour of ebony. A tiny black canoe put off from amongst them with two tiny men, all black, who toiled
exceedingly, striking down at the pale water: and the canoe seemed to slide painfully on a mirror. This bunch
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men crossing over were the old headman and his son-in-law. They landed and walked up to us on the white
sand, lean, dark-brown as if dried in smoke, with ashy patches on the skin of their naked shoulders and
breasts. Their heads were bound in dirty but carefully folded headkerchiefs, and the old man began at once to
state a complaint, voluble, stretching a lank arm, screwing up at Jim his old bleared eyes confidently. The
Rajah's people would not leave them alone; there had been some trouble about a lot of turtles' eggs his people
had collected on the islets there--and leaning at arm's-length upon his paddle, he pointed with a brown skinny
hand over the sea. Jim listened for a time without looking up, and at last told him gently to wait. He would
hear him by-and-by. They withdrew obediently to some little distance, and sat on their heels, with their
paddles lying before them on the sand; the silvery gleams in their eyes followed our movements patiently; and
the immensity of the outspread sea, the stillness of the coast, passing north and south beyond the limits of my
vision, made up one colossal Presence watching us four dwarfs isolated on a strip of glistening sand.

' "The trouble is," remarked Jim moodily, "that for generations these beggars of fishermen in that village there
had been considered as the Rajah's personal slaves--and the old rip can't get it into his head that . . ."

'He paused. "That you have changed all that," I said.

' "Yes I've changed all that," he muttered in a gloomy voice.

' "You have had your opportunity," I pursued.

' "Have I?" he said. "Well, yes. I suppose so. Yes. I have got back my confidence in myself--a good name--yet
sometimes I wish . . . No! I shall hold what I've got. Can't expect anything more." He flung his arm out
towards the sea. "Not out there anyhow." He stamped his foot upon the sand. "This is my limit, because
nothing less will do."

'We continued pacing the beach. "Yes, I've changed all that," he went on, with a sidelong glance at the two
patient squatting fishermen; "but only try to think what it would be if I went away. Jove! can't you see it? Hell
loose. No! To-morrow I shall go and take my chance of drinking that silly old Tunku Allang's coffee, and I
shall make no end of fuss over these rotten turtles' eggs. No. I can't say--enough. Never. I must go on, go on
for ever holding up my end, to feel sure that nothing can touch me. I must stick to their belief in me to feel
safe and to--to" . . . He cast about for a word, seemed to look for it on the sea . . . "to keep in touch with" . . .
His voice sank suddenly to a murmur . . . "with those whom, perhaps, I shall never see any more.
With--with--you, for instance."

'I was profoundly humbled by his words. "For God's sake," I said, "don't set me up, my dear fellow; just look
to yourself." I felt a gratitude, an affection, for that straggler whose eyes had singled me out, keeping my place
in the ranks of an insignificant multitude. How little that was to boast of, after all! I turned my burning face
away; under the low sun, glowing, darkened and crimson, like un ember snatched from the fire, the sea lay
outspread, offering all its immense stillness to the approach of the fiery orb. Twice he was going to speak, but
checked himself; at last, as if he had found a formula--

' "I shall be faithful," he said quietly. "I shall be faithful," he repeated, without looking at me, but for the first
time letting his eyes wander upon the waters, whose blueness had changed to a gloomy purple under the fires
of sunset. Ah! he was romantic, romantic. I recalled some words of Stein's. . . . "In the destructive element
immerse! . . . To follow the dream, and again to follow the dream--and so--always--usque ad finem . . ." He
was romantic, but none the less true. Who could tell what forms, what visions, what faces, what forgiveness
he could see in the glow of the west! . . . A small boat, leaving the schooner, moved slowly, with a regular
beat of two oars, towards the sandbank to take me off. "And then there's Jewel," he said, out of the great
silence of earth, sky, and sea, which had mastered my very thoughts so that his voice made me start. "There's
Jewel." "Yes," I murmured. "I need not tell you what she is to me," he pursued. "You've seen. In time she will
come to understand . . ." "I hope so," I interrupted. "She trusts me, too," he mused, and then changed his tone.

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"When shall we meet next, I wonder?" he said.

' "Never--unless you come out," I answered, avoiding his glance. He didn't seem to be surprised; he kept very
quiet for a while.

' "Good-bye, then," he said, after a pause. "Perhaps it's just as well."

'We shook hands, and I walked to the boat, which waited with her nose on the beach. The schooner, her
mainsail set and jib-sheet to windward, curveted on the purple sea; there was a rosy tinge on her sails. "Will
you be going home again soon?" asked Jim, just as I swung my leg over the gunwale. "In a year or so if I
live," I said. The forefoot grated on the sand, the boat floated, the wet oars flashed and dipped once, twice.
Jim, at the water's edge, raised his voice. "Tell them . . ." he began. I signed to the men to cease rowing, and
waited in wonder. Tell who? The half-submerged sun faced him; I could see its red gleam in his eyes that
looked dumbly at me. . . . "No-- nothing," he said, and with a slight wave of his hand motioned the boat away.
I did not look again at the shore till I had clambered on board the schooner.

'By that time the sun had set. The twilight lay over the east, and the coast, turned black, extended infinitely its
sombre wall that seemed the very stronghold of the night; the western horizon was one great blaze of gold and
crimson in which a big detached cloud floated dark and still, casting a slaty shadow on the water beneath, and
I saw Jim on the beach watching the schooner fall off and gather headway.

'The two half-naked fishermen had arisen as soon as I had gone; they were no doubt pouring the plaint of their
trifling, miserable, oppressed lives into the ears of the white lord, and no doubt he was listening to it, making
it his own, for was it not a part of his luck--the luck "from the word Go"--the luck to which he had assured me
he was so completely equal? They, too, I should think, were in luck, and I was sure their pertinacity would be
equal to it. Their dark-skinned bodies vanished on the dark background long before I had lost sight of their
protector. He was white from head to foot, and remained persistently visible with the stronghold of the night
at his back, the sea at his feet, the opportunity by his side--still veiled. What do you say? Was it still veiled? I
don't know. For me that white figure in the stillness of coast and sea seemed to stand at the heart of a vast
enigma. The twilight was ebbing fast from the sky above his head, the strip of sand had sunk already under his
feet, he himself appeared no bigger than a child--then only a speck, a tiny white speck, that seemed to catch
all the light left in a darkened world. . . . And, suddenly, I lost him. . . .

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With these words Marlow had ended his narrative, and his audience had broken up forthwith, under his
abstract, pensive gaze. Men drifted off the verandah in pairs or alone without loss of time, without offering a
remark, as if the last image of that incomplete story, its incompleteness itself, and the very tone of the speaker,
had made discussion in vain and comment impossible. Each of them seemed to carry away his own
impression, to carry it away with him like a secret; but there was only one man of all these listeners who was
ever to hear the last word of the story. It came to him at home, more than two years later, and it came
contained in a thick packet addressed in Marlow's upright and angular handwriting.

The privileged man opened the packet, looked in, then, laying it down, went to the window. His rooms were
in the highest flat of a lofty building, and his glance could travel afar beyond the clear panes of glass, as
though he were looking out of the lantern of a lighthouse. The slopes of the roofs glistened, the dark broken
ridges succeeded each other without end like sombre, uncrested waves, and from the depths of the town under
his feet ascended a confused and unceasing mutter. The spires of churches, numerous, scattered haphazard,
uprose like beacons on a maze of shoals without a channel; the driving rain mingled with the falling dusk of a
winter's evening; and the booming of a big clock on a tower, striking the hour, rolled past in voluminous,
austere bursts of sound, with a shrill vibrating cry at the core. He drew the heavy curtains.

The light of his shaded reading-lamp slept like a sheltered pool, his footfalls made no sound on the carpet, his
wandering days were over. No more horizons as boundless as hope, no more twilights within the forests as
solemn as temples, in the hot quest for the Ever-undiscovered Country over the hill, across the stream, beyond
the wave. The hour was striking! No more! No more!--but the opened packet under the lamp brought back the
sounds, the visions, the very savour of the past--a multitude of fading faces, a tumult of low voices, dying
away upon the shores of distant seas under a passionate and unconsoling sunshine. He sighed and sat down to
read.

At first he saw three distinct enclosures. A good many pages closely blackened and pinned together; a loose
square sheet of greyish paper with a few words traced in a handwriting he had never seen before, and an
explanatory letter from Marlow. From this last fell another letter, yellowed by time and frayed on the folds.
He picked it up and, laying it aside, turned to Marlow's message, ran swiftly over the opening lines, and,
checking himself, thereafter read on deliberately, like one approaching with slow feet and alert eyes the
glimpse of an undiscovered country.

'. . . I don't suppose you've forgotten,' went on the letter. 'You alone have showed an interest in him that
survived the telling of his story, though I remember well you would not admit he had mastered his fate. You
prophesied for him the disaster of weariness and of disgust with acquired honour, with the self-appointed task,
with the love sprung from pity and youth. You had said you knew so well "that kind of thing," its illusory
satisfaction, its unavoidable deception. You said also--I call to mind--that "giving your life up to them" (them
meaning all of mankind with skins brown, yellow, or black in colour) "was like selling your soul to a brute."
You contended that "that kind of thing" was only endurable and enduring when based on a firm conviction in
the truth of ideas racially our own, in whose name are established the order, the morality of an ethical
progress. "We want its strength at our backs," you had said. "We want a belief in its necessity and its justice,
to make a worthy and conscious sacrifice of our lives. Without it the sacrifice is only forgetfulness, the way of
offering is no better than the way to perdition." In other words, you maintained that we must fight in the ranks
or our lives don't count. Possibly! You ought to know--be it said without malice--you who have rushed into
one or two places single-handed and came out cleverly, without singeing your wings. The point, however, is
that of all mankind Jim had no dealings but with himself, and the question is whether at the last he had not
confessed to a faith mightier than the laws of order and progress.

'I affirm nothing. Perhaps you may pronounce--after you've read. There is much truth--after all--in the
common expression "under a cloud." It is impossible to see him clearly--especially as it is through the eyes of

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others that we take our last look at him. I have no hesitation in imparting to you all I know of the last episode
that, as he used to say, had "come to him." One wonders whether this was perhaps that supreme opportunity,
that last and satisfying test for which I had always suspected him to be waiting, before he could frame a
message to the impeccable world. You remember that when I was leaving him for the last time he had asked
whether I would be going home soon, and suddenly cried after me, "Tell them . . ." I had waited--curious I'll
own, and hopeful too--only to hear him shout, "No--nothing." That was all then--and there will be nothing
more; there will be no message, unless such as each of us can interpret for himself from the language of facts,
that are so often more enigmatic than the craftiest arrangement of words. He made, it is true, one more attempt
to deliver himself; but that too failed, as you may perceive if you look at the sheet of greyish foolscap
enclosed here. He had tried to write; do you notice the commonplace hand? It is headed "The Fort, Patusan." I
suppose he had carried out his intention of making out of his house a place of defence. It was an excellent
plan: a deep ditch, an earth wall topped by a palisade, and at the angles guns mounted on platforms to sweep
each side of the square. Doramin had agreed to furnish him the guns; and so each man of his party would
know there was a place of safety, upon which every faithful partisan could rally in case of some sudden
danger. All this showed his judicious foresight, his faith in the future. What he called "my own people"--the
liberated captives of the Sherif--were to make a distinct quarter of Patusan, with their huts and little plots of
ground under the walls of the stronghold. Within he would be an invincible host in himself "The Fort,
Patusan." No date, as you observe. What is a number and a name to a day of days? It is also impossible to say
whom he had in his mind when he seized the pen: Stein--myself--the world at large--or was this only the
aimless startled cry of a solitary man confronted by his fate? "An awful thing has happened," he wrote before
he flung the pen down for the first time; look at the ink blot resembling the head of an arrow under these
words. After a while he had tried again, scrawling heavily, as if with a hand of lead, another line. "I must now
at once . . ." The pen had spluttered, and that time he gave it up. There's nothing more; he had seen a broad
gulf that neither eye nor voice could span. I can understand this. He was overwhelmed by the inexplicable; he
was overwhelmed by his own personality--the gift of that destiny which he had done his best to master.

'I send you also an old letter--a very old letter. It was found carefully preserved in his writing-case. It is from
his father, and by the date you can see he must have received it a few days before he joined the Patna. Thus it
must be the last letter he ever had from home. He had treasured it all these years. The good old parson fancied
his sailor son. I've looked in at a sentence here and there. There is nothing in it except just affection. He tells
his "dear James" that the last long letter from him was very "honest and entertaining." He would not have him
"judge men harshly or hastily." There are four pages of it, easy morality and family news. Tom had "taken
orders." Carrie's husband had "money losses." The old chap goes on equably trusting Providence and the
established order of the universe, but alive to its small dangers and its small mercies. One can almost see him,
grey-haired and serene in the inviolable shelter of his book-lined, faded, and comfortable study, where for
forty years he had conscientiously gone over and over again the round of his little thoughts about faith and
virtue, about the conduct of life and the only proper manner of dying; where he had written so many sermons,
where he sits talking to his boy, over there, on the other side of the earth. But what of the distance? Virtue is
one all over the world, and there is only one faith, one conceivable conduct of life, one manner of dying. He
hopes his "dear James" will never forget that "who once gives way to temptation, in the very instant hazards
his total depravity and everlasting ruin. Therefore resolve fixedly never, through any possible motives, to do
anything which you believe to be wrong." There is also some news of a favourite dog; and a pony, "which all
you boys used to ride," had gone blind from old age and had to be shot. The old chap invokes Heaven's
blessing; the mother and all the girls then at home send their love. . . . No, there is nothing much in that
yellow frayed letter fluttering out of his cherishing grasp after so many years. It was never answered, but who
can say what converse he may have held with all these placid, colourless forms of men and women peopling
that quiet corner of the world as free of danger or strife as a tomb, and breathing equably the air of
undisturbed rectitude. It seems amazing that he should belong to it, he to whom so many things "had come.
"Nothing ever came to them; they would never be taken unawares, and never be called upon to grapple with
fate. Here they all are, evoked by the mild gossip of the father, all these brothers and sisters, bone of his bone
and flesh of his flesh, gazing with clear unconscious eyes, while I seem to see him, returned at last, no longer
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untroubled shapes, with a stern and romantic aspect, but always mute, dark--under a cloud.

'The story of the last events you will find in the few pages enclosed here. You must admit that it is romantic
beyond the wildest dreams of his boyhood, and yet there is to my mind a sort of profound and terrifying logic
in it, as if it were our imagination alone that could set loose upon us the might of an overwhelming destiny.
The imprudence of our thoughts recoils upon our heads; who toys with the sword shall perish by the sword.
This astounding adventure, of which the most astounding part is that it is true, comes on as an unavoidable
consequence. Something of the sort had to happen. You repeat this to yourself while you marvel that such a
thing could happen in the year of grace before last. But it has happened--and there is no disputing its logic.

'I put it down here for you as though I had been an eyewitness. My information was fragmentary, but I've
fitted the pieces together, and there is enough of them to make an intelligible picture. I wonder how he would
have related it himself. He has confided so much in me that at times it seems as though he must come in
presently and tell the story in his own words, in his careless yet feeling voice, with his offhand manner, a little
puzzled, a little bothered, a little hurt, but now and then by a word or a phrase giving one of these glimpses of
his very own self that were never any good for purposes of orientation. It's difficult to believe he will never
come. I shall never hear his voice again, nor shall I see his smooth tan-and-pink face with a white line on the
forehead, and the youthful eyes darkened by excitement to a profound, unfathomable blue.'

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'It all begins with a remarkable exploit of a man called Brown, who stole with complete success a Spanish
schooner out of a small bay near Zamboanga. Till I discovered the fellow my information was incomplete, but
most unexpectedly I did come upon him a few hours before he gave up his arrogant ghost. Fortunately he was
willing and able to talk between the choking fits of asthma, and his racked body writhed with malicious
exultation at the bare thought of Jim. He exulted thus at the idea that he had "paid out the stuck-up beggar
after all." He gloated over his action. I had to bear the sunken glare of his fierce crow-footed eyes if I wanted
to know; and so I bore it, reflecting how much certain forms of evil are akin to madness, derived from intense
egoism, inflamed by resistance, tearing the soul to pieces, and giving factitious vigour to the body. The story
also reveals unsuspected depths of cunning in the wretched Cornelius, whose abject and intense hate acts like
a subtle inspiration, pointing out an unerring way towards revenge.

' "I could see directly I set my eyes on him what sort of a fool he was," gasped the dying Brown. "He a man!
Hell! He was a hollow sham. As if he couldn't have said straight out, 'Hands off my plunder!' blast him! That
would have been like a man! Rot his superior soul! He had me there--but he hadn't devil enough in him to
make an end of me. Not he! A thing like that letting me off as if I wasn't worth a kick! . . ." Brown struggled
desperately for breath. . . . "Fraud. . . . Letting me off. . . . And so I did make an end of him after all. . . ." He
choked again. . . . "I expect this thing'll kill me, but I shall die easy now. You . . . you here . . . I don't know
your name--I would give you a five-pound note if--if I had it--for the news--or my name's not Brown. . . ." He
grinned horribly. . . . "Gentleman Brown."

'He said all these things in profound gasps, staring at me with his yellow eyes out of a long, ravaged, brown
face; he jerked his left arm; a pepper-and-salt matted beard hung almost into his lap; a dirty ragged blanket
covered his legs. I had found him out in Bankok through that busybody Schomberg, the hotel-keeper, who
had, confidentially, directed me where to look. It appears that a sort of loafing, fuddled vagabond--a white
man living amongst the natives with a Siamese woman--had considered it a great privilege to give a shelter to
the last days of the famous Gentleman Brown. While he was talking to me in the wretched hovel, and, as it
were, fighting for every minute of his life, the Siamese woman, with big bare legs and a stupid coarse face, sat
in a dark corner chewing betel stolidly. Now and then she would get up for the purpose of shooing a chicken
away from the door. The whole hut shook when she walked. An ugly yellow child, naked and pot-bellied like
a little heathen god, stood at the foot of the couch, finger in mouth, lost in a profound and calm contemplation
of the dying man.

'He talked feverishly; but in the middle of a word, perhaps, an invisible hand would take him by the throat,
and he would look at me dumbly with an expression of doubt and anguish. He seemed to fear that I would get
tired of waiting and go away, leaving him with his tale untold, with his exultation unexpressed. He died
during the night, I believe, but by that time I had nothing more to learn.

'So much as to Brown, for the present.

'Eight months before this, coming into Samarang, I went as usual to see Stein. On the garden side of the house
a Malay on the verandah greeted me shyly, and I remembered that I had seen him in Patusan, in Jim's house,
amongst other Bugis men who used to come in the evening to talk interminably over their war reminiscences
and to discuss State affairs. Jim had pointed him out to me once as a respectable petty trader owning a small
seagoing native craft, who had showed himself "one of the best at the taking of the stockade." I was not very
surprised to see him, since any Patusan trader venturing as far as Samarang would naturally find his way to
Stein's house. I returned his greeting and passed on. At the door of Stein's room I came upon another Malay in
whom I recognised Tamb' Itam.

'I asked him at once what he was doing there; it occurred to me that Jim might have come on a visit. I own I
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inside?" I asked impatiently. "No," he mumbled, hanging his head for a moment, and then with sudden
earnestness, "He would not fight. He would not fight," he repeated twice. As he seemed unable to say
anything else, I pushed him aside and went in,

'Stein, tall and stooping, stood alone in the middle of the room between the rows of butterfly cases. "Ach! is it
you, my friend?" he said sadly, peering through his glasses. A drab sack-coat of alpaca hung, unbuttoned,
down to his knees. He had a Panama hat on his head, and there were deep furrows on his pale cheeks. "What's
the matter now?" I asked nervously. "There's Tamb' Itam there. . . ." "Come and see the girl. Come and see the
girl. She is here," he said, with a half-hearted show of activity. I tried to detain him, but with gentle obstinacy
he would take no notice of my eager questions. "She is here, she is here," he repeated, in great perturbation.
"They came here two days ago. An old man like me, a stranger--sehen Sie--cannot do much. . . . Come this
way. . . . Young hearts are unforgiving. . . ." I could see he was in utmost distress. . . . "The strength of life in
them, the cruel strength of life. . . ." He mumbled, leading me round the house; I followed him, lost in dismal
and angry conjectures. At the door of the drawing-room he barred my way. "He loved her very much," he said
interrogatively, and I only nodded, feeling so bitterly disappointed that I would not trust myself to speak.
"Very frightful," he murmured. "She can't understand me. I am only a strange old man. Perhaps you . . . she
knows you. Talk to her. We can't leave it like this. Tell her to forgive him. It was very frightful." "No doubt,"
I said, exasperated at being in the dark; "but have you forgiven him?" He looked at me queerly. "You shall
hear," he said, and opening the door, absolutely pushed me in.

'You know Stein's big house and the two immense reception-rooms, uninhabited and uninhabitable, clean, full
of solitude and of shining things that look as if never beheld by the eye of man? They are cool on the hottest
days, and you enter them as you would a scrubbed cave underground. I passed through one, and in the other I
saw the girl sitting at the end of a big mahogany table, on which she rested her head, the face hidden in her
arms. The waxed floor reflected her dimly as though it had been a sheet of frozen water. The rattan screens
were down, and through the strange greenish gloom made by the foliage of the trees outside a strong wind
blew in gusts, swaying the long draperies of windows and doorways. Her white figure seemed shaped in
snow; the pendent crystals of a great chandelier clicked above her head like glittering icicles. She looked up
and watched my approach. I was chilled as if these vast apartments had been the cold abode of despair.

'She recognised me at once, and as soon as I had stopped, looking down at her: "He has left me," she said
quietly; "you always leave us--for your own ends." Her face was set. All the heat of life seemed withdrawn
within some inaccessible spot in her breast. "It would have been easy to die with him," she went on, and made
a slight weary gesture as if giving up the incomprehensible. "He would not! It was like a blindness--and yet it
was I who was speaking to him; it was I who stood before his eyes; it was at me that he looked all the time!
Ah! you are hard, treacherous, without truth, without compassion. What makes you so wicked? Or is it that
you are all mad?"

'I took her hand; it did not respond, and when I dropped it, it hung down to the floor. That indifference, more
awful than tears, cries, and reproaches, seemed to defy time and consolation. You felt that nothing you could
say would reach the seat of the still and benumbing pain.

'Stein had said, "You shall hear." I did hear. I heard it all, listening with amazement, with awe, to the tones of
her inflexible weariness. She could not grasp the real sense of what she was telling me, and her resentment
filled me with pity for her--for him too. I stood rooted to the spot after she had finished. Leaning on her arm,
she stared with hard eyes, and the wind passed in gusts, the crystals kept on clicking in the greenish gloom.
She went on whispering to herself: "And yet he was looking at me! He could see my face, hear my voice, hear
my grief! When I used to sit at his feet, with my cheek against his knee and his hand on my head, the curse of
cruelty and madness was already within him, waiting for the day. The day came! . . . and before the sun had
set he could not see me any more--he was made blind and deaf and without pity, as you all are. He shall have
no tears from me. Never, never. Not one tear. I will not! He went away from me as if I had been worse than
death. He fled as if driven by some accursed thing he had heard or seen in his sleep. . . ."

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'Her steady eyes seemed to strain after the shape of a man torn out of her arms by the strength of a dream. She
made no sign to my silent bow. I was glad to escape.

'I saw her once again, the same afternoon. On leaving her I had gone in search of Stein, whom I could not find
indoors; and I wandered out, pursued by distressful thoughts, into the gardens, those famous gardens of Stein,
in which you can find every plant and tree of tropical lowlands. I followed the course of the canalised stream,
and sat for a long time on a shaded bench near the ornamental pond, where some waterfowl with clipped
wings were diving and splashing noisily. The branches of casuarina trees behind me swayed lightly,
incessantly, reminding me of the soughing of fir trees at home.

'This mournful and restless sound was a fit accompaniment to my meditations. She had said he had been
driven away from her by a dream,--and there was no answer one could make her--there seemed to be no
forgiveness for such a transgression. And yet is not mankind itself, pushing on its blind way, driven by a
dream of its greatness and its power upon the dark paths of excessive cruelty and of excessive devotion? And
what is the pursuit of truth, after all?

'When I rose to get back to the house I caught sight of Stein's drab coat through a gap in the foliage, and very
soon at a turn of the path I came upon him walking with the girl. Her little hand rested on his forearm, and
under the broad, flat rim of his Panama hat he bent over her, grey-haired, paternal, with compassionate and
chivalrous deference. I stood aside, but they stopped, facing me. His gaze was bent on the ground at his feet;
the girl, erect and slight on his arm, stared sombrely beyond my shoulder with black, clear, motionless eyes.
"Schrecklich," he murmured. "Terrible! Terrible! What can one do?" He seemed to be appealing to me, but
her youth, the length of the days suspended over her head, appealed to me more; and suddenly, even as I
realised that nothing could be said, I found myself pleading his cause for her sake. "You must forgive him," I
concluded, and my own voice seemed to me muffled, lost in un irresponsive deaf immensity. "We all want to
be forgiven," I added after a while.

' "What have I done?" she asked with her lips only.

' "You always mistrusted him," I said.

' "He was like the others," she pronounced slowly.

' "Not like the others," I protested, but she continued evenly, without any feeling--

' "He was false." And suddenly Stein broke in. "No! no! no! My poor child! . . ." He patted her hand lying
passively on his sleeve. "No! no! Not false! True! True! True!" He tried to look into her stony face. "You
don't understand. Ach! Why you do not understand? . . . Terrible," he said to me. "Some day she shall
understand."

' "Will you explain?" I asked, looking hard at him. They moved on.

'I watched them. Her gown trailed on the path, her black hair fell loose. She walked upright and light by the
side of the tall man, whose long shapeless coat hung in perpendicular folds from the stooping shoulders,
whose feet moved slowly. They disappeared beyond that spinney (you may remember) where sixteen different
kinds of bamboo grow together, all distinguishable to the learned eye. For my part, I was fascinated by the
exquisite grace and beauty of that fluted grove, crowned with pointed leaves and feathery heads, the lightness,
the vigour, the charm as distinct as a voice of that unperplexed luxuriating life. I remember staying to look at
it for a long time, as one would linger within reach of a consoling whisper. The sky was pearly grey. It was
one of those overcast days so rare in the tropics, in which memories crowd upon one, memories of other
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'I drove back to town the same afternoon, taking with me Tamb' Itam and the other Malay, in whose seagoing
craft they had escaped in the bewilderment, fear, and gloom of the disaster. The shock of it seemed to have
changed their natures. It had turned her passion into stone, and it made the surly taciturn Tamb' Itam almost
loquacious. His surliness, too, was subdued into puzzled humility, as though he had seen the failure of a
potent charm in a supreme moment. The Bugis trader, a shy hesitating man, was very clear in the little he had
to say. Both were evidently over-awed by a sense of deep inexpressible wonder, by the touch of an inscrutable
mystery.'

There with Marlow's signature the letter proper ended. The privileged reader screwed up his lamp, and
solitary above the billowy roofs of the town, like a lighthouse-keeper above the sea, he turned to the pages of
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'It all begins, as I've told you, with the man called Brown,' ran the opening sentence of Marlow's narrative.
'You who have knocked about the Western Pacific must have heard of him. He was the show ruffian on the
Australian coast--not that he was often to be seen there, but because he was always trotted out in the stories of
lawless life a visitor from home is treated to; and the mildest of these stories which were told about him from
Cape York to Eden Bay was more than enough to hang a man if told in the right place. They never failed to let
you know, too, that he was supposed to be the son of a baronet. Be it as it may, it is certain he had deserted
from a home ship in the early gold-digging days, and in a few years became talked about as the terror of this
or that group of islands in Polynesia. He would kidnap natives, he would strip some lonely white trader to the
very pyjamas he stood in, and after he had robbed the poor devil, he would as likely as not invite him to fight
a duel with shot-guns on the beach--which would have been fair enough as these things go, if the other man
hadn't been by that time already half-dead with fright. Brown was a latter-day buccaneer, sorry enough, like
his more celebrated prototypes; but what distinguished him from his contemporary brother ruffians, like Bully
Hayes or the mellifluous Pease, or that perfumed, Dundreary-whiskered, dandified scoundrel known as Dirty
Dick, was the arrogant temper of his misdeeds and a vehement scorn for mankind at large and for his victims
in particular. The others were merely vulgar and greedy brutes, but he seemed moved by some complex
intention. He would rob a man as if only to demonstrate his poor opinion of the creature, and he would bring
to the shooting or maiming of some quiet, unoffending stranger a savage and vengeful earnestness fit to terrify
the most reckless of desperadoes. In the days of his greatest glory he owned an armed barque, manned by a
mixed crew of Kanakas and runaway whalers, and boasted, I don't know with what truth, of being financed on
the quiet by a most respectable firm of copra merchants. Later on he ran off--it was reported--with the wife of
a missionary, a very young girl from Clapham way, who had married the mild, flat-footed fellow in a moment
of enthusiasm, and, suddenly transplanted to Melanesia, lost her bearings somehow. It was a dark story. She
was ill at the time he carried her off, and died on board his ship. It is said--as the most wonderful put of the
tale--that over her body he gave way to an outburst of sombre and violent grief. His luck left him, too, very
soon after. He lost his ship on some rocks off Malaita, and disappeared for a time as though he had gone down
with her. He is heard of next at Nuka-Hiva, where he bought an old French schooner out of Government
service. What creditable enterprise he might have had in view when he made that purchase I can't say, but it is
evident that what with High Commissioners, consuls, men-of-war, and international control, the South Seas
were getting too hot to hold gentlemen of his kidney. Clearly he must have shifted the scene of his operations
farther west, because a year later he plays an incredibly audacious, but not a very profitable part, in a
serio-comic business in Manila Bay, in which a peculating governor and an absconding treasurer are the
principal figures; thereafter he seems to have hung around the Philippines in his rotten schooner battling with
un adverse fortune, till at last, running his appointed course, he sails into Jim's history, a blind accomplice of
the Dark Powers.

'His tale goes that when a Spanish patrol cutter captured him he was simply trying to run a few guns for the
insurgents. If so, then I can't understand what he was doing off the south coast of Mindanao. My belief,
however, is that he was blackmailing the native villages along the coast. The principal thing is that the cutter,
throwing a guard on board, made him sail in company towards Zamboanga. On the way, for some reason or
other, both vessels had to call at one of these new Spanish settlements--which never came to anything in the
end--where there was not only a civil official in charge on shore, but a good stout coasting schooner lying at
anchor in the little bay; and this craft, in every way much better than his own, Brown made up his mind to
steal.

'He was down on his luck--as he told me himself. The world he had bullied for twenty years with fierce,
aggressive disdain, had yielded him nothing in the way of material advantage except a small bag of silver
dollars, which was concealed in his cabin so that "the devil himself couldn't smell it out." And that was
all--absolutely all. He was tired of his life, and not afraid of death. But this man, who would stake his
existence on a whim with a bitter and jeering recklessness, stood in mortal fear of imprisonment. He had an
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locked up--the sort of terror a superstitious man would feel at the thought of being embraced by a spectre.
Therefore the civil official who came on board to make a preliminary investigation into the capture,
investigated arduously all day long, and only went ashore after dark, muffled up in a cloak, and taking great
care not to let Brown's little all clink in its bag. Afterwards, being a man of his word, he contrived (the very
next evening, I believe) to send off the Government cutter on some urgent bit of special service. As her
commander could not spare a prize crew, he contented himself by taking away before he left all the sails of
Brown's schooner to the very last rag, and took good care to tow his two boats on to the beach a couple of
miles off.

'But in Brown's crew there was a Solomon Islander, kidnapped in his youth and devoted to Brown, who was
the best man of the whole gang. That fellow swam off to the coaster--five hundred yards or so--with the end
of a warp made up of all the running gear unrove for the purpose. The water was smooth, and the bay dark,
"like the inside of a cow," as Brown described it. The Solomon Islander clambered over the bulwarks with the
end of the rope in his teeth. The crew of the coaster--all Tagals--were ashore having a jollification in the
native village. The two shipkeepers left on board woke up suddenly and saw the devil. It had glittering eyes
and leaped quick as lightning about the deck. They fell on their knees, paralysed with fear, crossing
themselves and mumbling prayers. With a long knife he found in the caboose the Solomon Islander, without
interrupting their orisons, stabbed first one, then the other; with the same knife he set to sawing patiently at
the coir cable till suddenly it parted under the blade with a splash. Then in the silence of the bay he let out a
cautious shout, and Brown's gang, who meantime had been peering and straining their hopeful ears in the
darkness, began to pull gently at their end of the warp. In less than five minutes the two schooners came
together with a slight shock and a creak of spars.

'Brown's crowd transferred themselves without losing an instant, taking with them their firearms and a large
supply of ammunition. They were sixteen in all: two runaway blue-jackets, a lanky deserter from a Yankee
man-of-war, a couple of simple, blond Scandinavians, a mulatto of sorts, one bland Chinaman who
cooked--and the rest of the nondescript spawn of the South Seas. None of them cared; Brown bent them to his
will, and Brown, indifferent to gallows, was running away from the spectre of a Spanish prison. He didn't give
them the time to trans-ship enough provisions; the weather was calm, the air was charged with dew, and when
they cast off the ropes and set sail to a faint off-shore draught there was no flutter in the damp canvas; their
old schooner seemed to detach itself gently from the stolen craft and slip away silently, together with the
black mass of the coast, into the night.

'They got clear away. Brown related to me in detail their passage down the Straits of Macassar. It is a
harrowing and desperate story. They were short of food and water; they boarded several native craft and got a
little from each. With a stolen ship Brown did not dare to put into any port, of course. He had no money to
buy anything, no papers to show, and no lie plausible enough to get him out again. An Arab barque, under the
Dutch flag, surprised one night at anchor off Poulo Laut, yielded a little dirty rice, a bunch of bananas, and a
cask of water; three days of squally, misty weather from the north-east shot the schooner across the Java Sea.
The yellow muddy waves drenched that collection of hungry ruffians. They sighted mail-boats moving on
their appointed routes; passed well-found home ships with rusty iron sides anchored in the shallow sea
waiting for a change of weather or the turn of the tide; an English gunboat, white and trim, with two slim
masts, crossed their bows one day in the distance; and on another occasion a Dutch corvette, black and heavily
sparred, loomed up on their quarter, steaming dead slow in the mist. They slipped through unseen or
disregarded, a wan, sallow-faced band of utter outcasts, enraged with hunger and hunted by fear. Brown's idea
was to make for Madagascar, where he expected, on grounds not altogether illusory, to sell the schooner in
Tamatave, and no questions asked, or perhaps obtain some more or less forged papers for her. Yet before he
could face the long passage across the Indian Ocean food was wanted--water too.

'Perhaps he had heard of Patusan--or perhaps he just only happened to see the name written in small letters on
the chart--probably that of a largish village up a river in a native state, perfectly defenceless, far from the
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way of business; and this now was an absolute necessity, a question of life and death--or rather of liberty. Of
liberty! He was sure to get provisions--bullocks-- rice--sweet-potatoes. The sorry gang licked their chops. A
cargo of produce for the schooner perhaps could be extorted--and, who knows?--some real ringing coined
money! Some of these chiefs and village headmen can be made to part freely. He told me he would have
roasted their toes rather than be baulked. I believe him. His men believed him too. They didn't cheer aloud,
being a dumb pack, but made ready wolfishly.

'Luck served him as to weather. A few days of calm would have brought unmentionable horrors on board that
schooner, but with the help of land and sea breezes, in less than a week after clearing the Sunda Straits, he
anchored off the Batu Kring mouth within a pistol-shot of the fishing village.

'Fourteen of them packed into the schooner's long-boat (which was big, having been used for cargo-work) and
started up the river, while two remained in charge of the schooner with food enough to keep starvation off for
ten days. The tide and wind helped, and early one afternoon the big white boat under a ragged sail shouldered
its way before the sea breeze into Patusan Reach, manned by fourteen assorted scarecrows glaring hungrily
ahead, and fingering the breech-blocks of cheap rifles. Brown calculated upon the terrifying surprise of his
appearance. They sailed in with the last of the flood; the Rajah's stockade gave no sign; the first houses on
both sides of the stream seemed deserted. A few canoes were seen up the reach in full flight. Brown was
astonished at the size of the place. A profound silence reigned. The wind dropped between the houses; two
oars were got out and the boat held on up-stream, the idea being to effect a lodgment in the centre of the town
before the inhabitants could think of resistance.

'It seems, however, that the headman of the fishing village at Batu Kring had managed to send off a timely
warning. When the long-boat came abreast of the mosque (which Doramin had built: a structure with gables
and roof finials of carved coral) the open space before it was full of people. A shout went up, and was
followed by a clash of gongs all up the river. From a point above two little brass 6-pounders were discharged,
and the round-shot came skipping down the empty reach, spurting glittering jets of water in the sunshine. In
front of the mosque a shouting lot of men began firing in volleys that whipped athwart the current of the river;
an irregular, rolling fusillade was opened on the boat from both banks, and Brown's men replied with a wild,
rapid fire. The oars had been got in.

'The turn of the tide at high water comes on very quickly in that river, and the boat in mid-stream, nearly
hidden in smoke, began to drift back stern foremost. Along both shores the smoke thickened also, lying below
the roofs in a level streak as you may see a long cloud cutting the slope of a mountain. A tumult of war-cries,
the vibrating clang of gongs, the deep snoring of drums, yells of rage, crashes of volley-firing, made an awful
din, in which Brown sat confounded but steady at the tiller, working himself into a fury of hate and rage
against those people who dared to defend themselves. Two of his men had been wounded, and he saw his
retreat cut off below the town by some boats that had put off from Tunku Allang's stockade. There were six of
them, full of men. While he was thus beset he perceived the entrance of the narrow creek (the same which Jim
had jumped at low water). It was then brim full. Steering the long-boat in, they landed, and, to make a long
story short, they established themselves on a little knoll about 900 yards from the stockade, which, in fact,
they commanded from that position. The slopes of the knoll were bare, but there were a few trees on the
summit. They went to work cutting these down for a breastwork, and were fairly intrenched before dark;
meantime the Rajah's boats remained in the river with curious neutrality. When the sun set the glue of many
brushwood blazes lighted on the river-front, and between the double line of houses on the land side threw into
black relief the roofs, the groups of slender palms, the heavy clumps of fruit trees. Brown ordered the grass
round his position to be fired; a low ring of thin flames under the slow ascending smoke wriggled rapidly
down the slopes of the knoll; here and there a dry bush caught with a tall, vicious roar. The conflagration
made a clear zone of fire for the rifles of the small party, and expired smouldering on the edge of the forests
and along the muddy bank of the creek. A strip of jungle luxuriating in a damp hollow between the knoll and
the Rajah's stockade stopped it on that side with a great crackling and detonations of bursting bamboo stems.
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creeping wisps, till a little breeze came on and blew everything away. Brown expected an attack to be
delivered as soon as the tide had flowed enough again to enable the war-boats which had cut off his retreat to
enter the creek. At any rate he was sure there would be an attempt to carry off his long-boat, which lay below
the hill, a dark high lump on the feeble sheen of a wet mud-flat. But no move of any sort was made by the
boats in the river. Over the stockade and the Rajah's buildings Brown saw their lights on the water. They
seemed to be anchored across the stream. Other lights afloat were moving in the reach, crossing and
recrossing from side to side. There were also lights twinkling motionless upon the long walls of houses up the
reach, as far as the bend, and more still beyond, others isolated inland. The loom of the big fires disclosed
buildings, roofs, black piles as far as he could see. It was an immense place. The fourteen desperate invaders
lying flat behind the felled trees raised their chins to look over at the stir of that town that seemed to extend
up-river for miles and swarm with thousands of angry men. They did not speak to each other. Now and then
they would hear a loud yell, or a single shot rang out, fired very far somewhere. But round their position
everything was still, dark, silent. They seemed to be forgotten, as if the excitement keeping awake all the
population had nothing to do with them, as if they had been dead already.'

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'All the events of that night have a great importance, since they brought about a situation which remained
unchanged till Jim's return. Jim had been away in the interior for more than a week, and it was Dain Waris
who had directed the first repulse. That brave and intelligent youth ("who knew how to fight after the manner
of white men") wished to settle the business off-hand, but his people were too much for him. He had not Jim's
racial prestige and the reputation of invincible, supernatural power. He was not the visible, tangible
incarnation of unfailing truth and of unfailing victory. Beloved, trusted, and admired as he was, he was still
one of them, while Jim was one of us. Moreover, the white man, a tower of strength in himself, was
invulnerable, while Dain Waris could be killed. Those unexpressed thoughts guided the opinions of the chief
men of the town, who elected to assemble in Jim's fort for deliberation upon the emergency, as if expecting to
find wisdom and courage in the dwelling of the absent white man. The shooting of Brown's ruffians was so far
good, or lucky, that there had been half-a-dozen casualties amongst the defenders. The wounded were lying
on the verandah tended by their women-folk. The women and children from the lower part of the town had
been sent into the fort at the first alarm. There Jewel was in command, very efficient and high-spirited, obeyed
by Jim's "own people," who, quitting in a body their little settlement under the stockade, had gone in to form
the garrison. The refugees crowded round her; and through the whole affair, to the very disastrous last, she
showed an extraordinary martial ardour. It was to her that Dain Waris had gone at once at the first intelligence
of danger, for you must know that Jim was the only one in Patusan who possessed a store of gunpowder.
Stein, with whom he had kept up intimate relations by letters, had obtained from the Dutch Government a
special authorisation to export five hundred kegs of it to Patusan. The powder-magazine was a small hut of
rough logs covered entirely with earth, and in Jim's absence the girl had the key. In the council, held at eleven
o'clock in the evening in Jim's dining-room, she backed up Waris's advice for immediate and vigorous action.
I am told that she stood up by the side of Jim's empty chair at the head of the long table and made a warlike
impassioned speech, which for the moment extorted murmurs of approbation from the assembled headmen.
Old Doramin, who had not showed himself outside his own gate for more than a year, had been brought
across with great difficulty. He was, of course, the chief man there. The temper of the council was very
unforgiving, and the old man's word would have been decisive; but it is my opinion that, well aware of his
son's fiery courage, he dared not pronounce the word. More dilatory counsels prevailed. A certain Haji Saman
pointed out at great length that "these tyrannical and ferocious men had delivered themselves to a certain
death in any case. They would stand fast on their hill and starve, or they would try to regain their boat and be
shot from ambushes across the creek, or they would break and fly into the forest and perish singly there." He
argued that by the use of proper stratagems these evil-minded strangers could be destroyed without the risk of
a battle, and his words had a great weight, especially with the Patusan men proper. What unsettled the minds
of the townsfolk was the failure of the Rajah's boats to act at the decisive moment. It was the diplomatic
Kassim who represented the Rajah at the council. He spoke very little, listened smilingly, very friendly and
impenetrable. During the sitting messengers kept arriving every few minutes almost, with reports of the
invaders' proceedings. Wild and exaggerated rumours were flying: there was a large ship at the mouth of the
river with big guns and many more men--some white, others with black skins and of bloodthirsty appearance.
They were coming with many more boats to exterminate every living thing. A sense of near,
incomprehensible danger affected the common people. At one moment there was a panic in the courtyard
amongst the women; shrieking; a rush; children crying--Haji Sunan went out to quiet them. Then a fort sentry
fired at something moving on the river, and nearly killed a villager bringing in his women-folk in a canoe
together with the best of his domestic utensils and a dozen fowls. This caused more confusion. Meantime the
palaver inside Jim's house went on in the presence of the girl. Doramin sat fierce-faced, heavy, looking at the
speakers in turn, and breathing slow like a bull. He didn't speak till the last, after Kassim had declared that the
Rajah's boats would be called in because the men were required to defend his master's stockade. Dain Waris in
his father's presence would offer no opinion, though the girl entreated him in Jim's name to speak out. She
offered him Jim's own men in her anxiety to have these intruders driven out at once. He only shook his head,
after a glance or two at Doramin. Finally, when the council broke up it had been decided that the houses
nearest the creek should be strongly occupied to obtain the command of the enemy's boat. The boat itself was
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well-directed fire would kill most of them, no doubt. To cut off the escape of those who might survive, and to
prevent more of them coming up, Dain Waris was ordered by Doramin to take an armed party of Bugis down
the river to a certain spot ten miles below Patusan, and there form a camp on the shore and blockade the
stream with the canoes. I don't believe for a moment that Doramin feared the arrival of fresh forces. My
opinion is that his conduct was guided solely by his wish to keep his son out of harm's way. To prevent a rush
being made into the town the construction of a stockade was to be commenced at daylight at the end of the
street on the left bank. The old nakhoda declared his intention to command there himself. A distribution of
powder, bullets, and percussion-caps was made immediately under the girl's supervision. Several messengers
were to be dispatched in different directions after Jim, whose exact whereabouts were unknown. These men
started at dawn, but before that time Kassim had managed to open communications with the besieged Brown.

'That accomplished diplomatist and confidant of the Rajah, on leaving the fort to go back to his master, took
into his boat Cornelius, whom he found slinking mutely amongst the people in the courtyard. Kassim had a
little plan of his own and wanted him for an interpreter. Thus it came about that towards morning Brown,
reflecting upon the desperate nature of his position, heard from the marshy overgrown hollow an amicable,
quavering, strained voice crying--in English--for permission to come up, under a promise of personal safety
and on a very important errand. He was overjoyed. If he was spoken to he was no longer a hunted wild beast.
These friendly sounds took off at once the awful stress of vigilant watchfulness as of so many blind men not
knowing whence the deathblow might come. He pretended a great reluctance. The voice declared itself "a
white man--a poor, ruined, old man who had been living here for years." A mist, wet and chilly, lay on the
slopes of the hill, and after some more shouting from one to the other, Brown called out, "Come on, then, but
alone, mind!" As a matter of fact--he told me, writhing with rage at the recollection of his helplessness--it
made no difference. They couldn't see more than a few yards before them, and no treachery could make their
position worse. By-and-by Cornelius, in his week-day attire of a ragged dirty shirt and pants, barefooted, with
a broken-rimmed pith hat on his head, was made out vaguely, sidling up to the defences, hesitating, stopping
to listen in a peering posture. "Come along! You are safe," yelled Brown, while his men stared. All their
hopes of life became suddenly centered in that dilapidated, mean newcomer, who in profound silence
clambered clumsily over a felled tree-trunk, and shivering, with his sour, mistrustful face, looked about at the
knot of bearded, anxious, sleepless desperadoes.

'Half an hour's confidential talk with Cornelius opened Brown's eyes as to the home affairs of Patusan. He was
on the alert at once. There were possibilities, immense possibilities; but before he would talk over Cornelius's
proposals he demanded that some food should be sent up as a guarantee of good faith. Cornelius went off,
creeping sluggishly down the hill on the side of the Rajah's palace, and after some delay a few of Tunku
Allang's men came up, bringing a scanty supply of rice, chillies, and dried fish. This was immeasurably better
than nothing. Later on Cornelius returned accompanying Kassim, who stepped out with an air of perfect
good-humoured trustfulness, in sandals, and muffled up from neck to ankles in dark-blue sheeting. He shook
hands with Brown discreetly, and the three drew aside for a conference. Brown's men, recovering their
confidence, were slapping each other on the back, and cast knowing glances at their captain while they busied
themselves with preparations for cooking.

'Kassim disliked Doramin and his Bugis very much, but he hated the new order of things still more. It had
occurred to him that these whites, together with the Rajah's followers, could attack and defeat the Bugis
before Jim's return. Then, he reasoned, general defection of the townsfolk was sure to follow, and the reign of
the white man who protected poor people would be over. Afterwards the new allies could be dealt with. They
would have no friends. The fellow was perfectly able to perceive the difference of character, and had seen
enough of white men to know that these newcomers were outcasts, men without country. Brown preserved a
stern and inscrutable demeanour. When he first heard Cornelius's voice demanding admittance, it brought
merely the hope of a loophole for escape. In less than an hour other thoughts were seething in his head. Urged
by an extreme necessity, he had come there to steal food, a few tons of rubber or gum may be, perhaps a
handful of dollars, and had found himself enmeshed by deadly dangers. Now in consequence of these
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apparently accomplished something of the kind--single-handed at that. Couldn't have done it very well
though. Perhaps they could work together--squeeze everything dry and then go out quietly. In the course of
his negotiations with Kassim he became aware that he was supposed to have a big ship with plenty of men
outside. Kassim begged him earnestly to have this big ship with his many guns and men brought up the river
without delay for the Rajah's service. Brown professed himself willing, and on this basis the negotiation was
carried on with mutual distrust. Three times in the course of the morning the courteous and active Kassim
went down to consult the Rajah and came up busily with his long stride. Brown, while bargaining, had a sort
of grim enjoyment in thinking of his wretched schooner, with nothing but a heap of dirt in her hold, that stood
for an armed ship, and a Chinaman and a lame ex-beachcomber of Levuka on board, who represented all his
many men. In the afternoon he obtained further doles of food, a promise of some money, and a supply of mats
for his men to make shelters for themselves. They lay down and snored, protected from the burning sunshine;
but Brown, sitting fully exposed on one of the felled trees, feasted his eyes upon the view of the town and the
river. There was much loot there. Cornelius, who had made himself at home in the camp, talked at his elbow,
pointing out the localities, imparting advice, giving his own version of Jim's character, and commenting in his
own fashion upon the events of the last three years. Brown, who, apparently indifferent and gazing away,
listened with attention to every word, could not make out clearly what sort of man this Jim could be. "What's
his name? Jim! Jim! That's not enough for a man's name." "They call him," said Cornelius scornfully, "Tuan
Jim here. As you may say Lord Jim." "What is he? Where does he come from?" inquired Brown. "What sort
of man is he? Is he an Englishman?" "Yes, yes, he's an Englishman. I am an Englishman too. From Malacca.
He is a fool. All you have to do is to kill him and then you are king here. Everything belongs to him,"
explained Cornelius. "It strikes me he may be made to share with somebody before very long," commented
Brown half aloud. "No, no. The proper way is to kill him the first chance you get, and then you can do what
you like," Cornelius would insist earnestly. "I have lived for many years here, and I am giving you a friend's
advice."

'In such converse and in gloating over the view of Patusan, which he had determined in his mind should
become his prey, Brown whiled away most of the afternoon, his men, meantime, resting. On that day Dain
Waris's fleet of canoes stole one by one under the shore farthest from the creek, and went down to close the
river against his retreat. Of this Brown was not aware, and Kassim, who came up the knoll an hour before
sunset, took good care not to enlighten him. He wanted the white man's ship to come up the river, and this
news, he feared, would be discouraging. He was very pressing with Brown to send the "order," offering at the
same time a trusty messenger, who for greater secrecy (as he explained) would make his way by land to the
mouth of the river and deliver the "order" on board. After some reflection Brown judged it expedient to tear a
page out of his pocket-book, on which he simply wrote, "We are getting on. Big job. Detain the man." The
stolid youth selected by Kassim for that service performed it faithfully, and was rewarded by being suddenly
tipped, head first, into the schooner's empty hold by the ex-beachcomber and the Chinaman, who thereupon
hastened to put on the hatches. What became of him afterwards Brown did not say.'

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'Brown's object was to gain time by fooling with Kassim's diplomacy. For doing a real stroke of business he
could not help thinking the white man was the person to work with. He could not imagine such a chap (who
must be confoundedly clever after all to get hold of the natives like that) refusing a help that would do away
with the necessity for slow, cautious, risky cheating, that imposed itself as the only possible line of conduct
for a single-handed man. He, Brown, would offer him the power. No man could hesitate. Everything was in
coming to a clear understanding. Of course they would share. The idea of there being a fort--all ready to his
hand--a real fort, with artillery (he knew this from Cornelius), excited him. Let him only once get in and . . .
He would impose modest conditions. Not too low, though. The man was no fool, it seemed. They would work
like brothers till . . . till the time came for a quarrel and a shot that would settle all accounts. With grim
impatience of plunder he wished himself to be talking with the man now. The land already seemed to be his to
tear to pieces, squeeze, and throw away. Meantime Kassim had to be fooled for the sake of food first--and for
a second string. But the principal thing was to get something to eat from day to day. Besides, he was not
averse to begin fighting on that Rajah's account, and teach a lesson to those people who had received him with
shots. The lust of battle was upon him.

'I am sorry that I can't give you this part of the story, which of course I have mainly from Brown, in Brown's
own words. There was in the broken, violent speech of that man, unveiling before me his thoughts with the
very hand of Death upon his throat, an undisguised ruthlessness of purpose, a strange vengeful attitude
towards his own past, and a blind belief in the righteousness of his will against all mankind, something of that
feeling which could induce the leader of a horde of wandering cut-throats to call himself proudly the Scourge
of God. No doubt the natural senseless ferocity which is the basis of such a character was exasperated by
failure, ill-luck, and the recent privations, as well as by the desperate position in which he found himself; but
what was most remarkable of all was this, that while he planned treacherous alliances, had already settled in
his own mind the fate of the white man, and intrigued in an overbearing, offhand manner with Kassim, one
could perceive that what he had really desired, almost in spite of himself, was to play havoc with that jungle
town which had defied him, to see it strewn over with corpses and enveloped in flames. Listening to his
pitiless, panting voice, I could imagine how he must have looked at it from the hillock, peopling it with
images of murder and rapine. The part nearest to the creek wore an abandoned aspect, though as a matter of
fact every house concealed a few armed men on the alert. Suddenly beyond the stretch of waste ground,
interspersed with small patches of low dense bush, excavations, heaps of rubbish, with trodden paths between,
a man, solitary and looking very small, strolled out into the deserted opening of the street between the shut-up,
dark, lifeless buildings at the end. Perhaps one of the inhabitants, who had fled to the other bank of the river,
coming back for some object of domestic use. Evidently he supposed himself quite safe at that distance from
the hill on the other side of the creek. A light stockade, set up hastily, was just round the turn of the street, full
of his friends. He moved leisurely. Brown saw him, and instantly called to his side the Yankee deserter, who
acted as a sort of second in command. This lanky, loose-jointed fellow came forward, wooden-faced, trailing
his rifle lazily. When he understood what was wanted from him a homicidal and conceited smile uncovered
his teeth, making two deep folds down his sallow, leathery cheeks. He prided himself on being a dead shot.
He dropped on one knee, and taking aim from a steady rest through the unlopped branches of a felled tree,
fired, and at once stood up to look. The man, far away, turned his head to the report, made another step
forward, seemed to hesitate, and abruptly got down on his hands and knees. In the silence that fell upon the
sharp crack of the rifle, the dead shot, keeping his eyes fixed upon the quarry, guessed that "this there coon's
health would never be a source of anxiety to his friends any more." The man's limbs were seen to move
rapidly under his body in an endeavour to run on all-fours. In that empty space arose a multitudinous shout of
dismay and surprise. The man sank flat, face down, and moved no more. "That showed them what we could
do," said Brown to me. "Struck the fear of sudden death into them. That was what we wanted. They were two
hundred to one, and this gave them something to think over for the night. Not one of them had an idea of such
a long shot before. That beggar belonging to the Rajah scooted down-hill with his eyes hanging out of his
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'As he was telling me this he tried with a shaking hand to wipe the thin foam on his blue lips. "Two hundred to
one. Two hundred to one . . . strike terror, . . . terror, terror, I tell you. . . ." His own eyes were starting out of
their sockets. He fell back, clawing the air with skinny fingers, sat up again, bowed and hairy, glared at me
sideways like some man-beast of folk-lore, with open mouth in his miserable and awful agony before he got
his speech back after that fit. There are sights one never forgets.

'Furthermore, to draw the enemy's fire and locate such parties as might have been hiding in the bushes along
the creek, Brown ordered the Solomon Islander to go down to the boat and bring an oar, as you send a spaniel
after a stick into the water. This failed, and the fellow came back without a single shot having been fired at
him from anywhere. "There's nobody," opined some of the men. It is "onnatural," remarked the Yankee.
Kassim had gone, by that time, very much impressed, pleased too, and also uneasy. Pursuing his tortuous
policy, he had dispatched a message to Dain Waris warning him to look out for the white men's ship, which,
he had had information, was about to come up the river. He minimised its strength and exhorted him to
oppose its passage. This double-dealing answered his purpose, which was to keep the Bugis forces divided
and to weaken them by fighting. On the other hand, he had in the course of that day sent word to the
assembled Bugis chiefs in town, assuring them that he was trying to induce the invaders to retire; his
messages to the fort asked earnestly for powder for the Rajah's men. It was a long time since Tunku Allang
had had ammunition for the score or so of old muskets rusting in their arm-racks in the audience-hall. The
open intercourse between the hill and the palace unsettled all the minds. It was already time for men to take
sides, it began to be said. There would soon be much bloodshed, and thereafter great trouble for many people.
The social fabric of orderly, peaceful life, when every man was sure of to-morrow, the edifice raised by Jim's
hands, seemed on that evening ready to collapse into a ruin reeking with blood. The poorer folk were already
taking to the bush or flying up the river. A good many of the upper class judged it necessary to go and pay
their court to the Rajah. The Rajah's youths jostled them rudely. Old Tunku Allang, almost out of his mind
with fear and indecision, either kept a sullen silence or abused them violently for daring to come with empty
hands: they departed very much frightened; only old Doramin kept his countrymen together and pursued his
tactics inflexibly. Enthroned in a big chair behind the improvised stockade, he issued his orders in a deep
veiled rumble, unmoved, like a deaf man, in the flying rumours.

'Dusk fell, hiding first the body of the dead man, which had been left lying with arms outstretched as if nailed
to the ground, and then the revolving sphere of the night rolled smoothly over Patusan and came to a rest,
showering the glitter of countless worlds upon the earth. Again, in the exposed part of the town big fires
blazed along the only street, revealing from distance to distance upon their glares the falling straight lines of
roofs, the fragments of wattled walls jumbled in confusion, here and there a whole hut elevated in the glow
upon the vertical black stripes of a group of high piles and all this line of dwellings, revealed in patches by the
swaying flames, seemed to flicker tortuously away up-river into the gloom at the heart of the land. A great
silence, in which the looms of successive fires played without noise, extended into the darkness at the foot of
the hill; but the other bank of the river, all dark save for a solitary bonfire at the river-front before the fort, sent
out into the air an increasing tremor that might have been the stamping of a multitude of feet, the hum of
many voices, or the fall of an immensely distant waterfall. It was then, Brown confessed to me, while, turning
his back on his men, he sat looking at it all, that notwithstanding his disdain, his ruthless faith in himself, a
feeling came over him that at last he had run his head against a stone wall. Had his boat been afloat at the
time, he believed he would have tried to steal away, taking his chances of a long chase down the river and of
starvation at sea. It is very doubtful whether he would have succeeded in getting away. However, he didn't try
this. For another moment he had a passing thought of trying to rush the town, but he perceived very well that
in the end he would find himself in the lighted street, where they would be shot down like dogs from the
houses. They were two hundred to one--he thought, while his men, huddling round two heaps of smouldering
embers, munched the last of the bananas and roasted the few yams they owed to Kassim's diplomacy.
Cornelius sat amongst them dozing sulkily.

'Then one of the whites remembered that some tobacco had been left in the boat, and, encouraged by the
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despondency. Brown applied to, said, "Go, and be d--d to you," scornfully. He didn't think there was any
danger in going to the creek in the dark. The man threw a leg over the tree-trunk and disappeared. A moment
later he was heard clambering into the boat and then clambering out. "I've got it," he cried. A flash and a
report at the very foot of the hill followed. "I am hit," yelled the man. "Look out, look out--I am hit," and
instantly all the rifles went off. The hill squirted fire and noise into the night like a little volcano, and when
Brown and the Yankee with curses and cuffs stopped the panic-stricken firing, a profound, weary groan
floated up from the creek, succeeded by a plaint whose heartrending sadness was like some poison turning the
blood cold in the veins. Then a strong voice pronounced several distinct incomprehensible words somewhere
beyond the creek. "Let no one fire," shouted Brown. "What does it mean?" . . . "Do you hear on the hill? Do
you hear? Do you hear?" repeated the voice three times. Cornelius translated, and then prompted the answer.
"Speak," cried Brown, "we hear." Then the voice, declaiming in the sonorous inflated tone of a herald, and
shifting continually on the edge of the vague waste-land, proclaimed that between the men of the Bugis nation
living in Patusan and the white men on the hill and those with them, there would be no faith, no compassion,
no speech, no peace. A bush rustled; a haphazard volley rang out. "Dam' foolishness," muttered the Yankee,
vexedly grounding the butt. Cornelius translated. The wounded man below the hill, after crying out twice,
"Take me up! take me up!" went on complaining in moans. While he had kept on the blackened earth of the
slope, and afterwards crouching in the boat, he had been safe enough. It seems that in his joy at finding the
tobacco he forgot himself and jumped out on her off-side, as it were. The white boat, lying high and dry,
showed him up; the creek was no more than seven yards wide in that place, and there happened to be a man
crouching in the bush on the other bank.

'He was a Bugis of Tondano only lately come to Patusan, and a relation of the man shot in the afternoon. That
famous long shot had indeed appalled the beholders. The man in utter security had been struck down, in full
view of his friends, dropping with a joke on his lips, and they seemed to see in the act an atrocity which had
stirred a bitter rage. That relation of his, Si-Lapa by name, was then with Doramin in the stockade only a few
feet away. You who know these chaps must admit that the fellow showed an unusual pluck by volunteering to
carry the message, alone, in the dark. Creeping across the open ground, he had deviated to the left and found
himself opposite the boat. He was startled when Brown's man shouted. He came to a sitting position with his
gun to his shoulder, and when the other jumped out, exposing himself, he pulled the trigger and lodged three
jagged slugs point-blank into the poor wretch's stomach. Then, lying flat on his face, he gave himself up for
dead, while a thin hail of lead chopped and swished the bushes close on his right hand; afterwards he
delivered his speech shouting, bent double, dodging all the time in cover. With the last word he leaped
sideways, lay close for a while, and afterwards got back to the houses unharmed, having achieved on that
night such a renown as his children will not willingly allow to die.

'And on the hill the forlorn band let the two little heaps of embers go out under their bowed heads. They sat
dejected on the ground with compressed lips and downcast eyes, listening to their comrade below. He was a
strong man and died hard, with moans now loud, now sinking to a strange confidential note of pain.
Sometimes he shrieked, and again, after a period of silence, he could be heard muttering deliriously a long and
unintelligible complaint. Never for a moment did he cease.

' "What's the good?" Brown had said unmoved once, seeing the Yankee, who had been swearing under his
breath, prepare to go down. "That's so," assented the deserter, reluctantly desisting. "There's no
encouragement for wounded men here. Only his noise is calculated to make all the others think too much of
the hereafter, cap'n." "Water!" cried the wounded man in an extraordinarily clear vigorous voice, and then
went off moaning feebly. "Ay, water. Water will do it," muttered the other to himself, resignedly. "Plenty
by-and-by. The tide is flowing."

'At last the tide flowed, silencing the plaint and the cries of pain, and the dawn was near when Brown, sitting
with his chin in the palm of his hand before Patusan, as one might stare at the unscalable side of a mountain,
heard the brief ringing bark of a brass 6-pounder far away in town somewhere. "What's this?" he asked of
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a big drum began to throb, and others responded, pulsating and droning. Tiny scattered lights began to twinkle
in the dark half of the town, while the part lighted by the loom of fires hummed with a deep and prolonged
murmur. "He has come," said Cornelius. "What? Already? Are you sure?" Brown asked. "Yes! yes! Sure.
Listen to the noise." "What are they making that row about?" pursued Brown. "For joy," snorted Cornelius;
"he is a very great man, but all the same, he knows no more than a child, and so they make a great noise to
please him, because they know no better." "Look here," said Brown, "how is one to get at him?" "He shall
come to talk to you," Cornelius declared. "What do you mean? Come down here strolling as it were?"
Cornelius nodded vigorously in the dark. "Yes. He will come straight here and talk to you. He is just like a
fool. You shall see what a fool he is." Brown was incredulous. "You shall see; you shall see," repeated
Cornelius. "He is not afraid--not afraid of anything. He will come and order you to leave his people alone.
Everybody must leave his people alone. He is like a little child. He will come to you straight." Alas! he knew
Jim well--that "mean little skunk," as Brown called him to me. "Yes, certainly," he pursued with ardour, "and
then, captain, you tell that tall man with a gun to shoot him. Just you kill him, and you will frighten everybody
so much that you can do anything you like with them afterwards--get what you like--go away when you like.
Ha! ha! ha! Fine . . ." He almost danced with impatience and eagerness; and Brown, looking over his shoulder
at him, could see, shown up by the pitiless dawn, his men drenched with dew, sitting amongst the cold ashes
and the litter of the camp, haggard, cowed, and in rags.'

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'To the very last moment, till the full day came upon them with a spring, the fires on the west bank blazed
bright and clear; and then Brown saw in a knot of coloured figures motionless between the advanced houses a
man in European clothes, in a helmet, all white. "That's him; look! look!" Cornelius said excitedly. All
Brown's men had sprung up and crowded at his back with lustreless eyes. The group of vivid colours and dark
faces with the white figure in their midst were observing the knoll. Brown could see naked arms being raised
to shade the eyes and other brown arms pointing. What should he do? He looked around, and the forests that
faced him on all sides walled the cock-pit of an unequal contest. He looked once more at his men. A
contempt, a weariness, the desire of life, the wish to try for one more chance--for some other grave--struggled
in his breast. From the outline the figure presented it seemed to him that the white man there, backed up by all
the power of the land, was examining his position through binoculars. Brown jumped up on the log, throwing
his arms up, the palms outwards. The coloured group closed round the white man, and fell back twice before
he got clear of them, walking slowly alone. Brown remained standing on the log till Jim, appearing and
disappearing between the patches of thorny scrub, had nearly reached the creek; then Brown jumped off and
went down to meet him on his side.

'They met, I should think, not very far from the place, perhaps on the very spot, where Jim took the second
desperate leap of his life--the leap that landed him into the life of Patusan, into the trust, the love, the
confidence of the people. They faced each other across the creek, and with steady eyes tried to understand
each other before they opened their lips. Their antagonism must have been expressed in their glances; I know
that Brown hated Jim at first sight. Whatever hopes he might have had vanished at once. This was not the man
he had expected to see. He hated him for this-- and in a checked flannel shirt with sleeves cut off at the
elbows, grey bearded, with a sunken, sun-blackened face--he cursed in his heart the other's youth and
assurance, his clear eyes and his untroubled bearing. That fellow had got in a long way before him! He did not
look like a man who would be willing to give anything for assistance. He had all the advantages on his
side--possession, security, power; he was on the side of an overwhelming force! He was not hungry and
desperate, and he did not seem in the least afraid. And there was something in the very neatness of Jim's
clothes, from the white helmet to the canvas leggings and the pipeclayed shoes, which in Brown's sombre
irritated eyes seemed to belong to things he had in the very shaping of his life condemned and flouted.

' "Who are you?" asked Jim at last, speaking in his usual voice. "My name's Brown," answered the other
loudly; "Captain Brown. What's yours?" and Jim after a little pause went on quietly, as If he had not heard:
"What made you come here?" "You want to know," said Brown bitterly. "It's easy to tell. Hunger. And what
made you?"

' "The fellow started at this," said Brown, relating to me the opening of this strange conversation between
those two men, separated only by the muddy bed of a creek, but standing on the opposite poles of that
conception of life which includes all mankind--"The fellow started at this and got very red in the face. Too big
to be questioned, I suppose. I told him that if he looked upon me as a dead man with whom you may take
liberties, he himself was not a whit better off really. I had a fellow up there who had a bead drawn on him all
the time, and only waited for a sign from me. There was nothing to be shocked at in this. He had come down
of his own free will. 'Let us agree,' said I, 'that we are both dead men, and let us talk on that basis, as equals.
We are all equal before death,' I said. I admitted I was there like a rat in a trap, but we had been driven to it,
and even a trapped rat can give a bite. He caught me up in a moment. 'Not if you don't go near the trap till the
rat is dead.' I told him that sort of game was good enough for these native friends of his, but I would have
thought him too white to serve even a rat so. Yes, I had wanted to talk with him. Not to beg for my life,
though. My fellows were--well--what they were--men like himself, anyhow. All we wanted from him was to
come on in the devil's name and have it out. 'God d--n it,' said I, while he stood there as still as a wooden post,
'you don't want to come out here every day with your glasses to count how many of us are left on our feet.
Come. Either bring your infernal crowd along or let us go out and starve in the open sea, by God! You have
been white once, for all your tall talk of this being your own people and you being one with them. Are you?

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And what the devil do you get for it; what is it you've found here that is so d--d precious? Hey? You don't
want us to come down here perhaps--do you? You are two hundred to one. You don't want us to come down
into the open. Ah! I promise you we shall give you some sport before you've done. You talk about me making
a cowardly set upon unoffending people. What's that to me that they are unoffending, when I am starving for
next to no offence? But I am not a coward. Don't you be one. Bring them along or, by all the fiends, we shall
yet manage to send half your unoffending town to heaven with us in smoke!' "

'He was terrible--relating this to me--this tortured skeleton of a man drawn up together with his face over his
knees, upon a miserable bed in that wretched hovel, and lifting his head to look at me with malignant triumph.

' "That's what I told him--I knew what to say," he began again, feebly at first, but working himself up with
incredible speed into a fiery utterance of his scorn. "We aren't going into the forest to wander like a string of
living skeletons dropping one after another for ants to go to work upon us before we are fairly dead. Oh no! . .
. 'You don't deserve a better fate,' he said. 'And what do you deserve,' I shouted at him, 'you that I find
skulking here with your mouth full of your responsibility, of innocent lives, of your infernal duty? What do
you know more of me than I know of you? I came here for food. D'ye hear?--food to fill our bellies. And what
did you come for? What did you ask for when you came here? We don't ask you for anything but to give us a
fight or a clear road to go back whence we came. . . .' 'I would fight with you now,' says he, pulling at his little
moustache. 'And I would let you shoot me, and welcome,' I said. 'This is as good a jumping-off place for me
as another. I am sick of my infernal luck. But it would be too easy. There are my men in the same boat--and,
by God, I am not the sort to jump out of trouble and leave them in a d--d lurch,' I said. He stood thinking for a
while and then wanted to know what I had done ('out there' he says, tossing his head down-stream) to be
hazed about so. 'Have we met to tell each other the story of our lives?' I asked him. 'Suppose you begin. No?
Well, I am sure I don't want to hear. Keep it to yourself. I know it is no better than mine. I've lived--and so did
you, though you talk as if you were one of those people that should have wings so as to go about without
touching the dirty earth. Well--it is dirty. I haven't got any wings. I am here because I was afraid once in my
life. Want to know what of? Of a prison. That scares me, and you may know it--if it's any good to you. I won't
ask you what scared you into this infernal hole, where you seem to have found pretty pickings. That's your
luck and this is mine--the privilege to beg for the favour of being shot quickly, or else kicked out to go free
and starve in my own way.' . . ."

'His debilitated body shook with an exultation so vehement, so assured, and so malicious that it seemed to
have driven off the death waiting for him in that hut. The corpse of his mad self-love uprose from rags and
destitution as from the dark horrors of a tomb. It is impossible to say how much he lied to Jim then, how much
he lied to me now--and to himself always. Vanity plays lurid tricks with our memory, and the truth of every
passion wants some pretence to make it live. Standing at the gate of the other world in the guise of a beggar,
he had slapped this world's face, he had spat on it, he had thrown upon it an immensity of scorn and revolt at
the bottom of his misdeeds. He had overcome them all--men, women, savages, traders, ruffians,
missionaries--and Jim--"that beefy-faced beggar." I did not begrudge him this triumph in articulo mortis, this
almost posthumous illusion of having trampled all the earth under his feet. While he was boasting to me, in
his sordid and repulsive agony, I couldn't help thinking of the chuckling talk relating to the time of his greatest
splendour when, during a year or more, Gentleman Brown's ship was to be seen, for many days on end,
hovering off an islet befringed with green upon azure, with the dark dot of the mission-house on a white
beach; while Gentleman Brown, ashore, was casting his spells over a romantic girl for whom Melanesia had
been too much, and giving hopes of a remarkable conversion to her husband. The poor man, some time or
other, had been heard to express the intention of winning "Captain Brown to a better way of life." . . . "Bag
Gentleman Brown for Glory"--as a leery-eyed loafer expressed it once--"just to let them see up above what a
Western Pacific trading skipper looks like." And this was the man, too, who had run off with a dying woman,
and had shed tears over her body. "Carried on like a big baby," his then mate was never tired of telling, "and
where the fun came in may I be kicked to death by diseased Kanakas if I know. Why, gents! she was too far
gone when he brought her aboard to know him; she just lay there on her back in his bunk staring at the beam
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stories while, wiping his matted lump of a beard with a livid hand, he was telling me from his noisome couch
how he got round, got in, got home, on that confounded, immaculate, don't-you-touch-me sort of fellow. He
admitted that he couldn't be scared, but there was a way, "as broad as a turnpike, to get in and shake his
twopenny soul around and inside out and upside down--by God!" '

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'I don't think he could do more than perhaps look upon that straight path. He seemed to have been puzzled by
what he saw, for he interrupted himself in his narrative more than once to exclaim, "He nearly slipped from
me there. I could not make him out. Who was he?" And after glaring at me wildly he would go on, jubilating
and sneering. To me the conversation of these two across the creek appears now as the deadliest kind of duel
on which Fate looked on with her cold-eyed knowledge of the end. No, he didn't turn Jim's soul inside out, but
I am much mistaken if the spirit so utterly out of his reach had not been made to taste to the full the bitterness
of that contest. These were the emissaries with whom the world he had renounced was pursuing him in his
retreat--white men from "out there" where he did not think himself good enough to live. This was all that
came to him--a menace, a shock, a danger to his work. I suppose it is this sad, half-resentful, half-resigned
feeling, piercing through the few words Jim said now and then, that puzzled Brown so much in the reading of
his character. Some great men owe most of their greatness to the ability of detecting in those they destine for
their tools the exact quality of strength that matters for their work; and Brown, as though he had been really
great, had a satanic gift of finding out the best and the weakest spot in his victims. He admitted to me that Jim
wasn't of the sort that can be got over by truckling, and accordingly he took care to show himself as a man
confronting without dismay ill-luck, censure, and disaster. The smuggling of a few guns was no great crime,
he pointed out. As to coming to Patusan, who had the right to say he hadn't come to beg? The infernal people
here let loose at him from both banks without staying to ask questions. He made the point brazenly, for, in
truth, Dain Waris's energetic action had prevented the greatest calamities; because Brown told me distinctly
that, perceiving the size of the place, he had resolved instantly in his mind that as soon as he had gained a
footing he would set fire right and left, and begin by shooting down everything living in sight, in order to cow
and terrify the population. The disproportion of forces was so great that this was the only way giving him the
slightest chance of attaining his ends--he argued in a fit of coughing. But he didn't tell Jim this. As to the
hardships and starvation they had gone through, these had been very real; it was enough to look at his band.
He made, at the sound of a shrill whistle, all his men appear standing in a row on the logs in full view, so that
Jim could see them. For the killing of the man, it had been done--well, it had--but was not this war, bloody
war--in a corner? and the fellow had been killed cleanly, shot through the chest, not like that poor devil of his
lying now in the creek. They had to listen to him dying for six hours, with his entrails torn with slugs. At any
rate this was a life for a life. . . . And all this was said with the weariness, with the recklessness of a man
spurred on and on by ill-luck till he cares not where he runs. When he asked Jim, with a sort of brusque
despairing frankness, whether he himself--straight now--didn't understand that when "it came to saving one's
life in the dark, one didn't care who else went--three, thirty, three hundred people"--it was as if a demon had
been whispering advice in his ear. "I made him wince," boasted Brown to me. "He very soon left off coming
the righteous over me. He just stood there with nothing to say, and looking as black as thunder--not at me--on
the ground." He asked Jim whether he had nothing fishy in his life to remember that he was so damnedly hard
upon a man trying to get out of a deadly hole by the first means that came to hand--and so on, and so on. And
there ran through the rough talk a vein of subtle reference to their common blood, an assumption of common
experience; a sickening suggestion of common guilt, of secret knowledge that was like a bond of their minds
and of their hearts.

'At last Brown threw himself down full length and watched Jim out of the corners of his eyes. Jim on his side
of the creek stood thinking and switching his leg. The houses in view were silent, as if a pestilence had swept
them clean of every breath of life; but many invisible eyes were turned, from within, upon the two men with
the creek between them, a stranded white boat, and the body of the third man half sunk in the mud. On the
river canoes were moving again, for Patusan was recovering its belief in the stability of earthly institutions
since the return of the white lord. The right bank, the platforms of the houses, the rafts moored along the
shores, even the roofs of bathing-huts, were covered with people that, far away out of earshot and almost out
of sight, were straining their eyes towards the knoll beyond the Rajah's stockade. Within the wide irregular
ring of forests, broken in two places by the sheen of the river, there was a silence. "Will you promise to leave
the coast?" Jim asked. Brown lifted and let fall his hand, giving everything up as it were--accepting the
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Not till you come to take them out of our stiff hands. You think I am gone crazy with funk? Oh no! That and
the rags I stand in is all I have got in the world, besides a few more breechloaders on board; and I expect to
sell the lot in Madagascar, if I ever get so far--begging my way from ship to ship."

'Jim said nothing to this. At last, throwing away the switch he held in his hand, he said, as if speaking to
himself, "I don't know whether I have the power." . . . "You don't know! And you wanted me just now to give
up my arms! That's good, too," cried Brown; "Suppose they say one thing to you, and do the other thing to
me." He calmed down markedly. "I dare say you have the power, or what's the meaning of all this talk?" he
continued. "What did you come down here for? To pass the time of day?"

' "Very well," said Jim, lifting his head suddenly after a long silence. "You shall have a clear road or else a
clear fight." He turned on his heel and walked away.

'Brown got up at once, but he did not go up the hill till he had seen Jim disappear between the first houses. He
never set his eyes on him again. On his way back he met Cornelius slouching down with his head between his
shoulders. He stopped before Brown. "Why didn't you kill him?" he demanded in a sour, discontented voice.
"Because I could do better than that," Brown said with an amused smile. "Never! never!" protested Cornelius
with energy. "Couldn't. I have lived here for many years." Brown looked up at him curiously. There were
many sides to the life of that place in arms against him; things he would never find out. Cornelius slunk past
dejectedly in the direction of the river. He was now leaving his new friends; he accepted the disappointing
course of events with a sulky obstinacy which seemed to draw more together his little yellow old face; and as
he went down he glanced askant here and there, never giving up his fixed idea.

'Henceforth events move fast without a check, flowing from the very hearts of men like a stream from a dark
source, and we see Jim amongst them, mostly through Tamb' Itam's eyes. The girl's eyes had watched him too,
but her life is too much entwined with his: there is her passion, her wonder, her anger, and, above all, her fear
and her unforgiving love. Of the faithful servant, uncomprehending as the rest of them, it is the fidelity alone
that comes into play; a fidelity and a belief in his lord so strong that even amazement is subdued to a sort of
saddened acceptance of a mysterious failure. He has eyes only for one figure, and through all the mazes of
bewilderment he preserves his air of guardianship, of obedience, of care.

'His master came back from his talk with the white men, walking slowly towards the stockade in the street.
Everybody was rejoiced to see him return, for while he was away every man had been afraid not only of him
being killed, but also of what would come after. Jim went into one of the houses, where old Doramin had
retired, and remained alone for a long time with the head of the Bugis settlers. No doubt he discussed the
course to follow with him then, but no man was present at the conversation. Only Tamb' Itam, keeping as
close to the door as he could, heard his master say, "Yes. I shall let all the people know that such is my wish;
but I spoke to you, O Doramin, before all the others, and alone; for you know my heart as well as I know
yours and its greatest desire. And you know well also that I have no thought but for the people's good." Then
his master, lifting the sheeting in the doorway, went out, and he, Tamb' Itam, had a glimpse of old Doramin
within, sitting in the chair with his hands on his knees, and looking between his feet. Afterwards he followed
his master to the fort, where all the principal Bugis and Patusan inhabitants had been summoned for a talk.
Tamb' Itam himself hoped there would be some fighting. "What was it but the taking of another hill?" he
exclaimed regretfully. However, in the town many hoped that the rapacious strangers would be induced, by
the sight of so many brave men making ready to fight, to go away. It would be a good thing if they went away.
Since Jim's arrival had been made known before daylight by the gun fired from the fort and the beating of the
big drum there, the fear that had hung over Patusan had broken and subsided like a wave on a rock, leaving
the seething foam of excitement, curiosity, and endless speculation. Half of the population had been ousted
out of their homes for purposes of defence, and were living in the street on the left side of the river, crowding
round the fort, and in momentary expectation of seeing their abandoned dwellings on the threatened bank
burst into flames. The general anxiety was to see the matter settled quickly. Food, through Jewel's care, had
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worse than in Sherif Ali's war. Then many people did not care; now everybody had something to lose. The
movements of canoes passing to and fro between the two parts of the town were watched with interest. A
couple of Bugis war-boats lay anchored in the middle of the stream to protect the river, and a thread of smoke
stood at the bow of each; the men in them were cooking their midday rice when Jim, after his interviews with
Brown and Doramin, crossed the river and entered by the water-gate of his fort. The people inside crowded
round him, so that he could hardly make his way to the house. They had not seen him before, because on his
arrival during the night he had only exchanged a few words with the girl, who had come down to the
landing-stage for the purpose, and had then gone on at once to join the chiefs and the fighting men on the
other bank. People shouted greetings after him. One old woman raised a laugh by pushing her way to the front
madly and enjoining him in a scolding voice to see to it that her two sons, who were with Doramin, did not
come to harm at the hands of the robbers. Several of the bystanders tried to pull her away, but she struggled
and cried, "Let me go. What is this, O Muslims? This laughter is unseemly. Are they not cruel, bloodthirsty
robbers bent on killing?" "Let her be," said Jim, and as a silence fell suddenly, he said slowly, "Everybody
shall be safe." He entered the house before the great sigh, and the loud murmurs of satisfaction, had died out.

'There's no doubt his mind was made up that Brown should have his way clear back to the sea. His fate,
revolted, was forcing his hand. He had for the first time to affirm his will in the face of outspoken opposition.
"There was much talk, and at first my master was silent," Tamb' Itam said. "Darkness came, and then I lit the
candles on the long table. The chiefs sat on each side, and the lady remained by my master's right hand."

'When he began to speak, the unaccustomed difficulty seemed only to fix his resolve more immovably. The
white men were now waiting for his answer on the hill. Their chief had spoken to him in the language of his
own people, making clear many things difficult to explain in any other speech. They were erring men whom
suffering had made blind to right and wrong. It is true that lives had been lost already, but why lose more? He
declared to his hearers, the assembled heads of the people, that their welfare was his welfare, their losses his
losses, their mourning his mourning. He looked round at the grave listening faces and told them to remember
that they had fought and worked side by side. They knew his courage . . . Here a murmur interrupted him . . .
And that he had never deceived them. For many years they had dwelt together. He loved the land and the
people living in it with a very great love. He was ready to answer with his life for any harm that should come
to them if the white men with beards were allowed to retire. They were evil-doers, but their destiny had been
evil, too. Had he ever advised them ill? Had his words ever brought suffering to the people? he asked. He
believed that it would be best to let these whites and their followers go with their lives. It would be a small
gift. "I whom you have tried and found always true ask you to let them go." He turned to Doramin. The old
nakhoda made no movement. "Then," said Jim, "call in Dain Waris, your son, my friend, for in this business I
shall not lead." '

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'Tamb' Itam behind his chair was thunderstruck. The declaration produced an immense sensation. "Let them
go because this is best in my knowledge which has never deceived you," Jim insisted. There was a silence. In
the darkness of the courtyard could be heard the subdued whispering, shuffling noise of many people.
Doramin raised his heavy head and said that there was no more reading of hearts than touching the sky with
the hand, but--he consented. The others gave their opinion in turn. "It is best," "Let them go," and so on. But
most of them simply said that they "believed Tuan Jim."

'In this simple form of assent to his will lies the whole gist of the situation; their creed, his truth; and the
testimony to that faithfulness which made him in his own eyes the equal of the impeccable men who never fall
out of the ranks. Stein's words, "Romantic!-- Romantic!" seem to ring over those distances that will never give
him up now to a world indifferent to his failings and his virtues, and to that ardent and clinging affection that
refuses him the dole of tears in the bewilderment of a great grief and of eternal separation. From the moment
the sheer truthfulness of his last three years of life carries the day against the ignorance, the fear, and the anger
of men, he appears no longer to me as I saw him last--a white speck catching all the dim light left upon a
sombre coast and the darkened sea--but greater and more pitiful in the loneliness of his soul, that remains even
for her who loved him best a cruel and insoluble mystery.

'It is evident that he did not mistrust Brown; there was no reason to doubt the story, whose truth seemed
warranted by the rough frankness, by a sort of virile sincerity in accepting the morality and the consequences
of his acts. But Jim did not know the almost inconceivable egotism of the man which made him, when resisted
and foiled in his will, mad with the indignant and revengeful rage of a thwarted autocrat. But if Jim did not
mistrust Brown, he was evidently anxious that some misunderstanding should not occur, ending perhaps in
collision and bloodshed. It was for this reason that directly the Malay chiefs had gone he asked Jewel to get
him something to eat, as he was going out of the fort to take command in the town. On her remonstrating
against this on the score of his fatigue, he said that something might happen for which he would never forgive
himself. "I am responsible for every life in the land," he said. He was moody at first; she served him with her
own hands, taking the plates and dishes (of the dinner-service presented him by Stein) from Tamb' Itam. He
brightened up after a while; told her she would be again in command of the fort for another night. "There's no
sleep for us, old girl," he said, "while our people are in danger." Later on he said jokingly that she was the best
man of them all. "If you and Dain Waris had done what you wanted, not one of these poor devils would be
alive to-day." "Are they very bad?" she asked, leaning over his chair. "Men act badly sometimes without
being much worse than others," he said after some hesitation.

'Tamb' Itam followed his master to the landing-stage outside the fort. The night was clear but without a moon,
and the middle of the river was dark, while the water under each bank reflected the light of many fires "as on a
night of Ramadan," Tamb' Itam said. War-boats drifted silently in the dark lane or, anchored, floated
motionless with a loud ripple. That night there was much paddling in a canoe and walking at his master's heels
for Tamb' Itam: up and down the street they tramped, where the fires were burning, inland on the outskirts of
the town where small parties of men kept guard in the fields. Tuan Jim gave his orders and was obeyed. Last
of all they went to the Rajah's stockade, which a detachment of Jim's people manned on that night. The old
Rajah had fled early in the morning with most of his women to a small house he had near a jungle village on a
tributary stream. Kassim, left behind, had attended the council with his air of diligent activity to explain away
the diplomacy of the day before. He was considerably cold-shouldered, but managed to preserve his smiling,
quiet alertness, and professed himself highly delighted when Jim told him sternly that he proposed to occupy
the stockade on that night with his own men. After the council broke up he was heard outside accosting this
and that deputing chief, and speaking in a loud, gratified tone of the Rajah's property being protected in the
Rajah's absence.

'About ten or so Jim's men marched in. The stockade commanded the mouth of the creek, and Jim meant to
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stakes, and Tamb' Itam placed a little folding-stool for his master. Jim told him to try and sleep. Tamb' Itam
got a mat and lay down a little way off; but he could not sleep, though he knew he had to go on an important
journey before the night was out. His master walked to and fro before the fire with bowed head and with his
hands behind his back. His face was sad. Whenever his master approached him Tamb' Itam pretended to
sleep, not wishing his master to know he had been watched. At last his master stood still, looking down on
him as he lay, and said softly, "It is time."

'Tamb' Itam arose directly and made his preparations. His mission was to go down the river, preceding
Brown's boat by an hour or more, to tell Dain Waris finally and formally that the whites were to be allowed to
pass out unmolested. Jim would not trust anybody else with that service. Before starting, Tamb' Itam, more as
a matter of form (since his position about Jim made him perfectly known), asked for a token. "Because,
Tuan," he said, "the message is important, and these are thy very words I carry." His master first put his hand
into one pocket, then into another, and finally took off his forefinger Stein's silver ring, which he habitually
wore, and gave it to Tamb' Itam. When Tamb' Itam left on his mission, Brown's camp on the knoll was dark
but for a single small glow shining through the branches of one of the trees the white men had cut down.

'Early in the evening Brown had received from Jim a folded piece of paper on which was written, "You get
the clear road. Start as soon as your boat floats on the morning tide. Let your men be careful. The bushes on
both sides of the creek and the stockade at the mouth are full of well-armed men. You would have no chance,
but I don't believe you want bloodshed." Brown read it, tore the paper into small pieces, and, turning to
Cornelius, who had brought it, said jeeringly, "Good-bye, my excellent friend." Cornelius had been in the fort,
and had been sneaking around Jim's house during the afternoon. Jim chose him to carry the note because he
could speak English, was known to Brown, and was not likely to be shot by some nervous mistake of one of
the men as a Malay, approaching in the dusk, perhaps might have been.

'Cornelius didn't go away after delivering the paper. Brown was sitting up over a tiny fire; all the others were
lying down. "I could tell you something you would like to know," Cornelius mumbled crossly. Brown paid no
attention. "You did not kill him," went on the other, "and what do you get for it? You might have had money
from the Rajah, besides the loot of all the Bugis houses, and now you get nothing." "You had better clear out
from here," growled Brown, without even looking at him. But Cornelius let himself drop by his side and
began to whisper very fast, touching his elbow from time to time. What he had to say made Brown sit up at
first, with a curse. He had simply informed him of Dain Waris's armed party down the river. At first Brown
saw himself completely sold and betrayed, but a moment's reflection convinced him that there could be no
treachery intended. He said nothing, and after a while Cornelius remarked, in a tone of complete indifference,
that there was another way out of the river which he knew very well. "A good thing to know, too," said
Brown, pricking up his ears; and Cornelius began to talk of what went on in town and repeated all that had
been said in council, gossiping in an even undertone at Brown's ear as you talk amongst sleeping men you do
not wish to wake. "He thinks he has made me harmless, does he?" mumbled Brown very low. . . . "Yes. He is
a fool. A little child. He came here and robbed me," droned on Cornelius, "and he made all the people believe
him. But if something happened that they did not believe him any more, where would he be? And the Bugis
Dain who is waiting for you down the river there, captain, is the very man who chased you up here when you
first came." Brown observed nonchalantly that it would be just as well to avoid him, and with the same
detached, musing air Cornelius declared himself acquainted with a backwater broad enough to take Brown's
boat past Waris's camp. "You will have to be quiet," he said as an afterthought, "for in one place we pass close
behind his camp. Very close. They are camped ashore with their boats hauled up." "Oh, we know how to be as
quiet as mice; never fear," said Brown. Cornelius stipulated that in case he were to pilot Brown out, his canoe
should be towed. "I'll have to get back quick," he explained.

'It was two hours before the dawn when word was passed to the stockade from outlying watchers that the
white robbers were coming down to their boat. In a very short time every armed man from one end of Patusan
to the other was on the alert, yet the banks of the river remained so silent that but for the fires burning with
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water, making a sort of illusive grey light that showed nothing. When Brown's long-boat glided out of the
creek into the river, Jim was standing on the low point of land before the Rajah's stockade--on the very spot
where for the first time he put his foot on Patusan shore. A shadow loomed up, moving in the greyness,
solitary, very bulky, and yet constantly eluding the eye. A murmur of low talking came out of it. Brown at the
tiller heard Jim speak calmly: "A clear road. You had better trust to the current while the fog lasts; but this
will lift presently." "Yes, presently we shall see clear," replied Brown.

'The thirty or forty men standing with muskets at ready outside the stockade held their breath. The Bugis
owner of the prau, whom I saw on Stein's verandah, and who was amongst them, told me that the boat,
shaving the low point close, seemed for a moment to grow big and hang over it like a mountain. "If you think
it worth your while to wait a day outside," called out Jim, "I'll try to send you down something--a bullock,
some yams--what I can." The shadow went on moving. "Yes. Do," said a voice, blank and muffled out of the
fog. Not one of the many attentive listeners understood what the words meant; and then Brown and his men in
their boat floated away, fading spectrally without the slightest sound.

'Thus Brown, invisible in the mist, goes out of Patusan elbow to elbow with Cornelius in the stern-sheets of
the long-boat. "Perhaps you shall get a small bullock," said Cornelius. "Oh yes. Bullock. Yam. You'll get it if
he said so. He always speaks the truth. He stole everything I had. I suppose you like a small bullock better
than the loot of many houses." "I would advise you to hold your tongue, or somebody here may fling you
overboard into this damned fog," said Brown. The boat seemed to be standing still; nothing could be seen, not
even the river alongside, only the water-dust flew and trickled, condensed, down their beards and faces. It was
weird, Brown told me. Every individual man of them felt as though he were adrift alone in a boat, haunted by
an almost imperceptible suspicion of sighing, muttering ghosts. "Throw me out, would you? But I would
know where I was," mumbled Cornelius surlily. "I've lived many years here." "Not long enough to see
through a fog like this," Brown said, lolling back with his arm swinging to and fro on the useless tiller. "Yes.
Long enough for that," snarled Cornelius. "That's very useful," commented Brown. "Am I to believe you
could find that backway you spoke of blindfold, like this?" Cornelius grunted. "Are you too tired to row?" he
asked after a silence. "No, by God!" shouted Brown suddenly. "Out with your oars there." There was a great
knocking in the fog, which after a while settled into a regular grind of invisible sweeps against invisible
thole-pins. Otherwise nothing was changed, and but for the slight splash of a dipped blade it was like rowing a
balloon car in a cloud, said Brown. Thereafter Cornelius did not open his lips except to ask querulously for
somebody to bale out his canoe, which was towing behind the long-boat. Gradually the fog whitened and
became luminous ahead. To the left Brown saw a darkness as though he had been looking at the back of the
departing night. All at once a big bough covered with leaves appeared above his head, and ends of twigs,
dripping and still, curved slenderly close alongside. Cornelius, without a word, took the tiller from his hand.'

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'I don't think they spoke together again. The boat entered a narrow by-channel, where it was pushed by the
oar-blades set into crumbling banks, and there was a gloom as if enormous black wings had been outspread
above the mist that filled its depth to the summits of the trees. The branches overhead showered big drops
through the gloomy fog. At a mutter from Cornelius, Brown ordered his men to load. "I'll give you a chance to
get even with them before we're done, you dismal cripples, you," he said to his gang. "Mind you don't throw it
away--you hounds." Low growls answered that speech. Cornelius showed much fussy concern for the safety
of his canoe.

'Meantime Tamb' Itam had reached the end of his journey. The fog had delayed him a little, but he had
paddled steadily, keeping in touch with the south bank. By-and-by daylight came like a glow in a ground glass
globe. The shores made on each side of the river a dark smudge, in which one could detect hints of columnar
forms and shadows of twisted branches high up. The mist was still thick on the water, but a good watch was
being kept, for as Iamb' Itam approached the camp the figures of two men emerged out of the white vapour,
and voices spoke to him boisterously. He answered, and presently a canoe lay alongside, and he exchanged
news with the paddlers. All was well. The trouble was over. Then the men in the canoe let go their grip on the
side of his dug-out and incontinently fell out of sight. He pursued his way till he heard voices coming to him
quietly over the water, and saw, under the now lifting, swirling mist, the glow of many little fires burning on a
sandy stretch, backed by lofty thin timber and bushes. There again a look-out was kept, for he was challenged.
He shouted his name as the two last sweeps of his paddle ran his canoe up on the strand. It was a big camp.
Men crouched in many little knots under a subdued murmur of early morning talk. Many thin threads of
smoke curled slowly on the white mist. Little shelters, elevated above the ground, had been built for the
chiefs. Muskets were stacked in small pyramids, and long spears were stuck singly into the sand near the fires.

'Tamb' Itam, assuming an air of importance, demanded to be led to Dain Waris. He found the friend of his
white lord lying on a raised couch made of bamboo, and sheltered by a sort of shed of sticks covered with
mats. Dain Waris was awake, and a bright fire was burning before his sleeping-place, which resembled a rude
shrine. The only son of nakhoda Doramin answered his greeting kindly. Tamb' Itam began by handing him the
ring which vouched for the truth of the messenger's words. Dain Waris, reclining on his elbow, bade him
speak and tell all the news. Beginning with the consecrated formula, "The news is good," Tamb' Itam
delivered Jim's own words. The white men, deputing with the consent of all the chiefs, were to be allowed to
pass down the river. In answer to a question or two Tamb' Itam then reported the proceedings of the last
council. Dain Waris listened attentively to the end, toying with the ring which ultimately he slipped on the
forefinger of his right hand. After hearing all he had to say he dismissed Tamb' Itam to have food and rest.
Orders for the return in the afternoon were given immediately. Afterwards Dain Waris lay down again,
open-eyed, while his personal attendants were preparing his food at the fire, by which Tamb' Itam also sat
talking to the men who lounged up to hear the latest intelligence from the town. The sun was eating up the
mist. A good watch was kept upon the reach of the main stream where the boat of the whites was expected to
appear every moment.

'It was then that Brown took his revenge upon the world which, after twenty years of contemptuous and
reckless bullying, refused him the tribute of a common robber's success. It was an act of cold-blooded
ferocity, and it consoled him on his deathbed like a memory of an indomitable defiance. Stealthily he landed
his men on the other side of the island opposite to the Bugis camp, and led them across. After a short but quite
silent scuffle, Cornelius, who had tried to slink away at the moment of landing, resigned himself to show the
way where the undergrowth was most sparse. Brown held both his skinny hands together behind his back in
the grip of one vast fist, and now and then impelled him forward with a fierce push. Cornelius remained as
mute as a fish, abject but faithful to his purpose, whose accomplishment loomed before him dimly. At the
edge of the patch of forest Brown's men spread themselves out in cover and waited. The camp was plain from
end to end before their eyes, and no one looked their way. Nobody even dreamed that the white men could
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Brown yelled, "Let them have it," and fourteen shots rang out like one.

'Tamb' Itam told me the surprise was so great that, except for those who fell dead or wounded, not a soul of
them moved for quite an appreciable time after the first discharge. Then a man screamed, and after that
scream a great yell of amazement and fear went up from all the throats. A blind panic drove these men in a
surging swaying mob to and fro along the shore like a herd of cattle afraid of the water. Some few jumped into
the river then, but most of them did so only after the last discharge. Three times Brown's men fired into the
ruck, Brown, the only one in view, cursing and yelling, "Aim low! aim low!"

'Tamb' Itam says that, as for him, he understood at the first volley what had happened. Though untouched he
fell down and lay as if dead, but with his eyes open. At the sound of the first shots Dain Waris, reclining on
the couch, jumped up and ran out upon the open shore, just in time to receive a bullet in his forehead at the
second discharge. Tamb' Itam saw him fling his arms wide open before he fell. Then, he says, a great fear
came upon him--not before. The white men retired as they had come--unseen.

'Thus Brown balanced his account with the evil fortune. Notice that even in this awful outbreak there is a
superiority as of a man who carries right--the abstract thing--within the envelope of his common desires. It
was not a vulgar and treacherous massacre; it was a lesson, a retribution--a demonstration of some obscure
and awful attribute of our nature which, I am afraid, is not so very far under the surface as we like to think.

'Afterwards the whites depart unseen by Tamb' Itam, and seem to vanish from before men's eyes altogether;
and the schooner, too, vanishes after the manner of stolen goods. But a story is told of a white long-boat
picked up a month later in the Indian Ocean by a cargo steamer. Two parched, yellow, glassy-eyed,
whispering skeletons in her recognised the authority of a third, who declared that his name was Brown. His
schooner, he reported, bound south with a cargo of Java sugar, had sprung a bad leak and sank under his feet.
He and his companions were the survivors of a crew of six. The two died on board the steamer which rescued
them. Brown lived to be seen by me, and I can testify that he had played his part to the last.

'It seems, however, that in going away they had neglected to cast off Cornelius's canoe. Cornelius himself
Brown had let go at the beginning of the shooting, with a kick for a parting benediction. Tamb' Itam, after
arising from amongst the dead, saw the Nazarene running up and down the shore amongst the corpses and the
expiring fires. He uttered little cries. Suddenly he rushed to the water, and made frantic efforts to get one of
the Bugis boats into the water. "Afterwards, till he had seen me," related Tamb' Itam, "he stood looking at the
heavy canoe and scratching his head." "What became of him?" I asked. Tamb' Itam, staring hard at me, made
an expressive gesture with his right arm. "Twice I struck, Tuan," he said. "When he beheld me approaching he
cast himself violently on the ground and made a great outcry, kicking. He screeched like a frightened hen till
he felt the point; then he was still, and lay staring at me while his life went out of his eyes."

'This done, Tamb' Itam did not tarry. He understood the importance of being the first with the awful news at
the fort. There were, of course, many survivors of Dain Waris's party; but in the extremity of panic some had
swum across the river, others had bolted into the bush. The fact is that they did not know really who struck
that blow--whether more white robbers were not coming, whether they had not already got hold of the whole
land. They imagined themselves to be the victims of a vast treachery, and utterly doomed to destruction. It is
said that some small parties did not come in till three days afterwards. However, a few tried to make their way
back to Patusan at once, and one of the canoes that were patrolling the river that morning was in sight of the
camp at the very moment of the attack. It is true that at first the men in her leaped overboard and swam to the
opposite bank, but afterwards they returned to their boat and started fearfully up-stream. Of these Tamb' Itam
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'When Tamb' Itam, paddling madly, came into the town-reach, the women, thronging the platforms before the
houses, were looking out for the return of Dain Waris's little fleet of boats. The town had a festive air; here
and there men, still with spears or guns in their hands, could be seen moving or standing on the shore in
groups. Chinamen's shops had been opened early; but the market-place was empty, and a sentry, still posted at
the corner of the fort, made out Tamb' Itam, and shouted to those within. The gate was wide open. Tamb' Itam
jumped ashore and ran in headlong. The first person he met was the girl coming down from the house.

'Tamb' Itam, disordered, panting, with trembling lips and wild eyes, stood for a time before her as if a sudden
spell had been laid on him. Then he broke out very quickly: "They have killed Dain Waris and many more."
She clapped her hands, and her first words were, "Shut the gates." Most of the fortmen had gone back to their
houses, but Tamb' Itam hurried on the few who remained for their turn of duty within. The girl stood in the
middle of the courtyard while the others ran about. "Doramin," she cried despairingly, as Tamb' Itam passed
her. Next time he went by he answered her thought rapidly, "Yes. But we have all the powder in Patusan." She
caught him by the arm, and, pointing at the house, "Call him out," she whispered, trembling.

'Tamb' Itam ran up the steps. His master was sleeping. "It is I, Tamb' Itam," he cried at the door, "with tidings
that cannot wait." He saw Jim turn over on the pillow and open his eyes, and he burst out at once. "This, Tuan,
is a day of evil, an accursed day." His master raised himself on his elbow to listen--just as Dain Waris had
done. And then Tamb' Itam began his tale, trying to relate the story in order, calling Dain Waris Panglima, and
saying: "The Panglima then called out to the chief of his own boatmen, 'Give Tamb' Itam something to eat'
"--when his master put his feet to the ground and looked at him with such a discomposed face that the words
remained in his throat.

' "Speak out," said Jim. "Is he dead?" "May you live long," cried Tamb' Itam. "It was a most cruel treachery.
He ran out at the first shots and fell." . . . His master walked to the window and with his fist struck at the
shutter. The room was made light; and then in a steady voice, but speaking fast, he began to give him orders to
assemble a fleet of boats for immediate pursuit, go to this man, to the other--send messengers; and as he
talked he sat down on the bed, stooping to lace his boots hurriedly, and suddenly looked up. "Why do you
stand here?" he asked very red-faced. "Waste no time." Tamb' Itam did not move. "Forgive me, Tuan, but . . .
but," he began to stammer. "What?" cried his master aloud, looking terrible, leaning forward with his hands
gripping the edge of the bed. "It is not safe for thy servant to go out amongst the people," said Tamb' Itam,
after hesitating a moment.

'Then Jim understood. He had retreated from one world, for a small matter of an impulsive jump, and now the
other, the work of his own hands, had fallen in ruins upon his head. It was not safe for his servant to go out
amongst his own people! I believe that in that very moment he had decided to defy the disaster in the only
way it occurred to him such a disaster could be defied; but all I know is that, without a word, he came out of
his room and sat before the long table, at the head of which he was accustomed to regulate the affairs of his
world, proclaiming daily the truth that surely lived in his heart. The dark powers should not rob him twice of
his peace. He sat like a stone figure. Tamb' Itam, deferential, hinted at preparations for defence. The girl he
loved came in and spoke to him, but he made a sign with his hand, and she was awed by the dumb appeal for
silence in it. She went out on the verandah and sat on the threshold, as if to guard him with her body from
dangers outside.

'What thoughts passed through his head--what memories? Who can tell? Everything was gone, and he who
had been once unfaithful to his trust had lost again all men's confidence. It was then, I believe, he tried to
write--to somebody--and gave it up. Loneliness was closing on him. People had trusted him with their
lives--only for that; and yet they could never, as he had said, never be made to understand him. Those without
did not hear him make a sound. Later, towards the evening, he came to the door and called for Tamb' Itam.
"Well?" he asked. "There is much weeping. Much anger too," said Tamb' Itam. Jim looked up at him. "You

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know," he murmured. "Yes, Tuan," said Tamb' Itam. "Thy servant does know, and the gates are closed. We
shall have to fight." "Fight! What for?" he asked. "For our lives." "I have no life," he said. Tamb' Itam heard a
cry from the girl at the door. "Who knows?" said Tamb' Itam. "By audacity and cunning we may even escape.
There is much fear in men's hearts too." He went out, thinking vaguely of boats and of open sea, leaving Jim
and the girl together.

'I haven't the heart to set down here such glimpses as she had given me of the hour or more she passed in there
wrestling with him for the possession of her happiness. Whether he had any hope-- what he expected, what he
imagined--it is impossible to say. He was inflexible, and with the growing loneliness of his obstinacy his spirit
seemed to rise above the ruins of his existence. She cried "Fight!" into his ear. She could not understand.
There was nothing to fight for. He was going to prove his power in another way and conquer the fatal destiny
itself. He came out into the courtyard, and behind him, with streaming hair, wild of face, breathless, she
staggered out and leaned on the side of the doorway. "Open the gates," he ordered. Afterwards, turning to
those of his men who were inside, he gave them leave to depart to their homes. "For how long, Tuan?" asked
one of them timidly. "For all life," he said, in a sombre tone.

'A hush had fallen upon the town after the outburst of wailing and lamentation that had swept over the river,
like a gust of wind from the opened abode of sorrow. But rumours flew in whispers, filling the hearts with
consternation and horrible doubts. The robbers were coming back, bringing many others with them, in a great
ship, and there would be no refuge in the land for any one. A sense of utter insecurity as during an earthquake
pervaded the minds of men, who whispered their suspicions, looking at each other as if in the presence of
some awful portent.

'The sun was sinking towards the forests when Dain Waris's body was brought into Doramin's campong. Four
men carried it in, covered decently with a white sheet which the old mother had sent out down to the gate to
meet her son on his return. They laid him at Doramin's feet, and the old man sat still for a long time, one hand
on each knee, looking down. The fronds of palms swayed gently, and the foliage of fruit trees stirred above
his head. Every single man of his people was there, fully armed, when the old nakhoda at last raised his eyes.
He moved them slowly over the crowd, as if seeking for a missing face. Again his chin sank on his breast. The
whispers of many men mingled with the slight rustling of the leaves.

'The Malay who had brought Tamb' Itam and the girl to Samarang was there too. "Not so angry as many," he
said to me, but struck with a great awe and wonder at the "suddenness of men's fate, which hangs over their
heads like a cloud charged with thunder." He told me that when Dain Waris's body was uncovered at a sign of
Doramin's, he whom they often called the white lord's friend was disclosed lying unchanged with his eyelids a
little open as if about to wake. Doramin leaned forward a little more, like one looking for something fallen on
the ground. His eyes searched the body from its feet to its head, for the wound maybe. It was in the forehead
and small; and there was no word spoken while one of the by-standers, stooping, took off the silver ring from
the cold stiff hand. In silence he held it up before Doramin. A murmur of dismay and horror ran through the
crowd at the sight of that familiar token. The old nakhoda stared at it, and suddenly let out one great fierce
cry, deep from the chest, a roar of pain and fury, as mighty as the bellow of a wounded bull, bringing great
fear into men's hearts, by the magnitude of his anger and his sorrow that could be plainly discerned without
words. There was a great stillness afterwards for a space, while the body was being borne aside by four men.
They laid it down under a tree, and on the instant, with one long shriek, all the women of the household began
to wail together; they mourned with shrill cries; the sun was setting, and in the intervals of screamed
lamentations the high sing-song voices of two old men intoning the Koran chanted alone.

'About this time Jim, leaning on a gun-carriage, looked at the river, and turned his back on the house; and the
girl, in the doorway, panting as if she had run herself to a standstill, was looking at him across the yard. Tamb'
Itam stood not far from his master, waiting patiently for what might happen. All at once Jim, who seemed to
be lost in quiet thought, turned to him and said, "Time to finish this."

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' "Tuan?" said Tamb' Itam, advancing with alacrity. He did not know what his master meant, but as soon as
Jim made a movement the girl started too and walked down into the open space. It seems that no one else of
the people of the house was in sight. She tottered slightly, and about half-way down called out to Jim, who
had apparently resumed his peaceful contemplation of the river. He turned round, setting his back against the
gun. "Will you fight?" she cried. "There is nothing to fight for," he said; "nothing is lost." Saying this he made
a step towards her. "Will you fly?" she cried again. "There is no escape," he said, stopping short, and she
stood still also, silent, devouring him with her eyes. "And you shall go?" she said slowly. He bent his head.
"Ah!" she exclaimed, peering at him as it were, "you are mad or false. Do you remember the night I prayed
you to leave me, and you said that you could not? That it was impossible! Impossible! Do you remember you
said you would never leave me? Why? I asked you for no promise. You promised unasked--remember."
"Enough, poor girl," he said. "I should not be worth having."

'Tamb' Itam said that while they were talking she would laugh loud and senselessly like one under the
visitation of God. His master put his hands to his head. He was fully dressed as for every day, but without a
hat. She stopped laughing suddenly. "For the last time," she cried menacingly, "will you defend yourself?"
"Nothing can touch me," he said in a last flicker of superb egoism. Tamb' Itam saw her lean forward where
she stood, open her arms, and run at him swiftly. She flung herself upon his breast and clasped him round the
neck.

' "Ah! but I shall hold thee thus," she cried. . . . "Thou art mine!"

'She sobbed on his shoulder. The sky over Patusan was blood-red, immense, streaming like an open vein. An
enormous sun nestled crimson amongst the tree-tops, and the forest below had a black and forbidding face.

'Tamb' Itam tells me that on that evening the aspect of the heavens was angry and frightful. I may well believe
it, for I know that on that very day a cyclone passed within sixty miles of the coast, though there was hardly
more than a languid stir of air in the place.

'Suddenly Tamb' Itam saw Jim catch her arms, trying to unclasp her hands. She hung on them with her head
fallen back; her hair touched the ground. "Come here!" his master called, and Tamb' Itam helped to ease her
down. It was difficult to separate her fingers. Jim, bending over her, looked earnestly upon her face, and all at
once ran to the landing-stage. Tamb' Itam followed him, but turning his head, he saw that she had struggled up
to her feet. She ran after them a few steps, then fell down heavily on her knees. "Tuan! Tuan!" called Tamb'
Itam, "look back;" but Jim was already in a canoe, standing up paddle in hand. He did not look back. Tamb'
Itam had just time to scramble in after him when the canoe floated clear. The girl was then on her knees, with
clasped hands, at the water-gate. She remained thus for a time in a supplicating attitude before she sprang up.
"You are false!" she screamed out after Jim. "Forgive me," he cried. "Never! Never!" she called back.

'Tamb' Itam took the paddle from Jim's hands, it being unseemly that he should sit while his lord paddled.
When they reached the other shore his master forbade him to come any farther; but Tamb' Itam did follow him
at a distance, walking up the slope to Doramin's campong.

'It was beginning to grow dark. Torches twinkled here and there. Those they met seemed awestruck, and stood
aside hastily to let Jim pass. The wailing of women came from above. The courtyard was full of armed Bugis
with their followers, and of Patusan people.

'I do not know what this gathering really meant. Were these preparations for war, or for vengeance, or to
repulse a threatened invasion? Many days elapsed before the people had ceased to look out, quaking, for the
return of the white men with long beards and in rags, whose exact relation to their own white man they could
never understand. Even for those simple minds poor Jim remains under a cloud.

'Doramin, alone! immense and desolate, sat in his arm-chair with the pair of flintlock pistols on his knees,

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faced by a armed throng. When Jim appeared, at somebody's exclamation, all the heads turned round together,
and then the mass opened right and left, and he walked up a lane of averted glances. Whispers followed him;
murmurs: "He has worked all the evil." "He hath a charm." . . . He heard them--perhaps!

'When he came up into the light of torches the wailing of the women ceased suddenly. Doramin did not lift his
head, and Jim stood silent before him for a time. Then he looked to the left, and moved in that direction with
measured steps. Dain Waris's mother crouched at the head of the body, and the grey dishevelled hair
concealed her face. Jim came up slowly, looked at his dead friend, lifting the sheet, than dropped it without a
word. Slowly he walked back.

' "He came! He came!" was running from lip to lip, making a murmur to which he moved. "He hath taken it
upon his own head," a voice said aloud. He heard this and turned to the crowd. "Yes. Upon my head." A few
people recoiled. Jim waited awhile before Doramin, and then said gently, "I am come in sorrow." He waited
again. "I am come ready and unarmed," he repeated.

'The unwieldy old man, lowering his big forehead like an ox under a yoke, made an effort to rise, clutching at
the flintlock pistols on his knees. From his throat came gurgling, choking, inhuman sounds, and his two
attendants helped him from behind. People remarked that the ring which he had dropped on his lap fell and
rolled against the foot of the white man, and that poor Jim glanced down at the talisman that had opened for
him the door of fame, love, and success within the wall of forests fringed with white foam, within the coast
that under the western sun looks like the very stronghold of the night. Doramin, struggling to keep his feet,
made with his two supporters a swaying, tottering group; his little eyes stared with an expression of mad pain,
of rage, with a ferocious glitter, which the bystanders noticed; and then, while Jim stood stiffened and with
bared head in the light of torches, looking him straight in the face, he clung heavily with his left arm round the
neck of a bowed youth, and lifting deliberately his right, shot his son's friend through the chest.

'The crowd, which had fallen apart behind Jim as soon as Doramin had raised his hand, rushed tumultuously
forward after the shot. They say that the white man sent right and left at all those faces a proud and
unflinching glance. Then with his hand over his lips he fell forward, dead.

'And that's the end. He passes away under a cloud, inscrutable at heart, forgotten, unforgiven, and excessively
romantic. Not in the wildest days of his boyish visions could he have seen the alluring shape of such an
extraordinary success! For it may very well be that in the short moment of his last proud and unflinching
glance, he had beheld the face of that opportunity which, like an Eastern bride, had come veiled to his side.

'But we can see him, an obscure conqueror of fame, tearing himself out of the arms of a jealous love at the
sign, at the call of his exalted egoism. He goes away from a living woman to celebrate his pitiless wedding
with a shadowy ideal of conduct. Is he satisfied-- quite, now, I wonder? We ought to know. He is one of
us--and have I not stood up once, like an evoked ghost, to answer for his eternal constancy? Was I so very
wrong after all? Now he is no more, there are days when the reality of his existence comes to me with an
immense, with an overwhelming force; and yet upon my honour there are moments, too when he passes from
my eyes like a disembodied spirit astray amongst the passions of this earth, ready to surrender himself
faithfully to the claim of his own world of shades.

'Who knows? He is gone, inscrutable at heart, and the poor girl is leading a sort of soundless, inert life in
Stein's house. Stein has aged greatly of late. He feels it himself, and says often that he is "preparing to leave
all this; preparing to leave . . ." while he waves his hand sadly at his butterflies.'

September 1899--July 1900.

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