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SOLOMON

ir,we’vegotasituation.”Ibarelysparedthemanwhoenteredtheroomaglance
beforegoingbacktowhatIwasdoing.

“Whatkindofsituation?”IreadthesecondlineofthereportI’dbeentryingtoget
through,forthethousandthtime.Thisguyshouldgetajobasasleeptherapist.What
thefuckamIreading?

“It’suhyouruh…”Iknewwhathewasgoingtosaybeforehesaidit.Iglaredupathim
alreadyknowingIwasn’tgoingtolikewhatcameoutofhismouthnext.“Spititout.”

“It’syourwardsir.”Uh-huh,ofcourseitis.

“Whatabouther?”IfshegotsuspendedfromschoolagainI’lltanherassforsurethis
time.

“Shekindasortadisappeared.”Iwasoutofmychairsofastitflippedoverandended
upacrosstheroombehindme.Everythingthatcouldpossiblygowrongwentthrough
myheadinafewshortseconds.Alexandra!

Myenemies…Iheldontothedesktocalmmyself.Onlyshehadthepowertomakeme
thisweak.Please…IstartedoneofmanyprayersI’vesaidinthepasthowmanyyears
sincemylittledarlinghitpuberty.

Onceawell-behavedandutterlyadorablechild,she’snowbecomeahoyden.Apainin
theassthathasbeenmakingmylifealivinghellthesepastfewmonths,andtyingme
upinknotseverychanceshegets.Icouldn’tthinkaboutthatnow,everytimeIdid,I
gavemyselfaheadache.

She’sbeenwithmesincetheageoftenoreleven.That’swhenaplanecrashdestroyed
whatwasleftofherfamily.Herdad,resthissoul,wasanoldhighschoolandcollege
buddy.One,who’dbeenascloseasanybrother.ItwasforthatreasonthatIwasn’t
completelysurprisedwhenthelawyercalledwiththenewsthatIwastobehernew
guardian.

Iwasn’tshockedbutitcouldn’thavecomeataworsttime.Iwasjustgettingintothe
grooveofthebusinessworld.Notthatithadbeenthathard.Thecompanyhadbeenin
thefamilyforatleastfivegenerations,andbythetimeItookthereinsweweredoing
prettywellforourselves.Ijustneededtobringusintothetwenty-firstcentury.

Donhadlikedlivinglifeinthefastlane.That’showhe’dendedupwithakidattheripe
oldageoffifteen.Thatshitwould’vescaredthehelloutofmeatthatage,butnothim.
Heapproachedfatherhoodthewayhedideverythingelse,likeitwassomethingtobe
conquered.

Hisparentshadn’tbeentoopleasedandtherehadbeenastrainintherelationshipfora
time,butthey’dtakencareoftheyounggirlwho’dgivenbirthtotheirgranddaughter.

WhenDonwasoldenough,he’dtakenhisdaughtersincehermomhadfallenintoalife
ofdrugsandprostitution.She’dexpectedtohavealifewithDon,onethatwould’ve
changedherstatusdrastically.Donhadbeenoutforagoodtime.

Hecouldn’tloveher,butheadoredhislittlegirl.Ithinkthat’swherewebothstarted
thinkingofherasadoll.Wewereyoungandstupid,whatthehelldidweknow?But
shewasourdollandIguesswetreatedherlikeone.Nowshe’smakingmyasspayfor
pastsins.

Aftercollege,Ibuckleddownandstartedlookingatlifethroughdifferenteyes.Itwas
timetoputmyyouthbehindmeandstartthejourneyintoadulthood.Myownfather
who’dalwaysdespairedofmyfriendshipwiththefreespiritedDonhaddrilleditinto
myheadeverychancehegotthatlifewasaboutmorethanhavingagoodtime.

SowhileIwaslearningtheinsandoutsofthefamilyfirm,Donwasjumpingoffofcliffs
andskydiving;anythingtogetthatrushhewasalwayschasing.Hisoldmanhadn’t
beenreadytoletgoofthereinsandDonhadspenthistimewithhisyoungwife
gallivantingaroundtheglobegettingintowhateverhecouldfindtokeephis
adrenalinegoing.I’djoinedthematimeortwo,butIgotmyrushfromclosingnew
deals.Itwasinmyblood.

SothereIwas,twenty-fivebarely,andtheworldatmyfeet.ThenshecamealongandI
hadtoswitchgears.Wealreadykneweachother,butithadbeenawhilesinceIlast
sawher.IrememberthewellofloveandsadnessIfeltforthelittleangelI’dalways
calledmydollevenaftershe’dgrownoutofthetoddlerstage.

ThosefirstfewdaysweclungtoeachotheringriefandIrememberhowassertiveshe
waseventhen.Howshe’dclimbintomylapandwrapherlittlearmsaroundmyneck
andkissmycheekbeforeplacingherheadonmyshoulder.Shealwaysseemedto
knowwhenIwasgrievingthehardestbackthen.

Afterthegriefwasspentandrealitycreptbackin,IrealizedIwasindeepshit.She
wasn’tadollafterall;shewasaliving,breathingthingthatneededcareandlotsof
attention.IwasreadytojumpoutthefuckingwindowbyweektwobecauseIwas
terrifiedthatIwouldmessshitup.

I’dlookatherlittlefacelookingupatmesohopefully.JustknowingthatIwasgoingto
fixwhateveritwasthatwasbotheringheratthetime.Myheartwouldmeltintoa
puddleandIwouldreaffirmthepromiseI’dmademyself,thatIwasgoingtodo
everythinginmypowertomakeherlifeagoodone.Notjustforherdad,butalsofor
thelittlebeingI’dheldforthefirsttimewhenshewasjustafewminutesold.

MomhadsteppedinandbeenabighelpsinceIdidn’tknowthefirstthingaboutraising
alittlegirl,especiallyonewho’dbeensohurtandafraidwhenshecametome.She’d
pitchedinanddonemostlyeverythingbackthen,butI’ddrawnthelineatlettingmy
littleAlexgohomewithher.

Shewasmyresponsibility,andIowedittomyoldfriendtowatchoverhertheway
he’dasked.Plushavingherwaslikehavingapartofmyoldbuddywithmealways.But
ithadn’tbeeneasy.

IrememberthemanynightsIspentsittingatherbedsideholdingherhandorwhen
thatdidn’tworkbecausethenightmarewastooforceful,thenI’dhavetoclimbinand
holdhertogivehercomfort.ThathadgoneonforasolidtwoyearsIthink,untilit
dwindleddowntoonceeverysooften.Thosetearsusedtobreakmyheart.

Icouldgivehereverythingintheworldexcepttheonethingshewantedmost,herdad
andstepmother.Somehowwemuddledthroughandbecameourownlittlefamilyunit
oftwo.Ispentweekendsshepherdingheraround,alwayswithherlittlehandclutched
firmlyinmineasshedraggedmefromoneplacetoanother.

Backthen,allIhadtoworryaboutwasscrapedkneesandwoundedpridefrommy
littletomboy.Shewasafiercelittlethingwhohadtoexcelateverythingtopleaseher
uncleSol.Ishould’veknownthatfightingspiritI’dtakensomuchprideinwouldcome
backtobitemeintheass.

SOLOMON

ometimeinthelastyearI’dstartedtonoticeadifferenceinherbehaviortowards

me.Atfirstshe’dseemedwithdrawn.Shewouldn’tlookmeintheeyewhenwespoke
andtherewerenomoresneaktickleattackswhenshefeltIwasignoringhertoolong.

IsuddenlyrealizedthatIhadn’theardhercheerfullaughterforsometime,andthatit
hadbeenawhilesinceshecameintomyhomeofficetobringmeasnacklateatnight
beforegoingtobed.Shewasavoidingme.

Atalkwithmymotherassuredme,thatitwasjustnaturalteenageangst.AllthesameI
decidedtokeepacloseeyeonherjustincase.ShewasoldenoughtodatebutasyetI
hadn’theardanythingaboutasweetheart,somethingelseIwasdreadingonceshehit
puberty.

Icomfortedmyselfwiththefactthatmygirlhadagoodheadonhershouldersand
we’dhadthe‘talk’.AtleastI’dtried,butherredfaceandthelumpinmythroathad
kindahadusbothrushingfromtheroomoncetheordealwasover.Never-a-fucking-
gainwouldIwanttogothroughthathorrorshow.

EvenIdidn’tbelievemybullshit.Butforafewyearsshebelievedthatifsheletaboy
holdherhandshe’dcatchadebilitatingdisease.Untilsomeassholeteachertaughther
differentandshechewedmyassoutforlyingtoher.HeruncleSolwasperfect,which
meantnofibs.She’dhadmeupforsainthooduntilaboutagesixteenwhenthebattles
began.

BecauseIwaswatchinghersocloseitwaseasynottomissanything.Itseemedlike
everydaytherewassomethingelsewithher.IfI’dknowninthebeginningthatone
littlegirlcouldturnintosomuchfuckingtroubleIwould’vehiredabattalionofpeople
tohelpmeraiseher.

ShestartedwearingmakeupforcrapsakeandIknewthatwasthebeginningofthe
end.

ThenI’dnoticeherdaydreamingalotwithasillyhalfsmileonherface.Istarteda

timeortwotoaskherwhoorwhathadputthatlookonherface.Butthefearoflosing
mypreciousdolltosomepimplefacedassholepunkkeptmytonguebehindmyteeth.

Aslongashisnamewasn’tmentionedhedidn’texist.YeahIwasplayingtheshitby
ear;thefuckdidIknowaboutlettinghergoofftohavealifeseparatefromme?
Besidesshewastoofuckingyoung,shewasstillmylittledoll.

Thencamethemaddashestoherroom,assoonasshecameinfromschool.Iwould
hearhergigglingwithherfriendsofwhichthereweremany,behindherbedroom
door.Thenonweekendswhenshehadhalfthatschoolofhersinmydamnhouse,I’d
havetogointohidingtogetawayfromteenagebullshit.

I’dshakemyheadatthewhispersandblushesthatwouldappearassoonasIwalked
intoaroom.ItgotsoassoonasIsawthemillionandonecarspullingintothe
drivewayI’dhightailittotheothersideofthehouse.Thatbecamethenormwhenever
sheandherfriendswereinresidence.

Iwasstillinthehabitofbeingtherewhenschoolletout.Stilloverprotectivetoafault
whereshewasconcernednomatterhowsheclaimedthatshewasoldenoughtobe
homealonewiththestaffforafewhoursuntilIcamehome.NowIcan’tgetaway
frommyhomefastenough,butthat’sanotherstory.ThatshitonlycameafterIstarted
suspectingwhoherrealtargetwas.

Inthebeginning,allIsawwerethechangesthatmomconvincedmewerenatural.I
guessitwasashocktoseemylittlegirlgrowinguprightbeforemyeyes.Itwas
happeningtoofast.Yesterdayshewasalittleurchingettingintomischieftokeepher
uncleSoloccupied.Todayshe’sahalfwomanwithopinionsthatdifferfrommine,
whereoncebeforeshelivedbyeverywordthatcameoutofmymouth.Whattheever-
livingfuck!

Thencametheclothesdebacle.We’dhadsomemajorbrawlsoverhernewstyleof
dress.I’donceseriouslystartedresearchingadesignersoIcouldhunthimdownand
riphisthroatoutformakingtheshortsshewasnowsofondofwaytooshort.I
would’vedoneittooifmomhadn’tlaughedherassoffandtoldmeIwasbeingstupid
andthatAlexandrawouldgrowoutofit.

ThenInoticedthatshestoppedavoidingme,onlywedidn’tgobacktothewaythings
hadbeenbeforethechange.NowIsawwhatIcouldonlycallsneakattacks,butthese
weren’ttheinnocenttickleattacksofthelittlegirlwhowouldmakemelaughuntilmy
sideshurt,ohno.Theseshitsweredesignedtodrivemebatshitcrazy.

HerfavoriteschemewastocomeintowhateverroomIwasin,wearingoneofher
latestscandalworthygetupsandturnmylifeupsidedown.Iwasmiserableasfuck.No
matterwhatshedid,orwhatgameshewasplayingIwastheadult,themanwho’d
raisedherforfucksake.

Shewasjustsharpeningherfemininewilesontheonlymansheknew,theonlyone
shecouldtrust.Imadeallthoseexcusesforherbehaviorwhilefightingmyown
growingandtotallyunwelcomedfeelings.

NowaywasIgoingthere,itwassick.Shewaspracticallymydaughter.Iwastheone
personshehadinthisworldthatshecouldtrustimplicitly.HowcouldIbetraythat
trustwiththesethoughtsthatwereplaguingmeoflate?Iwasconvincedshedidn’t
knowwhatshewasdoing,thedangershewasin.AndifshewasdoingthatshittomeI
didn’twanttothinkabouttheteenagefucksthatwerealwayssniffingaroundher.

Icouldn’tfindthewordstowarnheroftheconsequencesofheractionswithout
damagingherinsomeway;somyanswerwastomakemyselfscarce.Thatshitonly
madeherrampuphershitandourhomebecameabattleground.

Thenshetooktowaitingupformeatnight,callingtomeasIpassedherbedroom
door.I’dhavetogoinandstandthere,talkingtoherwhilesheinnocentlymoved
aroundonherbedintheskimpyshitshesleptin,whiletellingmeaboutherday.

Butthatwasn’ttheworstofit.No,thatcamethedaysheturnedeighteenandIlostmy
fuckingmind.I’dthrownherapartytoendallparties;shithadcostasmuchassome
highsocietyweddings.Herdadhadleftherashitloadofmoney,evenwithaspecial
stipulationforhereighteenthbirthdayparty,butI’dmatcheditdollarfordollar.

I’dgivenhertherunoftheshowwiththehelpofakickassplannerandmomas
overseerofcourse.I’dplannedtodropininthemiddleofthefestivities,staylong
enoughforhertocutthecakeandthenleaveherandhercrowdtoit.I’msurethey
didn’twantanoldmanhangingaroundcrampingtheirstyle.TheguardsIhadplanted
onhertwenty-foursevenwouldbethere,soIhadnofearofanythinggoingwrong.

I’dshownupstraightfromalatenightmeeting,stillinabusinesssuit,mytielonggone
andthefirstthreebuttonsofmyshirtundone.Iwastiredandjustalittleangry
becausetheshitIwanteddonewasgoingtotakealittlelonger.I’dbeenaccusedlately
ofbecomingaveritableogreatwork.Ihadtoworkoffwhatthefuckwasgoingonin
mylifesomehow,andsinceIwasn’tabouttotanglewithherhormonalasstheywere
it.

Iwalkedintothenoiseden,myeyespeeledforherinthecrowdofaboutahundred
dancingscreamingteenagers.Idon’tthinkI’dknowntwentypeoplewhenIwasher
age.Leaveittomygirltobethispopular.Howcouldshenotbe?Shewassmartand
sweet;kind,withaheartIsometimesmarvelat.

Untilshehadturnedintomymainsourceoftortureandtorment,shehadbeentheone
constantinmylife.ThatonelastbitofinnocencethatImyselfhadlostalongtimeago.
WhenIlookedatherIsawallthatwasgoodandpureintheworld.Iknewherinside
outandthegirlwasatotalfuckinggem.

Isawmomstandingnearawallbythewindowswithafewotherparentswhowere
thereaschaperones,butIhadn’tseenmyAlex.Thenmomcaughtmyeyeandpointed
andIfollowedhergazeacrosstheroom.Ididn’tknowwhothebeautyinthetooshort
dresswasatfirst.Therewasafamiliarity,butIcouldn’tplaceher.Thoughmyheart
knewbeforemymindaccepted.

Thefacewasroundwithatouchofbabysoftnessleft.Hereyeswerewidedeeppoolsof

blue-grey,whichIcouldn’tseethatwellfromthatdistance.Herhairwasparteddown
themiddleandcaughtathernapewithsomethingthatletitfallgracefullyatthesides
ofherfacebeforeflowingdownthemiddleofherback.

Sheworesomesortofchainaroundherhairthatrestedonherforeheadwithsome
kindofgeminthemiddle.That’swhenIrememberedthethemewasCleopatraor
someotherEgyptianthingshe’dblabbedonandonaboutforthepastmonth.

Sheturnedbacktoherfriends,shehadn’tseenme,andthat’swhenIrealizedwhoshe
was.Iwasmovingacrosstheroom,myjacketoffandinmyhandsreadytothrowover
hershoulders,whenmommetmehalfway.

“Don’tdoitSol,don’tembarrassherinfrontofherfriends.”Ilookedatherasifnot
seeingher,herwordsbarelypenetratingthehaze.Themusicpipedthroughafterthe
ringinginmyearsstoppedandIgrittedmyteeth.Theroomwasfullofteenageboys,
halfofwhichseemedtobeinhervicinityorthereabouts.

InoddedmyheadslightlyatmomtoletherknowIheardherbeforewalkingtherest
ofthewaytoAlexandra.HerfriendssawmefirstasIapproached,andtheone,CindyI
thinkthenameis,juststaredupatme.Damngirlalwayswentdumbdeafandblind
whenIwalkedintoaroom,whyshouldthisbeanydifferent?

IstoppedbehindAlexandrawithmyhandsbehindmybacksothatIdidn’ttakethe
jacketoffagainandcoverherthewaymymindwasscreamingatmeto.Ilookedover
herheadattheopposingwallandafterthefirsthintofherscent,heldmybreathuntilI
gotmyselfundercontrol.

“Alexandra.”Shegavealittleyelpandflewaround,flingingherarmsaroundmyneck.
Myhandsautomaticallywenttoherwaisttoholdhersinceshehadtogetuponher
toesandIlookeddownintothosepoolsofunusualbeautyandmyheartstopped.

Ipulledawayasifburnedbutsheseemednottonotice.Icouldn’ttellyouwhatshe
saidthen;somethingaboutthanksIthink.Myworldhadjuststoppedandrestartedlike
anoldrecordthathadgotstuck.ThatnightwasthefirsttimeIacceptedthatmylittle
dollhadgrownup.It’swhenIrealizedthatsomethinghadshiftedbetweenusand
thingswillneverbethesameagain.

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SOLOMON

hewassupposedtospendthenightatafriendbutshewasn’ttherewhenwe
checkedin.”Ralph’svoicepenetratedmytripdownmemorylane.Ilookedathim

withoutseeingforafewsecondsasthememoryofthatnightslowlyfadedaway.

“Friend’snameandnumber.”Heheldouthisphonetomewiththenumberalready
dialedasIheadedforthedoor.Ayounggirlpickedupontheotherend.“Thisis
SolomonMagna,whereisAlexandra?”

“IalreadytoldthoseotherguysIdon’tknow,shenevershowedup.”

“Whereisyourfather?”

“He’shere,why?”

“Puthimonthephone.”Ittookhimtwominutesandbythenmynicemeterhad
burnedthefuckout.

“I’llbeatyourdoorintenminutes,ifAlexandraisn’tthereoryoudon’thavean
answerastowhereIcanfindher,I’llslityourfuckingthroat.”Ipressedendandpassed
thephonebacktomysoontobedeadheadofsecurity.

Outside,IthrewmyselfintothebackoftheRollsandRalphgavethedriverdirections
beforeheadingforhiscarwiththerestofmydetailbehindme.Icalmedmyselfand
triednottothinktheworse.

Shehadthebestsecurity,nothingcangowrong.Thatmight’vebeentrueinthepast
butlatelyshe’stakentoconningthemandshe’sgoodatit.I’veswitchedaroundher
detailatimeortwobutnomatterhowItry,Ican’tkeepanyoneonherthatdoesn’tfall
forherlittlegirlact.

She’salwayshadateamofone-manonewoman,untilafewmonthsagowhenI
noticedthechange.Forsomereason,afterthatnightIchangedherdetailforthefirst
timeinaboutfouryears.Shenowhadtwowomenonher.Iwasn’ttakinganychances.
SometimeinthelastyearwhenIhadn’tbeenlookingmydollhadturnedintoa

desirableyoungwomanandifIhadnoticedsowouldothers.

She’sneededhersecurityalotmorelatelybecauseI’dstartedstayingawayfromher.
BeforethatIalwaysmadesureIfoundtimeforher.Iwasstilldoingmybesttobe
thereintheeveningswhenshecamehome,butthattimehadgrownlaterandlaterthe
oldershegot;whatwithallherafterschoolcrap.Ithinkshesignedupforallofthem.

Shewasacheerleader,captainofthedebateteamandshetookdanceclassthreetimes
aweek.DamnkidhadmoreenergythanI’deverdreamedof.Momusuallytookover
whenIcouldn’tbethere.Bothofusstillveryconsciousofwhatshewasmissingand
doingourbesttofillthevoid.

Shehadahabitoflookingintothestandswhenshewascheeringorintothecrowdat
oneofherplaysorwhateveritwasshewasdoingonanygivenday,andIwouldmove
heavenandearthtobethere,cheeringheron.Untilthisshitstarted,Iwasalways
there;now,Ileavehercareinthehandsofothers.

Mymindstrayedtoeverythingbutwhatcouldbehappeningtoherrightthisminute.I
refusetothinktheworstuntilit’sproven.SoinsteadIthoughtaboutthemonthssince
thatfatefulnight.

IthinkI’dshutmyselfawayfromher,avoidedher,forthefirstfewdaysafter.She’d
putastoptothatrightquickinhernononsenseway.Nobeatingaroundthebushfor
mydoll,shealwaysletmehaveitwithbothbarrels.That’sthewayI’dtaughtherandI
would’vebeenproud,ifshewasn’tusingthatshitonme.

“AreyouavoidingmeSol?”Inoticedinthelastfewweeksthe‘uncle’haddropped.I
missedit,feltaslightpaininmyheartinfactwhenInoticed,butnowitdownright
scaredme.Wasitmyimaginationorwasshedoingsomekindofdrawlingshitwithmy
name?

Whatever,Ihadbiggerworriesthanthat.Likethefact,thatsincethatnightmydick
hadanastyhabitofgoingonthescentwhenevershewasaround.

“Nolittleone,I’vejustbeenbusy.”Likehell!I’vebeenfindingshittodoattheoffice
justtoavoidher,whichmademefeelguiltyashell,butwhatcouldIdo?Shewas
eighteenfuckingyearsold.I’draisedher,andnoweachtimeIlookatherIwanttoget
insideher.Sick!

ShemovedaroundmydeskandIheldmybreathprayingshedidn’tthrowherselfinto
mylapthewaysheusedto.Shehadn’tdonethatinawhile,notsinceshewastwelveor
thirteen,butlatelyI’dnoticedacomeback.WhenIaskedherifshedidn’tthinkshewas
toooldtobesittingonmylapshe’djustbattedherlashesatmeandtoldmenottobe
anoldgrump.

Thistimethankfully,shejustcamearoundbehindmychairandputherhandsonmy
shoulders.Asifthatwasn’tbadenoughshe’dleanedtotheside,theteeshirtshewas
wearingpullingawayfromherchestasshelookedatthescreeninfrontofme.

IheldmybreathandstaredstraightaheadasshechatteredonaboutwhatIwas
workingon.Unlikeherdad,shehadarealheadforbusiness.Nofrittingawayher
youththisone.Shewasallbusiness.Hergrandfather,whoadoredthelivinghelloutof
her,waspracticallygroomingherforaplaceinthebusiness.Andfromhiswords,she
wasafastlearner.

Iwashappythatherdad’sfamilyhadfinallytakenaninterestinher,thanksinhuge
parttomomwho’dworkedthemlikeapro.Ididn’tmindsomuchinthebeginning.
NowIjustsawthemasusurperswhocouldtakemygirlfromme.

Iwaslosingmyfuckingmind.Ineededtokeepheratarm’slength,andyetthethought
ofherbeingtakenfrommefilledmewithangeranddread.Ididn’twanthertogrow
upandyet…no,betternotgothere.

ThatdayinmyofficeI’dresistedlookingdownhershirt,hadtriednottoinhaleher
newwomanlyscent.Wherethefuckhadshelearnedtoenticeamanwithperfume?
Andwherehadthisflirtatioussirencomefrom?

TryasImight,Icouldn’tresisttemptationandshe’dcaughtmestaringathercleavage.
OureyeshadmetonceIrealizedI’dbeencaught.Neitherofushadsaidanything,but
fromthelookinhereyeInolongerhadanydoubtsastowhatshewasupto.

That’swhenthetugofwarreallybegun.Itriedtoseparatethemanwho’draisedher
fromthemanwhonowlookedatherasawoman.Itoremyselfapartwithmywants,
knowingtheywerewrong.ButIcouldn’tgetthemoutofmyheadoncetheywere
plantedthere.Andshewasnofuckinghelp.

Afterthatdayshe’dseekmeout,neverlettingtoomuchtimegobywithoutseeing
eachother.IfIhidoutattheofficeshe’dcall,orhernewthingnowwasFacetime.But
nowinsteadofthewildunhingedchatteraboutherdayandwhatshegotupto,shewas
morepoised,moreserious,andtheconversationsseemedtogetlongerandmore
intense.Scaredthefuckouttame.

WhileIwasstrugglingtoconvincemyselfthatshewasayounginnocentandIwasa
sickfuckforwantingher,sheseemedtobedoingeverythinginherpowertoprove
otherwise.

Iwaitedforhertocomerightoutandsaythewords,thatwayIcouldshootherdown
onceandforall.Butsheseemedwisetomyployandneverwenttoofarinhertorment
ofme.

Everythingwassubtlydone.Ifshebentoverinfrontofmetopicksomethingupoffthe
floor,hershortsshowingherassofftoperfection,whatcouldIsay?Ifsheleanedtoo
closeorheldmyarmtootightagainstherside,pressingitintohertit,withthat
innocentsmileandthosewidelittlegirleyes.HowcouldIaccuseher?

WewereplayingagameofcatandmouseIknew.Onethatwouldcometoahead
eventually.Ijustdidn’tknowasyetwhichsideofthelineI’dcomedownon.WouldI
remainheruncleSol,orwouldIcrossthatlinethatwasnowstretchedsotightIcould

feelthestrain?

SOLOMON

ereachedherfriend’splaceintenminutesandIheldmyhandupformymento

stayputwhileItookthestepstothefrontdoortwoatatime.BeforeIcouldringthe
doorbell,thedoorwasflungopenanditlookedlikeawelcomingcommitteewas
standingthere.

IrecognizedherfriendSonia,andI’mguessingthemanandwomanflankingherwere
hermomanddad.Istaredthemandownwhileignoringhiswifeandkid.I’mpretty
sureheknewImeanteverywordofmythreatandcouldseetheknowledgewrittenin
thefearinhiseyes.

“Whereisshe?”Henudgedhisdaughterwhoalwaysseemsalittleskittishinmy
presenceandnowwasoutrightscared.“Shewentdowntown.”

“Alone?”Thewordcameoutasashout.Myguttwistedatthethoughtofmyinnocent
girlaloneinthecitythistimeofnightwithouthersecurity.“Where?”Thegirlstuttered
outananswerandIturnedandleftwithoutanotherword.

MymenwerewaitingwhenIcameoutandItoldthemwherewewereheadedasI
movedtothecar.Theyalllookedateachotherwithdisbelief.Theywouldknowsince
they’vebeenwithmeforalongtimethatshehadneverdonethisbefore.

Ineverlethergoanywherealone,leastofallthecesspitofacity.Ireallyamgoingto
tanherlittleasswhenIgetherhometosafety.

WhatwasthisaboutnowIwonder?She’sbeenpushingtheenvelopemoreandmore
lately,asifshewerewaitingformetocaveone-wayortheother.Ican’tgiveherwhat
shewants,whatsheseemstobeaskingfor.Thoughshehasn’tcomerightoutandsaid
it,lastnightwastheclosestshe’dcometotellingmeshewantedmetofuckher.

She’dfoundmeintheofficeasusual,pretendingtoworkwhenallIwasreallydoing
wasavoidingher.Itwasgettingharderandhardertobearoundherandnothaveher,
andithurttostayaway.Forhersake,Iwastryingtodotherightthing,butamancan
onlytakesomuch.

She’dwalkedintotheroomwiththatsmilethatcouldmakemedoanythingandI’d
lookedatherasifstarvedforthesightofher.“Thereyouare.It’stimeforourmovie,
aren’tyoucoming?”Iswallowedhardandlookedawayfromher.Atleastshewas
coveredthistimebutsheworehernightshirtunderarobe.

Therewasnothingnewinthat,she’dalwaysdressedthatwayonmovienightbecause
moreoftenthannotshe’dfallasleepandI’dtakeherupandtuckherintobed.Butthat
wasbeforeIfounditincreasinglyhardertowalkawayafterlayingherbetweenthe
sheets.

“Ihadsomelastminutestufftotakecareof.YougoonaheadandstartI’llbethere.”
She’dpoutedandwalkedaroundthedesk,thistimeploppingherassdowninmylap
andwrappingherarmsaroundmyneck.Myarmsautomaticallywentaroundher
middle.TherobefellapartanditwasthenIsawthatbeneaththeshortsilkrobeshe
woreamatchingnegligee.

Ialmostthrewheroffofmebutthemovementonlybroughtherhigheronmylap.My
lapthatwasholdingthehard-onthathadsprungupassoonasherscenthitmewhen
shewalkedthroughthedoor.

WelookedateachotherandI’llneverforgetthelookofinnocentwonderonherface
asshestaredintomyeyes.ShepressedherselfagainstmycockandI’mfuckedifher
eyesdidn’tsaywhatherlipsdidn’t.Isawneed,desire,andlust.AllthethingsI’dbeen
fightingmyselfwererightthereinhereyesandIalmostcaved.

Iclosedmyeyesandmovedheroffmylapandhersoft‘why’haddispelledanyandall
doubts.Icouldn’tanswerher.IknewthatwhateverIsaidthenwouldchangeourlives
forever,soinsteadIshookmyheadandlefttheroomandthehouse.

FOUND

theplacewithoutanyhasslebutdidadoubletakeonceIwalkedinside.Aswas

thenorm,wheneverIenteredanyplacewithmyteamshadowingme,everyone
stoppedwhattheyweredoing.

OfcourseIwalkedinlikeIownedtheplace.IprobablydidsinceIownedalotofreal
estatehere,butIwasn’tsureandwasn’tinterestedatthisparticularmoment.Ilooked
atthedifferentstallsandworkstationsbutdidn’tseeher.Iwasabouttogiveupwhen
Ralphindicatedacurtainattheveryendoftheroom.

Imovedtowarditandpulleditbackandmyheartalmoststopped.

“YouputholesinherI’llskinyou.Getthefuckawayfromher.”Iputmyselfbetween
herandthetattooedassholethatwasleaningoverher.“CoveryourselfAlexandra.”I
pulledtheshirtshehadruckedupbeneathherbreastsdowntoherwaistandturnedto
throwtheassholeintothewall.

“NoSol,stopit.Hedidn’tdoanythingwrongIaskedhimto.”Shejumpedoffthetable
andgrabbedmyarm.Isnatchedherbagupfromthechairandtookherhand,dragging

herfromtheroomandoutsideintothecoolnightair.

Ididn’tsayawordtoherasIhelpedherintothecarandwalkedaroundtotheother
sidewherethedriverwaswaitingtoletmein.Shekeptgivingmelooksfrombeneath
loweredlidsbutIignoredher.Iwastoopissedtotalkforthefirstfiveminutesaswe
drovethroughthebusystreetstotheoutskirtsoftownwhereourhomewas.

MybodywasstrungtightandmyheartwashalfwaytomylungsasIlookedawayfrom
her.Wordsofangerburnedaholeinmytongueandittookmassivecontrolonmy
partnottoyellatherforbeingsofuckingirresponsiblystupid.Didshehaveanyidea
thedangershe’dbeenin?OrhadIshieldedhersowellalltheseyearsthatshereally
wasthatinnocent?

“WhatwereyoudoinginthatplaceAlexandra?”Myvoicewasverywellcontained,not
givingawayevenahintofwhatIwasfeelinginside.“Thatplacewasfilthy.”Iclenched
myfistsandlookedoutthewindowawayfromheragain.

Ididn’ttrustmyselfanylonger.AfewmonthsagoIwould’vegivenhertheriotactand
gotherpromisethatshewouldn’tgothereagain;nowI’mnotsurewhatthehellto
expect.She’dsnuckouttogothere,whichmeantsheknewIwouldn’tapprove.That
meantshewasoutrightdisobeyingme,defyingmeeven.Unacceptable.

“Iwasjustgoingtogetanavelpiercingwhat’sthebigdeal?”Iknowthatvoice.The
littleshitknewexactlywhattheproblemwas;sheknewIwouldneverhaveagreedto
thatshitinamillionyears.

NowIdidturnmygazeonher.“Howdidyoufindthatplace?”Sheswallowedhard
becausenowsomeofwhatIwasfeelingseepedoutinmywords.“Jessicamentioned
it.”Ilookedatherinsurprise.

“Jessica?”Jesswasoneofmymanyexes,oneIhadn’tspokentoinweeks.Infact,since
thenightofherbirthdayparty,I’dgivenJessicaandeveryoneelseawidebirth.

Untilthen,JessicahadbeenwhatIguessyouwouldcallmymainsqueeze.I’deven
givenseriousthoughttoaskinghertomarryme.Shewassuitableenough,Iguess.And
thoughIborehernogreatlove,shewasfromagoodfamily,goodbreedinganditwas
waypasttimeIsettleddownandstartedafamily.Atleastthathasbeenmymother’s
favoriterefrainforthepastthreeyears.

“WhendidyouspeaktoJessica?”Sheshruggedhershouldersandlookedouther
windowwhileItriedtofigureoutwhymyexwassendingmywardintothatgrimy
placewithoutmyconsent.I’mprettysuresheknewhowIwouldfeelaboutitsince
we’dhadmorethanoneconversationaboutmycareofAlexandra.

SheseemedtothinkIwastooinvolved;thatAlexandrawasnolongerachildand
shouldbeallowedtothinkforherself,andIhappenedtothinkitwasnoneofher
fuckingbusiness.

ItallcametoaheadthelasttimeIsawherandshesteppedoutofplaceandquestioned

theamountoftimeIspentwithAlexandra.Untilher,noneofthewomenIfuckedhad
thegumption,butIguessbecauseshe’doutlastedalltheothersshetookthatasasign
thatshewasmoreimportant,thatshemeantsomethingmoretome.Webothfound
outthatshedidn’t.Noonecomesbetweenme,andAlexandra,noone.

ThingshadcooledafterIrefusedtoevenentertainherbullshitwithananswerand
eventhoughshe’dtriedtoregaingroundafterherfuckup,thediehadbeencastandI
hadsouredtowardsher.

NowIknowtherewasanotherreasonbehindmyrashdecisiontocutherloose.She
hadmorereasonthanshethoughttofearmyrelationshipwithmyward.Ormaybe
she’dsensedit;whoknows.

Ihadn’tseenorheardfromherinweekssowhythehellwasshetalkingtomyAlex?I
don’trecallthembeingthatclosebefore.Still,Icouldn’tbringmyselftobelievethat
she’dpurposelysendmygirlintoharm’sway.

Butthis,thiswasgoingtoofar.Notonlybecauseofwhereitwas,butwhatshehad
encouragedhertodo.SheknewhowIfeltaboutthisshit.

I’dhadafitwhenAlexandrawantedtopierceherearsasecondtimeatseventeen,why
thefuckwouldIwantherputtingholesinherbelly?Iheldmypeaceuntilmyanger
cooleddown.IfIcalledhernowIwaslikelytosayordosomethingI’dregret.Notthat
Iregretmuchofanything,butshemight.

“You’renottogothereagain.You’renottoleaveyoursecurityagain.IfyoudoIwill
lockyouinyourroomforaweekandthrowawaythekey.”Sheturnedinherseatto
faceme.“That’sstupid.I’meighteenyearsoldIcanhaveapiercingandatattooifI
want.”She’stryingtomakemestrangleher.

“Whattattoo?DidyoumarkyourskinAlexandra?”Shehuffedandfoldedherarmsas
shelookedoutthewindow.“Alexandra.”Ikeptmytoneniceandcalmsoasnotto
frightenher.“Unlessyouwantmetostripyouinthiscaryou’dbettertellmethetruth
rightnow.”

“Youwouldn’tdare.”

“Wouldn’tI?”IguessthelookIgaveheransweredthatquestionbecauseshegotas
closetothedoorasshecouldwithoutbeingontheotherside.

“Takeyourhandawayfromtherebeforeyouhurtyourself.Answerme.”Whowasthis
defiantwomansittingnexttomeshootingdaggersatmewithhereyes?Iliftedmy
handasiftoundressher.

“Nookay,Ididn’tgetatattoobutIwasthinkingaboutit.”Hertoneseemedtosuggest
thatitwasnoneofmybusiness.

“Goodforyou,becauseifyouhadI’dhaveitremovedalongwithpartofyourhidefor
beingstupid.”

I’dneverspokentoherthisharshlybeforebutshewaspissingmeoff.Sheseemedto
bedoingthatalotlately.OnlyinsteadofwantingtospankherIwantedtofuckher
untilshebowedtomywishes.Fuckme,whatamess.

Whythefuckdidshehavetogrowup?Imissedmycutelittleangelwiththemissing
frontteethandthegaminesmilethatusedtowarmmyheart.NowI’msaddledwitha
sirenfromthedepthsofhellsenttoplagueme.Evenwhenshesendsmypressure
soaringdangerouslyhighallIcanthinkofishavingherbeneathme.

Whenshewaslittleallittookwerethreatstogethertobehave.Somehow,especially
afterthisshowofrebellion,Idon’tthinkthatshit’sgoingtowork.She’dchangedthe
game,nowwewereplayingbyherrules.Shewaspushingmetothebreakingpoint,
butdidsheknowwhatwasinstoreifshewenttoofar?

“Fine,I’lljustwait‘tilImoveouttogetonethen.”Yep,she’stryingtogetherassbeat
orworse.MaybeifI’dspankedherhardheadedasswhenshewaslittleshewouldmind
menow.Andwhatthefuckwasshesaying?

“Move,whatmove?”

“I’mgoingtocollegenextyear.I’llbefreetodowhateverIwantthen.”Igrittedmy
teethandcountedtoten.IheldmytonguefornowbecauseIwasstartingtogetoneof
myusualheadachesbetweentheeyes.Damngirlisgonnadrivemeinsanewithher
shit.Whatthefuckhappenedatthatpartyanyway?

Sheleftmyhouseayounginnocentgirl,stillgigglingatshitandwhiningtohave
dessertbeforedinnerandcameback…this.Iblamemomforthisshittoo.Hadn’tIleft
hertooverseeshitwhilethekidwasplanningtheparty?Obviously,someonehad
slippedsomethinginthepunchandshe’dlostherdamnmind.

Ihaven’thadamoment’speacesinceseeingheronthatdancefloor.Aftershe’d
huggedme,andmycocktooknoticeIwasinastateofshockfortherestofthe
evening.Iwantedtocrawloutofmyownfuckingskinforwhatmybodyhadbetrayed.
I’dtriedtoavoidherbutshe’dinnocentlyclungtomeandbeggedmenottoleaveso
soon.

NowI’mnotsosurethatshithadbeeninnocent.NowI’mstartingtobelieveshe’dset
meup.Thatthedress,themakeup,thewholedealhadbeentodojustwhatithad.
Makemenoticeherasawoman.

Everythingsincethenhasbeentothatend.AsIsatnexttohernowwithmyfists
clenchedandmybodyonalert,herscentteasingtheshitoutofme,Iwonderedwhere
itwouldallend.

Webothplayedthe‘ignore’game.That’sanotherthing.She’srelegatedmetoanempty
headedteenageboywhodidn’tknowhisheadfromhisasswhendealingwithher.If
shethoughtforonesecondshewasgoingtoleadmearoundbymydickshehad
anotherthingcoming.

SOLOMON

epulleduptothehousestillinsilence,neitherofuswantingtobetheonetogive.

Atleastshewasaworthyopponent;mostwomenofmyacquaintancebendover
backwardtopleaseme.Itonlytakesahintofdispleasureonmyparttohavethem
givingin.Thisonewantstobattle.

“Getinsideandfindsomethingtodowithyourtimeotherthanannoyingme.”

“ExcusemeyourmajestybutIwasmindingmyownbusiness.Idon’trecallinviting
you.”Shesashayedherlittledisrespectfulasspastmeandintothehousewiththat
neckofhersstretchedoutandherheadheldhigh.Thatshitwon’tlooksoprettywhenI
lopitoff.WhatthefuckamIthinking?Iheadedformyofficeandblessedpeace.

HEARD

hertramplingdownthestairsthenextmorning,headingforthedoor.

“Alexandra,getinhere.”Ididn’tmisshersigh,notlikeshewastryingtohideit.She’d
disappearedintoherroomlastnightandIdidn’thearapeepoutofherexceptforthat
obnoxiousshitshecallsmusic.

“Youbarked?”Shestoodinthedoorwaywithherhipcockedlikeshewasinagunfight.
Ithrewthependownonmydeskandsatbacktostudyher.Shewashalfnaked.Iknew
shedidthatshitonpurposesoIpretendednottonoticethatshelookedasifshewere
lookingforacornertowork.

Iknowshedidn’tbuythatshitwithmymomsoIcouldonlyimagineshegotitonline.
I’llbreakthefuckingcomputerfirstchanceIget.Fuckingnuisance.Itrytokeepshit
outthatassholemachinebringsitrighttomyfuckingdoor.

“Whereareyougoing?”

“It’sSaturday,I’mgoingtohangoutwithmyfriends.”Uh-huh,that’swhatyouthink.
“Noyou’renot.Youhavetobepunishedforthatstuntyoupulledyesterday,andifyou

openyourmouthtosayonewordtomeI’llwashitoutwithsoap.Goswiminthat
Olympicsizepoolyouconnedmeintoputtinginforyou.”

“Whendidyoubecomesuchanasshole?OrdidIjustmissitalltheseyears?”She
whoopedandtookoffrunningwhenIstoodupfrommychair.Ishould’veleftshit
alonebutnowaywasIgoingtoallowhertotalklikethat,letalonetome.Ishould’ve
homeschooledherass.Wherethefuckdidshepickupthatlanguage?Surelynotatthat
overpricedprep-schoolshegoesto.

“Getbackdownhererightnow.”Istoodatthefootofthestairslookingup,waitingfor
hertoshowherface.Iheardadoorslamandthenthatinfernalnoisestartedupagain,
shakingthewholedamnhouse.

Ididn’tstoptothinkwhatIwasdoing,orwhatdoorsIwouldopenotherthanthe
obvious.InsteadIletmyinfamousanger,somethingI’veshieldedherfromallthese
years,ruleme.Iflewupthestairsandbangedonherdoortonoavail.

“Alexandra,openthisdoor.”Noanswer,fine.Iputmyshouldertotheframeand
pushedharduntilwoodsplinteredandIwasstandinginsideherroom.

Shescreamedandrushedacrosstotheothersideofthebedawayfromme.Idon’t
knowwhyIdidit;don’tknowwhatthehellIwasthinking.Butitseemedlikethepast
fewweeks,months,whatever,hadfinallycaughtupwithmeandI’dhadenough.

Isteppeduponherbedinsteadofplayinghergameofcatandmouseandsnatchedher
hand.ShestruggledasIpulledheracrossthebedandsatontheedgebeforepulling
herdownacrossmylap.

“NouncleSolwhat’reyoudoing?”Nowshecallsmethatshitwhenshehasn’tinweeks.
Ididn’tletthatstopmethough,orthesoundofshockinhervoice.

Ibroughtmyhanddownhardfivetimesbeforepushingheroffmylap.“Don’tyou
everspeaktomelikethatagain.Don’teverletmehearyouspeaklikethatagain
periodoryou’llgetworse.”

IalmostcavedatthelittlegirlhurtlookonherfaceandthebeginningoftearsIsaw
gatheredinhereyes.Soasnotto,Igotupandlefttheroom.Hersobsdamnnearbroke
myheartbutIkeptgoingdownthestairsandignoredher.

ItwashourslaterbeforeIstoppedhatingmyselfenoughtogocheckonher.Ihaveto
callsomeonetocomefixthedamndoor.OrmaybeI’lllethermoveintotheroomnext
tominethatshe’sbeenschemingforsinceshewasthirteen.Sheclaimsthisoneistoo
small,plustheotheronehasitsownbathroom.

“Babyareyouinhere?”Ilookedaroundtheroom,nosignofher.Ofcourse,I’dtold
hertogoswim.Iheadeddowntotheindoorpoolbutitdidn’tlooklikeanyonehad
beenthere.Iusedtheintercomtocallherbuttherewasnoanswer.

IhadaminiheartattackasIpickedupthephonetocallherdetail.Theydidn’tworkon
SaturdayssinceIranherdonherontheweekendssoIwasn’tsurprisedwhenthey

hadn’tseenorheardfromher.

“She’snotonthepremises,findher.”Iwaslookingatthegroundsonthemonitorso
knewshewasn’twalkinginthegardens,whichisanotheroneofherfavoritepastimes.

IwantedtoheadouttosearchforhermyselfbutthoughtitbestIstayhere.Iwasin
knotspacingbackandforthlikeacagedbeast.Ican’tbelieveshe’dputmethroughthis,
twodaysinarow.Ifshe’dgoneback…Shit,ofcourse.

Icalledherdetailandtoldthemwheretolookfirst.“I’llkillher.”Igrabbedmykeysbut
stoppedatthedoorjustintheoffchancethatIwaswrongandshehadn’tdefiedme
andgonebacktothatplace.“Whereareyoudoll?”Didsheknowthatthiswouldtear
meupinside?AmIbeingunreasonable?

WitheveryhourthatwentbywithoutawordIgrewmoreandmoretense.Iwouldcall
thecopsbuttheycouldn’tdoanythingmorethanmypeopleIwassureofit.I’dsent
everyoneoutafterherandhadstoppedcallinganhouragoacceptingthatthey’dletme
knowassoonastheyfoundher.StillIcouldn’tstandstillandpacedthehouseinwhatI
knewtobefearbutrefusedtogivein.

Isatwithmyheadinmyhandsandtriedtothinkwhatwasgoingonwithher.Didshe
leavebecauseIspankedher?Whataboutyesterdayandthedaysleadinguptoit?She’s
beenactingupalotlatelyandnotjustwiththedisappearingacts,witheverything.

ThemoreIpushedheraway,themoreextremeshebecameandIdon’tknowhowto
putanendtothemadness.IfIsendherawayitwouldkillme.IfshestaysI’llendup
fuckingherandIwon’tstop.ThisIknow.IfIevertakeherIwillneverlethergo.Not
inthislifetime.

Iwashalfafraidoflosingherandhalfterrifiedofwhatmylovemightdotoher.When
I’dlovedherasmyward,I’ddamnnearsmotheredher.Ashermanitwouldbeworse.

Thephonerang,jarringmeoutofmyreverie.“Yes?”

“We’vegother.”IreleasedthebreathIwasn’tawareI’dbeenholdingforthelastfew
hoursanddroppedbackinmyseatwithrelief.“Bringherhome.”Thereliefwashed
throughmeasIsatincontemplation.Icouldn’tthinkstraight.NotuntilIsawfor
myselfthatshewasokay.

IgotuptopaceagainuntilIheardthecarspullingupoutside.

IwasreadytoripheranewoneuntilIsawthelookofterrorinhereyes.OnreflexI
openedmyarmsandsheflewintothemasmyteamwalkedthroughthedoorbehind
her.Herfearignitedmyangerandtheyborethebruntofit.

“Whatthehellhappened?”Shewasshakinglikealeafinmyarms;somethingshe
hadn’tdonesinceshefirstcametomeandwasstillsufferingfromthelossofher
parents.

RalphindicatedthatIshouldwaituntilshewasoutoftheroom,onlysendingmyfear

upanotch.“Gotoyourroomsweetheart,I’llberightthere.”Ikissedherforeheadand
putherawayfromme,watchinguntilsheclimbedthestairstothesecondfloor.I
waitedforthesoundofherdooruntilIrememberedthatI’dbrokenit.

“Tellme.”Iturnedtothemwillingmyselftocalmdownandnotflyoffthehandle,
whichIhaveatendencytodowhereshe’sconcerned.“Wheredidyoufindher?”

“ShewasinWestHaven.”MyeyeswidenedathiswordsasItriedtomakesenseof
whathewassaying.“Whatthehellwasshedoingthere?”WestHavenwastheworse
partofthecity,knownfordrugsandotherdegeneratedealings.Icouldn’timaginethat
sheknewanyoneinthatpartoftown.

“Shesaidshewassupposedtomeetsomeonethere,butIdon’tknow.”

“Whowasshesupposedtomeet?”

“Shedidn’tsay,justafriend.”“Whichfriend?Don’tIpayyoutoknoweverythingthat’s
goingoninherlife?”IfeltlikeIwaslosingcontrolhere;firstthetripyesterdayand
nowthis.

TimewasIkneweverymoveshemade.Ineverhadtoguessandtherewasnoneedto
worrybecauseshewasawell-behavedobedientkidwiththeusualbumpsintheroad
butnothingtostressover.

“We’renotintheclassroomboss,wecan’tcontrolwhoshemeetsatschool.”Iglaredat
himuntilhetookastepbackandtheothersclearedtheirthroats.Ilookedupthestairs
towardsherroomasIthoughtofwhattodonext.Obviously,thespankingIgaveher
earlierhadn’tworked.Wasshetryingtoforcemyhand?Isthatit?

Whatthefuckdoesshewantfromme?Can’tsheseeI’mtryingtosaveher?Doesshe
haveanyideaofwhatI’ddotoherifImadehermine?Shethinksshe’ssmothered
nowshecan’tbegintoimaginewhatbeingmywomanwouldmeanforher.

Obviously,ifItookhershewouldn’tbeliketherest.Myheartwasalreadyhalfhers,
andshewasalreadychafingattheconstraintsshesufferedasmyward.Whatthefuck
doesshethinkwillhappenifIputmyringonherfinger?I’downher.

“Wasshealone?”IheldmybreathasIwaitedfortheanswer.Whatifshewasmixed
upwithsomeboy?ThethoughtstartedaburningpaininmygutandItoldmyselfit
wasbecauseIdidn’twanthergettingmixedupwiththewrongcrowdandgoingdown
thewrongpath.ButinthebackofmymindIwonderedifshewouldturntosomeone
elseifIdidn’tgiveherwhatshewanted.I’dkillthemboth.Fuck!

“Wegottherejustintime.ShewasstandingonthecornerIguesswaitingfor
whomevershewassupposedtomeetandsomeunsavorytypeswereclosinginjust
whenwegotthere.”Iwantedtoripthemapartwhoevertheywereandwasn’tfast
enoughtokillthegrowl.

“Didtheytouchher?”ThefurywasbarelyleashedandonlybecauseIneededtotake
careofherwhenweweredonehere.“No,butIthinktheyscaredheralittle.”Ibeat

backtheangerandputitasidefornow.“We’lltalkaboutthislater.Ithinkmaybefrom
nowonwe’llhaveherdetailworkingaroundtheclock.”Somethingwasgoingonand
untilIgottothebottomofitIwasn’ttakinganychances.

TheyleftandIstoodatthebottomofthestairsforagoodminutebeforeturningand
headingformyoffice.Ihadtothinkaboutmyapproach.IfIaccusedandchastised
she’djustwithdrawandIstillwouldn’tknowshit.Thishadgonefarenough.

Thislastdevelopmentcould’veendedbadly;shecould’vebeenhurt.Ican’thavethat.
Rebellingisonething;Ididabitofmyownatherage.Butendangeringherlifewas
somethingelseentirely.Thatwasnotallowed.Andwhoisthisfriendthatinvitedher
thereandleftherstandingonacorner?

IheadedupthestairsonceI’dcalmeddownenoughtoberational,orsomething,close
toit.Shewascurledupinthemiddleofherbedwithherarmswrappedaroundher
middle.ImovedintotheroomuntilIwasstandingwhereshecouldseemeandheld
myhandout.“Phone.”SheturnedbruisedeyesuptomeandIalmostcaved,butnot
thistime.

Shesatupandgotherpursefromwhereshe’dthrownitonthechairnexttothebed
andwithapoutpassedthephonetome.Igrabbedherlaptopfromthelittledeskbythe
windowandsheflewoffthebed.“Whatareyougoingtodo?Youcan’tgothroughmy
stuff.”Iheldherbackwithahandonherchest,whichwastheleastofwhatIwantedto
dotoher.

Afterthefearofnotknowingwhereshewashadwornoff,andfinallyhavingherback
safeandsound,seeingthatshewasokay,theangerroseagain.She’ddefiedmeandin
doingsohadputherlifeindanger.Ican’taffordtoletthisonegoornexttimeshemay
notbesolucky.

Igaveherascathinglookbeforeturningandleavingtheroom.Oncedownstairsagain
Igottowork.IttooknotimeformetogetintoheremailssinceIknewherpasswords.
ShewasforeverchangingthembutshehadnoideathatIhadsomethingonallher
electricaldevicesthatwouldallowmetogetin.

I’dnotviolatedherprivacythusfarandhadonlyuseditasaprecautionjustincase.
Myenemieswouldn’tthinktwiceaboutusinghertogettome,butshedidn’tknow
that.Somehow,Ididn’tthinkthat’swhatthiswasaboutbutjusttobesure.

TherewastheusualbackandforthinmessengerbetweenherandthefriendsIknew
ofandsomeIdidn’t.Mostofithadtodowithschoolandothertrivialteenagebullshit.
TheonethatcaughtmyattentionwasfromsomeonecallingthemselvestheWhite
Rabbit.Thatonestuckoutsincealltheothersprettymuchusedtheirrealnames
somewhereinthetitle.

Iopenedthefirstmessageanddidn’tseeanythingsuspicious.Justtheusualhoware
youetc.Butthemorethispersoninteractedwithher,themoreInoticedatrendinthe
conversation.Itallseemedbasedonthefactthatshewastoosheltered.

AtleastthatwastheunderlyingmessageIgot.Icould’vedisregardeditasjustmore
teenagerebellion,butsomethingaboutthewaythepersonspokestruckmeasmore
intrusivethanjustanotherteenagedgirl.

“Whoareyou?”Ireadthelastfiveorsomessagesthathadstartedjustbeforeher
eighteenthbirthdayandcontinueduntilthisafternoon.Itwasrightthereinblackand
white,thispersonaskinghertomeetinWestHaven.

IknewofawaytofindoutwhoitwasbutI’dhavetowaituntilIwentintotheofficeon
Monday.Iputitallawayfornowandtriedtomakesenseofjustwhatthehellthis
WhiteRabbitwasafter.

ItwasobviousthatAlexandracamefromwealth;Ikeptthegirlinthebestof
everything.Shegotaquarterofamilliondollarcarforherbirthdayforfucksake.But
soweremostofthekidsinthatschoolshewenttoandasfarasIknowtheywerethe
onlyonesshe’sknownforthepastfiveyears.

Fromthetonethispersonseemedtohavesomekindofresentmenttowardsher,
somethingmybright-eyedgirlwouldn’tcatchontosinceshewasstillaninnocent,
thoughlatelyyouwouldn’tthinkitwithherbehavior.

IcopiedeverythingfromthispersonbutmyrealinterestwasinherIPO.OnceIgotthe
locationI’dbeabletotellmoreandthenI’llmakemymove.ComeMondayI’llhave
removedthispersonfromherlifeonewayoranother.Noonewasallowedtoharm
her.

Theservantsweregoneforthedaysincetheweekendstheyworkedhalfdays.When
shewasyoungerI’dhadaliveinstaffbutthatchangedwhenshereachedsixteenor
there-about.Nowtheycamedailyandleftintheevenings.Imaybeshouldseeabout
changingitback,thatwayshecouldgobacktobehavingherselfandstoptormenting
meatnight.

Wasitthispersonencouraginghertoplaytheseductress?Nothinginthemessages
showedthatbutwhatabouttheirotherconversations?Ihavenowayofknowingwhat
wasbeingsaid;unlessIputabugonherphonewhichIbalkedatdoinginthepastbut
waslookinglikeaverygoodideanow.

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calledherdownfordinneranhourlater.Shecameintotheroomlookingsullenand

pissedthehelloff.Iignoredherandpulledherchairoutforhertosit.Itookmyseatat
theotherendofthetableandpreparedtoenjoytheroastedlambandpotatoesConnie
ourchefhadmadethatday.It’sSaturdaynight.Ishouldbegoingoutonthetownwith
mylatestflingifIhadone.

SinceherbirthdayI’dlostallinterestinleavingheralone.Iknowmomwasrightwhen
shesaidIwasoverreacting,butsinceseeingherlookingsogrownupthatnightI’ve
hadahardtimeleavingheralone.Jessicawasalreadyalmostoutthedoorbythen
sinceherconversationscomingontotheendhadallbeenaboutmyclosenesswithmy
ward.

NoneoftheothersbeforeherhadeverdaredquestionmydevotiontoAlexandra;
they’dallunderstoodthatshecamefirst.SoifIhadtoleaveinthemiddleofadateno
matterwherewewere,theyknewbetterthantoputupafuss.

Jessicahadn’tbeenasunderstanding.She’dchafedateveryturn,goingsofarastoput
herfootdownandinsistthatIputherneedsfirstafterIrefusedtodiscussmycloseness
withAlexandra.ThatwasthelasttimeIsawher.

NowIwaslosingmylittlegirltolifeandrealizedIwasn’tready.Ilookedathernow
andallthelovewelledupinsideme.Buthadthatlovechanged?Alittleannoyingvoice
asked.

Ofcoursenot,she’sachildforfucksake.It’stheoneargumentIkeptusingtodefeat
thisnewhungerinmeforher.AslongasIkeepremindingmyselfthatshewastoo
young,tooinnocentforamanlikeme,shewassafe.

Thetugofwarwasinfullswingagain.Isatatthetableacrossfromherwillingmyself
toputastoptothewholemessonceandforall.IknewIwasfallinginlovewithher,if
Iwasn’talreadycompletelythere.ButeachtimeIthoughtofgivingin,Iremembered
thatshewasmyfriend’schild.Thechildhe’daskedmetoprotect.Icouldnever…

Justthenshepickedupherheadandstaredrightatme.Sheblushedwhenshecaught
mewatchingherbutinsteadoflookingawayshestaredatmeheadon.Therewasa
fuckofalotbeingsaidinthatonelookandmydickwasreadingeverywordloudand
clear.

“Whyareyoutreatingmelikeachild?Mostofmyfriendsareallowedtogoplaces
aloneyouknow.”

“Who’sWhiteRabbit?”Sherolledhereyesandlookeddownatherplate.“Justa
friend.”

“Whichfriend?Ineverheardofthispersonbefore;whoisit?”

“Geezgetagrip,she’sjustsomeoneIknowokay.Whyareyouactinglikethere’s
somethingwrong?”

Itookasipofwineandstudiedher.Eventhathadchanged.AfewshortmonthsagoI
would’vegotaclearanswer.“Iforbidyoutotalktothispersonoragreetomeetthem
anywhereagain.Doyouhaveanyideathedangeryouputyourselfintoday?”That
seemedtotakethewindoutofhersailsabitandshedeflatedashershouldersshookin
rememberedfear.

“You’renotallowedtogotothatplaceagainandAlexandra,ifyougoanywhere
withoutyourdetailagainIwillkeepmypromisetolockyouinyourroomandlosethe
key.Thisshitendstoday.IhopeyougotitoutofyoursystembecauseIrefusetoput
upwithanymoreofyourbullshit.”

“Iwanttogotograndma’s.”Shethrewherforkdownandrefusedtolookatme.She’d
calledmomgrandmafromthebeginningandneitherofushadforbiddenher.Itgave
heranaddedsenseofsecuritysowhynot?

Herpaternalgrandparentswerepartofherlifeaswellbuttheyweren’texactlythe
warmandcuddlytype,soshegotthatfrommyparentsandsiblings.Everyoneloved
andspoiledherlittleassfromdayone.Maybethat’swhyIamdealingwithhershit
now.Toodamnspoilt!

“Shecan’tsaveyouthistimeandtheanswerisno.”Shestartedtogetupfromher
chair.“SitdownAlexandraandstopactinglikeathreeyearoldbrat;enough.”She
foldedherarmsandlookeddown.IfshecriedIknewIwouldgiveher-herway.Icould
neverstandhertears.ThankfullyshekeptthemcontainedbutIcouldn’tseemtolet
themattergo.

That’sanotherproblem.Latelyit’sasthoughIlookedforwardtoarguingwithher,like
itwassomekindofrelease.Duringtheweekwhilewewerebothbusy,shewithschool
andmewithwork,itwaseasy.Butoncetheweekendrolledaroundandwewerestuck
heretogetheralone,wewereliketwoprizefighterscirclingeachother,andthesedays
webothwentforblood.

“AsIwassaying,youarenotallowedtogotothatplaceagain,notnownotever.Ifyou

sneakoutofthishouseyoucanforgetthatfancycollegeyougotinto.I’llputyouinthe
localuniversityandhereyou’llstay.It’sonlyaboutanhourandahalfawaysoyou’ll
gobackandfortheachday.”Iknewthatwouldgether.Herheadcameupandiflooks
couldkillI’dbeagoner.Isatbackandwaitedforthetirade.

“Ihateyou,whyareyouruiningmylife?”ThistimewhenshegotupIdidn’tstopher.
Ihatehearingthosewordsfromher.Shecouldhavenoideaofhowdeeptheycut,how
muchtheyhurt.MomassuredmewhenIbroughtituptoheroncebeforethatI’ddone
thesameatimeortwo,andsohadmybrothersandsisters.Ican’timagine.

Isattherelongaftersheleftfeelinglikeamonster.Idon’tknowwhatthehellhas
gottenintome.Ican’tseemtoseparatethechildfromthisnewbeingthatwassoself-
assuredandtoofuckinggrownformyliking.YouhavetolethergrowupSolomon.
She’snotyourlittledollanymoreremember?

Thiswastrue,evenhercurlsweregone.She’dstraightenedthemthelasttimemom
tookhertothesalon,andthat’snowthenewstyleofchoice.Ididn’tlikeititmadeher
looklikeanadult.Everythingwaschangingtoofast;Iwasn’tready.Iwantedmylittle
girlbackandyet…don’tyoufuckingthinkitSolomon.

Iclosedmyeyesandprayedforpeace.Thepeaceandserenitythathadoncegraced
thesewallswerelonggone.FuckingplacefeelslikeabattlefieldthesedaysandI’m
afraidunlesssomethinggivessoon,we’regonnaenduphurtingeachother.

Thewordsaregettingharsherandmyangerseemstooeasilyignitedthesedays.I
knewwhatwasbehindthatofcourse,butwasn’tquitereadytofaceityet.Somewhere
inthebackofmymindIthinkIknewthatIhadalreadymademychoice.Whata
clusterfuckthatwouldbe.Idon’tthinkevenmomcouldforgivemeifItookmyward
tomybed.

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hehousewasquietasIdidmynightlywalkthroughmakingsureeverythingwas

closeduptightforthenight.Isetthealarmandheadeduptobed,tiredbothinbody
andmind.Icouldn’tresistlookinginonherasIpassedherroom.She’dpushedthe
doorshutasbestshecouldbutthedamnthingwashangingoffthehinges.

Ieaseditopenslightlytryingmybestnottomakeanynoise.Shewascurledupinbed
withherarmsaroundoneofherstuffedtoys.Forawhilethereshewasobsessedwith
thethingsbutI’dthoughtshe’dlongoutgrownthem.She’ssofondoftellingmehow
grownupsheisIdidn’tthinkshestillsleptwiththem.

Istoodoverherlookingdownatherinthemoonlight.Suchabeautifulgirl!Ireached
outandbrushedthehairbackfromhertemple.“What’stobecomeofusbabydoll?”I
turnedandleftabruptlynotwantingtolooktoocloselyatthatquestion.

Iputthedaybehindmeandclosedmyeyesforsomemuchneededrest.Latelymy
nightshavebeentroubled,mostlybecauseofher.It’sonlyintheprivacyofmymind
thatIcouldacceptthetruthofwhatwasbotheringme.I’mabouttoloseher.She’s
right,she’sanadultnowintheeyesofthelaw.

Inanotherfewyearsshe’dreceiveherinheritanceandwouldhavenomoreneedof
me.Thethoughtmakesmesicktomygut.ButIcan’tkeepher;Ihavetolethergo.IfI
keepherwhatkindoflifewouldshehave?

Wouldn’tsheregretnotgoingoutthereandseeingtheworldforherselfatsomepoint
downtheline?“Fuck!”Iturnedoveronmysideandtriedtoclearmymind,butthere
wasnogettingawayfromit.

Therewasnousedenyingthatsomethinghadchangedbetweenusafterthenightof
theparty.Iwasjusttoostubborntoclaimit.IswearI’dneverlookedatherwith
anythingbutparentaladorationbeforethen.

Shewasthelightofmylifeyes,butonlyinsomuchasshewasthebelovedchildofmy
bestfriend.OnewhohadbroughtmegreatjoywheninthebeginningI’dbeenscared

shitlessthatIwouldfuckup.

I’dbeensoafraidofgettingitwrongthatI’dkeptherclosetomealways.She’dbeen
afraidthatfirstyear.Sometimesshe’dwakescreaminginthenightforherdad.Then
lateritwasmeshewasafraidoflosing.I’dspentthosenightssittingupwithherinmy
armsuntilshefellasleepagain.

Shewaslikemyshadowbackthen.WheneverIwashomeshewaswithmeinthe
sameroom.She’ddoherhomeworkwhileIgotsomeworkdoneintheevenings,then
we’dhavedinnertogether.Shewassuchalittlethingthen,soconsciousofherplightin
life.

I’dgoneoutofmywaytobebothmomanddad,thoughmyownmomhadpitchedin
fromthebeginningandhandledthemoresensitivestuff.

Isthatwhenithappened?Isthatwhenshe’dstolenmyheart?OfcourseIlovedher
then,I’dlovedhersincethedayshewasborn;myperfectlittledoll.Buthavingher
herewithme,we’dgrownsoclose,wasthisinevitable?OramIjustasickfuck?NoI
won’tacceptthat.It’snotlikeI’dplannedthisshit,itjusthappened.Ihadnocontrol
overanyofit.

Itwouldn’tbesobadifshedidn’twantmetoo.Therewasnopointindenyingitto
myselfevenifIwasstilltryingtoconvinceherotherwise.ThetruthisIwasmore
afraidofherwantingmethanmywantingher.MylustIcouldcontrol,maybe.But
whatthefuckwasIsupposedtodowithhers?

ShouldIwaitandseeifsheoutgrowsit?HowcanIwhenIwantherwitheveryfucking
breathItake?HowcanIdosomethingthatcouldtearusapart,takeheroutofmylife
forgood?IhadnodoubtthatifIkeptrefusinghershe’dgoaway,andherpride,the
prideI’dinstilledinher,wouldkeepherfromcomingback.Butthealternativecould
destroyusboth.Fuckinghell!

Iheardasoundcomingfromthefarendofthehallwhereherroomwas.Isatupand
listenedwithmybreathheld.Maybeshewasgoingtothebathroomorheading
downstairsforsomewater.Itoldmyselfthatbuttherisingpanicinmychestwaslikea
pre-warning.Somethingthatonlyhappenswhenitcomestoher.Likeasixthsense
that’sonlybeengettingsharperastimegoby.Ilistenedcloselyandthesoundcame
again.

Ihitthefloorrunningwithmyheartinmylungs.“Alexandra?”Islammedthedoor
openandlookedaroundforthedanger.TherewasnooneintheroomasImoved
towardsthebed.Ittookmeasecondtorealizeshe’dbeenscreaminginhersleep.In
themoonlightIcouldclearlyseethetearsrunningdownhercheeks.Sheclutchedthe
teddybearfordearlifeasshewhimpered.

“Alexandra?Babywakeup.”Isatonthesideofherbedandshookherawake.She
rolledintomysideandheldherarmsuptomelikeshe’ddoneasachild.Ididn’tthink,
didn’tseethedangerasIsliddownthebednexttoherandtookherinmyarms.
“Solomon?”Hervoicewaschokedwithtearsandfear.

“It’sokayI’mherenow,you’resafe.”Sheclungtomeandbrokedowningut
wrenchingsobsthattoreatmyheart.IonlymeanttooffercomfortwhenIkissedher
foreheadandpulledhertighteragainstme.MyeyesflewopenatonceandIstartedto
pullaway,butcouldn’t.

Sosoftsosweet!Herscenttickledmynoseasshepressedherselfharderagainstme,
cryingmynamepiteously.“Shh,I’mherelove.Won’tyoutellmeaboutitsweetheart?”
Sheturnedthosewideinnocenteyesuptome,andmyheartcrackedopenjustalittle
widerforher.

Idon’trememberwhomadethefirstmove.IfIloweredmyheadorsheraisedhers.
Myeyeswerefocusedonherpalepinkcupidbowlips.

Thefirstbrushofmylipsacrossherswasinnocentenough.ButbythethirdtimeI
touchedhersoftlipsherbreastswerecrushedagainstmychestandmytonguewas
movinginsidehermouth.

Hertastewassweet,likenectar,andshekissedsoinnocentlyitwashardtopullaway.
Insteadofbeingputoffbyherobviouslackofknowhow,Ifoundherineptkisses
appealing.ThethoughtthatIcouldbeherteachermademycockevenharder.

IheldherascloseaspossibletomeasIletherfeedonmytongue.Myhandsroamed
overherbackuntilIwascuppingherasscheekinmypalm,pullingherintomystiff
cock.

Ishouldstopthis,itwaswrongonsomanylevels;butwhenIfinallycametomy
senses,shewouldn’treleaseme.Ipulledback,takingmytonguefromhermouth,only
tofeelhersteasegently,innocentlyatmine.Sheopenedherlegsslightly,makingroom
formynowrockhardlength,crushedthewarmheatofherpussyagainstmyalready
leakingcock,andIwaslost.

“Shit.”Iturnedwithherinmyarms,puttingherbeneathmenow,mycockgrinding
intothesoftnessbetweenherthighs.Herlegsopenedwidertoacceptme.Isawmyself
slidingintoher;sawourbodiesentwinedasIpoundedintoher.Releasingallthepent
uplustthathasbeenridingmeforweeksnow.Andstillthatlittlevoicequestionedif
thiswastherightthingforher.

Therewasstilltime.Icouldstillendthisbeforeitwastoolate,beforeIwenttoofar.I
hadallintentionsongettingupandleavingherbedbutshemadethesweetestsound
andmovedagainstme,makingmycockweepmore.Ilookeddownatherfaceandsaw
theneed,thelonging,andthefierylustburninginhereyes.

Hereyesseemedtopleadwithmenottoleaveher.Irestedmyforeheadagainsthers
andtriedtocalmmyerraticbreathingandgathermythoughts,whichweresuddenly
scattered.Shetookmymomentofweaknessandmadeherplay.Herlittlehandcame
downbetweenusandcoveredmycockshyly.Ilookedatherinsurpriseandthe
uncertaintyinhergaze,asifshewasafraidofrejection,sealedmyfate.

MybodyshookandIburiedmyfaceinherneckasIfoughtforcontrol.Ipressedinto

herhanduntilmycockgrew,andIached.ThebattleragedoninsideuntilIfeltIwould
gomad.Shesqueezedandreleasedme,bringingherhanduptomyfacetopullmylips
backdowntohers.

“Besure.”Ibarelygotthewordsoutbeforeshewaspushinghertongueintomymouth
andrubbingherpussyagainstmewantonly.Hermovementswerewildandunsureas
shegrabbedatme;shewasinfullheat.Whatthefuck?

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felttheheatofherthighbeneathmyhandasIpushedthesleepshirtshewore

higher,untilthepalesilkofherunderwearshowedbetweenherthighs.Itwasshewho
tookmyhandandledittoherplumppussymound.IsighedintohermouthasIfelt
thelastbitoffightIhadinmeleave.

Shemighthaveledmethere,butitwasIwhopushedmyfingersbeneaththesilkcloth
tofeelthesoftsilkinessofthecurlsthatcoveredhervirgincunt.Shebuckedand
movedbeneathmyhandandIhadn’tevenstartedyet.Herpussy’sscenthitmehardin
thegutandmycockheadleakedfaster.

Thatwasthepointwherecommonsenseanddecencydepartedandmadnesscreptin.I
torethescrapofclothfromherandsettledfirmlybetweenherthighs.“Lookatme.”
Hereyesstillwetwithtearsopenedonmine.“Areyousureyouwantthis?”Iknew
deepdowninmygutofcourse,thatallherteasingandactingoutwouldleadtothis.I’d
knownsincethatwhispered‘why’thatthisdaywouldcome,butitwasmydutyasher
guardiantoprotectherevenfrommyself.

Tellmetogoawaybabydoll.Saveyourself,saveme.Ididn’tsaythewordsoutloud,
justlookeddownather,leavingthechoiceinherhands.Heranswerwastopullmy
headdowntoherswithonehandassheusedtheothertotugatmypajamabottoms,
whichwasallI’dworntobed.

Mycocksprangfree.Hot,hard,throbbing,andherlittlehandwrappedarounditforthe
firsttime.AjoltofsomethingsharpandsweetwentthroughmeathertouchandI
couldn’tresiststrokingintoherhand,leavingtheessenceofprecuminherpalm.

Assheplayedwithmeshyly,Iletmyfingerssiftthroughhercurls,downpasther
swollenclit,untilIfoundhertightopening.Istoppedwithmyfingerspoisedtoplunge
intoher,oneburningquestiononmymind.“Tellmeyou’repure.”Ilookedintoher
eyesforthetruth.SelfishlyIwantedtobeherfirst.That’sadamnlie,Iknewverywell
thatifIfuckedhernow,notonlywouldIwanttobeherfirst,butheronlylover.

Shenoddedshylyandhidherfaceagainstmyshoulder,andIfeltmyheartbeatwildly
inmychest.Islidmyfingersintoherwetheat.Revelinginthefeelingoffinallybeing
thisclose.Shewastightaroundmyfingers,herfleshclingingtothedigitslikeasucking
mouth.

IpushedthemindeepuntilImetthebarrierofherinnocence.Nowmychestswelled
withpride,love,andlust.Igrowledmyapprovalandbarelyrestrainedmyselffrom
fuckingintohertoosoon.

“Mine.”InudgedhercheekwithmychinuntilIfoundherlips.

IopenedherwiderwithmyfingersasIsuckledhertongue,beforereleasingherlips
andmakingmywaydownhersmallframetoherchest.ItookinthebeautyofherasI
lickedandsuckedonherflesh.Perfection!

“Openformebaby.I’mgoingtofuckyouwithmyfingersfirsttogetyoureadytotake
me.”Shedidn’tanswer,didn’tseemtocareaslongasIkeptmakingherpussyfeel
good.

Iplayedherclitwithmythumbwhilesuckinganippledeepintomymouth.Shewas
alreadywetandsoftaroundthefingersIslidinandoutofherpussy,butIwantedher
drenched.Sheclenchedherlegstightaroundmyhand,trappingmypalmagainsther
heat.“That’sit,fuckmyhand.”

“Solomon.”Hercutewhinemademegrinasherfacewentupinflamesandshetried
hidingitfromme.“I’mgoingtogiveyoumymouthnow.Doyouwanttoridemy
tongue?”Ididn’twaitforananswer,justsliddownherbodyuntilIlaidbetweenher
widespreadthighs.

Ipulledmyfingersoutofherpussyandlickedthemcleanwhilelookingdownintoher
lustfilledeyes.Mycockwasscreamingatmetofuck,butIknewI’dhurtherlittle
pussyifIdidn’tprepareherfirst.

Ispreadherpinkwellopenwithmyfingersbeforegivinghermytongue.Thisgrowl
camefromthepitofmygutandreverberatedthroughher.IfeltitinthehandIhad
pressedagainstherflattummytoholdherinplaceforthetongueIwasnowfuckingin
andoutofher.Icouldfeelmyselfslippingdeeperunderherspell.Hertasterushed
throughmeandI’dfoundmynewdrugofchoice.

Iateherpussyandthumbedherclitwiththehandonherstomach,whileholdingher
tinyassinmyotherhandlikeanoffering.Sheheldherselfstiffatfirstuntilher
passionatenaturefoughtagainsthershynessandwon.Herhandsclaspedmyheadto
herholdingmeinplaceasIsunkmytongueasfarintoherasitwouldgo.

Hertastewashypnotic,andIhadthefleetingthoughtthatIcouldeathereverydayfor
alifetimeandneverbefilled.Shethrashedaroundonmytongue,hermewlingsounds
likeakittenmusictomyears.Shearchedherbackdeepandplantedherfeetinthebed
asshepulledmyheadharderagainstherpussyuntilmyteethscrapedgentlyalongher
clit.

HerassfitperfectlyinmyhandasIheldherinplace,lickingdeepbeforepullingout
andtakingherclitbetweenmylips.Herpassionateresponsefilledmyheadwithallthe
thingsIwantedtodotoher.Diabolicalthings,downrightdirtyshitthatifanyoneelse
eventhoughtofdoingtoherI’dfuckingendthemwentthroughmyheadwiththetwo
ofusstarringineveryrole.

IknewIcouldn’tgotherewithherthough,notyet,notwithmyinnocentgirl.Halfthat
shitwouldscarehertodeath.First,I’llteachherthemanywaystopleasehermanand
thenmaybeIcanintroducehertosomeofthemorelasciviousthingsInowhad
runningthroughmyhead.

Alifetime.That’showlongI’llneedtosatisfythishungershe’dawakenedinme.She
tuggedatmetobringmeupherbody.Shewasreadytobefilled;shewantedcock.I
strokedminetoeasetheacheasIsuckedherpussy,bringingherclosertoorgasm.

IneededhertocumbeforeIbreachedher.IknewitwasgoingtobeatightfitonceI
gotmyfatcockinsideherandthethoughtofhurtinghermademebreakoutina
sweat.“Waitbaby,notyet.”ShemadeasoundoffrustrationasIteasedherwithmy
fingersandtongue.Iwaslearningherbody,seeinghowfarIhadtogobeforeshewent
off.

Shewashypersensitivenow,herbodywrithinginheatasshetensedtocum.Idrank
herpussyjuiceasfastasshereleasedit.Herhipsmovedwildlybeneathmymouth,
andthenoisesshemadetoldmeshewasmorethanreadytofuck.

IhadonelastmomentofdoubtasIclimbedupherbodyandsettledbetweenher
thighswithmycockinhand.“Lookatme.”Hereyeswerehalfslits,afireburningin
themthatIwassurewasreflectedinmine.“Thismighthurtalittle,I’llgoasslowasI
can.”Itookherlipswhenahintoffearcloudedhereyes.Thekisscalmedherfears.

Irubbedthefatleakingheadofmycockupanddownherslitbeforedippingitinside
herandpullingback,wideningheralittlemoretotakeme.EachtimeIpulledoutI
smackedherpussywithmycock,rightonherclit,beforedippingbackintoheragain.

HerpussywashotandinvitingandIgrittedmyteethagainsttheurgetofuckintoher
toohardtoofast.Eachshortstabintohertootightpussymouthwaslikewalkinginto
fire.Icouldn’ttakeanymore,besidesnothingwasgoingtoprepareherformy
monster.ForthefirsttimeinmylifeIwishedIhadasmallerdick.I’mgoingtohurt
mybabyandit’sfuckingwithmyhead.

“I’msorrybabydoll.”IwrappedmyarmsaroundherasIpiercedherandfelther
maidenheadgivebeneaththepowerfulpressureofmythrust.Shecriedoutand
pushedagainstmebeatingagainstmyshoulders.Icalmedherwithsoftwordsof
comfortuntilherheartsettleddownagain.

“Shh,it’sovernow.”Iwhisperedwordsofpraiseinbetweenkissinghersoftlipsuntil
sherelaxedandIslippeddeeperintoherwetvalley.Herpussyclosedaroundmeand
lockedmein.

Mycockhadneverfeltanythinglikeherandhe’dfeltplenty.NothingI’dever
experiencedpreparedmeforthis.I’veheardoftheperfectmate.Thatonemanand
womanthatwasmadedistinctlyforeachother.UntilthismomentIneverbelievedin
it.

Rawemotionshotfrommycockthatwasburieddeepinherbellystraighttomyheart.
Iheldherassinmyhandsnow,spreadingherlegswider,preparinghertoacceptallof
me.Ihadn’texpectedthis.HowcouldIknowthatshehadthisbetweenherthighs?
WhatifI’dlethergo?Hadnevertouchedher?Iwouldneverhaveknown…Itdidn’t
bearthinkingof.

MyusuallysmoothcalminthebedroomescapedmeasIlookeddownatherin
wonder.“Yourpussyfeelsfuckingamazing.Wherethefuckdidyougetsuchagolden
pussy?”Thequestioncameoutmorelikeanaccusation.Likeshe’ddeliberatelydone
somethingtohercunttotrapme,whichmadenodamnsense,buttheshithadthrown
meforaloop.

Shedidn’tanswerofcourse,justlookedupatmewithherlustfilledeyes,hertitslike
beaconsthatofcourseIcouldn’tresist.

IloweredmyheadandsuckedanippleintomymouthasIstartedtoslideoutslowlyso
Icoulddrivebackintoheragain.Iwantedtofeelthatshitagain,wantedittogoon
forever.

“Don’tmoveSolomonithurts.”Shit,herbodywasshakinglikealeafbeneathme.I
wassogoneinmyheadIhadn’tevennoticedthatthepainofmycocktearingthrough
hervirginityhadsentherbodyintoshock.

I’veneverbeenaselfishlover.I’vealwayspridedmyselfonthat.Iwasusuallyin
controlwheneverIplayedmattresstango.Icouldfuckandmovethefuckonno
problem.AsfarasIknewonepussywasthesameastheother.Justareceptaclefora
nicehardpoundingwhentheneedstruck.

EverythingIthoughtIknewwentouttheproverbialwindowwithher.Pussyhad
alwaysjustbeensomethingtodolikeanyothersport.Ihadnolastingaffiliationswith
anyofthepussiesI’dfuckedinthepast.Herswasmyfuckingkryptonite.Iknewit
downtomytoes.

Iwipedawaytheescapingtearsfromhereyesandheldherclosetomyheart.“Iwon’t
moveuntilyouwantmeto,promise.”Igrittedmyteethandheldstilluntilherbody
stoppedfightingme.

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nceIfeltthetensionleavehercompletely,Iusedmythumbtocaressherclitand

reawakenherarousal.Shestartedmakingthosefuckmenoisesagainandmyblood
heatedevenasmycockleakedinsideher.Idon’tthinkIwouldeverbeabletofuck
againwithouthearingthosesoundsinmybed.

Prettysoonsheforgotthepaininherpussyandspreadherlegswider,acceptingme,
offeringherselfuptome.“CanImovenowbaby?”Pleasesayyes,don’tmakeme
breakmyword.TheneedtodriveintohernowthatI’dgotthisfarwasoverwhelming.

AtherslightnodIpulledthethreeorsoinchesIhadinherbackbeforedrivingintoher
again.Ihadtouseshortjabs,afraidtogivehermywholelengthatoncelestIhurther
morethanIalreadyhad.Herbodygave,likesomethingdeepinsideunfurlingandI
slippedintoherwithsurprise.Noonehadeverbeenabletotakemelikethisbefore.

How…“Fuck!”Igrabbedherheadbetweenmyhandsandkissedherhard,bruisingher
lipsagainstmyteeth.Shesuckedonmytonguelikeababybirdwithhisfirstmeal
whileIspatpre-cumdeepinsideher,makingthewayeasierformycock.

IusedthecopiousamountsofprecumthatI’dleakedintoherandherownjuicesas
lubricationandslidoutbeforeeasingbackin.Ikeptupthatniceandeasytempoeven
thoughIwantedtofuckherharderthanI’veeverfuckedanyonebefore.

InsteadofprotectingherthewayIdowitheverythingelse,here,inbed,Iwantedto
totallydestroyherpussy.Itwasalmostacompulsion,onethatIhadnocontrolover.
Everythingabouthersexscreamedformetoown,conquer;dominate.

IfinallygaveinandthenexttimeIpulledoutofherslammedmycockbackintoher
hard.“Fuckme.I’msodeepinyou.Youfeelsofuckinggood.”Shehadmebabbling
likeanuntriedboywithhisfirstwoman.

Itwasthatlookofinnocenceonherface.Shelookedmoreinnocentnowthanshedoes
whenshe’swalkingaroundthehousetorturingmyass.Thatlook,mademewanttodo
thingstoher.Verybadfuckingthings.

Herbodyfitasthoughitwasmadeformine.LikethattunnelIfounddeepinsideher
hadbeencreatedformycockandmineonly.Theperfectfit.AsIfuckedintoher

Iknewtherewasnogoingbackforme.Nootherwomanintheworldwilleverbeable
tosatisfymeafterthis.

Shedidn’tspeak.Onlythosesexysoundsescapedherasshemovedbeneathme,taking
melikeIhadn’tjustturnedherpussyintoanopenwound.Itriedtocompensatefor
thefactthatI’dhurther,butmycontrolwasshot.

HerpussyclenchedaroundmeandhertightwallsmassagedmycockasInibbledat
herlips,feedinghermytonguebeforetakinghersintomymouthagain,allthewhile
easinggentlyinandoutofheruntilIfinallyhittheverybottomofher.

Somethingintheverydepthsofhersqueezedmycockheadjustbeforeshescreamed,
andIpulledoutofhercervix.Fuck,toodeep.“Shh,shh,shh,Iwon’tgothereagain.”
Nottonightanyway.ButsureasfuckIwanttofeelthatagain.Willthesurprisesnever
end?

Ifuckedhermoregentlyuntilthepaineasedandshestartedtomoveagain.Wilder
now,morefrantic.Herhipsstrainedagainstmine.Shewantedmetofuckdeep,but
wheneverIdoithurtsher.Theprotectorinmefoughtit,evenastheloversaidfuck
yeah.

“Babyslowdown;youhavetohelpmeouthere.”Shepulledatmewithherarmsand
legstryingtoforcetheissueandforasplitsecondIwonderedifshewereturnedonby
thepain.IfoundtheanswerwhenItestedmytheoryandwenthardanddeeponmy
nextstroke.Un-fucking-believable.

Shethrewherheadbackandscreechedasherpussyfloodedmycock.Herbody
thrashedandshefoughtforbreathevenasshekeptfuckingme;scaredthefuckoutta
me.

“Easy!”Icaughtherhipsinmyhandsandtriedtocalmshitdown,butshewasn’t
havingit.

Insteadshewrappedherarmsandlegsaroundme,dughernailsintomybackandher
teethintomyneck,andfuckedherselfonmycock.

Shedrewbloodwithhernailsandteeth,asshefoughttomovehertightpussyharder
onmycock.Shecriedoutinfrustrationwhenthegloveliketightnessofherpussy
wouldn’tallowhertomove.Shewaspinnedtothebedbymycock.

“Okaybabydoll,letme.”WithherheadheldbackwithonehandIwrappedtheother
aroundherneckandsqueezed.HerpussyreactedjustthewayIknewitwould,
contractingaroundmymeatuntilIwasabletoglidemoreeasilyintoher.

Ifuckedintohermorefreelynow,hittingbottomwitheachstroke,wideningherpussy
forfutureuse.AlreadyIwasplanningthenextfuckinmyhead.That’showperfectshe
felt,howfargoneIwas.Wefedoneachother’slipshungrily,bothofuslostinaworld

ofemotion.

Thetightgripofherpussyaroundmycock,thetabooexcitementofbeinginsideher,
wasalltoomuchandIalmostshotoffinsidehertoosoon.“Whythefuckdoyoufeelso
good?”Imadethemistakeoflookingintothosebeautifulorbsandtheimpacthitme
likeatonofbricks.ThelongerIstaredintohereyesthemoreIfeltmyselffalling.

Therewasmoregoingonherethanafuck.Itwasasifshewassuckingmysoul
throughmydick.Everythingthatwasinmewaslaidbareinthatmoment.I’dneverin
mylifefeltthisemotionallyconnectedwithawoman.

Shewasanatural,herbodyherscent,thewayshemovedunderme,heldme
enthralled.IthinkIalwaysknewshewoulddothistome.KnewthatifIevertouched
heritwouldn’ttakemuchfortheloveIalreadyborehertobecomesomethingmore.
Become…this.

I’dfoughtitaslongasIcould,myconsciencewasclear.Itookmylifeinmyhandsand
heldherhipsstillwhilelookingdownintoherglazedeyes.“Whydidyoustop?”You’ve
gottobeshittingme.Myheartcan’ttakemuchmoreofthisperfection,butIhad
somethingtosayandsheneededtohearitbeforewewentanyfarther,beforeI
emptiedmyseedintoherunprotectedwomb.

“YoubelongtomenowAlexandra;everybeautifulinchofyou.Iwilldowithyou,asI
pleasenoargument.Fromthisdayonyou’reminecompletelyinandoutofbed.Iown
you,allofyou.Ihopethat’swhatyouwanted,becauseit’stoolatetoturnbacknow.”I
thoughtforsurethosewordswouldscareher,butIshould’veknownbetter.

“I’vealwaysbeenyoursSolomon,you’retheonewhowouldn’taccept.”Shepulledme
backtoherandourtonguesdueledeachotherasIfuckedintoherniceandslow.My
innocentbabywastakingmycockallthewayinsideher.Shewasafuckingmarvel.

“Iloveyou.”Shesaidthewordsintomymoutharoundmytongue.Ican’tputinto
wordsthefeelingsthatenvelopedmethen.Itfeltlikemyheartopenedjustalittle
moreandsheinvadedtheonlyplaceshehadn’tyetbeen.IwasallhersnowandI
fuckingknewit.“Iknow.”

Herlove,whichIoncefearedwouldbeaburden,mademefeellighteraswewhispered
tooneanother.Itoldherhowperfectshewas,notjusthersex.Imadepromises,
somethingelseIhaveneverdone,neverthoughtIwouldeverdo.Shedrewitalloutof
me.

“I’mgoingtodoyouhardnow,I’lltrymybestnottohurtyou.”Shenoddedsheepishly
andbracedherselfasIliftedherassinmyhandsoncemore,spreadherlegsopenand
fuckedmycockindeep.

Ifuckedherharder,finallylettinggoofthecontrolI’dheldonaleashuntilnow.My
teethmarkedherneck,herchest,anywhereIcouldreach,untilIsuckedherpearled
nipplehardintomymouthandpresseddownonherclitwithmythumb.

HerpussysuckedhardatmycockasherhipsspedupandIfeltmynutsdrawuptomy
bodyandmycockjerkandspitinsideher.“Fuck,cumformebaby;Ineedyouto
cum.”

“Solomon…”Sheclutchedatme,hereyeswidenedinfearasshelookedupatthe
madmanwhowasfuckingherintothebedsoharditwasabouttobreak.“I’mhere
baby.I’mhere,justcum.”Myguthurtfromtryingtoholdbackmyrelease.Iwanted
ourfirsttimetobetogether.Wantedtoflyamongthestarswithherwrappedinmy
arms.

“What’shappeningSolomon?Helpme.”Shestrainedagainstme,herbodyliftingoff
themattressbeforeIslammedintoheronelasttimeandpinnedherbeneathme.She
screamedinmyearasherpussyjuicedandmycockletgo.

IlostsightforasplitsecondasIfeltnatureleavemeandenterherreceptivebody.I
wasn’tsure,butIhadaprettygoodideawhatjusthappened.Ihadthefleetingthought
thatshewastooyoung,butnoteventhatcouldtakeawayfromtheimmenseprideI
feltatthethoughtthatIhadjustbredher.

SOLOMON

henIfinallycamebackdownandmyvisionhadcleared,shewasoutcoldbeneath

me.“Alexandra!”IwasafraidthatIhadgonetoofar,fuckedhertoohard.JustwhenI
neededmyinfamouscontrolmostithaddesertedme.Iberatedmyselfforagood
minutebeforeafingeronherpulseconfirmedshewasstillbreathing.She’donly
fainted.

IstayedburiedinsideherasIsoothedherwithsoftkissesandgentletouchesin
betweenwhispersofpraise.“Comeonbabyopenthosebeautifuleyesforme.”I
loweredmyheadandlistenedtoherheartbeatandmybreathstopped.

WhatthefuckhadIdone?Ipulledoutofherbodyandslappedherfacegentlyacouple
times,untilshemoanedandhereyesstartedtoflutteropen.Istartedtobreatheagain
barely.

Hereyesopenedwithasmile.“Wow,thatwasamazing.Doitagain.”Fuckinggirl,I
thoughtI’dkilledher.ShepulledatmebutIevadedherarmsandplacedmyhandover
herheart.Ithadlostthewildrunawaytempothathadscaredtheshitouttame,butit
wasstillgoingtoofastforcomfort.ThingsonlygotworstwhenIfinallysawthe
conditionofmycock.

“Fuckbaby.”Ihatedmyselfinthatmoment.IfI’dhurtherwithmygreedI’dnever
forgivemyself.IknewIshouldn’thavegonethatdeep.Fuck!She’seighteenyearsold
andIjustfuckedherwiththirteeninchesofdick.Ilookedfrommyblood-coveredcock
toherfreshlyfuckedpussy.Thebloodsplatteredonherthighsmademyheartjump
intomylungsandlodgethere.

Igotdownbetweenherthighsforabetterlook.“Baby?”Ilookedupherbodyather
facebutshewasstillsmiling.“Areyouhurting?”Ispreadheropenwithmyfingersbut
exceptfortheobviousredness,herwallsjustlookedalittleswollenandtender.But
therewassomuchblood.Iwasexpectinganopenwoundorsomeshit.

“I’mfine.”Shestretchedandsmiledandmyhearteasedabit.“Don’tmoveI’llberight

back.”Ileftherthereandheadedtothebathroomtorunusabathandtakecareofher
poorlittlesnatch.Whatafuckingbeast.Iwon’ttouchheragain…Wellnottonight
anyway.Ihadtoconsolemyselfwithmyselfinflictedpunishment.

KEPT

herinbedorshekeptmethere,forthenexttwodays.She’dmissedonedayof

schoolandIoneofwork.Iwasballs-deepinherwhenIcalledtheprincipalwiththelie
thatshewassickandwouldn’tbecomingin.I’dbarelyhungupthephonebeforeIwas
fuckingintoherhardenoughtomakeherscream.Ican’tgetenoughofthatshit.

Afterherbaththatfirstnight,I’dpromisedmyselftoletherrest,andletthemedicine
I’drubbedintohersorepussydoitsjob.Thathadlastedalloftenminutes.Asusualit
wasshewhohadbrokenmedownandshe’ddoneitinthemostspectacularway.By
takingmyleakingcockintohermouthandaskingmetoteachherhowtosuckmeoff.
All,whilethoseinnocenteyesofhersstaredintomine.HowcouldIresist?

Inthepastforty-eightplushoursI’vefuckedherraw,cuminhermouthand
introducedhertothepleasureofahard,deep,assfuck.Inthosetwodaysofsexand
holdingherinmyarmswhilesheslept,shetrulybecamemywoman.

ShewaseverythingIneverexpectedandallInowknewIwantedfortherestofmy
life.I’mmanenoughtoknowwhenI’mbeat,ormorelikecaught.Hernaturalblendof
innocentandsexkittenhadtakenmedown.

NomatterhowfarIpushed,orwhatnastyshitIdidtoher,shenevercomplained,andI
didalot.Ifiguredsinceshewasmine,sheneededtoknowhowtotakeallofme,soI
hadherineverywayIcouldthinkofandsomeI’dnevereventried.Shehadthatkind
ofaffectonme.Allittookwasalook,orasmalltouchintherightplaceandIwason
her,inher.

Iknewitwasn’tthenoveltyofthesituation,thattherewassomuchmoreatplay,
becausemyfuckingheartwon’tshutthefuckup.ButI’mnotevenfuckingaround
withthatshitrightnow.IhavetowaituntilI’moutfromunderthepussycloud,when
Icanthinkclearlyagain.

Myfearthatshewastooyoungtohandleme,inandoutofbedwaslonggone.She’d
provedherselftimeandagainontheendofmycock.Shewasinturnsshyinnocent
andwantonseductress;andshelovestofuck,nopretensethere.

IfIstayedinherallnightshewasrighttherewithme,takingmein,urgingmetofuck
harder.IfI’mnotcarefulshe’dputmyfuckingbackoutwithhershit.She’syoungand
energeticwithapussythatcantakeabeatingandstillwantmore.

Therewereonlyafewmomentswhentheoutsideworldcreptin.Whenthethoughtof
howthepeopleweknewwouldreacttothisnewchangeinourrelationship.ThenI’d
remindmyselfthatIdidn’treallygiveafuckandI’dburymycockdeepinhertoerase
theshitfrommymind.

Iheldherhipsnowasshesqueezedoutthelastdribbleofcumfrommyballs.Herhair
trailedacrossmychestassheleaneddowntokissme.Herbodywasamassofredand
bluemarksfromwhereI’dsuckedher,leavingmystampofownershipforalltosee.

Iwantedtoimprintmyscentonhersothatshewouldneverbefreeofme,andIdidit
byfuckingherasoftenasIlookedather.Ithelpedthatshewasjustashungryforme.
ThateachtimeIturnedtoherinthenightshewaswillingtoacceptmeintoherbody.
EvenwhenIfuckedherwhileshesleptallshedidwaspophereyesopen,smiledand
tookhertiredassbacktosleepwhileherbodyansweredmine.

“Youmakemeveryhappybabydoll.”Ikissedheronelasttimebeforeliftingheroffmy
dickandlayingheratmyside.Sheranherhandovermychestandsighedwith
contentment.“Ilikewhenyoucallmethat.”Shelookedupatmewithallthejoyshe
feltshininginhereyes.

IfIwashappywiththechangebetweenusIhavenowordsforwhatshefelt.Idon’t
recallthelasttimeI’dseenherlookthishappy.Notjusthappy,itwasasifshe’dcome
alive.Therewasanewlightinherthathadn’tbeentherebefore.

Ibrushedthehairbackfromherfaceandnippedhernoseplayfully,makinghergiggle.
ThesoundremindedmeofjusthowyoungshewasandIsquelchedthebitterseedof
doubtthatraiseditshead.Itwastoolatetosecondguessmyselfnow.PlusI’ddonemy
besttobreedhereachtimeItouchedher,thoughIdon’tthinksherealizedthatyet.

Afterthefirsttime,itbecamealmostcompulsive.EverytimeIreleased,Ihadthe
thoughtinmyheadandavividpictureofherbellyroundwithmychild.ThenI’dhave
tofuckheragainbecausetheshitmademycockstayhard;likeabuiltinaphrodisiac

“Wehavetohaveaserioustalkaboutthischangeinourrelationship,I…”Sheputa
fingeracrossmylipsandlookedatmewithsadeyes.“Pleasedon’tsayyou’resorry.”I
cuppedhercheekandkissedherlipssoftly.“Iwasn’tgoingtosaythat,whenhaveI
everliedtoyou?”

Shegavemeoneofherspecialsmilesthatwentrighttotheheartofmebeforeresting
herheadonmychestagain.Itwasobviousthatshewasn’tthinkingaboutanyofthe
shitthathadbeengoingthroughmyhead.

Tobeyoungandinnocentagain.Ifshe’dgivenanythoughttowhatthisnew
developmentwouldmean,shedidn’tshowit.Ormaybelikeme,shedidn’tgiveafuck.

“Iwasgoingtoaskifyouhadanyquestions.”Istillwasn’tquitesurehowtohandlethe
situationoutofbed.Ihaven’thadtimetothinkonhowweweregoingtolettherestof
theworldknowthatshewasnowmywoman.Itwasimportanttomethatwehandled
itrightforonereason.Iwantedanybacklashtofallonme,nother.Ineededtowarn
hertoletmeknowifanyonefuckedwithher.

Wehadn’tdonemuchtalkinginthelastcoupleofdays.Whenweweren’ttryingto
fuckeachothertothehereafterweweretooexhaustedtodomuchmorethansleep.
Besides,Ididn’twanttobringanyofthatnegativeshitintoourbed.Ididn’twant

anythingtarnishingthejoywebothfeltwrappedupineachotherforthosetwodays.

Shewasagreedylover,andherappetitewasalmostasferociousasmine.Onceshegot
overthepainoflosinghervirginitythefloodgatesopenedandallshewantedwasto
gorgeherselfonsex.Iwasmorethanhappytooblige.ThoughIhadtoremindhera
timeortwothatalthoughthegashbetweenherthighscouldgoonforever,mydick
neededtorecuperateonceinawhile.Greedyfuck.

Inbetweenboutsofmind-blowingsexI’drundowntothekitchenandraidthefridge.
I’dgiventhestaffthelastfewdaysoff,sowehadthewholeplacetoourselves,andwe’d
madegooduseofit.Therewerecumstainsandpussyjuicealloverthecouch
downstairsandIthinkwe’dleftsomeonthekitchenislandtoo.

Shewasaplayfullover,somethingIhadn’texperiencedbefore.Shelikedtoteaseand
beteasedandeverythingshedidseemeddesignedtoholdmyasshostage.Icould’ve
toldhershedidn’tneedtoworry.BythesecondfuckIwould’vegivenherallmy
worldlygoodsandthensome.IfIweren’tcarefulthatpussyofherswouldturnmeinto
afuckingmindlesssap.

Justasmywardhadwrappedmearoundherlittlefinger,mywomannowhadme
wrappeduptightinthatsweetspotbetweenherthighs.Heryouthfulfreshness
touchedmyheartinwaysIneverimagined.Andseeingtheartoflovemakingthrough
theeyesofonesoyoungandinexperiencedwaslikeanewawakening.

Shewantedtotryeverythingandwasn’tshyaboutsayingwhatshewanted,notonceI
gotinsideheranyway.Mydickbecameher-ownlittlejoystick.Shetookmetonew
heightseachtimeIturnedtoher,anditwasme,andnottheuntriedgirlwhowas
findingithardtoletgoandgetbacktotheworldoutsidethesewalls.

ButnowitwasearlyTuesdaymorningandwebothneededtogetbacktolife.Ifeltthe
changeinher,likethelightgoingoutinaroom.That’sanotherthing.Itseemslike
we’remoreconnectedsomehow.IcanfeelherinawayIneverdidbefore.Likethere
wasaninvisiblethreadnowjoiningustogether.Yep,I’vebecomepartbitch.Whatever!

“Tellmewhatyou’rethinking.”Ipulledherheadbackandlookeddownathersad
eyes.

“Idon’twantyoutogo.Whycan’twetakeaweekoffandgotothebeachhouse?”She
hadonelegthrownovermine,andherheadonmychestasshepoutedatme.

Iranmyhandoverherbackandavoidedthoseeyesthatcangetmetodoanythingshe
wants.Shewassotiny,herbonessofragileinhersmallframethatImarveledatthe
factthatshecouldtakemeoverher,pressingherdownintothemattressthewayI
havecountlesstimesinthelastcoupledays.

Shewasafuckingphenomenon,literally.ShelikestofuckasmuchasIdo,which,isa
nicechange.Ihavearavenoussexualappetiteanditwasunusualformetofind
anyonewhocouldkeepupwithmeinbed.

It’sforthatreasonthatIsometimesgoforlongperiodsbetweenbedmates.Icoulddo
withouttheaggravationofneedingtofuckwhenthepieceI’mfuckingatthetime
couldn’tgomorethanaroundandahalfbeforecomplainingtheyweresore.

IknewAlexandrahadhadahardtimetakingmeallthosetimes.EspeciallywhenI
fuckedherfrombehindandwenttoodeepthefirsttimewefuckeddoggiestyle.But
sheneverutteredawordofcomplaint.Insteadshe’dfoundanewfavoritecurefor
whatailedhertornuppussy.Sittingonmyfaceandridingmytonguetomultiple
orgasms.Ifshewasn’tadamnnymphomaniacshewasasclosetooneasI’devermet.
AndI’dalmostlethergo.

“We’llgotothebeachhousesoonIpromise.Ihavesomestufftotakecareofthisweek
thatcan’tbeputoffandIdon’twantyoumissingschool.”Ipulledherupmychestand
kissedhercutelittlenosebeforerollingoutofbedwithherinmyarms.

“Nowlet’sgetcleanedupbeforewescandalizeConnieandtheotherswhentheyget
here.”Shewrappedherarmsandlegsaroundmeandpepperedmyfacewithkissesas
Iheadedintotheshower.Ifitwouldn’tmakemefeelliketheworld’sbiggestsapI’d
probablytellhereveryminuteofeveryhourjusthowshemademefeel.Iwasstill
comingtotermswithjusthowcompletelyperfectshewas.

SOLOMON

hesliddownmybodyoncewehittheshowerandherhandwentstraightformy

dick.“Baby,you’regoingtobetoosoretogotoclass.I’llfuckyouagaintonight;now
behaveyourself.Dammit.”Toolate.Iheldstillandletherworkhermagic,strokingmy
alreadystiffeningcockinherwarmhanduntilpre-cumleakedfromthetip.

Whenshegottoherkneesbeforemeandlookedupatmewithhertonguerunning
acrossherlipsIgroaned.Ithrewmyheadbackatthefirsttouchofhertongueonmy
cock.“Ummm.”Shehummedhappilyasshesuckedtheheadofmycockintoher
mouthwhilecuppingmyballs.Shewasaquickfuckingstudy.

Sheteasedmycock,justtakingtheheadintohermouth,lettinghertonguedipintothe
littleslitattheend.Thenshe’dsuckasmuchofmeasshecouldfitintohermouth,
beforereleasingmetostartalloveragain.

Igrabbedtwofistfulsofherhair,andfuckedintoherneckasIlookeddownbetween
herthighsatherfatpussy.Iwastoodamnclose,butasmuchasIlikecummingonher
tongue,Iwantedinherpussyagain.Ipulledheroffmydickandthrewherroughly
backagainstthewallandslammedintoher.

“Ahhhhhh.”ShescreamedoutloudbeforeIpushedmytonguepastherlipsand
wrappedahandaroundherthroat.Ilovewhatchokingheroutdoestoherpussy.The
wayitgrabsandtightensaroundmycock.Thewayshegoesfuckingwildandletsme
doanythingtoher.

Ifuckedheragainstthewall,slammingherbackhardintothemarbleandmybrave
girldughernailsintomeandbeggedformore.

“Harder,gofaster.”ShewhisperedsomeothershitinmyearbecauseI’dletitslip
duringoneofourpillowtalksthatIlikedtotalkwhileIfucked.Withthisonethewords
werealmostenoughtotakemeovertheedge.Sheknewjustwhichbuttonstopushto
getwhatshewanted.

That’swhyIcoveredhermouthwithmyhandwhileIwentafterhertitwithmyteeth.

Iwasn’treadytoleavethewelcomingheatofherbodyyetandherfuckingmouth
wouldhavemeshootinglikeateenagerintwominutesflat.

Shebitmypalm,“Ouch.Youlittle…”Shegrinnedhappilyandmovedsensuallyonmy
cock.Thenthelookinhereyeschangedandshelookedintominewithaseriousness
I’dneverseentherebefore.Oneofherhandscameuptotouchmycheek.“Thank
you.”

“Forwhatbaby?”Idon’tknowwhywewerewhisperingbutthemoodseemedtofit.
“Forfinallyseeingme.”Itookherlipsroughlyandclaspedhercloserwithahandon
herassandonearoundhershoulders.“Iwanttotakeyoufrombehind,getonyour
knees.”

SheliftedoffmydickslowlyandImovedoutofthewayafterflickingoffthewater.She
gottoherhandsandkneesinthemiddleofthestallandlookedbackoverhershoulder
atme.Ilinedupbehindher,runningmyhanddownthecenterofherbacktoherass
beforedippingtwofingersintoherpinkwetpussy.

“Yourgreedypussyistryingtoeatmyfingerslookatthat.”Herpussybreathedaround
mydigitsbeforeIpulledthemoutandfedthemtoherwhileslowlyslidingallthirteen
inchesofcockdeepinherbelly.

Shesuckedandchewedonmyfingersandrolledherassinoneofherdickdestroying
moves.“Fuck,shit;whatthefuck?”Ishotoffhardasherbodyshookinclimax.She
keenedinherthroatandcoveredherpussywithherhandasifthatwasgoingtohold
thefeelingsin.Itwasgoingtobehardasfuckgoingbacktomyregularroutine.Maybe
I’lllookintomakingthattriptothebeachhousesoonerratherthanlater.

HEN

FINALLY

GOT

HER

OFF

mydickandbacktoherroomsoshecouldgetreadyfor

school,realitykickedin.Isatdeepinthoughtinthebackofthecarontheridetothe
office.Ihavetoprotectherfromwhateverbullshitmightbefallusbecauseofthis.I
hadnodoubtthatIcouldfacewhatevercamemyway,butIdidn’twantanyone
fuckingwithher.

Ishouldprobablycallmomandtellher,butIwasn’treadyforthattalkjustyet.Ididn’t
wanttohavetodefendwhatIfeltandshewastheonepersonintheworldwhoI’d
evenconsidergivinganykindofanexplanation.

IguessthehalfbitchI’dbecomesinceshetrappedmewithherpussydidn’twant
anythingtarnishingwhatwehad.IwantedtoenjoyusforaslongasIcouldbeforethe
shithitthefan.Butthethoughtofhidingdidn’tsitwelleither.TherewasnowayIwas
goingtohidewhatshewastome,Icouldn’tdothattoher.

IranthrougheachmomentofthelasttwodaysuntilmycockachedandIwastempted
toturnaroundandgogether.She’dlookedsosadwhenIkissedhergoodbye.Ishook
myheadtoremovetheimage.IneededtogetmyshittogetherorIwon’tgetshitdone

today,butsherefusedtogivemepeace.Shewasdeepundermyskin.

“Boss,youokay?”Isnappedoutofmydaydreamandlookedatmydriverwhostood
withthedooropenandanoddexpression.“What?”

“Iaskedifyouwereokay.We’vebeenhereforagoodminute.”Wasthatasmirk?

“YeahI’mgood.”Igotoutandheadedfortheofficemissingherwitheverystep.That
invisiblestringwastuggingatmehard.Ifelttheseparationdeep,likeIhadleft
somethingveryessentialbehind.

ThisisprobablywhyI’davoidedtherelationshipbullshitforsolong.Ihaveshittodo
andallIcouldthinkofwasAlexandra.Notjustbeinginsideher,butbeingwithher.
Smellingher,feelingher,breathingherin.Fuckingkryptonite.

“C

ONNIE

,holddinnerfortonightwe’regoingtobeeatingout.”Ihungupaftergivingthe

cookthatorder.I’dspentthedaybetweenmeetingsthinkingaboutwhattodo,what
wasbestforher.Itriedputtingmyselfinherplace.AteenagegirlwithherfirstandifI
hadanythingtodowithit,lastlover.

Icouldn’tseemybabydollwantingtohide.Fromeverythingshe’dsaidtomesincewe
becamelovers,shewasproudofthefactthatshe’dcaughtherman.Shewasyoungyet
andinnocentinthewaysoftheworld.Shedidn’tunderstandhowourcircleworked.
Judgmentalfuckswithmoreskeletonsthanfursintheircloset.Anyoneofthemlookat
hercross-eyed,it’llbethelastfuckingthingtheydo.

I’dneverheardanywhispersmyselfbuttherehadbeenatimeortwowhensomeold
mavenhadmadementionofthefactthatAlexwasgrowingupanditwasunseemlyfor
ustobelivingunderthesamerooftogether.Momhadsavedherassfrommy
retribution.NowthatIthinkaboutitsheprobablywasn’ttheonlyonewho’dfeltthat
way.

Becausemymindhadn’tgonethereyetI’dbrusheditoff,butnowthathadallchanged.
Itwasthisthatwascausingmydiscomfort.Howwouldthosewhispersaffecther?Was
shestrongenoughtofacethemdown?

Iwasn’tabouttobattleovermyloveforherwithanyone.Theycouldallfuck
themselveswitharustyscrewdriver.ButAlexandrahadasoftheartnomatterhowshe
triestobebrave.AfterplayingaroundwiththeideainmyheadIsettledondinnerina
publicplaceforourfirstoutingasmanandwoman.

Icalledandmadereservationsatoneofthemostpopularrestaurantsintown.One
whereIkneweveryonewho’swhowassuretobe.MynextcallwastomombeforeI
lefttheofficetogoseeher.Isentoffatexttomygirl.Justasimple‘missyou’.Ishook
myheadwithasecretsmilewhenIgotherresponse‘Iache’justasIclimbedintothe
backofthecar.

Itwasn’tuntilI’dfinishedreadingandherfaceflashedacrossthescreenthatIrealized
justhowmuchshe’dinfiltratedeveryaspectofmylife.I’dcarriedherpictureeveryday
sinceafewmonthsaftershecametome.I’dneverputtoomuchstockinit,that’swhat
parentsdoright?Andshe’dbeensopleasedwhenI’ddoneit.

ButnowIcouldadmittomyselfthatinthelastfewmonthsatleast,thatpicturehad
cometomeansomethingelse,somethingmore.PlusthefactthatI’dchangeditfrom
thecutelittlegaptoothedangeltotheoneofherthenightofthepartywasadead
giveaway.

WepulledupoutsidemychildhoodhomeandIsatincontemplationforaminute.
WhenIwalkoutoftheresomethingwasgoingtobedifferent.Momwouldeither
congratulatemeorcursemyass.Iwasn’tsurewhichIdeserved,butIknewwhatmy
heartwantedandI’mfuckedifI’mgivingthatuptopleaseanyone.

Iletmyselfinandheadedforherfavoriteplaceinthehouse.Shewasfussingaround
herflowerpotsandsingingtoherbabies.Iwatchedheruntilshenoticedmeinthe
doorwayandthatsmileIknewmywholelifespreadacrossherface.Willthisbethe
lasttimeIsawthatsmile?

“Mom,Ithinkyoubettersitdown.”

“Whywhatisit,what’shappened?IsitAlexandra?Whereisshe?”

“Calmdownmom,Alexis…fine.”ShewatchedmeskepticallyasIledhertoaseatand
croucheddowninfrontofher.

Takingherhandsinmine,Ithoughtofalltheyearsthethreeofushavehadtogether.I
knewshelovedmygirllikeshewasherown.She’dwatchedhergrowrightalongwith
me,andtooksomuchprideinthewomanourgirlwasbecoming.

Wouldsheblamemefortaintingthat?Wellfuck!Forsomeonewho’slivedmylifeby
myownruleswithoutregardstowhatanyoneelsethought,Iwasfindingthisshit
damnnearimpossible.Iwasn’tworriedabouthowIwouldchangeinhereyes,but
howshewouldseeAlexandra.Allmyangstandworrywasforher.

She’dalreadysufferedsomuchloss;beensohurtinhershortlife,Ineverwant
anythingtotouchher.Ifshelostmom’sloveIknewitwouldhurther.Wewereallshe
had.Itookadeepbreathandtriedtofindtherightwords.“Mom,I’mgoingtotellyou
somethingthatyoumaynotlike.Pleasejusthearmeoutbeforeyousayanything.”

Iopenedmymouthandthewordsjustcame.BytheendIwasgivingherallthe
reasonswhythiswasright.WhynooneelsecouldeverloveAlexandrathewayIdo.

“Don’tyouwantusbothtobehappy?Mom,whatthehellareyougrinningat?”Iwas
losingmyshitandshewaslaughingherassoff.Notjustlaughingeither,deepgut
twistingunladylikeguffaws.Sounlikemygenteelserenemother.

“Nothing,youshouldseeyourface.”Shepattedmycheekandgottoherfeetgoing
backtowhatshewasdoingbeforeIinterruptedher.“Andyou’vecomehereformy

blessingIsuppose.”Shewateredaplantlikethisshitwasnatural.

“Iwasn’tthinkingofitlikethat,butIguess.Iwantedyoutoknowbeforegoingpublic
tonight.”Sheturnedtolookatme.“That’smyboy;youalwayswereonetotakethe
bullbyhisballs.”

“Mom.”Whatthefuck?

“Ohgrowup.AnywayIhavetoletyouinonalittlesecret.”NowIlookedather
suspiciously.

“What?”

“I’mnotsurprisedbywhathappened.InfactIkindasortahelped.”Comeagain.“What
areyousaying?”Sheputdownthewaterpotandwipedherhandsontheclotharound
herwaist.“I’msayingthatI’veknownforaverylongtimethatthatlittlegirlwasin
lovewithyou.”

“WhenshefinallygotbraveenoughtotellmeayearorsoagoItoldhershewastoo
young,thatyouwouldneverevenconsidersuchathing,butifshewaited…”She
shruggedhershouldersatme.

“PlusIwantedhertobesurethatyou’rewhatshewants.Iknewifyoutwostarted
anythinganditdidn’tworkoutitwouldshatterourfamily.”

“Shestucktoherguns,butsherespectedmywishesanddidn’tmakeamove,untilher
birthday.”Itwastakingmeawhiletocatchup.Icouldn’tbelievemyears.HereIwas
thinkingshewasgoingtodisownmeandshe’dbeenpartofit.

“Ihelpedherchoosethedress.”Sheseemedproudofherdamnself.“Andtherestofit?
Hermakingmecrazyforthelastsixmonths?”

“OhitworkedonyourdadsoIthoughtwhatthehell.Youcanthankmelater.Didshe
tellyouaboutthewedding?”Mygutstieditselfinknotsandmyearsstartedringing.

“Wedding?”IhadafeelingIknewwherethiswasgoing.Strange,whileIwasdoingall
thatthinkingthatwastheonethingthatneverenteredmymind.Iguess,becauseshe
wasalreadymineineverywayitdidn’tseemthatimportant.

“Yesofcourse.We’vealreadystartedplanning.Nottoworry,Iknowhowyoufeel
aboutthatstuffsoAlexandraandIaregoingtohandleeverythingourselves.You
bettergetgoingifyou’regoingtoyourfancydinnertonight.”Shekissedmycheekand
allbuthustledmeoutthedoor.

Whatthefuckjusthappenedinthere?Ilookedbackatthehouseasifseeingitforthe
firsttime.Sheknew?HowthefuckdidsheknowandIdidn’t?Years?Itriedtothink
backtothetimebeforeIfirstnoticedthechange.CouldIreallyhavebeenthatblind?

KnowingwhatIdoaboutherheart,allIcouldthinkofwastheparadeofwomenI’d
hadinandoutofmylifeinthattime.Whatmustshehavefelt?Ifeltliketheworld’s
biggestassholeasIheadedforhome.AllthistimeIthoughtIwasprotectingherand

I’dbeentheonehurtingher.“I’llmakeituptoyoubabydoll.Ipromise.”Iranmy
thumboverhersmilingfaceonmytelephonescreen.

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letthestaffgoassoonasIwalkedthroughthedoorandpouredmyselfadrinkasI

waitedforhertocomehome.Oncealone,Ifinallyhadtimetothinkaboutmom’s
reactionandthethingsshe’dsaid.IthoughtoftheyounggirlI’dbeenresponsiblefor
alltheseyears,andhowthelovewehadforeachotherhadchangedinthelastfew
days.

TherewasnoquestionIwasinlovewithher.Allthewaystupidinlove,whichleftme
withanotherproblem.WhatthefuckdoIknowaboutbeinginlove?Nothing!Sofar,
I’vebeenplayingthisshitbyear,justgoingwiththefeeling.Pluswehadn’tdone
anythingbutfucksincethebigchange;thefuckamIsupposedtocourtateenagegirl?

Ican’ttreatherthewayIhadallthewomenwho’dbeeninandoutofmylifesinceI
wasoldenoughtounderstandthatmydickwasformorethanpissing.Infactthewild
urgeIhadtospoiltheshitoutofherwasnew.

WhenI’dspoiltmyward,ithadbeenwiththingssuitableforthechildshewas.Now
mymindwasfilledwithallthegiftsIwantedtoshowermywomanwith.Herspoiltass
isabouttobecomeevenmoreso.

Itookasipofmyscotchandrestedmyheadbackagainstthechairwithahalfsmile.
Nowallherfuckinganticsmadesense.She’dbeenreelingmeinevenbeforeIcaught
herscent.Howthefuckhadshedealtwithit?I’veonlyknownthisneedforherthelast
fewdaysandalreadytheseparationofafewhourswasmorethanIcouldstand.
Eighteenfuckingyearsold,andshe’dtamedthebeast.

Ifelttheexcitementgrowlikeateenageboythecloseritgottothetimeshe’dbe
walkingthroughthedoor.“She’stakenmyfuckingballs.”NowaywasIlettingher
knowthatshit.She’salreadyahandful,ifsheknewthepowershehadovermemyass
wouldneverknowpeace.

NowthatIthinkofit,she’downedmeinoneway,oranothersincethedayshebecame
myresponsibility.Nothinghadtochange.Wealreadylivedtogether.Ijusthaveto

moveherintomyroom.Andthenthere’sthequestionofcollegeinthefall.I’mpretty
sureI’mnotlettinghergoanywhere;hopefully,shewouldn’tgivemetoomuchshit
overit.

Iheardmovementoutsideandgotuptolook.Iwatchedherthroughthewindowas
sheparkedandturnedtowavesassilyathersecurityteambeforerunningupthesteps.
Shelookedsohappy,socarefree.

“I’mhome.”I’veheardthatsamegreetingalmosteverydayforthepastsevenyears,
onlythistimeithadawholenewaffectonme.Iheardherbaghitthefloorbeforeshe
racedthroughthehousetome,callingoutmyname.

Iheldmyarmsopenforherandsheflewintothemwithaloudwhoop.“Heysneak.”
Shegavemealookbeforeholdinghermouthupformykiss.Imademywaytothe
chairbehindmydeskwithourlipsfusedtogether.

Whenwefinallycameupforair,shewasstraddlingmyhipsandmyhandswerefullof
tit.Shepressedherassdownonmyhardcockandrocked.

“Umm,youweren’tlying,youreallydidmissme.”ShefoughtwithmyzipperuntilI
decidedtohelpheroutandreleasedmycock.Shehikedupherlittleschoolgirlskirt
andrubbedherpanty-cladcrotchupanddownmycock.

IpoppedtheremainingbuttonsoffhershirtandpushedherbraoutofthewaysoI
couldtakeherintomymouth.Myhandwentbetweenustopushherunderwearaside
beforeliftingherenoughtoseatherbackdownonmycock.Herpussyswallowedme
wholeandIwasstillamazedthatonesosmallcouldfitallofmeinsideher.

“Fuckmenaughtygirl.”NaughtybecauseherpussywasalreadywetwhenIslidup
insideher.“Whyisyourpussysowetbabydoll?”“It’sbeenlikethatallday.Icouldn’t
concentrateonathing.Icouldn’twaittogetbackheretoyou,andthis.”Onthelast
word,sheslammedherselfdownhardonmycockandshovedhertongueinmy
mouth.Iguesstheconversationwasover.

“G

PUT

onyourbestdress,we’regoingouttonight.”Hereyeswidenedandherfacesplit

intoasmile.“Really?Youmeanlikeasacouple?”Wewereheadingoutoftheshower
whereI’djustdoneheragainstthewallafterfuckingherinmyofficechair.

Herbodywaspinkfromthehotwaterandexcitementnodoubt,whenIclaspedherto
me.“Yes,likeacouple.”Ikissedhernoseandputherawayfrommewhensherubbed
hertowelcoveredpussyagainstmycockthatneverseemedtogodownaroundher.

Shewhoopedandranfromtheroommakingmeshakemyheadasshemutteredsome
shitaboutneedingtimetogetready.Typicalfemale.

Iwasdressed,readyandwaitingdownstairsforherwhenshemadeherwaytothetop
ofthestairs.Iheardhercomingandwenttomeether.Thefirstshockwasthepoise.

HerusualteenageslouchasIfondlycallitwasgone.Instead,shestoodtallandproud
withhershouldersbackandherheadheldhigh.

Nextwasthebeauty.She’sanaturallybeautifulgirl,buttonightsheshone.Herhair
wasbrushedtoahighsheenandfellstraightatthesidesofherfaceanddownherback.
She’daddedcolortohereyes.Nottoomuch,justenoughtobringattentiontotheir
unusualcolorandshape.

Herlipswereapalepinkthatshe’dsimplyglossed.Shestoppedonthestairswhenshe
sawmeandstruckapose.“Well,what’stheverdict?DoIlookgoodenoughtobeon
yourarm?”Thebrightredofftheshoulderdresssheworeclungtohercurvesand
stoppedjustaboveherknees.

Itwirledmyfingerandsheturned,showingoffthehugeexpanseoffleshthathadbeen
leftbare.Likefuck!“Comehere.”Iheldmyhandouttoherandshewalkedtherestof
thewaydowntome.

Shedidn’tjustwalk,sheseduced.Thedamndresswasawalkingwetdreamandher
breastsallbutspillingoverthetopputonethinginmymind.Icanonlyimaginethatit
wouldbethesameforanyredbloodedmalewhosawherinthatgetup.

Assoonasshereachedme,Itookthetopofthedressbetweenbothhandsandpulled,
shreddingittopieces.“What…?”Icoveredhermouthandtookherdownrightthere
onthestairsasItoretheflimsybitofsilkfromherpussy,andfumblingwithmy
zipper,releasedmycockandfuckedintoher.

Thistimewhensheopenedhermouthtoscreamnosoundcame.Ishovedmytongue
intohermouthasIsurgedintoherharder,faster,deeperandblindwithlustuntilI
realizedIwashurtingher.

Ipickedherupinmyarmsstillimpaledonmycockandtookhertothelandingatthe
bottomofthestairs.TherewerenowordsspokenbetweenusasIliftedherintomy
thrustsuntilshepleadedforherpoorpussy.Thatwasafirst.Itwasthefirsttimeshe’d
shownanyweaknesswhiletakingmycock.

OfcourseIwasfuckingherharderthanbefore,Ihadapointtoprove.Withherassin
onehandIwrappedtheotheraroundherneckandshookheruntilhereyesmetmine.
“Cum!”Ichokedherhardenoughtomakehercoughwhichmadeherpussytwitch
wildlyaroundmycock.

Shethrashedandfought-andthemoreshedidthehardershecame,pullingatmeuntil
mycockexploded.“Findsomethingelsetowear;andcoverupthistime.”Ipulledout
ofherandfixedmyclothesbeforehelpinghertoherfeet,andwithapatonherass
sentherupstairstochange.

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henshecamedownagain,shewasmoreappropriatelydressed.Thistimein

somethingthatwasmoreclassicallysexythanthefleshbearinggetupshethoughtto
wearbefore.Iguessmysilencespookedheralittlebecausesheseemedunsureof
herself.

“Areyoumadatme?”

“No.”Itookherarmandledheroutintotheeveningairtothecar.Isatherinthe
passengerseatandbeltedherinbeforegoingaroundtothedriver’sside.

Itookherhandandbroughtherfingerstomylips.“I’mnevermadatyoumypet.
Neverfearmyanger.You’reoneofonlytwopeopleonthisearthwhoneverhaveto.
Thatisofcourseunlessyoubetraymewithanotherman.ThenI’dhavetokillyou.”
Shesnickeredatfirstuntilshegotalookatmyface.

“You’reserious.”

“Asafuckingheartattack.”Igaveheralookshe’dneverseenbefore.Iknewwhatwas
inthatlookandsodidsheaftersheheldmygazelongenough.Sheswallowedhard
andherhandtrembledinmine.

“Nottoworrymylove.Youandme,we’retwoofakind,loyaltoafault.Plus,Iwill
neverletyoufailme,justasIwillneverfailyou.That’sapromise.Besides,Iraisedyou
betterthanthat.”Webothsharedagrinatthatandthemoodlightenedimmediately.

“Sowherearewegoing?”

“TheGardens.”Herheadwhippedaroundandhermouthfellopen.Thelasttimeshe
askedtogothereItoldhershewastooyoung.Therewasareason.Ihatethatdamn
place.It’sfullofgossipandrumor.

Manylivesaremadeanddestroyedatitstablesundercoverofsocialdining.Iusually
steerclearofthatdenofvipers,buttonightitservesmypurpose.Iknewthatbythe
timeweleavetheretonighttongueswouldbewaggingandnewsofourrelationship

would’vespreadbymorninglight.

“We’rehere.”Ipassedthekeystothevaletafterhelpingheroutofthecarandledher
totherestaurantentrance.Theproprietaryarmaroundherwaistwasthefirstsignthat
somethinghadchanged,andIfelteyesfollowingustothetableI’dspecified.

ThebottleofchampagneIorderedbeforehandwaschillingonthetable.Therewere
threerosessetatherplace.Oneeachofred,orangeandlavender.Eachrepresentative
oflove,passionandadoration.

Iseatedherandinsteadoftakingthechairacrossfromher,Ichosetheoneclosestto
herside.Shesniffedherflowersandsmiledcoylyatme.“Thankyou,they’re
beautiful.”

“Doyouknowthemeaningofeachcolor?”SheshookherheadandIexplained.“Don’t
forgetthemwhenweleave.Iplantofuckyouwiththemlater.”Shegrewflushedand
thepulseinherneckracedasshelookedfromtheblossomstome.

Justthenthesommelierapproachedandopenedthechampagne,pouringuseacha
glass.ShelookedatmequestioninglysincesheknewI’dstrangleherunderageassfor
drinking.

“We’recelebrating.You’reallowed,butonlywhenyou’rewithme.Ifyouevertakeso
muchasasipofbeerwithoutme,we’llhaveaproblem.”Sherolledhereyesand
playedwiththestemsofherroses.

“Andwhatarewecelebrating?”

“Us.Pickupyourglass.”SheliftedherglassandImine.“Tous.Tothemostbeautiful
creatureevermade.Behappybabydoll.Beveryhappy.”Wesippedourchampagne
whilesmilingintoeachother’seyes.

Bythetimethesecondcoursewasserved,Iwasholdingherhandinmine.Ifthe
whispersinherear,ormyhandsalwaysbeingonherinsomewayoranotherhadn’t
speltitoutforthemanyonlookerswhowerepretendingnottosee,thekissIgaveher
overtheburningcandlelightsurewoulddoit.

Ireleasedherlipsandwentbacktomymeal.IalmostchokedonthesawdustIwas
chewingwhenIfeltherhandonmydick.Iletmyeyesmoveslowlytowardshers.No
shame.Shechoseapieceoficefromherwaterglasswithherfingersandslippedit
betweenherlipsinasensuousmovewaybeyondheryears.

Iswallowedthesawdustthathadlodgedinmythroatandwaitedtoseewhatshe
woulddonext.ShewalkedherfingersupanddownmycockuntilIwassteelhardand
readytorutinherlikeawildmoose.

“Haveyouhadenough?”Ididn’tneedtospellitoutforher.Icouldtellfromthe
smolderinglookinhereyesthatshewasasreadyformeasIwasforher.“Yes,let’s
go.”

Iwastheonewhorememberedtheflowersaswestoodtoleave.Wedidn’trushoutof
therebutitwasclose.Bythetimethevaletbroughtthecararound,Iwasreadyto
mountherrightthereonthepavement.

Theridehomewasadeathdefyingone.Shewouldn’tkeepherhandoffmydickand
whensheleanedoverandherheaddisappearedbeneaththesteeringwheelIthought
forsureIwasgoingintothenearesttree.

“Baby,whatareyoudoing?”LikeIdidn’tknow.Heronlyanswerwastosuckmydick
intohermouthanddothathummingshitthatticklesmycockhead.“Forfucksake
Alexandra,don’tmakemecumwhileI’mdriving.”

“Sopullover.”Sheliftedherheadlongenoughtosaybeforegoingbackaftermydick.
“No,shit,fuck.”Icalledonallmyselfcontroltokeepfromcumming.Iloseallcontrol
whenIcumwithher.Itwasn’tagoodideatogoblinddeafanddumbbehindthewheel
ofafuckingcar.

“PulloffAlexandra,Imeanit.”Thankfuckwewerepullingthroughthegatesofhome.
ShewhinedandpoutedbutdidasIsaid.Idon’trecallwhereIparkedthecar,couldbe
thelawnforallIknow.

Islammedoutofthecarandwentaroundtogether.Shewentrightbacktohershit,
tryingtotakeoutmydickthatI’djustshovedbackintomyslacks.“Let’stakethis
inside.”Ineededafewminutestocoolmyblood.IfItouchherrightthisminuteIwas
afraidI’dbreakher.

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draggedherintothehouseandupthestairstomybed.“Fuck,didIturnoffthecar?”

Igiveafuck.Itoreherdressagain.“I’llbuyyouawholenewwardrobe.”Shehelped
meoutofmyclothesasourlipsclungtogetherfeverishly.

Assoonasmycockwasfree,Ihadheronherbackwithmycockburiedtothehiltin
herhotcunt.MaybeitwasthechampagneandifitwasI’dbuytheshitbythe
boatloads;butshewaswild-uninhibited-hungry.

“FuckmeSolomon.”Shebentonekneeandgrabbedmyasswithbothhands,pulling
meintoherharder.Ifuckedhertoclimaxbeforepullingoutwithastillhardcock.I
hadn’tforgottenmyplansfortherosepetals.

IjumpedoffthebedandlookedaroundtheflooramidsttheclothesuntilIfoundthem.
Istoodattheendofthebeduntilherbreathingcalmedandshelookedforme.“Spread
yourpussyopenwithyourfingers.”Shegaveastartofsurprisefirst,butdidn’thesitate
todomybidding.

Iwalkedaroundthesideofthebedandstoppedatherankle.Startingwiththelavender
rose,IsliditslowlyupherthighholdinghereyeswithmineallthewhileuntilI
reachedherpussylips.

“Open.”ShespreadherplumppussylipsfartheruntilIcouldseethechangeinshade
fromlighttodarkestpink.“Ahhh…”Shecriedoutatthefirstsilkytouchoftherose
againstherpussy’sopening.Imovedontoherclit,that’swhenshestartedtomove.I
loweredmyheadandsuckedahardnippleintomymouthwhileteasingherpussy
withtheflower.

Irubbedherpussyuntiltheouterpetalsgotwetandfellaway,leavingonlythetight
center.That’swhatIusedtofuckher,slidingitinandoutofheruntilshespreadher
legsandrubbedherclit.Iknewthepetalswereonlyteasingthatfirethatburnedinside
her,butwehadtwomoretogo.IwantedhermindlesswithneedbythetimeIfucked
her.BecauseashardasIwasgoingtofuckher,herpussyneededtobedrenched.

ShecameoverandoveragainasIfuckedherwiththetworemainingflowers.While
shewasinthethroesofthelastorgasm,Ithrewhertoherhandsandkneesand
slammedintoher.Thistimeinsteadofascreamshegrowledlowandhard,almost
guttural.

Igrabbedafistfulofherhairandfuckedhighintoherpussy.Herbackhadthatdeep
archthatsentherassintotheairandIusedmythumbtofuckherpinkrosebudwhile
tryingtobustherpussyopenwithmycock.Oneofherhandscamebacktograbmy
thigh.Asiftryingtogetmetoeaseoff.

Ileanedoverherbackuntilmylipsreachedherear.“Thisiswhathappenstonaughty
littlegirlswhotease.Youwantedmycock,takeitthewayIgiveittoyou.”

Shetrieddroppingherchestlowerbutmyhandinherhairheldherinplace.Herpussy
juicecoatedmycockandrandowntheinsideofherlegsandontothesheets.

Shekeenedinamixtureofpainandpleasure,untilpleasurewonandshethrewherass
backatme,ridingmycocktoorgasmwithmythumbstuffedinherass.

“ShouldIfuckyourass?Feelhowitgrabsatmyfinger?Ithinkit’shungry.”

“Please…”Herhairstucktoherfaceandneckwithsweat,herbodyalsohadaslight
sheenfromherexertions.Shelookedbackoverhershoulderatmewithalookof
surprisewhenIeasedoutofherpussyandslippedtheheadofmycockintohertight
ass.

“You’vetakenmeherebefore,it’llbefine.”HereyeswidenedthedeeperIsunkinto
herass.Withmyfingersonherclitandinherstillthrobbingpussy,Istartedaslow
deepfuckintoherassuntilshecaughttherhythmandmovedwithme.

HerscreamsweredifferentandIknewasembarrassedasshewasabouttakingmein
herass,shelovedit.Thefactthatshecamehardasfuckonmyfingersgavecredence
tothat.

ThatnightIfuckedheruntilthesuncameup.Shehadaftershocksforalongtimeand
mydickwassore.Itookcareofbothofusandcarriedhertooneoftheguestrooms
withmetosleep.Thesheetsonourbed,wasfucked.

HAD

twoweeksofuninterruptedbliss.InthattimeIfellevenmoreinlovewithher

ifthatwerepossible.WewereabletostayoutofbedormoretothepointIwasableto
stayoutofherforlongerperiodsastimewentby.ShehadschoolandIhadwork,but
theweekendswereours.

Wedidmakeittothebeachhouse,sinceweneededtogetthefuckgonefromhome.
Afterourdatenight,whichshemademepromisewouldbeastapleinourlives,the
wholedamntownfoundmynumber.Ihadnoidea,mylovelifewasthatfucking
importanttosomany.

Alexandrahadbrusheditalloffthewayonlytheyoungcan.Shewasinherhappy
placeshesaid,andshewasn’tgoingtoletanyonespoilit.

I’dbeenworriedaboutcourtinghertherightway,butallsheseemedtowanttodowas
stayhomethewaywealwayshad.Justwiththeaddedbenefitofaniceslowfuckwhile
wewatchedthemovieshe’dpickedforthatnight.Orhavingaquickieonthedinner
tableforsomefoodplay.Strawberriestasteamazingdippedinherpussyjuice.

Moreoftenthannotwespenttheeveningsassoonasherhomeworkandwhatever
workI’dbroughthomewithmehadbeensquaredawayfucking.Allittookwasher
peepingaroundthedoortomyhomeoffice.Orpassingbyinsomeoutrageousthing
thatsheknewI’dneverletherwearoutside.

Shehadafreakysidetoheramilelong.Shelovedhavingmechaseheraroundthe
houseandtakeherdownwhereverIcaughthertorideherfrombehind.Ialsonoticed
shelikestopissmeoffjustalittlebecauseshelovesthehardfuckssheusuallygetsfor
misbehaving.

Mostofall,shewashappy.HerlaughterwasbackandInevertiredofhearingit.Ilove
seeingherthishappy.ThejoyinherwaslikethatofachildinWonderland,butshe
derivedherpleasurefromhavingmebetweenherthighs.Nothingchildishaboutthat.

Apartfromthegreatsex,Ifoundthatshewasagoodconversationalist.Shecouldhold
aconversationonpolitics-worldhistory-justaboutanythingIwasinterestedinshe
couldholdherown.

Somethingelsethatmademefallevenmoredeeplyinlovewithherwasthatforone
sobeautifulshewaslackinginallvanity.Shedidn’tseemtoknowhowfucking
gorgeousshewas.IlovedthewaysheclungtomelikeIwastheprize.Iknewthetruth
though,shewastherealprize,andI’dspendeverydayshowingher.

Myspoilingcampaignhadalsostartedoffonagoodfoot.Likeallwomen,sheloves
jewelrysoIgother-herfirstgrownupjewelry.AnecklacefromTiffany’sandanew
datejustfromRolex.Whensherodemycockwithjustthenecklaceandthewatchon
asathankyou,IfiguredI’dmakethataregularthingtoo.

Therewasonelittlehiccupinournewfoundbliss.ItookhershoppingandsworeI’dsip
onarsenicbeforethatshiteverhappenedagain.Igottiredoftheindecisionandonher
tenthruntothedressingroominthefiftiethstoreItookmattersintomyownhands
andboughtwhatthefuckIliked.

She’dgrumbledabitatthatbutintheend,whowasshedressingtoplease?Thefact
thatshewasstillinhighschooldidn’tseemtomakemuchofadifference;exceptfor
thoseoddtimesthroughoutthedaywhenI’dmissherandwanttogoseeher.

We’dstoppedhidingfromthestaff.Therewasnopointsinceherbedwasneversleptin
andhalfhershitwasnowinmycloset.Noonesaidanythingandlifewentonasusual.
Thegossipmillhaddoneitsjobandeverysoulinatenmileradiuswasnowinmyshit.

OurteamsfoundoutwhenIkissedheroutsidethecaronedaybeforesendingheroff
toschool.Thereweresomesharedlooks,butnoonedaredtakeitbeyondthat.

Twoweeksandthenewnessdidn’tshowanysignsofwaning.Shewassofullof
surprisesIgotthefeelingitwasgoingtotakemetherestofmylifetolearnallofher.
Myownsexualenigma.

Shehadn’tbatalashwhenitcametimetotellherdad’sparents.Theydidn’tseemtoo
putoffbytheideabuthergrandfatherraisedapointthathadgoneovermyhead.With
myfamilybusinessandwhatshestoodtoinheritinthenextfewyears,we’dbeaforce
toreckonwithinthebusinessworld.

I’dnevergivenherinheritancemuchthoughtsinceItookcareofallherneeds.NowI
hadtogiveseriousthoughttothefutureandwhatitcouldmeanforus.Theproblem?I
wanttobetheonetakingcareofher.Idecidedtoputthequestiontoheratalaterdate.
Nosenserockingtheboatnowwhenthingsweregoingsowell.I’llwaitforoneofthose
timesshepissesmeoff.That’snotexactlyupfrontandstraightforward,butsinceshe
hasmewrappedaroundherfuckingfingersandtoes,IfigureIneedalltheadvantages
Icanget.

TheweekendwascomingupandIwasspendingthetimewithher.Thedaysin
betweenweregettinghardereventhoughIsawhereverynightwhenIwenthome.I’d
evenstarteddelegatingmoresoIcouldgethomenotlongaftershedid.

We’dsettledintoaroutine.Nomatterhowmanyplanswemadeandhowwesworeto
eachotherthatthistimewe’llactuallydowhateverwehadplanned,wealwaysended
upfucking.Itgotsoshecouldn’tcomeouttheshowerwithoutmetakingherdown.

Iknowtoomuchofanythingeventuallykillstheexcitement,butthatwasn’tproving
truehere.Itwasquitetheopposite.ThemoreIhadher,themoreIwanted.Iwasstill
turningtoherinthenight,slippingintoherforanicesexyslowride.

We’dusuallyrollawayfromeachotherafterwardsuntilourbodiescooledandwe
missedthewarmthoftheotherandturntoeachother.Wewokeeverymorning
wrappedaroundeachother.Mademewonderwhatmyproblemwasbefore.Inever
sleptwithanyoneinmybed.Ididn’ttrusthalfthefucksIfucked;nowaywasIclosing
myeyesandbeingthatweakintheirpresence.

Withher,ifIturnedoverandshewasn’tupunderme,literally,I’dreachforheruntil
shewasbackwhereshebelonged.Whenwewalkedanywheretogether,shealways
hadherarmthroughminelikeshewasdaringanyonetocomebetweenus.

ItremindedmeofallthewomenI’dhadinherfacewhenIdidn’tknowhowshefelt.
Andthatwouldstartthespoilingshitalloveragain.Iwastryingtoassuagemyguilt
withdiamondsandgold.

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hephoneonmydeskbuzzedandIpickedupthereceiverabsentmindedlyasI

perusedthespreadsheetsinfrontofme.“Yes?”

“Miss.Paineisheretoseeyousir.”Whatthehellcouldshewant?Ithadbeenmonths
sinceI’dseenorspokentoher.Mightaswellseewhatshewantsorshe’llmakeapest
ofherself.“Sendherin.”

Ilookedupasshewalkedinandfeltnothingbutaggravationattheinterruption.She
smiledatme,andthelookinhereyesleftmecold.

“Jessicawhatareyoudoinghere?”Shecamefartherintotheoffice,morelike
saunteredinandleanedagainstthedesk.

Lookingathernow,comparingtheoverdonemakeupandthathungrylookinhereyes
tomydoll,IwonderedwhatthehellI’deverseeninher.Ifthehungerwasformeit
wouldmakeadifference.ButIhadlongcometorealizethatwhateverfeelingsshehad
formewerewrappedupinmymillions.

IcheckedmywatchandsawthatitwasalmosttimeforAlexandratoarrive.Ididn’t
wantmyexherewhenshedid,herheartwasstillabitsorewhenitcametomyex
lovers.Iknowbecauseshe’sforevertellingmeaboutthehellIputherthroughwhileI
wasbusywithotherwomen.She’sajealouslittlethingandfeistywithittoo.

“WhatcanIdoforyou?I’mbusy.”Sheplayedwiththepearlsaroundherneckasshe
lookedaroundtheroombeforeturninghergazeonme.“It’sgoodthatyou’resitting
down,Ihavenews.”

“Whatcouldyoupossiblyhavetosaythatwouldinterestme?”Whatthehellareyou
uptonow?Iknowherwellenoughtorecognizethelookonherface.Itwasonlyafter
wepartedwaysthatIlearnedmoreaboutwhatshe’sreallylike.HadIknownherlack
ofcharacterIneverwould’vetakenhertomybed.

Therewererumorsofspitefuldoingsagainstanyoneofthefemalepersuasionthatshe

deemedathreat.Itseemsthetraitwentallthewaybacktohighschool.Herfamily’s
moneyhadkeptheroutofjail,andfromwhatIheardsomeoftheshitshe’dpulled
could’veseenherbehindbarsforalongtime.

“I’mpregnant.”Thatshitstoppedallthoughtandhadmereelingbackinmychair.

“You’rewhat?”Icouldn’thaveheardherright.Shemovedaroundthedesktostandin
frontofmeandplacedherhandonmyshoulder.MybodywentcoldandnumbandI
shruggedheroff.Icomposedmyselflongenoughtoaskaverypertinentquestion.

“I’mnotsurewhyexactlyyou’retellingmethis.Ihaven’tseenyouinwellovera
month.”

“Howsilly,ittakestimetofindoutthesethings.Apparently,itwasthatlasttimewe
weretogether.”

“Idon’tseehow.Weusedacondom.”Icouldn’tfeelmyfuckingfingersortoes.

“Youknowthosethingsaren’tfoolproof.”SherubbedherstomachandIfeltmygorge
rise.Ilookedatherforthelongesttimetryingtocometotermswithwhatshewas
saying.ThiswouldcrushAlexandra.Thatwastheuppermostthoughtinmymind.

Thiscan’tbehappening.Isawmywholelifeflashbeforemyeyes.Howcanthisbe
happeningnow?JustthenAlexandrawalkedin.Mybeautifulgirlhadthemost
amazingsmileonherface.Thatsmilethatalwaysbrightensupmyday.Wewere
supposedtobegoingsomewhere,Ican’tforthelifeofmerememberwherenow.

IlookedatJessicatowarnhernottosayanythingbutitwastoolate.ItwasthenI
realizedhertruepurposehere.“OhAlexandra,whateverareyoudoinghere?”
Alexandrastoppedshortwhenshenoticedher.HereyeswentfromJessicatome,and
backandIcouldseethewheelsspinning.Hatedthesicklookonherface.

“Ohhi,JessicaIdidn’tknowyouwerehere.I’lljustseeyouathomeSolomon.”She
turnedtoleavetheroomandIstoodtostopher.

“Solomon?WhathappenedtouncleSol?Nevermindthat,Iguessit’sonlyfairthatyou
bethefirsttoknow.”“Firsttoknowwhat?”

“Jessica…”

“Well,thatyou’renolongertheonlychildinSolomon’slife.”Shepattedherstomach
andsmiledatAlexandrawhoseeyesflewtomine.“Whatdoyoumean?”Herwords
soundedempty,lifeless.“ImeanthatyouruncleandIarehavingababy.Isn’tthat
great?”

Alexandralostallthecolorfromherfaceasshestoodstockstillinthemiddleofthe
room.ImovedtogotoherbutJessicagotintheway.Shewrappedherarmthrough
mineandturnedbacktotheyounggirlthatwasdyingrightbeforemyeyes.Ipulled
awayfromherandwenttoAlexbutsheturnedandranfromtheroom.

“Wow,talkaboutnotwantingtoshare.She’llgetusedtotheidea.Weshouldstart

makingplansforthewed…”

“Getout.”

“Excuseme?”

“Getthehelloutofmyoffice.I’llseeyoulater.”Iallbutpushedheroutthedoorbefore
leavingmyselftogoafterAlex.

Ihurtforher;neverknewthatshitwaspossible.ThefactthatitwasIcausingherpain
waslikeaknifetomyheart.Iranoutofthebuildingandlookedupanddownthe
sidewalkbutshewasgone.“Whereisshe?”Herteamwasscramblingtotheircar.

“Sheranoutandgotintothecarbeforeweknewshewasthere.Weweren’texpecting
her…”Icutheroffwithaharsh‘go’.I’llfireeverylastoneofthemifsomething
happenstoher.They’dbeluckyifthat’stheworstIdotothem.

Icalledherphoneimmediatelybuttheansweringservicepickedup.“Baby,whereare
you?Cometome.”

Iheadedforthecarandorderedthedrivertotakemehome.AllthewaythereIwas
afraid.Afraidofwhatwashappeningtoherinnocentheart.IcouldstrangleJessicafor
tellingherlikethat.Ihadn’tmissedthelookofsatisfactiononherfaceasshestruckthe
blow.Shewasinforarudefuckingawakeningthough.

Shewasn’thome,hercarwasn’tinthegarageandshehadn’treturnedmycall.“Fuck!”
Ididn’tknowwheretolook.ShouldIstartcallingherfriends?Herteamhadalready
calledinwiththefactthatthey’dlosther.

TheywerealreadyfiredbythetimeIhungupfromthatcall.She’dbeengivingthem
thesliptoooftenlately.Thatremindsme.Istillhaven’tlearnedwhothisWhiteRabbit
personis.I’vebeentoobusyfallinginlove.AndwhythefuckamIthinkingaboutthat
shitnowwhenshewasouttherelostandalone?

WhenallmyeffortsfailedIcalledtheonepersonwhocouldcalmmedownfromthe
blindingragethatwasreadytoexplode.“Mom,Ican’tfindAlexandra.”Iwasdamn
nearintears.

Ifanythinghappenstoher,Iwon’tbeabletoforgivemyself.Whatifshe’ddriventoo
fastandgothurt?WhatifsheranawayandIneverfoundher?Fuckthatshewasn’t
leavingme.

“She’shereson.”

“Ohthankfuck…thanksmom.Sendherhome;don’tletherdrive,haveyourdriver
bringherI’llgethercarlater.”

“Uh,shedoesn’twanttocomehomejustyet.”

“Whatdoyoumeanshedoesn’twanttocomehome?”

“ShetoldmewhathappenedSolomon.”Therewasalongpauseafterthatthatspoke

volumes.

IfsheweregoingtotakemetotaskforhurtingAlexandrashe’llhavetowait.Iwasn’t
inthemoodjustthenandbesides,shecouldn’ttellmeanythingIhadn’talreadytold
myself.“Ithinkweshouldletherresthereforafewdaysandthen…”Ihungupbefore
shecouldfinishwhatevermadnessshewasabouttosayandheadedoutthedoor.My
driveropenedthedoorasmysecurityteamrantotheircars.

“Whereto,boss?”

“Myparents;hurry.”MygutwasinknotsashespedthroughthestreetsandIstared
outthewindowwithoutseeinganything.InsideIwasamassofconfusion.Ididn’t
knowhowtomakethisright.

TheonlythingIknewforsureisthatIwasn’tlettinghergo.Thethoughtofheralivein
thisworld,livingawayfromme,havinganexistencethatdidnotincludeme,waslike
death.

Iallbutbrokedownthedoortomom’shousewhenIarrived.Shemetmeonthe
landingandtriedtostopme.“Whereisshe?”Sheputherhandonmychesttoholdme
backandI’mashamedtosayIalmostpushedmyownmothertotheground.

“Mom,whereisAlexandra?”I’veneverraisedmyvoicetoherbeforeandIcouldsee
theshockresonatedinhereyes.Shepointedupthestairs,“She’sinyouroldroom.
PoorthingIcouldn’tconsoleher.”

Itookthestairstwoatatimeandbustedthroughthedoor.EvenbeforeIwasfully
inside,Iheardhertears.Istoppedshortatthesightbeforeme.Shewascurledupon
thebedwithherfaceburiedinapillowIhadn’tlainmyheadoninyears.

Iwenttoherandclimbedintobedbehindher.“Whyareyoucryinglikethis?”Stupid
fuckingquestionSolomon.Shedidn’tanswermeandIdidn’texpectherto.“Lookat
meAlexandra.”Ihadtoturnherovermyself.Herfacewasravagedbytears,hereyes
alreadyswollenandred.

Iwrappedmyarmsaroundherandsqueezed.“I’msorryyouhadtohearthatthat
way,butIpromiseyouthischangesnothing.”Shecriedevenharder,asifmywords
hadfallenondeafears.“Let’sgoit’stimetogohome.Weneedtotalk.”

“I’mnotgoing,I’mstayinghere.”Shestiffenedherlittlebodyagainstmeandtriedto
pullaway.“Thehellyouare.You’renotstayinghere.Yourplaceiswithme,come.”I
hadalottosaybutnothere.Alone,whereIcouldreassureherofwhatshemeantto
me.

Iliftedherfromthebedandwalkedpastmymotherwhowasstandinginthedoorway
wringingherhandswithworry.“I’lltakecareofhermomdon’tworry.”Shewas
listlessinmyarms,silenttearsrollingdownhercheeks.Eachonetwistedthedaggerin
myheartdeeper.

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utside,Iclimbedintothecarwithherstillheldfirmlyinmyarms.Iheldherallthe

wayhomewhileshesatstaringintospacewithanemptylookinhereyes.Ishookher
tosnapheroutofitbutshewouldn’tevenlookatme.Shewaspissed.Pissed,butI
thinkmorehurtthananything.

“Don’tdothis,baby.Ipromise,I’llmakeitright,justgivemesometime.”Nothing.My
brightcheerfulgirlwasgoneandinherplacewasthisshellthathadneithervoicenor
will.Itookherstraighttomyroomoncewereachedthehouseandinstructedthe
servantstoleaveoncedinnerwasprepared.

“IsMs.Alexandraill?MaybeIshouldstayandlookafterher.”Betty,oneofthemaids
thathadbeenwithusthelongesthadalwaystakenaninterestinmygirl.Shewasthe
onemoreoftenthannot,who’dbeenherewithherifIwasrunninglateontheodd
evening.

“Thatwon’tbenecessary.I’llseetohermyself.”Ilookedbackatheronthebedexactly
whereI’dlefther.Onceeveryonewasgone,Iwenttoher,climbingintobedbehindher
soIcoulddrawherbackintomyarms.

“Iknowyou’remadandhurt;butIpromiseyouIwillmakethisuptoyou.Youhave
nothingtofear.Iwillnotleaveyou;notforanyreason,pleasebelieveme.Itoldyou;
youbelongtome.Itakecareofmyownalways.”Iwasrambling,lookingfortheright
thing,thatonethingthatwouldbringherback.

“Thebabybelongstoyoutoo.You’llhaveafamilywithher.Wheredoesthatleave
me?”Hervoicehadnolifebutatleastshewastalkingagain.“Iwilltakecareofthe
childwhenitcomes,butIwon’tloseyoutodoit.Nowpleasestopcryingyou’re
breakingmyheart.”

“Howcanyousaythat?Iknowyouremember?Youtookmein,tookcareofme.How
canyoudoanylessforyourownsonordaughter?”HerbodyshookwithsobsandI
heldhertighter,wishingwitheverysecondthatIhadsparedherthis.ButhowcouldI

haveknownthisshitwasgoingtohitmeoutofleftfield?

Istillhadn’thadtimetoprocessthenewsthatIwasgoingtobeadad,anduntilIfixed
thehurttoherheartIwasn’tthinkingaboutfuckelse.“Idon’thavealltheanswersbut
thismuchIknow;youandIwillneverbeover.Iwillneverletyougo.Youcantake
thattothegrave.”

Shehiccuppedandpulledmyarmtighteraroundher.“I’mscaredSolomon,youdon’t
knowJessica.”Iwasn’tquitesurewhatshemeantbythatbutIwasn’tinterestedin
findingoutrightnow.FuckJessica.

“Don’tbeafraid.Noforceonearthwilltakeyoufromme.AsforJessica…”Sheclamped
herhandsoverherearslikeatwoyearold.

“Stopthat,andlistentome.”Ipulledherhandawayandliftedherchinwithmyfinger.
“Ifthisistrue,thenwe’regoingtohavetotalkabouther.She’sgoingtobepartofour
lives…”IwasabouttosayinonewayortheotherbutbeforeIcouldfinishthisonegot
toherkneeswithalookoffireinhereyes.

“Iwon’tshareyou,Iwon’tstandbyandwatchyoumarryhereither.I’mleaving…”
ShemovedtogetoffthebedandIgrabbedhertomychest.Shetriedpullingoutofmy
armsbutIheldhertighter.

“Noyou’renot.Iwon’tletyou.Iwantyourwordrightnowthatyouwon’ttrytorun
away.IalmostdiedwhenIcouldn’tfindyoutonight;don’tputmethroughthathell
again.IsaidI’llmakeitrightandIwill.Nowstopthis.”Iturnedherfacetomineand
studiedhereyes.

Sosad-sobruised.Myheartachedforher.“Trustmewithyourheart.Iwillneverhurt
youorallowanyoneoranythingtobringyouharm.Thebabywasmadebeforeyou
andIbecameacouple.Ican’tgobackandchangeit.”AsIsaidthewords,I
rememberedthefeelingI’dgotthefirsttimeItookher;likeI’dsharedpartofthe
essenceofmysoulwithher.LikeI’dplantedmyseedinher.

Ikepttalking,tellingherwhatIthoughtsheneededtohear.Tellinghermytruth.I
don’tgiveafuckifJessicahastwinsIwon’tleaveher.Iwasn’ttoohappywithmyself
forbeingsofuckingcareless.I’dalwaysgoneoutofmywaytomakesurethisshit
neverhappened.Inalltheseyearsitneverhas,sowhythefucknow?

Itdidn’tmatter.Itdidn’tchangeathing.Likeeverythingelseinmylife,Iwilltake
controlofthesituationandseethateverythingcameoutright.Jessicamightgether
feelingshurtoncesherealizedthatIwasn’tplanningonhavingalifewithherbecause
ofthebaby,butthat’ssomethingshe’llhavetodealwithonherown.

I’dpromisedtheyounggirlinmyarmstotakecareofher.I’dlainwithher,takenher
virginity.Allofthataddedtowhoshewastome,whatshemeanttomylife,meantI
wouldn’thurtherfortheworld.Notevenformyownblood.Whatafuckingmess.

“Youdon’thaveanymorekidsrunningaroundouttheredoyou?”Therewaslifeinher

voiceagain.I’dgottenthroughtoherafterall.

“Nomisssmartypants.ButIplantomakelotsofbabieswithyou;startingnow.”Her
tensioneasedandshelookedupatmewithalittlelesssadnessinhereyes.

“Iloveyou.”Hereyeswidenedonmine.She’dsaidthewordsmorethanoncebutthis
wasthefirsttimeI’deversaidthemoutloud.Hereyessoftenedwithfreshtearsand
herlipstrembled.“Really?”

“Neverdoubt.”IliftedherchinwithmyfingerandheldhereyeswithmineasI
loweredmylipstohers.

Shedidn’tdenyme,didn’tresist,andthesoftkissImeanttoofferascomfort,became
aninfernoasshewrappedherarmsaroundmedesperately.Irolledoverontopofher,
crushingherintothebed.Myhandsmovedaroundbetweenusandmadequickwork
ofremovingherclothesbeforestraddlinghertoremovemyown.Sheshowedmore
lifeasshesatupandjoinedme,draggingmyzipperdownandreleasingmycock.

“Oh…fuck!”Shewrappedherlipsaroundmycockandsuckedmeintothebackofher
throatwithafewinchestospare.Therewasakindofdesperationtohermovements
andIunderstoodwhenIfeltthetearsdripontomyflesh.“Shh,shh,shh,comehere.”I
pulledmydickoutofhermouthandpulledherintomyarms.

“Youdon’thavetodoanythingtowinmylove,youalreadyhaveit.Lookatme.Jessica
willnevertakemeawayfromyou.Herchildwillnevertakemeawayfromyou.
Nothingwill.You’remine;always.”Shestudiedmyeyesforthetruthandfinallyfound
whatsheneededthere.

Shepulledmyheaddowntohersandspreadherlegsopeninasilentcommandforme
tocometoher.Isuckedgentlyonhertongueandslippedintohersoftheatgently.She
wasn’treadyforme.Ihadn’tgivenhermymouthsoherpussywasextratightaround
mycock.

Iteasedonenipplewithmythumbwhilesucklingtheother,holdingstillinsideher
untilherbodysoftenedandherpussygotwet.OnlythendidIallowmyselftomove
insideher.

SheclutchedatmeasifafraidI’ddisappearandIwrappedherupinmyarmsuntilI
couldfeelallofherpressedagainstme.“I’llneverleaveyou,nevergivethisup,no
matterwhat.”Imadelovetoherthewaysheneededmeto,theonlywayIknewto
healherheart.

Slowly,gently,tenderly,allthewhilewhisperingtoherofmygreatadmiration.“Ilove
yourass,thewayitfitsinmyhands.Yourperfecttitsthatmakemedrool,andthis…”I
plungedintoherpussy,goingdeep.“Sodeep.”

“GivemeababySolomon.”Myeyeswenttohers.EventhoughIsuspectedI’dalready
bredher,thewordsmademycockgrowanextrainchinsideher.“Doyouknowwhat
you’resaying?”Shenoddedherheadshylyandmovedonmycock.

“Mypleasure.”

Iliftedherperfectassinmyhandsandfuckedintoheruntilthetipofmycock
slammedintohercervix.Pullingoutagain,Itookhernipplebetweenmyteethandbit
downwhileslammingpasthercervixandintoherwomb.Iwantedthepaininher
nippletodistractfromtheonemydickwouldmostdefinitelycausedeepinsideher.

Shehowledandherbodycontractedbeneathmine.Ididn’tapologize;mywoman
needstobeabletotakeme,whenever,however,wherever.Oncethepaineasedthe
tearsendedandshefuckedupatme.Hereyesneverleftmine.Sheseducedmewith
theirlightevenasIfuckedher.

Everyonceinawhileshe’dwhisperthosewordsinmyearandmycockwouldspitpre-
cum,deepinsideher.‘BreedmeSolomon’.

Shewasdoingthatshitonpurposeandtogreataffect.PrettysoonIdidn’tneedthe
words,theurgeinmewasstrong.NowitwasmegrowlingintoherearjusthowIwas
goingtobreedhereverychanceIget.IcameharderthanIeverhadinmyfuckinglife.

HerpussygrewextratightanditwasthenIrealizedIhadmyhandsaroundherthroat
andwaschokingherthroughherorgasm.Thesweetpullofhercuntmademycock
stayhardandmyballswerealreadyfillingagain,soIstayedburiedinsideher.
Enjoyingthespasmsofherpussyasshecamecontinuously.

Werolledaroundonthebedinawildfuckthelikesofwhichwehadn’tsharedsofar.It
wasasifwewerebothtryingtoerasetheday’sevents.Ifeltaslightpanginmyheart
becauseIknewitwasn’tover.Knewthatthenextfewmonthsweregoingtobehard
onher.IfhavingherownchildwouldhelpeasethepainthenIwouldgladlybreedher
asoftenassheliked.Aslongasit’swhat’sbestforher.

HerhandsmoveddesperatelyovermybackandchestasIsurgedintoher,oureyes
onceagainlocked.

“IwilltieyoutothisbedandfuckyoueveryhouronthehouruntilIgiveyouwhat
youwant.”Itwasn’tlongbeforeIwasshootingoffinsideheragain.Ileftmycock
burieddeepandkissedherlongandhardasthelastdropofmyseeddrippedinside
her.

“Justincaseitdidn’tworkthattime.”Ipulledoutandthrewhertoherhandsand
kneesimmediately.

Isankintoheropenpinkpussyuntilmyballsslappedagainstherass.“Archyourback
baby.”Iknewthatwastheonlywaytoeasethepainandpressureoftakingmycockso
deepinthisposition.

“That’sitbaby,goodgirl.Nowfuckyourselfonmycock,makemecum.I’mgoingto
cuminyouallnight.You’reboundtobebredbymorning.”Shepulledoffofmylength
untiljustmytipwasleftinsideher,beforetwistingherassandmovingbackdownmy
shaftuntilherasshitmylowerstomach.Oncethereshedidsomekindofrolldance

thingwithherassthatmadeherpussydoamazingthingstomycock.

ShedidthatshitoverandoveragainbeforeIgottiredofherteasingshitandtookover.
Igrabbedherhipsinmyhandsandpulledherbackhardonmycock.She’dstarteda
fireinme,onethatnowburnedoutofcontrol.Idon’tthinkIwouldeverfuckheragain
withoutthethoughtofbreedingherinmyhead.

BythetimeI’dfuckedherthefourthtimewithherridingmycockattheend,itwasfull
darkoutside.Wewerebothsweaty,andoutofbreath,butInoticedthattheshadows
haddisappearedfromhereyes.“Hungry?”Sheshookherheadagainstmychest.

“Let’snotmove.Let’sstayherelikethisallnight.”Ileaneddowntokissherhairand
putmyarmsaroundhermoresecurely.“Iliketheideaofgoingtosleepwithmyscent
inyou,onyou.”Ipulledheruphigheruntilourlipsmetbeforesettlingheronmy
chestagain.

Neitherofussaidanythingforthelongestwhile,bothseeminglylostinourown
thoughts.“Promisemeyou’llletmegiveyoulotsofbabiesAlexandra.”

“Asmanyasyouwant.”Sherubbedmychest.

“Goodgirl.”

Iwasn’thungryeithersowebothlaidthereinsilence,thedayfinallycatchinguptous
aswedriftedoff.

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wasextremelyoverprotectiveofherforthenextcoupleofdays.Itookhertoschool

inthemorningsandpickedherupintheevenings.Sherefusedtoletmeoutofher
sightwhenweweretogether,andwhenshehadtogotoschoolandmeworkshecalled
meeverytimeshegotthechance.

I’dgonetoseeJessicathedayafterherbigannouncement.Itwasanecessaryevilbut
notoneIwaslookingforwardto.Istillwasn’tsurehowIfeltaboutthechildandIhate
tosayitbutIhadn’treallygivenmuchthoughttothebaby.Itdidn’tseemrealyet.

AlexandrawaspissedthatIwasgoingtobeinthesameroomwithmyexandittook
somedoingtocalmherhigh-strungassdown.Iunderstoodhercompletelythough,
especiallywhensheposedthequestionofwhatIwoulddoifthetableswereturned.

Idamnnearchokedthelifeoutofherforaskingmethatshit,andthehardfuckthat
followedputthatshitrightoutofherhead.I’mthinkingsheknewnottoevensuggest
suchathingtomeeveragain.Infact,ittookasoliddayofconstantfuckingtogetthe
pictureoutofmyheadandthebadtastefrommymouth.

Oncesherealizedwhatthatshitdidtome,shedecidedtotorturemewithit.IfI
thoughtforasecondshewasseriousaboutthatshitI’dreallytiehertomybedand
neverletherseethelightofdayagain.Sincethatshitwasallkindsoffuckingillegal,I
satisfiedmyselfwithfuckingherintosubmission.Therewasnomoretalkaboutit.She
wastoobusyscreamingfromgettinghersorepussysoothedbymytongue.

Ihadtokeepherpussystuffedbecausewhenweweren’tfuckingorIwasn’tpleasuring
herwithmytongue,shewasfrettingaboutJessicaandthebaby.Themoretimewent
onthough,themoreheroldassertivenesscameback.OncesheacceptedthatIwasn’t
goingtoleaveherforthechild,sherelaxedandwentbacktohershit.Tryingtorun
me.

ItlookslikeIwasgoingtobespendingthenextninemonthscaughtbetweenahellion
andashewitch.Jessicahadalreadystartedmakingdemands,noneofwhichIplanned

togiveinto.Sheseemedtohaveitallplannedoutwithoutaskingmyopinion.Idon’t
knowwhatworldshewaslivingin,butitwasasifinhermindthebabywipedcleanall
theshitIhatedabouther.Fatfuckingchance.

IhadnodoubtthatIwouldlovemykidwhenheorshewasbornbutIhadtostopher
beforesheembarrassedherself.“I’mnotplanningtoholdyourhandthroughthis
pregnancy,unlessthere’ssomekindofemergencyofcourse.I’vemovedon.Bythe
timeyoutoldmeyouwerepregnantwewerealreadylongover.Idon’tgetwhyyou
thinkthatthat’sgoingtochange.”

“You’llcomearound.Iknowhowmuchyoulovekids.Lookathowwellyou’vetaken
careofyourlittlewardalltheseyears.”Iwantedtowipethatsmirkoffherface.And
whydidIgetthefeelingshewasplayingme?Ididn’tletontoanyofthethoughtsthat
wererunningthroughmyhead,butIdidmakesuretherewasnoquestionofus
becominganitemagain.

“Whateveryouhavegoingoninthatheadofyours,Isuggestyouforgetit.Ihave
someoneinmylifealready,I’vemovedon.”Sheactedasthoughmywordswentin
oneearandouttheother,whichwasfine.Shecoulddowhateverthefuckshewantsit
wasn’tgoingtochangeadamnthingforme.

EvenmomhadraisedthequestionofwhetherornotIwasgoingtomarryJessicaand
givethekidmyname.Likemefuckingmyselfoverwasgoingtobeanygoodforthe
kid.Shewouldn’tbethefirstsinglemotherintheworldanditwasn’tlikeIwasn’tgoing
totakecareofmykid.Ijustdidn’tplanonhavinganythingtodowiththemother.

Iwon’thurtAlexandra,andshe’smadeitprettyclearthatthelessinteractionIhad
withJessicathebetter.Sinceshewasalreadyrawfromthepregnancy,Iwasbending
overbackwardstopleaseher.SoItoldJessicainnouncertaintermsthatthephone
callsatallhoursweren’tgoingtofly.She’sbeenringingmyphoneoffthehook,which
wasmakingAlexandrarabid.

You’venotseenanythinglikeateenagegirlinaragewhileridingyourdick.Cometo
thinkofit,someofourbestfuckscameafteroneofJessica’scalls.MaybeIshould
rethinkmystanceonthat.Thenagain,nah,Idon’tneedthefuckingaggravation.PlusI
didn’tlikeherbeinghurt.Itwastothepointwhereshetensedupeverytimethephone
rang.

SoIhadahearttoheartwithJessicaandlaiddowntherulesofengagementifyouwill.
Shewasn’ttoohappyaboutthatandfromtheshitshewassayingasIleft,Igottheidea
thatshehadn’tgivenuponherdreamofherandIhavingahappylittlefamily
together.

ShebroughtupAlexandrabutIshutherdownbeforeshewenttoofar.Nowayinhell
wasIgoingtodiscussmywomanwithher.IfinallyadmittedtomyselfthatIwas
pissedthatshewasgoingtohavemykid.It’sthereasonI’dalwaysusedprotection
withallthewomenItooktomybedinthepast.Ididn’twantjustanyonebearingmy
seed.Afuckwasonething,myprogenyquiteanother.ThefactthatIneveronce

thoughtofputtingonarubberwithAlexandrasaysalot.

IprobablyshouldcarehowJessicafeltcarryingmychildwhileIwasinlovewith
someoneelseandhadnoplansonleavingher,butIdidn’thaveitinmetobesucha
damnhypocrite.Ihatedlikefuckthatshehadanypartofme,andwasnotlooking
forwardtothenexteighteenyearsofhavingtodealwithher.

AlexandrahadoncemadethecommentthatIdidn’tknowJessica,butIknewenough.
NothingIcouldn’thandle.AslongasshekepthershitawayfromAlexandrawewere
allgood.

Herlatestcallwasjustafewshorthoursagowhenshecalledtoinvitemetodinnerto
talk.Iguesshermanytripstomyofficewhereshewasrepeatedlyturnedawayhad
finallygottentoher.Ideclinedofcourse.BecauseIlikemyballsjustwheretheyare,
andthehellionhadthreatenedthemwithgraveharmifIevenlookedinJessica’s
directionwithoutherthere.

Shewasafraidalotandtryingtohideitfromme,butIknewhertoowell.Shewas
tryingtobebraveandmature,butshecouldn’thidethefactthateachtimethechild
wasmentioneditbrokeherheart.

TherewasnothingintheworldIcoulddoaboutthat,soItriedevenhardertogiveher
allofme.ItseemedtobeworkingfornowandImeantokeepitthatway.Ijustneedto
keepthatshewitchatarm’slengthuntilafterthebabywasborn,andthenwe’llsee
whatneededtobedone.

ALEXANDRA

should’veknownthatsomethinglikethiswouldhappen.It’salwaysbeenthiswayin

mylife.Firstmymom,thenmydadandstepmom.EveryoneIloveisalwaystaken
fromme.NowI’mgoingtoloseSolomonjustwhenwefoundeachotheraslovers.It’s
justnotfair.

Idon’tknowhowmuchlongerIcankeepupthisfront,ofbravery,butI’lldoitforhim,
eventhoughIfeellikeI’vealreadylost.Thosefewweekswehadinthebeginningwill
alwaysbemymostcherishedmemories.ThatwastheonlytimeIhadhimallto
myself.Nomatterwhathappensnow,I’llalwaysbesharinghimwithherandher
child.

It’smeanandI’llprobablyburninhellforthinkingit,butIhatethemboth.Idon’t
wanttosharehimwithanyone,he’smine-he’salwaysbeenmine,sinceIwaseleven
yearsoldandheheldmethatfirsttimewhileIweptformydad.

Hedidn’tknowit,butmyyoungimpressionablehearthadfallenathisfeetwayback
then.OfcourseIlovedhimwithaninnocentlove.Itwasenoughjusttobeclose,todo
everythingtogether.Backthenhekepthiswomenawayfromthehouseanditwasa
whilebeforeIknewheevendated.

IrememberthefitIhadthatfirsttimeafterpickingupthephoneandthefemaleon
theotherendwascooingsomenotsoinnocentthingsintohisear.I’drandowntothe
gardenandbeatmyhandsagainstthedirtuntiltheybled.ItwastheonlywayIknew
howtoreleasethepain.

SolomontookonelookatmeasIcameinandwhateverplanshe’dhadwiththatloose
womanwereforgottenashetookmeupthestairsandtookcareofmehimself.I’m
ashamedtosaythatafterthatincidentItriedthesamestuntindifferentvariations
fromtimetotime.

I’mnotsureheevercaughton,butIstartedtofeelguiltytheolderIgotandtheshame
wasmorethanIcouldstandsoIstopped.Itwasthefactthathegavesomuchwithout

question,andhereIwassabotaginghislife.Iwassmartenoughtoknowtherecould
neverbeanythingbetweenus.FromallthetalkIheardaroundtheschoolyard,Iknew
thatmenandwomendidthingsthatlittlegirlshadnobusinessevenknowingabout.

SoinsteadIheldmydreamsinmyheart,lookingforwardtothedaywhenIwouldbe
oldenoughforhimtonoticeme.Itwasn’teasyhavingtopretendthatIlikedhis
girlfriends,andIlivedinconstantfearofhimmarryingoneofthem.Butoneinnocent
questiontograndmahadputmyfearstorest.I’dsimplyaskedhadshemetthelatest
girlfriend,IthinkIwasfourteenorfifteenatthetime.

Heranswerthathe’donlyintroducethegirlhewasgoingtomarrytohisfamilyand
thatnoshe’dneverofficiallymetanyofthewomenhe’ddatedsincehebecameaman,
hadlightenedmyheartconsiderably.

OfcourseafterthatIkeptacloseeyeonhisaffairsanduntilJessicaIneverfeltthatfear
inthepitofmygutagain.Icouldtellthathewasfondofher,ifnotthathewasreadyto
startafamilyofhisown.TheoldmerearedheruglyheadandIwaswillingtodo
anythingtotakehimawayfromher.

Ididn’tknowthefirstthingaboutwinningaman’saffections,andsoonedayIbroke
downandtoldgrandmawhathadbeeninmyheartforever.Ofcoursesheshotdown
theidea,butshedidn’tdashallhope.Shewasright,Iwastooyoung,butIwasafraid
thatifIwaitedmuchlongerJessicawouldgetherhooksintohimandI’dbeleftall
aloneagain.

HadJessicabeenabetterpersonImaybewould’vefeltanounceofremorseforgoing
afterherman,butI’dseenhertruefaceoncetoooften.Likethewayshe’dsneerand
bullymewhenSolomonwasn’tintheroom,butoncehereturnedshe’dbeallsmiles
againandshowinganinterestinhowIwasdoinginschool.

Shewasforevertreatingmelikeachildinfrontofhim,likeanyseventeenyearold
wantedtobepattedontheheadandspokendowntolikeshewasanimbecile.Ihidmy
hateofherwell,butI’dfollowedgrandma’srules,I’ddoneassheaskedandmyyear
wasalmostup.

That’swhenwecameupwiththeplantoseducehim,startingwiththenightofmy
birthdayparty.EverythingI’ddonesincethenhadledtothis.Wewerehappy,heloved
measmorethanjusttheorphanhe’dtakenin.Helovedmeasawoman,hiswoman.
BeingwithhimwastentimesbetterthanI’deverimagined,andIhadnodoubtwe
would’vegoneontohaveahappylifeifnotforher.

NowIwastrappedinthehousealonewithher.IfIdidn’tknowbetter,I’dswearshe’d
beenwatchingtoseewhenSolomonlefttomakehermove.He’dbarelyclearedthe
drivewaywhensheshowedup.Thestaffhadalreadygonesincewewerehaving
dinnerwithhismom,andhe’dleftonalastminuteerrandwhileIwassupposedtobe
gettingdressedforthenight.

“Itoldyouhe’snothere,maybeyoushouldcallhim.”Likeyoudoeverydamnhour.
You’dthinkshewasthefirstwomantocarryachildthewayshecarrieson.She’snot

evenshowingyetandalreadyherdemandsaremounting.

“Actually,I’mheretoseeyou.”Shemovedaroundtheroomrunningherhandsover
theexpensiveantiqueslikeshewaspricingthemforauction.

“Me,why?”Shehadn’tsaidanythingasyetbutIwasprettysureshehadtoknowthat
wewerenowacouple.Thewholetownknewforcryingoutloud.Wassheheretotell
metobackoff?I’dthoughtofthatonce,foralloftwoseconds.

Ididn’twanttodeprivehischildofhislovehavingexperienceditmyselffirsthand.But
Ihadnodoubthecouldlovethechildwellenoughifheweren’tmarriedtothemother
whichI’msureiswhatshewasafter.

“YouaretakinguptoomuchofSolomon’stime.WiththebabycomingIneedhimat
myside.You’reabiggirlyoucantakecareofyourself.Surelyyoucanseehowyour
clingingtohimlikealovesickpuppyismakingithardforhimtobethereforhischild.”

EachwordwaslikeadaggerinmyheartbutIdidn’tletitshow.Ihadnoanswerforher
sokeptmymouthshut.IknowwhatSolomontoldme,knewwhathewanted.Butit
wasobviousthatshewantedsomethingfardifferent.Shewasspeakingasthoughthey
weregoingtohavealifetogether,andIwastoounsureofmyself,ofournew
relationshiptosayotherwise.

Iwanteddesperatelytobelieveallthosethingshewhisperstomeaswemakelove.
Thereassurancesthathe’smadeonlylastaslongaswewerewrappedtogetherkeeping
therestoftheworldatbay.ButonceIwasawayfromhimagain,thefearsanddoubts
returnedandIwasbacktowhereIstarteduntilthenexttimewemadelove.

ShewaswatchingmenowandIwasbeyonduncomfortablealoneintheroomwith
her.Iwasabouttomakeupanexcusetoleavewhenhewalkedin.Ihadn’tevenheard
thefrontdooropen.

“Excuseme.”Istartedtoleavebuthegrabbedmyarmandpulledmebacktohisside.
“Iwasn’texpectingtoseeyouhereJessica,iseverythingokaywiththebaby?”Hereyes
followedourhandswheretheywerejoinedandIsawalookofangercomeoverher
face.

“We’refine,Ijustwantedtoseethefatherofmychildisthereaproblem?”He
squeezedmyhandandIlookedupathisfacebuttheangerwasn’tshowingthere
either.

“I’djustpreferyoucalledaheadnexttime.Isthatall?AlexandraandIhaveplansthis
evening.”Ohshedidn’tlikethatatall.Iheldmybreathandwaitedforhernextmove.

“AskhertoleavetheroomIhavesomethingtosaytoyouthat’snotforherears.”He
lookedfromhertomebeforekissingmyforeheadandplacingacomfortinghandon
mysideasheleanedintometowhisperinmyear.

“Gowaitformebabydoll,Iwon’tbeaminute.”Iletgoofhishandandlefttheroom
withoutabackwardglance,butofcourseIstoodjustoutofsightsoIcouldeavesdrop.

“Idon’tlikethatthetwoofyouseemtobegettingevencloserthanbefore.What’swith
thehandholdingandcutekisses?Anyonewouldthinkyoutwowereanitem.”Like
youdidn’tknowthat.Whatasnake.

“MyrelationshipwithAlexandraisnoneofyourconcern.”

“Ibegtodiffer.Iamcarryingyourchildafterall.TheheirtotheMagnadynasty.”I
couldalmosthearthegleeinhervoiceandwantedtothrowup.

“You’recarryingmychildyes,butyouandIarenevergoingtobethehappycouple
youhaverunningaroundinyourhead.Iwaswaitingfortherighttimetosaythis,but
sinceyouwanttoforcetheissuenow’sasgoodatimeasany.”

“Iwillcareforthechildofcourse,butasformarriageoranythingelsebetweenyou
andI,that’snevergoingtohappen.Astoyourchildbeingmyheir,thejury’sstillout
onthat.”MychestswelledwithsomuchprideandloveinthatmomentIcould’veran
intotheroomandkissedhisfeet.ButJessicawasn’tfinished.

“Whatdoyoumean?Ofcoursewe’regettingmarried.Irefusetobringachildintothis
worldwithoutmarriage.Thinkhowthatwouldlooktoourpeers.WhyI’dbethelaugh
ofthetown.”

“Idon’tloveyou.IthinkyouknowmewellenoughtoknowIwon’tdoanythingIdon’t
wantto,nomatterwhothinkswhat.”

“We’lljustseeaboutthat.Whatdoyouplantodo?Areyougoingtomarryyourward?”
Iheldmybreathasshelaughed.“Yes.”Myeyesopenedwideandmyheadsnappedup
inshock.Mymouthformedtheword‘what’butnosoundcame.

“Youcan’tbeserious.”

“Very.She’sthewomanIlove.Iguessyoususpectedasmuch,that’swhyyoumadeall
thosecommentscomingontotheendwhenyouandIwerestilltogether.Wellnow
youknow.”

“Itcan’tbe,you…whatwouldpeoplesay?Whataboutyourfriends?Whataboutthe
business?Doyouthinkanyonewillstandforthis?Itwouldbeascandal…”

“Youknowbetterthanthat.”

“Ifyoudothis,Iwillbeforcedtoabortthischild.”

Mymouthfellopeninsickshock.Theroomwassilentforthelongesttimeafterher
threatandIheldmybreathinfearofwhathewoulddonext.Ifeltlost;she’dwon.No
waywasSolomongoingtoletherdestroyhisbaby.IturnedandwalkedawaybeforeI
couldhearwhatelsewasbeingsaid.Whatwastheuse?I’msureshe’dsaidtheone
thingthatwasboundtobringhimtoheel.

TearscloudedmyvisionasIstruggleddownthehallwayandupthestairstomyroom,
andthrewmyselfdownonthebedinagony.MyheartwasinamillionpiecesasIcried
intomypillow.

IguessIalwaysknewhewouldn’tbemine;hewastooperfect.Iwasthedaughterofa
drugaddictwho’dsoldherselftogethigh.WhatevermademethinkthatIwouldfind
lastinghappinesswithsomeonelikehim?

AllthesehorriblethingswentthroughmyheadasIimaginedhowhe’dbreakthenews
tomethathehadtoletmegoforthesakeofhischild.Iwastemptedtorunbeforethat
happened,butmypromisetohimthatIwouldneverputhimthroughthatagainkept
methere.Waitinginsteadforhimtocomeanddestroymywholeworld.

SOLOMON

lookedatthewomaninfrontofmeanddideverythingIcouldtokeepmyhands

fromgoingaroundherneck.“It’syourbodyofcourse,you’refreetodoasyou
choose.”Icouldseemyanswerwasn’ttheoneshewasexpecting.

“What’reyousaying?Thatyoudon’tcarewhathappenstoyourownfleshandblood?”
Myexpressiondidn’tchangeandneitherdidmystance.“Ifyouthinkforonesecond
thatIwouldletyoudictatemylifeyou’velostyourfuckingmind.”

“Dictateyourlife?We’retalkingaboutyourchild,apartofyou.Howcouldyoubeso
callous?”

“Youthreatened,Ianswered.I’vetoldyouinnouncertaintermsthatIwillnotdestroy
mylifeforyou,andmarryingyouwillmostcertainlybedestructive.Iwillnotmarry
outofnecessity.TherewillonlybeoneMrs.SolomonMagnainthislifetimeandshe’s
it.”IpointeduptowhereIsupposedAlexandrahadgone.

“Thisis…”Sheclutchedatherchestandherbreathingbecameshortandraspy.
“ShouldIcallanambulance?”Ifshewasabetteractressshewould’velearnedhowto
hidethespiteinhereyes.ItwasbecauseIknewhersowellthatIknewtoalways
watchhereyesifIwantedtoknowthetruth.

ShestraightenedupasIheadedforthephoneasiftocallforhelp.“Noneed,justa
slightpain,itwillpass.”Yes,usethechildyoujustthreatened,togetmetobendtoyour
will.

“Youmadeyourplay,timetogo.”Iheldmyhandoutforhertoleavetheroom,none
oftheburningangershowinginmymovements.

ShelefttheroominahuffandIwaiteduntilIheardthefrontdoorslambeforepicking
upthephonetocallmylawyer.

“Harry,Ineedyoutogetaninjunctionagainstsomeone.”

“Whoandwhatfor?”

“JessicaPaine,sheplanstoabortmykidIwantherstopped.Youhaveuntiltomorrow.”
IhungupandwentinsearchofAlexandra.Iwasn’tsureyethowIfeltaboutmy
unbornchildbutIknewIwasn’tabouttostandbyandletherdestroyit.

MaybeIshouldstartproceedingstotakethechildafteritwasborn.Sheobviouslyhad
nousesforitexcepttotrapmeintomarriagewhichshenowknewwasn’tgoingto
happen.

IgaveitsomethoughtasIwentinsearchofmywomanwhowasn’twaitingformeby
thedoorlikeI’dexpected.Icanonlyimaginewhatwasgoingthroughherhead.I
wasn’tabouttoletthatassspoilanotherdaythough.

“Alexandra,whereareyoumylove?”Itookthestairstwoatatimeandwenttoour
room.Shewasn’tthereandacheckofthebathroomcameupempty.“Alexandra.”I
heardsomethingasIpassedheroldroomandlookedin.

“Whatareyoudoinginhere?Mom’swaiting,comeon.”ShepickedherheadupandI
sawthatshe’dbeencrying.Herconstanttearstoldmethatwordswerenotenough,
withheronlyactionswoulddo.Goodgirl!Wordsonlygivecomforttofools.

“Arewestillgoing?”Shesniffledandwipedthelastofthetearsfromhercheeks.

“Ofcourse,wepromised.”

“ButIthought…”

“Youthoughtwhatsweetheart?”

Ipickedherupfromthebedandheadedforthestairs.Icarryheraroundnowmore
thanIdidwhenshewasachild,mybaby.

“Nevermind.”Sherestedherheadonmyshoulderandwrappedherarmstighter
aroundmyneck.

“YouthoughtthatsinceJessicawashereIwouldchangeourplans.Itoldyou,that’snot
goingtohappen.Havealittlefaith.”

INNER

MOM

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helpedsettleheralittleandbythetimeweleftshewassmilingagain.

Thatnightourlovingwassweet,soft,tender.Insteadofthehurriedpoundinglustwe
usuallyshared,Itookmytimeandundressedher,stoppingaftereachbitoffleshwas
revealedtopayhomagetoherbeauty.

Sherespondedjustasbeautifullytomyministrationsassheeverdid.“Playwithmy
cockwhileIsuckyournipples.”HerhandcamedownbeneathmewhereIwaslying
overherwithmyarmsholdingmeup.

AtthefirsttouchofherwarmpalmonmyhotfleshIlickedhernippleuntilitbeaded,
beforetakingitfullyintomymouth.Herhandtuggedatmycockuntilitgrewharder,

longerandIpressedhernippletotheroofofmymouthbeforedroppingitforitstwin.

“Releaseme.”HerhandfelttoofuckinggoodandIwasn’treadytocumyet.Whenboth
hernippleswerehardandredfrommyteeth,Ilickedmywaydownhercentertoher
pussy.Thescentwasalreadyinmynoseandmytonguecameawaywetwiththefirst
touch.

“I’mgoingtomakeyoucuminmymouthfirstbeforeIfuckyou.”Herpussywas
alreadyinneedfromthenippleplayandmyteasingherclitwithmyfingerswhile
drivingmytongueintoherpussysetheroffimmediately.

Ilovethewayshegrabsmyheadandpullsmeharderintohercunt.That’swhenI
knowthatit’smycocksheneeds.Thattheplacedeepinsideherwhereonlymycock
canreachisreadytofeelme.

Tonight,though,therewasnorush.IateherpussytotwomoreorgasmsuntilI’dhad
myfillofhersweetpussyjuiceandmycockwasnolongerwillingtowaittobefed.
“Watchmepierceyou.”Sheliftedherheadandlookeddownbetweenherspreadpale
thighswheremycockwasnosingaroundtheentrancetoherpussy.

IwatchedherasshewatchedmeasIslidmycocktorturouslyslowintoheruntilIhit
bottom.“Umph.”Hereyesflewtomine,thepowerofmythruststartlingherafterthe
tendercarewithwhichI’dbeentreatingherthusfar.

ItookherhandsinmineandpressedthemdownonthebedasIpulledoutandsurged
backin,eachtimegoingtothedoorofherwomb.Mystrokeswereslow,steady,but
eachonewentdeep.IwantedhertofeelmeevenwhenIwasn’tinher.Tofeelthepain
frommefuckinghertoodeepevenwhenweweredonehere.Ifshecanfeelmelike
that,thenmaybeshewon’tforgetthatIwashersasmuchasshewasmine.

“Thisismine,youaremine.Onlydeathcanmakemegivethisup.Iraisedyou,fed
you,clothedyou;shelteredyou.You’vealwaysbelongedtomeinonewayoranother
sinceyoucametome,andyou’llalwaysbemineuntilyoudrawyourlastbreath.No
matterwhatshesaidtoyoubeforeIcame,shewillnevertakeyourplaceinmyheart.
Norwillherchild.Yourchildwillbemyheir.”

Herpussytightenedandherbodyarchedoffthebedasshecame.StillIdidn’tspeed
up,Iwasn’tdoneshowingher.I’dseenthetearsandalthoughI’dignoredthem,I
hadn’tforgotten.AftertonightIdidn’twanthertoeverdoubtagain.

Ireleasedoneofherhands,theoneclosettomypillow.“Reachunderthepillow
babydoll.”ShewasconfusedatfirstbutdidasIasked.Hereyesflewtominewhenshe
feltwhatI’dhiddenthere.“Giveittome.”Sheremovedtheringandhelditouttome
withatremblinghand.

Itooktheringbetweenmyteethandgesturedforhertoliftherringfinger.Islipped
theringfrombetweenmyteethontoherfingerandpusheditdownandintoplacewith
mylipswhilefuckingintoherniceandslow.

Iclaspedherhandagainandthistimebroughtbothourhandstomychestovermy
heart.“Marryme.”Shethrewherlegsaroundmeandfoughttogetherhandsfrom
underminesoshecouldhugmetoher.“Yes-yes-yes.”

Igrinnedwhensheusedherlegstothrowmetomyback.Mycockwaslodgedsodeep
inheritneverlefther.Onceshehadmewhereshewantedme,sheplantedherhands
onmychestandrodemycock.

Iheldhertitsinmyhandsandplayedwiththemasshebouncedupanddownonmy
cockuntilshegrewtired.Thenherheadfelltomychestandshemovedherhipsin
smallcircles,workingmycockintoafrenzy.

IpulledherhandtomyfaceandbittheringonherfingerasIthrewhertoherback
andtookoverthefucking.“Areyouconvincednow?Doyoufinallyunderstandwhat
youmeantome?”ShenoddedherheadyesandIwasfinallyfreetofuckher.

Iheldherwaistbetweenbothhandsandpulledherpussyonandoffmycock
slammingintoherhardenoughtomakehermagnificenttitsshake.“Playwithyourclit
forme.”ShefriggedherclitwhileIfuckedherwithdeephardpunishingstrokes.

Herscreamsweremusictomyearsandspurredmeontogodeeper.Ibentherdouble
withherlegsbehindherearsandpiledroveintoherpussyuntilherscreamsbecame
gruntsandherpussyneverstoppedjuicingallovermycock.JustwhenIfeltmysap
rise,Ifoundhermouthandshovedmytongueinasmyballsoffloadedinhercunt.

“Fuckyes...Ughhhhhh.”Ilostallreasonforasplitsecond.Herassneverstopped
movingandIneverstoppedcumming.IstrokedthelastofmyseedintoherasIlooked
downintohereyes.“Iloveyou,onlyyou.”Nowthetearssheshedweretearsofjoy
andmyownpainwaseasedsomewhat.Ican’tbeartoseeherhurt.Iwilleraseevery
hurttoheraslongasIlive.

SOLOMON

ythefollowingafternoonmylawyerhadcomethroughandJessicahadbeen

served.Iwaitedtohearfromherandwasn’tsurprisedwhensheshowedupatmy
officeinaragingstorm.WhatwouldevermakeherbelievethatIwouldtiemyselfto
someonelikeher?Someonewholackedallselfcontrol.Whosespiteandangerwas
alwaysthereforalltosee.

EvenAlexandraasyoungassheis,hadmorestrengthinherthanthisonewho’dbeen
raisedtobemorecircumspect.OfcourseAlexhadbeentrainedinallthewaysofa
societalheiress,butitwasherinnercorethatshonethroughinallherways.Sheknew
betterthantoactlikeafishwifeinpublicforone.Shealsofearedmycoldanger,which
shehadonlyseenbutonce,sosheknewbetterthantoputmeinanembarrassing
situation.

IsatbackandletJessicarantandraveforfiveminutesuntilshewounddown.“What
exactlyisitthatyoufindfaultwith?Theinjunction,orthecontract?”I’dhadHarry
drawupacontract,whichIthoughtwasfair.Thechildwouldreceivetwenty-five
thousandamonthafterheorshewasbornandapaternitytestprovedthatIwas
indeedthefather.

JustbecauseIhadn’tcomerightoutandquestionedherdidn’tmeanIwasacomplete
dupe,butitwasbeneathmetoaccuseanywomanofsuchathing.I’dratherlettime
andscienceprovethepoint.

“Howdareyouaskforapaternitytest?Youknowverywellthatyouweretheonlyone
Iwaswith.”LikeIknowwhatthefuckyoudowhenI’mnotaround.Wherethefuck
didshegettheideathatItrustedher?Didsheevenknowmejustalittlebit?

“Iknowthatitwassixweekslaterwhenyoushowedupwiththenewsofyour
pregnancy.Ialsoknowthatalotcanhappeninsixweeks.What’stheproblem
anyway?Ifthechildismine,noharmdoneandheorshewillbewelltakencareof.”

“Iwon’tacceptit…it’s…”

“What,isitnotenough?Shallweletthecourtsdecide?I’vebeentoldbymylawyers
thatI’mbeingtoogenerous.Ihaveitongoodauthoritythatthecourtswouldcutthe
amountinhalf.”

“Butyou’reworthmillions.”

“Yes,Iam.Butyou’renotmywife,thechildwasconceivedwithoutmyconsentand
thebottomline;mymillionsasyousayarealltiedupinthebusiness.Soyouseethisis
thebestIcanofferyou.”

I’msureshewasexpectingmetopayherwayforthenexteighteenyears.I’dalready
heardthroughthegrapevinethatherfamilywasintrouble.Theirbusinesswassinking
fasterthantheTitanic.NoneofwhichIgaveagooddamnabout.OfcourseIcould
affordahellofalotmore,butherreactionwasverytelling.

“Soifyourfundsarealltiedupasyousayhowwereyouabletoaffordsuchan
expensivecarforyourward?”Ididn’tevenanswerherassbecauseobviouslyshe’d
losthermindsincewepartedcompany.

“Wasthereanythingelse?Ihaveatonofmeetingslineduptoday.Youcansignthe
contractornotthechoiceisyours;goodbye.”Justthentroublewalkedin.Eithershe’d
buggedmeorshehadasixthsensewhereJessicawasconcerned.

AfterI’dputmyringonherfingerlastnightshe’ddoneacompletethreesixty.It’slike
shewaswaitingforthatonethingtoprovetoherthatIwassincereinmyfeelingsfor
her.ThatevenknowingthebabywascomingIwasstillseriousaboutnotlettingher
go.

“OhhiJessica,how’sthebaby?”Shecameintotheroomandaroundmydesk.I
watchedherwithanindulgenthalfsmileonmyface.Shehadthatgleaminhereye.
TheoneIknewmeantshewasabouttodosomethingfacetious,andshedidn’t
disappoint.

Oncearoundmydesksheloweredherheadandhereyesdaredmetoturnheraway.I
liftedmylipsuntiltheyreachedhersandtheharshintakeofbreathfromacrossthe
roomalmostmademesnicker.

Whenshewasthroughwiththekisssheplacedherhandonmyshoulder,theonewith
theringIwassureJessicacouldn’tmiss.IlookedoveratJessicawholookedlikeshe’d
seenaghost.HerfacehadgonepaleandshelookedfrommetoAlexandrabefore
stormingoutoftheroomthewayshecamein.

Iturnedtothehellionatmysidewithafakefrown.Iwasproudasfuckofher.“Why
areyoumakingmylifehard?”Ilookeddownatherhandasitleftmyshoulderand
moveddowntocovermydick.“Ithoughtyoulikedithard.”

“Youknowthat’snotwhatImeant.Thatnut’sgoingtoretaliatesomehow.You’rea
verynaughtygirl.”Ipulledherdownonmylapandsankmytongueintohermouth
whilemyhandcoveredherbreast.

“Sexagreeswithyou,yourbreastarefuller.Letmesee.”Ipulledhershirtopenbefore
shecouldswaymeandswoopeddowntotakeherplumpnipplebetweenmyteeth.
“Solomon,there’repeopleoutsideyourofficewaitingtoseeyou.”

“Youshouldathoughtofthatbeforeyoustartedthis.”Myhandwentunderherskirtto
findher.Itonlytooktwofingerssinkingintoherheattogethertoforgetthatshewas
abouttogetfuckedinmyofficewithpeoplemillingaroundoutside.

“Anytime,anyplace,anyway.Releaseme.”Shefoughtwithmyzipperandwonjustas
Itoreherpantiesandthrewthemtothefloor.Ifingerfuckedheruntilshewaswet
enoughtotakemebeforesittingheronmycock.

Shemadeacutelittlesighandburiedherfaceinmyshoulder,likeshethoughtthiswas
goingtobeniceandslowlikethenightbeforehadstarted.Ihadnewsforher.Her
assertivenessbeforemademewanttoravishher.Iletherridemycockforthefirst
fiveminutesuntilherpussyloosenedupalittlearoundmycock,beforegettingtomy
feetandlayingherbackacrossmydesk.

Iliftedherlegstomyshouldersanddroveintoheruntilherbodyliftedoffthewood
beneathherandIhadtocoverhermouthtoholdbackherscreams.Nowordswere
said,wespokewithoureyesasIdrilledmycockintoherlittleteenagepussyuntilher
eyescrossed.

Whenshebitmyhandhardenoughtotaketheskinoff,Itookitawayandfedhermy
tonguewhileherpussycontractedaroundmeinonemassiveorgasm.Thepullofher
pussydrewmyseedfrommynutsandIgroanedmyreleaseintohermouth.

Whenwewerebothabletotalkagain,Iliftedheroffthedeskandpickedupher
shreddedunderwearandstuffeditinmypocketbeforestraighteningmyselfup.
“You’reeitheranexhibitionist,oryoulikedsockingittoJessica.Eitherway,thatwas
oneamazingfuck.NowgetouttahereandletmegetbacktoworkI’llseeyouathome
later.Whatthehellareyoudoingoutofschoolanyway?”

“Wehadhalfaday.Didn’tyoureadthenoteIbroughthomeuncleSol?”Whata
fuckingtease.“Getouttahere.Younevergavemeanydamnnote.”

“Ohyes,Iforgot.YoujumpedmeassoonasIwalkedinthedoorthatdayandI
completelyforgot.Sheblewmeakissandwaltzedoutthedoorthelittleminx.

ALEXANDRA

GOSH

,thatwaspriceless.Icouldn’thaveplanneditbettermyself.Ihadnoideashe

wouldbethere.SchoolletoutearlyandinsteadofgoinghomealoneIthoughtI’ddrop
inonhimfirst.Iwasstillridinghighfromthenightbefore,andtheringonmyfinger.

I’dhadtoansweralotofquestionsaboutitallday,butthemoreIansweredthemore
ateaseIbecame.Thefactthatmostofmyfriendsthoughtitwassexythatwewerein
lovehelped.Iknewhalfofthemhadacrushonhim,butI’dneverletontomyfeelings
withanyofthem.Nowtheyknewthathewasmine.

Someweregreenwithenvy,buteventheywerehappyforme.Thoughtheyweren’t
shyabouttellingmetheywishwecouldtradeplaces.

Iaccepteditallasfriendlybanter.Solomonwasafterallaveryhandsomeman.Any
womanwouldwanttocallhimherown.Onelookfromthosepiercingblueeyeswould
makeanyfemalefeelweak.Thefactthathe’ssocompletelyunconventional,withhis
shoulderlengthhairandhisairofreservedcoolness.He’smyownpersonaldream.No
wonderJessicarefusestogiveup.

WhenIfirstsawherinhisofficeIwashalfreadytobolt.ButIremindedmyselfofall
he’dsaidlastnight,felttheweightoftheringonmyfinger,anditgavemetheboldness
Ineededtostepintotheroom.NowI’mgladIdid

ThephonebuzzedwithatextjustasIgotintomycar.Iknewmysecuritywasbehind
mesoIwavedtothemasIturnedthekeybeforereadingthescreen.Ihadn’theard
fromthisparticularpersoninawhile.NotsincethedayafterI’dbeenleftstandingona
sidewalkinadangerouspartoftown.

She’dexplaineditawayashavinggivenmethewrongaddressbymistakeandI
acceptedherexcuse.WhiteRabbitissomeoneI’dmetonline.Fromsomeofthethings
she’dsaidIthinkshe’ssomeoneinmycircle,butsherefusestotellmewho.Nowshe’s
invitingmeshopping.

Thestoreshementionedwasn’tonSolomon’s‘Don’t’list,andtheideaofbuying
somethingniceandsexytosurprisehimwithtonightsoldmeontheplan.Icalledthe
leaderofmyteamandtoldherwhereIwasheadedandtookoffforthemall.

Ofcoursetheplacewascrawlingwithteenagerssincealltheschoolswereoutearly
andIevensawafewpeopleIknew.Iheadedforthestoreandnotseeingher,she’d
toldmewhatshewouldbewearing;Iperusedtheracksandshelvesuntilsheshowed
up.

IfoundsomethingIlikedjustasanothertextcamethrough.‘Whereareyou?’itsaid.I
answeredandwastoldthatshewasalreadyinthedressingroomandthatIshould
comethere.Ididn’tthinkanythingofit.

SureIhadn’tmetherasyet,butIwasexpectingtofindoneofmyfriendswaitingfor
mebackthere.We’llhaveagoodlaughaboutallthethingswe’dsharedintextandI’d
haveanewfriend,someoneI’dalreadyconfidedin.

Thedressingroomwasn’ttoocrowdedwhenIwalkedinandtheattendantwasjust
leaving.“I’llberightback,Ihavetofindsomethinginadifferentsizeforacustomer.”
SheleftandIwalkeddowntheaisle.

Thestallattheveryendwasoccupied;shemustbeinthere.IwasalreadysmilingasI
walkedoverandknockedonthedoor.“WhiteRabbit,areyouinthere?”Thedoor
openedslightlyandIcouldn’tseewhowasbehindit.

MyhandwasgrabbedandIwaspulledinsideandjustbeforeIcouldaskwhatthehell,
somethingwasthrownovermyhead.Istartedtostrugglebuttherewasastrong
pungentscentofsomethingawfulthatburnedmyeyesandnose.Afterthefirstblow,
everythingwentdark.

“S

SOLOMON

ir,we’vegotaproblem.”I’djustendedonemeetingandwasgettingreadyforthe
nextwhenmyphonewentoff.Ihadn’treadthescreenbelievingitwasAlexandra,

asshewasnowinthehabitofcallingmetoteasemeunmercifully.

Shehadalotoftricksuphersleevethatone.SheknewthatIcouldn’tleavetheoffice
justyet,soherthingwastogetmehotandbotheredsoIcoulddevourherwhenIgot
home.

Thewordswerelikeicewaterthrownovermyhead.Itcooledmyardorimmediately.
“Whatdoyoumean?”Itwastheheadofherteam,sotheproblemmustinvolveher.
“Alexandrawentshopping.Wefollowedherintothestorebutstayedbackwhenshe
wentintothedressingroom.Wehadn’tseenanyonegoinorout,exceptthestore
clerk.”

“Whatareyoutryingtotellme?Stopbeatingaroundthebush.”Iwasalreadyonmy
feetwithmyheartinmythroat.

“She’sbeenhurt.Someoneattackedherinthedressingroom.”

“Howbad,whereisshe?”Icouldn’tbreathe.

“Wetookhertothehospitalsir.”

Ilefttheofficeatarunanddidn’tsparemysecretaryaglancewhenshecalledafter
me.

Igottothehospitalintwentyminutes.Twentyofthelongestminutesofmylife.Oneof
herteamwaswaitingatreceptionformeandtookmeuptotheroomwhereshewas
beingtended.“Howisshe?”

“She’scomingaround.Shewasoutofitwhenwefoundher.Itlooksliketheyused
chloroformorsomethingstronger.Thescentwasstillintheairwhenwefoundher.”I
spedtowardstheroomwhereadoctorwasstillleaningoverher.Therewasabandage
wrappedaroundherheadandmyfirstsightofherfacemademeseered.

Iturnedbacktoherteam.“Findwhodidthis.”TheyleftinahurryandIwenttoher
sideignoringthedoctorwhowasaskingwhoIwas.Itookherhandinmineand
broughtittomychest.“Baby,canyouhearme?Openyoureyes.”Herhandfeltempty
inmineanditwasthenIrealizedherringwasgone.

“Where’sherring?”

“Shewasn’twearingone.IcanasktheattendingnursebutIhappenedtobeonthe
wardwhentheybroughtherinandIdon’trememberseeinganyoneremoveone.”

Hadshebeenrobbed?Wasthatit?HelefttogoinquireabouttheringasIsatthinking.
Whatwasithersecurityhadsaid?Chloroform?Whatkindofthiefwenttothose
lengths?Itdidn’tmakesense.Someonehadtobewaitingforherinthatdressingroom.
Buthowdidtheyknowshewouldbethere?

MymindworkedovereverythingIknewsofarbutuntilIgottheevidencefromthe
storeIwouldn’tknowshit.Shemoanedmynamewithhereyesstillshut.“I’mhere
babydollopenyoureyes.”

ShemoanedinpainandIgrittedmyteeth.Iwantedtoleaveandfindtheone
responsiblebutIcouldn’tleaveher.Thedoctorreturnedwiththenewsthatnoonehad
seenthering.Ihadthesuddenthoughtthattherewasonlyonepersonwhowouldtake
itinthatway.Butthingsweren’taddingupthereeither.Myheadwastoohottothink
straight.IneededtosettledownfirstandthenmaybeIcouldseeclearlyagain.

Isatnexttoherbedforwhatseemedlikehoursuntilshefinallywokeup.She
grimacedinpainandcalledoutforme.“I’mrightherelittleone,everything’sgoingto
beokay.”Ihadn’tprotectedher.Evenwiththebestsecuritysomeonehadgottoheron
myfuckingwatch.Mymindalreadyknewtheguilty,butIcouldn’tconfrontherunless
Iknewforsure.

Ibuzzedforthenurseandshecameinfollowedbythedoctorwhowentstraighttoher.

“CanItakeherhome?Shedoesn’tlikehospitals.”

“Nowthatshe’sawakeitshouldbeokay,justletmelookheroveragain.There’sgoing
tobepainforthenextfewdaysbutthere’snolastingdamage.”Hesaidsomeother
thingsthatIneededtodotoseetohercomfortbeforewritingoutaprescription,and
onceagainIcarriedherlikeababyinmyarms.

Iheldherinmyarmsasthedrivertookushomeandsheslept.Ihadtoholdmyanger
atbay.ThemoreIthoughtaboutit,themoreIwasconvincedthatJessicawasbehind
theattack.Ican’tstrangleherassbecauseshe’spregnant,butIwillfindawaytomake
herpayifsheisindeedtheonebehindit.

SOLOMON

calledmomassoonasIgothersettledinourbed.Whateverthedoctorhadgivenher

forpainbeforewelefthadknockedherout,soIdidn’tfeelguiltyforleavingher.I
wantedherfuckingringbackandputmyteamonit.KnowingJessicashewouldn’t
keeptheringherself,howcouldshe?It’snotlikeshecouldwearitwithoutitbeing
noticed.

“Checkallthepawnshopsfirst.”Igavetheorderbeforeinstructingmydrivertotake
metoherplace.Bythetimewepulledupoutside,Iwasinamurderousrage.I
slammedoutofthecarandjoggedupthestairstoherdoor.

Sheansweredthedoorbellwithaquestioninglookonherface.“Solomon,whatever
areyoudoinghere?Ithoughtyousaidallyouhadtosaytoday.”Icouldn’thelpmyself.
MyhandwentaroundherneckandIpushedherbackintothewallbeforeclosingthe
doorwithmyfoot.

“IfIfindoutthatyouweretheonewhoputhandsonher,thereisn’tarockbigenough
foryoutoclimbunder.”ShepulledatmyhandandIgaveseriousthoughttoending
hermiserableliferightthenandthere.Itwasonlythechildandnothavingallthe
evidencethatstayedmyhand.

ShecoughedandclutchedatherthroatonceIlethergo.“Whatareyoutalkingabout?”

“Iknowitwasyou.Idon’tknowhowyoudidit,butIknow.Youbetterhopeshegets
betterwithnolastingeffectsorchildornochild,Iwillwaituntilyougivebirthand
dropyourassoffacliff.”

“Howdareyou?Iguessthislittletiradeisbecauseofyourpreciousward.WhatamI
supposedtohavedonetohernow?”

“Youknowwhatyoudid.Bytheway,ifthatringisn’tbackonherfingerbytomorrow
I’mcuttingtheallowanceinhalf.Itwillcontinuetogodownbyathousandeachday
afterthat.”

“Youcan’tdothat.Ihavenothingtodowithwhatyou’resaying.Ifthelittletartgot
herself…”Iturnedalooksoferociousonhershetookafewstepsbackandshutthe
fuckup.

“Befuckingwarned,thisisthelasttime.YouevenlookathershadowinpassingI’ll
wringyourfuckingneck.”

“I’mthemotherofyourchild.”

“Shemeansmore,getusetoit.”IwalkedawaybeforeIdidsomethingI’dregret.IfI
wereadrinkingmanI’dfindthenearestbarandclimbintoabottle.Howdidmylife
getthisfucked?

Instead,Iwenthometomywomanwhowasasleepinmybed.Herpoorlittlefacewas
beattoshit.Herlipsandbotheyeswereswollen,butthedochaddonethebesthe
couldtopatchherup.Thegoodnewsistherewerenobrokenbonesandthecutswere
toosuperficialtoleavescarring.ItwasjusttheswellingIwasworriedabout.

Iletmomgofromhervigilandshegavemealookbeforeheadingoutthedoor.I
knowthatlook;thatlooksaidfixit.Iplanto,butnottonight.TonightIjustwantto
holdherandbethankfulthatshe’salive.

“Solomon.”ShecalledformeinhersleepjustasIdroppedthelastpieceofclothingon
thechairnexttothebed.Igotintobedandpulledhergentlyintomychest.“I’mhere
love;it’sokay.”

Istayedupallnightwatchingoverher.Eachtimeshecriedoutforme,Iwasthereto
sootheher.Iwokeearlythenextmorningwithacrickinmyneckfromsittingupwith
herinmyarms.Myeyesflewopenasthepreviousday’seventscamefloodingback.

Hereyeswereopenandshewaslookingupatme.“Morningsweetheart,howdoyou
feel?”Shetriedmovingherjawbeneaththebandagethatwasholdingherface
together.Thebruiseswereharshanduglyinthemorninglightandmademyheart
hurtmore.

“Don’ttrytospeak.Doyouhavemuchpain?”ShenoddedherheadslightlyandI
restedheronthebedandgotuptogetsomewaterandoneofthepillsthedoctorhad
sentushomewith.Thatremindsme,Ihavetomakearuntothepharmacytofillthe
prescriptionsincetherewereonlyenoughpillsfortoday.

“Here.”Iheldherupsoshecouldswallowbeforelayingherbackdown.Ineededto
makeafewcallsbutdidn’tevenwanttoleaveherlongenoughtodothat.Whoever
hadattackedherhaddoneanumberonherbeautifulface.Itsmackedoffemale
retribution.OnlyfurtheringmybeliefthatJessicawasbehindit.

“Didyouseewhoattackedyou?”Sheshookherheadandtriedtospeakbutallthat
cameoutwasacroakingsound.ShemotionedforsomethingtowritewithandIgot
herpenandpaperfromthenightstand.

Shewroteofgettingthetexttomeet.ImmediatelyIfelttheblame.Wasn’tIsupposed

tolookintothisWhiteRabbitperson?HowcanIholdherteamresponsiblewhenI
wasn’tdoingmypart?Ireadwhereshewroteaboutbeingpulledintothedressing
roomandwasgratefulthatthat’sallsheremembered.

Shehadn’tseenherfaceyetandIwasn’tplanningonlettingheranywhereneara
mirroruntilsomeoftheswellingwentdown.Ifeltherheadforfeverbutshewascool
tothetouch.Thepillsshouldbesettinginsoonandshe’dgobacktosleep.

IcalleddownstairsforsomejuiceandorderedConnietomakehersomebrothfor
later.Shehadn’tbeenabletokeepanythingdownthenightbeforebutmaybetoday
she’ddobetter.IcalledmomwhileIwasatitsinceIdidn’twanttoleaveheralone
whileIwenttothepharmacy.

IfI’dbeenthinkingIwould’vehadthedoctorcallitin,butIdidn’tandIdidn’thavethe
firstcluewhatthefuckhehadwrittenonthepieceofpaperinmypocket.

“Don’tleaveme.”SheclutchedatmeasIsatbesideheronthebedtryingnottojarher.

“Iwon’t;gotosleep.I’llbeherewhenyouwakeup.”Ididn’ttellheraboutthe
pharmacybecauseIdidn’twanthertoworry.IfiguredI’dbebacklongbeforeshe
wokeup.

Momshowedupnotlongafterandfussedoverourgirlthewayonlyamothercould.I
waiteduntilshewasoutbeforeleaving.FirstIhadatalkwithherteamwhohadbeen
workingongettingthesecuritytapesfromthestore.

“There’sonlyonepersonenteringtheroombeforesheshowedup.Whoeveritisnever
lookedatthecameraandit’shardtotellmuchfromtheangle.Obviouslythere’reno
camerasinthedressingareasinceit’sillegal.”

“Whataboutwhentheywereleaving?”

“Samestory.Theykepttheirheaddown,butyoucantelltheywerewearingawigand
theclothesdidn’tfitrightwhichmeanstheywerepadded.Sorryboss.”

IwalkedawayandcalledmyownteamtotakecareoftheWhiteRabbitsituation.

IstillhadtheinformationinmyhomeofficesoIgavethemtheIPO.“Findoutwhere
thisis.Ifit’sabouncer,followituntilyouhavesomethinguseful.Iwantthisfucker’s
headonmywallbyendofday.”

Iheadedouttothepharmacywithmymindbackupstairsinthatroom.Timetoput
shitinperspective.IfJessicawasindeedresponsible,Iwillmakeherpayinwaysshe
couldn’tevenimagine,butfirstIhadtothinkaboutthechild.Whatevershewas,the
childwasstillapartofme.ThoughIcouldwishitdifferent.

“Waithere,I’llberightout.”Iheadedintothepharmacy,somethingIhadneverdonea
dayinmylifeandfollowedthesignstotheback.TherewasalineofpeopleandIhad
toremindmyselfthattheworlddidnotrevolvearoundmeasIwaitedwithatight
leashonmyimpatience.

IfeltahandonmyarmandturnedtoseeMelissa,oneofJessica’sfriends.“Fancy
seeingyouhere.”Shehasn’tdoneanythingtoyouSolomondon’tbiteherheadoff.
“HowareyouMelissa?”Iforcedasmileandlookedatthelineaheadofmewillingitto
move.Iwasinnomoodforchitchat.

“Wemissedyouattheclublastnight.”

“Iwasbusy.”

“Ohwell,wecould’veusedsomeonetotakeJesshome,thatgirlsuredoesn’tknow
whentoquit.”

“Whatdoyoumean?”

“Imeanshewasshitfaceddrunk.Tashahadtotakeherhomesinceshecouldn’tsee
straighttodrive.Whysosurprised?YoudoknowJesslikestodrink.”

“Yes,butIthoughtwiththebaby…”Howdareshe.

“Baby,whatbaby?”

“Jessdidn’ttellyou?She’spregnant.”Itstruckmeasoddthatshehadn’tsharedthe
newswithherbestfriend.Ididn’tunderstandthelaughter.

“Wheredidyougetthat?Youmust’veheardwrong,Jesscan’thavechildren.”

“Whatareyoutalkingabout?”MybodytensedupandIwilledmyselftostaycalm.

“It’strue.Ithappenedwhenweweretravellingoneyearaskids.Shecaughtoneof
thosethirdworlddiseases,measles,smallpox;Idon’trememberwhichonenow,butit
leftscarringinside.Idorememberhermomwasfreakingoutaboutneverhaving
grandkidssince,asyouknowJessisanonlychild.”

Iexcusedmyselfandleft.Ididn’tfeelanger,didn’tfeelanything.Iwasnumballover.
Howhadsheplayedmeforafool?HowthefuckhadIletthishappen?Itwouldbetoo
easytogotoherplacenowandthrowheroutthewindow.No,thiscalledforplanning
andexecution.

Butwaitaminute.MaybeMelissa’swrong.Didn’tJessicasayinoneofhermillioncalls
thatshe’dseenadoctorandhe’dconfirmedit?Ineedtofindoutwhoheis.Therewas
onlyonewaytodothatandIwassureJessicawasn’tgoingtotellme.

Iturnedaroundandwentbackinside.I’dforgottenthedamnpillsanyway.Isaw
Melissastillinlineandwalkedovertoher.“SorryaboutthatIjustremembered
somethingI’dleftinthecar.Solisten,thisquackdoctorthattoldhershe’spregnant.I
wouldhatetothinkthere’ssomethingseriouslywrong.Imeanwhywouldadoctor
makesuchagrossmisdiagnosis?”

“YoumeanDr.Bartholomew?Quackisrightifhe’stheonewhotoldherthat.ButI
don’tseehow.ThewayshewasdrinkinglastnightIdon’tthinkshe’spregnant.Maybe
hetoldherdifferentafterthefirstdiagnosis.Maybethat’swhyshewascelebrating.Jess

isnotexactlythemotheringtype.”Shegavemealookthatsaidshewas,andsheknew
justwhoshewantedtogivethemtoher.Likehell.

Mymindwasworkingasthelinemoved.Isaidgoodbyetoherwhenshewasdone,
filledtheprescriptionandheadedouttothecar.It’sagoodthingIwasn’tdriving
becausemymindwasworkingovertime.FirstIhadtoseethisdoctorthatshesaid
confirmedherpregnancy.Maybethatwasanotherlie.

SOLOMON

rushedhometobetherewhensheawakened.Everythingelsewillhavetowait.I

didn’twantMelissatalkingtoJessicathoughbeforeIhadachancetomakemymove,
soIhadmyteamdosomediggingforme.TheywerestillworkingontheWhiteRabbit
situation.

ShewasjustabouttowakeupwhenIgotbacktotheroomwheremomwassitting
readingamagazine.“DidshewakeupwhileIwasgone?”

“No.Shefrettedalittleandcalledouttoyou,butsheneveropenedhereyes.”Isaton
thebedandtouchedherhand.Shesighedandsunkdeeperintothepillow.

“I’mheresweetheart.”Ikissedherforeheadandsentmomdownstairstoseeabouther
broth.Shemovedtoosuddeninhersleepandrolledoveronherface.Hercryofpain
mademyguthurtandIimaginedthisiswhatparentsfeltwhentheirkidswerehurtor
sick.IfIcouldchangeplaceswithherIwouldinaheartbeat.

“It’sokaybaby,okay,okay.”ShewasrunningaslightfevernowbutIwasafraidtogive
heranotherpillthissoon.Thebottlesaideveryfourhoursandshehadawaystogo
still.Tearsrolleddownherfaceandtoretheheartrightoutofme.“Solomon?”

“Yes?”Iwentbacktothebedandtookherhandinmine.“Gobacktosleepbaby.”
PleasegotosleepsoIknowyou’renotfeelinganything.Itseemsallsheneededwasto
havemenearsoshecoulddriftoffagain.

ThelongerIsattheretheangrierIbecame.Ineededanswersbutthephonewasn’t
ringing.Iwastrapped,Ineededtobeouttherehandlingthismyself,butIcouldn’t
leaveher.I’dneverfeltsohelplessbeforeinmylife.Hadshecriedoutformewhen
thiswashappeningtoher?

No,shesaidsheblackedoutafterthefirstblow.Still!Ragefoughtwithlove,andlove
won.Iwillgettothebottomofitinduetime.Fornowmyplacewaswithher.

Shesleptaroundtheclock,wakingonlylongenoughtotakehermedicineanddribble

downafewteaspoonsofbrothbeforefallingasleepagain.Shewasfeverishandfretful
andthefactthatIcoulddonothingmoreforherbroughtmelow.

Allmymoney,allmyresources,andtherewasnothingIcoulddototakeherpain
away.IgroanedinmysoulasIsattherelookingatthedestructionofherbeautiful
face.

“Sleepisthebestthingforherson.She’llhealnicelyyou’llsee.Icalledthatdoctorwho
sawherandhesaidherfaceshouldgobacktonormalinacoupleweeks.Theswelling
istheworstofit.Inotherwords,itlooksworsethanitreallyis.”

Mommust’vesensedmydistressandwastryingtoreassureme,butnothingcould.
NothingwasgoingtomakemefeelbetteruntilIshedthebloodofthatevilbitch.

“I’dliketoseehimtakeapunchtothefaceandtellmeitlooksworstthanitreallyis.
Lookather,lookatwhatsomedeadfuckdidtoher.”

“Whatdoyoumeandead?Youknowwho’sresponsible?”

“ImeanthatwhenIgetmyhandsontheoneresponsibletheywillnotseethelightof
dayagain.”

“Solomon,don’ttalkcrazy.Letthepolicehandlethis.”

“Police?They’renotinvolved.”

“Whyevernot?”

“Becauseit’snotwhatIwant.”Sheshookherheadandtriedreasoningwithme,but
herwordsfellondeafears.

MyphonebeepedwithatextandIbreathedalittleeasierwhenIreadit.“I’llbe
downstairsinmyofficecallmeifshewakesup.”Ilookedatherasshemovedtothe
bedtofusswiththecovers.“OkaysonIwill.”

“Imeanitmom,assoonashereyesopencallme.Ipromisedher.”Shenoddedin
understandingandIkissedmybaby’shair,whichwastheonlysafeplace,before
leavingtheroom

Downstairstheywereallwaitingforme.“You’dbetterhaveresults;ifyoudon’tyou
canallturnaroundandgetthehellouttahere.”

“Wegotwhatyouneededboss.”

“Tellme.”Isatbehindmydeskandclaspedmyhandsundermychin.

Ralphdroppedtheringonmydesk.Ipickeditupandtwirleditaroundonmy
fingertip.Isthiswhathaddriventhatfoolovertheedge?Whathadsignedherdeath
sentence?Afuckingpieceofcoal?

“Wheredidyoufindit?”Heshowedmetheslipfromthepawnshop.“Andthat’snot
all.Theyhadsurveillance.Thefootageisgood,andsoisthedisguise,butyouwon’t

haveanytroubleknowing…”

“Didyougetacopy?”

“Yes.”

“Andtheother?TheIPO,whodoesitbelongto?”Itappedmyfingeronthedesk.I
alreadyknewbutIwantedalltheevidence.I’mgoingtoburyherwithit.

“Thesame.”Inoddedmyheadonce.

“Thedoctor,didyoufindhim?”

“Itwasn’teasygettingthetruthoutofhimatfirstbuthetalked.”

“Good.”Ileftandwentbacktoher,slippingtheringonherfingerwhereitbelonged.
“Momwhydon’tyougetsomerest.Imightneedyoulater.”

“I’llbeinoneoftheguestroomstakinganap.Yourdadisn’tgoingtobehomeuntil
tomorrowanywaysoIcanstayaslongasyoulike.”

“Thankyou.”Shebrushedmyshoulderasshepassed.

Imust’vedriftedoffwithherhandinminebecausewhenIopenedmyeyesshewas
lookingatme.Whateverwasinthatcreammomhadbeenplasteringonherfaceevery
twohoursmusthaveamagicpotion,becausetheswellingwasalreadygoingdownand
herskinhadlostthatyellowishtint.

“Youreadyforanotherpill?Doyouhurt?”Sheshookherheadasmuchasshecould.“I
don’twanttogobacktosleepyet.”Hervoicewasn’tashoarseasbefore,andshetalked
withmoreease.“Hungry?”

Ipickedupthephonetocalldownformorebroth.“Solomon.”Sheheldherarmsout
likeachildandIgotupandsliddownonthebednexttoher.Iwascareful,ascouldbe
whenIledherheadtomyshoulder.“Isthatgood?”Ifeltherslightnodagainstmy
shoulder.

Takingherhandinmine,Ibroughtittomylipssoshecouldseeherringonherfinger.
ShestartedtocryandIturnedtowrapherinmyarms.Ilethercryitoutuntilher
bodygrewweakandlimp.

“Stop.Nomoretearsoverthatmonster.Besides,thiswasmydoing.HadIprotected
youbetternoneofthiswould’vehappened.Ipromisedyouthatnoonewouldever
harmyou;Ifailed.Justknowthattheonewhohurtyouwillneverhurtyouoranyone
elseeveragain.”

“Whatdoyoumean?”Justlikemom.SheknewexactlywhatImeantIwassure,and
hernextwordsprovedit.“Solomon,youcan’tdoanything.She’shavingababy,and
besides,youshouldn’t…dowhatyou’resuggesting.It’swrong.”

“Soyouknowwhodidthistoyou.”

“Iguessed.ButSolomonpromisemeyouwon’tdoanythingtoher.Justletthepolice
takecareofit.I’msurethere’sapenaltyforallthis.”Ilethertalkandconvinceherself.
Iwasn’tgoingtomakeapromiseIhadnointentionsonkeeping.

Ifedherthebrothwhenitcameandmadehertakeanotherpill.Itwasgrowinglatein
theeveningandIwantedthisshitdonebeforetheendofthisday.Shehadherfingers
closedtightlyintoherpalmprotectingherring.Iknewforheritwaswhatthering
stoodforthatmeantmoretoherthanthevalueofthething.

FIRST

STOP

wasthedoctor.Afteralengthytalkwithmylawyers,Ialreadyknewhis

demise.Iwillshownomercytoanyoneinvolved.MomhadpleadedwithmebeforeI
left.Herlastwordsstillranginmyhead.‘Youcan’tstartalifewithAlexandrawith
bloodonyourhands.’Shitannoysme.

Itlookedlikethingsweredwindlingdownatthedoctor’soffice.Therewasonlyone
personinthewaitingroom.Iwenttothedeskwhereanurseinherfiftiessatgoing
throughfiles.

“Isanyonebacktherewithhim?”Shelookedupatmeovertherimofherglasses.
“Whoareyou?”

“NotthequestionIasked.”

“He’sinbetweenpatients,thisyoungladyiswaitingtoseehimnext.”

“Shecanwait.”Iwalkedtowardsthebackwithhercallingafterme.

Hewassittingathisowndeskstaringintospace.HejumpedwhenIwalkedinandgot
tohisfeet.“CanIhelpyousir?”Iguessmymen’squestionshadreallyspookedhim
becausehewaslookingalittlegreen.

“Yes.Somefriendsofminepaidyouavisitearlier.”Itookthechairacrossfromhimas
hedroppedbackinhischairwithhisheadinhishands.“It’slikeItoldthem…”

“Nowyoucantellme.Allofit.”Helookedscaredashellandkeptlookingtowardsthe
doorasifheexpectedsomeonetocometohisrescue.

“Idon’tknowwheretostart.”

“Trythebeginning.Howdidshegetyoutoagreetothis?”

“Imetheratabaronenight.Wekindahititoffyouknow.Look,I’vebeenmarriedfor
sixteenyears,Iwasjustlookingforabitoffun.”LikeIgaveafuckabouthismarital
problems.“Areyoufuckstupid?DidIaskyouaboutyourfuckingwife?”

“No-no,Iwasjusttryingtoshowyouhowitallbegun.AsIsaid-Imet…Jessica,atabar
onenight.Shewaswiththatfriendofhers,Melissa.Wetalkedforawhile;sheseemed
interesting.Igavehermycardandthenextdaysheshoweduphere.We…”Hisface

turnedredandhiseyesmovedaroundlikeaferret’s.

“Goon.”

“Wellanyway,weuh,youknow.Itwentonforafewdaysandthennothing.”

“Whenwasthis?”

“Afewweeksago,maybealittleoveramonth.”JustaboutthetimeItookAlexandra
outtodinnerthatfirsttime.

“Thatdoesn’ttellmehowshegotyoutowriteupafakepregnancy.”

“ShecamebackafewdayslaterandtoldmeIhadtoorshe’dgotomywife.Shehad
pictures,audio.Ididn’twantmywifetoknow.Itwasjustonetime.Inevercheated
before.”I’mhisfuckingtherapistnow?

“IhopeyouhaveabackupplanbecauseI’mabouttohaveyourlicenserevoked.
You’reabouttoloseawholelotmorethanyourwife.Iwilltakeeverythingyouown.”

Mylawyerswereworkingonthatshitaswespeak.

“Butwhy?Youknowthetruthnownoharmdone.”I’dliketoslithisfuckingthroat
wherehesit.

“SomeoneIloveverymuchwashurtbyyourlie.BethankfulI’mlettingyoulive.”Igot
upandleft,shuttingmyconscienceoff.Hispleasforthewelfareofhiskidsdidn’tmean
shittome.Hewastheoneresponsibleforthem,heshould’vethoughtofthembefore
hemadeanalliancewithevil.MyonlyconcernwasfortheoneIwasresponsiblefor.
Everyoneelseinthisequationwasfucked.

SOLOMON

mademynextstopatthepawnbroker’s.HesizedmeupassoonasIwalkedinbut

thelookonmyfacestoppedhimmid-spiel.Ithrewthereceiptmymenhadbrought
meonthecounterinfrontofhim.“Iwanteverydimethattheypaidyou.”

“What,whatareyoutalkingabout?”

“Thatringbelongstome.Thosemenworkforme.Ialreadypaidforthatringonce,I’m
notpayingforitagain.”

“Look,likeItoldthem,Iboughtthatringfairandsquare.”

“Ohreally,where’sthebillofsale?Aren’tyourcustomerssupposedtoshowyouproof
ofownershipbeforeyoucanaccepttheirgoods?”Nowhestartedtosweat.

“Iwantthetengrandtheygaveyouincashrightnowormynextcallwillbetothe
cops.Ihearthere’sastiffpenaltyforsellingstolengoods.Theymayevencloseyou
down.”

Hewasn’thappybuthegotmewhatIaskedfor.“I’dfindagoodlawyerifIwereyou.I
lied.Ialreadyturnedyouintothecopsforacceptingstolengoods.Youhaveonlyyour
greedtoblame.Nexttimebemorecareful.”

Ihadtopreparemyselfforwhatcamenext.Mom’swordswouldn’tgivemepeace.
ThoughIwouldn’tthinktwiceaboutkillingJessica,itwasnomorethanshedeserved,I
didn’twantthatbetweenAlexandraandI.

WhatwouldItellherifsheaskedsomewheredowntheline?ButIcan’tletthatbitch
liveeither.Sheneedstopayforwhatshedid.HowwasItoknowthatshewouldn’ttry
somethinglikethisagain?

Igottoherplacetenminuteslater.I’dbeengoneforlittlemorethananhouranda
half.She’dbeupsoon.Ihavetomakethisquick.

Sheopenedthedoorlookingalittleflustered.Shesteppedbackonceshesawitwasme

atthedoor.Therewasnoneofthebravadoofthelastfewmeets.

“HelloJessica.”

“Whatareyoudoinghere?Where’syourshadow?”

“Let’snotpretendyoudon’tknowwhyI’mhereshallwe.It’sinsulting.”Iclosedthe
doorbehindmeandadvancedonher.

“Icameheretowringyourneckanddumpyourbodyonthesidewalkyouhadher
waitingon.Youknowtheonewhereyousetheruptobebeaten,orworse.”Hereyes
openedwideandshelookedforanescape.

“Don’tworry,I’mnotgoingtokillyou.WhatIamgoingtodoissendyoutojailfora
verylongtime.Yousee;thatcontractyousignedisextortion.”

“ButInevertookadime…”

“Yes,butyousignedacontracttothataffectknowingthattherewasnobaby.Andsince
theamountexceedsfivegrandthisstatehasastiffpenaltyforthat.Ithinkthe
minimumistenyears.”SheswallowedhardandIcouldseethefeargatheringinher
eyes.

“Alongwiththat,Ihaveyousellingaringthat’sworthalittlemorethanamillion
dollars.Yes,thesecuritycamerastherearebetterthantheonesinthestorewhereyou
attackedher.Thegoodthingisyou’rewearingthesamewigandclothes,sothat’sa
nicetie-in.PutthatalltogetherandI’llsayyou’relookingatagoodtwenty-fiveyears
behindbars.”

“Youcan’tdothat.Thiswasallyourfault.Youstrungmealongforayearwhenallthe
whileyouwerefuckingyourward.”There’syourrealface.Itwasuglyandfullofhate.
Isleptwiththisshit.

“Youcanbelievethatifyouwant,itdoesn’tmattertome.Whatmattersisthatyou
touchedher;thatyouhurther.ForthatIwilldestroyyou.I’mgladthere’snokid.I
couldn’tstomachthethoughtofyouhavingapartofmeinsideyou.NowIdon’thave
to.NowallmychildrenwillbewiththewomanIlove.Andjustsoyouknow,hadthere
beenababy,heorshewouldneverhavebeenmyheir.Thatplaceisreservedformine
andAlexandra’sfirstborn.”Iknewthosewordswouldguther.Iwantedthemtobethe
lastthingsheremembered.

OutsideRalphmetmeatthebottomofthesteps.“Areyousure?”

“Yes!”IwalkedawayandlefthimtheretodowhatI’daskedofhim,whatIcouldn’tdo
myselfbecauseIdidn’twanttolookintomywife’seyesonedayandlie.

SOLOMON

orthenexttwoweeksIputeverythingbutheronhold.Onceshewaswellenough

totravelItookhertoherfavoriteplace,thebeachhouse.Itookonlythecookandone
maidwhowouldbestayinginthelittlecottagenextdoor.

EverymorningItookherdowntothewater’sedgetowatchthesunrisebeforetaking
herbacktorest.Shewasn’tallowedtodoanythingbuteatandrest.Bytheendofthe
secondweekherfacewashealedandshewasgettingrestless.Iknowbecauseshewas
startingtochafeatherrestraints.

LastnightshewantedtofuckbutIwasterrifiedofjarringherfaceandhurtingher.It
hadbeensolongsinceI’dhadherundermethatIwasafraidtotouchher.Myneed
wasstrong,buttheneedtoprotectwasstronger.

Ishould’veknownthatshewouldn’tletitgothough.Shewasbacktobeingherselfand
I’dalreadyyelledathertwiceforrunningupthestairs.Nowshewasintheshower
callingtome.Ihadn’tjoinedherbecauseIknewwhatwouldhappenifIsawhernaked
withwaterrunningdownherbody.

She’dlostallvestigesofthebabyfatthatshe’dcarriedonherface.Thedaysofonly
havingbrothhadhonedherbodyintoslenderplanesandsharpangles.Theonlything
thathadn’tshrunkwerehertits,theyseemevenbiggernow.

“WhatisitAlexandra?”Istoodoutsidetheshowerdoornotdaringtolookin.Sheslidit
openandreachedforme.“WashmybackIcan’treach.”

“Wait…”Shepulledmeintothedamnshowerwithmyclotheson.

“Aww,lookwhatyoudid.Let’sgetyououtofthese.”Shepushedtheshirtoffmy
shouldersandgottoworkonmyslacks.Ididn’tliftahandtohelpher.Iwasn’tgoingto
bepartytohurtingher.Ishould’vepaidattentioninsteadofgoingoffinmyhead.

“Shit!”Itriedtopullmydickoutofherwarmmouthbutitwastoolate.Shedugher
fingersinmyassandheldmeinplaceasshedeepthroatedmycock.Ididn’tknow

wheretoputmyhands.Iwantedtograbherheadandfuckintohermouth,butwas
afraidofmyownstrength,soIputthemonthewallbehindme.

Shesuckedmycocktofullhardnesswhilefondlingmynuts,beforepullingoff.Shegot
toherfeetandturnedwithherbacktome.“Please.”Sheplantedherhandsonthewall
andspreadherlegsasshelookedbackatmewithpleadingeyes.“Shitbaby,it’stoo
soon.”

“Noit’snot,I’mfineIpromise.Nowfuckme,youknowyouwantto.”Shepushedher
assbackandIcouldseeherpinkgashpeepingoutbetweenherthighs.Mymouth
wateredandmydickdrippedpre-cum.Imovedinbehindher,stillnotsurethatthis
wasagoodidea.

Itookherlipsfirst.Ithadbeenforeversincewe’dsharedarealkiss.Hermouthopened
toacceptmytonguejustasmycockheadslidpasthertightpussylips.“Fuck!”I
groanedintohermouthasherpussyletmein.Shewastightasfuck,almostlikethe
firsttime.

ThekissblazedoutofcontrolasIheldherhipsandsunkmydickallthewayinside
her.MycockthumpedagainstherwallsinexcitementasItookamomenttoenjoy
beinginsideheragain.HerpussywashotterthanIremembered,andsowet.

Iwascarefulwithher,onlystayingdeeplongenoughforhertofeelme,beforeeasing
outofherwombagain.Ourlipsremainedsealedaswefedoneachotherravenously,
allthewhileherpussyheldmycockcaptivebetweenhertightfertilewalls.

Oneofmyhandsliftedtoherbreastandhefted.Ipulledbackfromherlipstowhisper
inherear.“You’repregnant.”Hereyesflewuptomine.“Icanfeelithere.”Iteasedher
titbeforeleadingmyotherhandtoherflattummy.

“MychildisinthereIknowit.”Shepulledoffmycockandturnedinmyarms.She
tookalittlejumpandherarmsandlegswentaroundme.Ireachedbeneathherassfor
mycockandsliditbackintoherwhilefeedinghermytongueoncemore.

Thewordsmadeusbothhot.Mycockgrewandthrobbedassherodeherselfharder
andharderonmylength.Iflickedthewateroffandcarriedherfromthebathroomto
ourbed.OncethereIlaidherbeneathmeandwithherassliftedinmyhandsfucked
intoherdeep.

Hercrieswerewild,lustful;hernailsdugintome,andherpussysuckedmein.Itwas
themostintenselovingwe’dsharedthusfarandIrodehighinherpussyuntilmyballs
slappedthecrackofherass.

ShewasashungryforthefeelofmycockasIwasthepetalsoftsilkwallsofhercunt.
Ourtonguesdueledplayfullyasmycockbroughthertoorgasmtimeandagain.“Cum
insidemeSolomon.It’sbeentoolongsinceIfeltyou.”

Shewhisperedhowgoodmycockfeltinsideher.Howshewantedmetofuckherhard
frombehinduntilshewassore.Shitthatgotherfuckedintothebedrepeatedlyuntil

myballsdrewuphardandIshotofftwoweeksofpentupjizzinhersuckingpussy.

Therestofthedaywasspentmuchthesameway.OnceIrealizedthatIwasn’thurting
heritwasasifwewerebothmakingupforlosttime.Allthatdayandintothenextwe
werelockedawaytogetherrenewingourlove.

Ifedher,bathedherandputhertosleepattheendoftheseconddaybeforegoing
downstairstotheoffice.

REASONS

forbringingherhereweretwofold.Firstandforemostwastogetherwell

andonherfeetagain.Theother.Ididn’twanthertoaccidentallyhearanywhispers.I
ontheotherhandkeptmyfingeronthepulseofwhatwasgoingonbackhome.

ThenewsaroundtownwasthatJessicawasontherunfromthelaw.Mylawyershad
donetheirjobswell.BeforeIleftwe’dfiledthecomplaintsagainsther.Ataboutthe
sametime,Ralphwasgivingmethenewsaboutwhathadreallyhappenedtoher.

Apparentlymyheadofsecuritywasfondofdeepseadiving.TheexSEALwasinto
divingwithsharks.That’swherehe’dletsomeassholelockhiminacageanddrophim
tothebottomoftheocean.Fuckingnuts.

Crazyornot,itcameinhandyforwhatweneeded.Whiletheresidentsofourlittle
closeknitcommunityweregossipingaboutwhereshecouldbe,andtheshitshe’d
done,she’dalreadybeeneatenbysharks.

Ididn’taskfordetailsofhowhe’ddoneit,butIwassureshewasdeadbeforeshewent
intothewater.Forhisextracurricularactivities,Ralphreceivedwhatwould’vebeen
thefirstyearofchildsupport.Allinallitwasaprettygooddeal.

Noonesuspectedandeveniftheydidtherewasnowaytheywouldturntheirsightson
me,Iwasn’tthereafterall.

THE

TIME

weheadedbackhome,we’dputitallbehindus.Jessica’snamewasnever

mentionedbetweenusandtokeepitthatway,Igotmomtogetstartedplanningour
wedding.

Shenowhadallherenergyback,whichmeantmyasswasconstantlyonthego.She
hadafewweeksleftofherlastyearofschoolandwehadadoctor’sappointment.She
wantedtoputitoffbecauseshesaidifwewerewrong,shewantedtohaveafewmore
daysofbelievingitwasreal.

Ididn’targuebutIknew.Eventheheatinherpussywasdifferent.Hernippleswere
moresensitiveandIcouldn’tkeepmyhandsandmouthoffofthem.Herthinassstill
hadn’tgainedanouncesoitwaseasyforhertodoubt.

BearinginmindthatshewascarryingmychildItookevenmorecareofher.Bythe
timethedoctorconfirmedthatshewasindeedwithchildshewaswalkingonthe
clouds.

“Doyouwantaboyorgirldaddy?”Wewereinbedasusualandshewassittingonmy
cockteasingtheshitoutofme.“Itdoesn’tmatter,whateveritisit’sapartofyou,apart
me;it’llbeperfect.NowmoveorI’mtakingover.”

“No,youpromised.”Yeah,Idid.Itwasherrewardfordoingwellinschoolandpassing
withhonors.“Okay,butyou’rekillingmehere,mycock’sabouttobreakthefuckoff.”
Shepaidmenomind,justkeptupherteasingshit.Ridingmycockoneminuteand
squeezingmewithherpussywallsthenext.

Iknewhowtogethertobehave,howtotakeoverandfindthereleaseIsobadly
needed.Iplacedmyhandonhertummy,lettingmythumbtraildowntoherclit.“My
baby’sinthere.Imadeababyinyou.”Shestoppedandhereyesgrewsoftasshe
leanedovertoreachmylips.

OnekissgrewintotwoandIwhisperedhowmuchIlovedherasIturnedhertoher
backandtookthereins.Thedoctorhadreassuredmethatitwassafetohaveher,but
stillIwentslowly.Herbodywasmoresensitivenow,anditdidn’ttakelongtobring
heroff.Justatouchofmytongueagainsthernipple,orapressofmythumbonher
clit.

Ididbothandherpussyclampeddownonmycockasshecame.Hercriesandpleas
formetofuckherhardermademerutinherlikeIhadn’talreadybredher.

Itwasatotallydifferentexperiencefuckingherwhileshewascarryingmychild.
WordscannotexpresstheoverwhelminglovethatwrappeditselfaroundmyheartasI
claspedhertomyheartjustasmycockbegantoanswerthestrongpullofherpussyas
shecame.

“Solomon.”Iknewthattingeoffearinhervoice.I’dhearditeachtimeherorgasmwas
toomuchandshelostherbreathandallcontrolofherbody.

“I’vegotyoubabydoll;cum.”

“O

EPILOGUE

SOLOMON

uch.”

“What,whatisit?Whathappened?”Irolledtoshieldherbodywithmineinmyhalf
wakestate.Shewasrubbingthehugemoundofhertummyandpouting.

“Yourchildwon’tkeepstillinthere.”

“Again?Doesn’thesleep?Healreadykeptmeuphalfthenightwithhisshit.
Disrespectful.”Iyawnedanddroppedmyheadbackdownonmypillow.

“Keptyouup?”

“Well,yeah.Eachtimehemoved,youmoanedandIhearditeveninmysleepbecause
Ihaven’thadafullnight’ssleepsinceyoutookovermylife.Don’tlaugh;it’snotfunny.
Badenough,afterthelittleshitgetshereIwon’teversleepagainuntilI’minthegrave.
Theleastheorshecoulddoisletmegettheselastfewweeksofrest.”

“ThisIhavegottohear.Andwhatpraytellwillbekeepingyoufromsleeping
peacefully?”Ilookedoverather.Shewasbeautiful,radianteven.Herhairhadgrown
outandthankfuckthecurlswereback.Herfacewassoftandhereyesbrightwith
happiness,justthewayIlikeher.

“You’llsee.Ialreadystayupallnightworryingaboutyou,I’mprettysurewithalittle
oneit’sgoingtobeevenworst.You’regoingtoworryaboutthem,andI’mgoingto
worryaboutyouworrying.Solet’smakeadealnow.I’lldoalltheworrying,allyou
havetodoisenjoythegoodtimes.”

“You’renuts.”That’swhatshethinks,she’llsee.Shehasnoideawhatit’sliketobe
responsibleforanotherbeing.Toknowthattheirhappiness,theirjoysandsorrows,
theirverysafety,isinyourhands.Yougotosleepworryingandwakeupthesame.The
yearsmaychange,eventheworrydoestoo,butthere’salwayssomefucktoworry

about.

Rightnowmybiggestworryisthisbirthingthing.TryasImightIcan’tseemtogeta
straightanswerfromanyone.SomeofthewomenatherLamazeclassbullshitsaythat
thefirsttimecangoeitherway.

Somesaythefirsthadtheminlaborfordays,somesaidhoursandahandfulsaidit
tookmereminutes.Istilldon’tknowwhatthefuck.Andwhoevercameupwiththe
ideaofshowingalivebirthtoaroomfullofpregnantwomen,someofthemtherefor
thefirsttimeshouldbeshot.

Idamnneardidshoottheinstructor,whothoughtthatshitwasfunny.Istilldon’tsee
thehumor,shitmademesickfordays.Momvolunteeredtogoafterthat,butIcouldn’t
handovermyresponsibilitytosomeoneelse.Eversinceshe’dbeenhurtI’vestayedon
topofher.Shedoesn’tsteponetoeoutsideunlessIknowaboutit.

ShebitchesandmoansbutIlistentohergripesandcarryonasusual.Hernewteam,
andhopefullythelast,areallexmilitary.Theyknowtheydon’tanswertoher,they
answertome.Thefirstfewtimesshetriedtogoovermyheadshefoundoutrealquick
justhowthatshitworked.

BothtimesIwaswaitingforherattheunscheduleddestination.

Whenshefinallyrealizedthattheyweren’tliketheothersthatshe’doutmaneuvered
timeandagain,shecalledmeawardenandclaimedourhomewasaprison.OnceI
remindedherthatthewomeninprisondon’tgettofuckasoftenasshedid,shepiped
thehelldown.

Nowforthelastcouplenightsshe’sbeenrestlessandmyfearkeepsgrowing.Though
shewillneverknow.Whenevershegetsscared,mystrengthandreassurancesclears
hermindandshegoesbacktobeingmyhappybabydollwhoseonlyworryiswhatnew
wayshecanturnmydaysupsidedown.

“Gobacktosleep.”Irestedmyhandoverhersonthechildinherwombandprepared
tokeepvigiloverbothofthem,asshegotcomfortableinmyarms.“Ican’t,hewon’tlet
meunlesshegetswhathewants.”Irolledmyeyesoverherhead.Iwonderwhatnasty
shitshewasgonnaaskmetogetherfromthekitchen.

“Okaywhat’sitgonnabethistime?”IwaitedandhopedIdidn’tlosethelastthingIate
becauseofwhatcameoutofherdamnmouth.“Pickles…andjelly,grapejelly.”She
rubbedhertummylikethatshitsoundedright.Ididn’tutteraword,justleftthebed
andwentafterherlatestwhateverthefuckyouwannacallit.Atleastit’sbetterthan
thepizzawithicingshe’dhadthenightbefore.

Iwasn’tsurewhatthehellshewascarryingaroundintherethatmadehercravethe
disgustingshitshe’sbeenscarfingdown,butthedoctorinsistsit’shuman.

Iwentbackwithherorderandwatchedindisbeliefasshedippedherpicklesinthe
jellyandateappreciatively.“What?”

“Nothing.”

“Thenwhyareyoustaringatme?”Dipcrunch.

“Babe,seriously,whatthefuckareyoueating?”

“What?What’swrongwithit?”Iknewbetterthantoanswerthatshitornextshe’dbe
tellingmeIdon’tloveherbecauseshe’sfat.Whichwouldthenstarthercryingand
thenI’dhavetofuckherandshewastooclosetoherduedatesoIcan’t,whichmy
ballscanattestto.

It’ssomekindofcolossaljoke.Theclosershegetstogivingbirth,theriperandmore
fuckableherbodylookstome.Ilookatherroundtummyandherfatassandhugetits
andallIwannadoismate.ButifIfuckherImighthurther.Where’sthefairnessin
thatshit?

SoeverynightIlaynexttoherandhaveanargumentwithmycock,whichsofarI’ve
beenwinningbutit’sbeenclose.Shescratchedthestretchedsideofhertummyasshe
finishedoffherlastpickle.

“Itchy?I’llrubsomeoilinyourtummy.”Ireachedovertomynightstandwherethere
wasnowaminipharmacywithanyandeverythingshecouldpossiblyneedforher
comfort.

SheandmomhadhadagoodlaughwhenI’dstartedmycollection.ButI’vebeen
readinguponshitandpregnantwomenneedalotoffuckingthingstomaketheirlives
morecomfortable.Ifigureifshecancarrymyseedforninemonths,theleastIcando
isseethatshe’sashappyasIcanmakeher.

Istraddledherlegsandpouredsomeoilinmyhandsassheliftedthenightieoverher
head.Iswallowedhardandlookedawaybuttherewasnohidingtheerectcockthat
nowdistortedmypajamabottoms.“Babydoll,stop.”Myhandshadbarelytouchedher
fleshwhenhersreachedouttoteasemycock.

Insteadofheedingmywarning,shepushedherhandthroughthebuttonedopening
andgrabbedmypoordeprivedcockmeat.Irubbedshetugged,untilsheworkedmy
cockoutintotheopen.Ididn’tprotestwhenshesatupandtookmycockintoher
mouth.Whatwasthepoint?

InsteadofgrabbingherheadandfuckingintoherneckthewayIloveto,Iplayedwith
herhair.Whenshepulledmycockfromhermouthandstrokedbeforestuffingme
backinherfacewithhungrymoansIknewIwasgoingtoendupfuckingher.

“Shit!”Ipulledoutofhermouthandsliddownherbodyandrightbetweenherlegs.
Herpussyhadafreshcleanscentwithjustahintofarousal.Ilickedherandspreadher
openwithmytonguebeforeliftingherassinmyhandsandsinkingitdeeper.

ShewantedtotakemycockinhermouthagainsoIleftherlongenoughtotwistmy
bodyaroundwithmymeatatherlips.HerstomachpressedintomeasIburiedmy
facebetweenherthighswhileshetormentedmycockheadwithhertongue.

“NowSolomon.”Shegotintopositiononhersidewithherbacktome.Imovedup
behindherandwithmyarmwrappedcomfortinglyaroundher,slidintoherpussy.I
feltmychildkickinherwombwhenIhitbottomandpulledback.

“DidIhurtyou?”

“No,don’tstop,pleasedon’tstop.”IliftedherlegsoIcouldfuckharder,deeper.“Hold
yourlegupformebaby,Iwanttoholdyourtummy.”Ididn’ttrusthertotellmeifI
wastoodeepsoIwasrelyingonthechildtotellme.

HekickedandrolledaroundintherebutIrealizeditwasareactiontoherelevated
breathingandherbody’smovements.

“Slowdownbaby.”

“Ican’t,Iwannacum.”

SheheldherlegasIaskedandIpalmedthehardmoundofhertummyasIpushedmy
cockinandoutofher.Herpussywashotter,tighter,wetteranddefinitelygreedier.“I
wannagetontop.”Herdemandsneverend.

“Okay.”Islidoutandlaidbackbeforehelpingherclimboverme.Iheldmycock
steadywithonehandwhilehelpingherlowerherselfwiththeother.“Nottoodeep
baby,not…Fuck.”Sheclosedhereyesasherbodyshookwithorgasm.

ShestartedtocryandIjackknifedbeneathhertoputmyarmsaroundher.“It’sokay
babydoll.”ShewrappedherarmsaroundmyheadandrodemycockuntilIblastedoff
insideher.

Itookherdownwithmebutshesoongrewuncomfortableandpulledoffmycockto
laynexttome.“NowIcansleep.”HergreedyasswasoutfivesecondslaterandIwas
lefttodocleanup.

“O

…”Herscreamshadadifferenttonetothemthistime.IknewIshouldn’t

havefuckedher,fuck.“Ihurtyou.”

“No,mywaterbroke.”Ijumpedoffthebedandranaroundtohersidetohelpherup.

IkepthercalmwhileIcalledthehospitalandgotmyteamdownstairstofollowusto
thehospital.ItwasagoodthingIwasn’tdrivingandwasabletositinbackwithher
andholdherwhileshefreaked.

Hernervousnesskeptmecalmsomehow.IknewIhadtobestrongforher.Soevenas
everythingthatcouldpossiblygowrongplayedthroughmymind,Ireassuredher.
“We’reherebaby.Justthink,inafewhoursyou’regoingtobeholdingourlittleprince
orprincessinyourarms.”

ShewasdigginghernailsintomyhandandtryingtorememberhowtobreatheasI

helpedheroutofthecar.TherewasanorderlywaitingwithachairbutIcarriedher
myself.Idon’tthinkIcould’veputherdownifmylifedependedonit.Iwasafraidto
lethergo.

Therewasaflurryofmovementassoonaswegothersettledinherroom.Maybetwo
orthreepeopletriedmovingmeoutofthewaybutitdidn’tregister.Ionlyheardand
sawher,nooneelse.SurprisinglyIrememberedeverythingthemasochisthadtaught
usinLamazeanddidmypart.ThoughfromherscreamsIwasconvincedthatshit
wasn’tworthadamn.

ALEXANDRA

‘S

NORT

!Youshould’veseenyoursoninthedeliveryroom.’Momhadn’tbeenintown

thenightbeforeandthiswasthefirsttimeI’dgottotexthersincethedelivery.Once
theyweredonewithmeI’dfallenasleep,tootiredtoholdmyheadup.

Solomonwasasleepinthechairnexttomybedwithmyhandheldinhis.‘I’msosorry
Iwasn’tthere.Stupidweather.Weshouldbetheresoon.Whatdidmysondoto
embarrassmenow?’

‘Well,heyelledatthenursesfornotmovingfastenough,bulliedthedoctortodo
somethingmoreforthepain,andgenerallymadeanuisanceofhimself.Theonlyone
whodidn’tfeelthelashofhistonguewasI.Iknowhejustsentyouamessagethatwe
werehere,buthedidn’tgiveyouthebignews.’

‘Whatnews?You’reright.Ijustgotashorttextsayingatthehospitalandnothing
since.Iwasgoingcrazywithworry.Itriedcallingthehospitalbuthehassomekinda
blackout.Icouldn’tevenverifythatyouwerethere.’

‘Well,afteryourgrandsonwasborn,kickingandscreaminglikehisdad,therewasa
nicelittlesurprisewaitingforallofus.Youhaveagranddaughter.’

‘WHAT?’REALLY?’Icouldallbuthearthescreaminherwords,andimaginedher
tellingmyfather-in-lawtohurry.‘Yes.Yoursonwastoocute.I’mstillnotsureifhis
tearswerebecausewehadtwoinsteadofone,orbecausehehadalittlegirl.Butfrom
themomenttheyputherinhisarmshewelledup.Ithinkhe’sinawe.Webarelygot
himtoputherdown.AndI’vehadtoremindhimthreetimesthatthenurseswere
allowedtotakethebabiesoutoftheroomtocheckthemover.’

‘Ican’tbelieveImisseditall.Ican’twaittoholdmybabies.’Ilookedtothesidewhere
theywerebothasleepintheirlittlecribs.Theyweren’thookeduptoanythingandso
fartheirvitalsignsandeverythingelsewereinworkingorder.

‘We’regoingtohavetospoilJared,youandI,becauseitlookslikeyoursonisalready

attachedtoSabrina.He’salreadybeingveryterritorial.’Justthenhejumpedawakeand
hishandflexedinmineashesatupandlookedaroundtheroom.

Iputmyphonedownatmysideasoureyesmet.“Hibeautiful,howdoyoufeel?”I
smiledtoreassurehimashegottohisfeetandleanedoverforakissbeforegoingto
standoverthebabies.Hetouchedtheirlittleheadswithsuchreverenceitwashardnot
tofallinlovewithhimalloveragain.

“They’reperfect;soperfect.Idon’tthinkit’squitesettledinyet.We’reparents.”He
lookedbackatmeasthoughhereallycouldn’tbelieveit.“Whenaretheygonnawake
up,weren’ttheyasleeptoolong?”Thisfromthemanwhoonlythenightbeforewas
complainingaboutnevergettingagoodnight’ssleepagain.

“They’llbeupsoon,it’sbeenacouplehourssincetheyate.”Hecamebacktothebed
andsatbesideme,hisarmscomingaroundme.“Wecantakethemhometodaythe
doctorsaid.I’veorderedtheothercribandstuffbutI’mnotsurewehaveeverything
we’regonnaneed.”

“Wealreadyhadtoomuchbeforesoit’llbefine.Don’tdoanythingcrazy.”

“Likewhat?Whatdoyoumean?”

“OhIdon’tknow,likebuyingoutthebabystore.YourmomandIalreadytoldyou
they’llgrowoutofeverythinginthefirstfewmonthssoitdoesn’tmakesensetobuy
toomuch.”

“Maybeyouandmomshouldmindyourownbusiness.Ihaveitongoodauthoritythat
babiesneedtwoofeverydamnthingjusttogetthroughtheday.”

“Whichauthorityisthat,Google?”

“Smartass,Idon’twantthemtoeverneedanything.They’resotiny,sohelpless.How
arewetoknowwhattheyneedfromusuntiltheylearntotalk?”Heworriesaboutthe
strangestthings.Butit’stoocute,soIdon’tremindhimthatmenandwomenhave
beendoingthisforcenturies.

“DidIthankyou?”

“Aboutathousandtimes.”Iliftedmylipsforhiskiss.

“Itbearsrepeating.Youdidanamazingjobbaby.Ioweyou.Won’teverbeableto
repayyou,butdamnifIdon’toweyou.”He’stoocute.

JustthenlittleSabrinafussedawakeandhewasoffthebedlikeashot.Iwatchedhim
asheconcentratedwhilecheckinghernappyandtalkingtoherasifexpectingan
answer.Icouldalreadyseetherewasgoingtobetrouble.Shehashimwrappedaround
herlittlefingerandshe’sbarelyadayold.

Hepickedheruplikehewasafraidhe’dbreakherbeforebringingherbacktome.“She
knowsmebaby.Lookhowshewatchesme.”Idon’tthinkthere’sanyuseintellinghim
shecan’treallyseehimyet.Orthatthelittlesmilehesworeshegavewasjustgas.

Hesatbesidemeandpassedthebabyintomyarms,butinsteadoflettinggo,he
wrappedhisarmsaroundusinsuchawaythatherlittlebottomrestedonhischestasI
ledhertomynipple.

Hisfingertouchedmerightabovewherehermouthworkedasifhewouldhelpher
drawthemilkfrommybreast.“MylittleSabrina.”Hiswordswerefilledwithaweand
admirationasheranhishandgentlyoverherhead.

“Yourson’sstartingtofuss.”Heleftusandwenttopickhissonup.Ineednothave
worriedthatallhislovewasforourdaughter.Hepickedourboyupandstudiedhim
withastrangelookonhisface.“Myson.”Itwasallhesaid,beforepullingthebabyto
hischestandkissinghislittleheadasheclosedhiseyes.

THEEND

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