BEASTMODEJAKE

JORDANSILVER

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CONTENTS

SYNOPSIS

Myexwifeisapainintheass.AftertwoyearsofmaritalblissIcamehometoanempty
houseandnoexplanation.BythetimeIfiguredoutwhatwasgoingoninthatdemented
headofhers,IwasnolongerinterestedsoIgaveherwhatshewanted,adivorce.

SixmonthslaterthedivorceisfinalandI’vedecidedit’stimetogetbackonthathorse
andrideit,pickuponthelifesheinterrupted.

Ofcoursethat’swhenshedecidestobargebackintomylifewithhercrapbecausecrazy
nevertakesadayoffinherhead.

“D

ana,wouldyoubringmethebriefsfromthismorning’smeetingplease,thanks.”I

satbackinmychairandcontemplatedmynextmove.

MylatestmergerwascomingtoacloseandIwasalreadyfeelingtheurge.Ialwaysget
thiswayattheendofadeal.

Goingin,myexcitementandmoraleishigh,butonceI’vebroughtdownmypreyI
alwaysseemtoloseinterest.

That’susuallywhenIstartsearchingforanewconquest,butlatelyithasn’tbeenthe
same.Therewassomethingmissinginmylife.

SomethingthatusedtomaketheexcitementthatmuchbetterandIwereafraidIknew
what,orwhothatsomethingwas.

DammitJacob,youneedtogetoverthisshit,what’reyouagluttonforpunishment?
Haven’tyouhadenough?

Ihatethatshecanstilldothistome.ThatnomatterhowmuchItrytoconvincemyself
thatI’moverit,deepdowninsidethetruthisadifferentmatter.

There’snowaytohidefrommyselfnomatterwhatfaceIputonit.AndwhythehellamI
thinkingabouthermoreandmoreoftenoflate?

I’dgotmyselftothepointwhereIcouldgofordayswithoutevenrememberingshe
existed.Ithadtakenalotofworksure,butI’ddoneit.

Sowhynow?Whyaftermonthsofsuccessfullyputtingheroutmymindwassheback
plaguingmyass?Idon’tneedthisshit.AndIcertainlydon’tneedher.

It’slikewhenweweretogether.Ialwayshadasixthsensewhereshewasconcerned.If
sheweresadorhurt,I’dfeelitfromwhereverthehellIwas.

I’dlockedthatshitoffonceshewasnolongerapartofmylife,sowhywasitbacknow?
WhynowafterIwasfinallybeginningtoseethelightattheendofthislongdrawnout
tunnel?

Asifshehadasixthsenseofherownorcouldscentbloodfromacrosstown,myphone
rang.IknewwhoitwasbeforeIlookedatthereadoutonmyphone.Mywholebodycame

aliveandmyheartpickedupspeed.Pissedmethefuckoff.

ItwasweirdthatIstillrememberedthenumbereventhoughitwasnolongerprogrammed
inmyphone.Ihadn’tseenthatnumberinmonths.

Notsincethelasttimewesatacrossfromeachotherinherattorney’sofficeandironed
outthefinaldetailsofourdivorce.

Myex-wife,JillianisapaininthefuckingassandIwaswellridofher.I’dcometoterms
withthatafterthenumbershedidonme.

Sowhycan’tImoveonandforgether?WhydoIhavethisfeelinginthepitofmygutat
justthesightofhernumber?

Whyissheandthatpartofmylifemyonegreatregret?There’sapartofmethatrefused
toletgointhebeginning,butI’ddealtwiththatshitlongago,oratleastIthoughtIhad.

InthebeginningIusedtotellmyselfthatitwasbecauseIhatelosingatanything.Our
marriagehadlastedtwoyearsbeforeitwenttoshit.

Aswithmostmen,IhadnoideatherewasanythingwronguntilIwasservedwiththe
divorcepapersandcamehometofindthehouseempty.She’deventakenmydamndog.

I’dfoughtherforthedogbutgavehereverythingelsesheaskedfor.Somethingthat
seemedtopissheroffeventhoughtheshitwasheridea.

OnceI’dgottentothebottomofwhyshewasdoingthatshit,andhadgivenmyside
whichhadonlyfallenondeafears,I’dbeentoodonetoevencare.

There’reonlysomanytimesamancanexplainhimselfagainsttheunexplainableafterall.
Foramanlikeme,whopridesmyselfonhonestyandintegrity,itwasahardblowtobe
accusedbythewomanIlovedofsomethingIconsideronlysomeonewho’slowerthan
pondscumcapableof.

AtleastI’drealizedwhatafuckingnutsheisandgotoutrelativelyunscathedafteronly
twoyearsofwastingmyfuckingtime.

I’dsignedoffonherandthemarriageandrefusedtolookback,eventhoughthosefirst
fewweekswithoutherwerehell.

Becauseofmylonghoursthelastfewmonthsofourmarriage,Ihardlygottoseeherin
theweeksleadinguptobeingserved,butIneveronceexpectedit.

Theshitcametotallyoutofleftfield.ItwasthelastthingIexpected,especiallywhenI’d
beenplanningalongtripawaytomakeupforbeingtoobusylately.Butthenagainthat’s
thewaymyscatterbrainedexdoesthings.

Shefliesoffthehandleattheslightestprovocationandhalfthetimetheshitisonlyinher
fuckedupimagination.

Iusedtotakethetimetobringherbacktohersenses,butthatwasthelastfuckingstraw.
Sheneverevengavemeachance.

Nowshe’scallingmeforwhoknowswhat,andI’mthinkingIshouldjustignoreherass.I
hateherIloveherIcan’tlivewithouther.

ButI’llbedamnedifI’mgoingtogetmyselftangledupwithherbrandofcrazyagain.
Myguttwistedwithindecision.Shit,whatthehelldoesshewantnow?

IlookedatthereadoutonmyphoneagainandshookmyheadasIletitgotovoicemail.
Thatisonecrazybitch.

Iwentbacktowork,puttingheroutofmymind.AtleastIshouldsayItriedto.Butshe
wasn’tthateasytoforget.Ishouldknow;I’vebeentryingtodothatshitforsixmonths.

NowthatshewastryingtoreachmeIcanadmittomyselfatleastthatallmyeffortswere
invain.Ineverreallygotoverherandshewasnevertoofarfrommymind.

EvenwhenIwasn’tthinkingabouthershewasthere;shewasapartofmeandalways
willbe.Andthat’stheshitthatfuckswithmyhead.

I’mnotweak,neverhavebeen.Sowhythen,whenitwassoeasyforhertocastmeaside,
didIfinditsohardtolethergo?Fuck!Notthisshitagain.Haven’tIalreadywalkedthis
fuckingwalk?

ThephoneonmydeskrangfiveminuteslaterandIknewwhoitwasbeforemysecretary
announcedit.Iwishmyfuckingheartwouldcalmthefuckdown.

Seriously?Youdon’trememberthenumbershedidonus?NowI’mtalkingtomyheart
likeit’saseparateperson.Andsoitbegins.Mytickettoarideonthecrazytrain.

“Yourwifeisonlineonesir.”

“Idon’thaveawife.TellherI’mbusy.”

Iignoredthesoundofpleasureinhervoicewhenshesaid‘yessir’andtriednottothink
whatmyexcouldpossiblywant.

Ithadtobeveryimportantforhertoswallowthatprideofherstocall.ButIsatisfied
myselfwiththefactthatifitwasamatteroflifeordeathsomeonewould’vealertedme
bynow.

BythetimeIlefttheofficeforthedayI’dallbutputheroutofmymind.Ijustwanteda
hotshoweracongratulatoryglassofcognacforthebusinessmergerIjustsuccessfully
closedandagameonthetube.

AtleastmytimewasmyownnowandIdidn’thavetotraversethemazeofbullfuckeryI
hadtowhenIwasmarriedtothesocialbutterflyoftheyear.

NomoresocialgatheringsthatIcoulddowithout.Nolatenightsbeforeearlymorning
meetings.Andmostimportantly,nosmilinginthefaceofthefakeassmembersofthe
localhighsociety.

hephonerangjustasIputmykeyinthedoorandwithoutthinkingIrushedto
answer.“Jake?”Wellshit,howdidshegetthisnumber?

ItwastheoneplaceIknewIcouldgetawayfromherbecauseI’dneversharedmyhome
numberwithher.

“WhatdoyouwantJillian?”Fuck!Ihadnointentionsonevertalkingtoherassagain.“I
thinksomeone’sbeenfollowingme.”

“What?Whereareyou,areyouhome?StaythereI’monmyway.”ItwasonlyasIwasin
mycarbreakingthespeedlimittogettothehomeweoncesharedthatIrealizedhow
tellingmyreactionwas.

DammitJacob.Itdidn’tmatter,nomatterhowInowfeltabouther,shewassomeoneI
oncecaredforandifshewasindangerIcouldn’tjustignoreher.That’sthelieItold
myselfallthewaytoherdamndoor.

ShemetmethereandIswallowedatthesightofherlikeI’dbeendyingforitandhadn’t
evenrealized.

“Didyoucallthecops?”

“WhywouldIdothat?”Ifollowedherintothehouseandrolledmyeyesbehindherhead.
Thatcheerleadingscholarshiphadcomeinrealhandy;twit.

Fuckit,she’smyex,IcanthinkanythingIwantabouther.ThetenmillionIhadtogive
herinthesettlementsaidso.

“Youwoulddothatifyouthinkyourlifeisindanger.”Iinformedherthewayyouwould
afiveyearoldastowhyheshouldn’tplaywithmatches.

Shetiedthesashoftheshortsilkrobesheworeasshewalkedaheadofmeandrightaway
myeyeswenttoherass.Fuckme!Evenmycockwasbetrayingme.

“Ididn’tsaythat,IjustsaidIthinkI’mbeingfollowed.”Ohno,ifshegotmeoverhereon
somebullshitI’mgonnawringherdamnneck.“Jillian,areyouorareyounotbeing
followed?”

Shepoutedandlookedeverywherebutatme.That’swhenInoticedhowtwitchyshewas.

Isquintedather,readingherbodylanguage.

Youdon’tspendtwoyearsfuckingawomaneverytimeyoulookatherwithoutlearning
herbodyandeverydamnthingabouther.

“Lookatme.”Shehunchedhershouldersandkeptherheadturned.Littleshitwasupto
something.Iwalkedovertostandinfrontofher,handsonmyhipspushingbackthesuit
jacketIhadn’thadtimetoditchsinceshecalledmeassoonasIreachedthedamn
apartment.

WhenshebitintoherlipandstaredatmycrotchIknewIwasrightaboutwhatthehellI
wasdoingthere.“JillianI’monlygonnaaskyouthisonemoretime.Areyouinsomekind
ofdangerornot?”

“Well…”shedidthetwirlingherhairaroundherfingershitandIgruntedinfrustration.
WithoutanotherwordIturnedandheadedforthedoor.NowayamIdoingthisshit.

Thatglassofcognacwasn’tgoingtodoitI’mgonnaneedthewholedamnbottle.“No
Jakewait.”Sheflewacrosstheroomandcameafterme,grabbingthebackofmyjacket.

Ipulledoutofherhandandturned,myfacesetlikeastormcloud.“I’mnotinthemood
foroneofyourfuckedupgames.”

“I’mnotplayinggamesJakey.”Ihatewhenshecallsmethat.Itusedtobecutewhenwe
weretogetherandIknewshewastryingtowheedlesomethingoutofme,butnowtheshit
justgratesonmynerves.

“LookIhaveshittodo.”Iheadedforthedooragainandshehitmeinthebackwithher
body.Ifeltherchestpressedintomeandgrittedmyteethagainstmybody’sreaction.
Fuckno!

Imovedawayagainandturnedtolookather.“I’mouttahereIdon’thavetimeforthis
shit.”

“Can’tyouevengivemetwominutes?I’myourwife…”

“Ex-wife!Youdivorcedmeremember.Becauseyougotahairupyourassaboutme
cheatingwithsomeonethatdidn’tevenexist,andyouwantedoutsoyougotout.Now
whatthefuckdoyouwant?”

“Wellyoudon’thavetobesomean.”ThereshegoeswiththatcuteGeorgiapieaccentof
hersthatsheknowsgetsmydickgoing.

Butnotthistimesister.I’montoyourtricksI’mnottakingarideonthefuckmeovertrain
withyourassagain.

Ilookeddownathergorgeousfacebutitwasn’ttheamazingblueofhereyes,orthecupid
bowshapeofherlipsIsaw.

“OhIgetit;Iknowthatlook.Youwannafuckhuh.Oklet’sgetitdone.”Igrabbedher
handandheadedforthestairs.

ShetuggedonmyhandoncewereachedthebedroomandIlookedbackather.She
openedherannoyingassmouthtosaysomeshittomebutIwasn’thavingit.

“Uh-uh-uh,wedothismywayorIbounce,yourchoice.”Hereyesgotwetandherlips

trembled,classic.ButIdidn’tgiveashitaboutthateither.

“ButJake…”

“Infactyouknowwhat,scratchthat.Ididn’tcomeallthewayoverheretowastemy
fuckingtimegetthosepantiesoff.”Shewasn’ttoohappywithmyapproachbutthatdidn’t
stopherfromdroppingherdrawers.

Ituggedatmytieuntilitloosenedandpulleditoffanddroppeditonthefloor.Myjacket
andshirtcamenextasIwatchedherbodycomeintoview.She’sstillthemostbeautiful
thingI’veeverseen.

“Onyourknees.”Iknowshehatesgivingmehead,oratleastshelikestopretendthatit
offendshergenteelsensibilities,butshesureknowsherwayaroundmyknob.

Shedidn’targue,justgottoherkneesinfrontofmeandlookedatmycocklikeitwasher
longlostfriendwho’dfinallyreturned.

Shesighedhardwhenhertonguetouchedmycockheadforthefirsttimeinmonths.She
teasedmewithhertongue,runningitroundandroundmyswollenfleshuntilpre-cum
hungfromherlips.

Iwatchedherwatchmebeforeshetookmeintohermouthasfarasshecould.Shestroked
thefewextrainchesshecouldn’tfitwithhersofthandsandmycockjumpedatthe
rememberedfeeling.

Ididn’ttouchherthewayIwantedto,notevenwhenshesuckledmyshitandusedher
tongueandteethonmejustthewayI’dtaughther.InsteadIgrittedmyteeth,andclenched
myfists,notwillingtogiveheranything.

“Iseeyouhaven’tforgottenwhatItaughtyou.Handsclaspedbehindyourback.Ifyou
move,Iwillleaveyou.”That’stheonlywarningIgaveherbeforelaunchingtheassault.

Ifuckedherfacehardnotgivinghertimetobreathe,asIteasedherthroatwithmycock
overandoveragainmakinghergagandhereyeswideninfear.

Spittleandfuckjuicerandownhercheeksandchinandhermouthmadethosegargling
soundslikeshewasabouttochoke.

StillIdidn’tletup.Ifinallyfistedherhairontopofherheadandthrustintohermouth
forcefully.Anotherfuckyoutohertoletherknowthatshewasnothingmoretomeinthat
momentthanareceptacleformylust.

OncemycockwasashardasitwasgonnagetIpulledheroffnonetoogentlyandthrew
hertinyassonthebedonherback.

Idoveheadfirstintoherpussy,suddenlydyingforthetasteofhersweetcunt.Shestill
tastedlikesin.

Iseeshe’dplannedahead.Herpussywassmoothundermytongueandshetastedlikethat
strawberryshitIlike.

Theshitthatusedtomakemespendhourswithmyheadbetweenherthighs,tryingtoget
everylastdropofheressencemixedwiththetantalizingflavor.

Idugintoherpussywithmytongue,andfingersgrowlingatthetasteofherasshe

screamedanddugherfingersintomyscalp.

Ididn’tcarethatshewasclosewhenIpulledmytongueoutofherandflippedheronto
herhandsandknees.Mydickwasreadytofuck.

ThiswouldbethefirsttimethatIdidn’tshowanycareforherneedsinbed.Icould’ve
eatenherpussyforatleastanothertwentyminutes.

Istrokedmycockwhilerunningmyhandsoverherasscheeks,dippingmyfingerinside
herassholebeforespankingithard.

Islammedmycockintohergoingdeepandshescreeched.Hertightlittlepussycould
neverhandlemywholelengtheasilyandIwasalwayscarefulwithher,butnotthistime.

Ipulledoutandeasedbackinagainoverandoveruntilherpussyjuicecoatedmycock.I
fistedherhairandpulledherheadbackhard,ridinghighanddeepintoherpussybefore
pushingherheadaway.

ShelookedbackoverhershoulderatmewhenIfuckedintoherbellytoohardbutIpaid
herassnomind.Thisiswhatshewantedisn’tit?

Iwantedtostaymadandjustangerfucktheshitoutofher,buthercunthasalwayshada
strongholdonme.

It’soneofthereasonsIhadn’tbeeninanyhurrytofindherreplacement.Thatandthefact
thatIstillseeherfaceeverytimeIclosemyeyesatnight.

Ibanishedthosethoughtsandconcentratedonfuckingher.Iranmyhandupanddownher
smoothbackandslidmycockinandoutofherhittingherdeepwitheachstroke.

Iknewwherehersweetspotwasandwentafterthatshitinearnest.“Uhhhhh!”Shecried
outandpushedbackhardonmycock.

“Howthefuckareyoustillsotight?”IsmackedherassagaininthesameplaceuntilIsaw
myhandprintinherflesh.

That’ssomethingelsewe’dneverdone.ThoughI’dgothertopushherlimitsIcould
nevergethertoletmespankherassduringsex.

OnceortwiceI’vehadtotakeherovermykneeandalwaysafterI’dfuckher,butfor
somestrangereasonshewouldn’tletmespankherwhilewefucked.

Herpussyjuicedallovermycockandshetorethesheetsfromthebedasshecameover
andoveragain.SomethingelseImissed.

Shehasthemostbeautifulorgasms.Infact,nooneelsehasevercreamedallovermycock
thewayhertightlittlepussydoes.

Sheflungherheadfromsidetosideandrotatedherass,makingherpussytightenaround
mycock.“That’sitmakemecum!”Ismackedherassagain.

Ileanedoverandtwistedherheadwithmyfistinherhair,shovingmytongueinsideher
mouth.Inippedatherlipsandspankedherassagainjustasmyballstingled.

Iemptiedtheminsideherandpulledoutassoonasthelastdropleakedinsideher.Now
thatthedeedwasdoneIwasbacktobeingpissed.WhatthefuckamIdoinghere?

Shefellonthebedpantinglikeshe’djustranamarathon.Ismackedherassonelasttime,
andgotupandgotdressed,“seeyoulatersweetcheeks.”Hermouthfellopeninsurprise
asIleftoutthedoor.

Itookthestairstwoatatimeandwaspullingdownthedrivewaybythetimeshecameto
thedoortyingtherobearoundher.

Ididn’tevenlookbackinthemirrorasIpeeledoutoftheredisgustedwiththebothofus.
Ididn’twanttocareabouthowshemustbefeeling.Herfeelingswerenolongermy
responsibility.

Nowsee,whenweweremarriedIwould’vestayedinbedandheldherbecauseIknew
shelikedthat.Ialwayscuddledherandlistenedtoallherdailybullshitaboutherandher
girls,enjoyingtheniceafterglowofhavingmywifeinmyarms.

Butshedidn’twantthat,soshejustthrewitallaway.NowI’mnotputtingmyselfthere
again.Fuckthat!

halfexpectedhertocallmeagainbutthephoneneverrangandIwasabletoenjoy
therestofmyeveningwithoutgivingtoomuchthoughttoherandwhatshewas
doing.

Knowingthatshecouldbesittingonthefloorofouroldbedroomcryinghereyesout,or
goingthrougholdphotographsofuscuttingmyheadoff.Itcouldgoeitherway.

IknewshewasnutswhenwefirstmetbuttherewasnothingIcoulddoaboutthewayI
feltabouther.ItonlytookonelookandIwashooked.

Imetheratafriend’sweddingwhereshewasgettingtipsyandbitchingtohergirlsabout
alwaysbeingabridesmaidandneverabride.

AtthetimeIthoughtthatshitmadenosensebecauseshewaseasilythehottestwomanin
theroom.

She’sfivethree,ahundredandtwentypoundsmostofitinherassandtitsthatIcouldn’t
believeweren’tfake,andthemostgorgeousfuckingface.

Ifittookmeafewsecondstofallforher,itonlytookaboutaweekofdatingtorealize
whyshewasstillsingle.She’sfuckingnuts.

Itwasn’tthatshewascertifiable,notintheclinicalsense,butthegirlhasthemostfucked
upideasofanyoneIknow.

Pluswhoeverpeggedthetermhighmaintenancehadtohavemetmybabyatsomepoint
intheirlife.

Shefloatsthroughlifelikethere’snooneelseandshitrevolvesaroundher.Shedrivesthe
samedamnway,that’swhyItookherkeysandgotheradriverwhenwegotmarried.

Shesayswhateverpopsintothatbobble-headofhers,butshesaysitinthatsweetvoiceof
hersanditseasytoletshitslide.She’smessy,annoyingandhasthetemperamentofafive
yearold,andfuckIlovedher.

Noone,notherfamilyorfriendscouldeverfigureoutwhyIhungaround,andwhenwe
announcedourengagement,Ithoughtherdadwasgoingtokissme.Poorman,hermomis
anolderversionofher.

Ioverlookedallherquirks,evenheruntidiness.Shecan’tcookworthshitandIdoubtshe
knowswhatavacuumlookslike.Herparentshadspoiledherlittleassandsheexpected
metodothesame.

Asafarmboywho’dmovedtothebigcitytenyearsearliertomakemyfortuneafter
graduatingtopofmyclass,shewassocompletelydifferenttoeverythingIknew.

Ididn’tcareabouthershortcomings.Shewaslikearayofsunshineinmyotherwise
drearyworldofbusinessdealsandthecutthroatworldofcorporatetakeovers.

I’dhadplentymoreappropriatewomenbeforeher.Womenwhowould’vefitintomy
worldbecauseoftheirbackgroundinbusinessandtheirmaturesophistication.

ButIdidn’twantthat.Iwantedtocomehometosomething,someonefarremovedfrom
whatIspentmydaysdoing.

Shewasasfarawayfromthatshitasyoucanpossiblyget.Asthedaughterofaprominent
businessmanshehadnointerestinbusiness.

Heronlyinterestinherdaddy’sbusinesswasspendinghismoneyandrunningher
charities.ShewashonestlythemostdisorganizedpersonIknew.

SomehowIfoundthatattractiveafterthelasttenyearsofdealingwithwomenwhowere
justascutthroatasIwas.

Mymotherhatedher,eventriedtowarnme,butIdidn’twanttohearit.Becausewithall
herfaults,thegirlhasthebiggestheartofanyoneIknow.

I’veseenhersneakstraycatsintothehousetofeedandshelterthemeventhoughshe’s
allergicandI’dforbiddenhertogetnearthemthefirsttimeIhadtorushhertothe
emergencyroom.

Shespentherdaysatcharitiesandluncheswithhergirls.That’sanotherthingIliked
abouther,somethingthatgavemeinsightintohercharacter.Shestillhasfriendly
relationshipswithallthegirlsfrommiddleschool,andthat’skindarare.

Buteitherway,nothingelsematteredexcepthowmuchIlovedher.Ilovedthefactthat
shewasoneofthosewomenthatneededhermantotakecareofher.Ineverywaythat
matters.

Itdidn’tmatterthatshehadatrustfund,shestilllookedtomeforeverythingandIwas
morethanhappytooblige.Ibelievedthatitwasmyjobasherhusbandtofulfillallher
needs,andnotjustinthebedroom.

Shespenthermoneyonthepoor,andmineatHermes.Itwasfinebyme.Aslongasshe
washappy,andIsawthatsatisfiedhappysmileonherfaceattheendoftheday,Iwas
good.

Twoyearsweweregoingstrong,wewereeventryingforababy.AndasfarasI’m
concerned,that’swhereallthetroublestarted.

Shehadsomekindaissuewithherfallopiantubessoitwasharderforhertogetpregnant
thanmost.Wehadtofuckatcertaintimesincertainpositionsandouroncespectacular
sexlifebecamearegimentednightmare.

Iwentalongwithitofcourse,becauseIwantedakid.Iwasthirty-one,notgettingany
younger.Attwenty-fourshewasattheperfectagetostartafamilyandithadtobethen
forsomefuckedupreasonthatmadesenseonlyinherhead.

Whenshedidn’tgetpregnantthefirstthreemonthsthat’swhenIfirstnoticedthechange.
Shewentfromnutstofuckingpsychotic.

Shewasirritable,insecureandneurotic;stillIlovedherandconvincedmyselfthatittoo
shallpass.Justlikeallherothernuttyepisodes.

Iwasmoreattentivethen,nomatterwhatIhadgoingonattheoffice.Thosetimeswere
theonlyonesIwasallowedtomakelovetoherthewayIwanted.

Idideverythingaftereachfailuretomakeherfeellovedandwantedandnotlikeitwas
herfault.Butsincetheassholedoctorhadalreadyletthecatoutthebag,therewasno
gettingaroundthetruth.

Thingswereneverthesameagainafterthat.AndthenonedayIcamehomeandshewas
justgone.ThenextthingIknewIwasbeingservedwithdivorcepapersandthereason
listedwasinfidelity.

Ididn’tknowwhatthefuckshewastalkingabout.Ineverevenlookedatanotherwoman
sincewemet.ButnoamountoftalkingconvincedherandthentherecameatimewhenI
nolongercaredto.

Igavehersomemoneythatdidn’tevenmakeadentinmywallet,tookmydogandgot
thefuckoutofherradius.

Nowthatdogwasgivingmethestinkeye,nodoubthecouldsmellherscentonme.He’d
beenhoodwinkedbyhertoo,shewashismommyandnoamountoftalkingtohisstupid
asswasgonnachangethat.

HemissesherI’msure.EachtimethedoorbellringshesetsuparacketuntilIopenitand
someoneelseisstandingthere.

Ialwaysknowwhomitwasheexpectedbythelookhegivesmebeforeturninghisback
andtrottingofftosomeotherpartoftheapartment.

HewasanotheroneofthereasonsI’dlovedhersomuch.Shewasgreatwithmydog.She
wastheonewhotookhimonhiswalks,tothevetforregularcheck-upsandstayedontop
ofhisshotsandeverythingelseadogcouldpossiblyneed.

ThereweremanyeveningsI’dcomehometofindthetwoofthemcurleduponthecouch
watchingTVtogetherorbelieveitornot,havingaonesidedconversation.Sheevengot
himhisownhousemadeinanexactreplicaofours.LikeIsaid,nuts.

Myfriendsandacquaintancessawashallowself-absorbedairheadedblondeandshe
mightbethosethings,butshereallyrangmybells,andoursexlifewasfuckingoffthe
charts.Punintended.

IfI’dhadanysenseIwould’vefuckedherwithouttheringandleftitatthat.Buthow
manyhot-bodiedvirginswerethereleftoutthere?

WhenItookherthefirsttimeandsawthebloodonmycock,feltthegiveofher
maidenhead;Iwasagoner.Shewasmygem,mydiamondamongcubiczirconia.

Evenwithherairofinnocencethatwaswellhiddenbehindherscatterbrainedbehavior,
I’dneverinamillionyearsexpectedhertobeavirgin.

IproposedtoherthenightItookhervirginityandshe’sbeenmineeversince.Welluntil
shethrewmeoutandaccusedmeofaheinousact.

Ithoughtwe’dspendtherestofourlivestogether,wasallsettorolloverandseethat
amazingfaceeverymorningfortherestofmylife.Butshehadtogoandfuckitup.

Nowit’llneverbethesameagain,wewillneverbethesameagain.It’sstilloneofthe
hardestlossesofmylife.ButI’vechosentochalkituptoexperience.

“What’reyoulookingat?She’stheonewhofuckedup.”Iglaredatthedogwhowasnow
lookingatmelikeIhadherhiddenorsomeshit.

Hewhinedandtrottedoffleavingmealonewithasnifterofcognacandmymemories.

couldstillfeelherwrappedaroundme,stillhadherscentinmynose.Ithadtaken
memonthstogetridofthatshitthefirsttime.

Nowallthoseoldmemorieswerecomingback.Memoriesoflazymorningsspentinbed
betweenherthighs.

LongnightsspentwithhersittingonmyfacewhileIateheroutbeforesittingheronmy
cockandlettingherridemeintotheearlymorning.

Enoughofthisshit.Iheadedintomyemptybedroomtochange.“Maybeagoodswim
wouldcoolyoudown.Eightylapsoughttodoit.

Iheadeddownstairstothepoolanddovein.Iusedtohavemyownheatedpool,nowI
havetosharethisonewiththerestoftheresidentshere.

Icould’veboughtanotherhouseeasy,butdidn’tseethepointofit.Ihadnoplansonever
gettingmarriedagainsowhoneededtheheadache?

Fuck!Icouldn’toutpaceher.Therewasn’tenoughswimmingintheworldtoescapeher
shit.Idraggedmyselfoutofthepoolanddriedoffbeforeheadingbackupstairstobed.

ynewsecretarykeptgivingmelookswhenIwalkedintotheofficethenext
morning.Imight’vegivenherashotinthebeginningIdon’tknow.

Hersignalswerehardtomiss.WhenIfirsthiredherIwastoobusytogiveanytimeor
energytoanewconquest.

AndafterJillian’scallInowhaveherbackinmydamnheadandasfuckedupasit
sounds,it’llbelikecheatingonher.

Thetruthis,nomatterhowIshyawayfromit,she’dfuckedmeoverforanyoneelse.
WhenIdolookatanotherwomanthesedaysIfindmyselfcomparingthemtoher.

Imisshersmartmouth,thewaysheusedtotryconningmewithapoutybottomlipand
weteyes,togetherway.

ThereweredayswhenshefirstleftthatI’dstillrolloverwithamorninghardreachingfor
her.AndquitefranklyI’veneversankmycockintoanythingthatfeltasgoodshedid.

Iwasprobablyalittlegunshy.WhatifIneverfindthatagain?Whatifshewastheone
andI’dlostherthroughnofaultofmyown?

BecausetothisdayIhavenoideawhothisphantomwomanwasthatIwassupposedly
cheatingonherwithandshedidn’tseemtoeither.

IfIdidn’tknowhertobehonesttoafaultI’dhavethoughtshemadethewholethingup.
Butexceptforherlateststuntofclaimingshewasbeingfollowedjusttogetmeintoher
bed,she’snotknowntobealiar.

Ididn’tlikethewaymyheartracedwhenIsawhernumberjustaslunchtimecame
around.OrthewayIrushedtoanswer.“Jakey,what’reyoudoing?”

Irolledmyeyes,somethingIpickedupfromher.“WhatthefuckdoyouthinkI’mdoing
Jillianit’sthemiddleoftheday.Someofusactuallyworkforaliving.”

Lowblow,Iknowhowshefeelsaboutnotworkingthoughwithhermoneyedbackground
shedoesn’tneedto.Theonetimeshetriedtointernatherdaddy’scompanyasateen,
she’dbeenamess.

She’dprobablybeabletoholddownajobifshedidn’thavetheattentionspanofagnat.
“Jakey,Idon’tlikethisnewwayyouhaveoftalking.”

She’dbereferringtothefactthatIneverevencussedinherpresencebefore,oratleastI
alwaystriednottointhepast.

“Youcalledmeremember.Nowwhatisit?”

“RememberthatcarIthoughtwasfollowingme?Itjustdrovebyoutside.”

ThathadmesittingupinmychairandgrabbingmyjacketfromwhereI’dthrownitover
thebackofit.

“Stayinsideandlockthedoors.”Iwantedtodisbelieveher,butlikeIsaid,theonething
sheneverwasisaliar.

MysecretarylookedatmestrangelywhenIrushedoutoftheofficecallingovermy
shouldertoholdallmycallsfortherestoftheday.

Ididn’trushbutImadegoodtimegettingtoher.Iknewtheroutelikethebackofmy
handsinceI’dtakenitalmosteverydayfortwoyears.

IkeptmyeyespeeledforanycarsthatlookedoutofplaceonthewaytherebutIsaw
nothingontheroad.Mostpeopleinthisneighborhoodworked.

ShewaswaitingformewhenIpulledupbutatleastthistimeshewasdressed.“Ithought
Itoldyoutostayinside.”

“IsawyoupullupsoIknewitwassafe.”Shelookedsocuteinhersummerdressthat
huggedherbreastsandflaredoverherhips,leavingherlegsandkneesbare.

Shehadonthosemilehighheelsthatshecouldn’tseemtodowithoutandhermakeup
wasperfect.Nothingsuspiciousinthat,shealwaysdresseslikeshe’slunchingatthe
countryclubevenondaysshejuststayedaroundthehouse.

I’veseenherputonfullbattlegeartogotothesupermarket.HeranswerwhenI

questionedher,aladymustalwayslookthepartnomatterwhat.

Itwasalottogothroughtoruntothedamnstoreforapintoficecreaminthemiddleof
thedamnnight.

EspeciallysinceIhadtowaitforherassahalfanhouraftershetoldmeshewantedthe
oneflavoroficecreamwedidn’thavestocked.Nuts!

ImadeherstayinsidewhileIcheckedaroundthehouse.Ididn’tseeanythingsuspicious
soIusedmykeytoopenthebackdoor.

She’dchangedtheotherlocksbutforgotthisone.Ifiguredsinceshebarelyknewwhere
thekitchenwasshewouldn’thaverememberedthisoneandIwasright.

ShewaswalkingintothekitchenjustwhenIcameinandIcouldn’thelpappreciatingjust
howbeautifulsheis.Ihadtoadmitthatitstillstungthatshewasnolongerminenomater
whatItellmyself.

IwantedtopullherintomyarmsandkissherthewayIusedtokissmywifeevery
eveningwhenIcamethroughthedoor.

ForthebriefestofsecondsIactuallyfeltthatlittleblipinmyheartIusedtothentoo.I
closedmyeyesandwishedtheimagesawayandfocusedonthehereandnow.

“W

hat’sallthis?”Shehadtwoplacesettingsonthekitchenisland.Lookedlikemy

favoritelunchofmincedpastasaladwithgrilledsalmon.Iknewshedidn’tmakeitand
therewasnosignofthecooksoI’mguessingshecalledout.

“IknewIinterruptedyourlunchsoIthoughtitwastheleastIcoulddo.”Iliftedmybrow
butsaidnothingasItookmyseatonthestoolnexttoher.

AssuspectedittastedexactlyliketheonefromtheplaceIalwaysgetlunch.Whichmeans
she’dhavehadtoorderlongbeforeIgothere.

Icould’vecalledheronhershit,butIthoughtitbesttoseewhereshewasgoingwiththis.
Ihaven’tfuckedanyonesincethedivorceotherthanourlittlerompthenightbefore,soif
shewasjustaftermoredick,whynot?Atleastthistimeitwouldn’tcostmetenmillion
bucks.

Iletherleadtheconversationbutdidn’tgiveheranything,notevenadistractedgruntto
showthatIwasinterestedinwhatshehadtosay.

Iknewshewasembarrassedwhenshebrokeoffinthemiddleofoneofherlongwinded
sentencesandjustpickedatthefoodonherplate.

“Jakey?”

“Whatisit?”Itookasipofwaterfromthecrystalglassthathadbeenaweddinggiftfrom
oneofmybusinessassociatesandrefusedtoevenlookatherasIdugintomymeal.Ifshe
wantedtofuckshe’sgonnahavetocomerightoutandsayit.

Iknewthatwouldbehardfortheexdebutant,Iwantedittobe.Iwantedhertobegthe
manshe’dtossedasidetofuckher.

ThenI’mgoingtogiveherthefuckingofherlifeandbringithometoherhowfuckedup
itwasthatshewasrelegatedtobeggingmeforsomethingthatwasoncehers.

Sheputtedaroundtheissue,twitchingonherseatlikehercrotchwashot.Shewasacting
prettysquirrelly,playingwithherfork,herhair,andshiftinginherseat.

Shepickedupherwaterglassandputitbackdownlikeshedidn’tknowwhattodowith
herself.Icaughtherglancingatmeoutthesideofmyeyebutdidn’tevenstopputting
foodinmymouth.

Iknewfromthewayhercheeksheatedupthatshewasgearingherselfup.Itwasonthe
tipofmytonguetogiveheralittleboost;mycockwasalreadyhardfromthetitshotsI
keptgettingdownhertopeachtimeshemoved.

Shesavedmefrommyselfwhenshefinallygotbrave.“Doyouwantto,youknow…”Out
camethepoutylipsandthatcutelittlesulkinhervoice.“No,Idon’tknow;what?Spitit
out.”

“Doyouwanttogoupstairsandhavesex?”Shesaidthatshitquicklikearun-on
sentence.Ipickedupthelinennapkinandwipedmymouthbeforedroppingitnexttomy
almostemptyplateandmovingitoutoftheway.

SheopenedhermouthbutIliftedherfromherstoolandbroughtheracrossmylapto
straddlemyhips.IlookedintohereyesasItorethedress.

HertitsbouncedintoviewandIbrokeeyecontacttolowermyheadtoheroffering.She
sighedandgroundherhotcuntdownonmyrodwhenIputmyteethonher.

HerhandsfistedinmyhairwhenIleftonenipplefortheotherandsuckeditintomy
mouthhard.MycockpokedatherthroughourclothesandIgrabbedherass,squeezingit
assherockedherassbackoverforthovermygrowingshaft.

Ibitandsuckedhernipples,pushingthemtogetherandsuckingthembothatonce,then
lettinggosoIcouldsqueezeherasshardenoughtoleaveamark.Grindinghercuntdown
harderonmycock.

Shesqueezedharderandclenchedherasssendingmydickintoshock.Shit,I’mgonna
cuminmydamnpantsorattheeveryleastleakallovermyzipper.

“Releaseme!”Iletgoofhernipplelongenoughtogivetheorderbeforebitingdownon
hernippleagain.

Shereacheddownbetweenusandfoughtwithmybeltandzipperuntilshemaneuvered
mywoodfromitsconfines.

Shestrokedmewithhersoftwarmpalmuntilmycocktwitchedandleakedalloverher
hand.Ifeltaroundbeneathherandgotatightgriponhersilkpanties,tearingtheminhalf.

Igavehermyfingers,drivingthemintoheroverandoverwhilepressingdownonherclit
withmythumb.

Ifingerfuckedheruntilherpussywasreadytotakeme,thenjustliftedherandsather
downonmycock.

Nowwouldbethetimeshe’dwantmetokissher,butIhadnointentionsofmakingthis
anymoreintimatethanitneededtobe.“FuckI’mgoingtonutinyousohard.”

IkeptmymouthonhertitsasIfuckedheronandoffmycockwithherassgrippedtightly
inmyhands.

“Fuckwhydoyoufeelsogood?”Ihatedgivinghereventhatmuchbutthewordsjust
slippedpastmylips.

Herhandswrappedaroundmyhead,holdingmeclosetoherbreastsasIdickedhertight
littlepussyhardasfuck.Shewasalreadycummingandwewerebarelystarted.

WhenherpussycameshescreechedandsearchedformymouthagainandIremembered
howmuchshelovedbeingkissedwhileshecameonmycock.

ButeachtimeshetriedliftingmyheadtohersIjustclampeddownharderonhertituntil
shegotthemessageandleftmethefuckalone.

Igottomyfeetandplacedheronherbackonthecoolmarbleislandandpulledherlegs
upandovermyshoulders.

Theskirtofherdressfellawayandupherchestleavingherwaxedpussyexposedformy
pleasure.Ilookedatthesmoothplumpfleshsurroundingwhatusedtobemyparadise,
andIwantedtofuckinghurther.

IlookedintohereyesasIfedhermywholecockknowingitwashurtingherjustalittle
bitfromthewayshescreechedandthepussyhurtlookonherface.

Iwastryingtocumwithoutherjustforspite.ButIshould’veknownherhornyasswould
beatmethereagain.

HerlegsjerkedandshegrabbedathernipplesasIfeltherpussy’swarmjuicesflooding
mycock.“That’sit,cumallovermycock.”

HerfaceheatedatmywordsjustasIknewtheywould,butherpussyneverstopped
cummingandherassneverstoppedmovingasshefuckedherorgasmoutonmycock.

“FuckI’mcumming,fuck!”Ibentoverher,bendingherdoubleandfuckedintoherhard
onceandheldstill.

Ioffloadeddeepinsideheruntilmyballsweredrainedonceagainandpulledoutwhile
shewasstilltwitchingaroundmycock,gearingupforanotherone.Idon’towehershit.

Igavesomethoughttogoingtothebathroomtocleanup,butthoughtbetterofit.Ijust
fixedmyshitbackinmyshortsandzippedup.

“Callmeifyouseeyourwouldbestalkeragain.”Ifixedmybeltonthewayoutthedoor
anddidn’tlookbackonce.

Ididn’tbreatheeasyagainuntilIgotintomycarandpulledoutofthedriveway.Iforced
myselfnottolookforherinthemirrorandreleasedmybreathonceIgotoutofthe
neighborhood.

didn’tfeelasbadthistime;shitwasgettingeasier.IfshecaughtontothefactthatI
plannedtogiveheraslittleofmethistimeaspossibleIhavenodoubtthatshe’dtry
workingherwilesonme.

ButIhavenointentionoffallingunderherspellagain.I’mkeepingmyeyeswideopen
andwhenallissaidanddoneIhopesheremembersshecametome.

She’stheorchestratorofherowndemiseandI’llbesuretoremindherofthatifshe
shouldeverlosehermindandaccusemeofbeinginsensitive.

IthrewmyselfintoworkonceImadeitbacktotheofficeandforcedmyselfnottothink
abouther,orhowgooditfelttobeinsideheragain.

IplayedthatgamebeforeandlostandI’veneverbeengoodatlosing.Iwaseven
beginningtoquestionthesenseofcarryingonwithherlikethis.

Wasn’tittimethatIwentoutandfoundsomeonetotakeherplace?Itwasobviousthat
mydickstillworks,eventhoughit’sbeenplayingpossumforthepastsixmonths.

There’sgottobesomeoneouttherewhocanoutshineherinmystupideyes.Yeah,maybe
nowthatI’mbackamongthelivingIshouldfindmeanewlong-termgirlfriend.

Atleasttherewasonethingshecouldlayclaimto.ShewillalwaysbetheonlywomanI
evermarried.BecauseasmadasIstillamather,noonewilleverreallytakeherplacein
myheart.

hatthefuckamIdoinghere?Ilookedoverathersleepingformandfeltpure
disgustwithmyself.It’sbeenaweeksinceherfirstcallandI’vebeenhereevery

daysince.

Webothknewbynowthattherewasnoonefollowingherandbyherthirdcallwe’d
givenupallpretense,afterIcalledheronhershitofcourse.

“Doyouknowhowdangerousitisforyoutomakeupthisfuckedupstory?”Itwasthe
eveningafterourlittlelunchdate.

ShetriedconvincingmebutIshutherdown.“Look,ifyouwanttofuck,justcallokay.”I

plannedtofuckheruntilIgotheroutofmysystemanyway.

Somethingshe’dnevergivenmethechancetodowhenshesprunghersurprisedivorceon
me.ThistimeIplanonstayinginthedriver’sseat.I’llgetheroutofmysystemandthen
movethefuckon.Servesherassright.

Thatwastheplananyway.Keepitstrictlyphysical,don’tgetinvolved,anddon’tinvest
shit.ButnowhereIam,wakingupinherbedthemorningafterwhichwasnotpartofthe
dealImadewithmyself.

EachtimeIcamehere,whetheronmylunchbreakorlaterthatsameevening,Imadesure
tohopoutofherbedandbeonthegobeforeshewasdecent.

YesterdayafternoonwhenIshoweduphereIhadthesameintentions.She’dsetoutlunch
fortwobutIhadnointentionsofsharinganythingsocozywithheragain.

She’dpoutedafterIrefusedbutItookherdowntothecarpetedfloorrightnexttothe
diningroomtableandtoreherskirtintwo.

“Openyourblouse.”SherushedtogetthosebuttonsopenwhileIpulledherpantiesdown
herlegsandgavehermymouth.“RubyourclitwhileIeatyouout.”ShebalkedandI
pretendedtogetupandleaveher.

“Okaywait.”Sheturnedherfaceandranherfingersdownherstomachuntilshereached
hercunt.“Lookatme.”

HerheadwhippedaroundatmytoneandIloweredmyheadbackbetweenherthighs
whileholdinghereyeswithmine.

Idippedmytongueinherwetslitoverandoverwhilesherubbedherclitandrockedher
hipsfromsidetoside,fuckingherselfonmytongue.

IrememberedhowmuchIusedtolovethetasteofher;howIlovedtomakehercumin
mymouthanddrinkherjuiceslikelifegivingnectar.

Iateherpussyandfingerfuckedherasswhileshetriedtotearhernipplesoffher
unbelievablyplumptits.

WhenI’dhadmyfillofherpussyjuiceIclimbedupherbodyandstraddledherchestwith
mycockinhand.

ShelookedupatmequestioninglyandIliftedmybrow.Sheliftedherheadfromthefloor
andstuckhertongueout,tastingthepre-cumthatleakedfreelyfrommycocktip.

“Suckmycock,don’tplaycoy.”Igrabbedherhairandpulledherupuntilshetookhalf
mycockintohermouthandsucked.

Onceshewasthroughpretendingshedidn’tliketakingmycockintohermouth,oneof
herlittlehandscameupandwrappedaroundthethrobbingmeatofmycock,holdingitfor
hermouthtoswallow.

Thenshedevouredme.I’dtaughtherhowtopleasemewithhermouthandIseethatshe
hadn’tforgottenathing.

Shemadelovetomycock,humminginherthroatasshebobbedherheadonandoffmy
meatuntilhercheeksfilledout.

Whenshegrabbedmyballsandplayedwiththeminherpalmwhilesuckingtheshitoutta
mycockIknewitwouldn’tbelongbeforeIshotoff.

“Letgo,Iwanttocuminthatpussy.”

Ihadtopryherjawopentopulloutofhermouth.Ipulledherupandputheronherhands
andknees.ShejumpedwhenIslidafingeruptothethirdknuckleinherass.

“I’llfuckyouherelater.”WhilemyfingerwasinherassIpokedaroundherentrancewith
mycockuntilIfoundthatsweetholethatgivesmesomuchpleasure.

ThenIrememberedthatthatholewasnolongermine,andwhy,andslammedmycock
intoherwithoutfinesse.

IfuckeduntilIwasreadytocumthenpulledoutandcameonherassbecauseIknewshe
hatedthatshit.Shehateswastedsperm,butsinceIwasn’ttryingtobreedherasswhatthe
fuckdidIcare?

OnceI’dshakenoffthelastofmyseedIslidbackintoherpussyniceandslowandgave
herwhatshewanted,aniceslowdeepfuck.

Idraggedherupstairsaftershecreamedmycockagainandputheronherbackonthe
bed.Ifuckedheruntilitwastimetogoandbouncedagainwithoutevenakissgoodbye.

Thathadbeenourlunchsession.NowI’mlookingathernakedbackthemorningafter
andpissedthefuckoffthatI’dspentthenightinherbed.

Therewereblackandbluehickeysalloverherbodyfromhernecktobetweenhertitsand
evenaroundhernavelandherinnerthighs.DamnJake,wereyoutryingtomaulher?

Ilaidbackandputmyhandsundermyheadandtriedtomakesenseofwhatwasgoing
on.I’dansweredhercallearlythenightbefore.

Sincewewerenolongerpretendingthatshehadastalkertherewasnopussyfooting
around.Iheardher‘hello’andjustsaid‘I’dberightthere’.

She’dmetmeatthedoorinacutelittlenegligeesetwhichendedupinshredsatthefront
door.Ipickedherupinmyarmsandwentafterhernippleagain.

Ihadheronthestairsfirst.MyhungerwashighbecausemydickgothardassoonasI
sawhernumberonthereadoutofmyphone.

BythetimeIpulledintothedrivewaymycockwasreadytobustoutofmypants.After
thestairsI’ddraggedherheretobedandstartedonheralloveragain.

We’dtakenabathtogetheratsomepointduringthenightandI’ddamnnearbrokenher
backagainsttherimofthetub,onlytotakeheroutanddoheronherhandsandkneeson
thebathroomrug.

AsmuchaswefuckedwhenweweremarriedIthinkwediditevenmorenow.Itwas
almostasifmydickknewitwasonlyamatteroftimebeforeshewasgoneagainandhe
wasgettinghis.

ThenIfuckedherintotheweehoursofthemorninguntilwewerebothrawandsore.Her
pussytookaseriouspoundingandshehadn’tcomplainedonce.

NotevenwhenIcamealloverherfaceandonceinherass.ThisnewJillianwasupfor
anythingwithoutawordofobjectionandItestedherlimitstimeandagain.

Ihadherineverypositionknowntomanandthensomethatwecameupwithonour
own.ItseemedasiftensecondsafterIcameandmycockwentdownandIrolledaway
fromher,I’dbeupagain.

putherinthesixty-nineforagoodhourtoeasethepaininherredpussy,andwhenI
wasreadytocumheldherheadinplacewhileIspilledinhermouth.

Iendedthenightwithmyfingersinhersorepussy,fingerfuckinghertoorgasmonelast
timewhileshestrokedthelastounceofmyseedfrommycock.

Thesunhadbeencomingupwhenwefinallyfellintosleep,that’swhyshe’sspreadout
onthebedlookinglikeshe’dbeenworkedover.

NowI’mherewonderingwhatI’mdoinginherbed.I’dhadallplansonleavingonceI’d
hadmyfill,butbythetimeIrolledawayfromherthelasttimeIwasasstired.

Ifthere’sonethingaboutmybaby,shecanworkherlittlevirginpussylikeapro.It’snot
thefirsttimeshe’dputmeonmyassafteranightinthesack.

Nowthatshewasn’tawakeandlookingatmeIwasabletotakeherinfully,andrealized
thenhowmuchI’dmissedherface.Ialmostreachedouttotouchhercheek.

TorunafingergentlydownherfleshthewayI’vedoneathousandtimes.ButintheendI
hadthegoodsensetopullback.

Thebirdswerestillchirpingoutsidethebedroomwindowandraysofsunlightcame
throughthecircularwindowsintheraisedsittingroomarea.Maybethat’swhathad
awakenedme.

Ilookedaroundtheroomwithasenseofmelancholiclonging.Itremindedmeofoneof
ourmanylonglostweekendsmorningsspentinbed.

SaturdaysandSundayswenevergotoutofbeduntilthreeintheafternoon.We’dspend
allmorningmakingloveandcatchinguponourweek,fillinginthehourswe’dbeenapart
becauseofmybusinessandhercharities.

Thenwe’dshowertogetherbeforegoingtothecluboroneofherfavoriterestaurantsfor
brunch.AfterwhichI’dtakehershoppingbecausethatwashersecondfavoritepastime
afterfucking.

IusedtoputeverythingIcouldintothosetwodays.Iknewsheneededattentionandlots
ofit.SowhenIwaswithher,businesswasalwaysputonthebackburner,nomatterwhatI
hadgoingon.

It’snotlikeitwasahardship.Ilovedspendingtimewithher.SinceIseemedtobethe
onlyoneotherthanhergirlswhogother,sheusedtosuckupallthatattention.

Iwasacaptiveaudience,becauseIlovedwatchingheranticswhileshetalked.Iloved
lookingather,seeingtheanimatedlightinhereyesoverthesimplestthings.

I’dlovedhermorethanI’veeverlovedanythinginmylife.Shewasmyworld…Ohfuck
thisJacob,no.Donotgothere.Nofuckingtripsdownmemorylaneyoufuck.

Sowhatareyoudoinginherbed?Whatthefuck’snextyouass?Ihadnoplansonever
spendingthenightinherbedthisgoroundandIsureasfuckwasn’ttakinghertobrunch
anywhere.

Iliedtherenexttoherfuming.Ishould’veknownnottogettangledupwithheragain.Six
monthsafterthedivorceandjustwhenIwasstartingtogetmylifebackontrackhereshe
comeswithhershit.

NowI’mbackonhertitlikeafuckingkid.Runningeachtimeshecalledlikeadogona
leash.AndIthinkIfuckedhermorelastnightthanIdidthefirstnightofourhoneymoon.
Oranyothernightforthatmatter.

Igaveherthestinkeyewhileshewasstillasleep.Shemust’vemissedmywarmthnextto
herbecausesherolledintomeandputherhandonmychest.

ItonlyremindedmethatI’dawakenedwithmyarmswrappedaroundher,spooning.It
hadalwaysbeenourfavoritewaytosleep.Mybabyusedtosayitmadeherfeelprotected,
safe.

Ilovedthewayhertinyframefitsoperfectlynexttomymuchlargerone.Thewaywhen
wefuckedmybodywouldcoverherscompletely.Fuck,mymorningwoodjustturnedto
steel.

WhatareyoudoingJake?Yousureyouhavethisshitundercontrol?I’dconvincedmyself
thatIcouldfuckherandnotgetsuckedinagain.

ButI’dforgottenhowmuchIoncelovedher.Andevenafteralltheangeritseemsthat
lovehadonlycooledslightly.Itwasn’tasdeadasIthoughtandIdidn’tlikethewayIfelt
wakingupnexttoher.

Irefusedtoacknowledgethosefeelings.I’veneverbeenasuckerforanyoneandIwon’t
beoneforher.Notagain.

Ofeveryoneonthisearthshe’dhurtmethemost.I’mfuckedifI’mgoingtoletherdo
thatshitagain.Ifanyone’sgoingtobeleftfordeadthistimeit’sgoingtobeherass.

ThetentmydickmadeinthesheetswasproofthatIwasnowherenearreadytogiveup
theskinsthough,butthistimeImdeterminedtoplaythegame,myway.

Ihadherflatonherbackbeforehereyescamefullyopenandwasslidingmyhardcock
intoherbeforeshecamefullyawake.

IgrittedmyteethagainstthepleasureonceIhadaboutthreequartersofmydickburied
deepinsidehercunt.

Herpussywastightandwarmfirstthinginthemorning.Shehasoneofthosepussiesthat

closebackuphoursaftersexandmycockjustlovesthatshit.

Ifuckedinandoutofherslowlyuntilherpussyopeneduptotakemoreofme.Shesighed
sweetlyandtriedwrappingherarmsaroundme.

Icaughtherhandsinmineandslammedthenbackdownonthemattressbesideherhead
andignoredthelookofhurtinhereyes.

OnceshewasniceandjuicingIpulledoutandputheronherhandsandknees.Ifucked
backintoherbeforeshehadafirmgriponthesheetsandsheskiddedupthebed,banging
herheadintotheheadboard.

Ileftherthereandwenttotownonherpinkpussy.ShescreechedandhowledeachtimeI
slammedmycockintoherandhernailsscratchedagainstthewoodoftheheadboard
beforeIlethergetcomfortableagain.

Ididn’tstoppoundingintoherandwhenherchestdroppedtothepillowsbeneathherI
grabbedbothherarmsandpulledthembacksoIcouldholdherhandsinthesmallofher
backwithoneofmine.

Ihadcompletecontrolofherbodythiswayandusedit.“OhJakey,ohshit,rightthereI’m
cumming.”Whatthefuck?Mywomanhasnevertalkedinbedbefore;shewasalwaystoo
shy.

She’sscreamed,screeched,moanedandhowled,butthiswasafirst.Andtheshitwashot.
Ipulledherarmsbackharduntiltherewasadeeparchinherbackandsentmycock
deeper.

“Ohyou’resohard,sodeep.”Eachwordsentshockwavesrighttomydick.TheharderI
poundedherpussythemoreshetalked.

lookeddownbetweenusatthesightofmycockcoveredinherjuicesandcreamach
timeIpulledoutandwentbackindeep.

HerassjiggledeachtimeIdeepstrokedherpussyandIsmackedhercheekswithmyfree
hand.Hergruntwaslowandgutturalandherbodyshookwhenshewentupandover
again.

WhenherarmslookedliketheyweregonnapopoutoftheirsocketsIreleasedherand
leanedoverherback,coveringhercompletelywhilemyhipsmovedwildly.

ThisonlysentmedeeperintoherandIcouldn’tresistsnaggingherneckbetweenmy
teethwhenherpussyclampeddownaroundmycockmeatlikeshewasputtingmyshiton
lockdown.

Ibroughtheroffbeforepullingoutofher.Ididn’tgiveheranywarningwhenIslipped
mywetcockintoherass.

Iheldstilloncethefatheadofmycockpoppedpasthertightsphincterandwaitedforher
toadjust.Shetriedpushingmeoutofherassbutonehardspankoneachalreadyred
cheeksoonchangedhermind.

“Takeit,takemycock!”ShewhinedandtoldmeithurtbutIhadnointentionson
stopping.Besides,I’dopenedherassbackuplastnight;she’llbefine.

Ican’tfuckherassthewayIdohercuntbecauseshenevergotusedtotakingmylength
inherass,butIplannedonchangingthatshitsoon.

“Breathe.”Iwaitedforhertotakeafewdeepbreathsbeforeslidingmoreofmycockinto
herassandonceIwashalfwayinherass,startedupanicedeepstrokingintohertight
littlerosebud.

Shegruntedandgroanedaftereachthrustandpushedherassbackontomycock.Ifeltmy
ballstightenupandmytoescurled.

Ireachedaroundforherclitandbroughtheroffagainbeforepullingoutofherassand
paintingthesmallofherbackwithmyseed.

Evenheropenpussygotsomeofitandhertightlittleasshole.Itappedoutthelastfew
dropsonherasscheekbeforegettingdownoffthebedandheadingintotheshower.

Ididn’teventellhergoodmorning.InfactIdidn’tevenlookather.Inolongerfelt
disgusteachtimeIcametoherbed,butIwasstillstickingtothecourse.Nointimacy
whatsoever.Ihadn’tkissedherthistimeorthenightbeforeandIdon’tseethatchanging
anytimesoon.

Iheardhercomeintothebathroomfiveminuteslaterandturnonthewaterinthetub.The
factthatshewasn’tjoiningmeintheshowertoldmewhatkindamoodshewasin.

Good,nowsheknowshowitfeelstobeusedanddiscardedandaslongasshekeeps
callingmetofuckthat’sallshe’sgonnaget.

Itookmytimeandcleanedheroffofmebeforesteppingoutoftheshowerandgrabbinga
warmtowelofftherack.

Shewasalreadyinthetubburiedunderbubblesuptoherchinwiththecutestlittlepout
onherface.IgnoreherJacob,that’showshealwaysgetsyou.

Iwasn’tplanningonsayinganythingtoher.IfindthatafterwefuckIalmosthateherand
can’twaittogetawayfromher.OnlytomisshertenminutesafterIleaveher.

Thatshitjustpissesmethefuckoff,butIcouldn’tstandtoseethehurtinhereyes.I
leanedoverthetubandkissedthepoutoffherlips.“I’llseeyoulater.”Somuchfornot
kissingher.

Igotdressedandleftinahurry.Theguiltdidn’thituntilIwasalmostbackatmyplace.I
triedtoignoreit,knowingthatonceIgaveintoitshe’sgotme,butitwasnouse.

Nomatterwhatshe’ddone,itwasn’tinmetomistreathernomatterhowmuchImight
tellmyselfIwantto.

Ithurtmetohurther,butIcan’tgobacktothatplaceagain.Ican’tleavemyselfopento
thatkindofpain.SowhatamIsupposedtodo?

WhenIlovedher,itwasthetruestloveI’deverknown.Iliterallylearnedwhatlovewas
bylovingher.

SureIlovedmyparentsandsiblings,butthatwasadifferentkindoflove.Thatshitwas
almostrequiredunlesstheyweretotalassholes,whichtheyaren’t.

WithJillianitwasthefirsttimeIeverfeltmyheart.ShewasthefirstpersonIeverput
beforemyselfinallthings.TheonlyoneIcouldn’timaginelivingmylifewithout.

Ilovedhersomuch,thatlovewaslikealivebreathingthinginsideme.I’dwantedtodo
somuchwithher,forher.Andshe’dfuckeditallup.

Itwasgettingeasiertoassuagetheguilt.AllIhadtodowasrememberthedivorceand
howfuckedupthewholethinghadbeenanditwasgettingeasiernottogiveafuck.

ThedamndogwentnutswhenIwalkedthroughthedoor.LookslikeIdidn’twashheroff
goodenough.Hemadeabeelinefortheentrywayanddashedintothehallwayoutsidemy
door.

Thelittleshitsetupahowlwhenshewasn’tthereandstartedhisshitwithmelikehe’s
beendoingeverydaythisweek.

IcheckedhisbowlstomakesurehiswalkerhadtakencareofhimwhileIwasgoneand

onceIverifiedthatallwasokaywenttochangeoutoftheclothesI’dwornthenight
before.

Hefollowedmeallovertheapartmentgivingmedisapprovinglooks,whichIignored.
Oneofthemadayisenoughforme.I’mnotdealingwithhershitandhistoo.

WhenIstartedgettingtiredofmyowncompanyandthatfeelingofwantingtocrawlout
ofmyownskinpersisted,IknewIneededtodosomething.

MaybeI’djumpedbackintothisthingtoosoon.Asusual,she’dcalledandI’djumped.As
herhusbandIneversawitasweak.

Shewasminetoloveandprotectafterallwasn’tshe?Butnowasthemanshe’dthrown
awayIdidn’towehershit.

Andwasn’tshetheonewho’dwantedtofuckinthefirstplace?I’mprettysurethat’swhy
she’dcalledmeinthatfirsttimeandI’dwalkedrightintohertrap.

Ineedabreak,needtogetmyheadonstraightbeforeshesnaresmewithhershitagain.I
havetostayontopofthisshit,havetobetheoneholdingthereinsorI’mout.

hensheleftmealittlemorethansixmonthsago,itguttedme.Iwasn’t
expectingit;Ithoughtweweregood.Thatourrelationshipwasevenbetter
thanmost.

ThenonedayshedisappearedfordayswithoutawordandIhadnoideawhatwasgoing
onuntilIwasservedwithdivorcepapers.

TheonlyreasonIhadn’tcalledthelawandfiledamissingpersonsreportisbecauseshe’d
hadoneofhergirlscallmewithsomebullshitaboutherneedingsometime.

SinceIknewIhadn’tdoneanythingtojeopardizeourmarriage,I’dhaddaystoworryand
question.WhenIthoughtshemightbeleavingmeforanothermanIalmostlostmy
fuckingmind.

Iknewthenhoweasyitwould’vebeenformetobecomeoneofthoseassholesonthe
news,whoofftheirexandthenewmanandshit.Scaredthefuckouttame.Idon’tever
wanttobethatfuckedagain.

Shemakesmeweak;theonlybeingonthisearthwhoeverhasoreverwill.Iwon’tlether
dothatshittomeagain.Won’tgiveherthekindofpowersheonceheldoverme.

AndthefactthatIhavetokeeptellingmyselfthatshitoverandoveragaindayinandday
outtellsmethatI’malreadyintrouble.

I’daskedmyselfearlierwhatIshouldnonextbutitseemedclearnow.Ijustneededsome
timetocometotermswithmydecision.

Forwhateverfuckedupreasonshe’sdecidedtocomeback.IfIdidn’tknowbetterI’d
thinkshewastryingtofinishmeoff.Justreelmebackinsoshecoulddestroyme
completelynexttime.

She’sthetypethatneedsclosureandallthatotherhappybullshit.BecauseIdidn’tfall
apartduringthedivorce,didn’tfighther,Iknewitwouldbothertheshitoutofher.

Heroverdramaticasswould’vepreferredthatIbeghertostay.Whatshedidn’tknowwas
thatherlackoftrustinme,wasthefinalnailinthecoffin.

I’dnevergivenherreasontodoubtme.Neverdoneanythingremotelydishonestinour
marriage.WhenItookmyvowsImeanteveryfuckingword,obviouslyitwasjustabig

fuckingjoketoher.

Howelsecouldshehavemadesolightofit,ofus?I’msureshe’dexpectedmetogrovel
atherfeet.ForherthatwouldbemeshowingherthatIlovedher.

Toobadforhershe’dmissedalltheclueswhileweweremarried.EverydayI’dspent
withherwasshowingmylove.Aloveshehadn’ttreasuredenoughtoholdonto.

EachtimeIgaveherthewords,should’vebeenproof.WhenIlookedintohereyeswhileI
wasburieddeepinsideherandshowedhermyheart,thatshould’vebeenproof.

It’sforallthosereasonsandmorethatIwillnevertrustheragain;cannevertrusther
again.Ifshecan’tseehoworwhyIshouldfeelthisway,thenshereallyisaditz.

ThethingisIthinkshedidknowatonetimehowmuchIlovedher.Iknewshewashappy
withme.Afewshortweeksbeforeshepulledtherunnershewassmilingandjoyful.

Butsomethinghappened,Istillhavenoideawhatthatsomethingwas.andI’dgivenup
tryingtofigureitoutlongbeforeI’dgivenuponmymarriage.

She’dnevertoldmewhereshegottheideathatIwashavinganaffairfrom.Nonamewas
everrevealed.Justanaccusation,mydenialandatenmilliondollardivorcesettlement.

IthinkIalwaysknewdeepdownthatweweren’tdonewitheachotherthough.Nothing
thatvolatile,thatpassionatecandisappearthateasily.Notwithoutsomemajorfireworks
anyway.

Andthat’swhathadbeenmissing.Shedidn’tgettheblow-upsandthefierytempershe’d
beenexpecting.

Shedidn’tgetmetoorderhertostayherasswhereshewasasI’ddonecountlesstimes
before.Ididn’tthreatentotiehertomybed,orspankherass.

Inshort,Ididn’tfightforherortrytoholdontoherafterthelasttimeItriedtalkingsome
senseintoherandsherefusedtolisten.

Iletmyangergetthebetterofmethen.Thefactthatshehadranawayfrommewithout
hearingmysidehadkilledsomethinginsideme.Almostasmuchasbeingaccusedof
adulteryhad.

ThatshecouldevenentertaintheideathatIwoulddosuchathingafterlookingherinthe
faceandtellingherIlovedherthatverymorning.

ItwaslikespittingeverythingIambackinmyface.Ithadn’tmatteredthatI’dtriedtobe
thekindofhusbandanywomanwouldbehappytohave.ThatI’dgoneaboveandbeyond
always.

Allthatmatteredwasherprideandthefalsehoodshebelievedaboutthemanshe’dsworn
tolove.ThatlastdayI’dallbutpleadedwithhertolisten.

I’dstoppedshortofbeggingandwhenIfoundmyselfwaytooclosetodoingthatshit,
that’swhenIthinksomethinginsidemelaiddownanddied.

Afterthatday,aftermuchsoulsearching,I’ddecidedtolethergo.She’dbetrayedmeand
therewasnoforgivingthat.Notformeanyway.

Iknownowthatshehadn’texpectedmetojustwalkawayandnotlookback.Ihaveno
doubtthatshe’dexpectedmetocomebackforher,orattheveryleastcontestthedivorce.
Onelastditchefforttosavethemarriageshe’dburned.

InsteadI’dturnedcoldandshutheroutcompletely.IntheendIletmylawyersdothe
talkingandhadrefusedtoevenlookatherthatlastdayinherlawyer’soffice.

Ishould’veknownthatshebeingwhosheiswouldneverletshitendonthatnote.Iam
alsosurethatifshe’dlovedmehalfasmuchasI’dlovedher,shehadtobemissingour
timetogether.

I’mprettysureitwasherpridethathadkeptherawaythislong,notthatI’dsataround
waitingforhertocometohersenses.

WhenIsaidIwasdoneIreallywasdone.Ihadnoideainthebeginninghowharditwas
goingtobetomoveonfromwhatwehadthough.

Ithoughtforsure,eventhoughIwasinnorush,thatwhenthetimewasrightI’dfind
someoneelse.Itdidn’ttakemelongtorealizethatwasafuckinglie.

I’mnotsurewhatfinallypushedherasstocomesniffingaftermeagain.ButIknowall
hertells.What’sgoingonwithherrightnowis,she’sfinallyfiguredoutthatshefucked
upsoshewantsmetoburymyheadinthesandandpretendshedidn’tfuckmeover.

She’snotgonnasaysorry,sheneverdoes.Iblameheroverindulgentparentsforthatshit.
Herspoiltasshasbeengettingawaywithshitsincethedayshewasborn.

She’snotpurposefullyselfish,it’sjustwhothefucksheis.Shethinkslifeshouldgo
accordingtoherplansandeveryoneinherorbitissupposedtocatertohershitandgo
alongwithit.

I’dbeenhappytoplaythatgameuptoapointthreeyearsagowhenwemet.NowthatI’d
beenburnedbyherfuckedupmentalityIwasn’tabouttoputmyselfthroughthatshit
again.

That’snotgonnahappen.NowaywillIeverlethergetthatclosetomeagain.Fucking
hersweetassintonextweekisallwellandgood,butoncemyemotionsstarttakingme
backthere,toaplaceIoncethoughtwasgoodbuthadturnedtoshit,that’swhereIdraw
theline.

couldn’tstandmyowncompanysoIgotdressedandwentforarunwithmy
annoyingassdognexttome.

Itookhimtohisfavoriteplaygroundandhelostthesullenlookfromhisface.Great,now
Ihavetobribethemuttsohewon’tleavemeinthedoghouse.

Isattherewiththeotherownerswatchinghimactthedamnfoolandfinallyhadtoaccept
thetruth.NomatterhowhardorfarIranIcan’toutrunthethoughtsinmyhead.

She’dinfiltratedagain,brokenthroughthedefensesIcould’veswornI’dbuiltafterthe
numbershedidonme.WhyelsewouldIbesoconsumedwiththoughtsofheragain?

Whyelsewouldtheideathatmaybethistimethingswouldbedifferentkeepslippinginto
mymindwhenIleastexpectit?

Icouldn’tevenfindsolaceintakingmydogtothedamnparktoplay;shefollowedme
evenhere.Iwasstartingtomissherwhenshewasn’tthere.EvennowwhenI’mtryingto
getaway,mythoughtsarefullofher.

ThisisoneofthosetimeswhenIhateher.Ihatethatshecanstillmakemefeelanything
forher.Anythingotherthanhatethatis.

IhatethatIfuckingmissher,thatIevenforonesecondgavethoughttogoingbackthere
andclimbingbackintothatbedwithher.

BythetimeIgotbacktotheapartment,whichwasonlyhalfthesizeofthehomeI’dbuilt
her,us.Ihadanewplaninmind.

ImadesomecallsandwasonmywaytotheairfieldwhereIkeepmyGulfinlessthan
twohours.

JustforspiteIdidn’tevencallherandtellherIwouldn’tbeintownforthenextweek.I
blockedhernumberforthedurationandonlyfeltalittleguiltyaboutdoingit.

TherewasonlyonemomentofdoubtwhenIquestionedwhethertherewasanytruthto
herbeingfollowedshit.

Ishruggeditoff.She’llbefine.Thehouseissecureandshehasastaffthatcomesin
duringthedaysoshewon’tbealone.

Besides,hadn’tshebeendoingfinewithoutmetheselastfewmonths?Justbecausewe
werefuckingdidn’tmeanIhadtogoalloutandplaythesapagain.

threwmyselfintoanewventure;somethingthatIknewwouldtakeallmytimeand
energyandkeepmymindoccupied.

AndthoughIdidn’thavemyusualverveandexcitementbecauseshewasconstantlyin
thebackofmydamnmind,Imademyselfstay.

BydaythreeIwasfinallyhittingmystrideandbythetimeIdroppedmyheadonthe
pillowatnight,shewasonlythelastthingIthoughtofbeforesleepfinallytookme.

Imademyselfforgetherduringtheday.Ittookwork,butitcouldbedoneandthat’sallI
reallyneededtoknow.

Ineededtobesurethatshecouldnolongertwistmeinknotsthewayshehadbeforeshe
threwmeaway.

Ididn’tseeitasbeingweak,theloveIhadforher.ButI’dobviouslymissedastep
somewhere.WhileIwasbeingthemanIthoughtagoodhusbandwassupposedtobe,she
wasjustgoingthroughthemotions.

Iwouldneverhaveaccusedherwithoutabsoluteproof.Wouldneverhavethrownaway
whatwehadonawhim.

Iknowmeninmypositionhaveareputationforphilanderingandotherdepravedbullshit.
Buthavingmoneydidn’tchangewhoIwasasaperson.

I’dbeenraisedtorespectwomenandit’sforthatreasonthatIhadn’tfuckedhershitupin
thedivorce.Ortoldhertogotohellthistimewhenshecalled.

Icould’vedraggedthedivorceoutandmyattorneywasgoodenoughIknewhecould’ve
gotthatshitdowntoafewthousandgrand.

ButIdidn’twantthat.ComingontotheendIjustwantedheroutofmylife.Iwassickof
her,sickofthewholething.

owshe’sbackandIthinkIknowwhereshe’sgoingwiththisnewgameofhers,and
Iamsonotgoingtherewithher.

SureIwantkids,afamily,someonetogrowoldwith.Butit’snotgoingtobeher.Iwill
nevertrustherwithmyheartagain.

WhenthetimeisrightI’llfindmeanicewomantosettledownwith.Fuck,eventhinking
thatshitmakesmefeeloff.

Toodamnbad.I’mgoingtohavetodoitsoonerorlaterifItrulywanttogetonwithmy
life.Ishould’vebeenlookinglongbeforenow.

MaybewhenIgetbackhome.Orwhosaysshehastobelocal?MaybeIshouldsettleon
oneofthosecareertypesI’dshunnedlasttimearound.

I’dprobablystandabetterchanceoffindingonewhohadthegoodsensetoknowagood
thingwhensheseesitamongthatbunch.

Ohforfucksake,howisthisnotthinkingabouther?Icould’vestayedathomeanddone
thisshit.IshookitoffandreadovertheproposalI’dbeenworkingonforthethirdtime.

Businesswasn’twhatitusedtobe.NowIhavetospicethingsupjusttokeepit
interesting.I’dbecomemorecutthroatinmydealingssincethedivorceandsomepeople
hadnoticedandwerecomplainingthatIwasn’tplayingnice.

Well,nicehadn’tgotmeveryfar.AslongasIdidn’tdefraudorbetrayanyone,mytactics
werefinebyme.

ItcouldbearguedthatI’dbeenabittoolenientinthepast,andhadlostgoodmoneya
timeortwoonthebacksofsentiment.

ThetruthisI’ddoneahellofalotbettersinceIchangedthanIusedtoandIhadn’thadto
sellmysoultodoit.

ThisnewmergerwillmakemeevenricherthanIalreadyamevenifitwasn’tdoingthe
jobI’dexpectedittodo.

WhenIwentwalkinginthecityafterdinnerthatevening,Ifoundmyselfwindow
shoppingforherthewayIusedto.

OnlythistimeIhadnointentionofcallingupthestorethenextdayandordering
whateveritwasthatI’dliketobesenttoher.

Iacceptedthatmaybeitwasgoingtotakealittlemoretimetogetheroutofmysystem
andleftitatthatandfinallygotsomepeace.

OnceIgaveupfightingmyownmindthingsbecameeasier.Iwasbacktobeingthe
stalwartbusinessmanI’dalwaysbeenandmylifewasmyownonceagain.

Ididmissherdailyphonecalls,seeinghernumbershowuponthescreenofmyphone.
Thewaymyheartwouldspeedupjustbeforelunchtime.Andthatyoujackass,isthe
reasonyou’rehere.

yweek’sendIwasproudofmyselfforbeingabletoforgetheratleastpartof
eachday.Itwasonlyinbed,atnight,alone,thatImisshercrazyass.

IgotbacktoourcitylateintheeveningaweeklaterandthefirstthingIdidafterpicking
upmydogwastocheckmymessagesontheansweringmachine.

She’dfilledit.Ionlylistenedtoeachmessagelongenoughtobesurethatshewasn’tsick
orindangerbeforeerasingallofthem.I’llcallhertomorrow.

ThenextdaywasSaturdayandIwasplanningtojustlayaroundthehouseandrelax.I’d
hadalongweekofmeetingsandallIwantedtodowasunwind.

WhenDanacalledaroundnoonandsaidI’dmissedsomecallsthatmightbeimportantI
toldhertoholdoffuntilMonday,butshehadagoodpoint.ComeMondaythere’dbe
moreshittodealwith.

“Fine,whydon’tyoumeetmeattheclubaroundtwo.”Isuddenlyhadahankeringfor
theireggsbenedictanyway.

Ididn’tthinkanythingofaskingmysecretarytomeetmeforbrunch.I’vehadlunchwith
theonebeforeherhundredsoftimes.

OfcourseConniewasinhersixties,butIdidn’tseethisnewoneanydifferentlyeven
thoughshewasmorethanhalfherage.

Itookaquickshower,madesurethemuttwasokayandheadedoutthedoor.MaybeI’d
getafewholesinwhileI’mthere.

IwaspleasedthatIdidn’tevengiveJillianasecondthoughtsinceIrolledoutofbedthis
morningwithmorningwood.Itlookslikemylittleexperimenthadworked.Outofsight
outofmind.

Aswasusualforthistimeofdayontheweekendtheplacewascrowded.Thehostess
gavemeawarmwelcomeandtookmetomyfavoritetable.

IonlythoughtofJillianbecausethisusedtobeourtablewhenwecameheretogether.I
haven’treallybeensincethedivorce,onlytohitafewonthegreenonceinawhile.

ButeventhathadlostitsshinewhenIdidn’thavemyineptpartnertoplaywith.Fucking

girlcouldn’tplayanykindofsporttosaveherlife,butshewasgoodforafewlaughs.
Dammit,willIeverbefreeofher?OrwillIseeherineverythingIdo?

Itwasbeingbackintown,that’sall.Andcominghere.IconvincedmyselfthatIcouldput
herassbackonthebackburnerandcarryonwithmylife.

I’velivedwithoutherthesepastsixmonthsandsurvived.I’llcallhernexttimeIgetan
itch,orbetteryet,maybeI’dhavefoundsomeoneelsetotaketomybedbythen.

IknewIwasonlykiddingmyselfwhentheonlyfaceIsawwashers,andtheverythought
offuckinganyoneelsemademesicktomystomach.

That’sthewayit’sbeensincethesplit.NotthatI’dbeeninanyhurrytogettangledup
withanotherfemale,butwheneverI’dletmymindtakemethereIcouldonlyseeher.And
itstillhurttothinkofanyoneelsetakingherplace.

IorderedaBloodyMarythoughIhatetheshits,butitbeatorderingavodkatonicthat
earlyintheday.I’dbedamnedifshe’sgonnaturnmeintoafuckingdrunk.

Danashoweduprightontime.Ionlymadenoticeofhowunprofessionallyshewas
dressedbecauseofthebrightcolorofherflirtydresscomparedtoherusuallydarkskirt
suitsattheoffice.

Itwasherdayoffandshewasdoingmeafavorbybeinghere,butreally,whatdidIcare?
IfhersmilewasalittletoowideandfriendlyIdidn’tnoticeforanyotherreasonthanto
notehowcompletelydifferentitwastohermoresevereappearanceintheoffice.

Thetruthis,she’sbeenworkingformeforacoupleofmonthsnowandunlessthere’sa
callorIneedsomethingdoneIhardlynoticeshe’sthere.

Iwasn’tdeadenoughinsidenottonoticethattherewassomeinterestthereonherpart.
AndnowthatshewashereandIwasthinkingclearly,itwasobviousthatthismeetingout
oftheofficewassomekindamoveforwardinherplantocatchmyeye.

Shewasn’tabadlookingwomanbyanystretchoftheimagination,it’sjustthatmyexnut
hasneuteredmyassandIcannolongerseeanythinginaskirt.

Ievenletmyselflookather,toseeiftherewasevenatwingeofinterest,butnope.
Nothing!Myboywasasleepanddidn’tevenstir.IfIneededanyproof,thereitwas.

IwaspoliteasIwasn’tborninacave,butittookheraminutetocatchontothefactthatI
wasignoringallherlittlesignals.Poorthing,shedidn’tstandachance.

Igotrightdowntobusinessandkeptmytoneneutralandthatimaginarycolddistance
betweenemployerandemployee,sotherewasnowayshecouldmisjudgeanythinghere
today.

Iwasalreadyregrettingthechoicetoaskhertomeetmehere.Iwasn’tinthemoodfor
businessorcompanyanditshowed.

ShitonlywentfrombadtoworsewhenIsawwhowalkedinnottwentyminuteslater.I
ignoredthereactionofmybodyandfocusedmoreonthemoreimminentproblem.

AccordingtohowIhandlethis,thisshitmightgosouthfast.WhyhadIconvincedmyself
thatshewouldn’tbeheretoday?Thiswasalwaysourfavoriteplaceontheweekend.

SomehowI’dgotitintomyheadthatsinceIwasnolongervisitingthoseplacesneither
wasshe.IguessIwaswrong.

Ihadtoremindmyselfthatwewerenolongermarriedandtherewasnoreasonformeto
feelguiltyforsittingherewithanywoman,evenonethatIhadnointerestin.ButIknow
her.Fuck!

Iactuallygaveseriousthoughttogettingupandleavingbeforeshesawus,becauseI
knewwhatwascomingnext.ButagainIremindedmyselfthatshehadnosayinwhoor
whatIdid.

Shewasatthehostessstand,nodoubtaskingforourusualtableandfromthehand
movementsIguessIwasright.

OhIbetshe’sgonnalosehermindwatchthisshit.Iwatchedherturnfromthepodium
andIlookeddeadather.

Inoticedpartofherposseinherentourageandsworesilently.Someofthosewomen
aren’texactlypolishedifyouknowwhatImean.AndIwasnotinthemoodfora
showdown.

“Iseverythingokaysir?”I’dallbutforgottenthewomansittingacrossfromme.She
turnedtolookinthedirectionmygazehadbeenfocusedinforthelasttwominutesorso
beforelookingbackatmequestioningly.

Ihadnoideawhethersheknewmyexornot,it’snotsomethingIdiscusswiththehelp.
Butherfacehadlostsomeofitsanimationwhensheturnedbackaround.

Ididn’tthinkanythingofitwhenshereachedoutandputherhandovermine.Herwords
wereprettymundane,butIwastheonlyonewhoknewthat.

Anyonewatchingusmightmistakeitforamoreintimateexchange.“Doyouknowthat
womansir?ShouldIcallheroverforyou?”

Ididn’tlookawayfromJillianwhowasglaringinmydirection.HereyesflickedtoDana
sittingacrossfromme,downtothehandthatstillcoveredmine,andIsawthechange
comeoverher.Ohhell!

IpulledmyhandoutfromunderDana’sandtoldherinacalmbutforcefulwaythatthe
meetingwasoverandsheshouldgo.

Ididn’ttakemyeyesoffmyex;becausenosanemantakeshiseyesoffasnakethathe
knowsisabouttostrike.

“Ithinkwe’vedoneenoughfortoday.I’lltakecareofthesefirstthingMondaymorning.”
Shegatheredupherstuffanditwasonlyassheputherhandonmyshoulderbefore
leavingthatIrealizedthiswasallshitwecould’vedoneoverthecomputer.

Istillhadn’ttakenmyeyesoffmyex,notevenwhensheclockedDanaonherwaytothe
oppositedoorandout.

Iexpectedhertocomeover,throwmydrinkinmyface;makeascene.She’snotknown
forbeingrationalandifthere’sonethingIknowit’sthatshehasajealousstreakamile
wide.Shitshedoesn’tevenlikeherfriendsbeingalonewithmeunlessshe’sthere.

SoIbracedmyselfforwhatcomesnext.Expectingattheveryleasttogetchewedout,
onceagainforsomethingI’mnotguiltyof.

WhatIdidnotexpectwasforhershoulderstodroop,hereyestogetsad,andtoseeher
turnandwalkbackoutthedoorwithherfriendsfollowingbehindheraftershootingme
deathglaresovertheirshoulders.

Okaywhatthefuckjusthappenedthere?Asamanwho’dbeenmarriedtoanut,Iknow
howitfeelstofeelguiltevenwhenyou’vedonenothingwrong.

Butseriously,she’snotmywife.WhythefuckshouldIcarewhatshefeels?Whydoes
shestillhavethiskindofpoweroverme?

Isattherelongenoughtosignformybillbeforeleaving.Icussedherallthewaytomy
carandtoldmyselfIwasn’tgoingafterher,Ididn’tcare.

Isn’tthiswhatIwanted?ThereasonIwentawayinthefirstplace?Iwashalfwaytomy
oldhomebeforeIrealizedthatI’djustautomaticallydonethatshit.

Islammedmyfistintothesteeringwheelandcussedabluestreak.Afamilyinasuburban
gavemethewaryeyebutIcouldn’tstoptothinkhowImustlook.

Speedingdownthehighway,cussingatthetopofmylungseventhoughtheycouldn’t
hearmethroughtheclosedwindows,andslammingthefuckoutofthewheel.

IpeeledintoherdrivewayandonlygrewmorepissedwhenIsawthelineofcars,which
meanthergirlswerehere.

Islammedmyfistagainstthedooruntiloneofherhenchwomenopeneditforme.“Not
nowAmelia.”Icutheroffbeforeshecouldsaywhateveritwasshewasaboutto.

Myexnutwassittingonthecouchwithaboxoftissuesandtheotherthreewomen
gatheredaroundher.

Itlookedlikeadamnwakeinhere.Thewomenallgavemelooks,whichonlypissedme
offmore.HowisitshefuckedupbutI’mthebadguy?Fuckingfemales.

“Youguyswannagiveusaminute?”Iaskedtheroomatlarge.Shenoddedherheadat
themandIhadtolistentothreatsagainstmymanhoodastheyeachheadedoutthedoor.

“YoucallmeifyouneedmeokayJill.”Shenoddedtoherfriendwhoglaredatmebefore
slammingoutofthehouse.

That’sonethingIdidn’tmissaboutourmarriage.Whenevershegotpissedatmethere
werealwayssixpeopleinourrelationship.

ShetoldthemeverydamnthingandIhadtocontendwiththemmoreoftenthannot.Ido
knowfrompastexperiencethatthere’snopointinevenpretendingIhaveaside.Asfaras
IcanrememberI’veneverwonanargumentwhenshecalledinreinforcements.

“Whatthehellareyoucryingabout?”Thatshitwasgivingmeknotsinmystomach.I
nevercouldstandtoseehercry.

Butshouldn’tIbeoverthisshitalready?Shewasn’tmyconcern.She’stheonewhochose
this,sowhyshouldIbeartheguiltofitnow?

“Iaskedyouaquestion.Whythefuckareyoucrying?”Iactuallyfeltachillrundownmy
spinewhenallshedidwasshakeherheadmiserablyandrefusetolookatme.

Itwasn’tthatsomuchasitwasthelookofhurtanddefeatonherface.Shelookedbeaten,
andthoughitshouldn’t,itcutmetothequick.

“She’smysecretary,nothingwasgoingon.”Andwhythefuckdidyoufeeltheneedto
tellherthatshit?What’sittoher?

Shesniffledbutstilldidn’tsayanythingandIwassorelytemptedtosayfuckit,turn
aroundandheadbackoutthedoor.

“Comehere.Stopcrying.”Iwipedhertearswhenshegotupoffthecouchandcameto
standinfrontofme,beforekissingbothhercheeksforgoodmeasure.

“Stopit!”Iwipedthefreshtearsthatcamefromhereyesandpulledherintomychest.
“WhatisitthatyouwantfrommeJillian?”

“Iwantustogetbacktogether.”Ilookedatherforafewsecondsaftershesaidit.Though
I’dhalfexpectedit,Ineverthoughtthathearingthosewordswouldinfuriatemeasmuch
astheydid.

“Soyouthinkthat’showitworkshuh?Yougettosaywhenwe’rethroughandwhen
we’renot.”Iputherawayfrommeandshehadthenervetolookshockedandhurt.

ShestartedtospeakbutIshutherdown.“WhosaysthatIwantyou?Didyoustoptothink
ofthat?OristhisstilltheJillianshow?I’vegotnewsforyousweetheart;youwillnever
ownmeagain.”

“Iwillnevertrustyouwithmyheart.Ididthatshitonceandyoufailed.”Iwastoopissed
toevenlookather.Howthefuckdareshe.

Ineededtogetoutoftheretoclearmyheadandthink.IfIansweredhernowI’donlyend
upsayingshitthatI’dregret.

Imovedtowardsthedoorandwhenshemadetofollowmestoppedandturnedtolookat
her.“Ihavetogo.I’llcallyoulater.”

IgaveheratleastthatmuchbeforeIleft.Itwasmorethanshe’dgivenme.Unbelievable.
Ishould’veknownshe’dpullastuntlikethis.LookslikeI’dwastedadamntriptheweek
before.

Well,exceptforthenewdeal.Butthathadbeensecondaryatbest.NowI’mbackwhereI
startedorworse.

BecausenowtheshitisoutintheopenandIcan’tputitbackintheboxorpretendit
didn’thappen.Thatshedidn’tjustturnmyworldupsidedownagain.

drovearoundforhoursafterstoppingbytheapartmenttomakesuremydogwas
takencareof.Ididn’tletmyselfthinkforthefirsthalfhourorso,likeIsaidIneeded
tocalmdown.

Idrovebytheparkbutdidn’tfeellikebeingaroundpeople,thoughIwasn’texactlysafe
todrive.IntheendIwenttomyofficeandsattherewiththelightsoff.

Iwantedadrink,butIneededaclearheadevenmore.SoIsattherewithmyheadthrown
backagainstthechairandclearedmymindofeverything.Andsawher.

Ittookmetwohoursofbackandforth,theprosandcons.Callingmyselfafoolfornot
justgoinghomeandputtingthewholeordealoutofmyheadandmovingonwithmylife.

Butthereinlaidtheproblem.Whatlife?HadIreallybeenlivingtheselastfewmonths?Or
hadIjustbeengoingthroughthemotionswithoutherthere?

Iheadedbacktoherplacewithoutcallingahead.Thelightswereoffbuthercarwas
parkedoutsidethegaragedoorasusualeventhoughI’dtoldherthatitwassafertopark
inside.

Itookmytimewalkingtothedoorandknocking.AssoonassheopenedthedoorI
brushedpastherandstoodinthecenteroftheroom.

Shewalkedslowlybacktothecouchandstoodtherelikeshedidn’tknowwhattodonext.
Icouldtellfromherfidgetingthatshewasnervousashell.

ButallIcouldthinkofinallhonestywasthatIcouldn’tbelieveIwashere.Andnotinmy
usualpessimisticwayeither.

Iwasactuallystartingtofeelthatrushfrombefore.TheonewhereIcouldn’twaittosee
herattheendoftheday.Orwaittomeethersomewhereasalastminutesurprise.

“Ican’tgiveyoumyanswerrightnow.Istillhavealottothinkabout.ButwhatIwillsay
isthis.Ifyou’reseriousaboutwantingustogetbacktogether,therearesomethingswe
havetodiscuss,somegroundrulesifyouwill.”

“Butwhy.It’snotlikewehaven’tlivedtogetherbefore…”

“That’sjustit.We’renotgoingtobelivingtogether.”

“But…”

“Andthat’sanotherthing.NomoreinterruptingmewhenIspeak.Youwanttodothis,
you’regonnadoitmyway.ThenI’lldecideifIwanttotakeyoubackornot.”

“Remember,thisisyouridea,butifyoustartit,youdon’tgettoenditthistime,Ido.But
ifatanytimeyoudofeellikeyouwantout,you’refreetogo.Justdon’teverexpecttosee
meagain.”

Iturnedandheadedforthedoor.“I’lltalktoyoutomorrow.Befuckinghereorwe’re
done.”ForsomefuckedupreasonIchosethatmomenttokissher.

NotoneofthepecksI’dgivenherearliertocalmherdown,butarealtonguetwisting,
breathstealingtonsilcleaningheckofakiss.

IknowwhyIdidit.FoolthatIam,IwantedhertofeelsecurewhileIlefthertonight.I
didn’twantherworryingthatIwasgoingtodeserther.

AllthatnightIthoughtofthebestwaytogoforward.TheonlythingIknewforsurewas
thatIwasnotgoingtodothingsthewayIhadbefore.

ThistimeI’mnotgonnaletfeelingsgetintheway.Shemightwantthingstochange,butI
wasn’tquitesurethatthat’swhatIwanted.

Ididn’tcallherthenextday,Sunday.Ispentthedaywithmydogandcatchingupon
otherthingsthathadnothingtodowithmywife.

Ididn’tcallherthenextdaybeforegoingintotheofficeeither.Iwouldn’tsayshewas
outofmindcompletely,butsomethinghadshiftedandforthefirsttimesinceIwasserved
withdivorcepapers,IfeltlikeIwasonsolidgroundagain.

ForthefirsthalfofthemorningIcouldn’tconcentrateonwork,mymindjustkeptgoing
aroundincircles.

FinallyataroundlunchtimeIcameupwithanideaandranoutoftheofficewithouta
goodbyetomysecretary.

Jillianhadn’tcalledalldayandIknewshewasathomeworryingandpacing.Iheadedto
thenearestshoppingdistrictandspentanhourfindingwhatIneededbeforeheadingoutto
herplace.

Shemetmeatthedoorlookinglesssureofherselfthaninthepastfewweeks.Idropped
thebagsonthecouchandturnedtofindherlookingatmewithuncertainty.

“Come.”IheldoutmyhandforhertotakeandsatheronthecouchwhileIstayed
standinginfrontofit.Igavemyselfsometimetogathermythoughts,toputthingsthe
rightwaysotherewasnomisunderstanding.

“FromnowonwhenIcomehereIwantyoutobewaitingforme.Idon’tcarewhattime
ofthedayitis,orwhatyou’redoing.WhenIcallyoubetterbehereorknowhowtofind
yourwayherefromwhereveryouarebeforeIarrive.”

Foronceshehadthegoodsensetokeephermouthshut,whichwasagoodthingbecause
itwouldn’thavedoneheranygoodanyway.

“Ifyouquestionmeatanytimeforanyreason,I’mgone.YoudowhatIsay,whenIsay

withoutquestion.IfIwantyouropinionI’llaskforit.”

“Thefirsttimeyousaynotomewillbethelasttimeyousaynotome.Iwillfuckyou
whenIwant,whereIwantandhowIwant.Noquestionsasked.”

“Theonlytimeyourpussyisofflimits,arethedaysyouhaveyourperiod,therestofthe
timeit’smine.MinetodowithasIplease.Iownyou,everysingleinchofyou.
Understood?”

Shenoddedherheadstilllookingabitbemused.Ididn’tbotheraskingherifsheagreedto
myterms.Ididn’tjustputmyselfthroughallthattomakeafoolofmyself.Shedidn’t
haveafuckingchoice.

IheldhereyesasIpulledmytielooseandundidthebuttonsofmyshirt.Whenherhands
wenttoherownclothesIstoppedher.

“Ididn’ttellyoutogetundressed,handsoff.”Shefoldedherhandsinherlapandblushed.
“Eyesup!”Herheadflewupandshelookedatme.

Istrippeddowntomysilkboxersbeforegoingtostandinfrontofher.Iliftedherchinand
lookedatherwithoutspeakingforthelongesttime.

FinallyIloweredmyheadandtookherlips.Ilickedtheinsideofherlipandhermouth
beforefeedinghermytongue.

“Nowgivemeyours.”Shetriedpushinghertongueintomymouth,butIteasinglykeptit
outbypushingitbackwithmine.

WhenshestartedgettingintothekissIpulledawayandgottomykneesinfrontofher.
Herdresswasshortasusual,buttherewasmoretothisonethanthenorm.

Ipushedtheskirtupaboveherwaist.“Holdit.”Shehelditthereandlookeddownatwhat
Iwasdoing.

Iranmyfingerdownthewetcreasealreadyforminginthecrotchofhersilkpantieswhile
holdinghereyeswithmine.

HerbreathingescalatedasIranmyfingerbackandforthrepeatedly.Ipulledthetopof
herdressapart,tearingitfromherandleavingherfantastictitsexposed.

IslidmyfingerundertheelasticofherpantiesasIleanedintotakeanipplebetweenmy
teeth.Iwasn’tinanyhurrythistime.

IwantedtospendthewholeafternoonplayingwithherthewayI’vewantedtosinceIfirst
camebacktothisplacethatwasonceours.

Islippedmyfingerinsideherwetpussyandfuckedherwithitwhilegentlysuckingon
hertitsoneaftertheother.

FinallyIpushedherpantiestothesideandlickedherpussy,gettingherjuicesonmy
tongue.Shewassmooththerelikeshe’djustremovedthehair.

“FromnowonI’llbetheonetoshaveandwaxyou.Youdon’tdoanythingtomypussy
withoutmyokay.”

Ilookedathertomakesuresheheardmeandwaitedforhernodbeforecontinuingon.I

sawedtheelasticofherpantylegupanddownherslitwhilenibblingonherfatclit.

Icouldhearthetensioninherbreathing,thewayitgrewrougher.Iranthefingertipofthe
handnotholdingherpantiesoverthegoosebumpsonherinnerthighandfelthertremble.

ranmytonguedownthelengthofherslituntilIreachedhertightlittlepussyhole
whereIteasedherbeforegoingbacktoherclitandsuckingitintomymouth.

ShemovedherhandstomyheadandIshookthemoff.“No,donottouchmewithout
permission.”

“YoubelongtomebutInolongerbelongtoyou.Fromnowonyoutouchmeonlywhen
invited.”ShelookedlikeI’dslappedher.“IfyoucryIwillleave,youcancrywhenI’m
gone.”

Iputmyheadbackbetweenherthighsandwentbacktoteasinghercuntwithmytongue.
HerassstartedmovingbeforeIevengotmytongueinsideherandshemadetightfists
withherhandsathersidesonthecouchasshegroundherpussyintomymouth.

Itookmytongueawayfromherandgottomyfeet,strokingmycock.Iwascompletely
nakednowwhileshestillworethetattersofhertorndress.

“Iwantyoutotakejustthetipofmycockintoyourmouth.NomoreuntilIsay.”She
leanedforwardandstuckhertongueout,dippingintoitmycockslit,beforesuckingthe
fatheadofmycockintohermouth.

“Eyesonmine!”Sheraisedlustglazedeyestomineandkeptsuckingonmycock,
runninghertonguearounditbeforesuckingitbackinandconcavinghercheeks.

“Open,takemore.”SheopenedhermouthwiderandIfedhermoreofmycock,keeping
myhandaroundmymeatsothathermouthwouldmeetiteachtimeshetookuptothe
firstseveninchesin.

“Squeezeyourleftnipplewithyourrighthandandfuckyourselfwiththefingersofthe
left.”I’llhavetoworkonherhesitationbutitwasn’tthatbad,justafewwastedseconds.

ShedidasIaskedwhilebobbingherheadonandoffmycock.Ionlyhadtoslowher
downoncewhenshemovedtoofast,likeshewashungryforthetasteofme.

HerfingersplayedinherpussywhileIfuckedhermouthwithmycock.“Nowusethe
handthat’sinyourpussytostrokemycockintoyourmouth,andusetheothertoplay
withmyballsthewayItaughtyou.”

ShepulledherfingersfromherpussyandIremovedmyhandfrommycocksoshecould

getherhandhalfwayaroundmythickgirthandstroke.

Sheworkedmycockoverwithhersweetmouthanditwasn’tlongbeforeitstartedgetting
tome.Thesightofherheadbobbingonandoffmycockmademyballsfullandreadyto
blast.

Whenmynutsdrewupinherhandandmytoesbegantotinglewithimpendingpleasure,I
pulledmycockfromhermouthandtookoverstrokingitmyself.

“Keepyourmouthopen.”IwasamazedthatIwasstillabletokeepallemotionfrommy
voice,asifIwasjustlookingonatwhatshewasdoingwithnorealinterest.

Ijerkedmycockuntilablastofspermfellontoherlipsanddribbleddownherchin.The
nextvolleywentintoherhairandstillmorelandedonherforeheadandcheeks.

Icamealloverherfaceandwipedtheheadoffmycockoffonhertonguebeforestepping
backandaway.“No,donotwipeitoff.Leaveitthatwayfortherestoftheday.”

ShelookedatmeinshockbutIdidnotchangemymind,asIgotdressed.Iknewhowthat
wouldfeelforsomeonelikeher.Tobeleftdirtywithcumdryingonherfacetherestof
theday.

“Givemethesparekey.”Shegotuptogetitfromthedrawerofoneofthesidetablesand
gaveittome.“Iknowyouchangedthesecuritycodes.Writethemdownandgivethemto
me.”

Shehurriedtodomybidding,stillwearingherrippedclothes.Ilookedatthepaperwhen
shegaveittomeanddidn’treact.Thecodeusedtobeacombinationofourbirthdays;
she’dchangedittoourweddingdate.

I’dhadaverysophisticatedsystemputinwhenthehousewasbuilt.Thewholeplacewas
wiredandIcouldseeitonmycomputeraslongasIhadthecode.

“Ifanyonecomestothedoorit’suptoyouwhetheryouwanttoanswerornot.”Ifinished
gettingdressedandlookedtowardsthebagsI’dbroughtwithme.

“Donottouchthosebagsanddonotwashyourfaceorhair.I’llseeyoulater.”Iwalked
outandclosedthedoorbehindme,leavingherstandingthereinthemiddleoftheroom
watchingme.

AssoonasIgotintothecarIputthecodeinmyphoneandwatchedhercurleduponthe
couchcryingintotheleatherseat.Iturneditoffandwentbacktotheoffice.

ImademyselfconcentrateonworkandonlycheckedmylaptopwhereI’dinputthecode
atimeortwo.

She’dleftthecouchandhadgoneintothekitchentositattheislandstaringintospace.
Everyonceinawhileshe’dcryandIsawthatshe’dchangedintoashortgreysilkrobe.

IlefttheofficeatmyusualtimeandwenthometocheckonMaxandtochangeoutofmy
suitandtakeaquickshower.

IletmyselfinwhenIgottothehouse.ShewassittingonthecouchwatchingTV,or
staringatthescreenmorelike.

HereyesfollowedmeasIcrossedtheroomandwenttooneofthebagsI’dbrought

earlierwithoutsayinghello.

OnceIfoundwhatIwantedIheadedupstairs,stillwithoututteringawordof
acknowledgement.I’msurehereyesfollowedmyeverymoveuntilIwasoutofsight,but
Ineverlookedbacktosee.

InthemastersuiteIenteredthebathroomandturnedonthewaterinthetubmakingitas
hotaswasbearablebeforeaddingthespecialsaltsI’dboughtforthespa.

OncethebathwasreadyIstrippedandwentbackdownstairstofetchher.Itookherhand
wordlesslyandwalkedherupthestairs.Foronceshekepthermouthshut.That’sastart.

Ipushedtherobeoffhershouldersandhelpedherstepintothetubbeforeclimbingin
afterher.Ilethersitontheoppositeendofthetubuntilshegotusedtothewater’sheat,
thenpulledheraroundtositinfrontofmewithherbackturned.

Westillhadn’tsaidawordtoeachotherwhenIpickeduptheLoofahspongeanddipped
itinthescentedwaterbeforerunningitalonghershouldersandback.

Icleanedmydryseedfromherfaceandneckbeforecuppingmyhandsinthewaterand
pouringitoverherhair.

IrantheLoofahbetweenherlegsandcleanedherpussybeforedroppingitandfinishing
withmyhand.IfingeredherpussyuntilIfelthertenseuptocum,andwithdrewmyhand.
Evenherorgasmsbelongedtomenow.

Istoodoncethewater-cooledandtookherintotheshowerwhereIwashedand
shampooedherhairbeforedryingheroffwithatowelandwrappingherinacleanrobe.

InthebedroomIlaidherbackacrossthebedandspreadherlegsopen.Ikneltonthefloor
andpulledherassofftheedgeofthebedsoIcouldeatheroutthoroughly.

Ishookmyheadfromsidetosidewithmytongueburieddeepinsideher,andstrokedmy
achingcockashertasteexplodedinmymouth.

Ilethercumthistimebeforepullingoutmytongueandgottomyfeet.Ireachedonthe
bednexttoherfortheotherthingI’dtakenfromthebag.

Iusedtheoiltogreaseupmycockandsquirtedsomeinherass.OnceIwassatisfiedthat
shewaswellprepared,Iliftedheranklesintheairandledmycockintoherassinchby
inchuntilIwascompletelyburiedthere.

Ifuckedniceandslowwhilelookingintohereyes.“Playwithyourpussybutdonotcum.
IfyoumakeyourselfcumIwillstayawayforthreedays.Nophonecall,nocontact.”

Shedidn’thesitatethistimetogetherhandonherclit.SherubbedherpussyasIfucked
herassanddidn’tlosteyecontact.

Ourbreathingheateduptogetherwitheachdeepstrokeofmycockintohertightassand
herfingersgoinginandoutofhercunt.

WhenIwasreadytocumIpulledoutofherassandjerkedmyseedalloverhercuntand
ass.“Moveyourhands.”Shetookherhandsawayfromhercuntandwaitedformynext
instruction.

“Staythere.”Iwentbackdownstairsandbroughtuptheotherbags,throwingafewof

themintothewalkingclosetasIpassedbeforetakingtheblackshortsheernegligeeinto
theroomwithme.

“Situp.”Ipulleditonoverherhead,admiringthewayhertitslookedunderthematerial.
Iwentintothebathroomandredressedbeforegoingbacktothebedwhereshewasstill
sittingwhereI’dlefther.

ThistimeIkissedherlongandhardbeforeleaving.“Sleeptight!”Ilockedupandleftand
headedtomyfavoriterestauranttohavedinneralone.

checkedinonherusingthephoneandsawhersittingatthekitchentableeatingby
herself.ShelookedsosadandaloneIwasalmosttemptedtogobacktoher,butI
foughttheneedandheadedhomeinsteadoncedinnerwasover.

MaxgotanicelatenightrunandIdidafewlapsinthepool,thistimenotchasing
anything,beforegoinguptobed.

InthemorningIcheckeduponheronthelaptop.Shewasstillasleepinbed,curledonto
hersidewithwhatusedtobemypillowheldtightlyagainsther.

IfeltbetterthanIhadinmonthsasIgotreadyfortheday,andforonceIwasabletoget
throughonewithoutthoughtsofherplaguingme.

ThateveningIlefttheofficealittlelaterandIstoppedandpickedupdinnerbeforegoing
toher.Shewasdressedasifshewasgoingoutsomewhere.

“Goingsomewhere?”

“Janineandtheothersinvitedmeoutfordinner.”

“Cancel!”Ididn’twaittoseeifshewoulddoit,justwalkedtothebackofthehousetothe
kitchen.

Iheardthedroneofhervoicesecondsbeforeshecameintothekitchen.Ihadthetable
alreadysetwithdinnerandwine,nocandlesthough.

“Come!”Iheldoutmyhandforherandsatherattheplacenexttomine.“Howwasyour
day?”

“Itwasfine.”ShesoundedliketheangelIfirstmet.Unsureofherselfandhappytobein
love.

“Whatdidyoudo?”

“Nothingmuch,justreadsome,watchedTV.Tookabath.”Shesoundedalmoststrained
asifshewereafraidtosaythewrongthing.

Shepickedatherfood,pushingitaroundontheplate.“Eat!”Shelookedatmebefore
liftingtheforktohermouth.

Weateinsilenceafterthatuntilwe’dbothhadenoughthenwegotuptoclearthetable

andputthedishesinthedishwasher.

“Comeintothelivingroomwhenyou’redone.”I’dalreadylostmyjacketandtie,nowI
rolledmysleevesupandsatonthecouchwaitingforhertojoinme.

Shecameintotheroomandstoodnexttothecouch.“Takeoffyourclothes.Leavethe
shoeson.Ialwaysdidliketoseehernakedinthosedeathdefyingstiltsshecallsshoes.
I’vefuckedherhardandplentyinthatgetupinthepast.

ShestrippedstandingthereinthelivingroombeforeItookherhandandpulledher
aroundthecouchbyhand.

Isatherwithherbackagainstthearmofthechairandpulledoneofherlegsupandalong
thebackofthecouch,spreadingherpussyopensoIcouldseethepinkinsidehercunt.

IstuckmythumbinsideherandpickeduptheremotetoturnontheTV.Ikeptmyeyeson
thescreenwhileImovedmyfingeraroundinsideher.

WhenshestartedfuckingmyhandIsloweddownandpickedbackupagain,listeningto
herbreathingasitescalated.

Ipulledoutmythumbandeasedmyfourfingersintoherjuicingcunt,fuckingherwith
themtothebrinkoforgasmbeforepullingback.

“Takeoutmycock.”Sheleanedoverandreleasedmybeltandzipper,takingmycockout
intotheairthroughtheopeninginmysilkboxers.

“Strokeme.”Shestrokedherhandupanddownmycockusingmypre-cumtowether
hands.“Nowsuckmycock.”

Sheloweredherheadwithsomehelpfrommyhandonthebackofherhead,leadingher
tomyoffering.

ThistimeIdidn’tputanyrestrictionsonherandlethertakeasmuchofmeasshewanted
intoherhotmouth.

Shesuckedmycocklikesheenjoyedit,likeifshecouldshe’dconsumeit.Ifuckedinto
hermouthwithmorecareandreachedoverherbackanddownherassuntilIfoundher
pussy.

Iworkedherpussywithmyfingerswhileshefuckedmewithhermouth.WhenIfeltmy
cockjumpandherpussytightenaroundmyfingersImadeafistinherhair.

“Swallow!”Ishotaloadinhermouthandheldmydickinthereuntilshe’dswallowed
everylastdrop.IliftedherheadfrommycockandputthefingersandthumbI’dusedin
herpussyinhermouthonebyone.

“Tasteyourself!”Ileftmyfingersinhermouthuntilshe’dcleanedthemallbefore
slippingthemoutagain.

Ifixedmyclothesandgotdressed.“You’releaving?”

“Noquestionsremember.”

“YesI’msorry.”

Imadesurethehousewaslockedupbeforekissingheratthedoorandleaving.

hingswentonlikethatforaweek.EachnightI’dgotoher.Sheneverknewwhat
timeIwouldshowupandsinceI’dforbiddenherfromcallingmeunlessitwasan

emergency,shehadnochoicebuttostayinthehouseorsomewherenearby.

Nomatterwhatshewasdoing,onceIgotthereitcametoanendandherattentionswere
solelyonmeandmineher.

Ididn’teatdinnerwithhereverynight,butonthosenightsthatIdidn’t,Icameearly
enoughthatshecouldmakeherselfsomethingafterorgooutsomewheretohavedinner.

Wedidn’tspeakofthepast,butImadehertellmeeverythingshedidthatday.Irealized
thatIhadmovedintosomesortofphasewhereIwasprotectingmyself.

Itookovercompletecontrolofher,orchestratinghereverymove.WhenIateherpussy
lastnightI’dnoticedthatherpussyhairwasgrowingbackandwouldneedtakingcareof
soon.

WhenIarrivedthatnightItookherintothebathroomandstrippedherinthemirror,
makingherwatchherselfasIrevealedherbodytobothoureyes.

“Sit.”ShesatonthevanitychairandIpushedherlegsopenwiderbeforekneelingdown
infrontofherwiththestuffIneeded.

Ilatheredupherpussyhairandthentookmytimetoremoveitfromherbody.Iwipedthe
excesscreamfromhersoftsmoothfleshbeforepickingherupandtakingherintothe
showerwithme.

Isoapedupthewashclothandwashedherfromheadtotoebeforestandingstillforherto
dothesameforme.

ShetookhertimewashingmycockandIknewherfascinationwithithadgrownbecause
I’drefusedtofuckhertheselastfewdays.

Itookherassandhermouthcountlesstimes,broughtheroffwithmymouthandhands,
butIneverenteredherwhereshewantedtofeelmemost.

OnceourshowerwasoverItookhertobedandlaidwithherinmyarms,justholdingher.
Ididn’ttouchheranywherebuthershouldersforthelongesttimeasshelaidwithher
headonmychest.

henIbeganrunningmyhandsupanddownherbackandshoulders.Herlegs
movedagainstthesoftsheetsandIliftedherfacetomine.

Ilickedalongherlips,“givemeyourtongue”,shepokedhertongueoutandIsuckedit
intomymouthsuckingonitsoftlybeforeplayingoveritwithmytongue.

Ikissedherlikethat,softly,teasingly,whilerunningmyhandscaressinglyoverherbody.
“Openyourlegsforme.”SheslidthemopenwhilelyingonhersideandIputmyhard
thighbetweenherspreadlegs.

“Rubyourcuntonmythigh.”Iwentbacktohermouth,kissingherdeeply,teasingoneof
hernipplesbetweenmyfingerswhileshefuckedherselffasterandharderonmythigh.

“Cum!”Ikissedherdeepwhilesqueezinghertitandpressedmythighharderagainsther
hotcunt.Ifeltherwetnesscovermyskinasshescreechedintomymouth.

Sherockedherselfbackandforthuntiltheorgasmsubsided,thenandonlythendidIput
heronherbackandburiedmyfaceinhercunt.

HerscentwaswarmandsweetasIburiedmytongueinhercuntandlickeddeep.Iheld
herasstightinmyhandsandateherouttomyheart’scontent.

WhenshecameIlookedupherbodytoseeherbitingintoherlip.“Letgoofyourlip.”
Sheletgoandherscreamsandmoansgotlouder.

“Ohpleaseohpleaseohplease.”Shemovedagainstmymouthlikeawildwantonand
cameagain.Ipushedafingerinherassandfuckedherwhileleavingmytongueinside
her.

WhenmycockbecametoopainfulIleftherpussyandslidupherbodyuntilIstraddled
herchest.“Takemycockinyourmouthandsuckmeoff.”

SheswallowedmycockwithahummingmoanandIreachedbacktofindherpussywith
myfingers.Ipushedtheminandoutofherwhileshesuckedtheshitoutofmycock.

“Enough!”Ipulledoutofhermouthandmademywaybackdownherbody.Iliftedher
legstogetherinonehandandranmycockupanddownherplumppussylips.

Herjuiceshadrandownintothecrackofherassandmycockwascoatedwithpre-cum.I

spitinher,inthecrackofherassrightoverhertightlittlerosebudbeforetakingmycock
inhandandguidingitintoherass.

“Ahhhh!”ShescreamedwhenIbottomedoutinherassandherhipsmovedbeneathme.I
lookeddownatthewayherpussyplumpedupbetweenherthighsandsawthatshewas
soakingwet.

Iranafingeralongherslitandpresseddownonherclitwhilesawingmyhipsbackand
forth,drivingmycockdeepintoherassoverandoveruntilIwaspummelingtheshitout
ofhertightass.

Shearchedandcamehard,herscreamsloudandbrokenwithtearsofintensepleasure.I
didn’tstopbatteringherinsidesbutbroughtheroffagainuntilmyballsdrewup.

Ipulledoutandrubbedmycockbetweenherlegsonhercuntlipsandclit,spillingmy
seedonherbellyandnewlyshavedcunt.

Igavehermymouthagainanddroveacouplefingersintoheruntilshefuckedherselfto
anotherscreamingorgasm.

WhenIwasdoneItookherintothebathroomandcleanedherupagainbeforetakingher
backtobed.Ididn’thavetoworryaboutthesheetsbecausethecleaningladywilltake
careofthatinthemorningbutImadeherstraightenthemup.

“Timeforbed.”Igotintobedandpulledherintomyarmssothatherheadrestedonmy
chest.Iplayedinherhair,kissingherheadeveryonceinawhileuntilshefellasleep.

Istayedawakealittlelongerthinkingoverthepastfewweeksandthenewchangesinour
relationship.I’mnotsurethatshe’dnoticedhowmuchshe’dchangedherself.

IseethatlightinhereyesagainwhenIwalkinthedoor.ShetriestohideitbutIknowher
toowellforhertokeepanythinghiddenfromme.NowthatIknowwhattolookforI’m
veryattentive,veryaware.

Nowthatweweren’tlivingtogetherIfindthatIleavetheofficeatadecenthourtogetto
her.SomethingIwasmadatmyselfformissingthefirsttimearound,somethingthatI
plannedtochange.

Thesexhadalwaysbeengreat,butnowit’smovedintoawholeneworbit.EventhoughI
haven’tfuckedherinoveraweek,theanticipationisunlikeanythingI’veknownbefore.

ThoughIcuminhermouth,herass,onhertits,eventhoughIhavethetasteofherpussy
inmymoutheveryday,theneedtogetinsideherkeepsgrowingstrongerandstronger,
almostlikeacraving.

IknowshefeelsittoobecauseIwatchheronthelaptopatlunchtime,thetimeIwould
usuallybecomingtoherperourlatestadventures.

InsteadIleaveheraloneandwatchhowagitatedshegetswhentheclockwindsdownto
themiddayhour.NotknowingifI’mgoingtoshowupornot.Ifshe’dhavetowaitforthe
eveningtoseemeagain.Feelme;touchme.

Ifellasleepwithherwarmweightonmychestandwokeupinthemorningwiththebirds.
Ilookeddownathersleepingformbeforerollingheroffmychestandontoherback
besideme.

Shewasn’twearinganythingsinceIforbidhertowearanythinginbedwhenI’mhere.I
openedherlegsandlookedatherprettypussybeforesuckingthelipsintomymouth.

IlickedhercuntandFrenchkissedituntilIfeltthefirstofherjuices.Ilickedaroundin
circlesandbackandforthinhercuntwithmytongue.

Shecameawakewrithingonthebed.Thefirstthingshedidwas,starttograbatmyhead
toholdmeagainsthercunt,butatthelastsecondsherememberedtherulesandpulled
back.

“PleaseIwanttotouchyouJake,letmetouchyou.”Shesoundedclosetotearsasshebit
intothebackofherhandtokeepfromdisobeyingmyordernottotouchmeunlessItold
herto.

“Notnow,justlaybackandenjoy.”Iateherpussyandfuckedherasswithmyfingers,
makinghermindlesswithneed.

AfterherscreamsandmoansdieddownIlaidbackonthebednexttoherandtookmy
hardcockinhand.

Shemovedhurriedlydownbetweenmythighswithoutneedingtobetold,maybebecause
thismightbetheonlywayshegetstotouchmetoday.Whoknowswhatwasgoing
throughherhead?

ShestartedtotakemeintohermouthbutIstoppedher.“Makemycockwetwithyour
pussyjuicefirst.”

SheclimbedupovermeandIheldmycockagainstmystomachsoshecouldsitonit.She
rubbedherleakingslitbackandforthalongmycock,mixingherjuiceswithmycock
snot.

OncemycockwasniceandcoatedIpushedherbackdownbetweenmythighswitha
handonherhead.

“Niceandslow,I’mgoinginlatetoday.”Shegrabbedmydickandpusheditawaysoshe
couldgettomyballs.

Shelickedaroundmynutsacandtookmyballsgentlyintohermouthallthewhile
strokingmycockwithherhand.

Shespitonmynutsandtookthembothintohermouthatonceandherhandmovedfaster
onmycock.

Sheleftmyballsandpulledthetipofmycockintohermouth,lickingandsuckinguntil
hercheekswerefullofdick.

Ilookeddownbetweenmyspreadthighsathertousledhairasherheadbobbedonmy
cock.Shekeptherhandaroundmycockwhiletakingalittlebitmoreofmeintoher
moutheachtime.

Onceshereachedhercomfortspotshestrokedfasterwithherhandsandusedhertongue
onmycockasIliftedmyhipsintohermouthrestlessly.

“Chokeonmydick.”Sheknewthatmeanttotakemoreofmeintohermouth.Herhands
loweredandshechokedandgaggedasshetriedtakingmoreandmoreofmylonghard

cockintoherthroat.

Iheldherheaddownhardeachtimeshechokedandtriedpullingoff.“No,suckmy
cock.”Shehadtearsrunningdownherfacebutthatwasnoincentiveformetostop.

WhenIgrewcloseIpulledherheadoffmycockandgottomykneesonthebed,jerking
mycockasIlookedather.

“Lookatme.”ShewasstilllyingonhertummysoIgrabbedthebackofherheadwith
onehandandkeptstrokingmycockwiththeother.

Icreamedalloverherfaceandhairshakingoffmycockuntileverylastdrophadbeen
emptiedfrommyballs.

“Fuck!”Itappedoutthelastfewdropsofcumagainsthercheekbeforerunningmy
cockheadacrossherlipsandontohertongueforonelastsuck.

tookherfromthebedandledherintotheshowertocleanherup.Iwashedherhair
andfacewell,removingallthecumI’dspilledonher.

ShewassullenwhileItookcareofherandIknewwhy;shewantedmeinsideher,she’ll
havetowait.IplayedwithhertitswhileIsoapedthemup,teasinghernipplesuntilthey
werehard.

Iwashedherpussywithmybarehands,bringingheroffthatway.“Bendoverformeand
staythere.”Ileftthestallwiththewarmwaterrunningwhileshebentoverwithherhands
ontheshowerbenchandherassintheair.

IwenttotheclosetandgotsomethingfromoneofthebagsI’dlefttheretheweekbefore,
beforegoingbacktoher.

Iswitchedoffthewaterandtoreopentheboxinmyhand.Shelookedbackoverher
shoulderatwhatIwasdoing,hereyeswideningatthesightoftheenemabag.

Itwasafive-gallon,whichIfilledwithwarmwaterbeforehangingitoverthe
showerhead.“Layonyoursidewithyourbackturnedtome.”

ShedidasshewastoldandIslippedthenozzleintoherassbeforereleasingtheclamp
andlettingthewaterrushslowlyintoherass.“Don’tmoveuntilIgetback.”

Ileftherandwenttogetdressedfortheday,givingthewatertimetodoitsjob.WhileI
wasinthereIpickedoutheroutfitfortheday,evendowntowhatshoesIwantedherto
wear.

OnceenoughtimehadpassedIwentbacktotakecareofher.Thebagwasaboutempty
andshewasgrabbingathercrampingtummy.“Holditalittlelonger.”

HereyesweresheenedwithtearsandherfaceredwhenIfinallypulledthenozzlefrom
herassandallowedhertoruntothetoilet.

IleftthebathroomtogivehersomeprivacyandheadeddownstairstothecoffeeIknew
she’dprogrammedformethenightbefore.

Iwasreadingthenewsonthecomputerandfinishingmycoffeewhenshecameintothe
kitchenwrappedonlyinashortsilkrobe.

“Comehaveyourcoffee.”Igotupandpouredheracupasshetookthechairclosestto
mineattheheadofthetable.

“Didyousleepwell?”

“Yesthankyou.”

“Isyourtummystillcramping?”Herfacegrewredandsheshookherheadbeforetelling
meno.

“Good.Nowfinishyourcoffeeandmeetmebackupstairs.”Iwentupaheadofhertoget
stuffreadyandshefollowedmenotlongafter.

I’dplannedtouselubricantonherbutseeingherassswingunderthesilkrobegaveme
otherideas.“Hoponuphere.”IpattedtheedgeofthebedwhereIwantedheronher
knees.“Losetherobe.”

ShetooktherobeoffanddroppeditoffthesideofthebedontothefloorandIlinedup
behindher.Ilickedhercleanpussyagainmakingherdirty.

HerfreshscentandtastealmostsidetrackedmefromwhatIwasdoingasmycockgrew
longandhard.Hewantedinherintheworstway,buthetoowillhavetowait.

Iranmyhandthroughherpussy,collectingherpussyjuiceandrubbeditallovermycock.
“Holdyourassopenforme.”Shereachedbackandspreadhertightassopenforme.

Idippedtheleakingheadofmycockintoherassandpulledbackoverandoveruntilher
assbegantoloosenupandopentoacceptme.

ShemoanedsweetlywhenIfedherassmostofmycockandscreamedandtriedtorun
awaywhenIfinallysankthelastfewincheshome.

Igrabbedherhairandfistedit,usingitasareintopullherbackonmycock.“Where’re
yougoing?Huh?DidIsayyoucouldgosomewhere?”

Ispankedherasstoshowhermydispleasurewhilediggingdeepinherasswithmycock.
ShewasalreadyjuicingdownherthighsoIguessthathadbeenallforshow.

Westayedlikethat,withmelockedinherassandmyhandonherclitkeepingheratfever
pitchuntilmyballsexplodedinamassiveorgasm.

“Stay!”IpickedupthebuttplugI’dleftonthebedwiththegelIwasnolongergonna
need.“Rollover.”

SherolledoverandIpulledherlegsintheair.“Holdthemthere.”Sheheldherankles
togetherintheairthewayIshowedherandIeasedthebuttplugintoherassandstrapped
itinplace.

OnceIwassatisfiedIleanedoverheronthebedwithmyarmsoneithersideofher.“This
staysonallday.”Itappedtheplugtomakesureitwasinthereniceandtight.

“Don’tforget,I’mwatchingyousoI’llknowifyoumoveit.Nowkissme.”Shereached
formyheadpullingmedowntoherandwekissed.

ItwasakissfilledwithpassionanddareIsay,love.Iwantednothingmorethantoclimb
backintothatbedwithherandshowherhowmuchIstilllovedher.

HowmuchIhadcometoacceptthatIwouldalwaysloveher,butnotyet.Therewerestill
afewthingsIneededtodofirst.

“Iwantyoutomeetmeattheofficetodayatone.Wearthis.”Ishowedherthedesigner
jeansshe’dhadintheclosetsinceweweremarriedbutneverworn.

IpairedthemwithawraparoundsilktopthatIknewwouldenhancehercleavageand
showofftheshapeofherbreasts,whichIlovetosee.

IrandownthestairsandpickedupmyjacketoffthecouchwhereI’dleftitearlier.Isaw
heronthestairswhenIturnedtoclosethedoor.

WestoodtherelookingateachotherforthenextminuteandahalfbeforeIturnedand
walkedaway.

IlookedbackatthehouseintherearviewmirrorallthewaydownthedrivebecauseI
couldseeherstandinginthewindowwatchingmeleave.

IsmiledwhenImadeitontothestreetandcouldn’ttellyouwhyIwassmiling.AllIknow
isthatthere’sbeenaheavinesspressingdownonmesincethedayofthedivorce,thatwas
nowgone.

inceIwasnowinthehabitofleavingmylaptopopentothesecurityatthehouse,I
heardthedoorbellataroundtenthatmorning.

IstoppedwhatIwasdoingandwatchedashergirlswereletintothehouse.Hergirls,
therewerefourofthemthatlivedlocallyandanotherthreethatwerescatteredalloverthe
country.

Onlythefour,Amelia,Rosie,JanineandIleneweretherethough.Iwatchedthewomen
hugandsmileateachotherastheyfollowedherintothelivingroom.

Therewasalotofsmalltalkandcatchingupforthefirstfewminutesthentheybrought
outthebigguns.

“Okaygirlfriendwhatgives?”ThatwasAmelia,theonlyAfricanAmericaninthebunch
andalwaystheonewiththemosttosay.

Weusedtogetalonguntilshehadtochoosesidesandtherereallywasn’tanyquestion
nowwasthere.

“Whatdoyoumean?”IstudiedJillyassheinteractedwithherfriendstoseeiftherewas
anylingeringsadness,anythingthatIshouldbeawareof.

“WhatdoyoumenwhatImean?You’veblownusofftwiceinoneweek,what’sgoing
on?Areyoutwobacktogetherornot?”

Sheshruggedhershouldersandthelookonherfacemademyheartsad.“Idon’tknow.”It
wasonethingformetopunishher,seehersadness,butsomethingelseentirely,forherto
cowerinfrontofothersbecauseshewasn’tsureofmyfeelingsforher.

Iranmyfingeralongthetopofmylipandrelaxedinmyseattohearwhatshewasgoing
tosay.Ibuzzedmysecretaryrealquickandaskedhertoholdallmycalls.

“Whatkindaansweristhat?Youdon’tknow?Whatdoyoumeanyoudon’tknow?Have
youtalkedtohimorhaveyoutwobeenheatingupthesheetseverychanceyouget?MayI
remindyou,thatwasneveryourproblem.”

Iwouldwonderhowthehellshe’dknowaboutourbedroombusiness,butthattoowasa
mootquestion.Iknowshetellsthemeverything,she’dtoldmemorethanoncewhenshe
wasmadatmeandwentrunningtothem.

“It’snotthatit’s…Ithinkhe’sstillreallymadaboutthedivorceyouguys.”Theremust’ve
beensomekindofcommunicationbetweentheothersbeforetheyshowedupbecausethe
threeofthemlookedtoAmeliatoanswer.

“Wellofcoursehe’smad,youaskedhimforadivorceremember,howwouldyoufeelif
theshoewasontheotherfoot?”

“Iknow,butcan’theseethatI’msorry?”

“We’retalkingaboutamanwithlotsofpridehere.Andrememberyouknewgoinginthat
thiswasn’tgoingtobeeasy.”

“IknowbutIdidn’tknowitwouldbesohard.Imissedhimsomuch,butIhaven’tbeen
abletotellhim.Ifeelsostupid,whydidn’tIlistentohimwhenhetoldmehewasn’t
cheating?”

Isatbackinmychairandwatchedandlistenedasshetoldthemthingsshehadyettosay
tome.Likehowsheregrettedthedivorcebeforetheinkwasdry.

Howshecameclosetoharmingherselfaftershe’dlostme.Thatonemademythroatdry
andasickpanicstartedinmychest.

Icould’velostherandIdidn’tevenknowit.Ilookedatherface,moreprecioustome
thananythingI’deverowned.

Whydidyoudoitbaby?Whydidyoudestroywhatwehad?Iwaitedforanansweror
evenahintofoneintheirconversationbuttherewasnothing.

AllIgotwasthefactthatshe’dreallybelievedthatIwascheatingonherbasedonthose
infamousphonecalls.

Sheonlycametorealizethatsheshould’velistenedtomeonceitbecameclearthatifI
hadbeencheatingIwould’vebeenwiththisotherwomanbynow,butsixmonthsafterthe
divorceIwasstillsingle.

Thenshetalkedabouthowmuchshemissedme,missedus,andwhoweusedtobe.She
admittedthatitwasherfailuretobecomepregnantthathadledtoherinsecuritiesand
madeiteasierforhertoacceptthatIcouldbecheating.

“Ishould’veknownbetter.Jakeishonesttoafault,sowhydidIletthistotalstrangerfill
myheadwithliesandtaketheirwordoverthatofmyhusband’s?”

“Andyoustillhavenoideawhothispersonis?”

“Nope,thecallsendedthedaythedivorcebecamefinal.”

“Youknow,I’vebeenthinkingaboutthatalotand,whatifsomeonesetyoutwoup?What
iftherewasnoaffairbutsomeonemadeitseemliketherewastogetyoutwoapart?”

“Butwhy?”Asmywifequestionedherfriendmymindraced.Isthatwhathadhappened?
I’dneveroncegivensomethinglikethatanythought.

Whowouldwanttocomebetweenus?Noonehadapproachedme,well,notinany
unusualway.Womenarealwayspropositioningme,buttherewasneveranyreasonto
believethatanyofthemwouldgothatfar.Andwhatabouther?Hadsomeonebeenafter
mywife?

AssoonasIaskedmyselfthatquestionherfriendbroughtitup.“No,nothingbeyondthe
usual.Youknowguysarealwayshittingonus,butnoonethatIwouldtakeseriously.”

“Thenit’samystery.Butokay,what’stheproblemnow?Obviouslyhe’sinterestedorhe
wouldn’tbeherenow,sowhydon’tyouknowifhe’sstayingornot?”

Iwaitedforhertotellthemaboutmynewwayofdominatingherbutsheneverbroughtit
up.Good,that’sbetweenusandIwantittostaythatway.SomethingonlyherandI
shared.

Ilistenedtotherestoftheirconversation,whichhadbranchedoffintotheirother
interests,butIkeptthedroneoftheirvoicesinthebackgroundasIgotbacktowork.

IkeptthinkingaboutwhatAmeliasaidandcouldn’tshaketheideathatshemightbeonto
something.Theonlyquestionwaswhywouldanyonegotothoselengths.

I’llhavetogiveitsomemorethought,butIputitoutofmymindfornow.Our
relationshipwasmovingontoanewphase.

TheselastfewdaysI’vebeenwatchingher,reallywatchingher.Toseeiftherewasany
changeinherorifshewasthesamewomanwho’dgivenuponourmarriagewithouta
fight.

TheconversationI’djustoverheardwentalongwaytoansweringthatquestionforme,
thoughI’dbeencomingtothesameconclusionmyself.

Idon’tthinkshewouldevermakethatmistakeagainifIgaveheranotherchance,andthat
broughtmebacktome.WhatdidIwant?

IknewIcouldn’tlivewithouther,butthetruthisIdon’ttrusther,andIdon’tknowifor
whenthatwouldchange.

Myfeelingsweren’tinquestionhere,theyneverwere.Inevergaveuponus,never
would’veinamillionyears.

Ifshe’deverlosthermindandcheatedonmeIwould’vemadeherpay,butInever
would’vegivenherupforanything,Ilovedhertoomuch.

Buthadshelovedmethesame?Theevidencesaysno.Icouldkeepherandcarryonthe
waywewerenow.

NorealemotionexceptforwhenIbreakdownandkissherbecauseI’dmissedthetasteof
herlips.AcoldexistencewhereIkeepmyheartprotectedfromheratallcostwhilewego
throughthemotions?

ButIdon’twantthat.I’mmanenoughtoadmitthatIwantedwhatwehadback,maybe
withalittletweakinghereandthereonbothourparts.

IwanttowakeupXmasmorningwithherinmyarmsshakingwithexcitementbecause
shewantedtorushdownthestairslikeakidandseewhatIgother,butIalwaysmadeher
waituntilafterbreakfast,toheightentheexcitementofcourse.

Iwantedthatbackaswellasalotofthingswe’dsharedthatIknewIwouldneverfind
withanyoneelse,nordoIwantto.

heshowedupperfectlyontimeforourlunchappointmentandIhustledheroutof
theofficewithoutsayinggoodbyetomysecretary.

EversincethatdayattheclubI’dhardlygivenherasecondthoughtbutIcouldseefrom
thelookonJillian’sfacethatitwasstillaproblemforher.LookslikeI’mgonnaneeda
newsecretary.

IheldherhandthewayIusedtoaswewalkedtomycar.Iseatedherandbeltedherinthe
wayIusedtobeforetouchinghercheekandwalkingaroundtomyside.

“Youlookamazinginthosejeans.Ineverunderstoodwhyyouneverworethem.”

‘Theymakemybuttlookbig.”

“That’swhatIloveaboutthem,thewaytheycontouryou.Youhaveabeautifulassbaby,
youshouldn’tbeashamedofit.”

Iliftedherhandtomymouthandkissedherfingersbeforekeepingitundermineonmy
thighasIdrove.Weweren’tgoingtoofarsoIpulledintotheparkinglotfiveminutes
later.

Shelookedaroundatthelittlestripmallwithcuriosity.Thiswasn’tourusualvenue,but
thereweren’tmanytattooparlorsintheluxuryshoppingcenter.

ShelookedupatmewhenIopenedthedoorandusheredherinbutIdidn’tsayanything
andshedidn’task.Goodgirl!

Theattendantcameouttomeetusandtookusrightback.I’dalreadytoldhimwhatI
wanted,andsincehe’ddoneminetwoandahalfyearsagohehadeverythingheneeded.

HetookthedesignfromadrawerandbroughtitovertomeasIhadhersitonthechair
andwait.Ilookedoverthedesigncarefully.

Itwasanimageofourweddingringsintertwinedwithmynameemblazonedoverit.It
wasidenticaltotheoneIhaveonmybicep.Theonlydifferencewasminehadhername.

Iheldherhandasheaddedittothesmallofherback,perfectlycenteredoverherass
betweenthetwindimplesthere.

IknewshewassoreandachyafterwardsoItookherhome.Thedriverhadalready

broughthercarbacksotherewasnoworrythere.

Iputhertobedandkissedherforeheadafterremovingtheplugfromherass.“Sleep!”I
pulledthebedroomdoorhalfwayclosedandheadedbackdownstairs.

IshouldgobacktoworksinceIhadsomuchtodo,butthethoughtofherwakingup
aloneandsickdidn’tsitwellsoIstayed.

ItookcareofherwhenshewokeupandtoldherI’dseeherthenextdayaftermaking
suresheateandthathernewtattoolookedokay.

HerfeverwasdownnowsoIdidn’tfeeltherewasanydangerifIleft.“Stayoffyourback
baby.Sleeponyoursideoryourstomach.Andremembernottogetitwetintheshower
okay.”

IcouldtellfromthelookinhereyesthatshewassadIwasleavingbutIneededanother
oneofthosenightsalonetothink.Plus,mydogmustbeforgettingwhatIlooklike.

hatnightIwatchedhersleepwhilesippingasnifterofmyfavoritecognac.She
lookedlikemylittleangel,softandinnocentasshesleptonhersidewithherhands

claspedbetweenherthighs.

EventhroughthecameraIcouldseetheteartracksonhercheeksandwonderedifshe’d
criedintheshowersinceI’dbeenwatchinghersinceIgothomehadn’tseenhercry.

TheonlytimeshewasoutofmysightwaswhenshewenttotakehershowersoI’m
guessingthat’swhereithappened.Ilookedawayfromthesightforasecond.Inever
couldbeartoseehercry.

Isatupmostofthenightdeepinthoughtuntilitwastimetogotobed.Iwasplanningon
givinghertimetohealandalsoafewdaysawayfrommemighthelpherseeifthiswas
whatshetrulywanted.

Iknowwhatshetoldhergirlsandevenwhatshe’dsaidtome,butIneededhertobesure
thistime.YesI’dputmynameonher;Ihadmyreasons.

Nomatterwhatshedecidesafterafewdaysapart,she’salwaysgoingtobemine.No
matterwhereshegoesI’llfindher.She’dopenedPandora’sboxandthatwastheprice
she’dhavetopay.

ForthenexttwodaysIcalledheronlyonceeachmorningtomakesureshewasokay.I
don’tthinksherealizedthatIwaswatchingheronthemonitor,andIhadnointentionson
tellingher.

Iwasn’texactlytestingher;Ineverdoubtedherhonestybefore.Butitwasrelievingto
knowthatshealwaystoldmethetruthduringthosecalls.

Therewasstillsadnessinhervoice,thismorningwhenIcalled.“What’sthematter,why
doyousoundlikethat?”

“Nothing,Ijust,Imissyouisall.”

“It’sonlybeenacoupledays.Wewereapartforsixmonths.BesidesMaxwasfeeling

neglected.”

“Sowhydon’tyoubringhimover?Hecanstaywithmewhileyou’reatwork,thenhe
won’tbesolonely.”

“No,Idon’tthinkso.”Ididn’texpoundonthatstatementbutIknewshe’dreadbetween
thelines.I’vehadmydogsincecollegeandhe’sasmuchapartofmyfamilyasanyone
else.Idon’ttakechanceswiththoseIlove.

He’dalreadyhadhisheartbrokenbyheronceandthoughImightbewillingtotakea
chancemyself,Iwasn’twillingtoputhimthroughthat.

“I’llcallyoulaterifI’mnottoobusy.”

“When…”Shestartedtoquestionmebutcaughtherselfjustintime.

“Didyousaysomething?”

“Nosorry,justforgetit.”

“I’lltalktoyoulaterthenifnothingcomesup.”

Igotoffthephoneandheadedouttomycar.Ifshewantstobewithmethenshe’sgoing
tohavetoacceptthatsometimesIcan’tbethere.

Mybusinesstakesupalotoftimesometimes,andthoughI’dmademanyconcessionsfor
herinthepastbecausetomemymarriagehadbeenmoreimportant,therestillhadbeen
timesIcouldn’tbethere.

Ifshe’sgoingtobelievethatI’mcheatingonherwheneverwe’reapartthenthisshitwill
neverwork.AslongasInevergiveherreasontodoubtme,thensheshouldn’t.

henIcalledheratlunchIwasdeliberatelyshortwithherandgotoffthe
phoneafteronlyjustafewwords.

Iwatchedonthemonitorasshehungupthephonewithalookofconfusionand
uncertaintyandwentbacktothecouch.ShepickedupheriPadandstartedscrolling
throughsomething.

Herfacewasveryintenseasshelookedatthescreen,asifwhatevershewaslookingat
hadcaughtandheldherattention.

It’swhenthetearsstartedandshebrushedthemawaythatIchangedthemonitorsoI
couldseeoutofthecamerathatwaspositionedaboveherfrombehind.

IttookamomentformyeyestoadjusttotheglareofthetabletscreenbutoncetheydidI
feltsomethingIhadn’tfeltforherinalongtime.Ifeltcompassion.

Shewasgoingthroughpicturesofourlifetogetherfromthelooksofit.Fromourwedding
tothevacationswetookwherewesworeweweren’tevercomingbackhome,tojustshots
wetookofeachotheraroundthehousejustbecause.

Whycouldn’tshehaverememberedthosetimesbeforesheservedmewiththosepapers?
AndwillIeverbeabletogetpastthat?

I’mnotsureandthat’swhatkeepsholdingmeback.Imisshersomuchsometimesit’s
likeanache.Notfuckingherthispastweekandahalfhasbeenhellonme.

Ilovecumminginhermouthandassfine,butnothingbeatsthetightsweetwarmthofher
pussy,mypussy.I’mtheonlyonetoeverhaveherandIknewthathadn’tchanged.

Iwould’veknownifanyoneelsehadevergottenthatfarwithher.Idon’tknowhowto
explainit,butthereyouhaveit.

Wehaveaconnection,abondthatwasformedthefirsttimewemet,theveryfirsttimeI
laideyesonher.AndIusedtobelievethatshitwascastinstone.

IknewwithinminutesifnotsecondsthatshewasthewomanIwasgoingtospendtherest
ofmylifewith.Iactuallyimaginedourlifetogetherbackthen,andnowheredidIseethe
darknessthatfellafteronlytwoyears.

Buttherealquestionnow,afterallhasbeensaidanddone,iswhathadsheknown?While
IknewIwantedforeverwithher.Whathadsheknown?

She’dswornupanddownwhenIaskedhertomarrymethatshewassureofherlovefor
me.NotjustforwhatIcouldgiveher,butme,theman.

Thathadbeenimportanttome,asitwouldbetoanymanofmeans.Itwasaconstanttrial
tryingtofigureoutifthenewpeopleinyourlifewerethereforyou,oryourwealth.

Inevergotthatsensefromher,eventhoughIhadmoremoneythanherfatherwouldever
seeandhiswealthwasnothingtosneezeat.

ButwithmeIcouldgiveherthelifethathefatherneverdid,eventhoughshewasalready
spoiltenoughbyhismillions.

Butthatextrafiguremakesabigdifference.It’sthedifferencebetweenflyingfirstclass
andowningajet.

IthinkmaybepartoftheproblemisthatI’dlovedhertoomuch.Shewasmyworld,the
onethingIthoughtofasonlyandcompletelymine.

She’dmeantmoretomethanthefortuneI’dspentsomuchofmylifestrivingtoamass,
andIwouldn’tacceptthatI’dfallenshortofshowingherthat.

I’ddoneeverythingright.BecauseIlovedher,therewasneveranyeffortneededformeto
dothethingsamanshoulddoforhiswife,itjustcamenaturally.

IsentherflowersthatIchosemyselfonceaweek,boughtherlittletrinketsjustbecauseI
could.Andwhenwewerealonetogethershewasalwaysthecenterofmyuniverse.

Apparentlyfuckingdidn’tmattertohereither,tome,thefactthatIusedtofuckherat
leasttwiceadaysaidalotaboutmyattractiontoher.WhereshethinksIgottheenergyto
cheatisbeyondme.

OntheweekendsafterIpoundedherpussywe’dgoouttobrunch,thenshoppingandthen
backhometobed,orthecouch,orwhereverIhappenedtotakeherdown.Howcouldshe
notseewhatthatmeant?

Anditwasn’tjusthardfuckingallthetime.Atnight,ImadesureImadelovetoherfor
hoursbeforeshewenttosleepinmyarms.InthemorningsI’drideherslowagainorhave
hersitonmycockuntilwebothcame.

TherewasalwaysintimacywhenItouchedher,littlewhisperstoletherknowIwasn’t
justfuckingabodybutmywife.

WhatthefuckwasshefeelingwhileIwasshowinghermyheartateveryturn?Theanger
stillburnsbrightandIhavenoideahowtoassuageit.

Ihadtostopwatchingherwhenitgottobetoomuch.Everyonceinawhilemyeyes
wouldgotothescreentoseeher,asshesatthereforhoursbeforegettinguptogoget
somethingtoeat.

Irealizedthatshehadn’tbeenoutinthelastfewdays.Alwayswaitingformetocometo
her.She’dendedourmarriagebyrunningoutofmyhousewhileIwasattheofficeand
disappearing.

Nowshewasholdingherselfhostageinthatsamehouse,waitingforme.Poeticjustice
maybe?Whateveritwasshewasgoingtohavetoworkitoutonherown.Onlysheknows
whyshe’ddonewhatshedid.

Hopefullyshewasspendingthetimeonherown,thinkingaboutwhereshewentwrong,
andnotonlythat,butcomingtogripswiththefactthatwecannevergobacktowhowe
weretogetherbefore.

PartofmyreasonforbeingsostandoffishwithheristhatIwanthertogetitoutofher
headthatallshehastodoanymoreissnapherfingersandI’dcomerunning.

Thosedaysaregoneprobablynevertoreturnagain.ThatwassomethingelseIusedtodo
withouthavingtothinkaboutit,ifshewantedsomething,itwashers.

Sheneverwantedforanything,includingmylove,andyetshechosetothrowitallaway.
Anditstillpissesmeoffthatshethoughtitwasaseasyasherdecidingthatshewanted
mebackandthat’sallitwouldtake.Whatthefuck?

Somewherealongthelineshe’dcometoseemeassoft.Iblamemyoverindulgencefor
that.ThattooisgonnachangeifIdecidethatIwanther.Butalotofthisdependsonher.

SinceIgotitrightthefirsttime,she’sgonnahavetobetheonetogethershittogether.
Untilsheacceptsthatshewaswrong,thatshehandledthewholesituationthewrongway
Idon’tseehowwecanmoveforward.

Ihopeshecomestohersensessoonthoughbecausemycockcan’tstandmuchmoreof
this.I’vebeenhard,orsemihard,eversincethatfirstphonecallafewweeksago.

AndlikeIsaid,hermouthandassmayeasethephysicalache,butnothingcantakethe
placeofthepassionwesharedwhenIwasburieddeepinsideherpussy.

EachtimeIcameinsideherIwassharingapartofmewithher.She’stheonlywomanI
everrodebarebackandstilltheonlyoneI’deverevenconsidersharingthatpartofme
with.Whichisahardfuckingpilltoswallow.

I’dmissedthat,thatclosenessofbeingwiththeonlyotherbeingintheworldthatseemed
tomakemylifecomplete.

Ihadn’tevenallowedmyselftojerkoffinthelastsix-months,therewasjustnothinginit.
ImissedtheintimacyIguess,ofbeingwithmywoman,thewomanIloved.Thewoman
who’dbetrayedme.

tookonelastlookatherandclosedthelaptopinfrustration.Igotbacktoworkfor
realthistime,throwingmyselfintowhatIwasdoingandtryingtocompletelyshut
heroutofmymind.

BythetimeeveningcamearoundIsatinmycarforfiveminutesdecidingwhetherI
shouldgotoherornot.Partofmewantedtogotoherandpartofmewasn’tready.

Thatfirstweekwhenwewerejustfuckingandtherewasnothingelseonthetable,I’d
convincedmyselfthatIwasfinewiththat.

Butthenshehadtogoandchangeshit,again.LikeshewasthepuppeteerandIwasjust
herlittlewoodentoyonafuckingstring.Likeshehadn’tlearnedshit,orshewasjusttoo
fuckinginconsideratetocare.

IntheendIwentbacktomyplaceandafterhittingtheonsightgymanddoingafewlaps
inthepoolIthrewasteakonthegrillandmademyselfasalad.

Ipouredmyselfaglassofwinewhilethesteakwascookinganddecidedtocheckinon
heragain.Iwasjustintimetoseeherheadingoutthedoor.

Herphoneranglessthanaminutelater.“Hello?”

“Whereareyougoing?”OnthecameraIsawherlookaroundasifexpectingmeto
appear.

“Um,I’mgoingtopickupdinneratAlfonzo’s.”

“You’vegotthirtyminutes.”Ihungupthephoneandwatchedherlookathersbeforehigh
tailingittothecar.

Inoticedthatshedroveherselfbecausethedriverwasalreadygoneforthedayifhe’d
beenthereatall.I’llhavetotakehertotaskforthat.Shewasn’tallowedtodrivewithout
me,orthedriver.

Whoknowswhatshe’sbeendoingthosemonthswewereapart,butnowthatIwasback
inthepicturethere’snowayI’mlettingherendangerherself.Shecan’tfuckingdriveto
saveherlife.

IgaveherthirtyminutesbecauseIknowhowlongittakestogetthereandback.Ialso

knowthatshecallsinherorderbeforegoingtopickitup,soifshe’dhadotherplans
she’dmessedupbylying.

Itimedherandsawherpullbackintwenty-fiveminuteslater.

Wehaddinnertogetherthoughshedidn’tknowit,sheatthekitchenislandandmeat
mine.AndwhenitwasoverItookMaxoutforarunbeforecominghomeandgoingto
bedaftercheckingonheronelasttime.

SheseemedfinesoIturneditoffforthenightandwenttobed.InthemorningIwokeup
wayearlierthannecessaryandjustlaidtherestaringupattheceiling.

MymorningwoodmadeatentunderthesheetIhadthrownovermyhipandIlooked
downatmyself.Whatafuckingwaste.Ishouldbewakingupinsideher.

Thatpromptedmetogocheckthelaptopandmakesureshewasokay.Onceagainshe
wasasleep,thistimeonherstomachwiththecoverskickedoffaswasusual.

Sheonlyworeathincamisolethatcametoherwaistandnothingelse.Icouldbarely
makeoutthepatternofmynameonherbackbutjustknowingitwastheremademe
harder.

Igotupandtookashowerwonderingwhatlaidaheadfortheday.ItwasFriday,which
meanttheweekendstartstomorrow.Ihadnothingplannedandmydeskwasalmost
empty.Icouldeasilytakethedayoff,havealongweekendandjumpbackinonMonday.

IgaveitsomethoughtwhileIwasintheshowerandbythetimeIcameoutIhadaplanin
mind.ThegoodthingaboutthistimearoundisthatIdon’thavetocheckmyplanswith
her.

SomethingelseI’ddoneinthenameofbeinghumanandunderstanding.Ithoughtthat
givingherwhatshewantedmadeherhappy,nottrue.

Nexttime,ifthereisanexttime,I’mgoingtodothingsthewayIshould’vetobeginwith
andforgetsocietalnorms.I’drestrainedmyselfforhersake,butnomore.

Ihopeshedoesn’tcometoregrettellingmethatshewantedustogetbacktogether.ButI
haveafeelingshemight.Especiallyifshewasexpectingustojustfallbackintotheold
wayofdoingthings.

TherewasanalertforapersonalmessagewhenIunpluggedmyphonefromthecharger.
WhenIsawhernameIrealizedthatI’dneverdeletedit.

Iclickedonthemessageandstartedtoread.“HelloJacob,Idon’tknowifwhatI’mabout
tosaywillmeananythingtoyou,orifit’stoolate,butIknowIhavetotry.

“FirstletmesaythatIneverstoppedlovingyou,notonce.NotevenwhenIthoughtyou
cheatedonme.Iknowthatprobablydoesn’tmeanmuchtoyouanymorebutIjust
wantedyoutoknow.”

“I’mtrulysorrythatIdidn’ttrustyou,Ishouldneverhavedoubtedyou,Iknowthatnow.
ButbacktheneverythingwascrazyandIguessIwasn’tthinkingstraight.”

“Iwasupsetaboutthebaby,aboutnotgettingpregnant.Iknowyouwanttohaveabig
familyeventhoughyoukepttellingmethatitwasokay.”

“Iguess,thatontopofthephonecallsweretoomuchandI’msosorry.I’vemissedyouso
muchJakeyandIdon’tknowwhatIcandotomakeituptoyou.”

“PleasetellmewhatIhavetodo.Yousaidyouwerethinkingaboutit,butthenyou’ve
beenstayingawayandIcan’thelpbutthinkthatyou’vealreadymadeupyourmindand
youdidn’tchooseme.”

“PleasegivemeanotherchanceIpromiseI’lldobetterthistime.Iwon’teverdoubtyou
againandifyou’rehappywithmenotbeingabletogiveyouchildren…wellthenIguess
wecanadoptifthat’swhatyouwanttodo;anythingplease.”

“AnywayIguessI’llhearfromyouwhenyou’reready.Iloveyou.”Istaredatthewords
longafterI’dfinishedreadingbeforeIputthephoneawayandfinisheddryingofffrom
myshower.

Theclocksaidfiver-thirtybythetimeIwasfinisheddressingandpackingabag.Ilefta
noteforthedogwalkerwhohadakeyandputsomefoodandwaterinMax’sbowls
beforeIleft.

TherewasnotrafficonthestreetsthisearlyinthemorningandImadegoodtimegetting
overtoherplacewhileitwasstillrelativelydarkoutside.

Iletmyselfintothedarkenedhouseandmademywayupthestairsbythewaninglight
cominginthroughthewindowsfromoutside.

InthebedroomIdroppedmybagbythedoorandpulledmyshirtoffovermyheadwhile
kickingoffmyshoes.

IdroppedmypantshalfwaybetweenthedoorandthebedandbythetimeIclimbedonto
themattressI’dlostmyboxers.

hewasstilllayinginthesamepositionandthesightofherpussylipspeeping
throughherthighswasenoughtobringmycockbacktofullattention.

Ileanedoverherwithmyhandsoneithersideofherhipsandkissedheronbothass
cheeksbeforeplantingagentlekissinthemiddleofhernewtattooovermyname.

Ispreadherplumpfirmassinmyhandsandlickedherpussyfrombehind.Herlegs
trembledandshestirredandcameawakepurringasshemovedagainstmytongue.

“Jakey?”Thatfuckingvoice!Sosexywhenshe’shalfasleep.

“Shh,it’sokay,it’sme!Spreadyourlegsopenwiderformesweetie.”Ismackedherass
andshecooed.

ShespreadherthighsandIpushedherovercompletelyonherstomachbeforepullingher
uponherhandsandknees.

“Cockyourassforme,nottoohigh,that’sit.”Iopenedhertightpussywithmyfingers
andstuckmytongueinsideher.StillthatsweettastethatIlovesowell.

Itookmytimeeatingherpussyoutfrombehindandteasinghertightlittleassholewith
thethumbofonehandwhileworkingtwofingersfromtheotherintoherpussywhileI
wentafterherclitwithmyteethandtongue.

Shemovedagainstmymouthandmoaned,thosesoundsthatIremember,thatIhad
longedtohearandthoughtIwouldgomadfrommissinginthebeginningwhenshefirst
left.

ThosesoundsalwaysletmeknowthatshewasenjoyingwhatIdidtoherandI’dspenta
lotoftimelisteningtothem,revelinginthem,inthefactthatIcouldgiveherasmuch
pleasureasshealwaysgaveme.

NowIdideverythingtowringthemfromherandknewIsucceededwhenshefloodedmy
mouthwithhersweetpussyjuice.

Ilickedmywayupherspinetoherneckandbitdownonherflesh,suckingitbetweenmy
teethuntilImarkedherthenlaveditwithmytongue.

MyhandwentunderhertofindherbreastandImassagedthesoftfirmfleshuntilher

nipplebeadedinmyhand.Iusedtheotherhandtorubthefatheadofmycockupand
downherwetsoftslit.

“Turnaround.”Inippedherearandsheshiveredbeforerollingontoherback.Ihelpedher
situponthebed,“getonyourhandsandkneeswithyourassintheair.”

Ikneltinfrontofher,bringinghermouthtomywaitingcockwithahandatthebackof
herhead.“Niceandslow,keepyoureyesonme.”

Shesuckledtheheadofmycockandranherhandsdownmyshafttomyballsbefore
takingmoreofmeintohermouth.Sheusedmycockjuicetomakeiteasierforherhand
toglidethelengthofmycockwhileshetookmeintohermouthdeep.

“Yeah,justlikethat.”Shemust’vebeenstarvingformycockbecauseshetookmeindeep
withoutbeingtoldtoandhummedlikeshewashavingthetimeofherlifewhilerunning
hertonguealongmyrod.

Ireachedoverherback,drivingmycockdeeperintohermouthasIreachedforherpussy
andgavehermyfingers.

Ifacefuckedherharder,drivingmycockdeeperintohermouthasmyfingersspreadher
tightlittlepussytotakemycock.

Mymindandheartmightbetryingtoholdout,andgiverhertimetogetontrack,butmy
cockwasn’tabouttowaitanotherday.He’dhadenough.

Ipulledheroffmycockandthrewherroughlybackonthebedwithherfeetplantedand
legsspreadopen.

Ipushedherkneesfartherapartanddovebackintoherpussywithmytongue.“Ican’tget
enoughofyourtaste.”

Ilickedintoherjuicingcunt,enjoyinghertasteandthesoundsshemadeasInibbledon
herclitbeforegivinghermytongueagain.MycockwasrockhardandIfeltitsthick
lengthtwitchagainstthebed.

Ipulledapillowdownfromthetopofthebedandshoveditunderherass,liftingherto
acceptmycockinthisposition.IsqueezedhertitasIeasedmyswollencockheadpasther
tightfolds.

Shehissedandeasedback,runningawayfromthepressureofmycock.“Staywhereyou
are.”Irubbedherclitroughlywhilepinchinghernippleandeasedmoreofmycockinto
her.

Herpussywashotasfuckandmycockstartedspittingpre-cumintoher,mixingwithher
juicesandrunningdownherass.

“You’resowet,fuck.”IsitanywonderIbecameaddictedtoherpussy,tofuckingher?
EverytimeItouchedherwhetheritwasjustakissorahardfingerfuckonthecouch
whilewewatchedTV,herpussywasalwaysreadytoacceptmycock.

Islippedacouplemoreinchesinherleavingonlythelastfewoutbeforetakingherassin
myhandsandfuckingintoherdeep.

Herbodybuckedandshescreeched.“PlaywithyourtitswhileIfuckyou.”Herhands

wenttohertitsandpulledasshelookedupatmeandbitintoherlip.

“Letitgo,Iwanttohearyouscream.”IfuckedherniceandslowasIsqueezedherass,
lookingdownbetweenusatthewayherpussycoatedmycock.

“You’restillsofuckingtight.”Irestrainedmyselffrompoundingherpussyatkeptupa
niceslowpace.

ShecameonmycockwhenIleanedoverandbithernipplesoneaftertheother,andher
wordsofpleasuremademycockevenharder.

“Iwantyoutositonmycock.”Ipulledoutandgotonmyback,pullingherovermeand
helpinghertakemycockintoherdrippingwetcunt.

Igrabbedherassinmyhandsandfuckedherupanddownonmycock.“Kissme.”She
leanedoverandcoveredmymouthwithhers,pushinghertonguepastmylips.

Sheneverstoppedmoaningasshefuckedherselfonmycock.Hernippleswerepinpoints
ofhardnessonmychestandherasswastightaroundthefingerI’dslippedintoher.

HerpussymadesloppynoisesasIplowedintoherbellywithmywholecock.Her
screamswerecaughtinmymouthasthebedsqueakedandbangedintothewallbehindus.

OurhipsmovedtogetherinablurasIpoundedupintoher.Whenshecamesheslammed
herpussydownhardonceandrockedherhipsbackandforth,jerkingmycockwithher
pussyasshemoanedintomymouth.

HerheadwentbackandhermouthopenedwideasshescreamedinawayIneverheard
before.Thatshitalmostmademekillher.Iheldhertomychestandtookherdownonher
backandkeptpoundingintoher.

“Fuckyes!”Herpussytightenedupagain,“Yeahbabycumformeagain.That’sit,that’s
mygirl.”

“OhhhhhJake!”Sheclaspedherlegsaroundmeandliftedhercunt,drivingmycockeven
deeperasherhipsmovedfasterandfaster.

Herlegsandassshookhardassheliftedmybodyasherbodywentintospasms.Ifucked
intoherhard,takingherbackdowntothebedandkeptdeepfuckingherpussyuntilI
bottomedouteachtime.

thadbeensolongsinceI’dhadherthatIthoughtIwasgoingtokillherwithmy
need.Idon’tthinkI’deverpoundedherthathardbeforeandI’veleftbruisesinthe
past.

WhenshecameagainIsloweddownmypaceandjustgrindedintoherpussy,hittingher
wallsontheinsidewhilerubbingherclitwithmypelvicbone.

HermoansrangoutasIslidmycockslowanddeepintoherwombuntilIfeltthattelltale
tighteningdeepinsideherpussythattoldmeshewascummingagainforthethirdor
fourthtime.

Icoveredhermouthwithmineandfedhermytonguewhilelettingmycockmakeher
happy,butonceshecamedownitwastimetofuckagain.

IpulledherlegsoverthecrookofmyarmsandlookedintohereyesasIfuckedherlikeI
lovedher.OureyesmetandheldaswefuckedandIsowantedtoletgo,tobethatman
thatmetherdowntheaisle.

Sheheldoutherarmsasiftotouchmeandstopped.Inoddedmyheadtoletherknowit
wasokayandshedraggedhernailsdownmychestbeforewrappingthemaroundmyneck
andpullingmedownforakiss.

Ideepfuckedher,pullingmycockallthewayoutbeforepoundingitbackintoherdeep
well.WhensheranoutofairIleftherlipsandfoundhernipplewithmymouth.

IfeltherpussytwitchwhenIsuckedhardandIcouldn’tbelievehowwetshewas.I
pulledoutandgavehermymouthagainknowingwhatitdidtoherwhenIateheroutin
themiddleoffuckingher.

Iwasn’twrong.AssoonasIputmytongueinhersheshookandscreechedleakingmore
pussyjuiceinmymouth.

Islidbackintohergoingdeepwithonestrokeandshefuckedherselfhardonmycockas
Iburiedmyfaceinherneck,placingsoftgentlekissesthereonthespotwhereI’dbitten
herbefore.

“Youfeelsogood.”IkissedheragainandrearedbacktoholdherlegsopensoIcould
watchmycockfuckinandoutofher.ShelookedalmosttooinnocentforthiswhenI

lookeddownather.Herhairsleeptousled,facebareofmake-up.

ItremindedmeofthefirsttimeI’dseenherafterthewedding.WhenI’djustshownupat
herfather’shouseunannouncedandshe’dbeeninthebackyardreadingonthepatio.

She’dlookedsodifferentfromthewomanI’dmettheweekbeforethatI’dchallengedher
toshowmeherdriver’slicense.

Thatwasthebeginningofourfairytaletogether.Mymindwentsharplytothedivorce,and
thesixmonthsofhellthatfollowedandmyhandwentaroundherthroat.

IchokedheroutasIbegantofuckherharder.Hereyesopenedwideandshelookedupat
mewithahintoffear,somethingI’dneverseenbefore,butmaybesheneededtobealittle
afraid.Maybethatwouldkeepherlittleassfromdoingsomethingstupidinthefuture.

“IfyoueverbetraymeagainI’llkillyou.Doyouhearme?”Ishookherbytheneckand
squeezedasIpoundedmysteelhardcockintoherbellyoverandover.

Ikissedherhardbeforeshecouldanswerwithmyhandstilltightaroundherthroat.I
slammedintoherpussyhardknowingIwashurtingher.“Isaiddoyoufuckinghearme.”

“Yes,yes,I’msorry.”ShehadtearsrunningdownherfaceandIlickedthemawaybefore
pushingmytonguepastherlipsbutIneverstoppedfuckingintoher.

“Youalmostfuckingdestroyedme.”Ishookherneckonelasttimebeforereleasingheras
shegaspedforair.Herhipsmovedwildlyasshefuckedherselfonmycockandcame
again.

Thistimewhenshegrabbedatmeshedughernailsintomybackandfuckedherpussy
hardonmycock,meetingmethrustforthrust.

IcouldhearherwetnesseachtimeIfuckedintoherpussyandhermoanshadgrowndeep
andoutofcontrolinmyear.

Shewasmoreweepingthanmoaningnowwithlittleyipsandscreechesthrownineach
timeIhitherspot.Thenshegruntedandgroundherpussyevenharderdownonmyrod.

Iwasinhertotherootandherlittlepussywasstretchedtightbutshewasn’tcomplaining.
Anotherfirstforher.TherehadbeentimesinthepastwhenI’dletgobecausemypassion
forherwassostrong.

Butshe’dcomplainthatIwashurtingherandI’dpullback.Ihavenoplansondoingthat
shitagain.“That’ssodeep.”Iwhisperedinherearbeforekissingheragain.

OurtonguesmatedasIfedhermycock,ourbodieswetwithsweatandstickingtogether.I
hadnomercyonher,justkeptfuckingherthroughorgasmafterorgasm.

Ourkissesgrewhotandwetandnowthatshehadthechancetotouchmeshelether
handsroameverywhere.“I’msosorryJacob.”

Shewrappedherarmsaroundme.“Showme!”Ipulledoutandkneltinfrontofheronthe
bedandshegotthepicture.

Shegotbackonherhandsandkneesandlickedherpussyjuicesoffmycockwithlong
broadsweepsofhertongue.

“Takemeintoyourmouth.”ShesuckedmeinrememberingtokeephereyesonmineasI
playedinherhairandranmyfingersdownhercheektounderherchin.

Ipushedmythumbintohermouthwithmycockandshebalkedbutdidn’tstopsucking
onmymeat.

Igrabbedherhairandfuckedintohermouthmakinghergaganddroolallovermebefore
pullingoutofherthroatonlytogobackthereagain.

TherewasstillsomesadnessinhereyesandIknewitwasbecauseIhadn’ttoldheryet
thatIforgiveher.Iwasclosebutnotquitethereyet.

Ieasedoutofhermouthstillrockhardandnowherenearreadytocum.SoIpushedher
backonherbackandateherpussy,whichIknewhadtobesoreafterthatpounding.

Itwasatestamenttothefactthatmaybeshereallydidgetthemessageandknewthat
thingshadchanged,becauseshehadn’tsaidaword.

AsusualitwasuptometotakecareofherandIhadnoproblemwiththat,it’sallIever
wanted.Ilappedatherpussybeingeasywithhertongue,becauseIknewonceIgotback
intoherIwasgoingtopounduntilInut.

WhenherpussyleakedIslidbackintoherandshewinced.“LookatmeJilly.”Isawthe
surpriseinhereyesmixedwithpleasure.Thatwasmynicknameforherandithadbeen
sometimesinceI’veusedit.

“You’remine,thisismine.”Iputmyhandbetweenusoverhercunt.“Youevertakeit
awayfrommeagainyou’llbesorryyoueverlaideyesonme.”Ididn’tneedhertotellme
sheunderstoodIknewshedid.

Ipulledoutandputheronherhandsandkneestofinishheroffandnutteddeepinsideher
afteronlyafewstrokesbeforepullingoutagain.

WewerebothwindedandoutofbreathasIrestedwithmyheadonherback,rubbingthe
headofmycockupanddownherwetslitbecauseIcouldn’tbeartoleaveherjustyet.

Islidbackintoherforafewmorestrokesbeforepullingoutagainandgettingoffthebed.
“Come!”Iliftedherinmyarmsandanotherpieceofthehurtwentaway.

Icarriedherintotheshowersinceherlegswouldn’tcarryherandcleanedusbothup
beforeswitchingoffthewateranddryingheroffbeforetakingcareofmyself.

“Packabagwe’regoingawayfortheweekend.Andjustsoyouknow,thenoquestions
thingstillstands.”Can’thaveherbelievingthatanythinghadchangedjustbecauseshe’d
justmademenutinsideherharderthanIeverhavebefore.

Ilefthertodowhateveritisthattakesherforeverinthemirrorandwentintotheother
roomtogetdressed.IwassorelaxedIcould’veeasilycrawledbackintobedandspend
thewholedaythere.Butweneededthislittlegetaway.

BythetimeshecamedownstairsIhadhercoffeetogocupreadyandthehousewas
closeduptight.Itookourbagsouttothecarandsatherinherseatbeforebeltingherin.I
gavehertheobligatorykissbeforeclosingthedoorwithouteventhinkingaboutit,just
likeintheolddays.

hedidn’taskwhereweweregoingbutIcouldtellitwasdrivinghercrazynotto
know.WhenwepulleduptotheairfieldIstilldidn’ttellherwherewewereoffto.

IwastakinghertothebeachhouseI’dboughtusthatlastmonthwhenI’dbeensobusy.It
wasgoingtobeasurprise.Someplaceonlyacouplestatesawaythatwecouldreachin
halfanhour.

Shelovesthebeachandthestatesinceit’swhereshewenttocollegesoIthoughtitwould
beanicelittleadditiontoourrealestateportfolio.

ThenshepulledherstuntandInevergotaroundtotellingheraboutit.Ifigureitwasa
nicestarttoournewbeginning.Afreshstart.

OncewelandedshehadanideawherewewereandIsawhercomeawake.Shelooked
overatmewithasmile,onethatIhadn’tseeninawhileandIheldallourbagsinone
handsoIcouldtakehersintheother.

Wewalkedtothewaitingcarandgottoourplaceinlessthanhalfanhour.Istoodback
onceweenteredthehouseandwatchedherreaction.

TheplacehadbeenemptysinceIboughtitandhaditdecoratedinherfavoritecolorsand
thethingsIknewshelikedfromthemillionandonemagazinecutoutssheusedtoleave
onherbedsidetable.

“It’sperfect.”Shelookedatmequestioninglybeforecomingtostandinfrontofme.“It
lookssofamiliarbutI’veneverbeenherebefore.”

“Iknow.Iboughtitabouteightmonthsago.”Ididn’tsayanythingmoreasItookourbags
andheadedupstairs.

Shefollowedbehindmeandwentrightoutonthebalconyoffthemastersuite.Theseaair
camethroughtheopenglassdoorsandthecurtainsblewinthemorningbreeze.

IwalkedoutbehindherandwhensheglancedatmeuncertainlyIknewwhatshewanted.
Iwalkedoverandstoodbehindher,wrappingmyarmsaroundhermiddle.

ShewastenseuntilIputthemthereandrestedmychinonherheadaswelookedoutover
thewaterattheboatsandthebirds.Itfeltdifferenthere,moreatease,andIwasgladI’d
thoughtofbringingherherenow.

“Let’sgohavebreakfast.There’sanicelittleplacedownthewaythatmakesanamazing
crepeorsoI’vebeentold.”

Wewerelikenewlywedsthatafternoonasweheldhandsandwalkedaroundthelittle
towngettingfamiliarwiththeplace.

Itookhershoppingforthefirsttimeinforeverandboughtheranewdiamondbraceletto
addtohercollection.

Bythetimewecamebacktotakeanapafteralongdayinthesun,shewasalotmore
relaxed.Webothfellintobedandfellasleepwiththebalconydoorsopenlettingthe
breezein.

henIwokeacouplehourslatershewasstillasleepnexttomewiththesun
shiningonherfaceandherhairspreadoutonthepillow.

Ilookeddownatherhandwheresheworethenewbraceletandnoticedtheglaring
absenceofmyringonherfinger.

Myeyeswentbacktoherfaceandthatlastdregofangerstilllingered.Iguessit’sgoing
totakealittlebitlongertogetitalloutofmysystem.

Ileftthebedandwenttositoutonthebalconytoletmyminddriftbeforeitwentbackto
thatdarkplaceitwasonlynowcrawlingoutof.

Ithoughtofthelastfewweeksandthechangesinourrelationship.Itookoutmyphone
andrereadherwordsbeforesavinghermessage.

Iwentforawalkonthebeachandcamebackandshestillhadn’tawakenedyet.Icalled
aheadtomakereservationsatanewplacefordinnerbeforegoingtowashthesaltandsun
offme.

IsawashadowoutsidethestalldoorasIwasshampooingmyhairandturnedaroundto
seeherstandingthere,inatowel.

Icouldn’thelpbutthinkthatayearagoshewould’vejustopenedthedoorandjoinedme.
It’swhatI’dwanted,tomakeherbegmeforsomethingthatwasoncehers.

Butseeingherstandingtherelikeastrangerwhowasafraidtoapproachherownhusband
didsomethingtome.

Iopenedthedoorandreachedforherhand.Shedroppedthetowelandcameinwithme.I
closedthedoorquicklytokeepthecoolairoutandpulledheraroundinfrontofmeunder
theoverheadshowerspray.

Ikissedherasthewatermattedherhairandmine,liftinghertinyformupinmyarms
untilshewrappedherlegsaroundme.

Irestedherbackagainstthesmoothmarblewallandwithmymouthcoveringhers,slid
intoherniceandslow.Iwentdeepbutgentleandwaitedforhertoadjust.

Iknowfromexperiencethatafterwefuckittakeshersometimetogetoverbeingsore.So
Igaveheraniceslowfuckunderthewarmwateruntilwecametogethertremblingand

soft.

IneverleftherlipsthewholetimeIwasmakinglovetoherandtheywerebeestungand
redfrommyattentions.

Iranmythumboverthemandplacedasoftkissatthecornerofhermouthbeforeresting
myforeheadagainsthers.TherewassomuchIwantedtosay,butIwasn’treadyyet.

Iletherlegsdownandwefinishedourshowerbeforegoingtogetreadyfordinner.She
wasstillkindaquietbuthereyeshadlostthatsadnessfromthemfornow.

Wewalkedtotherestaurantsinceitwasn’ttoofaranditwasaniceeveningout.Ofcourse
theareawassafeandheavilypatrolledsotherewasnodanger.

OncewewereseatedIorderedabottleofherfavoritewine,butonlyacceptedhalfaglass.
ShelookedatthebottleandbacktomeandIinterpretedherunaskedquestion.

“That’sforyou,you’regonnaneedit.”JustthenthewaitercameandIhadtocutmyself
shortsowecouldorder.

OncehewasgoneagainIwentbacktotheconversation.“Thismorningandafternoon
wasforyou.Tonightisallmineandguesswhat,it’snotgoingtobeeasyonyourlittle
ass.”

Igrabbedherfaceacrossthetableandpulledhertomeforapunishingkiss.Aprecursor
ofthingstocome.ShelookednervousashellsoIfiguredIcouldgiveherthismuchat
leastbeforethesuspensekillsher.

“I’mgoingtopunishfuckyouandyou’regoingtotakeeverythingIdotoyouno
questions,nocomplaints.It’swhatyoudeserve.”

Westudiedeachotheracrossthetablebutnothingelsewassaidaboutit.Shepolishedoff
herwineinthetimeittookustofinishourthree-coursemeal.

Iheldhercloseaswewalkedbackalongthebeach,givingourfoodtimetodigestbefore
wewentbacktothehouseandIgotthisonelastthingoutoftheway.

Ican’thither,onlyaspankingeveryonceinawhilebutthisshitcalledformorethana
spanking.Sinceonlycowardstaketheirfiststowomen,Ihaveanotherwayofdealing
withherthatIwassurewouldgetmypointacross.

Wewalkedforawhilebothofuslostinthoughtaswegazedupatthestarsintheskyand
watchedthewavescrashontotheshore.

Bythetimewegotbacktothehousemydickwasalreadyhardwithanticipation.“Go
upstairsandgetreadyforme.Andremember,noclothesinmybed.”

ShewentwithoutofferinganyobjectionsandImadesuretheplacewaslockedupforthe
night.Itookmytimegoingupthestairs,givingherasmuchtimeassheneededtogather
herselfforthenighttocome.

walkedpastherlayingonthebedandwenttotheensuitetowashupbeforegoing
backtoher.ShewasjustasIordered,nakedandlayingontopofthecoverswaiting
forme.

Iopenedthebalconydoorssincetherewerenobuildingsonthatsideandnowayfor
anyonetoseeinsidetoourbedandwhatwasabouttohappenthere.

Istoodnexttothebedandstrippedwhileshewatchedme,hereyesfollowingmyevery
moveuntilIwasnakedwithmyhardcockonfulldisplay.

Hergazewentstraighttomycock,whichwasalreadynearfullhardandwasanimposing
tenandahalfinchesalready.

“Comehere.”ShegotdownoffthebedandcamearoundtowhereIwasstanding.
“Where’syourring?”

“Back…backatthehouse.”

“Whyisitthere?”

“Itookitoffafterthedivorce.”

“Ahyes,thedivorce.”Isqueezedhercheeksandglaredather.

“Ireadyourmessage,Iknowyou’resorry,butyouknowwhatIalsoknow.Itshould
neverhavefuckinghappened.Nowyou’regoingtopayforwhatyoudidtous.Andtrust
me,theshitcould’vebeeworse.”

Ipulledherheadbackroughlybyherhairandwrappedmyotherhandaroundherthroat.
“DidyoulearnyourlessonJillian?”ShenoddedherheadbutIwasn’tsure.

“WhatthefuckdidyoulearnJillian?”

Whenshelookedatmelikeshedidn’tunderstandthequestionIdidn’thelpherout.

Ipulledheraroundroughlywithherbacktomychestandpulledbothherarmsbehindher
back,holdingthemtherewithonehand.

Ituggedonherhairagainuntilsheopenedherdamnmouth.“Idon’tknowwhatyou
mean.”

“Thinkaboutit!”Ibitintoherlowerjaw.

“IlearnedthatIshould’vetrustedyoumore?”

“Areyouaskingmeortellingme?”Shedidn’tanswerandItightenedmyhandonher
arms,tuggingharderuntiltheyhurt.

“PleaseJakeIdon’tunderstand,Ithoughtuscomingheremeantyouforgaveme.”I
wrappedmyhandaroundherthroatagainandusedittopullherheadback.

“Forgivingwhenyoufuckupisonething,makingafoolofmyselfasecondtimeis
another.DidyoureallythinkallyouneededtodowasaskandI’dcomecrawlingback
huh?”

Ididn’tletheranswer.Ididn’tneedananswertosomethingIalreadyknew.Ofcourseshe
did.Maybenowshe’dseetheerrorofherways.

“YouknowwhatyourproblemisJillian?You’reaspoiltungratefullittle…ughhhhh.And
that’swhyI’mgoingopunishyou.”Ireachedaroundandspankedbothhertitshard.

HermouthhungopeninsurpriseandshecalledoutformetostopwhenIdiditagainand
again.“Noquestionsnocomplaints.IfyousayonemorefuckingwordI’llgagyou.”

Ipulledherovertothebedandsat,pullingheracrossmylap.Shetensedup,becauseshe
alreadyknewwhatwascoming.

Ibroughtmyhanddownonthebottomofherasscheekhard.AftereachslapItoldher
frombeginningtoendwhatshe’ddonewrongandwhysheshouldneverdothatshit
again.

Herasswasredandsore,bothcheeks.Tearsrandownherfaceandhervoicewassore
fromherscreams.ButwhenIspreadherpussyopenshewasdrippingwet.

Iranmyfingersupanddownherslitbeforediggingtworoughlyinsideher.“Youlike
beingspankedhuh,maybeIshouldgetsomethingharderthanmyhandforthenexttime
youactup.”

Igaveheracouplemorespanks,notholdingbackthistimeandshetriedtoescapemy
hold.“Wherethefuckareyougoing?DidIsayyoucangosomewhere?”

“I’msorry.”ShescreechedthewordsasIroughedupherpussywithmyfingersagain.
“Shutup!Youweren’tsorrywhenyouweredoingthatshit.Whenyoushutmeoutand
wouldn’tlistentoawordIsaid.”

“Howcouldyoudoithuh?”Iopenedherpussyagainandspitinsidethistimebefore
drivingmyfingersbackindeep.

“Youfuckedup.Iwould’vegoneonlovingyoutherestofmylife,butyouhadtogoand
fuckshitup.NowIcan’ttrustyou.”

Ispankedherassandplungedmyfingersroughlyintoherpussy,pullingthetightlips
openandback.

“Payverycloseattentiontowhathappensheretonight,becauseifyouevercrossme
again,you’llgetthesameorworse,nowgetup.”

SheclimbedoffmylapandmadetowalkawaybutIgrabbedherhandandpulledher
back.GettingtomyfeetIsqueezedherjawagainholdingherinplaceformykiss,which
wasroughandcrude.

“Getonyourknees.”Ipushedherdowntothefloorinfrontofmybobbingcockthatwas
nowleakingpre-cum.

Ifistedherhairtightlywithonehandandtookmycockintheother.Islappedheracross
thecheekwithitsheavyweightfirstthenallaroundhermouth.

“Open.”AssoonassheopenedhermouthIfuckedmycockintoherthroatuntilshe
gagged.Ipulledoutanddiditagainoverandoveruntilherfacewascoveredindrooland
herthroatwasred.

“PleaseJacob.”

“Isaidshutup.Nowsuckmycockyouungratefullittleshit.”Irubbedmycockallover
herlipsbeforepushingitintohermouth.

Shedidherbesttoswallowmebutshewastoonervoustogetitright,soIhelpedher.I
fuckedintoherfacewithhardpunishingthruststhatstretchedherlipswidearoundmy
cockmeat.

ShemoanedandcriedeachtimeIpulledheroffonlytopushherheadbackdownhardon
mycockagain.

WhenIthoughtshe’dhadenoughIpulledherupbyherthroatanddraggedherovertothe
chaiseatthebottomofthebed.

Iputherupthereonherhandsandkneesandspankedherassagain.“Yougonnatry
leavingmeagain?”

“NoJacobno,Ipromise.”Shewhinedinherthroataftersayingthatandwentbackto
cryingandpleading.

Ifuckedintoherpussyhard.“Don’tyoufuckingmove.”Ipulledherbackonmycockand
fuckedintoherharder,deeper.

Islappedhertitsagain,makingthemasredasherasswhilepullingherheadback
forcefullywiththehandaroundherthroatsoshecouldswallowmytongue.

“Fuckyourselfbackonmycock.”Shepushedbackonmycock,stillscreechingand
screamingandfightingforhernextbreath.

Ipulledherheadbackharderandstrokedintoherpussydeepwhileholdinghereyeswith
mine.Ifuckedherlikethat,poundingawayatherinsideswithdeeppunishingstrokes,
spankinghersoreassaftereachfuck.

Ipulledoutandflunghertoherback.“Spreadthoselegsopenformeandholdthem
there.”Sheopenedandbeggedmetostop,toforgiveherbecauseshe’dneverdoitagain.

Ismackedherpussywithmyheavycock,punishingherclit.“Openthatpussy,pullyour
legsopen.”ShehurriedtoobeymeandIsankmycockhalfwayinsideher.

“Yourtightlittlepussy.Wereyouplanningonfindingsomeoneelsetoputinmybed?”
SheshookherheadandIfuckedintoherbellyhard.

“Yeahyoudid,yeahyoudidyou….”Ifuckedherhardanddeep,ignoringhercries.“Why
didyoudoit?Why?Whydidyoudestroywhatwehad?Forwhat?”

Ispankedhertitsagainandpulledherfaceuptominebyhercheeks.Idrovemytongue
intohermouthwhilepiledrivingmycockintoherandshecamehardandshookonmy
cock.

fanyonewaspassingbythey’dswearIwaskillingherfromthewayshecarriedon,
butIwasfarfromoverwithherass.Ineededthis,neededtogetthisshitoutofmy
systemonceandforall.

“Cleanyourpussyoffmycock.”Ipulledherontotheflooragainandshegottowork
lickingherjuicesoffmycockbeforeIpulledherovertothebed.

“Getuponyourhandsandkneesforme,I’mnotdonewithyouyet.”Ispitinherpussy
againanddrovebackinpullingherassbackhardsoshecouldtakemywholecock.

IputonefootonthebedandtheotheronthefloorsoIcouldpoundhertightlittlepussy
harder.IwentinevendeeperthiswayandshebalkedbutIkeptherinplacewiththat
handinherhairandonearoundherthroat.

Isqueezedmyhandaroundherthroatandpoundedherthroughthepainbeforepulling
out.Iwasn’ttryingtocumyet,andIdidn’tcareifshedidornot.

Ipulledoutandmadehergetonherbackattheedgeofthebed.“Holdyourlegs.”Iheld
themoutwideforhertograbaroundheranklesandpushedherassupuntilherpussywas
tiltedattheperfectangle.

Ispitinherpussyagaineventhoughshewaswetasfuckalready.IdiditonlybecauseI
knewitwouldoffendhersensibilities.

Sheandhergirlstalkalotaboutthekindofwomenwho’retreatedlikethis.I’msureshe
won’tbesharingthislittleepisodewiththem.

“Rightnowyourpussyisnothingmorethanareceptacleformylust.I’mgoingtonut
deepinsideyou,thenI’mgoingtotakeyouintothebathroomandcleanyouupbefore
bringingyoubackheretomakelovetoyou.”

Idrovemycockintoherfromabovewatchingitstretchherlittlepussytightuntilthere
wasnoroomleft.Ihadtostandoverherwithmykneesbenttogettherightanglebut
onceIdidtheshitfeltamazing.

Shefuckedherhipsupatmenownolongerworriedaboutthepain.TherougherIwasthe
fastershefuckedbackatme.

Everyonceinawhileshe’dscreechandtrypullingoffmydickbuttherewasnoescape.

“Iloveknowingthatmycockhurtsyoujustalittlebit.IlovethatIleaveyousoreandyou
thinkofmealldaybecauseofit.”

Isqueezedherthroatandfuckedandherpussywentintosurvivalmode,lockingdownon
myshit.

“Ohfuckyes,you’resofuckingtightI’mgonnacum.Shit,fuck!”

“Pleasecuminsideme.”Islappedherfacelightlyandjustbecausesheaskedwithout
permissionIpulledoutandcamealloverthenakedpussy.

Irubbedmyjizzallaroundherpussywithmycockheadbeforedippingitbackintoher.I
slowfuckedhernowuntilmycockwentdown.

IgotupandwenttotheclosetformybagandtheenvelopeIhadthere.Comingbackto
thebedIthrewtheenvelopedownbetweenus.

“What’sthis?”

“Readit.”It’sacontractI’ddrawnupmyselfwithallthestipulationsshehadtofollow.
ShereaditandlookedupatmeatalosssoIexplained.

“Iwillmarryyouagain,butthistimeyouwillsubmityourselftomecompletely.Sincethe
vowswetookbeforedidn’tseemtomeanmuchtoyou,you’llhavetosignthis.It’sa
bindingcontract.Ifyoubreakitforanyreason,otherthaninfidelityonmypart,Iwill
breakyou.”

Ihandedherthepenandwaitedforhertosign.Shedidn’tevenhesitatebutsignedit
immediatelybeforepassingitbacktome.Iplannedtokeepitinthesafeathomeoncewe
gotback.

Ihoppedoffthebedandsmackedherass.“Showerlet’sgo!”Wewerebothbreathinghard
anderratically.

ThetimeontheclocksaidthatithadbeenthreehourssincewestartedwhichIfound
surprisingithadn’tseemedthatlong.

Icheckedheroverintheshowerandshehadaredassandblackandbluemarksallover
frommemarkingherwithmyteeth.

WewashedupwithhergivingmewarylookseachtimeshethoughtIwasn’tpaying
attentionandthenItookheroutandbacktobed.

ThistimeIcarriedhertheregentlyinmyarmsandlaidherinherspotbesidemine.I
climbedinandgotdownbetweenherthighsonmystomach.

Iopenedherpussyandlookedatitsredness.Itwasbadbutnottoobadthatshecouldn’t
takemeagain.

Ispreadhercuntlipsopenandgavehermymouth,lettingmytonguesoothethedamage
frommycock.

Shecooedandfuckedmyfacewithherpussy,grindinghercuntintomymouthwitheach
suckofmytongue.

Isoothedherclitaswell,takingitintomymouthandsuckingbeforedrivingmytongue

backintoheragain.

Herhandsmassagedmyheadasherhipsmovedslowly.Imadehercumbeforelickingmy
wayupherbodyuntiloureyesmet.

LookingdownintohereyesItookherfaceinmyhandsandkissedherwithallthelove
andtendernessIhadinsidemeforher.

OureyeswerelockedwhenIslidmycockasgentlyandslowlyintoheraswaspossible.
Herbreathingpickedupagainandherhandscametomyshoulders.

Ididn’thavetotellhertomove,herassfounditsrhythmandshemovedbeneathme,
acceptingmycock,acceptingme.

IsawwhatIneededtoinhereyesandwasfinallysatisfied.Iwasabletoletgoandmake
lovetoherthen.Slow,sweetpassionatelovelikeweusedtoshare.

SheheldmecloseasIwrappedmyarmsaroundher,pullingherintome,asIlovedher.
Ourlipsneverpartedanditwasasifwe’dbothbeenstarvingforthatsharedintimacy.

Mycockfelthugeinsideherwarmtightness,butitalsofeltlikewe’dcomehomeheand
I.Backtotheplacewherewebelonged.Deepinsideher.

“IloveyouJacob.”

“Iknowyoulittlefool.Iloveyoutoo.”Iheldhertightandrolled,puttingherontopof
me.“Ridemycock.”

Iheldontoherhipwithonehandwhileleavingtheotherwrappedaroundhernapetopull
herdowntomymouth.Ihelpedhermoveherhipsbackandforthassherodemycock
deep.

Itwasslow,deep,sensualandfullofpassion.Ipulledherdowncompletelyonmychest
andheldherasherassmovedupanddownonmylongcock.

“I’mgoingtocuminsideyoutonightandeverynightfromnowon.Andyouwillhavemy
babysomedaysoon.”Herpussytightenedupatmywordsandshefoundmylipsagain.

WekissedourwaythroughherfirstorgasmandIheldstilluntilshecamedownbefore
rollingonceagainandputtingheronherback.

“Canyoufeelmeinyou?”

“Yes,you’resodeepbaby.”

“Doesitstillhurtangel?”IkissedherlipssweetlyandbrushedherhairbacksoIcould
lookintohereyes.

Sheshookherheadnoandfuckedherselfonmycockmovingherhipsroundandround
andbackandforth.

Ifelthereverymoveonmycockandwasclosetocumming.“Iloveyou.”Isaidthe
wordsinherearjustasmycockstartedshootingoffinsideher.

HerbodyshookwithherownorgasmandIheldhercloseasshewentintospasms,
shakingandscreamingasIfeltherhotjuicecoatmycockandrunoutofher.Ipushedmy
cockdeepandheldstill,plantingmyseeddeepintoherwomb.

estayedtherelikethatforaverylongtimebeforeIpulledoutandleftherto
gorunamuchneededbathforbothofus.

“Youcreamedalotonmycockyoubadgirl.”ShewasstilllayingwhereIleftherwith
herhandcoveringherpussyprotectively.

“AreyouhappyIcameinsideyou?”

“Yes.”Itwasmoreahissofpleasurethanaword.Ipickedherupoffthebedandcovered
herlipswithmineasIwalkedintotheensuite.

ShehissedandsighedwhenIplacedherinthewateronmylap.“SleepbabyI’lltakecare
ofyou.”Shecurledintomelikethesweetlittlekittensheisandnappedinthewarmwater
whileIwashedherbodyclean.

Shewokeupjustasthewaterstartedtochange.Ihadbeensittingtherewatchingher
sleep,lettingmytruefeelingscomebackintothelightagain.

ShewassosweetIwasreallystartingtoquestionwhathadreallyhappenedbackthen.If
someonehadreallybeenfuckingwithus.Herpartinallthisaside,IthinkIwanttoknow
iftherewasanytruthtothat.

Iputitawayfornow.Thisweekendwasforus,togetbackonsomesortofevenkeeland
moveontothethingsthathadbeenwaylaidforthepastsixmonths.

Mydreamsandplansforushadn’tchanged.Infactthey’donlygrownstrongerwhenI
thoughtthattheymayneverbe.

InthebedroomIstrippedthetopsheetandputhertobedonthecleanonesunderneath.I
closedthewindowsanddoorsandlockedupforthenightbeforegoingbacktoher.

“Come!”Iopenedmyarmsandsheputherheadonmychesttobewrappedsecurely
againstme.Ikissedherheadandsqueezedhershoulders.“Sleep!”

wasn’tasleeplongwhenmyeyesflewopenandIlookedaroundtherom.Thedream
hadbeensorealittookmeasecondtorealizethatitwasn’t.Ilookedoveratherwith

myheartracing.

Themoonlightshonethroughthewindowsandcastedalightshadowacrossherbeautiful
littleface.Soinnocent,sofuckingsweet.

Idon’tknowwhatpowersbroughtherbacktomebutI’mforevergratefulthatwewere
oneoftheluckyones.Ithadonlytakenussixmonthstofixwhatwasbroken.

IturnedherontoherbackandmoveddownunderthelightcoversuntilIwasbetweenher
legs.I’vealwaysbeenpartialtothetasteofhercuntandIhadalotoftimetomakeupfor.

Isniffedherscentbeforetakingherassinmyhandsandopeningherupformytongue.I
knewthesecondshewokeupbecauseshestartedmovingagainstmymouthandherhands
camedowntomassagemyhead.

HermoansthistimewerepainfreeandItookmytimeandatehersweetcunttotwo
orgasmsbeforeputtingheronhertummy.

“Nostaythere.”Istoppedherwhenshemovedtogetonherknees.Iwantedherflatlike
thissoIcoulddeepfuckherwithoutcausinghertoomuchpain.

AsIslidintoherIsawthedreamagain.Alittlegirlwithhermommy’ssmile,laughing
andplayingwithherdaddyinthebackyardofourhome.

AsweetrushranthroughmeandItouchedherlovingly,runningmyhandsandtongue
alongherbackandneckbeforenibblingonherear.

“You’resodeepinmeJacob.”IturnedherfacesoIcouldreachhermouthandkissedher
totakehermindoffthepressuremycockwasputtingonherinternalorgans.

IreachedunderherandmassagedhernipplesasIfuckedmycockslowanddeepintoher.
Sheheldmycheekunderherhandandpushedherassbackintome,takingmeeven
deeper.

Shecameoverandoverthisway,especiallywhenIreleasedoneofhernipplesandused
thathandtopressintoherclit.

ImovedmyhanduptowhereherovarieswouldbeandpressedasIslidmydickpasther
cervixandintoherwomb.

“I’mcumminginsideyoucanyoufeelit?”

“Uh-huh!”Lovethatfuckingsexydroneofherswhenshe’stoofar-gone.

WhenshecriedoutformeandcameIemptiedmyseedinsideher.OnceagainIstayed
burieddeepandbythetimeIpulledoutofhershewasasleep.

Itookherbackintomyarmsandwenttosleep,thistimeundisturbed.WhenIopenedmy
eyesagainitwasmorningandthebirdsweresingingoutside.

Ilookedthroughtheglassdoorsatthelightfromtherisingsunandknewthatthiswas
trulyournewbeginning.

Everythinguntilyesterdaywillbeforgottenandwe’llpickourlivesupandfindthe
happinesswe’dlost.ForthefirsttimeinalongtimeIfelttrulyhopeful.

“Wakeupsleepyhead.”Imovedinclosertoherasssincewewereinthespoonposition
andliftedherlegsoIcouldslideintoher.

Lastnight’scumwasthismorning’slubesoshedidn’tneedmymouth.Shecameawake
grindingonmycockandmoaningmynamesweetly.

Iwrappedmyarmsaroundhertightandstrokedintoherpussyfrombehindgoingdeep.
ThethoughtofwhatI’ddonetoherthenightbefore,whenIplantedmyseedthatlast
time,mademesohotIwasclosetocummingalready.

WhenshetightenedaroundmeitwasallIneededtosendmeoverandIspilledinsideher.
Icameforeverinherfertilepussywhilesheclenchedandcameonmydick.

Istrokedmycockwithmyhanduntilitwasallinsideher.Shereachedbackandsqueezed
myassasonelastmajororgasmhitherandsheusedmystillhardcockforherpleasure.

AfteraquickshowerandbreakfastatthesameplaceasthedaybeforeIdecidedthatwe
shouldleavenowinsteadofstayinganotherday.

Iwantedtogetbackandstartmoving.Iwasn’tgoingtospendonemorenightawayfrom
her.I’dsayweshouldsellupandbuyanewplacebutI’dbuiltthathouseforherandshe
lovesit.

WeheldhandsonthewaybackonthejetandwhileIdroveherhome.Icheckedaround
thehousetomakesureitwassafebeforecallinghertomefromupstairswhereshe’dgone
toputherstuffaway.

“I’llbebacksoonbaby,stayhereuntilIgetbackandcallmeifyouneedme.”Itwasso
easytofallrightbackintotherollofprotector.Ipulledherintomychestandkissedher
lovinglybeforelettinghergo.

“Happy?”

“Morethanyou’lleverknown.”

“Bytheway,Iplantedmysoninyoulastnight.”Ikissedherandwalkedoutthedoorwith
thosewords.

wascompletelymovedindogandallwithinaweekwithhelpfromaserviceof
courseandwesettledintoaroutine.

Itwasn’tthesameasbefore,itwasbetter.Wetalkedevenmorenowifthatwerepossible,
butthistimeImadesureshewasn’tholdinganythingbackfromme.

Ittookmeanothertwoweekstogetthetruthofwhathadhappenedthatmadeherbelieve
I’dhurtherbychoosinganotherwomanoverher.

ThePII’dhiredhadfoundsomeonemuchtoocloseforcomfortandIonlygotthereport
thenightbefore.ItwastoolateintheeveningbythenbutIplanontakingcareofitfirst
thingthismorning.

WhenIwokeupshewasn’tnexttome,whichwasstrangebecauseIalwaysgetupbefore
herafteralongnightoffucking.

Isawthatthelightinthebathroomwasonandwhenshedidn’tcomeoutintenminutesI
calledforher.“Areyouokayinthere?”IhadtoasktwiceandbythesecondtimeIwasat
thedoor.Sheopeneditwithalookofastonishmentonherface.

“Whatisit,whathappened?”Sheliftedherhandandshowedmetheplasticstickwiththe
littleblueline.

“Areyou…I’mgonnabeadad?”

“Uh-hmm.”Shecriedandthrewherarmsaroundme.Iheldthebackofherhead
protectivelyandletthenewssinkin.

Thedreamtrulywasreal.IwonderifIshouldtellherthatshewashavingadaughteror
letitbeasurprise?IlikedknowingthoughthatwayIcouldpreparemyself.

OfcourseItookherbacktobed,forgettingeverythingelsefornow.RightnowIjust
wantedtobeinsidemywife.

IbitdownonherweddingringasIslidintoherpussy.TheringI’dputbackonherfinger
thatfirstMondayafterwecameback.

Shecameonthethirdstrokeandherpussypulledatmetryingtogetmoreoftheseedthat
bredher.Ifuckedherniceandslowwithonelegraisedintheairandtheotherstretched

acrossthebedspreadingherpussyopensoIcouldfuckdeep.

WhenIcameIplantedmycockdeepandhelditthereuntilmyballsweredrained.We
spentthenextfiveminutestonguewrestlingwitheachotherbutthenIhadtogo.

WhatIhadtodocouldn’twait,thoughIdidn’twanttoleaveherrightnow.Ialwaysused
totrytoimaginewhatknowingmychildwasgrowinginsideherwouldbelike.NowI
know.

IfIwasprotectiveofherbefore,thefeelingsinmenowweremultipliedbyathousand.I
almostdidn’tknowwhattodowithmyself.

Iheldherasshecamedownfromherorgasmsthenplacedakissoverherovaries.“I
knowwhyyoudidn’tgetpregnantbefore.”

“Why,becauseofmytubes?”

“No,obviouslywedidn’tneedtoputourselvesthroughthatnightmareagain.No,ifyou’d
leftmeandcarriedmychildoffsomewhereawayfrommethey’dstillbelookingforyour
body.Rememberthatshitthenexttimeyouloseyourmind.”

Ismackedherasssoshe’dknowIwaskidding,sortaandheadedfortheshower.As
expectedshefollowedmeintherenotlongafterandweendedupfuckingagain,only
shorterandharderthistime.

I’llhavetoaskthedoctoraboutdeepfuckingherwhileshe’spregnant,butthat’sa
conversationI’mnotlookingforwardtohaving.ThoughtokeephersafeI’ddoit.

Ileftaftermakingsureshewasokayanddidn’tneedanything.Herdriverwasbackon
callandthecleaningladywillbetherealldaysoIknewshewasn’tgoingtobealone.

IstillhadthelaptopwhereIcouldwatchoverherwhileIwasaway,butIstillfeltmore
comfortablehavingsomeoneinthehousewhileIwasgone.

Igottotheofficebeforemysecretaryandwaitedinmyofficeforhertoshowup.Ihad
thereportfromthePIonmydeskalongwithalltheevidenceIneeded.

IheardhercomeinhalfanhourafterIdidandcalledherintotheoffice.“Danacanyou
comeinhereplease?”

“Sir?”Shestoodinthedoorway.

“Haveaseat.”HereyeswentimmediatelytotheprintoutIhadonthedesk.Isawfearand
calculationcomeintohereyesandshelookedaroundforanescape.

“Ishouldbreakyourfuckingneck.”SheopenedhermouthtospeakbutIcutheroff.
“Saveit,Iknoweverything.WhatIdon’tknowishowyoucametochoosemeandmy
lifetofuckup.”

Thefearrecededabitbutthecalculationshonebright.“Forbesfivehundredofcourse.”

“Andwhere’syourlittlefriend?”

“Youmeanmysister.SheleftonMondayafteryourremarriedyourwife.”

“Sohowdiditwork,youtwotookturnsfollowingheraroundbeforeyoucametowork
forme?AndwhichoneofyoumadethephonecallstomywifetellingherthatIwasa

cheatingfuck?”

“Thatwouldbeme.”

Shedidn’tseemespeciallyafraidsoI’mguessingshehadnoideawhothefuckshewas
dealingwith.Ilookedatherforafewsecondsgivingseriousthoughttothrowingherout
thenearestfuckingwindow.

“HaveyouanyideawhatIwilldotoyouforwhatyoudidtomylife,tomyfucking
wife?”

“Whatcanyoudo?Nothinghappened,nolawswerebroken.Wejustamadeafewcalls
anddrovedownthestreet.”

Thediabolicalbitchsmirkedatme.“Yeah?Whataboutthese?”Ithrewtherestofthe
reportI’dkepthiddenuntilnowacrossthedeskather.

Apparentlysheandhersisterwereinthehabitoftargetingrichmenandmovinginforthe
kill,destroyingwhomevertheyhadto-togettheirway.

They’dbeenverysuccessfulthusfar.Infactinthelastfiveyearsthey’dblazedapath
fromoneendofthecountrytothenext,conningfoolishmenwhoreallywereeither
cheatingoruptosomeothervicethatwassuretolandthemintrouble.

“Wheredidyougetthose?”

“Nevermindthat,Ihearthedoor,thatwouldbethecops.ConsideryourselfluckythatI
calledthemanddidn’ttakecareofitmyself.”

AndtheonlyreasonIwasn’tburyingherassinthewoodssomewherewasbecauseofthe
daughterIwasexpectinginafewmonths.

Iignoredherpleas,whichturnedintoswearingandthreatsthatmeantfuckalltomeas
theydraggedheraway.

NowthatthatwasdoneIhavetogohomeandtellmywifethatshewasright.That
someonehaddeliberatelysetouttodestroyourhome.

didn’tstaymuchlongerattheofficebutwentbackhometoher.Idecidedontheway
therenottotellhernow.Notonthedaywefoundoutshewaspregnant.Ididn’twant
anythingmarringherjoy.

SoinsteadIwenthomeandfoundhersittingonthebedlookingatthatstickwitha
mountainofmagazinesandpapersspreadoutaroundher.

“Hey,you’rebackdidsomethinghappen?”

“Nothinghappenedbabyeverything’sfine.Ijustwantedtospendthisdaywithyou.Did
youcallthedoctorandsetupanappointment?”

“Wehaveonetomorrow.Iwasgoingtocallyoulaterandtellyou,butyou’rehere.”

“What’sallthis?”Ipointedtothemessonthebed.

‘TheseareallthemagazinesandstuffIcollectedwhenweweretryingbefore.”

“LetmegetchangedandI’lljoinyou.”Iwalkedintotheclosetandchangedoutofmy
suitformoresuitableathomeclothesbeforejoiningheronthebed.

Wespenthoursgoingthroughmagazineswhereshecomplainedthattheshitshewasinto
ayearagowasnolongerinfashion.Ineverknewtherewasafashionforbabiesbutwhat
thefuckdoIknow.

OfcourseIfuckedheragaininthemidstofallhermagazinesandthenImadelovetoher
niceandslowbecauseIcouldn’tgetenoughofhersweetpussy.

Shewashungryformetoo,clingingtome,wantingmecloseallday.I’mgladI’dmade
thechoicetocomebackbutwasalittlepeevedather.

“Whydidn’tyoutellmeyouwantedmeherewithyou?”

“Ididn’twanttobeabother,you’rebusy.”

“Don’tdothat.Don’tthinkforme.”

“Ididn’tthink…”

“Listentome,lookatme.Youarethemostimportantthinginmylife,nothingelsecomes
beforeyouandthislittleone,nothing.”Iplacedmyhandonherflatstomachandcaressed

herthere.

“Idon’tcarehowbusyIamifthere’ssomethingyouneedIwantyoutotellme.Doyou
needtoreadyourcontractagain?”

“Nothanks.”Shehatesthatthing.Idon’tblameher.ItprettymuchsaysIownallofher
fortherestofherlife,butwhatsheseemedtomissisthatI’vealsoboundmyselftoheras
well.

Ididn’ttellheraboutDanauntilafewdayslaterbutonceshewasassuredthatthe
situationhadbeentakencareof,sheprettymuchdroppedit.Shehadbabyfeverand
draggedmeintoitalongwithher.

Wespentthenextfewmonthsrebuildingourlivesbuttheaddedbonusofthebabypretty
muchovershadowedeverythingelsesotherewasnotimetodwellonthepast.

Thehousewasturnedupsidedownturningdamnnearhalftheupstairsintothebaby’s
wing.Apparentlywehadtohaveaplayroomandthetoddlerroomalldonenowalong
withthenursery.

ThedamnnurserywasalmostasbigasthemastersuiteandIwasbeginningtowonder
whatthehellmywifewasexpecting.

WhenIheardherandhergagglediscussingthelatestthingsomecelebrityorroyalhad
boughtfortheirkid’snurseryIbounced.Ifinallygotitafterthatdayandkeptmymouth
shutandmyopinionstomyself.Womenarenutswhenitcomestobabies.

Apartfromherpsychoticbreakthingsweremovingalongjustgreat.Shewasbusywith
hercharitiesandluncheswithherfriendsandI’dfoundanewsecretary.

Wespentmostweekendsatthebeachhousebutwhenherstomachgrewbiggerandour
childbeguntomoveIdidn’twantherflyingsowefoundthingstodolocally.

ThecloserwegottoherduedatethemorehecticIbecame.Meanwhileshewasjust
hittingherstride.Asteadydietofdickthreetimesadayseemedtobeverygoodfor
pregnantwomen,atleastitwasforher.

Ifoundhermoreattractivetheroundershebecame,butmyfearofhurtingherkeptmea
littlebitrestrained.

Imadelovetohernow,therewasnofuckinginvolvedexceptforthosetimesI’dforget
myselfandbesocaughtupinthefeelofhersweettightpussythatImightgotoofar.

MostnightsIstayuplongaftershefallsasleepjustwatchingoverthetwoofthem,scared
shitlessthatsomethingmightgowrong.

Iknewthenightmylittleprincesswasbornthatmylifewouldneverbethesame.Not
onlybecauseInowhadher‘aunts’AKAthegaggleconstantlyunderfootthelastfewdays
leadinguptothedelivery.

Butbecausefromthemomentthedoctorputherinmyhandssheownedwhateverpartof
mehermotherhadn’talreadytaken.

ThefirstfewweeksafterwebroughtherhomeIwasanervouswreck.Istayedupmost
nightspacingthehouseonthelookoutfortheboogeyman.Iwonderedifallnewfathers

didthis.

Ittookmeawhiletogetsettledandnotworryaboutthemconstantlyeverysecondof
everyday.Itookthefirstfewweeksoffafterherbirthandhatedgoingbacktotheoffice.

Myotherproblemwasbeingclosetomywifeandnotbeingabletohaveher.Especially
whenherbodywassoripeforfucking.It’ssomebody’sjokeonusmenIguess.

Becausewecan’tcarryingourseed,they’vefoundawaytomakeuspayforputtingour
matesthroughtheharrowsofchildbirthbyhittinguswhereithurts,ourownbasic
instincts.

WhyelsewouldIfindhernewsoftnesssoalluringatatimewhenIneedtobehandsoff?
Ihavetolaybesidehereachnight,smellingher,feelingherasshesleepswithher
preciousheadonmychest.AndknowIcan’tgetinsideher.

Don’tgetmestartedonwhatitdoestomypoormindandbodywhenIwatchherbreast
feedmychild.Dammit,changeofthoughtJakeoryou’llbegivingyournewsecretary
who’salloffiftyaneyeful.

“I

EPILOGUE

lovebeingclosetoyou.”Ikissedherhairandtookthebaby.“AndIlovethatwe

shareher.Thatshe’sapartofbothofus,thebestthingwe’lleverdo.Herandallher
siblingstocome.”

“Allhersiblings?”

“Wellyeah,youdidn’tthinkwewerestoppingatonedidyou?”

“You’retheboss.”

“Damnstraight.Butfornowit’sjustmylittleprincess.Isn’titsweetheart?”Ikissedmy
child’sheadandinhaledherscent.

She’sbeenherethreemonthsandeachdayIracehomeandlookatherasifIcan’tbelieve
she’sreal.Thatsomethingthisbeautiful,thisperfectcameoutofme.

I’mthinkingfromnowonnomatterwhereIfuckmywife,whetherinherassorher
mouth,allmynutsaregoingdeepinsideherwomb.

I’djustgothomeafewminutesagotofindmygirlsinthelivingroomunderthewatchful
eyeofMaxwhoseemstothinkmykidishislatesttoy.AtleastIknowwithhimaround
noone’sgettinganywherenearmygirls.

I’dsaidhellotomywifewithoneofourkissesthatalwaysgetsmegoingbeforeIhadto
pullbacktosavemysanity.

NowIhavemydaughterandit’sourtime,ourownlittleritualthathadstartedwhenshe
firstcamehome.

Asifshealreadysensesthings,shewaitsupforherdaddyeveryeveningandfallsasleep
tenminuteslater.Justlongenoughformetoseehereyesbeforesheshutsmeoutagain.

Untilthreeo’clockinthedamnmorningwhenshedecidesthatit’sdaddy’stimetoplay.
SinceJilliandoesn’twantanyhelpandshe’salonewithheralldaybasically,Ithinkit’s
onlyfairthatIbetheonetogetupwithherforherlatenightaudience.

“I’llbebackassoonasshe’sasleepbeautiful.”Iheadedupthestairsafterkissingmywife
andhadaonesidedconversationwithmydaughterallthewayuptothenursery.

InherroomIsatintherockingchairnexttohercribandrockedheraswehadourdaily

hearttoheart.

Ifshewaslisteningthensheknewthatboyscarriedlifethreateninggermsuntilshewas
aboutthirty,thenandonlythenwasitevensafetoholdhandswithoneofthenasty
cretins.

Shealsoknewthatherdaddylovedherwithoutmeasureandhewasveryhappythatshe
washis.Hermothersaysshedoesn’tunderstandbutfromthewayhereyesstayonme
whileI’mtalking,I’mthinkingshedoes.

LikeclockworkhereyesstartedtodrooptenminuteslaterandIheldherjustalittlebit
longertakinginthejoythatwasmydaughterKatya.

Downstairsmywifewaswaitingformewithasecretsmileonherface.“Okaywhatdid
youdo?”Shehandedmeasheetofpaperanditremindedmeofthemorningsheshowed
meherpregnancytest.

Itwasanotefromthedoctorgivinghertheallclear.I’dbarelyfinishedreadingthelast
wordbeforeIpickedherupinmyarmsandranupthestairs.

“Jake,what’sgottenintoyou?”ShelaughedandswattedatmeonceIputherdownnext
toourbed.“Youhavetoask?It’sbeenthreemonths.”

Igotoutofmyclothessofastithadtobearecord.“Stripbabywhat’reyouwaitingfor?
Youknowshe’snotgettingupanytimesoonandtheothersarealreadygone.”

Shetookherdamntimegettingoutofherclothesthelittletease.“You’regonnaget
fuckedsohardanddeepbaby.Ihavebeencravingyoursexybodyformonths.”Shitmy
cockstartedleaking.

“Ihopethedoctor’srightandyou’recompletelyhealedbecauseI’vegotafuckloadto
offloadinyou.”

SherubbedherlegstogetherandlookedatmelikeI’dgrownanotherhead.“Seriously?
Youfindthisattractive,youdon’tthinkIneedtoloseweight?”

Iwalkedovertoherandtookherfaceinmyhands.“You’rebeautiful!”Iheftedhermilky
titsandliftedoneofhernipplestomymouth.

I’drestrainedmyselfbeforebecauseIknewitwouldonlygetmemoreheated,plusI
wasn’tquitesureaboutmydaughter’snourishmentandhowmuchsheneeded.

I’vesincelearnedthatKatyabarelyemptiesonebreastsometimesandshehastoexpress
hermilktokeepfrombeinginpain.Iplanondrainingbothofthosebabiestonight.

IranmyhandsoverhernewcurvesasIpulledhermilkfromherswollennipple.Just
beingnearherlikethishadmeclosetocoming.

AndthosesoundsshemadeasIfedonhernipple,herhandholdingmyheadinplacethe
samewayI’dseenherdowithourdaughter.

Iliftedherupandplacedheronthebedgently.Shewrappedherlegsaroundmeholding
meinplaceasIsuckedsweetmilkfromherbody.

Ilefthernippleandlickedandsuckedmywaydownhermiddle,liftingherlegsunderher
kneesandspreadingthemopentogetmyfirstlookatherpussyinwaytoolong.

Mycockleakedalongstringofpre-cumontothebedbeneathusasInosedaroundher
pussy.Isuckedherclitintomymouthandclosedmyeyesinpleasureathertaste.

She’dpreparedherselfformeagainandthatstrawberryflavormixedwithherown
essencewentstraighttomyhead.

Itookmytimeeatingheroutuntilsheshookandscreeched,fillingmymouthwithher
sweetpussynectarassherockedherhipsandpushedherpussyharderontomytongue.

Ilickedherinnerthighscleaningthemofherjuicesthathadescapedmymouthbefore
lickingmywaybackupherbodytotheothernipple.

“I’msorrybaby,Ican’twaittogetinsideyou.”Sheliftedherfeetandplantedtheminthe
bedandopeningwideasifinvitingmetotakeher.

Islidmyironhardcockintoherwhileholdinghereyeswithmine.“Ohfuck!”Ialmost
nuttedjustfromherpussy’sheatasitenvelopedmycock.

“Ohbabyshit,Imissedyousomuch.”Shegrabbedmyheadandbroughtitdowntohers.
WekissedlonganddeepwhileIslowstrokedhertoherfirstorgasmofthenight.

Asshemovedbeneathme,sobeautiful,soperfect,somine,IknewwhatIwantedasI
buriedmyselfinheroverandoveragain.

“I’mgoingtocumdeepinsideyou.Youneedtohavemyson.”Irolledusoverandlether
sitonmycocktoride.

“Niceandslowbabyandonceyou’redone,I‘mgoingtoputyoubackonyourbackand
deepfuckyou.”

Sherememberedourrhythmandrodemycockupanddownandaroundincircles.I
grabbedherassinmyhandsandfuckedupintoher,herhottightpussygrippingmeasifit
wouldneverletgo.

“Fuckbabyhowisyourpussyevenbetter?”Ipulledherdownonmycockharderand
fasterashermoansofpleasuregrewlouderandherhipsmovedfaster.

Whenherbackarchedandherasstightenedinmyhandsherpussysqueezeddownaround
meandshecamescreaming.

“It’sokaybabyI’vegotyou.Thatwasagoodonehuh.”Icalmedhersoothinglywithmy
handsslidingupanddownherbacktoherhair.

Icoveredherlipswithmineinasweetkissbeforerollinghertoherbackagainand
makingmywaybackbetweenherlegs.

Isuckedherpussygettingallherjuicesbeforeslippingbackupherbody.“Youtired;you
okay?”

“NoI’mfine.”ShecuppedmyfaceinherhandsandIleanedinforakiss,whichbecame
oneofheatedpassion.

“Getonyourhandsandkneesformebaby,Iwanttotakeyoufrombehind.”Ihelpedher
overandthenworriedaboutherheavybreasts.

“Dothesehurt?”Icaressedthemwithmypalmsandshelookedbackoverhershoulderat

meshakingherhead.

“Allthesame.”Ireachedforapillowandplaceditunderherchestjustincasebefore
movingbackbehindherandslidingintoherwaitinghotpussy.

IgrippedherhipstenderlyasIstrokedinandouttryingnottojostlehertoomuch.Idug
deepintohercuntandworkedmycockbackandforthinsideheruntilshecoatedme
completelywithherfuckjuice.

AsmuchasIlovedfuckingherfrombehind,IfoundthatImissedlookingintoherface
whileItakehersoIsoonhadherbackonherbackwithherlegswrappedfirmlyaround
myhips.

“Imissedyou,missedbeinginsideyou.”

“AndImissedhavingyouthere.”

“Damnyourpussy’swet.”IslippedbackintoherandtooktimetoappreciatethatIhadto
betheluckiestbastardintheworld.

I’dheldthisonceandlostit,onlytofinditagainonlybetterthanbefore.AsIlooked
downather,herpussysoakingmythighsandhersasshecameonmycockrepeatedly,the
lovewasalmostunbearable.

“FuckIloveyou.”Ihuggedherbodyclosetomine,crushingustogetherdrivingmycock
deepasIrodehighinhertinylittlepussy.

“Andthisamazingpussy,fuck.”Hercuntgrabbedatmeinawholenewway,itwas
basicallymilkingme.ThataddedtotherawemotionsIheldinsidemeforherwasamind
fuck.

IstrokedintohergoingharderanddeepereventhoughItoldmyselftogoslow.She
grabbedatmewithherhandswhenIhitherdeepandrubbedagainstherspot.

Juicesflowed,hersandmineandthesoundofourhipsmeetingrangoutintheroom.“I’m
sorrybaby.”Ipulledherhipsintomeharderwithherassinmyhandsandfuckedtheshit
outofmywife.

“Mercifulfuck!”Icouldn’tstopmyselfifIwantedtoandsinceshewasn’tmakingany
soundsofpainbeyondtheusual,Iallowedmybodytotakethelead.

OnceagainIfoundmyselfpoundingmywifeharderthanIeverhadandIknewwhatthat
meant.WhenIfinallynutteddeepinsideheroverheatedpussywhiledrainingthemilk
fromhernipple,IknewI’djustbredheragain.

THEEND

Document Outline

Epilogue
Synopsis
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28

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